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Images of what this cat looks like in my head
Terzo has a cat. He loves her dearly, more than anything.
But this is the ugliest cat you've ever seen. I'm talking full on fugly.
I'm imagining a really fucked up Sphinx or one of those, "ma there's s weird fucking cat outside" cats.
He calls her his beautiful baby princess and thinks she's the most beautiful thing Satan has ever gifted him. His brothers make fun of him for it of course. Because this cat is hideous.
#its because your first thought upon seeing one of these cats is#whats wrong with you#terzos ugly ass cat#the band ghost#papa terzo#terzo emeritus#papa emeritus iii#i think the first cat might be a donskoy?#also#these are actually relatively attractive cats#to me#but i work at a vet#and everytime i see one i just#👁️👄👁️
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not "i ship these characters" or "i want them to bond platonically" but a secret 3rd thing (I want them to be forced to interact by the Narrative bc they would HATE that)
#who needs romance when i can watch two narrative foils painfully tolerate each other's existence#bonus points if they are forced to Work Together To Solve A Problem#and they end up working surprisingly well together!#they make a surprisingly effective team!#they even confide some backstory with each other & bond a bit & understand each other better#and when it's all over they shake hands & amicably agree that they still cannot fucking stand each other#'this was an interesting sidequest & I'm glad we got to experience it.#but all things considered i genuinely never want to see your face again'#Enemies to Chained-Up-In-An-Abandoned-Bathroom-Together#to Enemies#two stray cats forced to share a cat carrier for a trip to the vet
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vetted palestinian gfm in need of urgent support (10/03/24)
Ahmed's family's campaign has raised €976/€20,000. Ahmed is displaced in southern Gaza caring for his father and brothers while his wife is alone in the north with their fifteen-month-old daughter, Najah, under constant bombardment. They have lost a child before and live in anxiety and fear of never seeing one another again. Just a few days ago, Ahmed's encampment was bombed, and last night he received news their home in the north was destroyed. Any donations help support safe passage so the family can reunite. This campaign has been vetted and promoted by @/gaza-evacuation funds here. (contacted by @najah-meshal)
Eman's family's campaign has raised $1,305/$5,000. Eman is a science teacher and mother of five children; Nada (11), Rahaf (8), Sarah (5), Sham (3), and Zeina (9 months). They are struggling to find clean drinking water, survive the harsh climate, endure sickness, and are surviving on canned food. All donations are used to support their basic survival. This campaign has been vetted by association through Eman's sister Eslam here. (contacted by @emanfamily3)
Shaima's family's campaign has raised $2,179/$30,000. Shaima is a mother of four (Magdy, Walid, Abdel Rahim, and Amal) currently separated from her husband, who was across the border at the time of Israel's attack on Gaza. They have been displaced six times and are in desperate need to evacuate to Egypt to reunite and escape the genocide. Any funds will help secure their safety. This campaign has been vetted by association; information here. (contacted by @familygazaamal)
Mahmoud's family's campaign has raised $4,035/$40,000. While Mahmoud was able to evacuate to Egypt, his sister, Soha, her husband, Hassan, and their four children (Ahed, Mohammed, Majd, and Karim) are still in Gaza. They have been displaced seven times and now reside in a refugee camp, where conditions continue to worsen. Donations, through Mahmoud, support the family as they struggle to find stability. This campaign has been vetted by @/90-ghost here. (contacted by @ahed-family2)
Lama and Mohammed's campaign has raised $4,115/$10,000. Lama and Mohammed were forcibly displaced from Khan Younis to Rafah along with Mohammed's family of twelve; their house was destroyed in the winter. Lama is now pregnant and in need of care. All funds aid in securing their evacuation. This campaign has been vetted and promoted by @/gaza-evacuation-funds and vetted by association; information here. (contacted by @lamahourani7)
#all from my inbox; i figure this is the best way to boost their campaigns because spam answering asks just doesn't work#more to come i just needed to get these posted asap#boost#free palestine#palestine gfm#vetted gfm#gaza genocide#mutual aid#all eyes on palestine#signal boost#palestinian fundraiser#palestinian aid
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please watch my scrungly old man kiss the inside of a glove
