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up&adam + sydney sargent and polly apollyon + rick rounds are both sets of characters containing '(theoretically) charismatic and manipulative demon with floral suit’ and ‘guy with Religious Issues who is being slowly eaten by the forest (metaphor)’. but the difference between them is sydney responds to cosmic horror by going 'holy shitttt this is gonna change my entire world view...give me a second...ok worldview changed. have you heard of warrior cats' whilst rick responds to cosmic horror by trying to shoot it. with a gun
#THEREFORE you see the different ways they cope with encountering The Devil™️#this post brought to you by:#dead from the neck up but living just enough to beg you pretty boy please let me die#but just like a vampire i dont exist#are we on the same page yet? i'm getting old here! come on dont you get it? what the heck!#if you dont hate me then reanimate me prove it to me baby lightning in my veins#these inscticts ive managed to stave mean monsters must be people too so oh JEEZ#etc. etc. etc.#jupiter talks#rick rounds tag#also i say ‘theoretically’ bc lets be real. polly is not actually that good at manipulating people lol
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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.
(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)
#bewitching sinners#palmier baker#thane verashkova#accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild#also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire#you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet#hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound#but about being murdered thats really cool#also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES#by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man#thank you for being group mum i love you for it#and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while#and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world#im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry#you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore#and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice#im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like#dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point#i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish#my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later#and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest#thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing#gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense
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this convo hitting so different if ur a lolth drow like minthara
#ntm shri'iia's initial fear at the start (and what lead her to eventually break her oath (accidentally!!)) was her getting hatecrimed#bc she's a drow. bc she's been told how much the surfacers hate her kind and how they are the Enemy#like if surfacers are scared and wary of lolth drows bc of what they do up there i think they'd be scared and wary of surfacers too bc of#what they've been made to believe in. and the fact that kindness or anything Good generally does not Exist or is very scarce in their#society so getting treated better is something that doesn't come to mind (more so for shri'iia bc she was raised in the Braeryn where#the drow nobles go down there to terrorize the poor people. like i dont think she had that luxury or chance to experience goodwill UNTIL sh#was dropped off in the surface and was given the benefit of the doubt -> which is more than what she expected or what she was given before#but anyway that convo where minty says they begin to see you in the same light probably ‼️‼️ alarmed her#bc i think she's only starting to become comfortable and safe around other people. like this is early act 3 shri'iia too#it does take her a long time to get accustomed to other people and let her guard down. then minty says something like that and i think it'l#set her off. like she's gonna start getting paranoid again. then vampire abduction happens the next night she's like OUP.#takes the astral tadpole out of her own fear and paranoia bc she's had that belief that having power and strength will make her feel safe#(it does not.) it's the same reason why she took the tadpole in act 1 in the first place#since she takes it after breaking her oath and feeling like she's significantly weaker. shri'iia can't feel like she's lacking in anything#ever she needs that security net that she's strong enough or capable enough and she needs others to know that about herself too she's too#insecure. and i think having two instances where her paranoia gets ticked off will push her to take the astral tadpole. like its#really out of impulse. and i think part of her oathbreaker arc is her learning how to tame that paranoia too and just generally learning#how to feel comfortable and safe. but anyway. thats part of the reason why i like minty#to be the one who gets kidnapped hehe. second part is the toxic yuri of it all 🤤🤤🤤#shut up about bg3.
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made some jyler sketches..
