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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)

We all start somewhere!

#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later #my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day #and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night #anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body #and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft #i have so many things i intend to post and then forget #it's a wonder I post anything #i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through #like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it #art growth #this was in 2010 btw #i started highschool in 2011 #I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever #like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me #man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time #if my phone made typos you didn't see it

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slymanner · 2 months ago

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Look all I'm saying is if that a shadow game can work THAT well and be so well designed story wise and gameplay wise

HE can work

#sonic #silver the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #silver right now is such a open canvas of a character #story wise and gameplay wise #he's been a side character for so long and in the one time he was a main character his whole story was basically axed from canon #he's definitely been explored since then but not to extent we've probably wanted with this character-#and I'm talking mostly game silver cause obviously in IDW and archie he got some LOVE there #even if we never saw idw silver actually explore his good future #which i still think is a shame but also apparently if sega doesn't want that to be explored in a comic and saved for the games then #THEY BETTER EXPLORE IT SOON #and honestly gameplay wise he needs another shot as well #like C'MON his psychic's just needed better...well...PSYCHIC'S TO WORK #can you imagine what cool and fun movement he'd have now that sega is now slowy understanding what kinda stuff they wanna do with #the sonic franchise again and how it should play #i don't know if i should fully expect a silver game at any point #but he should ATLEAST be a second main character in a new game so people can be reintroduced to him and they can cook with him #IM TIRED OF SEEING MY SON GETTING HATED ON OR CALLED LAME #I WANT PEOPLE TO BE REMINDED OR SHOWN HOW COOL AND FUN HE CAN BE WHEN GIVEN THE SPOTLIGHT #archie and idw are the best examples of him as a character #he is a lovable friend and ally #but serious when he can be character #and his powers are literally so COOL AND INHERENTLY UNIQUE AND POWERFUL COMPARED TO OTHER'S IN THE CAST #like when surge saw silver come in casually carrying a large object and she got nervous THAT'S WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT #THIS MAN CAN BE A THREAT.#okay rant over DHDNDNDB

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ganondoodle · 1 year ago

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is it too much of a reach to say that zelda being reduced to basically an object to farm items from in totk just kinda adds more salt to the wound of how badly shes treated?

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #i know im nitpicking #but i have talked about the big problems alot already #and now i start to see the smaller thingy that dont feel good #i guess you could see it as well if she wasnt farmable for items it would be weird compared to the other dragons #or that you are supposed to realize that you have been farming items from your best friend the whole time is to mean something #or maybe its just a game mechanic #i knew super early that the dragon was zelda #and when i saw i need items from her to upgrade my armor i was like .... im not gonna shoot out heR TEETH WTF #good thing she remembers nothing i guess #so she doesnt have to cope with the fact that link kept shooting off her scales - claws - teeth and horns #god i just want to see her have agency for once #and no i dont count begging unnamed faceless champion mcguffin guys to do a swear or dragonfying herself when she had no other option #thats not a character moving the plot but the plot shoving around a character imo #i want to see her go around HER hyrule and talk to people- solve mysteries- get more competent at defending herself- actively doing anythin #gnawing on wood as we speak

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ratatatastic · 6 months ago

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or alternatively dweeb meets other dweeb more news at 11

LIGHT. LIGHT IN HIS EYES. LOOK AT EM BIG OLE EYES. LOOK AT HIM TOUCH HIS JERSEY.

