#but i listened to it when i was reading a book. like literally only listened to this one ballet while reading it
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BET (I say as I post this a whole day late)
3 Ships I like ; Minori Hanasato x Haruka Kiritani , Kanade Yoisaki x Mafuyu Asahina , Emu Otori x Nene Kusanagi (All from Project Sekai : Colorful Stage)
First Ever Ship ; I honestly forgot, the earliest I remember was Papyrus x Metatton... Yes from Undertale
Last Song You Heard ; Which one? /NSRS (I listen to a lot of songs but forget their name so I'll play it safe here and say Loveit? but I forgot who's the Artist for the song...)
Favorite Childhood book ; I'm not sure, I was never quite the type to read as a child, I preferred building puzzles and playing with toys as a child...
Currently Reading ; A Gentle Reminder by Bianca Sparacino
Currently Watching ; Actually haven't watched anything lately, but I did try to watch Evangelion before I forgot that I had a time limit on my phone
Currently Consuming ; I just ate a burgersteak with mushroom and gravy ontop it that counts?
Currently Craving ; Pizza... mmm
Tags! ;
@larkspurrabbit
@novannon
Yeah literally only two people... (Me when I forget usernames of moots)
9 Fandom Peeps to Get to Know Better:
Tagged by @goth-automaton yo! thanks for the tag :)
3 Ships I like: mannn jus' three? okay my favored children are Nemestine, Creva, and Weskertine
First Ship Ever: Freddy Kruger/Nancy Thompson. I am nothing if not consistant in my villian/final girl (heroine) pair supremacy
Last Song You Heard: "Renegade (We Never Run)" off the Arcane Season 2 soundtrack
Favorite Child Lichhood Book: "Where the Wild Things Are" by Maurice Sendak
Currently Reading: Still reading those Resi Novels by S.D. Perry whenever I get a chance to
Currently Watching: Arcane, Season 2
Currently Consuming: nothing, I ate [sou- redacted] before doing this, woops
Currently Craving: a good strong drink but that requires me to get up and pour a glass and I don't feel like pushing through the multiple layers of relity to grab a [redacted] to swig down my [also redacted]
Tags for 9 people pffh I tag whoever I want:
@naerwenia
@coiled-dragon
@s-dei
@lmshady
@depraveddove
@the-bar-sinister
@unchartedperils
@sweet7simple
@meltic-daze
@meiguiuk
and whoever else wants to I'm not your parental aid
#tag game!#I have so much ships I like istg#(Most of them are gay ships)#← So true prev... so true...#I struggled on the ships so I said “FUCK IT HATSUNE MIKUS YOUR COLORFUL STAGE” and put my top 3 ships
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......... so could we perhaps get a bit of genzack? just a few things to chew on? :3c
Sorry this took forever, but I woke up this morning and went "I GOT IT!" so it is now time to be not normal about GenZack 🥳
The way I see it, Zack is bright and sunny, but there's something volatile lying dormant beneath his positivity, just as Genesis is composed but hiding a lot of bite beneath his dramatics. They bring out the raw and ugly parts in each other, but they also share the same dreams and lust for life, creating a tension that neither knows quite how to handle.
"one thing leads to another" in an AU where it's 2004 and nothing bad has happened, and now they're:
• Golden Retriever Boyfriend x Black Bird Boyfriend.
• Comic books boyfriend x classical lit boyfriend. They absolutely get each other to give their favorite books a try, and it usually ends in "this comic book dialogue is rubbish" paired with "how am I supposed to read this? It doesn't even have pictures??"
• Quoting famous Poets x quoting cartoons. It's Genesis quoting fine poetry and Zack countering in his own way, then Genesis pretending to be annoyed but secretly he's hiding his smile behind his wine glass.
• Zack hyping Genesis up when he gets dressed up, proudly (and loudly) showing him off— he'll whistle, he'll sneak an arm around Genesis' waist, and keep repeating "doesn't Genesis look look awesome?? He's my boyfriend, you know :)" to literally anyone who'll listen.
• Zack pays attention to even the smallest things Genesis says X Genesis taking everything Zack says seriously.
• Financially irresponsible boyfriend x rich boyfriend who buys him things.
• They spar aggressively, and Zack wins frequently. Zack has a knack for catching Genesis off guard during training. After one sparring session, Genesis began complaining, and then Zack to threw him over his shoulder and ran off laughing, ignoring Genesis' protests.
