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Clint Walker in Cheyenne
#Clint Walker#clintwalker#clint walker#clintwapaday#CheyenneTelevisionSeries#but it is a damn good lack of reason
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I truly have no patience for "criticizing a creative choice is disrespectful" as a statement. If you can't tell the difference between sending hate or harassing creators/fans, vs. saying "I didn't like this and here's why" you are an idiot. And on the flip side if you're a creator and someone says "I didn't like this" without any sort of personal attacks or hate involved, simply on the basis of critique and personal preference, and that makes you feel bad enough to stop creating then maybe you should step back and either get offline or make room for someone who has an actual creative vision that isn't "I want everyone to like me."
#queue#i feel like i keep saying this in different forms but#man. remember the weirdo with a wildly misinformed ogl take#one of their friends tried to get me to stop being like you can dislike this without making up weird lies#and ultimately sent me hate after i ignored multiple asks so i blocked them#and i checked them later and like. they were the sort of person who caved to every. single. anon. just groveled and cried and capitulated#and yeah the realization that they thought this was the CORRECT behavior to be spineless and without perspective#was truly a damn bitch you live like this? moment. like real talk anon hate cannot change my mind#because to be perfectly honest i perceive myself as so vastly superior to anyone who sends anon hate it's like taking direction from an ant#(considerate and polite anons with reasoned statements? yeah i'll listen but like. if you just don't like me. sounds like not my problem.)#like. obviously criticism doesn't FEEL good it's not SUPPOSED to but if it's an argument and not an ad hominem attack? it's valid#and an artist worth their salt should be able to understand this is how the world works. get offline if you're upset - that's valid!#you're allowed to AVOID it. you just lack the power or right to shut it down.
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Animorphs Book club book 8
My reaction can be summarised as this (yet again):

I don't have many thoughts because uh. That was depressing as hell and I need to stare at a wall.
But I DO gotta say that the subplot with the dead "wife" was so telenovela-esque that for a good minute it was more funny than depressing. Then it got depressing. But it was so jarring and so far out of the left field that for a good second my friend and I had to pause the audiobook and laugh because ????????? Unhinged to just appear, go "I am Eslin, I have a G U N. My secret wife was killed. By my boss. Now I yearn for sweet sweet revenge." and not elaborate. Like. Damn dude ok. Sorry about our wife also. Fucking killed me that he continued like "So anyway I reacted adequately by killing all of my boss' friends. Starvation style." Like ???? Jjhsgdjsdfghsjdfh what????? I mean damn I do respect the grind set but also that's such an absurd escalation out of context. Did your boss kill your wife? Kill all of his friends! And in context the most absurd part is probably the notion that Visser 3 has friends??????? Like??? Wait no Eslin. Eslin wait. I love your John Wick-esque "fridged wife" trope swag but you need to slow down. I need details. I need you to tell me HOW your boss even has friends.
In my heart I do not believe we will see that madman ever again but on god I do wish for an insane telenovela-esque sequence of him just showing up at the most random moment to do exactly one thing and that's to pull a gun on Visser 3. For no reason, I just think it would be kinda funny. Like,,,did your boss kill your wife?:
Kill all of his friends
Acquire a G U N
Attempt to make the local Andalite youth assassinate your boss for you
Pull the gun on your boss
???????
Profit (probably die)
Aside from that, I also need to say that the moment when Ax called Tobias his close friend at the end was so sweet. Also ngl kinda...concerning/harrowing how much Tobias really doesn't give a shit about not being a human. Like it doesn't seem so concerning from other points of view but the way Ax gets increasingly weirded out by Tobias not asking him about the nothlit (idk if I'm spelling that right rn) really reminds you that it IS kinda worrying. Like I get it, I mean...Tobias has no family that cares about him, he has no friends outside of the Animorphs friend group, why would he care? But it's still kinda...yeah.
