#but ill make an official post here in a bit about the plan i have in mind for moving forward

[wwooyology]

TW: ed, depression, anxiety, health issues, overall mental illness (sorry in advance for the rant as I know I don't normally post private stuff, but I need to get this off of my chest.)

as many of you have probably noticed, I haven't been active all that much here lately aside from posting my angstober fics. this is a result of multiple things, but you guys deserve to know a little bit about what's going on.

these past few months haven't exactly been easy for me and I feel as if my health is just slowly going down the drain. I have an multiple anxiety attacks within the span of a day, my heart problems that I thought had subsided decided to show back up causing me quite a bit of discomfort and pain, not to mention how bad my depression has been getting. I have been stuck in I like to call a brain fog for a while. I don't get the proper amount of sleep or food and it shows, I didn't really notice how bad it was until my grandma pointed out that I had lost quite a bit of weight this past weekend.

I don't think I've had a stretch this bad in a very long time, and to be honest, I have a vague idea as to why this sparked up. when I'm not working my normal job (which is 9pm-7am) I am at home babysitting for my cousin bc the daycares around here suck ass at getting people off of the waitlist. I have been watching this kid since she was about three months old, and she is now well over a year old. when I first started watching her, it wasn't an issue bc she slept most of the time, so that meant that I got a good amount of sleep, however, as many who have kids or babysit know that, as they get older, the less they sleep and will continuously get into things they aren't supposed to. so this also means that the amount of sleep I get in a day dwindles immensely (normally about 3 hrs if I'm lucky). now, I'm sure some of you are probably like...

"kayla why don't you just tell her you don't want to watch her anymore?"

trust me, I wish it were that easy, but I am a people pleaser at heart, especially with family. I can't tell her no and leave her with no one to watch her kid, which means she can't work. she has her family to take care of, so I just endure it. however, what really sucks is that no one really knows what it's like because they aren't me. they do try to help and watch her when they can, but seeing as I am the only one who works the night shift, it makes it difficult to find anyone else.

now, on to another FUN part of my life. my dietary habits. I have, for as long as I can remember, always eaten one meal a day, maybe two if it was close to my period. this has always been a thing, but when I moved in with my aunt, it changed because she always made sure that I would eat at least something. here, as of late, tho, it has gotten worse. I can barely take a bite of anything without the immediate need to go and throw it all back up, then I'm left feeling shaky and nauseous for hours after. I'm not sure what brought this along, but it's only gotten worse as my anxiety has picked up.

I don't want to get too far deep into things and babble about useless things, so I'll just leave this here. thank you to those who have read this far <3

[chuuya-kisser]

THEORY TIME THEORY TIME

ok. so. first of all FYODOR FCKIN DOSTOEVSKY I LIKE U AND ALL BUT???? REMAIN DEAD??? U JESUS FR??

ANYWAYS ignoring that

so bc i adore skk to hell and back obviously im gonna explore their dynamic first

what kills me is how familiar they are with each other. they arent insulting each other in every sentence, which is still alright. and what struck me the most is how much dazai seems to trust chuuya. more so than anyone.

so far we know that dazai isn't exactly the most open person around. his entire cheerful joking persona is a facade, a fake. what you see is usually only what he wants to show you. his real emotions? ive only seen them very rarely, if at all. now look at these

the way chuuya says what he does implies that he is already used to this habit of dazai's, which is only possible if dazai did this in his mafia days, AND even then, he was open and willing enough to let chuuya see it and know that dazai was anxious. which means that even before mersault, before dazai left the mafia, he and chuuya atleast were that close that the usually closed-off, know-everything demon prodigy could show his worry to his partner, multiple times.

i think that over here, dazai really isnt hiding his emotions. you can see the shock and worry on his face and in his eyes clearly as he puts the pieces together. not only that, hes also laying out parts of his plan to chuuya, in addition to his theories. which he rarely does unless im wrong about that (its possible). he isnt worried about chuuya using his emotions and weaknesses against him, because he trusts him enough, although i think the trust between them was already shown when both of them fake-killed each other.

its easy to see the panic in his eyes, and personally i feel that this is him showing a bit of weakness, which is perfectly alright. the thing is that again, hes letting chuuya see this. I very much doubt that he would have let down his facade enough to show this to absolutely anyone else.

also the poor guy literally looks so stressed out here give him a goddamn break asagiri

aaaaand now chuuya.

now what strikes me is that even in the last chapter/s, chuuya has multiple times tried to reassure dazai that fyodor is indeed dead to try and calm down dazai's worries. this can also be him also wanting a damn break but anyways.

and these panels. while many ppl are agreeing that hes just sitting there being a pretty boy while dazai tows through helicopter debris (and i agree), and definitely chuuyas sadistic streak when it comes to dazai is showing itself clearly, its often been seen in both the official arts and animanga that whenever working together, chuuya always covers dazai's blind spots.

think about it. dazai has his back turned towards everything. if someone launched a surprise attack on him at this moment, the chances of him dodging, finding out abt it in time is pretty low. chuuya is directly behind dazai. i got this idea from another post i saw, but what if this is also chuuya covering for dazai yet again? protecting him?

anyways thats it folks maybe ill make another post on jesus- i meant fyodor soon

[mxltifxnd0m]

IM BACK BITCHES !

⟡ so as you can tell from this post, im officially back from my hiatus!

i honestly could have come back sooner but i just wanted to ride out the month of october so i didn't feel overwhelmed if i came back when i thought i felt better and not at 100%.

but yes a month long break was necessary for me and my mental health since i had been on tumblr consistently for a good 3 years at this point without one, so it was a long time coming.

but now im feeling a lot better and ive been slowly just easing myself into using the site again and exposing myself to my activity tab (r.e my hiatus announcement) and now i don't feel any kind of anxiety when seeing it so its progress! (i have yet check it thought but as soon as this is posted, i will be sorting through it)

with not being on the app/site, ive had some spare time open up for me and i've been utilizing it and i got back into journaling which was something i had been trying to do for the longest time but i treated this place as my digital one but clearly it didn't work out the way I wanted.

anyways moving on, I also was able to write quite a bit while on my break and i feel good about them because i didn't have the pressure of posting them right away.

but since i did write some fics! im so excited to share them with you guys so i made schedule of what/when im posting them and that'll be posted later today!

speaking of fics i made a poll before i went on hiatus about making a tag list for my fics and the majority of votes wanted me to make a tag list so i made a separate post for the tag list and how you can be added! [taglist has been posted]

with the housekeeping out of the way. yayy im back!! life has been great this past october and as sad as i was that i couldn't give you guys live updates, ill post them some of them here :P

i've made some more friends in my classes and I went to my first concert ever! it was a conan gray concert and ill make a separate post about my fit and the experience since it was so fun! other than that it was a relaxing month and my brother was in town and visited for a week and a half so having to share my room with my sister wasn't the best time but nonetheless we survived nonetheless LOL

anyways enough rambling! i have to say that i can't wait to binge everyone's kinktober and just the fics i've missed on here in general! im so happy to be back and im just so excited to share the things i have planned with you guys! (i'm so back guys ahhh!)

ive missed you all so much and i hope that everyone was doing well when i was gone <3

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tagging some of my moots to let them know im back: @sammyluvr / @ohsc / @s4wdvator / @sylvia-plaths-fig-pie / @arjwrites /

@heliads / @percyluvr

[cookinguptales]

time to shill for Big Salt!!!

Okay, so like I said in my last post, I recently became a ~Vitassium Ambassador~, which is a fancy way of saying that I shilled for this company for free for so long that now they're paying me to do it.

In salt. Much like a deer.

Anyway.

Vitassium is SaltStick's line of products specifically for POTS, EDS, Cystic Fibrosis, Vasovagal Syncope, and other forms of autonomic dysfunction. Essentially speaking, SaltStick has been making electrolyte products for years, and when they realized that a lot of their patients buying them were doing it for medical reasons, they started doing research into creating products specifically for that purpose. And that's how the Vitassium line was born.

Vitassium generally has more salt and less magnesium/calcium/potassium than SaltStick's other electrolyte products, which is good if you need a lot of salt and you don't want to take too high a dose of the rest. Personally, I tend to use a mixture of both of their lines so I can get a little calcium/magnesium boost sometimes but more salt other times. (The amount of potassium is fairly similar in both lines, with a little more in the SaltStick line.)

