#but my best kpop man just made a comeback i feel i need to

[aprilblossomgirl]

#TAEYANG x #DAESUNG #ShoongChallenge

Credit: Taeyang’s ig reels

[yuna542]

Connected (OT8 x reader)

Part 5 <-

Part 6

Pairing: Lee Know x Reader

Genre: Smut, Fluff, Angst

Warnings: 18+, under 18 DNI!, Smut, Suggestive Themes, Swearing, Fingering, Dry humping, mentions of sex, pet names

Word Count: 3k

Note: Yea… What can I say? Lee Know was my first Kpop Crush, so I really put my soul into this. So hear me out: I thought since your feedback is incredible, I wanted to give you something back. If you want to you can write suggestions/requests in the comments or dm me about what you'd like to read in the parts. If I like it I will think of something and include it in the story! So feel free to tell me your dirty (or sweet) little fantasies xD

On your first day of your new job as the personal manager of Stray Kids, you didn't expect to be standing in front of the man you made out with last night in a club. But it soon becomes clear that the Stray Kids don't just want you as their manager.

Will this passionate arrangement end your career?

"I finally want to see you dance live!", grumbled Lee Know as you emailed him his schedule for the day in the practice room.

"Maybe someday", you muttered as you skimmed over your messages.

“Stupid JYP with those stupid rules”, he sighed and you had to grin. You'd love to dance and maybe even do a livestream with Minho but the company probably wouldn't allow it. The Stream with Hyunjin was a spontaneous idea and you were sincerely happy that yet nobody from JYP had talked about it to you. You didn’t even know if they maybe had a talk with Hyunjin and you were sure, that he definitely wouldn’t tell you to protect you.

However one of the most important meetings was scheduled for this afternoon.

A meeting with a potential new sponsor and at the same time producer for the first music video of the comeback. So one of the most important meetings ever.

The first video had to work the way the guys imagined it and it was your job to make it work. It was essential that the new sponsor was on board.

To say you're nervous would be a massive understatement.

It was the first big meeting that you would have to do alone with Chan. Seungmin would also accompany you, which took some of the pressure off your shoulders. This was one thing you just couldn't mess up.

You just wanted to send Lee Know his appointments for today and skim them quick with him. The tasks consisted the meeting with a new choreographer and then discussing with DanceRacha whether their ideas for the choreography for the big video could be done as they wanted it or if they needed to work on it even more.

Hyunjin and Felix had both already written in your group chat that they were here at any moment and Jeongin was with them. As you walked into the room, Minho seemed to have been dancing all morning.

There were fine drops of sweat on his forehead and yet his skin was just glowing with freshness. Just like perfectly worked marble.

"The choreographer's name is Chun De-Jeong. His application was the most impressive and he has very good references. He sounded nice on the phone, too. But if you don't like something about him, just let me know and we'll find someone new”, you explained expertly and he smiled slightly.

"You really are the best manager we've ever had."

"I try my best", you replied, and that's when he sat down next to you on the sofa.

With that, you finished discussing his schedule as well.

"I've never seen you in a dress like that before...", he mused aloud, and right away you were tugging at the hem of the white fabric on your thigh.

"Is it too much? Do you think it would be better if I change?"

Concerned, you stroke the fine roses printed on the fabric. Directly, Lee Know shook his head, regretting his words.

"No. It's perfect. You are... It looks very cute. You look very beautiful", he said quickly, stumbling over his own words.

Actually, he couldn't take his eyes off the thin fabric the whole time, where it perfectly hugged your curves and sat firmly against your waist. Exploring your profile, Minho noticed from the moment you came in that you seemed tense and restless today.

"Hey, is everything okay?"

Quickly nodding, you shove your Ipad into your handbag next to the sofa.

"Yeah... Everything's fine. I'm just a little nervous about the meeting today."

"With that spoiled ass sponsor?"

You nodded again, kneading your hands restlessly in your lap. Carefully he puts one hand on yours and managed to cover both of your cramped hands with his.

Instead of a joke or a mean comment that you would have expected, his voice softened and he squeezed your hands reassuringly.

"You don't have to be nervous. Business people like that are often strange and not exactly sociable. They are assholes, but you're so adorable that he surely won’t refuse any of your wishes."

A worried sigh wrings itself from your throat and you finally managed to look him in the eye. Only now did he recognize the great concern on your face and moved instantly closer to you.

"What if I don't? What if I mess up and you lose a major sponsor because of me? They will fire me..."

His chocolate brown eyes seemed protective, eyeing you with such confidence that you wanted to snuggle up to him. He placed his other hand on your thigh and gently stroked it.

"You won't mess up. And even if it won't work out, we'll find another sponsor."

A soft laugh escaped you as he quoted you, and he too smiled in relief when he saw that energetic sparkle in your eyes again.

Minho was suddenly so gentle and caring in a way you had never witnessed. In front of the others, he always tried to appear tough and untouchable, always had a cheeky comment on his lips and seemed to let nothing upset him.

But right now his other side appeared. His touches were careful on your skin, as if he feared to break you and he was full of care. It’s a side of him that he reserved just for you.

You intertwined your hand with his and squeezed it gently. As you did so, your thighs were tight against each other and he gave you endless confidence with just that. He believed in you and that alone was such a big ego boost.

Your heart began to melt and your eyes were automatically on his engaging lips.

"Thank you Lino. That really helped. I didn’t know you could be so soft.”

Suddenly his facial expression changed. He looked confused, as if he had woken up from a dream, and quickly smiled again in amusement.

"That being said, you have Chan with you. He's gotten each of us out of trouble several times."

There he was again. The tough Lee Know, and he wondered to himself why he had suddenly gone so soft. It was your mere presence that made him protective. He enjoyed feeling your warm skin and seeing the happy twinkle in your beautiful eyes.

In fact, he managed to make you laugh again and it sounded better than music to his ears.

"Don't worry too much. We definitely won't give you back, kitten."

His hand squeezed your own protectively and it touched you that he dropped his walls in front of you. Without thinking, you leaned forward and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

You just could not have expressed your gratitude with words.

However, he froze completely and before you could pull away, he grabbed your face rougher than he wanted to. Firmly, he pulled you closer and it took you a few seconds to realise that his lips were already on yours.

Overwhelmed, you clenched your hands until you could feel his pleasant grip on your hip. The other hand was on your cheek and when you finally understood, you put all the desire and concern into the kiss.

At first he was slow, savoring every second until he took your lower lip between his teeth and let his tongue brush over it. As soon as you opened your lips a little, he pushed his tongue into your mouth and deepened the kiss with his whole body.

He seemed like an addict who couldn't get enough and became more and more impetuous. He tasted like a heady mix of sweet strawberries and spicy mint.

Finally he grabbed you by the hips and pulled you onto his lap, where he didn't stop licking his tongue into your mouth. Your hands went into his hair and tugged on his strands. His hands went on a ramble, pushing your dress up until he could firmly grip your ass.

A small squeak of pain escaped you as he squeezed tightly and you felt the corners of his mouth lift at your lips despite your eyes being closed.

"You even purr like a little kitten", he growled and you were completely caught in a trance of arousal and passion as he began to spread wet kisses on your collarbone. He sucked on your skin and pushed you demanding against his lap.

The little sighs and your tensed face made the blood rush between his legs and he wanted to fuck you right there against the couch. But he also loved to tease you until you would whimper and beg him to fuck you senseless. That made the painful erection in his pants much more worth it. His hand lightly brushed your thigh dangerously close to your core.

His tongue licked along your collarbone, down to your cleavage, where he slowly pulled the fabric down and worked on your soft skin so intensely with his mouth that you feared just coming from it on his lap.

The bruises Hyunjin had sucked into your skin were almost gone and Minho wanted to make sure, to mark you again so that the other members would see it. He wanted them to know that you were already his little toy and that they had to make a great effort, to get to him.

Overwhelmed, you felt his bulge feel frighteningly large beneath you and immediately you wanted to see if it was really as immense as it felt on your covered pussy. The straps of your white dress fell off your shoulders and Minho's hands kneaded the flesh on your ass so hard that you would definitely get bruises. But that only fueled the arousal in your whole body.

"Admit it, Kitten! You only put on that cute slutty dress to drive me crazy!", he murmured against your skin, and everything about him made you dizzy. A hard hiss escaped him and he looked up at you with an exited bliss in his eyes.

“Damn didn’t thought you’re so fucking needy, Baby.”

With questioning eyes you let your fingers go trough his soft hair.

“What?”

“You’re grinding on me”, he explained and kissed the heated skin of your almost bare tits.

Suddenly, you became aware of your own body, feeling him underneath you and trying to feel as much of him as you can. You feel pleasant heat spread through your body, pooling together between your legs where you were far too effected by the feeling of his erection beneath you and somehow you still couldn’t make yourself stop, even though he looked at you with a teasing smile.

“Oh god. I’m sorry”, you murmured against his neck, but then, you felt his hands wrap around your hips further, fingers digging into the side of your ass, and you realised he’s helping you guide your hips.

He smelled so good that you just couldn’t stop rolling your hips against his.

“No need to apologise. That’s so fucking hot”, he growled and pulled your chin back, to kiss you deeply, while he pushed you even further against his hard bulge.

”That’s it, there you go“, he said softly as you moan into his mouth and started to move your hips against his length and you couldn’t stop yourself from whimpering, when the only thing between your clit and his dick was the thin fabric of your clothes.

Suddenly his voice is right by your ear and snaps you out of your aroused trance, so close it sends shivers down your spine:

”You should have told me you like dry humping my dick this much. Fuck, it makes me so hard, can you feel that, kitten?“

You could just nod and get flustered by his words.

Your behaviour was so messy and desperate, even Minho started to lose himself and he kissed you as if he’s never kissed before. It’s more tongue and teeth than needed, tasting you and moaning into your mouth when your tongue meets his. It shouldn’t feel as good as it does. Someone could come in an catch you, how you pounce on each other like heated teenagers, but the hurried kisses make your head feel like it’s spinning.

It hasn’t been long, you know that, but you’re already started to get close. Like with Hyunjin, you felt things that you never had experienced before. There was something about these boys that made you go crazy and they definitely knew what they were doing.

Even though your underwear and his sweatpants were seperating you from feeling him, there was something so intense about this and about Minho that it hardly mattered, and you knew it won’t be long until he would get you making a mess in your panties.

Unable to keep up with how good it felt, luckily Minho still had a hold on you, and when he noticed that it’s getting more difficult for you to keep composed, he gripped your flesh even harder.

Embarrassed you hid your face in the crook of his neck as he guided you by the hips harder and harder against his hard dick. With one hand he pulled you back by the nape of the neck so that you had to look at him while you dry humped him like a kitty in heat.

"No hiding! I wanna see every adorable flustered expression you make!”, he demanded with a harsh tone, both of you trying to pull the other closer for more stimulation. Your hands still groped and scratched at eachothers skin as you desperately grinded on eachother.

He slipped one hand to your throbbing cunt and started to circle your clit, while you tried to get more friction. He was so hard by now that your mere movements on his dick almost made him come. But he did force himself to calm down because he just wanted to work you to an orgasm and see your beautiful face tensed with desire just for him.

”Don’t stop!“, he ordered and his harsh tone made you whimper.

”I want you to be good and cum for me like this, okay? Can you do that, kitten?“

As soon as he hit the sensitive part of your clit directly with his fingers, a naughty moan escaped you and you started to ride your cunt so hard against his cock that you had to claw your fingernails into his back.

“Fuck… Minho”, you cried and couldn’t think of something else than your high which was announced by the tremendous heat in your lower abdomen.

"Aw, you like that, baby?", he chirped with a growl and guided your hips so that he would still hit all your sweet spots through the fabric. You nodded, unable to speak, rocking your hips even harder against him and his fingers.

He pushed his fingers against your clit and noticed how your body tensed. Directly he accelerated the intensity and held your face tightly again with one hand in front of his so he could look at your teary eyes, swollen lips and aroused expression as he worked you to your orgasm with just the snapping of his hips and his hand. You wanted him as close as possibly and somehow this, his mouth mere millimeters from yours, swallowing your breath, wasn’t enough.

“I’m gonna cum…”, you whimpered and he hold your face even rougher, digging his fingernails into your soft cheeks.

“Look how easy it is to turn you into the neediest, sluttiest mess, kitten”, he growled and pressed you firmly onto his throbbing dick. The wet spot on his pants was already as big as a hand, but he couldn’t care less.

“Oh I can’t wait to fuck that soaked little cunt till you cry my name all night!“

Your hands clawed for some type of, literally any, support on his shoulders while he grabbed your ass harsh.

„Be a good little slut and come for me!“, he demanded and his words twisted your mind.

Eventually you got so caught up in the moment you won’t even were able to stay focused on talking, and he started thrusting up, meeting your hips so you didn’t have to do any work. It’s this that finally does it for you, his hands holding you and his hips meeting yours and you automatically imagine how he would fuck you like this. You wanted more and more, caught up in his scent, his words and his body and finally your orgasm crashed over you.

He helped you to ride your high out and gently brushed his hand over your back.

"Feel better now?", he asked and kissed each corner of your mouth.

„Yes… Thank you, Minho.“

A little huff escaped your lips, while you still rubbed your overstimulated pussy against his length. The friction felt too good to stop, even though your soaked cunt was now extremely sensitive. He laughed lightly and ran his hands through your hair as you let your lips brush over his neck

„Greedy but polite. I like that“, he teased and kneaded your ass again. He couldn’t get enough of the perfect curves and the softness of your skin against his fingertips.

„I want you to fuck me, Minho“, you mumbled against his skin and kissed the sensitive spot on his neck beneath his ear. He instantly got goosebumps and in response he moved your hips again more firmly against his now painful hard length.

He would not and could not wait any longer. He longed to sink into your wet core and fuck you so hard until you begged him to stop. Therefore, he reached for his waistband and pulled it down. With a liberated gasp, his boner popped out and you had to bite your lower lip when you realized that it was even bigger than it had felt through the fabric. He would split you open, but you didn't care. Impatiently he pushed your panties aside and as he slipped into your aching core with just the tip, you already felt, how he stretched you out. Slowly you grinded your hips against his, gasping as only his tip filled you painfully good.

You were so dizzy that you almost didn't notice how the door to the practice room were opened and Hyunjin, Jeongin, and Felix walked in.

It wasn't until Minho glanced over your shoulder in annoyance. Your heart skipped a beat as you saw the boys staring at you over your shoulder.

