#but i dont ever want someone to think that i'm part of that crowd

[hybeboyenthusisast]

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Your nose was so itchy. Normally the tickle of makeup brushes against your skin was completely fine, but today was different. You hadn't been nervous in the days leading up to today, but now you were. You were on edge; every little noise and movement had you on full alert. This was not great, as you were sitting in a crowded dressing room getting your makeup done. Every brush against your skin had you twitching, hyperaware of the ticklish feeling.

You had already been scolded by your makeup artist twice already for not sitting still, so you were working on zoning out and thinking about anything other than your debut in less than an hour. It wasn't working.

"You are so tense, girl, what's going on?" Yue placed a gentle hand on your arm, leaning forward ever so slightly so she could reach you from her chair. Her makeup artist followed with the small movement, no hesitation as she worked her magic.

You sighed, locking eyes with her in the mirror in front of you. "I'm just so nervous. This is really happening, it's not a dream." Yue nodded in understanding, squeezing your arm gently before letting go and sitting back in her seat next to yours.

The crowded dressing room consisted of Yue, Rae, Lizi, Chae, two stylists, three makeup artists, two hairstylists, your manager, and two Inkigayo staff members, as well as yourself. The room felt suffocating, and you were eager to leave and take a walk as soon as your makeup artist was done.

The whole room was bustling; everyone was busy doing one thing or another. Seeing everyone moving around in a rush was making you desperately wanting to escape and take some time to just slow down. You needed to breathe. It didn't help that your stage outfit squeezed your chest just a little too tight for your liking.

You thanked the universe as soon as your makeup artist was finished, rushing out of the room as quickly as you could. You weren't going far, no need to interrupt your manager's conversation with the Inkigayo staff. The hallway was much quieter, much cooler.

You walked a little way down in one direction, turning the corner and leaning against the wall. Closing your eyes and taking a few deep breaths, you could feel yourself slowly relaxing.

"Are you okay?" A gentle, worried voice startled you, making you jump. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you."

"No, no, it's fine," you assured, turning to face the person who had interrupted you. Your eyes widened as you realized you were looking at Choi Yeonjun.

Yeonjun smiled at you, and you felt like the whole world stopped. He was so damn fine; but you're not a fangirl! Well, you are, but you're an idol too. Can't scare off the first senior idol you meet.

"You're part of PROMISE, right?" Yeonjun asked you, his eyes wandering to your outfit before meeting your eyes again.

You nodded dumbly at his question, starstruck and internally yelling at yourself. He chuckled, finding you adorable. You wanted to slap yourself for acting like an idiot.

"Yeonjun hyung!" A shout from down the hallway had the two of you looking over for the source. This stirred you from your starstruck state, thankfully.

"Ah- it's so nice to meet you," You said as you bowed to your senior idol. "Yes, I am Y/N from PROMISE. I was trying to relax, I'm sorry if I bothered you."

Yeonjun bowed back, grinning at you. "No bother at all, I was out here doing the same thing. Are you nervous for your debut?" He ran a hand through his hair, leaning against the wall opposite you. His makeup hadn't been done yet, but he looked far more handsome in person than he ever did on a screen.

You swallowed thickly, the bundle of nerves tied up in your stomach making their presence known again. "Is it obvious?"

"Yeonjun hyung!" The voice calling for Yeonjun was closer this time, but said man did not looked bothered at all that someone was looking for him.

Yeonjun chuckled, the corner of his lips quipping up. "I was really nervous too. We all were, really. There's a lot of pressure, having all these eyes on you. That doesn't really go away, but it gets easier. Lean on your team, yeah? Nobody knows what you're going through better than those going through it with you."

You nodded, grateful and appreciative that he was spending the time to empathize and offer some advice. "Is that what you do, lean on your team?"

"Try to, at least. It's not always that easy, though, it can be hard when the same people you're leaning on are the same ones that just pissed you off three hours ago," Yeonjun smirked and shook his head at the thought of all the times that had happened. His gaze shifted to the side, lazily turning his head in the direction of the approaching footsteps.

Coming around a corner, your childhood friend cheered at finding his group member. "I win, I found you first!"

Kai Kamal Huening was much taller than you remembered. Given you hadn't seen each other in quite a few years, it made sense; but seeing the kid you used to be taller than was surreal. Bahiyyih said she would tell him you would be here tonight, but you didn't expect to actually see him. You stared up at him in wonder as he approached, stopping next to Yeonjun and bowing to you in greeting.

You bowed back, an affectionate smile rising on your cheeks as you admired how your friend had grown. His face was slimmer, sharper, but his eyes and his smile were exactly how you remembered them. "Funny seeing you here, Kai."

Yeonjun's eyebrows furrowed at the way you spoke so casually to Kai, glancing at the younger man. Kai's eyebrows furrowed as well, staring at you as he tried to figure out what was going on. "Yes...," He simply replied, trailing off as he had no idea what to say. "Yeonjun, time to come back. Ah-jin's getting really impatient waiting for you."

Yeonjun rolled his eyes and nodded, turning to you to say goodbye. "It was nice meeting you. I can't wait to watch your performance! Good luck!" Yeonjun, being rushed by Kai, left you with a smile and a wave.

You blinked as you watched them disappear around the corner, trying to understand what just happened. Did you say something wrong? Was Kai mad at you? Or maybe... did he not recognize you?

"Yah!" A smack to your shoulder brought your attention back from your thoughts. You whined in pain, rubbing your shoulder and glaring at Rae. Rae smiled at you innocently, as if she hadn't just whacked you. "I've been calling your name for like, 5 minutes. We gotta get going."

One deep breath in, and you nodded in determination. You would worry about that interaction with Kai later, but for now, it's time to make your debut.

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[zhvakinnn]

Hashira version part 1

Shinobu, muichiro, obanai,(separated) x shy hashira male reader

Request: Sorry the ask disappeared, but feel free to remove any characters I know there's a lot. But if you still take requests could you do the hashira and the trio ( Tanjiro, Inosuke, and Zenitsu ) x a hashira reader who's like the reincarnation of Fluttershy. And just everyone is surprised by it because most hashiras are more outgoing. Thank you and Merry Christmas/ happy Hanukkah/ whatever you celebrate

Trio x shy hashira male reader: here👇🏻

Hashira part 2:here👇🏻

A/N: sorry i still have no time much so ill make parts

🍓as always i don't know much English so if something is wrong correct me 🍓

Shinobu kocho

∆ we all know shinobu is a tease

∆ "oh come one now (name) i promise ill give you more kisses and time)

∆ you freez there blushing she wanted to go groceries with you, she never failed to make you have butterfly's in the stomach (because she's the butterfly hashira)

∆ when your there she ask if you could buy cabbage and you agree because why not

∆ but once you started buying you always stutter "can I have a .... I mean a. A, i " you kept messing up your words

∆ the woman was getting impatient and started to yell

∆ "what the hell do you want boy if your not gonna buy leave!"

