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thecherrygod · 3 months

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#my posts #trying to do the usual thing i do so that if you happen to see this post you dont read whah #what* im actually saying unless you click read more tags or whatever that thing says #idk if this is enough. it probably is. ive done this enough times and i still never know lmao #which makes sense bc i always do this when i feel like shit so of course i dont remember im not thinking exactly what the limit is #but man i do feel like shit im so tired #i went from feeling like a miserable piece of shit to being sick for a week and when i got good enough i went back into feeling like shit #i thought maybe it was done and over with but guess what!#im tired man idk.#i feel like anything else i may add to this post could make me reach the point where i end ip deleting the entire thing lmao #im just tired of feeling like im never doing better but also im pretty sure i deserve that #which like. i am aware its illogical but it doesnt make it better lmao #ive been trying to ignore the feelings these past few days and its not trully working also so uh. yeah #gonna keep using my phone for shit until i fall asleep ig

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ef-1 · 8 days

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#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad #and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything #i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing #but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT #and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing #and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over #and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop #and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me #and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it #again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that #so I felt guilty throughout #anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely #and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods #heres to healing ❤️‍🩹

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dizzybizz · 2 years

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a simple qif sketch page

#im so tired man aaaa #feel like i havent drawn qif in soooo long #hes one of my go to characters for scribbles tho #a fucked up little guy #i havent been keeping up with the manga since ch60?? i think?? but i do know that shit goes down and im too scared to pick it back up ahaaa #witch hat atelier #wha #tongari boushi no atelier #tbna #qifrey #fanart #my art #hes poor little meow meow to me #and malewife and babygirl #man of many talents isnt he #stuffs him into a piñata and hangs him up at a childrens bday party #hes one of those characters i get so violent about

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jrueships · 4 months

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pretty privilege in general is a terrible tool. but when the racism that it's ingrained in really has a platform to activate, it's just absurd .

#if ure a pretty white boy. oh my goodness. roll out the red frickin carpet to all the fame attention & feminization in the world #omg hes so pretty. pretty like a woman. hes just like a woman. lets treat him like an object #everything he does isnt really his fault. hes just a girl bcs hes pretty. bcs hes pretty lets make him cry #lets do a deepdive into his character & pounce or paint any opportunity possible to find a villain in his life that isnt himself #meanwhile a poc person is pretty & theyre get a compliment sure #but never like. a normal one #they can get treated like a goddess or a god yea #but like. one that imposes fear and distance. only to be admired from a distance #if ure pretty and poc then ure an artifact to steal #if ure pretty and white then ure a crisp blank page for ppl to doodle out all their fantasies and plans for u to fold right along into #bcs ure pretty just like a girl: usable.#shit is just stacks on stacks on stacks of stagnant thinking stacked onto sick ideals #idk man #maybe im just going crazy bcs i hate too much of anything. getting irritable & tired from feeling trapped #cant ever escape anything bcs the very existence of escape implies the threat of capture

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mystical-one · 11 months

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WARNING IM GOING TO BE HONEST AND EARNEST HERE. i really unironically unconditionally liked now and then

#like honestly i listened to it 2794288 times in the shower and came to the disgraceful revelation that like. oh my god it is a fucking beatl #es song and theyre 81 and 83 and 37 and 52 and theyre still ON the same song and fuck shit yes i get the solo is NOT georges and it makes me #a little upset but its still done in his memory and his style andthis is PAUL we are talking about and of course he is going to run away #with a project like this and going to do the solo but EVEN then he made the solo with george in mind and tried to emulate his style whether #it was an accurate representation or not they still care so fucking much. theyre the FUCKING beatles releasing music TODAY what the fuck #i will definitely feel different about this tomorrow morning but ive listened to this thing through on repeat since it released and buddy.#who care. like SO fucking much everyone care but WHO CARE!!!!!!!!! OLD MAN BEATLES YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY IN 2023!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sorry does this make sense. like im a george defender until i die but i could heard his guitars enough to be moderately pacified and #honestly im too tired and excited and emotionally drained to care anymore. tjey tried so so hard to do something and they DID it #i have a much MUCH more nuanced opinion that i could go into. but i dont want to rn🙏🏻#emi's meandering jotts

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piplupod · 3 months

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i am not going to touch several queer discourse topics going around with a ten-foot pole but i will say that i think perhaps people would be more chill and less quick to jump on being angry if they actually grasped that nonbinary people exist and intersex people exist, and both of these groups are (generally speaking) not going to have a traditionally acceptable experience with gender and sex.

the binary is not real, both in terms of gender and biological sex.

there are complex experiences beyond your own, ones that you may not understand. you get to decide how you react to that.