Hyunjin looked at you with a amused, yet unsurprised grin. Felix stared open-mouthed at your naked ass with the white thong on that Minho still had a firm grip on, and Jeongin looked perplexed but definitely aroused by the way you ass was wiggling and grinding against his friends dick.

In fact, the three were more than grateful to have burst into this situation.

"Can't you knock?", Minho spat at them, leaning his forehead against the crook of your neck to breathe in your sweet scent once more. His tip was already in your cunt and he considered, if he should just don‘t give a fuck about the others and push himself all the way into you. If he did that, he'd probably fuck you in front of them too. He already had to fight against his desire but your shocked face made him weak.

Hectically, you tugged your dress back down and adjusted the straps on your shoulders, while he slowly slipped out of you and tugged his dick into his pants.

"We've been knocking, calling and messaging", Felix said meekly, unable to get the image of Minho's hands all over you out of his head and immediately imagining what it would be like to have you sitting on his lap like that, riding his dick and moaning his name.

He cleared his throat and stared at the floor, trying not to get a boner in front of everyone like a needy little schoolboy.

"Yeah... but you seem to have been too busy. Obviously…”, Hyunjin said and his smile was breathtaking.

Minho let you off his lap only after a short resistance and cursed his members quietly. Jeongin was still frozen, looking at you as if you had just flown from heaven to earth.

Embarrassed, you fixed your hair, not resisting Hyunjin's intense gaze. To Felix, you almost wanted to apologize as his head glowed so much you could barely distinguish it from the red walls.

"You guys have to fuck everything up", Lee Know grumbled, leaning forward so they couldn't see the wet spot and the huge bulge in his sweatpants directly.

"We're really sorry, but we need you, Lino. We need to finally start working the choreography out."

Even though Hyunjin's eyes continued to rest on your boobs, he spoke normally to Minho. Gradually, your heartbeat calmed down and you tried to ignore what just happened. They almost caught you, fucking in the practice room. Anyone could have come in but Minho didn’t seem to care at all.

"You look stunning by the way, Jagi", Hyunjin said then and pulled you close to his chest. With his hands lingering on your back, he kissed you quickly. He just couldn’t resist you. The kiss was short but intense and you returned his smile with rosy cheeks.

"Yes. The dress is beautiful on you", Felix agreed and his cuteness sent butterflies in your stomach.

"Thank you. You guys are really sweet."

Jeongin still couldn't get a word out and shoved his hands into his pockets. Suddenly, you remembered something.

Panicking, you searched your phone in your bag and almost had a second heart attack as you read first the time and then Chan's messages where he asked when you guys are going to meet to prepare for the meeting.

"Shit!" you cursed, gathering your things. Along the way, you slipped on your Converse Chucks that you had left by the sofa.

"I have to go see Chan right now. Do you know where he is?"

Hyunjin shrugged and connected his phone to the stereo.

"He was still here this morning", Lee Know said from behind you.

Felix nodded and Hyunjin glanced over his shoulder briefly and replied:

"Yes, but left again around 10 o'clock."

Then Jeongin said:

"He was just at the dorm."

„Okay, Well shit. I'll go there then. We have the meeting in an hour. Fucking hell..."

As you storm out, a few more not so ladylike curses slipped out, due to the stress. The guys looked after you and Hyunjin sighed loudly.

"Is it just me, or is she even outrageously hot when she curses like a sailor?"

Lee Know snorted in amusement and the other two could only agree. Then Hyunjin looked back at Lee Know with a knowing grin.

Still irritated, he snapped at him:

"What?"

Hyunjin pouted his lips and shook his head defensively.

"Nothing. Just wondering why you decided to fuck her in the practice room, in the middle of the day, where anyone could have come in.“

„Thanks to you I didn't even get to fuck her yet“, he said sourly and the boys knew, that Lee Know would go hard on them today. He almost were able to fuck the hottest girl he ever met, and of course his stupid members had to screw it up.

"The choreographer is here“, Felix said, glancing at his phone.

"Do you want me to bring him in? He's been waiting for a while", Jeongin asked, to which Lee Know stood up, his hands in front of the big tent in his pants.

"Tell him he'll have to wait a few more minutes if he doesn't want to blow me."

Felix pressed his lips together and Jeongin looked at him in amazement, while Hyunjin laughed. As the door slammed shut behind Lee Know, Jeongin said monotonously:

"I definitely won't tell him that."

-> Part 7

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[suuho]

Hi Kaz hope you are having a pleasant weekend. Would you tell me number 25 for the kpop asks? I am really curious which videos you like and if its not too much to ask a short reason for each one? Like wether you like the concept a specific moment or just the song in general keeps pulling you back to a video. I just really like to read your analysis on things and this is one I am curious about I hope thats okay

25. favorite kpop mvs?

okay, this is gonna take a little! and it will be long.

highlight - not the end

first of all, this song makes me cry every single time, point blank. it is so beautiful, and i love how the music video encapsulates the soundscape of the song perfectly, and visualizes it accordingly. this is one of my favorite kpop songs of all time, and i think the message of it goes hand in hand with the visual of the video, but it is just so well executed. the colors, the scenery, the sets. this sort of liminal feeling it has that signifies being stuck somewhere, waiting for someone; the resilience of loving and of not giving up, and the patience of devotion. something that seems hopeless evoking the opposite, evoking hope. the imagery of blooming flowers, of traces of scent lingering in the air, the first breeze bringing you back to me.

this was a spring release and their comeback after their enlistment and losing another member, and it is so beautifully done and evocative of everything they needed to telegraph back then: the promise that this is not over, the group is not over, and the promise they made over and over again, resurfacing. i'm still here, it's not the end.

the still really just... breaks my fucking back, man. this entire music video feels like that singular word in the titular phrase. still. like the light, like the spring breeze that warmly wraps around me. awaken your cold heart and come back to me, i'm still here.

and, of course, thank you lee gikwang for the perhaps most beautiful bridge in any kpop song ever:

to me / and to this place / you are blowing over / you’re blowing over right now to me / when the warm breeze passes through me / you are walking over to me / you’re blowing over to me again.

2. beast - 12:30

time to take off the training wheels, we are moving into undisputable masterpiece territory. first of all, this is maybe the greatest kpop song ever, and absolutely the best idol ballad, and i will not hear a word otherwise. this song is just marvelously written, 3:53 minutes of perfection, vocally, melodically, production wise. and that music video, oh my god. i actually wrote up something about it before, but i think i deleted it? anyways, i love this music video so much.

starring? well, none other than beast's very own yoon doojoon, of course! the leader of the group, no less! many idol actors have come, many idol actors have gone, but few of them are as good as doojoon. he is such a great romantic lead and you can sense those sensibilities in his performance in this mv.

if you watch the video, you will notice that the clock at the beginning (actually, all the clocks) stop just shy of 12:30, implying that the titular 12:30 - the moment when they are so far apart in their relationship, literally diametrically opposed, they cannot get back together - has not yet arrived. instead, you find a couple half frozen, the woman on the bed, and the man still moving around freely but sitting on the floor. the clock rewinds thirty minutes and we see a happy relationship, steadily moving forward. until the clock strikes 12:15 and everything goes downhill; they fight, they hurt each other, and just as doojoon pushes her onto the bed, time stops.

this is greatly intersected by shots of various members of the group singing. doojoon himself has like minus three lines in this song (i have truly endless beef with cube entertainment because of this, lol) but it makes his appearances in the video, outside of the part he is playing, soooooo impactful. notice how they all only come together after doojoon sings in the second verse. a masterclass in blocking, etc. and, once more, his bridge lines are too good to not share them here: i'm letting you go right now, i'm letting you go and everything has stopped.

we are back at where the music video started. he takes her hand, and stops moving altogether with her, and behind the two, the clock hand moves to 12:30. time has stopped, and they are unmoving.

absolute insane. so fucking good. i love everything that is implied here, too much to get into, but the fact that they are in this space between 12:27-12:30 where time doesn't seem to move, where it freezes and he is grappling with the loss, the guilt, the hurt, and the impossible. godddd, just so good.

3. shinee - good evening

good evening, as i have said many times before, is a study in grief. that, of course, does not only mean the song but also the video. a technicolor display of loss that is so haunting every frame, the feeling that there is something lingering just outside of your periphery that you cannot see, cannot touch, and still reach for, and the inexplicable link between people who are grieving and are loving each other in the midst of that cataclysmic loss.

so many intentional choices in this music video. the television screens and cameras recording them in a greenhouse, a building made completely out of glass walls, in a room with a broken piano (that kibum destroys), a bed that minho lies in, a fridge that has been taped shut. the room with the circular table and the ring of light suspended from above, in blue and dark green. the fox, of course.

the rain. the water. all of them beneath the plastic. the fifth shadow in the well. kibum turning around to look over his shoulder as if there is someone else behind them when they are in the forest, finally out of the green house, finally free. watching this music video is a transcendental experience. i remember that, when i watched it for the first time, everything was still so raw, and the tears were coming before i could even comprehend a single thing.

4. growing pains - d&e

it’s giving eternal sunshine of the spotless mind ten years before miss ariana grande ever got her hands on it, and it’s gay as all hell despite the fact that there’s a girl and a ring. donghae is too pretty to look at directly, as has always been his wont, so thank god he's in this. on top of it all, it is a ballad with choreography and coats, which is my favorite kpop genre ever (see 12:30). some tasteful black and white, and just one of the finest kpop tracks ever written. i don’t care much for suju, but donghae & eunhyuk are the one thing they got right, and thank god these two decided to shack up with each other forever (it doesn’t hurt that donghae is a very good songwriter).

they both end up at the same memory erasure office, and i'd like to think they meet each other after and get their happy ending. eat your heart out, ariana grande!

i might add more! but this is just four, and already so much. honorable mention: exo - monster (the ogs omg...), seventeen - home;run (seventeen, i think, are best when they operate like their own musical cast), tvxq - the chance of love (sexy, sleek, impeccably danced, and a little gay. what is not to love!), got7 - never ever (flight log trilogy finale!!! youngjae and jinyoung's cosmic connection!)

[sanstropfremir]

hi hellooo pleasure to be here again!! i have come to rant

so last night i went a bit through your blog because i vaguely remembered that at some point there was a conversation about "stage presence" and how only kpoppies give a shit about it. and i found some asks from last year about this youtuber who made like a whole classification on stage presence with all this masculine overt dominant whatever categories. and i was mindblown because just yesterday i got recommended one of their videos and i was watching that stuff like wtf. that took me back to my early kpop days (which is like 2018 lol) when i also discovered the term stage presence and i thought i did something. anyway

i actually came here to talk about shinee's recent comeback!! from the little i've seen, there's some beef among shawols regarding wether shinee is really "shinee" anymore and i've seen some people saying they've unstanned bc of hard. like you do you ig

i've been thinking that i genuinely like the song, but indeed it doesn't have that classic shinee vibe. (also satellite best bside???) to me it's just like taemin key onew and minho got together to sing a song, but it's not "shinee" per se. and that's okay.

regarding performances i only watched the studio choom dance version and tbh for the first time in my limited shinee eras knowledge i thought that minho takes the cake for this one. idk if it's the fact that he's more stereotipically masculine (or at least coming across that way) or what, but honestly his part in the second chorus is my favorite. key is second favorite and again his part in the last chorus suits him a lot imo especially with the different choreo for it. as for taemin i'm glad he's bringing his poppiest pops forward because i swear i feels like that man's bones are snapping inside his body but other than that honestly i don't think he's enjoying this era too much fdjdvscg

hi hello again!!!

alksdjflksdafj not that youtuber again....they're a fucking plague i need them to read a fucking book for the love of god. just so profoundly uninformed, its mind boggling.

i've seen variations of this take since before the song even came out and honestly? i don't agree. you can not like the song for any number of reasons but the fact of the matter is that it IS a shinee song. what makes a shinee song is that it's their voices. that's all that makes a shinee song. for a group that has an extended history of genre experimentation, for fans to get mad or say it's "not them" when they DO do something experimental is cowardly and embarrassing. just admit that you don't like the song and move on. there will be a time when EVERY artist you love makes something that you don't. that's fine and normal. don't hide behind incorrect assertions like "it's an nct reject" or that it doesn't sound like them. they're artists that still want to explore and grow and they have agency to do that. it's not a failing to admit that you don't like something that your faves made, and i also think it's rude and denies them identity and agency to say that 'it doesn't sound like them', especially with this particular group.

personally what i think people are subconsciously getting at when they say a song doesnt sound like shinee is that it sounds incomplete because it's missing a voice. the same discourse circled around with dcm came out and people are not acknowledging that shinee is never going to sound the same as they did pre 2017 (2018 technically bc jonghyun's voice is still on tsol). they just aren't. the chemical makeup of the melodies is going to be different forever and people need to acknowledge and accept that. the four of them are doing their best to fill in that hole and theyre doing a great job, but there is still a hole.

[peppertaemint]

I enjoy your breakdown of what's going on with SM but we differ in opinion where the music is concerned... well the stuff I've heard. I have not listened to the girl groups at SM much but I love the music everyone else has put out, even 2 baddies. I like like when groups experiment, some songs are going to not vibe with some people and some songs are but one of my favorite things about NCT and the sub units are you never what to expect. 2 Baddies is just one of those mindless fun songs to me, but for me NCT 127 are so versatile that they can make anything work. You got SuperHuman, Highway To Heaven, Favorite, 2 Baddies... they can mold into any concept imo Also I love Ay Yo and WayV's last album, the winter palace songs, etc etc... I think a change wouldn't be an awful thing but idk this seems really shitty. I know business can be cutthroat but these people are working there because of what this man Lee Sooman did to start that company and truthfully start of kpop and I just think he deserves more respect than this. This feels dirty and harsh. Another worry is SuperM. Capital seem to work closely with Lee Sooman considering how tied Mr Lee was to that project... do you think Capital will want to cut ties with a company that staged a coup? This is stressing me out lol Oh no and what if this makes some artists want to leave in solidarity with Lee Sooman??? Is that being really paranoid? Do you think Taemin would stay because I know he's close to Lee Sooman.

Also what do you think about the hoopla about Baekhyun's health and people blaming SM? They think because he was sick for 3 weeks and now eating once a day and working out a lot, that SM is to blame for not stepping in.

Always good to have a difference of opinion 😊. I think the SMCU Winter songs were outstanding tbh. I even liked the surreal painterly concept of the photos. But again, I really don't know who is behind what. Like what of Kwangya? Is that LSM or Chris Lee?