i hope this fandom is still alive
yeah.. they deserve better this ship would be famous if they writers didn’t fucked them up woohoo
#jyler#fanart#tvd#the vampire diaries#i hate my existence#jeremy gilbert#tyler lockwood#my fav fucked up otp#No seriously they could have had it all#IM CRYING SO BAD FUCK YOU TVD FUCK YOUUUU!!#HOW THEY ARENT CANON? HOW CAN YOU FUCKED A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP LIKE THAT? I DONT UNDERSTAND#I JUST DONT#vent#illustrator#ship#otp
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Low quality and low effort explanation of my feelings about the two recent song releases
#dont get me wrong i LOVE fantasy#but....there is something so theatrical about medium that makes my brain go buzzzzzz#its like if valkyrie was mixed with double face for you enstarries who understand#which i might honestly not be that accurate of#but its just i love the whole vibe#haru no yume kind of vibes but more mysterious stranger winking at you thing you know?#idolish7#fandom spamdom#note's notes#also the lyrics make me insane#truly proof that sometimes poetry can say more than prose about a story#also while binary vampire's story was good i love a good mysterious circus story (its the tma fan in me)#so.....#anyway if i had a nickel for every time an i7 song knocked a zool song released around the same time id have two nickels...#...which isnt alot but mr affection and medium exist so
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Anyway s/o to the other night when I was mostly passed out and started fumbling, glassesless, for my phone, because I NEEDED to send a series of messages to the chat that basically was like
The concept of Ingjard and Beleval going to some fancy thing, idk, don't ask why the Dawnguard is sending representatives, and Ingjard (masc to me) and Beleval (very fem to me) dress up. Inverted. Stylistically. Ingjard in some dress and Beleval in like. The tes equivalent of a tux. They hate the event. They hate each other. They hate this entire situation. Their dance is like a 1v1.
After a few minutes pause where I nearly fell asleep I once again unlocked my phone to send simply "Ingjard and Beleval as that chicks doing makeup meme," which was met with insanely enthusiastic agreement
#skyrim#dawnguard#ingjard letting beleval put the makeup on without a fuss so beleval doesnt poke out one of her eyes#ingjard: why the hell am i the one in a dress#beleval: because it bothers you. and i like that#anyway thinking about it maybe its like. one of those 'the vampires have infiltrated the jarls court' missions#celann (whos familiar with these things) cant go bc hes busy doing celann things#idk i said dont ask#as a person i am constantly torn between 'dawnguard as a family :)'#and my vision of toxic yuri emotionally unavailable beleval and internalized homophobe lesbian ingjard#there are two dawnguards in my head just so the beleval/ingjard situationship can exist#one universe 'i can fix them' the other 'i can make them worse'
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bad wolf soda <3
#level of obsession reached where i zoom in on screenshots to see what shes reading#p sure that says kierkegaard in white but thats as far as im getting#'first existentialist philosopher'#okay i really gotta find out what the fuck existentialism really means now bc carmilla seems to like it#'related to the meaning purpose and value of human existence.#Common concepts in existentialist thought include existential crisis dread#and anxiety in the face of an absurd world and free will as well as authenticity courage and virtue.'#SCREAM OKAY I SEE I SEE#kierkegaard beauvoir sartre nietzsche camus yep p sure those all get mentioned#okay this is fun#kierkegaard was like an existentialist before the word and hes from the first half of the 19th century#dont know if you can call vampires contemporaries of people bc....immortal. but carmilla was a contemporary of him#technically#and then when existentialism gets named halfway the 20th century carmilla has just escaped her blood coffin punishment#and so shes alone for a little bit without direction. perhaps free or perhaps waiting for mother to show up again#it's fun that existentialism seems sort of to be abt there being a choice abt who you want to be#that youre not defined by an essence. that What You Are is not defined pre what you do#so you can shape yourself#it's interesting the tension between that belief and the position carmilla is in. no wonder theres self-loathing#but also! she starts resisting the What She Is that is imposed on her. after 1945. starts sabotaging plans#i gotta go download some books#'ive got a talk i wanna catch on goethe' hang on im googling#1749-1832 she lived through that too#oh right faust and young werther i know of those#'Goethe admitted that he 'shot his hero to save himself' a reference to Goethe's near-suicidal obsession for a young woman a passion he que#relatable#god theres so much to read in the world and i have not read any of it#carmillaposting#i wonder what she'd write her dissertation about
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on one hand I wanna write my fic ideas wherein my marvel oc gets sent to the alternate universe of Gotham and hijinks ensue whilst she tries to survive and get back and the batfam and such slowly learn more info abt her world and how it's being threatened atm and she needs to go back and help and whatnot.
