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When I want to not be weird about something but I have literally never been normal about a piece of media in my life
#unhinged#me with anime#no I'm not obsessed with japan in a wierd way i just think hot men fighting eachother is neat#i need both i need to be unhinged but also have meaningful discussions#gojo is an amazing complex character AND i need him to rail me into next week#god fucking damnit autism can i not drive people away from me with my obsessions#can i just be silly about my little guys#vent post#vent#but like a little vent not a big vent#autism#actually autistic#neurodivergent#special interest#star wars#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#anime#ace attorney#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#good omens#bungou stray dogs
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do you guys ever get too scared to post ocs because youāre worried that their design or story isnāt cool enough
And then someone posts their OC/sona that looks super similar to your OC, even though youāve technically made yours first
And now youāre scared of posting them because youāre afraid someone is gonna try and compare the two, because someone will always do that if they look similar enough
Do you guys ever feel that way or am I just really really stupid
#darkzyx#clink#minor vent#little bit of a rant I suppose#I donāt know I dont wanna look like a copy cat but at the same time my guy has been around since 2017#I have the watt pad art to prove it ššš#but at the same time#no one knows who he is because I just never had the confidence to consistently tell/post about my ocs and their world#mainly because I kept changing their stories all the timeā¦#šššš#like I canāt stress enough just how similar their concepts are to the other persons#which is an extremely big shame because I really really like my OC#but I also love their concept#but if someone accuses me of being a copycat#I think Iāll crumble away into a pile of ash ššš
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One of my 666 extras ideas evolved into something that's almost certainly going to turn big enough to be a whole separate installment, I think!
#personal#hazbin hotel#radiostatic#my writing#vox#alastor#feeling a little weird about posting this after how BIG the original reaction was to the series not having more planned at the time#idk 666 just got so big that sometimes the responses were a little overwhelming#it culminated unfortunately with the last installment because it was a combination of people being sad that the series#didn't have more explicitly planned for it#and because a number of people got weird about the CNC (particularly a number of people who hadn't read the rest of the series)#in a way that at least at the time felt like it overshadowed people actually enjoying the series#so it left me with some weird feelings about the whole thing#and now I'm a little apprehensive to post more#I'll get over it a lot of the overshadowing was just because negativity feels louder than positivity and I'm just venting a little!#writing snippets#staticradio
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The past few days have REALLY sucked. Here are some stress doodles venting through the only character I can ever relate to on any meaningful level in three different flavors! šš»
Their character designs are based on my LoveLetter AU ones, and some of the ideas behind these are influenced by stuff I want to happen in it. However, my AU is not relevant to understanding any of these, given the fact that I vomited these on paper from the actual real-life drama I'm dealing with.
#my art#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#big shot spamton#big shot era#addispam#white addison#blue addison#bant#spamton g addison#doodles#sketches#rough drawings#vent#vent art#I would actually be even MORE UNHINGED if I didn't have this little man to relate to#crazy I don't have to look like a character to relate this strongly to him damn
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The trans FTM experience of not knowing how to feel about your detachment from femininity and growing up a woman
#No cause how do I deal with it#I figured out I wasnāt cis YOUNG like I was 11 when I started experimenting with different names and pronouns#but at the same time#I was someoneās daughter#I was someoneās niece#I grew up a little girl#and to those Iām not out to (or those who choose to live in ignorance) I still am all those things#and so Iām still viewed as less than.#I experience āfeminine rageā (whatever the name is)#I experience my medical issues being undermined by doctors#I experience the same limited access to period products#Iām not old enough to medically transition in my state as a minor#So on most levels beside my very liberal big city and social life Iām counted as female despite living in Texas#But the threat of being trans here can be a death sentence#I have few protections as a biological woman and if Trump is elected I will likely have even less#And I canāt begin to tell you how many more Iāll lose as a trans man#Trans#Venting#FTM#Texas#Election#us elections#Transgender#Trans man#Trans male#Trans FTM#Queer#LGBT#LGBTQ#LGBTQ+
