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lexusdiaries · 2 days

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ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ YOUTUBE'S FAVOURITES ; w.l

synopsis: Instagram!AU. A brief look through Will's (WillNE) and YN's (@yn.org) relationship through the years.

contains: Fluff, Public,established relationship, Reader is an influencer.

a/n: Terrible username for YN, i'm horrible and picking usernames.

@yn.org

look at him, he's menacing, evil! he doesn't even deserve to he tagged. he's horrible.

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@yn.fan: THE 2ND PHOTO!!! 🥺

@willne: i didn't even do anything 😐

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: you did. you told me to turn off my show for the racing, unbelievable.

╰─▸ ❝ @ynxeditz: GET HIM TOLD YN

╰─▸ ❝ @eloisezzl: i love them <3

╰─▸ ❝ @cchaza: stand your ground yn!

@yn.org

he looks so proud of himself in the 1st one. annual august willne dump for u guys <3

9,739 likes 2,638 comments 6,836 shares

@batmnlyvs: you guys are adorable 🙁

@yn.fan: when are we gonna get a yn dump on his page?

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: never. he hates me

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: ???

╰─▸ ❝ @tswiftdailyphotos: LMAOOO i love her

╰─▸ ❝ @sidemenfanxs: HELP 😭

@willne: no need for that last photo lass

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: there was <3

@yn.org

got some bts of his newest video, go watch i make a brief appearance - i wasn't allowed to be in the full video 😕

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@willne: i never said you weren't allowed, you're fibbing now

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: i never tell lies

@stephentries: you've replaced me

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: well it's not my fault im better

╰─▸ ❝ @stephentries: vile.

@yn.fan: YN IN WILLNE'S VID?? OH MY GOD I PRAYED FOR TIMES LIKE THESE.

╰─▸ ❝ @stupid1d1ot: SAMEEE

╰─▸ ❝ @poppyhornet: we need more of her!!

@chrismd: yn's everywhere but her own channel 💀

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: yeahh shut it you 🖕

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: PLEASE POST ANOTHER VIDEO. IM STARVED OF CONTENT 😕😕😕😭😭😭😭

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: stay tuned next week <3

@willne

watch the newest willne video, and i'll post more yn content (if i have to)

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@yn.fan: bros finally posting her

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: i know took him long enough

@yn.fan he loves me guys

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: let's not go that far

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: fuck you 🖕🖕🖕

@willxynfan: only watched for yn

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: dont blame u mate

╰─▸ ❝ @yneditz: yn second channel appearance when???

╰─▸ ❝ @pligsj: preach

@yn.org

finally made my 2nd channel debut, only took him 2 years

700 likes 74 comments 251 shares

@willne: probably the best video on that channel now

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: aren't you sweet

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: I LOVED THE VIDEO! WE NEED MORE YN!!!

╰─▸ ❝ @user17382: PLEASE MORE YN

@jamesmarriottyt: i've been suspended. 💔

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: no u can come back next week, idk how u do it every week and not punch him

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: LMAO

╰─▸ ❝ @sidemen.272: jimbo mazza fighting willne (not clickbait)

@yn.org

contrary to the publics belief, we do actually love each other sometimes <3 @willne

7,916 likes 694 comments 719 shares

@willne: ❤️❤️❤️

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: 💞💞💞

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: there so sweet :((

╰─▸ ❝ @:eloisezzl: i love them an unhealthy amount

╰─▸ ❝ @lia9472: if they break up ill never believe in love again. ☹️

@cchaza: ships edits finna go crazy after this

@jamesmarriottyt: they grow up so fast!

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: said man desperately tries to deny the old alligations while commenting this publicly.

╰─▸ ❝ @jamesmarriottyt: alright.

@authurteevee's 2024 original work, any reposts, rebloggs, or translations are not permitted.

