#but idk we'll see if i can manage that i'll push it back if not bc it's just me doing it anyway lmao

[fxckinemo]

ughhhh

[angelicizedeve]

☆⋆｡ 𝓭𝓻𝓾𝓷𝓴 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𖦹°‧★

featuring: felix x reader

synopsis: after having an uncomfortable encounter at a bar, your best friend, felix, drives you to his house and you stay the night.

CONTENT WARNINGS: you get harassed by a weird man at a bar, mentions of alcohol consumption, kinda forced proximity, a bit of angst which ends in fluff, a couple swear words

word count: 1.8k

notes: wow i'm back from the dead after taking a 7 month break from writing! idk if i'll continue to write tbh, maybe once in a blue moon BUT we'll see!! anyways i hope you guys like this <3. i branched out of genshin and have now entered the world of kpop writing.

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You shifted uncomfortably in your seat. You were out with a group of friends at a popular bar. It was a Friday night, you looked cute, and were surrounded by friends. You should be having fun, but all you wanted to do was go home. Big and loud gatherings weren’t really your forte. You leaned over to your friend next to you, saying over the noise that you were going to get another drink.

You let out a deep sigh, sipping at your drink and mentally preparing to leave the bartending area and go back to the big group, when suddenly a man approached you. He had this look in his eyes that automatically made you uncomfortable. 

“hey little lady,” he said, as you tried to hide how you were cringing at that horrible nickname he just called you, “how bout i buy you a drink?” He placed a hand on your thigh, making you instinctively uncross your legs as he started moving his hand up and down. “I- um…if you want to..” was all you managed to respond with. 

“Here's what I want:,” he said. He moved behind you to put both hands on your waist. “to get you something to drink, take you home, and-”

Your eyes widened in disgust at the next part.

Oh my God… You thought.

This man has no manners. It’s no wonder he’s so fucking weird; it’s ‘cause no women wants to talk to him. 

“Sorry, but I'll have to decline.” You said in what you hoped was a firm voice.

His hands tightened around your waist.

“Please stop touching me.”

“I don’t think you understand just what I can do.” He hissed.

You realized that this wasn’t going to be as easy as you thought. You could already tell he was very drunk and wouldn’t just “back off” if you told him to (once again). You tried to catch the eyes of the bartender, but they weren’t paying attention. Only a miracle could save you.

“Hey babe, is this man bothering you?”

Your eyes shot open and you turned to see another man. It was Felix.

“Hey, stop touching my girlfriend dude.” He said, pushing the man away. “Don’t come near us again.”

The man gave both of you a dirty look and left. You breathed a sigh of relief, turning to thank your saviour, Felix. He was your best friend. It was as if the two of you completed each other. He was always sweet and caring to everyone he came across, so it was a bit of a shock to see him yell at the man. In your years of friendship you had never really heard anything like that.

Felix immediately turned to you and started explaining himself. “Hey, sorry about the whole boyfriend-girlfriend act. I just saw how uncomfortable he was making you and-“

“No no, it’s completely fine. Thank you so much.” you said with a smile of gratitude. 

“He didn’t..uh, hurt you..did you?”

He looked like he was ready to beat the man up if you gave him the word.

you quickly shook your head, and he breathed a sigh of relief. Suddenly he tensed up. 

“Crap, he’s looking at us.”

Felix quickly put his hand on your waist and plastered a smile of adoration on his face. 

Damn it. He looks so cute right now. Imagine if I was really his girlfriend. I could get that look everyday.

You told yourself to snap out of it. No WAY you were wishing to be his (real) girlfriend. 

Get a grip y/n. You’re just friends. 

But that stupidly adorable puppy dog look on his face is making it really hard for you to use common sense, despite you seeing it nearly every day when you hung out together.

What’s wrong with me?! 

You cleared your throat. “Hey…can you drive me home? I just don’t feel comfortable getting into an Uber alone with a stranger..” 

Felix nodded understandingly. “Do you wanna go right now?” he asked. You nodded, making a mental note to text the rest of your friends saying that you’re tired and going home. Felix led you outside to his car.

It smelled nice, clean, and had soft, warm lights lining the dashboard. He put your apartment address  into his GPS and started driving. The gentle rocking of the car slowly lulled you to sleep, until you were gently shaken awake. “Y/n, we’re here.” Felix softly said. “Oh, sorry. I must’ve dozed off..” you said, still half asleep. “Thanks for the ride. I’ll talk to you tomorrow!” You made your way out of the car and up the steps to the apartment you shared with your friend.

That’s when you remembered you didn’t have the key. So you knocked on the door and waited for your friend to open it.

You see, you had left your key in the apartment to prevent yourself from losing it at the bar. Your friend was supposed to let you in, but apparently they weren’t home because nobody came to answer.

Shit.

Nonono..

Felix rolled down the car window and craned his neck at you. “Is everything okay Y/n?”

Panic set in as you realized there wasn’t really any good solution to this. You walked back to the car, crouching down to be at eye-level. “I- [friend's name] was supposed to open the door and I don’t have the key. And now they’re not home and not answering their phone.” 

Felix laughed at you. “Oh, I see. You can stay at my place tonight if you want. I’m sure Han and Hyunjin will be happy to see you.” You contemplated it for a second. You did need somewhere to stay. It was dark out, and who knows what kind of people you’d come across if you opted to sit outside your apartment door waiting. But…you’d already made Felix drive you all the way to your apartment. “I promise it’s okay.” Felix reassures you. the dilemma you were having must’ve shown on your face. You gave in. “..Okay. Thanks Lix.” 

A little while later, you arrived at Felix’s apartment. He shared it with a few other friends in your guys’ circle: Hyunjin and Han. You’d always see them whenever you came over. When they first met you, they thought you were Felix’s girlfriend. You had to tell them about a million times that you were both just friends.

So why were you suddenly wishing you were more than that?

“Are you okay?” Felix asked.

You snapped out of your thoughts. “Yeah..just tired.”

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A while later you were ready to go to sleep, wearing one of Felix's t-shirts and his pajama bottoms. They were both way too big on you, but you needed something to wear to sleep.

“Okay, goodnight Lix. And thank you again for letting me stay at your place.” You gave an apologetic smile, which Felix returned. 

“You can take my bed and I’ll sleep on the couch. If you need another blanket it’s in the closet.” He said.

You blocked him from exiting his room. “Um, no way. I’ll sleep on the couch. You already are letting me stay over, it’s the least I could do.” 

Felix smiled. “Y/n, it’s fine. The couch is comfortable anyways!”

“Perfect, then I’ll go sleep on it.”

Felix leaned down to be at eye level with you, flashing you a smile that made you melt a little.

“You’re so stubborn, you know that?” 

“Thank you.” You said proudly.

Your faces were so close to each other, just inches away. You felt blush spreading like wildfire across your cheeks.

You dropped the pillow and blanket you were holding and suddenly your arms were hooked around his neck, your lips pressed against his. Your hands entangled in his hair, his planted on your waist. His tongue gently prying open your mouth, allowing you to taste him. You wrapped your legs around his abdomen, his arms supporting you and leading you to his nearby bed. You broke apart, breathing heavily. Felix adjusted himself so his back was resting on the wall, you straddling him. You decided to be bold and slip your hands up his shirt, feeling his toned body.

He gently pulled his face away from yours. “Wait, Y/n, I don't think we should do this.” Felix said in a strained voice. Your hands immediately retracted. Embarrassment seared your face.

Of course. 

He’s your best friend and nothing more. 

Why would you do that??

You swallowed thickly, getting off of the bed.

“Wait, I didn’t-“ Felix started, but you cut him off.

“No no, I understand. It’s fine, I promise. I’ll go sleep on the couch. Goodnight.” 

You grabbed the blanket and pillow that you’d discarded on the floor and exited his bedroom before he could say another word.

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Ah!

You sat up abruptly, breathing quickly. 

It was just a bad dream, it was just a bad dream.

Great. A nightmare on an already horrible night. 

You glanced out the window. It was still dark outside. 

Where even am I?

You started recalling the events of last night.

I left the bar, then I didn’t have the key, and then…

You looked around the room, remembering you were at Felix’s place. You nearly had a heart attack when you saw him sleeping right next to you on his bed. 

I fell asleep on the couch though?!

He must’ve carried you into his room.

You slowly got out of the bed, gently moving the sheets. Suddenly, you felt a hand grab your wrist. 

“Wait, stay with me..” Felix said in a quiet voice.

“Lix I-”

He gently tugged your arm back towards him. You got back into bed and he pulled you close, so that your back was to his chest.

“Is this okay?” Felix whispered.

You held his hand and snuggled closer in response.

A moment of silence passed.

“You know…about earlier,”

You winced at the embarrassing memory.

