#but i feel helpless on my own
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aspen-charminghearts Ā· 2 months ago
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ā€œChloe fell first, Red fell harderā€ ā€œNo Red fell first and Chloe fell harderā€ ā€œNo! Chloe fell first and fell harderā€ ā€œNope! Red fell first and harder!ā€
No! Hear me out please.
They BOTH fell at the same time! BOTH were horribly fallen for one another but BOTH were absolutely clueless in different ways, and BOTH are horribly obsessed with each other and canā€™t bear to spend a second without the other. Chloe was clueless in comphet denial and Red was clueless in ā€œI donā€™t get love, why is my heart palpitating immensely every time I look at Chloe? Am I dying? [Gasp] Did someone put a curse on me for every time I look at Chloe I almost get a heart attack and my body temperature increases in my face?ā€
This leads to a lot of horrible situations where one desperately tries to tell the other but the other just doesnā€™t get it and theyā€™re stuck in this horrible loop until one of them has enough and they pull the other in the kiss.
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hylianane Ā· 7 months ago
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And when OPLA calls back to Zeff telling the crew to read stories to Zoro so he can hear their voices and recover faster, by having Sanji sit by his bedside on Thriller Bark and read him a book about the All Blue. What will you do then?
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brionysea Ā· 11 hours ago
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I'm trying really hard not to just be The Complainer because that's an energy I don't want to bring here when I love (present tense; I rewatch it like 5 times a day) arcane season 1 so much but does anyone remember when powder was taken in by silco and being raised by this very utilitarian merciless 'the ends justify the means' type character made jinx turn out violent and merciless as well. and vi was horrified by her and the lanes were terrified of her and piltover was falling over itself trying to scapegoat her as the one bad apple of the undercity to kid themselves into believing that everyone else was perfectly fine with being treated as less than. and that contrasts vi after vander etc. died because she was raised by him and internalised the idea that no one wins in war and fighting back against systemic oppression isn't worth the damage it causes to your own community which is why she ended up working with cait and the council like vander worked with grayson. the people who raised them shaped them into who they are today but then in season 2 jinx has a daughter and she's suddenly completely normal and well adjusted and her attachment style isn't digging her nails in until she draws blood at all. like What. what happened. didn't things used to mean something
#arcane#arcane critical#powder was raised by vi more than vander#she barely spoke to him#and powder always cared more about vi's reaction than the dead parents on the ground 2 feet away from her#which does a lot to explain 'I am the monster you created' when season 1 was so heavy on children being shaped by their parents#vi did eldest daughter syndrome too hard. vander told her it was her fault if things went wrong and then most of her family died#vi having a momentary bad reaction to her little sister causing all of this and realising that vander was right about violence#because she's so used to it that she just hit powder in the face and made her nose bleed and it seeped into every aspect of her life#and needing to step away for a moment and just feel and cry and be a child#ruined everything and it's always framed as her 'abandoning' powder (which I understand how powder would see it that way#because I'm such a youngest sister that's my first thought too. I have to remind myself that's Not What's Happening. also powder has bpd#she demonstrably cannot handle what she perceives as rejection or abandonment or betrayal or the truth being withheld)#vi has to do So Much. why is everything her fault. I so adore how much she wants to look after powder because of course she does#but jinx isn't seven anymore. she doesn't want to be treated like the helpless little girl she was that day. she's an adult#she had to nuke the council for vi to understand that she isn't the same anymore#and she's responsible for her own actions#ITS ALL SO GOOD ITS SOSOSOSO GOOD I LOVE SISTERS#*correction: I believe jinx is vaguely a teenager in s1. not an adult (being imprisoned by piltover would be as wrong as when she was 7)#but not vi's kid sister anymore either
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wardensantoineandevka Ā· 1 year ago
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[blows a kiss out to sea] for the Mighty Nein pirates arc