#willne x reader #willne x you #willne x yn #willne fic #willne fluff #youtuber x reader #youtube x reader #arthurteevee

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1oddboi1 · 2 days

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I made a character :D

It's a sona for the Divine Mortals AU. I'm not a bishop or anything, I'm just here. I'm a funky little duder ·:3

This was one of my first ventures into the realm of character design, I'm pretty happy with it

I'll just explain it under a cut, Imma yap for a bit

The animal I picked was the blue RED sea dragon, or glaucus atlanticus as I first heard of it

Cool guy ^

These puppies are pretty cool if I do say so myself. They're a type of sea slug (already a good start) and can EAT the nematocysts (stinging cells) from stuff like jellyfish and use it as their own through their cool little finger things... I can eat poisonous and/or venomous stuff to GROW STRONGER!!

The eyes were the one thing I knew I wanted from the get go. If you couldn't tell from my pfp, I like biblically accurate angels, they're cool. Also I made a joke that I had a bunch of eyes and decided it was canon lmao. I tried not to go overboard with it, there's only the eight you can see here, and decided not to put eyes all over the body. There's only eyes in places that would benefit an animal, front, back, and the tail to make up for the blind spots

The spiky things on the head are cerata! The little wiggly finger things in the pic. I can use them to show emotions, up for happy, down for unhappy, wiggly for various things

Oh! And the red mask shape is a reference to my discord pfp AND my old "brand". I mean, I still use it so maybe it's not old but whatever

I'll just list off some other stuff: Young adult, quite tall despite little guy energy (6'5). ABSOLUTELY a little gremlin, I'm in chaos cult after all. Scatter brained af, can't keep a train of thought. Basically, he is me, I am him, we are one

Uuuuh... Lore wise I don't have much. Only concrete thing is that one day I just said "forget this" and clawed my way out of the ocean evolution style. Maybe I'll draw that

Anyway, that's it. Idk how often I'll post him or how long it'll be before then. I still got a bunch of Brear stuff to draw... And write... I'm gonna finish that story if it's the last thing I do!!

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take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar · 1 month

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hhhhh-- i was hoping to write some more stuff tonight, since i'll probably be heading out early tomorrow when a friend comes to pick me up... but i still feel so sleepy that all i wanna do is curl up and doze off...

#{|ooc post|}#i also still need to pack-- which i'm gonna try and manage here in a few minutes--#but like-- idk if i'll have it in me to do anything after that lmao #or if i'll just give in and sleep more--#(gonna see if maybe i can stave off the added sleep tho-- as besides writing there is another thing i was hoping to get done before i leave #(also probably gonna sweep through and delete this post later lol-- but for rn-- i just felt the need to whine at the dash a little XP)

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gregoftom · 1 year

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TO ME, THAT’S CINEMA

#tomgreg #so i've seen this around a lot and ppl have already made points but like holy fuck. hoooly fuck lmao where do i begin #TOM THOUGHT THE ROOM WAS EMPTY FOR UH ... FOR WHAT BITCH??#empty for what. you two just going in there ALONE. what for. strategizing? ok but then why was greg showing you tonight's selection.#even if it was girls it's still sus bc like who tf goes specifically to a room to show that shit.#oh by the way i listened again and tom says first ''why do we have to...'' so GREG asked for the room?#greg asked them to go to an empty room. slut.#anD THEN AFTER SAID ''I WANNA GIVE YOU'' BITCH!!!!!!!!1 #are we sure it's girls though...... like does it say later. i'll keep watching but Christ. LIKE. WHAT THE FUCK #how am i supposed to read this other than an affair lmfao and then he says ''go on'' and sends greg off away like a little pet #sick to bastard death of them god #so it's like. greg says can we go somewhere private and tom says why do we have to #greg says i wanna give you... and tom says what do you wanna give me annoyed like #girl we are at work and we are trying to stay alive can't you wait til we are at home for me to clap them cheeks #and then greg says a preview of tonight's selection... of what? could be alcohol could be sexy stuff could be mf. clothes idk #and then they look up like O FUCK the room is in use and it's fucking SH*V and immediately tom is like GO ON and greg #doesn't even stutter or say anything like usual he's just like SORRY and leaves immediately bc he KNOWS he gotta gtfo #sorry i'm just. poetic cinema indeed

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byanyan · 5 months

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been picking at the stuff at the top of my drafts this evening..... got five lil things in the queue rn that i think i'm gonna set to post tomorrow, but i'm also like. gonna keep going for a bit longer, see if i can't get a few more done too uvu