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I wish my parents understood that when I am having a Bad Time ( meltdown) that I need to be left alone because if they come into my room or ask what's wrong or literally even look at me they're actively making it worse
#also this is how it has worked since i was little#anyway#im so#they have good intentions#most of the time#but i just need to be alone#i haven't had a big one like this in a while#augh#its cause im living with my parents agaun#vent tw#sorry for vent#im having a bad time
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āWhyās he call you Darlinā?ā
on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam
#(itās too late guys iāve already added it to a couple playlists. i canāt help it)#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redacted sam#redacted darlin#rp audio stuff#Sevenās Blorbo Songs#music stuff#i fell down a rabbit hole of music videos on YT last night and decided to give this song a chance based on the title obviously#skipped through all the exposition just to quickly find out if i liked the song or not#and as soon as the first line came in i went head-in-hands at my desk bc i just Knew it was over for me#i hate that i like it#itās very repetitive and giving strong Modern/Mainstream Pop-Rap-Country vibes#but iām not too proud to admit that i eat that shit up on occasion#āYouāve been beatinā āround the bush so much youāre knockinā off the leaves.ā goes kinda hard tho iām ngl#āole boy in a Ridgeline and i drive a Chevyā would Sam be a truck elitist? hmm#i doubt it. i see him as too practical-minded to care about brand names and shit like that#like irl i think itās very silly. and perhaps a little questionable to hate on a āforeignā vehicle. but i donāt even like trucks at all so#insecure country boys and their obsession with big trucks are ruining the road for us regular people that just want a normal ass car#but iāll stop before i go off on a rant about americaās transportation problems#anyways. i can separate reality from fiction and i love the image of Sam in a beat up beloved old truck. clichĆ© as it may be#getting back on track. my POINT was that the song doesnāt even necessarily fit Samās vibes i just. canāt undo the association#been trying to think of a way for it to fit him but that would require Darlinā to be cheating on him and i donāt like that thought#like i love some types of angst but cheating isnāt one of them#i could view it through the context of being directed at Alexis bc i already hate her lmao but once again it doesnāt fit in canon#and i donāt know how i feel about the thought that he used to call her Darlinā too. though itās very possible. mmm angst#not that it has to fit with canon for me to attach a song to a character. certainly not! but i need to make it work in my mind Somehow#and i canāt even come up with a good HC to make this fit. the idea of Jealous!Sam is fun in theory but idk if iād like it practice anyways#tldr: does this really fit canon Sam? meh. Is it forever tied to him in my mind anyways due to the use of the petname Darlinā? absolutely.#anywho. one of these days iāll open this app to do something other than vent post or yap abt rp audio blorbos. but that day is not today!
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I am exhausted, good heavens.
#hey watch this neat trick I can do [cries]#love that for me#BUT#BUT- the actual EFFORT I put these days to not make a suicide jokes is *chefs kiss* phenomenal#actively shitting bricks as I physically have to stop myself from saying I want a car to hit me for the 50th time that day#I am not progressing any more than I am downgressing or whatever the opposite word is. but girlies#and boysies and peepsies#my lipgloss is popping and my eyebags are gucci- and so I shall prevail#MAN this tiredness is BONE DEEP man- it's like it's engraved into my goddamn clavicles#sorry that was like the only bone name I could remember- I don't even know what a clavicle is#anyways- I need to fall asleep forever and never wake up. But not in like a dying way#I just need to stop waking up tired and being tired and going to sleep tired and living tired like GIRL#WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN SLEEP STOPS SLEEPING#I JUST SLEPT 10 HOURS HOW ARE YOU STILL TIRED#I am so tired that i stopped liking shit- like that SUCKS my dudes#I sometimes Don't Like art now and that is WILD to me because that was lowkey the One Thing that got me going#I used to actually LIKE english class! and reading Shakespear and shit!!!! and history class!! Now I don't!! Where did the spark go??????#Now everything feels like a chooooooore and it sucks major dick#and my graaaades are slipping because I stopped giving a damn but I NEED. TO. GIVE. A. DAMN#because those are like highkey lowkey and every-other-key my grades and I need them to go into uni so I don't die <333#I need to spite little mini me who said I wasn't going to live past 13 because BITCH- guess how old I'm turning next week????????#THAT'S RIGHT- 17 YEARS OLD- FUCK YEAH BABY I'M STILL NOT DEAD#SUCK MY BIG ASS SHLONG MINI-ME#and then I have a big biology exam the day after so- funnnnn!!#anywho- should I tag this as vent? this probably counts as vent right? like among us? impostor and shit?#sorry I think my brain is actively rotting out of my ears right now#vent post#personal vent#tw vent#tw sui talk