GLORY BE TO THE MIKKSY SIGNED JERSEY RAAAAAAAAA

CanesWear Signing | 7.1.24

#niko mikkola #florida panthers #the mortifying ordeal of being known #you can tell how bad i was shaking from how much the jersey moves in my hands oh it was so serious for me its not even funny #“youre my favourite player thats why” “thank you” girl i would eat concrete for you without any hesitation #“new jersey?” me sweating profusely because i have to admit i had this jersey for a while now in front of his face oh god oh FUCK #“where do you want it? here or here?” “anywhere choose where anywhere” “ill do this way”#behold decision paralysis plus the constitution of a doormat with an awful aim to please vs the assuredness of a bull romping through field #“i mean its your jersey at the end of the day”#he says without thinking because he lacks a brain to mouth filter and immediately wants to slam his head into the nearest hardest object #but its okay it got a little smile out of mikksy so maybe my motor mouth can be used for good #my voice is so hoarse because i stood under for 7 hours and also loudly cheered like never before all throughout those 7 hours yesterday #also a lot of people had tickets for both mikksy and lundy or just lundy so thats why the line was moving slowly #so at one point they went OKAY WHO HAS TICKETS FOR JUST NIKO and i raised my hand like oo oo mee ☝️ and got rushed to the front #also a lot of the stuff he was signing was nonspecific posters and hats or other players jerseys (that already had other signatures on em)#which is why the attendant was like oh sweet jersey! and mikksy was like new jersey? because there werent many people at all #comparatively his signing was priced the lowest at 39 out of all cats players. the highest currently is benny at 60 #does it suck his line was shorter. there was surprise when someone toddles in with a mikksy jersey. and that his signing was priced low?#yes ofc but also i didnt have to stand in the heat for long got ushered in faster and my wallet didnt cry so lets not kid ourselves here #there are silver lining to everything but anyways first hockey jersey and first signature on it acquire call that a man on a mission 😎👉👉#long tags i love mikksy i lot you understand right <3 #also im never wearing this jersey again so i might as well buy a frame and ANOTHER mikksy jersey #to bad it also has my 30th ani cats patch on it too </3

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redysetdare · 9 months ago

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Lovelessness and lack of any attraction making me realize that i don't understand any relationships in terms of love.

How do you know you're romantically interested in someone? how is that different than loving them in literally any other way? Hell, how do you know you love your friends? When do you even apply the label of friend? How do you decide you want to be someones friend even? What about family? we're just expected to love them from birth but why? How do you know you view someone as family? why are we expected to love people we just happen to be related to?

I dunno, I'm writing some friendships, found family, and just adopted family and biological family relationships and I'm realizing that I'm struggling with actually like...showing why characters "love" each other in these ways. What makes this character want to be a parental figure to another character? what makes this characters friends any more important than other people in their lives? I'm writing what society tells me but I don't actually think i understand any of it.

I can understand connection and characters enjoying each others company and caring about each other but when it gets to the love part? the part society demands there be for the relationship to be full and real and complete? I find myself lost every single time. shouldn't them caring for each other be enough? why do they need this confusing emotion for them to truely be friends or truely be family?

Why is the label of a "strong bond between people" locked behind the paywall that is the undefined idea of love? Why is love a requirement and not an option for these sorts of bonds? a bond without love doesn't mean you hate the person or dislike them even. it doesn't mean you're apathetic. it just means you don't love them. I don't get why this word is so important. I don't get why it's expected.

#text #loveless #loveless aro #idk maybe it's because i look at these sorts of things in terms of logic #which emotions don't always follow #people always use love as an answer but i always question it #“they did it because they love them” why do they love them though #why is their love for them seen as so important #why should other characters care about that love #why did love make them do that #what is so special about the bond between these two characters compared to the bond they have with other characters #why is it different #and i guess most people don't have answers. why would they? it's just how they feel #that's usually enough for others but for some reason not for my brain #and i think it's just because i cannot grasp the idea of love as an emotion #especially not as a pure and good emotion #idk it's confusing #and probably my own fault #im not really looking for answers here because i dont think there is any #not any that would satisfy me at least #just wanted to express this feeling ig

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deepfriedseagullfeet · 3 months ago

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i think doing the music review tiktok would be a lot of fun and a good way to work on my short form video editing skills but on the other hand. im worried it wont work out because. 1) im kinda ugly and self conscious about how i look on camera 2) i dont want to be Perceived by a bunch of people 3) i dont want to talk about 'popular' music only music im personally obsessed with which might be bad for engagement 4) im worried i wont stick with it and consistently upload. basically im anxious about it. but im not doing anything meaningful right now and i want to at least try having fun with reviewing music. but also idk if i want to be vulnerable like that on social media ESPECIALLY tiktok. uuuuuuuuughhhhhhhhh

#ive been writing out scripts for albums i want to talk about/doing research #and its getting me hype to rant about cool music #but idk :( im incredibly anxious about it and i dont know if its a good idea #its also a thing of i want Art to be my main thing online #but im no good at that compared to other people so i want to do other stuff #im ALSO wondering if i should just do youtube videos about music instead. cause i have a lot to talk about #but tiktok might be easier editing-wise #and it might be easier to pop up on peoples feeds #sigh.#life with seag

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gunthermunch · 2 years ago

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let me be honest with you guys i would have gone into hiatus 3400 times and or deleted stuff if it wasnt because we (yes me and you included) love munch so much. its crazy

