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One of those nights
She thinks. All she does is think. What a curse to have reason and word! And that word never goes away. It stays like permanent ink, like carvings on stone, like fossils on the Earth's soil. The maiden of the castle was allowed to think once and now she won't stop. What she once thought to be a blessing turned into a curse in few months.
"August and it rains… Only my room and the duke's guestroom shine in the darkness and clouds."
For a little while her thoughts allow her to be less serious, to fuss over the weather and her lord's guests. She stumbled upon them in the small dining hall; them eating peacefully-
"Were the nobles holding hands? Oh, how lucky are they to have love in their blue-blooded hearts!"
-her holding dirty dishes to wash. How easily does romance fade out at the stench of half-eaten food… Still, she was happy to have shared a goodnight with them, to have spoken little phrases in their odd languages.
"I wouldn't call me happy."
There it goes; the curse! At the briefest mention of happiness, it goes reminding her she has a half-written suicide letter she doesn't know if she'll finish or not. It is a letter that made her realize how truly unfitting in this world she is. How apologetic she is. How sad. How useless she feels. How her sister was right to point out all these flaws all these years. How she could just maybe give up. Besides, all her life she's tried to become better and somehow ended up being worse.
"When did it start? When did I forget it takes luck to make it in this life, not just hard work?"
She had always believed that if she worked hard she'd be rewarded, she'd get everything she ever wished for. They forgot to tell her she'll start feeling lost, she'll forget to talk to others, and she will be at odds with her family. They forgot to mention that the curse would make her doubt herself at every step, be too decisive one moment and scared or tired the next.
"Have I lost who I am? Am I turning to someone new? Why does it feel like I am just a worse version of myself?"
Her favorite song speaks of the beauty of existence, yet all she's been able to think of -damn that curse- is disappearing. Her sister is right, she is a coward.
"I don't want to cry again."
Crying in a castle is odd. The nobles either pretend they don't see your pain or discreetly ask you days later if you're alright now.
"No."
The maiden seeks comfort in everything and everyone that'll give it to her. A servant boy called her strong the other day.
"I was crying like a baby."
Still, he called her strong. She doubts she is anything good anymore. She tried to kill herself again and her mother is worried.
"How many more times will I almost do it? When will I finally just give up?"
It is one of those nights, yet she must let it pass and sleep. The lord's guests will need her tomorrow early in the morning.
So, this is very much inspired by my current mental state, but I am glad I managed to at least make something creative out of my depression.
The castle photos are mine and the location is Hapimag Chateau de Chabenet. I was listening to the following while writing:
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#writers of tumblr#writers of wattpad#creative writing#writersofig#writer aesthetic#spilled thoughts#depression#depressive thoughts#suicide#mental health#coping#castlecore#my photos#I hope no one can relate to this#but if you do hang in there#we are all struggling#message to bears#sad post#sad aesthetic#sadgirl#fantasycore#medievalcore#Youtube
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Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.
All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.
#your brother is a vampire. he's sitting across the table from you chatting with your mother about her day#and he's dead and he's gone and he's never coming back.#he laughs the same and he talks the same but his arm is cold when he grabs you in a headlock and your dog won't be in the same room with hi#he'll still hang around watching TV with you and give you wedgies and make stupid jokes#but you can't tell him about the bullies at school anymore because this thing with your brother's face will just find them and kill them.#and not even stupid fucking Jason deserves what the monster in your dead brother's skin would do to him.#your brother is dead and lost and right there in arm's reach and gone forever with no hope of ever getting him back.#i'm sure there are corollaries to be written about like ghosts and zombies but this is the one i'm personally hung up on recently
