#but im sending you the biggest hug!!!!!!! 💜

[stormyoceans]

dear monica, how do you fight apathy? i feel like i dont have the strength. that i dont want anything. none of the things that used to entertain me are interesting to me anymore. do you have any advice? what helps you personally overcome this condition?

song of the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DF3XjEhJ40Y

hello, dear anon!!!

im sorry for the late reply, but as this is a serious topic, i didn’t want to be superficial with my answer, so it took me a while to write everything down ;;;;;;

im also sorry to hear you’re going through this. it often happens to me as well, and i know it’s hard to go about life feeling like you lack the strength, the motivation, or even just the want to do anything, especially when it’s about those very same things that used to make you happy but now seem not to excite you anymore. i think the first thing that’s important to remember is that these moments happen to everyone from time to time, but if they become more and more frequent and it gets harder and harder to come out of them, then they might be the sign of a bigger issue at hands, so my main suggestion is always going to be to seek support from a professional to make sure you’re taking care of your mental health properly

that being said, here’s some maybe obvious maybe oversimplified advices that personally help me deal with apathy:

identifying what triggered it. it may seem silly, but to me it was a lot of help to realize that a lot of the numbness i tend to feel is due to the dissatisfaction with my job. sometimes it drains so much of my energy and charges me with so much negativity that it ends up affecting how i feel about everything else as well. in my case i can’t go through with the obvious solution (quitting), but it does help me to know there is a cause to it and that i can at least try to change my reaction to that particular trigger.

as corny as it sounds, a little bit is better than nothing at all. what apathy looks like to me is lying in bed staring into the void while around me tasks keep piling up and i start feeling overwhelmed by it all. in my case, ‘tasks’ can even be the new episodes of the shows im currently watching. in this case, breaking down these tasks into smaller ones can definitely help (you don’t have to do all the dishes at once, you can even just do one plate), but a lot of small things to do can still feel like too much at times, so my goal is always to do at least ONE thing: as insignificant as it seems (picking up a sock from the floor), as ‘normal’ as it may seem to everyone else (washing yourself), getting up and doing something small is better than doing nothing.

trying something new. routine is both a dear friend and a tricky enemy. sometimes it can make you feel trapped and detached from the world because nothing seems to ever change, so you gotta take change into your own hands, which of course is easier said than done, and this is where the ‘a little bit is better than nothing at all’ can be applied again: take a different street, order food you’ve never tried, watch a movie from a genre that’s usually not your favorite kind, look up one word in a different language and write it down, pick up a colored pencil and draw flowers all over a white paper. is it a big change? no. is it productive? not really. but it’s still something you’ve never done before.

going full comfort. two of the things i love the most in life are watching shows and eating good food, but sometimes even those can’t bring me any joy. i still do those activities, but everything feels dull and boring, and when that happens, i try to ‘recreate’ what made me fall in love with them in the first place by going back to fond memories, so for me, for examples, it means rewatching vice versa while eating pasta aglio olio e peperoncino and drinking a glass of white wine. i might have experience these things a thousand times in the past, but they’re a reminder that at one point i used to FEEL, and that this state of apathy is not gonna be forever.

finding a community to share the joy with. while i do agree that most of the times you have to push yourself to do it scared and do it alone, and that above all you have to do things for yourself and for the joy of doing those activities in themselves, and not because you have to seek validation from others, humans are social creatures. personally, i have no issue being alone and not talking to anyone even for weeks at a time, however i realized that, for example, one of the main reasons i love tv shows and all kind of media is because i enjoy building a dialogue about them with other people, and when i go a lot of time without doing that, i start to feel like i’ve lost interest in watching anything, but actually im just missing that feeling of connecting with someone. so i feel like it’s important to have a small community, either online or irl, where you can actually share and celebrate and be reminded of what you are passionate about.

…….okay i feel like this all sounds like a terrible self help book ;;;;;;;;; it’s also pretty oversimplified, and none of this would work for me if i didn’t also take meds for my depression, which is why as i said earlier it’s always important to talk to a professional, but i’d say that this is more or a less a guideline of what i personally try to follow when things get tough

not sure if any of this can actually be helpful, but im here if you need someone to share both the sadness and the joy with, and above all i hope you can be kind to yourself and that you’re gonna feel better soon!!!!