#to express that i am human for a sec: im an insecure person and i constantly feel like im not good enough #and posting my creations (mainly art) for everyone to see was always difficult for me until i started munch #and i didnt even start thinking i want a bunch of people to read this i just wanted to put my stuff somewhere #and stop pulling myself back and turning very small out of shyness and imposter syndrome #even now when i still feel like garbage and end up comparing myself to others (the way i used to do with art) what keeps me from doing #something stupid is my story and my characters and all the people who love them (and let me know you do. which i appreaciate a lot always)#so yeah what im trying to say is that im very thankful. about a lot of things #dl #i deleted a bunch of stuff today you probably wont even notice its not there anymore. NOT ANYTHING FROM MUNCH ITSELF THO id die #not my cancer ass showing my emotions oh well

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 28 days ago

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hate when i see a youtube video that's like 'analyzing why [thing] is bad!' and you watch the video and they just say nothing for twenty minutes

#random thoughts #watched a video on why a specific character was poor representation for survivors of assault #and it was such a nothing burger of a video #'this character is bad because children might see them and think their behavior is okay' okay?#i learned how to block out memories from finn adventure time but that doesn't mean memory suppression shouldn't be addressed in media #plus hazbin hotel. i'm talking about angel dust btw if that wasn't blaringly obvious. is an adult cartoon. for adults #adult cartoons shouldn't have to restrict their subject matter because kids could see it #and angel dust being a male queer SA victim using hypersexuality as a coping mechanism could be good!#and the fact he hits on other people despite it making them uncomfortable isn't exactly a problem a la his character?#it could be a control thing. i used to do something similar (pushing other people's boundaries and complaining when they pushed back)#because it made me feel some kind of control over my life #it could start off as a really shitty joke and then grow into 'oh god is that why he does that??'#but anyway their second main point was that the songs were bad? and that poison being an upbeat song makes it bad #like despite listing many other songs which are upbeat with heavy lyrics. but somehow poison is the exception because it's a cartoon?#like again that could be a character thing. angel dust using obfuscation as a coping mechanism to distract himself from his shitty life.#｡･ﾟﾟ･the lyrics are upbeat to distract you from how dead i feel inside･ﾟﾟ･｡#and their reading of the second song seemed really mean-spirited?#like as 'everyone has problems so you're not special because you're a whiny baby' rather than 'you're not as alone as you think you are'#and like if op wanted to just complain about a show they watched then yeah go off i do that all the time #but don't parade it as character analysis???#and they say 'oh reading it as a feelgood you're not alone message doesn't work because these characters' struggles are not equal'#but like. sometimes rape needs to feel like it's not some special trauma. it's not unique and you're not uniquely fucked up for it #two characters' traumas don't need to be directly comparable for them to bond!!!#and im not like. defending hazbin hotel btw. never seen it not going to see it no thanks #i'm just complaining about a mediocre youtube video that i'm going to forget about in a week #god i hate that brand of youtube video. where they just complain about things without going into depth about why they're bad #especially if their complaints are shallow and don't have to do with like. the actual structure of a character or story #like it's so easy to say 'this character is bad because theyre a predatory stereotype' but like. go into some depth at least #i think i hate these videos so much because they're fueled purely by hate. no love for the source material or even a desire to learn #or a love for storytelling even

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toxifoxx · 7 months ago

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i need my brain rewritten bro

#i cannot keep existing in the way i do now #i mean i could but its awful. Not the worst version of me but still bad #i need a different personality i need a different way of thinking i need to stop being mentally ill #but there is literally nothing i can do about the way i am and i feel so helpless #i want to talk to people i want the motivation to reach out and take what i want and need #but my anxiety doesnt budge. my chronic fatigue doesnt budge. i just cant. and im so sick of being told i can #if i were to just try harder and put my mind to it #what i need is like. Someone else to permanently take over my brain for me #i cant fucking live the way i am #i need to be someone different #EVEN COMPARE TO EVERYONE ELSE. I AM A UNIQUE CASE OF AWFUL #no one else is fucking struggling to interact! or do like most things in their life!#i genuinely cant come close to living a normal or good life as i am now #i can even look the *direction* of other people. i go full silent on group calls.#i go full silent in text chats of people i dont know well and it prevents me from connecting entirely #i freeze up i get scared i retreat into my shell or give up cause who cares its not their job to coddle me #i literally. i should not exist #im not human and not even in a fun or quirky way. i am just fundamentally incompatible with like . life itself.#whats the point man. this isnt a life

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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 1 year ago

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I'm feeling that inadequate imposter syndrome again.