And I agree that on the surface of things, it feels like a really brutal fuck you to a man responsible for a lot of great music and careers. SM made a hell of a lot of mistakes, but they've become so artist-centric, it does seem a shame to throw the baby out with the bath water, so to speak.

Regarding SuperM and their future - Capitol Records wouldn't cut ties unless their contract was up and they no longer were interested. I don't know what the profit sharing model is with Capitol or what Capitol has agreed to do marketing/resource wise (anything?), but honestly there's not anything to worry about here. SuperM's comeback has already been announced and is likely being planned as we write on this infernal website, lol. Artists and groups are not likely to up and walk over this. I would find it very surprising. Getting out of their contracts would be too costly, and we don't even know how they feel about SM 3.0 etc. So, no need to be paranoid!

Re Baekhyun's health... I just am sooo sick of the victimization. If Baek wants to do that, he's gonna do it. Fasting is not bad for your health. As long as his meal is not actual junk food he'll be fine. And I assume he's drinking water and taking supplements. Like, fasting is actually good for your health. Why don't we let Baekhyun, an adult, decide what's best for him?

To me, all that victimisation stuff comes down to infantilizing grown men and also this pervasive, misguided savior complex. I'm sorry but men in Korea do not need to be saved from the evil mistreatment of... choosing their own diet and exercise plan? He's not 14. He's a seasoned idol. Marge from Utah isn't gonna change Korean beauty standards and deeply ingrained cultural values by crying on Twitter that SM are evil. What she will do is cause more racist journalism in the West decrying that kpop's evil dark side must be tamed. Sigh.

[rrxnjun]

I ACTUALLY YELLED SEEING LIEBESTRAUM WAHHHHH;-;-;;-;-;-;-;; THANK U SO MUCH FOR WRITING IT I CANT WAIT TILL JUNE;-;;-;-; i cannottttt tell u how happy u actually made me with that wahhdhfjf

OOO MAN☹️☹️I HOPE UR MENTAL HEALTH WILL GET BETTER!!!! AND U DONT SUCK!!! TAKE UR TIME WITH IT u shouldn't listen to them when ur not in the mood for them it will deff ruin the vibes so take all the time u need!!!!

i agree with that the only good noise music i listen to now is all from nct and when i hear other bgs' i'm just😟😟😟 IM SURE HE WAS AMAZING CUZ ALL OF THEM WERE🤌🤌 the song genuinely slaps so i'm not surprised if it makes it in there

well idk people said i study a lot so i just accepted the fact but i never feel prepared enough so;-; tbh the percentage is lower just to pass💀 but i need the plus point for uni and that's the limit for getting it but yeah i feel like it shows that hungary does not go for making people smarter lmao💀 I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE POINT LIMITS FOR GETTING INTO UNI wahhh the whole thing is dumb🫠 thank u!!!! i have three more speaking exams so i'm shitting my pants rn😃OH NO☹️ i hope u passed the second one exams suck so i hope it didn't hit u hard!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH THEM!!! IM SURE U WILL DO GOOD ON THEM!! MANIFESTING SO HARD!!!! I HOPE U ARE DOING WELL AND ARE TAKING CARE OF URSELF!!!! (liebestraum anon💓💕)

(the review reply: art sucks for that reason sm;-; but i deff learned after a few times of that happening with me as well to just sleep on it and throw it out after but it still amuses me how can art have this effect in a way (idk how to explain what i mean rip) AND THANK U FOR NOT HATING IT U JUST MADE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ISTG!!!)

IM REPLYING TO THIS ASK LITERALLY SO LATE THAT THE FIC IS DROPPING TOMORROW LMAO ADJSK i have to warn u tho its quite different to the original draft i had and the teaser i posted from it 😶😶 hope you still end up liking it !!!

SJSJ thank you thank you 😔😔 you are always so sweet and understanding ily mwah.

nct noise is the only good noise in kpop. there i said it. 😶 (this is a joke there are a few more good noise songs from diff groups pls dont jump me im targeting one fandom in specific w this yes) like nct could do any of your favs songs but could your favs do sticker? no. thats right.😌 AHHH im glad u liked my babies cix i was told by spotify that they are my top listened to artist of the last 4 weeks so. 😃 yeah. they also had a comeback like 2 days ago if u wanna check that out cough cough

if people tell u that, its probably true AHAHA 😭😭 me and my friend were talking the other day like i dont even study that much like i get to the 2 hour mark and i go well 🤷‍♀️ thats it for the day ig. like i dont have any more brain capacity LMAO. Oooh i do get you w the uni points stuff!! me being a straight A student was what got me into uni too bc switching from business hs to psychology was actually kind of insane coming from me LMAOOO i had no bonus points from biology or anything so my grades helped a TON since i fucked up the entrance exam too lol 😭😭😭 im rooting for you !!!! I feel like slovakia doesnt really care abt that either ?? there are definitely better and worse unis tho and i unfortunately attend the one thats one of the best so they kinda care..😔 SPEAKING EXAMS ARE THE WORST THEY SHOULD BE CANCELLED LIKE THATS 3 TIMES THE STRESS U HAVE WHEN TAKING A WRITTEN ONE. i hate those sm omg i am PRAYING for you (i have only one speaking one this semester and i am mentally preparing for it for the last few weeks) i actually passed the second try (with an E, but i still did it....) and i have another exam w the same professor this friday so..🤞

i am trying to learn how to be patient w art (and life) so it prevents me tearing everything out and throwing it out.....so you are right abt that AHAHA thats a good advice to take

as always i hope youre doing good, taking care of yourself and having a good time!! mwah

[allyreactions]

2020 Kpop Comeback and Debut Review

Okay, so this year was shit, let’s not lie. But there were some pretty good comebacks and debuts this year, and I want to talk about them. These are all in my opinion, so please don’t take any offense to what I have to say. Also, if there’s any group I missed (which I’m sure I’ll miss one), please feel free to discuss some of your favorite comebacks or debut tracks in my inbox ❤

             ~ Admin Ally 

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I am going to break this down into sections just because it’s way too hard to sort through everything. So the categories are : favorite comebacks, favorite debuts, and favorite albums. Let’s get started! 

♡ Favorite Comebacks ♡

Everglow - “LaDiDa” 

For real, this comeback was everything. We got a full finally got a full chorus and Onda actually got lines!

Loona - “Why Not”, “So What”, “Voice” / “Star”

2020 was the year that turned me into an orbit. I’m so proud of Loona this year for releasing such amazing songs. They keep raising the bar, it makes me so proud to see them thriving. 

Chungha - all released singles 

Girl has been killing it, as usual. She’s worked so hard this year to release bop after bop. I can’t wait for the album! 

Apink - “Dumhdurum” 

Apink really said “we’re 2nd Gen and still going strong”

Twice - “I Can’t Stop Me”

Not their best comeback, but definitely a solid one. Also, it physically pains me not to dance along to this song. 

Itzy - “Wannabe”, “Not Shy”

Itzy never disappoints with their title tracks, what can I say? 

IZ*one - “Fiesta”, “Ayayaya”

“Ayayaya” was stuck in my head for weeks, plzz. It’s their best song ever released.  

April - “Lalalilala” 

AN UNDERRATED SONG OMG. April deserved better. 

Astro - “Bad Idea” 

Moonbin in a crop top, that’s all I have to say. 

Dreamcatcher - “Scream” 

I- this song was a masterpiece, the choreography was amazing. 

Weki Meki - “Dazzle Dazzle”, “Oopsy”

Weki Meki is really finding their sound, and every release just keeps getting better. 

♡ Favorite Debuts ♡

Enhyphen - “Given Taken”

Such a solid boy group debut omg. I love RnB tracks so much. It’s refreshing to hear a boy group debut with an RnB song instead of an EDM style track. 

Wonho - “Open Mind”, “Losing You”

this man is perfection in everything he does. I replayed the “Open Mind” teaser so many times, I’m obsessed with the instrumental. 

Weekly - “Tag Me” 

I’ve missed cute girl group concepts so much omg 

Natty - “Nineteen” 

This was another solid debut. She’s so cute and so talented, I’m really excited to see her grow as an artist. 

DPR Ian - “So Beautiful” 

I am in love with Christian Yu, this man is a musical genius. 

StayC - “So Bad” 

The pre-chorus is beautiful and the chorus is so catchy. 

♡ Favorite Albums ♡ 

NCT - all unit albums

You already knew NCT would be on the list. NCT keeps getting better and outdoing themselves with every release. I’m proud to be an NCTzen. I’m so proud of my babie boys 🥺

Baekhyun - “Delight” 

“Candy” was literally my third top song of the year. The choreography is so much fun and every track on this mini album blew me away. Baekhyun is so talented, I’m gonna miss him when he finally enlists. 

Kai - “Kai” 

Again, EXO members never disappoint with their solo releases. Kai delivered the RnB, sexy realness that I needed to finish off 2020. 

Ateez - “Fever”

Ateez. Never. Misses. They literally don’t have a bad song and it’s seriously annoying. Every song on this mini album hits so hard. 

Han Seungwoo - “Fame”

“Sacrifice” was my top song of the year. I love the different emotions and vibes that each song has on this album, sexy, cutesy, angsty, longing, sadness. 

Woodz - “Equal”

“Love Me Harder” was me second top song of the year, and Cho Seungyoun, I- you’re so talented. How? Again, another flawless album that conveys so many different emotions and vibes. 

Stray Kids - “In Life” 

Every track is amazing. Mr. Bang, you’ve out done yourself. There’s been some title tracks that SKZ have released in the past that I haven’t particularly been a fan of, but 2020 really made me fall back in love with their music. 

Taemin - “Never Gonna Dance Again : Act 2″

Last, but certainly not least, Mr. Lee Taemin. God himself. “Heaven”? That song needs to be like 10 hours longer because I can’t get enough of it. The power this man holds is too much. 

[x-exo]

*slides into your asks with a rose in my mouth* why hello, tis me!

Apologies for the long wait but your favorite long asks anon is here and OOF so much has happened. Let us break it down one by one lol

Monsta x our beans, welp we can officially say we are army wives for them because shownu is now at the military and just welp this feels weird lol. I lowkey forgot he was meant to enlist so when the news came out I went through so many emotions. Its why the latest comeback feels a bit bittersweet to me. It is their BEST for sure and for this year, I agree so to not see him perform right before he left is a bit sad. I don't blame him of course (if anyone does i am fish slapping you) but just a shame. I'm happy we do get content with him still? Seems pre-planned so that is nice!

Onto legends exo, fantastic comeback. I cannot stop listening to the album, its just bops full of bops to me. They broke so many records and I'm over here sipping my tea because fudge yes. It isn't a full member comeback, 2 of the members featured in the comeback are off playing call of duty and they still did THAT. While having lay properly in the comeback!? (Or at least some form, better than tempo era!) Kyungsoo my beloved, the man that can swoon you off your feet, his proper solo album. Omg I am just in love? The album feels like a Playlist that you hear while taking a walk or on a raodtrip? I love it, I just love everything about this with how much thought was given. It makes me feel warm and I'm so proud of him (I think he even got a first win) but sadly xiumin got the it shall not be named virus D: I feel so bad and I can only hope he gets better! It makes me worried because I keep seeing more and more idols getting sick and I can't help but wonder why don't the kpop entertainment just put a pause with stuff? Of course that is VERY unrealistic, I am aware that is naive for me to think but its just so idk how to word it properly (my English brain is not working I am sorry) I cannot help the feeling of while I get people are being safe and yes we need to still live like normal beings, is it worth risking idols health just for some entertainment? Idk how to explain my thoughts properly but maybe I hope I made sense!!

Onto svt! That is perfectly fine to not vibe with a comeback! I will admit, I didn't fully vibe with this comeback and it shocked me because every comeback was a hit to me. Even fear, left and right or homerun where I know many fans were split on, I liked but RTL was a grower. For me, listening to it without watching the mv, helped it alot and it is a song I like. Is it their best? No I don't think so but it is alright to say "hey I didn't bop to this, not my cup of tea" (imo I blame the mv? The mv REALLY didn't do the song justice at all, I am sorry if I sound like a fake fan but this mv Just is bad in all aspects. Sure we have some pretty shots but like it just doesn't fit at all?) So if anything listening to the song or wishing the live performances does it better. Seeing the choreography amps the song up more, cannot go wrong with their dancing. As for the rest of the songs, I admit game boy is my top favorite? Idk if it is because I am a gaming nerd and found all the production of the song so creative but yeah. We can wait for the next comeback! Svt always have something up their sleeves, plus we do have their music projects to look forward too (I wonder when we will get one? Seeing as RTL promotions stopped) some positive news with the boys is they resigned like a year before their contract ends and I'm a bit emotional :') I'm excited to see the boys future projects. We did have caratland recently! Did you watch it if I may ask? We did get in the soop confirmation so I'm excited to watch that, the boys deserve that nice break (even if it was filmed for a show fjsbsns)

Ok I think that is it for kpop updates? XD I do hope life has been treating you kindly! Life has been a bit all over the place sadly so I hope it wasn't like that for you as well! Until next time my bean!

hii!!!! omg sorry for the late reply i've been pretty busy these days 🙈

indeed so much has happened! and much more since you sent this ask omg!!

our shownu is at war *looks into the distance* *wipes away tear* *sighs* by now I got used to enlistment news (see what happens when you stan 2nd and 3rd gen groups) but STILL [[IT HURT]] when they uploaded the monchannel videos of his goodbye day like ????? what kind of twisted mind diuhdfuihdifuhs but the boys were all so cute and soft but they seemed so sad they didn't want to let go of their super leader :(( I hope he's learning lots and making new friends (and also we've got our international super spy yoo kihyun giving us small updates on him every now and then so everything's fine!). Yeah I totally get you it felt empty without him this comeback and at first it didn't really clicked with me but when the enlistment news came out i understood he had to take care of his health and thoroughly check on his eye sight in order to be 100% ready for the military so it made sense he had to be absent :( everything was so close (the comeback and enlistment) that I'm sure there was no other way for doing it I'm pretty sure he couldn't maybe postpone the enlistment day any further

onto exo! my ksoo my soft boi my romantic boi 🥺 his album is so him SO HIM i can't explain it bur it's just HIM you know it's the type of album you'd play on loop on a summer afternoon when you've taken your papers and paints outside in the garden to paint a bit with the warm soft breeze moving the trees lightly 🤧 and he signs in English and SPANISH (he did it for me) my multilingual king he's a native. Also I've been watching Honeymoon Tavern with Jongin these days and OMG i could d word for him really (if you haven's watched it go do it when you have time) he's SO SOFT and SO CUTE and he works as a waiter and a wedding planner and helps with the room preparations and is also a tour guide and he's just so cute so happy al the time the way he interacts with everyone is so 🥺🤧😭 onto more serious stuff now: yeah i was so worried about minseok catching covid omg but i'm glad he went through it with our any major complication and the rest of the boys are safe too! I guess the industry doesn't stop bc that would mean a huge loss of thousands and thousands of dollars/won/etc so as long as the gov doesn't prohibit going out or gathering like at the beginning of the pandemic, they'll keep on going with the idols' schedules otherwise the industry would just shut down having no way of earning money to sustain all the companies and idols.

as for seventeen! yeah i like the songs too! the mv sure ruined rtl and listening to it without watching it has really helped it grow on me more but still it feels kind of meh to me idk i really like anyone i think it's my favourite from the album. AND NOW WE'VE GOT A COMEBACK IN OCTOBER!!!! yayyyyy i can't wait they seem to be preparing very diligently (i hope they release a sexy bop) it's a shame junhao aren't gonna be present for this comeback but i'm soooooo happy they have the opportunity to visit their families again omg they have spent 2 whole years without seeing them in the flesh they must be so happy to get back to them again!!! it's so funny seeing them be bored at the quarantine hotel and doing lives every day duhdfiudhfiuh i hope it passes quickly and they can see their loved ones finally! and I did watch Caratland!! omg the unit switch song was the best thing ever hhu doing lilili yabbay and not being able to stop laughing idfuhdifuhs perf team doing chocolate and owning it????? hello??? performance team more like main vocal team wow! and the vocal team being a complete mess during check in lmaooo i loved it! In The Soop has finally started!!! I love these kind of "normal life" concepts I love seeing the boys being themselves cooking and relaxing I've watched the first and second eps as of today and also few clips from the third and omg mingyu and jeonghan drowning in the pond dfuhidfhidfs lmao they're so dumb i love them 🤣 i'm glad they could go away for a few days and spend time together away from their hectic schedules!

