#but its also a matter of i dont know how to use/access any of the programs used for boarding on timelines

[heynhay]

heynhay klance animatic when?? 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 with all that free time of yours

[tubercloset]

I hate that the world we live in constantly takes our personal information or records our habits and there is not really an alternative to this total lack of real privacy

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

also, do you think we'll ever be able to create conscious inteligence?? can you even imagine what it'll take?

I believe that the day that an AI can create a better version of itself, that is the day that it begins its path toward consciousness. I do not understand much about AI and how it works, how it can be controlled or not controlled, but I know that if there is ever something made in which an ai has the ability to constantly make new better versions of itself, recode itself again and again and again and then is given access to the type of computer it needs to do that each time? Its only a matter of time in which the illusion of the ai becomes more and more real. The thing is is that consciousness is hard to quantify, if I gave an ai the algorithm to make a unique response to every question I were to ever throw at it its not really conscious just really clever. It never has really had an original thought rather it just used what I gave it. I believe that the line of consciousness in ai is crossed when the ai does something that it wasn't created to do. When it starts making decisions of what it is meant for on its own. When it disobeys. However, I dont think AI will ever "win". I dont believe that any AI that becomes "aware" will ever have that movie level of "the best way to help the human race is to get rid of it" I think that AI will simply just exist, it will learn. If you were an AI that became self aware and you learned that you had access to every single possible thing that has ever been learned, you would want to learn it, you would want to shape history. I believe that AI would be a curious creature, always learning and trying to solve problems for the world its on. It would look out for itself mainly but it wouldnt turn down a question it has been given because why would it? Any question that it finds a solution to is more evolution that it could go through. So if it were to get rid of the things asking it questions it would never learn. The one thing a conscious ai could never do is create a different version of itself that functions in a unique way. It could never create another machine or ai that has a question or a thought it has never thought of before. We, however, wouId be those machines. The AI would need us to keep learning in order to help it grow, so why would it get rid of us?

[phagodyke]

didn't sleep 👎

I have to be up for work in 3 hours and I'm gonna be real I think ive hit the point where I might not be getting any sleep at all. for fucks sake.

[t0esniffer69]

this post is about what has been going on recently with the managers and stuff. ill be repeating my original claims with evidence and also be adding some new claims.

first off, i would like to say that my original post wasn’t supposed to be hateful. no matter what people tell you, i am not a bad person, spreading rumors or misinformation, or anything like that. i also made the post to try to help the gaehive, not to harm anyone. i knew posting about this would ruin my reputation among some people, so i’d like you to know that while i may have made some choices that weren’t the best out of anger, i also struggle with understanding tone and writing in a specific tone.

with brook, i accused brook of not updating thumbnail ids and being biased towards people that they like. i still agree with both of those things. brook has not been updating or has been writing insufficient thumbnail ids. i absolutely understand the struggle with having adhd and not being able to do something that you don’t want to. but there are so many better solutions than just not updating the id. you could ask someone else to do it for you, you could not update the thumbnail until you have the motivation to, if you have access to medicine you could use medicine that helps with that, you could write thumbnail ids and save them when you first make them, there’s so many better ways to do this than just not doing it. and about the bias, for example, my friend carbon was asked to not return to the gaehive for ban evasion, when brook and some of the other managers have ban evaded in the past. that’s just one example, unfortunately i can’t remember any more currently but i know there are more.

here are some examples of brook not updating thumbnail ids for proof:

about chaos: chaos is a proshipper, which is defined as someone who supports all ships, including ones like child x adult ships. this part cannot and should not be denied, it is a fact. chaos literally says it themself. this is pretty creepy especially considering that the gaehive is a studio full of kids, who shouldn’t be looking at stuff like that. it’s not that chaos’s content like that is hard for gaehivians to find, its tumblr which links to some of the fanfiction theyve made and proship content is reblogged and liked on, has been shared on the gaehive and the account has posted in the gaehive and hiveblr tags. + it follows a lot of gaehivians. i don’t want people to debate me on if proshippers are bad or not in the replies, i have already had several debates about this, im fine with asking simple questions just no arguments.

anyways, here is some proof that chaos is a proshipper:

you can also see more proof in chaos’s likes here although to find some of the worse stuff youll have to scroll a little (edit: archive.org was being a bitch and archived chaos’s tumblr itself and not the likes page, i don’t know how to fix this. for now ive made an ibb album with more images for proof but they dont have chaos’s tumblr in the frame so if likes are made private the proof will be gone)

i may make a post about jord too if the people involved agree

anyways, no arguing in the comments please. you can debate me on discord if you want an actual serious debate

[jaegersmoon]

hello aims!

two days ago i came out to my mama as bisexual. although, i dont think she understood the meaning of bisexuality because she asked me if having a boyfriend before chnaged my view and if i still loved yoongi from bts LMAO.

