#but i don't think assuming you have rights and will continue to have them in safe states will be the right move
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Literally the opposite of what actually happens but ok sure, let's assume all pro Palestinians (including Jewish Palestinians and antizionist Jews) have said what you just put in their mouth. Lets also assume that any and all Palestinians (again, including Jewish Palestinians) who hate Israeli Jews for the treatment of them are wrong while Jews who hate Germans for their cruelty are right. Let's assume we support, unconditionally, all Zionists in the past and present since apparently you see Zionism as Representing Jewish safety.
This implies we should go support the people who have historically supported the Nazi party in Germany (Zionist Federation of Germany with the The Haavara Agreement, as well as their collaboration and in killing Jews in Nazi Germany, remembering also their deal to deport Jews to Palestine), or the famously totally not antisemitic far right neo nazis (Donald Trump, Proud Boys, etc) currently supporting Israel and saying it "should" be the only place for Jews. If these groups, who have been notorious for desecrating Jewish graves and synagogues long before oct 7, spraying graffiti of swastikas, and harassing Jews, are now pro Israel (evidently again as said groups have vouched support for Israel and attacked activists for ceasefire continually over the past years, should we, as people who do not want to accept any intolerance from either anti Jewish OR anti Palestinian sentiment, just ignore all of this?
If supporting Israel means standing side by side with people raising their hand in a seig hail and saying "death to Jews" and "death to Arabs"? Yeah, no, I don't think the enemy here is a race or even the trauma from years of occupation that shows as defensiveness and hatred, but as always, the western Nazis who pit and have always pitted racial groups against each other. And I think I'd rather die both pro Palestinian and pro Jewish rather than live as a nazi. And evidently it is established Neo Nazi organisations supporting Israel and I will not stand besides those antisemitic, racists motherfuckers and no amount of "some of the nazis might be Jewish and hate Jews" will make me rethink that. There were gay Nazis, but they still killed us for being queer. Likewise, I don't stand with any other group who bootlick to their oppressors and side with those oppressors.
Like, there is just nothing that can be said to convince people to join the same side that are reusing nazi slogans, signal and symbols, I'm sorry but no. Many many Jews, queers and people who have any trauma around nazis fucking up their lives don't want that and calling them "the wrong kind of Jew" or "self hating" is just wrong. Jews can hate nazis, and if a nazi says "you should support Israel" damn right I'll question that.
I also want to add a bit extra in relation to people who try to use this movement for antisemitism, and those who do actually have trauma from Israeli occupation. The former are kicked out, ostracized and shunned. They are not part of this movement and, more often than not, hate Palestinians and Arabs as well. Using this movement is a convenient way for them to encite hatred towards both Arabs and Jews, they are racists fuckwits and we, those who want freedom and equality for both Jews and Palestinians, do not recognise these fuckers as much as they hold hatred and clash with our own groups.
The latter are those who, much like many people have been led to believe thanks to propaganda, that Jewishness and Zionism are one and the same when they're very different. Zionism, while originating from Jewish groups intertwining into the French academic community, it is a political movement built out of western socialism and feudalist nationalism. The genuine hope of return is a separate Jewish concept that, while has been misused to justify Political Zionism, is its own concept that has existed long before the influence of French militarism and western colonialist ideologies. Said people see the indiscriminate slaughter in Palestine and even towards other Jews and then blame Jews, thanks to that conflation. The defending of that lie only further endangers Jewish communities and risks the rise of antisemitism. Israel has, despite being warned of this, capitalised further on this and incited violence against Jews.
Despite all of this, all evidence, and all logic, even if we assume that all Jewish and Arab Palestinians somehow are to be blamed more than any far right Nazi standing by your side for 1939, it cannot be denied that the obsession of race being the determining factor of ones morality is a dangerous standpoint to base your stance on. If this really is an argument of "pro Arab or pro Jew" with no allowance to accept all races as equal, then there is no argument to be had; if you think anyone born as any one race or ethnicity is to blame then your own identity cannot claim innocence over the inherent racism of that stance, both towards Arabs and the racist assumption of othering Jews, even and especially as a Jew.
starting to realize that when antizionists say âisrael shouldnât be the only safe place for jewsâ they donât mean âso we should make other places safe for jews,â they mean âthere should be no safe place for jewsâ
#and some small context with where I stand because everyone always obsesses with this every single time:#Yes; my grandfather fled Poland in WW2.#No; he and his sister won't talk about it or their trauma.#And maybe; my aunt says we're Jewish while my mum says we're not. Both are known compulsive liars.#Basically if you want to know if I'm Jewish or not you'll have to unpack the WW2 generational trauma and the lower class immigrant trauma.#and the abuse and family generational trauma too.#Basically hey! Don't make what I am a topic for if I can talk or not because some of us don't have perfect loving families -#- with zero genocide/ war trauma that makes your entire family refuse to talk about it or to each other ever.#Sorry I even had to include this but the number of Zionists who demand my entire family history to talk is kinda stupid#on one hand I get asking âok but do you even identify as Jewish or practice Judaism?â#but yall never ask that#instead it's âare you genetically Jewish enough and do you know your parents and grandparents well enoughâ#to which I reply â#good luck figuring that out because I am STILL trying to crack that nut just like how older Jews I know have had to do#believe it or not thanks to the holocaust because not all of us ended up in environments where our families told their kids who they were#or yknow.#weren't there.#which is why this question pisses me off and why I'm so damn tired of so called Antizionist Saviours of Jews being this level of antisemitic#sorry for the tag shit it's more just in case someone decides to ask for my genetics#and I have to explain that's how Nazis targeted Jewish workers and maybe why some ppl don't like being measured through blood percentage.#like surprise surprise Jewish generational trauma exists.
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i js wanna say that i adore ur works that i praised the Lord when i saw ur haikyuu masterlist, and is it possible if we got to see dad ushijima in smth similar to this??
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There's an intense wailing coming from your daughters room. One that has your own soul shaking from the intensity.
Wakatoshi was in charge of putting Reina down tonight, something that usually goes super smoothly for him, but something clearly isn't right. You make a beeline for her bedroom, stomach churning as her cries become more intense, and when you finally make it to the doorframe, Wakatoshi looks absolutely panicked while he bounces Reina up and down.
"What happened?" You ask quickly.
"Daddy's g-onna d-die!"
What?
"Excuse me?" You say, brow quirking at Wakatoshi while he flashes you an apologetic look. "What is going on?"
Wakatoshi sighs and continues to rock Reina in his big arms, "she noticed some of my grey hairs coming in, and when she asked about them, I told her that people get them when theyâre older... and... she told me that people who get old die..."
You freeze. He winces, "I'm sorry..."
You take a shuddery breath in and make your way into the purple bedroom, gently cupping your daughter's chubby cheek in your hand. Your thumb tenderly wipes the tear tracks that cling to her cheeks, and you shush her softly, "you don't ever have to worry about that, sweet girl. Not now, not ever."
"But... But daddy's gonna leave me, 'nd you too! âNd no oneâs gonna love me!"
"That's not something you need to worry your pretty little head about, Reina," you assure, trying to find the best way to navigate this. The concept of death wasn't exactly something you'd assumed you needed to worry about explaining tonight. "Sometimes, when people get old, yes, they might pass away, and not be around anymore. But,â you hook a lock of hair behind her ear, âthat doesnât mean they ever stop loving you. And I promise you, with everything in my heart, you wonât have to deal with losing mommy or daddy any time soon, okay?â
âPinky swear?â She sniffles.
âPinky swear,â you assure, sticking out your little pinky to link with hers. âWho told you that when people get old, they die, baby?â
She whimpers and wipes her eyes with her hand, âa boy in my class. He said his gâma died ând she was old.â
You shake your head and look at Wakatoshi, âyou go to bed. Iâll stay up with her for a while.â
âNo,â he says softly but firmly. âI want to be here too. I think itâs important for us both to be here right now.â
You smile softly at him and nod, nudging your head towards your daughterâs small bed, âgo sit. Iâll get her a bedtime story.â He nods back at you and makes his way to the small bed, and as you crouch to sort through the assortment of books on her shelf, you smile as you hear him whispering apologies to Reina, followed by her little sniffles in acknowledgment.
Not the smoothest night ever, youâd be lying if you said it was a hassle to be with your family.
Even like this.