∆ that caught shinobu's attention and she ran there really REALLY fast and saw you, then she ask the woman that you and her will buy a cabbage

∆ you stand there looking like and idiot she may be shorter than you but she's more bold and strong than you

∆ you walk together to the estate with a embarrassed and guilty feelings

∆ once you got there she said to put the groceries down then pull you to the bedroom

∆ then she cuddle you and kiss you many times

∆ "i promise to give you many kisses now I'm doing it, and if your gonna ask about the food we'll do it later"

∆ you only smile and hug her more closer to your chest

∆ OMG OMG i love shinobu toooooooooo

Muichiro Tokito

∆ muichiro is not an outgoing person aswell but sometimes he likes going outside where there's just peace

∆ like gardens or you two have a walking every morning

∆ he doesn't like pda much but on that time when he just hold your hand and you stop he look back and he saw you staring at your hands and then just smile and then he smiled a bit aswell

∆ if your bigger than him your the one holding in your chest but if your both are the same height you both lay down in grass and hold each hands

∆ oh i made this muichiro is the black and your the ginger

∆ and he just forgots it and just confused

∆ " dont lay in floor its cold"

∆ I'm so sorry this is really short 😭

Obanai Iguro

∆ first obanai is NOT again outgoing person but if its you he wants to go out but the problem is you don't want to go out much

∆ when he told you if you want to go outside and eat in a restaurant you shake your head and say you don't wanna

∆ then he ask why you tried to say that you dont like crowded place but ended up you stuttering

∆ and i think this man is a gentleman aswell he will place a hand on your back and calm you

∆ "hey hey its ok if you don't want to go out with me i..i mean its ok if you don't wanna go out to eat" yea this man has insecurities so dont leave him hanging

∆ " its not that i don't want to go out with you i...i.. just dont really..like going out in crowded place..."

∆ " don't worry we're going somewhere not crowded ok love?.... Oh and if someone ever dare to speak something bad about us, about you kaburamaru will bite them to death"

∆ its flattering but scary and you just his hand and kiss his hidden cheeks

∆ and then he removed his mask and kiss your forehead then covered it again and walk there

There's so many things in my head that i want to write so I'll make this parts I'm really sorry

[qiangweirosa]

Thank you for taking my request! I loved it. The girls are just so amazing and I love them a lot 🩷🩷 p4 is also my favourite, the vibe there is just so nice😌🌸

Could I request some specific x reader thing? Like, I saw your latest post and ik you didn’t write headcanons before so just pick whatever form you find the easiest (and drop one character if you don’t want to do both)

This might be very specific but like, can I get something about a reader who used to be very sporty and graceful but has had a bad injury that kind of affects the way they walk and their balance. They don’t say it but they are secretly self conscious over it. They still do sports and stuff but they worry about never being enough again (and also ppl making comments about their limp). For characters that would be paired with the reader, I was thinking Mishima (love him sm🩷) and, unsurprisingly,, Ryuji (it’s a bit silly but this character helped me a bit to feel better about my situation)

Once again, thank you for doing my previous request and taking the time to read this one. I hope it’s not too heavy or self indulgent in my part, its a bit embarrassing to be fair haha

-★🐶

Mishima + Ryuji x Reader (separate)

relationships: mishima/reader, ryuji/reader tws: none wc: 462 extra: reader is gender neutral // I LOVE MISHIMA??? hes one of my favorite characters in p5 hes so silly... i actually had a lot of trouble writing this so i hope its good enough for you... dont ever apologize for being self indulgent with me i am literally the most self indulgent reader ever. ty for the request and i'm glad you liked the last one!

Mishima :

You stood in front of the diner in Shibuya, looking around with your bag on your shoulder and your phone in hand. Yuuki had texted you he’d be here in 5 minutes, exactly 5 minutes ago. You kept glancing at your screen, checking to see if he had texted you again. 

You usually tried to keep an eye on your surroundings, but you must’ve been too focused on your phone to see the crowd of people rushing into you. You tried keeping yourself up, but it was no use - you felt yourself falling over, almost resigning yourself to your fate before a pair of arms clumsily held you up. 

You looked to your side to see Yuuki, looking frantic and panicked as he slowly made sure you were back up on your feet. Just as you were about to thank him, he held you by the shoulders and yelled. 

“Are you alright?!”

After taking a second to recover, you chuckled and held onto his arms. 

“I am, no need to worry.”

He looked you over worriedly, and finally let out a sigh of relief as he saw that you were indeed alright. Yuuki brought you closer to him in a hug, which you returned. 

“Should we go inside? I don’t want you to get hurt if someone bumps into you again.”

He offered as he pulled back, taking one of your hands in his bashfully. 

“I’m not that fragile, you know… But sure, let’s go.”

He pulled you up the stairs behind him for your date. Yuuki could be a little too protective when it came to your injury, but he ultimately just didn’t want it to get worse for you. 

Ryuji :

Dating Ryuji naturally meant accompanying him on his runs, when he felt like practicing. 

Today was one of those days. You both sat down on a bench as you handed him a water bottle, which he thanked you for before drinking practically half of it. 

Your chest heaved with your breaths, trying to calm down the ache in your body as you took a break. Ryuji was sitting next to you, massaging his leg. 

“You okay?”

He glanced at you upon hearing your question. He flashed you a grin and a thumbs up, reassuring you with a nod. 

“Yeah, no worries! I can keep going. What about you?”

You nodded too. 

“Same here. Just need a short break.”

He hummed in acknowledgement, offering you the water bottle back. You drank a bit, and not long after, you two were back up and running for another lap. 

Really, you probably could’ve gone longer before your injury, and the same was true for him. Still, you two enjoyed doing this together, going at a rhythm that you were both comfortable with. 

[romanreignsistheonlydaddy]

Go the distance

Roman reigns x y/n

Warnings: comfort fic, bullying, possibly a part 2🤷 . Errors I may have missed

Tag list: @reignsangel444 @acknowledge-reigns @mindfulofmani @niknakbucks92 @pittieprincess22 @windhamsrotunda @wrestlezaynia @lonewolfy45 @shadyprincesslife @salirophiliac

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They always made fun of me in the locker room. No matter how hard I tried to show them I belonged here they always found ways to show me i never fit in. It didn't matter if I was myself or if I went along with what they wanted me to be. I gave up. I gave up hope thinking they were ever going to accept me for me.

A song most people would take for granted had helped me through so much self hatred. It meant the world to me. Sometimes when I was super upset and on the verge of tears I'd sing it to myself. "I have often dreamed of a far off place where a heroes welcome would be waiting for me! Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face and voice keeps saying..."

I hadn't noticed him standing behind me while I was singing and his deep voice joined in my singing "this is where you're meant to be!" I turned around and something told me to keep singing "i will find my way! I can go the distance! I'll be there someday! If i can be strong! I know every mile will be worth my while!" I stopped and looked at him, tears on the verge in falling "I would go most anywhere to feel like I ... Belong"

He grabbed me in a hug, his strong Arms protecting me from the world around me. In that moment no one and nothing else existed except me and him. "Baby girl, dont let them get to you!" He whispered. I don't know why but hearing him say those words let the flood gates open and the pain i felt came pouring out of my eyes. "Shhh its ok. Let it out. Im not going anywhere!" He cooed.

As if fate has seen fit, one of the female superstars who had bullied me came around the corner and started in her usual bullshit "eww! Roman why are you holding her?!" She said laughing.

He pulled away just enough to whisper in my ear "I'll handle this" before turning around And looking at her "nattie! Haven't you had enough plastic surgery for all of Hollywood?" He smirked "how dare you!" She yelled and went to slap him but I step in and grabbed her arm "doesn't feel so nice when someone does it to you now does it? How's that taste of your own medicine feel bitch?!" I said before pushing her to the ground. "Who the fuck do you think you are?" She yelled.

"I'm the woman you bullied long enough and I'm tired of crying because your plastic ass doesn't have the confidence to be real and not a fucking Barbie! Get fucked nattie!" I said.

She stood up and turned on her heels "that was amazing!" Roman smiled at me "I knew you could do it!"

