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I posted an analysis of the 1.4 update of Honkai Star Rail, but I deleted because I felt I was unfair to Topaz, by calling her “Gordon Gekko as a waifu” – in some aspects she’s actually more annoying. But now that I finished, I want to share a few thoughts on the 1.4 story, that’s essentially the story of an economic mission and how Topaz is “if neoliberal why hot”.
There will be a lot of politcses, because it’s essentially the story of Space IMF going to an underdeveloped country, it would only be more political if it was written by Kojima himself, so placing under “Read more”.
I couldn’t help but to find it hilarious how the writers at miHoyo decided to write an entire story involving an economic mission. It should be noted that the IPC is more than a corporation; it seems to hold the monopoly of interstellar trade. I don’t remember seeing other corporations doing that, but I have the feeling that, while you can argue that scale of operations and the costs makes it a natural monopoly, the writers decided to go for the IPC monopoly to simplify the story.
Having this in mind, it should be noted that when a corporation grows too large, it stops being just a corporation. Due to the power accumulated by the expansion of its finance needing to be defended at all costs, it starts gaining other traits, including becoming essentially a government. In HSR, the IPC in 1.4 takes the role of supranational organizations, such as the International Monetary Fund (IMF) and the World Bank. Both organizations were founded in the aftermath of WW2 to help reconstruct Europe. The World Bank, however, changed its role to promote development in the Global South (anachronic use of the term, because this term wasn’t used in the 1940s) to not compete with the IMF’s role in reconstruction.
The people who first joined these organizations were actually dedicate and passionate about these causes. Studying the history and the biographies of the people there, one thing that critics have to understand it’s not just about the money, neither it’s just about the power. These people really really believed that submission to whatever they said was the right way to take out a country out of poverty was the best thing possible. Topaz’s attitude isn’t an anomaly or something to make her waifuable, but it’s common in the biographies of these economists – they thought they could bring their mathematical models, their expertise and their willpower to make every country they went to a better one. The stuff reached a point that some said it’d better to give them “xenos rights”, the right to do every change whatever it takes, ignoring the natives’ opinions and rights, all this in order to implement the necessary changes for the greater good.
Needless to say, whenever they went, failure followed them. Many times they didn’t understand local politics and customs; the models were so good on paper, but useless in reality; there was no guarantee local leaders would follow blindly their plans. There are cases that the World Bank just used the same strategy report for development, sometimes forgetting to change the name of the country, so leaving them with the plan for a previous country.
The result was countries in debt and they require to acquire debt to pay previous debts, compromise with austerity reforms that worked absolutely nothing, but let the conservative parties of all participant countries happy because it entrenched their power. When Himeko mentioned the 63% success rate, you know HSR is a work of fiction, because there’s really no statistic for that real life, but ask anyone who studies this and you’ll know it’s low, to say the least.
In fact, interests were all that mattered, and their economic missionaries were very useful in that because they were true believers, like Topaz. Again, you have no idea of how many people in the history of economic thought sincerely believed that the free market would solve everything, that would receive with enthusiasm Topaz’s plan of belobogians becoming indentured servants to the IPC.
The game goes to great lengths to show that Topaz is a good girl at heart, that loves animals and cute things (because it’s a gacha in the end of the day), but it’s clear she’s so indoctrinated in the IPC ideology that efficiency is the best thing ever, no matter the costs; thus, she’s willing to claim “xenos rights” and pass through the people she’s trying to help for a misguided idea of what’s better for them (also Bronya showed to be one of the best characters of the game, with how she managed to disarm Topaz’s arguments with compassion; and Topaz accepts that). That’s why I felt it was unfair to call her waifu Gordon Gekko because he’s absolutely not a good person. But, at the same time, her condition of true believer is annoying to me (that’s why she goes to my F-tier).
In real life, economic missions don’t have a high rate of success and, even when they might succeed, it might not be for the reasons they believe to be (the hiding hand principle). There’s also the fact that entities like the IMF did try to call out and apply sanctions on Western European and the US for violating parts of its chart or not paying loans, but they didn’t succeed because how are they going to do that against their bosses? So, they have to compensate on underdeveloped countries, to show the system “works”; this not counting the times they become departments of the American government.
In the history of economic development, the most successful strategy is simple: lend and forget. That was the point of the Marshall Plan, that helped to restore the Western European economies and to avoid the debt problems that led to WW2; that was the point of the American investment in Japan, in order to support the war effort in the Korean War; that’s how South Korea became developed, because it supported the US in the Vietnam War (by sending troops and having the chaebols procure assets for the American military); even the Soviet Union did that, with Cuba – in fact, all these development projects were an offshoot of the Cold War, through economic means. It also caused deindustrialization in the US, look at Detroit. If you lived in Latin America, Africa or South Asia (not including the Middle East here, because they received the dollars from the West’s unquenchable thirst for oil, creating today’s localized cold war between the Gulf’s petrostates), you’d have to deal with lower quality loans (that was the source of many financial crises in Latin America) or none at all, while dealing with the offshoots of the Cold War in more…traditional ways, wars, terrorism, coups et al.
It's also relevant to mention that it’s a game developed by the Chinese, because China has always rejected shock therapy proposed by organizations like the IMF after the economic opening and adopted a strategy to develop a national industry (essentially copying the Japanese strategy after WW2). They offer a different perspective on issues of development in fiction (like, in Arknights, the Kazimierz stories aren’t about Horse Poland, but about Shenzen and other similarly developed cities in China).
So Topaz’s letter to Bronya feels like an attempt to make her sympathetic (because, again, we’re in a gacha). In-universe, we have only her words and Himeko’s information to say that it worked (and omitting the rate of success was another indication that she was an economic missionary with no idea of what Belobog really needed). But, from her words, we hear that her planet exported products to other ones and overexerted itself. And remember: which organization has the monopoly of interstellar travel and was probably in charge of said polluting factories or had a very close relationship with them?