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The idea that trans people in "safe states" shouldn't still fight for their rights isn't the right thing to do, I think. In fact, I'd caution against complacency. We have to ensure that safe states stay safe states. You cannot assume your rights when they are being taken away in many other states
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#transphobia#transphobia tw#also the idea that safe states are immune from being *unsafe* for trans people is pretty wild#like sure in the USA at least there *are* worse states to be trans in#but i don't think assuming you have rights and will continue to have them in safe states will be the right move#i feel lucky to live where i do and i am grateful that i was fortunate enough to have been forced to move here...#...but i also do not feel *safe* here. hell one of the cities i wanted to study in had a huge fucking hate crime occur...#...and that's what we're calling safe. so be careful out there. there is a lot of fighting left to do and it's complex and messy...#...if you're able to foght for that then be careful and safe...#...and if you aren't able to fight don't feel guilty. just rest. it's fucking hard enough out there and you have nothing to apologize for#this post was US-centric because that is where i live but it may apply to non-US countries
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reading comprehension is dead and the unnuanced horrors are everlasting
#j.txt#good news is that person read the article finally#bad news is they appear to not have comprehended a single thing in good faith#or understood that it's written by indigenous people for indigenous people#that's why it's titled. an indigenous perspective#'the article seemed to imply native americans getting the right to vote is a bad thing' it didn't actually#i just don't think you read a single word in good faith because you set out disliking what you assumed the premise was (voting = bad)#and this is why leftist infighting will keep us here forever <3#which sucks because while i am vague-ing them on main they seem pretty cool?#cool to me is lots of textposts that r funny lol they r funnyyy. and have good taste in music idk#this sucks lol#i guess this isn't really a platform for exploring complex ideas in a genuine way with strangers. shocking i know#i wish it could be tho. will likely continue to post and share things as if it is tho#anyway... sorry guys i'm done posting about it fr#for now....
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I am here to lay the ground works of any potential continuations of this fic in the future, ignore any minor details at your leisure and convenience.
First, the rumours
The original rumour was that if you went into the graveyard late at night, you'd die. But that obviously didn't happen to our POV character.
Therefore, stating the obvious, someone purposefully spread false rumours about the graveyard to keep everyone away. (Probably Lady Gotham)
Alas, it did not work for our POV civilian character, who shall henceforth be known as Morgan, has infiltrated and successfully evaded the threat of death.
Of which there was no threat of in the first place.
Beause let's be real, without Vlad's soul being intertwined with Danny's, and without knowing all his friends, family, and home are dead, gone, and/or destroyed, Danny would never knowingly kill someone.
So, with Morgan 'surviving', the spreading of the new, more interesting rumour about the pretty boy turning into a monster begging to be let free is created.
For consistency, efficiency, and realism's sake, let's say Morgan is an semi-famous influencer known to be reliable with a main focus of content on debunking Gotham's many urban myths, legends, and superstitions and such.
The reason to be in the graveyard is to stake out the area for filming the next night.
Why check the site out only at night? Being an influencer is busy work, okay? Shush.
With Morgan being shaken up by The Encounter, the account stays unactive for a couple of days. Fans get worried until one notification. One post that goes *viral* titled;
'I Didn't Die in Gotham's Oldest Cemetery, But I Kinda Wish I Did'
(Valantines Day special gone horribly wrong! I kissed a ghost!!!???)
There are a couple of things the rumour could be called, but I think it's wise to best utilise the comedic potential of making fun of Danny's curious tendency to kiss everyone who comes into his graveyard unwarranted.
AKA Danny now becomes know as...
'The Harrlot'
Nicknamed simply just 'Harlot', which would be hilarious.
Second, The Batfam
They, too, like Morgan, thought the rumour of the graveyard being deadly at night was a farce as it has only been a recent rumour with unknown origins.
And they were right.
Partly
The death rumour was fake, obviously, but there was always something wrong with that graveyard.
Too quiet, too dark, too nothing.
You'd imagine that this is what outerspace would be like if you strip away all the wonder. Every star burnt out, leaving the void and you. The only comfort being the sight of the earth below you.
But now this new rumour has attracted more people, more daredevils, curious ghost hunters, and pressured teenagers. Though there are few people like this in a place like Gotham, there is enough to say the rumour is real.
The Batfam don't know if 'The Harlot' is a normal person, a meta, or an actual ghost, but they know he is real.
And therefore start to investigate the one traumatising all these people.
If we don't want Batfam, we can disregard this section entirely.
Thirdly, Danny's Origin
My personal favourite angst is a character yearning for a home that no longer exists and doesn't know their family is dead until they get their hopes too high.
So, to get this to make sense, it should neither be Good Reveal nor Bad Reveal.
Introducing, No Reveal!
After a particularly rough fight, Danny is down for the count
Jazz carries him up to his room to rest the injuries off, but the next day the Fenton parent are the ones to find him.
Not breathing
Without a heartbeat.
By then, the injuries from the last fight have fully healed, and so with no clue of how Danny got here they assume that, well,
Danny died in his sleep.
While the funeral preparations are under way, Jazz, Tucker, and Sam are trying to retrieve his body and wait for him to wake up.
They succeed. Expect he doesn't wake up.
The three of them are labelled as grieving and are put under watch to prevent them from stealing Danny's body again.
The moritcian embalmes Danny's body, and he's put into the casket where he lays to rest for an undetermined amount of time.
How his grave and/or the entirety of Amity Park's grave site ended up in Gotham? I have one single idea.
In order to make every statement in the fic/s above true, Gotham would have to be built on top of Amity Park.
What happened to Amity? Writers choice.
Why is Amity in New Jersey? Amity's placement in America has never been confirmed, so we could just *say* it was in New Jersey.
Anyway, Danny is in Gotham, entirely alone, trapped in a grave yard with no knowledge of why, where, or when he is.
He is truly
Utterly
Caged.
Kiss of Death- DCxDP prompt
A valentine horror.
Didn't matter why you were there or why you didn't run.
There was a graveyard older than Gotham itself. The names on the grave are weathered and unreadable from hundreds of years of exposure. The only reason one should come here was if you had managed to track your heritage to this gravesight after searching museum archives for burial records since the city wouldn't keep ones so old in the government building.
Unless...
You came because of the legend.
It's a new one. So it's more of an urban legend.
The story goes that the graveyard is haunted and a that anyone who comes here late at night will die. It's a simple legend, a very cliche and uncreative one at that.
But here you are. What was your goal? Ghost hunting? Graverobbing? Or perhaps your curiosity had consumed you and you had to know.
The air was thick. Like you are slowly choking on the darkness around you. Have you ever been in a room so quiet it was deafening? Like you are sure you must have lost your hearing because not even the wind would greet your ears. It was just empty space that wordlessly told you that you are alone. But that was just a room. A room that you leave and find solace in a trip of a light switch. This however was no room. It was the wide expanse of the outside world. In a place where streetlamps were not even a flicker in the minds of the residents that rest deep below your feet.
You chose a bad time to come. Perhaps you would be spared the wondering in the dark if you had the forgiving light of the moon on you. But such things were an afterthought, wasn't it? No tonight the moon was shadowed and the light of the stars would be your only salvation...but this was still Gotham. Could their light even reach you with the distant city lights over the horizon? Could the clouds mercifully move out of the way to give you some hope that you were not abandoned?
Now you were ill-prepared but you must have had some sense to at least charge your phone before you came. It's flashlight might be enough to get you back. But you're come this far. Brave or foolish you continue forward.
Until someone approached. You couldn't see them, only hear the muted footfalls of something coming near. Your ears so starved for sensation drank it like water in a dessert.
And in the light of your torch, a face appeared. A pair of baby blue eyes simmered in the light. A relieved smile on a pair of soft pale pink lips. A young man with tousled black locks appearing holding a small arm full of lilies and tulips.
"Finally, someone else. I thought I'd be here till morning." He said in relief as he came closer.
"What are you doing here?" You ask surprised that you weren't the only person here.
"I was cleaning the graves here and I must have lost track of time. Can you lead me out of here?" He asked softly and you'd hit yourself if you said no.
He clung to your arm as you walked him down the path.
The air began to get colder.
Where there was once silence you hearabout d the sound of crows beating their wings and making their wretched calls.
He clung harder to you.
That horrible curiosity got the better of you and so you began to speak.
"Why were you out here cleaning graves anyways." You asked.
"I was...helping. I come here alot." He said simply.
Nevermind the fact he was not dressed in clothes fit for cleaning. His white button-up shirt and dress pants were not something you get dirty. In fact, he didn't have a fleck of dirt on him.
"Where are your supplies?" You ask.
"I left them behind. I'll come back for them." He said curtly.
His grip on your arm tightened and it got colder.
"Just stay close please. I don't want to lose you in this darkness." He cooed.
You begin to feel lightheaded. The cold damp air made it hard to breathe.
You hear the crows...no ravens call out again.
"Never leave!" They repeated
"Trapped!" They called.
You hear a growl come from those pink lips, only they weren't pink anymore.
You look down at your companion and see a pair of bloody lips and a smile curled into a cruel but somehow sweet smile. A pair of glowing acidic green eyes that narrowed into pinpricks like a bird locking onto its prey. His once soft ebony lock now as stark white as snow caps.
You try to pull away but their grasp crushed your arm, hands like icy claws dug in.
" Where are you going?" He asked calm his eyes baring into yours.
Suddenly he did look very scary. No, he looked...so sad...so helpless and lost. His eyes where so warm and inviting.
"Don't leave me here. Help me. I promise I'll make it worth your while." His smile was so warm and inviting.
"Leave!" The ravens screeched.
"Run!" They called.
