#but im sending you the biggest hug!!!!!!! 💜

[stormyoceans]

dear monica, how do you fight apathy? i feel like i dont have the strength. that i dont want anything. none of the things that used to entertain me are interesting to me anymore. do you have any advice? what helps you personally overcome this condition?

song of the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DF3XjEhJ40Y

hello, dear anon!!!

im sorry for the late reply, but as this is a serious topic, i didn’t want to be superficial with my answer, so it took me a while to write everything down ;;;;;;

im also sorry to hear you’re going through this. it often happens to me as well, and i know it’s hard to go about life feeling like you lack the strength, the motivation, or even just the want to do anything, especially when it’s about those very same things that used to make you happy but now seem not to excite you anymore. i think the first thing that’s important to remember is that these moments happen to everyone from time to time, but if they become more and more frequent and it gets harder and harder to come out of them, then they might be the sign of a bigger issue at hands, so my main suggestion is always going to be to seek support from a professional to make sure you’re taking care of your mental health properly

that being said, here’s some maybe obvious maybe oversimplified advices that personally help me deal with apathy:

identifying what triggered it. it may seem silly, but to me it was a lot of help to realize that a lot of the numbness i tend to feel is due to the dissatisfaction with my job. sometimes it drains so much of my energy and charges me with so much negativity that it ends up affecting how i feel about everything else as well. in my case i can’t go through with the obvious solution (quitting), but it does help me to know there is a cause to it and that i can at least try to change my reaction to that particular trigger.

as corny as it sounds, a little bit is better than nothing at all. what apathy looks like to me is lying in bed staring into the void while around me tasks keep piling up and i start feeling overwhelmed by it all. in my case, ‘tasks’ can even be the new episodes of the shows im currently watching. in this case, breaking down these tasks into smaller ones can definitely help (you don’t have to do all the dishes at once, you can even just do one plate), but a lot of small things to do can still feel like too much at times, so my goal is always to do at least ONE thing: as insignificant as it seems (picking up a sock from the floor), as ‘normal’ as it may seem to everyone else (washing yourself), getting up and doing something small is better than doing nothing.

trying something new. routine is both a dear friend and a tricky enemy. sometimes it can make you feel trapped and detached from the world because nothing seems to ever change, so you gotta take change into your own hands, which of course is easier said than done, and this is where the ‘a little bit is better than nothing at all’ can be applied again: take a different street, order food you’ve never tried, watch a movie from a genre that’s usually not your favorite kind, look up one word in a different language and write it down, pick up a colored pencil and draw flowers all over a white paper. is it a big change? no. is it productive? not really. but it’s still something you’ve never done before.

going full comfort. two of the things i love the most in life are watching shows and eating good food, but sometimes even those can’t bring me any joy. i still do those activities, but everything feels dull and boring, and when that happens, i try to ‘recreate’ what made me fall in love with them in the first place by going back to fond memories, so for me, for examples, it means rewatching vice versa while eating pasta aglio olio e peperoncino and drinking a glass of white wine. i might have experience these things a thousand times in the past, but they’re a reminder that at one point i used to FEEL, and that this state of apathy is not gonna be forever.

finding a community to share the joy with. while i do agree that most of the times you have to push yourself to do it scared and do it alone, and that above all you have to do things for yourself and for the joy of doing those activities in themselves, and not because you have to seek validation from others, humans are social creatures. personally, i have no issue being alone and not talking to anyone even for weeks at a time, however i realized that, for example, one of the main reasons i love tv shows and all kind of media is because i enjoy building a dialogue about them with other people, and when i go a lot of time without doing that, i start to feel like i’ve lost interest in watching anything, but actually im just missing that feeling of connecting with someone. so i feel like it’s important to have a small community, either online or irl, where you can actually share and celebrate and be reminded of what you are passionate about.

