#but i can also say that the environment wasnt healthy either

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[ravenbloodshot]

Ravn-Oneus....Red + Green Flags

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Type of guy to suck the fun out of people and his environment, especially when hes not in a good mood. Like, if "I'm unhappy and upset we all should be unhappy and upset" type of energy.

He has a mouth on him. He can curse those going against him into a new dimension, he can be very harsh with his words and intends to cut deep when he argues with ppl. He could say things to put ppl down and make them feel worthless, also the type to say every negative thing hes ever thought about a person when he argues ( basically he means every word, it's not just a in the moment type of hurtful words)

He doesnt tolerate being humiliated in public or in front of friends. If you make him feel that way in front of friends, he will try to make you feel just as humiliated/embarrassed

Not a very reliable or trustworthy guy in friendships, kind of back stabby (if I'm being honest). He doesnt like when ppl he "helps" or "mentor" do better than him, if he feels like a person hes teaching has the potential to outshine him, he really would not like that

So, I dont recommend him to try to mentor or play the teacher role to any rookie idols, he can be conniving when he feels threatened

Yeah guys, hes really competitive with friends (like unhealthy so) almost comparing himself to his friends and wanting to do better than them. Not a healthy friend.

He has a degrading way of talking to ppl

He also has bad eating habits, he may partake in unhealthy diets(yo-yo dieting) for appearance sake, but its destroying his body

He may not have a lot of integrity/morals when it comes to making money he's like "when big money calls I answer, no matter the cost"

In love:

He's a player and is not into commitment (although he may not tell his partners that)

When hes done with a person he ghosts them, like the flash, hes out of there. He may partake in one night stands a lot, and hes not the type to still be there in the morning, he already made his get away

He can be manipulative with photos he takes with significant others, like let's say he was in a relationship with someone and it was going well so the two take a memory photo of them being happy. Then, later when the relationship turns to shit he could send that picture to his partner like saying "you see how good we use to be" " look what you did to us".

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This guy definitely should be in the studio producing, and writing lyrics bc he has the talent for it and the drive. He will bring success to his group songs if he writes/produces the songs

He wouldn't be the type to plagiarize or copy anybody's style, he has the energy of somebody who has no need to do things like that, he believes in his abilities and can reach deep inside himself to create his own style/achievements

I can see that he may have been this way ever since he was young. Like, during the high school tests when kids dont know what their doing and they start to look around at others papers. He wasnt the type to do stuff like that, even when he didnt get the test or question he prefers to focus on what hes doing instead of worrying about others.

He's a very independent guy, ever since he was young, he relied on himself (I wonder if he had a deadbeat/absent father or something like that). But, he always did things on his own, and he isnt afraid to move through life solo dolo

Hes a very charming and smooth guy, smooth talker and he knows how to get women fawning over him, and liking him. He can be quite sensual, and isnt afraid to expose his own skin and others (he may have a "ik what I'm doing" attitude in the bedroom and it can make his lovers feel dominated and secure about letting him take the reins)

Hes not a clingy guy whatsoever, he doesnt fall for sweet words either. Like hes not really the type of guy to give a f about what ppl say

He may not care much for words of affirmation towards him or loving words directed at him. That's not how he feels loved, he feels love through physical touch/sex . So he doesn't care much for any words said, he isnt easily manipulated or seduced either. He doesnt chase after women, they come to him.

[spamtonology]

hi! Two things:

i think youre def right about Spamton not comforting people i could maybe see him telling them that he's here 1 (one) time: "your ol' pal [favorite salesman (c) 1997] Spamton is [RIGHT HERE! RIGHT NOW!]") and then sitting there, dead silent, as they cried bc he doesnt know what to do lmaoo.

Specific situation / headcannon bc i think you said you like those one time? Sorry this is long! A lot of fics portray him w/o a lot of his unhealthy behaviors / post-personal growth & i think it's worth considering how his behaviors might become a bit healthier over time.

If Spamton's partner called him out on his unhealthy behaviors like manipulation, projecting, self-hatred, being self absorbed, and so on, I think he'd react 1 of 2 ways

1. If they went about it compassionately and maturely: like reassuring him that, while they love him and want to support him, those behaviors are bad and hurt him and them

At 1st hed probably say something manipulative purely as a reflex bc he doesn't know what else to do when challenged, even if & especially if he knows theyre right. Bc of his self-hatred he'd probably be unnerved at the way they love him while still recognizing these flaws.