Also unimaginably surprised by the amount of collective guilt present in the Andalite society. You'd think they're Catholic or something the way they keep beating themselves up and force everyone to also beat themselves up and their system itself is saturated with the guilt and shame and they teach it to kids at school from an early age. Like. Jesus Christ calm down. Stop that. As the Animorphs said at the end of the book - the Andalites made an oopsie once. It sucked, yes, it continues to have consequences that suck, yes, but it happens. Sometimes you think you're doing something kind and it turns into a disaster. That does not mean you should beat yourself up for it or, god forbid, tell other people that they should not be kind lest they make a mistake. Damn I guess we should all be cold assholes forever, huh? I'm sure that can't have any negative consequences.
Andalite society in general seems kinda unhinged. Like...do I get why it is like that? Yeah. But do I find it unhinged? Also yeah. Like ok duty and the collective being the most important things is totally sensible for a prey animal. Safety of the herd and all that. But it's still kinda unhinged that they do make everyone have duty as their number 1 priority and that they have rituals devoted to it. Not all rituals are spiritual or religious in nature, but the morning ritual is kinda...borderline religious in a way. More spiritual than religious, I suppose, but yeah.
Also I love Ax so much. 10/10 character. He has it all: an incredibly hilarious desire for cinnamon buns, the inability to act like a human being (same dude), spitting random facts at completely random times, a thirst for blood only a 13(?) years old could have, a dysfunctional obsession with duty and doing what is right that only a 13(?) years old could have (also lol yeah dude I was like that when I was 13 too. dw you'll grow out of it), he can even code. And he might even be bi (I'm joking but I' referring to the fact that he was like "Yeah so when I morph into a human form I suddenly agree that Rachel is beautiful and that Marco is cute.").
#animorphs#animorphs book club#honestly though i was starting to wonder WHEN some Yeerks would go 'fuck it i dont hate to put up with that idiots shit. i vote for mutiny.#because like...Visser 3 is...well id describe him as the empires weakest soldier. like he seems to have SOME brain cells rattling around bu#he doesnt seem to use them correctly?? like ok he is pretty paranoid and that itself is annoying. he is obsessed with Andalites enough to b#mockingly called 'half-Andalite fool' by some of his subordinates. he lacks charisma and cannot for the life of him even look like a leader#of any sort. he is deeply unpleasant to be around and nobody enjoys his company. he is half-decent at planning but only half-decent#and what he manages to plan he tends to ruin by every other aspect of himself (either he antagonises his subordinates so much that they don#tell him information or he makes an impulsive decision etc etc)#he is nearly fully incompetent and his only advantage is that everyone is afraid of him. but the problem is that theyre afraid for a#good reason and that is BAD because that means that one day theyll become too pissed to be afraid. like. ok. he has a famine on his hands.#he makes the brutal and cruel but strategically sound decision to reduce the numbers of the soldiers. he immediately fucks up big time#by killing them more or less at random instead of being strategic about it. a strategic plan would be to kill someone and find out who#all of their colleagues are and kill those too. if you dont kill a subordinates colleague because they happen to have a more important#position; of course that person will be pissed off and probably organise a group with OTHER similar people and that group WILL#attempt to murder you (probably brutally) or die trying. so basically he antagonises literally everyone around him by being personally#unpleasant; volatile; conceited and impulsively aggressive AND incapable of as much as hearing feedback or willing to change his mind#and the last point also antagonises people on a formal level. and he also kills their friends. at random. and threatens everyone constantly#hes like a if a chihuahua had a huge scorpion tail and it was absolutely deadset on asserting itself by simply slashing everything and#everyone with that tail. like genuinely he has no charisma he doesnt even pretend to care about anything that doesnt interest him he is#inflexible he cant adapt his plans half of the time because he wants them to be THAT way and not THAT way also why is he like my mother?#like the longer im typing this for the more i feel like im just talking about my mother. damn. thats depressing.#anyway. my point was yeah i would have been surprised if nobody wanted his head on a plate. i think all the Yeerks who are sick of his shit#should unionise. i just think itd be funny. like several of them are just like 'Man i dont give a shit about this war or whatever i just#want to be allowed to have emotions and to love my coworker over here and also my boss is a nightmare i hope he gets colic and dies'#like ok guys i have a solution. G U N