#im so fucking tired of this shit #if like five ppl on earth /openly/ ID with a confusing label it will not change the general public's view on that label #hell people still think gay means only a man and a man despite queer ppl across the board using it to ID with #trans still means binary mtf or ftm to most people. they don't think of nonbinary people almost ever.#the general perception of words will not be ''marred'' or ''tarnished'' by a few outliers with complicated labels and experiences #(obviously this does not apply to labels that are specifically for certain racial/ethnic groups such as t.wo-spirit)#(<-unsure if ''racial/ethnic groups'' is the right wording for that. please feel free to correct me if theres a better way to word it)#i have seen above (exclude brackets) being used as a reason to shout at queer people online and i think its a fucking stupid reason.#any other reasoning behind the discourse i will simply not touch. i think ppl are too quick to jump to conclusions about intention!#and they do not ever consider non-binary experiences of things. they do not ever consider intersex experiences.#pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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theprinceandthewitch · 1 month

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...The only response you should give to misogynistic men who insist "single fathers are better than single mothers in every way" is:

"I see... You're so right John. It's so clear to me now... men should actually marry each other! I mean, single fathers are much better then single mothers in every way, right? So, imagine the benefits of having TWO men raise children. We should transition to a system where men marry each other, men raise children and women can live as bachelorettes."

Watch the way the seethe.

#im tired of these misogynistic males with a hatred for life misrepresenting data to appeal to their audiences #they completely ignore socioeconomic factors and the fact most societies in the world operate as a patriarchy #women STILL get paid less than men who work in the same field #Captain Misogyny is just making shit up because he read a mean joke about men and now wants women to feel bad #I also ''like'' the narrative of boys and girls can become stable adults without moms but they are doomed for misfortune without dads #Okay Mr. Testicular Tantrum w/e u say...#lol men will be like ''men are soooo much better than women when raising children" and don't see how #they're blowing holes in their nuclear family argument #so are women necessary for raising kids or are we not and only men are fit for it. Make up your mind #then there is the other side of the misogyny circus who insists women bring nothing to the table in a relationship.#GOD you are so annoying. JUST MARRY EACH OTHER! You can do that now. Marry another man and shut up.

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 6 months

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due to things lining up Horribly, no stream this weekend! and maybe not the next, either!

#i got too much shit happening this weekend </3 #and then i might not have the next off... i still havent gotten my schedule!#i got a sticky note for two days and thats It so far!#oh man im sorry about the lack of Update posts too #im. so tired.#i have No spoons like... at all....#i want to curl up in bed and sleep for a decade but! cant!#i have a 9 hour shift to do again! and again! and again! and again. and again. and again. and again. and agai-#absolutely unprompted #yk i thought having Limited free time would give me motivation to do things i want to #nahhhh its just making me Sad lmao #my brain before: we have all the time in the world so we can do it later #my brain now: we have no time at all so why bother #man. i dont want to get into a groove and then have to either cut it off or be prematurely Exhausted at work.#by the end of the day i already feel dead... cant feel dead at the start or i wont make it...#wow look at me complaining. its been Two Days.#gonna bring a sketchbook so that i can at least doodle during my breaks + lunch #brush up on my traditional skills....