#cockatiel#bird#birdblr#birblr#gale#please don’t come @ me about the state of his feathers#he has pdd and cannot digest pellets and we’ve been working slowly to convince him fruits and veggies are cool but he’s always been#uninterested#he is 15 years old and gets clean bills of health every time we go to the vet#he has supplements etc just pleaseeeeeee i cannot take it lol#just look how cute and happy he is!!!!!#(he’s almost died several times cause of his pdd so im just asking to have cute videos. ok. ily)
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how am i meant to ha wahoo yippee through life in these conditions
#vu talks shit#in this past week i have#gone to urgent care without insurance#paid about half my bills#been reminded that i still owe someone another near 200 for a trip i leave for in TWO DAYS#AND i paid for a rental space for something that i am ADMITTEDLY VERY HAPPY ABOUT BUT STILL SO BROKE NOW#and i have done ZERO grocery shopping#and im not sure i have the money to do grocery shopping right now#but im scared to look at my bank account after shelling out nearly 1k on everything else#AND i have to take my cat back to the vet soon cause she's starting to have asthma attacks again#i need to put everything new in my shop and put shit up for pre order cause i got charms im working on#but mAn i just#cannot afford the distractions rn#vent#AAAAAAAAAAUGH#i didnt wanna put that but i am stressing in the tags now
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Hello ! Thanks for bearing with me , I am a Palestinian educator from Gaza whose life is dire and gruesome. Nothing has left for my family except the hope you can support and help us. After 9 months of war we became exhausted, hopeless , desperate , and displaced. Houses and livelihood sources have been lost and gone with the wind. Things are driving us insane and made. The least level of life can't be attained. Healthy water and food have become a dream we need to realize. What worsens our life more is the constant bombings and killings. That is why I am asking in this post to help us survive this unbearable circumstances , moving from hell to safety and peace. Your support can help us be safe and alive so friends you can support us either by directly donating whatever you can or by sharing my campaign links so that generous people can know about our tragedy and pain. Remember your small contribution can make a big difference for the lives of many children whose heath gets worse and worse everyday. Let their life change and let them feel happy through your kind contribution.
https://gofund.me/9b764ae7 ❤️💚🤍🖤
GoFundMe link here!
Vetted here!
#palestine#gaza fundraiser#I spent quite a bit of time ensuring this was vetted and going to a person who is in need and not a scammer.#This is a real person who has been working incredibly hard to reach out to people and get the momentum going on the fundraiser.#Every little bit helps especially when they are so close to the goal!#Wishing you and our family the best Fadi!
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by your side — kaiju no. 8, hoshina soshiro x reader, gn for the most part but referred to as "sweetheart" (and "girlfriend" at the end), hurt/comfort, mentions of injuries, written in response to this ask, 1.8k words
"Vice Captain! Vice Captain! VICE CAPTAIN!!"
You wince as Okonogi's voice pierces through the gunfire and explosions surrounding you and your officers. You shouldn't even have access to the Vice Captain's radio channel with Operations, but you've been friends for so long Hoshina Soshiro had simply shrugged and offered you a smirk.
"How else are ya gonna learn the ropes and beat me someday?" he'd asked. "It's not like lettin' ya listen'll keep your shots any steadier."
He was right, of course. Letting you listen doesn't do anything for your aim — but hearing the channel now, knowing he's fighting a kaiju that can talk — that's strong enough to control all these wyvern type kaiju? It's a testament to all these years of training together that your shots are deadly and precise, your heartbeat ricocheting in your ribcage as you breathe and brace your shoulder for recoil.
Another wyvern kaiju dives towards your group and you huff, planting your foot on a block of rubble and notching the rifle against your shoulder. "Minase! Hibino! Get out of the way!" you order, squeezing the trigger rapidly.
Your breaths are loud in your ears.
Static crackles down the line.
You wince as a yoju crashes into a building nearby, sending dust and concrete tumbling down. Your officers — Soshiro's officers, normally, except he's busy so they're yours, now — are tending to the wounded and taking down yoju behind Officer Shinomiya's two man squad with Officer Ichikawa.
You want to run.
You want to sprint.
Your fingers are clamped so hard on your rifle that they ache. The talking kaiju, the leader — Kaiju No. Ten — is huge, even from a distance. There's no way Soshiro can take it down on his own — he specializes in miniature and mid-sized kaiju, not this giant monstrosity with an itch for fighting. You should be there.