• Genesis calms Zack's ADHD spirals, like when Zack gets overwhelmed or restless, Genesis sits him down and reads to him while holding him gently until he settles down. Zack tends to fall asleep in his arms.
• Zack matches Genesis' dramatics, except to him they're completely valid concerns, he doesn't brush them off and lets Genesis rant to his heart's content because he may or may not look really hot when he's mad.
• In fact, where Angeal or Sephiroth might disprove of Gen's temper, Zack empathizes entirely. Once, when Genesis ranted about a perceived insult, Zack grabbed a hammer and said "just say the word!" which managed to completely disarm Genesis, who's anger dissipated into laughter.
• I think the sweetest part of their relationship is Zack working hard to understand Loveless, reading not only the books but Genesis' annotated notes. The look on Genesis' face when Zack counters one of his tirades with a flurry of Zack-ified opinions is priceless.
• Genesis makes it a point to make the first two letters of every word of the emails he sends Zack bold, because he learned bionic reading is easier for people with ADHD.
• Their shopping trips are a blend of Genesis selecting fine wines and artisanal cheeses while Zack tosses in energy drinks and chips. It's Genesis' "Do you need six types of gummy worms?" Vs. Zack's "As if you're gonna use that truffle oil!"
• Their fights can be intense and explosive, with their opinions often clashing. Genesis thinks Zack can be too naive while Zack thinks Genesis can be hard-headed. Although Zack is usually the one to end the argument by walking up behind Genesis an hour later, right before bed, and pulling him into a hug.
Genesis: What do you think you're doing, Puppy? I'm still mad at you. Zack: Okay cool, but can you be mad at me in bed while you cuddle me? All that yelling made me sleepy. Genesis:
#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#genesis rhapsodos#zack fair#crisis core#genzack#zack x genesis
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Sebastian Sallow Headcanons
Shitty attempt at headcanons for my morally gray, stubborn Sebby boy in Sebastian Sallow Fucking Sucks. It's long for literally no reason besides I don't know how to shut up.
My Seb has gone through it. He suffers - but he also deserves it for that whole "ignorant" outburst days after what happened in the Restricted Section on the night of the Yule Ball. So yeah, he's begging for forgiveness by the end when he realizes how torn he and MC's relationship has become - not without stubbornly trying to get under her skin first.
This idiot constantly wears tight clothes - not because he knows it drives MC insane, though if he noticed, it would get much much worse for her lol- but it's because he's so damn messy he grabs the first clean thing he can find in the morning (slutty little vests, tight sweaters, button downs with stressing buttons - RIP MC).
Reading glasses - enough said.
He's an extremely adept magic wielder. Not only can he cast multiple Unforgivables with shorter cooldowns, but his spells are obscenely strong. MC has not been able to beat him in a duel since that very first time.
That being said, he can't cast a patronus because he's a sad emo boy.
Fav spell: Confringo. Secret fav spell: Imperio.
It's not with the times, but he would definitely listen to metal music. You can't convince me otherwise.
The morally gray/dark wizard line is sooooo veryyyyyy thinnnnnnnn and will get worse.
He doesn't trust aurors and would NEVER BECOME ONE!!!!!!!! Why do ya’ll want him to be a cop so bad??? (Unless he's a dirty cop lol)
Career-wise, he'd be a curse breaker, healer, or a dark wizard 😌
Irrevocably dedicated to the ones he loves, and if he feels its dire enough, he will hurt them to protect them. Trust me on this - for no reason in particular😇
Not opposed to getting on his knees and begging hehehehe...
A skilled healer due to countless hours in the library studying up on a cure for Anne.
Has burned his fingerprints off with too many fire spells. And speaking of his fingers, it's common to spot him with ink staining his skin from all his note taking.
While he's charming and cocky, he sees himself as lesser, dispensable, and directly blames himself for all of his life tragedies.
Anger issues - duh.
Not sure if I'll even get into this in SSFS, but my Seb comes from a family of the Dark Arts - whether he's aware of it or not. We already know Solomon used them. I'd like to think his parents did as well, which is what led to their deaths. The Sallow line is cursed as fuck. Will be exploring this more in a future Dark Seb project where he has to break this curse.
Will make dick jokes. No one is safe.
While he'd make a great beater in Quidditch, his life just doesn't have space for trivial things. He's too busy with murder.
