#but it's only been two months it's ok

[pyreflydust]

There's also something to be said about the differences between loss you expect and loss you don't. Most of the human deaths I've experienced when I was old enough to remember were of people whose deaths I anticipated. My grandmother had cancer before I was even born and she lived until I was 20. My uncle had been given six months to live and lived another two years. My grandfather's dementia had gotten so bad in the last few years of his life specifically because he had been having little strokes for years before the big one happened, which takes its toll.

But that is also why the point about a shared pet she made also hit pretty hard. Because when Nana passed, I became responsible for the three cats she left behind and the first to go was the one that was most attached to her. On one hand, he was the oldest -- I believe two years younger than I was, so he made it to 19! -- which in that sense made it easier. But losing him only 5 months after she died and the way he died right near her chair as if he was trying to find her broke me. (The fact I had no way to get him to the vet over the weekend because no one would bring me out of town with him did not help because all I could do was try to keep him comfortable.)

Of the three of them, Taffy was the hardest even thought Buttons was the youngest and most sudden. (I also wasn't in the country when he died so I didn't get any control over the vet visit either as he was technically my grandfather's cat.) Kappy was difficult because it ended up coming down to me having to make the choice, but he stayed with me the longest after and I knew how bad his health was getting.

I had known all three of them most, if not all, of their lives. They were family. But they were more like little furry uncles or cousins than my children. So none of them hurt even a quarter as much as losing Honey did. Which brings me to the other point I wanted to make before I started rambling.

In our 12 and a half years together, there were only two days (when I had to be in the hospital) where I didn't see her at all during those days. A few times I stayed out over night, but I always saw her before I left and again when I came back the next day. Not more than two days in 12 1/2 years (and not at all in over 12 years) did I not see my baby.

I can't say that about anyone else. I've not even seen my mother every single day for a 12 year stretch. If you lose a human family member that you don't even talk to every day, let alone see every day, it's going to take a little longer to fully process them being gone a lot of the time. Some part of your brain is more likely to be like lalala they're just not here that's fine they usually aren't lalala.

When Honey died, my brain kept trying to tell me she was just in the bathroom. It was summer and she loved sitting on the toilet lid in summer because it was cooler. But then I'd go in there and she wouldn't be there and I'd break again.

And if you live alone, you carry that alone and that makes it so much heavier.

[demadogs]

When a typical virus attaches itself to its host, it duplicates, right? It spreads, essentially hijacking the host… What is so unusual here is that this virus, the infected hosts seem to be communicating.

Stranger Things season two (2017)

[cptnbeefheart]

this old world may never change and sometimes i wonder: do you ever think of me?

[knifebaby3000]

study / 菊花 chrysanthemum

[svtskneecaps]

lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.

save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3

[veresidae]

The things id do for a conrad veidt rodya. connieeeee

[kentopedia]

spring afternoons °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

by @/luvluvluv06 <3

[skrrtscree]

If Ryoji had a new Tartarus fit👀👀

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

When Water Tribe companions meet (aka: so I have another hc)

Korra: Wow! Look at all the Water Tribe benders! :D Master Katara! Katara: Wow you must be the Avatar after Aang, am I your sifu too? Korra: Yup! Sokka: Heh, wow then Katara must be ancient. ¬‿¬ Katara: Oh shut it Sokka! Kuruk: Ah! Youth! So carefree! Amak, 30s, Kuruk's era ver: You're always carefree Kuruk. >_> Taqukaq: Yeah Avatar Kuruk. Maybe if you weren't so carefree, then Avatar Kyoshi wouldn't have had to do so much in her lifetime! Kirima: Oh shut it, like you know anything! Kuruk: *sweating* Tayagum: And you know something? Kirima: Uhhhhh Kyoshi doesn't want me talking about it sooooo uhhhh..... Akuudan: Well if your Avatar isn't butt hurt about it, then I guess it's fine. Atuat, 40s, Kyoshi era ver: *staring at Amak, bug eyed* Brother! Amak: ????? Atuat? Is....is that you? Atuat, slapping her brother on the back, cheerfully: Look at you alive! Amak: ???! I'm dead? Atuat: Don't worry about it! Hey is this all of us? Tayagum: No, there's one more. Atuat: We'll they better get here soon! I want this Water Tribe Party to get started! >:) Kirima: Hell yeah! Kavik, walking in: S-sorry I'm late! Yangchen needed somethin-uh, why are they staring at me like that? Atuat and Amak: *mouths on the floor* Kirima: No idea, hey you ok in there? Amak: G-g-g-g-g-gra-gra Atuat: GRANDFATHER KAVIK?! Kavik: .........*falling backward from shock* WHAT?! Yangchen, ripping the door off it's hinges and coming in: WHAT?! Kavik: Ah! What are you doing here?! Water Tribe only! Yangchen, lying: I forgot to give you something! Kavik: Well what is it?! Yangchen: It's not important, right now! Kavik: Well if it's not important then-ah! Amak, grabbing Kavik by the chin: It's the same bone structure.... Atuat: Same shifty eyes... Kavik: My eyes are not shifty! Atuat, hugs Kavik: Oh grandfather! We've missed you so much! Kavik: C-can someone please explain! I'm so confused! ;w; Yangchen, cooly: Yes please, We're all dying to know. Atuat, unperturbed: Grandfather! You have to tell us, who is our grandmother! Kavik: HuH?! W-what do you- Amak: You never told anyone. You were away for 9 months, then came back and said "I knocked up a girl in the Earth Kingdom, she died in childbirth. Here mother, father, help me raise this kid." Atuat: And then you had our greatgrans raise our mother more than you did! Everyone: *judging Kavik* Kavik: I-I don't know about any of this! Really! I don't know any women! Atuat: But what's odd, is that mother mentioned you slipping up one time! You said she was a "Southern Water Tribe" Woman once! But then quickly changed it back to Earth Kingdom. Hmmm, so which is it? Korra: I can't believe you basically abandoned you're kid with your parents. What's the matter with you?! Tayagum: And here we thought you couldn't stoop any lower..... Yangchen: I can't believe I ever called you a companion..... Atuat: Huh? Oh! No no, he didn't abandon our mother willy nilly. He was just so busy with helping you Avatar Yangchen! :) He did his best to stay present, don't worry! It helped that you visited a lot too, apparently! Yangchen, blanching: ....... Kavik, looking everywhere but at Yangchen, red as hell: ....... Amak: Oh that reminds me, Avatar Yangchen be careful dealing with spirits. They say you were overcome by a sickness that lasted nearly a year because of a fight with one! Yangchen, face going blank: ....s....spirits.....right.... Everyone: *silence* Yangchen: I'm going to return to the Air Nomad meet up....if you don't mind. *sprints away* Sokka: Huh, she looked spooked. Kuruk, snickering: Mu....must've....snnkrk....must've seen a spirit!

[beneathsilverstars]

guys i think my depression meds are working

[a-story-teller]

I was in a major car accident yesterday (got t-boned) and was very luckily a) alone in the car, as the passenger side got walloped and b) not injured. However I took care of everything and then went home and proceeded to sleep for 19 out of the following 24 hours.

[gigginox]

[fruity-legos]

It's hard having a fav character with no content

[deus-ex-mona]

new chuutan illust!!!

[hwsforeignrelations]

RANT

[applejongho]

:/