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edit (10/23/2024) now that the poll is over: Original version, with 10 questions, from April 2023 here
And, given that the original is from April 2023, that means I can very easily say:
No, this was not an ISAT reference!
Just because I use parentheses and 2nd person pov and love the same concepts of what a time loop can do to a person doesn't mean it's ISAT
(Yes, I like ISAT, the original poll is why I was recommended the game! But if you look at the original, you can see all the origins of the options to choose from, including what spurred me on with the moss option from the replies)
If I were going to make something for ISAT, I would never be so vague, you can simply look at my ao3 for proof of that
#egg speaks#writing#polls#my writing#egg writes#my polls#poetry#time loops#listen I want to run this again#time loop poll#<- check that tag on my blog for the original 10 option version lmao#unreality#you know I didn't think I'd get fed up with people making isat jokes about this#I thought it'd be like oh hey neat same hat#we both like the same game#but people keep going “oh this is JUST an ISAT reference”#as if it's not a genuine work of creativity I did myself. it feels a bit devaluing#“op you played isat” yes but that came after the original!!!!!#I KNOW it's not meant like that but I want people to engage in my work as its own thing. you can make jokes about similar media!!!#but this is it's own thing!!!!#I want people to like it for what it is. I want people to enjoy it outside of other media. I want it to stand on its own#I'm flattered someone said it was good enough that they think it could be narration from the game and read just as well!!!!#but like. idk. all the other medias popping up (pmmm. orv. higurashi. etc) aren't people calling it a /reference/#if I wanted it to be an ISAT reference I would have tagged it originally. I would have targeted it toward ISAT fans more intentionally.#I love fanworks but this was an ode to time loops alone. I wanted people to think. to have to CHOOSE. I wanted PARTICIPATION#time loops as a narrative and as horror and as a group activity via polls on tumblr. also s/o to the person who said 40 hr work week so tru
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after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"
it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.
#harvey voice: you know why im not killing you jokes? cause you can only die once and i want to hurt you so much more than i want to kill you#jason was harveys baby too after all#spent my entire boring work meeting thinking about how robin!jason bruharvey would end in the joker dying no matter what bc of two face#this is all bruciemilfs fault btw. theyve been making me insane about bruharvey#bruce wayne#harvey dent#two face#also bruce doesnt tell harvey to kill or not kill the joker bc he cant request someones death#but he also cant make himself ask for his sons murderer to be spared#i dont think any version of bruce would be comfortable with openly planning someones death let alone actually doing it#but after jasons death he gets so cold and numb to everything that he just turns away from it#he knows hes being too violent.knows hes hurting people too much but the only time hes not remembering how small jasons body was in his arms#is when his blood is roaring in his ears during a fight. maybe if he becomes the worst monster in gothams shadows#no more little boys will go cold and silent. no more fathers will stand in the doorway of rooms that will never be full again
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Someone asks Eddie what the worst thing about Steve is and you’d think that he’d say Steve’s love for Wham! or his sports metaphors but no. No, the worst thing about Steve is his love for Corroded Coffin. Specifically this one power ballad they have that Steve says describes the love him and Eddie have for each other. It is the only Corroded Coffin song he likes. It is also the only song Eddie didn’t write. Jeff wrote it.
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#Steve sighs and gets heart eyes any time they play it and Eddie is forced to remember that Jeff wrote this song about a new bong he got#eddie munson#steve harrington#jeff (stranger things)#steddie#corroded coffin#stranger things#this can stand alone but I’m also including it in the#eddie munson tiktok saga
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One of the best parts of rereading the Homeric hymn to Apollo is that I get to read these moments again:
"But Leto alone stays by the side of Zeus who delights in thunder...and the Father gives him nectar in a golden cup welcoming his dear son, while the other gods make him sit down there, and queenly Leto rejoices because she bare a mighty son and an archer."
– Homeric hymn to Delian Apollo (trans. Evelyn-White)
"And they, even gold-tressed Leto and wise Zeus, rejoice in their great hearts as they watch their dear son playing among the undying gods."
– Homeric hymn to Pythian Apollo (trans. Evelyn-White)
It seems so domestic and mundane. Zeus has plenty of moments where he dotes on his children, but it's really rare to see him do that alongside his lover. He is relishing these moments with Leto, who stands beside him. This is more of a family moment than just a father - son moment.