Even the screaming of the birds where drowned out as he pressed his lips to yours. It was too late. The sickly sweet scent of death and flowers filled your senses.
Why though, was his lips so cold? Why did they fill his mouth with the coppery taste of blood? Why did you feel so empty in the space you had hoped he'd fill in your heart?
But then a sharp pain struck your head and the warm trickle of blood flowed from your wound as a bird flew over your head.
You pulled away from the cloying embraces you perked in pain. And then you saw it. His face half half-rotted and skeletal. The once handsome man was a monster.
You sprinted away from him trying to frantically call someone for help on your phone. But foolish one had you forgotten. Your phone is also your flashlight and as you tried to use it you could only run blindly in the dark hoping you were still on the path. The sound of wind slicked the air behind you as you felt his icy breath on the back of your neck. You could only guess what was behind you as you heard no footsteps behind you only the feeling of being chased.
You dared not stop not even a moment and prayed that you didn't stumble. But mercy had found you as you saw the gate come into view and the solitary streetlight just beyond the boarder.
"You said you'd get me out! You can't leave me here!" A bloodcurdling screech rang out.
But you had already won as you made it out just barely with the graze of clawed fingertips at the back of your neck.
You closed the gate behind you and as you gazed into the dark abyss beyond the metal barrier you half expected it to be there. For it to snarl at you in anger watching you leave or slamming itself at the gate. But there was nothing. Not even the wind.
#please dont kill me#dcxdp#dpxdc#this needs more Valantines elements but bare with me#writers#writing prompts#dp x dc#danny phantom#dc x dp
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Your posts are in an AI model
and then Tumblr decided to sell them to AI models.
Now, don't get me wrong, tumblr selling out the users to AI companies is bad, yes, they shouldn't do that. It sucks.
but don't lets get this confused: your posts were already in there. Tumblr selling them is about tumblr making some money and about the AI models having more exhaustive post collections. It's not about your posts being in an AI model, vs not being in one. That battle has already been lost.
Can you find your post on google? Then it's almost certainly in an AI model already. Think about it: These AI sites showed up before all the sites were making deals to sell their users' content, right? How do you think they built them in the first place?
They scraped the posts. Just like google and bing and such do when they build their search indexes.
It's a fundamental part of how the open web works: you want your posts on tumblr to be visible to users, right? You want them to be readable?* Like, look how much stuff broke when twitter changed their whole read-while-not-logged-in policy, ruining a bunch of thread links/NSFW links. And if it's visible, it's scrapable. That's what the AI models were built on.
I've done website scraping before (not for AI models, of course. I was doing search engines and website archival), this is just how it works. You hire a few relatively smart CS graduates and tell them "build me a scraper that'll give us a bunch of tumblr posts" and they go off for a month or two and come back with a database of a few billion posts, and you stuff that into your AI model. That's how they got all the deviantart and flickr and twitter and pinterest and so on posts. They didn't pay for them: they just took them.
They only ever pay for this shit because either:
they fucked up in such a way that the site might be able to sue them for taking rather than paying
They can buy them cheaper than they can finish taking them. Maybe they'd need to pay the CS grads for an extra month? well, that might be more expensive than just throwing the site a couple hundred thousand bucks.
ANYWAY: my point is, don't treat this "oh no tumblr is selling our posts to AI" like it's a big thing that might happen and it would be bad to happen. Yes, it's bad, tumblr shouldn't do this, this'll let AI models get continual updates of content for far easier than just scraping them would be, tumblr betrayed user trust, and so on...
but realistically, this is not a black and white matter of "if only tumblr didn't do this, then we'd be safe from AI models!"
Nope. We already lost that battle. I'm sorry, and it does suck, but that's just how it is. The avalanche has already started, it's too late for the pebbles to vote. * I'm assuming here that you don't run a private blog that's set to only followers or something. You'd be safer then, of course, but you're not really my target audience for this rant
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MANIFESTATION, AND IT'S CORE
this isn't a FUCKING joke. all of this isn't some big lie just so people can mess with you.
it's not "too good to be true", it's not "one day I will", it's not "can I?", it's not it's not it's not. it's REAL, it's LITERAL, it's YOURS.
it's different names for the SAME FUCKING THING. IT'S ALL THE SAME. one's not harder than the other, one's not easier than the other. it's the EXACT same.
lucid dreaming is the same as shifting which is same as manifesting which is same as the void. it's all the same. THE ESSENCE OF IT IS ALL THE SAME.
and the FACT is that it's all yours. NO, you don't have the "power to do it" because YOU DON'T NEED THAT BULLSHIT. it's YOURS.
there's no "specific time", "special day", "the one moment", "the one word" that'll make you shift/everything else. there's no nothing. there's nothing that you'll find that'll "make you" shift. there's no secret formula, secret recipe, "oh, maybe I'm doing this wrong", "wait, maybe if I do this", "maybe if I try that". there's just you, and everything that's already yours. SO OWN UP TO IT. SAY IT WITH YOUR DAMN CHEST THAT IT'S YOURS. SAY IT SO LOUD THAT EVEN SOMEONE IN THE DEPTHS OF HELL AND IN THE HEIGHTS OF HEAVEN HEIGHTS CAN HEAR THAT IT'S YOURS. say it with such a sense of entitlement that GOD HIMSELF hears you, sees you, and acknowledges you.
IT'S YOURS, IT'S YOURS, IT'S YOURS. say it until you feel sick of it. say it until your brain's fried. say it until you're out of it. say it UNTIL YOU CAN MEAN IT when you say IT'S YOURS.
one assumption, one assumption is all it takes. one sentence that you don't question. hell, question it even. doesn't matter. even so, one assumption is what it takes to be the you who has it all. the assumption that you ARE the you who has it all.
don't even believe. don't. don't even think twice. don't bother at all. don't do nothing. you don't NEED to do nothing. because you already are the you who has what you want.
what you desire was already yours before it was even put in your heart. it has been yours when it appeared. its completely yours when you work towards having it. it's yours to enjoy when you finally have it. so enjoy it throughout. enjoy it when you're persisting that you have it. enjoy it when an intrusive thought arises. enjoy it when you question it's validity. because it was yours the moment the big bang happened, and it was yours before it happened, and it was yours when nothing existed, and it's yours when the world ends. it's yours from start to end.
if it wasn't yours, it would've passed you by, and you wouldn't even have any idea. if it wasn't yours, you wouldn't be here right now. if it wasn't yours, you wouldn't be trying even if you're doubting it. if it wasn't yours, it wouldn't have found you in a hundred lifetimes.
you cannot make this shit up. it's a FACT. you don't find anything. whatever is yours, finds you. you cannot escape what's yours. that is your blessing. take it. own it. live it.
you're NEVER chasing. your desires chase you. they WANT to be yours. you CAN live without them. you definitely can. they can't. but since they're yours, they move with you, and so in your frame, it looks like you're chasing after them. that you have to have them. SO WIDEN YOUR FRAME. WIDEN THAT FUCKING PICTURE. ZOOM THE FUCK OUT. SEE, that they continue chasing after you, trying to catch up. so own them. stop running. give yourself a break. take a breather. what are you chasing after anyway? when everything is yours since the beginning of the world, and even before that. you're making your life awfully like Achilles's. stop going so fast that you pass your desires and then end up behind them. stop running in circles. stop, and relax. you've reached the end line. you ARE the end line. let your desires come to YOU. that's what you deserve, and that is EXACTLY what you have.
you will have exactly what you intend. intention matters, and actions follow. so intend big, assume the "impossible", and watch it appear before you. the mind is a powerful thing. it always works in your favor, but only if you keep it under your control. do not let it even DARE to think it can control you. don't YOU ever think it can control you. sit down with it. tell it your desires. tell it that you already HAVE your desires. and most importantly, tell it that it has to work for you NO MATTER WHAT. because that is what it's supposed to do. that's it's purpose.
no, you're not GOD. you're YOU. that's your power. GOD has too much to take care of. the wind; it's direction, the water; its flow, the rain; where it falls, the leaves; when they wither, your next breath that you'll take, every single person on this once fully green Earth. he's constantly taking care of everyone else. do you have the time to take care of every single individual alive and breathing right now? honestly, no. you're not gonna sit here saying "oh, yeah. let me pay the debts of someone on the other end of the world who probably doesn't even know me". I know I won't. is that selfish? I don't care. I deserve everything that I want as much as anyone else in this whole wide world. so no. NO NO NO. you're nothing, but YOU. you don't "make it happen", you don't have to. you assume, it happens. you intend, its here. that's YOU. you don't have to sit down and plan HOW what you want will happen, you sit down and assume it'll happen, and it will.
anyways, yeah. you get the point. you are you, do not try to be anything or anyone else. be you, do you, for you. and everything will be yours. it already is. you are the CORE, the CENTER, the start and the end.