#honkai star rail#i could've talked more#but its already a thousand words#economic development is bull#its so freaking easy#on paper#but its not in reality#i could've been more critical btw
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like many who have suffered at the hands of bbc merlin before me, i recently indulged in a thought experiment in which i outlined my own version of seasons 3-5 that stay thematically and tonally in line with the show (except they're less fucking stupid). but then i quickly realized that focusing on details is pointless: all you need is to solve the one Big Problem the show has, and the rest will follow. the problem in question? ✨morgana✨
i like the first two seasons. s1 achieves what it sets out to do and has fun while doing it, and s2, while flawed, sets up a ton of potential that the following seasons unfortunately squander, beginning with the insidious season 3. you can only distract me with cute knights and goblins and fart jokes for so long before i start seeing through you, evil, evil season of television.
my hypothesis is that if the writers had crafted s3 morgana into anything more sympathetic than a violent half-alive poltergeist that can never be reasoned with because she's suddenly terminally off her rocker, everything would've fallen into place. a sympathetic morgana would've made real, valid arguments against uther (and arthur) that wouldn't just be the ramblings of a woman possessed. her betrayal of arthur would have stemmed from her feeling increasingly morally superior to him because of his complacency in the face of their father's tyranny. under morgause's guidance she would stop believing that arthur is capable of change, and the whole point would be that she might actually be right. arthur would have to actively try and prove her wrong, instead of getting praised for doing the bare minimum because the bar is on the floor.
furthermore, morgana's prophetic dream about arthur and gwen becoming king and queen and her decision to prevent this however she can is a direct parallel to merlin learning about that same prophecy and making it happen by any means necessary. merlin's desires about his and arthur's futures are subtextually fueled by gay love and devotion, so why couldn't morgana's be? why couldn't she properly express her bitterness that arthur gets to be with gwen in a way she can't "took gwen away" from her, instead of suddenly declaring that gwen is nothing more than a servant, after two seasons of demonstrating again and again that she loves, values, and respects gwen more than anyone else in that godforsaken castle?
following this, an angry and emotionally volatile but still sensible morgana asking gwen to stay by her side during the coup of the castle in the s3 finale and gwen going behind her back to help arthur and the knights would've hurt like a bitch. double-sided betrayal! gwen having a real plot! the proper beginnings of a toxic yuri that would shape a generation!
then there's the utter hubris of having morgana shoot arrows at the same civilians she worried herself sick over for 2 seasons — even morgan, her medieval counterpart that was rooted in every sexist trope in existence, doesn't just go around killing senselessly but instead has (often petty!) personal vendettas against gwen, arthur, and the knights. morgana had every right to be sick of the pretensions around chivalry in camelot (she was always quick to mock it, even in s1), and to lash out at the knights and soldiers after years of feeling powerless in a castle full of armed men that blindly followed her oppressor. the show conveniently forgets that morgana was victimized as a woman as well as a sorcerer those first 2 seasons.
but like i said, this is not just about morgana. allowing her to remain a real and multifaceted character even as she betrays everyone in pursuit of her ambitions would've given the rest of the core four more interesting conflict to work with: merlin because he would have to experience real consequences to his actions, arthur because he would watch his sister go against his father (and his knights, and his birthright) and experience some actual internal dilemmas about it, and gwen because she would be forced to choose between morgana and arthur without the pretense that it's an obvious or easy choice for her to make.
even morgause and gaius would come off more interesting as mentors: neither one inherently evil or inherently good, both jaded by events that happened before our protagonists were even born, both heavily influencing morgana and merlin into fulfilling roles that they think are appropriate, but that morgana and merlin may not have chosen for themselves had they not been under their care.
you get the gist. if the show followed its own setup, morgana's mistakes wouldn't lie in cheap and senseless acts of violence but in alienating the people she loves because she is too hurt and jaded to trust them. meanwhile, everybody else would feel guilt over "failing" her and yet they would be too caught up in their own (sometimes flawed!) beliefs of right and wrong to truly see her point of view.
arthur would convince himself it was sorcery that corrupted her. merlin would know that isn't true but he wouldn't be able to argue without confessing everything, which is the defining conflict between him and morgana and it's cheapened when she's just an evil witch caricature and merlin is framed as inherently virtuous in contrast. gwen, too, would become a more active participant in her own life by choosing arthur over morgana and choosing to rule camelot with him instead of just waiting politely to see where things go.
and, of course, uther's downfall and death would be quick, final, and completely earned — when and why did the show even decide he of all people was the sympathetic villain, anyway?
lastly, and perhaps controversially, i think morgana should've learned merlin's true identity by season 4. her being the first of the main characters to find out makes perfect sense considering their shared history and their interconnected and mirrored arcs. even the show seems to agree, considering she does find out a little before arthur. but the narrative itself tried pointing flashing neon arrows towards this way earlier — there is a whole entire episode in s4 where merlin being emrys is repeatedly spelled out for morgana and she still isn't allowed to see it. that episode makes her look like the stupidest person to ever live, which is pretty funny im not gonna lie, but also another frustrating thing in the endless string of frustrating things that make up this show.
morgana learning that merlin has magic would've transformed the source of merlin's anxiety from a crippling fear of being outed someday to the crippling fear of knowing she could out him at any moment. this would make him want to beat her to the punch (perhaps he'd consider killing her for a minute and decide against it because she isn't a cartoonishly insane evil person in my version of events) and maybe he would even feel some tentative excitement at the idea of coming clean, now that it seems inevitable. after all, he always intended to tell arthur eventually! and i think gaius would have to admit outright that he does not want merlin to tell arthur he has magic because he, gaius, simply cannot risk such a gamble. it would be so interesting to see gaius and merlin clash and disagree once it becomes obvious that it's not merlin that isn't ready for the reveal, it's gaius. delicious!
with morgana's knowledge looming, things would inevitably spiral into a magic reveal by the end of season 4. i picture this season as an absolute mess of miscommunication between everyone at camelot, which is, y'know, canon. growing increasingly cunning and vengeful, morgana would use this tension to her advantage, destabilizing the court from the outside while she creates alliances with other sorcerers outside of camelot (instead of living alone in a hovel for no reason — morgana le fay i'm sorry i'm so sorry they gave you agravaine instead of your all-female entourage oh my god).
and here's where the events would change beyond recognition (aka here's where the meta becomes the fanfic i refuse to write). picture it with me: a militia of sorcerers infiltrates camelot and arthur and gwen have to set aside their differences (assuming gwen kissing lancelot and arthur overreacting happens, which it should) for the good of the kingdom as well as for love. picture high priestess morgana in her element, side by side with a bunch of misfit sorcerers that aren't so easily vilified, chopping down camelot's soldiers and knights and assuredly making their way to the newly-minted king.