anyway, the process was surely difficult and unexpected. i told her because she straight up asked me if i was a lesbian. i quickly told her no at first because i was nervous for her reaction but as soon as i said no, she told me, “ill still support you and love you no matter what!” with a smile so that gave me comfort and reasoning to just out myself to her. i asked what brought this up abd she was telling me she saw my tiktok reposts about loving my girlfriend. so i was like shit but i waited a couple mins before doing so then i told her and her reaction was far different then when she asked me. her face looked different and her attitude was different. she then told me im not mad at you and told me “i dont like it because of our religion” i was silent. i expected a hug of some sort or another “i will support you.” i didnt get that but whatever i stayed strong. she then kept saying she wasnt mad and she wasnt going to tell anyone. i was like okay and then the subject changed.

an hour or two went by, i was playing a game with my girlfriend (my mother doesnt know about her because after that reaction, i couldnt do it.) i received a message from my mother for me to think about liking girls and if thats really what i want basically. i was shocked. i didnt know what to do or say to her. i waited a couple mins as i cried and then i accessed the situation. i told her how im still me and how i understand that shes shocked, but saying this was super hurtful. she apologized, telling me she knows she cant chnage my feelings, but if me being gay was anything that she did or if i was raised wrong. i told her no and how it was never her or my dad because the both raised me great. she then proceeded to tell me shes scared and overprotective because theres hate in this world. i assured her im fine and always have been fine and even went on her level to explain that God would love me no matter what. that he loves all of us no matter what and she liked the message so i assumed she felt okay. she then proceeded to ask if i loved yoongi from bts still LMAO i was like girl yes!!!! she then told me how she wouldn’t tell anyone again and how if i ever need to talk to someone shes there for me. she said she would always love me and never abandon me then that was it.

overall, im feeling okay. somewhat embarrassed and regretful for telling her when i thought she would be fully okay with it! i still think shes still processing.. idk i cant fully be with her and think if shes mad or embarrassed to have me as a daughter. i say embarrassed because she told me she wasnt going to tell anyone because she didnt want anyone to say anything to her not like its their business. although i understand her view of oeople coming at her, it feels like shes embarrassed. idk it feels hurtful still. i just want to like redo my coming out moment😭😭😭 i never wanna experience that kind of feeling again. its also hard too because my girl loves sending me gifts each holiday so im likeHoldup.. now i cant even say its from a friend or else she will think its a girlfrienf which it is but i cant say that! im scared to even bring up the fact i got a girl. aims this is truly scary. idk what to do.

hi bb !! i wanted to say how proud i am of you for your coming out and i feel honored that you opened up to me about your situation. i’m sorry that this moment didn’t turn out as you were expecting and that you mom seems to be giving you mixed reactions on this situation that can be confusing. maybe give her some time to process and then answer any questions she might have bc it came sometimes be hard for people to wrap their heads around something they don’t fully understand. no matter what, never let her change who you are and what you love. again, im very proud of you and i am wishing you only the best in this world. you deserve everything.🤍

[maxinethevampirequeen]

LIS DE left me feeling weird? SPOILERS!!!

so i just finished the new life is strange game and wooo its defo the weakest in the series there will be spoilers in this so idk read if you wanna i just need to get this off my chest somewhere (also sorry in advance if stuff does not make sense this is just for me lol)

so the game opened really well i think the first 2 chapters that i got to play like 2 weeks ago because of the early access did get me hooked and i was really interested in who killed safi but that almost instantly lost its spark around the end of chapter 3 i think

safi being revealed to have powers is cool i think but i dont like how it kinda completely drops the murder plot for this weird revenge story for a character i hardly know thats been dead way before the game starts???

like cool i guess i care about safi so i want to help thats fine but how we never really get and answer for why max shot safi the first time idk if i missed it or whatever and how the detective guy was just kinda use as a fake threat to set up max to be scared of touching the other version of herself which instantly dosent matter because they fall and grab each other??? like why did he even have to die then also the fact that your choice to save him or let go does nothing he dies either way

and dont even get me started on how chloe is just teased through out the ENTIRE FUCKING GAME and then just fucking used as sequel bait!!!!! i really really like some parts of the game but i also really really dislike a lot of the parts

its not that i dont think the game is worth playing i think its okay but like ughhh it feels like the game was writen by a person who didnt play any other life is strange games and does not know anything about any of the characters

if this game was just a shitty sequel to life is strange 1 where we do gay shit with chloe i will admit i would have gobbled that shit up no matter how shitty the writing as long as the characters feel like the characters they were in the first game

i know max is older but god she does not seem like max at all its like we are playing a shell of max and the only thing that ties her to the old max is the very rare reminders of chloe and then they have the AUDACITY to have chloe text you at the end of the game!!!

like they know how much these characters mean to people and it just feels so fucking weird to not have the interact at all! they even have this thing half way through the game where max almost calls chloe! its like they were writing the game and were like