I hope you're well now and if not hang in there it'll all pass soon enough! 🥰💕 bye bye!!

p.s.: I got your request for the svt this or that gifset and i promise i’ll do it one day i just don’t feel like giffing these days dhbduusi i’m out of energy 

[steponmepinkjun]

I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it’s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i’m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

[appleteez]

Flower Fields

Pairing: Minhyuk x reader

Genre: FLUFF !!! (Tiny angst but really not?)

Word count: 1321

A/N: My dear lovely @lovely-kpop-writer​ I am not deep in my Minhyuk feels.. This one was just amazing to write ! I hope you’re gonna enjoy it as much as I did !! ♥︎ (My blog is now officially more fluff than smut thanks to you and I’m far from complaining) Thanks for all the fluff and you deserve all the fluff !!!

Don’t hesitate to send me requests !! :)

I look at the man in front of me. He was wearing pink shorts a white T and my pink headband for his hair. He was sitting at our coffee table eating up his breakfast while staring at the TV. He finally looks up his chopsticks still in his mouth.

“What’s up?”

“Oh.. Nothing..” I say half angry, half sad. It was my birthday today and he hadn’t say anything about it. I mean, I know he was in the middle of a comeback, but I thought he had specifically taken the next days off for my birthday weekend. He had came home late at night and waking up to him was amazing, but still nothing about my birthday. I sigh and just sit in front of him to start eating the breakfast he had made quickly. We both watch TV in silence, even though I’m not completely focused on it. My phone then lights up and I pick it up.

From: Joohoney “Happy Birthday you beautiful tropical sun fish !!” I laugh at the weird message, little by little I get messages from the others.

From: Shownu Bear “Happy Birthday Y/N, have a good day :)”

From: Kkungkkung “Happy Bday loser, can’t believe you’re still alive.” I sigh at Changkyun’s message but still crack a smile.

From: Kihyunie “Happy Birthday !! I hope you have an amazing day today ! Have fun with Minhyuk :D” I raise an eyebrow and look at Minhyuk, his eyes still fixated on the TV. Whatever, I think to myself.

From: Cute Like a Bunny “Y/N !!!!! Happy BIRTHDAY !!!! I LOVE YOU SM HAVE AN AMAZING DAY CUTIE !!!” The text message was filled with heart emoji and gifs. I chuckle lightly at my best friend’s message and go to the next and final one from the group of boys.

From: Hyungwonah “Happy day of your birth.” Wow, he went the extra mile. I smile and read the other messages from my university friends, some high school friends and family, but… I look up, nothing from him. I squint at him and he turns to look at me with huge round eyes questioning my look.

“What’s wrong? You’ve been acting weird.”

“Nothing I said..” I hiss lightly. He sets down his chopsticks and stretches to show that he was done with his food. I set mine down too, I was really not hungry anymore.

“Anyway, what do you want to do today? Anything planned?”

“Not really.” I turn away to not look at him getting more annoyed.

“Perfect ! I needed to go to the supermarket to get some stuff. We can go together.” Was that it? Was I suppose to spend my birthday at a supermarket with my ignorant dumbass idiot looking boyfriend. He looked really dumb with my pink headband and I just wanted to snatch it from him so I could strangle him with it.

“Yeah I guess we can go together.” I stand up to go put on a comfy oversize t-shirt and some large shorts that matched with the shirt. He went and put on a simple t-shirt and some shorts that showed his beautiful tattoo. He put on some really flashy yellow socks and some white sneakers while I just settle for blue slides. I take my tote bag and my car keys, then we were out into the parking lot.

“Oh Y/N !!” I turn to him an ounce of hope in my eyes. “I completely forgot, I’m so sorry..” I smile at him.

“It’s fine Minhyuk, you’ve been busy and—“

“I completely forgot the list at home. I’ll never remember what I have to get without it, I’ll be right back.” He runs to the stairs and I slam my head onto the hood of my car.

“DAMN YOU, LEE MINHYUK !!!!”

“Are you ok Y/N?” I turn to see my neighbor.

“Ah.. Ms.Kim~ I’m doing amazing.” I flash a huge beautiful smile at her and she does the same. Mihyuk comes back running and takes the keys from my hand to sit at the driver’s sit. I sigh annoyed and just go to the passenger’s sit.

“Alright let’s go !” He starts maneuvering out of the parking garage and soon we were on the highway. I look around me, while his right hand rests on the armrest. I usually put my hand with him but this time I didn’t even want to look at him. I steal some glances and he just smiles while slightly bopping his head to the music playing. I grind my teeth a bit in annoyance and just turn off the music. “Mhh? What’s wrong Y/N?”

“Nothing, I just don’t want to listen to music right now..”

“Ok.” He just smiles a bit and doesn’t argue with me at all. Which was completely unlike Minhyuk. What was happening, is it how things just end in a couple? Minhyuk was my first boyfriend, and I had total trust in him. Plus, I always thought everything was going well, but this whole thing felt off. While I was looking at my legs not paying attention to where we were going. I look up after awhile feeling that we’ve been on the road way longer than needed to go to the supermarket. I barely recognize the view.

“Minhyuk, where are we?”

“We’re almost there.”

“Where?”

“It’s.. a new supermarket. Farmer’s market type thing.”

“It better have ramen there..” I grumble to myself. After a few minutes we finally pull into a dirt road leading to a parking lot fairly filled with people. I look around while he tries to find a parking space in the shade, there is some sort of white building that looked like an entrance to somewhere. When he finally found a spot, we both get out of the car and he comes to take my hand in his. I barely hold onto his and follow him without saying a word. We walk into the white building and he gives two tickets to a lady holding a scanner. She gives us two wrist bands and Minhyuk puts mine on. “What the..” I squint my eyes at the weird action for a farmer’s market. We walk through the white building and get out on the other side. When he opens the door, my eyes open wide and my cheeks probably redden from the view. Fields and fields of flowers of every color possible and imaginable. I gasp and put my hand in front of my mouth trying to hide my huge smile.

“Happy Birthday Y/N~ I know you’ve been dreaming about coming here, so I thought this would be the right time.”

“You..” I put my hands down and look at him with a huge smile that soon dropped. “You asshole !” I hit him a couple of times while he laughs his ass off. “I hate you ! I really thought something was wrong and we were gonna break up or something !!” I run after him while he can’t stop laughing.

“I’m sorry baby.” He stops to catch me in his arms and rest his head on top of mine. “I hope you like the surprise.” He takes my head in his large hands and smiles at me. “I would never forget your birthday. How could I forget the day, that my little sunshine baby..” He kisses my forehead. “Came to life? This day is as precious to you as it is to me. I was just messing with you.” He smiles mischievously. “It was hilarious the way you pouted the whole way here.” He laughs and takes my hand in his so we could start walking on the large paths between the fields.  

“I hate you..” I push him lightly with a huge smile on my face.

“I love you too.” He takes my hand in his hand and kisses my temple lovingly. “So so much~”

[yyxgin]

dunnae worrae bestie ❣️ life gets in the way sometimes (and responsibilities)

okay so i just liked the kind of air to love alarm? idk it just made me feel like i was somewhere else bc i felt the production quality was that high. some of it was questionable i do agree w that but also song kang is total heart-eyes 😍 and meteor garden was sweet for like a minute each episode and the rest was me groaning in agony just wishing dong shancai would snipe daoming si’s mother. shancai did so much too?? like four episodes in she won a cooking competition against a girl who had literally been professionally training to impress one of the boys ✋ but shancai literally came from almost nothing. also — i’ve never been more frustrated w a drama than meteor garden like sis was literally dirt poor, came close to being evicted twice and her parents moved back to their fisherman hometown leaving her in shanghai (i think?) to make money bc they couldn’t afford the city but she had the newest phone 🛑✋

very early on in my kpop days i had no idea who to bias or however that worked and i was like ‘well i like stray kids i’ll just buy an album’ anyway one of the pc’s i pulled was a polaroid type thing for changbin and i said to my friend wow that’s such a boyfriend picture and that’s the story of how i ulted changbin. im so blasé about so much it’s worrying sometimes 🙀🙄✌️✌️ im not too bad about watching things. i used to struggle a lot but bc i’ve trained myself to read fast enough to see the subs and then flicker to the scene on screen so i don’t get bored. i do feel sometimes as if i am following when i’m looking at my phone but realistically i shouldn’t be this bold 😬

noice!! i’m still new to adulting but i’m p sure ive been at it for longer than i think. when i was fifteen and working in a hotel i was asked if when i was finished for the summer i was going back to uni 🤡 all i keep thinking about is finally having a job again and being able to spend an entire pay check on albums ngl i haven’t impulsively bought anything recently and i’m itching to be irresponsible w my money again 🤠 i know some girls who have preordered all the versions of dream and MAN am i tempted 😭😭😭 this is getting so out of hand at this point i’m going to have to strap myself to my bed until june this is not it ☹️

i have read for nct members certain members are more popular in like eastern us? i imagine it’s to encourage trading or to buy more albums so i could only guess that’s what’s happened to me w mamamoo 😭 theyre thé only gg i am properly into. i didn’t want to be thirsting over boys all the time bc... idk i just wanted some variation so mamamoo it was! twice is too many people for now (don’t even say but nct has 23, ik ik but i was only on my second group and i refused to acknowledge more than one unit for like 7 months bc i was scared) and blackpink has like 2 songs 🤡🤡 i added this bot called zephyr to my discord server and me and my friend roll for collectible kpop cards (it’s p neat and i’ve found groups i wouldn’t have been able to find myself otherwise) and she’s helped me discover so many groups! i think i was enjoying a fromis_9 song earlier <3

i’m always having good days these days 🥺 so i hope yours was good too!! also i don’t expect you to reply to these straight away (bc they’re unnecessarily long) i just try my best to reply straight away otherwise i’ll forget i even sent sumn in the first place! ~🌻

the production quality was definitely very high with love alarm, it looked so nice and aesthetic :(( but like,,the storyline ?? when they kissed in the first ep?? i- that was it for me. i couldnt watch it any longer. my best friend  finished it tho and i think she liked it,,so like-- fair.

PLEAAASE METEOR GARDEN SOUNDS SO MESSY i lowkey wanna watch it just for the shits and giggles now,,i can’t,,, like the cooking competition? that sounds like a fucking disney channel plot to a movie. i am all here for it tho

YOU HAVE A CHANGBIN POLAROID OKAY BESTIE I AM ON MY WAY TO ROB YOU NOW. DROP YOUR ADDRESS,,,DEADASS. AAAAH also i am bad at watching things to the point when i forget to turn on the subtitles sometimes and then get surprised when i dont understand a shit anD THATS when i realise somethings wrong. 

i am so new to adulting pls,, this is my first part time job and i also didn’t have a bank account until literally today. i am a babie,, i couldn’t even do things by myself like i can’t fucking order for myself in the restaurant because i am socially anxious hihi. bUT i figured working with people might help me get rid of that and i am also fullfiling my childhood dream of working behind the cash register now, so that’s cool. the only thing i need now is to graduate, go to uni and do my driver’s licence and then i’ll be adulting for real imo

i am really good with money surprisingly?? i dont spend much, because i dont have money lmao and when i do i keep it because i just like the thought of having money and not the actual spending. YOUR FRIEND BOUGHT ALL THE VERSIONS OF THE DREAM ALBUM??? LOWKEY ME FDKAJ no but fr i think i’m just gonna order the boring version once i start working because it fits my aesthetic the most and i love the concept photos. also if i pull that one specific renjun photocard i might just cry my eyes out but i’ll be happy with anyone bc i literally ult the entirity of dream at this point. 

ooh i dont really enjoy the sound of girlgroups i think ?? i need some noise if you know what i mean :( im not into like chill songs that much. bUT uhh i like itzy and i am gay for them pls. i also havent listened to their comeback yet so i am a fake fan i guess but i’ll fix that soon i prOMISE

i am doing well and i am also glad you are doing well !! <3 your asks make me so happy dfjka i finally dont feel as invisible on this stupid site lmao. also thanks for understanding that i dont reply that quick, but i tend to just uhh leave things be for a while ?? like i get a message and i dont always reply straight away for some reason. but yea. thank you !! <3

[taetaesbaebaepsae]

BTS When Another Idol Flirts With You Backstage (Hyung Line)

Summary: Hope you like things salty, also probably some feelings because they s o f t b o i s

Warnings: mild angst, smutty situations but I’m too thirsty over all my smut requests to do full on smut rn 

A/N: Maknae Line coming up after Hickey Request Part Tres is completed

Word Count: 2750

Seokjin

Kim Seokjin was not jealous. No way.

Mr. Worldwide Handsome had no reason to be jealous as no one was better than him.

