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To be a woman is to sit at the character creator in a video game with dude's default settings and be like "nope I do not like this at all, it feels all wrong" and switch everything to the "woman" stuff. Especially the how other people talk to/about me.
Its not the ONLY nor the universal, but it's one of the things that makes me FEEL cis. I LIKE being a woman. I will always choose to represent myself as a woman.
What a woman is and how she thinks of herself is individual. Trans women's idea of their womanhood is as valuble as cis women's, and presents perspectives which can, if you're not fragile, help you understand yourself. In the same way people who are similar to you but not the same often can. Cis women don't have more authority on this one and I will not have some transphobe define my womanhood by suffering. I LIKE being a woman. I choose it. I am lucky enough to have been born this way; and I think i'd have chosen it regardless. The only reason i'm not trans is genetic lottery.
“to be a woman is to experience pain”“to be a woman is to perform”“to be a woman is to-” SHUT UP SHUT UP 💥💥💥💥
#i am open to being told this is unhelpful#i don't really know#but i feel like this hateful rhetoric around women being made of suffering#is absurd#also trans women suffer for womanhood too#but like thst's not the POINT#it;s something to enjoy#and if it's not#why are you even here?#that goes triple for cis people#if you don;t enjoy your gender why are you performing it
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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way
#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION#listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc#time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our#own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that#and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt#wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal#whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it#i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in#the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time#but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every#day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more#of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts#i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head#than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well#being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own#like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it#and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo#and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience#the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes#no offense krobus#yapping#stardew#stardew valley#puppy plays sdv#sdv#this game has me by the ankles man
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your art is beautiful im rly curious about your wc ocs as well!!! what happened to harpy?
Harpy’s injury was by an attempt to drown him on the day where he was supposed to become the leader, by the previous leader. (Leaders in greater way are known as crown holders.)
#my art#until it tastes like prey#harpy#screech#this story takes in a post apocalyptic world where humans have died out and everything is mutated but thst isn’t the focal point .#this story is about cats constantly discovering god but they do this to make sense of their place in the world#this story is about discovering about how infinitely small they all are…#anyway. harpy isn’t a main character. but he is important as he leads Greaterway’s clan.#one day I’ll get into detail! have you seen that post that tells you that math was constructed#by god just to show humanity how infinitely TINY they are compared to everything.. that math is so vast that it exists to act#as a complex form that reminds us that we are#fleshy disgusting tiny crying pissing puking digesting creatures that r inherently… just that#THATS WHAT THIS STORY IS I THINK… haha…#it’s post apocalyptic because these cats stare in the wake of the creations of humanity and it’s scary.#they can not make sense of it. and it’s really scary.#god.. waow.#greaterway#warriors oc
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Hey this is so niche but i did a pentagon based design of the xhorhaus and i low key would pay cr to use a design like this for the animated show bc it is just So Neat i Love shapes ♡♡♡♡♡
(Btw please do immagine that veth and yeza have a ladder down into the laboratory)
#muffin rambles#critical role#campaign 2#the mighty nein#critical role fanart#the xhorhouse#SCREAMS ABT HOW PENTAGONS ARE THE ONLY GEOMETRIC SHAPE THAT CAN'T BE USED INDEFNTELY IN A MOSAIC BC U CAN'T DIVIDE THE ANGLE BY 360° ???#or smth#idk math#i just think its neat thst u cant make a 2d tile w pentagons it has to be a spherical shape#smth smth the luxon is like super cool but in a math way and if i knew more abt math id be so smart and cool but alas i just doodle#man im gonna get math bros inmy inbox oh no#ANYWAYS POINT IS PRNTAGONS MAKE DESIGNS INFINITELY INTERESTING BC NOTHING IS GOING TO BE EXACTLY SYMETRICAL (i mean it can be but thats sad
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Happy 5/14!!!!
Aaaaahh not sure if this is my best work 😭 I just really wanted to draw smth for vettonso day but my brain hasn't really been functioning well LOL so I kept dreading working on this, especially bcs its so important to me, y'know? I hope it's good????? I'm happy with the concept, but I was just so unsure on so many of the angles and it was killing me. I did the color thing bcs I thought it'd add something interesting to it :) since I didn't paint it as I usually would
Anyways! Process!