#Leto#Zeus#Apollo#"Leto alone stays by the side of Zeus” “Queenly Leto” <3#on the flipside#Hera's absence in this hymn is so loud to me#can you imagine being her though?#not just because her husband is standing beside his lover in a gathering#but also her own children and dancing and enjoying themselves in Apollo's concert#ugh :')#but I'm a firm believer that Leto deserves queen like treatment after everything she had been through#there's so much family dynamics to dissect in homhym to Apollo#from Leto replacing Hera as Zeus' companion to#Hera creating Typhon to get back at Zeus for having his own family without her involvement...#from Leto's son being at the center of attention in the godly celebrations to#Hera's children being just normal participants indulging in Apollo's entertainment#it's so interesting#mine#father dearest
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A collection of Eliot's 'Dammit, _______'s over the years!
Honourable mention:
#leverage#leverage redemption#eliot spencer#alec hardison#parker#breanna casey#considering it's kinda his catchphrase he doesn't actually say it much#and then they're mostly aimed at hardison (quelle suprise!)#there are a few more stand alone 'dammit's in addition to that one to sophie#and a 'dammit doris' from unwellness which whole also aimed at sophie was also part of a con so I feel it doesn't count#yet surprisingly there were none aimed at nate#and i'm sure he's been deserving of a few#but alas#and I'm sorry for the tag essay but can i also mention the dammit at hurley where he has to stop himself from saying hardison!#and the one with the hard hat wiggles from the force of the dammit!#that is all#ghostly'sgifs
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what makes a poem a poem? does it have to be written in a certain way? is this question a poem if i want it to be?
Fun question! This is just my personal sense as an avid reader and less-avid writer of poetry, but for me it’s useful to distinguish (roughly) between poetry as a genre and poetry as an attitude or philosophy through which language and the world can be understood. And of course these two go hand in hand. I see poetry the genre as essentially a type of literature where we as readers are signaled, somehow, to pay closer attention to language, to rhythm, to sound, to syntax, to images, and to meaning. That attentive posture is the “attitude” of broader poetic thinking, and while it’s most commonly applied to appreciate work that’s been written for that purpose, there’s nothing stopping us from applying that attentiveness elsewhere. Everywhere, even! That’s how you eventually end up writing poetry for yourself, after all. There’s a quote from Mary Ruefle floating around on here that a lot of folks have probably already seen, but it immediately comes to mind with this ask:
“And when you think about it, poets always want us to be moved by something, until in the end, you begin to suspect that a poet is someone who is moved by everything, who just stands in front of the world and weeps and laughs and laughs and weeps.”
Similarly, after adopting the attentive posture of poetics, there’s plenty of things that can feel or sound like a poem, even when they perhaps were not written with that purpose in mind. I’ve seen a couple of these “found poems” on here that are quite fun—this one, for example. The meaning and enjoyment you may derive from the language of a found poem isn’t any less real than that derived from a poem written for explicitly poetic purposes, so I don’t see why it shouldn’t be called poetry.
That said, I do think that if you’re going to go out and start looking for poetry everywhere, it’s still important to have a foundation in the actual language work of it all. Now, this doesn’t mean it has to be “written in a certain way” at all! But it does mean that in order to cultivate the attentiveness that’s vital to poetry, one needs to understand what makes language tick, down at its most basic levels. It will make you better at reading poetry, better at writing it, and better at spotting it out in the wild.
Mary Oliver’s A Poetry Handbook is an extraordinary resource to new writers and readers, and a great read for more experienced folks as well. Mary Oliver’s most popular poems are all to my knowledge in free verse, and yet you might be surprised to find her deep appreciation for metrical verse (patterns of stressed/unstressed syllables), as well as for the most minute devices of sound. In discussing the so-called poetry of the past, she writes,
“Acquaintance with the main body of English poetry is absolutely essential—it is the whole cake, while what has been written in the last hundred years or so, without meter, is no more than an icing. And, indeed, I do not really mean an acquaintanceship—I mean an engrossed and able affinity with metrical verse. To be without this felt sensitivity to a poem as a structure of lines and rhythmic energy and repetitive sound is to be forever less equipped, less deft than the poet who dreams of making a new thing can afford to be.”