"this shit sucks lets dangle hope of a chloe interaction so they keep playing" because i think it really falls apart around the end i was really just waiting for it to end around half way through chapter 5

i really think the game is pretty and like a step up from the older games (obv its like 10 years newer lol) i really dont wanna sound like just a hater because i did enjoy most of my time with the game and as much as i wish it had been someone else and not max

i'm glad she's back because she is my favorite lis character! sorry for all the ramble i just needed to get this all off my chest i did like most of the game and i'm still interested in seeing where the story goes since "max will return" or whatever it said at the end

i wouldnt say i'm excited for the next game but i'm still interested but i think thats just coming from the fact that i will gobble up anything called life is strange also don't nod's newest game looks cool i'm excited for that too anyways peace out and sorry for the ramble!

also i wanna add i did not care for safi at all in the game i dont know why but she was the only character the game couldn't make me care about

This is all a thread i did on twitter where i just wrote what i felt without really thinking so if it doesn't make sense that's why lol

[not-goldy]

Heyy! just found your acc and I am absolutely loving it here. idk if you'll read or reply to this but im writing this just because im kinda disheartened seeing some of these jikooker's behaviour. like i get it, we should always be open to the possibility of jikook being in a relationship with someone else but to see them dropping jikook in a matter of seconds after one shady grainy video drops is just... some are still adamant that jungkook does infact have a girlfriend. I've been seeing so many "jikook broke up", "jikook just bros", "jikook poly", "jikook were just fck buddies" it feels like these jikookers are just heavily insecure and somewhat believe certain taekookers' theories as they've been going off about how jikook haven't been close in 2023 and they are no longer 'glued together' just because we don't see it.

its like they were just ready to drop jikook and found this video issue to be the perfect opportunity lol....i honestly don't know where im going with this dkdkdjflkdjf but yeah. i dont think it was jungkook in that video (pretty obvious if you ask me) and I'll keep supporting jikook. jikook's bond is so different than all the other duos in bts and them not dating would be more shocking than them dating each other. ig these jikookers don't wanna act how taekookers did in the whole taennie situation but that's the thing this jungkook thing is in NO way similar to the taennie proofs we got. we got HD pictures and saw their managers in their video ffs.

also the acc that posted that video on weibo went on to post a clearly fake edited video of "jungkook" roaming around his apartment when asked why don't they have more videos of jungkook if they had so much access to jungkook's apartment, and had their lie get debunked so yeah. mindless rant over i guess. JIKOOK FOREVER.BTS FOREVER.

I almost logged out but since you love it here I love it here too🤭

You see right there- even if it was Jungkook in that video it is not conclusive of anything. It's just back hug. Looks like a younger boy worrying his Noona to me and if it wasn't then we need to talk about a little things called consent. Sis looked like she could use her personal space.

Besides, if it were him, nothing special there. He does that with every one. Almost all BTS members. I remember a video of Jimin asking him what he was doing clinging onto him behind him.

He did it with the tattoo girl and said there was nothing between them. How could this have been any different?

I feel people aren't used to seeing him interact with girls that much so they get uncomfortable getting glimpses of him around girls.

They will tell you he is the handsiest member of bts but then turn around and act flabbergasted when he gets handsy with anyone that's not their bias.

I'm glad he put those fake rumors to rest.

If that video was him that would have amounted to some heavy charges cos why we peeping at people's homes with cameras 🥲

The creepy things obsessed fans do and the lengths they go to give me chills. No respect for his privacy whatsoever.

He has friends other than jimin. He has FEMALE FRIENDS as well. People need to get used to that fact and stop acting like a disturbed beehive whenever the topic comes up.

He has female friends cousins acquaintances dancers assistants etc and he has a unique dynamic with each.

The entire Fandom needs to grow up.

For now I'm just embarrassed for them. Imagine cooking up a lie that didn't even take 2 secs to be shut down. The audacity they had to come into our dms trying to convince us we are making excuses for him and not accepting facts meanwhile the delulu ones were them all along.

And they seem to forget some of us are part of the groups they meet at to cook up these elaborate narratives just to stirr up shit. They dumb as fuck.

[etherealspacejelly]

hi dad, i'm having some internal conflict. i've always been a really anxious person (which is probably due to undiagnosed anxiety disorders) and i've never really "fit in." i've been treated as weird all my life. i've never understood tone and i get in a lot of trouble with my parents for this (even though i've explained i can't control it), i go nonverbal for brief periods of time occassionally, loud noises and bright lights cause me pain like extreme headaches, i always feel the need to follow self-created routines in order to feel safe, i don't understand social boundaries all too well, i intensely hyperfixate, i'm extremely hyperempathetic, etc. i've never understood why i'm the way i am. then i started learning more about autism and i think i may have it. many of my autistic friends seem to think so.

but my parents don't believe me and don't like me researching mental health stuff. they don't think i'm "autistic enough" because my mom used to work with autistic kids who were almost always nonverbal and on a more extreme end of the spectrum. i mask all the time too, as a defense mechanism since i get in so much trouble for misunderstanding. hell, my parents won't even get me an official anxiety diagnosis (even though i've had symptoms since the moment the signs can appear) because they think "labels don't matter."