"it's thanks to you!" I leaned in to give him a kiss on the cheek but The last moment he moves his head and our lips met. I blushed and he smiled "let's go to dinner tomorrow?" He asked.

"I'd like that!" I smiled "do you want me number?"

He grabbed his phone out of his pocket and handed it to me and I put it in before handing it back to him "here I'll give you mine to" he said and i gave him my phone.

He handed me my phone back "I'll pick you up at 6!"

"I can't wait!"

[tea-and-secrets]

i really am just a vile fucking person and i don't feel bad for it. unacceptable and unethical sexual interests, horrible thoughts about everyone i meet, etc. and i don't for even a minute think i'm necessarily a bad person for it (in part because none of these things ever come into action and actually cause harm.)

it just gets a little upsetting sometimes knowing i'll literally never be accepted if i'm completely, entirely honest and true to myself. i sort of envy the people brave enough to do that, because they might attract a crowd that won't mind if they're revealed to be like me: someone who hates over almost nothing and with more passion than i could ever love. then again, are people like that really that enjoyable to be around?

i feel edgy confessing this anywhere off-anon. "oh look at me i'm so #psycho and no one ever loves me. and i dont feel bad for being bad ragghhh." but that's not exactly it. i'm a cornerstone of almost all the communities i'm in. people look up to me. i'm told this on the regular. people trust me because i take care of them and take a lot of care in not letting this all leak out.

but i don't think they'd want to be around me if they got through even a layer of that protective film i've built for them. i feel almost deceptive for not giving them a choice in loving and admiring someone who is actually a necrophile that splits on them every other day and manages to never let them know. but i mean, do they really need to know that? i haven't done anything wrong, really, other than sometimes think horrible, horrible things.

oh well. #szpd swag baby

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[gontagokuhara]

Just went on Instagram to look at more DR art (because tumblr won't let me see a lot of DR art for some reason) and saw hinanami discourse out in the wild which made me say, out loud, "oh, are we still doing this 💀"

Like idk if I've just aged out of the fandom (on Instagram) but just seeing that hinanami rant made me realize I've been spoiled by the DR community on Tumblr bc I'll scroll on here for 2 minutes and see a text post that will literally SHIFT my entire view of a character/ship and CHANGE my LIFE in just a small analysis that was probably written by op while they were on the toilet💀

Anyway it made me think of the post about Maki and Chappel Roan that I actually recited by memory out loud to my friend last night [gooning over wlw content together after watching Muriel's Wedding], And also that one post abt Monomi and Monokuma being Junko's satire of her own rivalry with Mukuro, and Junko not liking that her friends don't appreciate her fursona doing stand-up 💀💀 and like compare that to Instagram discourse and it's like "Komahina is stupid bc hinata isn't straight" like 💀

Anyway maybe it was the same on tumblr before [it probably definitely was] but now that I'm older I'm really appreciating mature convos/takes about danganronpa because good fanfiction/fanart/fan interpretations are truly adapting the story+characters in much better ways than the creators could ever imagine circa 2010 [pointy objects] [peaches and cream] [anything w/autistic nagito] [anything w/transmasc hajime]

number one rule of modern fandom experience (at the very least with media that has a propensity to draw Certain Crowds [looking especially hard at danganronpa and p5]) is CURATE YOUR OWN SPACE AND STRAY NO FARTHER ‼️‼️‼️ i personally escaped the early era dr fandom (pre v3 localization/the 2019 Danganronpa Renaissance) but time capsule posts tell me i dodged something of a bullet there ❤️ in that vein 2019/2020/covid era discourse was still crazy insane (<- was a part of it for sure LMFAO) but it had a much different Flavor than it did way back when. and the same is true of present-day: still a little kooky if you search hard enough (insta/tiktok/twitter/tumblr all have their own demons). but at least This go around i have largely avoided that by picking my people that i trust not to be Weird and just living in my own bubble wrt the dr fandom at large. and thats served me very well the past year+ since i got back into dr <3 and i have also seen MANY of those perspective-altering posts in that little curation circle that has deepened and made better my experience THE GOOD IS OUT THERE ‼️‼️‼️

THE JUNKO FURSONA POST ALSO LIVES IN MY BRAIN its so real and just one of many takes i’ve seen fly by in a post and been like This is so real and it’s mine now. many such cases <3 i follow people like that and simply block people expending energy on discourse i DOOOOOONT care about. like simply enjoy kmha (I SURE DO ‼️‼️‼️) if you like it and ignore hnmi/kmnmi if you dont (cant relate I LOVE YOU TOO HINANAMI + KOMANAMI ‼️‼️‼️) and live your life happy not angry ❤️

like re: maki lesbianism (which was written on the toilet no lie) she is The most lesbian of all time i could write 10,000 scholarly articles on her comphet + traumatic past of being made to hurt people keeping her from fully coming to terms with herself as a lesbian and as someone who wants to Protect the people she loves (an integral pillar of butchness!!!!!!!!) and it is so important to me. and MANY people disagree! and i simply just dont worry about it <3 but i DO think about the people that agree (and the people who i Influence to agree…..that makes me so happy to hear you talking about it with people :D) and that makes fandom FUN!!!!! not arguing over word of god or whatever that isn’t going to change anyone’s opinions anyway 😭

there is a LOOOOOT of good discussion and character/scene analysis and genuinely fun unique takes on tumblr (+ im sure other places but i rly only interact with dr on her & Occasionally by liking a twt post on my main) and that’s where i’ve made my niche <3 people having fun with the media they enjoy and trying to salvage its shortcomings and missteps because they love it!!

and putting little old Me up amongst the dr goats (transmasc hajime) (autistic nagito)………..framing this ask tbh the HIGHEST honor 4 me……..thank you my beloved cider as always KISS MWAH MWAH

[llycaons]

this is all going under a cut bc oh my god. tw for suicide and suicidal ideation. I love this writing so much....the characterization really strikes me as so true to him and the emotions are elicited SO well. ohh healing and recovery....oh being alive again...

For once in his life, Wei Wuxian will go quietly, with nobody watching. He'd put on a good last performance, had the audience enthralled the whole night.

I've actually not read many fics that focus on this moment itself, the suicide at nightless

"Wei Wuxian," it says, "Wei Wuxian, take revenge for me!" Revenge, he thinks. Yes, Wei Wuxian had once been very good at that.

holy shit...

He would just have to endure it. Like always, Wei Wuxian would just have to endure it.

oh ben...you get him....

bells on her face jingling ever so slightly as she eats

her bells 😊

But there's a part of him that feels like a cautious, wounded animal, terrified of both Lan Wangji, and himself. Somewhere between the Sunshot Campaign and the bloodbath at Nevernight, Wei Wuxian had realized that Lan Wangji loved him back. But somewhere in there a degree of trust had been lost, too. Maybe more than just a degree.