In another section, after devoting lots of attention to the sounds at work in Robert Frost’s “Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening”, she writes,
“Everything transcends from the confines of its initial meaning; it is not only the transcendence in meaning but the sound of the transcendence that enables it to work. With the wrong sounds, it could not have happened.”
I hope all this helps to get across my opinion that what makes a poem a poem is not just about the author's intention, and not just about meaning (intended or attributed), but also about sound and rhythm and language and history, all coalescing into something that rises above the din of a language we would otherwise grow tired of while out in our day-to-day lives.
I'll always have more to say but I'm cutting myself off here! Thanks for the ask
#ask#discussion#does this even answer the question? lol#anyways even if you're not huge on mary oliver i still highly recommend a poetry handbook#i admit her poetry is only to my taste about 60-70% of the time. but her handbook is a great resource and can stand alone#i actually think oliver wrote a whole other book just about metrical verse too. for people who are into that#also if you're someone who's less interested in the question 'what is poetry?' and more into questions like#why is poetry? can poetry survive? what the fuck happened to poetics in the twentieth century?#i recommend the witness of poetry by czeslaw milosz#an older book—actually a collection of lectures—but an absolute game-changer for me#not a poll
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this was the funniest sequence of events hands down
🌈🤔🤷♀️???
#she loves to cook and she loves to eat#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna#tsukutabe#our girl nagumo was SO confused#also the shot of her just standing in the corner kills me#i hope someone gifs this part#shes just like ah yes i can read the room and tell that they want some alone time#and then nomoto is like im leaving#😂😂😂
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imo Leo has every right to be prideful about his appearance because if I had red stripes over my eyes, I’d make my face a personality trait too
#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rip to the other tmnt variations that are also sliders but don’t have the stripes#unironically i think leo’s design is the best in the series for the stripes alone ngl#immediately drew me to his character#like i love each and every tmnt bro there is no one who is bad and y’all can fight me on that#but rise leo just LOOKS the best imo#he’s got the one benefit that p much no one else in the series has: something more than a mask to make his face stand out#plus the blue and red look so sick frfr#bros the face man for a REASON#ok but like side note i really love the character designs in rise in particular#but also like…every set of turts per series has such a specific and special style that are ALL GOOD#(but red stripes win out)#(like those are built in eyeliners c’mon)#i will say i also really love 2012 Mikey’s freckles they are Very Cute#and i also love love love when the characters have tooth gaps it’s always cute
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MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.03
#poom phuripan#lotte chaiyut#my stand in the series#my stand in#userbunn#userrain#usersasa#userjamiec#tobelle#usertoptaps#tuseralexa#userjap#my stand-in#my stand-in the series#clairedgifs#msiedit#msiep3#rinblr#userrlana#i like that joe lives very frugally#joe saves up bc he's already even thought about installment buying a bigger house for him and ming#in vietnamese we say that the worry joe has is 'nỗi lo cơm áo gạo tiền'#his worries are very practical and valid#also can we talk abt ming being the catalyst for all this change in joe -> for him to want more. to save up. to build a home for two.#joe was FINE living ALONE before. he was a single bachelor having casual sex as a top every now and then#this brat moved in and joe starts doting him like ming is his treasure -> the bottom dementia is so real. that coupled w his desperation
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"now, doesn't that look nice?" [insp]
#*chanting* skask skask skask skask-#vincent aurelius lin#adamandi#hello. let's talk about what's going on here! i've been tossing the idea about here wrt skin translucency ever since that post came out#(it's linked above fyi. but to quote it.) 'attempting to pursue this unachievable white ideal of the young academic; maybe leading to gory#representations of mimicry; replacement; taking on someone else's skin; altering the self'#this is primarily key in vincent and the skask; in the actual show iirc they used a jockey mask or smth? but i was thinking about the#delightful way skin is semi-transparent. and so a literal layer of skin alone would be unlikely to provide the whiteness pursued-#the under layer of the original tone would be there. so smth about the failure and unattainable.#additionally; at this point of the show the skin would have been likely yellowing or greying due to post-mortem development? so even more#Not white. from observations (as a kid;comparing skin tones?) white people have a pinker undertone (this might be. a generalisation but.)#here the lighting is yellowish to further push the difference + give the super harsh lighting that if you suspend disbelief has some hair#appear as blonde to further the ambrose-ness.