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is it just me or was shoupe a little hesitant when he was talking to the pogues and they brought up genrette's daughter larissa aka jj's mom
okay bear with me here... shoupe pauses before saying "i'm aware, i knew her" and then seems to be playing it off by saying "we all did, you know, small island"
later on shoupe is looking through newspaper clippings with a somber expression (which granted could be explained as him just being confused lol). one article says "the recent drowning of Larissa Groff and her infant son has raised suspicions of a possible murder-suicide stemming from postpartum depression... was found submerged in the waters of Goat Island alongside her precious baby boy, Jackson" but obviously jj is alive so either some other baby was placed with her to hide jj or it was a lie and there was no baby found... either way there's a cover up going on
we also know that luke was on the boat when larissa drowned. clearly he isn't jj's dad but he knew larissa and must have seen her die and been part of the cover up to have gotten jj
the other article shoupe looks at says "chandler groff exonerated" which implies that he may have been a suspect in larissa's death
possible explanations:
1) larissa really did commit suicide but before she did, she gave jj to luke (for some reason she trusted him??) to protect him from groff
2) luke saw groff kill larissa and try to kill jj, but luke saved jj from drowning and took him
there has to be some greater plot here though because somehow genrette knew that jj was really his grandson so why would he A) leave him alone when he is the only part of his daughter left and B) keep groff around if he really did something to larissa/jj. or did he only figure it out when the pogues got famous and he saw jj, realized he looked like larissa and did the mathā¦ but that would mean luke orchestrated the cover up by himself and heās dumb af
now here is where i get a little crazy... what if WHAT IF groff isn't jj's biological dad like the ending implied... but SHOUPE IS
#jj maybank#outer banks#text#i've been drinking too much wine#i'm just trying to make sense of this š#shoupe and jj have had like a lot of scenes together#and for as much shit as they talk about shoupe#i feel like he's actually a relatively good cop and has helped them out#so like what if they're planting the seeds#i sound insane š#i know iām putting way too much thought into this cause they definitely pulled this storyline outta their ass#i just sense another twist with the dad reveal#like it canāt be as obvious as āclearly you dad was her husbandā ā ļø#and honestly shoupe would be a better dad than groff and jj deserves better š#also i was a 'jjs name is john' truther but honestly i LOVE the name jackson so this is a win for me
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Laying Here In Nothing But My Feelings // Luke Hemmings
This fic is 1000% dedicated to @cal-puddies - I had an inexplicable - and rather explicit - Luke breakdown in our chat over the summer and she not only egged me on but when I was done, she was immediately like "fic please." It was essentially a joke between us until Christmas Day (lmao) when she suggested taking my concept for a spin could be a fun way to spend the holiday. And here we are now! Everyone say thank you, Cass! (And also for giving notes and feedback as always and just generally being the best.)
This is the first Luke fic I've managed to finish on my own (Waiting For It Gets So Boring was co-written with Cass!) so please let me know what you think and if you'd like to see more!
Warnings: Boyfriend!Luke, band responsibility disrupting sexy plans (no angst, just sexual frustration and tension). Dirty talk, use of sex toys (solo and partnered), sexting, masturbation, prolonged teasing, lowkey body worship, very brief oral sex (female receiving), very not brief rimming (male receiving). For real, like 2500 words of this is rimming. So. Also I apparently mention Luke's thighs 12 times. I'm fine.
Word Count:Ā 12,575
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āOhā¦ oh just like thatā¦ donāt stopā¦ donāt stopā¦ ohā¦ babe, waitā¦ Ash?ā
Luke looks up from between your legs, mouth glistening, breath heavy, eyes shining with hunger and amusement. āHonestly shocking thatās the first time youāve accidentally called out his name,ā he cracks, snorting at his own joke as he dodges the kick you aim at his chest.
āHaha,ā you respond dryly, grabbing your phone off the nightstand and holding it out for him to see. āI told you not to send him to voicemail all those times, now he wonāt stop calling me.ā
āA likely story,ā he jokes, reaching for his own phone. He sits on the edge of the bed to text Ashton while you curl up behind him, nipping at his shoulder.
āTell him youāre busy,ā you purr, reaching around to wrap a hand around his cock. You thumb over his slit, spreading the precum around, smiling at the hiss he lets out when you start slowly stroking. āTell him youāve had a hard morning and you canāt be bothered until you deal with some pressing mattersā¦ like pressing this cock into my ---ā
Luke jumps as his phone vibrates in his hand. āHey, man, whatās going on?ā He answers, rushing out his greeting while stilling your hand. You relent and instead peck at the freckles on his neck. āWha--- I thought that wasnāt due until tomorrowā¦ oh I guess I didnāt see when that email was sentā¦ so like, today tomorrow?ā
The sound of this conversation instantly alarms you and you pop your head around to his line of vision to let him know, shaking your head. He grimaces in response, nodding silently as he listens to Ashtonās monologue.Ā
āOkayā¦ no, of course Iām not too busy, of course I can be there,ā he answers, mouthing sorry at the way your jaw drops. āI can be on the freeway in like 10, Iāll text when Iām there.ā
He ends the call and frowns at the look of disbelief on your face. āBaby, Iām sorry,ā he starts, immediately scurrying around the room, cock still half hard. āWe fucked up and that new songās gotta be mixed, mastered and turned in before midnight tonight, not tomorrow.ā
āOh wow, thatās intense,ā you offer with quiet compassion. He disappears into the closet and you chew your lip, trying to swallow down the disappointment youāre feeling. You wonder out loud, āAnd you guys canāt just send files back and forth like you have before?āĀ
He emerges, dressed and pulling on his leather jacket. āAsh already called an engineer in so we all should probably be on site,ā he explains, sighing as he grabs his jewelry off the dresser. āIād have loved to hold off, spend a little more time here but the guyās already on his way, Ash is flipping out, Iām closest to the studioā¦ I just donāt really have a choice.ā
āAww, Lu, that sucks,ā you sympathize. He sits on the bed to pull on his shoes and you rest your head on his shoulder, rubbing his back soothingly. āSucks your day is starting off so chaotic, sucks we gotta spend it apart now. I was really looking forward to spending today in bed with you.ā
āMe too, honey. Me too,ā he laments, offering you an apologetic kiss.Ā
The kiss begins sweet but he canāt help deepening it and you eagerly pull him in closer by the lapels of his jacket. āYou got ready pretty quick, babeā¦ Think youāve got a spare few minutes?ā You murmur, leaning back on the bed seductively, hoping to woo him back into bed.
Lukeās eyes scan over your form with interest before he shakes his head, as if heās physically trying to break a spell youāve cast on him. He lets out a groan of your name thatās part desire, part regret. āBaby, we both know I canāt be trusted to keep it to my āspare few minutesā,ā he flirts. He pecks your lips again as he eases off the bed. āPromise Iāll make it up to you tonight!ā
āYouāre assuming I wonāt have already worn myself out in your absence,ā you tease, fighting a giggle as he stumbles grabbing his backpack, clearly distracted by what you just said.
āOkay, well now thatās all Iām gonna be thinking about all day,ā he says with a wink, heading out the door. A beat passes and then his voice calls out from the staircase, āLove you!āĀ
āLove you,ā you respond, slumping against the pillows.
The whirlwind of the past few minutes sinks in as you stare at the ceiling. You tried to react reasonably, obviously you recognize the predicament Luke is in, but you also think youāre allowed to be disappointed. Itās been ages since the two of you spent some quality time together and setting aside today to lay around and just enjoy each other was Lukeās idea in the first place.Ā
You sprawl out, figuring you might as well appreciate how much more spacious Lukeās bed is than yours; you run your hand longingly across his side of the bed, giving a sad laugh when you knock into the bottle of lube beside his pillow, a lost vestige of a sexy morning abandoned. An idea sparks in your mind and you sit up excitedly, grabbing the bottle and your phone.
*Ā *Ā *
Across town, Luke finds a corner table to sit and wait for his order. You were right, he did have a spare few minutes and he decided nothing softens the blow of an unexpected studio day like fresh donuts waiting for everyone. He proudly sends an update text to Ash and is about to polish off the powdered sugar donut he picked up for himself when a notification from you pops up on the screen.Ā
Glad to see youāre not still upset about his sudden exit, he taps on your name and his smile quickly morphs into a smirk when he sees the photo youāve sent - a bottle of lube and a box of tissues atop your nightstand, while your hand dips into the middle drawer, āthe fun drawerā as it was dubbed when you first started bringing toys over. The accompanying text reads:Ā
Wonder if something in here can make me feel as good as you wouldāve.
He catches his lip between his teeth as he types back:Ā
Miss your taste so much already, babyā¦ Use the suction vibe, the pink one we took on vacation. I know itāll make you cum just as hard as my tongue would.
You giggle reading your boyfriendās message, pleased at having correctly guessed what his selection would be. You laugh again, this time with a bit more of an edge, as you lube up an entirely different vibrator, the thrusting toy he left for you when he was leaving for tour. When the purple silicone looks nice and slick, you hold it out in front of your phone, making sure your hand is wrapped around the widest part of the base, hoping thatāll make him think about it stretching you out.
Luke stares at the box of donuts he just sat on the passenger seat, wondering if he should fasten the seat belt around it to keep it in place. His phone vibrates on the dashboard and a thrill runs through him when he picks it up to see another notification from you. He was hoping he'd hear from you again, maybe get a sexy afterglow pic to thank him for his toy suggestion.
He takes a sip of coffee as he opens your message and immediately sputters it back into the cup, hurrying it back into the cup holder so he can examine the photo. He zooms in, trying to determine if the vibe is covered in lube or you before determining the answer doesn't really matter because now all he's thinking about is how wet you felt against his face this morning, how his beard still vaguely smells like you.
He runs a hand through his hair, flustered, and finally notices you sent a text as well.Ā
Thanks for the rec but I think I'm more in the mood for this one. Gonna put it on the highest setting and let it absolutely ruin me the way I wanted you to. Would give anything for this to be you. Canāt wait to see you tonight. Miss you, miss your cock too much already.