"Vice Cap—!" Okonogi's voice is hoarse from yelling. Does she have a visual of him? He must've been knocked through a few buildings or something, based on the smoke and sounds you can catch from their direction.
Not knowing is the worst.
"Okonogi… don't worry… I'm still kickin'," Soshiro's voice is way too cheerful in your ear.
"Are you alright? Hoshina-kun?" you ask.
Soshiro switches to your private channel with a hum. "Aw, are ya worried 'bout me? That kaiju really packs a punch! How're my lil fledglings doin'?"
You watch as Officer Ichikawa freezes another yoju out of the sky. "Shinomiya and Ichikawa could probably make platoon leader, sir," you slip back into formalities automatically, though your chest aches. You flex your hands on your weapon. "In fact, it looks like it's pretty much handled here. I'll head over to your location now."
"Platoon leader," Soshiro's voice is sharp. You wince and freeze. "Your orders are to lead my platoon. Don't worry 'bout me."
"But sir, that's a giant class kaiju now, and —"
"And I've got a job to do," he says. "I intend to finish it. Follow my orders, sweetheart. I'll be fine."
Warmth blooms along your cheeks even as dread sinks into the pit of your stomach. Fuck.
Your earpiece clicks back to Soshiro's channel with Operations and you bite at your lip as Soshiro informs them of his plan to keep fighting. Okonogi protests immediately. "But sir, you're in no condition to fight any longer —!"
She's right. His maximum release is deactivated and it's a giant now — at least if you're there, you can expose the core with your shots and Soshiro can cut it down. But —
"She left me in charge of the base," Soshiro mutters. Your stomach twists. You can barely see clearly as Officers Izumo and Kaguragi take down another yoju.
Instead, in your mind's eye, you're picturing Soshiro racing along the large limbs of his foe, slicing and slashing even with his diminished combat levels. Fuck. He's really going to do it — he'll let himself die before he gives up, and normally you admire his conviction and resolve, but right now you're sending your hopes out to anyone who'll listen to please save your stubborn stupid Vice Captain.
"Platoon leader, we'll be moving the wounded now!" Officer Minase shouts. You blink to clear your vision and nod.
This is not the time to lose focus.
"Vice Captain!"
Okonogi, again. Not good.
"Fuck," you bite out, swinging your rifle into place and shooting down a yoju. Fuck, fuck, fuck. "I swear, Hoshina, if you die I'll kill you. Who else am I supposed to share coffee with in the mornings? Who else is gonna tease me about the books I read?"
You hear Soshiro's choked laugh and your heart clenches. You squeeze the trigger again and the yoju in your sights dives out of the way. Soshiro sounds bad — he sounds like cracked ribs and breaths wheezing and you hear him spit what must be blood.
"Platoon leader! The path is clear!"
You provide cover fire anyway as the officers transport the wounded. The rest of the battle is a blur — Captain Ashiro's steady voice and the loud, decisive boom of her cannon echo in your ears, but you're protecting the infirmary when her order comes to hit the deck.
The blast washes over you like a wave and you shudder against the force, bracing against it even with your shield cranked to max. Your earpiece crackles and Soshiro sighs. "He's been arrested."
"I can't believe it," you murmur, climbing back to your feet with a wince. "Sir, are you alright?"
"What, back to formalities already?" Soshiro teases. You roll your eyes. "I'll be in the medic bay for a bit, sweetheart. Are you injured at all?"
"Just some scrapes and bruises," you promise, fighting off the blush creeping up your neck. "Did you check on all of your other officers already?"
Did he check on you first?
"I know you took care of 'em," Soshiro says easily. His confidence in you makes you want to cry. "Had to make sure my favorite platoon leader was alright."
The line goes dead and your heart stops. On the ranked officer channel you hear Captain Ashiro snap, "Get him to the med bay, now. I'll take Kaiju No. 8 into custody."
Your heart wrenches itself back into pumping as a sharp pain shoots through your chest. Did Soshiro collapse? Did he seriously — seriously — check on you with the last bit of strength he had left?
You spare a precious few moments to make sure your platoon (Hoshina's platoon) is accounted for and understand their orders to rest and help with securing the base, and then you bolt.