“It wasn’t that I didn’t want to do that stuff, I just…I don't know. I didn’t want you to make a drunken decision, and I didn't want it to be something you regretted.”

You turned to face him.

“I wouldn’t have regretted it.” You whispered.

A small smile crept onto both of your faces.

“Really?”

…

“Really. I love you Felix, and part of me doesn’t mean in a friendship type of way.”

“Me too.” Felix whispered, lifting his hand to cup your cheek. It was warm, and comforting. He pulled you closer to him, planting a kiss on top of your head. You nestled into his chest, inhaling the fabric softener scent. 

“Goodnight Lix.”

“Goodnight Y/n.”

© angelicizedeve 2023

[call-me-a-simp]

Heal My Wounds

Shower (Part 16)

Rhea Ripley x Reader

Tw: physical and sexual abuse, toxic relationship, selfharm, eating disorder

Summary: You are in a toxic relationship with an abusive man but manage to run away. A tall, black haired woman picks you up from the streets just in time so your ex doesn't get you. But who is she and why does she seem so familiar to you? As you get to know each other you start to notice weird feelings you never had before whenever she's around.

"Hey baby" Rhea says and kisses you on the cheek. "Hey" you smile. "Okay, listen, I know you have a problem with alcohol but-"

"Rhea what have you done?" you ask in a slightly annoyed but still joking tone. "What? Nothing why would think that" she laughs and tickles you.

"Hey" you fight a little. Rhea laughs and continues to explain "okay, so, what I actually wanted to ask you was, the boys and I would go to a bar later and have some fun and I'd like you to come with us"

You wrap your arms around yourself and look down. "Rhea I-" "Hey, I know you have some troubles but I promise we'll take care of you and everything and we won't drink too much" she calms you down.

"okay fine" you whisper after some hesitation. "You don't have to do this because of me, just so you know. I want you to do it because you want to, because we could work on overcoming your fears and your past you know?" your girlfriend says, gently grabbing your chin and tilting it upwards so you look at her.

" I know" you reply "Okay" she smiles. "We still have some time, maybe we could use that" she smirks and places her hands on your hips to pull you towards her.

"God you're so needy all the time" you mock her. She pouts a little "It's only fair, I had to wait pretty long don't you think?"

"Ye, so you're used to it and can wait a little longer" you tease her and free yourself from her grip to take a few steps back.

She just stares at you. You laugh and take her hand to get her to follow you. "Idk how much time we have left but it'll sure be enough for a shower, right?"

Her face immediately brightens up and she happily follows you into the bathroom. You turn around to kiss her and slowly move your hands under her shirt.

You pull it up and over her head "and you're not even wearing a bra, what did I even expect" you laugh. She pushes you back playfully and your back hits the glass wall of the shower.

You're a little shocked at first but it quickly turns into arousal as soon as you see her approaching you with a smirk.

She's standing right in front of you now and grabs your hands to place them over your head.

You keep them there and she slowly removes your top whilst kissing you passionately. "God I want you so bad" she groans against your lips.

You chuckle "too bad, cause this will only be a shower" you grin at her disappointed face "Sorry baby, but maybe, if you do good, I'll reward you when we come back" you whisper and smirk.

Rhea blushes and looks away. "Since when are you such Dom..?" she complains more to herself than to you. But she couldn't deny, it kinda turned her on.

"Okay, fine" she says as confident as usual and looks back up. She removes the rest of her clothes, steps into the shower and turns the water on.

You join her and she spins you around so your back is against her chest. She takes a sponge, puts some body wash on it and begins to wash you down.

"We'll see if you're still gonna be this dominant after this night" she growls in your ear. You shiver at her sudden words.

She gently kisses the crook of your neck to let you know that this wasn't a threat or anything. You relax again and rest your body against hers.

Rhea continues to wash you down and kiss you and you just enjoy being there with her. You close your eyes and tilt your head back so it lays against her shoulder.

"I love you" you say. Rhea smiles and kisses your neck. "I love you too" she responds.

You finish showering and get dressed. "Where are we going actually?" you ask her. "I don't know to be honest. The boys chose a bar, they should text me the address any minute by now" she replies and finishes her hair.

She's done her black and purple ring makeup and wears black ripped jeans and a back shirt with a harness on top.

You decided to go with a simple back dress, it's pretty short and shows a lot.

Normally you wouldn't dare to wear something like that but with rhea you felt confident enough.

"You look good" she smirks. "You too" you reply sheepishly. She grabs her keys and takes your hand in hers to walk you to the car.

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Sorry you had to wait so long for art 16, got a lot going on right now ^^'

Taglist:@babybatlover @legit9thlunaticwarrior @thatonepansexual2000

[bhaalbaaby]

WIP Wednesday (let's pretend lol)

was tagged by @brabblesblog 😌 lol everything is a WIP right now so I'll post some Penelope x Gortash that idk when it will be finished~

tagging @we-staybhaalin @razrogue @astarioffsimpmain @omgkalyppso @tallymonster and whoever else wants to pretend it's Wednesday still lol

Enver sits on the lounger as she grabs her pack. He stares at his nails. He keeps himself well dressed and manicured, better than most of her clients. She can feel his eyes on her backside as she bends over, going through her drawers. "How was your day?" She asks, trying to fill the silence. She grabs some undergarments, hearing his elegant boots move across the floor until he's behind her, his bulge warm against her ass. She glances over her shoulder to look at him, his dark eyes full of lust.

"It was amazing. All I could think about was seeing you once I finished my meeting. Being with you in my new place." He gently rubs himself against her, grinding his hips. She holds on to the drawer, wetness threatening to coat her panties.

"Oh really?" She asks as she stands straighter, his hands coming to her front, massaging her breasts.

"Of course my love. I want to celebrate everything with you." He kisses her shoulder as his fingers pinch her nipples. She closes her eyes as she grinds her ass against him, her tail caressing his forearm. "We should wait until we make it to my mansion, my dear."

She rolls her eyes at the mention of his mansion as he lets her go.

He is uncharacteristically calmer today as he gets on his knees, burying his face between her cheeks. She gasps as she leans forward, holding onto the dresser. Her tail whips back and forth at the surprise, his tongue pressing against her panties. "Enver." She whines as he rims her, his hand coming up to stroke the base of her tail. She bites her lip as he pulls her wet underwear down.

"We should wait, but I don't think I can." He admits before returning his greedy tongue, flicking at her puckered hole. She closes her eyes as she pants, arching her back as his grip on her tail is firm. "We should wait," Penelope mutters, looking back. Gortash lets out a breathy laugh as his tongue flicks her asshole. She moans as she closes her eyes, her long hair falling forward over her shoulders.

"You do not sound convincing, little rabbit." Gortash teases as he stands up, sucking on his fingers before returning them to her ass. She whines as he slowly prods her hole, leaning down to spit for more lubrication. She bites her lip, pointing to her end table. "I have lube." She manages to state as he picks up his pace, her hips seizing with each thrust. He hums in reply, watching as she tries to take his thick digit.

He kisses her shoulder before removing his finger. She lets out a heavy sigh as he returns to the lounger. "I do not want to tire you out now." His cock tents in his pants as he sits back, legs spread. She pouts as she turns around, her eyes flicking to his crotch to his face. He smirks before pushing his hair back out of his face and staring up at the ceiling. "Come now. I don't want to punish you for making me wait."

A shiver runs down her back at his statement. "Punish me?" She asks, putting clothes into her pack. He nods as he palms his erection. "I won't speak more of it. I can see that mischief in your eyes, Penelope." She rolls her eyes as she takes her clothes off, needing to change into civilian clothes.

He watches as he slips his pants down, his cock searching for relief. He fists his tip watching as she pulls on a dress. "I can't wait until your breasts are wrapped around my cock once more." Gortash huffs as she turns around. "I thought we were waiting." She teases as she finishes packing. He stops as he pulls his pants back up. "I want to take you now… But, I shall make you come in the carriage."

She laughs as she hands him her pack. "We'll see about that." She replies with a wink. He takes her pack, sighing as he stands. He pecks her lips before exiting the room. She follows him, ignoring the looks of the other pubgoers. That noble is still there, Irenya is trying her best to get something out of him. She sends a silent prayer, hoping she could get lucky where Penelope failed.

Gortash opens the carriage door for her. She has to admit, his carriage is one of the fancier ones she's even been in. It's black with gold accents. His drivers barely look at her and never pester her. The inside has soft leather seats. She wonders if he has them as soft because of what he does in them. She knows she is not the only person he sleeps with. She's read the papers and heard the gossip. She wonders why he bothers with her still when he could be with Lady Janneth and all her money. Instead, he gives her so much of his money. Must be his kink. Penelope smiles as she takes his hand, stepping up into the carriage. He follows soon after, handing his man her luggage.