then, just as it starts to seem that all hope is lost, in swoops merlin (the actual merlin, not his old fart disguise) on dragonback (kilgharrah hates morgana so much i know his sexist ass would stoop to anything to stop her)!!! imagine merlin showing off the extent of his powers in front of everyone and preventing the sorcerers from getting any further, declaring loud and clear that camelot is protected by him, by emrys. imagine that display of power alone being enough to send everyone home.
imagine the loyalties clearly drawn: merlin on arthur's side, morgana on the sorcerers'. imagine arthur, feeling confused and betrayed by everyone at this point, banishing merlin despite everything he's done for him in the angstiest, most emotionally dysregulated scene the show had ever put to screen. imagine merlin starting season 5 free at last but very lonesome, an embittered dragonlord like his father. imagine the absolute mess camelot would become without him, even with gwen — now queen guinevere — there to pick up the slack. imagine arthur actually earning merlin back, finally growing into his role as king as he does so. imagine the reunion.
all this and more could've been not just possible but inevitable if morgana was allowed to remain a complex character that is neither inherently good nor inherently evil: it was undeniably the biased and one-note treatment of morgana's downfall by the writers that set the precedent for literally everything else that happened after merlin chose to poison her. the show wouldn't have even had to jeopardize its tone or the monster-of-the-week vibe, all it would've had to do is admit that even the "good guys" are capable of mistakes and what makes them good is the ability to feel remorse and change for the better. (as opposed to uther, who was miles beyond redemption since way before the pilot and deserved to lose everything and die alone. OBVIOUSLY???)
in a world where morgana remains multifaceted and sympathetic, mordred would get a better arc as well, so if we really wanted to, we could still end on the same tragic note that the show ended on. with so much harm inflicted onto so many innocent people by the pendragons for so long (including mordred and the many druids and sorcerers that raised him), it could realistically end up being a little too late for anything more than one shining glimpse of king arthur and the sorcerer merlin's short-lived golden age before fate catches up to them. glimpsing that reality just to immediately lose it would've been far more satisfying and far more tragic than whatever the writers thought they were doing with all that pointless carrot-dangling.
and finally, an ending in line with morgana's new and improved arc. in this version, rather than bleeding out on the forest floor alone, she would channel the morgan le fay we know from the legends: sobered up by the reality of her brother dying, she would use her high priestess status (and perhaps also her pendragon status) to be granted passage over to avalon alongside arthur on the boat — a one-way ride — just to make sure he gets there safely. this is her penance for the harm she has caused, the same way arthur's penance is to die and leave the true ruler of camelot (gwen) behind to achieve everything he was too slow and indecisive to build while he still had time.
merlin's penance, then, would be to stay behind and watch them cross over without him, waiting and waiting and waiting until they come back or until he can finally join them. which is a bit fucking harsh if i'm honest, so i'd at least make it slightly more faithful to the legends by having him return as an old man and letting him take a long nap under a tree by the shore, his body slowly enveloped by vines like the cobwebbed fisher king in 3x08, never fully sure if he's dreaming or if there really are strange shapes fading in and out of the fog over the lake. still tragic, but nevertheless a little more open-ended and whimsical than [TRUCK NOISES] THE END!
#[johnny the dragon voice] ✨ MORGANA ✨#tldr: if you treat your villain with nuance then more nuance will follow and your story will be better for it! groundbreaking i know!!!#what im also getting at is that morgana broke free FIRST so she DESERVED to become the morgan le fay of legend#way before any of the others grew into their own roles.#morgana#bbcm#bbc merlin#analysis#merlin meta#morgana pendragon#theres no focus on the knights here but if you know me you know how angry i am about s4 and s5 gwaine at all times#so in a story with a more nuanced portrayal of villainy and knighthood i think he would openly question his choice to become one#and maybe he'd leave for a while#go home and sort out his daddy issues. have some fruity subplots along the way. visit merlin during his dragonlord era. that sort of thing#and interact with lancelot at least once!!! for gods sake#but i dont see lancelot surviving sorry. that dude will literally die for anything#also scientists and tv execs had not yet discovered bisexuality in 2011 and he already had everyone acting unwise#in ways that barely got past the censors :/ unsustainable#elyan however shouldnt have died. i know gwen ruling alone with only the lamest knights in her service is “the point”#but its a stupid point. elyan is her best knight and they rule camelot together. working class heroes etc.#poetic justice for their father who was murdered by uther + a fun narrative contrast to morgana and arthur#nightmare siblings of all time. banished from the mortal realm for their crimes. could never rule together. stinky#ANYWAY. I HAVE THREE (3) EXAMS DUE THIS WEEK. HERE'S TWO THOUSAND (2000) WORDS OF BBC MERLIN ANALYSIS.
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A Simple Financial Decision HFY - 1/3
Aboard the Command Ship Mother of Invention
>>> FTL JUMP SUCCESS
>>> BEGINNING SYSTEM SURVEY
>>> ERROR; INTERFERENCE
>>> ANALYZING INTERFERENCE
>>> CHEMICAL AND FISSION EMISSIONS DETECTED
>>> ERROR. PARAMETER ‘uninhabited’ NOT MET
Junior Commander Wa’l Hildnid was not having a good first night on duty. Despite serving on the bridge crew several times, tonight - or what passed for it in the carefully controlled light system meant to match their circadian rhythm - was the first night that Hildnid had command of the bridge. Which of course meant that the first (and hopefully only) unexpected problem came up on his shift. Although perhaps the Celestials were playing a joke on him - after all, the fierce and ruthless Foreman Wa’l Sonogth in charge of this operation, was his uncle.
After a firm rapt on the door and announcing his presence, the door was opened from the other side. Already - or perhaps still - awake, he was hunched over with one of his three eye stalks on a different display. “Report,” he said simply.
“Capt-“ He cringed, reminding himself he was no longer in the Navy, “Master Foreman, - one of our long range probes has encountered an error.”
The question hung for a moment - Sonogth turned one eye towards his nephew. “And?” he asked dryly.
“Oh! Apologies uncl- sir. The system-“
“Which system, Junior Captain?” Foreman Sonogth interrupted, crossing his bulky arms over his chest and foremen’s pin. “Our charter is to strip mine any system within a hundred square parsec region. So far, we have sent out four hundred drones and most have already reached their secondary target.”
“Of course, sir, sorry sir.”
“Make sure it doesn’t happen again - which system?”
Grimacing at failing to answer with his apology, Hildnid was pleased the correct screen was ready. “The star has been codenamed as ZN0-52081, sir, and the error was unexpected life form contact.” Songoth’s eyestalk returned to its central monitor at that.