āFuckinā hell,ā he mutters to himself as he resumes staring at the picture. He remembers the videos you sent while he was overseas, how relentless the toyās thrusting motion seemed to be, the way your legs wouldnāt stop shaking by the time you were done with it, how he dreamt of the noises you made for the next three nights. āCoulda been you, dummy,ā he chastises himself, deciding that while donuts are great, his time wouldāve been better spent making sure you were satisfied before he left. *Ā *Ā *
You bite your lip, pressing the tip of the vibe to your entrance, teasing yourself. You briefly entertained the idea of queuing up some porn, maybe lighting a candle or two, but between your interrupted orgasm with Luke and the thrill of sexting him, youāve accepted you probably wonāt need much to get off.
Your phone buzzes nearby and you blindly pat around the bed until you find it. You click the new message, already plotting your saucy response, when suddenly your mind goes completely blank as a picture of Lukeās hand gripping his visibly hard cock through his pants fills your screen.Ā
Fuck, babyā¦ I shouldāve stayed. You should be cumming around my cock instead of that toyā¦ should be babbling to me instead of an empty roomā¦ should be making a mess on me instead of my sheets. Fuck. I need you so bad, baby. Donāt know how Iām gonna get through the day.
If you werenāt so horny, you might be embarrassed at the way youāre zooming in to study his picture. God, he looks so hardā¦ if he were here, heād be acting so desperate alreadyā¦ pressing into you, whispering against your ear how much he wants you, hands roaming your ass, tongue running along your ear, employing all the tricks he knows make you weak. Silently vowing to make him that needy tonight, you sink the vibe into yourself, surprised at how loudly you gasp. No, this isnāt going to take long at all. *Ā *Ā *
Luke finally pulls into the studio parking lot, breathing a sigh of relief when he sees that despite his detour and your distraction, heās still the first to arrive. He reaches into the backseat to grab his Airpods out of his backpack, figuring while he waits he can listen to the most recent mix of the song and make notes on what changes are needed. Heās searching through his files for the right version when heās startled by the vibration of another message.
He takes a deep breath, cock already stirring in anticipation for what you might say - or show - next. He selects your conversation and is momentarily puzzled when no pictures or texts are added to the thread; he glances up at the top of the screen to make sure he has full service and even closes and reopens the chat before he realizes youāve sent a voice message. Equal parts curious and confused, he adjusts his earbuds and hits play.
Thereās nothing but quiet shuffling at first, enough that Luke begins to wonder if you recorded and sent this message by mistake. Heās about to turn the volume up to make sure heās not missing anything when he hears an all too familiar sigh and he grips the steering wheel, lightheaded from how fast the sound travels to his cock.
āLuuuukeā¦ babe,ā you coo, unmistakably slick noises in the background giving away why you sound so breathy. āThat picture you sentā¦ fuckā¦ I canāt stop thinking about you getting so hard just from thinking about me wanting youā¦ are you still that hard, baby? Did you have to drive all the way there with your cock straining against your pants like that? Fuck, Lu, wish I was there, Iād be leaning into your lap so fuckinā fastā¦ how have I never sucked you off in that car? Weāve gotta do something about that, babe, youāre so fucking sexy when you drive, it always makes me want you.ā
By the time you take a breath, Lukeās heart is pounding so loud in his ears, heās afraid youāre going to get drowned out if he doesnāt pause and take a second to calm down. He exhales loudly and leans back, shell-shocked, head feeling like it might float away if he dares to lift it from the seatās headrest.Ā
His mind races to process everything heās feeling. Heās the dumbest man on the planet, how could he have ever left you this morning, he had no choice but to leave you this morning, but how could he have ever left you this morning? He knows you understand that heād much rather be there with you, so why are you torturing him like this? He loves you for torturing him like this, he hopes you never stop torturing him like this, heās ready and willing to die or at the very least cum in his pants from listening to you taunt him like this.
Having accepted his fate, he presses play, closing his eyes so he can properly visualize everything heās hearing.
āGodā¦ want you so bad, babeā¦ was so close when you had to stopā¦ I love when you eat my pussy, I almost came right when you first startedā¦ shouldāve cum for you while I had the chance, I just didnāt want it to be over so quick,ā you ramble. āDidnāt want this to be over too soon either, ās why I havenāt turned my toy on yet. Was gonna tease myself more but I had to put it in as soon as I saw that pictureā¦ oh, Lu, I wish this was you filling me so bad.ā
Luke says a silent prayer of thanks to whatever god blessed him with such a vivid imagination, he can perfectly picture you spread out on the bed, chest heaving as your hand moves between your legs, brow furrowed as you fight yourself to keep yourself from going too fast. He squeezes his eyes shut even harder, almost as if he concentrates enough, he can will himself into the room with you.
āWanted to be naked with you all dayā¦ so many things I wanted to do with youā¦ to youā¦ been thinking about it all weekā¦ been wet for it since you woke me up this morningā¦ kissing my neck, pressing your cock against my ass...āĀ
Thereās silence for a beat and then a distinct mechanical whir starts up. You resume speaking but your voice is notably affected - a little more rushed, a little more whiny - and Luke canāt help but press his palm to his crotch, groaning with relief at the brief pressure.Ā
ā...Feels too fuckinā good, babe, Iām already closeā¦ all thatās missing is you telling me how good I feel around your cockā¦ how good I look with your hand squeezing my throatā¦ how good I sound begging you to cum all over -- ā
The sharp sound of someone knocking on the car window startles Luke out of his lustful trance. His eyes shoot open, he sits up so fast he bangs his knee on the steering wheel and for some reason, his panicked mind tells him itās necessary to yank the Airpods out of his ears and throw them to the side as if they were on fire.
It takes another couple of seconds for him to realize he should see who wanted his attention and he turns to see Ashton doubled over, laughing so hard thereās no sound coming from him. Luke first rolls his eyes and then rolls down the window before commenting plainly, āYou scared me.ā
āYouāre lucky thatās all I did! What are you doing sitting with your eyes closed like that? Napping?ā Ash asks, wiping the tears from his eyes. āAnybody couldāve snuck up on you, smashed a window, grabbed your laptop off the backseat. Or that box of donuts you were so excited about.ā He peers around Luke, looking for the prized pastries.
āRight, the famed donut snatchers of the San Fernando Valley,ā Luke quips, shifting in his seat, hoping the snacks are the only thing Ash is able to ogle from his vantage point. He grabs the pink box, passing it to him through the window. āHere, you go ahead and set up in there, Iāll be just a minute.ā
Ashton looks at him suspiciously and Luke impresses himself with how cooly he explains, āYou know how many Airpods Iāve lost already, now Iāve gotta stop and find the ones I just threw across the car since you decided to creep up on me like a psycho.ā
āFine,ā Ash shrugs, peeking inside the pastry box. He turns to leave, calling over his shoulder, āIf youāre not there in five minutes, Iām eating this eclair I know you were saving.ā
Luke scowls but moves into action once Ashton disappears around the corner. He scans the car's cabin, giving a satisfied tongue click when he spots the wayward earbuds, one on the passenger seat, one under it.
A sucker for punishment, he fits them in his ears, scrubs to the last 30 seconds of your message and hits play before he can change his mind.
There's ambient noise - a quiet buzz and a steady rhythmic pattern that he eventually determines must be your breath. The buzz becomes louder and louder before stopping entirely; once it dawns on him that the volume increase was due to you pulling the toy from your body to shut it off, his pants are back to feeling as tight as they were before Ashtonās interruption.
āMmmā¦ wellā¦ guess youāll be coming home to freshly washed sheets tonight,ā you laugh breathily, sounding tired but elated. āI needed that. Still need you more, though. Love you so much, Lu, still wish more than anything you were here with me.ā
Luke pouts, his heart aching almost as much as his cock. He can picture you, bottom lip swollen from pulling it between your teeth to stifle your moans, hair crazy from the way you run your fingers through it when youāre coming down, eyes slowly closing as you fight through your exhaustion for the sake of pillow talk.
ā...We can make up for it tonight. Thinking about that is whatās gonna get me through my day. Maybe now youāll be thinkinā about it too,ā you continue, satisfied smile evident in your voice. āHope you have a good day, babe, get some good work done! Hopefully I didnāt make it too hardā¦ wellā¦ the work, I mean.ā You giggle at your unintended double entendre and with a kissy noise, the message ends.
He shakes his head, wondering if itās too late to fake an illness so he can get home to you as soon as possible. He hits record on a voice note of his own and debates the topic out loud.Ā
ā...I mean, I guess Ash already knows Iām here - oh yeah, remind me to tell you that story - but also maybe heād believe it came on suddenly. Had to have looked pretty pale when he saw me since every ounce of blood in my body was in my dick,ā he jokes. His voice drops as he continues, āIām still so hard for you, baby. I canāt stop hearing your noisesā¦ your breathā¦ I swear I could feel it on me. Thinking about how good you must have looked cumming like thatā¦ how good you must have felt. Jesusā¦ how do you do it? Every day I think itās the most Iāve ever wanted you but then you do something else and itās another level of wanting. Want you so fuckinā bad, baby. I love you and Iāll see you tonight.ā
Before he can think better of it, he briskly undoes his zipper, hooks a thumb in the waistband of both his pants and his boxers and takes a quick picture of the stubborn erection you've left him with.
*Ā *Ā *
A sly smile crosses your features when you hear the message tone in the distance as you step out of the shower; you hurry through drying off, excited to see your boyfriendās reaction. You wrap your towel around yourself and shuffle over to the counter where you left your phone.
You feel your eyebrows raise, intrigued by the message preview which reads: āWell, this should be an interesting studio session.ā The chat loads and naturally, your eye is immediately drawn to the photo; you chuckle to yourself when you realize youāre instinctively licking your lips at the sight of his neglected cock tenting his pants. He was clearly rushed and at an odd angle so itās not the best dick pic heās ever sent, just partial shaft and a lot of his hand trying to hold his underwear out of the way, but simply knowing Luke needed you to see how much your message affected him to the point that he tried to stick his phone down his pants in the studio parking lot has you feeling flushed.
Tearing your eyes away from the picture, you realize he left you a voice message and as soon as you hear the rasp in his voice, how absolutely destroyed he sounds, you place a hand on the counter, steadying yourself. Oh, tonight is gonna be fun.
*Ā *Ā *
āYouāre not even fuckinā paying attention, bro,ā Calum complains, gesturing at the phone thatās been glued to Lukeās hand since they sat down.
