#but idk. i have Limits. like too many limits lmfao

[umemiyan]

sometimes i can’t decide if i need to curate my experience with things or if i’m just being an intolerant bitch who needs to do better LOL

[mazeinthemiroh]

In desperate need of how SKZ would spoil their girlfriends and the gifts they’d get for them like…I feel like lixie’s love language is gift giving so he’s the type to drop half his paycheck on his s/o😩✋🏾

how stray kids would spoil their s/o

genre: fluff

warnings: none

please like and reblog if you enjoy! feel free to request anything <3

bangchan

not only will channie spoil you

he will literally refuse you buying ANYTHING

i just keep thinking of that one clip when he and felix were arguing about who got to pay for stuff at the convenience store... oh the chaos...

like he's so petty about it but it's like a need for him

he needs to buy you stuff

let him buy you stuff!!!

it's just a tendency for him. ingrained in his personality for sure; not something he can control

lee know

he honestly doesn't really think about it at all

in his mind, what's his is your

you want his money? take his freaking money lmfao

spoiling you and treating you to things comes as second nature to him and something he doesn't take much consideration to

it just feels right to buy you stuff you want, and he doesn't give it a second thought tbh

it's just really not that deep to him 🤷

changbin

this man has his wallet out permanently istg

just waiting to pay for things, credit card ready to swipe asap

he's always buying you stuff

just because

like there is no reason for it

maybe he likes being a provider, sure. or perhaps he likes you depending on him to an extent

idk whatever is going through this man's brain, i just think it's in his nature to want to spoil his loved ones

hyunjin

hyunne likes indulging your hobbies

if you are a bookworm, for instance, he will spend not only his money but his time carefully picking out books for you to enjoy

or if you are an artist like him, he will buy you all sorts of paints and pencils and sketchpads. you name it, he's getting you it!

also he has expensive taste, so when he wants to get you a fancy gift he is not stingy with that credit card of his

with him, if he's in love, why should he limit that love? if one way to show love is to get something you've been wanting for ages, why shouldn't he?

han

he would much rather he spend money on you than the other way round

not for traditional reasons or anything like that. more that he feels guilty, like he's not giving enough

he's a very generous soul but sometimes in relationships, he likes to just sit back and relax

and then he feels like he's not putting enough effort in so he over-compensates by spending a tone load of money on you

you reassure him that he is fine the way he is and doesn't have to do that but now it's become a habit he very much enjoys

felix

you are so incredibly right anon

i mean for felix is feel like all love languages fit him because he is basically the human incarnate of love but yeah

gift giving is one of them

felix loves buying gifts i know i have said this so many times in every single felix related content i write but he just can't stop buying stuff for other people

he loves spending money in general, so what better way to do that than spending money on gifts for the person he loves most?

seungmin

he's quite sensible with his money and only usually really buys something if he needs it

but spending money on you is a bit of a different story

he doesn't limit himself nor does he ask if you actually need that item you've been wanting to be. if you want it, you got it.

will literally ask for your wishlist and buy you everything off it, i'm not exaggerating

he's not one to beat around the bush, our seungmin! he goes straight to the point, as he should 💅

jeongin

jeongin is a reallyyyy good gift-buyer

he's perfectly balanced, really. he likes getting you gifts here and there, some of them are personal and others are expensive. he likes to get both kinds of gifts so that your heart is touched but also you get something a little fancy from him too <33

much like felix, he likes spending his money. and he feels he isn't being wasteful with it when he is buying you stuff because it makes you super happy aww

[ashyjingles]

What's your favorite trope in thiam fics? (Or in general?)

this ended up being something a lot longer than i meant to be and is less of a fav trope and more of an analysis of how i view them or whatever but like. here have it

theo learning how to cope with life outside of the dread doctors and being viewed as a monster for his actions (which,,, sorry theo ily and i will forever be a theo defender,,, but never an apologist bc wtf bro) and liam understanding him because of what he's done during his ied episodes and the repercussions

liam's reluctant to admit he feels that empathy for him at first because hey!! this guy kind of not only evil but also batshit fucking bonkers!! but he kinda realizes without empathy he loses an aspect of his humanity and when he accepts it he realizes theo was quite honestly just in an incredibly abusive situation and was just trying to survive and became a product of his enviornment (and considering one of the causes of ied is environmental factors i feel like it wouldn't be too far fetched to say liam understands that personally too)

and theos reluctant to admit that he. feels guilty for anything he did. because that means admitting that he did bad things. which when he tries to rationalize makes no sense because he has done bad things and has even enjoyed doing it because his brains a little fucked and he knows that because he's a monster. but being guilty means he's a failure to the dread doctors. and he's already rotten at the edges and the edges are starting to peel away to show a rotten core and that means he's a failure to the mccall pack because they're a bunch of saints (compared to him at least. and if not, well they're on a saints leash) and he's spent so long being anything but a failure because being a failure means being dead and he cannot shake that no matter how hard he tries until he realizes liam sometimes fails at keeping his anger in check but that doesn't make him a failure. and then without even realizing liam starts teaching theo that it's okay to slip up a few times because that's what makes people human and maybe theo doesn't have to be a monster

but when they both accept themselves and the other it leads to a relationship that no one else quite gets (sure, mason has been there for liam his entire life and i cannot stress how much i adore their friendship but sometimes understanding something because you've watched it happen is worlds away from actually experiencing it) at first but it's the sort of thing that just. fits. because they can both push each other to their limits without actually going over (eventually) but also pull each other back when they need a reminder of who they are (people. not monsters.)

tbh i love them cause there's so many different dynamics and tropes that can apply to them but this one,,,,,,,, this one is the one that well and truly wrecks me most of the time. and i don't even think this counts as a trope.

if i had to choose like a trope trope then. idiots to lovers? basic. enemies to lovers? too obvious. idk any tropes now that i think about it,, fuck. sunshine x grumpy?? but also i think i like grumpy liam more than sunshine liam because that boy has an ied and a shitload of trauma he's not gonna be a ray of happiness all the time and like hell will theo be a sunshine character. OHHHH YOU KNOW WHAT?? FAKE DATING!! or the and they were roommates thing. idk tbh dude. hanahaki if u wanna take a peek at my 4 hanahaki drafts for them lmfao

in general tho? combination of idiots to lovers but also fake dating but also grumpy x grumpy that sometimes leans toward grumpy x sunshine I GUESS. since you're MAKING me CHOOSE.

