#but i cant tell if its just a phase and ill be back to it soon

[xamaxenta]

This absolute nightmare marco warm up i did yesterday

[fictionfixations]

going over 3.1 cutscenes with a fine tooth comb because i keep noticing things

kudos to this video ill be using for screenshots, with all the cutscenes from this patch (spoilers of course)

first off you might not have noticed (i certainly didnt until someone pointed it out) the silhouette phainon stabs looks like himself though i think we all kinda know that now after first immediate scare of phainon stabs mydei? and then you look again and its like wait a second..

is that a grin?? dude what were you seeing?? i know you relived your trauma but ????? like are you seeing the black swordsman (is it swordsman? i kept thinking of it as swordmaster or swordsmaster. idk man same thing to me its person who use swords) but then why are you stabbing what you seem to think is yourself and smiling about it??? i know people have theorized phainon is the black swordsmaster but i dont want to believe it man i dont want him to have any more trauma 😭 (also theres a grunt that makes it sound like hes been stabbed but phainon missed so)

phainon looking down at where he wouldve stabbed and then when mydei grabs his sword he looks up (tbh that could be an innuendo 😭)

standing over anaxas, he has the thing that takes out the coreflame, but when we enter he dispels it

im gonna be honest i cant tell if the black swordsman hit trianne or not during the 'two slashes' like i think it missed her but ????

summons it again and points it at castorice seemingly

goddamn

when anaxa/cerces like stabs him through the chest he ends up burning

i think hes like recharging or like healing or something something cause later hes fine again and not on fire

scary that maybe he wouldve been able to escape the century gate if not for castorice. and then itd be a wasted use. i mean i know its kinda clear considering castorice ended up acting to make sure he gets in but i didnt notice how far he got in resisting

we holding anaxa

trianne sees him first 😭

that was so close its scary man om

hes not getting closer but hes not moving either hes just staying still. i wonder if its because of his use of clones, that hes on the ground and not in the air..

tribbie is like huh? whats going on? calls out 'trianne?' 😭😭😭

SHE LETS GO OF THE GATE

LETTING THE SWORDSMAN GO AFTER HER AND SHE OPENS A SECOND CENTURY GATE

when swordsman dude is trying to take cerces' coreflame both phainon and trailblazer turn to stare

seeing the tiny opening phainon immediately takes his weapon back out

?? wtf what kinda weapon is that that it can cut holes in the sky or some shit wtf

i like how phainon nods at him and then takes a few steps back so mydei can take the lead and then he can follow (or well im assuming idk stuff about fights man)

okay a LOT is happening so im gonna follow one character at a time each rewatch. the reason i made this post was because i thought they were purposely positioning mydei to aim at his weak spot during the fight so

i was gonna be like WHY are they spread out again and then i realized i think this is after a phase LMFAO i just forgor

he covers his head briefly idk why i find that kinda funny (its like barely a second before hes attacking again)

he sends a charged crystal filled punch (idfk what its called) at one of the clones, the clone slashes it and then attacks him and throws him back

genuinely kind of looks like there was just a clone waiting for him to be sent back, in the perfect position to aim at him

guy summons two more clones to attack so its 3 v 1 (until phainon comes along)

the clash gets rid of the clones and knocks guy back

mydei turns to look- i genuinely cannot tell what he just did but it throws the guy back and mydei then jumps after him to do the attack

also something i noticed Mydei: "I am the Lance of Fury... The agony this world needs!"

Gnaeus: "I am Nikador, the Lance of Fury, the messenger of turmoil, and the embodiment of Strife! Remember this: I am the scar that this world needs!"

im gonna try to follow phainon now

trying to understand how phainon thought to go after mydei? maybe he just knows him so well to know that he was caught off guard so he went to provide support or something? cause if you backtrack you can see him fighting some of like the clones (im trying to take less screenshots so i dont hit the image limit) but then (ASSUMEDLY) sees mydei go flying and think ah im gonna immediately go and run after him. huh. ..maybe? Idk we see phainon fighting to the side, he goes off screen, mydei gets flung back, we see phainon running towards him on the shot near the flame reaver

trailblazer smacks with a bat and then hops to off screen (if you can tell what the blobs in the circle are doing in the image underneath 'genuinely kind of looks like' kudos to you but i cannot so)

anyway while im here one more thing

you know how when like the tri-variants (IDK what term to use to call them without saying all their names) uses up all like the divine power or whats it called and so they like die technically? and turn into dolls? so the dolls are the dead bodies??? 😭 (its her e6)

[the-s1lly-corner]

Can you do a Crp x Reader who can't cook for shit but is really really trying? Like the food they serve looks good but tastes super bad

-From your local shit cook

Various crps x reader who cant cook

bro i made a cake for my birthday and its so good im becoming diabolical.. not really a cake person but this one turned out good!! cinnamon swirl cake w/ brown sugar cinnamon frosting my beloeved characters: laughing jack, ticci toby, slenderman, jeff the killer notes: reader is gn, they cant cook either, the only one who can semi cook is toby and slender but we dive into that in a minute cws: none

SLENDERMAN

the only reason he knows how to cook is through observing; be it watching you or watching others in the past... hes no expert but he seems to have more luck in the kitchen than you do

no need to worry about giving him something that tastes bad, he doesnt need to eat human food- assuming his body even accepts it- and i wouldnt be surprised if his perception of taste was a little different compared to human tastes

doesnt make you feel bad about your cooking, will keep an eye from the corner of the room to see what you could be messing up... perhaps you were messing up measurements, or using the wrong ingredients? sugar and salt is an infamous mix up, it wouldnt be surprising if there were other things that got mistaken for something else

assuming eating human food doesnt make him ill, he will humor you and eat whatever you give him.. its his way of showing support!