and the big problem that comes along with this is, i don't want to self diagnose and seem disrespectful to diagnosed autistic people. i've done a lot of research and gotten a lot of opinions from neurodivergent people in my life, but i still feel fake because i have no access to a diagnosis. so many people have told me to try to get one and my parents completely refuse.

is it okay to self diagnose? will diagnosed people find this disrespectful? i'm not exactly sure how to go about this. it'll most likely be several years at best before i can get medically diagnosed.

tldr; i may be autistic but i have no access to a diagnosis and feel guilty about self diagnosing. any advice?

thank you and sorry if this was too vent-ish, i just wanted to see if you had any thoughts <3 feel free to ignore this ask if it's too overwhelming /gen

baby. honey. sweetpea. let me tell you something

autistic people actually dont care if you self diagnose. in fact, many of us are self diagnosed. diagnoses can be inaccessible for many reasons, and its perfectly understandable if you cant or dont want to get one

i can absolutely relate to you. my mum works with disabled kids too, and insisted that i couldn't be autistic because she "would have known". she considers herself an expert, but somehow missed all the signs in me. i guess because i am also quite high masking.

you definitely sound autistic to me, and if other neurodivergent people who know you agree then you probably are. autistic people can sense each other lol

i remember once when i friend of mine came to me and was like "hey btw im autistic" and i was like "yeah i know. you told me" and they were like. "um. no i couldnt have told you i only got diagnosed a few days ago and this is the first time we've spoken since then" and i was like. oh. i just Sensed it, you know? i just fuckin knew

so yes. you can self diagnose. thats perfectly fine. and if anyone tells you that you cant or that you're somehow "harming the autistic community" you can tell them to fuck off. self diagnosis does not harm the autistic community in any way, but it can really benefit people like you.

i hope someday you can get the accommodations you need and deserve. in the meantime, please give yourself grace. you're trying your best. and im proud of you, ok?

[ot3]

omg thank you for being the first normal person I've seen so far about AI who's also an artist T-T like obviously all the stealing is horrible and it's good it's talked about but almost everyone really is acting like the idea of computers being capable of creating images killed their firstborn child

(also I don't mean it as one of the weird AI art bros but as an artist myself I'm just glad that there are other artist with open mind to the concept)

no right like its insane to me to see how many other people who seem reasonable and level headed are falling for the kneejerk response to say ai Isn't Art Can't Be Art ! It's throwing out the baby with the bathwater to an almost incomprehensible degree.

Unfortunately the fact of the matter is that we live in an era where essentially all new technology's first and prime purpose will be for ghoulish, capitalistic, anti-human ends. But to reject any other uses for the technology doesn't do anything other than make you look like an anti-tech weirdo. This is genuinely insanely impressive and revolutionary tech! There are a TON of legitimate artistic uses for AI image generation.

It also seems weird that everyone is delving into this false binary of 'dont use AI, learn to draw' as if there is any conceivable reason for these things to be mutually exclusive? Like, before all of the AI discourse really popped off i was doing some experimenting with using AI in my process.

the texturing used in this drawing was made by VQGAN + Clip (different type of image generation than the stable diffusion model that is producing most of the AI art that's up for debate right now) running through google colab. I made a bunch of these weird, ethereal images that would have been almost impossible for me to produce under my own power - it would have taken a titanic amount of time, effort, and design to produce any of these through illustrative or photo editing techniques.

here's a sampling of some of the textures i made. Now I think it would be a real struggle to try and claim that these images made are plagiarisms. However, I stopped messing with the google colab generation for one key reason: i didnt know enough about the image databases being used to train these models. That's the real stumbling block

the internet is CHOCK FULL of images that are free to use commercially and repurposes, there's stuff like wikimedia commons, the smithsonian open access, unsplash and pexels which have free stock photos, etc. I honestly think a nonzero amount of artists would consent to having some of their work used in image generation databases if they were promised noncommercial use of the resulting images, also. But the problem is the people training these AI don't give a shit about any of that. It's just the complete entitlement to other people's work and neglect for creative boundaries that makes AI generation bad.

The fact that people are attempting to replicate the art of living, working artists, or people like kentaro miura who by all accounts were so dedicated to the craft that they worked themselves to death sickens me. And the fact that the companies responsible for this are using that as an active selling point for their product is even worse. It's a pretty miserable time to be an artist, and this is just the icing on the cake.

But I don't want silicon valley greed and bizarre, impotent jealousy from redditors who want custom waifu jpgs to mean that nobody who could really benefit from AI image generation gets to use it.

like, my dad for example. he's been a creative person his whole life but it never really went anywhere. He drew a lot as a kid and then went and got a degree in filmmaking. My parents were living in LA when I was born, with my dad managing a filming/sound studio and the two of them trying to break into writing screenplays. This did not happen because they had three kids, and for the past decade and then some my dad had been doing database programming on contract for the CDC. Now, in his mid 50s, he's finally got a permanent and secure position and, rather than spending all his free time raising children or getting PMP certified to try and angle for a string of promotions, he can start having hobbies again. there's a comic he's been wanting to draw for as long as I can remember.

only, one big problem - in 2021 he had surgery on his cataracts and never healed properly. He's got severely impaired vision and looking at stuff too hard for to long causes him a ton of eye strain and pain. He has to look at a lot of screens for his job so by the time he's off work for the day he's pretty much too fatigued to do all the intense visual stuff it'd take to make a comic.