[bright-and-burning]

⭐️⭐️ can we get a directors cut on your fav part of the light between the lines <33

honestly anon... i couldn't choose a scene. i like them all so much... but i have all my notes from each stage of the process of writing this. so if u have a scene u wanna see the behind the scenes on or like. my thoughts on. lmk. instead of a scene, you're getting my OG messages to k describing the fic idea w some annotations!! (partially copy and pasted, partially transcribed, bc half of it was voice note). this has spoilers !

director's cut post

as you grow eventually u hit a trigger point where ur powers appear but lando’s like. 22/24 w/e. so he’s the longest lasting unpowered guy to stay alive. some kind of like pairing thing yk you get paired w a dude. he keeps getting paired and they keep unlocking their shit but he never unlocks anything. so the class he’s in gets younger and younger as the ppl around him r replaced w new people (old ppl sent off to die basically) oscar has telepathy stop thinking so loud and lando’s like bitch wtf

it's always so funny how much of my original nonsense just getting ideas down on paper makes it into a fic. "stop thinking so loud and lando's like bitch wtf" became a lot longer of an exchange but it is recognizably in there!!

some shit goes down action intensity w/e

lmfao. very helpful, past eve.

somehow they discover lando’s had a power this whole time. he’s an amplifier. that’s why lando’s thoughts r so loud, to oscar.

i had the lore behind the stop thinking so loud convo figured out before i had PLOT. LMFAO.

they save the world.

very descriptive. really set me up to spin out an actual story here

jenson is an instructor lewis is like, general essentially. nico was the last unpowered guy to last that long and HE turned out to be an amplifier but he accidentally made the creature thing worse when he tried to get rid of them

ok now i start sorting out plot. kind of. lore more than anything else

lando’s been wandering the academy for far too long… outgrown the spaces and yet also shrunk himself to them… climbs in vents and snoops and overhears everything. gets into old records and reads thru all the files he can get his hands on.

i had such a specific lando in mind like immediately. "outgrown the spaces and yet also shrunk himself to them" is just. yeah. he's bitter and spiky and nosy and too old and too powerless and far too aware of all of it. this was also before i decided it was called the institute lol

knows the only reason he hasn’t been booted is bc they have a shortage of trained bodies, basically, and lando might not shoot lightning out of his hands or whatever but he Does have the training down perfectly so he keeps getting sent out w newbies on training missions basically and they come back and move on and get permanently paired w someone to like go be Actual Fighters or whatever, not like baby fighters (tho w the shortage of bodies. there’s not a huge line drawn between them. just that lando gets older and older and the kids he gets partnered with stay the same)

he's just. so aware of the limits of his usefulness. that he'd be dropped by now if he wasn't Flawless w it and if there wasn't such an urgent need for bolstering their numbers. and he's also like. constantly being left. every person he's ever gotten attached to has left him (well. minus jenson, really, but that's not the same at all). and yet... he still cares abt them, yk? keeps them safe, tries to help them succeed, makes them laugh.

anyways. idk oscar’s flown through training but has struggled w finding a partnership that Works (like, is ruled a danger in the field bc of it. sent back to baby fighter status until he gets his shit together) hence why he’s paired w lando… can’t have a clash of powers w an unpowered guy. can’t fuck up too badly w the only unpowered guy who’s survived this many missions it’s like putting the misbehaving student w the star student . from a higher up perspective (and lowkey from the higher up perspective. if things go tits up… well they’re only losing some 20 something without powers)

rip oscar... hit w "the slow your roll kid" in every universe. baby fighter status... djfoiadsjflaksjd you can tell im fully just riffing at this point. i was typing as fast as i could trying to explain my ideas before they became nonsense. this bit really recognizably became lando's anger-driven monologuing in the like. second? scene of the fic tho.

some kind of line where lando’s like. they think im the next rosberg. and jenson’s like where did you- what. no you’re not. and lando SHOULD trust him bc he’s snooped enough to know jenson of all people around here knows exactly what rosberg was like. but something abt the tension in jenson’s voice throws him off etc etc

this obviously became the first scene of the fic. which was the first chunk i wrote, but took until the literal last second to figure out where to put (it still feels a bit clunky where it is To Me but i think it does open things up decently and by the time i was dealing w it i just wanted to hit post already jflsjf)

just like . government secrets piling up . all anyone *officially* knows abt rosberg is that he was the longest unpowered guy to survive. paired w hamilton for Ages and then one day they went out, only hamilton came back, and the fuckin . creatures got worse

well. this also stayed the same. albeit a little more eloquent than "the fuckin . creatures got worse"

jenson’s like. for sure the only constant in lando’s life like. for the longest time lando had his peers . and then they all one by one paired off and got real missions and disappeared

oh i didn't realize i also talked abt the abandonment issues semi-explicitly in these first texts. fjdksjfa. god. thinking abt the deleted scene i NEARLY wrote (and fully outlined/drafted) where the galexdo reunion is much sadder. bc of said abandonment issues.

something abt lando amplifying oscar n being able to shut down . idk the hive mind behind it all…

a hint of plot. wow. incroyable.

nico had figured it out that’s why he tried to fix it but he did it wrong and made it worse. and lando’s like terrified he’ll do the same but oscar’s like. you’re not him. you’re not gonna make the same mistakes. you’re gonna learn from them

this became conversation in the vents right before the alarms go off!! and also the starting point for a lot of the lore. it's also the last message! i then sat on this concept for like. five months. and then one night i had a moment like. wait... i think i know how to connect all of those vibes-based bits into a real plot. and two weeks later... tlbtl was posted!!