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[image id: a four-page comic. it is titled "immortality” after the poem by clare harner (more popularly known as “do not stand at my grave and weep”). the first page shows paleontologists digging up fossils at a dig. it reads, “do not stand at my grave and weep. i am not there. i do not sleep.” page two features several prehistoric creatures living in the wild. not featured but notable, each have modern descendants: horses, cetaceans, horsetail plants, and crocodilians. it reads, “i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glints on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain.” the third page shows archaeopteryx in the treetops and the skies, then a modern museum-goer reading the placard on a fossil display. it reads, “when you awaken in the morning’s hush, i am the swift uplifting rush, of quiet birds in circled flight. i am the soft stars that shine at night. do not stand at my grave and cry.” the fourth page shows a chicken in a field. it reads, “i am not there. i did not die” / end id]
a comic i made in about 15 hours for my school’s comic anthology. the theme was “evolution”
#dinosaur#evolution#comic#prehistoric#animal#wildlife#paleontology#biology#poetry#comics#original#my art#archaeopteryx has no direct living descendants i know#but i wanted something aerial and the dinosaur to bird connection is classic and well known anyway#also the chicken over any other bird is very on purpose#its the mix of truth and comedy and genuineness and the fantastic in the mundane#its me asking you to see something so wonderful in something taken so un-seriously#and to love it both ways#also the jurassic park thing#where someone saw the reconstructed gait of a dino#and said. hey hang on. i know that walk.#and pulled up footage of a chicken walking#which jumpstarted the entire study into the link between dinosaurs and birds#in the end take whatever you want from it i just thought id provide some insight#i always like it when other artists do#the point is that i enjoy when people laugh at the end and when they dont#and i like it when they cry. i like it best when they both laugh and cry. eeaao intent#anyway mourn your losses but to live is to change#also hi guys i finally figured out tipping after 5 months so no more annoying ko-fi link#the antidote to despair is awe
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identity reveals are always fun
#batcave search history that night: friend has no name. atlantis naming conventions. atlantian names. r there birth certificates in atlantis#theyre so fun to draw guys im sick with it#also: everyone thinking 'But his name is Garth'#I know that and YOU know that but he doesn't until like..... a few years later. canonically#Unnamed Youth 'Aqualad' No Last Name#and arthur does call him both minnow and tadpole so wally n dick r both right in their own ways#and for ppl who really dont know. garth was abandoned as an infant and didnt hang w anyone until arthur took him in lol. what a life#and arthur girl...... was aqualad the best and only u could do#teen titans#fab five#donna troy#wally west#dick grayson#garth of shayeris#roy harper#dc#dc comics#my art#everyone hangin by the salt water pool so garth can hang w them :]
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TRUST CEREMONY
#do you hang on to any chance that you might be in control that you’re the one who owns#THESSEEEE INSAAATIABLEEE AAAASSPIRAATIONNS MAKE ME WHOLEEEEEEE#sorry anyway#I really ate with this one I mean LOOK AT IT UGH#thinking about this forever#artists on tumblr#digital art#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#arthur lester#john doe#john malevolent#arthur malevolent
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Come with Kong to Monkeyland!
Kong just wants to show his New Empire in Hollow Earth
My brain constantly nagging me to draw this as Kong:
#godzilla#godzilla x kong: the new empire#kong#godzilla x kong#COME WITH ME TO MONKEYLANDDD!!!!#this is kong whenever he wants to invite Godzilla to his New Empire#I can see that Kong kinda wants to hang out with Goji cos he thinks they are friends now#Goji just kinda-ish doesn't kill him cos Mothra said: NO#so Goji tolerates it...#for now...#anyway are you happy now brain#i drew it#just for you#do not repost#my art
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Because I have just seen this specific thing for the second time, I would like to say:
If I reblog your art, I do not expect you to reblog (or share!) my fic in return
If I comment on your fic, I do not expect you to comment on (or read!) mine in return
My enjoyment of anyone's work does not come with strings or expectations
My friendship is not a bill that you will have to pay later
That's it!
#the fucking obsession with fandom becoming ~content creation~ has got to stop. this is not a business.#i don't like it when someone acts like i owe them because they complimented my work#and i will never do that to someone else#kindness has to be freely given or it isn't kindness; it's manipulation#this just. makes me feel super gross and it upsets me that it's happened twice#and that both people explicitly stated in their profiles that this is an expectation they have of fandom#you can't form a community by force. that's not how it works.#anyways. rant over. i just want it to be known that i'm not expecting anything from anyone lol#if i talk to you or hang out it's because i want to. i don't want anything from you except you know#kindness and companionship or w/e#bleargh. gonna go play a game or something.#dixeram
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hey don't cry. there's fat trans people!
