#but it still hurts like hell
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Hong Jiang, it's better if you don't know
This scene helped me understand why he couldn't actually give up everything and be with her. He stares at his soldiers stacking up the provisions supplied by Jing and he remembers when he asked Xiao Yao to quit being a princess and wander with him.
She said that if he gave up everything, she'd go with him. We see him still looking at the soldiers, at the responsibility and duty he couldn't give up for anyone.
He could make that choice, but he would no longer be the same man. He wouldn't have any self-respect. How could he stand beside her and not hate himself for his cowardice?
#i get it#i do#but it still hurts like hell#i admire his loyalty though#and his principles#lost you forever#lost you forever 2#xiang liu#mine
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And so, i did it.
I watched the last episode of "Vikings Valhalla"
How do I feel?
Exactly this
#vikings#vikings valhalla#vikings valhalla 3x08#canute x emma#emma x canute#king canute of england norway and denmark#queen emma of normandy#vikings canute#vikings emma#i still cannot believe it's over#i mean i knew it was fated to be this way#but it still hurts like hell#i haven't felt this way this since the Rolisla fiasco#well at least they were great in EVERY aspect#how am i supposed to get over them#and their last scene together... i can't think of it cause i start crying and i can't stop
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PAIN.
PAIN.
SO MUCH PAIN.
#my adventures with superman#my adventures with superman spoilers#my adventures with superman episode 5#maws#maws spoilers#maws clark kent#maws lois lane#maws jimmy olsen#clark kent#lois lane#jimmy olsen#clois#maws clois#i knew that this would happen#but it still hurts like hell#why#just why
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I want to go back to blissfully enjoying Hazbin Hotel content, but the knowledge that we will lose the show and never get to see season 2, at least not in the US, if Trump wins and Project 2025 is initiated, leaves me too depressed to enjoy it for very long.
#hazbin hotel#it's childish and far from any of the more serious issues with the threat facing our nation#but it still hurts like hell#this is how i feel about pretty much all works of fiction#fandom just isn't fun when you know an authoritarian dictatorship is coming to take it all away#like... what's even the point?
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The Burned One
It's the Dark Souls of hair removal.
I am seeing results from the electrolysis, so it is actually a cycle that will end, but in the meantime, ouch ow goddamn FUCK OW.
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[Image Description: Comic, 8 images, one panel per image. Panel 1: Narration text on a black background, glowing cinders flying across the frame Narration: "It is a cycle without end…" Panel 2: A knight with brown hair wearing a green cloak looks out over a bleak landscape shrouded in fog, toward a distant castle. Narration: "You will make this journey" Panel 3: The darkened figure of the knight entering the castle, lit from behind as the light from inside comes in through the open doorway. Large pillars line the walls, darkened deeply by the shadows within. Narration: "Again and again…" Panel 4: The knight reaches toward a bright flame in an offering bowl, looking unsure and afraid. Narration: "Seeking to be cleansed of your curse" Panel 5: The knight's face is engulfed in flame as she grips her head, screaming in agony. Narration: "Again and again… you will BURN" Panel 6: The knight is on her knees, gently placing a hand on her face, which is burned and has smoke drifting off of it. She is surrounded by darkness, but appears to be kneeling in grass. Narration: "Then, once pain fades, and memory dims…" Panel 7: The knight is on the hilltop from the beginning, looking once more toward the castle. Narration: "…You will begin the cycle anew" Panel 8: Robin on the couch holding a bag of ice on her lower face, looking haggard. Her spouse Jordan is coming down the stairs and speaks, "Oh, you're back, how was electrolysis?" Robin answers, very articulately, "MRRRPHGH."]
#art#comic#trans#trans stuff#transgender#yes I know there are numbing creams and I use them; still hurts like hell
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NEW STILLS OF PRINCE REGENT AEMOND TARGARYEN AND QUEEN HELAENA TARGARYEN IN EPISODE 8 OF 'HOUSE OF THE DRAGON' S2.
#this scene hurts like hell#house of the dragon#hotd#hotd s2#tv shows#team green#aemond targaryen#ewan mitchell#aemond one eye#prince aemond targaryen#prince regent aemond#hotd aemond#phia saban#queen helaena targaryen#helaena the dreamer#helaena targaryen#hotd helaena#aemond x helaena#helaemond#hotd s2 spoilers#hotd spoilers#tv stills#hotd stills#photography#green siblings#the greens
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Exhausted yet still thinking of he.