āAm so!ā Luke protests, laughing at how juvenile his defense sounded. His eyes scan over the message app just to make sure he hasnāt missed anything and then he sets his phone down. āIām just waiting on an important message.ā
Michael swivels around in his computer chair. āIs it an update on whether or not youāre still the worst? Because I can go ahead and confirm that for you.ā
Luke frowns as his friends laugh at his alleged inattention. āWeāre gonna double track the pre and take a layer off the first half of the chorus to see if that makes a difference,ā he reports, beaming at the surprised faces staring back at him. āItās almost like I can care about two things at once you asshol-- oh shitā¦ā His bragging is interrupted by the sound of his phone vibrating on the table next to him and he reaches for it, the strings on his guitar plucking atonally as he maneuvers.
āYour important message?ā Ashton asks with a knowing smile. Between the delayed response this morning, the curious parking lot exchange and Lukeās generally distracted behavior during this session, Ash feels like he has a basic idea of where his mind is.
āJust a delivery notification,ā Luke answers glumly, expression turning sheepish when he sees the look on his bandmateās face. āThe coffeeās on its way though.ā
āOh, sweet!ā Ash chirps, holding his hand out for Luke to pass the guitar to him.Ā
Luke opens his notes app and sits back on the couch, ready to give the latest mix his full scrutiny. It takes half a verse for his mind to wander, remembering how much you loved this song the first time you heard him workshopping it at home. His brain reminds him of the way you curled up in his lap while you waited for him to finish piecing together the vocals and the way he eventually gave up once your mouth attached to his neck. He smiles, thinking about how he had you naked and under him within seconds of carrying you to the couch and how he was able to finish the song while you slept, warmed by a blanket and sated by an orgasm, on his studio sofa.Ā
Itās a wonderful memory but one that has him switching over to check your chat one more time. Heās not sure if your delayed response is part of your game or if you just got distracted but heās not too proud to double text, especially when heās missing you this much.
*Ā *Ā *
Petunia barks at your phone chiming on the kitchen counter, the sound interrupting her concentrating on lapping up the water youād just placed in front of her. You laugh and scratch behind her ears, laughing again when you see Lukeās message.
I can only assume you havenāt responded to my striking dick photography because it sent you into such a horny spiral, youāve orgasmed yourself into a coma.
Youāre grinning from ear to ear as you respond.
Yes, cum coma. Definitely it. Not like I was taking my time, starting my day, letting you possibly get some work done so you could get home to me on time. Definitely the cum coma.
You shake your head as your message goes from ādeliveredā to āreadā instantly and it shows him already typing a response.
Oh Iāll definitely be home on timeā¦ thereās literally nothing that could keep me from getting home on timeā¦ this song isnāt done in a couple hours, Iāll just leave the band.
You giggle as you flop onto the living room couch.
Bold of you to assume Iām interested in sleeping with an unemployed musician.
Weāre called āindependent artists,ā ya clout chaser.
Petunia was considering climbing up to lay with you but after the howl you let out at that last message, she opts for watching you curiously from her dog bed instead.Ā
āYou canāt let your dad know I think heās that funny, weāll never hear the end of it,ā you tell her before resuming your conversation.
How are things going? Clearly youāre fully focused and engaged with the project.
Luke snorts quietly, eyes darting around the room to check that the rest of the guys are still preoccupied: Ashton and Michael animatedly debating the volume of a particular synth while Calum stoically listens in, expression indicating heās either weighing their arguments carefully or not paying attention at all.
Was going great until we listened back and now I canāt stop thinking about you naked on my studio couch.
Luke smiles at how quickly your typing bubbles come up, pleased to know you remember that day as vividly as he does.
Ohhhhā¦ THAT song.
Every time I hear that chorus melody, I think about trying to overlay those vocals while also trying to keep your hands out of my pants.
You were being super sexy with your glasses and your crazy hair and your musical geniusā¦ was that not all just a ploy to get me to touch your dick? My bad.
Part of you wants to feel silly for smiling so much your cheeks hurt but itās never mattered if youāre just trading texts, speaking over the phone or if heās sitting right next to you - the two of you have always had this easy rapport - loving, teasing, comforting and titillating all at once. It serves you well at home and itās especially beneficial during times of separation, whether it be for a few hours like today or for weeks when heās on tour.
Your phone buzzes in your hand and you smirk as you read the screen.
Please, we both know I donāt have to work nearly that hard, you were on me the second you came in and saw I didnāt have a guitar on my lap.
You feel your cheeks heating as you type.
You know what I remember? You working with me in your lap, tracing the tattoo on your thighā¦ feeling you get harder and harder against my hipā¦ the way your cock would jump whenever Iād graze your skin with my nailsā¦
Luke shifts a throw pillow onto his lap, pants getting tighter for what seems like the millionth time today. He really has no one but himself to blame - not just for leaving but for instigating this latest sexting adventure. He just couldnāt help himself, once he gets to thinking about you like thisā¦ he just needs you.
You always love playing with that tattā¦ I love it tooā¦ love it even more when you tease it with your tongue.
Your heart speeds up both from the message and from how surprisingly loud your slow but forceful exhale sounds sitting alone in Lukeās living room. It takes a moment for you to decide how to play things but you let out a self-satisfied hum when you finally start constructing your reply.
Yeahā¦ you love the teasing, donāt you? My tongue teasing your body, my words teasing your mindā¦ Iāll bet you love that youāve been hard all day and havenāt been able to do a thing about it. Love feeling your cock up against your zipper, love feeling the precum trickle onto your boxers, love wondering if anyone has caught onto what youāre up to.
The studio suddenly feels irredeemably warm as Luke reads your message. He casually presses down onto his lap pillow, strategically alleviating some of the pressure between his legs. He has to admit your read on him was pretty spot on, now he just has to decide how far to take things, especially considering that the guys are just about ready and heāll be expected to contribute soon.
Canāt help it, babyā¦ want you so bad sometimes I want to make it lastā¦ even the buildup is worth getting off on with you.
He leans back, mentally congratulating himself on his response when he feels his eyes widen and his cock throb at your reply.Ā
Iāll be sure to remind you of that when youāre begging me to let you cum tonight.
*Ā *Ā *
Luke goes radio silent for the next several hours until you finally get that long awaited āOn my way,ā accompanied by a potpourri of excited emojis, just to make sure his enthusiasm comes across.
Youāre excited too, grinning to yourself as you fly through the house to make sure youāve taken care of everything for his impending arrival. You already took Petunia out and refilled her bowl, already charged the toys, and as promised, already washed and changed the sheets. You pull your overnight bag onto the bed, looking over the lingerie you brought, undecided on if you should surprise him with a sexy greeting at the door. You eventually land on āsexy underwear but make him work for it,ā grabbing the pink band t-shirt heās been wearing lately to slip on over the set you chose.
As your final task, you set two cold water bottles on each nightstand, giving a little exasperated huff as you pull out your phone to check the traffic again; it feels like he texted you forever ago but you know youāre probably just impatient. Youāre pondering which of his bandmates was most likely to stop him on his way out, when you hear the garage opening and you clap your hands together gleefully, springing up to fix your hair in the vanity mirror.
Lukeās calling your name as soon as he opens the front door; you originally planned on playing it cool, letting him come to you, but you canāt deny how thrilled you are that heās finally home and you race down to him.Ā
The two of you meet up at the foot of the stairs, huge smiles decorating your faces. You take advantage of being on the step above him, throwing your arms around his neck and burying your face in the stubble youāve missed feeling all day. He wraps his arms around you with a chuckle, squeezing you tight, letting you be the one to pull away first. You give him a few quick pecks before you notice the sound of crinkling cellophane coming from him and you pull back curiously to see what the source is.
āThese are for you,ā Luke sing-songs, presenting you with a brightly colored bouquet of assorted flowers. You pout, touched by the gesture and before he gets a chance to elaborate, you pull him down to your lips to show your appreciation.
He murmurs against you, tangling a hand in your hair, leading you into a slow, sensual kiss. You moan as his tongue greets yours and again when his hand travels down to squeeze your ass under the rising hem of your t-shirt. He groans into your mouth when he feels the high cut lace of your underwear, his mind automatically scrolling through his memories of all the ravishing sets youāve worn for him, wondering what heāll be stunned by tonight.
āBeen thinking about this all day,ā he murmurs, holding you tighter, kissing you harder.
āMe too,ā you sigh. āWell we know what Iāve been thinking aboutā¦ what have you been thinking about?ā
āFor starters, this,ā he replies, lifting you off the step and wrapping your legs around his waist. You giggle as he starts to climb the stairs, briefly resuming the makeout before determining he should focus on getting you both to the bedroom safely.
As you pass the hall bathroom, you tap him with your flowers. āWe should probably get these in water before we get too distracted.ā
He takes the bouquet from you, laying it on the dresser as he enters the bedroom. āTheyāll be alright for a little longer.ā He carefully sits you on the bed, looking at you hungrily. āYouāre all I care about being wet right now.ā
You sit up on your knees to kiss him passionately and rid him of his jacket and shirt. You run your hands over his chest, loving the tiny noises he makes as your nails run through his chest hair, tracing along his nipples. You slip your fingers in his waistband, pulling him closer by his pants.
āBeen so patient, even while I had my fun with you todayā¦ always so patient with me, Luā¦ love that about you,ā you coo, looking up at him alluringly as you palm over the outline of his hardening cock. You keep eye contact as you unfasten his pants and start pulling them down.
Itās a beautiful sight seeing Luke peer down at you, eyes already glassy, mouth already open in awe; his hair is a mess from your fingers running through it, curls hanging over his eyes as he watches you breathlessly. Your stomach drops in anticipation of the moan you know is coming when you dip your head down to mouth at him over his boxer briefs. He doesnāt disappoint, voice both loud and shaky as your lips apply gentle pressure to his cock; you find the tip and pucker your lips more, softly sucking at his shape through the fabric.Ā
He groans your name in a bid for you to stop, wanting to pace himself. He grips your face in his hand, rings digging into your skin deliciously as he roughly pulls you back up to his mouth, pressing his body to yours as he kisses you, letting his hardness and his tongue work in tandem to let you know how much effect you have on him.