1a. I think if his partner were patient enough he'd very slowly move in healthier direction but hed never be totally free of those behaviors. His unhealthy behaviors were what kept him alive and if his partner recognized that too he might feel either a bit comforted or respected (not dismissed). Growth would happen on Spamton's terms because he wanted to eventually, *not because anyone else fixed him, gross*.

1b. He might feel really threatened that they had that kind of insight. If he felt too threatened by that he might just leave, feeling like the relationship wasnt under his control enough. He only knows "control or be controlled", so this kind of healthier relationship is utterly foreign to him.

2. If his partner called him out plainly without reassuring him he would respond aggressively and manipulatively. He might leave. Or the relationship might just become super toxic if he's too obsessed with them to leave.

Like i said before, I think as an immediate response he'd say something manipulative but then if they caught that he was being manipulative right there he might shut down a bit, even if they tried to reassure him and remind him that they love him, they just want him to consider their words. He might even deny it. He probably doesnt even always realize when he's doing those behaviors. He'd eventually consider their words a bit and decide to change for his own reasons.

Basically Spamton's a mess and like you said he needs someone patient but not a pushover. Curious what you think about my specific situation(s), plz ignore if youve already answered this or dont want to for any reason! Sorry again for the length i tried to paragraph stuff to maximize comprehensibility

Hello! I appreciate the time you took to write this ask down, it's clear you thought this out, thank you! I may not be able to answer everything here, but I'll try my best:

I can see him at least giving the confirmation that he is there, complete with calling himself the best salesman, that's very in-character for him. He certainly wouldn't know what to do otherwise, and just hopes his mere presence helps make them feel better.

I like the specific situation you set up here, for as much as he hates it, he does have to face the fact that he partakes in deeply unhealthy behaviors and coping mechanisms.

You also put together two ways this could go, adding extra context to the situation, which is great. I like that you kept in mind his flaws and how he'd react given the situation, because either way he will not be able to handle a reality check like that very well. He may even dig deeper into denial.

While he absolutely can grow as a person himself, he still does need support (separate from any "I can fix him" thing), support is important in maintaining a healthy mental environment.

[mikiruma]

I'M CLOSING TWITTER FOR THE NIGHT JESUS CHRIST ANYWAY I'M JUST GONNA INFODUMP UNDER THE CUT BECAUSE I'M GOING APE

HI I SPENT ALL DAY WANTING TO/STARTING TO WATCH TOTAL DRAMA SEASONS 4 AND 5 BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE MIKE&.... AND MOOMOO DECIDED TO WATCH WITH ME BECAUSE THEY BINGED TDI SOMEWHAT RECENTLY..... AND IT TURNED INTO ME PERIODICALLY PAUSING TO TALK ABOUT OUR OWN SYSTEM AND COMPARING MIKE&'S WITH OURS SO AN 8 HOUR EVENT TURNED INTO AN ALMOST (CHECKS TIME) 12 HOUR ONE..... they went to bed a while ago so i'm finishing s5 by myself.... and it was cool because i know now they're wanting to get to know the others and ask questions and be involved(!!!!) BUT ALSO i know mike& in general is a controversial character.... but as someone who sort of relates to the internal conflict in a weird way or has this being our first time witnessing someone with DID have their alters identities respected and not being treated like a complete weirdo for being plural... i mean there's the mistreatment a la chris and scott triggering a switch intentionally to help himself in a competition.... but other than that!!! and the ending to s5 which i have not reached but spoiled myself with because i wanted to know what i was getting into before i started!!!! i'm legit falling in love with these guys and want to see them go places and it makes me appreciate the one fanwork i've seen rewriting them a bit even MORE...... also i know mal is the most stereotypical/worst rep of anything, for having a persecutor and knowing their roles i SHOULD be saying it's a little singlet bait-y and knowing they added him in the story as the main villain because they knew that's what people would have wanted to see instead of a system achieving healthy functional plurality.... but he reminds me a lot of our persecutor and how they acted back in the day, we haven't entirely patched up and they still have stumbling blocks sometimes but after getting to know them and realizing they're acting in good faith (even if the good faith is spelled out with self-sabotage), i just have a feeling maybe i need to psychoanalyze mal. ESPECIALLY because of mike (and to an extent the show) treating his headmates like EXTRAS instead as other fully fleshed people (at least in s4, though they got their moments to talk to each other and cooperate) and taking control/acting like the others were getting in his way of *his life*.... and mal being the host before but being locked away and having to force his way out and rule with an iron fist before he was given any mind.... that guy needs a hug. and everyone else (MIKE ESPECIALLY) may need to learn how to communicate better. mal just needs to feel important and get attention when he's doing things that AREN'T being mean or acting out.... also i think i just want to give mal a hug in general. not saying mike is the real villain of s5 but i AM saying when he was working with everyone to overthrow mal, they were very clear that mike being in charge, while better, was still not the best because they get pushed aside and not taken seriously.... so i think if they just went to therapy or TALKED TO EACH OTHER (I KNOW THEY CAN!!!! THEY HAVE A HEADSPACE THEY HANG OUT IN!!!!! IF MIKE WAS ONLY ABLE TO ACCESS IT BY THE COMPETITION NOW'S A GOOD TIME TO GET YOUR WORDS IN!!!!!) then it would have been a MILES better solution than. PERMANENT INTEGRATION AND CHOOSING TO CURE THEIR OWN DISORDER ALL BY THEMSELVES WITH NO HELP BY PUSHING A BUTTON IN THEIR BRAIN JUST TO GET RID OF ONE GUY THEY DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god also i just want to mention i know svetlana was trying to be nice and encouraging saying they needed mike because he's better at some things than some of the other headmates but..... that coupling with the integration...... kind of hammers it in that everyone sees themselves as "extra" :( it makes me want to be more conscious of how i think/talk about OUR headmates because i want to try and make everyone feel welcome and valid.....