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#DAtV#Emmrich volkarin#my art#can’t believe it’s next week omfg#also walking around London is even more exhausting than last year#my back hurts like hell still ahaha#I’m so excited for so much#there’s gonna be a panel for dragon age at MCM too and I hope I can take a peek#oh Emmy soon
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contrary to what's expected of them by nearly everyone in henrietta, skov and swan clean up their act just enough to fumble their way into their mid-20's. they begin to build a decent life for themselves �� in part it's out of necessity, in another part for their own good, and lastly to honor their beloved late friends. they've been made acutely aware of life's delicate nature, and with no dream-thief-king left to remedy their mortality as he once did for his favorite forgery, they treat their existences accordingly.
they still enjoy getting rowdy from time to time, of course; skov is still too much of a stoner for his own good, while swan's in grad school and has always been the one to take his education most seriously, so he's more sparing about it (which isn't to say he's at all immune to a lazy-limbed heavy-lidded blue-haired boy sprawled out on their bed, his mouth holding secondhand smoke and the promise of hazy, handsy makeouts).
for the most part, though, their days are more relaxed, and they luxuriate in the simple things: the small intimacies of their joined morning routines, cooking a meal together, going to the gym or the park or the library. they treasure their time spent chatting and cuddling and kissing on their couch; jiang comes by, sometimes, to spend time with them and bask in their collective warmth, abundant with joy and comfort and love that they extend beyond the veil in the hopes it might reach k and proko. it feels good.
#skov x swan#the dream pack#the raven cycle#fmw art#my art#they both got kavinsky's ouroburos tattoo as a way to honor his memory (so did jiang)#they miss their friends </3 but at least they still have each other#both of them have a few other new tattoos too#i had to let skov keep his signature blue hair but he's grown it out a little! and swan ofc has grown and bleached his hair#i just want them to have nice things#ALSO sorry i had to like. include the cropped details it's hurting me aesthetically and spiritually#but i also know tumblr compresses the hell out of my larger images and wanted everyone to be able to see all the good stuff
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ngl its wild seeing people say toshiro's reaction to chimera falin was because she was not longer "palatable" to him like yeah i would be freaking the fuck out if my former party members' attempt to save someone important to us turned her into a murderous chimera on a rampage who just killed all of our party members in front of us and only barely had any traces of herself left in her. i WOULD want to, y'know, let her rest instead of attempting to defy death by further mangling her beyond comprehension because these people have shown they have no idea what they're doing and have apparently caused a fate worse than death for her. it's pretty much just the flip side of the coin and "letting falin go" is, in fact, a lesson the crew has to learn by the end
i don't think faligon is falin's "true nature", i think it's an extreme end consequence of her issues: one where she has little free will, is on complete autopilot, and is controlled by another person.
#dungeon meshi#toshiro nakamoto#shuro#like come on... it's a perfectly reasonable thing to think but no one actually takes the events seriously#he literally says later he just doesn't want her to kill anymore people#and he doesn't want to hurt her to begin with#literally what reason has laios' crew given to trust them with what he thinks they've done#i'm sorry his mindset is ''willing to let her go for the greater good'' and not ''everyone else can go to hell for all i care''...#he sees her with het feathers and fangs at the end and even acknowledges the dragon part of her!#and he still thinks she's so wonderful!
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⚔︎ If you'll be my sword, I'll be your shield ⛉
#fewheja;jfaw#i have brainworms about them again#knight power couple#ffxiv#ffxiv screenies#ffxiv gpose#wolmeric#aymeric x wol#aymeric de borel#ajisai x aymeric#ajisaijar#gposejar#i just love the idea of ajisai becoming a knight whether she's being a little fem or a little masc#her entire life she's used healing magicks to mend the broken and its as much a part of her identity as her scales and horns#it's never been a choice; she's been blessed with an aptitude for healing magick so it's her responsibility to heal#it's an expectation not a choice#she cares on a human-human level but healing has never felt like an act of care to her; it's mechanical/automatic#if someone is hurt you heal them that's the way things are#but taking up a sword and shield?#willingly placing yourself in harms way for another person's life?#that's an act of care#haurchefant opened her eyes to that; you know how that story goes#being a paladin is less serving someone nd more about expressing how much she cares and pally gets bonus points because#she still gets to use healing magick#ajisai cares for everyone so it's perfect#knight ajisai knight ajisai knight ajisai#she's gonna protect the hell out of you#if your blorbo mains tank- im probably in love with them and so is she#ijiofjiawoejf;ekwl;jfawe#the brainworms demand tribute and who am i but a humble servant to their whims
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Sight of a Star - Blue-ish Star Ryōshū and Don Quixote