His hand travels down your throat, lingering just long enough to get your blood pumping, before he leans you back so he can grab the hem of your shirt. You help him tug it over your head and he curses under his breath as he takes in the bubblegum pink underwear you picked out. Before you started dating Luke, you never cared much for brightly colored lingerie but with him it feels right: playful and loud while still erotic and intimate, just like the two of you are in bed together.
Luke loves when you dress up for him and you love watching him appreciate all the little details, his eyes poring over the peekaboo sheerness of the lace lining, his fingers reaching out to trace along the geometric caged cutouts above the bra cups, his guitar-worn fingertips an enticing contrast to the smooth satin of the straps.Ā
āBeautiful, baby,ā he whispers reverently, leaning in to place a kiss on each of the tiny bows decorating the set: one on each strap, just below your collarbones, one in the center of your cleavage and one right under the waistband of your panties. He laughs warmly at the gasp that last location elicits from you and he chastely pecks over the front of your underwear a few times before raising back up to grin at you. āThis is new, right?ā
Nodding, you play with his necklace, somehow feeling both bold and shy under his attentive gaze. āI picked up a couple new things for today, actuallyā¦ wasnāt kidding when I said I wanted to spend all day in bed.ā
āAww, honey,ā he pouts, kissing under your jaw until you giggle. āWell I love itā¦ love youā¦ love that youād think to do that. Looks so good, I almost donāt want to take it off.ā
You tease, āWell good, because you donāt get to yet.ā
He laughs, surprised but delighted, and you scoot back on the bed; he follows suit, coming to lay with you, quickly kicking off his pants and shoes. The two of you take a moment to enjoy kissing, teasing and enjoying the feeling of each otherās bodies after a long day of wanting. When you can tell heās getting restless, making more noise against your mouth, hips grinding against you more urgently, you shift him to lay on his back.
āMissed you, Luā¦ wanna show you how much,ā you murmur, sucking at his neck. You feel the vibrations of the contented hum he lets out as you leave a mark on his throat. You pull back to admire your work, boasting, āMine,ā as you rub over the red spot.Ā
He strokes over your face, thumb soothing at your skin thatās looking raw from rubbing up against his beard. āDidnāt need a hickey to tell you that, honey,ā he replies, looking at you lovestruck. You lean into his touch, kissing his palm before moving on to explore more of his body.Ā
Luke sweetly fingers through your hair as you kiss over his chest, nibbling at his collarbones, massaging over his pecs, tongue flicking over his nipple. You start to show the other side the same treatment and he gives a quiet whine, hips bucking into the air.
āPatience, my love,ā you chide while your hand snakes over his stomach to squeeze his still clothed bulge. āIs this where you want me, babe? Think Iād forget about this cock? Havenāt thought about anything else all day.ā
He pants, breath hitching as you drag your nails over the curves and ridges pressing up against his boxers. āIām justā¦ soā¦ so fucking ready for you, baby.ā
āMmm,ā is the only reply you give, tugging his underwear off. A giant sigh of relief escapes him as his cock is freed, dropping onto his stomach, precum immediately dripping onto his skin. You sit between his legs, thinking out loud, āAs I remember it, you were also pretty fucking ready before you left this morning, soā¦ I think you can hang on a little longer.ā
His stunned silence turns to an interested murmur as you move back up, returning your attention to his nipples. Once youāre satisfied with how puffy and perky they look, you gently push his arms up, indicating you want them above his head. Dazed but trusting, he complies, resting his hands against the headboard.Ā
He moans loudly as you flash a warm smile at him and lilt, āGood boy,ā before pressing a wet kiss to the puzzle piece inked on his left side, now exposed for you. You smooch and nibble at his skin before switching over to trace your tongue along the vertical script running down his right side. You love that his tattoos are almost always covered - sometimes it feels like youāre the only other person who knows that theyāre there. And you love knowing youāre the only person who gets the privilege of touching them like this, of teasing them until heās squirming uncontrollably.
āBabyyyyy,ā he hisses as you begin to peck over his stomach, causing you to laugh against his skin. You look up at him innocently, smirking because youāre not sure if his complaint is due to the work your mouth is doing or the friction from your body leaning across his.Ā
"What do you need, handsome?"Ā
Luke tries to pout but can't hold back a grin as he playfully whines, "You didn't kiss the bird," looking sadly over at the ink adorning his right bicep.Ā
"Oh, my mistake," you play along, crawling back up to where his arm is resting behind his head. You press your lips to the tip of the hummingbird's beak, following along the outline of the tattoo before filling the inside of it with smooches. "How could I forget? Such a pretty bird on a pretty guy."
Before you can move back down, he holds his wrists up to you expectantly, watching smugly as you take the hint and kiss the tattoos he has there as well. As you pull away, he silently points to his lips and you giggle with delight.
"Luke."
"What?! I missed you! Thought you missed me too," he defends dramatically, joining your laughter as you lean in closer.
You intend to kiss him softly but you're weak to his advances once he starts adding heat to it, one hand on your ass, the other dipping inside your bra to cup your breast, pinching at your hardened nipple. His hand sneaks from your ass to between your legs and he groans when he feels how wet you are.
"Oh honey, c'mere," he advises, trying to move your body up the bed. "Get on my face, let me take care of you."
Shaking your head adamantly, you wriggle out of his hold and start moving back down his body. "You first," you insist. He begins to protest but you reach back up and press a finger to his lips to quiet him. "Had all day to fantasize about playing with you, want us to both take our time and enjoy it."Ā
He lights up hearing you mention thinking about him again. "All day, huh? Tell me what you thought about, baby."
He breathes deep as your fingers dance down his chest and stomach, followed by a sharp exhale when your touch skips over where his cock is resting, instead opting to stroke his upper thigh. You watch his face change while he decides whether or not to verbalize his disappointment; he eventually calms and you dip down to lightly peck his hip.
āThought about how much I love your bodyā¦ how beautiful it isā¦ how responsive,ā you trail off, giving his hip a teasing bite, smiling to yourself when he bucks up against you with a loud yelp. You kiss the small indent and continue down. āThought about noises like thatā¦ you know I fucking love how vocal you are when weāre together, Lu. Makes me feel so good to know I make you feel so good.ā
You nip and kiss your way down to his thigh tattoo, making sure to give it the affection it deserves, especially in light of the memory you shared earlier about how sensitive he was that day you visited his studio. He gets louder and you muffle a groan against him, knowing heās thinking the same things you are; you lift yourself up to his lips, needing to kiss him, needing to be in that moment with him. His cock twitches between your bodies and the two of you moan in erotic harmony.
āNo one else has ever made me feel like this, you know,ā he tells you, gripping your hair to kiss you one more time. āCanāt remember ever wanting something - someone - this bad before. Never thought feeling you everywhere but my cock could feel so goodā¦ get me this hard. God, youāre incredible.ā
Beaming, you place your forehead on his. āYouāre incredible, babe. Youāve been waiting so long and youāre still letting me love on you like this? Havenāt tried to guide me anywhere, havenāt asked for anythingā¦ havenāt even tried touching yourself. You know you couldāve, right? I didnāt tell you not to,ā you point out.
He shrugs, as if the option never even crossed his mind. āI know that anything you do is gonna feel a million times better than anything I could do for myself just because itās you, so.ā
āLuuuuuu,ā you melt, bringing yourself to his lips again.
He laughs, āThat being saidā¦I would like to cum sooner than later.ā
You snort, giving him a playful shove as you push yourself up. āOh is that something you were interested in doing tonight? That what all the moaning and writhing is about?ā
He gently knees your side as you settle back between his legs. āBold talk from a lady who was so horny earlier, Iād barely been gone ten minutes before you had to get yourself off.ā
Giggling, you pinch his inner thigh and giggle some more when heās surprisingly into it, giving a half-moaned, half-yelled reaction. āWhatever, man, I wasnāt the one jerkinā it in the parking lot of my job.ā
āNooooo, thatās the whole point! I didnāt jerk it, thatās why I need to cum now,ā he insists, tone still lighthearted but with a slight edge to it.
Heās getting desperate and you smile, appreciating how fun he is like this. āAww, baby, youāre so right. This poor, poor cock deserves some attention, doesnāt it?ā
Luke nods pitifully and holds his breath as you move in to press a single closed mouth kiss to the tip of his cock.
āBaby.ā
You look at him with wide eyes, feigning shock that heās disappointed. āMore?ā You place another chaste kiss halfway down his length, followed by one right at the base. You feel his cock throb under your lips, excited even from just that small amount of contact, and you almost feel bad when you hear his exasperated sigh as he realizes your game. You look up again, teasing, āStill not enough? Such a needy cock, isnāt it? Donāt know how you survived the day, babe, mustāve been so tough not giving in. Didnāt give it even one little stroke?ā
He feels you moving down and when your breath is on his thighs again, he gasps. āN-noā¦ wanted to wait for you,ā he sputters, breath uneven as your lips brush across his skin.
āGood boy,ā you purr, licking your lips and giving a wet kiss to his balls. You move over a fraction, kissing again, this time letting your tongue poke through your mouth and his body jerks so hard, youād have sworn he jumped about five feet off the bed. āYou like that, handsome?āĀ
A choked cry answers your question and you move and kiss again, sloppier, letting your tongue swirl and linger on his skin. His response is still intense, so you continue, using the same technique but traveling lower and kissing longer; his moan is sharper, breathier, and you notice his legs are opening wider for you, his ass scooting closer to your face.Ā
Oh.
You contemplate his reaction before moving in again, placing a firm, wet kiss to the space just under his balls. The way he whines your name is unlike anything youāve ever heard before and judging by the ache you suddenly feel between your legs, youāre confident it will play a starring role in every masturbatory experience you have from now on.
āLuke?ā You sit up to get a good look at him, biting your lip to keep from audibly reacting as you take in the sight of his flushed face, his curls frizzed from sweat and his hands resting at his sides, balled up into fists in a clear effort to keep himself from tending to his cock, much redder, much shinier and much angrier than it was when you last looked at it.
āYeah?ā He answers weakly, as desperate as heās ever been but too dazed to hide it now.