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(top male reader x older bottom character)
being a sugar baby to an older man but you're the top >>>
you're so much younger and so much smaller than him. he's literally towering above you whenever you guys are together. people will always assume that he's the top in your relationship.
you are not even struggling with money, you're doing this just because you can. i mean, who doesn't want a handsome man taking care of you and pampering you with money everyday ?
you met him when you were scrolling through a dating app, seeing his profile that barely shows his face. he did messaged you first, asking to meet up if you're free and you agreed. you lowkey expected someone ugly to come but you don't even care at this point, anything for a thousand dollars i guess. you were so glad that you were wrong when you actually saw him face to face. for someone his age, he's really attractive.
you guys constantly meet up after that, just going on dates anytime you're both free. he paid for everything though, you did offered to pay sometimes but he always refused it. it was just casual until you both went drinking one day, getting so drunk that he ended up getting pounded by you that night. you were scared that everything will end here and you'll never see him again
but the next day, he offered you a position. you'll be his personal dildo and he'll pamper you with money everyday. this is like the best offer you've ever received. sex with someone as attractive as him and getting paid at the same time ? fuck yeah
at this point, most of your friends knew about this relationship as you literally started wearing expensive clothes and saying that you're busy anytime your friends asked to hangout. they sometimes asked the reasons why you can't hangout with them and you'll just says that you have something important to do at night. you weren't exactly lying though
pushing his head into the pillow, grabbing his hips so roughly that it leave marks behind. his hole tightly clamped into your cock, you leaned closer to him "it's so funny how everyone think you're the top" you whispered to his ear "when you're literally getting fucked like a whore everynight" you continued, pulling your cock out of his hole.
he turns to look at you right away, whimpering, feeling empty as his hole clenched on nothing "please...don't pull it out" he begged so sweetly, tears running down his face. you smiled at him, grabbing his arm to turned his body to you so you can see him completely. it caught him off guard as you'll always do it from behind "i wanna see your face while i ruined you tonight" you said, your hand reached out and touched his face, wiping his tears away. leaning towards him to kiss his swollen lips
you slide your cock inside of him again, pulling away from the kiss and slowly speeding up your pace. his hands grabbed the sheets, mouth agape with sweets sounds coming out of it. his poor useless cock bouncing everytime you thrusts into him, just leaking precum all over his stomach "i..want to- ah! cum.. i want to cum~!" he repeated, looking at your face for approval. you smiled at him, nodding your head as your hand reached out to touch his cock. teasing the tip before pumping it roughly
he came first, his eyes roll back as the white liquid spurt all over his stomach and your hand. you slammed your cock so deep inside of him as you release your load in him.
falling asleep and waking up the next day to him being gone from your side. only leaving money on the nightstand. you sighed and took the money. sitting on the edge of the bed, getting ready to go through your day like usual. dont worry, you'll see him again tonight.
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I don't think there's much point in discussing which version of jayce (or any character for the matter) is more "morally correct", and a majority of your post isn't even about the characters' moral and ethical differences. I understand the point you're making, but season one of arcane was an adaption of league lore that functioned as a prequel to the main universe, and while it was never intended to replace the games canon they still took a great level of care to expand upon the existing material when writing the characters despite the differences between them.
jayce talis and jayce giopara have the same core personality traits and hold the same core principles, talis is simply an alternative interpretation of giopara with the writers choosing to focus on different attributes of jayceâs character that were better fit for the story they wanted to tell with arcane.
(continued utc because this got a bit long)
for the sake of this analysis Iâm ignoring season two because it sucks and I hate it and those are not the same fucking guys. you are free to disagree, Iâm just making it clear where I stand and why Iâve chosen to not address certain points.
he ignores the council and does what he wants, enacting vigilante justice at the cost of innocent lives (including an actual child).
giopara also enacts vigilante justice at the cost of innocent lives. when viktor stole the hexite crystal he didnât tell anyone and instead built his hammer, went down to zaun, killed all of the people whose lives viktor was trying to save because he assumed viktor was up to no good despite admitting he didnât know what the glorious evolution was about, and he started smashing everything in sight after viktor tried to kill him because he assumed all of the people hooked up to viktorâs machine were already dead. only after destroying the entire warehouse and the crystal did he go back to piltover where he finally told the proper authorities of the situation, and with only his side of the story being told he was lauded as a hero for his actions despite being anything but.
the difference between that and talisâ raid on the shimmer factory with vi is that talis did not have the luxury of ignorance that giopara did. talis had to witness the harm his rash actions caused and was forced to confront the role he played in the conditions that lead to that child being killed directly by a shot from the weapon he never should have made. even though he was only trying to do what he believed was the right thingâthe good thingâto do, he realized that he isnât the hero he dreamed he was.Â
he doesnât THINK. he has no sense of consequencesâof course if you keep unsecured, highly unstable and explosive materials in your residential apartment, things might blow up in your face (literally!). of course your patron wonât support youâshe is beholden to social opinion.
again, this is also applicable to giopara, though itâs not that he has no sense of consequence in general, but that he doesnât understand the consequences his assumptions and preconceived biases have. you even showcase an example of this phenomenon later in the post:
he doesnât speak up for viktor when the stanwick thing happens, itâs true, but doubtless he simply expected viktor to wow and amaze with a different project and be happy with the credit from that.Â
and then giopara. he has no true family, instead is left to the bloodthirsty clans who want him for what he can give them. + he hates politics and only gets into them to appease his investors so he can do what he actually wants.
talis is also constantly beholden to the whims of the piltovian elite and was forced into politics to appease investors. throughout season one we see his frustration with the system, whether it be red tape keeping him and viktor from doing what they wish to do with hextech, or the rampant corruption he is forced to participate in upon having the role of councilor thrust upon him with no warning and against his wishes. the frustration is what fuels his decision to kick heimerdinger off the council, his decision to order the blockade, his decision to raid the shimmer factory with vi, and his decision to seek out silco in order to negotiate for zaunâs independence. the culmination of that arc results in this moment from episode nine:
talis is DONE with all of the bullshit, and for all intents and purposes I had expected him to have some sort of depression induced assholeification arc in season two that wouldâve brought him somewhat more in line with his league personality, but obviously that didn't happen.
heâs alone, alone, alone. and then heâs not. he meets this other brilliant mind, the only one who can keep up with him. i mean how insane would that be? he must have been at least a little obsessed with viktor because of that.Â
this is talisâ arc in act one. no one believed in the idea that magic could be utilized by science, no believed that it could be used for good, not even his own mother believed him. heâd been shunned by everybody who once supported him, and just as heâs about to end it all, here comes this guy who says âhey, youâre on to something. I believe in hextech, I believe in you, and I want to help make this dream of yours a reality.â talisâ immediate response is to go âno, this is OUR dream.â that is not normal individual behavior.Â
then picture jayce, in all his egotistical glory, drunk on life and the belief that he and viktor are the brightest minds alive, when viktor shows him the diver suits. why does he resist? why does he care? no one in his life is telling him to care. he just does. he sees the devices for what they are, or at least what they could be twisted to be, and calls viktor out on it.
this is such an odd point, why does giopara resist? why does he care? you shouldnât have to be told to care about something to care about it. this is not a point in gioparaâs favor over talis that makes him âbetterâ, because talis also cares about things without being told to. why does he resist heimerdinger regarding his disapproval of the hexcore? why does he care? because he sees the hexcore for what it is, what it could beâa cure to save his best friends lifeâand heâs tired of heimerdinger and his fear of progress being a roadblock, so he calls him out on it and uses his newfound power as a councilor to kick him off of it.
in conclusion, jayce talis is just jayce giopara if he had character development and his characterization revolved around the societal conflict between piltover and zaun instead of the personal conflict between him and viktor.
here comes a long post iâm fucking sorry lmao
a really interesting point was raised the other day about who the better person is (morally): jayce talis or jayce giopara? [insert obligatory admission about the fact that giopara has an annoying personality].