NODDING...get into that....a lot of postres fics flinch away from wwx criticizing lwj bc I think they think it would ruin the romance but like it makes sense for him to be thinking about it! ppl act like it makes no sense for wwx to avoid lwj but he's been through the ringer! of course he's still jumpy!

rly interested to see how jc is handled here bc he also did not do anything to help but the way wwx is talking implies wwx had lower expectations of him which also kind of makes sense

No, Wei Wuxian is not sure that he could manage indifference, if he were to hear the sound of Lan Wangji's voice, feel the warmth of his fingers.

no comment I just love this line....

yayy being alive again and feeling the world

And then Wei Wuxian remembers, with the force of a thousand rushing cattle, that Wen Ning is alive

oh I remember when you were posting about this line! you were like 'it can't be a train, what should it be!' I think it was a good choice. also ty for recognizing this bc it didn't really happen in the show in a substantial way

Wei Wuxian, despite himself, despite his thirst for an uncaring heart, despite his sorrow, wants to do good again. To make the world a little softer for the people who find themselves falling.

when they both had known, Lan Wangji had been reserved, almost nervous. Like he wasn't quite sure exactly how it was you were supposed to love someone, in that way.

yesss they both knew! 2. that's EXACTLY the vibes omg, 3.

the bit about lwj growing into his body and being comfortable in his gentleness is SO good god damn. and the bit about wwx teasing him and enjoying lwj's attention/the chase...hehe

Wei Wuxian needs to work on the behaviors he finds endearing.

I'LL SAY

Wei Wuxian can't help but think that he might have encouraged this behavior, and incited his own stabbing. In the fever dream of his recovery, he tries very hard not to feel proud.

(affectionately) YOU'RE INSANE

His eyes are wonderful and soft and full of affection, so dark they're almost black, like the great expanse of the midnight sky or a still lake at night.

what nice imagery...

describing lwj as a fresh bruise is FASCINATING I love it

he has managed to crowd himself as much into Lan Wangji's space as is physically possible. Wei Wuxian likes to be close, to touch.

he likes to touch!!!!

He tries not to burst into fits of delighted laughter as he takes his hair down and changes into appropriate sleeping clothes. He tries not to burst into a million giddy pieces as he climbs into the soft sheets of Lan Wangji's bed and waits there.

I love the way this joy is depicted ahh I'm smiling so big

I also love how they dont talk about it. things are very understated and communicated nonverbally - no big drama or confessions. it's appropriate that the emotional journey of wwx as he recovers from his death and contends with his grief and familial estrangement looms larger as a force to be reckoned with than this relationship, which is more a gentle comfort and a long-awaited union. and the more specific and bigger conversation can happen later, but there's some Shit going on so this intimacy in the meantime is nice and feels so right to what's going on

I love this work for giving wwx time and space to grieve...sometimes you do have to sob uncontrollably for a while at the mere sight of a dinner tray. he didn't really get to do that in canon, not that we saw. but he had to have, at some point! he cried so much pre-nightless, it's not like he wasn't a tearful person in general. alas....

And then he's crying doubly hard at the thought of his little brother's face. Not his face now, permanently scowling and bitter and angry, eyes all full of hurt and tiredness, but his face when they were young. Round cheeks and exasperated smile, eyes and nose so much like Jiang Yanli's. He wants, more than anything, to be 15 again for just one day, laughing as he knocks Jiang Cheng into the river with his own body, Jiang Yanli on the dock, desperately trying to hold in a giggle

also I am ruined

He hasn't had a single second to process anything, not really. He thinks, with hysterical calm, that maybe he hasn't had a single second to process anything since the moment his parents died when he was just four years old.

actually so true. let him REST

A great, cracking shutter rushes through him, from the tips of his toes to the ends of his hair, and in that moment it feels as though each and every fiber of his body has been fundamentally changed. Every speck of color crashes down from the sky.

this...breakdown (?) is so well-done, wow. so evocative!

A warm hand rests flat against his back, and Wei Wuxian is overcome with the distinct urge to stop crying immediately and contort his body into a position of charming indifference. But he can't. He can't. 

how wwx to force that mask on until he literally snaps and he can't anymore. he really did need to scream it out for a while then get cared for....this fic is so gd real

But Lan Wangji's fingers feel so good on his scalp, and there's an ache in him, one that's existed since he was four years old, to be taken care of. Wei Wuxian wants so desperately to indulge it.

sobbing....yeah you really get it ben...

He sits in the water with a small, fragile Wei Ying, a cold and filthy little thing with leaves stuck in his hair. The boy stares up at him with wet, scared eyes, scrapes all over his arms and face. The voice still berates him in the back of his mind, but the small Wei Ying, with his cold fingers and dirty face, is louder, so he pulls the small body into his arms and lets Lan Wangji wash his hair. And with each tangle removed, the child becomes just a little bit warmer, a little bit less scared.

IM ALWAYS SUCH A WRECK FOR THIS TROPE 😭😭😭

ahh what a nice ending. a little cheek kiss hehe

this first chapter could honestly be its own fic. like this is a full narrative! ik there's more but structurally it's so good! the arc we went on with wwx...incredibly satisfying. amazing work!!!

[firemandeanbuck]

what if...

(tribute to this post by father) (major character death, there will be pain btw COMIC SPOILERS)

Hob had a dream. Or was it...? A dream? Well, it sure was, or elsewhere would he find such fantastical creatures, Gods and Legends, mourning for the death of someone?

His body was flowing down a river, in a big black swan boat. The sky was the greyest Hob ever felt. It was like a shadow was casted over the entire universe by the wings of a Titan. They mourned the death of someone they knew very personally. Hob had a feeling he knew him too. He had not seen his face, but he knew him, he had not remembered his voice, yet he heard him saying goodbye one last time to his kingdom. Leaving everything and everyone behind, never to look back. This isn't a trick, or deception, or a play. No, this was real life.

No coming back from there.

Words were spoken in countless languages, unknown manners and with various level of emotions. The little girl with insane hair said nothing more than 2 words, she was clearly upset. The crow talked fondly, if a little harshly, of his boss. They went to hell together and challenged Lucifer, he said. Someone in the crowd scoffed loudly..

When the fire rose up into the sky as a phoenix, everyone was returned home. Gods and the funny creatures walked out the gate. But Hob woke up.

((1 month later))

Inside the barn, Hob sits around a fire. He is greeted by a familiar face. Familiar yet. Distinguished. He doesn't recall who she is, all he knows that she is someone he knows, or at least used to know.

She tells him about her brother, about life, about dreams and death. Hob tells her about his life, about his aspiration.

Death tells him about her idiot brother. A hollowness digs into Hob's chest, weighing him down. The final blow, while waking, comes when Death tells him Dream is no longer, he is dead. he attended the funeral. Hob needs a drink, he needs to get away, to be alone with his thoughts. No, no, this can't be true. The man with whom he met every century, the one who hears his stories about life and the ONLY perosn he had been genuinely open with, is DEAD.

He can't. Hob had lost so much over the corse of 6 centuries. he can't-

But he seemed immortal. Dream did. He seemed infinitely bigger than life, he seemed unreal, like a wild imagination running around unrestricted. Oh, so mighty and great. Even gods dont question him

Yet, in his heart of hearts, he KNOWS its true. That's the funeral he attended, and he saw her there, for she was also mourning her brother. Even now, as she is talking to him, grief is crystal in her eyes. She doesn't want to tell this story, yet, she feels like she OWES her brother to. It's what's proper, what's right

Then, she asks him to take her hands.

Hob hesitates. He asks her, "How did it feel?"

"Like death. A part of me went with him and forever shall be with him. I have no control over such matters", Death answers, rubbing her hands together.

"I'm sorry", Hob place his hand on her shoulder, "My condolences to you, Death",

"Y'know, I was his sister before I was DEATH", she told. Her head hung low, the curls were curtaining her face but the tears were unmistakably there.

"I cannot imagine the pain. To think that who WOULD NOT go away actually do, in front of your eyes. But... to be the one to take him there. I'm so sorry, Death. If I could, I would've changed our places"

"Thank you", she wiped her glittery tears, "So?" Once again, she had extended her arms.