Enver smiles as he sits across from her. He leans forward, resting his hands on her thighs. She returns the smile before he kisses her softly, sliding forward as he kneels. She wonders how long the ride will be as he pushes up at her skirts, his mouth finding her pantiless. He growls as he pulls her hips closer. She laughs as she looks over, the carriage moving at such a slow pace on the busy street. She hears the driver telling people to move as he whips around the horses. His driver is always so cruel, she thinks as he props her legs up around his shoulders. She bites her lip as she closes her eyes his tongue lapping at her folds. He kisses her clit, suckling it as she whines. There's a commotion as people yell at the driver who picks up his speed. Penelope grimaces, tugging up at Gortash's hair.

"Hmm? Are you alright my love?" He asks, unphased by the people outside of his invention. "We're almost out of this hovel. Don't worry about the noise." He rests his hand on her wetness, gently rubbing as his dark eyes stare into hers. She bites her lip and considers this. "I don't know," She says softly as he pushes her back in the seat, undoing his pants.

"Don't worry, my love. Let me fuck away your worry." He states not waiting for his cock to fully spring out, already thrusting into her. Her breathing catches in her throat as he stretches her. "T-too big." She mutters as he rests her legs on his shoulders. She's happy the carriage is lifted, no one can see in as she pants, her fingers gripping his collar.

"You love it," Gortash says as he picks up his pace, her brows knitting together. The commotion is over as quickly as it started. The horses stomp as they drag them to wherever he lives. She whines out as she arches her back. "Loud, my love. I can't hear you sing," Enver whispers as he holds on to the back of the seat, getting deeper.

She rolls her eyes as he leans into her, kissing her passionately. Their tongues dance as he groans, her walls clenching around him. She pulls away as she cries out, wrapping her arms around his shoulders. "Good girl," He says with a smile, his hand coming to her jaw to make her look up at him.

[tentacle-sydney]

i got bored and sleep deprived, looked at harper, went "anyone gonna fuck this dude up" and then didnt wait for an answer.

content: sub harper, other person can be whoever you want. kinky shit, i guess. idk man i dont do this shit often.

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"You look much prettier like this, you know."

Harper glares, though the effect is diminished by his…less than ideal situation.

Naked, ankles and wrists bound tight, forced to his knees, with a ring gag shoved in his mouth, and, best worst of all, a collar and leash fitted snugly around his neck.

Not exactly the most intimidating sight, really.

His captor laughs at the attempt, settling into the chair in front of the doctor and pulling the leash tighter. It knocks Harper slightly off balance, though he does manage to catch himself.

"Ever the scary one, aren't you? As if you didn't know what you were getting into when you asked for my attention."

They slip a couple fingers into his open mouth, pressing down on his tongue. He suppresses a pleased noise.

"Really, it's almost cute how hard you're trying to act unaffected. We'll have to break you of that habit, hm?"

Their lips twist into a devious grin, pulling the leash tighter with one hand as they slide the other further into his mouth. It causes Harper to gag for a moment before getting control of himself again--- though that control quickly disappears as his captor starts to use those fingers to fuck his mouth. Which would not be as much of an issue, except for that they also start to lightly rub their boot against his already hard cock.

Try as he might, Harper can't stop the moans, whimpers, and gags escaping his throat--- nor can he stop the instinctual jerk of his hips, trying to get more stimulation. He hears another short laugh from the person using him.

"See? I'll have you trained into a nice pretty pet in no time." 

Their motions increase in intensity, slightly. 

"Wouldn't that be such a nice bit of karma, Doctor?"

His needy sounds quickly shift into whines, wordlessly begging for release. He squeezes his eyes shut, embarrassed at how quickly he fell apart.

Suddenly, the fingers in his mouth retreat, and his hair is pulled, jerking his head up. The attention paid to his dick also slows to a stop.

"Now, now. There's a reason you aren't blindfolded, dear. Open your eyes."

He complies, still breathless and whining. He sees them grin, almost fondly, studying his face.

"There's that pretty color I like so much. Do you wanna cum, pretty boy?"

He nods rapidly, as much as he can with the hand is his hair still holding his head tight. Their fond grin quickly shifts to something almost deadly as they once again press their boot against his leaking cock.

"Go ahead, then. Get yourself off. Cum for me."

Needing no further permission, Harper quickly starts grinding against their boot. Between the hand still tugging at his hair and feeling the predatory gaze of the person above him, it doesn't take long for him to spill his seed, leaving it all over their boot and the floor.

They let go of his hair, and rub his dick a bit more before pulling away, relaxing the leash without letting go.

"You've made such a mess, love. I'm of half mind to make you clean my boot with your tongue." 

They stand, tilting his chin up to maintain eye contact.

"But I don't think you deserve the honor, hm? Only perfect little toys get to touch their masters like that."

They walk around behind him, and, assuming that they are done, Harper wiggles his restraints, waiting to be untied. He's interrupted by a scoff, and his head is pulled back by his hair, stealing his breath away.

"I didn't say we were done, darling. I have you to myself all night--- we're just getting started."

He's pushed forward, and his head is guided to the small puddle of cum he left on the floor.

"Be a good boy and clean up the mess you made of my floor, hm?"

Harper realizes it's going to be a very, very long night.

[egg-emperor]

mostly feeling quite a bit better but ups and downs ya know. just dealing with some personal life stuff not just online. life's constant challenges on top of dealing with chronic pain flare ups and fatigue is wearing me down but the world keeps spinning and we push onward as usual. I know all I can do is keep moving and seeing what happens and trying my best

it's the little things I have to look forward to as well. like bday month finally here so I'll finally be able to open these packages I ordered, all Eggman related of course hehe. and the Eggman and Fang art in the comic I will enjoy looking at. and I might treat myself to booze and ice cream tomorrow after the long rough week or so I've had lol. after that Idk besides looking forward to Sonic Shadow Generations and stuff but we'll trudge onward into the unknown and see XD

and as they say if it keeps you going they're not stupid reasons. it's the little things that manage to put a smile on my face even on my worst days and it helps pass the time to reach better ones ahead. another is running this blog and talking to y'all 💜 so I hope I'll get back into the full swing of things with posting because it really is a huge passion that'll never die

[elektroyu]

Health logistics stuff under the cut

Sooo my psychiatrist (where I get my sick leave slips) would like me to get into some sort of psychosomatic clinic, or if I don't want that, at least would like me to do some sort of ambulant psychotherapy. I definitely don't want to do the former because I don't see how that would NOT crush what little bit of energy I still have.

You see, I like being able to dress myself, make myself meals, get myself some tea or water when needed, get groceries like once a week etc etc, and I also like being able to do a little bit of creative work for a little bit of extra cash here and there, and care for my pets myself, even though all of those things juuuust barely are what I can manage on my own. But I CAN still manage that on my own somehow.

Now if you add anything on top of that, even just a little chill birthday party with closest family or a doc or vet appointment, the scales already begin to tip and I need to adjust my routine to get lots of extra rest for a couple days. Or extra weeks if it's bad.

That said, to be thrown into a whole new environment with all the unfamiliar stimuli that would need extra processing from the brain, completely different routines that don't take into account the pacing needs of someone with ME/CFS, potential logistics issues if you can walk only short distances for limited amounts per day with breaks in between for like 3 hours, also with it's new people - especially medical personnel which may or may not know what ME/CFS is and thus may or may not know what pacing in that context means plus the potential catastrophic consequences of pushing such a patient over what they're able to do, which thus may or may not result in having to get into arguments with them about my safety - I honestly don't see me benefitting at all from such an arrangement. So I'll refuse that however I can. It's simply not an option. I want to continue being able to care for myself as much as possible.

That leaves me with normal ambulant psychotherapy. Which in theory? I don't mind doing it, I'm actually having fun exploring myself and working on myself to get better at life, so from that point of view - sure, bring it on! But even that is difficult for me to do, because even back when I was much better than I'm now this was already taking a toll on me if it was every week. Every 2 weeks was better, but still hard to do. And then there's the question of how do I even get there regularly? I definitely can't pay for taxis each week 😂 but I also can't use public transport because I'd need to walk further than I'm able to without worsening my symptoms. Now usually my sister drives me to appointments, or at least she used to. But now her working schedule changed and she doesn't have the time anymore to drive me somewhere each week (not to mention, she has her own life lol). I do have that scooter mobility aid, but that's not reliable enough because it's not weatherproof 🙄 it's only made for dry days lol and I paid for that thing on my own so if it breaks I'm simply fucked (and idk if I'm physically even able to use it for longer distances in the first place - never got to try that out because never had the spoons left; works great on short distances if the weather allows though).

So what does that leave me with? Idk tbh. At the end of the month I have another appointment at the psychiatrist, but it's a substitute doc again I think, so idk how helpful they can be. We'll see, I guess. 🤷

Then there's the question of: cognitive behavioral therapy or depth psychological therapy? Which would be better in my case (ignoring the logistics issues)?