anyway sorry for the text wall i just love these guys so much but i HATE THE WRITING and i'm stalling finishing the s5 finale because i know they're going to do it and it's going to piss me off so much and i love ALL of them and want them to be ok..... it's hard for me to criticize much else because i can see us a lot in these guys and how things run.... and i'm disappointed they didn't show much else of mike& purely because i was watching the seasons just for them so everything else felt like filler.... IT WAS ENTERTAINING I JUST.... want to see more of them but WITH THE CORRECT DIAGNOSTIC NAME AND SEVERAL THERAPY TRIPS LATER LOL.....

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edit: finished!!! SO! mal admitting he was pushing people away so they didn't have the chance to hurt them first. the others saying integration wasnt getting RID of anyone, just making them a fuller singular person. GUYS I'M SOBBING.... i KNEW mal was doing the typical persecutor song and dance but with the way he even threw around his baggage like it was NOTHING. still upset at the integration since everyone was more willing to cease existing as they were altogether just so mal wouldn't be the host.... it breaks my heart.... ALSO I'M STILL OVER THE MOON ABOUT GIVING THEM A HEADSPACE AND THE LITTLE DETAILS IN THERE!!!! i legit don't know any other media featuring systems that INCLUDED that!!!!! god y'all the end of the system era was pretty disappointing but it just made me think of the guys i'm living with. i know i wasn't a perfect host and was definitely a control freak when i first discovered i was part of them, and every day i try to make that right.... so this just reminded me of those times in awareness infancy where i was like. ok but i'm the one who fronts the most so i must be the real one!!! obviously not true anymore because julian's the host now, i mean i'm still real but knowing that logic is pretty busted... hehehe.... even realizing i was only the host for a handful of years up to that point was a shock!!! but retroactively trying to work things through with everyone and getting us to a functional place despite not being able to see a therapist about it yet... this was weirdly heartwarming in a way? seeing the headmates in their natural habitat, just chilling. seeing them get into internal conflict. dissociation periods used as windows into their mind. mike starting as insisting he was the one in control and who SHOULD be in control, even willing to abandon everyone for zoey, but going to being the least willing to integrate because he would miss everyone and valued their existence.... i know they can only fit so much development in 20 min episodes of a show thats supposed to focus on multiple people (non-systems at least) so i think their story was cramped in that aspect, but if it were a more serious non-reality show focusing more on mike& in general it would have been WAY smoother. but like. i understand the shorthand and can see the allusions and whatnot. i know what they were trying to do. and i LOVE it. it's not perfect but this is the first time i watched something in a good while that felt like it encapsulated ANYTHING close to my personal experiences being in a system and being the disgruntled host, and seeing a little bit of my closest comrades in mike's headmates was just icing on the cake. :) i think the only thing i would have liked better was if instead of an integration they either agreed to work together and be more functional/rehabilitate mal, or if someone new split entirely to act as the mediator.. idk total drama is pretty stressful!! it's the right environment for it!!! and especially the inner system conflict!!! i don't know i think after all that, they needed someone to be the impartial third party to help settle conflicts and junk... just my onion though

[iridescentides]

hi again dia! happy first day of december ❤️💚 i wanted to ask you what, in your opinion, are the 5 most underrated dcoms? i remember you saying before that you've watched all of them so i'd love to hear your opinions 😊 - 🎅🎁🎄

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH secret santa you are so good! asking me all the best questions 💜

okay so i literally had to make a list of all the dcoms i consider underrated and then narrow down a top 5. theres lots of dcoms that i love, but that i think got the right amount of attention and care (like lemonade mouth and the teen beach movies, for example), so this list just focuses on ones that deserved more hype for their quality level.

