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owl127 · 1 year ago

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Kudos for your alpha x alpha clexa continuation. Clarke and Lexa hooking up in a dark locker room was 🥵 Loved the visual of a disheveled Lexa once the lights turned back on

Would you be willing to write a part 3? It seems like they still have unfinished business. Maybe Lexa can have her turn inside Clarke or Clarke can redeem her quick performance

Sorry about your ankle so I hope you have a speedy recovery 💕

Thank you! ❤️❤️

Yeah, my brain is running wild with ideas for another part... I kind of wrote a plot in the tags of another ask haha

I do enjoy the idea of some role switch for the next part...

Also, someone left a comment on ao3 about omega/omega and that's another plot bunny in my mind now

#ask the owl #my ankle is slowly getting better #but i havent walked in 3 weeks #and it sucks #the pain is not fun either #but maybe i got a girlfriend out of this?#like ok #I was seeing this girl and she totally stepped up to take care of me after i got hurt #and I was surprised #in a good way #and whoa she's still around and it might not be just a crush after this #so I'm trying to focus on the silver lining here #personal

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lifemod17 · 6 days ago

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me when I find the tiniest, smallest thing that makes me happy, therefore postponing that funeral

📸: ruthlessimagery

lotta bad things going on this week SO please tell me something that made you happy- no matter how silly or small

#mine is that I got to go on long walks during sunset hours like 3 times this week #and then i listened to a song i havent heard in a while and fell in love with it all over again #hozier #andrew hozier byrne #postpone that funeral

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hella1975 · 4 months ago

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so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment

#so i explained before that there's 3 venues and on my very first shift they had me doing the restaurant venue for 2 hours #which was FINE like i was a bit cautious bc my manager is VERY stressed all the time and the place generally feels like it's falling apart #not the building itself just. the way it's run like it's just got new owners and the previous manager apparently #EMPTIED THE TILLS AND TRASHED THE PLACE like cost them THOUSANDS of pounds and on top of that #there was beef with the head chef and the new owners that meant he left and took the ENTIRE BACK OF HOUSE WITH HIM #THERE ARE NO KITCHEN STAFF ATM. I HAVE TO LIE AND TELL CUSTOMERS WE DONT HAVE FOOD ATM BC OF 'REFURBISHMENT'#WHEN IN ACTUALITY THE /RESTAURANT/ DOESNT HAVE CHEFS. DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS #and then the front of house staff are very lacking aside maybe 2 people we're ALL NEW and all of them EXCEPT ME #LIKE LITERALLY JUST ME IM THE ONLY EXCEPTION. ALL OF THEM ARE UNTRAINED #so when i applied with bar training coffee training and very solid waitressing skills they genuinely treated me like a saviour #like i am FENDING off shifts tbh im in a v good position bc they need me too much to get shitty w me if i refuse hours but i can literally #have as many as i want bc they will just give me them. like they're obsessed w me im rota'd for over 60 hours this week #but anyway that very first shift after 2 hours in the restaurant i then walked to the mini golf venue on the OTHER SIDE OF TOWN #and my manager stayed for 30 MINUTES. IF THAT. and showed me around the place + how to close THEN LEFT ME THERE #FIRST DAY HE GAVE ME THE KEYS AND LEFT ME TO RUN AN ENTIRE VENUE. IT'S NOT SMALL EITHER IT'S A WHOLE BAR #AND I HAD TO CLOSE ON MY OWN TOO and ironically the shift itself went rlly well like it was so chill #it was kinda boring but honestly i kinda rated it it's v easy money and the close went perfectly nothing cropped up that i was unsure about #and then. AND THEN. i havent even ranted to my mutuals about this yet bc i was acc so horrified by it but i locked the front doors #and went to lock the gate AND THE KEY GOT STUCK IN THE LOCK. WOULD NOT COME OUT. HELLA VS KEYS ROUND 3927593 #my mum even showed up and tried to help me wrestle this thing out i called my manager and he literally told me to just snap it #bc he'd rather a snapped key that NO ONE could get out than just leave it there overnight but bc of my recent house key moment #i was like AM I FUCK SNAPPING THIS KEY. WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING. so i had to just leave it and at the time #i was realllyyyyyyyyyy beating myself up but my manager is actually rlly nice he's just stretched v thin #and ive also had time to be like uhh actually they shouldnt have left a random 21 y/o girl alone with the keys on her first day #omg i havent even talked about what happened on saturday. ACTUAL SHAMBLES #LIKE THIS /\/\ ISNT EVEN CLOSE TO EVERYTHING! IM RUNNING OUT OF TAG ROOM! IM GONNA REBLOG THIS TONIGHT W MORE PROBABLY!#BC GUESS WHO IS WORKING A CLOSE LATER AT THE NIGHTCLUB THEN OPENING THE RESTAURANT AT 8AM. GUESS #hella slaves to capitalism