Either way, it has a lot less sugar than Liquid IV, which I get sick off of due to sugar sensitivities. Like... *googles* 11g of sugar in Liquid IV vs. 2g of sugar in Vitassium, with the same amount of salt in each serving. I have to be pretty careful about my sugar intake, and I suppose I can't speak for everyone, but my stomach handles Vitassium a lot better than most of the other alternatives on the market.

So I've been using it for several years now and I'm really happy with their products! Like -- I may now officially be a shill for Big Salt, but I don't plan on lying or exaggerating anything here. I use their products every day, and sometimes that's the only way I can manage to take a shower.

(My fellow POTS/EDS-sufferers know, the shower struggle is real. lmao)

Anyway, they just sent me one of everything in their Vitassium line. They didn't actually ask me to show it off, but I'm doing it anyway because this is my blog and I cannot be stopped.

From left to right, we have a bottle of their electrolyte capsules (these are sugar-free extended-release salt pills with a bit of potassium added), both flavors of their electrolyte fastchews (chewable electrolyte candies that provide quick relief... think salty sweettarts), a cute bottle full of packets of their electrolyte drink mix, sample packs of the fastchews, and some stickers.

Personally, I mostly use the fastchews. I've tried salt capsules in the past and had some stomach upset, but now that they sent these to me for free, I guess I'll try them out again. The fastchews are basically sour candy full of salt lmao. (They also have about 2g of sugar per serving, just like the drink mix.) They really are effective, though, so I tend to take them as needed throughout the day.

I usually just keep a bottle of them in my purse, but the sample size bags are resealable and fit well in pockets, bags, etc. I'm happy that they sent me some little sample bags because now I can refill them, haha.

I used to just buy the normal SaltStick fastchews, and my go-to flavors in that line are orange, wild berry, and lemon-lime! I haven't tried the mango because I'm allergic, the peach is okay if very sour, the coconut pineapple is a nice piña colada taste but a little sweet for me, and I really hate the watermelon ones!

(Look, I promised to be honest with you. lmao)

The Vitassium fastchews are newer, and they only come in two flavors so far. I always buy the fruit punch because I despise artificial grape flavor. They just gave me a bunch of grape ones, so I tried them. Good for what they are, but I still hate grape.

(Do any of my chronically ill followers want these? lmk)

The drink mix is the newest Vitassium product! I like it quite a bit; the relief is quicker when you drink it vs. eat it, and speaking as someone who generally hates drink mixes, the flavor is pretty good.

I've tried both the fruit punch and the pink lemonade, and I think I prefer the pink lemonade. The flavor suits the salt a little better, imo, and I think weirdly it mixes a little better?

I usually buy the drink mix in the canisters because it's cheaper that way and produces less waste (the canister pictured there is one I already had) but the packets are very handy to keep in your bag. They're easy to tear open and even when you tear off the whole top, the opening is small enough that it pours smoothly into small-necked bottles. I like to put some ice in mine and shake it up.

(Side note: Vitassium has specifically designed all their packaging to be as easy to open and use as possible because they know that so many of their customers have arthritis, EDS, and other connective tissue disorders. Which, as someone with EDS, I truly appreciate.)

Finally, one thing I genuinely like about Vitassium is that they try to make their products as accessible as possible for their customers who use them for medical reasons. They have something called the Vitassium Club, which allows registered users who have a medical condition to get 25% off all their electrolyte products. You don't have to get a doctor's note or anything like that, just send in a quick online form and wait for them to change the status of your account.

That brings the cost of the product down considerably for the people who need it most, which is good because honestly? Electrolyte boosters add up fast when you need to consume that much salt every day.

Uhhhh, I think that's everything for now! If you have any questions, lmk! I'm fairly passionate about this kind of thing because when I was first diagnosed with POTS/EDS like... god, 15 years ago now, they didn't have anything like this. I remember struggling to develop a diet that worked for me with no one to teach me and honestly? That fucking sucked. I don't want anyone to be in that position.

So now here in 2023, I'm happy to pass on any chronic illness-related tips I have. Like drink Vitassium! And add salt while you're cooking, not at the end! The flavor will be less strong that way! And a packet of sugar-free hot cocoa mix will often have as much sodium in it as a bag of chips!

Stay salty, friends. 🧂💜😎

[textbookz-n-sketchbookz]

Textbooks and Sketchbooks :)

Heyo!! It's me Marly/Scrunkly (Main blog is @scrunkalicious), and this is the writing blog for a story called "Textbooks and Sketchbooks"! MARTOR NATION RISE UP,,,,,,

This will be the official story/lore for Martor, Marly x Viktor WOOOWWW... and this will also be the easiest way for me to export lore to y'all :3

The story will take place before Arcane starts, and will eventually follow the episodes story when they happen (I CANT WAIT FOR SEASON 2). Sooommeee divergence from canon but we ball

The story follows an art student from Piltover's Academy, Marly!! Energetic, friendly and loud, Marly is always ready to chat and make new friends. She soon meets Viktor, intuitive and witty (i loooovee viktor). Blah blah they do stuff become friendz and they like art & science and maybe kiss and cuddle later on

Uhhh those like fanfic tag things that tell you what the story contains: Fluff (a lot), angst (a lot later), strangers/acquaintances to friends to lovers, maybe a bit of academic rivalry, some violence, discrimination (will add/edit as time goes on!!)

There will be some racism/discrimination scenes based off my own personal experience (I'm Filipino!!) sooo yeah,,,

ALSO. This will be an entirely SFW story. I don't plan on things getting too suggestive, but if anything happens to get a little 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 than I didn't originally planI WILL LET Y'ALL KNOW DW <33

UUUHHHH the story usually follows Marly's viewpoint but I may sometimes change the POV to Viktor sometimes!! When changing I'll use these fun lil borders that I drew <3 (they're so unnecessary but whatever, everything execpt the plush on marly'z border drawn by me, but the hexcore/gear/boat on viktor'z are directly from the arcane show)

Border for when changing to Marly's POV:

Border for when changing to Viktor's POV:

I will NOT be doing a taglist for this blog/story!! If you wanna be notified for new chapters just turn on notifications on this blog because I'll only be posting chapters here!

{MASTERLIST}

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

under the cut is me rambling abt this story lmao

UUUHH IM SO HAPPY TO FINALY BE PUTTING THIS OUT HERE,,, YALL GET THE FULL LORE <333 ill be writing as i go so im literally making up the finer detailz as time goez on lmao,,,

One thing I like about the Martor story is that, in the grand scheme of things, I'm getting you interested in a side-story. Compared to the story of Arcane, all things considered, Marly is a side character. Someone who just happened to know be in the right place, right time, right characteristic to end up knowing Viktor. With Arcane's plot, she could be considered a character maybe comparative to Mel (heeyyy gorgeous). I may or may not have seen a video a few days ago about video games that have you play as a side character okay anywayz YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY

[korgbelmont]

Choices Insiders January 2024

Happy new year everyone! Hope you all enjoyed and are looking forward to the year ahead!

Actually back this time with this month's Insiders. Apologies for not doing my normal post on the December Insiders, but I was just too ill to be able to focus so decided it was best to leave it.

Anyway! Here we go. New year, new post.

So I chose other and this is what I put;

Found it while scrolling for games on the playstore and thought "yeah, give that a go".

That was in 2018 and here I am haha

I haven't seen anything on Unbridled as to what people think of it, so I won't say much. I'll give it a go when it begins it's release and see what it's like.

Same as above. I'll give it a go when it begins it's release and see what it's like. Other than that, I can't say much.

Let me know what you think of both this and Unbridled if you have played them!

So slight confession with both of these. I've only got to the first two chapters of Ship of Dreams when it began it's release and I've only played the first Chapter of Cursed Heart 2. It's that thing of forgetting one week and then just keep forgetting. I am planning to catch up with it over the weekend as I am intrigued by it and even though for me it's only been one chapter, I'm interested by new characters Oleander and Jack.

I never actually attempted this. I had thought about it, but I can't remember why, but I decided not to have a go. Congrats to those who saw it all the way through!