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 8 months

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crazy how any mlm gojo ship is perfect actually

#stsg? classic. i dont need to say anything theyve ruined me for life #nanago? sweet n cute <33 classic grumpy x sunshine except theyre both repressed men in their late twenties what more could u want #sukugo? hunger as a metaphor for love <33 incredibly homoerotic <3333 just two men teaching each other abt love through violence <333333 #goken? … the forbidden option but im sooo weak for it ok. the longing the hatred the animosity #kenny killing the two six eyes havers before gojo … ending up in the body of the man he loves most …. being forced to feel that love #and gojo being forced to see his one and only’s body being manipulated. being forced to hear kenjaku speak in suguru’s voice #there’s just sooooo much there like im obsessed . peaked divorced couple energy #also throwing in ijichi x gojo for the lols but i do think theyre cute i just need gojo to start treating him well 😭😭😭#“you’re the man i trust most.” <- gojo pls come out of the closet im so tired of your shit #also if u want crackships pls consider; higuruma x gojo / choso x gojo ….. theyre sooooo his type #ari noises ✩

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puppyeared · 8 months

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adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

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solivagantingrebel · 2 months

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i need depression to stop kicking my ass right now

#im so tired #. and i slept the entire day #everything feels like it weighs 100x more than before #i would like to move normally again #i would. like to feel alive again #why am i having the worst day again ehay did i do to deserve this #i just want to write silly fictional people doing stupid shit #and not actively rot the more i try to breath #vent #i hate it here #dragged myself like a decayed corpse to my desk and i can't even lift my hands #fuck this man

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mitskifannumber1 · 5 months

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Does anyone have any tips on how to ask your parents if you can go to therapy. I don't have the balls to ask but I've been feeling like shit for fucking years now, and atp it's just annoying. I annoy everyone around me and that really fucks with my head, idk why

Anyways, I'm probably just gonna kms, so it doesn't really matter, lol

#lol #idk man #send help #im insane #i need sleep #im just a girl #depressing shit #idk how to tag this #real #idk #therapy #feeling like shit #holy shit #wtf #im so silly #idk what im doing #im tired

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orcelito · 4 days

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8 pm beddy bye bc im so tired I'm nauseous got NO chores done today could just barely feed the cats. It's honestly rough in here. Running out of plates. I only have my giant plates left. Need to clean the litter boxes. But if I smell even 1 more stink I will hurl so I am in bed to rest up so that maybe tomorrow I will be less tired. We will hope!!!

#speculation nation #and tomorrow.. maybe i can actually do some chores before class or smth...#i need to take out my trash do the dishes clean the floors and clean the litter boxes. all of them. desperately.#wish i had the energy today but i do not. i feel like a crumpled ball of yarn. tangled. of course.#its so early my soul is protesting this but im just so tired... literslly nauseous about it lol #am i getting old. i keep getting so tired around like 9 pm. man what is this. im a night owl what is this.#must be bc i have to wake up 6:30-8:30 4 days a week. two each for each time #over half the week im wakin up shit early which meaaaaaaans my body is adapting. what is this. it's disgusting.#unfortunately my body wont listen to the soul on this one today folks. it is in Punishment Zone.#aka when i am exhausted enough i start getting Symptoms. ive got the aches and the nausea rn #i feel a headache threatening to appear. and if i try staying up even more well then thatd end up with like the coughs or some shit #primarily nausea tho. did i mention im nauseous? i feel like i didnt mention it enough.#lord help me im going down. 🫡 may my descent into unconsciousness be quick.

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cherrytea556 · 6 months

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I'm conflicted of wanting to do a vid calling out TBYS for shit the patterns I've seen that others haven't (e.g his speculations, biases etc) but at the same time, that requires me to look at TBYS in depth, meaning watching all his videos in depth, and I honest to god don't know how to feel about that. Will call out his out of pocket claims to random woman being abusive though in any way I can cuz it's just so ridiculous.

#tbys #think before you sleep #i honestly have more shit i gotta get done than that #though i wanna more people to see what i see cuz im tired of the praise for this man i dont see it #there are moments where he is so obviously being rediculous yet not even critics will mention it #only i can cuz i heard it #i was there #watching him was giving me brain rot at times i swear i would need some actual substantial reason to do that #actually i feel like his comment sectioj gives me more brainrot than he has #he managed to sperge in a bunch of dumb people who will defend him to hell and back #only i seen a few critics not filled with his defenders but all in all thsts usually what happens #anyways

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piplupod · 2 months

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pretty sure i just got a spider bite while trying to fall asleep 🧍