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innalheid · 2 months ago

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Feeling very Ascension by Gorillaz ft Vince Staples at 2:18

#i need to solve a puzzle or some shit. god. fuck.#i cant concentrate on anything i cant fall asleep i cant stay asleep i cant stay awake i cant wake up on time #i hate depression 😒 and all the other things wrong with me yknow #i need to do something like. good for me. but its so damn hard to drag myself into doing that too #brain. stop being so foggy. please.#im even like. im eating im drinking water. i could probably like do some sort of exercise but everything makes me so tired.....#like even a walk yknow? i do my shift at work and im at 3% battery. i dont. i dont know what to do man #and i dont even wanna die about it???? im actively NOT suicidal for once #like are you kidding me??? ive been suicidal for like over a decade and for once #my brain is still popping up like have you considered killing yourself? 🤔 but im Genuinely not swayed by it at all #which is weird. and probably good. but now i just feel like. numb #stuck. stagnant. foggy. can we PLEASE cut through this fog and have some meaningful brain functions for a little bit. brain. cmon #i dont wanna die but i *do* wanna sleep for like. three days #i want a week off where i have NOTHIN to do #genuinely nothing to do. chores are done work is on pause i need nothing creeping in at the edges thinkin bout #ohhhhh you should be doing this instead..........youre wasting your time........do a task.....#but i cant i cant do a task. i cant. and its so frustrating and i feel bad about it #id feel much worse about it if my BRAIN wasnt as foggy as fucking SAN FRANCISCO #and i keep trying like. healthy ways of ''feeling something'' like hobbies i like or yummy food #nothin. does fuckin nothin. i get off and it gives me a Little bit of clarity Maybe. like #no wonder bad coping mechanisms happen yknow??? its an absolute fucking miracle i havent taken up smoking #anyway. i need to go to bed. tomorrows gonna be a long day. if you feel so inclined send me mental love or something. im fuckin tired folks.

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bunnihearted · 7 months ago

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#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :((#i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move*#what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :((((#well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

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ngwun · 2 years ago

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Quick doodle!

#submas #ingo #emmet #doodle #pokemon #pokemonart #fanart #Havent been drawing much lately these past weeks stuffs happened. My dementing gramz broke her hip and ive been taking care of her #(shes doing fine now #had an operation got a new hip part and is slowly walking again :3)#gramps not taking care of her at all #works been pressuring and stressy lately #dogs having healthproblems again ugh vent vent vent #augh sorry for just poofing away i really feel like drawing again but might not do that too much tho

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carrionsong · 6 months ago

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you're soooo sweet and i rly like the little tag talks and reply talks we've had ❤️ i hope you get a lovely surprise soon and your days are as sunny as you want them to be

yall are so sweets to me auuuuu😢💖💖💖

#.txt #ask #ive been loving how rainy its been recently its been gorgeous out... super heavy flash flood rain for 3 hours then that tinged yellow cloud #sunlight for the rest of the day... im gonna go for a walk tomorrow n hope its nice and cloudy and lovely!!! i wanna see more critters out #n about!! i went for a walk last week after it had rained earlier that day and i saw a Big turtle in the park it was amazing!!!#ive bren slacking on my creature posting i have a few bug and beasts pics i havent shared yet :D

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attor · 8 months ago

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i think its hilarious that people think my barrier for making doctors appointments is anxiety when its literally just that i will call/try to access results/show up physically to the office over and over again for weeks with no progress bc everyone is doing their job wrong

#flashback to when i went to the imaging center 3 times for a walk in xray that they kept insisting they didnt have a referral for #that my doctor kept insisting she sent a referral for...#or to right now when the stool sample company cant access my results based on my account and patient information..#or right now when my doctor said she was sending a referral to the gi 2 weeks ago and didnt until yesterday #and ive called the gi 3 times in the last 2 days trying to get an appointment and they tell me this morning to try monday afternoon #bc they havent processed the referral yet!! and the dentist office literally just never picking up the fuckig phone!!!!#going crazy cause i have like 4 months of good health insurance left and everyone is making it IMPOSSIBLE for me to use that shit #text #one day maybe ill move to somewhere with a functional healthcare system...