I haven't played DnD in years, last time was not long before everything hit and my friends and I could no longer meet up to do so. But if we do decide to, I may have a look at the sheets on the wiki and pop a character in to play as haha

Having seen the official cover for Hot Shot, I know which one was used. But to be honest, a majority of covers these days are very similar, so I don't think much.

One thing I would be interested to know is what lead to choosing Ice Hockey as the sport.

Given that they mentioned the shower in particular, I'm guessing there is a scene with the MC and Love Interest in the shower.

The third image makes me think that it is going to be from the CG that is usually seen in the first chapter. Maybe the Love Interest intercepting it or something...

Putting these two as I wanted to discuss a couple things about Blades 3. Firstly, I am surprised a BK3 is happening. This one I feel is the final one as usually they only go up to 3. The second bit is that I am surprised at how early it has been currently scheduled. I can see it changing as it did happen with BK2, but yeah. Same with Crimes 3 to be honest on both points.

Okay, so a couple of new titles, but first I want to speak about The Deadliest Game as when I opened up this morning, I found out about the VIP Exclusive prequel. It has me wondering if we will see this more often or if it just a one off. It does mean though that it looks like it has something related to gambling.

Right, next up is Along Came Treble and The Ghost of Us which were announced last month. I've seen people say about how it is a music book (maybe it's meant to be a mature version of Platinum). I'll give it a go when it begins it's wide release.

The Ghost of Us sounds like a book that could be a book set in two time periods about two lovers reincarnated and their ghosts of their past selves guiding them to the other. Not much information other than the title to go on at the moment.

So the first new new title here is Filthy Rich, and to be honest, it screams that it's a more mature book.

The other new title is Hearts of Fire. I think I remember them saying about a Firefighter book at somepoint last year, and here it is.

But before all of that, there is Immortal Desires 2. I am really looking forward to this one. It was such a welcome surprise to see the 180 and have a sequel greenlit. Looking forward to more Gabriela and curious to see who the villains of this one are.

First Wide Release isn't until next month. I am curious as to why it got pushed back, maybe they're trying to keep with their VIP release schedule and keep double month releases together...

That's it for this month. As always, I will do my best to nab screenshots from one of their other social accounts and post on here.

Keep safe everyone!

[borkborkheresadork]

checking in on friends, mutuals and following list, How are you? feel free to use this ask to talk about recent life happenings, something you're passionate about, or anything <33 remember I and I'm sure others care about you and your posts <33

I'll start with the good bits.

The semester is officially over for me and once i finish up work and once I go on break next week, ill have 3 weeks for break. I get to meet up with a online friend irl and spend time with my family and friends during that time so im actually very excited to go back home for so long! Also, I just gained 2 boyfriends and am in a wonderful throuple now :3. Next semester I'm taking classes that are easy but also fun and are less focus on my degree and more focused on my interest, so I'm hoping that will help with my burnout. Over the course of the semester I also got involved with a progress group up here and have been assigned to be their mutual aid coordinator!

I started writing more (nothing that will be posted to this blog) both with music and fanfic. It's nice that I'm at a place where i can (mostly) freely write my ideas.

There's a lot of bad bits, though.

So I've come to the very difficult decision of cutting off my mom. After break i'm going to get a bank account separate from hers and cut contact. There was a bit where we were both communicating well, but I got into a fight with her after she tried to guilt trip me into calling her on thanksgiving (I wasn't talking to her outside of documented forms of communication since she is a habitual gaslighter and likes to say she didn't say things when she very obviously did, and I like to have my receipts when I call her out). After idk maybe like 10 years or something she finally admitted I'm on the spectrum but only because it was convenient to aid in her argument of 'you never understand me and thats clearly because you're autistic and not because im in the middle of a manic episode and i'm not being rational'. So that will be fun to deal with, especially since I'm worried for her safety if I do cut contact, being her only child and her telling me pretty consistantly throughout my life that im her only reason to live. Scary stuff, but necessary for me to stop holding on to that guilt and working through a lot of trauma.

I finished my semester withdrawing from 3 classes and likely failing another, and feeling burnt out to keep going. I need to go to college for a lot of reasons (degree required for the job I want, first gen student/family pressure), but im considering taking it at a considerably slower pace.

I just got on testosterone but thanks to an insurance complication I might have to go without it for a bit. I was previously getting it through my school, but I just got on state insurance and that fucked with my access to it. The good news is that i will likely have a lower co-pay, the bad is that I'll probably have to wait another month to get back on it. One step forward one step back.

The person I thought to be my best friend dropped me out of the blue, which sucks on its own, but the fact that it's been a consistent pattern of people in my life ghosting/dropping me with very little reasoning or with one's ive not found to be true just sucks. I think I'm a loving person in my own way, and the fact that I was called selfish when I A) show a lot of affection towards my friends and B) know my own boundaries when it comes to my relationships with them, it makes me upset. The other person wasn't entirely at fault, I did handle the situation kind of poorly, but I also contributed more to that friendship then that person ever did. I bought food. I made the plans. I hosted. And I thought when the argument that broke us up happened, we just needed space from each other. I guess that wasn't the case and it's sad that the person couldn't communicate their needs earlier so we could have resolved the situation. That being said, on a less neutral perspective. Fuck him. He claimed to be loving and whimsical and had no patience for anyone. Everything pissed him off and he didn't cope in healthy ways and when I tried to help him he didn't take it. He was uncommunicative and disrespectful of other people's boundaries and expectations for friendship. I wish him the best with the realizations he's going to have later in life.

Even though I'm excited for family during the holidays, my dad is coming to town and I'll have to navigate them with him. I stay with my grandmother during breaks, so I'll have to look for another place to stay while he's in town and crashing with her. I feel a little ostracized knowing that they'll accept a bigoted abuser into their homes and make me wait upstairs until he's gone.

Then there's everything else. I live in a country that refuses to care about it's people. I'm one person dealing with a world full of struggles. Those previous things are nothing compared to what's to come, and I'm shocked that I'm rethinking my morals to live and feel safe. I'm a trans guy fresh on T, who, for years thought guns needed to be restricted, and i plan on strapping up over the break. Everything feels broken and I've been dealing with a lot of suicidality since probably late september or october. The horrors are persisting and I don't have much silly in response. I can't even scrape by with my job. And my physical health is catching up making things worse. I don't think I've thrown up this much since I was getting bullied in elementary school. So, uh, yeah.

Not to e-beg, but if you've read this and wanna help me out my venmo is in my bio. I don't have the energy to link anything rn but there's that.

Thanks for letting me rant o7

[froggibus]

updates

for veteran followers, newcomers & people just browsing, a quick reminder on how this works, the kind of content posted here + a bit of an explanation! (of course, if im rambling, feel free to skip to the TLDR at the bottom ♥)

essentially, i have a bit of a bad habit of scattering all of my updates and news across various fanfic posts. ill probably continue to do this, but i know not everyone reads every post, so you're probably missing out on some info you might want to know

"like what?" mainly, requests + request statuses. but instead of making you guys scour through the depths of my posts to find out if i even received your requests, i thought it would be easier to just post it all here.

content you can expect here:

requests ive received and going to work on

WIPs im planning on posting soon

breaks, hiatuses, changes in plans & planned content

random life updates (sometimes)

to make it easier to digest (+ more relevant to you guys), its going to be in order of newest to oldest. (example: oct 2023 would come before jan 2023)

thank you guys, keep being amazing ♥

TLDR: ive decided to put all of my updates on requests, request status, wips + breaks etc in one place. its gonna be in order of newest to oldest, and ill update here whenever there's news :)

OCT 18. 2024:

brief mental health update here

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SEPT 26. 2024:

hi so sorry i know i've been inactive lately!

between breaking up w/ my long term bf, moving to a new city & starting school, things have been super chaotic & i haven't had much motivation to write :,)

requests are (tentatively) open to non-smut until kinktober starts on the 1st, and from there probably won't be doing any til the end of the month!

kinktober masterlist

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JULY 13. 2024:

summer suntacular was SO MUCH FUN!!! thank you to everyone who participated ^^ i really enjoyed doing this follower event & super looking forward to doing more w you guys in the future!

requests are finally open again! i am probably only gonna take about 6 - 10 depending on the complexity/types of reqs i get + only about 2-3 per character (to prevent another Venturepocalypse) ^^ super excited to see what everyone comes up with ♥

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JULY 1. 2024:

happy canada d’eh!

currently doing a bit of a rework on this blog! changing the way I interact w content on Tumblr to make it less spammy & more relevant for you guys!

requests are still closed as ive been really struggling with my writing as of lately :,) but once I sort them & catch up they’ll be open!