Speaking of body count LOL, he's charmed quite a few witches, but no one has shorted his brain quite like MC. He's intently studied some interesting books in the Restricted Section fantasizing testing out some things.
Idk when his birthday is lol. I'm just agreeing with everyone else.
Seb's relationship with Ominis is interesting....I'll be perfectly honest, I'm not sure if their friendship is going to survive in my world. Seb crosses too many lines. Obliviating your best friend really drives a wedge between you.
THE manipulator. We don't get to see too much of this in SSFS because we're in MC's pov. Particularly because he uses his wiles differently on her. But one of my favorite examples is even as he's mocking her for her poor attempt at lying in the broom closet, he's actively making her anxious (and hot and bothered lol) with that little thread on her sweater. And eventually she slips up. He's such a mother fucker lol.
Okay this post is way too long. I'm gonna leave now lol. BYEEEEE.
#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy sebastian#hogwarts legacy headcanon#sebastian sallow headcanon#hogwarts legacy fanfic#I'm more than aware most of these are common lol#I'm doing my best ok I'm lazy and don't like developing things lol
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poisoned book investigation update: i reached the part of queen margot that deals with the poisoned book and this only made me more convinced that this is indeed. what happened. back in 2010. because 1) i know my mother well and therefore know she would kin catherine de' medici (yes yes i know. i know. what can i say. she's insane. it's a family tradition) 2) in the novel, the book was poisoned by catherine herself (she conceived and carried out both the scheme and the execution herself), and meant to kill her political enemy and son-in-law (but ended up poisoning (and killing) her own son). the exact method of course would be unsuitable for my own mother to imitate as it is the exact same method used in the name of the rose (possibly where umberto eco got the inspiration from, actually?), therefore as i mentioned earlier impossible to recreate with the kind of paper my copy of the three musketeers was printed on. but. yeah. not that i had many doubts at this point anymore but this is really. convincing evidence. psychologically speaking.
like for the. catherine de' medici kin part:
my mother always loved her as a historical figure. we did visit a lot of historical castles and museums and all when i was a kid and she always had a marked preference for 1) the renaissance era and history 2) the medici family 3) catherine de' medici specifically. she admired her cunning and force of spirit and ambition and influence. #1 girlboss supporter (she did not support the. you know. religious massacres tho. she didn't think catherine was a great figure to emulate or whatever. but she admired her nonetheless)
as i've mentioned before, my mother has always been a wannabe italian. she's especially fond of the italian renaissance and in particular florence and its history. in the novel the fact catherine de' medici is florentine is a key part of her characterization
physically there seems to be a similarity? dumas doesn't actually describe his characters' appearance much, but from the few elements we get, it seems to fit (= pale, grey(?) eyes with a cold and cunning look, short and stout but pretty, white hands (that she takes great care of), short and stout (fat?) stature in general, blonde hair, small lips, imposing presence that makes other people immediately fall in line & scares them (she was very proud of that)). it's not much but knowing her she would jump to conclusions and want to really. Be Like Her
sorry i know how this sounds i KNOW you don't have to believe me but i swear this is all true. inherited insanity and all that. the true Drow Ass Family
#sorry it still hasn't fully. been. processed i think.#i mean at some point how. do you let that sink in. 'that' being 'my mother tried to poison me in a narratively-meaningful way when i was 11#the poisoned book saga#<- tag if you don't understand what the fuck i'm talking about and want to read up on the whole thing.#i do wonder how much time she spent planning and all like. 10 years old me listening intently to her lectures about catherine de' medici#in Blois castle and all the Loire castles (we visited them all over the course of summer 2008 i think). like <- clueless#she did always enjoy putting on a show and scattering tragic irony and double entendres and foreshadowing elements........#thank you mother for trying so bad to kill me that you inadvertently ended up making me become your number one nightmare: a poet.#... just like catherine de' medici tried to kill henri de navarre to prevent him from becoming the king despite The ProphecyTM#only to inadvertently kill her own son and therefore making him become the king Earlier Than Anticipated.#IT'S FUN HOW IT WORKS ISNT IT. THE NARRATIVE MOTHER. THE NARRATIVE!#saying that because i am not completely insane (yet) and the whole. fighting against a prophecy thing? is something that they did For Real#which i got from their OWN ADMISSION when i was 17. btw. not something i made up or anything. they literally are like that.#i inherited the Perception Of The Narrative And Fate And Its Patterns And Cycles. as a family curse. this is very much a literal&cold fact.#anyway.