You're panting and dusty and there's still dirt smeared across your forehead when you make it to the med bay, but Soshiro's in an operation room and you're forced to pace in the hallway outside. Thoughts tumble through your brain like rocks, memories of training together and joking over drinks and shared morning coffees and all the times he's draped his jacket over your shoulders during late nights going through reports together. All the cracked jokes over your private radio channel and the silly smiles sent your way any time you laughed at one of his stunts.
You know you're not supposed to — he's your Vice Captain, after all — but fuck. You love him.
Platoon Leader Ikaruga is the one who finds you and sends you off to get cleaned up. "He's not going to be happy seeing you all banged up, and it'd be easier on his recovery if you're clean."
You can't argue with that, so you hurry to wash off the sweat and dirt and dust. As soon as you're done, you're back in the medical ward, pacing a hallway until one of the doctors finally emerges and directs you to the Vice Captain's recovery room.
"Soshiro —" your voice catches in your throat at the sight of him. His purple hair is splayed across the pillow, his bandaged chest rising and falling shallowly with every labored breath. You make your way quietly to his side and settle into the chair, resting your head on your arms as exhaustion creeps into your bones. It's been a long night.
He's okay. Soshiro's alright — a few cracked ribs and lots of bruises and stray cuts, but he's going to be fine. Dawn glides into the room slowly, lighting up the smooth skin of his neck and catching along the contours of his bandaged biceps and chest. The blanket is drawn up his torso and it's soft beneath your arms.
You fall asleep.
There's a hand patting gently at your hair, fingers sliding through the strands as you slowly blink yourself awake a few hours later. "Hey, sleepyhead," Soshiro's voice is low and a little rough. "What're ya doin' here?"
Someone's drawn the blinds shut, but sunlight filters into the room and makes his red eyes glow. You blink. "I'm here for you."
Soshiro's mouth twists. "You should be sleepin' in your own bed, sweetheart. I'm fine."
Your hand clenches into a fist on his blanket and his gaze drops to it. "You almost died, sir."
He stops petting your hair and reaches for your hand instead, tangling your fingers together and pressing his palm to yours. Your face warms at the rough scrape of his callouses against the sensitive skin of your hand. "That's nothin' new," he murmurs. He looks at you again and you can't bring yourself to look away. "We're Defense Force officers."
"You — you're more than just a Defense Force officer, sir," you choke out.
"Right, right, I'm a Vice Captain."
"Yes, but. Sir, you're also…"
Soshiro's gaze sharpens. "What's with the formalities, sweetheart? You called me by my name earlier, didn't ya?"
Your face feels like it's on fire. He heard that??
"You were asleep!"
"I was a lil drowsy on painkillers, but I heard ya loud and clear," Soshiro smirks. "C'mon. Lemme hear it."
You stare at him. He can't be serious.
Soshiro's smirk softens into something a little hesitant, a little nervous. "C'mon. I wanna hear my girlfriend say it."
Oh.
"Soshiro…"
His smile lights up the room. "Yeah?"
"Soshiro," you're blushing so hard it's a minor miracle nothing's caught on fire. "I'm gonna kiss you now."
He laughs and tugs you closer by your clasped hands. You plant your free hand beside his shoulder and hover above him awkwardly, mindful of his many bandages and the cotton taped to his cheek. "Well?"
"Shut up, or I'll dump you," you mumble, eyes darting from his eyes to his lips. You feel his free hand come up to slide around the back of your neck, drawing you closer. He laughs into your mouth as you pause, mere breaths away.
"Don't be mean," he murmurs. "I just wanna kiss my girlfriend."
#hoshina soshiro x reader#soshiro x reader#kaiju no. 8 x reader#kn8 x reader#kaiju no. 8 writing#kn8 writing#hoshina soshiro#x reader#kn8 fic#fuji writes fic#wish i could spend all my afternoons just writing fic LOL#my dog had a vet appt today which is why i worked a half day#he's fine! just routine stuff#anyway this ask was perfect timing bc man the writer's block is sooooo rough rn#thank you again anon for being so nice about it!!#i hope you like this!