so yeah. welcome behind the curtains. this is how the sausage gets made. etc etc. sometimes you have to start w nothing more than vibes and nonsense. let it simmer for a few months. and then magically plot will start stringing them together...

it is actually crazy to look at this knowing what it became. but this is how all of my fics start. rambling thought-to-paper notes that slowly get shaped into something real lol

[slytherinshua]

AIRBAG CANT SAVE US

genre. angst. breakup. warnings. some language. fighting. crying. mention of drinking. angst. hwiyoung is kind of a jerk in this, reminder that this is just fiction-- it's not meant to accurately represent the real idols. pairing. hwiyoung x reader. wc. 1.1k. request. no. a/n. based off of drive5 if it wasn't already obvious... uhh sry in advance for this????? i promise i love hwiyoung idk why i wrote this lmfao

“You’ve changed, Youngkyun.” You mutter tensely. Youngkyun always has the aircon set 2 degrees too cold in his car, and a shiver runs up your spine. You always hated the cold, yet despite that, you had stupidly fallen for him. He’s like a block of ice, yet no matter how much you tried to melt him with your warm heart, he stayed chilly.

Youngkyun grips the steering wheel a bit tighter, flipping on the left turning signal and turning onto the highway. His foot pushes on the gas slightly as he matches the speed of the other cars on the highway. He still doesn’t respond to you.

You let out a shaky sigh and look out your window, “Did you ever love me? Why did you ask me out a year ago if you never intended on paying attention to me in the first place?” You wait for a second, wondering if that would get him to utter even a word in reply— even just a hum that he had heard you. 

But, no. He’s always the same. Stuck up in his own world, self-obsessed and unfeeling. You wonder how his friends even put up with him? It’s as if he had no thoughts or feelings. Even when you tried to discuss something that directly affected him, he didn’t even care enough to listen. 

“I don’t even know why I agreed to date you. You’re such an asshole.” You tell him through gritted teeth, a bit louder this time. “I hope whatever poor girl you ‘fall for’ next drops your ass before you have the chance to brutally misuse her like you did with me.”

Again, he stays silent, spiking your nerves just a bit above the limit. Your eyes sting with tears but you blink them back. You won’t cry because of him. He doesn’t even deserve that much. You hear him take a breath, and you turn to look at him, wondering if he’ll finally say something back to you.

“If you had so many problems with me, then why did you decide to date me?”

You hate that response. You hate how calm he is when you’re about to reach your breaking point. You hate that he doesn’t have the decency to at least apologise to you before he spews more of his nonsense. It’s like a stab straight through your chest. If he had ever loved you, even for a second, he would at least apologise for upsetting you before interrogating you.

“Oh, so it’s my fault, is it?” You let out a laugh, and it’s filled with disbelief at his actions. “It’s my fault? I was holding our relationship together for months while you went out drinking and paid no attention to me! I always held out hope that one day you would treat me the same as when we first met. But since January I’ve never seen even a speck of feeling in your eyes. Is it amusing to see me try so hard!? Do you find joy in my struggles to get this relationship to work— only to inevitably fail cause it will never work out with just one of us trying?” You spew, letting all your built up frustration flow out, hitting him like bullets. You were sure he had already built a repelling force field around himself to block you out; one that would only make the bullets bounce back to hit you.

“You wasted your time trying to get it to work.” He whispers.

“I wanna get off.” You breathe out, feeling like the doors of the car were slowly closing in on you. It was suffocating being in the same cramped space with Youngkyun, where everything just brought up old memories.

The necklace that you had gifted to him was still hanging from the rearview mirror. He had never worn it. You realize in an instant that him hanging it there wasn’t a compliment to you. He never wanted it in the first place.

“We’re on the fucking highway, Y/n.” He points out, as if you weren’t capable of noticing that before.

“Just pull over and let me out here. I’ll get a fucking taxi.” You spit back angrily.

“Shit, you’re so impatient. You can wait 5 minutes for me to reach this exit.” He says angrily, somehow pushing your anger up even more. You let the first tears slip down your cheeks. You hate being around him in this way. You feel like he’s slowly ripping you to shreds— limb by limb, leaving you broken beyond repair.

You do your best to stay silent and not let your muffled crying reach Youngkyun’s ears. It would be too humiliating for you to bear. The 5 minutes it takes to reach the exit feels like 5 hours. Youngkyun pulls over to the side of the road, stepping on the break harshly. You jerk forward slightly, and wonder if he’s doing it on purpose. You open your car door in a rush, trying to get out as soon as possible, but you feel him grip your wrist. You turn back around and stare at him, eyes burning to take in his features one last time.

“I’m not the only one who changed.” He says slowly before letting go of your hand. The blaring honks of cars behind you is almost deafening, some of them trying to find a way to get past Youngkyun’s black car blocking the road without causing an accident. You get out of the car and slam the door shut without another word to him.

It takes a second to register your reality. You stand still on the sidewalk for a few minutes, breathing in the crisp cold night air and letting the tears fall freely. You don’t know how far away from home you are, but you know that you’re not in any hurry to get back. You just soak in the moment. You were done with him— finally, you were free from him. You wanted to laugh, but it just came out as harsher sobs. 

If he hadn’t changed, would it have worked out?

If you hadn’t changed, would it have worked out?

You stare up at the sky, sniffing your last tears away. It’s dark and a mesmerising blue; it’s beautiful. You wonder if Youngkyun was also looking at the night, contemplating how cruel it had been to both of you. Though, with a scoff you realize that he wouldn’t care. This would all pass by for him like it was nothing, because it had already been too long to recall the last time he had cared for you.

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[tfp-enthusiast]

Raaaaa I’m so invested in your writing it’s so 💥💥💥/pos especially since it’s TFP !!!!