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they licensed his ass
my finished piece of the FWMS (official name definitely 100%) thing we started a few days ago! I had fun I hope folks had and/or continue to have fun with the sketch as well.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhsy#riz gukgak#Fuck With My Sketch#I mean it I'm gonna use that. gotta stop me if u dont wanna#doing things like this is bittersweet bc this slaps and I look at this and Im like well. I will never be able to nail this look again#I guess that's the plight of self taught art. but also it means you have to learn to let go and go look for different delights#you can't get too attached to one way of doing things. you will find many new things on ur way to make more funny bictures n such#this slaps tho Im so happy with how this came out lol. its be a long while since I last drew something in this vein#appropriate that its for riz lol he deserves it. he deserves the photoshoot pieces#funny enough this also kind of was prompted by drawfee? in one of the episodes I was binging (I thiiiink the one bg a day ep)#jacob brought up one of the artists I follow on twitter (havent been there in a decent while lol) who uses a pretty distinct#blue-on-red palette that got me to think abt teal-on-red and then this happened#funny enough I did start the piece with teal-on-red but then I shifted to blue after and was like wait I love this suddenly#and then committed lol. I should work with teal-on-red properly more but for now! we have fun! we enjoy#thats my journey thank u for listening. thank u for drawing with me if u have and come hang next time if u havent
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Your delivery has arrived!
#my post#cat#hope this brings you a bit of joy#it did for me today#she really enjoys hanging out in bags#we like to carefully carry her around#my partner will bring her to me and tell me#special delivery#i'll do the same to them haha
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I love the little AU that skinny people live in where they have the same problems as fat people and can relate to the Experience. artists references are only for fat bodies, artists that do draw thin bodies are getting DMs from people going like "omg I'm so happy I discovered your art, it's so rare to find an artist who draws small bodies!!!!! for the first time I see people who look like me 😭😭" skinny people going "omggg I finally found a clothing brand that sells nice dresses in XS, I wish they weren't so so overpriced though" skinny people getting home from the doctor's office and collapsing on the couch to tell their roommate that their doc spent the whole appointment quizzing them about their diet and they were told they need to gain 40 pounds. but the doctor didn't want to check out the weird scraping sound they make when they breathe in, just that they should probably gain weight first. skinny celebrities and influencers spending thousands of dollars getting plastic surgery to transfer fat to their stomachs and jawlines. all the main characters in tv shows are fat. when you watch cartoons as a kid, there's one skinny character, and they're really dumb and annoying and get laughed at by the other characters. they're a loser and never get a boyfriend/girlfriend. the same clothes that are stylish when worn by fat people just get you made fun of. desirable romantic leads and manic pixie dream girls twirl their hair and say "yeeah I've just been fat my whole life, I just never lose weight no matter what I eat hehe" and this is an extremely endearing and attractive trait.
#do you want me to keep going?#I love this little fantasy world. what if the world was made of pudding?#sergle.txt#unfortunately I can't even Make Up equivalencies about chairs not being made for you and weight limits on furniture that are very low#car seats airplane seats wheelchairs#etc whatever#hang on I have another funny one. desirable Clothing Styles and foods have the word 'fat' in the name or the branding#there are fat lattes and fat jeans
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priest guy sending mixed signals, what is he up to?🤨🕶🤏
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[Image Description: A warm-toned comic featuring Trigun98 characters. It opens with Vash shouting "YOWCH!!" as a half-eaten donut flies through the air, a bruise on Vash's tongue. Meryl, editing papers, is annoyed as he complains: "Ow! Ow! I bi'e my 'ongue..." "What's the rush?" Meryl asks, "They're all yours." Vash, still hurt, tries to explain: "They're jus' sooo good!" Meryl argues back, "Well, savour it then!" Wolfwood has been watching the scene unfold as Meryl continues, "Satisfying your sweet tooth doesn't come cheap, unfortunately." Wolfwood clicks his lighter open and closed, again and again. Without a word, he leans closer, his thumb on Vash's lips. "Wolfwood...?" Vash trails off. Then, Wolfwood opens Vash's mouth and knicks his thumb on one of Vash's canines in one fell swoop. "Wah? Huh??" Vash says as Wolfwood pulls his bleeding thumb away. He licks the blood off the wound then snickers at Vash. Meryl looks disgusted, Vash has lit up in an embarrassed explosion, and Milly remarks, curious: "Those are surprisingly sharp, Mr. Vash!" Question marks float around Vash, and his donuts lay discarded on the table. Each panel is signed by raepliica. End ID]