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Reblogging for absolutely no reason
#but it is a damn good lack of reason#clint walker#clintwapaday#clintwalker#cheyennetvseries#body reference#but+god+damn+he's+handsome#the gif that started it
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I have to clarify that I don't like the DMC Netflix show in general so uh please interact with consideration for your well beings. 🙏
#washi's yapping#im sorry I have read most of the lore and i refuse to see the show for the plot#update: why I dont like the Netflix show despite reasons#first is that I came for Dante. it's specifically advertised that he is the MC#some may debate that Dante here is in his Tony Redgrave era and I say#his backstory has been changed too much. the key element of what making Tony. R isn't there anymore#and even though the 1st novel and DMC5 is decade apart but what Eva told him before she died was very important#iirc the novel correctedly it makes sense why Dante is Tony#he was told to go into hiding and he did.#again the Nf show changes his family's background VERY drastically to the point it shift the narrative of theirs character very drastically#Dante is a good guy but not the devil hunter Dante#Vergil is not the straight forward guy anymore instead he got someone to do his bidding and idk how to tell you how off that sounds#Sparda suddenly catches the absent dad allegation despite being just ded in canon#don't get me start with Lady and the White rabbit#I'm sorry the Dante i fell for is a charming and whimsy guy but also just very highly masking guy#who also has a good level of emotional intelligence#even as Tony he has displayed that he is witty yet also considerate of his surrounding#he has rules of how he takes jobs#no it's not that we take Tony character and put it into a military AU. This is a different kind of Dante.#it's more like a very bad mixture of Dan3+Dan5+Nero5 memes#I also feel bad he got thrown around like crazy with little to no time to actually voice his own opinion#he was kept in the dark then lacking Dante's detective skills as well#nobody come to me and say hes stupid you will catch these hands#Nf Dante is stupid because the plot built him like that... he's the dansel in distress in this show#His reasoning for most of the questions thrown his way is incredibly weak because nobody god damn tell him anything#but in canon he knows because he was made aware!! of his heritage and everything!!#im sorry for saying Nf Dante is stupid boi just lacking a chunk of government-guarded contexts that he should have made known.
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At this point I don't think Teruki's parents are exceptionally horrible individuals (long-term psychological consequences still happen in cases in which the abuse isn't considered particularly severe + everyone is capable of harm, even "good" people), but they weren't the best, without a doubt.
Okay, they got too busy with their jobs and had to move overseas to progress on their career. External circunstances. Things that happen. They left their son behind, but that could always be justified by hectic schedules of ever-moving businesspeople. How else could he have a stable routine to focus on his future? They're just busy. Teruki hasn't seen them in long but that's not their fault, right?
They cared for Teruki, didn't they? His parents made sure that there was someone home to watch him whenever they were far away. It was inevitable that there would be times he would be with himself, though. But that's not bad! It only became a problem once those strange espers tried to take hold of him on the street. And even then, they were so weak he could barely give them the title of a psychic. It wasn't an issue that it happened more and more and there was no one to intervene. Or that Teruki had to torture descriptions of "Claw organization" and "brainwashed soldiers" out of these grownups to know what they wanted with him. His parents couldn't know. Why should they know? Better put: what could they do?
What could a normal person do against someone with psychic powers?
It was Teruki's choice to live by himself. He could manage it all. Contrary to the other kids, he was an independent and responsible young man who could be trusted with a house and money. Such a great boy. His parents were so proud to have someone as competent as him as a son, one which wouldn't mean hard work for them. One who always had the best grades and was the soccer team's best player and was the best student on the town's best middle school.
Of course they would suddenly allow Teruki to live on his own. Any parent with a child like him would, wouldn't they? Anyone on their right mind and who knew the slightlest about him would be sure he could do it.