They looked so inviting. No more pain, no more struggling to hide his identity, no more problems of the world, no more lost loved ones, no more changing times taking a toll on him, no more finding new love, no more grieving for the past.

But... GWEN. She will be alone. Hob doesn't want her to feel what he did. She is good she doesn't deserve such pain.

"Will I be forgiven?"

"No one is condemned in my realm", assures Death, her gentle smile reminding Hob of summer in the open country, warm breeze bringing the sweet smell of fruits. Oh, how much he wanted to go.

From somewhere far, far away, his beloved mother was calling him into home. His little sister running back to him, showing him her collection. The sun kissed his skin. He could feel the soil and grass under his feet.

There it was. Such a strong nostalgia, the bittersweet feeling that leaves a foul taste when its over. He doesn't want it to be over

"Okay, I'll come with you"

[gwynbleiddyn]

4, 58 and 69 (nice) for Mio

HRMMMMHMMM LETS SEE

4. if they could learn one spell that isn’t available to them at present, which spell would it be?

this is an interesting one because the man is proficient in arcana and has extensively studied magic at some point in his life in order to obtain said proficiency, but he uses it purely based on Vibes and that's very sexy of him, and he doesn't really know spells as a result - not like people like Sav or Cai or Laz would.

the wording of this question is a little weird to me so i'm just going to name a spell that isnt at all accessible to mio based on class and the fact he won't ever get an 8th level spell: Sunburst... because that would fuck severely with the aesthetic and it targets what he hates most with what he adores most. poetic justice and so on and so forth

58. what do they think their role in the party is? what is their role in actuality?

i don't think he sees himself as a very integral part of the group at all. he's just kind of there. he has his connections to each of them and he does care in his own weird way about them, but he could leave and he wouldn't worry about them. it wouldn't feel great and he'd miss them, for sure, but he wouldn't be at all concerned that they wouldn't be able to cope with a fight or whatever comes next in his absence.

in terms of the reality... i'm unsure, honestly. utility wise, he can do a lot that we haven't really touched on in game. he has useful features for espionage and subterfuge, which isn't something we really run into or at least it's not a method Talisman like to use. he can deal damage, he can crowd control, he can tank well enough, and he buffs the party. he can do A Lot, but none of that is done in a way where he is the go-to for any of those things.

part of it stems from me not knowing what the fuck to do with a dnd character when i made him and gave him a ridiculously useless stat spread that we had to patch up with feats as he levelled up so he's not Optimised like some other PCs, and part of it kind of came along when i played him and developed him and kind of understood that the narrative reason that he's a jack of all trades is because that's how he has to be if he wants to be a halfway decent king.

69. how would they describe their party members?

this is asking for trouble but the point here is you ASKED. i won't do wordy descriptions bc i dont have the braincells for that right now but shortform summaries are king, focusing a lot on how mio perceives everyone rather than Descriptions alone. let's go a-z

Alar: genuine bestie, a confidant, the perseverant edge to his own temperamental spirit. meryset, beloved of setekh but also beloved of ra. someone who understands the demands of divinity, and doesn't dismiss them. one of few people who could ask to walk into the hells and mio would follow. there's nothing more i can add.

Cai: a troublesome magpie, but a genuine friend. he brings laughter when it feels lost. that's an ability that can't be overstated, even if mio sometimes feels like he's gained another younger sibling to meticulously dance around at times.

Diric: strong and steady is a good descriptor. even in his worst moments he seems to have his head above water. in the same vein i think mio would describe him as frustrating, because he doesn't just lose his shit and bite back and scream and shout and throw a tantrum, and mio kind of wants to see it, to feel better. otherwise, though not as much at the forefront of the party since his return, mio still sees him as something of a compass to the group. and having shared some brief part of his life with diric, mio knows that in his heart he will always have a fondness for him, though it will take many different shapes and forms in the potential millennia he will live.

Laszlo: it is a strange echo with laz, there is a familiarity there in their station and perhaps some of the early experiences they had growing up but knowing that laz chose his new family and mio still holds onto his old one is perhaps a very telling schism between the two. mio respects him deeply, in the way he respected his tutors from the many colleges of Akhenaton - they held power in what they knew, and that could be dangerous, unchecked.

Savita: it's hard to know where to start. savita brings out the worst in mio, the pettiness, the self-importance, the indignance. but she also has good advice and is undeniably smart about the world, though maybe not wise. he struggles with her. he doesn't really know if they will reconcile that, ever, and while i don't think he's interested in bridging the gap, he's forced to accept the perspective she brings to the table. his feelings towards her are summed up by begrudging acceptance with a sprinkling of "you've shot me in the head and also saved my ass in equal measure and my gratitude and my pettiness cancel each other out into vague ambivalence"

Zinnan: like the feywild weaves and bends to whimsy and fleeting thought, mio's perception of zinnan traverses very unsteady ground. they're fascinating to talk to and they make appealing offers, but they're so untrustworthy. they're purposeful in action, but so aimless in themselves. you look at them one way and they appear in another. mio always enjoys his conversations with them, but he's always left feeling like he lost something in the process. he can't get a bead on them, but his one comfort is that you can always trust the untrustworthy to be just that.

[answermetatertot]

this may be the cringiest thing ever but I've wanted to expand my little sonic au for my ocs for a bit now, so I'm going to do this for the sonic version of my oc, tater tot! This will primarily focus on how my favorite characters feel about said oc. this is your last warning bc i dont wanna see or hear anyone in the comments complaining about how 'cringe' it is. Also, these are just general head canons. Which means I'm not following any specific version of Sonic (though I might favor sonic boom because it's my favorite 🤷‍♀️) ok! so.... context: Tater tot in the Sonic fandom au is a little sea angel who accidentally flew into a powerline, and is permanently cursed with the iq of a hotdog.

How does (canon character) feel about your OC? - Sonic might be annoyed with her because of how slow she can be sometimes. However, I don't think he would outright dislike her. It would be more of an 'oh here we go' followed by a sigh when he realizes that she's incidentally become part of one of his missions. He would still treat her like any of this other friends though. - Shadow would feel the same way as Sonic, but more extreme in terms of how he has to deal with her iq. He would usually make some sort of remark but in the classic shadow way. She ends up responding something unintentionally funny because it's hard to hurt her feelings (and she didn't pick up on what he said anyway).

How does your OC feel about (canon character)? Tater tot enjoys Sonic's company the most, and thinks he's pretty cool 👍 Tater tot is confused by Shadow, but he's fascinating to her. Kind of like watching a caterpillar going about its business. That's how she views him.

Has your OC ever made (canon character) laugh? / What about cry? Tater tot has accidentally made Sonic laugh, not so much Shadow. He's a tough crowd.

Do your OC and (canon character) ever cross paths? Tater tot and Sonic usually cross paths often enough to know each other, but she isn't apart of most of the main adventures. As for Shadow, she just ends up where she is. Think Garfield and Jon.

Which canon character annoys your OC? N/A... she doesn't get annoyed by anyone really.

What canon character gets annoyed by your OC? Shadow for sure.

Which canon character respects your OC most? What gained that respect? Sonic respects Tater tot because while she's not the brightest, she sticks to what she knows is right and wrong no matter the circumstance. She'll help anyone who needs it, whether or not they've been mean to her.

Which canon character doesn’t respect your OC whatsoever? N/A

Which canon character does your OC respect a lot? Tater tot respects Sonic because he's brave and is always there for his friends. He's also kind to her. Deep down inside, she's somewhat aware of her lack of intelligence and it makes her slightly insecure when meeting new people. She's afraid they'll get tired of having to help her constantly.