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Was gonna make a vent post talking abt how everything sucks but then something good happened so I'm okay now, I'm cured
#Still gonna vent a lil...#So things kinda sucks as of late for me#I have all these little problems. That on their own aren't that bad. But they just. keep piling up and become one big problem for me#One thing after the other. I am tired. Like emotionally. My mind is exhausted#At this point I keep thinking that something really bad is gonna happen#I try to be positive. I try to make all these problems not get to me#But man. It's kinda hard#Idk. I just don't know.#I just feel unlucky#Whatever. At least I still have my ability to draw. That's one of the most important things for me!#If I feel bad I'll just draw something. Maybe even for someone! I've been having fun drawing other ppls ocs :]#I feel better now btw. Sorry for the vent tho I actually don't like venting like this but also. if I don't talk abt this I'll explode.#So yeah. Hope everyone has a good day!
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My brain is absolutely terrible today. Here's some pictures of my pets.
#that's the last picture i took of Shiloh#i miss my sweet old man#the holidays are always hard#but today is especially rough#my wife didn't give me anything for christmas#we don't normally really do anything so it's not a big deal#but i did get her a little something#and she made gifts for her co-workers and her siblings#she said she felt bad and i said it was fine because i don't want her to feel bad#but i guess it's bothering me more than i realized#just feeling kind of taken for granted in general lately#i do a lot for other people#which i do genuinely like doing#and i know it's appreciated and i don't expect reciprocity#but like#it would be nice if someone did something for me sometimes#without me having to ask or bargain or break down crying#ignore me#just venting in tags#hope everyone has a lovely new year
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bad news: i think i am sleep deprived enough to have opinions on the internet.
one 'trope' that's always really bugged me from the rottmnt fandom is the "poor mikey has to be the family therapist/most emotionally mature even though he's the youngest!!!"
and i mean? like, yeah, the 'family therapist' thing by itself has its merit, because I don't think anyone should have to be the 'family therapist' (though I don't necessarily think that describes mikey? like I think he WANTS to and does 'therapy' his family sometimes but I also don't think that this is something that everyone seeks or expects from him all the time?) but it's more like
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the youngest thing
it grates on me when people act like it's such a tragedy or injustice that he's 'forced' to emotionally caretake for his family members at times when he's the 'baby.' but it's not like he's some child being taken care of/relied upon by adults? in both the show and most fanwork i've seen with this trope, he's doing a majority of this 'emotional caretaking' for his brothers. and like... raph is literally only two years older than him. why is it so messed up if mikey happens to have some more emotional maturity than him in some areas? why is it so horrendous if mikey takes care of raph? just because raph's a couple years older than him? this means it's bad for raph to ask for or want their sibling to take care of them sometimes? mikey shouldn't have to provide any emotional support or care, but raph should?
why is mikey not able to provide emotional support for his family without it being viewed as toxic or tragic just because he's the youngest? this is basically expected of raph as the eldest by the fandom. sure, there's lots of "aw poor raph had to raise his brothers" type stuff (which I also don't really agree with but that's another thing) but it's always in a light of "it's so messed up that raph had to parent his brothers instead of their dad" rather than "it's so tragic that raph is providing emotional support for his younger brother."
i hate this idea that because raph, leo, and donnie are a couple years older than mikey, they are able to protect and caretake for him and that's cute, wholesome "good sibling" content, but if mikey does the same for them, it's somehow tragic angst and reflects poorly on raph/leo/donnie.