“Two ice giants and gas giants, an asteroid belt, a habitable planet, and a deathworld, on top of a few dozen barren moons…” his uncle thought aloud, his voice sonorous as he dropped into a contemplative tone. “Too remote for pirates, too much work for colonizers, and not near anyone who could’ve taken it…”
The eyestalk came back up. “Were the life signature Bioforms?”
“No, no sir.” He knew that one, at the very least. There were several ways to tell if one of the Old One’s children was lurking, and none had been present. “What little evidence we have at the moment suggests the usage of traditional, albeit old, spacecraft. No psionic resonance or evidence of interstellar gas manipulation.”
The eyestalk bobbed a nod. “Good, at least we won’t need to deal with any damned Citay.” Wa’l Sonogth sighed, leaning back in his chair and finally turning all three of his eyes to his nephew. “They’re either smugglers or political dissidents illegally occupying our territory. If it’s smugglers, we can pay them off and give them one of our empty systems, if they’re rebellious colonists…”
Wa’l Hildnid swallowed so hard that it seemed to travel through his neck and into his shoulders and chest.
At that, his uncle laughed. “Don’t get squeamish on me, boy! Your mother told me about what a brave military man you are, don’t tell me you never killed before?” The black of his sclera seemed to grow even darker, “if it’s easier on your soul, I’ll make it an order. It’s a simple financial decision.”
“Yes, Master Foreman.”
“Good. Send the probe to its next target, and…” The left eye moved back towards its screen, “order ED-3 to move in. Clan Gis also were a gang of firebreathers…”
“If that will be all, sir?”
“That will be all”
Aboard Mining Ship Salinonk
Captain Ghis Halnfur was looking forward to an extremely profitable day.
In charge of “ED-3” - Excavation and Demolitions Team 3 - and the seven ships that made up that command. Two of them were traditional deep space mining ships, barely a hundred meters long, three more were of the wide bowed transport ships that would carry full loads for processing, two hundred and twenty meters long and capable of safely transporting its precious cargo without additional protection. And of course, his flagship, half again the size of the transports and the most heavily armed, was to act as the command and operations hub for the mining operation, as well as transporting any workers or engineers to ground-based projects - in this case, a legion of Galfrei-class combat units and a platoon of enhanced mining equipment retrofitted into combat-ready suits. And of course, the final ship, and Halnfur’s personal addition to ED-3 - the screening ship.
Taken from his days in the Navy, the idea of point defense protection against fightercrafts and gunships would also work when it came to asteroid mining. Halnfur himself captained the first one deployed, and saw to his immense delight that it could cut through those asteroid fields like air… it simply made it harder to collect them afterward - so instead his poor Lii’lya had been reduced to operations like this, where collateral damage was expected.
Blinking out the white that always came from leaving faster than light, he kept his eyes on the stellar horizon while his communications officer began a survey. “Near distance, clear. Middle distance, clear. Far distance… occupied.”
“Occupied?” Ghis Halnfur’s second in command, Ak’no Jel, asked as he moved to take a better look at the display.
“Yes ma’am,” comms responded. “By… a battle, it looks like,” she paused, another bright flash of light from the viewport, this time significantly smaller and at range. “Yes, it’s a battle, ma’am. The fission signature we just picked up was equivalent to one of our class-4 explosives.”
“Who’s fighting?” Halnfur felt obligated to ask, if no one else would.
“It’s hard to tell from this range, sir, but I’m seeing two distinct ship design styles, maybe three.”
“Are you ready to go in, Captain?” Jel asked, back behind his command chair.
He surveyed the scene for a moment longer, tapping his chin dramatically. “Yes… I believe we shall. Navigations, plot me a skip-jump, pull back a hundred fifty kilometers from the plotted edge of the battle. I want them to know we’re there, but don’t fire yet.” He’d never believed Sonogth’s predictions - and he knew who was behind this whole damn thing - the Citayans. If he could get proof, solid evidentiary proof, that they had not only moved into the Celestia Republica Castelleum, and that they fired first, it would be the airtight justification they needed to finally wipe the Citayans off the galactic map, then their unevolved Citay vermin, and then all the other Bioforms. At least the Citayans didn’t use bloody animals for space-craft.
The flash was proportionally weaker this time - but the battle was not what he expected.
Aboard the War Ship Antioch
Aleksandrya Sokolov-Meyer of the United Nations of Terra and Venus Navy, and captain of the Zeus-class Antioch, was having a terrible day. “Status!” she barked, leaning over the massive command table and wincing at each new red mark on her ships. And they weren’t even supposed to be her ships! “I need those torpedo tubes unjammed!” she yelled to no one in particular.
“Torpedos still down, ma’am, repairs underway!”
“Rio’s Pride is requesting additional firing support!”
“Acknowledged, patch me over to the captain.” It wasn’t looking good for Rio’s Pride. The only destroyer she still had on her left flank, Rio was built for capital ship combat, and the swarm of Jovian Stinger and Biter drones that had just polished off her support ship. “Captain Holt,” Meyer said when she saw a flicker in her periphery.
“Damn, Meyer, its a bloody mess that Gilly left us, isn’t it?” Despite herself, she let out a low chuckle, glancing up through the loose strands of red hair to look at her friend’s face on the screen. He wasn’t looking good, behind him the devastation of his ship was obvious, lights flickering and a disturbingly loud shudder. She was tempted to pretend that this was a simulation again, that this wasn’t real and she had enough time for a clever comeback.
But it was real this time. And with the death of Commodore Gilroy Faux and High Captain Tsoss, Aleksandrya was in command.
And she was about to kill a friend.
“Holt, we can’t send anyone to rescue you,” she said solemnly, turning back to her display and drawing her intentions. “If you yaw fifty degrees starboard and a few clicks further out-“
“I can hit the damn nest.”
“We’ll cover you for as long as we can.”
“Yes ma’am, over and out.” And just like that, exposing itself to more fire and making the battered destroyer even more of a target, Rio’s Pride followed orders. The swarm of drones saw that and gave chase, their hive programming convincing their fellows of better prey than the main battle group. No doubt some kid would notice and correct the mistake eventually, but it wouldn’t be immediate and every second counted.