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hrgh every time I think I've come close to forgiving lance fucking parkin I skim the gallifrey chronicles. and then I remember the Horrors.
#listen bc when I read through and play around with AHistory I'm inclined to enjoy and respect his work as a curatative fan historian#but his actual prose writing#it. it beggars belief it truly does it's just atrocious#megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace#everyone in the EDA discord who thinks father time is the worst of it oh boy babes the worst is absolutely yet to come#like I get *why* they gave him the last book of the line because he does (mostly) know his lore extremely well#so it kind of makes sense that he'd be picked to wrap up all the myriad loose ends#and also he's well liked and afaik pretty personable unlike some fuckers I could name and didn't spend years burning bridges#but oh my god oh my god literally everything to do with Fitz and Trix is just. awful. terrible.#guy who absolutely does not understand or respect any of the three of that team TARDIS but especially Fitz#also The Thing With Sam#never happened fuck you lance#also given just how many asspats he gives himself over his command of the lore he fucking got Sam's middle name wrong?!#also it's soooo obvious how much he loves Anji because she's a Capitalist GirlbossTM#he really does not grasp her character development or personal arcs but he thinks he's killing it#like she *is* a Capitalist GirlbossTM but that's not all she is but he's not actually interested in her interiority at all#he just enjoys that she's a fiscal conservative#god the fact that trading futures is the literal very next book after Anachrophobia#one of the best books in the series that explicitly calls out Anji's pro-capitalism stance using time-war-for-profit played for utter horro#immediately followed by...almost the exact same premise but Zany RompTM#it's not that capitalists misusing time travel for profit is inherently bad it's just *these guys* who suck#no lesson is learned! then you fucking get to the fucking gallifrey chronicles and Fitz actually deciding that this very same scheme#'wasn't perhaps unethical' just because it's Trix and Anji doing it#like yeah sure Anji and Trix can have a little insider trading. as a treat. but that is literally the definition of unethical lol#the only reason time traveling to acquire stock tips isn't massively illegal is because it's not fucking real like??#of-fucking-course it's unethical you walnut#parkin you smug annoying self-obsessed lore-obsessed pregnancy-obsessed just barely-plausibly deniably not homophobic asshole#I'm avoiding even bringing up the actual beef with TGC because first of all everyone fucking knows but also it's just.#it's such a goddamn shit awful trainwreck#if parkin wasn't a Fitz-hating homophobic coward he would've ended the gallifrey chronicles the same way he ended the dying days. wink.
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#mixed feelings about liam attending louis’ show#i do love when the boys support each other#and god knows how loyal these two have been to each other#liam has been the most supportive of louis and vice versa#and as louis has said: they’re the only ones who know what they went through in the band and that’s something that will always tie them to#*together#but i read maya’s article about her book#and listen. i know it’s written as fiction. but i know for a fact fiction is a way to process things#she was what? 18? she was very young#a lot of what she describes is heartbreaking#i don’t like the way some people are painting her as a money hungry villain (literally what the fuck???)#y’all like it or not these men aren’t perfect#they’ve fucked up in the past and have hurt people#there is nothing wrong with acknowledging that#dismissing maya’s experience just because you love him won’t change anything#he’s louis’ friend but just because he’s HIS friend doesn’t mean i owe him loyalty#i also want to clarify i don’t hate him#just putting my thoughts out there#actually prepared to get attacked for this but it’s okay#logan.txt
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y does it feel so SO wrong 2 share ur opinion???