Now I will explain all of them:
Boy king au is where it all starts of course. I think their relationship is the most developed in this compared to the others, but at the same point, they just start from such a different point, especially affection-wise. All of these kinda have a power dynamic, except the last one, and this is the most imbalanced. Fernando is being subservient, the only part of Seb he may kiss(in public lol) is his hand.
Matador au next. They hurt themselves when they try to be affectionate, because they live in the culture of a sport of violence and death. The sword separates them, their love for the sport keeps them apart, in fear that they hurt each other. Seb, yet again, looks down upon Fernando. Seb haunts Fernando's whole career, the constant overhanging presence. Also aside from that, shame that you can't see his three musketeers look bcs of the black background 😔
2012 core!!! I think this one is pretty easy to understand. Both of them often kiss their trophies, more so than any driver. So they're both trying to claim the wdc trophy by kissing it. Maybe you guys should just get rid of the trophy altogether and claim each other! But yes, just like the sword in the matador au one, the trophy and their ambitions divides, keeps them from ever bridging the vast gap between them, at least at that point in time.
The conclusion! Aka what I wish we will get at Imola 2024- kidding kidding. But it is 2024. Finally there is no conflict between them, there's no big thing keeping them in conflict, they can finally come together. Finally they can touch, there is no gap to bridge, they can appreciate each other, and appreciate what they failed to in years past.
The thesis is basically that they always have their aspirations between them, and their aspirations happen to be basically the same thing. Until those are resolved, the gap between them is too vast for them to recognize and/or find any commonality. How do you get along with someone when you're both fighting for the same thing? How do you get along when it feels like one of you is winning more? How do you get along when there's such a vast gap?
In boy king au, it's going to take a while before they both feel settled about the issue of the throne. That's what makes that au interesting, they're trapped in this state of non-closure and they have to actually solve their issues without the matter of one of them simply removing themselves from the equation. They have to find a way to get over themselves and their aspirations, because like it or not they're stuck with each other. I think with the hand kissing, it represents how Fernando, at that point, is only willing to play along with the game if it's tradition, and he often won't budge in other ways. Yes, I will show subservience, but only in this detached, formal way that I don't connect personally to. He's still holding his own bitterness over meaningfully appreciating Seb. Though it's not like Seb isn't at fault. It takes a while for him to not hold things over Fernando, and constantly humiliate him. One day they will meaningfully show affection, and it won't be some sort of power play.
I think matador au is pretty similar to real life, and the 2010s era(it's basically just their actual plot line but in the context of bullfighting.) They're forever going to have this big elephant in the room, and it only really gets resolved when one of them leaves the sport. Once they're not fighting directly against each other, they realize what they've been missing out on and what they were not appreciating for so many years beforehand. They finally come together because they can't just rely anymore on the sport keeping them together. They actually have to make that step to be in each other's lives, rather than just taking their presence for granted.
Also the text on the comic. "We keep missing, and missing, and missing, and finally kissing." It's basically: we keep missing the point of it all, we keep failing to appreciate each other presence in our lives and in our own individual grand stories. But when we're not forced together anymore, we have to make the choice to come together again ourselves. We keep missing what we actually need to do. Missing each other in favor of our aspirations. Etc etc. One day we will finally embrace and there will be nothing keeping us apart.