And even if this "Claw" organization scared him a bit and he felt a bit lonely at times, it wasn't an issue. Issue would mean it was an obstacle - which it wasn't, as Teruki did perfectly on his own. His parents believed on so. That's why he had his own apartment at 12 on the first place. Teruki was so wonderful at this. It wasn't horrible if they didn't answer his calls, because they were so busy and he wasn't a little kid who depends on his mommy. None of this was their fault. He shouldn't bother them or himself over this.
Because they cared, right? On the end, it was only a pile of tragic circunstances and coincidences no normal person could act against. It was part of life as someone special like him. He couldn't expect that his parents could change any of this, and this made his loneliness the best possible choice. It was obvious that they would support such a decision.
What would a normal person do against someone with psychic powers?
#this was supposed to be a short description of how I imagine the Hanazawas but I got carried away with the prose#I suppose I'll leave some of the original idea here on the tags#for some reason Teruki's parents seem to be the type of absent parents who do care about their children#yet they don't have the slightlest ability to provide a happy and healthy life besides the generic ideal of a perfect kid#a kid who has a nice home and money to have fun and is physically healthy and has good grades#and their son is so special. of course they would brag about him at any opportunity to do so because it shows how they're good parents#yet they don't put any extra effort on caring for their kid besides this “minimum”. why would they? isn't he happy enough?#they gave such a damn perfect life for him! look how great he is doing by himself! look how he is an amazing kid!#and they say it like an irritatingly oblivious owner talks about their pet dog who has clear behavior and health issues#and their lack of emotional effort and actual care for teruki's wellbeing is so morbidly comical it warps into not being even funny#its just painful and absurd and they don't have an idea on how their choices are absolutely crazy bad#because there is no way you could be implying they're bad parents. they love teruki so much#mp100#mob psycho 100#teruki hanazawa#lalá rambling...
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rereading new moon because i miss jacob and bella's dynamic but bella is so frustrating!!!! WHY would you call billy's house every half hour until ELEVEN PM????????? it was a kindness of him to only treat her with pity when jacob rejected her
#she's so enamored with vampires that she doesn't even immediately recognize that seeing laurent is a danger to her!!!#and yes ik it's bc of EDWARD and she misses EDWARD and she assumed that laurent was safe#bc he was cordial with the cullens before and like ik she has her reasons i do but OH MY GOD!!!!!!#like i don't want to get into it but ik she has this idea of good vampires and misses edward so she was RELIEVED to see one but GOD#and then pestering billy and jacob like that!! damn bella!!!!#if someone did that to me OHHHH i'd be so pissed 😤#like yeah she was desperate for him bc he distracted her from her pain and made her happy but he's sending a message bella!!! STOP!#personal post#new moon#idk if anyone can tell but i hate rudeness with a lack of courtesy for boundaries#for the record she was not entitled to the pack's secret so all this just bc jacob wouldn't talk to her is diabolical to me
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Snaters really make you realise how many people lack reading comprehension skills, empathy or any understanding of how trauma effects people.
#Severus is an inconvenient victim#Poor dirty unconventional looks#He didn’t project a mask of sunshine and rainbows to the world#He’s angry caustic bitchy and with damn good reason to be#He’s made mistakes in life and tries hard to atone for them#He’s not a “pretty quiet passive” victim#And sadly too many people just lack the empathy to see who he truly is#severus snape#pro severus snape#harry potter universe#anti snaters#pro snape
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yeah no, the way they talked about eddie before, after, and DURING sex and revealed that t genuinely looks at eddie as his competition in regards to buck definitely means y'all are well on your way to a bt wedding
#are you stupid#im genuinely asking#how can you watch that and thinks its good for you#how was any of this a “fuck you” to buddies??#if they wanted to say fuck you to buddies bt wouldve gotten back together and that wouldve been the end of it#they wouldnt have made eddie haunt every corner of that relationship and kept bringing up eddie being straight and buck not being in love#bc girl use your brain#do you really think jill 47 from glendale wisconsin is gonna watch all that and be like. oh damn okay buck and eddie are never happening#no. shes gonna see that and be like. ive never thought about buck and eddie before but now that you mention it...#they are introducing the general audience to the idea of buddie#they are introducing the ideas they will be breaking down (eddies sexuality and bucks feelings)#there is no reason for them to constantly be like EDDIES STRAIGHT SEE LOOK HE IS STRAIGHT#if he were straight they wouldnt have to say it over and over. he just would be straight#and same with buck#if buck didnt have feelings (also important to note BUCK was the one who said love) for eddie they wouldnt bring it up#like. i feel like these people lack critical thinking skills. have they ever taken a literary analysis class ever bc bruh#that episode was a love letter to buddies#anyway#buddie canon 2025#me thinks
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Guess who just bought a keychain of the Jin-eating-burger photo that I won’t stfu about!!!
