#but it's an idea that has me in its grip

[cherubchoirs]

v1's old mechanics giving it a last little tune-up (and maybe refreshing its paint job)

[umblrspectrum]

oh yeah i forgot to post this here too

[starry-bi-sky]

*stares at disciple SQQ falling into the abyss au*

oh you are so "SY-is-SJ" coded. You are so "fell into the abyss and suddenly remembered that oh i've been Shen Jiu this whole time, not just Shen Yuan. we are one and the same". you are so 'crumbling under the weight of the system and being in the abyss and the despair of never really being free and having suffered in both lives' built. you are so 'scrambling to come to terms with your existence and battling with which life is really yours, only to realize that they both are'. You are primed for going off the rails.

I'm so normal about this guys. i promise.

[yutaslaugh]

my favourite yuta facecam! ↳ requested by @soonhoonsol

[moonlit-orchid]

These two lines in the movie make me the most mentally unwell.

"I should have been the one to go. You needed your mother more than you needed me."

The amount of layers to this, oh my god. He's blaming himself for being alive. He probably wants to die. He genuinely thinks Adrian needs Emilie more.

And it's been YEARS since Emilie's passed away. Look how tiny Adrian is over there, he only just about comes about the bedpost. Gabriel still looks like he did in the pictures of when Adrian was little. It's been literal years. It could have literally been a full decade ago.

And Gabriel breaks the narrative here. He's supposed to be telling a story, he's supposed to be saying what happened in the past. But at this point, he doesn't say "your mother was taken from us" or anything like that referencing Emilie's passing. The story breaks, he's using a statement. I should have been the one to go. It's completely out of the story, because he isn't saying what he felt then, there's no "I felt like I should have been the one to go". It's just "I should have been."

Because he still thinks this. It's been about a decade, and his opinion, his feelings about this, is still "I should have died". It interrupts his storytelling because of how strongly he feels this way, almost like it's a fact to him.

And then he follows it with "You needed your mother more than you needed me." Again, he says this like it's a fact, like Adrian actually did need his mother more. Because he believes it himself. And this could be because of so many things. It could be because of the way people consider the mother to be the one supposed to care for the children much more than the father, or it could be that Gabriel himself didn't see how much Adrian needed him, or even that Gabriel didn't see himself as useful to Adrian. Especially because he said he should have been the one to die. He's essentially saying he was useless. That he was expendable but Emilie wasn't. He literally is implying he doesn't see any worth in himself regarding being a father.

And then it's not just his grief, it's Adrian's grief that has him desperate to bring Emilie back. He literally doesn't care about himself, he wants his son to be happy and doesn't see himself as able to do that. He loves him to the point of being suicidal and self-sacrificing if it would give Adrian what he need, all while simultaneously not seeing himself as what Adrian needs because he doesn't think he has that much worth regarding him.

[wewerebornsextuplets]

it's looking like a restless night for me once again and i can't lie at least half of that is the fault of me thinking too hard about how memory worlds work

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

I'm starting to think it's almost impossible for me to write something for Merlin and Leon to not be a main character if not THE main character

[vilelittlecritter]

The device theory by Molly stars is my lord of the rings.

[leonenjoyer69]

my dealer: got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called “That's Enough, Let's Get You Home” 😳💊 it'll bring you straight to your knees 💯🙏

me: yeah whatever i dont feel shit

5 min later: woah, here is the church, here is the steeple

Floral sheets on long-given-up-ghosts haunting my bedroom: Let's get you home

[castiel-013]

Mourner

[epipeppi]

Over the weekend, I decided to try out the Cloud Data Center stress test that happened on Final Fantasy XIV this week. I made a little comic about the shitpost character I made on there.

As for my experience on the DC itself, It was certainly... an interesting experience and makes me both want to check out and stay the hell away from the NA Data Centers after what I saw in Limsa in Cloudtest 1.

I'm thinking of making some more doodles of my friends and I fecking around on there along with the shit I've seen on Limsa. Maybe I'll even get around to make one of those sideblog yolks for just FF stuff. (Mostly XIV stuff but also for other FF games I'm playing too)

[funboxsupreme]

There's some rich irony in the way a certain group on 40k twitter had a meltdown over the take "Lore = Fluff" and then arguing that the person who made this take wasnt a real fan, seemingly unaware of the fact that "Fluff" and "Crunch" (warning both link to 1d4chan) are literally terms that have been used by tabletop fans for years.

And not even that divisively, i think? I'm pretty sure you can find posts on /tg/ complaining about a game being too fluffy or too crunchy but it's mostly a neutral term that's just slang for lore and rules.

[ghostkingsupreme]

me: okay so today's the day i'll finally sit down and write my fruit party fluff/crackfic!! i've got Time! i've got Ideas!! and i'm Hyped!!!

also me as soon as i open my doc: *writes fengqing angst*

[hekcle]

I get sent into a depression everytime I listen to Careless Whisper now ever since I got into lmk and at first I start laugh crying at the saxophone and suddenly it turns to actual sobbing

[catboydan]

fiance got me a kindle for my birthday <3

[hecksupremechips]

Sometimes if I’ve gotten done with a therapy appointment my dad will ask what we talked about and it’s like. Girl who do you think 🤨