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JUNE 1. 2024:

happy pride ^.^

still working through requests right now & also working on something fun for summer! come vote in our summer solstice poll and feel free to come talk to me about all your summer faves & thirsts!

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MAY. 27 2024:

requests are currently closed! thanks to everyone who sent one in—im just catching up on them now ^~^

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MAY. 26 2024:

i’ve received quite a few requests this week that i am already working on :D im sick atm so it might take me a little bit longer to get through them all tho !!

changing up my rules slightly & retagging certain stories as well!

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APR. 3 2024:

thanks to everyone who booped me on April Fools :) I had a lot of fun interacting with everyone

requests are open!!! all of the ones submitted prior to March 24th have been deleted, but feel free to send them again if they follow the updated rules (found here)

I am also working on a small writing project that I may or may not post for my birthday in two weeks, so we’ll see how that goes

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MAR. 21 2024

requests are closed! rules for requests are being updated and all current requests are being cleared. feel free to resubmit afterwards!

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MAR. 17 2024:

- deleted Romeo & Ghouliet. I really wasn’t feeling like writing anymore, I struggled a lot with taking it in the direction I wanted it to go

- will be updating the graphics & theme of the blog this week so stay tuned!

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JAN. 22 2024:

we are officially heading into Valentine's season, and with that, I want your input on what you would like to see on the blog for that! you can vote here. have more input? have a request? send them to me here!

working on some fics, including OW Women HCs, poly! SatoSugu, Dick Grayson x civilian! reader, and possibly a series as well

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NOV. 14 2023:

currently not taking requests, sorry for the few people who submitted some this week! working on a cozy christmassy Dick Grayson fic rn, and possibly something exciting for the holiday season

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NOV. 1 2023:

life got way more hectic than i anticipated this month and because of that, i wasn't able to write for kinktober the way i originally planned. hopefully next year ill be better prepared and able to deliver quality content consistently. sorry to anyone who is disappointed! ♥

[solitaireships]

❓️ for the prompt meme (one of my favorite emojis tbh) - effiesaude

Emoji prompts: ❓ - “is this what you want?”

This prompt is now officially the longest thing I've written for on here, so thank you for the suggestion @orlz! I ended up going with Alexander for this, tho I did consider using Bruce for a bit bcs I associate that emoji with him a lot lol

Rating: G

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 2033 words

Content warning: Mentions of plagues/epidemics

Divider by newlips (who apparently deactivated, but I have the link to the post with the dividers)

The sound of a bell ringing draw’s Xenia’s attention away from the monotony of reviewing shipping details at the counter of her bookshop. The work day is drawing to an end, and with that there always seems to be fewer people stopping by the bookshop. She doesn’t mind the break— there are always plenty of customers around lunch. But as her shift draws closer and closer to ending, a final push to keep herself from getting too tired is appreciated.

And it’s even more appreciated when she sees none other than Alexander walking in.

“General,” Xenia greets with a nod.

“Detective,” he replies. 

“Give me just ten more minutes.”

“Take all the time you need.”

He says that, but Xenia knows that time is a precious commodity. For the two of them, she would argue that it’s even more precious.

Xenia had thought that Alexander and his troops would leave after the Polyhedron fell. They had only come here to help deal with the Sand Pest. She had expected that they would leave after it had been dealt with, going off towards another military campaign. Especially with the commander at their head— everyone knows about Alexander Block, how he rose through the ranks to become a general younger than anyone had before. Big things were supposed to be ahead of him.

And yet he got sent to a dying town. He was sent to a village ravaged by a plague, with no medical team sent along with him to lend a hand. Sent with troops who planned a mutiny against him, left to solve a problem with no clear solution. It feels like too much of an oversight to have been an actual mistake, but as much as Xenia loves to pull at the threads of a mystery, trying to prove some grand conspiracy is beyond the scope of her amateur detective work.

Regardless, Alexander’s time in the Town-on-Gorkhon is far from what anyone could have expected it to be. With it already being outside of what’s expected, it shouldn’t have been a surprise that the general decided to stay in town after the Polyhedron came down.

He’s kinder than Xenia would have expected from a man nicknamed General Ashes. He didn’t want to leave the town to heal on its own, left to pick up the pieces after an unimaginable tragedy. Not all of his troops were happy about the decision to stay in town, and neither were all of the town’s citizens. 

But at the end of the day, Xenia thinks that this will be for the best. When someone’s recovering from a sickness, others can help with the healing process. She doesn’t see a reason why things should be different for a town recovering from an illness. 

Though she might be biased in wanting Alexander to stay here. That was another surprising thing that came from him staying in town these past couple of months. 

Xenia had expected a lot of things from Alexander, but the last thing that she had expected was that she would start dating him. And for once not being able to predict things isn’t terrifying. Caring for him is one surprise she doesn’t dislike. 

Xenia finishes putting the store’s earnings away for the day, locking it up in a vault built into the floor behind her counter. When she gets back up, Alexander is standing by the shop’s door like he’s keeping guard, making sure that no one can come in to interrupt the closing process.

He’s affectionate in his own way. Xenia can appreciate that. She knows she doesn’t show she cares in the most traditional ways either. 

“I should be ready to go when you are,” Xenia says.

“You’re getting faster at that,” Alexander notes as she makes her way over to join him by the door.

“I’m trying to make the best of my time,” she says. 

After all, her time with Alexander is limited. The Powers That Be will always demand more of him, and the Capital will always find a way to keep him busy. He can’t be the town’s guardian forever.

Xenia and Alexander have about a month left together. Twenty-seven days including today— Xenia has been keeping track. She has to make sure she savors every moment she has with him. 

Xenia has never had much experience with relationships. She’s not the best with people in general. She’s good at studying them— figuring out how they work from a distance. But when it comes to getting close to them, she’s always struggled. 

And yet she managed to grow close to Alexander over the course of these last few months. Closer than she has been with anyone, really. She’s dated people twice before, but it wasn’t like this. She’s never fallen this hard or fast before.  

Xenia hates that she finally found someone she could see herself spending the rest of her life with, and things between them could end so soon. Maybe they can try to make things work even while he’s away. She’s always been a problem solver first and foremost, and she’s come up with a couple of ideas for how they could keep their relationship alive while they’re apart. 

But she’ll make the time she has left with Alexander last. 

Xenia will miss getting to go on walks with him like this though. Usually they talk, but today they’re quiet. Still they match steps with each other, the cold winter air from the steppe making Xenia wish she still had a face mask on her. But without that to provide any warmth she inches closer to Alexander so their arms brush against each other. 

Neither of them usually like public displays of affection. It feels awkward to know people could see them being close like this. The town knowing that they’re in a relationship is different from being able to see it, so they try not to do any more than hold hands in public. 

But Alexander doesn’t shy away from Xenia now. He wraps his arm around her shoulder, keeping her close. It’s sweet, something that’s usually reserved for private moments between the two of them.

“You’re warm,” Xenia compliments.

“Thank you,” Alexander says.

They keep going in silence for a while. The streets of the town are confusing to most, but Xenia’s memorized the flow of them. They’re curving and uneven, cutting odd paths more like something you’d see in biology than city planning. But there’s something about them that helps Xenia to think.

Mainly she tends to think about the future. The things she thinks of now aren’t as bleak as they used to be. But she keeps having thoughts of Alexander being there with her— maybe one day moving in, staying with her and being there for her like no one has before. Through birthdays and holidays and all of the unpleasant things that inevitably come with the passage of time. 

Things won’t work out that well. They don’t usually for her. But Xenia can’t stop thinking about staying with Alexander, about him staying a part of her life for as long as possible.

They need to talk about things. Xenia hates doing that. But they need to.