“Comms Officer Henri, order picket group one to chase those fuckers, then patch me into the rest of the fleet.” The situation had already changed radically from the last time she checked - the enemy formation, surrounding them in a rough U, had begun to collapse inward on the port side as they moved in for the kill, while the automated Jovian ships - primarily their smaller ships though there were two cruisers in there. The Caliphate of Mars was stubbornly holding the rear line as a firing position, uncharacteristically cautious - especially compared to the Jovian Brillenschlangen, of all people - and the ship they were chasing, the only damn reason they were here, the Samel-Class Man of War Big Tex which should’ve been on death’s door, had yet to make an appearance. The only benefit to the situation was that another Jovian carrier had gotten speared through by a CAT-7 coilgun.
Again, the flicker in her periphery, again she began to speak. “Tighten up, those drones are going brainless in a few minutes and I don’t want any of them flying blind in between my ships, you hear? Good - keep your CAT-1s well-oiled, I want you all to coordinate on deflecting incoming projectiles” She glanced up, looking at the faces on her screen. Only thirty-three of the seventy-four ships that came out to Jupiter were still active, and soon it would be thirty-two. “Let’s see Rio be proud one last time and on my mark, I want complete offensive saturation on these targets,” Meyer selected them on her display for them.
Holt’s face popped up, his ship even more damaged with only the emergency lights active and a nasty gash on the side of Holt’s face. Meyer wondered how he got it - she figured that she’d never know. “On your orders, Admiral.”
Despite herself, she smirked. If she could manage to salvage this… but now was not the time to think of her career. Not when she was staring at the one who would give it to her. “Give ‘em hell.” And with a triumphant final firing of its massive primary canon, Rio’s Pride unleashed a two-hundred-ton rod of tungsten-depleted uranium alloy shell at a low, but not insignificant, percentage of the speed of light. The Nest - the hangar and control point for all the drones in the ether - was there one moment. The next, there was a blinding streak of white-yellow fire cutting straight through the thing, and then it began a cascade of errors as things meant to be held securely were suddenly and violently released.
Even knowing it was coming, she braced herself for the violent jerk of the main cannon. “Fire!” a second streak of light emerged, then another and another as dozens of missiles and high-category coil guns were launched at once - not targetting the battleships closest to them, but the undamaged secondary line. Expecting the luxury of a near-endless supply of drones the Jovians had programmed to make suicide rushes to intercept traditional and nuclear ordinance, the Martians were caught off guard by this sudden weakness in their defenses. Already, Aleksandrya could see their CAT-1s and teslogats ready for dealing with this, but not all at once and not nearly fast enough. And every second mattered.
And then, emerging off her starboard side, was a fleet of seven, massive ships. She had a moment of absolute shock and surprise. What? How did they move like that? But that quickly faded when the lead ship, a massive thing as long as her Zeus but much, much larger and heavier, rammed directly into Rio’s Pride.
Aboard Mining Ship Salinonk
“Blasted!” Captain Ghis Halnfur shouted, standing to his full two-meter height, his eyestalks pulled in tight to the skull. “Jel, I want to know what the hell is going on, Comms, tell the flotilla to open fire.”
“Captain-“
“They set a trap for us, Jel. I don’t know how, but they knew we were there...”
“Captain…”
“A damn trap, and Sonogth sent us-“
“Captain!” Jel said it forcefully enough that others stared - only for a moment before they risked one of her eyestalks finding them. “None of those ships exist in our records.”
“What?”
“They’re unknown configuration,” Jel repeated.
“I know what unknown configuration means, commander, what I meant was-“ One of the five ships closest, and turned directly to face Halnfur’s force, exploded as a few shots lanced from one of his transports. And at that, he grinned. “Ah, nevermind. We seem more familiar with their configuration now. No shields? How did they even make it through FTL?”
The Captain and Commander watched the battle for a moment, before Halnfur finally sat down in his chair, watching as the ships - and there were indeed three distinct designs, began to create a new line of battle. Clearly, whatever battle they had been fighting seemed to be forgotten against a superior enemy. A feral smile colored his face before Jel said something that made his heart stop.
“What if this is their home system and we made first contact?”
Aboard the War Ship Antioch
“I don’t care what you say, but that arschloch on this line, now!” Aleksandrya looked up just in time to see another CAT-9 shot get mostly disintegrated before whatever melted slag could be reformed in the coldness of space. “Come on you martian bastard, come on…”
“I assure you, ma’am, that Jamil MacCready is not here!” High General Sakira Morrison of the Jovian Coalition said. At least the fotze had picked up, which was more than could be said for that Martian Coward. “But the Martian troops have been placed under my temporary command while they recieve humanitarian repairs, as-"
“Humanitarian? He’s a murderer!”
“As we were given the right to by treaty. It was your forces under Commodore Faux that an illegal-“
“Halst den Mund! - Euphrates, Flaming Sword,” the two captains flickered on screen and this time, she did look at them. One clearly favored more of the Arab side of the “TexArab” people of Mars, while the other was more ambiguous - both were men, and oh what she wouldn’t give to hear them complain about being subordinate to two women. “One of those energy balls is coming at you both, nadir-starboard. I want to see how big of a coil shot it takes to defuse. General Morrison, are your crews in formation ready for a massed volley?”
“The battleships, yes, but it’ll take the drones-“
“Comms, patch me into all ships,” Aleksandrya said with certainty she didn’t have. Removing her officer’s cap to fix her hair, she instead tossed the damn thing away, pulled out her pins, and shook out her hair. If she was gonna die fighting an unknown evil from beyond God knows what, she wasn’t going to do it by regulation. “This is acting Admiral Aleksandrya Solokov-Meyer of the Antioch - on my first mark, coordinate Coil fire onto this target,” she tapped it on her display, “Upon my second mark, fire traditional ordinance - third fire nuclear. Ready… mark.”
There was the familiar lunge backward as the gun fired, joined in a loose arrowhead formation with the broken hulk of the Nest acting as their anchoring point. While not all ships could fire given the angle, the effect was all that she could’ve hoped for. As the first rounds made contact, they began to superheat, melt, and vaporize as before… but then the second, third, and fourth were all landing in the same spot too. And then, that etheric blue bubble that surrounded those ships began to bend inwards with a burning red fury… until it couldn’t bend anymore. The rounds hadn’t even all made their target before she called “Mark!”
