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nobody talks about how hard it is to mourn someone you weren't super close with. it's been six months and im crying over her on a random sunday night but i can help but feel guilty for grieving bc i know her sister and dad and close friends have had a much harder time than i have with her death. it just feels like i don't deserve to grieve
#i want to cry and miss her#but i feel like i shouldn't#i feel like i didn't spend enough time with her or know her well enough to miss her like this#grief is a funny thing
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Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...
Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...
Part one
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#reverse verse#there's a lot i could say about this one#the idea of someone telling edwin he's go to hell is absurd as it is#edwin telling edwin? lmao#the charles... oh they hate each other#reverse charles is angry (he always is) because this other version of himself was spared hell... in exchange for edwin going there?#obviously it doesn't work like that. og charles hadn't even been born when his edwin was sent to hell#but anger is not a rational thing. especially not for this boy#og charles? you don't want to know what he's thinking#i'm telling you anyways#he... kind of agrees. if someone had to go to hell#why edwin? why not him? there is an universe in which that happened#so why not this one? unfair#then again... look at this charles who did go to hell#he's explosive. he's DANGEROUS#he shouldn't be near edwin#if og charles had gone to hell would he be the same? would he be too angry to be trusted? would he be like his father?#and if so would that really count as saving edwin at all?#if this is the kind of best friend poor edwin would end up with?#on a happier note though#physical contact!! reverse charles loves it#i don't have all the details but his hell was on the rage ring so it was different to the dollhouse.#and it was a very violent place so boy loves gentle touches#luckily edwin is more willing to give them to him with each year#i think what the edwins are feeling is a lot more clear#but still would love to hear your thoughts
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This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?
At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.
I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.
#politics#i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA#as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD#and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually!#i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol#i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually#i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases...#...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety...#...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety...#...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks#distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D#i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long
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I wholeheartedly believe that the last thing that should be said in response to aspecs hating their identity is "don't worry! Aspecs can still do X, Y, and Z" and I'm so fucking serious about this.
The least helpful thing you can do to someone who have not accepted their aspec identity yet is give them ways to compensate for it. If an aspec person is upset over not being able to enter a romantic relationship, the last thing that should be done is to tell them they can still enter one or instead enter a QPR - not because that's not true but because that is quite literally going to stunt their ability to accept their aspec identity. Telling them they can instead enter a QPR when they're upset over the lack of romantic relationships is at MOST a bandaid for the main issue. Instead of them coming to accept their identity and accept who they are you have instead handed them an amatonormative alternative on a silver platter that allows them to pretend they still fit into amatonormativity without every deconstructing it. This is how we get QPRs getting shoved into an amatonormative framework - these people NEVER got over the "I'm sad that I'm aspec" phase because they were handed alternatives instead of given actual support in deconstructing their internalized aphobia, self hatred, and amatonormative biases.
#text#aspec#aro#aromantic#ace#asexual#aroace#I'm not saying that bringing up the fact that aspecs can still interact in certain ways to be Bad or Wrong btw#I'm not saying we shouldn't talk about how some aspecs have sex or some have partnerships or whatever#but more just that the only response to people complaining about certain issues shouldn't only be “Oh but you can do x”#someone who is mourning the fact they dont fit into amatonormativity shouldn't be told “oh but you can fit into amatonormativity”#Like idk maybe there should be a discussion about how many people use favorability and partnering to avoid properly healing?#maybe there should be a discussion about how often people only accept aspec identities based on how closely they fit amatonormativity?#maybe there is a discussion about how other aspecs play into that and never actually leave their “sad to be aspec” phase#the fact so many can only “accept” their aspec identity when they are told that they can still partake in amatonormativity#like idk i feel like discussions can be had here and i think these sorts of discussions need to be had#especially if we ever want to be on the same page when it comes to dismantling amatonormativity
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dream from several days ago
#dream diary#artists on tumblr#flotsam diaries#sequential#...I said I was gonna sleep but that obviously didn't happen HAHA#anyways really happy that I was able to get the colors/vibes I wanted down fjhkgj :'D#a lot of nitpicking and adjusting hahah#also kororon/eve was on blast for the majority of drawing this hghhjf#alright good night/morning/something yall#edit: was thinking more and the feeling I wanted to get across I guess is like when someone voluntarily#reaches out to touch me/casually/platonically and it's like a 'you're touching me of your own free will??? o H'#because when I was growing up had a parent who wasn't physically affectionate/would kinda brush me off#and that uhhhh kinda internalized as I'm gross and therefore shouldn't touch other people#(lmao took covid lockdown and very good friends to basically destroy that feeling yay)#anYWAYS had feelings but didn't quite know how to verbalize it hahah
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I'm obsessed with them, actually.