“You leave at the end of the month,” Xenia says. It sounds too sudden, but it’s a good enough start to the conversation.

Alexander nods. “I do.”

“We should talk about that.” 

Xenia doesn’t like the thought of looking at Alexander right now, so she focuses on the streets ahead of her. They’re winding with uneven cobblestones, and along the path she sees some twyre growing, somehow persisting despite it being out of season.

“What do you want to do?” she asks.

“What I’d like would be to continue dating you. But the distance makes things complicated. I don’t want to subject you to that,” Alexander says. 

“Right.”

At least it’s nice to know that he wishes they could stay together too. It doesn’t stop the ache in Xenia’s chest at the thought that this conversation may lead to them breaking up. 

Maybe she should give up. But she’s never been good at doing that. She’s always been desperate to find a way to make things work with everything. 

“But maybe first we could see how things go while you’re away,” Xenia says, glancing towards Alexander out of the corner of her eyes. 

“As in?” he questions. 

“As in we don’t break things off and try to make things work from a long distance,” she says. 

Alexander frowns. It’s hard to tell if he thinks the idea is bad or if he’s worried that Xenia’s just saying that because it’s what he’d want to hear. She’s pretty sure it’s the latter. 

“Is this what you want?” Alexander asks after a moment. “I’ll be away for months.”

“I know.” 

And that’s a thought that Xenia hates. She wishes that she could keep him here with her. The town is safer than any battlefield would be, and she’d be able to see his pretty face everyday. 

Alexander has responsibilities. Xenia knows that. She can’t be selfish and demand he stay. But she wishes she didn’t have to lose him. Not when she’s finally found a relationship that she thinks could last. 

“But I still want to be with you,” Xenia says. “We can write letters until you’re able to visit on leave. If you want to come here anyway.”

“I would like that. Though I’m not sure that I’m as gifted as you are with letter writing,” Alexander says. 

“You can’t be that bad. And either way, I’ll like hearing from you.” 

And, most importantly, getting letters from him will reassure her that he’s safe and alive. 

“I’ll like hearing from you too,” Alexander says. “I like you a lot, angel.”

It takes Xenia a second to process that he said the last part in English. His words are a little awkward and stilted— he’s clearly still getting the hang of the language.

“You— that was English,” Xenia manages to force out when she remembers she should speak. 

“It needs some work,” Alexander admits. “But you’ve always spoken to me in my native tongue. I thought you’d appreciate it if someone learned yours.”

Xenia struggles to find her words more now than she did when she thought they were going to break up. This might be the kindest thing someone has ever done for her, and she doesn’t think that Alexander even realizes how important this is. They haven’t said I love you to each other yet, but this conveys the idea just with different words. It feels like a commitment, like he’s saying he’s here for the long haul. Like maybe the thoughts Xenia had of settling down together in the future might be possible. 

“Thank you,” Xenia says. “I— how much have you learned?”

“Not much. I’ve been practicing for a week. Mostly more, ah, romantic phrases. I hoped to surprise you,” Alexander says. 

Xenia rests her hand on his back. “It was a really good surprise. Would you understand me if I said, you’re the handsomest man I’ve ever met?”

“I… understood the end.”

Xenia supposes she should have guessed he was more focused on learning ways to compliment her than to respond to her own flirtations. 

“How about you’re very pretty?” she tries. 

Alexander’s cheeks redden and Xenia’s pretty sure it’s not just from the cold. “Thank you.”

“You have a cute accent,” Xenia says with a laugh, leaning closer into him. 

“Your accent speaking Russian is very cute,” he replies, quick as ever to try to turn the compliment back on to her. 

“Thank you. I could help teach you more English if you wanted. Maybe I can give you some lessons in our letters.”

“I would appreciate it,” Alexander says. He holds her even closer with his arm as they turn down a narrower street, like he's trying to keep her fused to his side. “I really do like you a lot.”

“I like you a lot too,” Xenia promises. It’s not quite an I love you, but it’s close enough. And for once it’s easy to think that she could stay like this, feeling happy and loved, forever.

[tetsunabouquet]

Literally my first time making a request, but I adore your writing so I had to 🥹

I would absolutely love some kinktober headcanons of some vampire knight characters <3 Especially about Zero and Ichiru, because we love hot twins in here 🍵

I reread the ones from last year every damn time 😭

A/N: Oh my god, I am the first? That's an honor, thank you so much and it also warms my heart to hear you adored my headcanons. I do always decide a bit of a theme and considering I already wrote general headcanons about the twins and the bodyguard AU ones, I picked another AU theme for this one! I hope you like an arranged marriage theme~

Also, I wanted to post this yesterday as I was nearly done but then my chronic illness flared up and I had to rest T-T

(18+)

Zero General Background -As the eldest son of a outstanding vampire hunting lineage, it was a tragedy when he became a vampire. His parents had already arranged a fianceé for him from another hunter lineage, but surprisingly, you didn't wanted the contract to be annulled upon him turning into a vampire. You had met him a few times before and liked him well enough. You were too scared to be matched up to someone else, someone with a worse character. -Zero often considers himself lucky for his parents having matched him with a girl as wonderful as you. It didn't take long before your distant friendship morphed into love as you kept by his side and supported him throughout the process of turning into a vampire.

Smut -You attended Cross Academy with him, and because you were his fianceé, nobody questioned you going into each other's dorm rooms, even if they heard moans coming from the room. -Which is how every girl in the Sun Dorms ended up hearing you losing your virginity there. -Instead of Yuki, he also always goes to drink from you and you decided to allow him to drink from you in more hidden places like your upper thigh. -When Zero decided to get himself an apartment, he asked if you wanted to officially move in with him and get used to living with him before you got married. Which is how his habit of fucking you every time he came back from a particularly rough hunting mission started. -After marriage, Zero took a month off for the honeymoon and he definitely impregnated you after the first few celebratory days filled with fucking. -You couldn't help but joke afte the two of you got back and you had to tell everyone you were pregnant, that it was 'all the coconut milk you've received,' to your friends. -After you got home, Zero was like, "What was that about coconut milk? I've got some more if you're thirsty." (he's preparing for the dad jokes already)

Ichiru

General Background -Considering he bailed out with Shizuka only to meet you again at Cross Academy, your relationship began very dramatically. Ichiru was shocked that you had remained loyal and hoping for his return because you actually knew he was still alive. -He quit his revenge plans because he realized you still wanted to marry him and how hurt you were over him 'leaving you for Shizuka' as you put it. If he died, then he'd only make your pain worse and you had done nothing to deserve it.

Smut -Like above ^, no one questioned you or Ichiru going to each others rooms knowing you were engaged, and trust me when I say this boy did a lot of making up to you. An example of this was Ichiru's routine of eating you out every time you all had a test. -He took your viginity upon your graduation, feeling like he had to up his usual 'reward' and at this point his dick was practically howling to be inside you after all those naughty sessions. -Ichiru had to redo the year because of how little he studies and how much of school he's missed and you would typically send him sleazy photos of yourself after his homework sessions to reward him. -Phone sex was a regular event during the evenings when he was still attending Cross Academy. He would jerk himself off in his bed at the Sun Dorm as you teased him through the connection at the other end. -As a graduation reward, you let him suck on your tits for as long as he wanted. You definitely couldn't help but think he would drink your milk once you'd get pregnant. -Fucked you pregnant as soon as he moved in with you because he was too pent up having to deal with just jerk off sessions in his final year. -Once you started producing milk, your prediction came true and Ichiru would just suckle peacefully on your breasts.

[badlydrawnwaywardvagabond]

hi its been two months sorry

i didnt realize how long it had been until saturday. (happy late 4/13?)

tldr i swear ill be back some time in the next... month and a half. school is hell and so is burnout. im gonna try to at least answer a couple asks but there prolly wont have art. full explanation under the cut

-mod kat

ok so basically burnout hit me like a sack of bricks to the head and ive done basically jack shit except school for the past two months. finals are at the end of may so final units are fast approaching. on top of that, i have a convention to go to immidiately after finals and my cosplay wig isnt done. i am officially in Project Crunch Time Hell.

on top of that, my adhd ass cant stick with one project so now i have an ETSY in the works, along with a FULL LENGTH MSPFA, multiple fics (one of which might become a SECOND mspfa), multiple standalone art pieces, animations/animatics, minicomics, and even a couple SONGS in varying levels of nowhere-near-doneness.

needless to say, i have maybe stretched myself just a bit too thin. just a little.

taking all of this into consideration, i kinda just. forgot about this. i havent really had access to discord for the last couple months either, which isnt helping. i have no idea whats going on with 90% of the badlydrawn blogs rn.

so. heres the plan.

i will answer asks as soon as i can. some might not have art.

i will be mostly avoiding major arcs, save for one thats been planned for a while.

posts will likely be few and far between for the sake of my sanity.

thank you for your patience.

