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#eyestrain under the cut#alt title: personal space doesn't mean shit when the Guide is down about a bad review#sky cotl#frantic stagehand#performance guide#frantic stagehand x performance guide#do thwy have a shipname or nah#waffart#considering deleting this#i mean i drew it while i barely understood how to draw them... and also#while in a phase where i could barely draw anyway#but maybe ill leave it up as a lil memory#like woo i improved i guess#even if i went from rock bottom to the bare acceptable minimum or whatever
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#sometimes i feel very normal and then i interact with ppl lol#i had an in person meeting with my boss for the 1st time in ages and i usually talk to ppl while theyre driving or were walking somewhere#so i forgot how much im like obviously not making eye contact when ppl talk to me while hunched over and fidgeting lol#and when im trying to explain ideas to ppl abt like data stuff im like: i dont understand how what im saying doesnt make sense???#also with a healthy dose of wtf is this person trying to say to me? u r saying words and i dont kno what theyre directed at#we had a lab party and im like v awkward at those things. idk how to interact in groups#ppl r interacting and im watching like u r clearly getting something out of this that i am not#i did maybe secure a place as a patient for one of our undergrads who is in the dental school lol#she was like yea i need 8 patients and i was like lol u can look in my mouth and then proceeded to tell her all the weird teeth problems#ive had. maybe that was weird but she seemed interested so 🤷#i hope she follows up bc i havent been to the dentist in like 3 years#and i still habe my wisdome teeth#lol me at any party: i am waiting patiently until i can leave.#like its weird bc those r the time when ppl bond and make memories and all that but everytime someone calls back to events that ive been#there fore it baffles me bc im like. yea that was a thing that happened. i dont really have any feelings abt it so idk y u r recalling it#fondly??? plus my ears r kinda fucked so it was hard to focus on individual conversations#ay im so scatterbrained. thats what happens when u get little sleep and dont allow ur self to chill. ill just crunch myself into a lil ball#at least my boss tried to reassure me that id get accepted somewhere phd wise. but i will not relax until its official so rip#i just really want 2 specific schools to work out bc one is close to home and the other i can prob get good classes and opportunities#ugh i need to sleep. but im not tired :-P#unrelated
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- TEARS ON THE GRAND PIANO
– pairing: wanda maximoff x fem!reader (mini series)
– synopsis: moving on from the only person you’ve ever loved is proving to be hard… so hard that hiring an escort seems to be the only way forward.
– warnings: a lil angst and comfort to start us off, welcome to the prologue, hope you enjoy!
2ND AUGUST 2016
All is quiet in the compound.
In the middle of the night, you find yourself seated at your piano, bathed in the soft glow of a single lamp. Your fingers move wearily across the keys, trying to breathe life into the notes of a song that has been evolving in your mind since the day you met Wanda.
The melody is your escape, a sanctuary from the weight of the Sokovian Accords and the chaos that seems to envelop your world.
Exhaustion clings to you like a heavy cloak, but the song demands to be finished. Each note is a release, a fragment of emotion woven into the fabric of the music.
Ever since that ill-fated mission in Lagos, the Avengers' world has been turned upside down. The compound, once a haven of camaraderie, now echoes with the tension born of differing opinions on the Accords. It's torn your makeshift family apart, leaving you grappling with your own stance on the matter.
It is expected of you as a super-powered member and also as the reason for Lagos being a failure. The plan had gone awry, and in the chaos, you deviated from the carefully laid out strategy. Overwhelmed by the enemy, your powers were not enough. It was Wanda who came to your rescue, a selfless act that saved your life but led to a devastating consequence.
The explosion in the building, full of innocent people, sat solid on your conscience. And now the weight of responsibility hangs heavy on your shoulders as you try to find solace in the music you create. The piano, an old friend, is both a refuge and a confidant in these trying times.
You're so engrossed in your composition that you fail to notice the subtle creak of the door as Wanda steps into the room, her silhouette framed by the dim light.
She watches you for a moment, concern etched on her face.
“Why are you still awake?" she asks, her voice soft and filled with genuine worry.
You don't immediately respond, caught in the grip of your creative trance.
"Couldn't sleep," you admit, the weariness evident in your voice. "Needed to get this out."
Wanda's gaze softens, understanding the therapeutic power of your music. But her concern doesn't wane.
"And you? Why are you up?" You inquire, curious about the restlessness that brought her into your space.
A hint of sadness crosses her features as she confesses, "I had another nightmare.”
That hasn’t happened in a while, only on a rare occurrence since she started to heal from the events in Sokovia. Her war-torn homeland.
The pain of her brother's death used to haunt her dreams frequently, the agony vivid and raw in her memory. You remember when she first told you how it felt that day, the overwhelming emptiness as she felt her brother’s life slip away as if it were her own.
That was the first time she lost control of her powers.
A surge of empathy washes over you, and you instinctively reach out to touch her hand.
"I'm sorry.” You whisper, your own exhaustion momentarily forgotten.
She manages a small smile, her eyes lighting up.
“Well, I was thinking," she begins, her tone almost conspiratorial, "maybe you could come sleep in my room tonight. You know, like a sleepover?”
You can't resist the charming plea in her eyes, even though you know it’s all fake. Laced with fear of falling asleep just to end up back in another nightmare.
Usually, the sleepover ends with her clinging onto you tightly, whatever movie you both decided on long forgotten, as she sleeps peacefully. The nightmares suddenly gone as soon as you're around.
“Alright." You agree, setting aside your messy sheets. "Lead the way, m’lady."
The piano sits in silent anticipation as you follow Wanda out of the room, leaving the notes hanging in the air.
Later into the night, you both settle into her bed, the warmth of shared dreams replace the chill of nightmares. Wrapped in the comfort of each other's presence, you both drift into a peaceful sleep, leaving the half-finished melody to linger in the stillness of the night and challenges that await with the morning sun.
That was the last time you slept with Wanda.
#my fics! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹#wanda maximoff x reader#wanda maximoff x you#wanda maximoff x y/n#wanda maximoff#cr: @florietas
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Hello! Sorry if this has already been asked, but for the Deity AU: What's the storyline? Like when do certain things (that you are comfortable with sharing) transpire? I'm kinda new, so I'm just trying to find out what I can to catch up to everyone else who has been here. But besides that, I hope you have a wonderfully lovely day/night! :] (Also, I love your art and au's, there so fun!)
Hi hi!
Their story is mainly left untold— Like— I like to draw them for comfort and fun and dont really plan to write it out? Like— as in fully.
I do have a story with an ending tho and its mainly dealing with Wally and my oc Aiden.
Ill put it here since like I said I dont really plan to write it fully. Also their playlist which is where the story goes chronologically! :oD
The playlist
Ok oof-
Here goes—
This is gonna be me REALLY COMPACTING IT AS MUCH AS I CAN
So like… spoilers ig????
Aiden is the son of a chief/king? He wants to grow up and be as revered as his father. His friend of childhood is from a rival place and his name is Dante.
Aiden is trans and his dad doesnt really have faith but thanks to his mom and Frank (who he meets as a kid) he gets trained up and finally accepted in to the army.
Aiden and Dante find out their homes are at war and are like “nooo dont fight haha” and their parents are like “yea? Political marriage” and theyre like “shit”
So they become engaged, Dante has a small crush on Aiden so hes not that mad, Aiden doesnt want it. Their parents still plan to fight but in a backstab way.