#oh u solved the problem#urself!#like its not even about bing right or wrong its just about literally communicating & i think im doing it BAD#IM NOT AFRAID OF BING “H8ED” ON I JUST#i think i just dont like having the chance of making ppl feel bad?#or soemthing aloong those lines?#theres a line a vry easy line 2 cross#like expressing a comic book opinion right? bc its super easy 2 sway a bunch of ppl#but if ur saying smth u dont like it while some1 does it has the possibility of making that person feel bad#& I H8 THAT...idk y it makes me feel like shit????? @ the possibility???#this feels like smth i should bring up w/a therapist LMAOOOOOOO#but like same thing when i was in class right? giving a presentation i got RLLY SCARED 2 do it bc i was giving an opinion or a fact BUT I#COULD B WRONG ON THE FACT!! which is y i just never did them bc i would cry lol but its just#it kinda feels the same way#its weird bc im fine w/getting shit wrong. its only when i share an opinion when i feel stupid??????? ok not stupid just mean? i think? yea#this is possibly the reason y i get nervous sharing hcs or aus. bc it wont b “canon accurate” & then will like fuck up some1s perception id#its not like any1 reads this lashfkj i just hmmmmmmm theres defiantly smth i should b discovering here i just am not...#i want 2 share my opinion bc its a fucking opinion theres nothing wrong w/it bc its not a fact EXCEPT in the way its a fact of how i FEEL o#THINK?? like its just its strange. i think this has a lot 2 do w/me never bing listened 2 as a child LOL uhhhhhhhh hmmmmmm yeah prolly akj#I FIGURED IT OUT I GOT IT ALLLLLL UNLOCKED#god i hhhhhhhhhhh some1 make a clone of me so i can talk 2 me like a therapist or smth#this is y i cant do therapy actualyl its bc i just keep yapping then by the time im done the therapist always went tyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#srry ramblings
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While I was reading the later chapters of Phantom of the Opera a friend of mind reminded me it was a serialization, and suddenly I had a moment of clarity in which I thought "Oh so that's why it's written like that"
#i just be ramblin#phantom of the opera#listen listen overall I enjoyed that boon however#*book#reading post Christine disappearing in the middle of Faust was a personal hell because. There was so much unnecessary rambling. So many#extra scenes we could have time skipped through or never had happen in the novel itself#At some point I was praying ''Please. I love you Persian. Please learn when to shut up. Leroux please. Save some of this explanation of#literally everything for some post story extras or something please get to the actual story''#Like don't get me wrong. I did find the explanation of how the torture room worked and was built very interesting#But did. Did we really have to cut in the middle of our very time sensitive scary moment for the protagonists to go on and on and on about#every working bit of the thing being explained to someone like they've never heard of a mirror maze before with the added dragging out of#the Persian going slowly insane trying to escape the torture room while it changes and changes and changes and the words drag on and on#And then I remember it's serialized and I'm like ''Yeah okay that makes sense.''#''Oh yeah that's why we spent like 5 long chapters reading nothing happening but the Persian and Raoul sneaking down all 5 cellars only for#the Persian to inform us that they really just needed to be in cellar 3 and had gone to an area Erik never frequents and wandered so we#could...learn about the rat man and the shade? who never show up again?''#Please understand I do genuinely like this book but knowing the period it came out in and that it was serialized really puts things#into perspective#poto
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#idk how to tag this but it’s about my dad who i just went NC with bc he’s abusive and hasn’t changed#so if you don’t want to read keep scrolling i don’t care i just need to fucking do something#i’ve passed rage and now i’m just sad#and i feel bad about being sad bc i don’t want to be sad bc being sad SUCKS#i feel like i’m burdening my friends by telling them the shit my dad did to me#ik realistically im probably not but i just#only three people would truly understand the situation#my mom my sister and my childhood best friend#my sister is off limits bc i’m not putting her in the middle of this again#my mom was also abused by my dad and i don’t want to trigger her or make her feel bad so i don’t feel like#i can always go to her about this shit#and i don’t want to take advantage of my best friend’s listening ear even though she is being supportive of me and everything#like i just feel guilty and i feel like im burdening others with my burden#i want it to all stop i just want to stop being sad#i want to stop feeling like im 7 year old me hiding in the pantry from my dad#i don’t want to go to work i don’t want to do anything really#and it’s not like i want to die i just want to stop feeling like this#i want to stop feeling like i somehow fucked everything up when it was my dad’s fault#ik i should book another therapy appointment but i can’t with the way my week is next week#and idk i’m just#im not having a good time#i’ve taken an ativan every night this week bc of all this#previous to this idk when the last time i took an ativan even was#and i’m not trying to read into it too much but its hard not to when ive gone literal months without taking it#and now i’m taking it every night so i don’t stay up half the night bc my brain won’t shut up
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oh i've started listening to nona btw, my audiobook hold went thru at the library after many weeks of waiting. i also realized part of why i'd been putting it off was because i know i'm gonna miss a lot of important details and characterization and implications and have no idea what's going on during the first read and embarrass myself, which is silly. not knowing wtf is happening is a Vital Feature of these stories. i do not need to retain every single page of a book with perfect clarity or absorb every single thematic implication as i read it in order to enjoy it. <-desperately chanting this sentence while gripping the sink staring wild-eyed into the mirror
SO the plan is to just casually let it play through once so i get the vague shape of the story & then, if i have enough time left on the hold, to do a second listen wherein my brain will Actually Pay Attention. we'll see.