But on the other hand, the readers wouldn't know the marvel related backstory of this OC and would have. No context for her going in
But ALSO then the readers would know abt as much abt this mysterious figure as the batcrew do, and get to learn via flash backs and her slowly revealing info to them as safety allows
Then there's also just a general. Idk if there's any sort of oc etiquette when it comes to writing oc centered fics? My brain goes so hogwild when I read anything that I usually avoid oc fics other people write just bc I usually read and enjoy fics at face value but I also go "now what would happen if this OC was here?" And that gets real complicated when other people's ocs are involved
#jasper rambles#this is a rambly one yall#fanfic discussion#fanfic etiquette?#i just. listen. i made a vampire oc for captain america specifically of the mcu.. and i was thinking and like. gotham is the Perfect City fo#r a vampire to live right. so like. then i was like what would she do if she ended up in gotham. how would that go. and then i could reveal#her marvel backstory thru tidbits she drops and flashbacks. bc i have her mcu timeline pretty well planned out#tho also her existence (along w a few pther ocs) drastically changes the course of the mcu so some things hapen VERY differently (mainly civ#il war and then the start of the following arcs) so like id aalso have to reveal where the canon divergence from the mcu is during the flash#backs. and then ALSO i have a p decent grasp of the batfam and whatnot but i havent had the oppurtunity to read many comics so i dont even.#what if i just FAIL at their characterization and im actually wronf magically#and then ALSO comes the question of should i include my batman dc oc? bc SHES a whole. package. theres a LOT to unpack w her. tho for this s#pecific fic idea i think itd be fun to just. have her be Another Batfam Member. like yeah shes got her own stuff going on. but this fic woul#dnt dive into it anymore than it dives into the other batfam members#the other issue is deciding where in the mcu timeline this oc gets thrown into an au and why and how or if that affects the mcu timeline fro#m there. cuz thatd need to be decided for the sake of flashbacks. and if im gonna ise flashbacks id love to try and plan it out so it aligns#with the plot happening in gotham. i dont necessarily want like. a running Plot in the flashbacks. but id want them to be scenes from her li#fe in mcu that reveaal stuff that helps understand the decisions she makes in the gotham plot#but ALSO in the gotham plot. id wanna have it either be that her presence has caused some sort of ripple that the gotham baddies are using t#o hirt people or else some other unrelated gotham baddies plot is happening and this oc being herself sees trouble and runs towards it to tr#y and help people. even tho she has her own stuff to deal w. and then makes herself a target of the gangs and also potentially screws someth#ings up bc she doesnt have as intimate of knowledge abt the baddies and gangs as the batfam do since most of em grew up in the streets of g#otham one way or another#so like. and like she can hold her own. she was a young woman in brooklyn in the 30/40s. but its still a different environment in gotham rat#her than in brooklyn new york. so itd be. yeah. tbh i feel like the fact that im putting this much thought into it means i will probably try#to write and post it on ao3. idk when tho. im trying not to post more fics on ao3 so i can focus on my xmen fic#sso. anyway if you read all this feel free to share your thoughts and or like. sorry not sorry for the rambly essay of tags <3#i told you jasper rambles
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"Yeah i have some weird tastes but overall I'd say my ability to empathize with non heroic characters in a story and tell horror from tragedy is pretty normal. Like, very average, on par with anyone with 5th grade or above reading comprehension."
a YouTuber: "possibly the biggest pill though is I'm now going to have to ask you to empathize with one of these shape shifting vampires even though they have absolutely killed people. this is phase 3 of "what the heck is going on in (the game he's talking about)" it's not actually a horror game. i know. it's a lot"
#like#is it really so normal to just#not be able to vibe with a fictional character if theyve done a plot appropriate bad thing?#Yeah they killed a lot of people. big whoop none of those cunts even existed#Also how can you be surprised that a game Called Immortality would involve immortal characters.#its whats on the tin#idk maybe he was just trying to make it sound deep? By sounding kinda dumb?#idk he also couldn't grapple with the concept of absurdity or just nodding and going yeah that tracks#Also i dont get why hes calling these characters vampires#they dont drink blood as a form of sustenance they just kill to steal faces#Also the obsession with art and making art would put them more thematically in line with fairies than vamps#since vamps are usually best utilized as an exaggerated parasite. or as a symbol of corruption#they are fundamentally still human and grapple with human problems while the shapeshifters in immortality are explicitly#not human at all.#and struggling against the messiness of the humans around them while holding human adjacent desires.#they want to make True art and entertain and be seen.#idk he calls them vampires a lot and its just#strange.#like ive watched a few of his videos now and a lot of them are good and have good points. i like his editing and narration#but he doesn't really grok a lot of more grey concepts and struggles with things that just are. or are vague in a story. He Has to grope to#find something more rigid and it just idk. Smart guy. struggles to look the blurred spaces in the eye and accept their company#sort of guy who would melt if you handed him the book of unsolvable problems.