[dreamers-queen]

At this point I'm not sure if y'all are purposely ignoring what is actually being criticized - by men AND women, too - or if you honestly don't get it because it would make the movie not so good anymore.

I'm putting this under a keep reading because there will be spoilers.

I'm already seeing guys complain about the Barbie movie end, how they wanted Kens to be equal in Barbieland but were only given a small part on the Cabinet. That's the point.

True. I'm a woman, and I wanted the Kens to be equal. Because I believe in equality, you know. Because movies are supposed to send positive messages and be inspirational. Because ultimately, a girl can dream.

The movie said no, the Barbies are gonna keep all the power and maybe concede some crumbs once in a while. Yes, this is supposed to mirror the overexaggerated patriarchy of the real world, I get it.

But it was never presented as a problem.

It was presented as the Barbies re-establishing the "correct order of the things" and refusing to make Barbieland going towards an egalitarian direction. Because of course, those who have the power want to keep it. The Barbies were the conservatives here. The patriarchy is bad (duh), the matriarchy is good. Equality? We don't know her.

How am I supposed to root for them knowing this?

Men, you're meant to be upset. You're meant to question it. Because you're meant to feel it, and feel what that is like, so you can finally understand women. You're upset at seeing it in a movie, now imagine living it in reality. That's being a woman.

Being a woman presents unique challenges. Being a man does too. Men are upset at being depicted as evil, stupid and destructive solely for being men. They're upset as such depiction being presented as smart, progressive, feminist and ultimately desirable. And you know what? They're right.

This is retaliation, not equality.

No movie ever would be praised for presenting women as dumb, evil and destructive. Even if it was meant to be an overexageration made to criticize mysoginy. It would be unacceptable. Why would this be good?

It's exactly why the real world was an exaggerated Partriarchy and Barbieland an exaggerated Matriarchy. Neither wins. Neither is equal. None of them change for the better. It's why you should want women in the real world to be respected, and Kens in Barbieland to be respected.

Yes, and the movie failed all the line to convey this message. The Kens being pushed aside again is presented as how things should be. So what am I supposed to think, that women coming second irl is how things are supposed to be, too? Heck no. I'll take both ideas and dump them in the trash, thanks.

I'll be mad at the movie for having presented a mirrored inequality as positive and desirable.

An equal ending would have been The Doll's World (find a name, Idk Idc) giving power to the Kens and the Barbies. They can do it. And inspire the real world to follow the lead.

It was easy. But I get it, it wouldn't have been as easy to be sold as a progressive take. It's actually not progressive at all.

I mean, think about it: the Kens manage to establish their patriarchy made of watching movies and riding horses in what, a day? They managed to take the intelligent, powerful, strong Barbies and turn them into submissive empty shells - which is what the Kens used to be and will go back to be, and they lived happily ever after - in a day??? What is this supposed to mean, that even the most intelligent women are still not intelligent enough to stand up for themselves and need a savior from above reminding them they're worthy?

Well, that's fucking depressive.

Look, I don't want to bash this movie. I had fun with it. I'll probably go back to watch it with my girl friends, and we'll bring the boys too.

But I won't praise it as an egalitarian movie because it's not.

What About The Kens?

I'm already seeing guys complain about the Barbie movie end, how they wanted Kens to be equal in Barbieland but were only given a small part on the Cabinet.

That's the point.

Keep reading

[kyluxtrashpit]

In regards to your creative funk

I mean if you’ve already got WIPS in progress wouldn’t it make more sense to work on them first rather than piling on more work

Maybe try taking requests and pushing yourself out of your comfort zone with other ideas

I think it’s possible as well that having recently come off a big project that took years … it’s not that hard to believe you are creatively burnt out and need time to get back in the groove

or maybe try the request idea I mentioned earlier or small one shots

Yeah I've been kinda working on my wips, but they're just not going anywhere? Like maybe I manage a sentence once every month or two. I do want to finish them but it's like. Abstract interest, not as much as I would like. Something new that I'm real excited about might help but I just haven't had an idea like that in ages

I've thought about requests - might not be a bad idea, but sometimes it feels a bit too much like going through the motions without really be into it. I do have some time off work over the holidays though, so maybe I'll see how I feel then. It'd be a good time to try it

You know, that is a good point - much as it's been over a year since I finished Under Construction, that fic was like. A uniquely intense experience lmao. It did take years and the feeling of finishing that is a sense of accomplishment I may honestly never feel again in my life. So there could be something to the idea that like. Finishing normal pieces just doesn't hit the same anymore. I do hope that wears off eventually though cause damn, it's been long enough brain, can we get over it already lmao

But yeah we'll see. Idk, I appreciate the message though. Hopefully some day the ability to feel passion and creativity will come back. It just scares me that my yearly word count has just been dropping every year and I have fewer wips than I've had ever since starting to write fic and I'm not getting new ideas either. idk. The last thing I want is to lose the ability to write. It really, really scares me. But hopefully this is just another panic over nothing and it will return

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary16

9/20-21/2023

wouldn't you believe it, i have a smile on my face right now.

i'm so really for real happy right now for some reason, or for a few reasons, but i'm really happy. one reason why is today was errand day and i kept it together and it wasn't so bad and maybe they won't be that bad ever again. i don't want to jinx it but i feel very optimistic i guess. second reason why is i did 3 songs today, i thought i'd only do 2, and like yesterday i created more presets that can move between songs and will really help out in figuring out these songs. more cool guitar synth sounds, i'm really happy about them, i'm excited to put them in songs and eventually write with them. some actually kind of expand what i can do i think. or what i wanna do, at least. third reason i guess is the song i'm listening to.

their hair is so giant it's kind of hilarious. it's such a pretty song, and really sweet too. the 'funny it's me' part is seriously incredible to me. it's interesting, the daughter of the woman on the left posts under a lot of their songs, it's crazy how the past still lingers like that. i guess not, it's always super obvious ultimately, it's just shocking. the other day i was thinking about jukeboxes, and how we barely experienced them as like, anything beyond something that plays music, meaning, they used to be or could be annoyances, quotidian to the point of drawing ire and so on, and that's just beyond us, it's not shocking to know, but it's an experience we're not going to have and we're also not going to be caught up in the pushing and pulling of living amongst that technology and all the ways the bourgeois manage that annoyance by inventing ways to silence jukeboxes (the thought was spurred by how they had silent vinyl in the machines you could put money in to play). obviously we have many similar situations, technology is designed to be at least 10-20% annoying always (don't ask about my numbers) because if it agitates and there's a way to alleviate that, then you've invented an industry out of your invention, sorta. this is all like, 101 type stuff, it doesn't really need to be repeated, everybody knows, i know it, obvs.

so i'm up to 16 songs done, 9 more to go, i'm thinking with some of the new plugins today one thing i'll do on my final pass of all these, or in the returns what i'll do is an evolution of my saturator return track idea, where i use the saturn 2 and do some subtle tube distortion in the mids, to get kind of what my mic setup was doing to all the sound, and try to reign that in, so i can have the positive qualities of that in the mix. if all the guitars sound better, and that happens, and they still sound good, i feel like that might be kind of 'sick' or 'dope' or something. idk why i'm saying that, i guess to entertain myself a little.

i'm really sort of dreading going back to the first 5 songs i did in this pass, but i'm sure it won't be as bad as i think, i mean dreading listening to them even. but we'll see. i'm excited to finish up this process and get to doing vocals again, and then even just writing some stuff. who knows if it's gonna be for this album or not. if it's like a 10 second long song though yeah it'll be on the album probably. i also did get some writing out today, not music, prose, in the laundromat, ideas i had in the shower, nothing super hefty but it feels like it belongs. funfunfun.

currently still thinking about getting (you know) softube plugins to see if their distortion stuff speaks to me anymore than any others.

i did find a new saturation thingy just now. i hope it's gooder (lol) than some of the other stuff.

when i said i wrote in the laudromat that was wrong, it was on the way there. i don't know why i remembered that wrong. in the laundromat i just listened to the plot to blow up the eiffel tower's first album and stared at the spinning water and clothes. it's crazy how everything that band did after was so much better. it's not bad but they kind of just spend a lot of time goofing around with the jazz stuff, but maybe it is just beyond me. i feel like if i asked someone who knew anything about jazz they'd agree with me though. just a hunch. maybe i will ask my friend huck about that.

also thinking hard about the songs i'm gonna have to begin doing, cuz they're all older ones that are way less 'guitar' heavy, and some even have different drums which means they will take longer.

feeling the itch to go digging on flickr for random photos for collage stuff. that's fun.

one final thing i guess cuz i'm feeling out of it now, today i saw a white goth woman with dreads, really fucked up stuff, cybergoths are still out there, you'll find them working in your local smiths or vons or whatever. kroger. whatever. isn't kroger terrifying as a prospect.

byebyebye

[kuiinncedes]

sorry glee nd no longer new directions but natural deduction <3

[kitasfox]

how do we feel about a threesome with osamu and atsumu 🤔

We feel very interested <3

a/n: So since this was gonna be dark content anyways as it's kind of incest, I said why not make it dark content if you have any other requests,,, pls send them in <3

THIS POST IS NSFW! MINORS DO NOT INTERACT or I'll bite.

warnings: incest, threesome, dub-con, non-con cuz reader is drunk, alcohol consumption, spitting,,, mentions of masturbation what else idk

Suna had the prettiest little sister.