Bonus:
#i went with the dub lines because it gave them more vibes#ranma 1/2#ranma#ranma saotome#akane tendo#ranma x akane#this is yuri#justgirlythings#me and who??#obsessed with it shouldn't be a problem if we're both girls#feels like akanes catchphrase#gifset#ranma ½#ranma 2024
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the innate horror of google earth
#seeing ur childhood home changed rahhhhhhh *explodes#this one pissed me off a lot . still dont know if i like it#i hope the feeling i was going for comes across#seeing something permanently changed and out of your control when the memory of it is so frozen in ur head .#the horror that is google earth ❤️they shouldn't let me on there#my art#esp the fact u cant see much#never in always outside the house#always just below the front steps
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I think depictions of Anya being cruel to Curly or drawing out his suffering are artful and chilling but completely miss the point of the story and her character.
I'm not saying she doesn't deserve to have that "I told you so" moment with him but not in something callous or cold. Even if that is how it happened, she'd immediately feel guilty cause at that point she's not tormenting her tormenter or even the person truly at fault. She's doing something cathartic, similar to how Jimmy likely hits Curly to release rage he can't against the rest of the crew. She'd see herself as no different when she'd come back from the moment and see Curly cowering at her. She wants someone to take responsibility but how does being cruel to the defenseless help? Why would she want the power Jimmy has over her over Curly?
The idea of her extending someone else's pain is just so against the struggles she already faces and how she can't even bring herself to cause someone pain even to help them. Her very desire is to release herself from her own suffering and I doubt she'd even fine some sort of guilty release in being cruel to another.
#anya is not a character i see taking agency or indulging in cathartic behaviors#not knowingly like i see her as a character trapped in her head and maybe in the scenario she's cruel to Curly she is envisioning Jimmy#in his place but its not a story about justice or those deserving of punishment and those not like its the opposite of people projecting#their issues on the wrong people and saying things to the wrong people and doing things they shouldn't but anya uniquely falls out of it as#she is subjected to a lot of it but it is also not something she wants to subject another person to like you are doing what Jimmy does and#placing ur rage into another persons and viewing their actions through your eyes like she'd more likely yell at him than do harm or#cause him more pain like at least make it in character#but also she clearly doesn't want to see jimmy or curly in the same light and doesnt because she still repeatedly goes to Curly for comfort#and protection and god there's like concepts that need to be applied to characters individually and then the story as a whole#we can not view the game through only one themed lens less we forget to inspect the compounding factor of Anya is so much more than girl#that needs to be allowed to go off but a woman that simply wants right to be done by her and no more harm like she doesn't want to be aroun#the suffering like idk but some of yall would just benefit from like understanding that people are inherently grey with the capabilities of#black n white thinking or actions#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#anya mouthwashing#i like her the most but then again i am defensive of all women in media and hate when people change the way the character would take agency#for themselves like yes I want her to tweak out but she just wouldn't and I like seeing realistic depictions of a woman suffering the way#she is like shes not the type at the end of the movie to have a one liner but feel a shallow freedom cause she needs to realistically heal#idk but its just like there is an obbsession forming with making her character her pain and not how she handles and navigates the issue
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inspired by the last dany chapter in a dance with dragons
the empress card for twitter user toadpeee tarot deck. Big thanks to her for her patience with me
#a song of ice and fire#asoiaf#my art#adwd#daenerys targaryen#drogon#a dance with dragons#valyrian scrolls#valyrianscrolls#asoiaf art#house targaryen#i feel like she is not tattered enough#that hair suits her too much my bad#don't look too closely on ...anything#i feel like this card represents the star theme much better#but it's probably because she does seem a lot like a star to me#idk i think i shouldn't speculate on it
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Help me settle a debate with my friends! If it seems difficult to choose that's normal, we've already dealt with the animals that are easy to sort (e.g. goats and mice are the two extremes on the spectrum of animal civility) and these are the more dicey choices that are on a similar level of perceived politeness.