#sometimes i wonder if what i do matters #or like if what i do is actually things i like to do #or am just writing drawing and streaming in a gaslighting effect on myself to be liked by others #fell into the trap of comparing myself to other artists #especially those who are younger and talk about their aus constantly with a million asks a day #but i also don't want that for myself either.#i dont think #things are good where they stand now #i guess #people asking about lofi would be nice but i feel im not distinguished enough because i always lean on canon divergent sides of fic #rather than trying to build a world up from scratch #idk feel free to ignore my deep thoughts #just trying to find myself #and wish i didnt feel inadequate about so much and every aspect of my life #personal #vent

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fridayiminlcve · 2 years ago

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if i dont move to nyc or london or paris by age 27 what is the point of anything

#i looooove my city so much you guys like if i wasnt who i am (queer) rn i would be so fucking glad that i am in my current city but #i loooove art and history and fashion and stuff and this citymight be about second best for all that but its still soo crowded #people WILL judge no matter what you wear something cutesy and people dont shut up especially when ur 16 and tagging along with your mom to #the mall or something and everyone just stares and even among your classmates ive been complimented so many times #for my unique style or whatever (aka i have beaded shoelaces and wear lots of jewelery and absurd ass eyeliner) and theyre like oh #n******** is so fancy itni stylish bandi hai woh and its so attention grabbing but i dont want it to be a big deal !!!#i want to like 20 badges and wear insane makeup and dye my hair without calling much attention to myself!!!#of course i know that will change slowly as you go in to uni and meet ppl of your type instead of a bazaar market and youll pick ur own #friends who r like minded but considering this is india how many people can you truly find.#also my next two years are going to be spent in a college for jee and neet kids #you can wear what you want theres no dress code but you have to appear serious studious and simple if you want to be taken seriously #elle woods at harvard law type #i asked my mom to get an industrial & second lobe piercing and actual dyed hair and shes like turn twenty get into a good college then do #not bc she minds she allowed me to get my hair dyed at age 13 but to go in th college im going to there is SO SO much rigour #and if you dont show yourself as professional and shit they will keep you in lower effort self study classes instead of best of the best #i KNOW how difficult moving abroad is bc my family does not have that money i need to do it myself its so so expensive bc the money #itself has such a high value compared to here (you see americans cribbing abt 30$ hourly wage but here that is 2500inr)#2500 inr is as much as an expensive pair of jeans here. expensive clothes here r 30$ and in usa its 300$ . see the diffence #im changing topics so much but sometimes i do feel this place is suffocating #its a priviledge i have that i can even think about going abroad comapred to other indians but still #dp you get what i mean #and ik movies and all are very romanticised so it might not even be this way in western cities and just an idealisation but still #if things change around here then the entire question of going anywhere is out the window anyway #smalltown boy will byers moment #dni if you read all this and plan on replying unless ur a close mutual (close mutuals u know who u are)#also if someone says why would you want to go to usa uk paris when they colonised your country shut up <3 shut up very much <3

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snow-and-saltea · 10 months ago

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yesterday i spent 45 minutes of my life watching a video essay criticising the use of cheap shock values and crossing of taboos for a video game and i went from "he has a point even if he's explaining it in a really inflammatory way" to "oh umm... i can see how he thinks that way even if i don't agree" to "oh this guy's just straight up using people on tumblr as material for an audience to get mad at like other outdated people on the internet. nvm he's just an asshole"