…….okay i feel like this all sounds like a terrible self help book ;;;;;;;;; it’s also pretty oversimplified, and none of this would work for me if i didn’t also take meds for my depression, which is why as i said earlier it’s always important to talk to a professional, but i’d say that this is more or a less a guideline of what i personally try to follow when things get tough

not sure if any of this can actually be helpful, but im here if you need someone to share both the sadness and the joy with, and above all i hope you can be kind to yourself and that you’re gonna feel better soon!!!!

[osachiyo]

Hi Baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got the biggest smile on my face when I saw that you were back!!!!!!!!! I missed you like crazy, but your health and wellbeing is the most important thing!!!!!! That being said, it’s so good to see you!!!!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

💖💖💖

But, do you know what time it is?

It’s time for a check in! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

💖💖💖

How are you? Is life being kind? Is Uni going okay? Are you making sure to rest?

💖💖💖

💖💖💖

Oh, happy news! I’m fully moved into my new place, and I’m enjoying the my new city. It’s finals week, so I’m trying to just finish everything up. But, don’t worry. I’m making sure to take breaks and to rest!

💖💖💖

Again, I’m so very happy to see you back!!! I’m sending a billion hugs and kisses your way!!!!!

With love,

Rosie!

AAAA ROSIE HELLO !! it’s so good to see you in my inbox after so long </3 and i missed you too, love !

and im doing alright, thank you so much for checking in on me :D uni has been awesome lately, i love my friends sm aaa ^^

im glad that you’re finally fully moved in at your new place — congrats baby ! good luck with your finals though, and im happy to know that you’re taking breaks :D

im also excited to be back, ive missed you all so much 😭 and writing ofc ! im sending you so much love and SO many kisses !! mwah <33

[st0rmyskies]

I know it might seem a little silly or overly mushy, but genuinely ur blog is like a safe space for me in this fandom. Youve made it easier for me to be around LU again, which means a lot because despite the issues ive had due to being in this fandom, i really love it and the space youve cultivated here always feels welcoming and makes me really happy. Im happy to be here and to be able to engage with you and your fics, and i want you to know how grateful i am for it. 💜💙💚❤️🖤

-🐇

I am sending you the biggest hugs and good vibes, rabbit anon. I am incredibly grateful to have had the best support and run into the coolest people that help keep this little phenomenon alive. I hope it continues to help you find joy in the things you love!

You all deserve a safe space, and those who are chill are always welcome here.

[ihearnocomplaints]

sending you the BIGGEST FUCKIN HUG rn. augh. ur awesome. amazing. fantastic. one of my fav ppl ever. literally just keep being wonderful. ough. (sorry i get all mushy n sappy when im tired lol love you lots moot <333)

SOBS Ty so much. I am the same way dw. tonight im less of the affectionate tired and more of the sad tired. So ty this really helps. 💜

here’s some clouds/pictures of the sky as a thanks

[jung-koook]

OMG SKY YOU’VE GOT YOUR BLOG BACK 😭😭😭 I WAS LITERALLY SWEATING AND CRYING FOR YOU LIKE I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU BACK AGAIN 😭😭💜 how are you doing? I'm sending you the biggest hug ever 💜💜

IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK 😭 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOU GUYS HELP ♡ Ican finally breathe again now 😭 I hope this never happens to me or anyone else again

[nyanbinary-perineum]

Hi do you have any comforting words for a pet going through subdrop 😣 Completely understand if you ignore this because maybe this is weird to send but I just got left abruptly directly after a really intense scene and Im alone and confused and could use some virtual hugs 😞 I wish more doms were sweet like you. I feel really small in not the fun way :(

I can't pretend to offer the right words but I can offer the biggest, warmest damn hug 💜

You are a gift, and are appreciated, and are deserving of all the softness and care.