#i feel bad for going for the newest stuff when i have such oldddd things at the bottom of my drafts...#but they're the freshest in my mind and like. i have.... a LOT of starters to reply to...... lmao;;#i'm gonna feel bad no matter where i start so w/e if starting with newest stuff is easiest it's what i'm gonna do #anyway yeah i have my counselling appointment tomorrow and i'm betting i'll be p exhausted after it #so i think letting the queue post tomorrow will work out nicely #if i get anything else done i might set it to post tomorrow also..... but might let it post friday instead idk #LOVE Y'ALL thank you yet again for putting up with meeee ♡♡♡#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

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annieisyourfavourite · 4 months

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I posted this painting I was really proud of on instagram and it only has 2 likes 😭😭

#i thought 1:30 was a good posting time. i guess not #shoutout to monica and colette ur the real ones ❤️#instas algorithm has been showing my stuff less and less i think #like i have a pretty regular group of ppl who will like & engage with my stuff #last year or 2 years ago like. 40 was a regular number I'd get?#usually after like a day or 2 #and this last year so far its been like half that. if lucky #and its the same active supportive ppl #like ppl i know in real life and such #so im inclined to think they're just not seeing it #i reshared my art of my grandpa on his birthday #and a number of ppl engaged who didn't see it the first time!#idk. its a bit demoralizing #i don't do it for the Clout or anything but #my instagram is an art instagram #and i do like my little circle seeing my stuff & liking it :/#mine #anyway this is SO complaining lmao u can just ignore me #maybe I'll post the painting on here

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treesbian · 4 months

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being mad at my parents for events long passed hours

#man my mom used to have my sisters help her pin me down so she could pop all the pimples on my face. bruh that fucking hurt. also.#worst thing you can do for those... i was having age-typical acne and i guess she just didn't like to look at it?? idk.#the acne itself didn't hurt but there was a lot of it so just like. you know how it does indeed hurt to pop those. well there were a lot #and she didn't stop even when i was crying and screaming bc she wasn't done??#and she did it to my back too and some of those grew on nerves and hurt even fucking more #and no she was not using properly sterilized equipment or even fresh washed hands thanks for asking <3 she acted entirely on impulse lol #i mean. i guess she knows its wrong **now** bc she hasn't tried anything similar with my baby sister....???#and shes starting to get acne like i used to have.#idk is that dramatic to be upset about. just imagine being pinched and pricked nonstop for like 2 hours. maybe it wasn't 2 hours.#but also physically restrained too like straight up sat on. is that fucked up.... thats not normal right???#and uh. a few years ago they held me still to shave my armpits with my dad's clippers bc mom is completely convinced #it isn’t possible to be hygenic as a 'woman' with pit hair or anything bc of Pheromones!!! and when i say goddamn fine #i'll just use men's hygiene stuff then she says that won't work bc Pheromones!!!!#like having a slightly different endocrine system makes ppl a different species or something #anyway. i cried just a little bit when they did that <3 gave me razor burn #and after my dad asked like 'is growing that hair out like. important to your identity or something' and.#well i dont know but that fucking hurt and you violated the choice that *eye* was making with *my* body #man i know mom still thinks she never physically abused me bc she didn't ever like. beat me up or anything but. thats abuse right??#she still thinks i was calling her abusive out of fucking nowhere.#sometimes she asks 'when was i ever abusive' and i give her an example and she goes 'well that was JUST BECAUSE--' and like. girl.#you think just bc you can justify it to yourself it wasn't abuse? every abuser can justify it to themselves....#talk tag #man i keep forgetting about how she used to physically restrain me to do her not-dermatologist approved extractions.#i guess it mostly didn't hurt that bad but like. the forcefullness and duration of it. lmao #anyway i found her a late mothers day gift today. its a hairstick with a dragonfly charm #abuse tw #sorry if that triggered anyone b4 i remembered to tag it

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unsettlingcreature · 1 year

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Slowly reconfiguring my altar space but I'm gently adding Halloween decorations as September passes and October approaches, I'm personally obsessed with the little ghost lights. Anyway I don't have a dedicated sideblog for this stuff anymore so I'm just slapping it on main :)