TICCI TOBY

can "cook" but in the sense that he knows how to microwave something and follow the instructions, or spice up a bowl of noodles or some other pre packaged goods

despite not being much better than you, he still finds it hard to conceal his face when he tastes something that... probably shouldnt taste like that... he may even instinctively say something out of surprise before backtracking- he may not have much of a filter but hes doing his best to protect your feelings

might force himself to eat through the rest of the portion, may even give some push back if you tell him he doesnt need to finish it if he doesnt like it

theres an effort but keeping his face neutral is hard

LAUGHING JACK

cant cook at all, probably the type to light water on fire and stand there in awe wondering just HOW he managed to pull that off... on top of that, he doesnt need to eat.. so he never really picked up on the skill

eats whatever you make him, not very phased by the flavors the dish may give him simply because this man has likely put everything in his mouth at least once at some point... so unless you make a new thing hes never come across before, hes not going to give much of a negative reaction

he might try to make you feel better by telling you that your cooking isnt the worst hes had, he used to steal food from homes he was lurking in as a joke... theres... definitely worse cooks than you out there

offers to be in the kitchen with you, though that will more than likely end in absolute chaos regardless of if what ends up being made is edible

JEFF THE KILLER

cant cook either, like toby he can only really microwave stuff and make the bare minimum to keep himself going... does not go out of his way to make things better

that being said hes not all that much of a picky eater so theres a good chance hes going to eat most of anything you put in front of him... so theres that! there are a few dishes hes rejected, though, whether verbally or physically (in the form of his body just... ejecting the food. whether in the form of vomit or simply dropping it before he has the chance to swallow.. depends on how bad your cooking is)

if its something you want to get better at he lightly offers to learn to cook with you, his tone comes off as him just saying it to get you to pipe down... but he doesnt fight back or leave when you commit to the idea and get him to join you in the kitchen

[zephyrlion45]

ok,, so, its been a week? maybe? and i've already redone their designs. (very little in some cases but still!)

big explanation of the whys of designs and what changed below :3

ok so right to left

Zedaph is still just a yellow sheep hybrid, he has dyed the ends of his wool/hair pink.

I changed his wool, hair, and general sheepy-ness, I actually Really looked at a lot of different rams to figure out the face, hooves, legs, and horns. also, his tail is long because it isn't docked.

Impulse! wow ok, so, very big changes here.

He is a Shulker hybrid! this is because of a lot of reasons, so, number 1: read somewhere that cc!Impulse might be becoming ambivalent towards his character being a demon/imp. I could be totally wrong, but I'm covering all my bases here just in case. If I am completely and utterly wrong, then I will have learned from this. But also, I still think I came up with a pretty cool design.

Number 2!

(cant find og poster so im not gonna put their art in) SOMEONE had funnily noticed that when cc!impulse is embarrassed/scared he hides his face with his hands, so they drew something really cool with all the zits crew as arizonian wildlife, with Impulse as an armadillo. That had helped further the shulker hybrid idea, especially with mob shulkers actually hiding between attack phases. (if you know who, please tell me, ill edit this and say so)

"Well, if thats the case, why not just make him an armadillo hybrid, they Are in the game now."

Very true! However, (reason number 3), I made him a shulker hybrid because I wanted all the ZITS to be from different deminsions. In Impulse's case, he would be from The End. (Zed from the Overworld, Tango from the Nether, and Skizz from the Aether)

this is also inspired by!!! @/pixiemage

Tango is still a blaze hybrid, the most I changed was his outfit (the vest and reflectors of the shirt) but I also changed his face and blaze rod coloring to be more like the mob. I also fixed his core flame on the top of his head so the colors are the right way round. (I seem to always make that mistake with fire)

Skizzleman is an angel, specifically a Throne (in training), the things I changed about his design the most were: i got rid of the bandages around his human-y eyes and subsequently the bow at the back, his outfit is closer to his minecraft skin, except the socks, they're impnskizz socks. Blue background with scattered yellow "i" and little angel wings out of them.

ok I think thats it, after all this (prolly on another day) I'll have a bigger explanation about the details of these hybrids/mobs, I'm just making a big compendium of practically every mob in minecraft, so it'll take a while but I'll get these specific ones out there, at some point.

[djtommotomlinson]

last november i was in china when my little brother called me and told me to come home. over summer my nan, my mums mum, had passed away before i had managed to get back to see her and my mum, my best friend in the world, had a heart attack soon after. i was with her then. we went to the funeral. she got better. we saw robbie williams live. we went out drinking and to the beach and watched coyote ugly and la la land together, our fave movies.

when my brother called me to tell me mum had cancer i knew it was bad. i lost my best friend to cancer when we were just 16 years old. thats never a good word. but its my mum. and to quote her days after her own mums death 'i always knew one day my mum would die but i never knew she would, like, actually die'.

i knew in the back of my head why i was going home but i didnt believe it. i watched spiderverse for like the third time on the plane. i went to grab my suitcase and laughed when i realised i was at the wrong shanghai - gatwick conveyor belt. who knew there were two at almost the same time.

then my brother, my baby brother, who is 30 next year but was 28 and always our baby brother, called me and my life is never ever going to be the same. i knew the moment he called. and i sat on the floor at gatwick airport shaking and people kept coming over to ask if i was okay and finally my sister and my aunties, my mums sisters, arrived and they were let into the baggage area when they explained and picked me off the floor.

i dont think this is a grief that has settled yet. i was meant to see louis that night. i havent listened to a song by him since despite his music getting me through some of my hardest times. my denial, she'll walk through the door and say this was all a joke, phase went on for months after we planned and executed a funeral and wake on the beach in malta. i made a great playlist, i wrote a great eulogy. i did that but it didnt properly sink in why.

i still, almost a full year on, wake up and think about messaging her to tell her how im feeling and check in on her.

my mum used to send me one direction news she found on facebook every day. harrys got a new album emmy did you know? and i was like no mum wow thank you (of course i already knew). she loved niall and we were going to see him live together. she wasnt a big fan of louis' music but ached for what he'd been through. i woke up the day after hearing about liam expecting a text from her checking in because she got me 1d tickets in 2014 for my 23rd birthday and she brought me merch and the dvd of the movie -

my mum who hated the beatles because they were too mainstream but loved what i loved because i loved it and was passionate about it. god she would have been crushed for me today. she would have been heart broken.

and i think this has hit me like a train not only because everyone who knows me knows how much i loved liam as if he was my own friend, but also because this past year has been so full of grief i dont always know how to get out of bed. my dads mum passed a few months ago. my family are wrecked with it. this past year has been a nightmare we can't get out of.