I really do lack the words, but I wish I could give you a warm hug, a nice blanket, gently trace along your back and give you a little kiss on your head :(

Maybe make some cookies or some other treat to ease the weight ^.^

I'm sorry this happened. Scenes can be incredibly 'heavy' for either side, and it's not okay to just walk away :(

💜You are deserving and sweet and here's the biggest damn hug I can possibly give for as long as you need

[borathae]

so i just wanted to say sorry in advance. i turned 18 last Sunday, so this weekend will be a marathon of your stories 🤌

(i think i had been following you for almost three years? but i didn't want to get you in any trouble)

ps. could i get something for my late birthday? *venting time* my Eastern European ass have the biggest daddy issues from my dad, which i got into fights the whole weekend, only for him to end up drunk af (i wish i did too)

anyway, love you so much and sorry for the future spam, i just know im gonna have the time of my life ❣️

Thank you for not enganging in my stuff until you turned 18+ 💜 this is how you do it @ all the minors continuously trying to engange with my stuff which earns them a block on all my blogs 🙄 you leave a MDNI blog alone until you turn 18+, it's not that hard 🙄

ON ANOTHER NOTE HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEHEHE!!! And welcome on my blog hehehe I'm happy that have you here and am looking forward to your reviews ehhrheh 💜

I'm sorry your dad was a dick at your birthday :/ I am sending you a tight virtual hug 💜

[kaleb-is-definitely-sane]

Asks

@princess-paramour you sent me a bunch of asks (and said you were sorry cause it was all of them; i don’t believe you’re sorry btw 😂) but i somehow lost it so here they are

what song makes you feel better? We All Need Jesus by Danny Gokey ft Koryn Hawthorne

what’s your feel-good movie? Enola Holmes

what’s your favorite candle scent? Anything semisweet or semiearthy

what flower would you like to be given? Sweet William. They symbolize love, affection, passion, admiration, finesse, gallantry and heartbreak/lost love.

who do you feel most you around? My family (moms side), friends at church and my moots

say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical). I’ve heard a lot of girls say they like guys who are tall, dark and handsome. Well I’m a 5’7” African American who has gorgeous parents soo 😊. Nonphysical — I’m socially aware, I’m doing well in my relationship with Jesus and I’m accepting of people who are different from me 💜

what color brings you peace? Turquoise

tag someone (or multiple people) who make you feel good. @princess-paramour, @ell0ra-br3kk3r, @lucyandethel, @slyth3rin-princess, @mad-elia, @innerloverpainter, @illusiono, @steveharringtonlovesme, @hopefulmillennial, @george-weasleys-girl, @thebestieyoureinlovewith, @jahbutterflykisses331, @quickslvxr, @diorgirl444

what calms you down? Breathing

what’s something you’re excited for? Ima maybe see my aunt during Easter break ♥️

what’s your ideal date? Eating out, walking together, laughing together

how are you? I’m alive and blessed so I suppose i can’t complain

what’s your comfort food? Ice Cream Cake 🎂

favorite feel-good show? Family Reunion on Netflix

for every emoji you get, tag someone and describe them in one word. @princess-paramour you gotta give me some emojis first 😂

compliment the person who sent you this number. Kate you are absolutely marvelous. You’re kind, chill, funny, hot cute, flirty — everyone who knows you is blessed. Whether they know it or not

fairy lights or LED lights? Fairy Lights are just so much more magical

do you still love stuffed animals? Absolutely (i’ll send you a picture of Zsofia if you want)

most important thing in your life? Jesus, my friends/mutuals and my family.

what do you want most in the world right now? World Peace ✌🏿

if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

what would you say to your future self? We can stay forever young.

favorite piece of clothing? Hoodies!! I know it’s a stereotype that boys love hoodies (and girls love to steal them) but i absolutely love my hoodies 🥰

what’s something you do to de-stress? Get on Tumblr, talk to you, pray, read et cetera

what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

what movie would you want to live in? Enola Holmes

which character would you want to be? Tewkesbury ♥️. Like him I’m a lover rather than a fighter but I can still get tough if i — or even worse someone i love — am threatened

hugs or hand-holding? I heard on a survey that one thing girls wished their boyfriends/husbands would do more is hold their hand. I, however, am horrified to do so. I want to but i get scared out of my mind. Irl my like biggest fear in relationships is being to forward (which is absurd honestly cause i feel like everyone on the planet if more forward than me). But hugging is something i always have felt comfortable do. My… “ex” (in quotes cause technically we didn’t date and she technically she had a boyfriend but like… 🤷🏾) actually said she was obsessed and in love with my hugs so… ♥️

morning, afternoon or night? Afternoon for sure (only time im not sleepy)

what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)? Pictures of autumn; sweaters; deer; creeks; books