#idk im just tired of the trope in generl#not just in rottmnt but rottmnt is a really good example of it#of like? Big Siblings Take Care of Little Siblings#like! yes! big siblings cna and should take care of little siblings!#but why acant??? little siblings also provide support and care? for big siblings sometimes#idk this is all just me projecting and shit#can you tell i am the eldest child#rottmnt#vent#rant#personal
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man if we get canon alloromantic brad im gona. lose my mind
#i am constantly fighting the urge to say im gona kms cuz ik its not healthy to say#but good god if we get alloromantic brad im gona cry#maybe not Actually but like i feel like its pretty rare to see a character show literally Zero interest in romance#and brad and jo both show literally zero interest in romance and so its so easy for me to be like!!!!!! see!!!! they r aro!!!!!#but like. AGHH i wish i had better words but i really dont like when romance is just kinda shoehorned in because like. it āhasā to be#ITS JUST!!!!!#LIKE YA KNOW??? they show bo interest in it and i just have a sinking feeling that one or both r gona be confirmed alloro n its like ughhhh#i just feel very strongly about them being aromantic (specifically apothiromantic)#IM RLLY STRUGGLING to not repeat myself a dozen times but its just nice to see characters who dont show romantic interest like at all idk#n i am just a Little worried that they are just gona throw romance into their characters when it rlly doesnt need to be there#and like idk maybe my reading of them is really off base but like i just feel like romance Doesnt fit with them#like i genuinely cant see them caring about it at all#mythic quest#brad bakshi#vent#? yeah i think this is venty enough to warrant that#jo mythic quest#< this is less abt jo cuz there hasnt been any like talk of jo being in a romantic relationship but this still applies to her#morty talks woah#aromantic#i have a lot of energy rn and i just want to Talk and ive been thinking abt this for like the last few days so#its really not That Big a deal but it is to me even if its silly
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An answer to the question āwhat one fancy meal can they make wellā from a bit ago... Hive city food is likely mostly imports, corpse starch, algae, rats...Thavu probably ate more freaky ice leeches and Leather Boot Stew than she ever did carrots. BUT I like to think some places can manage to grow a Couple things with a bit of luck. And work, probably some bribes...managing to grow your own 6 carrots a year is probably considered a crime, thatās rich people food. So the carrots and berries are probs a Treat, but thereās no way the penguigeon isnt some sort of staple. Itās a pigeon!!! you cant convince me 8 billion gmoād variations of the Meat Pigeon didnāt follow humanity into the grimdark future!!
#art#darktide#thavu#if i can ever figure out how to draw it#thavu's little hab is kinda like a terrestrial steam vent ecosystem#around some big boiling waters being spat out of the hives heating systems#probably got cut off forever ago and assumed dead but they lived bitch
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algerian trans women arent able to compete in women sports at all, but yeah its makes no sense to call khelif tme. youre so fucking smart.
(this is a response to this post) i see you don't believe that i'm quoting one of the trans women in my life about that, which is your prerogative. it's also your right to miss my point entirely both about the ways this alienates intersex people and about the rigidity of a binary that comes down to the same shrinking circles terfs draw when they try to quantify what a woman is (speak up for women, the most organised nz group, have now submitted on the human rights act suggesting that all babies be karyotyped at birth and the results be public, bc they can't establish any other definition they agree on. absolutely fucking nobody, not even their christian or conspiracist allies, agrees with them on this one.)
but you don't have to take my word for it! when i was at that consultation with the nz law commission, i was in a room with many other intersex and trans people, including trans athletes and trans women like lexie matheson who consult on trans inclusion in sports at a high national level. i don't think there's a single person in that room who did not name what was happening to khelif as we spoke as transmisogyny, who did not speak of her as part of a group with whom we all shared something.
