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getgonebyfionaapple · 8 months ago

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#my anxiety has been kicking my ass lately #I don't want to take more meds for this but idk how to cope :(#even when I work out and am active at the end of the day my heart still feels like it's beating too fast and I'm going to die #usually I can't sleep bc of this and the thing is I was unemployed so it sucks but I can make it work yk? bc one thing I have rn is time #except I'm going to start a new job/ training next week and it's long hours 6 days a week #how on earth am I going to make this work if I can't fucking sleep?#I'm trying to not think about it too much and just see what happens bc maybe everything will work out and I'm overthinking #but idk I'm scared

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camoneo · 14 days ago

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i lovvveee them crazy

W/out the filter

#wild life smp #wild life fanart #life series #gtwscar #goodtimeswithscar #gtws fanart #goodtimeswithscar fanart #idk how to tag this I see so much on other fanart #Little scared I'm doing it wrong

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inkskinned · 2 months ago

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we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.

"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."

i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.

you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"

i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.

what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.

i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.

"don't make a big deal about this," you said.

this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.

"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.

you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."

the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.

afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."

#spilled ink #writeblr #i'm trying to write about this really specific and wierd new experience #that i think is specific to the internet generation #where people you trust can just... say whatever??? and while most people are trustworthy #sometimes they'll just like... put ur shit out there????#and the thing is that sometimes it's GOOD - i want you to tell ppl if ur partner is being cruel!!!!!#i want u to be like ''hey is it normal if xyz happens'' ... but stuff like ''she's afraid of the dark''#PARTICULARLY when it's CLEARLY making fun of me....#what is the point of that.#this is huge and complicated and happens outside of romantic relationships too btw #like someone u thought of as a friend will be like . oh did u know she's scared of heights and it's like.#girl why are u fuckin doing that tho?#it's not a SECRET i just ...???????????????????????#and i think that gross feeling of like -- ''i can't REALLY be upset bc there's not a TRUE RULE about this....''#it's just not something talked about. bc it's so specific and yet so complex #bc how could i say like '' this is a violation of trust'' when it... technically I GUESS isn't????????????#idk maybe im just like super sensitive but please tell me in the comments/tags/etc if this is #something u have experienced (a trusted person like spreading ur shit) and if u were cool with it

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ricky-mortis · 2 months ago

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They're the best of each other!

#Something that was meant to be just a quick little drawing of Pete and Steph #I really havent drawn them all that much #and i wanted to work on my steph design #I have a ton of art in my drafts that I have yet to post #so i'm just posting these while I work on more pulp art #idk i thought this was cute #Oh guess what- i got a new facts book #so i'm gonna start doing the fun facts again!#fun fact: squirrels can climb trees faster than they can run on the ground #there are so many squirrels where I live and just about everytime I'm driving in my neighborhood I get scared I'll hit one #the little shits just really love sitting in the middle of the road until the last second smh #hatchetfield #starkid #team starkid #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #starkid npmd #steph lauter #stephanie lauter #mariah rose faith #mariah rose faith casillas #pete spankoffski #peter spankoffski #joey richter #my art #lautski

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teaboot · 1 day ago

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tranny freak :)

#Negativity #Transphobia #I don't know what to tell you buddy I'm not sure what your goal is here #I am genuinely so much happier like this #Figuring out that I'm a tranny freak has been the absolute best thing ever #All the loved ones who I've come out to have been so welcoming and supportive #I get to experiment with my appearance like I haven't done since my punk days in highschool #And I've always been a weirdo so freak isn't even hurtful that's been a point of pride for decades #What made you want to hurt a stranger buddy #What are you going through #Are you gonna read this and scoff cause I took a troll sincerely #Why are you so afraid of genuine connection #Why are you scared of people #Are you happy with your life right now #Do you like yourself #How much time do you spend doing this #Do you think the negativity might be getting to you #How much time do you spend feeling repulsed scornful and annoyed towards others that you gotta do something about it #I'm really sorry #I used to be a similar kinda angry and that shit taints everything #Idk man I just hope you can see the joy in things someday #There's so much cool and exciting stuff you can find when you start looking for happiness and good intentions #Kinda sad that you're missing out

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gideonisms · 4 days ago

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"don't walk alone at night as a woman" "don't live alone as a woman" "don't try to buy a car by yourself as a woman" damn it's almost like people just don't want women to do things

#should they be in the home instead?#i barely count as a woman but i'm going to do exactly what i want forever thanks #i will walk where and when i want to walk #also i mean anything can happen but so far no one has really given me trouble #and like. the people asking you for money are more scared of you than you are of them #the random people having an episode in public are not directing that At you typically #you might meet someone who is having a bad time if you walk alone at night this is true. but like. welcome to life? idk?

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teddybeartoji · 3 months ago

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tw mickey in a dress🙈🙈

sorry they're kinda blurry but you get the point okay the dress was very sex and i looked very prettyy:33333

#dress so tight you can see the outline of my uh #cat #?#anyway #THIS DRESS IS SSOOOOOSO PRETTYY #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #pls i need toji n kuna to be my guard dogs bc i REFUSE to go out in this on my own😐#i am scared .#ANYWAYYY #i really like dressing up at home every so often hehehee i think it's so fun!!!#AND LOOK AT THE HAIR #DIDN'T IT LOOK LIKE HOW THEY WORE IT IN THE 70'S OR SMTH #BLOWOUTS OR WHATEVER THEY'RE CALLED I'M SORRY I DON'T KNOW HAIR AT ALL BUT YEAH #IDK I LIKED IT OKAY #MEOW #mickey's magazine #the pipe bothers me so much don't look at it pls..

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sukerokus · 1 year ago

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#mignon #mignonedit #ok i removed a gif idk wats safe I'm scared of getting banand LOL..#anwyays its available on vimeo pls support the artist its worth it #.gif #.bl #.all

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shartfinz · 2 months ago

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coming out

(text cuz I know my handwriting is bad and the pen I used doesn't help: "as long as you're happy, Lu, it doesn't matter to me! You're still my brother"

#my art #fanart #luigi #smb #super mario #luigi fanart #mario #mario fanart #super mario bros #i headcanon luigi as gay because it's fun #i hear a rat while i queue this I'm scared of my workplace #also they're sitting down thats why they're the same height 🫡 i had drawn their legs but it was hard so i gave up #i also know his mustache would follow his mouth and not just hover but I'm LAZY and didn't want to fix it #lip? not mouth idk i went back to edit this when i got home

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kaiserouo · 4 months ago

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technically he's not lying

#how many years do i have to wait for ordan to jumpscare me #idk how to draw ordan #i don't wanna yoink someone else's design #and i'm definitely not gonna draw steel meridian leader model with boltace and izvara syandana like some redditter hypothesied #so just a cape with a tiny bone as a button #also i just think this plot is funny but i didn't actually have a coherent setting about ordis / ordan lol #no matter what operator is scared as hell rn #warframe #warframe operator #warframe ordis #warframe ordan karris #my art

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l3irdl3rain · 2 months ago

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listen guys. hold my hand. we can play dragon age veilguard together. it could be fun. i could make youtube videos or stream it or something. but you have to be nice to me about it bc im very bad at video games and very sensitive

#i just think it would be fun but i'm SHHHYYYYYYYY #was thinking abt warming up to the idea by doing some mass effect videos or somrthing?#idk i'm scared but i've talked abt doing this for years #my post #not pets

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martyryo · 9 months ago

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they beat the shit out of each other, nothing more nothing less yk haha they're just exhausted after a fight and ready to go take a shower with their silly soap and dirty water huhu.