Which canon character does your OC not respect at all? Why? N/A

Which canon character is pissed off by the general presence of OC? (we all have those people) I can't truly think of one, but I feel like Eggman would just be on 10 every time he saw her. She always ends up accidentally messing up something.

Does your OC have a crush on anyone? tiny crush on Sonic, but she doesn't even know it.

Who would probably have a crush on your OC? N/A... I don't know really?

Who would your OC most likely to get a puppy-crush on? (but it can’t be the cc they’re actually shipped with!) She would most likely have a puppy crush on Amy! she's bright and bubbly and Tater tot loves being around happy people.

Who would your OC say is their best friend? Probably Amy!

Who would call your OC their best friend? Amy.

Who has brought your OC to tears before? Probably Shadow, after one of the rare times she understood what insult he hurled at her.

Who has your OC made cry? Shadow. (It's not that bad, she's generally sensitive)

Is there someone your OC didn’t like at first, but then got along with later? Nope! She's an easy person to get along with.

Is there someone your OC liked at first, but then grew to dislike? N/A

Who does your OC hate? N/A

Who does your OC love? (platonic)

Sonic and Amy.

Who does your OC love? (familial) She doesn't have any family (right now)

Does your OC love anyone? (romantic) Love is a strong word. I have no idea if she loves anyone currently, but a slight crush might be there.

Has your OC ever had to let a canon character down easy? N/A

Has your OC ever been rejected by a canon character? N/A

Did your OC bear witness to anyone’s full character arc? N/A

What is the worst thing your OC does in their story? Probably putting her friends in harms way when being asked something. She's a very honest person and sometimes doesn't get when she should or shouldn't say something.

What is your OC’s ‘‘darkness moment’’ in the plot? N/A

What is your OC’s redemption moment? N/A

Is there a canon character that your OC needs to ask forgiveness towards? N/A

Is there a canon character your OC needs to forgive? N/A

Is there anyone who your OC would die for? N/A

Is there a canon character who would die for your OC?

Fandom OC Ask Meme

⟢⋱⟡☾ a collection of asks for OCs belonging to specific fandoms

How does (canon character) feel about your OC?

How does your OC feel about (canon character)?

Has your OC ever made (canon character) laugh? / What about cry?

Do your OC and (canon character) ever cross paths?

Which canon character annoys your OC?

What canon character gets annoyed by your OC?

Which canon character respects your OC most? What gained that respect?

Which canon character doesn’t respect your OC whatsoever?

Which canon character does your OC respect a lot?

Which canon character does your OC not respect at all? Why?

Which canon character is pissed off by the general presence of OC? (we all have those people)

Does your OC have a crush on anyone?

Who would probably have a crush on your OC?

Who would your OC most likely to get a puppy-crush on? (but it can’t be the cc they’re actually shipped with!)

Who would your OC say is their best friend?

Who would call your OC their best friend?

Who has brought your OC to tears before?

Who has your OC made cry?

Is there someone your OC didn’t like at first, but then got along with later?

Is there someone your OC liked at first, but then grew to dislike?

Who does your OC hate?

Who does your OC love? (platonic)

Who does your OC love? (familial)

Does your OC love anyone? (romantic)

Has your OC ever had to let a canon character down easy?

Has your OC ever been rejected by a canon character?

Did your OC bear witness to anyone’s full character arc?

What is the worst thing your OC does in their story?

What is your OC’s ‘‘darkness moment’’ in the plot?

What is your OC’s redemption moment?

Is there a canon character that your OC needs to ask forgiveness towards?

Is there a canon character your OC needs to forgive?

Is there anyone who your OC would die for?

Is there a canon character who would die for your OC?

[fakevalentine]

female reader x perv neighbour ellie williams

the biggest stalker ever— i mean, its extreme to the point it kinda scares her too. she even bought binoculars, telling herself it was to look at stars instead of through your window

she doesnt even know if you like girls. you never have visitors over... which she doesnt mind too much, it means you keep to yourself. means youre not having sex very regularly. even if you were, she would be watching.

a thief. steals little things from your house if you so gladly welcome her into your home. your lace underwear, for example. clean or dirty, it depends on her mood that day. you dont realise, you have so many pairs. and if you do realise, you just assume you misplaced them and didnt even think of questioning ellie.

sometimes its easier to blame you for how she feels. blames the tight shirts you wear, how you leave the drapes wide open, smiling so sweetly at her all the time, completely clueless of what she gets up to across the street.

lies to her therapist about you. "i met someone new. i think i'm in love..." a blush creeps on her face as she gushes about you, and her therapist nods along, telling her that she seems happy with you.

ellie knows deep down that its not real. but she pushes reality further away and lives with the delusion that youre just playing hard to get. youre in love, but shy. ellie makes you so nervous that you just cant work up to courage to confess! how adorable.

she'd only broken in twice; once when you were sleeping peacefully and another when you were out. she liked your house, sometimes imagining living there with you. that would be for the best— she could protect you that way.

she was head over heels for you, moaning your name at night with tears bubbling in her eyes. it pained her, the reality of you not being laid beside her. her hand buried between your thighs, hearing those sweet sounds she only dreamed of.

it broke her poor, fragile heart. why wouldnt you confess? do you want to hurt her? what a cruel thing for you to do.

ellie follows you. everywhere. she lingers in the crowd, watching while you mind your business. her clueless lover out all alone in the world, nobody protecting you. she doesnt want you in danger, but a part of her hoped someone would threaten your safety and she could swoop in and be a hero. your hero.

youre sending her insane. she talks to you, alone in her house pretending and picturing that youre there with her. she smiles at nobody, reaches out to grab your hand but is met with the emptiness of cold air. she refuses to acknowledge it, she knows youre there. somewhere.

she loves you. you dont even know her last name.

[soolregn]

Fill 'em in! Fill this in according to you and reblog so your followers can know you!

Lol i did this like 10 years ago in high school, and I thought I would do it again now at 27.

State your name: Inger

State the name that your parents almost named you: Julia.

Which of your relatives do you get along with the most?: My sister and my niece Pernille.

What was your first job?: I washed toilets at a plummer firm when I was 16.

Did anything embarrassing happen this week?: always. But thats ok.

Do you miss your ex?: He's not my ex. But I'll probably think about him every day for the rest of my life.

White chocolate or dark chocolate?: dark chocolate. Raw cacao everyday.

Do people praise you for your looks?: no. Im mid and im comfortable with that.

What is your favorite color of clothing to wear?: bright colors.

How do you wear your makeup?: I never wear makeup. I dont say that to be a pick me girl i just dont.

What are some of your nicknames?: IK. Tine.

How many bedrooms are in your house?: four

How many bathrooms?: 2

Do you have a job?: yes, I am a yoga teacher.

Do you have a car?: no.

Do you work out every week?: yes. every day actually. I work out a lot as an ashtanga yoga practitioner.

Did you brush your teeth this morning?: yes.

Have you ever kissed someone you never saw again?: yes. Interesting summer in Ibiza that was.

Have you ever sung in front of a crowd?: hahaha yes. im a mid singer too! Im sure it was very forgettable.

What kind of bathing suit do you wear?: my blue bikini that I bought in Ibiza. I love it, it holds a lot of memories.

Do you like your eyes?: Yes, they are the prettiest part of me. Theire not mid.

Do you think you are pretty?: I don't think I'm especially pretty. But I have a talent for transforming the way I look, and a certain magnetism.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?: My mom.