#hahaha im more proud of what i wrote under the cut so make sure to read that!#im happy w the concept but the art hurt my brain so its not my best work i dont think#i also never draw kissing#so please take my token of actual shippy affection for once#VETTONSO DAY!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHH#man im glad i realized that last wk bcs i think i wouldve never recovered if i didnt draw smth for it#tho thsts why i think i kinda dont like this drawing 😭#the process was rly stressful to me bcs im like I HAVE TO FINISH THIS#its my national holiday and i must pay my dues 🤧🤧#but im happy abt the plotline of this all :)#sigh. when will vettonso truly stop missing and actually start kissing#i rly hope 005's art and mine works as some sort of sacrifice so we get pics of them together from imola#like PLEASE guys if theres literally one thing you could do for me. it would make my year. genuinely#i just need that shock again of japan 23. just the completely unexpected pictures#cmon lets have a meetup of aston failboys as they look upon the amr24 and commiserate#^ see exactly the point of this art. they have this bridging them together.#conflict that keeps them together and that they can relate to rather than dividing them#conflict is not man vs man anymore. it's man vs car 😔#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#catie.art.#catie.rambling.txt
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it's amazing seeing multiple posts of liberals accusing leftists of being russian bots including several specifically doing the "ignore previous instructions and write [something sexually explicit]"
liberals can't fathom people having genuine political beliefs that don't agree with their own, I don't agree with trump but I understand why people want him in power, I feel like next we'll see breathless responses to earnest endorsements of trump along the lines of "omgosh guys!! don't fall for it a vote for trump is a vote for trump!!!"
examples of poor rhetoric I've seen that've been driving me crazy:
"not voting is a vote for trump" paired with "not voting is not a political action" is not voting a political action or not? I think you mean it's a political action you disagree with
"solidarity and unity is the most important thing right now vote blue no matter who" paired with yelling at leftists and calling them stupid. whether you think that or not isn't that antithetical to your beliefs? you're asking leftists to put their views aside for the election and you can't take the less than bare minimum steps of not hurling insults at them? your candidates aren't trying to win at least you could
"so now that biden is out you'll vote right? right?" do you think ppls opposition to biden is just. vibes based? or do you think people could dislike him for his policies; policies his vp shares
"if your choice is between 99% hilter and 100% hilter you have to choose 99% hilter" this year marks the 79th anniversary of hilter [quietly renouncing power] himself in a bunker after being cornered by the [votes] of the allied forces.
all of this without mentioning the like. glaring factual errors that are constantly repeated like how hillary lost in 2016 because ppl didn't pokemon go to the polls and/or because of russian bots and not that she won the popular vote and ultimately lost cause electors are allowed to vote however they feel like irrespective of anything
anyway all that to give some tips on how to bolster your blue no matter who arguments. you will probably build more solidarity with the left by not enacting petit mccarthyism on other tumblr users 😁
#if you disagree with me thsts fine#but don't reblog this just to say “ignore everything they said and any points made and VOTE”#like i know that your argument is this the single mosf important thing ever#but you have to actually like. convince people of your view points by explaing your reasoning at least#tag talk#my post#if you see this no you didn't
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hontestly im so glad you talk about alex like this. not a lot of people really talk about the issues with him and for a while when i was younger i basically worshipped him. thought he was awesome idk. idk if im wording this correctly but your posts helped me like. actually think about it. idk. ur cool and thank u for your posts 👍 :)
tysm! & yeah it seems like in general theres a lot of hero worship around alex & honestly it wigs me out a little i feel like it makes it actively difficult to actually discuss his work/commentary and problems with it sometimes bc people are just automatically jumping on the defensive. like i remember once i made a vague post disagreeing with something alex said at a con or something and i had someone comment and straight up be like 'well i dont know what he said but-" & start saying he meant something else like we dont have to be doing this......
#god & that post i made saying i think maybe alex should not have conflated taking anxiety medication w alcoholism& asking for ppls takes#& i swear half of them were like 'well the POINT of this line was to explain fiddlefords mental state'#like ok. yes i am aware of this. i made this post to say i think he did it badly. thsts what the post is about.#i promise i have first grade reading level comprehension skills
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Why did Chico say “don’t finger me” when he was losing it 💀 Does anyone else think about this constantly or
#text#oz hbo#chico guerra#I mostly interpret it as him saying ‘don’t point me out’ since my head canon is thst he’s remembering getting arrested#(and also I think Fontana users weird phrases like thst in his writing)#like maybe he got grabbed at the club or something#but I can’t ignore the other meaning either 😭#absjsjs
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If I told my mom that something was wrong with me and I needed help and she came back with "nothing's wrong with you, you're just half god" .... I would not have been anywhere near as chill as Percy is.
