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Me in a shaky voice on the verge of tears: Maybe I should read?
#like I WANT to#I want to so bad#but it feels fucking impossible#I know it’s trauma related too because it’s been like this since I got out of the hospital#so basically lots of internal screaming
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Imagine being so basic at content ideas (me)
#why do i draw like im running out of fucking ideas because the others feels impossible to do#ive been dreaming for jsck stauber fighter phoenix animstic but when. when wil i do. when wi olnfji#nrmt#narumitsu#ace attorney#god bless being basic at everything#aa#ace attorney trials and tribulations#aa t&t spoilers#t&t spoilers#art#fanart#ace attorney fanart#aa art#ace attorney art#im ngl this feels more like a shitpost but okay#ace attorney shitpost#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#mwah#ok bye im gonna go die somewhere
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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tma tma tma
#more more more#this is all I wanna draw recently#gerard keay#jonathan sims#sleepy guy#young jon?#idk I struggle so hard to stick to one visual when it comes to jon. I feel like i know exactly what he DOESN't look like#but ask me to draw what he does look like??? impossible i fucking guess#he is elusive#he always ends up too cute or too young.i have not historically drawn many guys that look 40s n all fucked up. not really in my wheelhouse.#tragic#the magnus archives#tma#fan art#gerry keay#gerry keay is easier but I do think he's a little too pretty here. altho... i do subscribe to transfemme gerry. she/they gerry i see you#anyway I hope someone enjoys#if not then just 4 me all good
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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you have to stay kind. you have to find a way somehow
#even though it feels literally fucking impossible#why is everyone so evil? do we remember how to be kind anymore?#or maybe i just need to quit my food service job in order to believe in humanity again#suggestion#aesthetic#positivity#cottagecore#studyblr#bookblr#cozy#cozycore#morigirl#happy#hopecore#positive#inspiration
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datv critical post: well thought out, eloquent 5 paragraph essay expressing their disappointment and highlighting what’s wrong with the game and what could’ve been improved upon
bioware dick rider: WELL ACKSHEWALLY the game is amazing and none of you have any reading comprehension or critical thinking skills!!! also you’re fucking stupid and I hope you die xoxo
#BIOWARE FANS STOP BOOTLICKING CHALLENGE (IMPOSSIBLE)#this is a callout post but they won’t see it bc I blocked them this morning lmfaooooooooo#it’s always the same#just resorting to bullying instead of looking in the mirror and adjusting their bioware-glued clown nose#be so fr#very telling of the new era of bioware#is there a fucking middle ground here??? go to twitter if you wanna be an asshole#datv critical#anyways if you’re reading this and you LOVE veilguard I am genuinely happy for you and I hope you keep enjoying it. I simply do not agree#and that’s okay!!! let people enjoy things and also the opposite. never warrants making someone feel bad about their opinion#especially when the way you word your retort sounds like the average middle school bully
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thinking about how Humans Are Space Orcs stories always talk about how indestructible humans are, our endurance, our ability to withstand common poisons, etc. and thats all well and good, its really fun to read, but it gets repetitive after a while because we aren't all like that.
And that got me thinking about why this trope is so common in the first place, and the conclusion I came to is actually kind of obvious if you think about it. Not everyone is allowed to go into space. This is true now, with the number of physical restrictions placed on astronauts (including height limits), but I imagine it's just as strict in some imaginary future where humans are first coming into contact with alien species. Because in that case there will definitely be military personnel alongside any possible diplomatic parties.
And I imagine that all interactions aliens have ever had up until this point have been with trained personnel. Even basic military troops conform to this standard, to some degree. So aliens meet us and they're shocked and horrified to discover that we have no obvious weaknesses, we're all either crazy smart or crazy strong (still always a little crazy, academia and war will do that to you), and not only that but we like, literally all the same height so there's no way to tell any of us apart.
And Humans Are Death Worlders stories spread throughout the galaxy. Years or decades or centuries of interspecies suspicion and hostilities preventing any alien from setting foot/claw/limb/appendage/etc. on Earth until slowly more beings are allowed to come through. And not just diplomats who keep to government buildings, but tourists. Exchange students. Temporary visitors granted permission to go wherever they please, so they go out in search of 'real terran culture' and what do they find?