5. The Cheetah Girls: One World (2008)

okay so even as i type this i feel like a hypocrite. i have only watched this movie one time. BUT i can acknowledge that its one of the most criminally underrated dcoms ever, tons of people didnt watch it simply because raven wasnt in it. thats why i avoided it as a child, and i didnt get around to watching it until i did my big dcom binge in 2016. and it was so good. theres a really long post floating somewhere around tumblr full of specifics on why its actually the best cheetah girls movie (my favorite is the second one purely out of nostalgia), so to paraphrase some points from that post:

its a solid example of cultural appreciation, rather than appropriation, as the girls go and learn about bollywood and indian culture together

the indian characters arent treated like props or unimportant sides, they get their own agency and storylines that are important

the songs are good!!!

basically this movie was overlooked and slept on even though in terms of role modeling and social value, and just like the first two cheetah girls movies it was important and impactful.

4. Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventure (2011)

okay so as someone whos very neutral and occasionally negative-leaning towards the hsm franchise (mostly bc its overhyped and not really representative of all dcoms), i was pleasantly surprised by sharpays fabulous adventure. this is another one that i know lots of people skipped right over and dont hold with as much esteem as the main hsm franchise, and that doesnt sit right with me.

i do not agree with the “uwu sharpay was the real victim in hsm” arguments bc in their efforts to look galaxy brained the people who say that overlook the fact that she was a rich white woman who used her power and status to exercise control over opportunities that should have been fairly and freely available for all; they were not “making a mockery of her theater” in the first movie, they were literally just kids who wanted to try out a new school activity that everyone was supposed to be allowed to participate in; and despite allegedly learning her lesson and singing we’re all in this together with everyone at the end of the first movie, she literally showed no growth in the second movie as she fostered an openly hostile environment and favored troy so heavily that it literally cost him his friends, all as part of yet another jealous plan to take things away from people who already have less than her. she was NOT the victim in the main franchise, and she did not seem to exhibit any growth or introspection either.

and that!!! is why sharpays fabulous adventure was so important. in focusing on sharpay as the main character, they finally had to make her likeable. they did this by showing actual real growth and putting her outside of her sphere of influence and control. we saw true vulnerability from her, instead of the basic ass “mean girl is sad bc shes actually just super insecure” trope (cough cough radio rebel), and this opened us up to finally learn about and care about her character. throughout the movie we see her learn, from her love interests example, how to care for others and be considerate. she faces actual adversity and works through it, asking herself what she truly wants and what shes capable of. and in the end, when she finally has her big moment, we’re happy for her bc she worked hard to get there. she becomes a star through her own merit and determination, rather than through money and connections. this movie is not perfect by any means, but it is severely underrated for the amount of substance it adds to sharpays character.

3. The Swap (2016)

okay i know im gonna get shit for this but thats why its on this list!!! just like sharpays fabulous adventure, its not perfect and definitely misses the mark sometimes, but it deserves more attention and love for all the things it did get right!

the swap follows two kids who accidentally switch bodies because of their emotional attachment to their dead/absent parents’ phones. and while i normally HATE the tv/movie trope of a dead parent being the only thing that builds quick sympathy for a young character, they definitely expanded well enough to where we could root for these kids even without the tragedy aspect. we see them go through their daily struggles and get a feel for their motivations as characters pretty well. as a body switching movie, we expect it to be all goofy and wacky and lighthearted, but it moves beyond that in unexpected ways.

the reason the swap is on this list is for its surprisingly thoughtful commentary on gender roles. its by no means a feminist masterpiece, and its not going to radicalize kids who watch it, but it conveys a subtle, heartfelt message that deserves more appreciation. the characters struggle with the concept of gender in a very accurate way for their age, making off-base comments and feeling trapped by the weight of expectations they cant quite put their finger on. we watch them feel both at odds with and relieved by the gender roles they are expected and allowed to perform in each others bodies, and one of the most interesting parts of the movie to me is their interactions with the other kids around them. as a result of their feeling out of place in each others environments, the kids inadvertently change each others friendships for the better by introducing new communication styles and brave authenticity. 

the value of this movie is the subtle, but genuine way it shows the characters growing through being given the space to act in conflicting ways to their expected norms. ellie realizes that relationships dont have to be complex, confusing, and painful, and that its okay to not live up to appearances and images. jack learns that emotional expression is good, healthy, and especially essential to the grieving process. one of the most powerful scenes in the movie comes at the end where, after ellie confronts jacks dad in his body, jack returns as himself to a very heartfelt apology from his father for being too hard on him; the explicit message (”boys can cry”) is paired with an open expression of love and appreciation for his kids that he didnt feel comfortable displaying until his son set an example through honest communication. this is such an empowering scene and overall an empowering movie for kids who may feel stuck in their expected roles, as it sets a positive example for having the courage to break the restrictive societal mold. for its overall message of the importance of introspection and emotional intelligence, the swap is extremely underrated.