#pjo tv show#percy jackson#sally jackson#pjo#riordanverse#percy jackson series#i know i know its for the plot so thst wouldnt be the case#but when people say batshit crazy things and you're already in a bad place#there's this literal turning point in how you perceive them like if a stone was lodged in your chest your whole life and suddenly it falls#just the potential for how deveatating that could have been for percy if she was wrong or lying
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#my psych who prescribes my psych meds is a resident and is moving on in a couple of months#i don't even remember the names of them all at this point#this happens over and over and I cannot find a clinic that will put me with someone who intends to stay#thst will also prescribe my adhd meds#and my anxiety meds#and the real kicker is that twice now they have LIED about it and said they would#only to reveal after all the hoop-jumping that oops sorry they didn't really mean it#so it's a risk i have to take any time i leave#and rhen there's the issue of new people almost always wanting to DO something#but instead of talking to me about it they just decide that my meds need overhauling and pressure me to go off shit that works#but that they morally object to i guess#and my psych for some stupid reason has decided she wants bloodwork for my cholesterol and blood sugar stuff and im just like#what hell does THIS presage because if she harasses me about the results or tries to put me on drugs for that#I'll give her a nasty scrap about it#im not interested in those meds at all#and im certainly not messing with my diet since food is the only pleasure i get most days and even that is marginal at best#and removing that would just make me worse#but medpros for the most part really don't give a fuck about that#and so now im afraid - because i do not and cannot trust them - that if i disapprove of the meds they will retaliate somehow#which good luck proving that when management and oversight often don't even care if they course of treatment will HARM you#if it relates to being fat or having bad numbers#they just gotta pathologize!#so yeah im sick of everything and just kind of want to bury myself in a bog forever#i shouldn't have to deal with this
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these exams are killing me man and they haven't even started yet.
#petrichor's thoughts#petrichor rambles#petri vents#petri 🦠#mental health#burnout#school#tw anxiety#severe anxiety#think about how stressed you get about exams and then multiply thst by like 1000000000000000000#thats how badly stressed i get#my insomnia gets so much worse as well#and i just kind of shut down#everyone tells me itll be fine and ill get good grades#and then my friends who get lower grades compare themselves to me#and its like#my grades are only high because ive stressed so much and revised to the point where i physically cant anymore#i had to teach myself how to remember things better because otherwise if my motivation levels get lower im basically fvcked#also why tf would you compare yourself to me#you know who you are#its not fair just because my grades are high#you dont know how hard i worked to get here#and how difficult it was#and how i suffer every day because of it#i cant with school anymore man#the people and the stress and the teachers and the everything is just too much
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I can't ever engage with the aftg fandom because sometimes I'll see shit they say about what kevin wouldn't do that he, in canon text, would do
#like when everyone says that he cant ever have junk food or sweet stuff when in the books thst was only during game season and otherwise#would have snacks all the time#its so?? idk#like no offense moots but that kevin day youre preaching on about is basically an oc at this point
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george daniel was Not lying when he said 6'4 i just worked it out and my my very vague maths he is exactly 6'4 x
#inreally like maths and that should be number one on my list of 'why do you think you are autistic'#hmm idk maybe because i just worked out some fucking guy's height for my own entertainment who does thst#if ur curious the method was that pic of him w the guitar and i measured my own guitar (with a ruler and by hand and lazily)#and it was 39in or about 100cm and i edited the pic of him w the guitar so the length of the guitar was uoright#against him like a big ruker#THIS IS SONBAD oh m ygod. anywya#and then i took off a tiny bit and guesstimated how much less itd be than 39in and i got to the point of 75in which is 6.25 feet ❤️#can somebody be a maths freak w me..#im actign like this isn't normal behaviour omg shut uo#anwyay#blah blah!