Like, talis is of course nice and kind and wonderful, perhaps a bit naive, but i donât think we talk about how far heâs willing to go for what he believes. he weaponizes hextech because mel asks him to, and he doesnât think further. he blatantly ignores viktorâs wishes about destroying the hexcore, even using it on his corpse to reanimate him. he ignores the council and does what he wants, enacting vigilante justice at the cost of innocent lives (including an actual child). he set up the fucking hexgates in such a way that they pollute the water supply of the undercity. and then, when heâs back from his sabbatical in hell, he goes to viktor. he looks him in the eyes, with the weapon he never wanted him to make, and he shoots him. what the actual fuck this guy is unhinged. he doesnât THINK. he has no sense of consequencesâof course if you keep unsecured, highly unstable and explosive materials in your residential apartment, things might blow up in your face (literally!). of course your patron wonât support youâshe is beholden to social opinion. of course weapons can never be unmade and are always used. of course using the scary magical dodecahedron your partner begged you to destroy to bring said partner back from the dead will bring him back Different â˘ď¸. come on Jayce.
and then giopara. he has no true family, instead is left to the bloodthirsty clans who want him for what he can give them. heâs antisocial. heâs fucking annoying. heâs a diva đ. heâs impossible to work with but impossible to get rid of because heâs just that smart. he hates politics and only gets into them to appease his investors so he can do what he actually wants. he doesnât give a fuck about the common people who look up to him so much. heâs alone, alone, alone. and then heâs not. he meets this other brilliant mind, the only one who can keep up with him. i mean how insane would that be? he must have been at least a little obsessed with viktor because of that. then picture jayce, in all his egotistical glory, drunk on life and the belief that he and viktor are the brightest minds alive, when viktor shows him the diver suits. why does he resist? why does he care? no one in his life is telling him to care. he just does. he sees the devices for what they are, or at least what they could be twisted to be, and calls viktor out on it. he doesnât speak up for viktor when the stanwick thing happens, itâs true, but doubtless he simply expected viktor to wow and amaze with a different project and be happy with the credit from that. and then viktor leaves. and jayce is a one man act again. like always. like forever and always. jayce acts wrongly, itâs true, when it comes to viktor and destroying his lab and accidentally killing those people, but he saw what he thought was evil and he went for it. no thought of what he could lose. no thought of who he could lose.
idk man thereâs something about these two. by no means do i think talis is a bad person, in fact i think heâs a fundamentally good one. but heâs just so fucking naive, and towards the end heâs willing to do ANYTHING for what he believes, no matter the grisly consequences. heâs fucking scary. heâs unhinged. giopara on the other hand has a terrible personality, but is completely unwavering in his beliefs no matter the cost to himself or his relationships. viktor asked him to work together again, and he said âget a psyche evalâ and slammed the door.
#sorry for dropping an essay on you op for if I do not yap I will explode and die#text#not t/oaru#not r/vb#arcane#still not making a lol tag < is my lol tag#q
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How to spot Liberal Zionist Propaganda 101
This post is by no means exhaustive at all. There are many Liberal Zionist talking points but these are just some of the most common ones. While on the surface they seem a little naive and hopeful at best, they are very much harmful. If you claim to be an ally to Palestinians, this post is primarily for you!
For starters, liberal Zionists will often try to both-sides the issue of Palestine, talk about how it's complicated, they'll claim that the conflict hurts both Israelis and Palestinians, how the only way forward is one where Jews and Arabs "just need to get along," amongst other things. They also often like to centre themselves, even when acknowledging Palestinians as the victims of Israel or this "conflict." From time to time, they also like to engage in tokenising certain Palestinians whose views tend to more or less align with theirs. Here are some common arguments you may hear from them:
1. Any form of justifying Israel's existence or claiming that the only solution is two states
It does not really need to be said why justifying Israel's existence is harmful but justifying its continued existence also means legitimising Israel's land theft, its expulsions of Palestinians, and its ongoing harm to Palestinians and other populations. Reducing any sorts of âsolutionsâ into a binary is unhelpful. Needless to say, a 2ss would not even address any legitimate concerns Palestinian have, such as the right of return, and would only legitimise Israelâs colonialism. Talking about a two-state solution also implies that the root of the conflict lies in Palestinians not having their own state rather than being an occupied people. It is very much also possible to construct a paradigm where Jews and Palestinians both live together on the same land as equal citizens that doesn't involve two separate states, much less an ethnostate.
2. Security for Israel could only come through peace
This is a similar talking point to the one above. Not only does it centre Israeli safety and security above Palestinian liberation but it mistakenly assumes that once Israel makes peace with Palestinians, it'll achieve security. The reality, however, is that Israel's imagined security has quite often come at the expense of peace. In fact, "peace" has just acted as nothing more than a smoke-screen for Israel to carry out its expansionist policies, particularly in the West Bank. When liberal Zionists talk about peace juxtaposed with Israeli security, they're talking about attaining a negative peace rather than a positive one.
3. Israelis are not their government.
This point does nothing to actually help Palestinians. It is also an incredibly tone-deaf thing to say when Israel has targeted many Palestinian civilians by having alleged proximity to Hamas, such as being family members of militants or leaders (inc. children!), civil servants in a Hamas-led government, or even any male above the age of 15 they consider to be a potential combatant! It also deliberately erases Israeli civilians' support of and culpability in Israel's actions towards Palestinians.
4. Netanyahu and/or the Israeli right are the source of conflict.
While it is true that things have gotten inadvertently worse under Israel's various right-wing governments, they are not the source of conflict, but rather a product of extremist nationalism and Jewish supremacy perpetuated by the system. Both the 1967 occupations and settlements were undertaken under centre-left governments in Israel, and Israeli policy under non-right wing governments has been just as harmful towards Palestinians and has paved the way for where we are today. Blaming Netanyahu just also obscures the violent nature of Israel's military occupation over Palestinians which long precede him coming into power.
5. Netanyahu and Hamas are two sides of the same coin
I don't think I've seen any allies give validity to this claim but it's an extremely reductionist claim and is sort of similar to the one above. Groups like Hamas are merely a response to the Israeli occupation while Netanyahu is a byproduct of it. While some Israelis may see Hamas or their actions as an "obstacle to peace," Israel's actions and policies long pre-date Hamas and how Israel is currently responding to Hamas is no different to how Israel has engaged with Palestinian militant groups in the past, regardless of political affiliations or political goals. It is also important to note that Hamas has agreed to the establishment of a state along 1967 borders while Netanyahu aims to prolong the occupation and empower the settler movement (some of whom are part of his coalition government) as much as possible.
6. Israel is not a settler-colonial state.
While it is indisputable that Jews have historical connections to Palestine, that doesnât automatically make you Indigenous or negate Israeli settler-colonialism. Colonialism in particular describes a relationship of exploitation. There are many cases of this, but we most clearly see this in the West Bank where Israel exploits natural resources on occupied Palestinian territory for its own political and economic gains. In terms of settler-colonialism, it is widely known that Israel expelled hundreds of thousands of Palestinians to make way for Jewish refugees and migrants to the new state of Israel, and is still actively facilitating Jewish migration to Israel today while denying Palestinians their right of return.
7. (X) doesn't help Palestinians.
It is not up to anyone to determine whether certain tactics or strategies are helpful or not. This point only seeks to discredit pro-Palestine organising. Only Palestinians get to decide what is actually helpful for the cause or not.
8. Any sort of Hamas-blaming.
On the surface it may seem like thereâs nothing wrong with this, but this point is often harmful and usually lends itself to right-wing talking points because its objective is to deflect blame away from Israel. Certain arguments blaming Hamas also aim to minimise Palestinian suffering perpetuated by Israel. It also paints Israeli violence as retaliatory to Palestinian violence which only obfuscates Israelâs (and by extension, the USâ) role in its state military apparatus and the differing power dynamics between Israelis and Palestinians. In other contexts, this point seeks to also legitimise certain opposition, such as the Palestinian Authority. Hamas-blaming also tends to sometimes lead to racist diatribes about Palestinians and their culture.
9. Al-Jazeera is not a credible news source.
Al Jazeera is a news source like any other. It has varying editorial policies and therefore will have equally good reporting on certain issues while having terrible reporting on others. The difference is that Al-Jazeera's news on Palestine is credible because it comes directly from their Palestinian reporters on the ground and first-hand eyewitness accounts. Western news sources are no more or less credible than al-Jazeera. Compare this to CNN, NYT, and any other Western news sources where Palestinian voices are often entirely missing from the narrative.
10. Overemphasis of antisemitism on the left
Antisemitism is a real issue and has the potential to fester in left circles if not directly addressed head on. Combatting antisemitism is extremely important, however, it is not an issue exclusive to the left. There is also a double standard in that no one expects Zionists to call out Islamophobia and anti-Palestinian racism. Certain accusations of "antisemitism" also seek to distract from what's going on in Palestine by making it about Jewish comfort and feelings. Combatting antisemitism, Islamophobia, anti-Arab racism etc is always important as the basis of good politics.
Last but not least, be wary of native collaborators or any sort of normalisers! They are Palestinians or Arabs who try very hard to appeal to Western liberal consensus and can end up perpetuating a lot of harm to the cause and/or other activists. You will know them when you see them.
#palestine#israel#liberal zionism#other palestinians feel free to add onto this whether it be other points or anything else
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The answer to aspecs asking you to stop assuming [thing] about all aspecs is not to start assuming [opposite of thing] about all aspecs btw.
"Stop assuming all AlloAros have a lot of sex (or "are sluts")" does not mean "Start assuming no AlloAro has lots of sex" and also not "No AlloAro ever feels comfortable calling themselves a slut (or whore or w/e)" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aros are loveless and non-partnering" does not mean "start assuming all aros do love ("in non-romantic ways") and are always partnering" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aces are sex-repulsed" does not mean "start assuming all aces are sex-favourable", and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aplatonic people want to make friends" does not mean "start assuming no aplatonic people want to make friends" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all [aros or aces, mostly*] experience no [romantic or sexual, mostly*] attraction" does not mean "start assuming all [aros or aces] experience some form of [romantic or sexual attraction]" and vice-versa.
[Continue ad infinitum; these are just some examples and listing all things like that would be impossible.]