His heart is racing for some unrelated reason. It has absolutely nothing to do with how you're swooning over the maknae of EXO.

Why did he invite you backstage, anyway? He'd much rather you be out front and cheering for him, but you said you were curious, especially for what goes on backstage at award shows like this one.

He had teased you on the drive here about how your favorite band EXO would be there and you just waved him off, saying that wasn't what this was about.

But you'd practically made a beeline to your bias from the other group when you saw him standing at the catering table.

The normally serious man was suddenly all smiles, now, and Jin kept remembering you screaming over a dance performance in which he'd ripped off his shirt

You'd never screamed that loud for him. Not in public, anyway.

He had about team minutes before they went onstage and the makeup artist was begging him to look upward so she could apply his makeup evenly. He wasn't having it, didn't want to take his eyes off you with Oh Sehun.

When he saw you laugh and place a hand on his chest, he snapped.

He waved off the exasperated makeup artist with a short "you can't mess with perfection, doll" and stalked over to the catering table, tapping you on the shoulder impatiently.

You turn to him and say "Hey, Jin," and just turn back to Sehun as if he weren't towering over you, seething.

You know he's jealous but you're meeting your ultimate bias and you aren't about to miss out because of your hotheaded boyfriend.

"We're about to go on, Y/n..." He whined, and eventually he had to tug on your hand and drag you away.

He sits you down in a chair and points toward the stage.

"Here. This is the best view of your boyfriend. Stay put."

You look up at him with a knowing grin. "You jealous, Jinnie?"

He made an annoyed sound in the back of his throat.

"Why would I be jealous? I just hope he isn't too disappointing in person."

"Oh, not at all. He's very handsome, don't you think?" You tease noting that his face was turning red.

"Sure," he said through gritted teeth, and then it was time for BTS to perform.

Jin felt like he made a million mistakes because he kept wanting to look back and see if you were watching.

When they were done, before he could even catch his breath, he saw you still sitting there.

You congratulated on the and subsequent award, but as you were following him back to the dressing room you kept gushing about meeting Oh Sehun and how great and humble and handsome he was in person.

Jin didn't say a word, just gently pulling you along behind him.

When the door of his dressing room shut, you were still talking excitedly, and he grabbed your face in his hands and pushed you up against the wall with his body.

You let out a small moan and you could feel him smile at your mouth before he kissed you again, forcing his thigh between your legs.

When he pulled away you were gasping.

"So can Oh Sehun do that?"

"Who?" You said breathlessly.

He smirked. "That's more like it."

(He still grumbled all the way home, talking about how Sehun wasn't even on the vocal line. You explained to him that all your biases were on the rapline and this led to a conversation about your BTS bias which led to a whole other argument that culminated in Seokjin giving Yoongi the evil eye the rest of the week)

Namjoon (RM)

Kim Namjoon liked to think of himself as a mature and evolved individual.

He liked to think that he could use reason and logic to solve most problems, and usually he was right.

However, at the present, watching you talking with your Monsta X bias at the catering table, he felt rather less than evolved.

You were looking up at the tall, bronze skinned leader as if he were the sun and Namjoon felt downright primal when you took his hands in yours, turning them over to read his palms (which coincidentally had been how you first met Namjoon, half drunk and doing palm readings at a party).

A large part of him wanted to stalk over and throw you over his shoulder like a goddamn caveman, and he hated it. Jealousy was admittedly one of his weaknesses, but he trusted you. He really did.

There was just something that played on his deepest insecurities in the way you were looking at Son Hyunwoo with almost hero worship.

Namjoon had met him a few times and he was always polite but rather quiet, maybe shy. He seemed awful outgoing with you, though, asking questions about your palm reading and looking down at you intently.

Maybe Namjoon felt insecure that he was also a leader, or maybe it was just how fucking big he was, taller and broader in the shoulders than Namjoon.

Bigger caveman take cave girl away, the most primal part of his brain was yelling.

He was hoping that he didn't look the way he felt until Hobi clapped him on the shoulder. "Joon, don't throw a punch, ok? I don't think you and I together could take him down."

Hobi nodded. "I can tell. Five minutes, fearless leader."

Namjoon could barely translate during the interview after the awards show because he couldn’t stop thinking about your bright smile, looking up at someone else.

When he was finished, instead of looking for you, he headed back to his dressing room.

He was surprised to see you already sitting there and waiting for him on the couch and he plopped down next to you, giving you a dimpled smile.

“You mad at me, baby?” You ask, pouting out your bottom lip.

He shakes his head. “Never. Did you have a good time tonight?”

You give him a bright smile. “Definitely. It was good to meet another leader who’s as kind as you are.”

Namjoon frowned a little at that, and you cocked your head at him.

He sighed and rubbed a hand over his face. 

“He’s not that great,” he mumbled.

You smiled at him again and suddenly straddled his hips, wrapping your arms tight around his neck and leaning down to kiss him, hard.

“You’ve got no reason to be jealous, baby,” you tell him, and he loves how bright your smile is for him, how your eyes light up.

“I wasn’t jealous!” He insists and he nuzzles your throat, making you giggle. “Just...territorial.”

He pulls away but you keep your head arched back. “Wanna mark up your territory, then?”

He groans low in his throat. “Don’t tease me.”

“Who’s teasing?”

(The next morning you go to work in a turtleneck and a dazzling smile)

Hoseok (J-Hope)

Jung Hoseok has often been good at disguising strong emotions and putting on a positive front.

The one area he’s not so great at that? Professional and personal jealousy, both of which he’s feeling in spades as he sees you watching EXO’s dance line warm up and practice before an award show performance.

He’s watching, too, of course, but the way your eyes are following Kim Jongin’s every move and how your mouth is open makes him want to cover your eyes with his hand.

If, and that’s a big if, anyone in the kpop game is a better dancer than Hoseok, it’s probably Kim Jongin and Hoseok isn’t naive enough to imagine it’s just professional curiosity, with you. The dancer with the stage name Kai is your bias in the group and you’d been quite vocal about it while watching the Love Shot comeback stage.

When Hoseok has to leave you sitting alone so he can get makeup done for the upcoming BTS performance, he comes back to see you talking and laughing with the member and instead of annoyance, he's boiling.

He walks over and throws his arm around your shoulders.

You look up at him, surprised, and smile. "Hey, babe, this is-"

"I know who he is." Hoseok's voice is really serious, but then he breaks out in a smile and offers his hand.

Jongin shakes it, returning the smile. "I didn't know you were dating the famous J-Hope, Y/n!"

You flush and Hoseok isn't looking at you. "Doesn't talk about me much, huh? Funny that. Anyway I'm sorry we are bugging you, I'm sure you need to warm up."

"No, no bother at all. It was very nice to meet you, Y/n," he says, looking at you pointedly, and then with a smile, almost like an afterthought, he said, "Good to see you too, Hope."

Hoseok nodded tersely and all but manhandled you toward his dressing room.

When you're looking up at him, annoyed, he finally blows up.

"So did I interrupt you making a date with him or something?"

You open your mouth in shock. "You cannot be serious."

"I dunno, looked pretty serious to me. 'Nice to meet you, Y/n.....oh and good to see you, too, I guess,"" He mocked. "If I hadn't come over there he would've had your number saved in his phone in two minutes. He didn't even know I was your boyfriend!"

You set your jaw. "You're being ridiculous."

"Am I? Well maybe I wouldn't be so ridiculous if I hadn't seen your eyes glued to his hips while he was practicing, Y/n!"

You flush. "He's just talented, that's all! You were watching, too!"

"Not like that I wasn't." He takes a step forward and you take a step back and when you do, he sighs and rubs the back of his neck.

You're looking up at him with tears welling in your eyes and now he feels like the asshole.

"I wasn't doing anything wrong," you say, voice shaking a little. "I'm just a fan, Hobi. I love you. You know that."

Hoseok sighs again. "I know. I know, baby. I'm sorry, he was just obviously flirting with you and I mean you obviously think he's handsome...and talented..." His voice lowers into a mumble.

"He is handsome and talented. And so are you. The difference is that I'm in love with you, Jung Hoseok. That trumps everything."

He holds open his arms, looking miserable and sheepish, and you walk into them and press your face into his chest.

He hugs you tight. "I am sorry. I was being an idiot."

You can't help the tears coming now that the crisis is over. You nodded against his chest. "You were," you hiccup.

Hoseok chuckles at you. "Aw, baby. Forgive me, yeah? I love you so much."

You cry for a few minutes and he strokes your hair. When you pull away, he's looking at you with love in eyes.

You crack a mischievous smile. "You really think he was flirting with me?"

He growls and bites down on your shoulder hard enough for you to squeal but you're laughing and soon he is too and everything seems brighter.

(He does get huffy the next time you watch The Eve dance practice for the 100th time, innocently proclaiming it was professional curiosity and nothing more)

Yoongi (Suga)

Min Yoongi has never been good at sharing, not even as a small child.

So when a member of the rapline of Monsta X pulled you aside to chat backstage at an awards show, he was seething.

He felt angry not only because you were clearly flirting with the dimpled rapper, or because you had barely spoken to Yoongi, but because he had no right to be jealous: you weren't his, anyway. At least not yet.

He'd met you a few months ago on the set filming his last MV, and he fell for you as soon as you got irritated with him between takes.

"Fuck off and lift your chin," you said simply, dabbing on makeup, and he'd been floored by your sharp tongue and the fire in your eyes.

After that, he requested you on every shoot, to the point that you raised an eyebrow at him on the last set and asked, point blank, "What do you think I'm pretty or something?"

"Maybe," he'd said with a smirk, and from then on you were seeing each other, or at least what passed for seeing in his and your busy schedules.

Which included quickies in his dressing room and booty calls at 4am after flights and the occasional coffee date, but it wasn't as if he had any kind of claim on you.

So when Jooheon laughed at something you said and put a hand on your thigh, Yoongi could do nothing but look away and clench his fists tight, closing and opening them.

When it was his turn for you to do his makeup, he lifted his chin without protest, prompting you to lift an eyebrow.

"Obedient today, huh?" You murmur, and he can't help the way his lips quirk up at one corner at your teasing tone.

He doesn't speak, though, and you cock your head at him but shrug it off.

Yoongi doesn't try to speak to you but he watches you like a hawk. You can feel his gaze burning into your back almost everywhere you go.

You're applying makeup to the Monsta X members in the hallway near the dressing rooms when you finish up Jooheon and show him the mirror.

"You made me look so handsome!" He exclaims with mock surprise, and you can't help but smile back at those dimples.

"I didn't have to do much," you said wryly and he gives you a sly grin and kisses the corner of your mouth.

Working with kpop idols, it's one of the more innocent experiences you've had, but you hear a dressing room door slam shut so hard it nearly vibrates the wall and when you jump and look around, the door is labelled Min Yoongi.

After you've finished, you knock softly on the door. When you hear him grunt for you to come in, you just peep your head in.

When he sees your face peering in at , he sets his jaw, clicking his tongue against his teeth. "I thought I specified no groupies."

You felt your face heat with anger and you went inside, slamming the door behind you.

"What the fuck did you just say to me, Min Yoongi?"

He shrugs, looking up at you defiantly. "If the shoe fits," he snaps.

You nod slowly. "Oh, ok, this is what we're doing, huh? I'm a fucking employee here, Yoongi."

"Employees supposed to be kissing the idols? I didn't read that in the handbook."

He's not backing down, his words harsh and low but he's sitting with his shoulders slumped, almost defeated looking.

"You're being a dumbass. I didn't kiss anyone but even if I did I'm a single woman. Unless you want to cuff me-"

He cuts you off, straightening his shoulders. "What if I do?"

You stop in your tracks, shocked. "Are you being territorial right now or are you being serious?"

He stood, putting his hands in his pockets and looking into your eyes.

"Both," he admits.

"What the fuck, Yoongi?"

He shrugs again, but that's not good enough. You cross your arms.

"So you call me a whore and then tell me you like me?"

"I didn't mean it," he says softly, stepping toward you.

You don't back away. "Which part? That I'm a whore or that you like me?"

He shakes his head in irritation. "Don't play dumb, Y/n. It doesn't suit you."

"I'm not the one playing, Yoongi. Either tell me what is going on or I'm out."

Yoongi sighs, taking another step toward you, until he was crowding you.

"I. Like. You," he said, punctuating each word with a kiss, first on the tip of your nose, then your cheekbone, and then finally, your lips, sweet and soft, none of the hard crushing passion of the kisses you'd shared before.

"I like you too, you jealous idiot."

Yoongi smirked at you, shrugging again. "I don't like to share."

(You're wrapped in Yoongi's arms in the makeup room the next time you encounter Lee Jooheon, and this time, he and Yoongi get along swimmingly.)

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2019 favorite songs (male version)

A/N: This is all my personal opinions and these are the songs that stood out to me this year and are the most memorable for me. Also this post will be long 

Here is my top 10 for those who don’t want to see the rest

1. Rooftop - N.Flying

2. Soso - Winner

3. Wonderland - Ateez

4. Highway to Heaven - NCT 127

5. Undercover - A.C.E

7. Lit - Oneus

8. Sweet Chaos- Day6

9. Savage - A.C.E

10. Fuego - U-Kwon

January 

“Lonely Night” - KNK 

I was anticipating KNK’s return. I was very curious as to what they would do after leaving their company and having Youjin leave and Dongwon join. But they did not disappoint at all. Dongwon proved himself very much and it’s one of my favs this year. 

“I’m OK” - iKon

I was so ready for this song. I love it so much. I was so ready for this song I was at school ready for it. iKon have never disappointed me with a song and this one is no exception. I adore it and listening to it makes me miss B.I. 

“Say My Name” & “Hala Hala” - Ateez

Ateez was always on my radar. But these songs really made me notice them you know. I still bop to them both daily and like this is peak Kpop to me. This is the standard I expect from groups. Ateez really is out here to kill

“Rooftop” - N.flying

This song might be favorite this year. I’m not the biggest N.Flying stan (Really getting into them tho) and I love this song. This song might be my number 1 this year. I love it so much. 

February

“Want” - Taemin

Taemin is a god. That’s all I really have to say. Like Taemin really is on another level. This whole album is a blessing. 

“Enough” - SF9 

SF9 are a group to look out for in my opinion. They really have their own sound and I can appreciate that. I have all of their albums in my playlist. I listen to this one frequently. 

March

“Tuxedo” - Ravi

If you want to be happy. Listen to this song. It just puts a smile on my face. I genuinely like all of Ravi’s albums and think he is really promising as a musician. 