Anyways I wanted to request a more nsfw headcanon thingy idk what to call em lmfao also you can decide the level of spice since I don’t really know how comfortable you are worth nsfw. But like a very flirty mech reader x some of the cons (your choice)

Readers near Predakings height and was a powerful force in the pits of Kaon. I see too many mech readers being bottom and weak, we need more buff mech readers, I’m just ranting at this point

I quite like ur blog so I might be reoccurring anon hehe so I claim the title of Ghost-Anon👻

Hope you have a good day/night and remember to rest up!! :)))

Knockout X flirty Mech!Reader

[Sure thing anon, you're welcome to come back anytime!(may take some time tho before I can answer😅)]

[Idk if everyone does it that way but just to be sure I say this, I write cybertronians with both a valve and a spike]

[I don't really have a 'limit' or what it's called for NSFW so I guess you can request whatever you want?]

[Btw. I agree on the point with there being way to less top/dom readers]

Knockout

He probably thinks you're just like the other Cons at first because no one, except Breakdown, on this ship have a sense of humor or are playful

So when you answer his flirting with some flirting by your own he just stands there for a moment but then returns with a wide grin and even more suggestive comments

The fact that your that tall definitely makes things better for him

He definitely has a size kink

When he sees you actually fight with his own optics, he saw you fight before on some clips on the databank but it's not the same, he just went like Ha get reckt- Oh scrap, this is hot as fuck

When you actually get down in the berth it gets very interesting, but what did you expect?

Knockout is a power bottom, bratty too sometimes

He's heavily into bondage and maybe some blindfolding too

Loves it when you pound his valve especially from behind

Overloads pretty quickly

Edging is something he enjoys too but doesn't really want to do an a regular basis because it's not really that special for him

[1800duckhotline]

what is vampire the masquerade and whats killer is dead. i assume videod games but i could be wrong... you seem to be having soo much fun im nosaayy 😁

omg hi mani im so flattered u would ask!! yeah ive been in the throes of videogames lately AHAH... oc brained but videogame about it sort of...

vampire the masquerade is actually a ttrpg originally published in the 80s i think, but it keeps getting updated so its not like. anything super old... whenever i mention "vampire the masquerade: bloodlines" im talking about the 2004 videogame created based off of the ttrpg! im biased in loving vtm and vtmb since well. it's about vampires. but i think it's an unique take on them that like makes the supernatural aspect not too boring compared to the classic supernatural vampire take. since it involves clans, a lot of vampire politics and societal aspects to it all, etc... Bloodlines itself is not a perfect game (ill avoid geeking out too much about the brief dev hell history it had) but i value it so dearly bc its so 2004 and is so gothic/alternative in its genuine influence. also the story is goofy but really good too (with um, simultaneously, the con that It Is a 2004 Game, meaning it has a lot of weird bigotries that were normalized for the time lol). Unforchy it's almost unplayable without downloading an additional patch mod that restores also a lot of cut content ^_^ but you make do... its so easy to make ocs for the game and the general ttrpg, sooo many ways you can go with your characters!! Bloodlines itself as a game is an action/adventure RPG mostly focused on combat (with stuff like stealth sessions) as well as various ways to resolve different quests. the variety of said outcomes is mostly limited by the fact the studio wasn't able to polish the game at all for release due to activision, the publisher, pushing troika games (dev team) to release the game early to compete with half life 2 at the time (yeah crazy i know). that said, the dialogues can be really charming and fun and offer a nice variety of things to do.. its not perfect but seriously is the best vampire RPG game around so far..

killer is dead is completely different (mostly because i can never focus on one thing for too long lmfao), it's an hack and slash 2014 game created by suda51 and grasshopper manufacture (same game devs behind no more heroes, lollipop chainsaw, shadows of the damned etc) and it's. an okay game. i dont even know if i can explain the story bc its like, a clusterfuck. and usually clusterfuck stories are goichi suda's specialty but this one goes over the moon (funny joke if You Know). it's a pretty mid game. I love it on one hand bc its easy to play and very stylish, tho the shaders sometimes can give you an headache. I also love the protagonist (mondo zappa) because to me thats a butch not just some guy. Unfortunately the game has the very strong cons of being too short for the kind of game it is, and also has an infamously bizarre minigame that's called "gigolo missions"... you basically go on "dates" with beauties (sexy girls basically), you give them gifts until they 'love' you and then you go have sex and they give you weapon upgrades as a result. the date though consists of you building up your "guts meter" by looking at their boobs or legs so it's like. REALLY STRANGE. CANT HASHTAG IM SORRY FEMINISM OUT OF THIS ONE I'M AFRAID.... it's so conflicting bc apparently suda didn't want to add this function but publishers forced him to. oh well. a solid 6.5/10 tbh. idk if i'd reccomend it tho maybe gameplays are better than getting it at full price imo (i got my game as a gift)

UM SO SORRY FOR GEEKING OUT...I HOPE THE EXPLANATION WAS CLEAR. My brain keeps jumping from media to media with no pause... i wanna focus on ocs again but this keeps happening hahaha

[connorboyyy]

With this being my third ask (am the one who recently sent about 'slow and steady' and the generations ask lol), I might need to soon give myself a little moniker to myself so I don't have to keep saying 'Oh, I'm the anon who sent X' lol

I'm just a bit curious, but is there anything in particular you'd change about the DBH storyline, characterization, worldbuilding, or smth like that? I'd personally probably change some plot twists or points or completely remove them, but idk tbh lol. One thing I'm almost 100% certain I'd change is the thing with Alice being an android and/or bringing back her concept design. Maybe the timeline, too, because the main game (post-Hostage chapter) takes place within a week, which... feels a LITTLE fast for a revolution and relationship development lol

I really like this game, probably top 3 or at least 5, but yh, just curious :)

(Also, I think I've started to ship Hankcon, and it's a bit off-putting how quickly my brain did that lmao)

You should! You should get yourself a little identifier! Maybe a fun little emoji or sign off/greeting 👀

Oh love this question—listen, I love this game. I think there are a lot of good qualities, but I can also recognize it’s totally imperfect. In MANY ways

First off, I completely agree about the Alice thing. I feel like it was something added just for the sake of being a plot twist and really weakened their story. Not to mention the plot holes it generates that are technically able to be explained, but you have to stretch the narrative to make it do so (for example: how Todd could afford two androids, was Alice deviant or was she just programmed to be more emotionally available to fulfill human’s emotional expectations of a child, etc, etc). It also took away a lot of cool opportunities with Alice and Kara. If Kara had to actually be responsible for finding Alice food on a regular basis or finding her clean clothes or places to bathe. It would’ve been interesting to see how much more Kara would’ve had to venture into public spaces to fulfill Alice’s needs and there could have been a sort of peaceful vs violent route for Kara—whether she chose to tread carefully to get Alice what she needed, or demand it/take it by any means necessary. Not to mention how heartwarming a narrative of a human girl and her android mother would have been—getting to grow older under her care.