You consider your words before deciding thereās really no delicate way of putting it. āDo youā¦ umā¦ should I eat your ass?āĀ
āJesus Christ,ā he breathes, screwing his eyes shut in an attempt to focus. āIs thatā¦ do you want to?ā
āLu,ā you soothe, stroking his thighs. āBabe, you know we always say if thereās something one of us wants to try, weāll hear each other out. And this seems like something thatās really turning you on and Iām really interested in exploring that if you are.ā
He stares at the ceiling for a beat before focusing his gaze on you. āYeahā¦ yes. Yes, I- I think Iād like that.ā
Breathing deep, he runs his hands through his hair, obviously overwhelmed. Your instinct is to rush up to give him a calming kiss but you fight the urge, wanting to give him space and time to process whatever heās feeling. Instead, you hug his knee, using your fingers to draw soft circles on his leg, watching as his face softens and after a moment, he looks back down at you.
āYou good, babe?ā
āYeahā¦ I just got like, nervous for a second,ā he laughs.
āWell thatās okay.ā You smile softly, resting your chin on his knee while you talk. āAre you sure you wanna? We donāt have to, you know Iād be more than happy to suck your dick.ā
With a naughty grin, he insists, āI mean, Iād be more than happy to have my dick sucked but I do think itād be fun to try this.ā
āPromise youāll tell me if you change your mind?ā
āOf courseā¦ and same.ā
āOf course.ā
Satisfied, you peck each of his knees before spreading them wide again. You dip down, pressing your chest to the bed, popping your own ass to give him a good show. You knead his ass cheeks before gently pushing them apart, pausing to take a steadying breath of your own.
āLove you,ā the voice above eagerly offers.
Your head drops to the mattress and you laugh with glee. āLove you too, babeā¦ especially love that you thought to tell me that just as Iām about to lick your ass for the first time.ā
He wheezes before deadpanning, āSounds like the best time to make that known, if you ask me.ā
Shaking your head, you start nibbling at his inner thigh again; you suck and nip at his skin, moving closer and closer to unknown territory. When he feels your warm breath between his cheeks, his noises go totally quiet in anticipation of what youāll do next.
Leaning in, you hold him tightly and lick a long stripe over his entrance; his entire body tenses and he makes the sharpest yet quietest noise youāve ever heard from him. Just as your brain wonders if that was a good reaction or a bad reaction, he answers your question by rocking his hips up, silently asking for more.
You oblige him, flattening your tongue to cover even more territory, licking slow and wide from his hole back up to his balls and down again. This time, heās not shy about letting you know how he feels, a few breathy āfuckās and a shaky āoh god, baby, yesā falling from his lips. You repeat the same route, experimenting with a swirling motion on the way down and the groan itās met with tells you it was the right decision.
āYou like that, babe?ā You raise up to check in with him, your question more curious than teasing. āFeeling good?ā
Lukeās face is buried in his hands, surprised at how instantly heās beside himself with want. āIt feels fucking amazing,ā he reports, voice muffled but clearly wrecked already.Ā
Looking at his neglected cock, leaking profusely and a deep shade of red, you ask, āDo you want me to jerk you off while Iām ---ā
He interrupts, āJesus, fuck, baby, no!ā It takes a beat for him to hear his own reaction and then he giggles at how serious it was. He explains, āI swear to fuck, I will immediately cum all over myself if either one of us touches my dick for even a second.ā
āI thought you wanted to cum sooner than later,ā you tease.
He props his head up to grin at you. āI like the idea of your tongue in my ass more if Iām honest.ā
āThe most romantic thing youāve ever said to me,ā you quip, getting back into position. āAlsoā¦ you said in, soā¦ā
āOh. I meanā¦ is thatā¦ would you?ā
You lean in and playfully bite a chunk of cheek. āHonestly, Lu, if itāll get you to keep making noises like you have been, Iāll do literally anything you want to this sexy ass.āĀ
He laughs, low and raspy enough to give you chills. āIāll keep that in mind.ā
You grab his ass, push his thighs a little higher and dive back in, your tongue flicking wetly over his hole. As you work, the increasing volume of his sighs and the frequency with which heās bucking into the air gives you confidence and your strokes become firmer, your flutters more teasing. You return to the sensitive skin below his balls, your lips providing gentle pressure before beginning a slight suction, and the prolonged moan he gives in response has you squeezing your legs together, hoping for some pressure of your own.
Emboldened by his feedback, you move down to his rim and apply the same method: pressure followed by suction. Luke canāt stop the whimpers spilling from his lips as yours move over him, breath catching as your tongue starts lapping in time, the sloppily wet sounds permanently etching into his brain.Ā
He wants to tell you what a good job you're doing, how unbelievable you're making him feel, but it's taking all his concentration not to grind himself back against your face, so all he can think to do is moan. He briefly considers reaching down to thread his hands in your hair and show his appreciation that way but thatād put his hands way too close to his cock and he doesn't trust himself enough not to touch it.
He groans as your grip on his thighs tightens up, trying to get a better angle; your nails dig into his skin as you do your best to keep him steady and he whines, feeling a fresh round of precum run onto his stomach. You press yourself closer, the tip of your tongue up against his opening before cautiously dipping inside. A strained shout escapes him and he claws at the sheets, pushing his ass down to meet your mouth, a tiny āsorryā lost in his throat as you work your tongue inside him and thrust. His head is spinning, he swears heās never heard himself make the sounds heās making and when your tongue thrusts into him again, he cries out as his cock twitches involuntarily.
All his noises are going straight to your pussy and you pull back, panting, in desperate need of a break.Ā
āLuke,ā you huff, pecking across his thighs as you lift yourself up to address him. āIām glad you seem to be enjoying this, babeā¦ I apparently canāt get enough either, Iām absolutely soaked.ā
He lifts his head to look at you and you sit up enough for him to see the center of your panties is a much darker shade of pink than it was before. āHoly shit, babyā¦ thatās just from working on me?ā You nod, lip between your teeth, and he groans. āGod, youāre a fucking dream, you know that? Looking like that, making me feelā¦ fuck, I donāt even know how to describe itā¦ but youāre really, really fucking good at this.ā
You grin, basking in his rambled praise. āWell, Iād be lost if I didnāt have such good feedback. All your pretty sounds, the way you keep grinding against my faceā¦ā
āSorry about that,ā he chuckles, a hint of shyness in his voice.
āNo, Lu, I love knowing Iām making you feel so good. Itās so hot seeing you get soā¦ā
āSlutty?ā
You laugh, squeezing his knees affectionately. āI mean, thatās really nothing new, is it?ā He giggles, breath slowing as your hands start roaming his legs. Your tone turns teasing, āSo sluttyā¦ so needyā¦ and yet, still so good for me, huh? Look at that cock! I donāt know if Iāve ever seen it so hard, have you? Iāll bet itās absolutely aching, isnāt it, baby?ā
āAhhh, uh-huh,ā he agrees quietly. He holds his breath as you lean over him, your hands rubbing over his stomach, so close - too close - to where his cock lays.
He gasps as you swirl your finger through some of the precum thatās pooled on his skin, the sensation causing his cock to jump up again.
You moan at the sight, loving that youāve got him so worked up. Your finger inches closer and he whines helplessly. āYou sure you donāt want me to do something about this, babe? Looks like it wouldnāt take muchā¦ what do you think? Think Iād be able to get even one stroke in?ā You lightly run your nail against his stomach, right next to where his tip is and he lets out what can only be described as a sob. āThink Iād even get my hand around it before you make a mess of us both?āĀ
You lift your hand as if youāre going to test your theory and he wails your name desperately.
āGood boy,ā you coo, backing off, watching the pronounced rise and fall of his chest as he tries to regain composure. You settle back between his legs and check in. āKeep going - yes or no?ā
The question has barely left your mouth before heās rushing out, āYes, yes, yes, baby.ā He slides his hands under his thighs and lifts them up to emphasize his point. āPlease.ā
Groaning at his eagerness, you feel even more wetness drip onto your lace bottoms. āLet me hear you, baby,ā you encourage, softly kissing his cheeks, working your way in.Ā
You begin a pattern of kitten licks over his entrance that has him instantly moaning. You then teasingly swirl your tongue around - 1, 2, 3, times - and on the final circle you let the tip dart inside him and he lifts his legs even higher, rocking himself towards you, needing more. You duplicate the process but slower, adding in a few extra swirls just to hear his reaction - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 - and your taunting is met with a series of increasingly frantic whines and a few strangled pleas of your name. When you finally flit your tongue inside, the relieved āOh my fucking god, baby, yes, thatā feels a hundred times better than the orgasm you gave yourself earlier.
As you continue, Luke feels like heās lost control - his hips pumping against you seemingly of their own accord, his voice producing a consistent stream of sounds he doesnāt recognize, his cock springing up with interest yet again. And does he always leak this much precum? Fuck. You squeeze his ass, your hair tickling his cheeks as you wiggle, working your tongue in deeper; he notices a distinct sensation spreading through his body but heās so overwhelmed he canāt quite place it yet.Ā
He looks down to see your head moving in a familiar bobbing motion and he has to groan as his mind acknowledges that heās being blessed with one of his favorite visuals not because youāre sucking him off, but eating his ass.
āSo good, babyā¦ so fucking good,ā he praises dreamily.
You murmur against him in appreciation, giving his ass another squeeze and he whimpers, that confusing sensation running through him again but more insistent. Youāre effectively fucking him with your tongue, digging your nails into his skin, trying to hold on as he fucks back against you, and when your own muffled moans start pouring from your throat, that same mystery sensation returns to his body with such intensity, it demands to be recognized.
Oh.Ā
It takes up until the second that Luke starts cumming for him to realize thatās whatās happening and itās not until he feels the first rope of cum hit his chest that he actually believes it. He tries to call your name but all that comes out is the first letter followed by a bunch of unintelligible cries, voice unfamiliar as his body shudders. His cock pulses and throbs mindlessly, spraying his release near and far, coating his entire torso all the way from his belly to his chest.Ā
The high of this orgasm seems to have no limit, building and building even when it seems like it's beyond time to fall back down to earth. He tries to express this thought but his breath comes out in short, wrecked sobs while his arms shake as he struggles to hold his legs in the air. Itās probably the most exhilarating - and bewildering - thing heās ever felt and when it finally crescendos, he gives an elongated groan of something resembling your name and lets his limbs drop down as he melts into the bed.