This motion was more subdued, as the still working torpedo bays launched too - straight into the hole they had just created in the shield, and not just the shield - somehow in that stream of light, they’d cracked the hull. Meyer imagined that the follow up missiles didn’t do much for the ship’s internals either, and this wouldn’t be much better. “Mark!” The barrier was already starting to close up, the cruiser was still opening fire… and then the nuclear missiles got inside the ship. Several dozen missiles exploded on the exterior of the shield in massive shows of light, but the dozen or two that made it underneath the shields before detonating?
For a brief moment, Jupiter had its own sun. And then the shield burst like an overfilled balloon.
“I want confirmation the second your guns are ready for another volley, we’re hitting him next.” She looked back at her display of Captains… having more faces with proportionally even more empty spots didn’t thrill her, but she knew the bastards could die. And that was good enough. “High General, I want an update on those drones, and for the love of God, someone get Jamil MacCready - or at least his ship!”
Aboard Mining Ship Salinonk
His flotilla was sent to pacify the whole system, Ghis Halfnur thought ruefully as he watched his last transport ship get destroyed. It was just him and the Screener left. “Jel?”
The woman had been trying to help coordinate fire with the weapon’s commander but came at his command. “Captain?”
“We never managed to do our full recon,” he said moreosely. It was his own fault, his own overconfidence. Removing his captain’s lapel from his uniform, he handed it to Jel. “Take one of our shuttles, take as much non essential personnel as possible, and then complete a survey of this system before reporting to your commanding officer.”
“Sir- that’s-“
“Foreman Wa’l Sonogth will want to know about this. And if you’re right about this being their native system…” Halfnur shook his head. They were doomed. No way about it now. Even if he could still win this fight - and given the numbers against him, he didn’t like those odds - as the commander on the scene who had belligerently initiated contact with a pre-uplift species, his life was forfeit. The Celestial Tribunal would ring him dry, probably most of his crew and commanding officer. “In your logs, write how you argued against my course of action, and wanted to file a report to the Castelleum and I countermanded you. Now go!”
Always a good sailor, Ak’no Jel did as she was told. He had confirmation that she and the evacuees made it on the ship, and waited another five minutes to make sure they were gone before he gave what would be his last, most bitter order. “We’re going in.”
Aboard the War Ship Antioch
The battlecruiser and spindly ships were the only two left - and for a moment, Aleksandrya had thought she had won. Or at the very least, was winning. For that act of pride, God decided that the placid, so far only supporting ships with its long-range fire. That seemed to be over now, now it was going to be a broadside.
“Admira Meyer, the drones are online,” a both familiar and unfamiliar voice said over comms, the signal shakey and broken.
“I want them running picket, sofort! If any fucking plasma gets through, it’s your ass!” Meyer was already turning to the weapons board, seeing that it was only at 90% charge… and the battlecruiser was getting closer with only missiles harmlessly bouncing off to show for it. But her secondary weapons… “Lower caliber until your main gun is fully charged, he’s not getting an inch without steel,” she ended that call, already having Comms initiating her second, “Admiral Meyer, do you read me Virgo I?”
“Loud and clear ma’am,” the voice sounded winded on the other side, the tight confines of a cockpit not allowing a view. “What can me and my jockeys do for you today?”
“That smaller ship, I want you to poke at it. Bring two squadrons with you…” she paused, thinking. With only teslogats and missiles, the hundreds of fighters wouldn’t do anything to the big ship. Short of just ramming it, she couldn’t see what the rest of the fighters would be doing. “Take as many as want to come.”
“Yes ma’am - think your Comms get can get me over to their jockeys?”
“She’s already on it - Henriette is very skilled.”
“Why thank you, Commander Henriette, over and out!”
Meyer looked back at the display of the field - already she was down two of her bigger ships (a part of her wanted to add ‘thankfully, Martians’ but she restrained herself) and a dozen smaller ones. And her firing predictions still had it a click out from its maximum range. If those drones didn’t show up -
“Fighters pull back! Repeat, pull back!” It was a laser show over there. While having never taken a shot at any other vessels so far, it became abundantly clear why - it didn't have the range. The powerful plasma jets burned through any fighter unfortunate enough to get too close. “General, where are my drones? Fuck it, drones, this is your new primary target. Are all cannons ready? Good, on my mark - mark!”
Only this time, this time the brilliant display of light didn’t end with a hole. When the light cleared, it was the imposing blue of the shield bursting out through the debris cloud with only a few minor red spots, its impish friend chasing after her fighters untouched. “Prepare a second volley! Reroute power, shut down gravity for all I care, just get those damn guns ready or we’re all dead!”
“Don’t be so certain of it, Admiral,” the same voice from before, only far, far clearer now. And without the static and fuzz… she knew that voice. Thousands of drone ships came rushing by the viewport, creating a cloud of grey and blinking lights that covered the horizon before passing. “I apologize for arriving late but, my father always did teach me ladies first.”
“MacCready,” she snarled under her breath.
“Ah, so you remember me? As you can tell, my ship doesn’t remember either of ours from our most recent or first dance.”
“Ma’am, a new signature just appeared as… leaving Jupiter’s upper atmosphere,” Henriette said hesitantly. “Samael-Class, and moving quickly. Designation-“
“Big Tex.”
“If you hadn’t done such a wonderful job damaging her, I might’ve been able to help from the beginning,” the man’s cocky voice echoed in the bridge speakers, Meyer’s face turning as red as her hair as his ship quickly advanced towards the enemy. She was going to kill that man. For his crimes, for the Moscow and her old crew, and for stealing her fucking victory! Already, she was watching as the drones broke against the enemy ship like the sea, dozens dying but always being just a few too many to get them all. And the shield was turning red. “Ganymede Spaceworks also added something new, I was hoping to surprise you at our next dance but… well, a Prince must make sacrifices for the good of the people, even if it scorns his lady love.”
All it took was a glance, and Henriette had cut off his comm. “Fucking prick,” she added for good measure.
Drifting into formation above the battered and broken Hive was a Samael-Class Man Of War. Over a kilometer long and with more than enough firepower to match three Zeus classes, the massive primary gun was its primary characteristic… only now it was even more massive, with two isosceles triangles coming from what should’ve been the barrel. And then, in a single shot, a massive round moved in an instant - she barely had time to see it before it had punched straight through the shield, the ship, and then out the other side of the shield.
Not wanting him to get the last laugh, “Main gun on the spindly.”
“Yes ma’am.”
A rod of Tungsten later and Aleksandrya was mollified enough to call her query. The man she and all of Task Force Chancellor had been sent to capture in the first fucking place. “Jamil MacCready.”