Also what you mentioned about the timeline—I agree. It was too short. I think a lot about the depth of relationships the characters could’ve had if they had spent more time. Hell, even just one month as opposed to a week. It really cheapens the effectiveness of any romantic relationship in Markus’ route especially cause it just feels unbelievable.

I also really wish that Connor had deviated because of Hank. Which I admit, is maybe a little corny and definitely a tired old complaint LMFAO And I get why Markus was the one who pushed him there, because he actually pushed him, whereas Hank sort of just watched in awe from the sidelines as he saw signs of humanity in him. (But to be fair, Kara and Markus both deviated without a push from an encouraging individual too, the circumstance just demanded it). But if maybe the story had a longer timeline, maybe they could’ve reached a point where Hank had encouraged it. Or sort of an Alice and Kara deal where Connor deviated for the sake of protecting Hank in some scenario. Maybe if Connor was supposed to report back to Cyberlife to be decommissioned due to how long it was taking him, but Connor knew Hank would be vulnerable to some instance—something like that.

And don’t even get me started on the way the revolution is handled/public opinion or Markus’ limited romantic options. But I’ll stop there cause this response is already crazy long LMFAOAO

(Welcome to the club. It’s a great ship, they have great chemistry, it’s easy to love ❤️)

[moe-broey]

I'm gonna be niceys! Sharena rambles pretty plz? 🥺

YAAY THANK YOU 🥺🥺🥺

One unfortunate thing is that my Sharena thoughts are definitely harder for me to grasp... they do have to come to me in a vision LMFAO (THIS. Is going to be a little messy bc of that I think!)

But lately I've been kicking myself over the fact that the Sharena autism didn't kick in for me while Dragalia Lost was still in service, so while I have a huge pile of Alfonse screenshots I have BARELY any of Sharena.

This dialogue stuck with me a lot though! And something SUPER cute tbh is how her cooking has been such a consistent part of her character, that it's mentioned in Dragalia, and continues to be mentioned in more recent FEH moments

(Cannot remember if that Alfonse dialogue is from a Forging Bonds -- I feel like it may be -- but also I feel like it could be from Book 7 too??? Either way it was recent!)

These screenshots made me remember a really old WIP of mine as well...

Other aspects I was exploring were slightly incompatible ways of loving/showing love. Where Sharena is wired towards physical affection, and may not fully internalize something unless it's directly stated and clarified for her. Which! I think is also a brilliant catalyst storytelling wise, to set up just how severely lonely she felt. That, Henriette and Gustav aside, plus generally being isolated from the world... maybe, especially as a child, it was hard for her to conceptualize that Alfonse DID love her. Leading her to feel even more alone, even if there was at least one person who loved her. Even if that person was with her most of the time.

(that last bit is something I've especially had to consider deeply.... bc their relationship IS so significant to me. How is it, she ended up in the dream realm? Despite being loved so dearly?)

Other snippets, from more recent WIPs that I've been rotating in my mind....

Devoid of context but like. I have SO many interconnected plotlines where Sharena is at the center of it all LMFAOO (One I've talked a lot about is Triandra and Alfonse navigating The Situation, but this recent one is in light of what happened with Seidr and Heidr. WHICH. I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT. Esppp in comparison to Reginn.)

Some context. As a treat (TRYING NOT TO SHOW MY ENTIRE HAND AND ALSO I HIT IMAGE LIMIT ANF ALSO. Idk when I'll even get to All Of This I do feel like eventually I just have to cave and learn how Ao3 works LMFAOOOOOO)

I am sorry all of this is in relation to Alfonse btw 🥲 LIKE. I do tend to write from Alfonse's POV (third person limited? Never first person, but very much told from his perspective/knowledge/feelings. Meanwhile important info about other characters' emotional states is show don't tell, implied, ect). Which results in something funny sometimes where like. It Is focused on Alfonse, sure. But Sharena IS the core of it all, actually. Sometimes, to the point of haunting the narrative... just a little bit!

[fictionfixations]

i have a confession

i love blade (also holy shit hello second blade ssr, goddamn.)

so anyway i just started playing nu: carnival lmfao. I heard of it awhile ago, but at the time had no interest in mobile games. And then I got an ad with like the animated opening and thought 'huh, that's cool. You know what? I'm gonna give it a shot.' so blah blah blah. anyway the second i saw blade, i knew i loved him. he's my favorite. (ngl his appearance reminds me a lot of floyd leech from twisted wonderland. except brighter. and from the few appearances ive seen of him from going through the current events and reading the wiki page on him a little, he's like. kind of more. innocent?? naive??? uhh. ye.)

so. then i spent the next 9-10 hours grinding up as many of the thingies that you use to wish as i could. because it lasts until the 4th. and i think the timezone's different cuz the other event due on like the 4th too had like '[] hours left'. (i took a nap at one point tho)

so for one. i am very lucky that he was there (what are the chances). and two. holy fucking shit. i fall way too easily to gacha time limits temptations lmfao.

anyway my hands hate me. ive mostly just been replaying chapter battles (ive just finished the fourth now, idk how many there are) to get my level up cause i also wanted to finish reading through the story of the event that was due soon cuz i was stuck since the enemies were too strong. i did tho so yAY. (im probably never going to play the game in such a large quantity though lmfao.)

this just proves i dont have a life. *headbang*.