[therhythmafterthesummer]

Hellooo~ I think I’m about to ramble a whole bunch so i hope this entertains you despite the heat of the earth right now.

I had been the type of reader who forgets the titles and authors’ names since I liked being a silent fan but have also wanted to avoid attachment to certain fics. This was probably because I personally don’t have a lot of free time but also because I had experienced fics that went on a forever hiatus. (I still loved the authors and totally respect their decisions tho.) That tmi backstory leads me to what I wanted to tell you:

I had loved your wereroomies installments but didn’t know that it was you nor were they part of the same universe. Basically, I loved your stories before knowing you, if that makes sense. BUT, the major force that actually made me want to see your other works was Five-Point Star. I literally wanted to scream at you (in a good way) so I worked up the courage to message but never did SLDJKSJDJE LMAO. (Now wereroomies took me on a chokehold so that’s how I ended up sending an actual message 🥹😭)

SO, the reason that I’m writing now is to tell you that I finally re-read Five-Point Star and 😩😩😩😩 here’s my thoughts about it cuz it still makes me Feel Everything the same way when I first read it.

FIRST OFF, of course you made another Chris to love 🥹. I felt how the MC’s job made her so distant to people and connections so having someone like Chris that could make her feel warm, make her laugh, and crave normality was sooo lovely.

I love how you wrote the whole thing. Like, I did kinda see how it would go but the whole build up and how it actually went was *chef’s kiss*. I really like this kind of trope but I’m also a sucker for that ending 😭. Thanks for breaking me, jk.

LASTLY, my brain worm went haywire with the ending so it started writing it’s own part 2 despite it being a one-shot 🥹. idk what to do with it so imma share it with you and release it from my head. LIKEEE, imagine some time has passed and MC moved to a different location and slowly tried to lessen her load of assassin work. She never really finished her last mission and retracted her contract to kidnap Seungmin. Trying to move on from the biggest heartbreak, she tries out to have a normal life in a different city to forget all of her what if’s. That is, until she gets kidnapped. (The irony.)

She wakes up in a room with a few armed men guarding her, and Seungmin or someone from Five-Point Stars telling her that they want to hire her. They want to get revenge or silence whoever tried to threaten the Kims using her, and the only one who has any information on who wanted Seungmin was her so they tracked her down. Of course, the leader of the whole Five-Point Star squad would be our beloved Chris 🥹. She can’t refuse because they have all of her information and can definitely use her previous assassin history against her. ALSBKAJDJSBDJDND I’ll stop there 😭 my brain worm is doing a funk istg i didn’t mean to ramble this long but oh well.

If you read this far, I love u, and here’s a hug 🤍. Ahck hope u and Raven are still intact and hydrated. AKHSJSHS This is my first time leaving this long of a message so im so sorry if its cringe and mushy 🥹 i really love ur works,,, you’re a great writer.