Just stop making assumptions about people based on one part of their identity. If they decide they want you to know, they'll tell you. If you want to know, you can ask, and maybe they'll give an answer (don't act like you're owed one, tho).
Accept that all people are different and even people under the same queer identity are going to have a vastly different experience; especially vast umbrellas like the aspec-identities. Instead of taking what one aspec person says about their identity as true for everyone under that same identity and then taking everything else as a "contradiction" to that label, or as something that needs another or a different label, simply accept that different people are going to have a different experience even if they use the same words to describe them.
It's really not that hard.
[*I think this may also apply to other aspec-identities (aplatonic, afamilial, atertriary, etc), right? I see these takes mostly inside of and directed at aro- and ace-spaces; but it also seems like it just applies across the board, non-aro and non-ace aspec-identities are just lesser known and thus not discussed as often.]
#aspec#aspec community#aromantic#aro#asexual#ace#aplatonic#apl#alloaro#aroallo#loveless#loveless aro
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wavelength | s.r.
in which your son ends up in the hospital on one of the BAUs busiest nights of the year
margotober masterlist
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: angst (hurt/comfort) content warnings: child in hospital with unnamed illness, seizures, pregnant!reader, boy dad!spencer, MRIs, head injury word count: 1.96k a/n: this is my little reid family from three's a family, but as usual, you don't have to read that one to understand this one. (it's one of the cryptic pregnancy ones so maybe keep that in mind lmao) - welcome back to the spencer reid dilf agenda, i missed it
You take a deep breath, trying to steady your thumbs enough to press the call button, tapping the green icon, you press your phone to your ear, listening to the rings as you keep your other hand on the bed in front of you.
Sniffling, Leo holds your hand in his much smaller one, âMama?â His voice is little more than a whine, and you find yourself wishing heâd fall asleep while you wait for his turn in radiology.
âYeah, lovey?â You whisper, squeezing his fingers gently as he looks at you with sad eyes.
His eyes were sad in a way that only a three-year-oldâs could be, not quite understanding why he had to stay in the hospital, and continuously asking for his parents. âI donât feel good,â he mumbles, his voice soft as he shifts on his side in the hospital bed.
Your shoulders slouch ever so slightly, trying not to show him how much of his displeasure you shared, âI know. Iâm so sorry.â They were holding off on giving him more medication, but it just made him miserable.
Starting to wonder if they could just give him something to help him rest, you distantly hear your name being called, taking a moment to be confused before you remember that you called Spencer.
âHey,â you greet a little breathlessly, âAre you working?â You move your hand, smoothing back Leoâs hair in an attempt to coax him to sleep.
You hear a shuffling of papers on the other end of the call, answering your question well enough before he responds verbally, âWeâre just trying to finish a few things up before calling it a night.â
Bowing your head, you sigh, âRight, you have that senate review next week.â
Spencer groans at the reminder of the meeting, âAnd finding some of these files is proving to be difficult. I think Garciaâs just about had it, but weâre all starting to get to that point. Why the call? Not that Iâm unhappy to hear your voice,â he clarifies. âDid Leo get to sleep alright?â
You falter slightly knowing that Spencer is already stressing about work, âHoney,â you start softly, âLeoâs alright, but I had to call an ambulance for him about an hour ago.â
âWhat happened? You said heâs alright?â He asks, fear changing the pitch of his voice.
Swallowing thickly, you watch Leo continue to fight sleep, his brown eyes watching you while youâre on the phone. âThey think he had a seizure,â you whisper, keeping your voice down so that your son doesnât catch onto your anxiety.
Thereâs a shuffle of papers on the other end, âIs he sick? Was it a febrile seizure?â
âUh, no, hold on,â you flip through the pamphlet, âThey called it a drop seizure when we were in the emergency room, and they did an EEG.â You explain, reading over the papers in front of you for the nth time.
Spencer talks to someone else in the room, hopefully letting them know that he has to leave, âWhat happened?â
Tears prick your eyes, and you look up into the fluorescent light to will them away, âI was just getting him ready for bed, and he went to go potty, and he just fell. He hit his head on the tub and I just⌠I panicked,â you admit the last part. âI was not very collected, and the 911 operator knew that,â you tell him, watching Leoâs eyes finally fall shut.
âI wouldnât have been either,â Spencer assures you, âWhat hospital did they bring you to?â
Rattling off the name of the hospital, you risk assuming that Leoâs asleep enough for you to step back, enabling you to speak at a higher volume, âCan you leave work?â You werenât even thinking about how busy the BAU was when you called, you were just thinking about getting Leo his dad. âThey want to do an MRI, and heâs allowed to have someone in there with him, so he doesnât get scared,â you explain.
âBut you canât,â Spencer needlessly reminds you.
A huff of frustration escapes your lips as you look down, eyes focusing on where your shirt catches on the soft swell of your lower belly. âNo, I canât,â you say miserably.
A nurse walks through the door, sparing a pitying glance at you, the pregnant mom whose toddler was in the PICU, before checking on Leoâs vitals. Spencer clears his throat, âIâm already on my way.â
You lose track of time, sitting in the reclining chair that lives in the corner of the PICU room, and memories of Leoâs first month of life start to flash in front of your eyes. He was a thirty-two-weeker, and he spent twenty-nine days in the NICU before coming home for the first time.
You felt like a failure then, and you feel like a failure now.
Tapping your fingers on your belly, you watch Leo sleep, his body curled up on the hospital bed and collodion stuck to his forehead. You remember finding out you were pregnant again, the overwhelming joy that mixed with the stunned fear like oil and waterâSpencer had to remind you to breathe.
Something caught your attention, a small, high-pitched beep from one of Leoâs monitors sent a group of people flying into the room, standing around your son and listing off things that your fear-addled brain couldnât comprehend.
Heâs there when you stand up, Spencer stays at your side for all twenty-one seconds of Leoâs second seizure, watching as strength returns to his tiny body and his eyes open, âMama?â His small voice calls out for you, afraid of being surrounded by doctors and nurses that he doesnât know.
Slipping away from Spencer, you make your way back to the hospital bed, hovering over your son as you cup his cheeks affectionately, âIâm here, baby.â Hiding your face to wipe tears away, your fear that he still feels ill is only exacerbated by the fact that he doesnât insist that heâs not a babyâheâll always be yours, though.
Sitting on the edge of the bed, you let him see past you, the way his eyes light up at the sight of his father, âDaddy!â He chirps, trying to reach out for Spencer.
âHey, buddy,â Spencer says, his voice tight while he crouches in front of Leo, âMama says you donât feel good.â
Leo shakes his head, âI hit my head,â he recounts mournfully, âthen we had to go in the loud car.â
Your husband frowns for a moment before he realizes Leoâs talking about the ambulance, âDid they tell you I get to go with you to get your tests done?â He warps the narrative to make the MRI seem like a fun activityâsomething they get to do.
âCan mama go?â Leo asks, tilting his head to the side slightly, leaning into you as he does so.
Gently, you wrap an arm around him, dressed in a pediatric hospital gown with all kinds of wires and electrodes attached to him. âMama has to stay up here,â Spencer breaks the news to him, sparing you a sympathetic glance, âbut sheâll be here when we get back. Then, we can tell her and the baby all about it.â
The baby wonât be able to hear outside voices until youâre much further along, but when Spencer tried to explain that to your toddler, the only response heâd gotten was Why?
As it turns out, even Spencer Reid has a limit to the number of questions he can answer, so you let Leo talk to the baby. âIâll be right here when you get back,â you reassure Leo, taking a shaky breath when he wraps his arms around you.
Heâs in tears by the time they come to get him, only willing to go to radiology if they let his daddy carry him there.
Youâve let go of the hope that this was all just a freak incident, but the looks that the nurses have started exchanging squashed that optimism immediately. Taking the opportunity to lie on the hospital bed, you try to reassure yourselfâif Spencer didnât seem worried, you shouldnât be worried.
Though Spencer wouldnât show his concern to you, he certainly wouldnât do it with Leo in the room.
You donât know when you fell asleep, but youâre woken up by something being set on your side, your eyes cracking open just enough to watch Spencer lay Leo down on the bed next to you. âHey,â Spencer whispers, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead, âI was trying not to wake you up.â
Cringing at the brightness of the room, you watch Leo as he curls into your side, âHow did he do?â
âHe was great,â Spencer says, gently ruffling the sleeping boyâs hair. âHe fell asleep about halfway through,â he informs you, carefully pulling a chair up to the bedside.
You hum, making sure Leo is snug in his blanket before turning back to Spencer, âIâm sorry I didnât call you sooner.â
Spencer shakes his head dismissively, âItâs okay,â he whispers, mindful of the hourâitâs nearing midnight now.
Reaching a hand up to cover your mouth, you hiccup a sob, âIâm a bad mom.â
âYou are not a bad mom,â Spencer responds quickly, peeling your hand from your mouth and taking it in his hand.