“It’s customary to use my title when greeting me.”
“What was that?”
“Ah, you like my new tachyon-enhanced coilgun? It’s brand new! Honestly worked better then I could’ve-“ Aleksandrya ended the call herself.
“Helm, take us to Venus Blue Dock. We’re going home.” To fix my ship, reconstitute my numbers, and figure out what the hell we’re going to do next.
#sci fi and fantasy#scifi#oc#fiction#hfy#humans are deathworlders#humans are space orcs#deathworld#earth is a deathworld#writing#writers on tumblr#humanity fuck yeah#nah but fr i have put a lot of time and effort into this project#like i have several thousand more words in me waiting to escape#i didn't even get to talk about the Old Ones and the the Celestials!#I love writing beef between geriatric old men beefing#except they're gods#I HAVE SO MUCH WORLD BUILDING AHHHHHH#I need a name for this verse and i'm auditioning them#I'm thinking.... Sol's Progeny#legit im on ketamine and normally im really creative but everytime I google something its been done already#why are names hardddd
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The longer they go without addressing this, the worse it's gonna get.
#they are not going to recover from this at this point#people have had the entire weekend to stew on this and they have said nothing. not a word. no community post or quick video. nothing. nada.#i havent seen a company fumble this badly since onlyfans tried to ban porn. and even they walked that decision back pretty fucking quickly#like. theyve already lost thousands of subscribers and probably a bunch of patrons too.#thousands of disapproving comments and thousands of dislikes and yet...#radio silence. its incredible.#anyway#watcher#watcher entertainment#shane madej#ryan bergara#steven lim
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I’m in trouble boys
#high school frenemy#writing#thai drama#bromance#saintshin#thai school 2013#ao3#coming soon#someone send help#I can’t stop#the fics write themselves#i need to sleep#I have work in four hours#but i cant#the words#they have to escape#if I don’t write I’ll die#please let these be oneshots#I can’t survive another long series#I am the queen of accidental series fics#just like a couple thousand words and it’ll be fine#let me have this#I don’t want to die yet#i have to finish it#I will post something soon#but not now#right now it looks kinda like a bush fire#full of heat and passion but also destroying everything in its path#and my heart is burned to a crisp already
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when this fic started out as a cute one shot w a silly concept, grew to 3 fics but only ONE would be multi chapter and at 27k to now us sitting here like. fuck the second part needs another chapter. jesus. we're literally writing a rpf novel. this is why they shouldn't have let me graduate
#ITS SO DIRE RN LIKE THE SECOND PART IS ALREADY 11K 😭#BUT IT CANT FUNCTION WITHOUT ANOTHER CHAPTER SET IN 66.... CHRIST#just put me down like a dog I'm gonna end up w a degree in mclennon after this#if each part ends up being nearly 30k meaning it's 90 fucking THOUSAND WORDS OF THIS.... I'll just cry
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#i let myself put words on an already words and y'all are being suspiciously quiet about it#which is fine don't get me wrong but like#very sus 🤣#also going to say here on my own lil blog post that i do think there are many cults masquerading as christianity#i also think there are many churches that are christian in name that are instead cults#i have recently discovered how close i and my family were to falling into one#not like we were being led directly but like...#we were at a not safe distance going 'what a pretty mountain' and then while we wandered to a slightly safer distance#the mountain revealed itself as a volcano and exploded#like i can see and taste the ash but the lava flows didnt find me ya know?#anyways#had a recent discussion in sunday school about how there are several sects of religion that claim to worship and follow Jesus#but he is not the Jesus of scripture#and people have added doctrines to him often in works based salvation styles#of which latter day saints and jehovah's witnesses and several other things fall into#but so have the dangerously patriarchal fundamentalist churches#and we should just be very very very careful#that the God we are following is the one whose revealed word has withstood the test of thousands and thousands of years#and not a doctrine whose god and testimony cannot stand up to its own witness for a couple hundred years#ragamusings in the tags#my views on what makes good religion have so shifted in the past couple years#hopefully for the better and closer to the truth and further from what man has to say about it
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im locking in and writing more. i dont want to laze around. i have self indulgent work to do
#txt#im gonna try bang out another thousand words#bc like i said... its just a plan#an extremely bare bones first draft#and i already know everything that happens#for once im not making it up as i go along...#heh... im actually quite proud of myself... 😏#i dont think ill post a link to it here when i start posting it though#but i might change my mind#depends#i prob wont#but maybe#it really depends#i will be posting to ao3 though#liek a boss
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hello everyone! a quick break from your scheduled art posting to talk about this incredible fic i think ever bloodweave enjoyer should read.
i know it'a already very popular, but imo it's a must-read. i could not praise this fic enough for what it is, the amazing ideas it brings to the table, the incredible execution of the timeloop trope. it's by far the fic i look forward to seeing in my inbox the most (not that other fics aren't absolutely gorgeous), because every chapter is just. a delight to read. it's got angst, fluff, and an amazing romance, but the plot is what really makes it stand out. it's tight, packed with great characterisation and has perfect pacing. please give it a shot if that sounds at all interesting to you. oh yeah, and did i mention that it's got art for every single chapter? yeah, read it. bask in its genius.