#thank you eBay 🙏 thank you Wendy’s collaboration 🙏 amen god bless peace on earth#im so low on money but I’m breaking myself for the fucking Jin eating burger keychain/standee 😭 I meannn how can I not it’s literally my pf#Jin really do be eating that burger tho damn that’s crazyyy 🍔🍔#im so excited hehe#watch the package not deliver or smth LMAOOO ID CRYYY#I never use eBay im nervous lowkey 😞#my mom deadass bought it on her account idk why I’m tripping#💀#Jin-eating-burger standee/keychain pls make ur way to me carefully and safely and packaged w care pls…pls….🙏🙏#my first piece of Jin merch omg…#I wanted to get the takaya one so bad but I’m soooo fucking broke lmfaoo 😭😭#me applying for a job and listing my reason for applying as “want money for takaya sakaki merchandise’’#LMFAOO#I’d also like the chidori one so I could have all of Strega#but alas#as long as I have Jin I’m good to go 🙏🙏#if you EVER hear me complaining in the future say “Gio remember you have Jin-eating-burger standee in ur possession’’#and I will immediately stop complaining and instead start counting my blessings ☺️#very excited abt this if you couldn’t tell#im so normal guys i promise#persona 3#persona#p3#persona 3 reload#jin shirato#(posting this from my drafts and I did end up buying the takaya one as well LMFAOO IM DONEEE#the lack of self control is craaazzzyyyy#takajin wedding alter creation upcoming?#IM JOKINGGG
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I always feel like a fraud when i tell people i'm an animation student because they expect me to be like near professional-level good at art and animation, when in fact Finland is kinda ass and they seemingly at random selected the students to learn at my school. There were no portfolios or exams to send or do. I have no idea how they picked each of us to study there.
#its a nice enough school but god damn the teaching there is shit tier#we were never taught basic animation things. majority of the people on my class still do not know principles of animation#the reason i got good grades in my 2d assignments was because i had already learned 2d animation years prior by myself#our 3d teaching is slightly better but still lacking#we were not taught industry standard programs and now its biting every 3rd year student in the ass#and now i just wonder if ill be educated enough to even get into an university. i really wanna go to uni.#but i know its not all that easy and i genuinely dont know what to do with my life if i dont get there#let my stupid ass in :( i wanna be something other than a near completely uneducated after middle school failgirl
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Yeah my personal hill to die on is that im a "redemption arc" abolitionist. Why are you interpreting the validity and personal impact of a character's complex moral journey exclusively via how much absolution it is fit for the people they have hurt to extend them. Doesn't it get tiring being so reductive and catholic all the time.
#stars textpost#this is grouchy but you get me#also the way this inevitably leads from 'this person shouldnt be forgiven for X action for whatever reason' (valid! understandable!) to#'this lack of forgiveness means that this person is not redeemed. ergo they are irredeemable and they deserve PUNISHMENT'#dont u get tired of flattening something as complex as a characters shifting internal morality into a flat Good/Bad Binary#sometimes a person cannot be forgiven but that doesnt mean that their change of heart/worldview isnt valid!#listen i too love childrens animation but youve got to consume more complex media than that too etc etc#a person is either Good and can be Forgiven and go to Heaven or Evil and Damned to Hell type media analysis fr
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Holy shit the reblog tags. Read them.