“Thrilla Killa” - VAV

Still kinda sad Jacob isn’t in this one because wow. But VAV are underrated kings of the year. Thrilla Killa is such a fun song. I really have been enjoying VAV’s releases. 

“Miroh”- Stray Kids 

I will be jamming to Miroh until the day i die. I will be doing the Haka part of the choreo to this dance, until the day I die. 

“Vibe” - 1Team

This might possibly one of my favorite debuts of all time. The song is so chill and mature yet still fun and I feel like you got to hear every member’s strengths and I adore it to bits and pieces. 

April 

“Doves” - Gree

(Couldn’t find a gif for the mv)

I really fell in love with this song after stumbling on it accidentally. The song is really different and I really really like it. 

“Tu Eres” - Newkidd

It makes me so happy to see Hansol find his place somewhere. After he left SM and the SMrookies, he joined The Unit and I was just kind of like when is he going to find his place, is he going to go solo? I’m just happy he found his place. All around this is a solid debut. 

“Bloom Bloom” - The Boyz

I have had a hard time getting into the The Boyz, I still don’t know any names or anything but this is the first song that really peaked my interest. I really love songs like this. It’s so fun and fresh to listen to and it puts me in a good mood. 

“Bet Bet” - Nu’est

Nu’est is really coming for me. I love every release they have brought out over the years. They are just so good. Baekho’s vocals are god tier and I adore this song. The album is amazing as well. 

May

“Ah Yeah” - Winner

Winner have been so refreshing and just lovely lately. Their recent comebacks have really made me adore them even more. “Ah Yeah” is a song I have been listening to a lot lately and it just makes me really happy. 

“Undercover” - A.C.E

We all know how I feel about A.C.E. This song is in my top 10 this year, maybe even top 5. A.C.E have so much talent and the video and the styling are amazing. But like the rap is God tier. 

“Highway to Heaven” - NCT 127

I chose this song over “Superhuman” because it’s superior to me. Highway to Heaven makes me feel like a college student, going on a spring break roadtrip with my friends. Also in my top 10 this year. 

“Twilight” - Oneus

I didn’t put their debut in this, even though it was amazing because Twilight is superior. I love this concept, this song and these boys. Oneus are proving themselves to be monster rookies and I am here for it. “Now” is a really good b-side. 

June

“Wave” & “Illusion” - Ateez

It’s not surprise that Ateez makes the list again. This album was the one I bopped too all summer and I will never not “HAKUNA MATATA YAAAA” 

“RPM” - SF9

I LOVE SF9. Look RPM is superior in everyway and form. The choreo, the styling, the song, the mv, JUST EVERYTHING. I was so shook when this song came out omg. 

“Side Effects” - Stray Kids

Boy my head hurts. I love Stray Kids, I love their songs. This song totally caught me off guard and as much as I prefer it when Stray Kids isn’t as angry, this song is amazing and no one can change my mind. 

“Questions” - Zelo

I missed my baby. It’s nice to hear his voice again. I love this track it’s really nice and summery. Looking forward to more things by my baby. 

July

“Rolling Rolling” - 1team 

1Team are rookies I didn’t know what to expect from. But their songs are so chill omg. I love every single one of them and like I just feel hanging out at the beach when i listen to them. 

“Time of our life” - Day6

Day6. I love this song. They had so much fun with it and it’s just so good omg. Day6 for the win. K-Bands for the win. 

“Sunset” - KNK

Oh lord. KNK came for my throat. I want more KNK in 2020 because I need it. This song reminds me of a fashion show. 

“Give me more (ft. De La Ghetto, Play n Skillz)” - VAV

Fun summer songs always win for me. Also VAV always win for me. I really like the dance and just the vibe of the song. It is kinda generic but I still really like it and listen to it alot. 

“Boom” NCT Dream

Boy these boys have grown up so much. It warms my heart and makes me sad at the same time. I still listen to this daily. 

“Face” - Woosung/Sammy 

I love this song so much. It’s so refreshing and nice to listen to. Sammy’s voice is like butter. 

August

“Come back home” - Target

This song surprised me. I generally don’t go into groups I don’t know with high hopes, but I really like this song and the choreography. 

“Final Kiss” - IZ

This is a band I have been getting into too. Final Kiss is a great way to end the summer and it’s a really nice refreshing and fun. The drummer really caught my eye, because he’s hella cute and the main vocalist is so talented. 

September

“Hit” and “Fear” - Seventeen 

Fear made me nearly crap myself at the beginning of the song. It caught me so off guard but in the best way. Hit is just such a fun song and a hype song. I yell along to it in the shower almost every time. 

“Lit” - Oneus

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH. How they made such a fun song that I willbe listening to 10 years later is besides me. Oneus really out proving themselves. Another one for in my top 10. 

“Human” and “Daredevil” - Zico

I have mentioned in the past how much I love Zico and his music and this was the return I wanted. The Thinking album is just amazing. Zico manages to put every emotion there is into an album. 

October (A lot of great releases here)

“Jopping” - SuperM

I will be jopping to the end of time. Look a lot of people hate the thought of SuperM and stuff. But like, to me SuperM is just alot of amazing in one group and the songs are really cool. So yeah and they created their own verb. 

“Why” - ONF

(not the right mv but yeah)

This song really put ONF on the map for me. It’s so different and nice. I love it. The mv is also incredibly and the vocals are too. 

“Wonderland” - Ateez

Again, no surprise. This song is still on repeat for me. I love it, I want to tattoo it on my forehead. i want Yunho to “Kajaaaa” all over me. I love it, love it, love it. Can’t wait to see them live in 2020. Also in my top 10 this year. 

“Good Bam” - N.Flying

A chill feel good song that I adore. Me and my friend talk alot on voice chat on discord and at the end of the night we say ‘Good Bam’ because of this song. It’s just so fun. 

“Runaway” - TXT 

I am not the biggest TXT stan, I like some songs and that’s about it but, Run away is an amazing song. The mv is lovely, the song is great and I really like the choreography. 

“Poison” - VAV

VAV came for my throat and they didn’t have to. Also in my top 10 this year. 

“Sweet Chaos” - Day6

I listen to this and i want to scream along. We got a lot this comeback, Young K’s forehead, a full album and all of Day6 in suits. Another one for in my top 10. 

“So So” - Winner

SoSo came out after I broke up with my boyfriend and let me tell you, perfect timing. This mv is one of the best I have seen ever and the song is amazing. Winner really stepped up their game this year. Another top 10. 

“Follow” - Monsta X

This will be a Monsta X era I will cherish forever. Enough said. 

“Savage” - A.C.E

We all know my A.C.E tangent I went on and I will not apologize. Another one for the top 10. No one does it like A.C.E. MORE A.C.E IN 2020. Also Wow’s rap in this song needs to be 10 verses longer, for my health. 

November

“Calling my name” - GOT7

Got7′s best title track yet? IDK but to me it is. I also love all the b-sides and I feel like everyone got to show off their strengths. 

“Make this” - 1Team

The beat drop in this song is something I haven’t quite heard before. I really like it and the video reminds of like a 90′s video game which is pretty cool. 1Team really are my favorite group out of boygroups who debuted this year. 

“Balloon” - Zico

Zico man, I love this video and song so much. It encapsulates alot of my own emotions and it’s beautiful. 

“Blue Flame” - Astro

This song had me so shook. I have really been getting into Astro and this is my first comeback with them and I am not at all disappointed. Astro man...

december

“Fuego” - U Kwon

I love this song so much. I want people to cover dance it, the choreography is so fun and I’d do it myself but I can’t dance. I love the song and it was like the last thing I expected in December and it is in my top 10. 

“Levanter” Stray Kids

a bittersweet comeback. But still beautiful, I’m proud of how far they have come and Stray Kids have never disappointed me. The choreo is lovely and Seungmin’s vocals are beautiful. 

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INU KPOP AU

CHAPTER ONE: A KING’S PLAN, AND A VOICE WITHOUT A FACE

-MIROKU-

“Miroku?”

Miroku looked up from his phone, knowing he probably looked as bleary-eyed as he felt. Sesshomaru, always a fan of dramatic flair, kept the lights in his top-floor office purposely dimmed, and so even in the waiting room outside the double doors to the inner sanctum, it was hard to see very well. Or at all, really.

Kagura stood there in her smart straight-legged jeans and heels, chewing on the lid of a ballpoint pen and squinting down at her customary appointment diary. It seemed even after years of working side-by-side with her oh-so-famous household name of a client, she hadn’t completely adjusted to the lack of visibility either. 

Miroku had thought to ask her about it once, several years ago, and she had just shrugged and laughed quietly to herself, saying something about Sesshomaru “having his quirks just like every other genius” but saying it with clear fondness.

“You can go in now. ‘The King’ is ready and waiting.”

They exchanged a smirk, and Miroku stood up from the plush bench (which wouldn’t have looked out-of-place in a museum exhibit about Louis XIV) and cracked his neck.

He’d only been waiting forty minutes. New record.

But then again, Sesshomaru ran on Sesshomaru time. And if Sesshomaru needed to delay a meeting to call his psychic and see just how the stars were aligning today for creative efforts...well, more power to him.

“Ah, Miroku,” Sesshomaru said, giving the slightest hint of a smile as Miroku poked his head in through the heavy office doors. “Come on in and have a seat.”

Miroku ambled up to one of the large high-backed chairs in front of the desk and dropped himself into it. This room was even darker, as Miroku had well known, and so when the chair on his right spoke, he had to fight not to jump in surprise.

“Sup, Rap Monk.” Inuyasha wasn’t smiling welcomely, but he did, at least, raise a single hand in greeting before returning the bitter scowl to his face and staring across the desk at his older brother.

“I wish you wouldn’t call me that anymore,” Miroku sighed, running a hand over his face. “I didn’t choose that stage name to begin with, and it’s haunted me ever since.”

“Would you like something to drink, Miroku? Coffee, tea, sparkling water?” Sesshomaru held up a hand as if ready to summon Kagura to retrieve whatever it was.

“No, I’m good, thanks. What’s this all about?”

Sesshomaru took on a solemn posture, folding his hands upon his desk. If he noticed Kagura scurrying around behind him and frantically lighting even more of the candelabras that dotted every other surface in the room, he didn’t give any indication as he heaved a great sigh. 

“As you know,” ‘The King’ began, “my foolish little brother was just dropped from Naraku’s label. The group is disbanding and the label is reassigning the other members to various new projects.”

“Dropped? Fired, more like,” Inuyasha growled under his breath. “Thrown out like it was nothing, and after all these years I busted my ass - “

“There is obviously much to say about this,” Sesshomaru interrupted sternly, “but that is not what I’m concerned about at the moment. That’s not why you were summoned here, Miroku.”

Summoned. Like I’m a slave on retainer. 

Well, to be fair, Sesshomaru’s album sales didn’t lie, did they? 

Miroku would jump on command if he had to just to get a piece of the action, especially after long months of sporadic freelance producing work that were threatening to force him to - gasp - downgrade his apartment in Seoul. The very idea!

“I’m guessing you want me to produce some tracks to start Inuyasha off on a solo career?” Miroku awkwardly rubbed at the back of his neck. “Are you gonna finance him to start out or - “

“I can finance my own damn self if I need to, thanks.” Inuyasha leaned back in the chair and crossed a leg over his lap. 

And that was probably true. 

Inuyasha, in the very beginning, had purposely signed to a label unconnected to his outrageously famous brother, had done his best to gain fame the hard way with talent and commitment and that charisma of his. He’d been, inarguably, the breakout star of his group, and had become the face of Naraku Entertainment.

Until a few months ago. When it all came crashing down.

The press had freaked out. The fans had freaked out. But Naraku Entertainment’s decision stood, and all that momentum had been squashed like an unexpecting insect on the kitchen floor.

“We are of the opinion,” Sesshomaru said, in a way that made it sound like it wasn’t anyone’s opinion but his own, “that we need to keep Inuyasha behind-the-scenes for now, so to speak. In order for him to come through this unscathed, we will need the power of the fans behind us.”

That wasn’t going to be easy. The Japanese fans had at first been outraged on Inuyasha’s behalf, but in the span of twenty-four hours they had turned, blaming him for busting up their favorite group, blaming him for being selfish.

Sesshomaru must have seen the uncertainty on Miroku’s face (which was once again, a miracle in this candlelit room covered in crushed velvet drapery), because he quickly went on. “We’re going to extend this company of mine, this label, to include a whole new crop of Japanese idols and entertainers. And we’re going to concentrate almost entirely on the Korean market.”

“Ahhh, so that’s why you wanted me to fly up here,” Miroku said, breaking into a sly smile. “Because I’m based in Seoul now.”

“We’re going to start with a female group. A small one, no more than four or five members. I want girls fluent in both Japanese and Korean.”

“A girl group? Why not a - “

“Because if it’s a bunch of guys, the press is going to think I’m just forming a new group for myself, and they’ll go ballistic and call me an ungrateful egomaniac,” Inuyasha supplied, glaring down at his clenched fist on the arm of his chair.

“Precisely,” Sesshomaru said. “And besides, this will be something grand, something the world has never seen before. A group of Japanese artists performing entirely in Korean for Koreans. It will make the home market see what they are missing, and will drum up support for a glorious comeback for all.”

“Uh...huh…?” Miroku gave a bewildered frown. “So you want me to...what, exactly?”

“Oh for fuck’s sake, he’s hiring you, idiot.” Inuyasha’s tone was growly, but from what Miroku could see in this cave of platinum records and eccentricity, he was smirking.

“To…?”

“To help me, to help Inuyasha form this group, produce and write the songs, and grow the label’s influence in a market you must know quite intimately by now.”

Holy shit. “Oh, okay, yeah that sounds like a plan.” Understatement of the century right there.

“Your first task is this,” Sesshomaru said, “I already know I want Ayame in the group. She’s been going through a similar situation with her label as Inuyasha was with his, and she’s looking to make a change. I can handle that part; she’s a good friend.”

To a man this famous, Ayame, who at one time was built up as “Japan’s Newest Idol Princess,” a girl whom everyone between the ages of twelve and forty knew, was simply “a good friend.” Oh, to live the life these people lead every day.

“A-Alright.” This was happening so fast. One minute you’re thinking of selling your old memorabilia to make rent, and the next…

“I want the others to be largely unknowns. New discoveries. I don’t want the typical formula, where girls in their early teens sign horrific contracts and are reduced to dancing, singing soldiers by the time of their debut. I want the emphasis to be that here at Taisho Entertainment, we don’t need that kind of rote repetition to make stars from nobodies.”