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surreal-duck · 2 years ago

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messing around a bit

#delete later #man i havent rly drawn for myself in a while it feels weird #trying to play around w my style lately but i dont think its getting anywhere whwhkjsdghjdg #shoutout to yuzuru if nobody's got me after burning out all of my creative juices ik hes got me #should probably go to sleep early tonight got assigned another project to work on through next week at my internship 😔#still going through a very mixed feelings stage regarding on how i see my art but ill live i guess #just. nothing is good enough. im never gonna be satisfied. i think this looks fine. this is the worst thing ive ever seen and made.#im gonna fall behind. it isnt a race. everyones already far ahead. maybe this is okay. why are you satisfied with this much its not enough.#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa being an artist am i right ! agony #well i guess lately its not that i just havent been drawing things for me but more like i cant for some reason. burnouts an asshole #even though i really really did want to make things it honestly sucked ass not being able to i rly dont know what id do if i cant draw #actually took some time for myself yesterday and walked around town a bit it was nice. pierced my ears again and treated myself #but as consequence of course i am now broke </3 unfortunate #hmmmmm idk what im saying kdjsjgdhhskgjdhsdg hope things r going well for everyone else if you're even reading this! may u have a good week #man i wish i just knew if things are gonna be okay #hngggg baru aja tiga bulan masuk balik sekolah sama udah secapek ini wkwkwkwkkwkwk payah gk sih gw ini #masih setahun lebih sampe lulus juga head in hands kenapa gk bisa tidur buat seminggu aja aaagh #ya yang penting juga gw masih hidup sih gk mau kemana-mana kyk gini #aaaaaaaaa gk mau masuk studio besokkkk mau tidurrrr #me when i have to do my job at work #i wonder what i should make for lunch and dinner tomorrow. knowing me though ill end up falling asleep as soon as i get out of the shower #sorry this is. all over the place props if you're even reading this far LOL apologies you have to see me rant a bit

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actual-corpse · 10 months ago

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Roomate who I have to cook for: *smells burnt* "What burnt?"

Me: *forgetting he doesn't have any context* "Oh... nothing burnt, it caught fire."

Him: *still no context* "Okay. Don't be upset if I don't eat it."

Me: "Then I'll be pretty pissed off." I spent 40 minutes fighting this shit and it costs money I don't have.

One clothes change later

Me: "how is it?"

Him: "it's fine. I thought you burnt the food and that's why I was like, 'I might not like it'."

Me: "Oh... no... okay. No, something about the size of a popcorn was under the burner, and it caught fire. It's just carbon now. No trace."

#i threw away a spoon for that food #to be fair tho #the spoon has a thin metal handle that dug into my dainty hands #so i had to swap it out for the world's flimsyest metal spatula in order to prevent sticking #because i had to use an inconvenient pot #THE FUCKING TRASH HASNT RUN IN 3 DAYS #the roads are fine #have been for 5 days #i live down a back road and its clear af #im tired #i havent been able to get out and pick up my meds and Walgreens canceled them #so ive been 2 weeks without vitamin D #i still have citalopram because i dont take it correctly (i forget)#im pretty sure i have audhd but ill never get evaluated because i am afab and it opens the door to misery #i forget to do a lot of things if i dont immediately see them #like cleaning the burners #the coil is hot when the food falls in #i walk away and forget about it as the coil cools #next time im reminded.... coils hot #cant win #let it become carbon

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ilonacho · 2 years ago

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the fucking audacity of watching the pixar short film “going home” while i’m home for my grandma’s funeral.