#trigun#trigun 1998#trigun 98#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#vashwood#raepliica_art#ww has a thing for vash's fangs (because i said so)#i just know ww has had some interesting thoughts about those fangs the moment he noticed them‼️🦅🦅💥🦅💥#tbh i saw a wolf skull and went haha vash fangies (proceeded to black out for a week to draw this)#98ww is the most normal ww?🤔 WRONG‼️ he's a freak like the other ones! but kinda in a different way#ww flustering vash by being the weirder one>>>>>>#meryl's dwindling sanity as collateral damage<3#if u squint real hard this is a polygun art#okay maybe it doesn't look like it at all... but it is to me#polycule casually hanging out and one of them HAS to be a freak in public ugh🙄🙄#anyway im rambling ajsksh🏃🏃#enjoy this full colour comic i did to practice while thinking i had lost the ability to colour:] (this is what only doing b&w will do to u)#described#thank you starberry-skies for the id!!♥︎
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Day trip misadventures with Sun and Moon featuring @crabsnpersimmons <3
#fnaf#sundrop#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#moondrop#fnaf daycare attendant#daycare attendant#fnaf security breach#fablesketches#jestersdcassevent2024#hello it is I your secret valentine#I love Esther she’s adorable so I drew her hanging out with Sun n Moon#really hope you like aaaaa#<3#this was so much fun to draw I had a blast doing this event
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Can y'all believe I'm almost 300 episodes in and I STILL haven't drawn him. HAD to fix that.
Anyway here's a whole bunch of mini studies/redraws, basically me getting the feel on how to draw The Boy Ever in my style
#One Piece#OP#Also I'm not even close to Wano or Egghead or EVEN the timeskip. But I wanted to draw some of those Luffys lol#Monkey D Luffy#Luffy#OP Luffy#Shima arts#Digital art#Art#Fanart#Can you tell which one I drew first and which one I drew last. LOL#Definitely got the hang of the Baby Face somewhere along the line I think#I HOPE I DID HIM JUSTICE!! I REALLY DO#shima-draws
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so pixies regularly try to take over fairyworld is timmy on the pixie side?
At first, Timmy was adamantly against the Pixies. He'd tell Jorgen every time he got a notice of their plans to take over Fairyworld, and work to stop it! But it gets a bit harder to resist against your own court the longer you hang out with them.
In the present time, Timmy schedules to be out of FairyWorld during their takeovers. He doesn't try to stop them, but also refuses to be anywhere near when it happens.
He... doesn't like how he's slowly starting to cheer for them. Or how their arguments are becoming more convincing. Or how he's struggling to recall why he was so against them to begin with.
There will come a point where he becomes an active participant. Timmy worries that it's coming sooner than he'd like.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#asks#itty bitties fop au#AJHEHEHEHEH#timmy's happy that hp never ever tries to convince him to take part#hp knows timmy's antagonistic against him and knows going to timmy would just ruin their plans#but oughghg.#sanderson has such GOOD arguments.#taking over fairyworld means not working in the office....#you get paid time off....#....the more you participate the bigger the payout bonus after.........#the only reason timmy doesnt bother fighting against them anymore is because he knows theyll fail#there has never been a successful take over#at this point its a bit like playing snip the tail#just a way for the pixies to relieve stress and let their voices be heard#or at least that's how he tries to reason it to himself#also if ur wondering where he goes when hes not allowed on earth#timmy goes to anti-fairy world and hangs out with his anti relatives#well its more like doing chores for them and being their busboy but like!!!#better than being in fairyworld and feeling conflict between your instincts and your family!!!!!
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Alien crew mate, finding human crew mate lying on the floor: Are you alright?
Human crew mate: Yeah I'm just chillin.
Alien crew mate: Oh, you're cold? Do you need a blanket?
Human crew mate: No I'm good.
Alien crew mate, confused but supportive: Ok just let me know when you're done being cold for the day.
#humans are deathworlders#humans are space australians#humans are space orcs#humans and aliens#incorrect quotes#the aliens just don't understand#what do you mean you're 'hanging out'#you are right side up
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