As soon as his legs hit the mattress, youāre racing over to his side. āLuke? Baby. Oh my god,ā you fuss. He looks absolutely destroyed - hair disheveled, skin flushed, eyes tightly shut. His breath is steadier than it was but still labored, heaving chest covered in sweat and cum. Heās never looked more beautiful. You speak tenderly, stroking his cheek, āYou did so good, Lu, oh my god, that was incredible, babyā¦ are you okay?ā
His eyes flutter open, still a bit glazed. He takes a moment before he answers. āYeahā¦ Iā¦ justā¦ whoa.ā
āYeah, definitely whoa,ā you laugh quietly, pushing the curls off his forehead. āIāve neverā¦ did you know you could -- ā
He shakes his head. āNope. Never happened before, not even close.ā He chuckles in disbelief. āI didnāt even know it was happening until it was happening.āĀ
You giggle with him. āI felt your body like, pulse and before I even had time to think about it, you were moaning andā¦ oh my god, babeā¦ā You move closer to snuggle him but he holds his hands out to stop you.
āMessy,ā he laughs sheepishly, gesturing at his sticky skin.
With a comforting squeeze to his arm, you promise, āOne sec,ā and hop off the bed, hurrying to the en suite. Luke closes his eyes, the sound of the running faucet serving as the perfect white noise as he lays there, content but exhausted. Several moments later, he feels the bed dip, followed by the pleasant sensation of a warm washcloth moving across his chest.
āThank you, honey,ā he says quietly, reaching out to squeeze your hip. He traces the waistband of your panties admiringly. āCouldnāt let these gorgeous pieces get stainedā¦ not yet, anyway.ā
He wiggles his eyebrows suggestively and you snort. āSuch a thoughtful lover,ā you joke, softly flicking him with the washcloth before tossing it aside.
āWell actually, speaking of which,ā he starts, hand moving to rub over the now transparent from arousal patch of your underwear. āWhat should we do about this?ā
āI was actually gonna see if you wanted a snack,ā you shrug, patting his now clean skin dry with a new towel. He narrows his eyes skeptically and you explain simply as you pass him his water bottle. āI came this morning.ā
āOh, trust me, I remember,ā he smirks, taking the bottle but grabbing your arm to pull you close. He caresses your cheek, continuing, āBut you seemed happy - eager even - to have another so I wanna check that youāre not passing it up just because you made me cum my brains out and think now you gotta take care of me.ā
You take a thoughtful sip from your water. āI guess I got a little worked up watching youā¦ and talking to you over the course of the dayā¦ and looking at the pictures of your dick that you sent me,ā you shrug again, a coy smile creeping at the corners of your lips. āI justā¦ that was so intense, babe, are you sure you donāt need anything?ā
He opens his arms and you donāt hesitate to accept the invitation, curling up on him, letting him wrap himself around you. āHonestly all I need is to feel my girl laying in my armsā¦ heart racing, hips buckingā¦ā He kisses sweetly over your face, ghosting over your lips before darting down to suck under your jaw instead. He runs his hand over the mark he leaves, tracing his thumb over your mouth. āLittle gasps, sweet moans spilling out from these beautiful lipsā¦ if thatās something you think you might be interested in.ā
Your eyes meet his as you suck his thumb between your lips, biting gently. āWellā¦ if itāll make you feel better, I guess,ā you joke, sighing as youāre pulled into a passionate kiss.Ā
His fingers toy with the caged straps of your bra and he whispers, āWanna be naked with me?ā You eagerly nod, hissing quietly as he unfastens you; you help him pull the material off and then quickly shimmy out of your bottoms. You shiver under his appreciative gaze as he murmurs, āThatās my good girl,ā before capturing your lips again.
The makeout is slow and familiar, a lovely juxtaposition to the frenzied experimentation youāre both still coming down from. His hand makes its way down your body, slipping between your legs and you both groan as he starts stroking through your wet folds. You almost instantly start rocking your hips into his touch - youāve been waiting to feel his hands on you all day and youāve been so turned on for so long and your body is so grateful to finally have some relief.
He laughs raspily, āBabyā¦ after all that buildup, donāt you think you deserve more than humping my hand?ā You whine as he pulls away and whine again when you see him reaching over into āthe fun drawer.ā He grabs the first toy he touches and it happens to be the one you used this morning. He clicks the button and it whirs to life, thrusting back and forth enthusiastically, much to his delight. āLook at this bad boy! Iāve always wanted to watch you with this one.ā
āWell pay attention because itās not gonna last long,ā you laugh.
After some discussion, he props some pillows up against the headboard and sits back with his legs open for you to lay between. You relax into him, immediately angling your head for a kiss while Lukeās first order of business is getting his hands on your breasts. You tease each other a bit - your teeth tugging his lip, his ringed fingers twirling your nipples - and then heās nudging you to pick up the vibrator.
āBeen thinking about this since I saw that picture,ā he admits, watching carefully as you drag the toy down your body.
You run the tip up and down your pussy, getting it nice and wet before lightly circling your clit. āI always wait until the last minute to turn it onā¦ it feels too good,ā you explain, teasing your opening and then pulling it away, your hips tilting up in hopes of reconnecting with the toy. āEven just putting it in is too much sometimes because I know how good itās about to make me feel.ā You torment yourself a few more times and then finally let it slip in, sighing loudly as it glides inside you.
āFuck,ā Luke breathes, rubbing your legs soothingly as he stares, slack-jawed.
One hand fits the toy inside you while your other interlaces your fingers with his. āOh this is gonna be so quick,ā you laugh, leaning back to kiss his neck. āYou ready?ā
"I don't know," he giggles, squeezing your thigh. "Ready to see you come apart, baby."
You keep your gaze trained on his face, your hand using sense memory to locate the power button and turn it on. A deep groan escapes your throat instantly as the shaft of the toy begins vibrating and pumping inside you. You quickly click it down to a low setting and reach to adjust the arm meant to stimulate your clit, your eyes rolling back the moment it lands on the right spot.
"Feels good?" He asks quietly, visibly gulping as you nod and lick your lips. He runs his hands up from your legs, caressing over your hips, your stomach and finally your tits again, where his touch lingers. "As good as this morning?"
Bringing him into a kiss, you sigh, "Betterā¦ you're here now." You roll your hips with the slow rhythm of the vibrator, not yet ready to crank it up to your usual setting and have this end. "Don't gotta imagine your hands on my body, your voice in my ear, your breath on meā¦ you're here."
"So glad I'm here, honey," he reassures, kissing your face. You press a button to change the pattern of the vibrations and gasp into his mouth. He groans, wanting to help you along, "Did you pretend it was me fucking you? My cock inside you?"
You confirm breathily, "Oh, Lu, yesā¦ Pretended you were still in bed with meā¦ like the phone never rangā¦ like we just woke up and you were on my neck, telling me how much you wanted meā¦ pretended we were back in that moment and I told you to slip it in like I wished I wouldāveā¦ oh god, Lu, cāmere.ā You reach for his hand, panting.
The sudden shift of intensity in your tone has Luke breathing as heavy as you, rushing to do as requested. You guide his hand around the bottom of the toyās shaft, right where itās peeking out of your body; you watch his jaw drop as you cycle through the settings, landing on the rhythm and speed that always leaves you seeing stars.
He looks at you wide-eyed. āNo way,ā he laughs, feeling the strong buzz and rapid thrusts. āBaby, this is gonna launch you into space.ā
āCounting on it,ā you giggle, turning it back down while you move his hand to the base of the toy and adjust his hold so itās at the angle you need. As soon as heās in position, you turn the power back up and let out a pronounced moan.
āThatās it, lemme hear those beautiful sounds, honey,ā he encourages, his free hand gripping your breast tight, hoping to both get you off and steady you.
The whines only get louder as your back arches into his touch and your hips stutter, your body too stimulated to follow along with the vibe's movements. It drives into you over and over at that delicious angle and you bury your face into Luke's neck, muffling a cry as you feel your climax start to light up every single cell in your body.Ā
The pleasure rushes through you, the chemicals flood your system and most importantly, your boyfriendās arms tighten around you. The orgasm is great - fantastic even - but feeling this good while being this close to him is what makes all the waiting, all the teasing, all the frustration of the day worth it.
āOh, thatās it, babyā¦ what a good girlā¦ look so unbelievable when you cum for me,ā he encourages as you huff and shake in his embrace. A few seconds later, your body settles and your breathing quiets but a small whimper remains and he knows that means youāre done with the vibrator. He shuts it off and carefully pulls it out, soothing in a soft voice, āI know, baby, that was so muchā¦ itās alright, Iāve got you.ā
He gently eases you onto your pillow, freeing up his arm to grab the tissue box off the nightstand. You pout and make grabby hands at him as he stops to wipe down your toy; he grins, pecking your lips before starting to clean you up as well. Neither of you have much to say, content with simply trading soft smiles and softer touches.Ā
Luke lays his head on your chest, gazing up lovingly at you, and you tangle your fingers in his curls, loving the way his eyelashes flutter as you comb through his hair. You take the moment in until something occurs to you. āHey, babe, I donāt think I ever actually thanked you for those flowers? Theyāre gorgeousā¦ that was really sweet of you.ā
āAww, honey, Iām glad you liked them!ā He beams proudly. His expression briefly falters but he shakes it off and continues, āI wanted to kind of acknowledge and apologize for this morningā¦ I promised this would be our day and I shouldāve taken a minute to find a compromise instead of just taking off like it was nothing.ā
āLuuuuuke,ā you whine, stroking his cheek softly. āI know I complained at first but you know I understand the band comes first - itās your job and itās important. Youāve got a lot of people counting on you.ā
He shrugs. āI had you counting on me and youāre someone I donāt ever wanna disappoint. I shouldāve asked if you wanted to come have lunch or something. I donāt know where my head was at.ā
āWell, babe, I appreciate the apology but I still had a pretty fun day,ā you reassure him, smirk curling the edges of your mouth.
āIs that so? I never wouldāve guessed,ā he jokes, pushing up to kiss you. āGlad to hear you had a good day, thoughā¦ spent most of mine worrying Iād ruined it.ā
You giggle, āBabe, Iām pretty sure the only thing that got well and truly ruined today was you.ā
He laughs with you, a faint blush spreading over his skin. āSo best case scenario then,ā he cracks, pressing another kiss on your lips.