#witchblr #taking a break was so good for me because now im getting back into the flow of it? im realising how my beliefs and shit have shifted #still going to gently worm my back into witchcraft like. im not gonna do any blots or anything for a good while #and figure out ONCE MORE what actually works with my practice #like do i WANT divination to be part of my craft? or do i just feel like i have to #like when was the last time i touched my tarot or my runes or my oracle deck or my pendulum? even before my break?#and when it comes to deitywork. is that something i can commit to? has my time with Loki come to a close? lots of questions to ask.#and also do i really want to keep a grimoire/bos? because im too much of a perfectionist for it #and the stuff i do regularly are in my head. if I'm doing something different then I'm going to use other books as research points #idk theres a lot to think about. maybe I'll just ponder the wizard and stop sweating the details lmao #you'd think i had this shit figured out after over a decade but fuckin nooooppppeeeee #anyway witchcraft is always a journey and there's always more to learn and experience #its easy to say that shit but harder to accept it #ALSO LOKI LIVES IN MY BEDROOM I AINT EVER GONNA HIDE HIM AWAY #i cherish all the time spent with a deity and appreciate them for being there during that part of my life #just like with hecate before its ok if my time with loki is over. it is what it is. its not sad its something to look fondly on

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bangcakes · 9 months

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#im sorry but if he really was waiting for me yesterday im gonna have a whole meltdown like oh my GOD??????#like THATS???????????????#n like... ugh that fuckin asshole that said something to him OHHHHHHH !!!!! UGH.#like....... god. ...... .. theres no other explanation. like usually he leaves right away ok. well until he started waiting for me NDNNDMDM #but to do that after an exam... when he like.... just wants to get out of there n study for the next one....#o bro i cant handle this. thats so sweet wtf..... like....... HHHHHHHHHHH GOD.#this Has to be going somewhere like i cant be imagining this. i cant be #n not only would he have wanted to get outta there bc of having to study.... he also literally doesnt like talking to anyone except me n #one of my other friends JDNDMDMDMMDMDMSM #and like he would have been waiting awhile bc like over 20 mins went by between him leaving n my other friend leaving... and then after tha #god im so sad...... i wish that JERK hadnt said anything to him. i bet he would have stayed 😭😭😭😭😭#hhhhhhhhhhh........#n e way NDNNDNDNDMDMMD. im gonna see this until the end.... like lmao theres Something here i can tell......#and like okay even if we just end up friends... like ok maybe i'll be crushed but JDJJDJDJDJDJFJ hes so cute. i wanna keep him forever.....#n like god. hes even cute in a grumpy way which... god thats my weakness forever im just 🥺🥺🥺#its just !!!! hes so honest !!! like always says what hes feeling n then once he says it hes over it. like idk hes perfect to me JZJJZJZJZJ #GOD. im so obsessed. help #and like GOD. i really keep coming back to this post and adding more im JUST.....#his eyes are so kind. like i cant even explain this. i just ... god hes so cute.....#personal

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whyberealistic · 7 months

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have my first wedding dress fitting today and therapy tomorrow and i couldn't tell you which i'm dreading more

#I'm already Sad and tonight is gonna be a mess of like #feeling bad bc I'll be alone bc Kelsey's at work and i dont have friends other than work friends #they're like 'please limit your party to 5-6!'#im not close to my older sister and my mom's dead #its my grandma's dress and she's doing...okay but definitely declining #so I'm just gonna be some hairy lesbian with acne by herself in this bridal shop for like.......... conventionally attractive Girly Girls #plus ive put on weight recently and i'm still Adjusting to not being a skinny 22yrold anymore lmao #and trying on/seeing myself in dress clothing has always been an awful trigger for me #like looking at myself in anything other than a tshirt and jeans just makes my skin crawl i look so ugly #i also don't know like.......... anything about weddings or wedding dresses or tailors #and i don't have anyone to ask #except reddit lmao #anyway IDK i guess the therapy will be much needed after this LMAO

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justapieceintheirgames · 1 year

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I'm halfway to my goal weight!!! 🥳🥳🥳