Your lower lip quivers, âThis wouldnât have happened if he hadnât been born so early.â
Spencerâs face softens, squeezing your hand comfortingly, âThat wasnât your fault. That was a situation that you didnât have any control over.â
Deep down, you know heâs right, but your mom guilt that was on the surface level made the truth hard to see. âI couldnât even hold his hand while he got an MRI,â you cry, small tears falling from your eyes.
âHoney,â Spencer murmurs, carefully wiping the tears from your cheeks, âYouâre pregnant. Even more, youâre high risk,â Spencer reminds you as if itâs something youâre soon to forget. âThereâs no way I wouldâve let you in that room. You can blame that on me if youâd like.â
Leo shifts next to you, garnering your attention for just a moment before you turn back to Spencer, âI thought an MRI was better for pregnant women.â
Sighing, Spencer looks at you fondly, âCompared to a CT, an MRI is the better option if itâs medically necessary. Logically, Iâm well aware of this, but I do find myself more protective over you these days,â he admits, eyes flickering down to your bump.
You bite the inside of your cheek, âI shouldâve been watching him before he hit his head.â
Your husband dismisses your concern immediately, âWeâve been teaching him privacy, heâs proud that he gets to go potty on his own.â
âWhy wonât you let me feel guilty?â You ask, frowning at him.
He hums in response, âBecause you arenât guilty. Your baby is in the hospital, and you might have some unresolved issues from when he was in the NICU.â He takes a deep breath, âand as much as you hate to admit it, youâre tired, and you have a lot of conflicting emotions and hormones that youâre struggling with.â
Leaning your head back on the pillow, you sigh loudly, âYou know me too well.â
âI also know that our son loves you, and what happened tonight was not your fault,â he reiterates. âWhatever is going on with him, weâll figure it out, okay? The four of us are going to be just fine.â
Pressing your lips into a thin line, you nod in understanding and listen to the soft whistle of Leoâs nose as he exhales. âWeâll be just fine,â you echo, intertwining your fingers with Spencerâs and preparing yourself for whatâs bound to be a long night.
#criminal minds#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#criminal minds fanfic#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid angst#criminal minds fanfiction#spencer reid hurt/comfort#spencer reid x you#spencer reid fanfiction#spencer reid fic#criminal minds fic#criminal minds angst#spencer reid x fem!reader#spencer reid dilf agenda#written by margot
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and god help you if you're not binary trans and then god DOUBLE help you if you're not nb "the right way" aka "so basically i'm a third binary gender that looks exactly half way between girl and boy also i'm completely 100% human and 100% desire to be human and only human and just as invested in picking Gender Team to be on as everyone else because we all know the only thing that exists or matters in the universe is baseball and exactly what baseball team role you define your existence by permanently without ever even considering anything else right?"
the Trans Experience in our society is being treated like schrodinger's gender. you're a woman when they wanna deny you agency and a man when they wanna deny you support. this is an experience that unites nearly all of us, whether transmasc, transfem, or something else.
#most people even in queer spaces don't even believe you exist then. at best you get treated like woman lite#(but only if you were considered female originally. if not then you get treated like âdisguised man(derogatory)â#even by people who otherwise aren't fond of terfs)#and good fucking luck trying to explain any relationship with identity stranger/more complicated/GOD FORBID more distant#than the afformentioned 'i'm the third binary gender'#without *every single* other Not Straight/Cis person on earth IMMEDIATELY deciding on some level that you're just a narcissistic cis poser#and if you're very lucky they will be polite enough not to say so to your face immediately upon every interaction#but will still continue to treat all of your opinions and inclusion under their umbrella as a polite afterthought the existence of which#is entirely dependent on you never actually saying anything or having any opinions or needs/wants in general#and never attempting to actually *use* any of that Queer âCommunityâ Cred or expect to have like. voting rights within said âcommunityâ#well allow you to pretend you're one of us so long as you sit down shut up and don't expect us to ever actually give you a club creditcard#purely for our own convenience of course. but when the chips are down you'll be our meatshield and we expect you to thank us#for even allowing you to be that much in our presence#and xenogenders? voidpunk? even the most basic types of multigender/fluid? god for your own safety just fucking forget about it.#half the lgbtqa+ population will consider your very existence personally offensive enough to actively want to explode you with their mind#and the other half will condescendingly pat you on the head and assume you're a furry and/or that you're only like this because autism#as if it's any of their damn business#and the good old universal fallback âanyone who likes/thinks/feels a thing i think is weird can only possibly be doing it because fetishâ#i still rememebr years ago when people were clamoring for a trans npc on flight rising but ignoring that scribbles was right there#because scribbles is they/them nonbinary so they âdon't countâ#people still don't count them last i saw#in the same breath they were insisting galore (a cis man character to my knowledge) absolutely HAD to be trans because#âthe shape of his eyesockets looks too femaleâ which is uncomfortably reminiscent of just straight up terf bone structure arguments
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barbados is a mindset
âYes. You are now in Barbados. And so⌠you see Barbados, and you see America from Barbados, and you can smell the tropical land of Barbados, see only the little homes of Barbados, and thatâs all you do. You just simply sleep this night in Barbados.â - Abdullah tells Neville.
Before Neville Goddard knew of the law and practiced it, his country was plunged in a state of instability. Poverty runs rampant as the global stock market crashes, sparking panic and leaving many penniless. Neville explained the vivid details of homeless people scattered all over tunnels and city square, eyes void of hope for the future. He was unemployed just like millions of others, his career as a dancer wasnât enough to support his living. Neville lived in a basement for years with little to no income until one day, he met his friend, Abdullah.Â
Abdullah was well-off and is the son of the US secretary of the Treasury, who served under the 32nd president. The differences between them were large and Neville was aware of it. He confided in his friend and told him that he has this haunting desire to visit Barbados again. The only thing that was stopping Neville though, was the lack of money. In which Abdullah says,Â
âYou are in Barbados.â
Of course, Neville thought he was nuts but the man decided to try and assume that he was in Barbados. That night, he went to sleep thinking that he would wake up in Barbados, only to be disappointed that he woke up in the cold basement he called his home. Neville would come back and tell Abdullah that it didnât work, only for the latter to ignore him. Despite that Neville kept persisting and on the morning of December, he got a letter from his older brother asking him to visit his family in Barbados â his brother had paid a third class ticket. Excited, Neville told Abdullah that he is going to Barbados however, his friend was unimpressed. Abdullah told Neville that he wasnât boarding a third class ticket, he was going to go there with a first class ticket.Â
And guess what? When Neville gave his ticket to the clerk by the desk as theyâre checking in passengers, they told him that someone canceled their first class ticket, therefore a spot was available for him.Â
Abdullah ignored Neville when he said âit didnât workâ because it did work, if Neville was assuming that he was in Barbados, they wouldnât be having this discussion about him not being there. What can you take from this story? I would say that unfortunate circumstances don't matter, especially when we see how bad and dire Nevilleâs financial situation was. Come on, he was in a country torn apart by war and poverty, yet he was still able to visit Barbados. Neville didnât think of how heâd get there, he just simply assumed that he was there, and his 3D reality follows right after.Â
Barbados is a mindset. If you can imagine yourself having it and then accept that it is yours, youâre at the end. Your assumption is the fetus, continue nourishing it with beliefs and affirmations â let that child grow and become. If you drop your assumption that basically means youâre neglecting the fetus, and it will eventually die from starvation.Â
It doesn't matter if you have no money, it doesn't matter if you're in an abusive situation, it doesn't matter that you barely have a roof over your head. You are already in Barbados, tune into your inner man and bask in that.
EDIT: My apologies for getting the information mixed up. Abdullah is not the son of US secretary, rather he lived in a house that was rented by the latter. Sorry for the confusion!
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June Egbert is, and always has been incredibly fascinating to me because of just, how many factors have conspired to make Homestuck fans show their collective transmisogynistic asses.
The main character of Homestuck transitioning is a planned future plot point for the official continuation of homestuck, that was spoiled in advance by a fan making a joke about finding some toblerones Andrew Hussie the author of homestuck hid in a cave.
The current main writers of Homestuck: Beyond Canon have went on record in an AMA confirming that this was indeed always the plan, even before they took up the project.
In spite of these facts, the general consensus among certain homestuck fans seems to be that "June Egbert" is purely a headcanon for the original comic that was "made canon" by a "Toblerone Wish" (a concept that didn't even exist at the time)
For a variety of reasons, the "canonicity" of the postcanon official continuations of homestuck is a mattter of much debate, (though a debate that most homestuck fans seem to err on a side of "it's not canon at all in the slightest," something the writers have feelings on I'm sure.)
All of these factors combined leave the concept of "June Egbert" in a very nebulous place. It's assumed by most to just be an "ascended headcanon" that was shoehorned in, it's a spoiler so it hasn't happened yet in any official media, and the official media it will eventually happen in is regarded by some to be nothing more than glorified fanfic.
If someone is talking about June Egbert, and you don't like the concept of June Egbert, you have your pick of a million different excuses for why she's fake and gay and not worth discussing and bad writing and just the authors doing a gay dumbledore*, paying lip service to representation while actually doing nothing.