i always related to liam as someone who was bullied at school and as someone who suffers from mental illness and has suffered from alcoholism, thankfully, for me, something ive managed to come back from and im sober and i always hoped for that for him. its such a hard fucking mountain to climb and i didn't have to deal with the fame side of it and this whole other thing he had to carry. i always wanted him to get better but in the back of my head i had this feeling, i had this fear that i would one day log into tumblr and see the worst.

i still cant, and im sure for a long time won't, believe this real. thats one of my boys. we were very much meant to get old together. i wanted to see him get better. i cant begin to comprehend the fact he wont have that chance. this still doesnt feel real to me man. thats my boy.

just a few days ago I was in a convenience store and they were playing heart meets break and i was jamming and excited to hear my boy in a store. i keep remembering its happened, and i look at the photo on my bedside of me and my mum at the robbie williams concert and i could really do with her right now. a link to a facebook article and her over use of emojis - a shocked and crying face and a broken heart. because what else can express this?

i know i didnt know him but i always had the comfort of knowing of him, of listening to his music and watching his videos and feeling less alone in a cruel and lonely world.

its okay to be a fucking mess, if you can take time out please do. i wish this world allowed more of that. after my mum everyone had to go back to jobs and life and it still blows my mind that i was walking down the street then and today and everything was the same. the world should pause but it doesn't.

at the end of all of this, one day this might settle and make sense but right now it doesnt at all and thats how these things work. i love you all, this is not something i thought we would have to face until we had all grown old and spent all of our money on reunion tickets and seen our boys grow old and live their lives.

give people you love a hug, tell people you love that you care about them, work out problems and differences if you can and make the most of it. you never know how much time you have.

[subaru-meteorlight]

I WISH I YAPPED MORE DURING MY ENSTARS PHASE(S) i didnt watch the fucking knights mvs in 0.25 speed and constant rewinding to make notes about everybody's dancing skill and quirks to store it in my head and FORGET ABOUT IT I SHOULD HAVE RECORDED MY MENTAL ILLNESS SOMEWHERE

anyway im watching knights mvs again it really is surreal to remember that leo used to be my #1 fav. what even happened. i remember my eyes were glued to him in mvs but now its izumi instead. it feels so long ago. i miss when leo was my fav.

general notes are in earlier knights songs leo has the best upper body movement? his footwork also seems the most precise in fight for judge. in voice of sword izumi's is better tho. or more decorated, i should say. ballet dancer ahh. leo's either more precise or more peppy with a bounce in his step. izumi's graceful. its as youd expect. early leo always has the cool king leader vibes to him.. ueue... the funny part in voice of sword where they make a turn, izumi is the only one who nails it perfectly lmao, no reshuffling his feet after the turn. kasa has the most noticeable stumble-hes almost falling back, naru too has to shift her feet to keep balance. ritsu's is almost perfect- albeit not as graceful as izumi, minimal shuffling. leo also almost falls back but he has the cleanest turn closest to izumi- unlike kasa naru his lean to keep balance is camouflaged really well. izumi is just perfect no notes clean turn straight into the next pose no shuffling his feet are in the right place the moment he turns can you tell im insane.

theres also another instance in mystic fragrance where they move to the middle before izumi's solo- honestly i love when kasa's mistakes show hes so ueue baby 😭oh suekko oh my youngest child... he has to keep his eyes on the ground to the place that hes going to move to... leo despite standing in the front can move into position accurately without looking, all while stepping in beat to the music too- kasa's steps disregard the rhythm when hes moving.

did you know in little romance leo kicks the highest at the start? and izumi the lowest. boy what are you doing. what was all that ballet trauma for if you kick like this.

i used to have more insane notes in my head like which song's choreo is more similar to which, the camerawork as well. but i forgot that all. oops.

seeing leo in earlier mvs is killing me actually. ARRGHGH hes so. noble and knightly and cool and knowing that in newer mvs he lets loose more, smiles brightly, less of that serious king act, im just. ueueuueuuugheuhgfhghfugh. its also really damn funny to compare earlier leo dancing to the newer songs. hes FINALLY allowed to stand with his legs apart now😭speak your truth king or rather no sorry youre not the king anymore.look. its so damn funny. please dont deprive him of his right to stand with his legs apart. its in his nature.

silent oath my beloved the very first thing that drew me to knights was in the anime when they performed silent oath... leo's "ahh... koborete iku ne" fucking GOT me especially the "ahh...". i rewinded. watched it multiple times. it got me so fucking bad. it captured my heart. no not in a romantic way. it really fucking felt like at that very moment something shifted. my brain was rewired my fate was rewritten and sealed. it enamoured me. anyway thats how im in this mess 4 years later.

another thing that struck me about knights- their music style wasnt what i expected from a unit named knights... i really wish i remembered what my initial assumption of their music style was. the edm shocked me, i remember, its peak, thank you leo, but i remember being thrown off by promise swords, silent oath's style too... what was i expecting knights to be... something not as romantic, fragile and beautiful as silent oath/promise swords, i think... something more soldier like? maybe something with a more medieval classic vibe, lol. i really cant remember. not being able to remember has haunted me for so long. fight for judge, golden drop is edm, hard and fast and a sword made to kill, silent oath and promise swords sound like beautiful glass... i think i was expecting something that sounded like, fucking aot op2 lol. canons and flags and noise... is that it? i dont think so... this will continue to haunt me. maybe alka's vermillion is the closest bet. no, i dont think thats right either.... man.

nevermind i was watching we'll be "knights" and remind me to stop fucking watching the mv unless i want to crash out because if i have to see leo's expressions or izumi failing to catch leo's gaze ONE MORE TIME im going to start killing people.

his sad fucking eyes and eyeshines like hes about to cry are killing me. im about to cry.

both the anime and in game mv have him do this move- izumi watches him (again!!!! again!!!!) but leo covers his eyes and wipes his sad expression off to something more unhinged, all while pulling this line-

evil. evil, they hate me, i hate enstars, i hate knights, this is a personal attack,

they keep on trying to catch each others' gaze but their eyes never meet...

this is intentional, you know. izumi's gaze shifts forward one frame later, by the way.

why do i do this to myself.