#like….. yeah #2 weeks ago i did not know id be here rn #i did not know she would take a turn for the worse this fast #im very thankful things worked out to where i could be here #for my wife and her support and i guess my boss and coworkers for their understanding #i have been lucky to not have been here for the very tough times #im thankful to be here with my family now #theyre doing a lot of new housing in my town now #many buildings i walked by as a kid have been demolished and are being rebuilt #we emptied my grandmas room today. she had only lived there for about 3 weeks before passing #we drive by my mom olds house. the house i grew up in. the new owner still hasnt torn down my old curtains in my old room #the old curtains my grandma had sewn for me when i was a baby #my dad is thinking about moving too. too many new buildings too many new people too much noise #two of my cousins have kids now! and the third one is getting married soonish? her fiance seems nice. he seems like he cares about her #my nephew and niece are so big now. i still havent met my other niece #i wonder if any of my old classmates have had kids? if they moved too?#ill be leaving again on tuesday. itll be a looong day #my parents have more and more grey hairs every time i see them #i dont see my brother as much as id like. hes following his dreams and im proud of him. hes a good kid #anyway the guy who made said short film is literally just like me fr #from germany and had been in the us 5 years (at the time) and making this short film?#just like me fr #anyway. this became one of those diaries for me posts haha #it just really captured how it is really well

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hella1975 · 1 year ago

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sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off'#but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one'#and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

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little-eye-guy · 2 years ago

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i think i have been going to the bathroom less often today. still feel like garbo. still have to go frequently enough. not sure if this is indication of getting better, considering i am still very sick

#eye guy speaks #uc posting #like. im so weak. it takes so much effort just to walk around the house #i havent even been trying to like make my own dinner anymore ive just been asking my siblings to do it :(#my mom thinks i should be in the hospital but like what are they gonna do there. what would being there change about my situation #besides make me very uncomfortable bc id be in the hospitsl lmao #im thinking that it’s already been 3 weeks.#hopefully we are in the home stretch now #and my dr will call in Something to make me better on monday #and then i’ll get better and be able to live again #just a few more days. im hoping

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majimemegoro · 2 years ago

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2 days ibuprofen free ☺️

#its been a weird few weeks ok #see for class we read this one study that was like 'look these students who heard positive messages went to the doctor LESS often :) QED'#and it was obvious that they though 'go to doctor less' = healthier #but like... i know with 99% probability my hip flexor is torn #in which case is it interest to walk to the doctor for them to tell me to not walk so much ???? or is it in my interest to rest ??#by god if i go to the doctor it will be to deal with the Other Things !!!!!#now to get branded a hypochondriac bc i said my hip flexor is torn even tohugh i havent seen a doctor #anyway did you know. if you let your leg crumple right as the other leg goes forward #you can walk without bending your hip too much ? follow for more 'wont go to the doctor' tips #I HAVE NO TIME OKAY #im tired i have 20 minutes of free time i dont want to spend it in the doctor for them to go 'hm thats weird bye'#mystery virus from grade 11.... mold from 2015... 2016 strep... you made me who i am today <3 #here internet followers have some LoreTM

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risingsunresistance · 2 years ago

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i dont want to sound mean here – this is meant as genuine advice because you seem like youre really going through it – have you considered seeing a counsellor/therapist about your grief? if its manifesting as rage thats not good, man, i know this is a lot to go through but its okay to ask for help if you feel brave enough so you dont hurt yourself (or someone you care about) more

yeah i probably just need to go back to therapy, i quit last semester bc stuff got to overwhelming (probably a sign i should have stayed but felt like a bad idea at the time)

im not at risk of hurting myself unless you count emotional damage so dont worry abt that i promise it's not that bad 👍

#i dont regret leaving bc i dont think i would have passed my classes if i had stayed but #i think i need to go back #idk how to tell them internet man made me sad tho i feel like im gonna sound insane #i could just talk abt relatives instead and not say specifically who it is?#havent even processed those tbh. also not a good sign #there's been like. 3. 2 of them this week 🧍‍♂️#not to traumadump or whatever but my blog my rules #i wish i had likd. literally any coping mechanism. it being winter is NOT helping me. i'd be cured if i could go for a walk #asks #anons #ugh it's 3am i have class tomorrow i need to go see my advisor bc my job shadowing person QUIT aaaaaaugh #goat cant stay winning 😔#ask to tag #?#grief #idk man

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peppermintbutch · 1 day ago

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big week for butches everywhere (me)

#got to give someone a ride home on the back of my bicycle AND walk my friend home and carry her bags for her. my gender is radiating #also umm meeting my crush on saturday we're gonna Talk... nervous but mostly in a good way yay we havent properly seen each other in 3 week #i need to hold her SO bad it's not even funny anymore. soon. anyway GOODNIGHT EVERYONEEE #personal

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