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DC x DP Prompt *30*
If anyone would ask Bruce how he could have known, he would tell them that it is obvious. Phantom - the new part-time member of the Young Justice - who seemed to be forever young and their new engineer Danny Fenton who is in his early twenties have perfectly fitting schedules. When Fenton is working in the Watchtower, Phantom will be unavailable for the Young Justice and vice versa. Also, the pranks started after both of these figures appeared. Of course one could argue that they could just be related or somehow knew each other otherwise, but the pranks that were pulled on all of the mentors of the Young Justice were only possible with Phantom Powers. And because of the new Ghost Shield the young hero wouldn't be able to just fly into the Watchtower and had to use the Zeta-Tube, what would mean that they should be able to look at the logs. But Phantom never entered the Watchtower while the pranks were under way. And as soon as his team really needed him, Fenton would make an excuse to leave work early.
What he wouldn't tell anyone, is that he saw how Fenton had transformed himself into Phantom, shortly before the Flash got up to run for a snack, just to fall down because his ankles had been cuffed together.
And maybe he helped him from time to time, with a well timed question to distract his fellow heros. Because the motive became clear really fast. Everytime someone got pranked, that someone had done something to ignite the wrath of the younger heros.
All of that also meant two things.
First of all, as soon as Danny was at work, Batman would be extra aware of his surroundings. The pranks never worked on him, which meant he had to dodge more attempts for the rest of the day.
And secondly: He should talk to Tim, after he found out how he had put his foot in his mouth this time, since he just saw his spoon move in his coffee mug without anyone's involvement. He just let his (probably salty) coffee go cold, brooding. Maybe he should go home early today and spend some quality time with his son...
#skylers prompts#dcxdp#dcxdp prompt#dpxdc#don't tag the danny phantom fandom#bruce wayne#justice league#young justice#Danny is a part-time member of the young justice#he doesn't like it when his new friends are hurt/sad#so he pranks the adult hero responsible#bruce knows#everyone else is losing their mind#but Bruce now knows that he upset Tim somehow and tries to talk things out#Tim knows that Bruces knows but it works either way#Danny the engineer getting a text from Kon that they really need his help: “My sister just texted me that Cujo ate a entire Chocolate cake!#I have to bring him to the vet!“
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a list of Palestinian fundraisers I have recieved via ask
@mahmoudkhalafff // vetted (#151) // donate
@wafaaresh // vetted // donate
@omarhilles2022 // vetted (#106) // donate
@savemohammedfamily // vetted // donate
@ahmed-ziad // vetted // donate
@malkzaeem // vetted (#129) // donate
@free-gaza2 // vetted // donate
@aya2mohammed // vetted (#166) // donate
@hadeelmekki //vetted (#174) // donate
@asmaayyad //vetted // donate
@helpfamily //vetted // donate
@abdelmutei //vetted // donate
@mahmoud1995 //vetted // donate
@stupendouswolfearthquake //vetted // donate
@mahmoudayyad //vetted // donate
@mohammadyaser1980 //vetted // donate
@ahmeadhilles //vetted // donate
@heba-baker // vetted // donate
@motaz225 // vetted // donate
@save-salam-family // vetted // donate
@momenalostaz // vetted (#125) // donate
@yasminalbalawiigaza // vetted // donate
@salahaldinahhorsblog // vetted // donate
@nedataya // vetted (#248) // donate
@monashamali // vetted // donate
@mohamed-mikki // vetted // donate
@alaakh2025 // vetted (#99) // donate
@m905506028 // vetted (#99) // donate
@karamrafeek // vetted // donate
Wishing you all health, safety, and all the help you need 🇵🇸
Please, anyone who can, donate.
#palestine#free palestine#gaza#free gaza#fundraiser#fundraising#donations#gofundme#vetted#i hope all the links are working correctly#will update with reblog soon
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Hey, guess who's just dropped several thousand dollars on my cat because she randomly stopped eating, drinking, and going to the bathroom 🥰
We have insurance for her, but I still have to pay for all of this up front and insurance doesn't cover 100%. And my hours at work just got DRASTICALLY cut 🥲 AND I'm still paying off the costs I put on my CareCredit card from my sickly cat Alistair 🥲🥲
I am super duper down to draw shit for you! I've got commissions listed on my ko-fi and I'm down to do other types not listed there with some discussion! I can also do commissions through paypal if you'd rather do it that way!