He sits up, sipping his water, passing yours over when you prop yourself up next to him. You suddenly remember to ask, āHey, how was the studio, by the way? Howād our song turn out?ā
Luke grins. āOh, is it our song?ā
With a naughty smile, you explain. āI donāt know about you but I doubt Iāll be able to think about anything besides tonight when I hear it.ā
āWellā¦ tonight and the night I wrote it.ā
āSee.ā
āYouāre right, itās definitely our song,ā he giggles, squeezing your knee. āI really like what itās turning into, I think itās almost where it needs to be.ā
Your brow scrunches, confused. āAlmost? Wasnāt it due today?ā
āOh!ā He laughs, shaking his head. āThe deadline actually got extended.ā
āWhat?!ā
āMmm hmm, some kind of server maintenance - the label apparently canāt handle any incoming files for a day or two. So we all decided we should use that time and really get it right.ā
Youāre quiet for a moment before offering a simple, āInteresting.ā
Luke can tell youāre calculating if this will affect your time together again and he slinks his arm around you, leaning your head on his shoulder. āIt doesnāt need nearly as much work as it did today though, so hopefully it wonāt take up too much of the day.āĀ
āYeah, hopefully.ā
With a smile, he adds, āBut just in case, Iām thinking my phoneās gonna accidentally die overnight, what about yours?ā
āāāāāāāāāāāāāāā Thank you for reading!
#luke hemmings smut#luke smut#luke hemmings fic#5sos smut#5 seconds of summer smut#kindahoping4forever#smut#kh4f fic#Nothing But My Feelings#it's the way this is basically twice the length of my last Ash fic šš#and friends this is the EDIT#first draft was 14k+#idk what my problem is#anyways yay I did it! A Luke fic like I kept promising last year!#And a new fic in general! Wasn't sure if I'd get there tbh so I'm pretty proud#Hoping to make this more of A Thing this year so cross your fingers for my physical and mental health lol#remember when I said this fic was kind of a lot? agree or disagree lol
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asian american haley and emily ....
#stardew valley#sdv emily#sdv haley#fuck it I DONT CARE ANYMOOOOREEEE#[ASIAN BEAMS THEM WITH MY MINDS EYE]#i keep thinking abt that girl who cosplayed haley and hc her as asian it literally made my heart flutter soooo bad#and the time i talked to my friend 50 and told them i wanted to make emily asian american but i wasnt sure what#and they said 'how about taiwanese?' and my third eye opened š³#idkkkk i feel so much closer and happier having something in common with them like heritage or culture and stuff#i love this idea. this is MY ver of haley and emily [puts them near my heart and hugs] š¤š#there arent a lot of people of color in the valley i just wanted to have more guys to relate to šš#i hc more than half the marriageable ncps as mixed /poc now haha hoho#anyway im just talking to myself bcz i couldnt sleep lmao gn
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[shaking and biting] but what does it MEAN. what does it SAY what is the THEME
#akkdlflf i watched this long lecture video abt austrian national identity and the researcher said 'the austrians are quite adept at#selling the austro hungarian monarchy back to tourists incl ones from former parts of the empire... but even in the imperial nostalgia they#don't want back multilingualism or multiculturalism or any of what it actually was'#(it was a lot abt the way in which austria deals with orban's hungary in and after the 2015 refugee crisis)#ajskgldo and that just made me think about... how pointless some things feel. both in fiction and in academic research#you CAN say meaningful things about almost any topic and with almost any argument! but in some strands of history trying to 'uncover events'#with no exploration of the context and what it all MEANS and what the things we think about it mean#is the most prevalent and popular type of research :/ like there's a reason i overrely on hamann's bio of rudolf because her central thesis#is that he wasnt a crazy murderer but someone with a forward-thinking political vision that went as far as suggesting a sort of 'proto-EU'#among other things#so like. she is looking at what it all MEANS!!!#and like. my favourite todolf fanfics are also like that šš perhaps not abt politics but about suffering and power dynamics and guilt#same for original fiction. i'm never happy if a book i'm reading isnt saying something#or then again - this is more personal pickiness but. they should also be saying something NEW AND INTERESTING#a lot of the time. sometimes if you have a fave trope you can just enjoy it over and over#but idk even tropey stuff can say things#ajlsldkfkf i'm just so tired of kitsch in all its forms and also of bad science
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Iād consider making a alt blog specifically for music, but Iām so against that as a concept
#my blog is for my interests Iām not gonna split them up thatās inconvenient#but Iād certainly should talk about my musical interests more#I donāt know much about anything I just vibe šš#so maybe that wouldnāt be interesting#with film itās different I went to school for that so despite my lack of engagement with it I know what Iām talking about#I donāt think I can talk about music with any sort of authority#beyond like lyrical analysis#I say this but also I hate viva las vengeance and that has a lot of technical issues with it not just lyrically#I suppose I feel disingenuous about it ā¦#as if my thoughts on music are illegitimate or something#my apologies I was raised evangelical I have guilt for not knowing everything I claim to like or follow
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#kiwi answers#ladye my sweet#i feel like garbage#and not in an hsr garbage way#but#i have so much to do tomorrow#my babiest sister (context: around Silvs age i think XD) is moving to another state on Wednesday#so tomorrow is her last day with us and theres lots to do#and my mom woke up with a pinched nerve so shes been in pain at work all day and likely will be in tremendous pain tomorrow as well#and yet#here i am#sittinf in my desk chair#on tumblr#instead of getting ready for bed#ā¦ugh#i work wed thurs fri all full days too so#i dearly hope i feel better by then#i dont know whats wrong with me šš
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send me a ā§ and iāll bold all that apply to your muse! (with italics as a 'sometimes' option because i'm a rule-breaker and things may depend on the situation).
i would kill you. ā§ i would physically hurt you. ā§ i would attack you unprovoked. ā§ i would manipulate you. ā§ i dislike you. ā§ you annoy me. ā§ you scare me. ā§ you intimidate me. ā§ i hope i intimidate you. ā§ i pity you. ā§ you disgust me. ā§ i hate you. ā§ iām indifferent toward you. ā§ iād like to get to know you better. ā§ Ā iād like to spend more time with you. ā§ iād like to be friends with you. ā§ Ā iām unsure what to think of you. ā§ iām unsure how I feel about you. ā§ you are my friend. ā§ you are my best friend. ā§ you are my mentor. ā§ i look up to you. ā§ i respect you. ā§ you are my hero. ā§ you inspire me. ā§ you are my enemy. ā§ you make me happy. ā§ i want to protect you. ā§ i would fight by your side. ā§ i consider you an equal. ā§ i think you are beneath me. ā§ i think you are above me. ā§ i would lie for you. ā§ i would lie to you. ā§ i would sleep with you. ā§ i would sleep by your side. ā§ i would hug you. ā§ i would kiss you. ā§ you are family to me. ā§ i would die for you. ā§ i would kill for you. ā§ i would trust you with my life. ā§ i would trust you with my most precious belonging. ā§ i would trust you with a secret. ā§ i would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ā§ i love you (platonically). ā§ i love you (romantically).
#sifonie#OOH BOYYY. the mixed nature of this is... JSJSJ i'm sorry about barton ramone he is justtt. Not the best person even around people-#he likes / cares about sometimes NGL and a lot of his relationships if not all of them are (unfortunately) unstable to at least a small-#degree. though of course i'm not trying to justify his behavior at all here... i just think that barton literally Cannot Help himself-#whenever it comes to manipulating people to the point where he may even do it unconsciously sometimes as terrible as that might sound š#and as for the whole 'you scare me' thing i think this just applies in the context of sibyl technically having the power to like. Kill him-#if they wanted to even if they wouldn't considering that they are like siblings to each other you know? and barton is naturally a-#distrustful person SO that also adds to him feeling a bit scared of them at times i think ahahhh.#but that's enough of talking about the negative stuff!! let's talk about how barton sees sibyl as an equal and would die for them...#because i honestly that serves as SUCH a dichotomy to the first thing's that i highlighted here and normally those thing's-#probably wouldn't coexist within the same person but if there is one thing that barton is - it's surprising in regards to how complex-#he can make his relationships with people JSJSJ LMAO but barton wanting to protect them is also? kind of sweet as well?? like OMG#plus the fact that they make him happy is š it's really kind of touching in my humble opinion.#now if only barton didn't feel the need to LIE and still manipulate people sometimes even when he likes them...#then we'd be golden but i guess that would be asking for too much from him JSJSJ#not me talking as if he's real š nooo but this was seriously really fun to fill out so thank you for sending this prompt to me ramone!!#and i hope i was able to shed a little more light on their relationship from barton's side of thing's bc i feel like it can be hard to tell#what barton truly thinks about someone even when i'm writing him in the 'stream of consciousness' style haha#also the italics is a 'maybe' in this case so it doesn't apply all the time!!
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Ah. The lucky trio.