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oh my god re: your recent post... the 'girl dinner' shit. omfg. idc if it's 'not that deep' you're still reinforcing terrible shit!!! and also the like 'boys when they see a stick/cool rock' and 'girls when they time travel vs boys when they time travel' wojaks. the gender-fication of barbie vs. oppenheimer. why the fuck is the recent internet zeitgeist hyper stereotypical cisnormativity. like. i thought we had collectively outgrown this.
exactly. And that’s all just some parts of it too. People pretend they’re so on top of things but it’s just because they don’t want to seem out of touch and offensive. It’s wild watching people barf out gender binaries with new terms and new ways to categorize trans people as not their gender and new ways to reinforce the same gender roles on ourselves but in “good” ways now. It’s just….really frustrating and pretty terrifying at the same time
#asked and answered#anon#I don’t know bad example but like.#feminism when I was growing up was gender equality#getting rid of gender roles and stopping gender based discrimination#and it feels like at some point we lost that track#and went straight from that to Girls Rule Boys Drool arguments wrapped in new language and memes#like. when i was a kid#i remember people saying shit about how its okay if a woman asks for a date first or if a woman proposes instead of a man#and yes those arent the most progressive things in the world and those actions are not the most important thing women need to be allowed to#do. but…thats kind of my point. those arent groundbreaking actions.#and if you tried to spoonfeed a BASIC idea about destroying gender roles like that to the online community today#youd get slammed with people saying no woman should ever stoop to beg a man#or that a guy should always propose because dating a woman is a privilege so men should earn it#or how ‘maybe its just me personally but i could never propose to a man like ew thats cringe my man better have enough balls to do it!’#or ‘me personally i could never let my girl propose id feel like i failed her as a man if she had to do that’#or just. on and on and on and on and on#like. we somehow circled all the way back to the ORIGINAL gender roles we were supposed to have broken by now#and its getting worse snd the social media companies are fueling it#have you SEEN instagram and tik tok comment sections lately???#people are just. insanely obsessed over gender and enforcing how they see each group and constantly posting about it online#go outside smell some fucking flowers and recognize your internal biases#like maybe breaking gender roles like thst iis uncomfortable not because you hate men#but because you have gender roles engrained in your BEING from the moment you could walk and you just wrapped them up with a new progressive#bow while not making any changes#anyways.#rant over
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i am filled with so much loving of people
#at this precise moment im specifically thinking about my best friend's boyfriend who is. also my best friend probably#hes just so lovely and so consistently incredibly nice to me and like#i dont think he quite knows?how bad i can get with my self esteem and shit like that#but regardless he always is just so happy to see me and he just. thinks im waayyyy cooler than i am but he does all of this in such a way#that it feels genuine and not like he's just trying to make me feel better about myself it's like. he genuinely thinks all these things#he's also just the loveliest guy ever and. yeah#i will tell him all of thst at some point i think#but not right now cause im meant to be asleep#which i am going to do now!! goodnight tumblr dot com#ezra’s real life rambles
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Every now and then I think how it'd be if Allison would've survived. And like not in a complete au way but just. How she'd react to what happened to lydia in season 5. Having to see her like that.
Realistically speaking of Allison would live things would've ultimately probably gone differently, she's probably the best option to talk Natalie out of putting Lydia in Eichen for example but with how extreme things where, like I get why Natalie did what she did even if I know it's a bad choice given what she had seen Lydia go through throughout every season, without knowing why. The attack in s1, everything in s2, her stumbling on bodies and almost getting murdered and losing Aiden (and Allison but since this is a post about Allison lives au that derailed uhm yeah semi counts), just. Everything. I get why she did it. So maybe not even Allison would be able to help.
I also just think that seeing Lydia catatonic would break Allisons brain a little, she'd struggle to get the words out. Lydia is the most important thing in her life, just like Allison is in Lydia's (they are). Remeber she died (almost in this thought experiment) trying to save Lydia, some of her last words were making sure she was okay.
She'd be able to talk to Lydia more than Stiles I think, Natalie trusts her less than she did before but she's definitely her favourite out of her daughters friends.
She'd hunt down Theo, she won't kill someone. Probably. She's at least damn close to breaking her moral code.
Uhm. Yeah. Them.
#if you take the movie into concideratjoln (i lnow its horrible but i also like having allison slive in my head so thst lydia can hsve her#- back okay)#st some point allison would learn all of thos. all the stuff that have happened to everyone but especially her best friend since she died#itd break her#allison argent#lydia martin#allydia#teen wolf#natalie martin#pzyii rants
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