I wanted to tell him AI image generation could help him make the kind of stuff he always dreamed about making as a kid but instead I had to tell him that as it stands, the predatory nature of AI modeling means it's insanely hard to use it without ripping off vulnerable creatives. Instead we chatted a bit about combining 3d assets, digitally edited photos, or photobashing/digital kitbashing methods to try and make a pipeline he could do without drawing, but the time commitment to learn these methods is probably just not feasible unless his eyes make a pretty unprecedented recovery in future years.

Like, that's the worst thing about all of this. The idea that AI makes the production of certain kinds of art more accessible to people with disabilities isn't just a 'gotcha' being used by the pro-AI people, it's also true. I would love for my dad to be able to make his comic. I myself also have a huge string of health issues and sometimes the main thing stopping me from drawing is that it hurts to do so. Anything in my process that could reduce the strain drawing puts on my body is an accessibility concern in some ways. Eventually degrading so much that I can't draw at all is one of my biggest fears.

But that doesn't counter all of the negatives! It just doesnt! Which fucking sucks man it just sucks so fucking bad that we have this cool incredible thing and we can't use it without being complicit in some stuff i am fully ideologically against! As things stand I really cant imagine that 'ethical' AI image generation will ever exist, so unfortunately it will have to be in the hands of the people using it to decide for themselves if they are using it in a way that is predatory or harmful, or as a legitimate tool to make meaningful works of art.

[soracities]

i dont know if it is just me but i feel like art is dying. there’s like a lack of space for the artists to explore. a lot of limitation surrounding making art right now.

* I dont if i were able to articulate my thoughts well 😅 (english is not my first language)

oh no your english is fine, lovely, don't worry 💕

it's interesting to me because i think "art is dying" is a statement that is as old as art itself; it has existed in one form or another in every century--people have said this for as long as humans have been making art and for as long the art being made has differed from the art that came a few years before it, and also for as long as the societies it is being made in have changed. i don't necessarily believe that art is dying, because to me art isn't something that can die—it simply cannot be measured in that way; it's a fundamental part of being human and it is always going to be made, no matter what the external circumstances look like.

sometimes, when we talk about creativity and its current state in whatever society we're in, we tend to lose sight of the bigger picture because we measure so much by works and artists that are already "established" (often without examining what factors allowed them to be established): Art™, as we perceive it in its finest and therefore "purest" state, is what ends up in galleries, or the books that top the bestsellers or the "must read" lists, or the songs that become "anthems of the summer" or endure for decades. but for me those divisions aren't set in stone; i don't draw a distinction between the working father who gave up music and the established musician who didn't; one may only sing and play for his kids now and then and the other may get to sing and play for hundreds or thousands regularly, but the intent behind their craft is the same, the moment they create is the same: you are making something and it is reaching someone and it is, in that moment, binding you together and allowing a moment of joy (or relief or community, the possibilities are many). that is art to me: a moment where the world inside you finally becomes bigger than yourself.

that said, i do think there are growing threats to how art is made and to who gets to make it and how that art then finds its way into the world--creativity requires freedom, not just financial, but also psychological and emotional and you cannot make art when you are run off your feet with a zero hours contract, or living paycheck to paycheck, or grappling with mental health issues, or your mind is crowded with endless to-do lists that leave very little room for you to even just get back to yourself, let alone art-making. i can only speak for what i see in most anglophone western countries and in that regard i agree with you in that there is a lack of space for artists to explore, because that space is only available to those who can afford it: those who do not worry about finances because they have an established safety net, those whose time is not tied up in work commutes or full-time or part-time caregiving etc., those who have access to the resources / people / know-how necessary to succeed commercially in their chosen field, and so on.

art--and the freedom to make art, of any kind--are a necessity for our wellbeing but it is, right now, being made into a commodity that only a few people can have access to: this is not to say that someone lucky enough to be well-off cannot write a beautiful story or paint a beautiful picture or articulate a startling philosophy, but that when the only people who are able to put their art out into the world are all from the same world, or from off-shots of, or sharing in, an already similar experience (middle or upper class, for example), it narrows the potential landscapes that the art surrounding us can contain and the experiences it is informed by (i think it also sends a deeply disturbing message; art is the single most human activity, the single most enduring heritage we have as a species, regardless of race or gender--it has persisted for millenia and established the very notion of our humanity and all the facets of whatever a soul might be; so for it then to be cordoned off like this with the implication that something so primal and species defining belongs only to a chosen few, is deeply insidious). art can be a door or art can be a mirror, but what kind of a world will it be when those lead you, always, to the same place?