How much money is in your checking account?: uh oh.

Are you single?: yes.

Do you want kids? Im not sure. But I dont want kids at any cost. I am the kind of person who priorities myself first.

Tell me what your back pack looks like: my bag contains my diary, my Wallet, shea butter, moisturiser, a bikini and a shawl/towel so I can bathe anytime.

Last movie you saw in theatres?: the notebook! im so fucked with this heartbreak:)….

[psychotrope777]

ocean ask

i can't find the original poster for the life of me but i found this in my bookmarks somewhere and wanted to do it

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? i'm not sure! i'm in this weird headspace where i kinda want to travel but i don't know where to. i've never actually gone outside of new england at all. it can be really expensive and honestly depending on what you're doing it can be exhausting. like i couldn't imagine going to see like the eiffel tower and waiting in traffic forever and planning everything and then you get there and it's crowded and you're waiting forever... it just sounds not fun. but i do want to see the world i just don't know what that means to me yet

sails: describe your perfect partner. IDK. someone i can relate to

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear? i never wear makeup. when i do i feel like i just look weird

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf? i was a vampire kid but i think being a vampire probably imposes more restrictions on your lifestyle. do you turn into a werewolf whenever the full moon is out or just whenever you look at it? i think i could handle being a werewolf and still like live normally

mermaid: most embarrassing moment? i will not answer this

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had? one time i was in an abandoned stable or pig farm and a little horned black goat told me in a high pitched voice that "it's so much fun playing with [me]". one time i read someone's fiction website and got transported to a demonic version of my street. one time i was a member of a cult that spoke entirely in french and latin and took part in a ritual sword-fight-to-the-death with the daughter of the leader. one time i was a child being escorted through a suburb by a man in a cloak and there were dead, mutilated dogs on the roofs and lawns and he was telling me not to look at the dogs. one time i picked up a teddy bear on the side of the road and was teleported to an endless garage inhabited by a demon. one time i worked in a deli with cell from dragon ball. one time i was trying to have sex with a robot but his arms were made of like pop tubes or slinkies and it was super weird

waves: favourite season and why? i used to hate the cold season but after how bad these last few summers have been i've made amends with it. i love winter now

breakers: would you ever consider getting married? i always thought the concept was weird. i mean i would if my partner wanted to but it just seemed like... it's just so much to go through and it doesn't really change what you are to each other. in my head, you don't love a "girlfriend" less than a "wife". they're the same thing. i guess there's like a financial benefit to getting married or something, but it's just. you know weddings are so out there and they're this whole... thing, and then if things ever don't work out or go south between the two of you, divorce is this whole process that can take fucking forever and i feel like the process of getting divorced can take a breakup that would otherwise be fairly amicable and just make them hate each other by the time it's through. i just dont really. get it

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation. probably to fucking antarctica or greenland if i'm going to be completely honest. summer is a terrible time to do big things

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet? i wanted a giant african millipede at one point. i also wanted silkmoths and yellow mealworm beetles. if i had to go for something really ostentatious i'd say me and an octopus probably have a lot in common

sunlight: least favourite song? i don't know i don't really listen to music i don't like

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery? i have considered it before. body troubles can make you consider a lot of things you wouldn't usually. but normally i would say no. still sometimes you have days where you think... i need lipo, i need my boobs cut off, i need leg extensions, i need this i need that etc

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature? maybe my eyes or my nose. idk

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not? i liek both

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple? i dont kneeeowwwwww. idk... shin and noi, c-3po and r2-d2... honestly those are the first two that came up when i thought "fictional pairings that i like". im not really into shipping

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why? i wrote the answer for tidal b4 this one. ummm... probably something like salt or chili for the same reason. they can be good notes when they're subdued, but when they're prominent they can be overwhelming

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor? i can't decide. they kinda feed into each other

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched? not sure

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage? i obviously can't be a warrior... so either rogue or mage. being a mage would be cool i think

tempest: your favourite Pokemon? ummm... sawk gliscor flygon gyarados mightyena breloom emboar electivire hypno mr mime mewtwo granbull and others

tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance? never ask me this

aquamarine: describe your dream date. i don't know! i don't think about this a lot. what defines a date? what gives it value? i'd say that any time you spend with someone you love has intrinsic value, it doesn't have to be an occasion

brine: gold or silver? hmm... im inclined to say gold but i can't imagine a gold wallet chain so that's a bit of a deal breaker

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality? my personality? ummmm i've been told that i have a "mature" or "organized" air, and i do try to remain calm and rational when faced with a challenge, but i know personally that i tend to be very obsessive and i panic when things don't go according to plan. my own desire to live in the moment and not care is undermined by that 1. i tend to fixate on the potential risks and outcomes of something INSTEAD of whether it would make me happy and 2. i do care about what people think of me / how people perceive me / how something will impact the future. maybe green or red. deep or faded tones can give a sophisticated and professional impression, but bright tones can be bold and produce a wild and jarring image

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy? i liek video games and listening to music

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years. hopefully alive and well

coastline: what is your favourite flower? hydrangea perhaps. or the utilitarian dandelion. or lilacs!

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order? IDK

voyage: what are your favourite names? like for people? or for animals? nicknames or given names? i don't know man

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them. i have many. but eek im embarrassed

cerulean: do you believe in true love? idk. define it

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why? i did french in middle and high school and fell out with it. in 2022 i learned some russian but also just stopped making time for it. since i already know the cyrillic alphabet i've considered ukrainian. my grandparents were ukrainian so i feel kinda like i have a ... responsibility? i don't know. i also feel like i should at least try to reach fluency in french because ... i spent that money on the dictionary and i spent the time in the classes and i should at least finish the job

tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours. ONE THAT LOOKS GOOD ON ME

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this? i suppose i would be an "introvert" bc gatherings and stuff tend to make me feel drained after a while. it's certainly... a source of inconvenience, but i don't necessarily think it doesn't work for me because i generally don't maintain large circles

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours. i make a lot of html files. just like... simple lists and bookmarks and stuff like that. like for example i don't have an account on etsy or anything like that so my "wishlist" is just an html file with links to things from online stores i'm interested in. it makes sense to me but saying it aloud it definitely sounds weird lol. i'm a little worried that i might die and someone will get access to my computer and think "wow. what the fuck was wrong with her"

[the1975attheirverybest]

Good morning, just woke up lol. How are you?

I’m still feeling kinda icky over the whole Buzzfeed/podcast thing. I wish Matty would just say something. I can ignore all the other accusations against him because they’re all so silly and funny but not this one.

But on the brighter side, this weekend I get to see my second favorite band for the first time ever!! So that’s exciting. It’s at a small venue and I’d really like to be close to the front if possible. Does anyone know how early I’d need to show up if I want to be close to the front?

- 🔆

Hi babes 💗

I'm alright at work. doing my job like an adult even though id much rather be home with my dog rn.

THIS IS THE PART WHERE IM REPLYING TO THE PODCAST BIT SO SCROLL IF YALL DONT WANNA SEE THAT

Well, I did go back and listen to the first pod to make sure and his exact words were "i think it was literally ghetto gaggers or whatever. Like it was probably something where someone's being brutalized." Then he made an exaggerated sound of a woman sucking dick.

Which leads me to think he was referring to the kink thing not actually specifically the weird racial stuff meaning he too doesn't know what exactly GG is and assumed by the name of it that it had to do with cock sucking." THATS JUST MY TAKE but yeah. do with that what you will.