#pythoria.txt#turn on the laugh track#if anyone who follows me is already reading it don't hesitate to message me i'm in love with it and could sing its praises all day long#i also think it's a great experience to read it as it updates and the wait between each update is almost part of the experience#because you never know what will happen next and thinking about every chapter for a few days and letting it sit and marinate is the BEST#i'm ngl if this was pay-to-read i would not hesitate. every chapter could be behind a paywall and i almost wish they were just so i could#support the author and show them how much better they make my day with more than just positive comments#luckily for everyone it's free and an absolute joy to read#binge it or read one chapter at a time and let the story sit in your brain#to me this is a fantastic example of how you can sometimes tell a story better with fewer words#nothing about this fic is superfluous#a perfect example of efficiency in writing and how 2 sentences can sometimes wreck you harder than thousands of words#and the art follows the same pattern. it's simple; thematic; emotive#it's beautifully done without being perfect realistic renders. it's BETTER for it even.#it's got great composition and unbelievably touching facial expressions and poses#i just think. the person who created this fic is a bottomless well of talent and creativity. it is GENUINELY fantastic in every way
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rereading and editing noble pining from the beginning and once again feeling like. thank god i have a beloved dedicated friend who's promised to help me edit once the first draft is fully done<3 but also. why the fuck is it this long. why did i write it this long. why did i do this to myself
#A HUNDRED AND THIRTY THOUSAND WORDS. ALREADY. AND ITS STILL NOT DONNNEEEE#noble pining au#hello. hello. is anyone listening to me#anyway. still have not figured out the plot block ive got going on#please continue to manifest some kind of idea for me xox#love u jamie thank u jamie i would not have written this w/o u
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guys, guys, guys, don't you love shaking around your little guy in your head so hard all day you probably got brain damage, but at least now you have a thousand new plots for them to follow
#uh so#kai#kai ninjago#the little lego boy#yeah#i typed almost ten thousand word in a haze today#its the rough draft#of a oneshot#and its not even halfway done yet#this man#he has my whole brain right now#i will go feral over him#correction:#i have in fact already gone feral over him#like#gimme your pathetic man who ends up being an amazing father figure and mentor to multiple children#gimme him#and his stupid mental illnesses#and maybe probably alcoholism#(not to glamourize alcoholism at all. like. i know multiple people that i care about that are deeply alcoholic)#(its a copic mechanism okay)#(also. he was absolutely drinking after season 3. dont lie. we all know it.)#uh yeah. kai ninjago the lego boy has overtaken my brain.#fictional characters#hyperfixation#im hyperfixating again#lego ninjago#writing problems#fanfic writing#writing things
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hey ! I love La Douleur Exquise, are you planning on finishing it ?
SHIT THE COPS I GOTTA GET OUTTA HERE
#ok but to be serious... yeah i guess i do plan on finishing it lol#its actually got a couple thousand words already done but im just lazy kasdjaksjd#writing isnt really at the forefront of my mind rn but ig never say never#unlike my other series (like looh) i do have a concrete idea of how it ends so i wouldnt want to abandon it#(even though it technically already has been abandoned lol)#tldr yeah i'll get finished... someday#not today but yenno... it'll get there#lde#Anonymous#answered
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dabi’s had like 5 mins of screentime and ive already made a playlist for him this is embarrassing like this is actually embarrassing
#im only on season 4 he’s literally done NOTHING yet 😭😭#except like. kidnap bakugo but that was funny enough to warrant playlist levels of love in its own#no it’s acc bad i know his entire backstory (thank you mha fandom spoilers <3 FUCK endeavour)#and I’ve read tens of thousands of words worth of fic about him already. i am obsessed#at this point the ratio of media ive consumed between canon and fanon dabi is so out of equilibrium that im gonna be FLABBERGASTED#when he acc gets more focus#but idc i simply do not care#i know most of what happens anyway#im so EXCITED#i want to see my new favourite criminal!!! let him kill!!!! he did nothing wrong in fact i think he should have been worse!!!#mha#mha dabi
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bitching about the living situation below, please continue your scroll if you wish to dodge mood poisoning yourself
okay, housing market, i need you to get your shit together STAT, because i'm tired of coming home from a shitty work day only to suffer radiation mood poisoning because SOMEone has decided that EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS MY FAULT and i'm a horrible selfish person who takes advantage of my mom, and he proceeds to be silently but palpably pissed off at me for the ENTIRE duration of dinner, like i'm not already tense as hell from 8.5 hours of capitalism while his retired ass did whatever the fuck he wanted to all day
#text#personal#whine whine whine#like i ALREADY HAD A DEEPLY FUCKING AWFUL DAY you do NOT have to make it WORSE#you FUCKING HYPOCRITE#dont you DARE tell me i take advantage of my mother when thats all youve been doing your ENTIRE FUCKING MARRIAGE!!!#at least i do things for her!! and thank her!!#and ACKNOWLEDGE HOW MUCH SHE DOES!!!!#he ALSO gave me shit about not wanting to part with 1/5 of my mozzarella sticks that i SPECIFICALLY ORDERED FOR MYSELF#come fucking ON#THATS THE HILL YOU WANNA DIE ON???#write me a gotdamn letter i have been waiting FOURTEEN FUCKING MONTHS FOR YOUR RESPONSE#gosh i fucking hate it here lmao#id be fine if it were just me and mom. but. it is Not.#and so i need the housing market to get its FUCKING shit together#(the deeply fucking awful day was battling with a SIX FUCKING THOUSAND PAGE WORD DOCUMENT. to FORMAT IT. it was BEYOND asinine and stupid)#(im so tense)
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writing fucking sucks i dont get hyperfocused on it like i do drawing so i can only focus for like 10-20 minutes before i have to stop. hell brain
#theres 3 paragraphs left to rewrite and ive already hit a thousand words so its not that far from done but FUCK this is annoying#w art i get so sucked in i dont have to think abt staying focused i just Am#but w this i have to think about which words i wanna use in what order and its way harder to stay on task#art is easy but doesnt convey everything i want it to while writing lets me convey what i want but its hard as fuck for me to do#hell
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thinking about that ashswag testrun ep......
#listen 2 me. as someone who has a passive interest in the youtube algorithm#and likes to hear people talk about 'optimizing' it sometimes#and Also as someone whos very involved in fandom culture#its so!! fascinating to listen someone who has a fandom talk about the meta of their work!#like#when i think of 'ashswag' i automatically think of the fandom. i think about the thousands of words and dozens of art about spite and rage#but. ashswag (the guy) refering to 'ashswag' as a brand that can be optimized#its. a Really jarring disconnect as someone who thinks of the fandom First#esp when parrot and ash talking about the longevity of their channels#and talking about other creators and eventually going#'yeah i wish my content will grow with me as a person so i wont beat youtube like a dead horse and not enjoy it :/'#is. so interesting.#esp bc later they talk about off sourcing their editing to dedicated editors so they can be consistent#and trying to find the motivation to keep on going for like#5 years#and about how their goals are numbers based but also 'i wanna make meaningful content'#like. bud. yall already are#as someone whos talked with lots of members of the lifesteal fandom: yall are making art that inspires you!#it isn't just content that can be optimized. your videos inspire other people to create and connect#and be. human with each other.#and i Do think thats where fandom shines best#artists celebrating other artists#and ive been trying to go into this mindset myself: but youtubers are artists man!#theyre just using a new medium!!#and it sucks that youtube sees them as profit machines!! and punishes you for taking breaks bc youre human!!!!#but. listen man. when i think of ls s3#yes i do think of the traps and pvps#but i also think about something else#i think about the trust. i think about how in a server that punishes you for being bad at the game
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