Dad needs a right hand man, doesnt choose Aiden, chooses his rival but soon to be best friend (I dont have a name yet for them).
They go to war, Aidens dad tells him “lol go kill Dante while I kill the dad” Aiden gets told by deity same thing. To kill Dante or blood will be shed from his home. Aiden is about to, cant go through with it. Dante doesnt know.
They still win the battle, marriage is obviously called off. Aidens dad gets help from a witch to head home while Aiden meets Barnaby and gets help handling the witch (her name is Willow).
Dad and Frank get into an argument lmao. Frank is like “I pseudo raised your kid” and dad is like “nuh uh” dad does NOT know hes arguing with a deity. Aiden adult at this point.
Aiden meets Wally. Wally meets his parents and they bond a bit before he leaves after I think a week? Month? Dont remember. Aiden is big sad, bro misses him even tho he almost killed him.
Mom proud of the warrior Aiden became.
Another battle at war. Aiden is finally given the chance to lead a team. Blinds Dantes brother who is a tyrant. Frank and Aiden argue about leaving the guy alive.
Aiden meets Cloud god (lmao)
Dantes dad kills Aidens dad. Best friend saves the remaining crew by getting them tf out of there. They also found out Dantes brother was also killed but Aiden doesnt know if that was his fault.
Aiden meets Mathew after going through Eddies sacred lands or spirits and memory. Finds out mom died too. Aiden says fuck it Im going to be brutal with everyone.
Kills Dantes dad.
Taking care of Camila , his lil sis, and meets Wally again. Lovey lovey again.
Frank is like “bro nah thats a god youre a mortal” Aiden is like “you right” and tries to break up with Wally but Wally is like “Wait no, fuck the rules” and Aiden is like “…touché”
Aiden proposes, they marry
Maybe a kid? Debating.
Dante has a kid.
Dante sends assassins, Aiden kills them. Brutal with his opponents. Sacrifices his men. Goes through mutiny. Howdy like “lol death to your crew”. Best friend dies but also finds out that friend is who killed Dantes blinded brother which led to Aidens dads death.
Aiden tries to break off with Wally again because of everything hes been through he doesnt want that for Wally. Wally is like “Calm down—“
Lovey lovey
Dante has a dream of killing Aiden. Gets his crew for a strike.
Kills Aiden. Aiden says goodbye to his sister as shes taken away to safety as his home burns.
Wally grieving when he finds out
Kills Dante
Camila (adult now) comes back and calms Wally down. Befriends him.
Camila dies of old age.
Wally is learning to deal with grief.
Meets Aiden again as reincarnation.
Continues to love him through reincarnation and reincarnation.
Eventually gives up his divinity to live as mortal with Aiden.
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tged webtoon ep 155 spoilers n thoughts below cut etc u know the drill
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bug when u lift a rock
i love when he has lil soft smileys like this theyre his best look heehee
THIS IS WHAT MY BRAIN WAS MELTING OVER EARLIER TODAY BTW. IM GOING INSANE
THIS HAD ME SHIVERING . TREMBLING LIKE A WET CAT. "when someone really misses another person... they might meet again here." GHH . HGGGGG AAAAAHHH
ok sorry uh. i dont have much insight this time around im just going insane over it,,, a place that represents happy memories and promises to stay together and yet suho has returned here, unable to hold onto both without the ache of loss bc his parents r gone AAAGGHHHG AA
how cruel how cruel how cruel,,, cruel reminders of what he can never return to,,, WHICH MAKES HIM SAYING "i already met my family." SOOO HEARTACHE TO ME
ok sorry im jumping ahead a bit but yeah suho feeling at home as a frontera and moving forward, beyond the memories and the past,,, im gonna THROW UP what the FUCK
ok bouncing back to some sillies this ep LOL
A MAN ON A FUCKING MISSION 😭 LLOYD U MONSTER HAHAA javier being happy that lloyds back to his motivated self tho makes me so happy WEEHEEHEE
ALSO JAVIER IMMEDIATELY BECOMING SOCMED FAMOUS IS SO FUNNY HAHAHAHA honestly the ppl who r taking pics. so real. me too. i can only imagine how insanely pretty javier would b if he was in our world,,, his protagonist-level good looks are dimensional constants .
i am a little bit confused as to why javier said this considering he was so ready to bring lloyd back at all costs when they first got here? mmm maybe his worries were quelled when they were taking the mountain trail to the tower? im not quite sure,,, maybe i missed smth
ALSO HIS FRIEND OMGGG
IM SO GLAD WE GOT TO SEE HIM AGAIN hes working construction now too!!! wahoo!!! hes still got that face tho lol
OH OH AND THE COP CHASE RIGHT
javier folding the clothes is so silly hes such a good lil guy 😭 vs lloyd just leaving them scattered LMAOOO it was nice of them to leave a note n the gold for the cop guys tho!!
i also liked that the cops kept fucking posing thru out the whole ep HAHAHA ive never seen jjba but its like jjba level posing theyre so silly
AND FINALLY YAA THEY GOT ALL THE MATERIALS SECURED
i rlly liked javiers lil "!!" at the bottom here HEHEHE
so so happy they got the stuff!!!! restoration of fate can SUCK AN EGG THEYRE GONNA BEAT IT!!!! hopefully
afaik theres no telling what the jewel of truth is gonna actually say abt fighting fate,,, or whether or not the jewel will give the answer that easily,,, hopefully it goes smoothly lloyd deserves a break atp 😭😭😭
also how r they gonna put the thing together havent they been flying over the ocean w draggy recently . werent the mermaids tryna figure out who was commanding draggy so that they could sic em for opening that portal to hell 😭 WILL THAT B A PROBLEM? (dont actually answer that)
man oh man milestone achieved but still so much to do for these guys,,,, i wanna put them in a box and contain them and let them have a break they deserve it
ok thats it for now,,, if i start brainrotting again ill prolly post abt it here or on twitter,,, see yall next week!!!!
#tged#the greatest estate developer#tged spoilers#lynn misc#lloyd frontera#javier asrahan#kim suho#trying to work out which panel screenshots to put was a NIGHTMARE i rlly need to not spam screenshot when i read these eps 😭#also sorry this was so late LOL my usual websites werent updating!#when i saw the ep drop my stomach FLIPPED im so serious
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im losing my MIND bUT here you go have some thoughts on the second coming
so we start with the below screenshots from the trailer where we have a statue of gabriel close up holding the crucifix, and then the next shot with beelzebub where there is no cross and instead what looks to be a bundle in its arms (i don't think it's a shadow bc it looks too opaque, too human shaped (think voldemort in goblet of fire lmao) AND the lighting from above on the stone would be more illuminated???)
the clue to where this is in the storyline however is that gabriel looks to be dressed in his lighter coloured heaven clothes, so before he loses his memory/flashback?
so this is presumably where gabriel has arrived on earth to retrieve jesus, possibly tucks him into a pristine moving-day cardboard box (i feel like the 'this way up' is both literal in that one shouldnt hold christ upside down as well as being a direction to deliver it to heaven?)
and given that gabriel heralded the birth of jesus in the first place, its perhaps all hinged on gabriel himself that the second coming happens, ergo if they eradicate gabriel, then there's no second coming, and therefore there's no tilting of the scales to favour heaven in the eventual war that will follow
anyway i reckon there must be a tussle with beelzebub or demons in general in the graveyard because then it seems like beelzebub gets discorporated possibly in the graveyard (hence the marker in the opening sequence) and gets temporarily demoted back in hell for losing gabriel/jesus (leaving a power vacuum for shax???)
update: AYOO @goth-maudra had them eagle EYES and spotted this!!!!