(anyway this game is 18+. just a warning.)

[blondiest]

Worst part about being in fandom is, you see a group of people who create, and who love to write/draw/whatever for a certain ship and then. You see the 'other ship' people and it's just. Them complaining and being annoying and bitchy towards the first group and then saying they don't have any good fics/art/etc. Like idk how to break it to them that they kinda have to do the work, too!!

right!! i'll say thankfully my experience has largely been that these people are the minority in most ships i've seen, and i do have some sympathy for the feeling bc like. ghsdhgshdg been there many times. i have never picked the popular ship in any fandom to make fanworks for. but when an online space becomes centered around complaining rather than a place to celebrate the ship & get excited together, it's extremely offputting to people who may otherwise be open to shipping it, and therefore, like, really counterproductive lmfao.

wholeheartedly support bitching in private with friends whenever, but i think it's best to limit the amount of negativity you bring into fandom spaces. i don't think negativity needs to be at a zero (i, too, love to be a hater occasionally) but it's not very fun if that's like. the majority of what you do.

also. sometimes you do see people complaining about the lack of fanworks while also just not engaging with any of the fanworks they claim to want in any way. again, counterproductive and also frankly confusing.

[weaselishmcdiesel]

pokemon rant ahead bc im a born hater what can i say <3

playing scarlet and i just caught chien pao which i wanted on my team before id started playing and was just picking which pokemon i like best. the fucking?? running animation?? is fucked up?? there SEEMS to be a walking animation like it exists and i get a glimpse of it every now and then but it seems like it refuses to use anything but the running animation. so you cant reasonably walk beside the pokemon because its animation is freaking the fuck out, angles get fucky, the thing runs ahead of you, just bad. it's just i really wish that the follow mechanic wasn't dogshit, i want to stroll around with my pokemon not lagging behind. how come every other game can figure out a follow mechanic. how come modders can figure it out (there's maybe a chance the pokemon is stuck running because i caught it at a higher level than my current badges give me control over but idk if that's how the game works)

and another thing i noticed (that everyone else probably noticed bc this game has been out for a while lmfao but-) the entire world feels like it was MADE for exploration on koraidon. if we compare it to botw/totk, the terrain in those games doesnt feel like they were made for horseback exploration. there are so many huge wide expanses in scarlet that, the moment you get off your ride, you feel small and out of place. like there's absolutely no incentive to walk around on your own because everything is too far away to comfortably explore on your own (and also there's hardly anything TO explore. everywhere is empty and boring and repeating). botw does not suffer from this at all, all the environments feel realistic in scale. and i wish if the game were more focused on the horseback (pokemonback?) exploration that there was more fidelity to koraidon's animations and mechanics. I believe it's called procedural animation, the ability for a model to react to the environment it's in (ei, when link is on a slope, his leg will bend and his foot will rest realistically on an incline, same goes for horses in botw when theyre on inclines. these are calculations the game makes in the moment of execution, not rendered out during development accounting for every possible position a player could be on a slope). i feel like this should happen with koraidon at the least, if you're going to be on it for the majority of the game.

and don't get me STARTED on how absolutely stupid it is for so many pokemon to be as small as they are. constantly tripping on a 2 centimeter tall pokemon that i didn't see and initiating a battle gets really fucking old. from purely a game design standpoint, for one of the first games in the series to feature pokemon walking around in the overworld, youd THINK they'd somehow incorporate more accessibility for being able to SEE these fucking things, but no. the camera is far from the player (i play with the camera as close as possible, i know it's adjustable) and the grass that's fucking everywhere is taller than a lot of pokemon. also the shiny issue. how the pokemon from this gen have a lot of MINUTE differences in their shiny palette that make shiny hunting more of an eye-strain simulator than anything.

and i know that there are a lot of pokemon in these games meaning a lot of assets meaning a lot of space thats dedicated just to make creatures appear. i know all of that takes away from the space needed to make animations or appealing scenery or really just a substantial game. but remember when they said theyd limit the pokedex so that they could make sure the pokemon they DO include have higher quality models and animations? and remember how they never actually did any of that. (changing the rendering engine and the textures is NOT higher quality anything. and if you think it is, how come the textures on hills FUCKING SHIFT AS YOU WALK PAST THEM? THATS A LOWER QUALITY ENGINE!!! THAN WHATEVER THEY USED BEFORE!!!)

i'm just saying that i really wouldnt mind if they HUGELY limited the pokedex IF IT MEANT that we could get cutscenes with unique animations and effects. get rid of a few hundred pokemon if it means the overworld is decorated with more than a dozen repeating assets that make it difficult to tell where the hell i am without looking at the map. maybe i want to see big wind turbines in the background move at more than 2 frames per second! why is the largest landmark in the area moving at 2 frames per second?! bad!!! ugh.

i think all the issues i have with this game are reasonable grievances for a game that costs 60 fucking dollars. i dont want to hear a single "it's just a kids game!" it was 60 fucking dollars. +dlc +online subscription

theres lots more i can say but this is just what's really bothering me right now hahasdfk

[tezzbot]

now I'm curious, what other opinions abt the dub do you have 👀👀👀 me and my friends think karamatsu sounds like markiplier

RAY CHASE BESTIE I AM SO SORRY but no youre rightJKGHFJGH

THIS GOT LONG IM PUTTING A READMORE

i do actually really really like Ray Chase as kara but the way that Nakamura pitches his voice down for him and then when something karamatsu isnt like. prepared for or whatever happens he goes back up into his regular vocal range or sometimes a bit higher really adds to karamatsu's whole. everything HJGKHFJGH LIKE his whole identity pretty much IS performance so even his voice being part of his front is so fun to me, Ray Chase's voice feels so naturally deep and smooth that its like. his voice is Too Cool for kara yknow like his voice being Actually cool? karamatsu fucking wishes JHKGJFGHD BUT i do think he is one of the better choices that the casting directors made compared to the rest of the brothers