#yuu rambles #it was about the coffin of andey and leyley btw - i agreed w him on the first half of the video about how it felt rather noncommittal to it #concepts and themes but i recognise its not really *trying* to be serious which means its not a reasonable #framework to judge the intention and execution of its work - an apple pie does use butter in it but just bc it does #doesnt mean you get to compare it to steak; a dish that also uses butter. this is intuitively easy to understand for me #but nonetheless it was like 3 am i had stuff to do so i just put it on my background to listen #he makes a diss at “people on tumblr” early on that i just raised my eyebrow at but shrugged it off bc its such an old joke #its lost its zinger; and im p sure its just confirmation bias from going into the tags of the thing you dont like lol if you use tumblr #normally you wouldn't come across things you dont like bc you'd have blocked them. But Anyways #then at the end he got sooo self righteous about how people on tumblr are insane and weird and showed screencaps about how twisted everyone #who likes the game are. there were some screenshots of people's post that were like “incest is bad and shouldn't be explored in media.#paragraph break‚ me who is an incest survivor and finds it helpful for working through my trauma: lol”#those types of post. but then lmfao he started going out of pocket and just mentioned the lists of other people he doesnt like which are #a screenie of a video essay about how kink is important at pride #and then some other stuff i dont remember anymore w the tumblr screenies #it was very mockingly written and said and at the end of it i felt sad i couldnt #block people on youtube lmao. like its not i dont want this guy to comment on my videos. i dont want to see his channel involuntarily #recommended to me ever again. just resorted to the most base sort of trolling behaviour he accused and judge other game devs for in his #video essay. good fucking god. the psychological projection is unreal #i dont have any strong feelings towards the game at the end of it even though i thought i would be like Eugh at first #but my bleh for any cheap gimmicks is overshadowed by my disdain for this guy's reliance on self righteous rhetoric #i discovered another new channel i really like tho after that vid!! bc i had to watch smth else to cleanse my palate lmao #they're jacob geller and freddydude! ive only seen one vid from freddydude about his essay on #detention‚ the horror game set in taiwan during the era of white terror under new cn leadership after ww2 #im personally quite jumpy so his humour and the way he edits his videos to make it silly even though its Scary #made me like it a lot!! im going through jacob geller's other vids but ive watched three specific types of terror #and the one about pinocchio which made me go :00 wow his scripts are super good!#again everything at your own discretion esp w the whole james somerton shit‚ but i enjoyed what I've seen so far #i just wanted to end this in a somewhat positive note JSHDKSJDJD the ramblings Continue...#theres a pedantic error in one of ky tags but im gonna update it when im on comp bc mobile sucks smh my head

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qumiiiquinnquin · 1 year ago

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ill never be good enough at anything

#vent #events of today only proved it #im genuinely so close to giving up completely #i dont feel happy when I draw because I know its not good enough and im ashamed when others see it because I know they think the same thing #I dont feel satisfied or accomplished when finishing schoolwork because I know others will have done it better and responded better and im #the stupidest person of the entire class. some things I just dont understand but I know everyone else or lots of others did #i cant do anything right. i cant socialize correctly. i cant remember to do anything. i cant keep any stable relationships #i know if i get a job they'll ly me off or fire me within days max weeks. i dont expect to be able to hold down a job for long #i dont have the skills necessary to become what I want to be which is a meteorologist. i struggle in math and that career is a lot of math #i actually want to be an artist too but ill die a lonely death. i cant even do this class. and artists are not paid enough to survive #hell what I do right now with art in my spare time is much worse than others. a mouse and microsoft paint. both arent good enough #i cant not compare myself to others. i know that they're all better than me. and im around these people every day and see it on social medi #i really want to put my art in our shredder and permanently delete files. i want to drop out. i dont know what to do with myself because i #know that im not good enough for anything except lay in bed like the depressed piece of shit i am and end up getting kicked out #i thought about just leaving class today and throwing myself down the stairwell from the top floor i was already on #just over the barrier thats right next to the first flight of stairs that prevents people from falling off the stairs from a height #the one you can look down and see the following flight of stairs. just throw myself down from that and hurt myself significantly.#ive been thinking about jumping again. from a new part of campus thats higher than where i initially wanted to fall from #if not those then sl!t my wrist or run into traffic #i just need to d!e. There's no room for someone as worthless as me #i cried when I came home today because im just done. i cant carry on and itd be better if i didnt. itd be preferred.

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unlucky-words · 11 months ago

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i want. to talk about deathloop.