And of course, lots of people *don't* like June Egbert! Rather than being introduced as transfem from the start, she's in this nebulous position of discovery where people have to truly reckon with the idea of a "Pre-transition Trans Woman."
You can try to write off *some* of the backlash as transphobia, because obviously not everyone in this fandom is gonna be cool about trans people.
But there's no shortage of fans just dying to tell you about how much they like reading her as transmasc, or the idea of her being nonbinary or genderqueer or genderfluid, or literally anything besides a trans woman. And since they're fine with all those other interpretations, there's obviously no implicit biases driving their distaste for the concept! (if you want to try explaining the concept of "transmisogyny" to people like this you're braver than I.)
you can trust them when they say it's *just* a problem with whether or not it makes sense with the writing, or it just doesn't feel right somehow, or any of the thousands of excuses that this writing situation gives them to just Not Like It.
It's just, so interesting to me. There's not a lot of characters out there that get a trans arc in this way, that leaves room for open denialism and insistence that we have our trans cake and eat it too... Because Homestuck is a timeline spanning multiverse story, lots of people seem to want it to be an alternate timeline thing. Assuring us we can have this character share space with a non-transitioning version of herself and it won't be weird or imply gross things about trans people.
If you ask me it feels like a plotline that'd be really good for exploring some gender horror though, finding your true self and then being demoted to a footnote, an alternate version, because everyone around you likes your pre-transition self more....
Anyway I have no broader point beyond "hey look at this isn't this kinda weird. You don't get this kinda stuff often!"
*side note: it's a little ghoulish I think to compare "a future trans plot point that hasn't been given the chance to even happen yet, in an already famously queer piece of media, from a nonbinary author" to "some stupid shit done by the literal most famous transphobe of all time" but that's perhaps a discussion for later.
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Love To Dream
summary - there was this one girl that thanos really wanted, though, she didn't really want to have anything to do with him. unfortunately, that made him want her even more.
pairing: (thanos) choi su-bong x fem. reader
word count: 1.5k
contains: modern au, mention of drugs, enemies to lovers vibes ig, crack, yearning
a/n: i don't even know what this is tbh but I felt like we all deserved some laughs ;)
Life was good - life was really fucking good, Thanos thought to himself as he winked charmingly at a group of hot girls. They had been looking in his direction for a while now while giggling, clearly interested in him. He continued to watch them as he sipped his drink, the club music pumping through his veins like adrenaline. Thanos's eyes darkened as the girls continued to cast lustful glances in his direction - he knew he could easily get more than one of them into bed tonight and why wouldn't he? It hadn't been long since his last performance on stage, reminding everyone present once again of his legendary status in this club.
However, his attention was focused somewhere entirely else after the most breathtaking person ever decided to walk past him. The pick-up lines he had been thinking of for the group, vanished from his mind after this angel showed up in front of him since the other girls could barely compare. The whole thing looked like something out of a scene from a Kdrama because time seemed to pass in slow motion and your hair was swinging in the air like that of a princess - which would have been the perfect time for some product placement because it just looked so damn soft.
Thanos had his mouth wide open in shock and put a hand over his heart to check if it was still beating while his eyes never left your figure. You - who was leaning prettily against the bar right next to him as you ordered something from the bartender.
âHey.â he finally recovered from the moment and casually moved towards you. âI'd introduce myself, but I assume you already know me.â he talked to you with his flirty face as soon as you looked up at him.
You smiled shyly. âYeah, I watched your performance,â you answered him and seemed quite grateful that he was speaking to you right now. âYou were pretty good.â you giggled slightly as you complimented him.
âYeah, that's just how I am.â he sighed as he looked around the room as if it was a burden for him to have to live with all the recognition. His eyes met yours again and he tried to impress you by unpacking a few bars while emphasizing them with the movements of his hands. âGirl, I know you and I are meant to be because after I looked at your pretty face everything stopped being. If only you saw what I can see, you'll understand why I want you so desperately.â he rapped to you, stealing the last line from some One Direction song, but you didn't need to know that.
You shyly put your hands in front of your face to hide your smile. âOh my god, that was so incredibly sexy, I'm so horny for you right now.â the words came out of your mouth and made Thanos screw up his face weirdly for a second.
Because first of all, those vulgar words didn't match your innocent demeanor in the slightest - and secondly, you said exactly what Thanos had imagined you would say - it was actually a bit creepy since you literally said it word for word. Thanos hardly thought that he could foresee the future all of a sudden or that you could maybe read minds, though he decided to ignore the whole thing as soon as you started touching his chest softly with your hands. He wanted you so bad.
âYou don't even know what you're doing to me right now,â he whispered to you while you felt him so sensually and he was about to kiss you, hadn't you stopped his lips with your hand as you laughed into his face. âI think you should wake up now. Otherwise, the pink elephant will keep handing out balloons to people.â You told him, pointing behind him to where the bar was supposed to be.
âHah?â he asked you confused and turned around while continuing to hold you in his arms, but all he saw were a few dogs breakdancing - and that was nothing out of the ordinary. He continued to look at the scene with a grin, even though some inner voice inside him was stressing out about kissing you immediately as if he was running out of time. He finally turned back to you and was about to continue when he suddenly heard a man speak. âYou really should wake up man.â Nam-gyu's voice told him and Thanos only caught himself almost kissing him after he took a closer look. He just pushed him away from him in disgust and then -
Thanos woke up from his sleep, bathed in sweat, when he saw your face in his field of vision. âFinally, you're sleeping like a dead man. There's some guy at the door who wants to talk to you,â you told him as he sat up tiredly while slowly recovering from his strange dream.
That's right. You weren't just some hot girl he met at the club, you were his fucking roommate. Thanos discreetly pushed more blanket over his lap as he tried to shoo you away from his room with a wave of his hand. âYeah, yeah - I'll be right there, just - give me a moment,â he said without looking you in the face.
You just sighed slightly and complied with his request, though not without letting him know how unhappy you were. âI told you to stop giving our address to these dealers. I don't like it when they show up here,â you grumbled under your breath before dashing out and closing the door behind you.
After that, Thanos let out a very heavy sigh and stroked his face aggressively. âNow she's showing up in my dreams, too? Fucking great.â he grumbled to himself and got up from the bed to put on some decent clothes. His eyes met his own reflection as he pulled a shirt over his head. âGet a grip man, what's wrong with you?â he asked himself as he grimaced in annoyance. âYou're Thanos the destroyer, not some kind of -â
âStop taking so long and come here already!â your voice suddenly shouted, coming through his door slightly muffled.
He looked even more annoyed at that and made his way to the living room while shouting back at you. âI'm fucking on it, alright!â and it only took a few loud steps from him to your front door for him to yank it open to fix the damn problem. He looked at his friend, completely bothered by his presence. âWhat do you want?â he asked him and was kinda glad that it at least wasn't Nam-gyu because he just really didn't want to see his face at the moment and probably for a little while.
âHello, to you, too.â the man in front of him greeted him, already used to his weird mood swings. âI just wanted to do you a favor by bringing you some of the pills you wanted because last time you almost beat me up when I didn't have them with me,â he explained, holding the bag, which Thanos grabbed instantly before inspecting it more closely. âDon't act like you didn't deserve it, I paid you the money in advance, man. Of course, I was angry,â he complained again and would probably have beaten him up for real right now if he had ruined his morning over something completely unnecessary. However, he would still have to make sure that something like this didn't happen again so that you didn't have another reason to kick him out of the apartment.
âYou know, maybe this was meant to be. Otherwise, I wouldn't have been greeted by an absolute hottie today,â he said happily as he stood there, still interested. âIs she your cousin or something? Do you want to introduce me to her?â he asked and was quite confident in the way he acted, but Thanos just looked at him emotionlessly for a few seconds until he slammed the door in his face.
"Okay, he's gone now!" he exclaimed, bored, and made his way into the kitchen, where you were sitting with a cup of coffee or something while scrolling on your phone. "Don't open the door for that guy if he shows up again," he said, grabbing a cold Sprite from the fridge. You just looked at him with a displeased look. He rolled his eyes. "Yeah, I'll make sure that he and no one else shows up after today. But, I'm just saying that in case it still somehow happens."
Thanos then opened the can and drank from it while he continued to watch your face from the side. Eventually, he sat down next to you, although, to his dissatisfaction, that didn't seem to get your attention. "Hey, you want to go on a date?" He asked, and you weren't sure how many times he asked you that by now. You kept scrolling on Instagram. "You know my answer to that."
Thanos continued to grin hopefully. "Yes?" he asked and then watched you disappear out of the kitchen with your cup of coffee in your hand - probably to your room. "You should be glad that I'm even asking you! Other girls would die for..." he muffled towards the end before he stopped talking entirely once he realized that you weren't giving him a reaction.
Maybe, I should just go back to sleep, he thought to himself dejectedly, unable to believe that he had actually better chances with you in dreams with pink elephants and breakdancing dogs.
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