[lilysaus]

okay. this fucking picture made me so mad i went on a 15 minute rant to my sister while she was trying to read her book.

so ive been looking at a lot of pictures of posts on pinterest because thats just where i spend most of my time. most of these posts are on the topic of adhd. ive never been properly diagnosed, but reading through these posts has made me feel so welcomed and understood (more than my parents have made me feel, pretending that this is "all just a phase that ill get over soon because pretending to have adhd is just the thing right now") that i realized ON MY OWN that "hey maybe i do have adhd." well.

i found this post while scrolling through pinterest, and it really sparked my anger.

i have a friend who was diagnosed with add before it was considered an "outdated" term and scrapped because apparently ALL FUCKING FORMS OF NEURODIVERGENCY THAT ARENT AUTISM ARE JUST "ADHD".

i read this post and it was what sparked my anger and my 15 minute rant to my sister. people who get degrees in this stuff, or counselors at schools, never really know what youre going through. all they know is that youre having some problems and they need to be solved.

which brings me back to this picture. if you look up "is add still a thing" on google, this is the first picture to pop up. and just seeing the visual aids they put with it makes me furious enough to throw something or someone out a fifth story window. the little girl is fucking SMILING while thinking about the most common shit people think us neurodivergent folks think when distracted. first off, no. false. we dont just think of video games and candy. we think of the randomest shit possible, like how long can i sit here without blinking or what kind of funny shit can i draw on this one sheet of paper.

and ALSO.

you cant just categorize adhd as TWO SEPARATE THINGS and call it good. we dont fit under two umbrellas. theres too many of us. we each have our own figurative umbrellas that only we ourselves can fit under, no one else. thats the problem with neurotypicals. they fit the typical stereotype for humans: we try to understand everything by putting it in a box. those lists of "symptoms"? i match every single one. on both sides. so ha. take that SCIENTISTS. what am i? some kind of freak of nature because i dont fit under just ONE of your precious categories?

i also looked up what "inattentive" means and it made me angrier. according to oxford languages, "inattentive" means "not paying attention to something", which doesnt seem too bad, right? it fits some people perfectly with their symptoms, right? but its not the definition that bugs me. its the example sentence thats used. "a particularly dull and inattentive student". basically saying that if you dont pay attention well to something, youre dull and boring.

im sorry, what? sometimes i have trouble paying attention, sure, but you ask any of my friends and they can agree i am NOT boring in any way, shape, or form. non of them would describe me as "dull". inattentive? sure, but not dull. so to call it "inattentive" adhd, instead of just add, is stupid! my friend with ADD (not fucking adhd, stupid scientists) is one of the funniest, most entertaining people ive ever met. shes an incredible artist, super smart, and knows how to make anyone laugh. does that sound dull to you? does she have problems focusing sometimes? yes. does she struggle with doing something sometimes? yes. but dont the rest of us?

my point is, when i see things like this, it pisses me off. like, unless all of the scientists who agreed "add" is an outdated term have it themselves, i refuse to believe its outdated and i will continue to say that my friend has it. she was literally diagnosed by the doctor telling her "you have attention deficit and hyperactivity disorder without the hyperactivity." THATS JUST FUCKING ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER YOU DUMBASS!!!

anyway, i hope im not the only one who feels this way. i just felt it necessary to get this out there. maybe someday, people wont be so dumb and single minded. in my opinion, neurodivergent people are superior in intellect and creativity, but i guess until someone like that takes over the world and dropkicks neurotypicals into the stratosphere, we'll never know.

[cherrysxuya]

when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers or moots

(i'm so interested in what sort of music you're into o( ˶^▾^˶ )o just five songs pleaseeeeee! but also your new theme is so pretty, i love the colours so much! and i love the artistic feel of it all!)

Hello pretty♡♡♡, i love that you decided to grace my blog♡ cleared my sickness right up🤭

And fr babe thank you sm kquilly, you're one to speak w ur majestic theme😭✨️. I was gonna do a Christmas theme but found the lil cute tiger so thought why not do this for like 2 weeks cus i wanted to change it up a bit♡♡.

Okayy so i was gonna wait till spotify wrapped somes out to expose myself but i have a lil feeling ik whats gonna be on there anyway so ill tell you my current obsession songs:

Okay so no judgement, im a very musical thearter person and cant grow up💀

No particular order btw♡

1. "Just a man" from epic the musical, i love this song sm its what got me into the musical

2. "Monster" from epic the musical, because its a good song but also cus im working on a uni project and this is the song its on so im listening to it night and day.

3. "No more drama" by Charlie puth, i never left the Charlie puth phase and dont believe i ever will♡

4. "Die with a smile" by Bruno Mars and lady gaga, not cus its trending but cus its such a good song, i listen to it and make up movie edits in my head with me in them💀✨️💅

5. "The count of monte cristo" musical. Hear me out i listened to this musical ages ago when i was really young but understood nothin about what was going on, but then i read the book later and was like omg!! But then years passed and forgot about it, then a few days ago i was looking for a movie to watch and remembered the book and looked for the movie (2002 ver) and LOVED IT SMMM lil Henry cavill was in it and stuff♡♡ it was such a good plot♡ so i got back into the musical 💀❤️

Bonus:

6. "My love all mine" by mitski no explanation needed♡♡

This was fun and thank you @kquil for sending me this ask♡♡ hope you are well and taking care of urself♡♡

[imustbenuts]

@theotherseapancakes

i mentioned ill rb a post about majima's sexuality/gender identity in the context of 1980s-2010s japan but i never got to it bc i cant find the post ;;

but gist of it is, the majima everyone knows is... kind of putting on an act. everything about the zanny funny majima everyone mostly knows is an act he puts on mostly to mess with kiryu. this video kinda sums it up succinctly:

even his kansai dialect is... fake as shit. (the meta explanation is that his voice actor isnt familiar with kansai accent and the director was like 'its majima its ok just roll with it')

it's probly hard to hear but his dialect is multiple levels of wrong. another joke video here but that isnt how kansai dialect sentence structure works! also his crazy persona is really how he behaves, mostly.

dont wanna inflate this post but theres plenty of kansai dialect language videos on youtube to hear what a usual kansai dialect phrase sounds like

majima's sounds like he smooshed standard tokyo japanese with some random stuff he picked up from osaka, which tracks with his backstory...