WE SEE YOU SHAX 💅
update 18/07: ayo fucking called it???
but gabriel either gets possessed by jesus (see: funny as fuck) or something just generally happens to him in this fight that makes him lose his memory and possibly lose track of the box, so the whole thing gets all messed up and noone knows where jesus has gotten to... but god sends aziraphale a clue (✨✨A cLuE✨✨) to tracking it down, in the shape of the everyday record and the resurrectionist pub address (lmao is jesus in the JUKEBOX???) on a fucking post-it note
or maybe hell had something to do with gabriel losing his memory (shax? idk but that could be the motive for her getting chummy with crowley in the first place) (i promise I'm not hating on shax my beloved but she SCARES me) in an effort to stall the second coming and now they're trying to retrieve and kill goob to forestall it altogether
but what they didnt count on is a smart, fastidious, nosy lil angel boy sticking his oar in and getting there first, and being a good enough person to hide goob in the first place but i disgress
and beelzebub, knowing that there's a retired angel on earth and gabriel might naturally gravitate towards there, infiltrates the bookshop as a wee fly (funny af in the goob clip of him swatting them with books BUT also the fly is like centre placement in beelzebub's character poster... COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT) and feeds this back to shax, so shax gets chummy with the demon that she replaced 👀👀 and tries to get him to turn on aziraphale and pressure him to luring goob out of the shop so hell can get to him, pressing crowley's Jealousy and Possessiveness buttons to her advantage
now idk how i feel about goob getting lost/leaving the shop and aziraphale has to track him down by going to Edinburgh, ill need to ruminate on this more, but crowley saying 'ooooh hell won't like that' and infiltrating (see: strolling blithely into heaven cosplaying bill nighy in love actually) makes me HOPE that he is still fighting the good fight but something is niggling at me as to why he ends up on the throne in hell and NOT in the bookshop when the demon attack is taking place, that makes me think major angst will happen and crowley ends up inadvertently supporting hell in getting goob and preventing the second coming
sigh now i need to go update my episode timeline how the fUCK do i summarise this
#good omens#good omens season 2#crowley#aziraphale#the second coming#good omens speculation#not a shitpost but its good omens babyyyy
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i ramble a lot be warned <33
"if you woke and i was gone"
jes' sumthin short, sweet, and angsty for @aquaquadrant and @lunarcrown 's hels to pay au :] im known for fluff but i wanted to cry for a change i guess </3
bigger better things comin! <33 but i literally just got back from a 6 day thing ereyesterday w/no drawing time and in actually 7 hours i have to wake up to get on an airplane and have not slept yet. lmao. im gonna see the crane wives in chicago literal core memory abt to be made, ill keep ya posted otherwise.
also my vaforite crane wives song????? in the HashTag official pathbubs playlist???????? and also the songs i used for art titles???????? i am crying thbak you!!!!!!!!! <33333
and i dont say it enough, but thank you to wveryone for supporting me! every reblog helps and even a lil' like helps me microdose serotonin!
and thank you specifically to lunar n aqua for being so incredibly kind and leaving like an entire Paragraph of tags on each of my arts.!!!?.?!!?!! every time i see your guyses names in my notifs i get so incredibly happy and its not even funny because one day we're all gonna be 80 yrs old and still in the hermitcraft fandom and ill have a heart attack and die becuase i was so overjoyed to see that you liked my pieces!!!!!!!!!! genuinely yall have been a main reason why i create art in recent days, you both are so skilled in each of your respective crafts its amazing iand you dont get it wnough!!!!!!!!! my """little""" deranged series of pathbubs works has made me see a Significant improvement in drawing heads in 3d spaces! (cough cough its all th e kissing poses cough hm what was i sayin) and anatomy in general! ive gained such an understanding of the hesd in 3d, the way it attatches to the neck+torso and im feeling good about my art and like im actually improving and its because of two people and their names are lunarcrown and aquaquadrant seriously i cant thank you enough for just being here and doing what you do whether it be breathing life into empty canvases or creating whole universes in that squishy grey lump of sauce you keep in your skull or somehow making me cry because of a buhnch of squiggly lines and aeird symbols smushed together that i somehow understand?????? by using my own grey slab of meat????????????!!!!!!!!!!! just!!! wow!!!!!!!! i need to take a minute or twelve to go like bake bread and look at the stars and stuff and appreciate human life and the universe and maybe think about the mars opportunity robot
anyways. the POINT is. ...i lobve these gay idiots and the two incredible people who made them. love yall nd see you in a week <3
#almost physically hurts to remove the etho tags from this one#seattlesaltsartowrk#pathbubs#hels to pay au#hermitshipping#htp au#htp art#hels to pay art#bdubs fanart#bdoubleo100#bdoubleo fanart#bdoubleo#bdoubleo100 fanart
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How's flora nowadays
3 awnsers since I haven't quite decided where in there current OC timeline I decided to make my official normal point so hermm... I'm leaning to 1 but 2 is funny. Look at these babies.(Valerie and audery( how can I tell them they need to wait to exist....
1. No Valerie or Audrey born yet so post fl time somewhere approximately
- very out of it.,(like they daydream and space our)
- has to be physically constrained for him to not open a portal because to their own dream realm (normally by galacta)
-clingy to galacta knight
-really dislikes meta knight and looks at him really aggressively while he's talking to galacta (pre metagala btw I imagine.,)
- it often falls asleep and forgets to eat since it never really stayed awake or ate in the dream realm to conserve energy
- if he is awake they spend most of his time outside in flower fields or tending to a garden galacta told meta knight they should really get him if they wanted flora preoccupied
- he's not quite out of their dream world mindset and believes that is reality still, it hasn't been that long since they found them after all
- surprisingly one aspect he does go against the dream world is galactas gender. You would think he'd insit he's a girl but no. Floras doesn't gaf. Flora doesn't quite understand gender and just views it as "oh galacta got a new set of clothes neat"
- oh wait yeah so Mentioned theyre clingy to galacta but he does act flirty to him as well. Much to gks dismay who 1.has always viewed flora as a sibling like friend 2.what the fuck
He's pretty nice about and flora gets extremely confused but kinda goes what the hell did I do sosmthing wrong? what did I do ???
This is a bit minupltive on floras part but like. Floras isn't in the best mindset right now
Galacta has since just "broken up" with flora who is like???? What. What did I do..no seriously what the hell did I do and galactas reason was "we're better off as friends sorry I didn't tell u sooner oops" and flora kinda just goes okay. But did I do anything wrong. What did I do.
Flora wants a clear answer but galacta is unwilling to so just leaves it at that saying flora didn't really do anything, it's just galacta doesn't like him like that anymore LOL.
So yeah now that flora and galacta have "broken up" flora is mkre quiet and less clingy to galacta. He's trying to take it well but that was a small crack in his dream realm mindset so he thought maybe something is different. Maybe something is off. Just a maybe.
2. Current present time where I imagine my OCS most often? (Valerie and audery are alive so quite a bit in the future)
- has realized dream realm is fake. Not taking it qell
- this happened a lil bit after Valerie was born.