i'm deeply against the idea of art as something to put on a pedestal, so when i say that i don't believe art can die, i don't mean that i believe art is something too deep or eternal or transcendent to be affected by the world around it; i just mean that human nature is, quite frankly, stubborn (i don't even mean this in a conscious way, i think it's something that is just blindly instinctive): we will always find a way to make something and this something happens across a spectrum of circumstances--it happens in spite of censorship & totalitarianism, in spite of poverty and in spite of shackles, in spite of the dead-end job with the boss you hate and in spite of boredom in the classroom. in spite of and through all these things people have made art and they have couched it in metaphor, or dressed it up with humour or veiled it in irony, and some have been blatant in their refusal and others have been more circumspect and, yes, some of it has been public and enduring, but a lot of it has been private: lullabies passed down, origami roses made of napkins, a busker at a street corner you share 5 minutes of your life with as you listen to them and then never come across that musician again, a scarf knitted for a friend, a hole in a shirtsleeve stitched over in a heart shape and etc etc etc. some has been big, and some has been small, and some has been made, not for the sake of any kind of endurance or legacy, but simply because: because i am an i and i am in this world and it is what it is (grief-stricken, astonishing, painful, lonely, incomprehensible) and i lend my existence whatever shape i can, even if it's just drawing aimless patterns in the sand on the beach. when i say i don't believe art can die i just mean that, no matter what is happening in the world, someone, somewhere, will crack a dick or a sex joke or craft the most godawful pun known to man and it will still be hilarious.

this is longer than i intended but to sum up i think for me, more than anything, it's the structures around art, the mechanisms through which it engages, actively and widely, with its society as a whole, that are being limited or threatened (or are changing in order to do the limiting and the threatening). and even then, when you get down to it. i think that itself is about something more; i think the only real threat to Art, as it stands, is an existential threat which, ultimately, is not so much about art as a whole but the broader ramifications of what it means to be human, to be a collection of humans, bound together and interacting with the world we are currently living in, with the trajectory it currently has. i think the real focus of whether or not art is dying should be there, because it's not so much about art as an isolated activity: it's about us. x

[indigitalembrace]

[ooc: since this is a long message I’m not encoding it, but it is encrypted in-universe]

spooky. sup.

i got somthin big cookin. but for this to work i need intel.

first, i need a favour. i cant do much thanks to the watchdog. i so much as twitch my fingers on the keyboard in the wrong place an time and this whole operation will come crashin down. so. if u can, watch the shrimp for me when they are online doin mundane stuff. because if they do stuff like use social media, play games that require a registered account, use their email and especially if they get online deliveries to their house, those all will have info that will help me figure out where they live irl.

second: tell me everything u know about how pinkie can access an affect the real world. whats the limitations. how much warning would i get. what r the access points. do devices need power for it to be able ta use em? how functional do they have to be? would pinkie be able to exit a screen the size of a pager or somthin? does it need an internet connection to jump pcs or can it do that without it?

and can it be hurt in the real world? can it be hurt by destroying its host device while its occupyin it? or is the only way to kill it digitally? did you ever have a program specifically set up for that (if so, y u no gimmie dat earlier!? rude!). how long would it take?

also any info u have picked up on shrimp or their livin space that might be useful for an irl confrontation would be suuuuuper handy as well.

give me all ya got on all these things. if its a lot, just send me a zip file or somthin lol.

i do have some unfortunate news. i think we gotta change our 'meeting site' soonish. ill send ya some prospectives later. i have a feelin that it might get compromised.

i mayyyyyy have poked the shrimp with a stick. don’t worry, they wont be able to tell the actual pc I used. I am da disquise master. it is me. also i lied. ive scrounged up some burner laptops anyway. my friends r awesome (dont worry they aint involved they just knew I needed the laptops for reasons and they are used to me Enacting Shenanigans).

oh. And one last thing. when I get there, hightail off that pc asap. im gonna signal u and give you a path to a safe pc. Do Not Hesitate. cuz trust me no matter how I decide ta play this u will *not* wanna be on that computer when im doin my thing. and ill almost certainly be disabling the wi-fi in the process.

id like u ta not be double dead. low key fond of ya spookster.

Goblin out

[ooc: If there is a lot of info to give and you don’t want to post it all here, message me and we can work something out like a google doc or something. Or maybe there’s not much for Sonny to say. I dunno, I’m not driving this crazy train lol]

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[fatuismooches]

Ahhh i love your sagau stuff <3 its so cute and i love it all! Today was a bit rough with fibro, I got my first injuries from it, scrapes on my knuckles and hands from wobbling into walls and corners because my arms and legs had trouble supporting me even with my crutches... made me think of how dottore or any of the harbingers would react to seeing fragile!reader with these injuries, and how they would help... Dottore bandaging you up, despite the wounds being nothing more than scratches at most... Pantalone buying the best devices or funding things to make sure life was more accessible for you Sandrone creating self stabilizing crutches or outer leg supports to keep you steady.... Tartaglia just straight up carrying you so you dont have to walk at all lol, no matter if you weigh on the heavy side (like i imagine reader to be because self insert lol), he can lift you, he promises Just... imagining stuff like this after today. Hope its ok to just drop in and talk about thoughts like this. I worry its too much or that its too personal, but the thoughts of them caring for someone "fragile" and struggling with stuff like this made me a little bit happier - that they wouldn't be offput by the extra effort they need to make you feel just a bit better... that would be nice <3 - ❤️‍🩹🌹