^^ he speaks with standard jp here. this takes place technically before y0 (i think)

anyway. so. the 'mad dog' persona both in universe and out he has is mostly an act and his character growth from 0-8 is largely like this: sane -> goes through SHIT -> plot -> snaps -> loses his sworn brother and is likely very depressed -> messes with kiryu for some semblance of normalcy -> kiryu helps stabilizes his life both directly and indirectly, thereby stabilizing his mental state -> sane but wears the mask bc hes made a name for himself as the mad dog

so all of that is important bc in a manner of speaking, LGBTQ in the 1980s to 2010s is considered... an 'act'.

super short summary of why: confucius idea dictates that men must pass on their bloodline to offsprings bc its honorable for the family bloodline. confucius bleeds into bushido, morphs, which bleeds into the larger fabric of japanese culture.

MEANING, its totally ok to be gay and play so long as a male offspring is produced. LGBTQ then is seen as a juvenile thing that most people will grow out off eventually. (at least prior to TV era)

then TV era brought in western media, and back the the mid 1900s, LGBTQ became synonymous with being a western idea. lots of tropes of flamboyancy is closely linked to westerness in characters. so queer became a foreign idea. JP TV then perpetuated this with okama stereotypes and sometimes made a mockery out of them, which continued pretty much until 2000s.

some also see it as a evil western mental virus/illness too.

(negative okama stereotypes are portrayed as highly thirsty male hunters dressed in a less than flattering drag with facial hair. often used to elicit"EW DISGUSTING GET AWAY FROM ME" reactions from other characters.)

smoosh that with existing cross-dressing theater arts and the idea of some 'kiddy phase' and suddenly being LGBTQ is more or less equated to an act.

add in the fact that transitioning is a very difficult thing to do if one doesnt conform fully into a binary Male or Female gender identity, suddenly genderfluidity looks very campy in JP media context.

which. majima kinda is. left: y0 appearance, taking place 1989. right, y1 onward, starting 2005

leather and TIGHT leather has some associations with the BDSM scene, which intersects with the sleazy night life and sexually related things. (queerness is perceived to be mostly this bc demonization in a similar fashion to... everywhere basically)

and also, there was one time where majima was goromi:

the context for this: Majima Everywhere was a system that y1k had, where Majima would spawn absolutely anywhere and everywhere to fight kiryu. for fun. theres a lot of interesting character moments bc his act or mask slip off every now and then. this is one of those.

anyway, goromi is an interesting case of a more positive okama stereotype bc theres absolutely zero malice in the writing that i can tell. key thing: kiryu reacts bewildered but positively to this encounter

so all of this to say

yeah majima is really, really not straight.

[cheeseandbretboy]

since turns out informed consent is practiced in australia i dont really need a gd diagnosis and i hoped if i got one my mother would believe me but its been so long and ive distanced myself from her because i thought she wouldn't even speak to me, she said she will probably still stay in contact but wont accept me and will use the wrong name and pronouns forever and i dont think i can stay around her a lot if thats the case the point of therapy was that she would understand me but if its not gonna go anywhere whats the point?? ik what i want ive been thinking about this my entire life and sigh she expects me to be 100% fine after YEARS of being ignored, she knew i was having a hard time and that i was cutting myself and starving and wanting to kms but its only now when my sister brings it up she thinks its best to do it, and like, wow! it is actually too late. i got myself through all that alone and now that im stable she wants to 'explore other options'. i tried explaining conversion therapy does not work but she doesn't care. idk what to do chat! sister said to wait it out and she will probably get better but i doubt it. i dont know if i can mentally take it if she cant just respect me, i get not being supportive but just using the right prns cant be that difficult, at least TRYING?! she said i was selfish and overreacting when i said it would be difficult for me to stay in touch regularly if that was the case ughggh and i thought she was a woke liberal but even she wont use other prns or terms to refer to me (ok that i get, maybe she will when im older) but she blatantly said it's a phase for me, that being queer is a phase nowadays and i just couldnt really believe she said that. i told her why the fuck would i want to be trans for a trend if i will literally not be able to come to the country where all my family is and where im from because i'll either be killed or arrested, and she said 'exactly, you said it doesnt matter what others think so why would you medically transition' and ok she doesn't understand thats ok, i tried explaining i have dysphoria but she cut me off saying im too negative and she cant talk to me about this. 'i dont gaf about your identity, i dont want to talk about this. just shut up and keep it to urself' i am so confuse guys bc she asked that we become closer and i tell her my issues.. i do not think she actually cares for me as a sister she never did, she bullied me endlessly and blamed it on her depression (which hey fair, but thats an explanation not an excuse and i have yet to recieve an apology) mother did nothing about that just let it happen like the abuse from my dad and i was happy to give her another chance i really looked up to her but she doesnt give a fuck about me she only likes me when its easy when im not selfish and egotistical (by the way guys she called me a hypochondriac isnt that crazy??) and like sigh i kind of hoped she would support but she does not.. 'you see mother is from a different generation, but im gen z i understand you' yea and u say queerness is a trend what the fleck... i get its difficult for ur sibling to be trans its really fucking annoying and heartbreaking but oh my god! and somehow she got it in her head that i tried convincinb mother to medically transition.. I HAVENT SPOKEN TO HER ABT TRANS STUFF FOR 3 YEARS THE FLIP I HAVE NOT.. i was going to wait it out with her and see if she adjusts bc shes my sister yk! but after 'why cant you just not transition' that just shows she is not willing to hear me out and see it from my perspective.. tbh this is just cis ppl, its difficult to understand smth that u dont have, that u take for granted. sighghgghgh sm happened but im back to distancing i was just confused but everything is still bad why did i let myself get sort of hopeful she said awful things that ill never forget its her greatest fear

[rattusrattus3]

do you ever struggle with motivation to work on diy projects? right now i feel like i can't bring myself to pick up my needle to start sowing :( do you have any tips?