[soggycereal]

💜,💗,💋,💪,🔊

💜 - im having a lot of big emotions right now because of my first time posting a pic all my moots were so nice and that made me SO HAPPY!!! but no joke over 5 feeder blogs have been fetishizing me and following and sending asks/dms and its taking a toll on my body image

💗 - virtual hug time C'MERE

💋 - i wanna give you the BIGGEST SLOPPIEST KISS EVER because your legit so pretty you look like your made of cotton candy or clouds

💪 - YAY ID FIGHT SOMEONE FOR YOU TOO and i hate hate hate violence outside of consensual sex

🔊 - im literally so glad to hear that ahlsfsflhfsfs when i joined tumblr you were one of the first blogs i followed and before we were moots i was a huge fan of you because your such a nice person and hot

[gallusneve]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE!!!! 🎉 i hope you're going to have the most amazing birthday ever!! i love seeing you on my dash, you're super talented and so funny, im sending you the biggest hug ever 💜💜🫂

Thank you sm Rena I try 😭❤️ I will die for u 24/7. Sorry you're always subjected to the Dildo Thief posts or my feral posts from me. Always take care and stay safe!!!! ❤️🫂

[osachiyo]

Hi Baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got the biggest smile on my face when I saw that you were back!!!!!!!!! I missed you like crazy, but your health and wellbeing is the most important thing!!!!!! That being said, it’s so good to see you!!!!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

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But, do you know what time it is?

It’s time for a check in! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

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How are you? Is life being kind? Is Uni going okay? Are you making sure to rest?

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Oh, happy news! I’m fully moved into my new place, and I’m enjoying the my new city. It’s finals week, so I’m trying to just finish everything up. But, don’t worry. I’m making sure to take breaks and to rest!

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Again, I’m so very happy to see you back!!! I’m sending a billion hugs and kisses your way!!!!!

With love,

Rosie!

AAAA ROSIE HELLO !! it’s so good to see you in my inbox after so long </3 and i missed you too, love !

and im doing alright, thank you so much for checking in on me :D uni has been awesome lately, i love my friends sm aaa ^^

im glad that you’re finally fully moved in at your new place — congrats baby ! good luck with your finals though, and im happy to know that you’re taking breaks :D

im also excited to be back, ive missed you all so much 😭 and writing ofc ! im sending you so much love and SO many kisses !! mwah <33

[st0rmyskies]

I know it might seem a little silly or overly mushy, but genuinely ur blog is like a safe space for me in this fandom. Youve made it easier for me to be around LU again, which means a lot because despite the issues ive had due to being in this fandom, i really love it and the space youve cultivated here always feels welcoming and makes me really happy. Im happy to be here and to be able to engage with you and your fics, and i want you to know how grateful i am for it. 💜💙💚❤️🖤

-🐇

I am sending you the biggest hugs and good vibes, rabbit anon. I am incredibly grateful to have had the best support and run into the coolest people that help keep this little phenomenon alive. I hope it continues to help you find joy in the things you love!

You all deserve a safe space, and those who are chill are always welcome here.

[ihearnocomplaints]

sending you the BIGGEST FUCKIN HUG rn. augh. ur awesome. amazing. fantastic. one of my fav ppl ever. literally just keep being wonderful. ough. (sorry i get all mushy n sappy when im tired lol love you lots moot <333)

SOBS Ty so much. I am the same way dw. tonight im less of the affectionate tired and more of the sad tired. So ty this really helps. 💜

here’s some clouds/pictures of the sky as a thanks

[jung-koook]

OMG SKY YOU’VE GOT YOUR BLOG BACK 😭😭😭 I WAS LITERALLY SWEATING AND CRYING FOR YOU LIKE I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU BACK AGAIN 😭😭💜 how are you doing? I'm sending you the biggest hug ever 💜💜

IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK 😭 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOU GUYS HELP ♡ Ican finally breathe again now 😭 I hope this never happens to me or anyone else again

[borathae]

so i just wanted to say sorry in advance. i turned 18 last Sunday, so this weekend will be a marathon of your stories 🤌

(i think i had been following you for almost three years? but i didn't want to get you in any trouble)

ps. could i get something for my late birthday? *venting time* my Eastern European ass have the biggest daddy issues from my dad, which i got into fights the whole weekend, only for him to end up drunk af (i wish i did too)

anyway, love you so much and sorry for the future spam, i just know im gonna have the time of my life ❣️

Thank you for not enganging in my stuff until you turned 18+ 💜 this is how you do it @ all the minors continuously trying to engange with my stuff which earns them a block on all my blogs 🙄 you leave a MDNI blog alone until you turn 18+, it's not that hard 🙄

ON ANOTHER NOTE HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEHEHE!!! And welcome on my blog hehehe I'm happy that have you here and am looking forward to your reviews ehhrheh 💜

I'm sorry your dad was a dick at your birthday :/ I am sending you a tight virtual hug 💜

[therhythmafterthesummer]

Hellooo~ I think I’m about to ramble a whole bunch so i hope this entertains you despite the heat of the earth right now.