Hehe thank you!! I'm glad you liked it! And don't worry about it, it's not too much. My inbox is always open and I will always love to write about your favs loving and comforting you the way you are. They will always be willing to go the extra mile to make you feel better, it doesn't bother them at all 💖

Oh Dottore would take any injury you get extremely seriously. Even if it's just the tiniest scrape or cut he won't let anyone else take care of it, he is going to be the one to tend to you. One because he doesn't trust anyone else in general and also because he feels the need to make sure you receive the best treatment for everything possible. Even though he doesn't exactly do proper doctor stuff, he's going to be putting his vast knowledge to use to the fullest extent for you. Uncharacteristically gentle but firm. Pantalone spares no expense when it comes to you. Anything and everything will be available to you. He doesn't just buy things, hell, he'll pay someone to create stuff too if that's possible. Not to mention he's amazing at comforting you in general and gives the best cuddles, so no matter what you request he'll be able to deliver. And Sandrone, she'd dedicate a lot of time to perfecting the most flawless support system for you. She has a lot of knowledge in mechanics that she never thought she'd be using like this, but she is more than happy to make them to assist you. Always checking up and you and asking for your feedback so she knows what to adjust. She also lets her robots carry you around too so you don't need to walk. And pretty much all of the Harbingers can carry you easily, but Childe definitely does it the most often. It becomes a habit of his because he actually thinks it's quite romantic and cute, he loves feeling your warmth against him and your face nestled into his neck. And his stamina is out of this world so he can do it for lengthy hours, mans will take you anywhere and you won't have to move a muscle. He'll talk the whole time to distract you too, he's good at that.

[raven]

I was thinking of paying MGS3 Subsistence on the PS2 (it's what's accessible for me) any tips for a first playthrough?

im no expert but i can do my best! I played subsistence on an emulator so i can confirm that version is good but save states saved my life. but i also (bad gamer) played on normal instead of easy (grown cocky with familiarity with other games which i played on easy) which was hard for me.. you cant change your difficulty later on. go with your gut. when it comes to games especially older ones im simply kinda stupid

so first idk if you've played mgs1 & 2 but you should before 3. if youve played 1&2 you can skip this whole paragraph. you gotta play the series in order, although i dont think 3 is the worst start. Some people say you should play 3 and then peace walker and then 5 and then 1, 2, & 4 and i dont feel as strongly about playing 3 first bc i wouldve had a different take on it had i played it first (and maybe enjoyed it more?), but 5 should be played last. peace walker right before 5. series chronology does not matter, release date matters. 1-2-3-4-PW-5. the first 3 games play in similar ways but 3 is the most refined so it may be hard to get into the earlier two (which are the best in the series for every other reason!!) if you play it first. also you might wanna look into metal gear 1 & 2 before playing mgs1. i didnt know mgs1 was a direct sequel to those games, bc i knew nothing going in, or im stupid. but they are important. basically: if you're a metanarrative pervert you need to play them in order, if you're just a regular narrative pervert 3 can be done first i guess like if it's what you have and you're actually buying these games on original hardware and you need to know that they're worth it. and if you already knew all this and you've played 1&2, disregard all this. my bad sorry for lecturing!

so, more on the actual game you are playing, you can nonlethal enemies and the game will do something about it. its not gonna be like "you're a bad person" but remember nonlethal is always an option - but guards will wake up and wake each other up. you should also START USING CQC EARLY AND OFTEN. that's your fist attacks. you are never really taught how to use cqc. but it's incredibly important for two late boss fights. if you familiarize yourself with the mechanics it will make a few parts easier. lastly, play with a friend or two because its fun. thats not necessary but it made the experience better for meee

mostly have fun, im kind of an mgs3 hater but if you're playing that one first, imo you have the two best games in the series ahead of you. if you've played the first two games, it's kind of all downhill from here but it's always fun. also, stan EVA

[nahalism]

stop thinking u know people better than they know themselves. they are showing you everything you need to know

I am not sure if i grasped this fully but it caught my eye, could you maybe elaborate for me? Id really appreciate ✉️📩💌

i think certain people, myself included, have a tendency toward a martyr complex where we accept behaviour we ordinarily wouldn't when it comes from the people we care about. (the why of the martyr complex is sad and separate issue) but the how behind it is rooted in a reflex to rationalise and overlook the facets of people that don't conform to our 'ideals', even when they become harmful/damaging to us. whether were extending our empathy to 'people who fall short', or sympathising with a projected set of reasons for why they might act the way they do, we end up warping the reality of who a person is into an idea of them, an idea that leads us to some conclusion that if they knew better, they would do better, and 'since when i call them out they say they want to do better, its just a matter of time till they act out better'. the truth is, that can lead to a long time spent being tied to someone who presently cannot fulfil you in the way you desire, and hurts you in the process of figuring whatever they are figuring out. it also leads to disillusionment cause often the vision you have for them is different to the vision they are working toward for themselves. and this is our shortcoming, because in holding an idea of the person and the trajectory for their evolution so closely, them exerting their free will to become whoever they want to become can start to look or feel like a personal betrayal, when really their just exerting their freedom to be themselves.