Humans with innate heart defects that prevent them from drinking caffeine. Humans with chronic pain and chronic fatigue who lack the boundless endurance humans are supposedly famous for. Humans too tall or too short or too fat to be allowed into space. Humans who are so scared of the world they need to take pills just to function. Humans with IBS who can't stand spicy foods, capsaicin really is poison to them. Lactose intolerance and celiac disease, my god all the autoimmune disorders out there, humans who struggle to function because their own bodies fight them. Humans who bruise easily and take too long to heal. Humans who sustained one too many concussions and now struggle to talk and read and write. Humans who've had strokes. Humans who were born unable to talk or hear or speak, and humans who through some accident lost that ability later.
Aliens visit Earth, and do you know what they find? Humanity, in all its wholeness.
#humans are space orcs#humans in space#earth is a deathworld#earth is space australia#tagging this so that ppl can find it even though the space shit i write about always feels like its in direct opposition to all the pop tag#also my biggest pet peeve in all of writing - all writing. everywhere. not just in fanfic but books and tv and movies too - is when people#write off an injury by saying something like 'oh nothing bad just a couple of scratches some bruising and a minor concussion' like girl WHA#MiNOr ConCuSSioN is such an oxymoron and I hate it so fucking much. like i dont care how minor it was thats still brain damage.#especially when the same character does this more than once. like im sorry ms. but uh. you can no longer read. or talk eloquently. sorry#evidence: my brother has had two 'minor' concussions and now cannot read write or speak without tremendous effort. And like its totally#ruined my ability to watch action shows/movies because now i just sit there and count how many concussions there characters are getting#after a certain point it becomes totally impossible to believe that these guys are able to function. (still fun to watch tho im not a hater
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I feel like the only difference between the FNAF timeline and the LoZ timeline is that FNAF fans have gaslit themselves into thinking Scott Cawthon is some genius cryptic storyteller. Zelda fans I think at least have the self-awareness to understand the timeline / cohesiveness is an afterthought to Nintendo
#fires posts#ramblings#Also I can't really describe it well but both franchises seem cryptic and vague on purpose#but where LoZ does it to fit in with the idea of “The Legend” aspect#FNAF does it because the impossible puzzle of the lore is almost the entire draw of the franchise rn#Like if Zelda abandoned the timeline (which one may argue it has) most of us would still enjoy the games#but if Scott revealed his definitive version of events how many FNAF fans would be left. U feel me?#Sorry I'm thinking about EoW and [redacted] and how fucking bizarre the LoZ lore has become lol#I feel like being a young fnaf fan defo drew me to this series w the timeline insanity lmao
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can somebody get this 14 year old out of the club
#kyle gallner#this dude being over 21 feels fucking impossible like look at this fucking guy…..#his fucking. graphic design jacket that’s too short;; EVERYONE HIT THE FLOOR!!!!!#look at his faceeee…… like how the fuck did the bouncer not reject him even after looking at his id. how is that a grown man dawg#my posts#thanks everyone for reminding me of these
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hits him with the pony ray (closeups below the cut)


#Im hitting him with so many rays that I’d ALMOST feel bad#almos#fuck I forgot the t but it’s too funny now to go back#almost#yesss there#Im sick by the way#I just got on break and immediately felt sick when I got home. I was LITERALLY FINE#so I’ve just been rewatching mlp for the past few hours while it snows in a little deer onesie#and drew this too#take a WILD guess who he was based off of#impossible challenge#hint hint my childhood fave too#he’s a changeling#if this is inaccurate or whatever LEAVE ME ALOOONEE it’s for fun and I haven’t watched the show in years#also I haven’t read the comics but I found out that deer species exist so….#yk…#Philip is so Luna and Caleb is so Celestia#the owl house#toh#philip wittebane#emperor belos#owl house#mlp#my little pony
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Noticed that Alot of the people in the tcc have ASPD , DID and sometimes BPD .