#also the hair- messier on the non-ambrose side; a reference to the whole monologue about the haircuts they got#we bring to you also another episode of <i like drawing fabric folds> in the jacket symbolism! from bottom right to top left; it tracks#vincent throughout act two: the initial long jacket for standing out (nonchalance?) at ardess is removed; the yellow coat is put on- aided#here by ambrose's ghost which is represented by the hand! (it is very very slightly transparent- you can see the jacket pattern through it)#(if you look close) and then the satchel goes over it; this mimics the clothes in <oh ms reporter>#and then the Actual Ambrose jacket goes above along with the skask; following the outfit from the pyre scene at the end.#the spark/star thing is partially foreshadowing for the upcoming stabby eye trauma thing (@quincy) and partially just so i could highlight#the eye of the mask/ the place where vincent's eye probably is Behind the mask. because i liked the idea of merging faces; intersection.#back to the translucency of skin - you can kind of make out where the rest of his face is from the darker bit? aka it's not the same colour#as the skask. smth smth limited effectiveness...#tldr? face skin. jacket skin. altering appearance over time; unfeasibleness#when i was doing this i suddenly remembered covering my skin in talcum powder as a kid... hm. i'd forgotten about that.#anyways! when i posted my first ever adamandi thing i had the thought of 'this musical makes me want to paint' and surreally enough#that has proved to be so so true. and ngl i am really enjoying it? love it when the motivation to create is there haha#i will add as a disclaimer that i'm literally chinese and if the colours look off.. i did not mean to make a caricature. please be nice#that said because stage lighting tends to shift colours about a Lot i essentially used my own skin as a reference under yellow light?#so hopefully that checks out. <disappears>
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like imagine Cole and Jay just having a casual conversation at some point right before the upcoming day of the departed (after crystalised) and they're just randomly thinking about death.
"Isn't it kinda weird that some of us have died so many times."
"You've all died once, you just don't remember."
"What about you?"
"I haven't. Guess the universe has never gotten around to me. "
"Heh, maybe it has something really special planned for you."
No, it just won't let me die. Believe me I've tried.
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(also this specific thing is playing over the scene)
#Jay angst i guess#Image it's like the middle of the night and they're sitting on cliff for sceneary purposes#ninjago skybound#this quickly devolved into skybound angst#can you tell I have the animatic idea but just can't draw it right now and need to express it#I'm just saying we can also add little flashes of everyone dying in prime empire while we're at it#We can also just have shots of all the times he's alone and has become the last man standing#like it happens only twice but it gets me everytime that that's one of his main themes because otherwise he is a very codependant character#like you leave him alone he gains a reserve team; a fan club; a cult. He is never truely alone until he is at his lowest#granted you could say being alone is what makes it his lowest#one more thing#when he says he wanted to die I'm thinking specifically it's whenever Nya has. Boom extra Jaya angst#ninjago#jay walker#ninjago jay#ninjago cole
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#byler#stranger things#no but why did they need his stand in present doing shoots in the blue while he’s in the yellow that’s my question?…#like why wouldn’t he be wearing yellow like Noah if they just came from a different shoot#also Millie is in the milkshake dress#which means the priority for the time of this shoot was those shots of her getting the milkshake on her#they had like 4 days to film at the rink o mania location#meaning the stand in would not be there unless he had to shoot something and the same applies to Noah#if Noah wasn’t getting paid to be there to actually film he wouldn’t be in costume#basically them having only 4 days means those 4 days were dedicated to only rink o mania shooting#they can film in studio anytime so using precious location time to film elsewhere would be really poor time management and uneccesary#but what I find interesting is it honestly doesn’t look like anyone is on the rink except these guys?#I remember a few TikToks/videos coming from Noah on the rink with his stand in plus Millie#(was it just them all alone with their stand ins at this moment bc they were filming a spoiler filled s5 opener vecna sequence???)#👀👀👀#birthdaygaters chillin#(with fear)
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Necromancer!Damian Au except it's just Damian chucking dead animals at the pit to see what happens (what happens is Damian gets an army of undead loyal animals that will bite anything and everything except Damian and are fiercely protective to the point where no one can seem to get within a 5 feet radius of him. Talia is torn. On the one side it means her baby is safe and can't be reached by Ra's or anyone with ill will towards him, on the other, she also can't reach him. Funnily enough, Damian's army is getting more and more extravagant cause he realized anything dead he throws at the pit comes back so he started with pets and is now chucking random bones at it).