2. Freaky Friday (2018)

this is my favorite dcom, and probably my favorite movie at this point. ive always assigned a lot of personal value to this movie (and i love every freaky friday in general), for the message of selfless familial love and understanding. i know i can get carried away talking about this topic; i got an anon ask MONTHS ago asking me about the freaky friday movies and i wrote a super super long detailed response that i never posted bc i didnt quite finish talking about the 2018 movie. and thats bc on a personal level, i cant adequately convey all the love i have for this movie. so i will try to keep this short.

first lets state the obvious: the reason people dont like this movie is bc its not the lindsay lohan version. and i get that, to an extent, bc i also love the 2003 version and its one of my ultimate comfort movies, and grew up watching it and ive seen it a billion times. i even watched it a couple days ago. but the nostalgia goggles that people have on from the early 2000s severely clouds their judgement of the wonderful 2018 remake.

yes, the 2018 version is dorky, overly simplistic plot wise, a bit stiff at times, and super cheesy like any dcom. the writing isnt 100% all the time. the narrative takes a couple confusing turns. the song biology probably shouldnt have been included. i understand this. but at the heart of it all, this movies value is love. and its edge over all the other freaky friday movies is the songs.

on a personal level, the movie speaks heavily to me. i cried very early into my first viewing of the movie bc i got to see dara renee, a dark-skinned, non-skinny actress, playing the mean popular girl on disney channel. that has never happened before. growing up, i saw the sharpays and all the other super thin white women get to be the “popular” girls on tv, and ultimately they were taken down in the end for being mean, but that doesnt change the fact that they were given power and status in the first place for being conventionally beautiful. so, watching dara renee strut around confidently and sing about being the queen bee at this high school got to me immediately. and in general, the supporting cast members of color really mean a lot to me in this movie. we get to see adam, an asian male love interest for the main character. we have a second interracial relationship in the movie with katherines marriage to mike. ellies best friend karl is hispanic. and we see these characters have depth and plot significance, we see them show love, care, and passion for the things they value. the brown faces in this movie are comforting to me personally. additionally, the loving, blended family dynamic is important to me as someone in a close-knit, affectionate step-family.

but on a more general level, this movie is underrated for its skillful musical storytelling and the way it conveys all kinds of love and appreciation. in true freaky friday fashion, we watch ellie and katherine stumble and misstep in their attempts to act like each other. its goofy and fun. but through it all, the music always captures the characters’ intimate thoughts and feelings. the opening song gives us a meaningful view into ellie and katherines relationship and the fundamental misunderstandings that play a role in straining their connection. ellie sings about how she thinks her mom wants her to be perfect, and her katherine sings about all the wonderful traits she sees in her daughter and how she wants her to be more open and self assured. this is meaningful bc even as theyre mad at each other, the love comes through. the songs continue to bring on the emotional weight of the story, as ellie sings to her little brother about her feelings of hurt and abandonment in her fathers absence. the song “go” and its accompanying hunt scene always make me cry bc of the childlike wonder and sense of adventure that it brings. for the kids, its a coming of age, introspective song. for katherine who gets to participate in ellies body, its a reminder of youth and the rich, full life her daughter has ahead of her. she is overcome with excitement, both from getting to be a teenager again for a day, and from the realization that her daughter has a support network and passions that are all her own. today and ev’ry day, the second to last song, is the culmination of the lessons learned throughout the movie, a mother and daughters tearful commitment to each other to love, protect, and understand one another. the line “if today is every day, i will hold you and protect you, i wont let this thing affect you” gets to me every time. even when things are hard and dont go according to plan, they still agree, in this moment, to be there for each other. and thats what all freaky friday stories are ultimately about.

freaky friday 2018 is a beautiful, inclusive, subversive display of familial love, sacrifice, and selflessness, and it is underrated and overlooked because of its more popular predecessor.