#i'm ~2 hours in. i find nona and her gaggle of younger friends very cute so i'm sure terrible calamities will befall them#the only thing i'm sure of plotwise is that their names are just weird bc she's literally translating them due to speaking Every Language#but i can't imagine that will have plot relevance it's likely just st the reader is supposed to put together naturally#i AM loving the occasional mentions of horrific atrocities peppered casually thru the narration#feels similar to book 1 where the narrator has no clue about the important political plot machinations and does not care to know#which is hilarious and fun. we'll see where it's going#nona the ninth#nona the ninth spoilers#i won't retain as much w two audiobook listens as i would with one sit-down paper reading session BUT#audio can be played while falling asleep. i don't have enough concentration or time to devote to a sit-down reading#bc i will struggle not to read each paragraph at least 4 times & think about every individual sentence.#audiobooks hum right along without my brain stalling out which is ideal for when i want to just. Experience The Damn Story.#the locked tomb#once i finish this book theres the murderbot audiobook and i gotta get my hands on hell bent
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it seems like my dad's default response to everything i struggle to do for whatever reason is "just do it"
i was trying to explain that i struggle to read books now because actually picking them up and reading them is hard to get motivation for. he goes "just pick it up. you have arms." so i rephrase to explain that while picking up the book isn't the hard part, opening it, starting to read it, and then COMMITTING to reading it is the hard part. i can read just fine when i get into it, but actually doing it is hard. he goes "then just push through it and read"
like. did you not just hear me. i struggle to do that exact thing.
#i miss being in elementary/middle school and being a massive bookworm#i want to read but it is so hard to find the motivation to do it and to keep doing it#i only read like. 1 book during 2022#and there were a few more in 2023. about 5? if i had to guess? but a lot of that was school assigned reading#i can read if i have to do it for school (which is why i liked silent reading time so much. i literally Had to read.)#wish i had designated silent reading that i actually have to do#i know i could just assign reading time to myself but im also a massive pushover when it comes to things i try to get myself to do#maybe in college english class there will be silent reading time (probably not) (coping)#anyways. i swear my dad does not listen to me. he might hear me but hes not really listening#we can have normal conversations but as soon as i say something he disagrees with or am voicing a struggle of mine#suddenly hes not willing to budge
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Words in Deep Blue, Cath Crowley
#there's literally no one i find more relatable than Henry from Words in Deep Blue#this book is my comfort book#like in a bad way#the one which i read when i want to cry my heart out because that's the only way I'll feel better#like the lana del ray songs i listen#anyways#this book is so underrated#words in deep blue#anyone who loves books#or books about books#or a library#or a second hand bookstore#or a boy who loves words and reads poems#please do yourself a favor and read this#its beautiful
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I feel like Khachaturian is such an underrated composer :<
Everyone should listen to Gayaneh >:(
#though i think most people would prob recognize sabre dance and Masquerade#but i absolutely love Gayaneh in its full form its soooooo good#and i cant recommend it to anyone UGH#like 'hey you should listen to this ballet! how long you ask? uhhhh 2½ hours.....'#though ive probably listened through the whole thing at least 10 times#ITS MY FAVVVVVVV ITS SO GOOD!!!#but i listened to it when i was reading a book. like literally only listened to this one ballet while reading it#so now whenever i listen to it i can still only think 'huh this has the essence of [novel]'#i love when music gets permanently linked in your brain with something else#so then it just has the pure essence of whatever its linked to#like i literally feel like im in the universe of that book every time i listen to Gayaneh#though its hilarious bcs the book in question is Chinese but i cant help but imagine the charas in traditional Armenian clothes instead 😭#i sent the ballet to my chinese friend and im like DOESNT THIS REMIND YOU OF [novel]#and shes like bruh of course not 😭#some fanart i have of a different chinese novel was drawn in a more slavic folk style#so thats now how i imagine this one book in my head#SORRY SUPER RANDOM TANGENT#anyways i love slavic classical composers by far the most absolutely nothing can beat them imo#but anyways listen to Gayaneh. the 2 hours are worth it i swear!!#im listening to Masquerade while i make gifs so i wonder if Jense and Mark will now have this essence#catie.rambling.txt