#someone is lying!#like no fucking way you ALL have this#it feels impossible but whatever#tcc tumblr#tccblr#tc community#mental illness#mental disorders
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i think isafrin dynamic, especially postcanon, is so funny to me because (among other things) isabeau is the notorious Gets Scared When The Horrors Appear type of dude, but also happens to be madly into a guy who, for lack of better words, can be aptly described as The Horrors
#greching origins#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat isabeau#isafrin#like yes yes siffrin thinks themselves a monster and struggles with seeing that he isnt and that theyre still human. or whatever..........#but can you consider the flip side of things? from a different pov?#siffrin (accidentally did something that scared everyone and now feels guilty): i am a monster.#isabeau (rapidly deciding to pokemon-evolve into a monsterfucker this very instant): uh huh.#or well. he might as well already be Like That if that one snack time dialogue in act 4 is anything to go by but yk yk#pairs exclusively nice with my beloved hc that post loops and bigfrin fight siffrin is. a little fucked up. physically#<-like theres just something weird about him at all times now. his eye changes to impossible shades sometimes. or sparks strangely in light#yknow. the good stuff#anyway that is all about those disaster gays thank you for coming to my ted talk-
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ok at least the entirety of the cast is also getting edged on dorym shit too its not just us guys! dorian's worry for orym, his little "are you alright?" when orym comes back from the vision with the wildmother, and was asking him a lot of questions about the meeting can i mention WILL telling ORYM to BE HAPPY AND LIVE HIS LIFE??? to not LIVE IN HIS SHADOW??????? TO BASICALLY MOVE ON??!?!!111!!?!! dorian calling orym's plan fun, saying that his backdoor idea was "cool". spin the bottle. i feel like they were constantly looking at each other the whole time. (right?? or was i tweaking?). the way liam laughed when dorian had to kiss chetney.... orym watching dorian sleep, but dorian wasn't asleep either (just with his back towards orym!) ((goddamnit robbie daymond))) the EXPRESSIONS THIS EPISODE... during orym's wildmother meeting, during dorian's 'mostly' truth spiller about his brother though didn't mention that cyrus was murdered by lolth (was ALSO ORYM'S question), dorian speaking to mainly orym during his truth confession??1?/1!1!!!! that being said. orym saw our pretty boy off that pedestal for once, and omg guys he is still very much in love (but im also just glad that liam was making sure he got some dorym action in there too even though robbie was making most of the moments recently!)
#critical role#dorym#dorian storm#orym of the air ashari#bells hells#campaign 3#c3#cr spoilers#dorian x orym#critical role spoilers#dorian and orym talk to each other about their feelings impossible challenge#holy fuck eating up these crumbs
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i can't be normal about pre-85 saemaji now because like. we see so little of majima before anagura and how it broke him bad, and he is just, profusely impossible to deal with after that, especially during his interactions with saejima in 4 and 5. but saejima prevails. sticks with him. punches sense into him if he must. and i just have to wonder what compels him to persevere and i feel like it must be something that he knows that the players never really will. because he knew majima before everything went to shit, and even though they've both changed he still sees that person in majima, and he can dig that out of him, even if in little pieces. i see just so much love here, maybe even a bit of a sunk cost fallacy in that majima's never going to be that same person ever again no matter what saejima does. i think they're both really unwell here chief
#yakuza#saemaji#saejima taiga#head in my hands like. you saw them at their brightest and bestest and that's how you remember them#they will always be that to you no matter what. and every time you see a glimpse of that it strengthens your resolve to keep holding on#no matter how impossible they are how frustrated they make you feel#and the fucked part is that you might be the only one who could even dream of bringing that light out of them again#but even you might not be enough. but you'll keeo going on if there's even a slim possibility that it works right#im already laying down but i think i need to lay down
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I know it's certainly been said before, but I just know in my heart of hearts that ronan (impulsive, romantic, religious, all or nothing) woke up with a ring in his palms the morning after he and adam kissed for the first time. and then he probably didn't dream for a while, after his mom and gansey and cabeswater and noah - but once he started again and also started sharing a bed with adam I just know that he dreamt rings again, and I just know at some point adam caught onto it, and I just know adam (practical, logical, love-skeptic, took a year to consider his feelings before making a move) freaked the fuck out. and I think that's hilarious.
#trc#pynch#don't TDT @ me I'm not interested#but I just think it's such an interesting dynamic - ronan doesn't think anything through and adam overthinks EVERYTHING#and in trc we see that balances out; adam gets to carefully and throughouly consider his own feelings#without having the chance to doubt ronan's affections because ronan is SO consistent with his staring and gestures#and I think adam's obsessive independence and absolutely shit family history will make him soooo commitment phobic and wary of marriage#but it's just impossible to not have to evaluate your feelings and have necessary conversations about it with yourself#when your boyfriend consistently manifests his desire to marry you lmao#pynch dynamic is adam trying to convince himself he's unknowable or lovable#and ronan annoying the fuck out of him with concrete proof it's fundamentally untrue#when your bf is so annoying it makes you a better and more emotionally healthy person 🤗
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