1. Let It Shine (2012)

this is another one of my favorite dcoms and movies in the whole world. unlike the other movies on this list, it is not the viewers themselves that contribute to the underrated-ness of this movie. disney severely under-promoted and under-hyped this movie in comparison to its other big musical franchises, and i will give you five guesses as to why, but youll only need one!

let it shine is the most beautifully, unapologetically black dcom in the whole collection. (i would put jump in! at a notable second in this category, but that one wasnt underrated). this movie was clearly crafted with care and consideration. little black kids got to see an entire dcom cast that represented them. the vernacular used in the script is still tailored mostly to white-favoring audiences, but with some relevant slang thrown in there. in short, the writers got away with the most blackness they were allowed to inject into a disney channel project.

the story centers on rap music and its underground community in atlanta, georgia. it portrays misconceptions surrounding rap, using a church setting as a catalyst for a very real debate surrounding a generational, mutlicultural conflict. this was not a “safe” movie for disney, given its emphasis on religious clashes with contemporary values. it lightly touches on issues of image policing within the black community (cyrus’s father talking about how “our boys” are running around with sagging pants and “our girls” are straying away from god), which is a very real and pressing problem for black kids who feel the pressure (from all sides) of representing their whole race with their actions. its a fun, adorable story about being yourself and staying true to your art, but also a skillful representation of struggles unique to black and brown kids and children from religious backgrounds.

on top of crafting a fun, wholesome, thoughtful narrative and likeable protagonists, let it shine brought us what is in my opinion the BEST dcom soundtrack of all time. every single song is a bop. theyre fast, fun, and lyrically engaging. “me and you” is my favorite disney channel song of all time due to its narrative significance; i will never forget my first time watching the movie and seeing that big reveal unfold onstage, as a conversation and a plot summary all wrapped into a song. the amount of thought and care that went into the music of this movie should have been rewarded with a level of attention on par with that of other musical dcoms.

if disney channel had simply cared about let it shine more, it couldve spanned franchises and sold songs the way that other musical dcoms have drawn in success. i would have loved for a sequel that explored and fleshed out cyrus’s neighborhood a little bit more, and maybe dipped into that underground scene they caught a glimpse of. i wanted a follow up on the changed church community once cyrus’s father started supporting his sons vision. i want so much more for these characters and this world than disney gave them in just one movie.

for its bold, unabashed representation of blackness and religion, subtle, nuanced presentation of race-specific issues, strong, likeable characters, and complex, thoughtful songs, let it shine is the most underrated dcom.

and because i made a full list before i started writing this post, here are some honorable mentions:

going to the mat (2004)

gotta kick it up! (2002)

tru confessions (2002)

dont look under the bed (1999)

invisible sister (2015)

[tangerinegod]

Hello! I am sorry to bother you but I am a senior getting ready for college this year. I am in the US and I wanted to major in the same thing you did, do you have any possible tips for me? I still haven't even looked for colleges that would be best for animation majors so I figured if you were up to giving out any tips/saying any basic ideas if you wanted to/if you had the time to then maybe I'll have a better idea! I apologise for if I sound weird! I'm tried to word it correctly but I can't 😿

hi!! i’m totally down to share my experiences! someone else also had some questions so i’m going to put them all together in this post haha, hopefully this helps! it’ll get pretty long so apologies ahead of time but art school is a lot to think about so i wanna be as helpful as i can around it, its a lot of time and money. I’m gonna put it all under a read more cus it is really really long!

i wanna start off with the fact that I had the privilege of attending school in a financially stable environment, my parents were/are really supportive so w merit scholarship i only came out with around 20-30k in debt and i also had housing support my entire time in school. they were ok with me focusing on academics so i didn’t hold a retail job unless i was out of school like summer/winter break. Ofc though i regularly take commissions/do merch/cons to try and pay for all bills that arent rent cus i did want to be financially independent where it was possible. I also did try and work during the semester but everytime i did my body would deff start to breakdown from the fact that i didnt wanna compromise schoolwork with jobs.. so just read ahead know this experience is from a student who was able to attend focusing only on school work for most of the time!

the biggest thing is knowing art school is not required to become a professional in either freelancing or industry! there are a huuuge amount of online tools and classes these days that provide the exact same education and for cheaper too. i think it depends on what experience you prefer/can handle/want but it’s definitely possible to make art/animation art your living without higher education. the thing that college will for sure give you though is the ability to meet deadlines, work even when you dont want to, and connections with peers+teachers. i think the connections part is invaluable because you’re basically coming out with a network of people you already know and who know you! 