(AGAIN NOT SHITTING ON THESE EXTREMELY PROLIFIC AND TALENTED VA'S this is just my opinion of them as the ososan characters)

like i said before i have Absolutely zero qualms with Max Mittelman as Totty literally thats a match made in heaven I think he was perfect for the role n absolutely killed it hes so funny and from what ive seen the writers actually gave him so many good lines big ups for todo likers

Kyle McCarley as Ichimatsu i honestly havent seen much of his performance but god did he put is whole pussy into the one episode where he INSISTS they have to respect each other, hes honestly really really good at maintaining the monotone voice while also conveying a lot of emotion through his voice its pretty impressive that he can do the yellingscreaming while keeping that up, Fukuyama Jun's like. jump from monotone to YEEEAAGHHK when ichimatsu is At His Limit is really really funny so i think that these two are pretty much on par with each other while putting their own spin on how the character . i dont know. expresses himself i guess. poggers :thumbs up emoji i cant use cus im typing on desktop:

in a ranking id prob put Ray's kara here but i already did him so. just. in case u wanted to know this is where he goes to me lmfao hes pretty on par with Kyle's ichimatsu to me tbh

Billy Kametz as Osomatsu honestly worked pretty well osomatsu is the most some guy ever and when u listen its like. a little over the top(obv bc its an anime dub) but its definitely a voice youd hear and go yeah ive probably walked past someone what talks like that, again Great delivery on some lines, he does sound a lot less SillyGoofy #girl... frat bro vibes in there tbh But i mean if he was american i guess he kinda would be huh GHJFGHDF he kinda lost how cheeky he sounds in jp also like there are moments but for the most part :( also the way they wrote him (again i havent seen much but from what i Have seen) he doesnt have the same I Love My Little Brothers energy idk how to describe it they all feel like they hate each other more rghjbhjgh

Sean Chiplock ouygugh im so sorry king but also not it for Choromatsu...... casting directors, voice directors, whoever else is involved in the process, if youre gonna cast around your initial reactions to how the characters are why doesnt he sound like a fuckin nerd!!! i get that hes initally played as a Straight Man but you didnt have to Just Some Dude him make him sound like the loser he is!! even like a little nasally! i also think he sounds a little too much like Billy's Osomatsu, (which again not the va's faults i feel its a voice direction issue) when they talk at the same time its kinda hard to tell em apart which might be on me for not watching enough and getting used to it but... sorrie... no from me

Michael Sinterniklaas i have so much repect for you but.... i already said in that other post, the voice they okayed..... everything he was made to say....... no. thats not jyushimatsu. that fuckin. companion character in some fantasy anime ass voice, his whole deal in the dub is too childish imo and i get why that was their first impression but oough his character suffers so so much for it moreso than any of the others.... they massacred my guy..... and this is absolutely not a dig at Michael, ive seen his other work hes incredibly talented, just everything they got him to do as jyushimatsu makes me take critical damage in real life my hp bar drops so so much

Also i really like Cassandra Lee Morris as Totoko but I feel like she doesnt capture the flip between teehee totoko chwwaaannn and KILL KILL KILL voices that Aya Endou manages, he voice is very cutesy, but i feel like she doesnt sound mad enough when totoko gets pissed WHERE IS YOUR ANGER? YOUR RAGE??? RISE RISE RISE RISE RI

also also Keith Silverstein as iyami is honestly really good i didnt really know what to expect but i feel like hes p spot on, idk how iyami-likers feel abt him though lol ask telly or sth HJGHJ

SORRY this got long but i probably was never gonna be happy with the dub, im not gonna get too much into the writing in the localisation but ough. it is Just a comedy show to the dub writers and i can respect that, but the show means a lot to people Because of the characters and how they clearly run deeper than they appear thats a huge part of the appeal for ososan imo and i feel like a lot was lost in the translation. But! it can be pretty funny sometimes and thats all it rlly needs to be, funny haha penis anime

im gonna try and give the dub another shot, ill do me best to grit n bear through it GHJFG

[ronin-deactivated19851026]

so i've been extremely overwhelmed by....... i guess everything online lmao, it's really hard to focus on things when you're constantly bombarded with things you don't really need at the moment

i'm trying to get back into journaling but damn it's so hard. i know my head isn't empty, i spawn walls of texts almost daily, but my mind goes blank when i'm in front of an open notebook because i don't know what's truly worthy of writing down? it's kind of like with drawing at this point. i'm stuck with the art block because i don't know what's worthy of drawing. and guess what made me feel this way? the social media lmfao. i hate that literally every idea i consider cool i never depict because my brain immediately goes like, "who cares about this?", "this won't get noticed and also you're too late, so don't be cringe", etc

i hate this so much idk. anyway, i think i'm going to make a list of things to focus on, both personal projects/artistic inspirations and fandom related ones. i do have things i overfixate on for years, so why am i letting myself be distracted by some random content ideas that only matter to me for like a day or two...?

i should also start limiting inspirations in general, looking at my folder rn and realizing that there are just WAY TOO MANY things i want to incorporate into my work and it really overwhelms me. reminds me of various artists saying that "less is more" and holy crap i should start limiting myself. this is something i slowly started to realize on my own when i did some pixel art, which is limited already due to its nature, with some color palettes instead of randomly staring at a color wheel for half an hour, not being able to decide which one to use.

also i found out about artfol, social media for artists, and so far it seems promising? haven't tried it yet, maybe i will upload some stuff there later. also maybe i'll finally sort everything here on tunglr dot com and make a separate art blog and will use this one as my "main"-diary-esque blog where i won't post much. it's not like i'm on here anyway, my dash feels overwhelming so i don't even scroll past 3-4 posts a day anymore on here. i'm tired of social media. it doesn't feel personal anymore, it's not fun, not interesting...