at the end of the day, prison abolition informs all of my politics. i believe that we must look clearly and carefully at harm and distinguish it from discomfort or disagreement, and identify its structural sources and true perpetrators. i believe that to build a better future we must be capable of imagining one. i believe that we can build a world where suffering is not the metric by which we determine value or punishment or righteousness. i believe that we can build a world where we centre and uplift those who are most hurt, in every arena ā black and brown trans women, here; in some of my other work, it's incarcerated intellectually disabled people, or asian migrant sex workers affected by section 19, the list goes on ā without then pitting them against other people who share some of the same story and will benefit from the same deconstruction of the systems that hold them down. i believe we can build a world in which asab doesn't affect so much of your life by beginning that work now.
there's a politics of scarcity ā you have it better than me, so we have nothing in common. i saw it all the time in brothels, the idea that the new girl is taking money out of your kids' mouths. the viciousness with which people who are struggling are so ready to abandon solidarity. is it so hard to demand better for everyone? to think less about the ways we're alone and more about the ways we're together?
maybe it is. i know that well enough as a prison abolitionist. people get scared. they swing at shadows, they swing at anyone who seems to be suffering less, they ā we, i should say, i am certainly not immune ā get blindingly jealous of people who seem to have it easier. that's grief! that's grief for the easier life that we deserve. and we get to mourn, and take that time to feel it, and then we can choose if we want to keep working hand in hand with each other toward a world where that grief is dwarfed by the promise of the future.
#tony muses#tony answers#or you could simply say that she's not a trans woman instead of trying to make these terms fit? 'exempt' does make no sense here#unfollow me if you don't like what i'm saying! i don't intend to harp on it i like my little corner of tumblr and don't want this to spread#rbs still turned off anons also going off bc frankly i need to catch up on all my irl commitments and on local organising#and on the day job which is international organising related lmao#i really really cannot say this enough: even for the people i know who are both terminally online in trans circles AND organising irl#committing to more of the latter makes you feel a lot better about the former#also as always: i live in new zealand. i think half the problem with trans discourse is that people cannot imagine not just a better future#but a present in which there are communities less dysfunctional irl than this big messy online one#and that's saying something given how much i've vented on here about local dysfunction#i know a lot of people ā mostly trans women ā on here + twitter who feel afraid to have these conversations in public bc ppl act like this#and they have better things to do#technically so do i but unfortunately last night i was upset so i've opened another can of worms ig#which fucking sucks for me because every single time i have this conversation it devolves into people refusing to believe my csa history#or that i was sexed the ways i was as a kid
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So turns out being sick + seasonal depression + sleep deficit + work-related issues + the world going to shit in general amounts to me not feeling so great at all, I am both shocked and appalled by this outcome š
#and then I'm like 'at least I'll always have fanfiction'#and then the world is like 'ha ha so about that...' š#sorry to be depressing on main#I try not to do that too much because I want this to be a positive space but AAHH today is just a Day#just not having a very good time atm#as I'm sure goes for a LOT of people right now#I know I'm not special lol#just venting I guess#this is why I hate fall and winter but anywayyyy#big shoutout to the wonderful nonnie who send me an ask earlier though <33#you're the only good thing about today and I love you#I will reply when I'm feeling a little less maudlin <3#minnie talks
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I had one of the worst panic attacks Iāve ever had last night :( My dad had to drive an hour to watch me for the night and my mom was trying to calm me down over phone the entire time until he got here because I was so so scared :((
#give me that stupid doctors appointment and finally meditate me#I donāt want to live like this anymore#sorry vor venting but Iām really at my wits end here#im trying so so hard#Iām in therapy everyoneās telling me Iām making big progress but honestly I donāt think so#and they donāt know how much effort it takes to try to keep it together#go to work socialise etc#when Iām just constantly feeling like either an animal being hunted for sports or dying of a heart attack alone in my room#and on top of that I was doing pretty fine the last weeks donāt I deserve a little break?#š„
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