-he was freaking out and and panicking and trying desperately to repair the fantasy
-hes failing duh and he starts to just lock themselves away for some period of time before returning, paranoid as ever
- they thinkz everything ismt real right now
- no one is really sure how to help flora. Various attempt to keep them company, flora particularly dislikes: galacta, techno, blacknoise and meta. He has made better friends with some during this but he isntits it doesn't matter since no one is real. (Better friend club; Veri(not same situation but has the most experience with coping with mental illness))
- just really uncomtble being around Valerie and Audrey when he finds out about their existence.
-is debating if finding out this dream realm was a lie was a good thing or not and is unwilling at the moment to recover what was lost(memories post galacta gets sealed) which is understandable. That's more stress!!!!
- 👍
3. Valerie and audery are teens (yes I do use Valerie and Audrey as my measuring sticks)
- finally has accepted what reality is and doing a lot better.
- currently looking for mirri.
- yeah they're doing better now. Back to pre sealing gk flora but like a more mature one ig
- not entirely happy tho since it's dealing with everything ya know.
-new issue; he avoids sleeping. Atelast he eats regularly now!
Yeah👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 rip flora in number 2 hope you gett better soon🙏(they do get better but no too soon)
#mocha.txt#fecto flora#kirby oc#galacta knight#since hes kinda vety important here#mocha asks#mocha inbox
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dumps a couple stars in your inbox ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ want director's commentary!
gimme so cries the wolf - and i do actually have a part specifically, namely the lil talk between eclipse and monty that ranger ends up eavesdropping on, oh and actually also also eclipse's thought process encountering the other demonic animatronics - he brought the broken animatronics in, safe, n seemed quiet about it iirc. but also yeah any bits u wanna talk about too i want lore gimme
(and, technically cheating bc theres no fic for old forest gods but. spare old gods crumb? something about the lore you're really excited about? honestly curious about how/ if/ when the bet reveal happens, can imagine y/n feeling rather betrayed, hurt, whole lotta drama, or alternatively thats what sun and moon (and eclipse? since he comes in later) expect but y/n just does their damnedest not to wheeze laugh bc of all the people to woo in that town they picked the aro one. great job guys everyone hit the showers. but here too anything ill take everything gimme pleaaaseeee)
ok so I'm gonna split this ask into two because hooooooo there's gonna be BIG responses here, so this post is gonna be for SCtW and I'm gonna make another for Old Forest Gods AU
god the lil talk between Eclipse and Montague, when Eclipse opens up more about his struggle between wanting to stay vs. their original intent to leave once separated from Sun and Moon. I spent like 2 months working on that conversation. it was like I was physically fighting Eclipse's emotional repression. one of the biggest challenges I've really experienced with Eclipse is that they develop like. lightning fast, in terms of personality.
the reader has to remember that when he and Monty are having this conversation, Eclipse has only been ALIVE for what. 2 weeks? maybe 3? his WHOLE EXISTENCE has been the barest fraction of a regular human. mix that in with the fact that he has scattered memories from Sun and Moon, and demonic instincts, and yeah. sometimes I've needed to take steps back and observe this myself. is this too fast? is this too slow? one of Eclipse's biggest struggles is he literally doesn't have words to express a lot of their emotions, because he hasn't learned them yet, which was an important part of the conversation that was overheard. he physically has to pick through describing these feelings, hoping that Montague can give a better explanation (because the 200 year old grimm can provide more insight apparently)
but yeah. at the end of the day, Eclipse is limited in experience and understanding. it makes him narrow-sighted unfortunately, and struggling with trying to talk about emotions with Montague vs spending so much time taking all those emotions and cramming them in a tiny jar when interacting with ranger!Y/N? not a healthy combination. certainly not a useful one for a writer who is desperately trying to figure out how their characters are supposed to be interacting on the page
the broken animatronics too, ogh. as far as everyone thinks, all the other animatronics have been in the same boat as Sun/Moon - there was a soul in there, it mixed with a demonic presence, and then instead of getting free like Eclipse, they got stuck in the animatronic and turned feral. Eclipse mourns that, in a way. he brings the animatronics remains in as a small act of respect. he believes these meant something or someone like him existed, if only for a few seconds.
for some more lore:
yes as you may have noticed there, Montague is well over 200 years old. the church he originally protected was de-consecrated and demolished about 50 years ago due to severe weather damage, and rebuilt over the graveyard. with shifting cultures, Montague was called a hellhound and barghest in his various sightings, resulting in his temperance shifting accordingly (great power in names)
in chapter 1 I put a direct quote from Castlevania because it was very funny and doubled as the first hint that Eclipse had memories from Sun and Moon's time in the daycare
ranger!Y/N put salt around their bedroom doorframe on Montague's advice, and needs to spend half an hour 'refilling' it once every two months by scraping salt in using sandpaper
I started hinting at Eclipse's 'lightning breath' in chapter 3, making it a solid 6 chapter lead-up to it finally appearing in chapter 9. well worth it in my opinion~
(response for old forest gods AU is HERE)
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ok so um. There’s certainly plenty to be said about Way of Water, plenty of lil comments I want to make...but before I can post about any of that (separately), I just need to ramble about Neteyam a little bit. Bear with me. ;_; (yes, this will be spoilery)
so the idea that Neteyam was going to die had already been pretty prominent in the fandom for several months. At first it seemed to me to be based on nothing but wild speculation for potential sad plot points. But the more and more promotional material came out, the more and more plausible the theory became, much to my dismay. By the time we reached release day, I had already (if reluctantly) resigned myself to thinking that yes, it was probably going to happen.
And sure enough, it did.
Even going in knowing full well it was extremely likely to happen, even going in having 100% accepted that it was bound to happen and fully expecting it....gosh it still hurt to watch.
I will admit, I did not cry nearly as much as I expected to during this movie. I teared up a bit multiple times, definitely felt the physical heartache plenty, but nothing spilled over. I thought this was kinda weird, given that previously I’d shed tears even over certain shots from the trailer.
When Neteyam died and I absolutely felt my heart breaking in two yet tears still didn’t fall despite the emotional pain I was absolutely in, I realized why: I was just really dehydrated ^^;
see, worried about having to use the bathroom during the long runtime, I’d been very careful to drink as little as possible throughout the day. Well....it technically worked I guess. I certainly didn’t need to go to the bathroom. but it looks like it dried up most of my tears too (maybe not a wholly bad thing given that this was in public, I suppose).
....and yet despite that, DESPITE my dehydration........that ending???? that ending?????? let’s just say I STILL managed to leave the theater with a tearstained face
“bittersweet” is certainly A Word
just
m a n 😭
and I mean. from a writing perspective, I get it. I really do. The “before your birth, after your death” etc theme ran throughout the movie. Using an unrelated character to do it wouldn’t have as strong an emotional impact as using one of the core family. I get it. As a narrative choice, it makes sense.
but from an in-universe/character-pov perspective....gosh golly that hurt. that hurrrrrrrttttt and I don’t know if I’m ok. ngl i legit feel vaguely ill ;_;
My current job is fairly mindless work, so while I’m working my brain can wander. Naturally today my mind was on the fact that I’d been seeing the movie later so of course I thought a lot about it. Like I said earlier, I was already aware of the Neteyam-dies theory (well, no longer a theory I guess) and at that point had accepted it as inevitable, if depressing. I’d been trying to come to terms with it for a while already.