#HERES HOW BLUE-ISH STAR BELIEVERS CAN STILL WIN I PROMISE#Rendering sucks but I do like how these look very much. I hate drawing armour. big fan of dramatic shadows however.#but! as for justifications:#B-iS is an abno regarding what one so desperately wants but cannot have - possibly connecting to Blue Star and the paradise-like place-#people wish to reach by throwing themselves into it. though what is offered by B-iS is a much less refined yet as tantalising#given the text of 'The irresistible allure is almost tearing you apart' and the less refined bit being implied by both design#[jagged edges of the actual blue shape and legs like dolls - both unlike BS' much rounder and more naturalistic design]#in short it's the manifestation of impossible dreams - for Don this is her quest for a just knighthood in the City of all places#and for Ryōshū [though idk her source] it is her final work of art - the Hell Screen#when approached one's body is 'pushed away' as if a manifestation of how it is unachievable. at least it is for them#'To be truly blue the one with the true blue must be left alone in one’s blueness.'#is what I interpret as: 'to truly dream the dreamer must be left to one's fantasies'#dreams by nature do not intersect well with reality. all their flaws will be shown and they will crack under the pressure of the real world#it is why the dream pushes them away. to preserve itself. also probably has something to do with how DQ also has void dream#and this abno gives pride boosts in its event. and I personally see pride as a sort of 'self assurance' or 'self above others' so to speak#as to chase ones dreams one must think themselves the exception. as the one that can persevere over the City#plus the HP damage and the various juxtapositions in the 'forward' option may be in reference to how dreams and reality don't mix.#harming those who chase them. though all the same the 'backwards' option shows that simply tossing them aside shall hurt in its own way#to think oneself 'impure' enough to give up on chasing it is all the same resignation on your uniqueness#as for the gift: the name is possibly to do with how lower stars seem easier to reach. and the effect of damage at minus SP....#going insane dream chasing?#but to take ones leave allows for it to be left behind without any further effects. you did not look at your dreams. acknowledge them at al#but are you better off like that? not dreaming? forgetting that brilliantly unfinished star?#but anyways I hope you liked my rambles. also this abno and everything related to Blue Star is so tastefully C flavoured that I love them#and fun fact! when I was first generally mapping sinners to unfightable/EGOless abnos I entirely forgot Ryōshū somehow. which led to this.#they don't have weapons they just kick real hard and it works well enough#limbus company#ryōshū lcb#don quixote lcb#🎠🚬
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changing something crucial about Springdad's lore.
When he was, let's say, 10-12 years old, he was hanging around with his friends when they decided to do the usual stupid children activities, like jumping over fences. William climbed a protection fence, lost his balance, and cut his ear on the sharp edges. The cut was so bad they had to cut half of his ear off. That's how he got half a bunny ear.
#pretty sure he still laughs it off every time someone asks him about the ear#'let me tell you kid- it hurt like hell... and yeah i did not learn the lesson and jumped over that same fence a week after it all happened#springdad au
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ive been wondering forever about when exactly levi was kidnapped and taken to the heaven lab and this bit from his new unit's board here doesnt help much but i wonder if those are just the first words he remembers learning and not the first words hes learned overall.
mainly this is all just speculation based on 2 things:
1) he ofc had some sort of childhood before the heaven lab from how old he looked at the time, plus his selfie comic art looking younger than his sprite art from ch5 (look at his little horns plus his hair's grown out)
2) he does also just say straight up that he doesn't remember his life from before the lab
i wonder if that means he had to get reacquainted with the kings all over again too. like he wouldnt recognize them at all even with how it looks like they often played together. (tho i do suspect a little that some comics might have been done before there was a more coherent story put together but thats whatever)
#cliffnotes/.txt#whb#what in hell is bad#fun thought: itd be extra hurtful if the reason beel felt closest to levi was bc of them being close as young children#but levi remembers none of that + he doesnt trust anyone now anyways#i wonder if his friendship w/ them is less smthn he wanted after returning and more he Cannot get rid of them and theyre a package deal atp#extra extra thought: if the comics r still canon to the timeline then it looks like levi was always a little introverted#even liking his coffin before everything happened#and it just got worse afterwards bc then it was the only place he felt safe#wait one more#interesting how levi looks like he'd be around maybe 10-12 in the ch5 flashbacks#(tho considering the number they gave him hes probably been in there a long time)#and that age would be pretty close to the mc's age when their parents were killed by im suspecting gabriel or angels under his command#i wonder if they'll talk about that later#how the angels stole both (and more) characters' childhoods
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Maybe you need to sleep longer and deeper, so you can see more details of your dream. You're the one who told me that this dream isn't like the others.