One the twins grew up with- they'd run from you at any chance they had, with your big brother, too, of course, the mean trio that loved to make fun of you when you were little.

As a kid, two year age difference you had with your big brother and his friends meant too much to both sides, you were seen as a baby to make fun of, and they were these celebrities in your eyes.

As the years went on, and age started to mean less, they started to let you in the little circle more, talking with you without the mocking tone or the babying words, letting you hang out with them, not minding your naive words.

Especially looking at you now- all grown and going to college, the two year difference felt like nothing at all.

You were visiting your big brother for the college break, and you just couldn't say no when the twins had invited you and your brother to this party they were throwing.

"Come on, babe," Atsumu had laughed when you gave him an hesitant look, throwing his arm over your shoulder and pulling you close to him, well aware of your breaths shortening with excitement.

It was no secret you had the biggest crush on the twins for years. You always seemed to favor Osamu just a bit, finding a way to be close to the more introverted twin, though it always took a few sweet words and a kiss on the chicken for Atsumu to lure you back and have your bright eyes and admiring gaze back on him.

"we'll catch up and everything." Atsumu almost mutters into your ear, making you shudder under his hold.

"We're gonna be there, anyway," Osamu had shrugged at you, quirking a brow as if to say, don't you trust us? "What are you worried bout?"

They were right, what were you worried about? They were who you grew up with, both of them you trusted with all your heart. And this was a chance to show them you had indeed grown up quite a lot, and no longer were the little girl they used to make cry.

Maybe— after all those years, wouldn't it be fun to find out if it was anything like all those nights you fantasized about?

"Ah, I don't know about that, sweet girl," a familiar voice speaks right behind you just as you're about to take a sip of the beer you're holding.

Before Atsumu can lunge at it, you manage to take a big gulp of the tangy liquid, smiling when he gives you a dirty look. As he pulls the can from you hands, Atsumu brings his hand up so you can't reach.

As you're jumping to grab your drink back, you're not even aware how close you suddenly got at the blonde, your eyes wide as he coos at you, laughing as his eyes look for your big brother. "Oi, Rin!"

Suna seems busy with a girl, pushing her hands away from his chest when he hears his name being called. "Can your sister drink?"

Suna seems unphased by the question, looking at you and back at him and shrugging. "I don't care." He mutters, turning back at the whining girl sitting on his lap. "She's a big girl, she can do whatever she wants."

Maybe if you weren't so busy with getting your drink back, you would've seen the wolfish grin that had spread on Atsumu's face.

But instead, you give him your innocent eyes and an adorable pout. "See?" You say, "I can drink!"

Atsumu apologizes with a grin, looking at Osamu, who is coming towards the two of you with shot glasses between his fingers. "I'm sorry, pretty girl, you're right." He leans in to press a soft kiss on your cheek, pulling you maybe a bit too close. "You indeed are a big girl."

You were right, and to show them, prove them, you just had to drink more. Gulping down the constant shots being handed to you, even when you got dizzy.

You dance around the room with a certain blonde holding you close, giving you more to drink as soon as you took your last sip, pressing his body flush against your overheated one. "Ya got real pretty, ya know."

Your swaying body enclosed by strong arms, you can only giggle at his words. "Ya like it?" You laugh, showing off your tiny skirt, losing balance and falling against his chest.

In a whirl of a second, you find yourself somewhere else, nestled on a lap, Atsumu's lap; he feels warm and sturdy beneath you. You reach for another shot of glass, you don't know why, you're already in the dumb state where everything feels funny, your body feels jelly.

You can't even sit upright on Atsumu's lap without his arms keeping you up; but still, you have a point to make, after all.

"Hey, hey— why don't you slow down?" Oh, Osamu is here, sitting right next to you, pulling the glass from your hands.

"Don't wannaa!" You whine, not aware how you're pushing your ass right on Atsumu's cock when you squirm like a brat. "I wanna- drink more."

"Fuck- stop moving." He orders in your ear, you eyes fluttering closed at the sudden image of him groaning when he sinks into you popping in your mind and making you press your thighs together.

The whole night, both the twins never had left you alone, dancing with you or having you on their arms like a pretty doll.

"It's okay, sweet girl," Atsumu pats your head, fingers tracing the skin of your cheek and sending goosebumps down your body. "We already know you're a big girl."

"I am!" You say proudly, grinning so wide, it's quite cute, really. If only you didn't press your tits on his chest like that, Atsumu mightve been able to keep his mind on how pretty your smile was.

"Yes you are." Osamu laughs. "You grew quite a bit." .

Atsumu's touch on your cheek grazes your lips, tracing them, spreading the touch of drool around your pretty face. Your eyes flutter close at the touch, hips moving right on his cock without even realizing how you're humping him.

When the swollen head of his cock presses against your clothed clit, your face tilts up and a silent gasp leaves your lips. "Fuck- look at her, Samu," Atsumu laughs, gripping your face to turn it towards his brother. "Look how dumb she looks humping me like a bitch."

"Always knew she was a whore," Osamu mutters gruffly, his hands close around your dainty neck, thumb dipping between your lips. "But never got to see it so close, have we?"

You mouth hangs open as drool trickles from the corners, Osamu keeps pressing on your tongue and making your silent gasp turn into louder moans and needy pleas.

You find yourself trembling under the hold of both twins, it suddenly feels colder- when did you take you top off, you wonder. Still the feeling of Atsumu's lips around your nipples is enough to make you forget the embarrassment of having your tits out like this.

He keeps kneading them harshly, teeth grazing on your nipples to make you cry out, your hips rutting on his cock when he does that. Osamu keeps playing around on your face, smudging your drool around your skin, forcing your mouth open until you feel something wet dripping in it.

"Now swallow it, pretty girl. Show me you like me enough to swallow my spit."

You already feel so dizzy, so light-hwaded and so- so turned on, you can't keep up with the constant, teasing touches, moans and mewls falling from your lips.

"I remember when you were little," Osamu says, hands roaming around the skin your skirt can't cover, gripping your chin to have your face inches away from his. Your breaths become shallower, quick and kurt as you press your legs together, something that makes both of them laugh. "You used to have the biggest crush on us. Was s' cute."

Your eyes fly open, embarrasment in your gaze as you stutter. "You knew about that?!"

"Of course, we did." Atsumu laughs, "I actually been wondering this whole night," Atsumu sucks on the soft skin of your chest and neck, leaving dark bruises on your skin. "Do you still moan my name at nights?"

Your voice comes out as a mewl when he sinks his teeth, Osamu's fingers pulling on the skimpy material of your soaked panties. "Or do you scream mine, now?"

"I- ah!" Osamu pushes on the damp cloth, right on your clit, making you feel dizzier than you already are. When you squirm on his lap, the man behind you groans loudly. "Fuck babe-"

"Don't tell me you didn't know we could hear you. Each night Suna snuck out, you would be awake- both our names coming from your room."

"Still think of it when I'm jerking off, ya know. Sounded that sweet, begging for me when I wasn't even there." Atsumu grins, leaving a wet kiss on the corner of your mouth. "Never got to thank for that."

"Always wondered how you fucked yourself with your fingers, you know." Osamu laughs, his hand palming himself over his pants. "Fuck-"

"Should I just fuck her already?" Atsumu groans at your dumbed out face, body sprawled over his like a mindless toy. "Nah- let her pick who she wants." Osamu turns to you instead.

"You'll pick me, won't you, dolly?" Atsumu coos at you, patting your cheek, "I promise I'll be nice."

"Oh, come on," Osamu pulls your face towards his, grinning against you, "you just swallowed my spit. I'm pretty sure that means I get to fuck this pretty pussy, ain't it?" Just when he says pretty pussy, Osamu deliberately pinches your clit to make you shout.

"-Don't know-" you whine, you don't wanna pick, you just want this feeling in your pussy to go away!

"Come on, babe, don't make us wait-"

"Dont- I don't wanna choose!" You whine, not really aware of what you've said when Atsumu grins mischievously.

"Oh?" He mutters, "so you pick-"

"Both!" You mewl without a second thought, and maybe you would've felt embarrassed if it wasn't for Osamu pinching your clit and making you gasp and moan loudly.