I had been the type of reader who forgets the titles and authors’ names since I liked being a silent fan but have also wanted to avoid attachment to certain fics. This was probably because I personally don’t have a lot of free time but also because I had experienced fics that went on a forever hiatus. (I still loved the authors and totally respect their decisions tho.) That tmi backstory leads me to what I wanted to tell you:

I had loved your wereroomies installments but didn’t know that it was you nor were they part of the same universe. Basically, I loved your stories before knowing you, if that makes sense. BUT, the major force that actually made me want to see your other works was Five-Point Star. I literally wanted to scream at you (in a good way) so I worked up the courage to message but never did SLDJKSJDJE LMAO. (Now wereroomies took me on a chokehold so that’s how I ended up sending an actual message 🥹😭)

SO, the reason that I’m writing now is to tell you that I finally re-read Five-Point Star and 😩😩😩😩 here’s my thoughts about it cuz it still makes me Feel Everything the same way when I first read it.

FIRST OFF, of course you made another Chris to love 🥹. I felt how the MC’s job made her so distant to people and connections so having someone like Chris that could make her feel warm, make her laugh, and crave normality was sooo lovely.

I love how you wrote the whole thing. Like, I did kinda see how it would go but the whole build up and how it actually went was *chef’s kiss*. I really like this kind of trope but I’m also a sucker for that ending 😭. Thanks for breaking me, jk.

LASTLY, my brain worm went haywire with the ending so it started writing it’s own part 2 despite it being a one-shot 🥹. idk what to do with it so imma share it with you and release it from my head. LIKEEE, imagine some time has passed and MC moved to a different location and slowly tried to lessen her load of assassin work. She never really finished her last mission and retracted her contract to kidnap Seungmin. Trying to move on from the biggest heartbreak, she tries out to have a normal life in a different city to forget all of her what if’s. That is, until she gets kidnapped. (The irony.)

She wakes up in a room with a few armed men guarding her, and Seungmin or someone from Five-Point Stars telling her that they want to hire her. They want to get revenge or silence whoever tried to threaten the Kims using her, and the only one who has any information on who wanted Seungmin was her so they tracked her down. Of course, the leader of the whole Five-Point Star squad would be our beloved Chris 🥹. She can’t refuse because they have all of her information and can definitely use her previous assassin history against her. ALSBKAJDJSBDJDND I’ll stop there 😭 my brain worm is doing a funk istg i didn’t mean to ramble this long but oh well.

If you read this far, I love u, and here’s a hug 🤍. Ahck hope u and Raven are still intact and hydrated. AKHSJSHS This is my first time leaving this long of a message so im so sorry if its cringe and mushy 🥹 i really love ur works,,, you’re a great writer.

~🍓

pls this message is cute. you're cute. i'm glad you liked my stories enough that you felt like you needed to reach out. i love having you here💜

i'm all here for some Five-Point Star love 😩 i love love love that story. i felt like i was possessed the entire time i was writing it (i suppose many of us felt that way after watching that 5-STAR trailer and seeing Christopher in that outfit 😵).

i've been thinking about that story a lot these days, and i love love love your take on what could've happened after it.

what you're describing is similar to one of the scenarios i had in mind for a part 2.... i actually have so many different ideas for a part 2 sdjhfsjkdf. BUT, i think i have finally decided on the main ones i liked out of all the ones that came to my head, and i can say that i AM working on a part 2 👀 (i'm already over 6k in and it's nowhere near finished....). even though it isn't quite like what you're describing, i hope you'll like it once it's done and published💜

(mind you, FPS is a story that imo can definitely stand on its own without a part 2.... but you know how it is by now, my brain just does whatever it wants, and it wants to have a part 2 because it couldn't handle the ending KJDSHFKSJDF).

i love you, too, bb. here's a hug as well🤗. Raven and i are managing haha it's a bit cooler today, so hopefully temperatures start going down 😭

thank you for sending this lovely message! i hope you have an amazing day/night💜💜

[druidgroves]

happy birthday rae!!!!! 🎉 i hope your day is going to be extra lovely and fun, i'm sending you the biggest of the hugs!! 💜💜

ahhh rena thank u !!! im hugging u right back 🫂

[chocolatecakecas]

BEC MY LOVE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳 I hope you’ve had the absolute greatest day and im sending you the biggest hug ever!! 💜💜