Those who have followed me long enough might know that there’s another movie I like called Wolf Children. It’s a beautiful movie, honestly, one that I appreciate very much, but have only watched a small handful of times because it makes me sob every single time. It’s about a woman who meets a...well, basically a werewolf (except that the transformations are voluntary), they fall in love and have two kids, but right after the birth of the second one the father dies in an accident, leaving the normal-human mother, to raise these two wolf kids on her own. And that’s most of the movie, following the family as the kids grow up until at the end of the movie all three characters go their separate ways. The ending always felt a little bittersweet to me because, even though both children are alive and well living their own lives, the mother is alone again, with only her memories. We saw the whole childhood, that special time as a family unit, and now that period of their lives is over.
That is, essentially, what I was expecting to be done with Neteyam. Watch his whole life, from birth to, well, in his case death. We see the whole thing and then it’s over, no more future with the rest of his family. Which hurts. And yes, that’s...more or less what happened.
While the two scenarios are not perfectly comparable, mentally framing Neteyam’s (then-impending, now-confirmed) death in terms of Wolf Children did actually help me cope with the then-theory.
I have to remind myself that even though his story is over, and that it ended tragically, that what we saw...wasn’t everything. It was snippets. We saw only very few snippets. For long stretches in between those snippets. For roughly 15 years the Sully family lived more or less in peace. Neteyam had a happy childhood. He lived all that, even though we only saw it so very briefly. I have to remind myself of this, repeatedly.
because even knowing that, watching the tragedy...it’s...it’s hard...
i just...
i just...
and then that. that ending I--
I just--
my heart is broken, it is aching, i cannot ;_;
#awow spoilers#avatar#avatar 2#the way of water#neteyam#i'm sorry for rambling so much about this I just. i need to cope#i have many other comments to make about the movie both silly and serious but this...#idk man this is just weighing particularly heavy on me right now; my heart is legitimately still hurting#there was so much good and/or interesting stuff to discuss in this movie and#i really really don't wanna let my heartbreak over neteyam's death negatively color the whole thing for me#especially when I went it very much expecting it#so i just. i just need to Cope#bear with me please#it's getting late though...i'll post other more lighthearted comments and such tomorrow#but i really needed to get this one out of the way first#man. just.........man#ow ;_;
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brain thought stuff
so ive been doing weekly therapy again for the past couple months and as i mentioned before i love my therapist. shes my age and also trans so ? thats great. all my other therapists have been older women that made me explain what being trans/nb is over and over again despite labeling themselves as lgbt friendly therapists lmao
anyway like. im really discovering how ingrained my low self worth is into my brain bc it really did start with my earliest memories and just kept getting into more toxic situations
i was emotionally neglected growing up and bullied k-12 for a plethora of reasons. when i did get my first friendships/relationship, they were like. borderline abusive* (both my therapist and i are hesitant with this word)
i have years of feeling like my self worth is reliant on how unhealthy people view my usefulness to their life?
i need to like. learn how to find myself worthy of just existing. worthy of waking up and being able to, as my therapist said, "breathe, eat, and fuck"
it feels really weird too bc i have spent years feeling like a waste of a person and like. inheritely a horrible person who is too self absorbed to realize it. i know i have made mistakes and could have handled these situations better, but it doesnt define me as a person. i try every day to be a better person for myself and my loved ones and its always weird to hear "well an actually shitty person wouldnt care about getting better" bc i then trick myself into being im one of those assholes utilizing therapy talk to justify my shit behavior
idr why i started this lil vent but like. idk it feels like therapy is working this time. its helping me realize some things, its helping me learn how to not fall into the same patterns (my therapist said im like an addict that cant leave unhealthy situations) , learning where my values lie and how to pick those values out in other people
most importantly tho, shes having me try to not define myself as an artist but rather someone that makes art. i have so much fucked up brain layers over my self worth and it being tied to what i create, i was starting to have like mini breakdowns over not getting enough attention for my work, which shouldnt matter bc i should do work for myself.
ive gone back to sketching in a real sketchbook and not posting a lot of my work bc then i am doing it strictly for myself. but maybe ill post a sketch collection at a later date for fun.
i still want to work on "angelkin" project aka SERAPH. which is an art project i started a yearish ago that is a self biographical look at these most "toxic" relationships and the feelings of devotion/obsession with uh. spoilers: the 3 people in my life that threatened suicide to various degrees/reasons towards me. bigger spoilers, imagine this also being tied in to my own self worth being connected to how well i can be Everything to someone. hence the angel theming
eh whatever, i hope you enjoyed my ted talk bc my lunch break at work is over now LOL
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AH SO the silly cotl x stray AU i mentioned my braincells sparked a lil bit so here is so rambling i wrote:
Hmm its mostly an au that kinda follows the stray game? I'm still deciding ngl. So like, I have two lines of thoughts. One that would kinda follow canon. And another one that has Lamb as an outsider and as the last huh living anthro creature that isn't a robot. A lot stays kinda the same between the AUs? The twins are the guardians of the slump. Forneus is that old lady robot that makes clothes. Narinder would be that robot that helps them in the beginning and then betrays them (Blazer). And I'm… really tempted in making Shamura the lil droid (b12) bc I feel that only them would could be a frustrated scientist that lost everything qnd that they couldn't really save their family or couldn't them; in this au ofc fjfjfjfjfjffj
ill probably try to work on a summary thing later tonight? And maybe make a thread of just post here heheheh But yeah, lamb as the last/one of the last "living anthro creatures" falling into their "world" and trying to find a way to leave it, and they end up meeting the other characters Maybe making shamura when they weren't a robot yet, turn all their siblings into robots to try and save them, but ending up not being able to put their consciousness into the robot they build for themself, leaving them alone in that building until someone (lamb) finds them and transfers it into the droid, but given how long it has been, they have no memory of what happened (edited)
okay and one more thought ygthrjewiufrhejdwks shamuras siblings have lost their memories overall, so they dont see each other as siblings at all some are friends and really close like narinder and leshy but thats it when shamure regains their memories, they tell narinder (since he was like the first one that was trying to help lamb) about it, who kinda has an existential crisis over it bc he remembers them and it makes him regret betraying lamb and shamura hrkejoiufied
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hey hi someday when u have like ten minutes would u teach me how to write please??? just cause that itty bitty lil snippet you just shared made me physically ill and altered my brain chemistry permanently. if u could just like........sneeze on me......maybe everything will be okay????
dsjhjdsfhjfdshjdfs MEG HOW DARE U SAY THIS WHEN EVERYTHING U WRITE HAS MY BRAIN ON FIRE
just for u, I dredged out the rest of that absolute horrorshow. it's been gathering dust in my docs for months
it's weird speculative fucknonsense like, oh shit!!! boseph and the reader are stuck in a timeloop!!!! an ouroboros of pain and misery!!! it's all v confusing out of context but I definitely.........wrote it jdsfhjhdfsjhdfsj
1.
"There has to be something wrong with you." Your mother looks at him across the kitchen table. He brought tulips. You can't tell if she's wearing her face or someone else's.
"There's something wrong with everybody, mama." You've never called her that. Is that your mother? Is that his? You don't remember her hair being that shade, but your memory isn't what it used to be.
"I hurt her on purpose." Sometimes it seems like he's grown more teeth and they're crowding into his mouth. They've gone sharp again. Wait, look at the flowers on the table. Carnation now.