~🍓

pls this message is cute. you're cute. i'm glad you liked my stories enough that you felt like you needed to reach out. i love having you here💜

i'm all here for some Five-Point Star love 😩 i love love love that story. i felt like i was possessed the entire time i was writing it (i suppose many of us felt that way after watching that 5-STAR trailer and seeing Christopher in that outfit 😵).

i've been thinking about that story a lot these days, and i love love love your take on what could've happened after it.

what you're describing is similar to one of the scenarios i had in mind for a part 2.... i actually have so many different ideas for a part 2 sdjhfsjkdf. BUT, i think i have finally decided on the main ones i liked out of all the ones that came to my head, and i can say that i AM working on a part 2 👀 (i'm already over 6k in and it's nowhere near finished....). even though it isn't quite like what you're describing, i hope you'll like it once it's done and published💜

(mind you, FPS is a story that imo can definitely stand on its own without a part 2.... but you know how it is by now, my brain just does whatever it wants, and it wants to have a part 2 because it couldn't handle the ending KJDSHFKSJDF).

i love you, too, bb. here's a hug as well🤗. Raven and i are managing haha it's a bit cooler today, so hopefully temperatures start going down 😭

thank you for sending this lovely message! i hope you have an amazing day/night💜💜

[druidgroves]

happy birthday rae!!!!! 🎉 i hope your day is going to be extra lovely and fun, i'm sending you the biggest of the hugs!! 💜💜

ahhh rena thank u !!! im hugging u right back 🫂

[chocolatecakecas]

BEC MY LOVE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳 I hope you’ve had the absolute greatest day and im sending you the biggest hug ever!! 💜💜

ANA MY BELOVED THANK YOU I AM GIVING YOU THE BIGGEST HUG EVER MWAH💛💛💛💛💛

[stormyoceans]

Well, we have a chance to keep Tawinan-actor. Even if he goes to study, he can act in supporting roles, he will not have a permanent partner, which means he will be able to kiss all women and men. * tries to be optimistic, but fails* I am so shocked by this news. In an interview, Jimmy said that something would happen by the end of the year. Maybe that's what he meant. This year has been difficult for me, I admit, since I came to stan the actors, and both of the boys' acting jobs were, to put it mildly, not exactly what I expected from them. Is Jimmy having a crisis for 30 years or what? Now he has such a chance to develop his acting potential, but he chooses to study. I'm sad to say this, but the age of an actor is short, but maybe Jimmy rethought and realized that he didn't need it, and he would return to his blog on YouTube, like bimbeam, who also decided to retire from acting and will also keep her blog. Okay, the whole letter looks very offended, and it probably is. As for people, I'm happy for the boys, but, to be honest, their personal life apart from movies is not interesting to me. I guess I just have to watch two they TV shows from time to time and just move on and try not stan anyone else.

for what is worth, i really do understand how you feel, anon. they dropped this news on us completely out of the blue, and personally im very sad at the possibility of no longer having actors jimmysea on our screens for who knows how long

im sure that if jimmy has indeed made the choice to go study abroad then he must have had his reasons that he will eventually share with us when the time comes, but knowing them isn't necessarily gonna make us feel any better

i think it would have been different if i liked last twilight, or if i cared about the dentist show, or if i were certain we would still get sea acting by himself in other projects while jimmy is studying abroad (like if they gave me that series about the dating life of a queer man with sea as the main lead????? LOVE YOU JIMMY HAVE FUN YOUR BOY WILL BE IN GOOD HANDS WHILE YOU'RE AWAY), but i feel how i feel about those shows, and after what we got this year i have no confidence in GMMTV actually giving sea decent roles or even just something to do at all, so. yeah

and the thing is. ultimately im a grown ass woman. there's no parasocial relationship strong enough to bring me down, so im still gonna be here watching shows and stuff because well. where else am i supposed to go, this is my psych ward. however, im gonna miss jimmysea and the particular brand of comfort only the two of them were able to give me, and i already know that without them im also gonna lose a lot of people on here, so it will be hard, im not just gonna pretend it won't be

for now we're still here together tho, and until we won't get an official announcement im gonna hold everyone's hand and clown one last time

[wolfchans]

✨️🎉🎊I hope im not late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!🎊🎉✨️ I hope your day was amazing and that this year and every year after treats you well. You deserve the very best!!