I also have:
venmo @ hm_jole
cashapp @ hmjole
any help is greatly appreciated 🥲 thank you
#god I'm so sick of my cats getting being ill#my art#commissions#description in alt text#all the effort I went through to pay down that carecredit from Alistair's vet costs and...... it's maxed out again#mutual aid#literally anything helps. please I'm freaking the fuck out bc I'm only getting like four hours a week at work :))))))))#I literally cannot afford to pay if there's something wrong with her and she needs treatment :))))))#dragon age#danny phantom#portal#legend of zelda
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Fuck it, I need a distraction from medical planning. I'm gonna make that PM community I said I wanted now that Tumblr's rolling that feature out more.
Like this post if you're part of the Project Moon fandom (Lobotomy Corporation, Library of Ruina, Limbus Company, etc.) and I'll try and shoot you an invite once I figure this thing out.
#Project Moon#Limbus Company#Lobotomy Corporation#Library of Ruina#Tumblr community#croak.txt#I figure it's best to make it invite-only for now because A) work in progress and B) vetting users to make sure they aren't like#there to raid/troll like having an open invite would
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okay i dont usually step out of my lane on this but i keep seeing people proudly saying they're reporting all the fundraiser asks they get because theyre ''probably scams'' and its like... you know nobody is forcing you to engage, right? it's not a choice between reporting and donating, you can politely delete an ask if you're uncertain about it. jumping to reporting someone because you don't have the time or knoweldge to check their story when theres a chance they're a real person in need is just... cruel. needlessly cruel.
#also tricks like checking how old a blog is dont work anymore#because a lot of these people arent trying to masquerade as existing tumblr users. they made an account to seek help#like i get it. i dont post most of the asks i get bc i cant vet them. but im aware thats a choice im privilaged to be able to make ykno#free palestine
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Okay so Peter in Gotham fics are neat and all
But what about Dick in NYC fics?
Dick somehow dimension travels to a Marvel universe and needs to figure out how to get back home
He encounters the Avengers and Spider-Man and they help him out
Some way or another, he or Peter connect Richard Parker to him and it’s suddenly “oh hey this is a superhero alternate version of my father”
I just think it’d be fun
#peter parker in gotham#dick grayson#peter parker#richard parker#dc#marvel#fanfiction#fanfiction ideas#this is (to me) NOT mcu peter but i can’t control what y’all imagine#anyway i just think it’d be fun to have peter meet this version of his father#for dick to meet this son of a version of himself he could potentially connect to with any stuff peter has left#for peter and his friends/hero acquaintances to meet and vet dick#bc with the batfam peter is their nephew#but for the marvel crew dick is the long dead father of their buddy and they won’t feel the connection the batfam does#so dick would have to work harder to get them to like him as peter’s family#anyway im reading leap of faith and loving it so far and it’s been a while since we’ve checked in on the marvel characters#and it got me thinking#about dick in their universe instead of peter in the dc universe
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Support Your Local Lesbians
Hi hello! These two lesbian goobers (me and @hickorybird) are getting married this year. And I'm trying to raise as much money as I can to pay for it, get my car paid off, and whatever other odds and ends that need to be taken care of before some big life changes we're hoping to take.
If you'd like to help us going into our new lives together please consider:
Backing my Patreon where I post NSFW, monthly full art updates of everything I'm working on, and an exclusive discord server where I share my art as I'm working on it and community
Buying things from my shop: Ko-fi (US/Canada) & Etsy (International)
Ko-fi donations
Any help and support is appreciated!
#signal boost#claws face#and that dental work I need to get done#and getting my cat's vet work off the ground#bwbwbeoiaubsdfbaskdjbf kjh
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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know#who depend on me for everything#barely recognize me as a friend or helper#and are so incredibly incredibly fragile#i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling#and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before#but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet#who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits#but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal#i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow#and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself#i just hadn't fully understood the extent#we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me#they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy#because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d#and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections#but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way#and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were#which is impossible#we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that#i don't know#it's just a lot to deal with#and i feel very lonely and sad about it#and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it#and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too#dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other
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Being a student did not prepare me for the tremendous stress and guilt I feel being the doctor responsible for the care of precious animals.
#am I doing enough?#am I doing it right?#is it my fault she didn’t get better?#did I misdiagnose this and mislead the owners?#did I cause them undue stress?#am I moving fast enough?#am I helping my coworkers?#why don’t I know how to do this?#I feel incompetent#but then I’m right about one thing#and everything feels okay for a while#vet med#I’m sorry this blog is dead#I’m working 7 days a week#I’m so tired
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