#I totally understand why some people may feel uncomfy reading these kinds of posts so I'll be sure to tag this for that crowd buuuut #I've been actively making healthier choices for myself! I've been trying to be more disciplined which isn't always easy!#I've been putting in effort and now I'm seeing the results! And I deserve to celebrate that!#My goal weight = my pre-pandemic weight + like 1-2kg because I actually felt and looked much better after gaining some weight (initially)#but then we were in lockdown for almost 2 years straight and things kinda spiraled HAHA #I finally look more like myself again and I'm very excited going forward because my goal after reaching my goal weight is to then try and #build some muscles! 😼 and I actually feel like I can do it now! I've proven to myself that I can if I just believe in myself and try!#also getting a Fitbit was such a game changer lol #100% worth the investment if you're wondering #btw I started my journey in September so it will probably take me another 6 months but slow and steady wins the race ok 😤#the time will pass anyway! :')#and tbf I only go to the gym once a week for 2 hours atm 💀 but even that is something I honestly never thought I'd have the guts to do #idk WHY I was so intimidated to go lol bc I even made a new friend there 😭#anyway so much about the future feels scary and out of control when I actually think about it for more than 5 minutes #so it's great to feel in control of something? something important!#now if I could just...conquer my irrevocable sleeping schedule 💀 I'd be unstoppable lmao #speaking of which goodbye it's nearly 7AM aka time to lie in bed and think of tristamp lore that makes me feel anything but normal #until I pass out...I should read the manga 🤔#this is derailing quite quickly OJSJJS #weight mention #weight ment tw #ask to tag #personal #damn that's a lot of tags...I haven't made a personal post in a while here though! I missed my internet diary :')

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notjanine · 2 years

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i hung out with both of them again over the weekend and it's going really well* and this is still wild to me. it's been exactly what i needed- just easy and good, and good in different ways bc they're so different from each other! but i don't think i've fully described either here

Bookstore: very tall. verrry sexy voice. nb and bi. does not do small talk.** similar taste in media to my own, esp movies, book genres, and spooky podcasts; every time we hang out is like (sexually charged) book club. big nose. always looks exhausted (hot). younger than me but an oldest sibling and lowkey has oldest sister syndrome, but not in a bad way.

Tech Guy: medium height. v round. v much a standard normal straight guy*** but sweet? adventurous- seems kinda boring and normcore, but the lore keeps getting wilder. he's iranian (initiated his citizenship process immediately after the 2016 election (can successfully navigate bureaucracy (hot))) and has offered to take me on a date to his favorite little middle eastern grocery.**** maintains the exact level of beard scruff that makes me craaaazy. the EYEBROWS on this bitch!! older than me but a youngest sibling (with sisters, so like. he seems to understand that women are human beings).

Both: soft hands.***** lots of friends, including platonic female friends. dislike going out and doing things alone, except for going to the movies, which they do often. when asked what dnd class would you be, personally, like you as the person you are now, both said... bard.****** idk how to feel ab that one.

so i like them both and i'm also glad i started seeing them at the same time, bc i think if it was just one or the other, things would have gotten too intense too fast (bc they both like me A LOT and i'mmmmm enjoying that more than i would have expected, i am tempted to overindulge in such adoration). as-is, i've made a list of guidelines for myself that's helping me to maintain boundaries and keep things as tidy as i can. it helps that they're both good at communicating and planning!

anyway next weekend i'm hanging out with the two friends who set me up with these ppl and i need to think of something very good and special to bring them to say thanks!!!