Hi! ah yes, that happens to everyone i think!

Sometimes i think the answer is rest, choosing a different project or just not being artsy for the night; recharging creative batteries is very important and i honestly go through phases of intense creation and making lots of stuff followed by dry periods where i kinda dont have the energy or motiviation but will collect ideas maybe or just rest and when i come back to my work its just refreshing and joyful and wonderful;

if you cant/dont want to do that, my big tip is to make things as enjoybale as you can while you do it; tidy the space a tad, straighten up, turn on good lighting, maybe get a glass of water....you can get MEGA cozy if u want and get the blankets and scented candle or hot tea/(beverage of choice), put a fav show on and get all hunkered in for some nice creativity, or it could be as simple as putting on a podcast/playlist you like while you craft. i dont like to craft in silence and honestly i find it can be fun to do sewing projects or whatveer when im really into a show/movie/etc cause it gives me an excuse to binge content while still being "productive"

if its something you dont want to do but has to be done as part of completeing a project i usually will set a timer and only do the unpleasant thing for 30 min lets say (or tell yourself you will reward yourself with something nice (a cup of coffee, a video to watch, a nice walk, whatever, when its done)

the tip of "do it scared" "do it bad" "do it half way" whatvever is a good thing i need to remind myself often when the fear of perfectionism is getting in the way

for practical motivation, the best thing i find that gets me wanting to create is seeing other peoples creations, so ill keep screenshots of inspiring things to look back on or have a scroll through youtube/tumblr if im lacking ideas, just seeing the things other people make generally gets the gears turning for me

dont beat yourself up if you don't get to it though! theres always tomorrow/next week/next year, and diy is supposed to be about fun, so enjoy yourself, have fun, and good luck <3 sorry this was so scattered- others feel free to add on

[mobydingus]

Hii um, really sorry about bugging you but I was scrolling through tags and I saw that you drew lovely Nathan and Leslie work a while back; I'm wirting a huge personal AU and one of the subplots is her breaking Nathan out of camp so they can do a world domination thing lol

I've never seen any headcanons of them ever so it's super hard to wirte (even if it is just for myself, but I love over analyzing both of them) so I was wondering if you had any cools ones that you're comfortable with sharing?? I'm really really sorry if this is random, from a random user but I'm just so content starved and your art on here is so comforting and I love the scene one so so much!!!!

So um, if you can please tell headcanons >⁠.⁠<

wow i really appreciate that! i have a few, nothing too exciting. im not sure if you meant for them interacting or independent headcanons but ill say what i remember. it might be a longer response than you asked for LOL

for more technical ones:

i headcanon that nathan knows at least a little about how leslie works as a robot so if she gets hurt he can help fix her (but hes no robotics engineer so he cant do much about major damage). i also think that she can continue to mimic voices (like when she pretended to be president). she can use this to help herself or nathan (usually blackmail) but she also uses it to taunt nathan (for example, mimicking jimmy to piss nathan off). i also think leslie can change her body temperature from colder than a human to scalding hot (sometimes not on purpose, if she isnt working properly she might overheat which could damage her). i always imagined that there was some sort of underground facility (i wanna draw this but lazy) where she went to recharge, but thats one of my more fantastical headcanons. i personally think she didnt have parents or a house to live in (only a facility) but thats just me. i imagined that after leslie died, nathan recuperated and went to the crime scene or wherever her body was held and either: a. she showed signs of being functional, so he broke her out. or b. assumed she was completely dead/a lost cause and left her there (and she was still alive but wasnt capable of showing signs). both are fun ideas . i imagine that nathan diverted a great deal of his savings from drug-dealing to help repair leslie if he had saved her.

as for their relationship, in my headcanon:

neither of them will admit that they care about one another, even though they do. leslie doesnt admit it because she thinks that being emotional could compromise her rational thinking. nathan does not admit it because i dont think hes ever admitted any true feelings of appreciation or friendship for anyone lol. he would not do anything that might make him emotionally vulnerable (not that hes really conscious of this).

they both taunt eachother and can be meaner than they intended to. they both have a habit of lying to others in canon, so i imagine they still do that.

from a rational standpoint, leslie considers nathan an important asset and his ability to keep quiet about important (and unethical) things makes him valuable for secret operations. from a not-so-rational standpoint, she appreciated his different approach to life and the fact that he is not phased by leslies bizarre nature (the way she acts when she drops her act of being some innocent kid). she has grown fond of him in a way that i believe resembles an unspoken friendship.

nathan first considered leslie as another person to harass, but after being "employed" by leslie, he began to actually appreciate her, and its probably the first time a girl did not instantly hate or pity him. he probably has some sort of crush, but maybe not because leslie is crazy. he also thinks leslie is scary (but so do most people who have dealt with her "mask-off"). i think nathan likes leslie more than leslie likes nathan, but nathan is the first person she goes to if she has a problem, so they are dependent on each other at least a little.

thank you for your ask. hope it wasnt too much of an answer

[hermanunworthy]

!DNDADS S2 EP45 SPOILERS!

WE ARE SO BACK (im going to die)

- so i have been informed that we have a NEW HERMIE FACT THIS EP??? so i have been SICK TO MY STOMACH WONDERING WHAT ITS GONNA BE. I WAS NOT EXPECTING TO GET ANOTHER

- OH THE INTRO GUY IS THE FUCKING. THE PODCAST GUY WHO CALLED TAYLOR A SLUR AGKDJD

- THE CHAOS ORBS BIT HAS ME GIGGLING

- THESE RAD FACTS ARE A MESS HELPP

- NOT FREDDIE IMMEDIATELY FACT CHECKING BETH

- I.

- I?????

- THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING.