"So, you got a brother?"
He has two. Two and you've kissed both of them. You'll do it again. They know what your cunt tastes like. He doesn’t, he tells you. He never will. Because that's a place of rot, of death. But you wake up with a tongue inside you because he's between your legs again, practicing penance.
He must not mind blood. He must not mind decay on his tongue. He must taste his brothers. Maybe he misses them.
“Where have you been, my love? My sweet girl. You left one day and you never came back.”
And you say
Mama, I'm sorry, I've just been real busy.
Busy doing what? Getting hurt? You're growing up, baby. I can't stop you from getting big. No matter what I do, I can’t.
And you know, you know, because suddenly you're sitting on her side of the table wearing her skin and your son is holding some girl's hand. And she's looking at you and telling you that she hurts him on purpose sometimes. Because he asked her to, he begged her like a slut, and he’s so pretty when he takes himself apart in front of her. She knows what his blood tastes like. She wants more.
Do you love my baby? Do you have any siblings? Will he leave one day and never come back?
Do you love me on purpose sometimes or is it always an accident?
2.
His cum tastes like mercury from a broken thermometer. Oranges with sugar sprinkled over them. Home. Wait. Wrong boy, same face. You got a little confused. It's understandable. You can't help yourself. You want to scoop out your insides and give them to him to eat. He'd do it nicely, if you ask politely.
There are rules here, gorgeous. We weren’t raised by wolves.
3.
You’re leaning on the pool cue. You look like you did the first day, in your pretty little clothes, the flush of health in your cheeks. In this dream, you reached Baton Rouge. He meets you here. He’ll always meet you here. This is his favorite bar. He’s always here, he’s a regular.
“Need a partner?”
“Don’t know.” You wink at him. “Are you okay with losing?”
“Feisty.”
“This time, yeah.” You smile at him. You’ve got lipstick on. He wants to smear it down your chin.
4.
“Why did you do that?” Your voice is small, gurgled around the blood on your teeth. He likes the way the crown of your head is wet with blood.
“Why you think?” He stands in the doorway to the basement. You’re in the chair and you’re dead, but so is he.
“Tell me, please. Tell me.” You hiss. “I love your voice.”
“I missed ya’.” He hears the words echo in his head, fifty feet high in neon.
“I thought I would give it a try again, you know.” Your voice is a dirty croak. “Just to see.”
“And whatchu find out?”
“We always end up back here.” You smile at him. “You took a different road this time. I haven’t been there in a while.”
“Didn’t notice.”
“You know, we got a hotel room up in the city once. I made you buy me wine.”
“Sounds nice.”
“I was hoping this was the one where we walked on the boardwalk. Before.” His initials trickle down your arm. “I don’t know why.”
“How many times we been down here?”
“Couple times." You hiccup out a laugh. "I like your shirt. You look good.”
“Night, baby.”
5.
He's fucked you or you've fucked him. He's not sure where the ache is coming from or where it's all supposed to go but someone can't sit down. There's a bag of peas in the fridge.
6.
You’re a tableau of gore, blood soaked through your nightgown. Your head sloshes unevenly on your shoulders. He can see the window through the shotgun blast in your eye. It’s dark out there. You clasp your hands and hum, busying yourself with the stove. You leave muddy footprints on the floor, the bottom of your nightgown sodden.
He sinks to his knees in the kitchen. You thread a hand through his hair, tugging his head up to look at you. Dripping with murky water, leaving parts of you everywhere.
“Where are we?”
“Heaven.” You smile at him. Blood drips onto his face.
“How long we been here?”
“I’m not sure.”
Are you cooking tonight, baby? Are we having peas, am I having you, down my throat and inside me and in my blood? Are we going to bed again or are we going to church? There’s a hole in your head and I’ll fuck it. I’ll fill you up because you love me. Because we’re having a baby, mama. We’re having a baby! I’m gonna be a daddy. You’re sitting in the waiting room and you’ve had the baby and I’m showing you pictures of him at baseball practice. What are you making? Let me help. Please.
“You ain’t never gonna get tired of this?”
“Of course not. Never. I love you.”
7.
You sit in an apartment living room. There’s Halloween decorations still up—it’s May, isn’t it? and a collection of half-eaten takeout boxes on the coffee table. Lazy fucks. You can hear the city outside the window. Where are you again? Does it matter? You look into the bedroom. They’re playing a card game.
“Lick your partner's boot, yay or nay?”
“Gross. Nay.” The version of you on the bed wrinkles her nose. “Question time. Where did we meet?”
“Uh. Huh…uh.” The him on the bed screws up his brow, sticks his tongue out in mock-confusion. He looks out at the living room, grinning. “Ya’ know this one?”
“House party.” The Him you know leans into the bedroom, resting his head on the frame. He’s bleeding from the back of his head. You shot him. There’s no exit wound. That’s your blood. “It’s a fuckin’ dump in here.”
“Bingo!” The boy on the bed folds his fingers into the shape of a gun. Taps them on the girl’s forehead. She’s wearing a t-shirt they bought in some backwater town last year.
“You can’t do that! I don’t have a phone-a-friend! She won’t even talk to me.” The you that sits on the bed has chipped nail polish. She’s pouting. And suddenly he’s kissing her, and the cards are slipping off the bed.
“Are you ever one of them?” You ask Him.
He shakes his head.
“I’m always out here watchin’. I dunno who the fuck that is.”
And he asks you “Which one do you want?” while you’re reaching for the knife in the kitchen and you want to say him, because you can hear them fucking in the other room and she’s giggling. They went on vacation and he drove. He had his keys, you guess. She’s giggling and there are flies buzzing around the takeout and suddenly you guess that this might just be a dump anyway. He’s right. He’s always right, except when he’s turning down the back roads. Then he’s left.
If you could find your fucking keys, we could get out of here. You stupid fuck. Please kiss me again.
So you tell him “Her.” and he presses himself against your back and you ache because you aren’t full, you aren’t hurt. He hasn’t actually fucked you yet. It might be another thousand years until he does again.
Where were you at the party? Which room did we meet in? Did you fuck me in the bathroom? Did we ever go on that trip? I’ve got questions, please, please, daddy. Haven’t I been good? Don’t I deserve to know? Why don’t we ever wake up as them? Why do I have to listen to him fuck her? Why is she laughing?
“Don’t make us wait all fuckin’ day!” The him in the other room calls out. “The next card is voyeurism!”
“Yay or nay?”
You eat the rest of the chow mein. The maggots taste like love.
8.
Your son calls you by your name. You haven’t heard it in years.
Daddy’s a photographer, baby. He takes pictures of weddings. He takes pictures of the sky.
“I found more in Pa’s drawer.” He chokes around air, his words coming out in watery gulps. He stares at you through your eyes. You see him without seeing him. You see yourself.
“What were you doing in there, baby?” You hear your voice behind you, curled beside your ear. It comes from the door and the window and the wallpaper—and then deeper still, in the core of the house, bleeding.
“I was lookin’ for a gun.”
The floor underneath you splinters and you bottom out. You’re in the caverns snaking under the town and the church pews. You’re not in any of those places, either. The fuzz of television static is back, crowding around you and pushing you between the jagged hopping of the lines as they jitter around your skull.