#I'm!! I have so many thoughts about why this arc is SO GOOD#But the short version is like#It is an arc about Fjord and identity and power and self and agency as he faces the truth of his patron and faces a rival warlock#But it is ALSO about Fjord grappling with those things bc he is ALSO processing grief and sadness and a search for direction and purpose#and grappling with disappointing disillusionment in how the world and people in your life (including maybe yourself) isn't what you thought#and about coming to resolve he has the agency and strength to not allow these things to deter him from purpose and place in the world.#Andā€”this is why this is a PHENOMENAL arcā€”so is the rest of the Nein. Individually and as a group.#All of them are grappling with feelings of grief and sadness and disappointment and directionlessness and helplessness#just the grand malaise and relentless shapelessness of what living often is#They also as individuals and as a group together also find that resolve and strength to carry on and find self and purpose and direction#They all begin to process the very same things in their own lives and in their shared experience as The Nein. Simultaneously and together.#It's an arc about Fjord and self and agency in the face of disappointment and grief and disillusionment.#It's an arc about the Neinā€”individually and as a wholeā€”and self and agency in the face of disappointment and grief and disillusionment.#It's SUCH a strong arc bc ALL of them are taking the same internal journeyā€”structured around Fjord's very externalized version of it.#And it's got incredible vibes (pirate warlocks of a leviathan!) and some GREAT set pieces. And every NPC in the arc is iconic as is Twiggy.#Anyway. In my feelings about this arc. I said this is the short version and yet.#Critical Role things#CR meta
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soullessjack Ā· 7 months ago
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throwing out just One more hot dean and jack take while itā€™s on my brain but I honestly think dean gives jack a little more autonomy than sam and cas do . Maybe.
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leviiackrman Ā· 4 months ago
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I am fighting for my life to be mentally stable and itā€™s not working
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lulu-the-bugaboo Ā· 4 months ago
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Interestingly enough, there are so many different views on why Ace didn't run away in marineford, despite the fact that Oda tried to provide an explanation. It feels like I have barely seen the same conclusion between two people.
#it feels like a math problem everyone found different ways to solve for themselves#for example I myself never took ā€œLuffy was behind meā€ as a direct parallel to mg#mf*#I think it's one of those cases where Oda wants you to think deeper#while yes Luffy was in danger during mf and while they were running he wasn't in direct danger at that moment#mf put the focus very obviously on wb#I find Ace turning back very connected to the scene of him sobbing at everyone trying to save him#this is a boy who was told he was worthless and unwanted all his life#because of Roger#and WB as someone who knew Roger well told him it just did not matter to him and in general#Ace made his own mistakes and disobeyed direct orders and still wasn't abandoned#(this also strongly differs from Garp's relationship with him)#and then when the man who gave him all of that was dying because he saved Ace#and when he was totally helpless and unable to save that man#Ofc the insult from Akainu would be triggering#and comparing the man he considered a savior to one he considered to had ruined his life too#a lot of people say the insult was too simple#I don't think what the insult was mattered at all#the nature of it was enough to get to him#I know ā€œnever runningā€ has always been in Ace's nature and a habit#but still the reasons aren't exactly the same#it's meant to show Ace's protective nature and his fear of losing those dear to him as Garp said#am I digging too far into this?#Am I making it deeper than it is?#maybe but this is just my take on it and what has convinced me#lulu rambles#one piece#portgas d ace#portgas d. ace
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girlivealwaysbean Ā· 21 days ago
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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discountsoysauce Ā· 7 months ago
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I talk about Victor and Eli a lot but like. I wanna take a minute to talk about Stell. Mostly bc I'm thinking of my fic rn and how helpless he is to his situation despite being the director of EON. He's supposed to be in charge of the entire operation and yet there are constantly things he either has no knowledge of or no control over. And that's So interesting to me
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ruthlesslistener Ā· 1 year ago
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I'm very glad that I'm excellent at keeping a strong poker face and a neutral tone of voice because we're putting Christmas lights up at work and all I can think about is how it's deeply fucking unfair that my current biggest worry is my bird lab final while people in Palestine are being crushed and torn to bits by monsters wearing the shapes of people who think they aren't human and how it's only a matter of time before Israel starts bombing the concentration camp they sent the civilians of Gaza to and how there's videos of toddlers crying as their houses fall to pieces around them yet everyone in the comments of those videos are blaming them for the October 7th attack and telling helpless individuals who are watching their families get wiped out and millenia of their culture being destroyed that they deserve to be slaughtered just because some of their kin dared to retaliate against settler violence.
