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dennydreadful · 4 months ago

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I checked out Idyllic Island, probably not the comic to be reading at 2-3 AM given the warnings but I couldn't sleep. I usually don't relate to much horror media despite enjoying it, but I think this is one of the few times a horror piece has shook me down to my very core not from the scares, but just how close it hits to home. I had a partner like Bunny once, the similarities are uncanny even, and I've coped through that relationship the same way Caleb did in the epilogue until that relationship ended. Idyllic Island gave me the catharsis I didn't know I needed. Keep up your amazing work with your art and your comics, I hope you have the chance for more time and energy in your life to create what you want to create, you've truly got talent

Thank you so much for reading my comic! Im sorry that you went through something so horrible, but I'm glad Idyllic Island could provide you some catharsis. And also so, SO glad you're no longer in that situation!

Caleb and Bunny's relationship isn't based on any relationship I've had with another human being, but how I treated myself for a long, LONG time. If things had gone differently for me I could have very easily fallen into either role. And honestly I don't know if I'd still be here if that had happened.

When I was making it I was really worried people would think it was grotesque problematic navel gazing torture porn and that no one could POSSIBLY like it, let alone relate to it, because I was so DEEPLY fucked up. So it really means a lot to me to hear from others who found it relatable!

#ask #idyllic island #artisticallygay #also I don't have time for comics because I'm a parent now #which is rewarding and wonderful!#but it's a job with no breaks ever lol #until preschool #which is... several years away still 🫠#cw abusive reltionship

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soupysuki · 6 months ago

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suzalulu brain rot still real _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_

#i love them your honor #suzalulu #suzaku kururugi #lelouch lamperouge #code geass #im trying to practice drawing more backgrounds! i just hate...coloring lol #will this ever be finished??#it is a mystery #we may never know #doodle #im so tired and taking a break from applying to jobs #the market is tough rn ughhhhhh

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months ago

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I was just thinking what a cool job this might be.. what if you were just the person who makes little still images of cute animal figurines doing various activities to post on social media...? like.. show up to work and just spend the whole day like "hmm... this table should be placed to the left a little.. let me set this miniature bagel down in this way... this tiny rabbit should be wearing a scarf", setting the backgrounds, the lighting, etc. ... dream job perhaps lol...

#I'm sure it probably doesnt pay much lol #but.. maybe in some ideal world..#with my health and mental conditions and level of functioning there are VERY few Jobs I could actually EVER manage aside from #just being self employed and being able to set my own hours somehow etc... But every once in a while I come across something like this #and it's like... hrmm.... Yes... perhaps if I could align myself in this hyper specific scenario under hyper specific conditions in a #precise and predictable way and everything worked out perfectly and I had all the accomodations I might need.. maybe I could #do THAT thing then .. lol #Not just generally a 'social media manager' or something. I think that would drive me into the throes of madness #but SPECIFICALLY 'person who makes the images for the calico critters social media' and also #the place i have to go to do that is either my home or within walking distance of my home and also i rarely have to interact #with others aside from the posts probably going through some approval process and initial ideas where they tell me what #type of scene to make and also i somehow make $90.000 a year doing this for only 4 days a week with frequent sick breaks #dreamy sigh and so on and so forth and such and so on #ANYWAY........#the idea of meticulously placing little pastries and miniature crayons and stuff around all day until the scene is perfectly crafted.. SO #SO so appealing to me... like designing environments in the sims except it's real and tangible.. And also imagine having access #to the FULL library of miniature items. to me that would be just as good as owning them #Like.. I get to use them and make little scenes with them and hold them and stare at them and everything except also #they're all kept at work so I don't have boxes of clutter filling home.#unlimited access to every little miniature food ever crafted yet none of the downsides (purchase cost and storage)#etc. etc. ANYWAY ...#Chuckling confidently as I add this onto the 'List Of ''Real'' Jobs I Could Do' which is just a notebook sheet of paper with only like 5 #other similarly unlikely hyperspecific scenarios scribbled down

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krysmcscience · 7 months ago

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Saw this prompt for incorrect OC quotes and couldn't resist with a bunch of my Breach goobers. Some of them would absolutely say these things word for word in canon if I gave them half the chance to, though. XD

They're in order of when they showed up in person - Qīng, Ghost, Red, Marisol, Shio, Cam, Daruk, Tawoos, and Alondra - as well as some important honorable mentions who have only been mentioned or gotten dialogue - Star, Blake, and Creation.