Who would win in a fight?
Arthur Lester or Jonathan Sims
#reblog tags >#Arthur /neg#okay a long ass rant incoming#Arthur is extremely self-righteous and it's not a good thing. he viscerally hates cultists and doesn't see them as people because he thinks#them inherently evil - otherwise they wouldn't have CHOSEN to join the cult. for some damn reason (Christianity) he thinks they DESERVE to#suffer. he projects his own selfhatred on anything and everything and redirects self-destruction into violence against others#the same way he felt entitled to kill the window or the uncle or attempt to kill Larson - he'd be merciless with john#Arthur lacks empathy and he'd never stop to consider that maybe jon didn't want any of what's happened. he'd feel self-righteous about that#violence. and jon is self deprecating enough to accept it and kind enough not to harm him back. jon wouldn't ceaseless watcher him because#jon wouldn't believe that Arthur deserves it. Arthur's martyrdom is pathetic but it does make kind people like jon feel for him#and it's sad that kind people will always take it from violent people because they can empathize with them - something they'll never get in#return#sorry apparently I'm not finished#Arthur would've definitely seen fears as gods and avatars as their followers which of course would mean that these people are morally#corrupted. and we've seen those people we know they exist. is daisy worthy of redemption? no matter the answer jon let her have it#Arthur has displayed disgust and unwillingness to understand others. nuance only matters when it's him neglecting his child not when it's#other people's surviving or unknowingness. he has no problem with letting his animalistic side loose when he feels entitled to it. he's#killed and eaten a man beat someone to death knowing only police's suspicions about him he beat a woman with a rock to death over and over a#you get the gist. if he believes he's entitled to someone's life he takes it. and jon fits his victims profile way too well#a cultist who brought his god to earth and caused suffering? yeah we can take out the frustration we feel on him it's whatever. not like#someone like this could be a good person#if i feel like i should die and there's something like that walking our green earth then they definitely deserve to die#what I'm getting on is he's not just winning a fight he's killing jon bc to him he is no longer human thus deserving of death
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#thinking. i fucking hate when people go snooping around in my shit without my permission💀#like public things are public n its my fault if im caught lacking but like#dude i had a feeling if i left my pc on my homework my bro would have peek bc he doesnt give a shit what i think#and likes giving advice when nobody gives a fuck and just likes reading other ppls work which is fine except i always tell him#to fuck off and gtfo when im doing work bc i dont wanna hear a damn word he says#but i left it on for a reason and ofc when i come back i can see my page isnt where i left it. then my bro asks some questions#abt my work n says it looks good. no shit bro its the most basic hw ive ever done in my life 😭#but anyway whenever this happens it reminds me when one of my bestest friends ever was looking at the drawings#ON THE PAGE I SHOWED HER AND OFC I DIDNT EXPECT HER TO LOOK ANYWHERE ELSE so i went to the bathroom#wow same situation as w my brother! anyway turns out she went through all the fucking pages after and saw some other shit#that i def didnt want her or anyone else to fjcking see but ok! bitch i was so embarrassed but i was also internally like.#what the fuck is wrong w this bitch😭 (AFFECTIONATE BUT GIRL WHY!)#anyway. love her to bits but im never leaving anything w this bitch ever again💔#like i was lucky bc thst was just pages of drawings..#BUT GIRL I PROBS WROTE POEM AND FANFIC BITS IN THE SAME NOTEBOOK... probably? it mightve been mostly homework#bc it was highschool or before. so i just used whatever paper was infront of me#but like. well i know she doesnt gaf whatever she sees but girl I DO!! that was too fucking much but im glad#she thought they were p cool at the time#but she did see smn that used kpop idol names bc it was fROM A TWITTER AU so THATS why it was embarrassing. the rest of it was fine idk#but like. can ppl never snoop through my stuff ever again pls </3#like even if i saw my brothers work on his pc i would never EVER snoop through it without asking first. even if he left it on his pc for#DAYS i wouldnt. or id ask permission through text or smn but like fuck bro is this not basic decency for u fuckers </3#44597
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Have grad photos day after tomorrow and me being me, completely forgot to even think about what I’m going to wear for them. So I have only tomorrow to see if a) I have mascara that isn’t whack, b) I can find somewhere to buy a white long sleeve fitted shirt, and c) wrangle my eyebrows into looking okay. But I might have screwed up my eyebrows from anxiety-induced picking recently. They’re looking quite thin at the fronts 😑
I hate having no sense of time. Tomorrow’s gonna be stressful.