END OF PODCAST COMMENT

I've never been brave enough to wanna get all the way to the front of the crowd so im not quite sure about time.

Any of you guys know when one should arrive if they're hoping to be front of the pit?

[sldchld]

rock

I stood there again. Like a marble statue molded so intricately, so human life as if it really was a human. I felt frozen, locked there. I had been practicing for days hours and hours on end mumbling and jumbling words to the point of where I the only thing i thought of was that poem. You would think a couple of lines would be easy to say Right? I just don't know what came over me. i just- i just- i just- I DONT KNOW. I could call it anxiety you could call it a bunch of names actually but the consequences were real. I became life-less just another inanimate object. Yes, my heart was beating, but i couldn't feel myself breathing. I couldn't feel my hands, my gaze turned foggy, my hands turned numb, why could I not present like the rest. Why was i the only one to be, so, trapped like this Am i different? Am i unique? no, I'm just not, I'm just- I'm just- I'm just- WHY AM I NOT NORMAL

what is normal? normal /ˈnôrm(ə)l adjective conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. What creates normal? Who creates normal? Is it society? Or ourselves? We take all of this information from the world around us through magazines or television shows, through our family or social media, through school and our friends. All this information is kept and stored in our mind. But here is where we set them in play. The idea of "normal" starts all the way back when humans were first exited. We set up this "routine" in order to maintain a healthy lifestyle, and the ideology of "normal" sprouted from there. Normal is the standard. To be normal is what everyone tries to achieve. Yes we all want to be unique and stand out from among the crowd, but most of the population becomes what we call "normal." Why do we all want to fit under this standard? Why do we want to be apart of the statistic. Is being normal so enticing that our every move must meet the criteria of the norm? What do we gain from it all? The validation. The excitement that you will be accepted. The ability to say, "yes i am her" or "yes I am him" or "yes I am them." It's almost satisfying really. To fit right into the mold of things. Like those asmr videos where they dumps load of slime into a giant vat, sinking away to fit the ever-increasing puzzle. Yes being unique is electrifying. But it strikes criticism. They all look at you and stare at you and you want to sink into the floor. You know they are judging you. That's why you want to go back. To wish you were part of the "crowd." You wish you were the one that was staring the odd one, not the odd one themselves. No one will look at you if stay hidden. Part of the crowd. Behind all of the shadows. Behind the "normal." This is what normal means to us. The wall we hide behind. The bridge we sit under. The blanket we wrap around us. We cannot get rid of it. We can burn it. We can freeze it. We can throw it out or disguise. But it can never go away. These things never go away. They remain apart of our lives forever. Hopefully we may meet someone, who will receive our normal, and add it on to theirs. We can only hope. But this is not the case with most. With most, they meet solid rocks. Rocks that scrap your hands when you try to move it. Rocks that make you cry out of frustration. You would love that rock so much, if only it could just shift, even slightly. But no, you will sob and scream over this unmovable rock. But in the end, you will succumb to it. This grey, solid rock. You will succumb to it, and fold yourself around it. You will become apart of the rock.

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Hello.

I'm not here to argue with you about your POV. When someone "rubs" you the wrong way, nothing they or someone else says can make you change your mind (at least thats my POV), but I wanna offer a different perspective.

I'm not going to write indepth about his childhood in Serbia, I think there is enough videos online to get a perspective about his start and especially the time period in which he started to practice tennis. That kind of time leaves a mark on you no matter how big or small you are.

So, at the beginning of his professional carrer and for the first few years in his rise in the ATP rankings, he was slowly starting to become a problem (but not consistent problem for his biggest rivals). During that time the UK offered him a british citizenship and everything that comes with that, which he declined. He also declined to become a Nike athlete.

One of the reasons I mention his childhood in Serbia, his biggest rivals, the british citinzenship and Nike offers is because these reasons are just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to how media likes to portrait him. Ever since he build his way up in the ATP rankings, the double standard in everything he does is so obvious if you look at it from his side.

Everyone can try and say it doesnt matter where he comes from, but oh boy it does. Especially when you play in THE WEST.

I'm not going to say much about Nadal and Federer, I respect their records but from my POV they also became part of the ATP/NIKE top that is basically saying YOU CANT DO ANYTHING WRONG when you are ours. I know this may seem like a silly and not a real thing, but if you try to look a little closer maybe you'll see what I mean (you can say these are silly but Nadal got his wish and a chair umpire wasnt allowed to oficiate his matches, as well as the whole thing with Federer/the Laver cup and what is was supposed to be).

When it comes to Covid, my choice was to get the vaccine as well as his choice was not to. He was never the anti-vaccine/spokesperson to not take the Covid vaccine as the media likes to portait him, his mantra was "my body, my choice". He missed out on many tournaments because of it. The west didnt like or understand that not everyone and every country in the world had the same measurements as them during Covid. Tournament he organized for players (basically to get funds for lower ranked players that were struggling financially) during covid in Serbia was done by respecting every measure that was in place by the government during that time, and it was the only tournament that had free vaccines for anyone that wanted to get vaccinated.

Maybe I missed the part where he supports Russia (And I mean in context of the war cause if there is one thing he hates, it's war of any kind). He lived through war, he knows what its like and I dont believe he would wish war on anyone)

And for the latest quotes about the match with Rune, even a BBC reporter Sara Thornton, as well as fans in the stands, said that there were jerks in the crowd booing Novak using the disguise of the name Rune and that other people then joined (during his service games, when he fell down etc). Its not the first time, but I think the reason he said what he said was because his children were watching the match and I'm sure it didnt feel good playing under that kind of atmosphere. Like, even now the Sky Sports Tennis got slapped by the community note on Twitter for misquoting his speech after the match (the tweet got deleted). One UK reporter during yesterdays match also gave an example how people can boo him by using the name Musetti.

I also want to point out that Novak took the time to thank all the people who are respectful and appreciative and love tennis during his speech, but the media only focused on a part where he calls out the booing.

Someone said on Twitter, he is in his NO FUCKS LEFT TO GIVE era. I hope thats true.

Thats my POV.

As I as said at the start, I'm not here to change your mind about Novak. I just wanted to write a different perspective.

I'm sorry for all the grammer mistakes cause English is not my first language and for not giving more examples, but I can always name a few Nole fans that have kept receipts about media and double standard since his begining.

Thank you for your time.

welcome to another episode of me yapping into the void about tennis…

so Djokovic. he is a legend. probably when he retires the big 3 will be only a memory because all the records will be his and the goat debate will be (seemingly) settled for generations. and there are some things that he should be respected for like his ability to adjust and change his game and learn and always try new things. these are qualities of a true champion and winner.

but other than that? no sympathy for him at all. I know that crowd’s sympathy is not a thing that ultimately makes you a winner but Djokovic seems to complain about his unpopularity a lot. it sounds like a pure hypocrisy. he does so many borderline things or things that are outright wrong such as his Covid controversies, his support for Russia or even the one related to the game where he antagonises the crowds and feeds his confidence by degrading others (the best example is the recent on-court interview after his defeated rune).

all in all, he may be a record-holder but he should not be placed as an example. he tries to play the family guy card, but in the light of everything he does, it is seems not genuine. he cares a lot about the game and has some really important messages to voice such as a the paddle as a competition, but is he himself a good promotor of the game? not really. for the audience, the message is: the player has to degrade you to be successful. not a great endorsement.

to conclude: is he the most dominant player? yes. is he the goat? i believe there is something more to the term than just numbers and titles.