-mod kat

(ps. to all the mods who were helping me - FUCK im so sorry i didnt mean to disappear like that i will make it up to yall somehow i swear. esp badlydrawnreader mod and kripsy i am SO sorry!!)

[obsequence]

hi so this is for if you care about my writing ! my new blog is @suturism and im gonna be posting updates about my wips on there alongside my other mainblog shit :) i also have a twitter by the same username but i really just tweet abt random shit on there lol , but feel free to follow me if u want !!

im about to ramble a bit so if tail lights is your concern that's below here

obviously , i barely wrote last year , especially compared to the year before that . i didnt really make an effort in my writing at all after about march or so . and it wasn't lack or motivation or ideas

for a lot of people , it's really easy to write TO cope with like difficult situations but for me that's just . not it . im a very tunnel-visioned person and i can really only focus on one goal at once , and my goal for 2023 was literally like: survive . because of life situations plus my own health . i also didnt know whether id have to get extended care , so i didnt want to start any like big fics or anything during that time because i didnt know if id be able to update . thats the primary reason i didnt write much

the second is literally just insecurity and posting anxiety which sounds stupid LOL but it's super real for me . im really trying not to be so self conscious about what i post and to be content with the fact that i have progress to make , but it's hard at times . esp because (imo) tail lights was lackluster and i REALLY want my next multichapter to be better and something i can be proud of . so up to this point ive kinda been too anxious to post much if im being honest ! but i can feel that ebbing and it's simultaneously exciting and scary !

the third reason is just that like up til recently i didnt see a point !! my perspective towards writing has been really negative for a while but now im like rediscovering my love for it in my own and others' works and im just so . it makes me gush and also ANGRY because i feel stupid for neglecting it for this long LOL

so yeah with that: tail lights haha . im sorry but this the official funeral :| better now than holding out hope .

its status is basically: i have no PLANS to finish part two and i dont WANT to finish part two , so dont anticipate anything . not saying it wont ever happen if one day my feelings change but like i really dont see that happening so

i just have too many ick feelings associated to continue it and also enjoy it , so i really am sorry about that

BUT just because i am less invested in tail lights doesnt mean it isnt important to me still !! i appreciate everyone who read it/kudosed/commented/holds it dear 🖤 more than you can ever know . writing that showed me that people WILL actually read what i write , and that they care about it too , and thats a priceless sentiment i cherish

and with THAT: new writing !

so i dont wanna say anything super concrete but what im posting next is PROBABLY going to be yellowjackets related , but it may be saltburn or even tlou !! ill probably write a fic or two related to tlou after the remastered comes out depending on how much content we get and if its anything i can work with :)

but yeah if u read this far thank u for caring about my writing i love you

[fllagellant]

1, 2 & 11 for giilvas my beloved !

🫶🫶 WEEEHEHEHE

questions can be found here !

1) Where can your Tav be recruited? Are they first encountered on the Nautiloid, or in the Nautiloid crash region? Or are they not recruitable until a later act?

I made a post about this exact thing a while ago but now that I have thought on it more and have thing solidified, here are my Official Final Thoughts !

Giilvas is an act one companion who has two recruitment locations . If the player goes to the ruins right by the crash site , they can see him listening in one the looters conversation . Upon approach, he will notice the player and the current party ( a full party will draw his full attention , anything lower will only get a gaze in their direction before he refocuses back on the looters ) and will put a hand out to tell you to stop coming closer . At this point , the player gave an option to try and speak to him , only to get cut off by the Tadpoles .

The vision that will be described at this meeting will show flashes of him preforming in taverns , travelling through thick forests and will describe the feeling of both hunting and being hunted . Giilvas will abandon his hiding spot, and will approach the party . He’ ll ask you to stay quiet , but he’ ll comment on how assuring it is to find someone else that survived the crash ( if the player has any companions in their party , he will make a joke about the player ‘ starting a rescue ‘ ) . His little mission you get from recruitment here is to get his violin back from the looters , you can do this mission without having him in your party , but it is a requirement to keep him . If you go three long rests without managing to return it ( or persuading him to accept a different instrument to use ) he’ ll leave your camp to get it himself . ( this isn’ t permanent he can be re-recruited in the crypt )

If the player does a long rest before trying to recruit him at the ruins , he will be gone . This leads to the goblin camp recruitment I talked about here !

2) Do the other companions have special comments or reactions upon recruiting your Tav?

I feel like everyone definitively has a little comment if Giilvas decides the party isn’ t worth his full attention … I like to imagine everyone had a reaction that ranges from “ Oh he’ s underestimating us ? Fuckhead . “ to “ If he sees us as no threat , I worry about what he’ s watching . “ I can hear Lae’zel’ s Chk ! perfectly in response to him shifting his gaze away from everyone ..

If he’ s recruited from the goblin camp , the dialogues shift to talk about how he was also visited by the Dream Guardian without being in the main travelling group . And how he might be a bit washy with what he sees as friend or foe . He did work with the goblin camp and the followers of the Absolute and managed to convince everyone he was a stark believer when he was just . Planning to kill them / cause a collapse of the group from the inside . Definitely some comment about how he might not be on the player’ s side forever . Giilvas’ boyish charm and high charisma cannot protect him from the possible betrayer allegations

11) Are there any moments in the game that trigger unique dialogue for your character? (Like Gale’s anecdote about the barfight after you save the goblin prisoner)

If you defeat Auntie Ethel ( or aid her ) he will have a dialogue trigger ! If you kill her , he will be visibly ill and will request to leave the party . You can persuade him to tell you more details on why this fight seems to have drained him so thoroughly , and he will reply that the fight itself is not the issue , but what was fought instead .

If you ally with her , he will disapprove , and will trigger dialogue where he is just Fuming . He’ ll mention knowing someone who thought a hag could provide all safety and answers , and will ask the player to guess were he ended up . The player will gain more disapproval if they respond to this with a joke answer and he’ ll utter a curse at the player, ending the dialogue . Answering with the correct option , Buried , doesn’ t gain approval But … gives the player a little insight into who Giilvas is talking about and Why he’ s so upset with the player for taking this risk .

I feel like he would have one within the shadow cursed lands , something about how he had written about it and sang about it and somewhat dreamed of being able to see it first hand , but I don’ t exactly know what would trigger it .

He also has a talk with the player if they choose to go get the blessing of Loviatar . He’ s a follower of her after all so .. he would Like to Hear ur Thoughts about that !

[curse-of-candlewood]

Meet the characters: Melien Clove

To spare my roomates of me yapping about my future webcomic, I'm going to post info about the characters here to get it all out and better introduce people to the small town of Candlewood and its residents. Meet Melien Clove, our main protagonist.

Melien Clove is a fifteen year old who has lived in Candlewood their entire life, residing in the Clove Family Cabin that has been passed down for generations with their little brother and their aunt. They spend a lot of time gardening, sewing, and searching for jobs and future colleges on the old family computer (the only source of internet in the cabin other than their aunt's phone).

They're a bit of an outcast, and they insist that they are okay with that. They are blunt, and that tends to scare people away, and often paranoid that people have secret ill intentions which makes them push others away. However, if someone can manage to get close to them like their family, they are fiercely loyal, generous, and protective of them, even if they struggle to accept that help for themself.

Melien wants nothing more than to get OUT of Candlewood, and being on the internet has only fueled their desire to leave. There are opportunities for their interests in horticulture and forensics, people who understand their nonbinary identity much better than the residents of their small town, and a fresh new start awaiting them where they won't be tied by the persisting urban legend about the Clove family being the 'Witches of the Woods...'