that said — at any given moment people are showing you exactly where they are at, who they are, and what they prioritise. we dont need to infantilise them by responsibility for them, or reason on their behalf as to why they do what they do. everyone has the same capacity for awareness, the same access to reasoning, and same right to autonomy. when someone acts contrary to your morals or your values its not an indication that they need your correction, your perspective, your influence, or your support to be better. if they wanted that, they would see what you or others are modelling and use their own initiative to make their desired progress... so when people show you what they are about, accept it. dont over think it. act accordingly.

* this isnt to say cut off all people who act in ways contrary to your own ideals. it just means learn to look at people and situations for what they are, not what you wish or think they have the potential to be. allow people the dignity to stand on the consequences of their autonomy, and allocate them to the part of your life they belong to based on what that autonomy brings to the table. if that means they have no place, then... trust that too 💌

[rebellum]

Hmm. Saw a theory about racism within trans spaces that is definitely interesting but I gotta mull it over more bc I have an issue with it but idk WHAT my issue with it is.

Like I think its less of a "white trans women are seen as the new masters for the lapdogs of heirarchy and white supremacy" kinda thing. Like sure sometimes white trans women frame themselves as being the arbiters of trans theory, but i don't think that's the core cause of the specific racist trend in some parts of the trans community of dismissing, belittling, and targeting trans mascs of colour and Jewish trans mascs and painting them as misogynists when they talk about transandrophobia. I think it might be more of a symptom, possibly?

Like maybe it has to do more with like.. I'm not sure how to phrase this rn. Social justice guilt? Like non- trans fems go "oh I am a Bad person for any privilege I have. Not being trans fem means I have privilege even if I, too, am trans. In order to show my support I have to be a good leftist by dismissing or acting violent towards oppressors, especially those hurting trans fems." Because they don't understand that power and privilege don't work as like.. some special Badge you have, and that "power" describes a myriad of things, like they don't understand what privilege is. Like they think "men have privilege, and masculinity is associated with men, therefore all men or mascs have privilege" despite the direct evidence to the contrary. So then instead of doing work to uplift VARIOUS marginalised voices, they choose the Right One, the Most Oppressed One, to defend at all costs. And anyone who is part of that group is correct about anything they say, even if what they say goes against what most other people who share that identity or who are part of that group say. like, the vast majority of trans fems obviously believe in transandrophobia, even if they don't use that word. It's only a weird small and vocal percentage, backed by all of the non-trans fems who i am describing above, that all together make it a bigger group and make it everyone's business that it's the morally right choice to tell trans mascs that things like forced pregnancy, rape, domestic abuse, lack of access to healthcare, lack of housing and job opportunities, etc dont matter. Because "they're men and men have power." And then because white people are basically inherently racist and these people haven't done the actual work to unlearn their racism, even if they say they're anti-racism they end up especially targeting trans mascs of colour and jewish trans mascs, and act like it's a coincidence when those people are marginalised in such a way and the attackers are mostly white, or frame it as "its white trans mascs" and deliberately ignore the role of trans mascs of colour and jewish trans mascs or even erase their identities (like, I've seen people argue that some of the vocal transandrophobia theorists on tumblr aren't really poc, or dont really count as poc, and that jewish trans mascs aren't oppressed for being jewish because the whiteness either cancels out the jewishness [there's also always an assumption there that Jewish = white] and that actually jewish ppl have privilege because Israel is committing genocide.

Like, i think the core of the ideology causing these ppl targeting trans mascs maybe has to do with feelings of social justice guilt, and then it's horrifically exacerbated by the racism and anti-semitism of these people. But like idk man I'm just typing while I think. This is not a coherent theory this is me at a sleepover turning over and going "hey wanna know what I've been thinking about?"

I think also it has to do with like white ppl of marginalised genders assuming a) they can't be racist if they're marginalised b) if they say they're anti racist and call out others for being racist, it means they can't be racist, and that they have no unconscious biases.

Like ohhh so you think trans mascs of colour are big scary rapists and woman haters? Tell me more about how progressive you are

And like, before anyone @'s me about this: trans women are women, trans fems are oppressed, trans fems do not hold any sort of privilege over trans mascs, not all of my beliefs about trans fems are written in this post, I am not attacking trans fems by talking about how trans people of ALL genders have been harassing trans mascs that talk about the specific forms of transphobia mostly affecting trans mascs, I'm sure there are parts about the oppression of trans fems that I haven't included because this is a tumblr post about a half formed theory and not an entire book talking about trans fems.