#I haven’t worn mascara in over a year at this point#and I’m pretty sure the last one I bought was shit. clumpy as hell#also worried that my good mascaras will be too old and will also be shit#also can’t seem to find a store that sells the kind of white shirt I want#which pisses me off because if I’d thought about this a week ago I could have gotten exactly what I want off Amazon 🙃#I annoy myself so much#I’m so on the fence about getting these photos. I’m at an all time low in my life and it shows in my face#what’s ironic is half the reason I didn’t get grad photos for undergrad was because I felt too fat#within one year of graduating I was down to my lowest adult weight. which I am again almost at now 🙃#I almost didn’t take high school yearbook photos my last year for the same reason#but I was a normal weight and the photo is actually really good#a student took them all and she did such a fantastic job. I have so few photos of me that I treasure that one#so I’m doing this one regardless. since I lack any proof from my bachelors degree. but I still hate that I look so damn sickly#siiiiigh#everything is so impossibly hard right now. I’m glad I don’t look ‘fat’ like a year ago but#I have lost an obscene amount of weight very quickly and I know it won’t stay off. I’m sure I’ll gain loads back once in treatment#so this photo is gonna immortalize me at my absolute worst. during the weeks I’m trying to find treatment.#can I get a W around here likeeee#mb
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Returning to the nugget brainstorming grind. My bald girlie I've had since forever is finally getting her well deserved lore 🎉🎉🎉
#rat rambles#oc posting#her name is gabriella and she was one of my very first nuggets and has always been legendary to me#although kind of for the worse in terms of her character since as a bit I kept her in storage for most of the first chunk of my playthrough#it was a whole thing of oh she's too good for this place she shouldn't have to work until after I defeated whitenight and suddenly had an#extra paradise lost suit that I didnt know who to give it to#so she got boosted to level five and placed in the disciplinary department#I think previously the only time she had done anything was when I was researching your bald#anyways those days are over I am no longer letting her rest easy she gets horrific trauma now <3#Im still fleshing things out but basically she was among the earliest employees still but ended up on yuri's radar#which lead to her being. unavailable for a while lets say.#and once yuri got bored of her she had to spend another good while recovering which she was only rly allowed to do for the sake of the#investigation into yuri's activities at the time that would eventually be dropped as it was decided that it wasnt worth the hassle#grabriella ofc was. upset abt the lack of meaningful action. to put it lightly.#when she was placed back on the work force she requested transerral to the disciplinary team in hopes she could do smth abt it#but ultimately it became clear to her that at this point yuri had become basically untouchable#she doesnt want to just fall into complacency like everyone else in this damn facility but she also wants to keep living so for the time#being she's gritting her teeth and tanking it in hopes that if nothing else she can outlive yuri#shes having a bad time basically#shes also basically the unofficial team captain since mason is an absolute deadbeat who barely does his job#and gabriella is Far more invested in the discipline side of the departments duties than anything else#she's trying to be reasonable about it but shes also become extremely desensitized to violence and suffering so shes. not great at it.#she herself doesnt lash out violently often but her coworkers definitely do and she kind of lets them do it since shed rather have a dead#employee than another yuri situation#anyways girlies with sunglasses hiding their big sad wet eyes <3333
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