also its good to know if you want to attend/can handle art school! it’s a lot of time and energy and students get burned out really fast. the best piece of advice i got before going was ‘if you draw every single day, even if its for only like 5-10 minutes or a doodle for a whole year you should be fine’ consistency is super key because you’re attending school to draw, and you’ll have to create work for stuff you aren’t excited for at some point or another. burnout is extremely real and the only reason i didn’t experience it was probably because i got super into drawing naruto fanart again inbetween sophomore and junior year! it helped give me something to draw seperated from school which is the only thing i was drawing for since i had entered rip. a heads up id also consider myself a workaholic so i fit in ok with the ‘art school’ environment but it is suuper unhealthy. if you are fantastic at managing your schedule then it’s definitely possible to take care of yourself! freshman year i got 8 hours a sleep a night and only pulled all nighters for some second semester finals at the end. sophomore year + up though i ended up prioritizing hw over sleep and like for sure, definitely shortened my life span. there’s another q down below where i’ll go more into detail but ya, be careful w ur work balance!

another tip especially for animation is knowing for a fact what type of animation you’re looking to go into, and what the school is offering. I didn’t think i’d get into art school at the time so i only applied to two places + decided if i didnt get into either id attend community to get credits out of the way while building portfolio. honestly? i did not do a lot of research LOL but like i did end up having the chance to tour and stuff! just know that each school will have a very different curriculum. The main differences are schools that prioritize 3D (cg animation, cg modeling, ect) and 2D/traditional (hand drawn, ‘oldschool’, digital or traditional based) this is a huge difference so make sure you do research for it! in most cases a 2D/traditional program will also offer 3D since it’s at the forefront of the industry animation wise rn. My school taught 2D but like hand drawn on physical paper 2D, frame by frame. while it was a good experience it’s super outdated because digital tools make it way faster + easier! i’d recommend looking for a program that is digital 2D over traditional 2D. 

if after your senior year covid is still affecting campuses in the US to keep them shut down i’d recommend attending a community college to get credits and then transferring into school. one of the negatives is paying money for gened classes when ur not there for them; if you can get them out of the way sooner and cheaper there is absolutely no negative + you could graduate earlier or use the extra time for better work or to work a job! 

these are all the general tips i think i’d give on like a broad basis of attending or not to think about? let me know if u have more q’s! someone asked q’s im answering below that go more into personal experiences + work culture so heres those:

- how many hours a week do u spend studying, in class, otherwise making art? like how much of ur life does it consume?

I was basically working on art.... 24/7! since i wasnt working a job at the same time i crammed as many credits as possible into my schedule so on avg i did 18 credit semesters (around 6 classes) art classes go for 6 hours and non art go for 3, so i’d spent around 30-35 hours in class a week! hw wise it varied on the class but combined it would be around 35-50 hours a week... im guessing? on average studio classes would have 8-10 hours of hw, maybe 5 for a light week, and gened classes 5 hours w them all combined. or this was probably how things were before junior year? junior+senior year i had thesis + everything else ontop.. i’d spend around 30-40 hours on thesis a week with other classes ontop of that bc my film was super long cus im a dummy! 

- is it hard going to art school n realising that altho u were probably quite talented… so is everyone else? Like. all of a sudden. ur not special and everyone seems as good as u, you know? More generally, how do u deal with comparison?

kinda?? i think instead of the idea of like you vs others it feels more of like a competition at first to be the best. this varies hugely on school culture though; my animation year was really friendly with each other and get along extremely well, so my answer to this is v different than some others who attended different schools. i think that the idea of ‘comparison’ only lasts a portion of the first year because at some point you realize that it’s not a who’s better as much as its a ‘these are my coworkers’ type thing? like healthy competition 100% because we’re all working to improve but i think most of us learned pretty early on that viewing each other as peers going into the same workforce helped a lot. also at some point everyone develops their own style/starts to develop their artistic preferences so there isn’t a way to compare whos 'better’ anymore? i dont think there ever is tbh because style is appealing based off of an individuals preferences. If anything realizing everyone else is also amazing makes you wanna work harder ig? or thats how i felt! it’s inspiring to be surrounded by so many people who create such amazing work. 

- is there a lot of workaholic culture? all nighter culture?

100000% there can be a workaholic and all nighter culture. i know people who avoided it and thats honestly fantastic because i fall super easily into that pit. sometimes i’ll pull all nighters on a personal project just because i really want to finish it... i am definitely considered a workaholic all the way through and its not healthy rip... i’d estimate at the worst i was pulling 2-3 all nighters a week and only 4-5 hours of sleep on the nights i didn’t? that was only for one year tho, after that i was like yeah ok this is really bad for my health in the long run LOL so i tried to cut it down to one all nighter a week and around 5-6 hours of sleep the rest of the week! by senior year my decision to cram in full semesters paid off and i was able to consistently get around 7 hours of sleep a night + no all nighters minus finals since my schedule was lighter despite thesis 😭 while there is that culture i don’t think people view it as like a badge of honor or something to be proud of anymore which is good, we mostly view it as a flaw of the art school system and something that needs to be fixed!!