Star's design is a slight spoiler, I suppose, but it doesn't reveal if they're human or impostor, so it's all good. Creation's "design" also isn't a spoiler at all, because They can look however They want, LOL. As for Shio...some of you who have seen the body horror I've done of them may be wondering why they look so normal here, but I promise there are Reasons. :3c

In other news, will I be making a liar out of Shio in an upcoming Breach canon divergence? ..........Maybe~ >:3c

#original characters #breach #among us #(technically lol)#look i even revealed what their colors would be - as if it wasn't already patently obvious #aside from creation but - uh - ignore them (trust me it's better this way)#meanwhile qīng's color isn't even available which is a Damn Shame #there needs to be a sky blue already ffs #cyan ain't cutting it #if it were an actual lobby qīng would waffle so hard between blue and cyan and would miss his chance to pick either XD #the closest quote to canon is cam's because she REALLY wants a different job and she'll take yours in a fucking HEARTBEAT #meanwhile the closest quote to BECOMING canon is creation's and it is taking all of my willpower to resist their insistence that i allow it #the most incorrect quote of all is definitely blake's - he is so mad at me for drawing this and calling out how he feels about his old job #the biggest lie here is red's - he absolutely thinks about breaking rules and does it a lot more than he'd like to admit #someone give poor tawoos a fucking break - they didn't ask for this #i promise that marisol is more than The Bitchy Sunflower Girl - just give her some time - i promise #alondra has other aspects too but she would be weirdly offended if you tried to assure her that she's more than just Squeaky Mouse Girl #if daruk ever had to go to anger management he would accidentally incite a rage riot just like dan did in that episode of dan vs #ghost i'm sorry but your fashion sense is incomprehensible and i don't even know how i come up with half the stuff i put you in #did blake steal the jacket off of crinklytinfoil's pink/chase from the skeld? absolutely not - he borrowed it cuz those two would be BUDS #these tags are ridiculous #ok im done now

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the-physicality · 24 days ago

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i do think, aside from mercury bias, if bg had been in all season she would have been all wnba, first or at least second. i think people undervalue her because of the rebounding but she is 1000% the worst officiated player in the league, on both sides of the court. so the fact that she's been able to have the performance that she had is incredible, and that she didn't get the acknowledgment really just underscores how much people take what she does for granted.

#i saw something interesting that kim milky basically has her players specialize and so they come out of college less well rounded #exhibit a angel's shooting vs rebounding #and i didn't watch bg in college so maybe i'm totally wrong on this but maybe rebounding just wasn't he job #and then i saw on reddit or something that maybe because she is so poorly officiated she'd get called for too many fouls on rebounding #for it to be worth it #and while i understand the value of rebounding really i do the mercy's problem wasn't that they weren't trying #well sometimes it was but it was that their whole system wasn't designed for it #if you have 4 players on the perimeter to space and shoot 3 #you're going to hope they go in and run the floor instead #teams that rebound well dedicate bodies and time to rebounding #and i believe that it was a conscious choice the merc made to not do that #and if you look at old merc games they struggled with rebounding then too #i actually will have more to say about this in the future but the mercury's style of play has lived and died with dt's style for 20 years #the mercury have the most 100 point games of any franchise #and they are responsible for most of the 200 point total scores across the league #ie their fast break and bad defense lol #and while it's not entirely true - she is not responsible for every result they've ever had - i don't think you get westhead's style of pla #to work without her talent and the penny cappie dt trio in 2006 #or at least it isn't successful and maybe doesn't change the pace of play in the league the way it did #it's also interesting that if the lottery draw goes differently in 2006 and merc have the first pick do they get seimone or do they stick #cappie? i think they stick with cappie bc they needed a true pg and from what i've seen seimone is a 2/3 #and i don't think dt becomes the player the league knows without having a true pg [vs her playing point]#the thing is dt can play point better than most people but i think she plays better when she has someone else there to help #and her talking about oh i should've won mvp in 2006 [when i dropped 40] [lisa leslie won that year]#and in 2014 [best team ever] [maya moore won that year]#you look at the stats and there is for sure an argument to be made there #but it all comes back to post players #and i know wikipedia says maya is a power forward but she seems like more of a 3 sometimes? i haven't watched her enough #but i don't think dt can win mvp in 2009 without that team specifically #which means [and this is my theory of life] that everything happens the way it has to happen for you to end up where you are today