- OH THAT IS SO

- OH MY GOD IM GONNA DIE

- I ASKED FOR HERMIES LORE AND I GOT IT. ITS JUST NOTHING. THERE IS NO REAL LORE

- THAT WAS SO FUCKING EVIL IM DONE BRO

- kills myself

- i havent even continued to the actual episode yet im just so shocked and upset by this. scam u evil mf i love u but why

- BACK IN EP34 HERMIE LITERALLY DESCRIBED SCAM AS "THE MAN WHO STOLE MY CHILDHOOD". yknow maybe a little murder IS deserved /hj

- finally unpausing. im a ghost now im dead

- TERRY AND GLENN. TERRY AND GLENN

- TERRY WAS THE ONE WHO SHOT NICK??? OR IS HE JUST SAYING THAT

- SCARY SPEAKING TO TERRY AAAUAGAHHH

- WHY IS YHIS FIGHT SO PATHETIC LMAOO THERE WAS SM HYPE FOR IT BEFORE

- I FORGOT THERE WAS GONNA BE A RON AND TERRY REUNION TOO OH GOD. OH GOD

- NORMAL. OH GOD

- HE WAS CRYING A BUNCH DONT DO THIS TO ME

- TERRY AND SCARY IM GONNA DIE

- "maybe it was just a phase" HOLY SHIT THATS BIG

- RON DESCRIBING NICKYS RELATIONSHIP W THE KIDDADS AS "ENEMIES TO LOVERS"

- SO RON WAS THERE AT THE NICKY BETRAYAL???

- THE GUN WAS GLOWING BLUE

- FREDDIE BEING NICKYS BIGGEST FAN 😢😢 YEAH U GO AND SUPPORT UR SONDAD

- TERRY SHOOTING NICKY TO SAVE GRANT. AND THEN LATER GRANT SHOOTING TERRY IN FRONT OF NICKY. WHY.

- TERRY AND SCARY HUG. WAAAAAA

- RON IS IN THE HUG TOO I CANT DO THIS OH MY GOD THIS FUCKING FAMILY

- damn the marlowe family daddy magic sequence was sooo much faster than the wilsons

- SCARY SAID SHE LOVES HIM. SCARY. SAID. 🧍 GUYS

- AAAUGH. NICKY POINTING OUT GLENN NOT BEING THERE FOR TAYLORS BIRTH

- THE BABY TAYLOR NOISES

- glenn showing up high is quite upsetting to me actually

- JODIE VISITED TAYLOR. MULTIPLE TIMES. TELL ME WHY IM CRYING

- I HATE MYSELF WHY AM I SO HERMIE FOCUSED WHY IS THIS MAKING ME CRY

- GLENN STOP. UR HURTING ME

- "dang. idk if i like that guy" whimpers like a hurt dog

- TAYLOR. TAYLOR SWIFT. M GONNA CRY AGAIN

- ITS ABOUT THE. THE GENERATIONAL TRAUMA. THE ABSENT FATHERS. THE VALUING OF CASUAL FRIENDSHIP OVER ACTUAL PARENTHOOD

- TAYLOR TALKING IN TJAT REALLY QUIET TINY VOICE IS KILLING ME. HES JUST A LITTLE BABY GUY

- NICKY BEING REMINDED THROUGH TAYLOR WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE NICK IS SOOO EVIL

- GOING INTO TAYLORS MEMORIES?? TAYLOR LORE....

- FREDDIE IS COMING OUT W THE BIG GUNS THIS EPISODE WOW. FOR SOME REASON I WAS NOT EXPECTING TAYLOR ANGST TODAY

- GLENN CLOSE. HAVE U SERIOUSLY LEARNED NOTHING

- OH YEAH TAYLORS NEVER HAD DISNEYLAND

- THERE IS NO FIXING THIS.

- LINCOLN HUGGING SHMEGAN HELP

- OH NO WAIT THE FBI IS TAKING OVER HELL AFTER ALL

- "get taylor and nick out" and not hermie. sorry ill shut up (NO I WONT. THERE HAS BEEN NO HERMIE THIS EP BESIDES THAT DEVASTATING RAD FACT)

- LINCOLN AS THE KING OF HELL WHAT?????

- NORMAL OFFERING TO BE THE KING OH MY GOD.

- NORMAL AND TAYLOR HAVE TO FIGHT NOW?? FR THIS TIME???

- "I WAS JUST BEING ANGSTY" HELP

- ONLY ONE GETS TO LEAVE ALIVE???????

- WHAT. WHAT

- i. i am in shock. idk how to feel. oh my lord

[dausy]

I'm behind updating tumblr again. I'm getting more invested with Threads. I feel like people there have been pretty friendly and responsive. I was thinking about trying out Bluesky website again.

Anywho, I'll have a new youtube vlog video out in the morning. I thought maybe I'd get more done this weekend than I thought. Not just artwise but chore wise. But it rained and there was actually snow/ice out on the mountains in the distance. I just kinda couch-potato'd at home. Didn't even go to the gym this weekend.

I accidentally got promoted again at work. This happens every few months. I have the most experience so I keep getting thrust into this position, I turn it down and somebody else comes in and takes it over and then quits and then I get it again. But I'm trying real hard to maintain my parttime hours. I don't want to be there 5 days a week and I don't want to take a beating from other administrators. I literally just want to be a nurse and go home. I'm counting down the months til I can quit before we move again.

Admittedly, I feel like things are a lot better at work and my girls tell me things are a lot better. I'm ok with delegating tasks to my staff members and everybody is extremely flexible and helpful to one another. My elderly age is getting immune to doctors screaming at me. I think this last girl who was hired into this management position may be on her way out but right now she's just stepped down but apparently still wants to work. I really really like her and I really really want her to stay, even as just regular staff.

My husband should be coming home within the next several weeks, I just dont know when. Theres some sort of "town hall meeting" in some odd days and I'm assuming Ill get those details then. Ofcourse, they like to do these meetings at awkward times.

Theres some places on this end of the country I'd like to see before we move because its probably unlikely we'll return to this end ever again.

Otherwise, as stated on my other social medias, I am back in my Final Fantasy 7 obsessive phase. I am super excited for the part2 remake to come out but I cant play it til my spouse gets home. I keep writing an entire thesis sized paper about the importance of this game to siblings and I but then I keep deleting it.

when my spouse gets home, I am doing a full power point presentation to catch him up (because he isnt a gamer) and I want a FF inspired meal! Also, I never played the Yuffie DLC....