#*i baked for them both which is like. when i baked on days i hung out with messy guy i was like lemme not tell him. that's not what this is.#i dated my ex for MONTHS before i made anything for him. but idk this is different i'm different now!#(i made an incredible aromatic apple galette based on a scent blend i made for reading a biography of cleopatra for Bookstore #bc they mentioned that they finally felt like they got their sense of smell back after having covid months ago #and i made huge gloriously sticky sweet iced cinnamon rolls (vegan!) for Tech Guy bc i was gonna pick some up from a bakery by his apt #but then i realized. i could just make them (better!) myself)#** every other text from this mf is a grammatically correct paragraph that conveys Specific Information or asks a Clear Question #they were like Idk why i always have so many autistic people in my social orbit. and i said girl i'll tell you exactly why lmao #*** he said he's 'like 70% sure [he's] not bi.' that is not 100% and this bitch LOVES professional wrestling aka homoerotic gymnastics so..#(aj styles is his fave which does seem like a v heterosexual choice. but. also he's seen ricochet perform live!!!)#**** i love grocery stores i LOVE grocery stores.#***** lissen my ex was basically a farmer which was nice for some reasons but that mf had calluses on calluses and didn't moisturize.#hand stuff could not be a key part of our repertoire SADLY.#****** Bookstore used to do some serious Performance Art (see: very tall good voice) and Tech Guy is a musician #and they have both made comments about how much they enjoy supporting their friends (within and outside of the context of id-ing as bards)#lizzo_boys.mp3 #bonus way they are similar: they are very verbal about how attractive they find me and how lucky they feel to be with me and #they have each explicitly stated that their primary objective during sex is to please me #(my ex said the same but these two are taking it to a new level)#man i didn't realize how much i needed an ego boost after everything with messy guy. they are certainly giving me that!#and i also feel lucky to have found each of them. they're great :)

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astrxealis · 2 years

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i really want to make gifs of fuuta's 2nd trial mv while it's still really new. idk if i should post them if ever though... <- has never posted any of my edits of any sort and gifs. even icons

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚#nah i only have like. access to canva for paid. and it's education and not even pro LMAO ty to school for providing canva education <3 #yeah but i only really use canva and photopea and take a fucking long time doing anything related to editing #it's fun and a great way to pass time esp bcs i take a long time but for time efficiency... not really <//3 #i'll do my homework first and then ya ^___^#i want photoshop but if you get me i don't want to YEAH. not only do i hate yeah i also don't like paying often #like ofc i do for what i need but i. barely spend my money (it helps knowing that idk how much money i even have)#idk maybe it sounds good like 'yo you don't waste money' but also it sucks idk how to handle money at all and stuff #i rmbr being so excited planning for getting ffxiv. laying out the costs and all. LMFAO ya i only really pay for xiv sub and that's it #cash shop i only have a few stuff bcs i've been there for old events and my friend (very generous. big brother guy) gifted us stuff #fuuta's voice is so good. man i keep getting distracted this went from editing to money and then ffxiv and then fuuta #UHM ANYWAYS...... anyways............. yeah i just do really simple edits. just literally changing the color and all #but you see i often like things most when it comes from me. or my friends. or if it is personalized #so i don't like taking random things! idk the process feels best when it comes from me but i also love stuff that have heart in it #and if it's yk. oh. this is for me. ig i'm just used to mostly having to do things for myself bcs i don't get it often from others </3 #braindead. it is 1 pm. i will finish my homework (soon!)#i love all milgram characters. i was a bit yk to muu and kotoko but i think i understand kotoko better after studying fuuta more #and i get now ^^ it's a bit hypocritical to vote her innocent and fuuta guilty but at the same time it depends on what you value #and also did people really not expect her to. do that. hello. i saw that coming from a mile away but yeah you can't predict the future #so makes sense too! tbh im a fuuta innocent guy but i do believe guilty first trial is best but also wow the effects of guilty 1st trial #were yeah. but taste of his own medicine (real!) i just hope the others get that too. in time.#specifically muu and kotoko bcs though i love them they still iff me a bit (is that even a word)#tbh my feelings on milgram characters are complicated but i think i'm complicating it too ngl.#obsessed with mikoto though. his voice!!! his va slaying as always #tbh w kotoko it's mostly that i think she's getting ahead of herself. in a way. i think that's how to say it but i'm not sure #with muu. i think i get her but it's more of fuuta for me and i think that's why yeah? but i like muu she was one of the first that #caught my eye from b4 i watched the mvs and all!! i think it might be that she reminds me a tiny bit of myself #but in a way i'd rather not admit or something i don't like about myself that makes me like her less. curious #hi um i wrote a lot more tags but they stopped after 30 oops. i took screenshots tho <3 anyways this is a 20 minutes post BYE