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orcelito · 1 month ago

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Wow, today has been. Rough. Was working on school stuff for about 10 hours straight. Woke up early to work on my essay (and stayed up late to work on my essay), so I only got Maybe 5 hours of sleep... and then I went to class, where I worked on my project due on Wednesday. It's mostly done. Then I sat and wrote for nearly 6 hours straight. Did finish the essay. Missed the time to turn it in today though. So I emailed my professor and asked if it'd be fine to turn it in tomorrow. And also offered to send a digital copy if he'd like. No reply yet, but it'll probably be fine.

I am... so, so tired...

#speculation nation #but the biggest thing is out of the way...#i also have to do a reflection thing tonight. im going to at least eat and rest first.#and i have an assignment due tomorrow around 1:30 (probably).#ive written all the words i have to write today so thatll have to be done in the morning. Wooo waking up early again.#gonna try to go to sleep earlier too tho to offset it.#then i have presentation on wednesday... midterm for another class i Think? this week. need to check on that.#and then normal weekly reflection and quiz due on friday.#guys how did i ever survive full time school while also working a job. im dying.#(i know how. I Did Bad In School. lol.)#im fuckin dying But i havent missed an assignment Yet (aside from the quiz i forgot a few weeks back)#(not to worry lowest quiz grade gets dropped. so i just have to be sure not to miss Another.)#in better news next week is october break. please please please i need it so bad #just gotta get thru this week and then i can truly rest. just a little longer

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buckpaws · 2 months ago

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man vs nature and man vs self..its the same picture

#*shaking random passersby* its not just about killing the whale #this is a post about caustic btw. thinking about his time in the amelie mountain range/stormpoint/etc.#nearly a year ago i saw a reddit comment that talked about him being ashamed of his time there #and that was part of blackhearts “rage”#and ive accepted it as truly canon ever since #the prison break is the one thing theyve never explained... why did he do it #picked up a job to continue surviving? to test his gas only?#...maybe externalized some internal rage onto the world in classic cluster b fashion???????#i promise as much as i draw him sweet he is the same bastard in my head lol

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use-your-telescope · 11 months ago

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In five days I’ll be on winter break for 12 days (it’ll feel more like 18 because my first week back at work is all remote!!!!!!) - after a batshit end to fall semester, I am looking forward to catching up on reading, as well as having some dedicated writing time…

Anyways I know I have some A BUNCH of fics from @loki-cees-all to share (Olivette has been living rent free in my mind this whole time!!!) and a bunch of Thrown to react to, so Cee and @maple-seed I hope y’all are ready 😂😂

I’ve also got at least a few @sarahscribbles and at least a couple @infinitystoner and @tripleyeeet fics to read/share, and then @mischief2sarawr just posted their monthly round-up… not to mention I’ve been dying to dive into @the-lady-amphitrite’s long fic…

I am SO EXCITED for this break, y’all!