ANA MY BELOVED THANK YOU I AM GIVING YOU THE BIGGEST HUG EVER MWAH💛💛💛💛💛

[stormyoceans]

https://x.com/terpakin/status/1890265835518009816

Someone learned from Papi Jimmy😂

Happy Valentine's Day, Monica! I also send you a lot of virtual love and flowers!💐💐💐💐💜

OHM ON THE SET OF THE DENTIST SHOW TAKING JIMMY TO THE SIDE LIKE P'JIM WHAT'S THE BEST THING TO GIFT YOUR ONSCREEN PARTNER FOR VALENTINE'S DAY AND JIMMY JUST GOING I GOT YOU NONG I KNOW A GUY [PROCEEDS TO DIAL UP THE SAME FLORIST HE ORDERED THE RED ROSES FOR SEA FROM AND ASK FOR THE SECOND BIGGEST BOUQUET OF FLOWERS THEY HAVE]

THIS IS HOW IT HAPPENED AND NO ONE CAN CHANGE MY MIND

ANYWAY. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU TOO ANON!!!!!!!!!! thank you so much for sending me this, it was incredibly sweet of you and it made me so very happy!!!!!!! im sending you all the love and hugs and kissies and flowers and hoping your day is gonna be filled with all of these!!!!!!!!! 💜

[seatawinans]

[GRACELESSLY CARTWHEELS INTO YOUR INBOX] CASSI'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CASSI'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASSI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🎉🎉🍾🥂🥳🥳🎁🎂🎊🎊💖💗💕💞💝💞💖💓💕💞💘💖💓 i hope you're gonna have a wonderful day filled with joy and love and everything you like!!!!!!!!! also hope work is gonna get easier and that you will be able to get some rest soon!!!!!

I MISS AND LOVE YOU TONS AND IM SENDING YOU THE BIGGEST HUG 💜

MONICAAAAAAA HI THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! You're so sweet and I miss our shenanigans so much 😭❤️☺️

[youmyjhope]

Aw baby good job 💞 You did so well! I'm very proud of you 😚

And sending you a big hug. The biggest ever.

I'm sorry to hear that you are doing not so well, I'm sending positive energy your way and I'm always here if you wanna talk or not talk at all about it 💞

Kisses pretty - HSK 💋

noo im doing great! everything is awesome 😍 i feel better than ever!!!💜 its just that antidepressant has made my libido lower in general but u made it so fuckinn high in the last few days💪😆

[1d1195]

THE TULIPS EXTRA😭 i absolutely LOVED IT!!

Yes of course it was so heartbreaking to the MC spread herself so thin that it causes a strain in her relationship and her overall wellbeing! And once again a little to accurate lol but honestly I loved how Harry approached talking to her even if they did have a little disagreement! It was so sweet to see how he got her to open up bc it’s definitely not easy to change conditioned habits especially if the MC/ person feels like their very existence is an inconvenience!(calling myself out lol) I was so happy to see her taking those steps of changing and working on it! And the remote situation was just so perfect see show her progress!

ANS THAT FACT THAT THEY ARE NOW ENGAGED😭 LIKE?!?!? IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM😭 and the fact that Harry sent an entire album to her MOM to prove about the flowers 😭 THEY ARE JUST SO MADE FOR EAXH OTHER😭

It was such a beautiful read Sam! Loved it!! And thank you for writing this! Hope your week has started off on a good note or at least not horrible! I love you and I’m sending you the biggest hug!!-💜

I’m so glad you liked it 😭💕 I think it’s pretty telling that we’re twins at this point. Just separated at birth and also not the same age. I don’t think I’m like a waste of space or anything but I never feel the way I make my MCs feel around others. I think I would combust if someone told me they wanted to know my every thought like Harry did 😭

I just gotta make it to Sunday. Such a busy week 😅 I’m thinking my arch nemeses will forever be 14 year olds. So Monday could have been better. There is simply not enough time in the day to relax/do what I want to do. I need an extra three hours a day 😭

Thanks for reading and your message as always. Warms my heart 💕

Xoxo

[kitten4sannie]

im so happy that your stories are getting the attention they deserve ♡ I love celebrating other people's victories and I saw the annon talking about double stuffing being a topic and popular in brazilian atiny 😮 you deserve ♡♡♡

oh anonnie ;~; you really have no idea how special you made me feel with this. thank you sm truly <333 i still can’t believe i made it onto brazilian atiny twitter like what??? me??? that feels like a dream hehe. again thank you bb i’m sending you the biggest hug and kiss rn i hope it reaches you :3 💜