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woh. finally got a good chunk of the way into ponniyin selvan and maybe it's just my translation but theres a little explanation section at the end of every chapter to help with some tamil words....but fr they explain maybe 1 out of every 5 bits that would be ILLEGIBLE to anyone who doesnt have a good handle on specifically south indian hindu myth and tamil nadu history. im doing ok language wise 👍🏾 like its been a few years since i was really in that world but if im struggling idk how non brown ppl would manage. even little things, poetics, word games....kuruvaikoothu scene was interesting though
#there was a line like 'wow youre a chanakya among men' and i was like???? ur just not gonna translate that?????#15 yrs of bharathnatyam were all training for reading this book fr. im literally only relying on what i learned in dance#this is not my actual family's bag#and the language/spelling is an issue theres a looooong passage in the koothu where i didnt know what god they were talking abt#cause i had never heard the name before. and then they mention the name of a slain demon thats similar to one i knew and i was like#OH. oh its him. okay. cool. but it took work#most of the language stuff im ok with though. a lot of the words are old enough that i can muddle thru with sanskrit roots#this is so crazy i cant believe going to a dance school that was so traditional my parents thought she was crazy is finally paying off#i remember going to kalakshetra and being like. yo this is wild why are we learning the same thing in the same way countries apart#i mean those dancers were better of course this was like. their whole life. but curriculum and vibe was exactly the same#like we had to show up hair braided formal dupatta and all. halfways thru she finally started letting us wear leggings under#a salwaar kameez top instead of the cotton pants they come with#learned nattuvangam too. and she didnt let us perform until we had a solid grasp on different talams#like when i got older half of class was sitting and listening to a tape and tapping out what beats fit#but yeah i just wonder if a more international translation exists! this really seems For south indians#but maybe this is why i had barely heard of it until the film came out my parents arent big readers but they should've at least known it#reading: ponniyin selvan
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#fun fact! this song is in the playlist of quite literally anything ive ever written including like 4 different twtt playlists#despite this i cannot associate it with ANYTHING ive ever made its the only low roar song i cant do it with#after The Incident (iykyk) there was a brief time where i was like completely isolated from everyone and i spent all of my time reading bc#i literally could not handle anything else without losing my mind and bursting into hysterics#and i was reading one step too far by lisa gardener#and it was at the part where the guy just snapped and started chasing frankie and everyone that was still alive#and i just had this song on loop bc it fit the mood so well#god#i cant stop thinking of when he fucking gets shot and he starts talking about his husband like it still makes me tear up i really thought h#he would make it#i really didnt think they would kill off EVERY SINGLE FUCKING CHARACTER I LIKED IN THE ENTIRE FUCKASS BOOK#and after reading that shit i still go hiking by myself in places where nobody could find me if i died. clearly i do not pay attention to#cautionary tales.#anyways yeah really good book you should read it. you will be hysterically sobbing btw#listen to my music boy#Spotify
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#i was excited about this musical about tamara de lempicka an art deco polish painter and the obcr came out last week so i started listening#to it and in the second song she marries tadeusz łempicki though they don't even mention him at all the literal quote is#“Today I will marry the only man for me: I will be a Lempicka!”#and like 1. they say it in the english way which makes no sense as this is happening in russia 2. when she married she was Łempicka#and Łempicka is a female version on Łempicki her husband's surname literally she was going by correct polish grammar#why would she misprounce it purposefully in another slavic country when the point of changing pronunciation is to make it easier for others#only when she moved to paris she changed it to de Lempicka#but like okay then i go on r/broadway and there's somebody working on the show claiming that they don't mispronounce it#they clearly do; but another argument that her family was involved in the production so if there was something wrong they would alert sb#right? well i mean susan wojcicki doesn't know how to pronounce her name the polish way#like it's just so tiring#i read a book this year that covered 60 European languages and every language had a short chapter about it#the chapter about polish was about how our names are weird and difficult...#and the author was from the netherlands and also he was complaining that esperanto has a letter h#my brother in christ another name for your country is holland#also like polish is one of the easiest slavic languages in pronunciation because we have more vowels#there are literally whole sentences in for example czech where you don't have a vowel#jesse eisenberg save me; americans may be pissing me off but this one is okay
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