"Hear that, Samu?" Atsumu laughs, lightly tapping your cheek. "She wants us both."

"Shouldn't be surprised from a slut like her," the said man speaks degradingly, "a cock wasn't enough, is that it? You really think you can take us both?"

"I can-" you mewl, back arching when he lanse a mildly harsh slap on your panties and making you cry out. "Can take you!"

You're jutting your hips up to meet his touch, head falling back on Atsumu's chest, drool falling from the corners of your mouth. "Dont say that, you got it wrong." The blonde speaks. "She's just too good, Samu." Atsumu cups your cheek, cooing at your dumb face. "Wants to make us both feel good, isn't that right, sweetheart?"

"Yess-"

Atsumu's hands close around your waist, picking you up and putting you on the sofa on your back.

Osamu nudges your legs apart, pushing your skirt up, your clothed pussy finally visible to both of the man hard as fuck in their pants. The flimsy material stretching over your pussy, wet and sticky, Osamu pushes it aside, hearing your loud mewl when the pads of his fingers finally touch your skin.

"Will let us use you as we wish, is that right? Use you as our fuckhole? A worthless, idiotic little girl, tryna satiate both of us." He continues, words becoming sharper, kisses harder, your hands grabbing his wrists and sinking your nails in his skin with how overwhelming this all is.

"Yes! Yes I'll do anything-"

"How cute." He laughs as he works his pants off, ignoring your widening eyes look at his dripping cock and back at him, drunken mind trying to form words. "-'s too big!"

"I'm sure you'll be okay, dolly." Atsumu pumps his cock as he takes a step towards you, his cock head nudging against your lips, smearing precum and laughing when you open it to take him in.

Just as he does so, you feel prying hands around your waist, you can barely lift your head to see Osamu placing himself between your legs, his cock rubbing against your thigh.

"Aw, come on, babe," Atsumu laughs, "didn't you just say you'd help us?"

[skeletonsweatshirt]

Connected || Viktor x gn!reader

Connected - Part 1

Soulmate!AU (Red String of Fate)

Viktor x gn!reader

WC: 1.7k

Tags: Extroverted Jayce, New Dorm Room, Y/N is still moving in, Impatient Heimey, First Day jitters, Viktor says literally nothing, That mf silent, Confused Reader, *Insert vine of that one lady yelling about how Arkansas and Kansas are pronounced differently*, yes I just made a vine reference, it's my goddamn fic. Also, Heimerdinger has a bouncy mustache. I am my own proofreader, Grammarly is a frequent life saver (not sponsored)

Warnings: None really. Heimer mentions the reader that getting a full-ride scholarship is a "big responsibility" and there's like a few very brief symptoms of anxiety but it's never like a panic attack it's just the reader being nervous about starting school. Also, v quick mention of chaos and destruction spurred by the reader learning what Jayce and Vik are working on. Nothing in detail, just the idea that putting magic in the hands of normies might end badly.

A/N: Hey you little stinkies. Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. School just started and I've been busy not getting an F and also looking for a job and shit. Either way, I'm back now and I'm gonna try to post a bit more frequently but if it doesn't happen don't get butt hurt cuz chances are I will be back eventually. I'll try to get Chapter 2 out soon but idk we'll see what happens. Anyways enjoy the read.

You double and triple-check your bag to be sure of its contents on the way to the sleek, white, and gold vanity pushed against your wall. You double and triple check your uniform is right. White Shirt, White Vest, Red Tie, Black Bottoms. Alright, looking good. You give yourself possibly the quickest thumbs up in the reflection before racing towards the door of the new dorm room you weren't quite used to the layout of yet. 

Another set of three knocks arrives on the outside of your hefty door before you manage to open it. On the other side is a yordle, about two and a half feet shorter than you, with a poro standing loyally at his right side. You smile down at the dean of the school, the fluffball known as Cecil B Heimerdinger, or just Professor Heimerdinger to you.

"Oh, hello sir. Good morning." You beam down at the man.

"Good morning, Y/N. I hope you are settling in well." The yordle remarks cheerfully. 

"I'm doing my best. A bit hard to get around with boxes at your feet, though." You chuckle to hide the grimace that you're wearing in your brain. You severely underestimated how difficult it would be to unload a few boxes of your things into your new home for the next 4+ years.

"I'm sorry to hear that. Come, come, child, we should start the tour." He offers, waving you forward to follow him. 

You swiftly nod and step out of your dorm room, making sure the door is locked behind you. You follow the man, attempting to match his pace so you don't fall forward or behind him. You quickly dart your eyes between the floor and him, not sure yet which you're supposed to look at.

"First things first, congratulations on your scholarship. It's not every day someone gets to come here nearly for free. That's a big responsibility, you know." The yordle states, or jokes. You can't really tell quite yet, you're still getting used to him. 

"I know, sir. And I just wanted to thank you for approving it. I think I can truly achieve great things here." You exclaim.

"That's what we're hoping for. That is why you'll be assisting two of our greatest minds in the lab." He notes. Something you are just now realizing is that somehow Heimerdinger's mustache manages to bounce every time he speaks. Hopefully, you are never in a serious meeting with him. "But first I want to show you around. Make sure you understand where all your classes are and how to get there."

You nod in understanding. As you look around, you start to notice other students clearly staring at you and the professor. Some, who must not know who you are, are looking at you like you'd just been involved in the biggest scandal in your life. Others look at you absolutely bewildered. And you are pretty sure you see a few students, older and not, checking their right hands to see if their string lines up with yours, and when it doesn't, they simply look at you disappointed.

You look at your own hand. Surprisingly, you're following your string right down the middle. If this string wasn't like...magic or something...and the slack just kept dragging along, it would be straight between your legs. That's how exact you are. A soft whistle comes from below you, and just as Heimerdinger catches your attention, you turn a corner and begin walking away from where the string was leading.

About an hour and a half goes by before you finish locating all your classes, the cafeteria, and the library. If there was one thing to admire about Heimerdinger, it would be how damn thorough he is. 

"Now, we are headed to the lab where you will be conducting research. Jayce and Viktor should be there since their classes haven't started yet." The professor lends you a kind smile as he begins walking you through the expansive corridors of the school. 

You give an excited nod. An actual lab for you to work in! Not some bullshit one you put together in your parent's cramped attic because your mother stated she'd rather have the top of the house blow up than the bottom. You swiftly swing your bag towards your front, unclipping the fastens and digging through the many papers, notebooks, and folders you had somehow managed to cram inside. 

You procure a leatherbound journal, no larger than your face, and open it. This journal contains all the notes you have taken on topics you wished to research or experiment with in the past year. Some of the topics you had been able to approach at your home lab, but some you had saved until you had access to a professional lab. Like the one at the academy.

You skim through the pages, a feather-like finger tracing over the lines of the topics that caught your eye. You realize about halfway through flicking through that you don't even know if any of your studies match up with Jayce and Viktor's.

"Sir, may I ask what exactly what Jayce and Viktor are working on in their lab space?" You question the older man without removing your face from the journal. 

"They are designing a company they call 'Hextech" The yordle makes air quotes with his fingers. "The goal of their project is to discover a way to put the Arcane into the hands of the people through innovative technology." 

You pause. The Arcane? Like...magic? You let the journal fall limply to your side as you look at the professor. "Isn't that like...really dangerous?" Your eyebrows knit together on your forehead as you ask. You remember reading about things like this in old history books. Putting magic in the hands of the non-magic users usually just ended in chaos and destruction.

Heimerdinger looks at you with a look of confusion. Not in a way that makes it seem like he doesn't know what you're talking about. On the contrary, he knows exactly what you're talking about. He's probably older than those books you were reading. The look he gives you makes you think that he's the only one ever asking that question. 

"Ahem," The man clears his throat. "Usually it is. And honestly, I was opposed to the idea at first. However, Jayce and Viktor are some of the brightest minds in the Academy. They have promised me that everything is under control, and they take extra precaution when handling their projects."

A muffled crashing sound comes from down the hallway. Judging by the look on your superior's face, said crash is coming from Viktor and Jayce's lab. 

"Extra precaution, huh?" You chortle as you shove your journal back into your bag as you and Heimer make way down the corridor slightly faster than you were.

Once you make it to the lab, you straighten out your outfit and open the door, allowing Heimerdinger to walk in before you. As you walk into the open room, you recognize what the noise must've been. A bag of tools bulkier than you had ever seen had tipped over, sending a sea of metal over the lab's solid flooring.

Your bag immediately makes its way off your shoulder and onto the ground beside you. You crouch down, assisting the more muscular of the two men with collecting the items that had come out of the bag in the fall. You both stand once every tool is back in its rightful place.

"Thank you." The man sticks out a hand with a friendly smile. "I'm Jayce Talis. And you are?"