“Baby.” You gather him into your arms, pulling him into the crook of your neck. He sobs. His grip is too tight. You’ve been here before, but never like this. The static hisses into glittering points of light. The front of your dress is soaked with tears, with the blubber of drool from his mouth as he babbles that
he didn’t know why he did that, because daddy always keeps his guns in the living room, and he knows that, but he went in anyway because maybe he’d forgotten this time—
Your lightning bug boy with baby fat still in his cheeks, skimmed off the edges to make room for a face that began and ended with you. Half-man already, limbs too big for the space he occupied. The remnants of the boy on the roof, a bruise blooming on his cheek. Your heart walking around and growing teeth.
—and maybe maybe mama, I could. I could.
I know how.
“Baby. You gotta go put all that back.” Your voice is a whisper of smoke above the treeline.
“How long you been here, mama?”
You can see yourself on the set of drawers over the top of his head. She smiles at you.
9.
You're at the top of the ferris wheel and you ask him if you can stay here. He tells you that you're stupid, that if you stayed here you would die. You're too high up. Eventually all the air would go out of your lungs and the amusement park would fall out from underneath your feet. You stupid slut, take it, choke on it, choke on it for daddy. Keep calling me that, I'm gonna come. Fair season is ending. Everything's gotta end eventually. Except for this, right? You celebrate the harvest, you tuck a cigarette in his back pocket. For luck, for love. If you stayed here, maybe you could see past the top of the trees. Maybe you could see the smoke.
Are you trying to fucking LEAVE me, baby?
Don't leave yet.
Hold your breath. I like being up here with you.
10.
So many gods, but only one church. An old western plays on the theater screen. It's the idea of a different world. This town ain't big enough for the both of us. It never was.
#u did not ask for this but I gave it to u bc I am INCAPABLE of shutting tf up tonight djhfdjhdfjhdfsj#anyways ily meg can u teach ME how to write#FR!!!!!!#asks#visceravalentines#sinclair brainrot hours#this is pre-writing sanguine and u can absolutely tell lmao hdjhdfjsh#I was on some other shit fr
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Hollow Cleric Pokemon Teams. This time featuring Jin Mei and Temenos.
Jin Mei (Double Battles)
Ninetales-Alola - While it's bad to have fairy types during the Eternal Night, Jin Mei couldn't really bear to leave her behind and just decided to change her moveset so that she can survive better. She a joy to have and likes to sit on Jin Mei's lap a lot.
Aurorus - Found him in a cave near Winterbloom and raised him from an Amaura to an Aurorus after the end. He a bit big but he likes to go and gently headbutt Jin Mei sometimes. Unfortunate that immediately the man gets chills but ah well. That's what he gets for encouraging pets when it was still a baby.
Arctozolt - Was caught before the end and near Montwise after it escaped from somewhere...Kazan encouraged him to catch it and add it to his team. He doesn't really want to part ways with it despite the bad memories it brings up.
Baxcalibur - Caught after the end. Was mulling around near Stormhail when Jin Mei was still contemplating going home. He's a bit lax and doesn't like moving a lot but they hit like a truck once they get going.
Rotom - Found near Roque Island after the end. While the trip was very pointless as there was no sign of Kazan anywhere, he did get a new friend. Even if the new friend kept on trying to steal his spear...Often he goes and switches from Wash and Frost forms. Can't ever be too cautious. Especially since he knows that Kazan is partial to Fire types and Flying types
Luxray - Jin Mei's Starter and Ace. They're a proud thing and has Guts as an ability. Alongside Jin Mei they have braved the snow and showed that they can withstand the temperatures of Stormhail. It is cautious of Jin Mei as time goes on and the man gets more obsessed with revenge. Knows Return and the move does less and less every time a battle with Jin Mei happens...By the time Stormhail rolls around with Temenos it knows Frustration instead.
Temenos (Technically he has multiple Pokemon teams but this is the main one)
Umbreon - The one Pokemon he found on his person when he woke up. The lil guy seemed to know what's going on but unfortunately the barriers between man and Pokemon are still there. At the very least they help guide Temenos to the right places.
Absol - Found after meeting Crick which...bode ill will. Still, Absol's aren't exactly bringers of disasters. They just warn people of it. So Temenos brought it along so that maybe he would be warned of disaster before things go wrong. They're surprisingly affectionate.
Meowstic (Male) - Found as Temenos was making food. He isn't sure when he caught it. It just. Appeared in his bag one day and wouldn't stop following him. They just stare at people but are generally helpful.
Typhlosion-Hisui - Came with Temenos after the man helped it with putting souls to rest. He is very grateful for that and thus follows the man around in hopes of bringing other souls to rest. A bit of mischievous thing, something Temenos is very pleased about.
Togekiss - Found in Flamechurch. Seems to have known Temenos. Now she follows him around in hopes that maybe Temenos could remember what had happened before. Likes to snuggle and sit on the man's lap. Also may have went and laid an egg once or twice, much to Temenos' confusion.
Zoroark-Hisui - Caught after impersonating Roi. Very volatile but after a while they got along great with Temenos' team and soon became a rather charming member to have on the team. Goes and often fools others with their illusions.
temenos meeting an absol after finding crick… yeah thats checks out. cricky boy can never catch a break
VERY glad you gave temenos the Autism pokemon in the form of Meowstic. this also supports my personal theory that temenos just stares at people really hard until they get nervous and spill the beans whenever he does his coerce path action so it’s a win all around
also… arctozolt….. give jin mei a Creature. he’s earned one
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get to know me game!
tagged by: @dearhee 🙏 💕
no pressure tags!! @redm4ri @haknom @blossomnct @sunoksunny @delcakoo @taejays @hannikz @mazeinthemiroh @soov and anyone else who wants ofc!!
birthday: oct 3rd skz chan is my bday twin and loml 🙏 (fr i miss him sm 🙁)
favourite colour: sage green but i really like all colors if they don't blind me 💀
do you have pets? no 💔 i used to have a parrot but we gave him away 😭😭
how tall are you? um i will get bullied but im 5'4 last time i checked 💀
how many pairs of shoes do you own?
like....4-5?? idk i haven't bought any in a while
favourite song: ditto, devil by the window, mixed up, attention please, opening sequence, muddy water, all in, beside you, and many more just stalk my Spotify to know 💔
favourite movie: train to busan 😭😭
who would be your ideal partner?
hmm.... idk tbh but probably someone who's like me but no yk? i really like the familiarity but ik i wouldn't handle another me💀 maybe someone like beomgyu yk or junhan or jay or hongjoong or hyunjin or seungmin. i think me and hongjoong r soulmates fr we would be are happily married ❤️.
do you want children? tbh yes? kinda? i think it would be nice but idk i dont mind it.
have you gotten in trouble with the law?
no I am a good child come on now
what colour socks are you wearing? blue and black
favourite type of music: all of it i will listen amd vibe to everything fr. i wouldn't say i hate a song yk id say i wouldn't look it up but if it was playing ill do a lil dancey dance
how many pillows do you sleep with? 2 and 2 tiny plushies and 1 decorative one
what position do you sleep in? idk what it's called but i basically become a tiny ball of sleep and drown in the covers 💀
what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: probably when someone wakes me up when i just started to drift off. like?!??? helour leave me alone??!?? and probably when my feet r too cold the rest of my body.
what do you have for breakfast: depends sometimes a savor yomy sandwich sometimes a sweet yomy cereal. sometimes black coffee sometimes a latte sometimes a cup of tea of u will.