If there is a god out there, I hate them. I hate them down to their very bones. I don't believe in divinity when such horrors are allowed to reign unchecked. Yet I'm praying nonetheless.
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itspileofgoodthings Ā· 11 months ago
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also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and thatā€™s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.
#not to put too fine a point on it but thatā€™s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh#and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past:#you have overthought this and now youā€™re terrified of it#anyway itā€™s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly.#like it was just like. Oh. You did it again#youā€™re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadowā€”-#until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality#while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know itā€™s a common problem#but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing#I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts#and what makes it worseā€”immeasurably worseā€”is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis#Iā€™m programmed that way#so I canā€™t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away.#and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I donā€™t know it just all clicked today#these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me#anyway I guess itā€™s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!!#in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of Godā€™s voice in the wind#but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context#and thatā€™s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately ā€”deflated#my counselor has been so good about this tbh. sheā€™s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works#and wants me to be able to use it!!#so Iā€™m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward#ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES
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ghost-sketchbook Ā· 2 years ago
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I don't know what to add, but I wanted to share this.
This needs to end.
This needs. to end.
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2nd edit in case this blows up: Do not be vile in the notes justifying or trying to recruit for antisemitism by using this genocide to justify another.
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slimeysquirrels Ā· 8 months ago
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hi irl friends i love you so much but trying to pick up my cane for me while it is very much accessible for me to pick up is making my job of picking it up harder. also please do not guilt trip me after saying that it is making my life harder to be constantly and inconveniently be handed my cane because it is literally the easiest thing for me to actually pick up on my own. either help me with the ACTUAL struggle of picking up my bags like 5+ times a day or dont help me at all because they will BOTH be easier for me and actually show that you care about my physical health after ive said multiple times that i can get to my cane perfectly fine. thank you
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renee-mariposa Ā· 1 year ago
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Iā€™m ready to walk out of my job.
The last straw was, this week they cracked down on overtime. This was the last straw for two reasons:
1. Normally (pre-COVID), our patient volumes are lowest in summer. This year, weā€™re having winter-flu-season patient volumes (flu season is always the busiest time in the hospital). We now have the second busiest ER in the metro, seeing hundreds of patients per day (weā€™ve reached a thousand per day several times this year!!!) in a 25-bed ER. This is coupled with the fact weā€™re operating at 30-50% (a third to a half!!) normal nurse staffing, and have been doing so since 2021. There isnā€™t a staff member in the hospital who is twiddling their thumbs for a second. I heard tonight that the hospital is trying to end all their contracted labor early (and I assume weā€™re relying heavily on contracted nurses to fill staffing shortages!)
2. Because of this patient load vs low staffing, it is literally impossible for us to finish all the tasks we are assigned each day. But we still have to meet our metrics and are chastised/penalized when we donā€™t meet them! Worsening the situation: instead of asking each ā€˜problemā€™ staffer why theyā€™re always clocking out late, my department management emailed all the problem people with ā€œsuggestions on how to leave on timeā€. Suggestions that are bullshit because they donā€™t address the actual reason the person gets overtime consistently.
So this whole perfect storm is coming together to convince me that corporate expects us to work off the clock. Which Iā€™m about 95% sure is fucking illegal.
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eveningearlgrey Ā· 27 days ago
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I've been on a journey to discover the voice of myself, or rather, my own writing style, since who knows how long. I've always been.
I've shifted through different techniques. I tried looking at the picture from many perspective.
And the results?
Here
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I might've been absent from this blog but I've never stopped adding new drafts to my collection. I would take a rest, but I will never stop writing, ever.
The first two drafts are Percilot, and the other two wriggling gibberish notes are Peter/Percival in its most glorious form; my native language. <ā (ā ļæ£ā ļø¶ā ļæ£ā )ā >
I'm not translating those because in my opinion these are best to be enjoyed in its original language.
Nah I'm just too lazy. Use google translate or any translating devices if you can't read
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