It's all fun and games until Damian finds Tim, a kid a bit older than him traveling with his parents in an archeological expedition who happens to be carrying the huge bones of an undiscovered animal and is on his way to deliver them to the museum. It doesn't take much for Damian to convince Tim to come with him and throw them at the pit, see what happens. It's a 30 feet long dinosaur. It's big and scary and takes chunks of everything and everyone that gets within 10 meters of him, except Damian and Tim. Naturally, Damian tries to convert it into vegetarianism. Funnily enough, whenever he feels like he's making progress a league traitor is somehow found too close to the dinosaur and it's back to the start for them.
#Ra's has decided to see how far damian goes and is using the situation for his advantage#if it also keeps the dinosaur from eating his grandson well that's for him to know and everyone else to wonder silently#unless they want to end up as the dinosaur's next meal#damian is just being his happy 7 year old self and has no intention of stopping#Tim had gotten to an agreement with his parents to take him on at least one trip every year#but they sent him back alone after just one day with them so he can give their findings to the museum#tim could not let that stand#even if it meant raising a dinosaur from the death#what's the worst that could happen#damian al ghul#tim drake#damian loves animals#damian wayne#talia al ghul#ra's al ghul#necromancer damian al ghul
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one thing i love so so much about wyll is that he's an atheist, not in the sense that he doesn't believe in them, they are materially real in the DnD setting, but that he doesn't think they're worthy of worship "the only thing the gods have ever given me is a cold shoulder" it's so evocative, so poignant, it says so much about him as a character. and really, to me, encapsulates the essence of his character: there is no divine intervention, there are no miracles, there are only people, and for them he's willing to sacrifice more than any god ever would
#wyll#wyll ravengard#this is also why he's so attached to heroes like balduran and ansur regular people who achieved extraordinary things#and this is why i think his quest misses the mark of making him see the flaws in his heroes but not letting him come#to the obvious realization: no one can do it alone#there's no single hero who saves the day#you need a crowd you need the masses#the game itself reinforces this by having groups of allies to support the last stand#so to me wyll's character journey should be all about him realizing that real change can only be enacted by the people#but now we're probably getting too marxist for larian#but anyway to me that's the logical conclusion of wyll's character arc#and also why i don't particularly like the 'send him to avernus with karlach' ending#it robs him of agency and relegates him to a vigilante role that i'm a little uncomfortable with#i much prefer the duke and ranger endings
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hiii dayurno could you tell me more about raven!jeremy? it's such a new idea sounds very interesting!!!
hiii of course! buckle up. long story and also a collab with ao3 kevjean :3
well first of all let me say that in this au jeremy is not part of the perfect court or in fact even close to it at all. he’s a sub striker with a high jersey number who did not see much playtime during his career as a raven and was on the lower end of the raven spectrum skill-wise. this is important to tell you because the fic doesn’t start with jeremy in the ravens, it starts with him dealing with the aftermath of the nest getting dissolved and losing every bit of his hopes and dreams after sacrificing everything in his life to make it in eau—it starts with kevin salvaging the last dregs of jeremy’s college career by recruiting him for the foxes for his last year, even though jeremy, as an ex raven, hates him (and jean) for what they’ve done both to riko and to their team
ok good. so set the scene. jeremy is miserable. the ravens already didn’t like kevin and jean to begin with, isolated as they were from the perfect court. now jeremy lost not only his team but the lifestyle surrounding it, the ideology of the ravens, his partner, and his career prospects. he doesn’t have the eau raven title anymore and he can’t use it to get himself in the line of sight of most pro team recruiters. he gave up a family (that didn’t love him much, but still) and a trustfund for this. kevin day leaves the nest, jean moreau follows soon after, and their king kills himself. Do you understand how much jeremy hates them? kevin and jean were perfect court, were untouchable, didn’t even know or care to learn his name as a sub striker with not much under his belt—and then they left and destroyed everything jeremy had worked so hard for without even thinking about him. without remembering him at all, in fact.