#I literally haven’t taken more than a random day off since *last* winter break - not even during spring break or over the summer #i need this break so bad lol #I feel spoiled when I say that I haven’t taken vacation in five ever because I know that not everyone has that privilege #my job is really rewarding but also a special kind of exhausting - the mental load is so different than when I worked in retail or service #and I regularly work 50+ hours/week and work weekends because that’s how student affairs operates #anyways

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk.#also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

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databent · 9 months ago

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[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️#im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so)#and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would-#-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs.#i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

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anotherpapercut · 1 year ago

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I love when I'm talking to someone and someone else who I don't know like that butts in to ask a really personal question that informs the conversation they are not a part of

#joked to a coworker that shes gonna get in trouble for breaking dress code and ahe asked abt my shirt #and i said i have a special exception and was gonna leave it at that and tell her abt it later when ppl werent around #and my fucking old supervisor who was literally demoted for being bad at their job goes 'whats your special exception'#first of all who was talking to you. not me #so i said i am disabled and constricting clothes cause discomfort and they said 'why don't you just buy plain shirts'#BITCH WHO ASKEDDDD. first of all they do not pay me enough for that second of all they should just comply with the fucking ada #so why are they interrupting my fucking conversation to ask about my clothes #im just too tired and frustrated and stressed for this. theyre lucky there were people around or i would've lost it probably #lol when an ex coworker decides its ok to share what you post on your personal blog with people you still work with #if any of you are looking at this post again stop. leave my blog. its incredibly inappropriate to share a private blog without permission #i don't tell anyone at work about my blog for a reason. this has been my blog/diary since i was 12 years old #i say things on here I wouldn't say irl because this is where i vent thoughts that are harsh. please respect my privacy #and stop fucking snooping on me. thanks.#and please do no not mention anything you saw here to anyone ever. including me.

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youremyonlyhope · 3 months ago

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Not me legitimately looking up flights to Ireland for a last minute near-mental-breakdown solotrip...

#i don't even know why i feel like i'm about to have a mental breakdown but yeah I feel like i'm gonna have one lol #so why not have it by literally running away for a couple days to ireland #i say as if i've ever taken a plane by myself and didn't only just got over most of my flying fears less than 2 years ago #and haven't only ridden a total of 7 flights in my entire life #and have a job providing me with disposable income #(though i do have plenty of savings but that's for paying the coop transfer fee for my late grandma's apartment)#(i haven't touched that amount in years because i needed it to stay. theoretically i could MAYBE spare a couple thousand)#(but i don't know the cost of the apt transfer and since i'm unemployed I don't know when i'd be able to recoup it)#(also i've applied to a billion jobs that could theoretically reach out to me at any time so that's another drawback)#i'm in a month-ish long break from therapy and it's not even been a week and i'm already on the verge of a meltdown this is great #well. kind of fitting. when i started with my most recent therapist i literally said in my first meeting #'i don't know what i'm doing with my life. i might run away to new zealand' and now when i meet my new one #it'll either be 'i'm 3 seconds away from booking a last minute trip to ireland' or 'got back from a last minute trip to ireland'#at least i'm consistent in my need to run away from my life without either therapy and/or a full time job to ground me

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liquidstar · 1 year ago

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maaannnn The Fatigue has been so bad lately i just want this day to be over so i can sleep. theres literally not anything else i could do... but i have to wait...

#i hate it so much im too tired all the time. i do not know what it feels like to not be tired. i dont remember the last time i wasnt tired.#i dont think i was ever not tired genuinely. even as a little kid i remember being tired to my core #the kind of tiredness you feel tingling in your bones dragging on you everywhere you go and in everything you do. its always with me #i wanna clarify that this is a symptom of the type of thalasemia i have and not exactly chronic fatigue syndrome though. but comparable.#i just wanna say that so ppl dont get the wrong idea. but yeah.#i havent really gotten a proper break in weeks and like. i NEED those breaks i feel like my body genuinely cant keep going like this #so i just need to be officially off the clock so i can go sleep and hopefully i can get some legit rest in the coming days #idk fingers crossed bc i fear ill collapse otherwise LOL! (not funny)#and all things considered i have a pretty cushy gig rn! esp considering i dont pay rent and stuff since im like a live-in sitter #but i dont think i was built to be able to hold down any type of proper job. and this wont last forever. i dont know what ill do from here #im too eepy

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yourlocalsimpsonsandsanriofan · 1 year ago

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