fomo effect used to fuck me up before something clicked and i stopped scrolling things. because due to nature of the modern internet, i have more chances of stumbling across useful/interesting information if i just keep scrolling through junk. since as you know, google is dead anyway, shit is hard to find these days, and indeed, every cool thing i managed to find was through random braindead scrolling (post 2016 i mean, i miss mid 2000s era when stuff was actually GOOGLEABLE and you didn't need to scroll long ass feed to stumble across cool things, you could get there at your own pace while just surfing the web). so the habit was made worse by "damn what if i miss some obscure post that features obscure cool thing that will matter to me once i get to know it??" but i'm just so fucking exhausted... everything i love about the internet because so dormant, niche even. the internet, as i define it, is dead to me. it's really heartbreaking

[elmaxlys]

Hi I’m giving you another one if you’d want it, if not just ignore this. 003 for Shikorae or Itori! Clowns my beloved, Sorry for doing this twice the only thing I like more than answering questions is asking them.

nothing to apologize about you can send as many as you want haha! thank you for these :3

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you: Itori edition

How I feel about this character:

I!!!! Love her!!!!! She's my wife!!!! She is fun and depressed and crafty and manipulative and 🥰🥰 wish we'd seen more of her because she slaps so so severely.. she was done so dirty, with this little screen time :v

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:

I'm not deeply involved (positively) in any Itori related ship. She simply doesn't interact enough with anyone for me to.. I do have nOTPs tho lmao (like ut*t*ri)

I don't mind Itorize, Itorieto (Etori?) and Itorizeto but that's about it (no OTP here because aro hcs too strong)

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:

4th ward gang my beloved 🥰

My unpopular opinion about this character:

I simply do not see enough opinions about Itori but I guess seeing her as aroace probably is. Jessica Rabbit kind of situation u_u

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

MORE!!!!! SCREENTIME!!!!! This is CRIMINAL how little she appears, even for a Clown!!! There were counts of "how many chapters since Hide" and there also were "how many chapters since Itori" and guess who appeared less and later in :re haha *sobs*

I wish we'd seen her kagune ability properly, too! with a little explanation at the very least!! I'm not even sure the flutes were Itori and not Donato's, to tell you *sobbing intensifies*

Her character deserved more respect than to be shipped off with "she's sexy, she's in love with her gay best friend and so she does whatever he does" like what kinda bullshit is this?? since fucking when??? URGH (*inhales* 179 isn't real and cannot hurt me 179 isn't real and cannot hurt me 179 isn't rea-)

Favorite friendship for this character:

Again with the 4th ward gang, but also with Nico and the Clowns, tho, again, I wish we'd seen more of them RIP

My crossover ship:

None

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you: Shikorae edition

How I feel about this character:

Skrunkly. Activates Protec Mode, Extreme edition. Close second place right behind Souta in the competition for who's more of a tragic character in Tokyo Ghoul, solely because of 179. I haven't played the game or read the scenario book (please Glénat.. we all know I hate you but I'd buy it I am begging. please translate it) so my feelings are limited to what little we know of him in :re but oh my good. poor little baby of my heart...

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:

None

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:

ROMA. As I said, I don't know shit about the game so I don't know his brother or anything about him and stuff, so while I am aware that, knowing myself, he might have been my answer if I did know, that simply is not the case and so his mommy wins. Look at them..

My unpopular opinion about this character:

OTL I haven't read the Jail book so I don't even know the character all that well and therefore I am very not confident in any deeper opinion I have on the character. But, as I do every Clown (and most every character lmfao), I see him as aroace. Idk what the consensus on this baby is but this bears mentioning I guess?

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

HOW'D HE END UP WITH ROMA?? He's with Aogiri on Rushima and the next thing we know he's with Roma and quite close already, at that, so they've clearly got history beyond Cochlea cell neighbors but - and if this was in the Jail game someone please tell me orz - what history?? I want to see!

Also more interaction with the other Clowns as a whole.. with Souta especially...

Favorite friendship for this character:

With Seidou, they're cute :)

My crossover ship:

None

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The Ask Game

[the-algebra-thing]

I can say though that I'm catching up to pd rn and today was the first time in history that dakota genuinely made me angry. I was so fucking peeved listening to him moralize all over everyone. like enough so to, in the moment, wish to god bizly would just find a way to put him in the situation he is SO SURE is completely black and white asa fucking p. kill this person or this person kills tide. you have seconds to act. you cannot think of any way to stop them that is not lethal in small amount of time you know you are limited to and if you don't do anything the evil tide-killing villain whose life you're so worried about will take away the life of your dad for ever. and that's not even the scale they're talking about—they're talking about a few people for so many lives. like obviously I don't wish that on him and obviously I don't think killing people is okay but it is so frustrating listening to dakota tell vyncent that what no he's not thinking in black and white how is this black and white and Also the thing vyncent just explained to him IS thinking in black and white so he has no point and like. now I'm listening to the rolled and grizzly is talking about it and it's making me mad again lmfao

like "dakota just wants someone to give him a good answer for killing people and no one really does" ?????? you're the one making it impossible for people to get through to him. vyncent laid out a reasonably phrased, genuine, working argument this episode, using an example that he is clearly very emotionally invested in, with the specific intention of explaining his thought process to dakota rather than shouting at him like I would've at that point, and dakota was like oh so now you're thinking in black and white too huh! and vyncent immediately realized like. he doesn't care. he quit trying immediately after that, like IMMEDIATELY, because dakota, instead of working with him and explaining why he didn't understand, just told him his point didn't exist. there was no empathy for what vyncent has experienced in the past few days at all. grizz lee plays can say "I want to save people not kill people" in the dakota voice in various phrasings and various contexts as many times as he wants and it won't make those things always be mutually exclusive. it doesn't mean you can spit out platitudes at your friends and brush off the grey that they point out to you in good faith while they do the exhausting work of slogging through these moral dilemmas.

idk I'm just hoping dakota's aggressively categorical moral stances, in the long run, resolve in a way that is kind and understanding of vyncent's feelings and just other people's feelings and perspectives in general. dakota seems to answer to his own idea of how the world works before he answers to anyone who's in it, and it worries me