he hates them!!!!!!!! desperately. With a passion. getting recruited for the foxes and by kevin day on top of it all is humiliating, but it’s the last chance he has. jeremy arrives in palmetto an angry hateful mess made ten times worse by kevin’s constant criticism of him, unaccustomed with normal life and without a partner for the first time in four years. he’s volatile and destructive and he has nothing to live for. exy is the only thing he wants and it doesn’t want him back. :) kevin steps in and takes jeremy’s game from him much like he did with neil, both out of desperation because the foxes are a mess now with the addition of their freshmen, and because, while jeremy isn’t really anything to write home about in terms of skill, he’s far more ambitious and disciplined than the average fox. jeremy hates kevin but can’t afford to reject his help. thus begins the most convoluted raven partnership to ever exist
jeremy hates kevin and has a non-negligible wish to harm him whichever way he can, but he’s also a raven that escaped the nest all on his own. he latches onto kevin immediately, the two of them becoming partners in the raven sense of the world while clashing Often and Intensely with each other both on and off court. their relationship gets more and more volatile the more jeremy goes out of his way to get under kevin’s skin, resentful and so angry at what the perfect court’s done to him, while kevin sinks his feet in and pushes jeremy way past his limits in his training. basically they are a match made in hell :) lots of hatefucking and jealousy and violence and the one murder attempt ensue as the foxes try to navigate this destructive, hopeless version of jeremy that wants to die and take down as much as he can in the process, up to and including kevin day. they’re together every second of the day and jeremy hates him for everything kevin took from the ravens, but he also depends on kevin’s training and presence to feel like a person again. it’s a really big mess basically that is eventually made worse (and better) by kevin and jeremy starting to sleep together to get the adrenaline out raven-style. and that’s all without jean coming along, which he will eventually
#its really funny but im obsessed w the keremy dynamic here#jeremy hates kevin but he cant let go of kevin at all because he cant be alone#the other foxes dont like him and he’s volatile to all of them because they fucking suck#kevin is the only person who understands even a fraction of what jeremy went through but kevin is#also the reason why jeremy lost everything#he’s Very Much in the raven mindset still and dangerously suicidal#he wants to hurt himself and to hurt kevin and to hurt the foxes and to make something out of his life#after been denied everything he’s spent the last four years humiliating and hurting himself for#do u get it. hes so miserable#he’s so miserable and only kevin can help him and he hates kevin so much.#genuinely his kevin complex in this one is my favorite of all time#jeremy detests kevin wants him needs him to feel good cant stand the sight of him cant forgive him cant live without him#its a very fucked up partnership that also sucks kevin right back into the raven mindset#they become a very isolated cult of two in the foxes that pushes kevin even further away from the rest of them#codependent baddies :) yay#asks#jeremy#keremy#raven among doves#<- provisory wip tag
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Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end
Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience
His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua
Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most
And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost
To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.
#sth about how he almost managed to live for himself but his past and need to do right doomed him.#those missing years before canon starts were probably the closest he got but even then the knowledge he couldn't use martial arts#must have killed him (no pun intended). because he'd put so much stock in his identity as sigu sect leader + hero + prodigy#so to have such a massive part of his identity stripped from him... honestly it doesn't seem that he ever fully comes to terms with it#but he makes progress and he tries to do better. + that leads to him becoming a different type of 'hero' than the symbol he was originally#deep down he wants to help people with all he has but his capacity isn't infinite + at some point can only be taken from himself#mysterious lotus casebook#mlc spoilers#also to be clear I mention shan gudao not to say lxy should have realised earlier bc for a lot of the time he was too young to notice#and later on sgd did better at hiding his intentions. but more for how lxy tunnel visioned towards his idea of righteousness#and steamrolled over everyone else. both sgd and qwm were placed far below the importance of the sigu sect#and lxy's arrogance made it such that sigu became reliant on him alone as he shut others out (hence domino fall once he went).#idk if he could ever have 'fixed' what was btwn him and sgd bc it was so deep rooted but I do think that his actions#helped convince sgd that sgd was entirely in the right to choose his path#mlc#edit: just went and checked the exact wording of the TL and it's actually 'you like being a hero' rather than 'you want to be the hero'#which is different but still close enough in implications for my point to stand (I think)
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