Miroku was starting to pick up what Sesshomaru was putting down, and it both intrigued him as a concept and terrified him beyond belief. “You want to form a fully realized K-pop girl group using girls without any formal training in the system?”

“That’s exactly what I want.”

Miroku gulped. That meant combing through thousands upon thousands of Japanese girls, weeding out the ones who couldn’t speak Korean first, then weeding out the mediocre ones, then weeding out the ‘girls-who-sing-well-but-have-no-stage-presence’ and the ‘girls-who-can-dance-their-feet-off-but-have-voices-like-dying-cats’...

“You got it.” Why do I feel like I just signed up for guaranteed panic attacks and insomnia for the next several months, or even years?

“I’ll expect a list of some good prospects to explore by the end of the week,” Sesshomaru said, “You’ll need to work closely with my brother on this. The priority here is untapped talent, and if we find a girl who’s usable, we’ll help her learn the rest.”

Time to hit up karaoke bars and YouTube, I guess.

“You’re dismissed. I’ll summon you both again in a week’s time to look over what you’ve found and work out our plans from there.”

Like a good little soldier, Miroku stood and left the office. Inuyasha sighed behind him and followed, but at a more reluctant pace.

“Where do we even start?” Inuyasha griped, shoving his hands into his pockets and kicking at the ground. 

Ding-ding-ding. Lightbulb. 

“Wait,” Miroku said, pulling out his phone and going to his streaming app. “I can’t believe I didn’t think of it a second ago. I found this duo on my random playlist just last week. Apparently they’re based at Busan National University, they’re Japanese nationals, and they play the coffeehouse circuit.”

Inuyasha peered over his shoulder at the band’s profile page, emblazoned with the words ‘JxK, LOL’ which was, admittedly, a pretty terrible name for a band under any circumstances. 

“No photos,” Inuyasha pointed out, raising an eyebrow. “That’s promising. You’re right, Miroku. Brilliant idea. I see why my brother’s gonna pay you a million gazillion - “

“Alright, alright,” Miroku said irritatedly. “Enough with the snark. I know we don’t know what either of them looks like, but just listen to this girl’s voice.”

He chose a song and hit play.

(AUTHOR’S NOTE: HI I WILL BE COMING IN LIKE THIS QUITE FREQUENTLY TO TELL Y’ALL WHEN TO HIT PLAY ON THE LINK FOR MAXIMUM IMMERSION. OF COURSE YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO IT ONLY WHEN I SAY SO, YOU CAN LISTEN TO YOUR HEART’S CONTENT HOWEVER THE HELL YOU WANNA, BUT STILL, CONSIDER THIS YOUR CUE TO PLAY THE SONG IF YOU HAVEN’T ALREADY OK BYEEEE)

They both stood there, both utterly enraptured. 

As the song played, the skeptical furrow in Inuyasha’s brow seemed to gradually smoothe out, and Miroku had to fight back a laugh of triumph. 

“Okay, so she can sing,” Inuyasha said stubbornly after the last notes rang out and they were left in silence once more. “She can really sing. But aside from knowing that she’s somewhere in the huge-ass city of Busan, how can we possibly find out more about her? We don’t even know her name!”

With a flourish that would have made Sesshomaru tear up with pride, Miroku pulled up the band’s tiny social media page. Still no photos or details, but there, aha, a small list of upcoming gigs (all coffeehouses and restaurants, of course).

“Guess we got a date,” Miroku snarked.

Inuyasha sighed, blowing a lock of silvery hair out of his face. “Guess I gotta pack for a flight to Korea.”

“Pack for a week,” Miroku called after his retreating back, “It’s gonna be a busy one.”

[anntidote]

:get to know me

what is this?

❁ a bunch of questions if you wanted to get to know me. they’re random facts, tid bits, and stories behind how i got to love bts, writing, and what i do beside writing these fics.

story behind your handle?

❁ you can call me: ann.

❁ the meaning of ‘anntidote’ is a mix of my pseudonym and a play off of the word, ‘antidote’, which is defined as a medicine.

❁ as most of the work i write is mature and/or explicit, this blog acts as a ‘cure’ for these thoughts.

how did you start writing ff?

❁ i started writing fan fiction in 2014. i was apart of a minecraft fandom, and wrote fan fiction for certain YouTubers in that friend group. then, i switched fandoms, in writing for an australian pop-punk band. afterwards, leading to where i am now- which is writing for: international kpop sensation sunshine rainbow traditional transfer usb hub shrimp, BTS. i grew up on anime due to my older brother. hq is no exception to this creative outlet, and i couldn’t be happier.

❁ just because i started writing in 2014 doesn’t mean i wasn’t an avid fan of other things. in no particular order: i liked o2l, had a swift phase, made rubber band bracelets, and loved musicals (still do).

how did you start liking bts?

❁ the prior group i liked (no hate towards the group, as i still love their music) lacked fan involvement and fresh frequent content. it’d been over a year since they’d put out something new, and i needed something else to listen to. i knew my friends were really into k-pop, so i thought- fuck it- why not? i approached them and they gave me recommendations based off of my music taste (heavy hip-hop, pop, and alternative rock). i listened to the music without prejudice and found myself enjoying it. i remember listening to the cypher series, save me, and simply being amazed.

how did you start liking haikyuu!! ?

my best friends and others in my friend group kept nudging me to watch. it took awhile but i eventually gave in, especially since i liked knb a lot. i’m truly glad i gave it a chance, as i kind of fell for tsukki the minute i saw him— he took none of the freak duo’s bs. and it was history from there.

how did you know your bias was rm?

❁ summer of 2017, lying on my couch and scrolling through YouTube, i spotted jimin’s ‘serendipity’ mv had just dropped. although i had been already listening to bts for a couple weeks before that, ly:her (DNA era) would be my first comeback. i fell in love with serendipity’s lyricism and looked into who wrote it. i fell in love with namjoon- right then and there. (note: this was when namjoon was still called ‘rap monster’ and everyday, i thank him for realizing that that name would not age well, and consequently changing it.)

❁ i always tell to new armys, “you don’t choose your bias. your bias chooses you.” although that sounds insanely cliche and stupid- i find it to be true. upon hearing namjoon’s voice for the first time, i did a double take. he knocked me out of my seat and didn’t need to apologize. there’s so much i could gush in adoration toward that man, but let’s move on.

besides writing, what are your hobbies?

❁ i major in audio technology and am enrolled in a mixing and mastering course. i aspire to work in the music industry, and i write songs in my free time. as i’m training to be a mixing engineer/producer, writing songs leads me to writing other ideas- which is one of the reasons why i’m here! c: i’ve also been singing my entire life- which may or may not attribute to the fire. being an army has only reinforced my dreams and expectations ten fold.

❁ when i’m not burying myself in work, i’m either cooking, catching up on my shows, or sleeping. there’s no in between.

- cooking is therapeutic for me. (wrapping meat dumplings, frying chicken or potatoes, or emulsifying pasta sauce.)

- other than bts variety shows, i watch a lot of anime. i love sports (haikyuu & kuroko no basket, etc), classics (sailor moon, fairy tale, fruits basket, dbz, naruto, etc.), and others. i love romance, comedy, and competition.

how do you get inspiration?

❁ by doing nothing. and i know this sounds stupid, but it’s the truth- whether you like it or not. namjoon also partakes in this stupidity (he’s said this in an interview). i could be avidly searching everywhere for what i need to write next, or i could kick back, relax, and let the thoughts come and go as they please. i simply try to enjoy the tasks i do on the daily, and notice the small things that lead me on to creative trains of thought. (ie: seeing a plane fly overhead, and thinking of seatbelts.) “i do nothing for twelve hours... but when i get to the studio, my mind clicks.”

trademark facts about yourself

❁ i love salty chips. specifically, spicy ones. hot cheetos are glorified in this household. due to covid, i haven’t been able to have them- and i swear, i’m hitting withdrawals. (takis, sweet & spicy doritos, hot cheetos, kettle cooked potato chips, etc.)

❁ my favorite color is red. it used to be pink, because i wanted to spite people on the color’s duality. but this was the color of one of the boy’s i liked- so i changed it. even though i got over the boy, i still liked the color because of how empowered it made me feel.

❁ i’m introverted. very much so. it’s kind of crippling... my out of pocket posts may lead you to think otherwise, but no. trust me. i just seem extroverted at times because i get really passionate about what i do. (my MBTI is ISFP-T.)

❁ i don’t like coffee. perhaps i’m too young, but when i write, i love drinking hot chocolate- even in the summer.

❁ i’d fallen in love with music before i stanned bts. i’ve always participated in music and have been captivated by how singers tell stories without borders. bts empowers change and reinforces the voice of youth, that has been shunned so many times. i’m so happy to support their cause.

message to those who read

❁ thank you for taking the time/having interest in what i post. it truly means a lot to me. i hope you have a beautiful day or night, wherever you’re from. i love you guys, and i love namjoon too- haha.

[zeph4a]

Monsta X Reaction to Accidentally Confessing Their Feelings for You on Vlive

Thank you to the Anon that requested this one! I was super soft the ENTIRE time writing it. <3

I’m sorry for how long winded some are. I got really soft with this one

Shownu

You and Shownu had known each other for a while. He was a wonderful person. If anyone looked up caring in the dictionary, the only description would be Hyunwoo. You had grown very fond of his nurturing, respectful, laid back attitude that he always had around you and you noticed yourself blushing around him more and more. Every time he looked at you, your heart would skip beats.

The two of you had hung out with some friends a few times but always managed to sit next to each other which spiraled a huge series of rumors amongst Monbebe and all other Kpop fans. Its usually not a very good idea but you wouldn’t help but search “Shownu” on sites like Twitter and Tumblr. “Who is this woman hanging out with Nunu?” one Monbebe had asked. You weren’t dating but for some reason your new friendship was already making headlines and you couldn’t help but wonder what would happen if you were to date. That would be answered fairly quick.

Hyunwoo was doing a post-concert Vlive with his member Hyungwon, when the question came into the chat asking if he was dating you. “Y/n? No, we are just friends, but they really are amazing. Whoever gets do date them will be the luckiest person ever.” Your heart was torn. Half because it hurt to hear him say no you weren’t together and half because he had spoken so highly of you. You were brought back to the stream from your mental malfunction by Hyungwon’s playful voice. “YA! Don’t talk like that, Monbebe will be jealous and think you lovestruck!” he laughed. You nodded your head but immediately froze solid when you heard Hyunwoo’s reply.

“I am”

You weren’t the only one that froze. Hyungwon looked at him like he had swore on Vlive. It wasn’t until Hyunwoo looked at him that he realized that he DID NOT say that in his head like he though.

“Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I said that out loud didn’t I?” He wasn’t even going to try to play it off. “Okay, so yeah I have a big crush on Y/N. We’ve been hanging out a lot lately and they’re pretty awesome. I think you’d like them a lot, Monbebe!” His face was beet red and you knew yours was too. Who’s wouldn’t be? After the slip up he pretended to not see the massive amount of spam coming in from Monbebe about you, because it was all a little overwhelming.

An hour later the Vlive ended. You wait a few minutes for him to get settled and gave him a call.

“Hello?”

“Hey how’d the Vlive go?”

“Oh, it was great we had a lot of Monbebe showing us so much love!”

“Uh hu, I heard.”

“……Wait. What did you here?”

“Oh nothing, but just so you know, you’re adorable when your flushered.”

“………………………………………You watched it didn’t you”

“Of course I did. I always watch your streams. I have to show my support”

“Thank you! So uh.. Would you like to go on a date with me?” He asked in such a small shy voice that your heart nearly gave out.”

“Of course I would.”

Wonho

Hoseok was a picture-perfect, boyfriend material man and you just so happened to be seeing him. He was always so thoughtful and respectful when it came to you and loved to spoil you.You two had been talking for a while but never said the statement that you wanted to hear. It was too soon and you knew that but you really did love him even if it was such a short time to see someone. Starship knew and while they didn’t care for it, they respected his wishes. The main reason he hadn’t asked you to be his G/b/f was because he had stated at the beginning of his career that he didn’t really see himself getting married and he didn’t want his fans to reject you because of that.

The two of you had just finished a wonderful late-night date where he took you to your favorite restaurant. He walked you to your door and kissed you goodnight then headed home to get some rest. While you were washing off your face you got a notification from Vlive saying Minhyuk had gone live on the Monsta X account. You opened it up to see him chilling in the living room, casually talking to the thousands of Monbebe’s watching the stream. You could hear someone moving in the background and heard Min laugh and ask if the person wanted to join, which followed with a “sure.” The deeper sleepy voice on the other side of the camera was Hoseok. He asked if they could do the live in his room because he wanted to lay down on his bed and Minhyuk covered the camera and followed him there.

Hoseok was too sleepy to notice that he didn’t move the picture on his nightstand. It was a picture of you and him during the date where he had taken you to the beach at night. The two of you had laughed until you cried and it was when you realized you loved him. It was a sweet memory, but one that Monbebe didn’t know about. You didn’t even know he had printed that picture off! The boys started talking and goofing off but it didn’t take long for questions to start popping up in the chat that mad Hoseok go red.

“’Wonho who is the girl in the picture with you?’ What picture are you………Oh that picture?!” He pointed at it. You could tell he was panicking just a little bit but he held it together like a champ. “Monbebe, I have a confession to make. I have an amazing person by my side that I have been seeing for a short while now. They truly make me happy and that’s why this picture is here. Every night I go to bed I look at it and think of how lucky of a man I am. I have them and I have you. Please don’t think that I love Monbebe any less! Truthfully I was worried about how you would feel, so I’ve tried to hide my feelings, even though I know I haven’t done a good job with that. And please treat them with respect too!” Those last to statements his face showed a lot of worry, which was a shared feeling for you too.

More comments came through and Hoseok perked up. Almost all of the comments were well wishes and screams for him to ask you out, mixed with the occasional “AHHHHHHH OUR BUFF BUNNY FOUND LOVEEEEEEEE, <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3.” The two of you were breathing just a little easier.

After his Vlive with Minhyuk ended he called you like he does every night and was talking like an excited toddler.

“DID YOU WATCH THE VLIVE?! DID YOU SEE HOW HAPPY MONBEBE WERE?! I Don’t know why I was so worried. I really do have the most wonderful fans. I wonder if they want pictures of us? I could share the one of us at the movies the other day! You looked gorgeous!”

“Hoho you aren’t going to be able to sleep tonight, are you?” you laughed.