[fdrsamericanflagduckfloaty]

I wanna read one of your president fics but I have like .5% knowledge about the US presidents so could you give me a rundown on the presidents in one of the fics I should read-? Also why do you know so much. Are you planning on becoming a history major-

okay so like ngjfgkbh its below but read tags for all issues mentioned:

the chatfic is basically all of them so i cant run down ALL of them, but basically fuck LBJ, fuck reagan, fuck jefferson, fuck FDR, fuck like... a hella ton of those mfs. stan bobby kennedy and jack kennedy. for the linken fic, JFK was obviously the the 35th president. He was involved in the Space Race between the USA and the Soviet Union for like, basically who can get in space faster. His Presidency carried most of the Cold War and he actually started to draw back soldiers from Vietnam and TRIED to repair this stupid ass government, but LBJ said 'fuck that' and put the soldiers back. His soldiers were... uh... well... cant explain but illegally horrible.

Lincoln, 16th President, Civil War. Was Republican which I know sounds hella unusual but back then, parties were basically switched. Hell, Jackson, one of the worst who did the Trail of Tears which took Native Americans' land and forced them off of it, created the Democratic Party. His Presidency was mostly on the Civil War but of course the Emancipation Proclamation came through. The War was originally states rights but became slavery real quick. States--mostly the South, which made up the Confederacy--receded from the start and boom it started. Once it was over they began to come back. Bro got shot ofc as you know. Was hella sad and depressed and had mommy issues + abandonment issues + was probably bisexual.

JFK probably was too, and there's a BUNCH of weird coincidences between them, so that's why LinKen exists. One of the best nicknames i've seen for them is Headshot Homos. He had chronic illness + his back was always in pain and he had to take a shit ton of pills for it. He may've been SA'd as a kid too, which leads into the hypersexual activity, and that leads to the cheating.

SO TL;DR: you dont need to know just about anything to read the fics. I barely go for historical accuracy. For the notes, it's usually at the end where I add in any fun history facts, most of which are on TR because... well. They are. The chatfic and some references may not make sense if you don't know some stuff, but the comments--the 100+ there are, or 200+ i dont remember--have a bunch of facts in them by some super cool ass readers/friends. There's two other chatfics made inspired by mine, and the one by JFKMyBeloved has a bunch of facts in I believe both chapters notes. The other is hella accurate probably too.

Overall you can go in and see them as original characters and you're good. I'll explore the trauma as I have in chapter 11 throughout. And as I said any TR shit WILL be explained because I can't stop including that mf in EVERYTHING 💀💀

and tbh it just started as a hamilton phase, became more, and soon i was reading a fuck ton of books. i guess my brain decided TR would be my ONE president that I care the most about. 2000+ pages have been put into learning about this mf and HOURS of documentaries and reading his letters to his kids (it's in a book, A Bully Father, 10/10 with some spelling mistakes though). So I can barely tell you about the others but I WILL tell you abt TR ahsjdkfghnm

so yeah kind of i guess. if political science doesnt work, it's history, and then english. that's my Plan A, B, and C in order.

[14018038400]

while me & my girl are at a restaurant , i realize that shes been flirting with the waitress , it did piss me off but i brushed it off until we got home .

as we arrive home , i drag her to our room & i put my hand around her neck & push her on the bed . i slap her pathetic face & rip her clothes off , i really dont care if that was her favorite dress or panties . shit , i even broke her cute bra . when i look down , i see that her pussy is leaking on the bed . “ stand up , youre making a mess on the sheets , princess . “ like the good girl she is , she obeys my order . i pick her up & put her leg over my shoulder , then i slip in 2 fingers in her needy pussy , she lets out a loud moan , fuck shes so beautiful when she does that . i stick my tongue deep down her throat , as shes taking my fingers so well , i decide to let her get a taste of me . “ get on your knees , baby . “ she climbs off of me and traces her hands down my body as she goes down . i take her hands off & tie them with my belt , “ dont fucking touch me . “ she lets out a whimper following a “ yes sir “ but i slap her telling her to speak up & apologize . “ im sorry sir , i wont touch you unless you order me to . “ shes so cute when shes such a slut letting me control her . i push her face against my pussy , not letting her breathe simply because i dont care , i push against the bed and start face fucking her , her wet tongue and her muffled whimpering is so fucking cute . i pull her hair just as im about to cum , but i dont wanna cum in her mouth , not yet . but i sense her starting to slow down , so i tug on her hair and tell her to speed up . so she starts feasting on my pussy , like its her last meal , i cant lie ,, it does feel good but i pull away and tell her to get my strap . just to punch it in her throat .

as im throatfucking her , i notice shes grinding on my foot . i ignore it though , but then i hear her moans getting louder & louder each time . “ hey , stop that “ but before she stops , i feel her cumming on my foot . “ mm .. thats cute & bold of you , princess . im surprised .“ as i walk away to get a few things , she starts pleading me not to punish her again , she even starts apologizing but it doesnt phase me . i come back with a few toys , i put a ball gag in her mouth and her little bunny tail butt plug inside her , then i get her leash and put it on her . “ ill just use your pussy until i bruise it , youll be okay . and stop whining like a bitch , you shouldve behaved .“ i start to eat her out , just being sloppy & not caring . as im gripping her thighs i feel her trying to close them . i slap her thigh , telling her to stop and let me eat it . i dont care if shes close , she can cum whenever she wants , until she cant cum anymore . my tongue goes faster and faster inside & out her cunt . i push 3 fingers inside her & at the point shes screaming in pleasure . shes trying to push me away , but i know she fucking enjoys this . i start slapping her face because shes so stupid it pisses me off , i stick my strap in and i start pounding into her cervix , i know im reaching her spot when she starts digging her nails into me and scratching me . at this point i dont give a damn if shes leaking on the bed or not , i dont even care if she wants to cum . im just using her for my pleasure now . as i go faster , i hear that she wants to cum . i take it out and start teasing her , my poor bunny starts crying because she wants this dick so bad and she wants to let all her juices out . i cant help but giggle at her , how pathetic . she uses her legs and pushes me back in , causing me to go rougher on her . i take the gag out , “ tell me you want it . “ shes begging to cum at this point , its so cute that i go even faster just so we can cum together . after that , i just lay down on her and we both go to sleep in our own sweat from exhaustion .