—I SAW YOU IN MY DREAM · Episode 11
#i saw you in my dream#i saw you in my dream the series#ryu ingkarat#putter phubase#yu x ai#isyimdedit#thai bl#thai drama#bl drama#bl series#my edits.#i had to gif this to get the heartbreak out of my system#what the hell kind of plan was that ing??#i was half sure ai would end up in hospital#but we still have one more ep to go#in which ai can prove how little he thinks of his own self :))))))#i'm in this series and i don't like it#OH AND ALSO#the thing is#yu in ai's dream was hurt yes but he wasn't dead#he was going to be fine#regardless of ai shouldering all the bad karma#but ai's dreams are filled with anxiety and fear of abandonment#and i still don't think fate is why they keep getting worse
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s1ep13 merlin, believing he will be dead by morning, goes to say goodbye to arthur and he leans against the door of arthur’s chambers and watches the glow of the fire light his skin golden, full of color and life that it had been sorely lacking while the prince was injured. he stares at the softness of arthur’s features and pressed the line of his profile into memory for while he passes he will wish for nothing more than to see arthur one last time, his smile and blue eyes one last comfort before he passes on to the otherworld. arthur turns to stare at him and frowns at whatever expression merlin is making. the prince kicks a weak foot out at the chair next to him and motions for merlin to join him. merlin slowly shuffles over but ignores the chair completely. he stops in front of arthur who watches him with wary confusion. the tug of his lips and the furrow of his brow sickeningly endearing and merlin allows himself to be selfish and leans down to press his lips to arthur’s.
the prince is sat frozen under merlin’s touch but he can’t find himself to care much about that, not when he finally knows what it feels like to kiss arthur. he hopes that will be his last sensation before the ever consuming nothing, he hopes he will close his eyes one last time only to find arthur grinning at him and calling him an idiot before leading him into paradise where he can watch arthur smile, hear him laugh, and feel his touch for all eternity. he pulls away and leaves before arthur can gather himself to form a response, dropping the letter explaining everything on the table as he passes. so he allows himself to be selfish twice - to take from arthur and to give, to let himself know what is feels to kiss the man, to embrace his feelings for him, and to have the man know him for who he truly is. he wishes to pass peacefully with no regrets. somehow that revolves entirely around arthur.
only…he survives the whole ordeal and yeah has a gnarly scar on his chest but is otherwise fit to return to his duties. which include taking care of the prince. of arthur. who he kissed. and who most definitely know about his magic by now. yeesh.
#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#s01e13 le morte d’arthur#fanfiction#fanfic#fic ideas#prompts#magic reveal#yippeeeeee#angst potential with the letter#did merlin explain that he was going to give his life for arthur’s in the letter? perchance.#now arthur’s in his chambers with tingling lips and parchment held loosely between his fingers#apprently he was kissed by a traitor. a sorcerer. an evil and wicked man#arthur doesnt really believe that. nor does he care.#what hes focused on rn is the part that details how merlin is going to willingly give his life in an exchange#too bad he can’t really move as he’s still weak from his injury and there was no way in hell his father would allow him to leave#not for the serving boy. not again. especially not after his near death.#so he’s stuck in his room and going out of his mind with worry#he spots gaius and merlin reenter camelot from his window and his worry falls into despair as he watches gaius clamber off his horse#and call for guards to help him lift merlin’s limp form and carry him to his chambers#(merlin passed out after the fight from both the strength of magic used to kill a high priestess#and from the pain of her fireball catching up to him bc his skin is literally melting off him)#(not literally but third degree burns hurt like a bitch do he feels his description is accurate)#arthur hobbles toward gaius’s quarters and stumbles in to find merlin thrashing on the patient cot and screaming and wailing#while gaius tends to his burn
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im abt to rb a post on this anyways but tbh i dont know how you can finish isat and go “siffrin wasnt punished enough”.
the fella has killed themselves several times, what more do you want from him?
#ok yes thats an optional thing you dont have to get. but still#act 5 is basically dragging siffrin through the mud over and over and over and over and over again#what do you MEAN ‘’he wasnt punished enough’’#like yeah what he said was awful and he did do bad things during the loops but like#he was literally killed several times and had to watch bonnie die bc of him…. i think he HAS been punished enough actually#the game ending on such a sweet note after everything hes been through is what made it so impactful to me#also like speaking as someone who has been deeply hurt by ppl having a hard time mentally in a similar way the party was#and took much longer to forgive them… i think what the game gives us in terms of their reaction is just fine#they reserve the right to be mad. he apologized profusely. they all acknowledge that he was experiencing hell and give him some leniency#thats perfectly acceptable to me. if the game said ‘’oh their pain doesnt matter bc they didnt suffer as much as siffrin’’ then thatd be one#one thing#but no. siffrin IS held accountable. just not by going through even more trauma than they have#echoed voice#isat spoilers#suicide mention
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