One problem. The Cloves are haunted by a curse. As long as they stay in Candlewood, they'll be safe, but take one step out of the town borders while the sun is down and they could end up like their parents who tried to leave.

Melien thinks curses, ghosts, and anything supernatural is a bunch of baloney. People can't be trusted to tell the truth about those things, people shouldn't be trusted in general. With Halloween approaching in a couple of months, Melien is buckling down to get a job and fund their plan to get out of town as soon as they turn eighteen and doing their very best to not associate with any witchcraft (despite their aunt being an actual witch), ghost stories (despite the fact that their little brother can SEE ghosts), or anything to spur this idea further. That is until someone new shows up in town... Some other character info and trivia!

Melien uses they/them pronouns

They are aroace

Their middle name is Bobbin

Most of what they wear was either altered by them in some way, or made from scratch

They are vegetarian, which is mostly just from the fact that they are kind of particular about eating food from THEIR garden that THEY prepared.

Sharing their harvest and making food for people is one of the easiest ways for them to show affection since they struggle with conversation and aren't the biggest fan of being touched

Same with sewing! Melien loves to repair old clothes for people they care about and makes little plushies or other fabric projects for special occasions My official sketch, and some picrews bc I'm still learning digital art and I'm way too scared to color them in but I want people to get the vibe

[nosetoons]

Hello. This is Wage, also known as The Nose. And today I'm going to be writing this journal entry because there have been things I've been thinking about and need to just get it out of my chest right now.

The first thing is regarding about the things I've said about a group of furries on FurAffinity/DeviantArt (or as I usually referred them to as "gay furries"). I've thought about it, and realized that while at times I do find their behavior to be a bit cringe, I took things way too far and harassed them, made them look stupid, and even used them as April Fools material...twice. Not to mention, I'm not quite different, as I usually draw a lot big muscular dudes on here and have several male fictional crushes. The people I made fun of are not much different, aside from making transformation sequences. Speaking of, I'm into TF sequences as well, and yet I made fun of them for that. This is what we call "hypocrisy" at its finest, and for that, I am so fucking stupid for that. So, with all things considered, I decided it was time to end this and apologize for everything. While you will continue to see me poking fun at certain communities such as the animation community (I have no respect for them even though I like animation), I will try hard in the future to never make fun of people like the group of furries I mentioned, especialy if they share the same interests as me. I will also reconcile and refollow them if they accept my apology (and if they don't, at least they know I'm sorry), because I used to follow them before the shitstorm happened. Not to mention, I know and follow a user on here who happened to be bullied because of their interests, and if I didn't condone what happened to them I shouldn't turn around and do the same to others. It's not right and it's also hypocritical.

The second thing is that I'm planning to return to FurAffinity and DeviantArt and ignore the toxic parts of both websites. Despite what I think of the two, they're literally nothing compared to the sights of Instagram, Twitter (or X), and Artfol. I also plan to work on TF sequences and maybe stories myself, except they will be posted on the Piece O Paper account on Weasyl. Those types of stuff will be posted normally on those proposed accounts. I also plan to lift bans on certain media on my Do Not Draw list, such as Team Fortress 2 and Tokyo Afterschool Summoners. Godzilla and Pokemon will remain banned because Godzilla was from the fact politically ill morons on the Internet ruined it for me by constantly stroking their cocks to it and get butthurt when people criticize the Monsterverse for being cinematic slop, which is ironic because they use the exact term for anything Disney puts out these days. Pokemon is because I've always hated drawing them. That was like that even before all this. Normal art will still remain to be the main focus but there will probably be a time where I will focus on certain specific art.

The third and final thing is that I've been planning to rebrand Nosetoons for quite some time and bring a cast of characters as the mascots of Nosetoons. I was working on a website and some Google Docs to serve as my profile, but I haven't touched in a while. This will change eventually. And I hope before the end of the year, I can officially rebrand and Nosetoons will have a more creative look, but in the meantime, it's still a work of progress.

In summary, I'm changing things up, and I want to explore to other territories. And Nosetoons will remain alive and a fresh coat of paint is planned. Thank you for reading. And I'll see you some other time! ;)

-The Nose (Wage)

[makahimetenshi]

Two separated ways - Chapter 5 - Arthur Maxson x Female Sole Survivor x Paladin Danse Fallout 4 Fanfic

This is the continuation of the fourth drabble from my collection Two separated ways, and I might do a fourth and fifth part even.

I didn’t plan on doing explicit lemon, more like little shots or conversations but nothing so daring, I have to post them separately this way but okay

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The desk wasnt ready for a session of good fucking but he never would think on this happening, less now, never also fantasied with it but oh well why would he say no? His things and tools fall down to the ground but as soon the zipper of the suit moved down and show off some skin his lips moved there to bite and suck her neck

A hand sneak inside the suit and now grope a boob, his palm meeting hot flesh making him groan against her neck causing her a nice purr from the vibration.

-I don’t think this is an appropriate way of dressing for the mother of the future child of the elder –he said whispering with his lips on her collarbone.

-Ill take note about it elder –she said after gasping smiling, moving a hand behind his neck, hot and sweaty.

-Good

Arthur bite a bit on her bone, making her moan outloud, licking up on the veins of her neck, biting the surroundings, small bites to play and test her flesh, he didn’t want to break any skin, it was important to make sure she doesn’t get hurt easy but he already had a notion from knowing her in battle.

The day they destroyed the institute together they fight side to side. See her blasting synths with explosives and power fists, getting shooted with laser rifles and for what he can see…she has thought skin.

So he started to suck harder, leaving red sucking marks, making the smooch that officially marked her, slowly,  moved up, caressing slowly her ear with his nose and lips, breathing against it causing her shivers.

Meanwhile his hands were taking down the black suit, taking it off from her arms, desperate to pull it down her waist and more.

Arthur bit her lobe, pleased from the sounds coming from her mouths.

Nora wasn’t behind, she was taking down his heavy coat, trying to make him cooperate to take the coat off his arms but he was too occupied with the arms to lend her, he cant loose a second of enjoying her body for anything…

Until she spoke.

-Arms off elder –and for some reason his legs shake and do what she told him, taking out the arms as she toss the coat aside the desk. Her hands started to take the zipper down, opening the belts while she look directly into his eyes. And for some other reason he was frozen in his place, wanting to obey and be her toy, letting her work to release his flesh out, his mouth was dry despite being tongue kissing just a few minutes ago but…

What a powerful gaze

Once his arms were off the suit fall on his hips, staying just because of his underwear. Nora started moving his hands on his shoulders down his strong arms, with his gaze fixiated on his  hairy chest. He can see she was exited too.

His own eyes were fixiated on her breasts, loving the view but a shiver make him tremble from heads to toes when her hands touched his elbows to go down and pick his hands, pulling from them and letting herself fall on the desk, the man understood and lean down to stay on top of her, using his hands as a support at sides of her head.

She sighted at the view of Arthur Maxson on top of her, then, close her eyes  as the man kiss her again, she hugged him from the back, exploring with her fingers his muscles and oh boy he was in well shape oh yes Wasn’t as big and huge as Danse but who cares right now, he felt just as firm and solid as him…Then sneak a tongue inside making him moan, touching soft and caring making him shiver and moan again, how cute.

The elder keep a hand as support on the side of her head and the other while the other grope a boob, squeezing it before moving down the sides and curves or her waist, touching the edge of the suit stuck on her panties, well at least she had that, at realizing what he wanted to do she started to move around her hips, encouranging him to pull down the damn fabric out the way, so he did, started to pull down with a bit of effort the black suit and the underwear, passing down her thights while she helped moving her legs so it fall down bellow her knees. Stoping on her boots

When Arthur realized what was in front of him stop the kissing, sighting, breathing for a few moments looking directly into  her eyes.

Oh my god he was about to bang Danse woman.

No, she wasn’t Danse woman at all, and she reach specially to him because of that.

He also wanted to do it, desired her, and he was right here right now.

Moved down to stand with the boots on the floor, place both hands on the sides of her wide white hips and say looking at her red cheeks.

-Relax Sentinel –and she nodded, giving her consent, that’s all he needed. But he took one more second to look at the delicacy in front of him

What a hot view.