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kuiinncedes · 10 days

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bro

#i hate job apps lmao kinda in the trenches rn #i'm so idk so mixed feelings rn 💀#i think my self esteem when it comes to job apps is like fucking shot from career fair and job rejections and everything #my last interview was offered like a couple days before the interview and i just winged it and didn't rly prepare #and then after the interview realized i actually kinda like the company and would kinda wnat the job more than my lack of prep suggests LOL #but i applied for smth over the summer and they said they'd actually be interested in giving me an offer #but i committed to staying on campus for this yr (which i could've done stuff to get out of but i have dumb reasons for it ig)#but they just reached out and said they'd STILL be interested in offering me a job for summer 2025 start date #and it makes me fucking sad that i feel so weird abt it LMFAO i am happy abt it #but like literally this week has been so many rejections back to back bc i've been applying to things at my (old) college's career fair #and so many of them have already just immediately rejected me 💀#so a big part of me rn is like why the fuck would this company even still want me ya know #😀😀😀😀 i thnk i'll cry abt this at some point idk when tho 😀😀😀😀#also my mom keeps nagging me to apply for masters which i haven't actually looked into at all yet #i think esp bc she called me last night and was like no one's gonna give you a chance bc you only have bachelors #so you can't compete when theres masters and phd applicants too #which is true ig like i have just gotten flat out rejected without any interview or anything so many times #sooooo all of that adding up to me being like well i somehow tricked this company into still wanting me right #even tho i am literally doing nothing this yr i'm staying on campus bc i like it here #and i have a remote part time job and i'm figuring out what i want to do #jfc idk lmfao i'm also nervous abt telling my mom bc i feel like she just #ughhhgiuhdgfiwtglkdghfajs she can be very critical and judgmental ;-;#and i fele like she's been like that kind of a lot w job/masters conversations and i don't rly like talking to her abt it lmfao #when she called me yesterday she started nagging me abt job apps and not being picky abt stuff and i'm like #you have told me this 746598347 times i rly don't need to hear it again #i do appreciate and love my mom but i just rly don't like this lmfao #i think she'd be ok w it / happy i guess she did tell me to apply for this company at one point a while ago #i wanna scream lmfao #bro i wish tumblr would tell me when im RUNNING OUT OF TAGS rip some of this rambling i don't even remember what i said LOL #jeanne talks

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kurthorton-moving · 8 months

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my desire to watch at least 2 movies a day bc i started doing it and now i wanna keep up w it literally just to say i did vs the way i am getting a lil burned out on movies bc coming home from a full day of work to watch something doesnt feel as relaxing as it used to

#easily watching 2 movies a day when ur enjoying the movies vs struggling to watch one movie when its just not doing it for u #im watching m3gan and its like. its fine but idk im a little underwhelmed #im an hour in so theres only ab half an hour to go but somethings just. not hitting #i think the fact that its insanely hot is contributing very much also im hungry but i dont have anything to eat lmao #me grocery shopping last week on a strict budget and telling myself I'll ration the snacks #vs me now after finishing my snacks and meals in three days and now just eating chocolate alsjflg #my lack of self control is not just ab making a million blogs it is also ab doing what i want when i want w no thought ab the future #only reason i havent broken budget to go buy a bunch more food to snack on til pay day is that i dont have the money lmao

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themermaidpirate · 10 months

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I'm so fucking tired. Tw for the tags: death mention, SI mention, SH urge mention

#okay so like....#I'm just tired of being alive lmao #I'm tired of struggling all the time #I'm suicidal again which isnt fun. and its only borderline a passive way. its definitely in a “if i were to drop dead i wouldnt care” way #but also in a “hmmmm my brain wants me to make a plan” way and i hate it #i hate being this way #i hate feeling this way #i want to die. I'm tired. I'm not sleeping well anymore.#i also havent been in therapy for almost 2 months bc of insurance issues and wont be in therapy til after the new year but likr #idk if I'll make it? like I'm not planning on anything like dying but it feels impossibly far away #i also want to SH so fucking badly. I'm not going to #but damn do i want to #but also like whats the fucking point in it?#i also cant go in patient somewhere bc of no insurance #so I'll just die ig #idk #I'm also tired of being disabled. I'm tired of having this broken body.#my grandmother is dying. my cat is long dead. whats the fucking point of it all?#i havent been actively suicidal for a hot fucking minute. idk how to handle it anymore #personal #vent

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