#tbh i think the giraffe shouldn't be in there. they don't look particularly affable to me more like they mind their own business at best#but i think i'm influenced by the arsehole giraffe character from that kimba cartoon when i was a kid#ok i just googled it because i didn't want to badmouth a giraffe in case i remembered wrong#and learnt that raff the giraffe ''died from his injuries and from dehydration''#i feel terrible for speaking ill of the dead. please don't let that influence your vote though
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girlfriends who date.
LINGLING SIRILAK as FAHLADA THANANUSAK and ORM KORNNAPHAT as EARN SANITHADA episode 6 of THE SECRET OF US
#the secret of us#the secret of us the series#the secret of us series#th: the secret of us#tsou#lingorm#lingling kwong#orm kornnaphat#thai gl#gl drama#girlslovenet#wlw#bibi gifs#bc this is my post i feel like i can complain#i didn't like this episode at all#the girls were so cute and sweet#but earn folded so quick#and lada didn't even apologize#it's really like sandray post mew's birthday party but ray was a 22 years old alcoholic and mentally ill#(in lada's defense tho she's also kind of an alcoholic mentally ill gal so maybe i shouldn't be this harsh)#STAND UP FOR YOURSELF EARN#(she did when she confronted lada's evil mom but yk what i mean)#the pacing was so weird idk#there are only two more episodes for gods sake help me
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You’re not a burden in your f/os eyes even if you need comfort or reassurance frequently. Your f/o loves taking care of you whether that be by listening to you, talking to you, spending time with you, helping you out, or simply reassuring you that everything is going to be okay. It puts them at ease to know they can make you feel even just a bit better in any way they can. ❤️🩹
#self ship#self shipping#self ship community#self shipping community#f/o community#selfship#selfshipping#eve’s reminders#as someone who needs comfort a lot (for a multitude of reasons)#sometimes i feel bad for imagining my f/os comforting me all the time just bc of how often i feel like i need it ;_;#but!! i shouldn't feel bad!! bc my f/os WANT to comfort me!! and take joy in comforting me and making me feel safe and happy!!#so hopefully this post will remind everyone else of that too <3
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NEW GIRL REWATCH | 1.03, Wedding
#newgirledit#new girl#nickmilleredit#nick miller#tvedit#sitcomedit#usersitcom#sitcomgifs#useroptional#tvarchive#useryusi#userneptune#usersnat#tuserlana#usercallie#tusercarolina#forbescaroline#addys-beth#*#re: ngrw#i feel like this moment shouldn't be as funny to me as it is shjshs
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NOTHING could have prepared me for the reality of letting a cat into my house
#bucky barnes#marvel#alpine#my art#digital art#recovery#for bucky#there is something about having 10+ claws in your leg that keeps you from deep dissociation#i really hated the last piece i posted#i need to stop fighting my art style#i understand experimentation is growth#but maybe i shouldn't always feel like i need validation for it#and should keep it to myself#but i will share my beloved sketchy style
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Vascos modern outfit in that recent sketch is so cool. On what real clothing is it based?
I was mostly winging it, to be honest. Last year there was some talk of Vasco having a motorcycle and how spiffy he could potentially look in biker gear, so I leaned somewhat into that direction.
But then I got kinda sidetracked and I think his coat started resembling Kaneda's jacket from Akira.
#I could've made it Kaneda's jacket it's such an iconic design#I feel like Vasco would enjoy Akira just in general now that I think about it#I should make a list of what their favorite movies would be#BUT I'm -needlessly- stubborn about their color coding#Machete shouldn't wear blue and Vasco shouldn't wear red I have my principles#answered#anonymous
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here's the scene i've mentioned before where nemesis and melinoë talk about hypnos, for those who wanted to see it!
#hades 2#hades game#had to comb through my recording of my playthrough to get it. but it's worth it#there's another scene where nemesis says melinoë shouldn't talk to him because he's not listening#to which she replies that hypnos for sure must have been sensing her thoughts and emotions even in sleep#and nemesis is like oh yeah. getting a feel for other people's thoughts and emotions is sooo hypnos. lol. lmao even#i can't wait for the reveal i want to see how melinoë will react#i might make a compilation of hypnos related scenes for those of you who are also weirdly into the little guy like i am
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