#i thought it was just a stray hair on my elbow under the blanket and kept trying to shake it off #and then i finally went to brush it off w my hand and felt a bump there #and then it was unbearably itchy so i turned the lamp on to apply some anti-itch stuff bc it was driving me nuts #and i was trying to see where it was on my elbow bc wtf when did i get bit #and then i looked at it and it was very pale like a fresh bite and then there was some skin torn like a spider bite #i cant tell if theres two little holes or not and honestly idk if spiders always leave two fang marks fjdkdl #but it doesnt look like a mosquito bite unless i tore the skin myself from scratching at it #but the way it is looking... very similar to past spider bites #anyways i just removed everything from my bed and methodically searched Everything. looked all around the bed too. cannot find a spider #so. shrug. <- actually very afraid #but the thing that makes me Really think it's a spider is that the bump was super pale and now after a little while it is regular skintone #so that makes me think it was a brand new fresh bite the way it was a different colour and now its normal looking #which is uhhh scary! to have had a spider possibly in my bed!#and I can't find it so i simply do not Know and that is going to make it so hard to sleep tonight fjfkdl #man i barely ate today too so im just... really not doing well at this very moment fjfkdl #i cant eat anything rn though bc i already brushed my teeth and i dont want to do that again tonight fjfkdl #but i am. so hungry. augh. idk what I'd even eat anyways im too anxious to stomach anything #WHERE IS THIS SPIDER. WHY DID IT CHOOSE MY BED TO BE IN 😭#im in bed so often ... it should avoid places where ppl are ....#i feel like such shit rn fjdkdl i just rly wish i didnt have to deal w all these bugs #in the past month I've had a couple spiders and Several(!) weevils and a centipede and a clicker beetle and a couple earwigs #im just so tired of bugs i rly am fjfkdl idk why they choose to come inside and idk HOW they're getting inside #i hate living in a basement!!#i just want to sleep so i dont have to deal w being awake for a while fjdkls but now im all freaked out #i want to curl into a little ball and blink out of existence I'll be so honest rn. im just. idk.#✨ I don't think I have a place in society ✨ i am not a good enough person to exist in the world ✨#i dont want to go to sleep bc what if the spider comes back fjfkdl i wish i would've found it so i could've trapped it #and then let it outside tomorrow! i wouldnt have even killed it. the universe should've given me that one bc im so niceys #unfortunately the universe doesnt play nice w me fjfksl #spider tw

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ozymoron · 7 months

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reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

#⚠️#personal #having ocd makes making moral decisions so fucking hard for no reason #cause ill see a post thats like info or seems important and like i can tell its that kind of post just by skimming it st first and somethin #clicks in my brain that just tells me if i dont share that post everyone will know and think im a horrible person #regardless of what the actual post is about #i need like a handbook on how to make proper moral decisions #cause like yeah i do care about things i try to share stuff about things i care about and believe are important but sometimes i dont have #the energy to read long as posts and my brain twists it to make it out that people will know and i am the bad guy #idk my ocds telling me even saying this makes me a bad person #the fact i even struggle with this #sometimes i think im not built for social media but really i think social medias not built for people like me #maybe i should get help for my ocd but the idea of describing all the shit going on in my brain to someone just makes me feel scared #cause like i dont know when to draw the line at making something a problem i should actively have a hand in helping #how much is too much when do i stop #<- in regards to my own mental health like the mental exhaustion that can come from it i hope this makes sense #like some things you gotta invest like emotional shit into and like sometimes im just tired and i come on here and im faced with one of #those posts and i just have to debate with myself what the fuck im supposed to do #this is more a me issue than anything i need to sort this shit out with some mental health professional or something #cause like i dont want to have people think i dont care about these things i do and ik pressing reblog takes like no energy but idk man #im not even sure if some of the shit i reblog is cause i care or is just an ocd compulsion #i feel like most times its both #i cant help but think im the problem here i want to be on social media its just so draining having my mind repeatedly hound me for not like #showing enough care (reblogging more posts) about a certain issue online #idk im so tired of it all im so tired of my mind i wish i didnt have ocd #vent #so funny right after i posted this i scrolled down and one of these posts was rigjt beneath it and the debate happens all over again #lord i need to get out of here

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