#i havent finished it yet but i estimate im… about halfway done? getting close to my first attempt at a proper break #just have to do chawley and feeyuh. and then the party with wenjie there :)#and its so good. ive bothered so many people about this game #but its so good #like not to compare it to the other arkane games #(bc in terms of gameplay its not Super Comprable— deathloop is a stealth largely optional shooter)#(whereas even in HC dishonored if you do that you’ll get blown to bits)#but like #i loved prey. but it was such a lonely experience #(which isnt a bad thing that was kinda the point)#but in deathloop you cannot fucking get AWAY from people #julianna is texting you like hiiiiii bestie guess whos gonna fucking kill you today? its me :)#and everyone else is like AW SHIT THERE HE IS the literal second they see you #the visionaries included #and all colt wants to do is fucking drink a pina colada and maybe make out a lil #hes not picky. its not a hard request.#and yet he suffers. unkissed and without fruity deink in hand. nary a fucking tiny umbrella or fruit sword in sight.#horse noises

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perenlop · 2 years ago

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havent read tbc but i think its so funny how shadowsight seems to be popular to the people i follow just because “the narrative treats him like all the female characters do so hes an honorary girlie”

#and by ''how the narrative treats him'' they mean badly ofc bc apparently everything is blamed on him repeatedly #w no one realizing that he was manipulated and the narrative being retconned just to say hes actually a screwup who was never good #and everything genuinely is his fault bc why else would he listen to an evil cat in starclan #like. damn that really is something theyd do to a female protagonist #also the only ppl ive seen hating on him do it for boring and stupid reasons so im inclined to like him out of spite #bc ''he has an ILLEGAL name in this universe. hes a TIGERDOVE kid. hes a FANFICTION made REAL'' ok well hes the most interesting one. so.#not like anything he actually does in the narrative it seems. plus the other two protags sound boring as hell #''oh im sad i couldnt get w the boy i like. now i love another guy but its forbidden. oh and my leaders possessed ig.''#''SIGH i wish people didnt compare me to my cringe OUTSIDER dad. also i see ghosts and i hate this its cringe''#''also my sister is a legacy name after an important character from the previous arc but who cares''#and then shadowsight is like ''since i was an infant i had excruiciating seizures and visions. i threw myself into a river as a sacrifice #i am suicidal. i got manipulated by an evil man into possessing my great uncle. everyone outwardly wants me dead for it #everyone blames all of their problems on me and expects a lot from me. i got demoted for it. my only support is my close family #and even then they have to suffer the extreme guilt of not being able to help me with literally anything #also the antagonist wants my mom dead for my own existence. i have lost so much #i am literally blamed by god for everything thats happened to be despite being used by them since i was an infant and thats where my story e #ends''#like fuck. yeah he is an honorary girlie to me. i barely know u man but like i support u. cmere be my pet cat #echoed voice

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reel-fear · 2 years ago

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one day I'll go insane and release a 234 page essay on why I love Wheatley X GLaDOS so much and its underrated and Love as a construct [link] is the best fanfiction I've ever read as long as u stop reading After chapter 26 bc imo after that it gets a bit repetitive and jumps the shark a bit and if u see the tags u might understand KJNSDFGKJNFDSD

but the very basics of it, is it's that two very bad people with a ton of truama learning to become better via each other <3. Also its weirdly disliked by a lot of portal fans for being... Abusive,,, which is hilarious considering both Wheatley and GLaDOS are canonical abusers who may regret their actions by the end sure but are still on some level very abusive people to Chell. I think that's also one of the reasons I love Gladley just bc it doesn't feel like Chell has to get into a relationship with these two people that canonically I think she's absolutely had enough of dealing with.

#ramblez #portal 2 #gladley #wheatdos #they are t4t they are both bi they both dont identify as those things bc they have no idea what they mean #they are both awful people and they love each other so much they become better #they are both the victims of their own stupid actions and truama and got countless people killed-#they both hate humans/generally do not care for them #Im just saying the fandom sleeps on it hard.#and its the like the number one portal 2 ship for me forever nothing else even compares #GLaDOS was in love with Chell and she treated her awfully time to move on bitch #Chell doesnt owe either of them a second chance shes going off to lead her own life now good for her #Wheatley is the cringe fail malewife and GLaDOS girlbosses every day #Wheatley mansplains and manipulates and GLaDOS gaslights and gatekeeps-#I literally could write an essay on that fic btw its like literally my favorite fic ever #not joking at all its one of the best pieces of fiction Ive ever read #that fic got me through so much in life #its handling of abuse both in the past and in the present oh its so good but not heavyhanded but not so subtle its unaddressed #theres so many plot points in it I just want to disect and talk abt but I dont wanna spoil it here so AAAAA idk maybe for another post-#I also wanted to rant on how Wheatley is in fact an awful and really mean person and the fandom doesnt really address that a lot #but like I've said omg this post is getting long already for another time maybe-

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