Hairless? Interesting.

Picking up from her hips to her legs Arthur spread her open and sttarted to eat between her folds, going directly to suck her clit, yes, suck it, suck hard loving the way it gets between his lips and oh my he wasn’t the only enjoying it, her whole body was trembling. Fearing ti wasn’t a good trembling he moved slowly and step by step up to her button, again sucking, and hitting it with the tip of his tongue.

Now she moved one hand to the back of his neck, sweaty and hot neck, moaning and screaming by moments, biting on her lip loving the intensity of how his mouth was working down there

-That’s good –she managed to say, and then his tongue slip down on her juices getting inside her, tasting it from the source, making her legs  jump of surprise- oh my

Wasn’t this a wonderfull way to get motivated?  And she tasted exquisite also.

-Need more? –he asked with his tongue out of her and his beard wet of her juices.

-Yes –like she was the elder and he the sentinel, ready to fulfill orders and wishes, he sank inside two of his fingers, normally you would start with one, just as a courtesy, also this was the first time both do it but goddam she was so  wet and ready, she can handle it just fine.

So while his fingers started to thrust and move inside, going as deep it possibly can, he keep sucking and playing with the tip of his tongue on her button,  hitting it faster and then licking with the whole of his tongue.

She screamed and turn her neck back, even hitting on the desk, damn it sound harsh?

-Are you okay? –he ask still with his fingers inside, looking up he just see her troubled face and a nood, ok, didn’t mind, keep going.

He moved down  again but this time change orders, his tongue going inside licking and sucking the most of her juices, swallowing that sweet taste, loving the sticky play on his beard and his fingers playing with her clit, piching between the pads carefully and slowly getting intoxicating by the smell mix of her fluids and his saliva, a strange strong smell but my god so good, fills him entirely. Then by the corner of his eye saw her moving her hands to her tits, playing with her nipples, surely wanting to increase the feeling.

Oh my. Something hit hard on his cock at that view

Arthur lick from her entrance all the way up to her button, and then suck, trusting his fingers inside again starting to move faster than ever, then, heard a low gasp from the deepest of her throat –im close –when the man heard that a groan came from him

-alright baby – for a moment that sounded funny to Nora but quickly she didn’t have the chance to think in anything else, he started to suck and lick again on her button and yes the friction of his fingers inside her were so good, even with the man on top of her legs she tried to step better on the desk and place them more comfortable, now being able to move her hips by her own by need against him until

-I…I…don’t stop –she said in a pleading, and he didn’t, keep working and sucking only raising his eyes to look at her, prepared to finally see her orgasm striking, stoping specially his mouth only in the moment a bolt hit her body entirely making her legs jump against his arms, feeling the warm and dense liquid going down on his fingers

A groan came out from his mouth at the view and then he raised, place himself on top of her body  and leave small smooches on her cheek with loud little noises hiding his nose on her hair, something that feeled very intimate and delicate for what they were doing specially with the sound of her breathing relaxing from her orgasm- im going in sentinel –he whisper in her ear with a raspy velvety voice, and feel the movement of her head nodding.

He moved off and Nora took the time to look at his bared sweaty chest one more time, then with a sloppy simple movement he flipped the woman on the desk, it sounded, of course, but it wasn’t harsh or brute, nono, it didn’t hurt at all, just the movement over the furniture. Nora was turned with her stomach down over the cool metal desk with her ass up.

And what a nice ass for sure.

Oh my his mind was lusting so much, and he wasn’t even touched, didn’t realize until now how much it hurts to be this exited untouched he was bewitched this whole time by her scent and forget at all his needs, even with the suit half down the fabric on top was unbereable to keep on, so desesperatly he pull down the suit and his underwear, grabbing his hard and hot cock between his fingers, strocking a bit desesperate getting closer to her entrance.

Gosh even the heat emanating from between her asscheeks make him loose control over his senses, but no he had principles, he pressed the wet head of his cock first to try and play a bit and of course she was so wet and ready, when he heard her little moans from the play of his cock and her clit he moved directly to her entrance and pushed inside, both moaned and he leaned over her back, and what a nice back, elegant, well shaped, with some scars but terribly sexy to look at.

-you are hard –she said with what he saw was a vicious smile, and then pushed deeper, both moaning at the same time again, oh my getting inside after making a woman cum was the best, everything was so soft and warm, even the movement inside feels soft

-yes -he mumble and one of his hands grab her hips, using it as a support like some kind of handle.

A handle to ride a mare, a fine specimen.

His boots stand better and he started moving, thrusting, with a hand on the sides of her body and the other manhanding a hip, closing his eyes to relax and enjoy.

Gosh her ass was so soft the way his crotch and stomach meet with her asscheeks everytime was delicious, the sound was good, the feeling of her skin, the way the flesh moved, even looking down the play and dance was exquisite. How can Danse turn down  on this after tasting it even? Madman.

This was hothothot and oh my this was good too, he was fucking a sentinel.

All his life he has been groomed to marry a perfect woman to bear healthy children and  hold the reputation of his lineage high, and now the chance was pinned down him, sweating and receiving, damn the chance look for him and ask for his seed specially. The image of his family three with Elder Arthur Maxson and Sentinel Nora Maxson oh my gosh that give him a boost, and started to thrust harder.

A Sentinel, my god he had expensives tastes, the other one he ever liked was one too…

Looked down and see the hand he had as support at the side of where her boob was, and without loosing balance and with a perfect stability he sneaked it down her body, groping and massaging it, making her head go up to gasp. That response sent something harsh to his cock that make him moan loud and needy. Yes, this was good, perfect.

The other hand moved to one of her asscheeks and spread it open, even if he didn’t need it because the pose was comfortable enough and the desk was holding her body entirely but he wanted to taste that ass personally and the eyes weren’t enough.

Arthur had something heavy in his chest, something big growing suffocating him, blocking between his chest and his neck, mymy already? Well no its no surprise, he hold on for too long while doing her, didn’t even realize how big and amused he got, besides she was so wet and warm.

He wished to see more.

The elder wants to keep seeing more of her.

Wants to spread her legs open in all diferent options.

This cannot end here.

It was pretty obvious he was close for Nora, the rhythm of his breath, how much he was accelerating unconsciously, how rought and sloppy his hands were turning, how pitched the moans were turning.

And ohmygosh she didn’t expect his voice of pleasure to be so sexy! Expressive and manly!

The biggest thing to notice was the sporadic twitching of his cock inside, its okay, he was a gentleman, took care of her first, didn’t actually expect that from a man with so much power but on some other hand it was difficult to imagine  him otherwise, didn’t have a bad vive…

Nora was loving the weight of his hot and hard body on top, even the way his legs crushed against hers feeled so good. The noises of the desk moving weren’t enough to distract her over what the man was doing with her body.

Both hands hold her by the waist and she gasped out loud, he was close, and he moved good also, even if she came it feels so damn good inside and…

But sluddenly and out of nothing, he pulled out, stroking his cock between his fingers on one of her rounded asscheeks, the woman felt the hot liquid crash into her skin and went frozen…

Wh-why…

He grunted, loud and deep, masculine, very sexy, cumming on her ass but not…why…

She waited for him, to breath, to relax, to finally open his eyes until…a hand scatter his cum in her leg and asscheek, spread it over, felt dirty but also…

When she look back found the man with light blue eyes looking directly at her, like he has been waiting for her gaze.

-Youll have to win my seed…-he mumble taking a breath, recomposing-sentinel-he  hissed before gropping that same wet and hot asscheek, playing with her flesh- the right to carry the elders firstborn  is not something as easy to get from me

Both stay in silent, looking at each other, he had a smile and she was…confused…this didn’t go as she planned.

-Okay –for a moment he separate, but then, step closer, pinning her down again to the desk, pressing his stomach and his now soft cock on her back, going down to whisper in her ear.

-You will not retire from the brotherhood service until you are carrying my firstborn- his nose moved around her ear, giving her a shiver of surprise at the feeling of his hot wet breath against that sensitive spot, same with the hairs of his beard around her neck-but you will have to earn it.

She stay in silent, breathing in and out, feeling wet and used but at the same time…very aroused.

-Alright.