"Y/N L/N." A familiar older voice rings out behind you. "They are your new assistant. Y/N, these are Jayce," He gestures to the man in front of you. "and Viktor." He gestures over to a man sitting on a metal stool who somehow looks both older and younger than Jayce. He has soft-looking quafts of chestnut brown hair that seem to waterfall down his scalp in a way that's both messy and put together. Like he tried to groom himself but gave up halfway through.

You throw a quick grin at the slender man before giving him a brief run-over with your eyes. Then you go back to turn your head and face Jayce. Then you don't. What was supposed to be a quick glance to just get a general idea of your soon-to-be lab partner turns into you turning your head so fast you nearly get whiplash. All because your glance at the man was interrupted with a shade of crimson that is now scarily familiar.

And to your surprise, the color wasn't a trick your eyes decided to play on your brain. Tied around Viktor's book-holding right pinky finger is a piece of cardinal-colored string that drapes to the floor below him and creates an obvious path between the two of you.

You stare at the string for a time, admiring the trail left across the tile floors before a voice penetrates your internal cloud of questions, answers, and miscellaneous thoughts and feelings that weren't either of the first two but you didn't really have time to sort them because holy shit. 

"Mx. L/N." Heimer addresses you in a tone that makes it seem like he has been calling your name for the past hour.

You snap out of your haze just enough. You force your eyes away from the ribbon and onto your superior. "Yes, sir?" You ask.

"I have to get going. I trust you are in good hands here. Jayce and Viktor will show you around, and I'm sure you will get acclimated to life in the Academy in no time. You all know where my office is if you are to need me." The yordle notes and walks out of the large doors behind you. 

You wave goodbye to the dean and his pet and then face your full attention towards your more muscular partner. You decide to ignore the other one for now, even if that means getting holes burnt through your skull by his darting glances. That is something to deal with later.

[6okuto]

Can i have uhh.. reader giving rime/felix/both/ a lap dance hc lmao

Idk if I already sent this yesterday

note from nia: it Did send but it wasn't anon so i am answering this one :heart: i didn't know if i should post this here or my sideblog when it's done since it's suggestive/a little explicit. but i think it's ok here ?? 🤨 we'll see

putting on a special outfit. for fun,, the appeal, the experience

they see you all dressed up and rime is, as expected, smirking as he walks towards you after a second of surprise

felix glitches for a solid 5 seconds before he sputters out a little "wh—what is—", clears his throat, and tries again . "does there happen to be a special occasion today?"

he's sweating.

if you started to get nervous beforehand they're reassuring you they'll enjoy whatever you have planned and saying you can trust them

you make them promise not to move or complain before you start and they don't know what the fuck's going on but they're Intrigued.

more so when you turn on music and start walking towards them

rime being a whore! manspreading and putting his hands on his thighs as he waits.

especially if you're doing floorwork . making eye contact the whole time and waiting

he grabs your waist when you hover above him, moving his face closer to yours as you lean in

his hands stay there or move to grip your thighs as you straddle and grind against him, tilting your head to side knowing despite his own little cocky act he's very much wrapped around your fingers

he's so amused. he enjoys it so much oh my god . the dance itself and also you being confident, dancing for him

even if you're struggling to keep eye contact he's doing it easily with a smirk on his face because he can never just give up control or be flustered😒 /lh

he believes if he's enticing enough surely you'll take initiative and look like you were the needy one first

other than holding on to you he won't really do anything else

it's your performance after all! so it might take more planning and teasing and getting even closer but The Reaction. worth it i'd say

but why would you kill felix like this (jk u should)

felix shivers as you run your hand up his torso to his neck

he doesn't know what to do with his hands when you get up on the area between his legs and look down at him

all he can do is stare, flustered, as you make eye contact and make your way down towards his face

you can watch him take a really deep breath and holding it in when you push up against him

his grip on the armrests....knuckles are white . heart beating so fast

y'know when they stand in between the person's legs and bring their head towards their lower stomach (and then sit on their lap)

rime can look up at you confidently or at your body as you sit down

felix doesn't know where to look or what to do but i'll give him the fact that he's turned on! he may be flustered as hell but when he looks up at you..My Man. the dazed look in his eyes he wants you so bad

especially when you push his hair out of his face and tilt his head up while smiling. he thinks he's going to have a heart attack

depending on how #advanced you make this ,, maybe doing some leaning back to slide back down on the floor,, he's panicking but manages to grip your waist to make sure you don't fall

part of him doesn't know where to look when the moves get ?? spicy.... but it's very much overwhelmed by the part of him that Cannot Look Away

Will felix get hard? that's a solid maybe. a Probably, even

Should you sit on his lap and tease him about it? that's a solid Yes if applicable

i hope you weren't planning to just stop there because after you finish,, there's a very low chance rime would just let you leave or not go further! 🤨 if you even try to joke about leaving to change he's grabbing your waist and asking "where do you think you're going?"

and just don't do that to felix he doesn't deserve it look at him 💔 he'd probably put his head in his hands and groan before going to kiss you ouagh

i'm not saying they'd turn on the same song if/while you do Something After but i'm not rejecting that opinion either. stares at rime that bastard /lh

[jungw8ns]

GOING TO AN ESCAPE ROOM WITH ENHYPEN !

PAIRING: boyfriend!enha x gn!reader. GENRE: established relationship, fluff, crack. WARNINGS: profanity (not that much tho), mentions of death (?). WORD COUNT: 100 - 200 each member.

HEESEUNG:

the two of you were so pumped playing an escape room together for the first time that the other people in line had to calm you guys down (which was trully embarrassing to say the least 🤐🤐)

he was looking at the ranking board filled with pictures of players that had succeeded in the shortest amount of time and he just wanted nothing more than to see both your faces on there

but anyways, we all know how competitive heeseung gets 🕴️

oh boy let me tell you, this guy WAS SPEEDRUNNING IT but not the kind you were thinking

the second the timer had started he was literally SPRINTING AROUND THE ROOM LOOKING FOR CLUES YET COMPLETELY MISSING THEM 🏃‍♂️💨💨💨

while he was busy running around, you were picking up the little details in the room and in no time managed to open a few locks

"y/n look i found– oh 😐😑😐"

HE WAS SULKING PLSSS 😭😭😭

when you noticed him standing from afar staring at you with his arms crossed, you called him to solve this one puzzle you already did

*gasps* "oh no! babe i don't understand how to do this, please help me 😔😔🤥🙏🙏"

he had to bite his lower lip to stop himself from letting out that cocky grin but it got out eventually

"oh it's so easy sweetheart, just put this here and then voila! 😉"

when the two of you escaped you suprisingly got to take a polaroid with him home after ranking 2nd in the records

heeseung was the one who held onto it tho, placing it underneath his clear phonecase for safekeeping <3

JAY:

GOD THIS DUDE

THE ESCAPE ROOM WASN'T EVEN THAT SCARY AND YET EVERYTIME YOU GUYS OPEN A LOCK OR A DOOR HIS FIGHT OR FLIGHT INSTINCTS COME UP 😭😭👊👊

"y/n stay behind me >:(("

"um, babe, you do realize that's just a door right?"

"WE'LL BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY?? THE STAFF COULD'VE PROGRAMMED IT TO GROW LEGS?? 😵🧐🧐"

you knew you shouldn't have played horror games with him a few nights ago cause he looked like he was about to lose his mind 😔

you had to shove his ass aside and move on to the next mission cause the both of you knew that he was stalling 🏌️‍♀️

jay was being extra clingy the whole time you were playing, he'd either link arms with you or hold hands (he's literally so adorable) 💞💞

BUT THEN YOU THOUGHT OF DOING A PRANK ON HIM

while you were roaming around the room trying to solve a puzzle, you saw this horse mask on a nearby table

and so you made sure jay was distracted and put on the mask

you could've NOT worn the dusty old thing but where was the fun in that?

"jay can you come here for a sec?"

you hid behind the wall beside the door frame waiting for him to come into your sight and attacked him

now, how about we guess what happens next?

a. he faints

b. he runs away

or c. he slaps you in the face and forces you to buy him food for the rest of the night

if you guessed c then YAY! YOU'RE CORRECT 🥳🎉🎉🎊

THIS HOE SLAPS YOU AS HE SHOULD

"$##/@+(+'£%(:?!!)&£**/*%@"

when he finally takes off the mask like those scenes in scooby doo he's never felt so betrayed in his life

"i- I TRUSTED YOU 😭😭😭 YOU BETTER BUY ME FOOD LATER, I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS, THE BETRAYAL???? LITERALLY UNPROVOKED?????"

he wouldn't stop side eyeing you until you guys finally pulled up on the mcdonalds drive thru

"hi, can i get two um– bts meals please? 😒😒 and two oreo mc flurries 🙄🙄 and also large fries 😐😐"

sane (1/3)

would be trailing behind you like a little puppy (i love him so much 😭😭😭)

he either has his arm linked with yours or held hands every five minutes

JAKE:

really focused on the puzzles he's doing but the second he hears you call out his name for help he's there beside you with the sweetest smile

but anyways, mans was POPPING OFF the entire time you were playing

he was solving problem after problem in no time (he wanted to impress you is why he activated his inner flash ⚡⚡) but he did let you play tho, the last thing he wanted to do was make you pissed at him for hogging all the games

def buried jake with compliments and forehead kisses right after ❤️__❤️

and so the two of you got out in like an hour and a few which you were very proud of

"you were so cool today babe, good job !!"