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post game Vice and Astarion become vampire hunters sort of out of necessity methinks
#as much as I think astarion would feel guilty about the spawn#I cant find a way in my brain to justify him ruling over a colony of people that probably hate him/dont want anything to do with him#but hed still try and help#but 7000 people is So Much and theyre basically wild animals at that point#Vice and astarion kinda have to become hunters but usually only to try and track down the spawn that leave the underdark#and try and set them on the right path#cause again#I dont think astarion could justify Forcing someone to stay where they dont want to be#and hes also just one man#its this dance of trying to keep innocents safe and also trying to keep the spawn safe and hes just caught in the middle of it all#like the colony exists itd just be so small for so many years#and astarion feels like he owes it to them to try and find a cure or a way to ease their condition and thats what he can best focus on#I guess#uhh also Vampire turned vampire hunter is cool#Even if theyre just spawn theres also the very real feeling of not wanting any of them to become a monster like cazador#also means that maybe if he could walk in the sun again#he could share that with the spawn#viceposting#bg3 spoilers
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GOOD BOY GONE BAD GOOD BOY GONE BAD GOOD BOY GONE BAD GOOD BOY GONE BAAAAAAAD
#ceci speaks#text#gif warning#nonsims#ceci likes kpop#we fresh was stuck in my head a bit#but gbgb has knocked it clean out#im always a cb behind for every group btw#its just how it is#anyway if u wanna know my year late thoughts#beomgyu and kai wrecked me out of existence#taehyun remains my king#soobin needs to stop#and yeonjun... we dont talk about yeonjun#i love this type of cheesy vampire esque angst concept#and its kinda giving repo the genetic opera realness#and i love that#whoever put that red eyeshadow on kai deserves an award#its giving angst its giving power its giving beauty its giving gerard ways baby#taehyuns red velvet top is giving vtmb realness#i love the fashion#the choreo the vocals#king shit#/ramble
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dni if you support relationships between vampires and the vampire they sired. i am so serious, i dont care what your justification is, that is an unforgivable power imbalance. its almost as bad as vampire human relationships (and if you support that i hope you get a splinter in the heart)
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op what the fuck is your problem? more maggots in your brain than usual? go out into the real underworld and touch some graveyard dirt. i know at least 7 vampires who are in happy healthy relationships with the vampire who sired them. me included! this may shock you but we started dating when i was human and she was a vamp!
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i hate to tell you this but you're in a toxic relationship and i sincerely hope youre able to get out.
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HELLO???????
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i keep seeing people saying this shit and honestly i think it stems from the infantalization of humans. humans are capable of making decisions for themselves. do some vampires abuse their powers over humans? of course! but you cant assume that every single human vampire relationship (or sire and sired relationship for that matter) is some unhealthy power imbalance, especially when you dont even know them!!!
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i think op is forgetting that humans can be just as harmful to vampires as they can be to humans. dont tell me you completely just forgot about the existence of vampire slayers
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next thing you know op is gonna be saying that a hundred year age gap between fully fledged vampires is problematic
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it literally is. i dont care if you are a 1000 years old vampire, if your significant other is 100 years older than you they have more life experience than you. god you guys are stupid why dont you all step into a sunbeam
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hey guys i just went to ops account and their pinned post was about how they dont consider werewolves part of the monster community cuz theyre not undead. just block and move on it is NOT worth it
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isnt it funny how whenever theres some rancid discourse like this its always made by coffinscrews
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i need to do something more significant with c's necklace to his backstory but idk what </3
#the big cross thing#i know i really like it on his design and im just too lazy to actually make it a crucifix for the just like.#hes immortal and its a curse he just cannot die. so he does sillies#idk whats more threatening either like other vampires in his universe exist and are hurt by it in whatever way they hurt vampires. idk#i dont actually read alot of vampire stuff i jsut like them#and. like. c was a rainbow drinker when he was my homestyck oc so i kinda have to make him vampire .... he IS vampire...