have you ever tried archery? once at gym hurt myself bad didn't like it 👎👎
favourite fruit: strawberries apples and oranges (i miss eating oranges 💔)
are you a good liar? not to self diagnose but i might be a psychological lair 😂😂🤥
what’s your personality type? it was enfp i think but ill have to redo the test soon lol.
innie or outie? im gonna say this is about being introverted or extroverted 💀💀 I am a bit of both tbh.
left handed or right handed? a leftiee
favourite food: pasta or fries 🙏
favourite foreign food: kushary idk if anyone knows it but it's Egyptian and its just 💔💔
am i clean or messy? id say clean i try to keep my surroundings tidy as i can yk
most used phrase: (all memes from Walmart enha) hello?? ayo?? huh?? oh. slayyy - fr - ong- 🙏- naurrr - NO. - die. - el oh el - kys. - el em ay oh - (person) (last negative thing they did) era - LMAO. - ok.
how long does it take for you to get ready: usually like 15-25 minutes including makeup outfit hijab and packing my handbag / bag yk
do you talk to yourself? all the time!
do you sing to yourself? if im not singing sleeping it's all i do. no family member has complained about my signing so I think it's a sign to start my career 😂😂🤘🤘
are you a good singer? i hope i am 😕 i think i have a decent voice i quite like any runs i do when signing sum LMAO 💀
biggest fear? cockroaches, confrontations and god 🙏
are you a gossip? i am THE gossip
do you like long or short hair? short hair. my hair is medium length rn but i like short hair more long hair has bad memories.
favourite school subject: I've always liked science general but idk anymore grade 9 wss brutal 💀💀
extrovert or introvert: id say both (again) cuz I enjoy talking and going out but also staying in w someone sounds so comforting
what makes you nervous: everything. my teachers. people staring too long at me. people laughing at me. (i cant tell if it's w me or at me most of the time :/)
who was your first real crush? grade 2 his name was assi i think that's how u spell it. he was also Syrian had blonde hair blue eyes and had my heart fr 💔
how many piercings? 2 one in each ear
how many tattoos? 0 (i am a minor and haram bro)
how fast can you run? i think i could run a good distance ye im not the athletic type but it's fun sometimes
what colour is your hair? chocolate brown with blonde streaks. very new look my hair was always been dark brown 💀
what colour are your eyes? brown 💔
what makes you angry: many many things having anger issues every little thing annoys me. im just gonna say top 5 lol
1.people who don't listen
2.people who look down on others
3. people who r literally nothing being jealous of others and making their lives hell( who wants a story time 😂😂)
4. getting blamed for something i had nothing to do with
5. having to be the mom of the house when i am a literal child.
do you like your name? ye I've learned to accept it 💪
do you want a boy or a girl as a child?
idm tbh but let just say if i have kids they both will be a mommy's girl/boy. cuz ye
what are your strengths? hm... im gonna say im honest ill tell people shit to their face no hesitation sometimes 💀. im strong?? idk. ima good manipulator 😂😂. id say im pretty understanding and comforting (at least i hope so) ig das it? idk not used to thinking about myself positively yk
what are your weaknesses? probably myself? like i do one small tiny mistake and suddenly i have no self worth, i deserve death, i mean nothing to anybody, everyone hates me snd is using me and i deserve it. and etc etc yk.
what is the colour of your bedspread? yellow 😕
colour of your room: yellow 😐 i need my own room fr
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Ooooooh
I wanna write some Mole interest fics!!
First draft
My phones broken so that's why the lines are a little choppy
I'm gonna do it!!
Kelly was a small child
A smart small child
Who did everything right
Went to school
Didn't fuss
Revised
Did the dishes
And every day would be more or less the same
And she was doing a great job
Walk to school
Revise, learn, work with a tutor, speak to people about whatever they were talking about
Things were completely ok
Everything was satisfactory
And she got praise, was told how smart she was, how amazing she was doing
Life is good
"I guess I'm just gonna do this till I'm 23, the 8 year old said"
And then her parents enrolled her in accelerated class, with quadratic equations, high school physics, chemistry, just go off the books, make flash cards, and commit the equations to memory
"This will get me great stuff"
Right! Yes, futures, I can do whatever I'd want with those good qualifications I can get!!
..
Yes yes, everything is good and nice
I've always been a bit of a inside cat, I like the inside, it's warm, humid, quiet, I'm not running around anywhere
And I can focus on important stuff
I'm supposed to be good at all these things
So I should revise
My life's all planned out for me~
School, college, job, I guess marriage, and then, I'll just have to steal some kids, seems easy enough. Heheheheheheeh
Steal some kids, im so funni >:3
{am I doing this right...}
I guess life went on
I guess
I- don't know where I went
I've been doing everything right
Why, I feel like I'm dry on the inside
Like an empty egg
Feeling the dry and grainy shell from the inside
My mom was on Facebook today
I tried to interact, as I assume one does
And it just didn't happen
Like a grey rock
The more you push the more you feel like you're leaning against a rock
She didn't even seem to be doing anything interesting
What goes on in the world, it feels like the sound just tuned out
I'm, I'm not pumped up like I used to be, I'm not tired, but, it's like I'm a toy car, I can move, but theirs no string pulling me forward, or side ways
Like a puppet with no strings, or sticks
I'm just here, by myself
It's a bit like a desert
I feel dry and sandy, but it's more vast now, like it spread, like the world changed, and I can't see it anymore, and it's going grainy, like theirs nothing there
I'm gonna aproaach high school soon
Wonder what be like
My high has trees along the back of the field
Around the parking lot
Walk to, absorb, leave, more of the same
Maybe it's dehydration
That's probably why I feel so dry
But it's in my chest
Maybe an illness, some sickness
I'm walking around the car park now, nice trees, all fruit trees, something black or dark purple, maybe it's not fruit
Who's even gonna eat it?
There are no birds around here, and no squirrels their, there isn't life besides us for miles
And who's want to go all the way up and get one
It'll just stain the tarmac and puncture someones tire, and they'll rot around the parking lot
What a pain
Where is my family, I've been waiting for ages
Did they forget about picking me up
Oh, they'll be here soon, I should just wait
Shff shff
My head whips around
What was that!!!
The heck was that, where did it come from, whatwhatwhatwhatwas that.
I don't like that
It's too close to be leaves, it's not my jacket, it's zipped close
And I see it, a little black hairy thing, it looks like a hover with a little pink nose
And little hands
It's so small
It just dug it's up from the ground, right next to me, he's so, small
I forgot what I was thinking
His lil hover face c:
_we just sorta sit their, well I'm standing but you get what I mean
It's life outside of my immidiate family
It's a non-human living thing
It's breathing, and it can see me
It's so
It's like one of those Taylor swift shows
It's pretty and, like all the fans doing the same r as each other, like this big multi person wave where you, feel, everything
It's like that, I'm like that
Like the sun when it's all orangy
It's so, like you wanna forget what your doing and just stare
It's all focused and vauge and asdfdafdafadfafff
It feels good
Real good
My dad's car drives up and the mole is gone
The moment is gone
Still got some good feeling though, that was nice, I wonder if I'll see it again
Chapter 1 end
im sorry, we turned your boyfriend into a mole. yeah and all of tumblr‘s interested in him now. sorry
edit 9/12/23 11.22 CET
and so it begins…
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