K byyyye~💜😊

Ahhh don't worry about it, I'm sorry for replying so late but I fell asleep 😅 My day was really nice ☺️☺️☺️ Thank you so much for the wishes! I'm sending you the biggest hugs 💛💛💛

[kala-ya-aan]

👋🏽 I DON’T KNOW WHO STILL NEEDS TO HEAR THIS BUT....✌🏽✌🏽

I'd like to send LIGHT, POSITIVITE ENERGY and a virtual hug (if you need it lol) to all them who are/ or have been struggling through a rough time in a period of "darkness" (or to relate in spiritual terms a necessary journey meant for light truth bringers of the world ONLY called "dark night of the soul".) It's good for the soul you go through this spiritual awakening experience in the end. If you're still currently going through this, I'm sorry you must go through this. Though to save you from negative trauma (PTSD) later please understand it's only your "shadow" self being revealed. So your biggest fears, insecures, nightmates etc. Your breaking out of your subconscious psyche. Therefore your mind feels like its literally playing sad games with your reality by confronting unassumed or imposing questions and thoughts about yourself you didn't know you knew about you. IT'S OKAY. 😚🤗 Remember. ITS NOT REAL! All of it is FAKE! An illusion if you will sent by God to test your faith. You'll be GRATEFUL for it later. Actually, in my own personal opinion. Consider yourself lucky if this is your first spiritual awakening. We must come out from darkness to enter the light. It means your consciously AWAKE! It's the only way you can truly embrace life's true meaning! Duality, baby! 😉 Just Pray! Meditate your mind on love and positive things. Listen to good music, or read a good book or something to keeo you busy, prioritize (self care) your "me" time, set boundaries and trust only your gut instinct! YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE GOING THROUGH THIS! ITS A GLOBAL CHANGE! A SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS ALTERING A NEW PARADIGM IN THE MATRIX! A NEW BEGINNING! YOURE LUCKY! BECAUSE...If these are indeed the worlds "END TIMES" approaching like Im sure it is...trust, it's better you went or forego this process of revealing oneself aka "the nature of reality" in essence and future healing NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE! Because when that first wave of the Apocalyptic aka Armageddon happens and ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE ON EARTH aka "THE BEAST (666)" and EVIL takes over the world those who did not see "the dark night of the soul" WILL PAY. BELIEVE ME. They too, will go through it except it will be WORSE X's 1 MILLION! 😱 FIGHT ON!...SOULJA! 😏😁🌹

Heal. This will all be over soon. All is gonna be okay in the end, and if it's not okay it's not the end" 💜💚💛🧡🤎🤍🖤 YOU GOT THIS! 😉👍🏽

[txemrn]

omg im super super late but happy belated birthday em!!! i hope you had the best day ever with lots and lots of cake 💘💘💘 you seem like such a lovely person and such a sweet soul and i love reading all your thots and am OBSESSED with the bad bitch that is tatum (even though im super behind i cannot wait to catch up!!)— anyways hsjsks hope you’re doing amazing!! im super glad you’re here in this fandom <333

My Ever-Thoughtful Mal! 🖤

Believe me when I say that you are perfect in your timing. Thank you so, so much for the sweet birthday wishes! The day turned into a beautiful weekend, and because of your sweet sentiments, the party keeps on going! 🥳

On a more personal note, thank you for your very kind words. They mean more to me than I can even begin to describe. ❤️‍🩹

And of course, I adore the you love my Tatum! Thank you for sending me some AMAZING prompts! Seriously, they have helped me develop her as a character, as well as her relationship with a certain brooding doctor. 🤪

Sending you the biggest hugs! Love you and your beautiful, welcoming spirit! 💜

[youmyjhope]

Aw baby good job 💞 You did so well! I'm very proud of you 😚

And sending you a big hug. The biggest ever.

I'm sorry to hear that you are doing not so well, I'm sending positive energy your way and I'm always here if you wanna talk or not talk at all about it 💞

Kisses pretty - HSK 💋

noo im doing great! everything is awesome 😍 i feel better than ever!!!💜 its just that antidepressant has made my libido lower in general but u made it so fuckinn high in the last few days💪😆