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oh its specialty dash i havent experienced it in a hot moment
#<<insomniac vampire speaking>> mun post#(this version has existed for several years just people either desktop browser or use the app)#(-has experienced it as the default for mobile browser use of the website & had to use it for quite some time-)#(i dont hate it but i dont like it that's for sure also jarring to experience again out of the blue)#(its also wild to use when barely conscious and on a bigger screen)#(they also i think made it worst? so like they've been messing with its ui that much more and smh)
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like i really dont think ya understand the severity of the abuse- even aside from the sexual abuse-
i have bpd and come from a home where im not validated very well (obviously, bc thats what makes ppl bpd in the first place). i meet this person who validates me in every way i could possibly imagine or want (love bombing). they pretend to like me so much that they start to become like me and pick up traits of mine they like the most. they know they have a hold over me and power over me bc i didnt know how to validate myself and they were the only source of validation i had. so then they go ahead and start invalidating me and acting like im less of me and theyre somehow more of me. i knew who i was deep down but suddenly i felt unseen again and silenced and pushed into a corner. and then they act like im a horrible person (discarding phase) and serve me an entirely different version of me thats not who i am, but bc i didnt know how to validate myself and was reliant on them (something thats particularly important for this type of abuse to work), it made me question myself and who i was and what i was like and what my intentions were and what my actions were and if i could even trust my own reality all over again when i really didn’t fucking need to since i knew who i was deep down, but they somehow convinced me they knew me better. because i was reliant on them. i dont think you understand how much that fucks with you.
#vent#this is why i kind of find it hard not to cling to the term 'narcissistic abuse' since this is verbatim what happens in that type of abuse.#based on everything ive read.#again. i dont personally think it necessarily has anything to do w ppl with npd. narcissism as a term existed before the diagnosis.#it means someone whos selfish and only looks out for themselves and will do anything for themselves even at the expense of others.#and literally EVERYTHING ELSE people online have said about this type of abuse happened.#the smear campaign. the sending people after me to stalk me and get info out of me. the apparently never leaving me alone as evidenced#by that anon recently.#oh and- cant forget accusing me of everything they did but 10x worse somehow.#if a certain type of abuse can be predicted so well and so many people have had the same experience or similar enough experiences#i dont see why it doesnt deserve its own term. we just have to divorce it from the idea of npd. maybe give it a different name.#because its really not *just* emotional abuse. sorry.#its so much more than that and so much more strategic.#and this is why even though i didnt think of them as being exactly like zero before i still thought of them as being vampiric.#bc they tried to drain me of my energy and who i was.#but nowadays i can really see the similarities. if only they were rich and had institutional power and paid politicans to oppress#minorities. then theyd be the same person. but im not gonna sit here and pretend thats the case. they're similar to him in so many ways but#theyre not the same person. im obviously able to fucking recognize that.#in spite of them pretending like i cant.#now if that ends up secretly being the case... well....#might be harder for me to divorce them from being similar lmao.#but so far i dont have enough evidence to confidently say that.
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this is petty but the people who interpret the whole canon thing in atsv as fanfiction and not as like, literal comics… its annoying
#i know canon as a word exists for both but like this is about comics and alternate universes in the comics#not about fanfic AUs. come on now#brot posts#comics posting#i guess it wouldnt annoy me as much but then you also have ppl who dont read the comics like completely being. so weird#like oh miguel is a vampire NO HE ISNT#LITERALLY JUST LOOK AT HIS MARVEL WIKI PAGE? YOU CANT EVEN DO THAT?#like these movies are about COMICS in a way that like other comic to movie adaptations arent#and the way people are just not even acknowledging it like just turning an absolute blind eye to the source material#idk. like its not that deep this isnt a real ‘argh terrible’ kind of thing to bemoan im just annoyed. and i like to complain
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