"aww thank you angel 😊😊"

sane (2/3)

SUNGHOON:

would be linking pinkies with you the whole time, only letting go whenever the both of you had to solve something that needed two or more people

there was this one game tho where he had to arm wrestle this literal hand lever to open the door to the last room (yea...don’t ask why, the staffs were pretty weird 😬😬) 

it made him enjoy the experience a bit more as it was only the two of you playing instead of getting accompanied by strangers

HGAWAHSGDHSGHDA PLSS THIS GUY

“oh this’ll be easy, y/n step aside, i’ll handle this 😏😏😏”

idk if you were supposed to think about how handsome he looked with his serious expression on and his veiny hands coming into frame or be worried for him because the lever was REAL HARD to pull that his veins looked like they were going to pop any second soon, you stepped in and helped him tho cause you were a good s/o <3

from a spectators point of view, the two of you looked like y’all were about shit your pants but the two of you eventually succeeded on beating it, immediately dragging him to the next room which had a sofa in it, laying down to catch your breaths

cliché moment ahead ⚠️⚠️

the two of you shared a few laughs before standing up on the empty space, held hands and started to jump in circles to celebrate your success 💃💃

yupp, y’all were never going back to that hellhole again

very stubborn at first, he wanted nothing to do with the game but then you held him at gunpoint by saying:

SUNOO:

"please just this once or else i'll revoke your mint choco ice cream rights 🔫🔫🔫"

"BUT IT'S SCARY IN THERE BABE :((("

"it won't be that scary sunshine, besides, i'll be ready to 🤜💥 yk?? trust me babe i would never let anyone hurt you <33"

kinda pissed since you blackmailed him into the place and also bc he wanted to play bumper cars and dance mania but he yea he caved in pretty quick 😋😋

(y/n let him play his games in peace tf >:(((( )

once you guys got in tho he realized how normal it was and that it was not terrifying at all

THE EPITOME OF CLINGY OMFG

he wouldn't stop back hugging you and you couldn't bring yourself to push him away to play the games so you just let him walk behind you with his arms on your shoulders 😩😩

(y'all were walking kinda funny but don't tell sunoo that 🤫🤫🤫)

yea the two of you ended up escaping with a whopping 2 hours and a few minutes

but it was the effort that counts so A+++++ for the both if you 😜👍👍👍

sane (3/3)

JUNGWON:

was the one who suggested going, he even searched on naver about really good escape room places to visit and was overall really looking forward it

he liked going to places and having fun with you so it wasn't a shock how his eyes were literally crescents and his dimples were so evident

yea he literally rushed the both of you to the place that you were the first in line 😵

while waiting for the staff to finish setting up he was playing with your connected hands like 🖐️✊🖐️✊ (so precious 💞💞)

"y/n why are you taking so long 😭😭 what if they close and we end up not solving a single lock, hurry up por favorrr 😩🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏"

when they finally lead you to the room he was kind of surprised that they had separated the two of you into different spaces (like the one with txt where they had the answers to the other member's puzzles yk???)

he was locked inside a telephone stand while you were handcuffed in the main room

dw the two of you reunited after a few minutes cause jungwon was rushing his lock to get to you 🤭

you both were progressing at an average pace and it made you guys a lot more closer (not that you guys weren't before but you get what i mean)

after you guys escaped the two of you went to eat curry and talked about the whole experience 😋✌️✌️✌️

this boy literally dragged you in the escape room with him

NIKI:

HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE YOU TIME TO REFUSE HE JUST 😐👉🚪

"ok masterchefs, in order to test your abilities we must go through series of puzzles and make it out alive, understood?"

he tried ignoring how confused you were and went on to try and get you guys to escape

HE'S LAUGHING AT YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON AND OBV YOU LAUGH ASWELL CAUSE WHO WOULDN'T??? his laugh is so contagious pls 🤖🤖 he was so close to d wording cause he couldn't breathe from laughing too much

yea.. you guys spent so much time laughing at each other for being so dumb at this that you ended up playing 'till closing time

spoiler alert: he fails on doing anything cause the second you made eye contact with him this child collapses 😍🤩

GIRL SO EMBARRASSING 🤡🤡

THE STAFF KICKED THE BOTH OF YOU OUT AND NOW YOU GUYS WERE BANNED FROM THE PLACE ☠️☠️

"haunted house next weekend???"

"BET"

NOTE – god they were WAY funnier in my head but yeah.... i love them so much AND OMFG HAVE YOU GUYS SEEN HEESEUNG’S SELCAS LAST NIGHT???!?@??#?@?!?@ HE’S NOT REAL WTF ⁉️❓❓⁉️

also, idk why BUT EVERY TIME I SAVE A DRAFT the paragraphs get scrambled?? £!?) 6=6) 🤣😂💔💔🤣🤣😂💔 it's so annoying but anyways, ilysm pls stay safe and have a great day <33

[fallingsunflower]

https://sunflowerdiscussion.tumblr.com/post/694883829140324352/but-people-said-olivia-cant-mention-that-harry-is

It is very weird. I feel like 🐙 could mention H but had to word things very carefully bc of a loophole in their agreement/contract or she was allowed to talk about him more.

I have a theory that they were going to push the deeply in love, happy happy, obviously in a very serious relationship narrative (🙄) leading up to Venice, at the film festival and through MP promo bc they (label, management, idk?) couldn't possibly have anyone thinking H could be queer. And I think people would be even more likely to question H's sexuality if they listened to things the director and producer were saying like "Harry is Tom", they wanted a queer cast and how passionate H was about the story.

Back to pushing the relationship narrative...

- We got the RS article that was basically dwd & 🐙 promo disguised as a Harry article and it included an interview with her as well as the writer pushing a specific narrative

-We saw the pap walks ramp up as soon as they got to NYC, both together and alone. The amount of paparazzi and "fans" they had waiting for them when they left the restaurant was insane and a huge spectacle.

-🐙 was attending ALL of H's shows

-Then we have her other articles, which were mostly written before the Shia/Flo/🐙 shitstorm & they seemed to talk about the relationship more than we'd previously seen.

-In the VF article 🐙 mentioned the quote abt filling up your own cup. She originally tweeted that in 2016. H used it as advice to a fan at his show on July 16th. 🐙 then brings up the quote in the VF article and it sounds like that part of the interview was done on July 29th at the photoshoot. So two weeks after H said it in front of thousands. I think they were going to wait for either shippers or tabloids to connect it back to her so they could use the quote to push how happy & in love they are. How they're obviously on the same page. Blah blah blah.

But then we got the mess with Shia. I think the backlash, the very high possibility that she lied (again) to H & his team about Shia's exit, and the condescending attitude towards Flo, made H and his team change course. I think they were either going to heavily hint at their relationship throughout the film festival or go full on happy couple but this latest mess was the final straw. Obviously only time will tell if it's over but I think H's behavior in Venice was extremely telling as well as 🐙 not being at his shows. We could get a bua soon or not until after MP but I think H and his team would be incredibly stupid to have him seen with her again. I'm just thankful all of this Shia and Flo stuff came out when it did because I really do feel like we were going to have a different Venice Film Festival.

Anyways, sorry this was rambling and long. I could be completely off but I'd be interested to hear what you think.

I agree that the Venice Film Festival could have gone a lot different if the Shia stuff didn't come out, but I'm not sure in what way. It would't change the messy plot of DWD or the reviews. It might have made people more accepting of Olivia as a filmmaker though. She probably would have gotten better press and the focus, more than likely, would have been on holivia and DWD rather than the other behind the scenes drama.

I could see the whole "deeply in love" narrative. It's pretty obvious they were going that way. The Variety article clearly was pushing it, and that was written in July I think? As were some other magazines that had a bit of a roll out around that time.

I'm not sure which direction they're going in now. It would be stupid to continue, especially on Harry's part. I could potentially seeing them just fading this thing out. It might be down low for a while and then all of a sudden we get word they split. But I'm not sure. No one knows.

I guess we'll find out. And I'll leave my asks on for the MP premiere at the TIFF, btw. So we can chat if you'd like. that's why I haven't turned them off yet

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