“Probably not, I’m just so happy! I’m so thankful my little goof didn’t backfire on us. I’m on my way to your house!”

“Hoseok its 3 in the morning!”

“Yeah, but how lame would it be to asked you to be mine over the phone!”

The next morning you woke up to Starship making an official announcement and about 20,000 more followers on Instagram. There was also a text from Hoseok who was already at practice.

“Good morning beautiful. Have an amazing day today and I can’t wait to see you tonight! Text when you can! I love you :)“

Minhyuk

You knew Minhyuk from your childhood. He was one of your best friends that you had known since you were little and had lived right down the road from one another. Even though the two of you didn’t get to hang out much since he became an idol, you were always texting and talking on the phone, with the occasional hang out session happening between comebacks.

You also had a secret he didn’t know about. You were absolutely infatuated with him. The time that you had known each other had turned into a love story for you, where you wished you could tell him how you felt but you also didn’t want your friendship to change after you confessed. So, you kept this secret to yourself.

Minhyuk was in the United States on their “We Are Here” world tour and decided to do a live stream with his teammate, Changkyun. You had just woken up and were getting ready to head to work when you got the notification, so you decided to listen to the stream in the car like it was a podcast. You couldn’t help but laugh at their antics a wish that it was you with Min instead of I.M.

You were just getting onto the highway when a Monbebe asked the boys if they thought they would ever date while they were Idols. Changkyun said he didn’t know and really didn’t think about it too much because he didn’t have anyone that caught his eye just yet, besides Monbebe. You thought you were going to run off the road when Minhyuk gave his response.

“I’d date my best friend, y/n.”

You weren’t totally convinced it was a confession and not a sweet sentiment that was meant to find you a b/g/f, since that was definitely something Min would do. However, Changkyun made it very clear what Minhyuk was trying to say.

“Yeah you’ve had a crush on them for a while.” He commented. “YA! Don’t call me out like that” Minhyuk laughed. “Monbebe don’t need to know that, and I’m now hoping that y/n isn’t watching. I didn’t mean to say that! We’ve known each other since we were about 8 years old.” Oh boy, were you watching. You had just pulled up to work and just sat in your car, mouth wide open. One Monbebe asked why Minhyuk hadn’t asked you out and he stated the exact same feeling of he didn’t want to lose you as a friend because he didn’t think you felt the same.

You open up your text messages and send a quick “I do feel like that, though” and then reopened Vlive to see if he would get the message on Vlive. His phone vibrated and he pulled it out and read what you had sent. Slowly a huge sunshiney grin spread across his face and he showed the message to Changkyun, who let out a massive “I TOLD YOU SO,” making Minhyuk laugh.

You were completely late to work and it didn’t even matter to you, but loosing your job may not be a good idea. You tuned off the Vlive and sent him a quick “I’ll text you on my break” message, which got an even quicker, “Don’t text, call me when you can.”

Work was going so slow for you but when that first 15-minute break came around, you ran outside and his Minhyuk’s contact. It conversation was a little awkward at first but after a few minutes the two of you were talking and joking. He told you that when he got home, he was taking you out immediately and you told him that you couldn’t wait. Once your break was over you told him to get some sleep and to call you when he wakes up.

He held true to his word when he got home a month later, and your new relationship with his was everything you could had ever imagined.

Kihyun

A lot of famous Korean Idols and Actors had recently started dating and Dispatch was on High Alert. You knew that you and your new love interest Kihyun had to be careful since you hadn’t been together that long and hadn’t really had the talk about how serious of a relationship yours was. You had been on a couple of dates but hadn’t talked about how you felt about each other or if you wanted to take the next step and add labels to each other. You knew that you were head over heels for him but weren’t totally sure where he stood. He was a total sweetheart and was affectionate but past experiences had you guessing if he felt the same way for you that you felt for him.

He was doing a Vlive after practice and you were trying to clean your house and decided to tune in to show some support. You set your phone up to the side and began cleaning the counters in your kitchen. He started talking about some exciting stuff for the group and you knew that it was a matter of time before he spilled some details that shouldn’t be spilled. You sent him a text reminding him to watch what he says so not to get in trouble and then when back to cleaning.

“Yes, my love.”

You froze. He froze. Your cat froze. The lady next door froze. Everything froze.

He sat there for a second with his eyes wide and hands over his mouth. Monbebe were all over it asking who his love was. Not only did he accidentally reveled that he had a love interest, but he reveled that he did have feelings for you.

You stood in the living room counter cleaner in your hand with the goofiest grin on your face. He immediately tried to cover up what he had said but it was no use. Monbebe were smarter than that.

“Okay Monbebe. Yes, I have been seeing someone. They’re amazing and I’m truly lucky to have them. They’re watching too and reminded me to not leak anything that could get me in trouble.” He laughed. “I really care for them a lot and I hope that we can continue to see each other and be something more.”

Monbebe in chat got super soft. Chat was filled with “aww” and “I’m so Happy for you Kihyun.” Many asked when he was going to introduce you to them like they were family, which you loved because you knew that Monbebe meant so much to him. He explained that you weren’t an official relationship but not to worry because he had plans for that, and that was the only information he was going to leak, with a light hearted laugh.

You waited until he finished his stream and sent him a text telling him that he was just a tiny adorable little thing. He respond that 1. He was taller than you, 2. He is a member of Monsta X so he cant be THAT cute, and 3. He was on his way over to hang out. When he got there you both talked about where you were standing and if there should be a commitment. Needless to say the name his name in your phone was <3 Boyfriend <3 by the end of the night. Before he left he took a cute picture of the two of you and posted to fancafe for Monbebe to see.

“Monbebe meet y/n, my amazing g/b/f. At least I leaked it before Dispatch did haha!”

Hyungwon

You were hanging out with your friend Hyungwon. You were just finishing up a dance session the two of you were having since he was planning a video for Monbebe to show off some of his dance moves. You two had known each other for a while, having attended the same dance school in Gwangju. You were sad when he he moved to Seoul to follow his dream, but you came to visit as much as possible. Eventually you moved their as well and when he was wanting to come up with little dance routines for Monbebe you were always there helping and showing support. You were about to head home when he decided he was going to do a short Vlive and talk to some fans.

He was sitting on the floor of the studio in Starship’s building, talking to some fans when you were heading out the door. He looked so happy to be talking and joking around with them, that it warmed your heart. You always had a soft spot for him. You were two peas in a pod. You could talk about anything, and the best time when the two of you were just hanging out, watching movies lazily on the couch. It usually ended up in nap time but hey you were both very busy and naps were fun, right? Truth be told, you had grown a little more than fond of Hyungwon. You really liked him. You were jealous of the makeup artists and staff that always got to be with him, and occasionally flirted with him. You wished you could tell him how you felt but this friendship meant too much to you to try to ruin like that. You would much rather have him as a friend than not at all, or have the friendship just be awkward from rejection.

You had gathered your stuff quietly and was getting ready to leave when started waving and saying bye. You took this as you didn’t need to be quiet and told him bye and grabbed the door handle. Just before you walked out you heard Hyungwon very clearly say “I love you.” You stopped, smiled and looked over your shoulder thinking he was meaning it in a friendly way. You guys had said “love ya” before. His face was shocked, like he had slipped up. You were confused why he had that look on his face, but noticed the blush flashing across his cheeks. Was it possible he liked you too? You stepped back in the room and shut the door when he finally came too and started reading chat. “’ Who is the person you just told I love you too?’ Uh, well that’s my really good friend. They’re my partner in crime…..’That look says more than friend, are you holding out on us?’ I might be holding out on myself, Monbebe.” he laughed. You stood there with a grin on your face, listening to him try to explain himself to his fans for his slip up but he eventually gave up. “Okay fine, yes I have a thing for my friend, and yes they are standing about 20 feet away from me staring at me, as I wish I could go crawl under a rock in embarrassment.” He laughed again. “I think I’m going to call it for the night before I leak something insanely important. Goodnight, Monbebe, I love you all so much.” He waved and ended it, sighing and setting the camera down.

He looked looked at you with a smile and a lighthearted “oops.” You just smiled back and shook your head. “Ya know, I wouldn’t have batted an eye if you wouldn’t have freaked out.” You responded. “Well I just confessed my feelings to my best friend, unintentionally, in front of THOUSANDS.” You could tell that last part made him a little nervous, but it had happened and Hyungwon always handled everything with grace.

“Well, if it means anything to you, I love you too Hyungwon.” Your face was hot and you knew it had to be redder than his.

He stood up and made his way too you, adorable smile on his face. “Well, its still somewhat early. Would you like to go on a date with me?”

“I’d love to.” You both smiled and he shortened the distance between the two of you giving you a big hug and planted a soft kiss on the top of your head.

Hand in hand you both left the build. “Guess we don’t have to worry about the media leaking us. I did it for them.” He laughed. In that moment you knew this is exactly what happiness was.

Jooheon

*I just really love this gif yall.*

Last night was awesome. You had gone on a date with a friend that you had known for a while, or at least you assumed it was a date, considering the blushing on both ends. You two had gone to the movies to see a scary movie and then to dinner. Jooheon was a total baby the entire movie, but it was his idea. You thought it probably picked the movie because he wanted to seem all tough, but everyone who knew Jooheon knew that he was the opposite.

The next morning you had gotten woke up by your phone notification going off twice. One from the Monsta X twitter and the other from the Monsta X Vlive account, both announcing one or more of the boys had gone online for a stream. When Jooheon made it to the end of No Mercy and joined Monsta X, you immediately followed their social media pages to show support for your friend and keep up with him.

You rolled over and opened the app and where greeted by a sleepy Changkyun in a red hoodie talking with the fans. He was talking and being a flirtatious maknae making the Monbebe go crazy. You laid your phone on the bed and closed your eyes but kept the stream open. Right as you were about to fall back asleep you were jolted awake by Jooheon’s voice as he walked into the room.

“Changkyun-ah! You should have been there last night. I had such a good time, I think y/n might be the one.” I.M’s eyes got huge and he shook his head “no” as he looked over at his Hyung. You were wide awake now, palm pressed to your cheek, staring at your phone.

“What’s wrong?”

“Uh… I’m on vlive.”

There was a thick silence for a little bit, that was only broken by Changkyun chuckling and a door to one of the rooms shutting. You assumed Jooheon had mouthed a few explicit words and ran away. The image of what happened on the other side of the phone made you giggle.

Changkyun tried to cover for his best friend and buffer some of the questions that Monbebe had pouring in, without giving away too much because he felt it wasn’t his place to do. “Now what am I suppose to do Monbebe. Now theres a third wheel to Jookyun... I guess we just need to date huh?” he flirted.

A few seconds later, you received a text message from Jooheon.

“Good morning, are you awake.”

“Just got up a little bit ago, what’s up”

“Nothing just got home, wanted to see what’s up and if you wanted to hang out again tonight?”

“Of course! Let me just end Changkyuns Vlive.” The messages stopped for a few minutes and you worried that you had given him a panic attack making a joke that you knew how he felt.

“You were watching, huh?”

“I was and don’t worry I feel the same way <3”

“You do??”

“Well, duh I wouldn’t have said yes to going out again tonight if I didn’t lol!”

“Pick you up at 8?”

“Can’t wait <3”

I.M

You met Changkyun while doing an internship with Starship during their comeback for the “Beautiful” era. You both had so much fun playing Overwatch together and listening to music that it became a regular event during his free time that he had when he wasn’t working on new songs. You weren’t even going to lie and say that you didn’t have feelings for him, you did and you knew it. The problem was you were trying to get your internship that you had done to be a real job with Starship, and you didn’t want to make your friendship awkward if you were to succeed and get the job.

He was hanging out in a hotel room with his fellow Monsta X member, Wonho, and talking on a Vlive stream with Monbebe. You had flown to see the show and were hanging out in the background while they finished it up. You need to grab something from your hotel room, so you motioned that you were leaving and walked out. What you didn’t see or here was Changkyun staring you out the room lovingly. When the door closed, he said “gah, y/n’s so perfect” under his breath. He thought nobody had heard but Hoseok did and so did the camera that was just close enough to pick up everything.

He realized that everyone had heard when the questions started appearing in the chat. “Who is y/n?” “Are you two dating?” “Did our wolf find the one?” While Changkyun was nervous to answer any of the questions he felt honestly was the best option. “y/n is one of my friends. They’re an intern with Starship and pretty much me in a much more attractive form. I’m honestly nervous to tell them how I feel” he laughed. Wonho had completely broken. He was sitting there in awe and the maknae’s courage to speak on his slip up. When you re-emerged in the room all mention of what had happened stopped. You could feel something had happened and looked at the two boys with a confused face, but nobody said a word towards what was wrong for the rest of the night. You had thought maybe you should go back and see what was said but Starship was taking forever to put the video back up in a vod.”

It didn’t take long though. The next morning, you woke up to dozens of direct messages on Twitter from people you didn’t know but knew from the titles on their pages that they were Monbebe. They had worked through the night to find you and send you a video clip from the stream. You watched him say that you were perfect at least a hundred times with butterflies in your chest. You were nervous about whether you should let Kyun know that you knew, but eventually you gained the mindset to go for it. You walked to breakfast where you found him at a table with Wonho and another member named Jooheon. They were casually joking and eating their food. The second Wonho noticed you, you saw him punch Jooheon and nod to you, symbolizing to you that he had spilled the beans to Jooheon.

Kyun turned and smiled with a blush coming across his face. He pulled the chair out for you and asked how you were that morning. After sharing a few pleasantries, he didn’t even try to hind the Vlive anymore. “So Monbebe spilled into your messages, didn’t they?” You were taken back by the fact that he wasn’t going to hide it but smiled and nodded. Wonho and Jooheon scooted closer to each other and waited for the next response.

“Everything I said was the truth. I’m so lucky to have you in my life, you really are amazing. I’ve never met someone so much like me and I’ve fallen for you so hard. I understand if you don’t feel the same, but I needed to get it off my chest, and don’t worry. I’ve already talked to my boss. They’re already planning on giving you the job, and even if we were to get together that wouldn’t change. You’re an incredible worker and they don’t want to lose you, but neither do I. So, if you don’t feel the same I’ll understand but can’t we please still be friends.”

Wonho and Jooheon were practically leaning over the table waiting on your answer.

“Kyun, I’ve been so into you for such a long time.” You smiled sweetly and got up from your chair giving the maknae a huge hug, burying your face into his chest. You could physically feel his sigh of relief.

“You have no idea how happy I am right now” he said as Wonho and Jooheon sprung up, hand in hand dancing and scream their excitement that you two had started your new blooming relationship.