#Also. I didn't pay attention to it earlier yk. 4 days ago it was at like 96-97 or sth. And I was a little flabbergasted coz to manage indigo#Awards I'm using the activity page A LOT but then I didn't notice this earlier coz I was so preoccupied šš I saw this and I was likeāāā#I immediately rushed to see if I'm gaining too many bots as followers because I've been too active lately (or so I feel. Spamming everyone'#Inbox lmao. But they're not bots?! Y'all fr?! Wow. I was pleasantly surprised. I still don't get why someone would follow a reblog dump-#Blog but thank you peoples šš hope to have a nice time with y'allšš)#Idk what to tag.#Ranting#Personal#?!?!?#Whatever :3
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What up I'm married to a tall person who is basically Milo Thatch but agender, and uhhh, basically, yeah, everyone should be jealous and I LOVE MY CUTE TWINK NERD WIFE!!!!! š¤š¤š„°š„°š„°ā¤ā¤ā¤šš
#original#i love my wife#had a big crush on that character growing up#you know who else is really into her? EVERY OTHER CHUBBY TRANS GUY IN CHICAGO apparently we just see her and are like OH HELL YEAH#do you know why this is? it is because we have excellent taste that is why.#and also we want non threatening masc people to be into us and respect our gender! that's me anyway#and this is excellent news for her anyway bc we're in an open relationship & she thinks guys like me (her HUSBAND š„°š) are incredibly hot#this is also bc she has excellent taste.#but it is a running joke that she keeps getting nice OKC matches that look a lot like me š#anyway this post is a thing that would have made young me BOIL with envy if someone else said it but in fact it is ME#and young me grew into me and is in here like AAWWWWWWW YYYEEEEEEEEAAAHHHHH š¤š¤š¤š¤ššš#she doesn't just look like Milo she also moves and emotes and talks like him. and until recently her glasses would not stay on her face!#she got new ones. nerd. i adore her.#she is so kind to Jack (me) and to my giant anxious pitbull child#she puts his blankie on him as he rests on her toes to make sure she doesn't go anywhere ššā¤#she is my best friend and she never makes me feel stupid or fake or undeserving. she just likes me so much and she fkn acts like it!#and we have good boundaries and communication in a very autistic way [positive] and she is so smart and funnyyy#oh i am falling asleep now#probably has something to do with how thinking about my wife makes me feel safe and warm or some gay shit like that š ;)#edit: omg it just occurred to me that she is like 80% Mill and 20% Jessica Jones. just in terms of like. vibes. XD#she cares a lot about Jessica Jones. I will tell her my findings in the morrow#*80% Milo
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I WANNA HEAR ABOUT THE DREAM TELL ME
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Iām gonna say it in the tags cos itās less embarrassing ajdjsjsjka
#basically chris and his movie crew came to my university#bc he was making a movie and starring in it and he was holding auditions at my university#the audition was only girls#me and my bestie came late bc we thought the auditions started later#but they still let us have a go#and we were the only ones who aced our audition#like for some reason chris and his crew were marking everyone as if it was an exam lmfao#and Chris was a strict marker idk I guess he cared a lot about his movie#cos he gave every other girl low grades#but meeee he gave me full marks!!!#and my friend too but whatever#anywyas we finished our audition and sat next to him while the rest of the auditions happened#except I kept talking to him and he kept talking to meee#to the point where he was ignoring the other auditions and I was secretly loving it#knowing all the other girls hated me šššš#and I was flirting with him sooo much and he was flirting back#and I knew he liked me more than my friend too like I could FEEL it and it was so real šššš#and then he said heād give me a lift home in his car#and I was like bITCH YES?!?! (just me not even my friend)#and I remember leaving the building and all the other girls were sooooo jealous mwahahaha#and then it fucking ENDED FUCK URJCSIJXJSJSJS#but yeah#soo cute and Iām afraid Iām in love with him again#anon
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still sick but alive, unfortunately š¤§
#last morning when i got up i wasn't at all sure i'd live to see the release of deadzone lol#since then i've been able to walk and stand up somewhat normally without wanting to cry and/or die#last night i slept more than the two previous nights combined. which still isn't that much but at least i did sleep#i did also wake up so completely drenched in my own sweat (from mild fever going down after i had taken a painkiller for a headache)-#-that i had to get up and dry myself with a towel š#and there was a huge wet spot (of sweat) on my bed where i had lied š#i have lost three fourths of my vocal range so i can't e.g. laugh#(not that i've had a whole lot to giggle about these past few days š)#i'm bummed out i can't do preparations for my new job#i definitely should've started earlier but i would've had plenty of time this week had i not caught the cold at the stupid festival š¤§#i did not plan this! besides i'm not gonna start working weeks ahead for a job i'm not even getting paid for yet#for the same reason no one can expect me to work while sick for a job i haven't gotten a single penny from#hell even if i WAS paid no one could expecte me to work while sick#so i shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to work on my fic instead of the course plans#which btw i already sort of have because my predecessors gave me practically ALL the material i might need#so all i reallly need to do is change the dates of the course plans and bob's your uncle#but i'd like to also study the material a bit before teaching it so that i'll at least seem like i know what i'm talking about š#mom said on the phone that i've managed situations like this before so i will manage this too and she's right i guess but ššš#but yeah i guess this is some sort of developement from last year when i had the 'rona-#-and felt awful about ordering food/groceries in because ''i don't want to be a bother'' š
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katie i just finished your 1D piarles au and oh my god it was everything i never knew i needed
i was a GIANT 1D fan when they were together and now i'm obsessed with piarles the way i used to be obsessed with the band so this fic was just... perfection, a masterpiece, worthy of a nobel prize. it made me feel so nostalgic that the last instagram live made me genuinely emotional š
sorry i'm rambling but i just wanted to tell you that i loved it (even when i wanted to hit pierre over the head) and thank you for writing it šš
hello friend!! oh my gosh, thank you SO much for the lovely compliments š„¹ā¤ļø i appreciate this message so so much! as a fellow giant 1D fan & piarles girlie, this fic holds a very special place in my heart, so whenever someone tells me they enjoyed it too and it meant something to them, it's just... it's so, SO wonderful to hear. i struggle to put it into words, but it's one of the best, most heartwarming feelings i know. it's just so special to be able to share something that means a lot to me with other people who get it and who feel the same way, so just - truly, thank you so much for this very kind ask!! i have been coming back to it in my inbox in tumblr for the past few days whenever i need a little pick-me-up, and just beaming and immediately feeling a little bit better about everything. so: thank YOU!! and i am truly so, so ecstatic that you enjoyed this fic too ā¤ļøš¶ā¤ļø
#asks & answers#š„ comebackkidgasly#lovely messages ā¤ļø#š„¹ oh i really appreciate this one so much#i am just. WAHHH i'm very sentimental about this fic#so truly; thank you SO SO MUCH for all the kind words#LFMAO about wanting to hit pierre over the head though ššš i mean; i feel you#i wanted to whack him over the head MULTIPLE TIMES while writing it; lmaooo#but that made me giggle a lot ahahaha#and that last insta live.... yeah i will be honest i made myself emotional too#you know; the fic originally had an ENTIRELY different epilogue!#but then i decided to change it like a few days before it was due to be revealed (cue absolute SCENES)#but i think the change ended up working very very well indeed#but yeah!!#all in all just thank you SO much for this wonderful ask#i appreciate it and you so very very much <333333
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RADIO ROMANCE ė¼ėģ¤ ė”ė§Øģ¤ (2018)
#kdramaedit#kdramadaily#kdramasource#kdrama#radio romance#yoon doojoon#kim so hyun#yoon dujun#kim sohyun#radio romance: 1.04#radio romance: soo ho x geu rim#.gif#feels like im watching for the first time bc i remember close to nothing about what happens#šš
#enjoying watching and giffing this a lot!#the way im holding myself back from binge watching it all#because if i do i wont gif anything š
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the thing about me getting my life somewhat together is when Iām bored I either write, clean, cook, or shop & the first 3 things are honestly great but if Iām on top of things then theyāre caught up / done & then I just drain my bank account lmao
#Iām trying to talk myself out of going to the store I do NOT need anything š¤£š¤£š#actually though Iāve been wanting cake ever since I watched the Victoria episodes of HIMYM & Marshall & Lily talked about cake š#so like. hear me out. I go to the store & get cake ingredients#I mean. I could always write but I am just not in the mood right now#& I donāt feel too bad about that since Iāve been updating a LOT lol#rose.txt
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I have obtainedā¦ a pirated+tlād version OreImoās gameš Aka a dating sim where you get to pick which girl ends up with Kyousuke!! š„³šš PLS let it be happy and cute and ā¦ better than the heartbreaking anime which I refused to finish gkakcka š„²
Between this, the novels, the anime dvd ,,,, hm I guess I do like this series??? Ignoring s2ās ā¦ happeningsā¦ itās a pretty good so I can say it proudlyā¦? š¤š¤
Justice ..! I think Kanako has a route too ?? IG?? vkakvka
These exist too ig gkakvak EroManga-Sensei ā¦ </3 such potential for a wholesome story butā¦ TuTā
#Kanna rambles#Irt oreimo#itās better than EroManga-Sensei thatās for sure šššš#too badā¦#too bad tbhā¦ sagiriās design is adorable </3 what a wasteā¦#^ it came up automaticallyā¦ says a lot ššš#I donāt own the manga bc I didnāt like the art style ww Iāve read it a few times and I justā¦ Nope ā¦ canāt GKAKVKA no offence to the artist?#Irt Sagiri#pls donāt unfollow me for this gkakcka#I like Kyousuke x Kuroneko/Ruriā¦ but I like Ruri/Kuroneko x Kirino even more www#ig itād be interesting to see the other girlsā routes tooā¦ Kirino maybe not tho bc I honestly just donāt see it#aside from the obvious THEYRE SIBLINGS thingā¦their personalities and stuff just /dont/ matchā¦thereās no way either would be happy or healthy#Iām being EXTREMELY opinionated here - I wonder if I should still tag the shows tho..? what kinda fans must there beā¦. ughā¦ one fear#I do feel like most ppl liked the same ship as me so thatās smt at least gkskvka
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#what sucks is the moment someone is super nice to me š i start to liking them a lot#why am i like this š#i get shown any kind of decency or any genuine kindness I start to really like like them#then end up ruining the whole mood by telling them I like them š#i suppose finding some more attractive cause they're super nice to me stems from my childhood trauma LMAO#gotta love being a neglected kid šš it doesnt help when they're extremely pretty too šš#lmao#what's wrong with me have some sense š I know that just cause a person is nice to me doesnt mean they like like me or they even like me š#but i still can't help but start liking them š its also probably cause i finally feel like someone cares about me š then it goes back to#childhood trauma š dude i cant lie being neglected while still having both parents is some thing else#cause its like I had both but they were always at work and when they got home would be so mean to each other mainly my dad to my mother;#the only did they'd ask if i was hungry but by the time grandma came to live with us that stopped and so they would not really talk to me#like i was talking to my cousin Richard on the night of the party; he asked why i dont talk to my dads side of the family#and he's super drunk and starts belittle and make light of the situation before i even start the main reason. so i told him to stop talking#over me and let me finish and stop belittling and making light of the reasons why i stopped talking to them entirely#then he got butt hurt and ended up waking his wife who was sleeping in the living room to go home.#i swear i have issues that i have yet to address lol and going to therapy doesnt work cause it makes me super uncomfortable so i stop going#after the first visits#š®āšØ i can be so overwhelming why am i like this just cause they're nice to me doesnt mean they actually like me or even like like me š#i need to be better at accepting people's kindness without falling attached or like liking them a lot LMAO.#personal
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