- are you glad u did it? how did u know it was what u wanted?

i am glad i did it! i’m definitely in a limbo right now of if it was worth both my time, money, and my parents money rip but i think with what i got out of it i definitely wouldn’t be as far skill wise or knowledge wise when it comes to the art industry. i would say it was only worth it for be because i had so much support going in though so i was able to focus so much on improving. if i had only been able to put in part of the effort and not make full use of the resources provided i would honestly have a different answer.. 

i knew it was what i wanted when i realized i really couldn’t see myself pursuing a different profession happily! despite all the bumps and stuff im fully in love with drawing still and feel honored that it’s a field that can provide a living. my second profession choice was to go into culinary school? and third option i think going was into music cus i was also a band kid hehe.  

- how do u cope with ur hobby becoming ur job? how do u deal with art going from something u do for fun to something u do on command constantly?

i think seperating work art from personal art is important! in my case im doubling naruto into being personal work so i have something to fall back onto that isn’t work related. its been a hyperfixation for 12+ years? so drawing it at this point is just like personal art imo. some people have hobbies outside of art and only draw for their job! i think after attending classes for so long the idea of hobby turning into job feels extremely natural? also i enjoy doing it so thats a huge plus! 

sorry this is SO long but i hope i answered your guys’ questions! if you have more just lmk!

[yanderewhims]

Hello! Good to see another magi imagines blog! May I ask who are your favorite characters? And which characters would you say make the scariest yandere?

Hello there anon! I'm glad to see there are still people in the fandom to see that! (Already got my first request, yay!)

Personally, my favorites would have to be Solomon, Sinbad, Kouen, Hakuryuu and Judar. Those are my top 5, First 3 are honestly daddy material and Juju and Haku my trash sons, I absolutely adore them :D

I like pretty much most of the characters, there aren't any I actively hate. (Even Arba/Gyouken, as hated as she is by the fandom I think she's a total badass) some I don't care for that much as others may do, but other than that all of the characters are mostly pretty great :)

Who would make the scariest yandere? Hmmm...that's a really good question. I think it's all up to your personal interpretation honestly. Some may think that characters who are shown to be mostly good and on the pure side(Aladdin, Morgiana, Alibaba, Kougyoku, Hakuei) can be the most terrifying yanderes, for under their sweet exteriors lies a much more darker side. Or more aggressive 'gray characters' (Sinbad, Hakuryuu, Judar, Kouen, Kou bros) would be the more openly hostile yanderes and wouldn't shy away from their darker natures. Most of the characters in magi can fit into the morally gray area- some are mostly good people with good intentions, but also are seen to have much darker sides that are shown.

But anyways, me personally -I would say the most terrifying yanderes would be:

Hakuryuu - I hope I don't sound too predictable, ha. Some may not agree with this, but I personally see Hakuryuu being a really terrifying yandere. We've seen how he can get when he's at his darkest- in the belial and civil war arcs. When he wants to kill his own sister, the girl he considered his friend and first "love" later killing his other friend Alibaba (and nearly Aladdin) and even brainwashing his own people- yeah he's done some fucked up stuff xD. I think when it all comes down to it, he would start off sweet to his s/o, being very caring and loving towards them. But also very clingy and a bit possessive because you'd figure he sees it that everyone in his life rejected him, so he's terrified that someone else who he grows to care about would reject him again. If they happen to do something that angers or upsets him, he probably won't be above using certain measures to keep them in check.

Sinbad- ahhh, Sinbad would be pretty scary too. Because of his manipulative, sneaky behavior and being able to just...read people I feel like he'd be a rather dangerous one, because he wouldn't be that open about his darker desires. He strikes me as the possessive type- he'd always want to be around them to the point where he's suffocating them, he'd always want to know where they are , who they're with, and if he's unable to be with them he'd send a spy to follow them around. As stated before, he's very manipulative and is known for having a silver tongue- he'd manipulate his possible so into relying on him and devoting themselves entirely to him, so he can be in complete control. Like Hakuryuu, should they disobey or do something he doesn't like, he'll probably retort to dirty methods to get what he wants from them.

Kouha- well this ones a given. Kouha loves fighting and has an insatiable bloodlust. Should someone try to take his s/o away from him, he'd be more glad to 'deal with them' personally. Also, its canon that he's got a violent side, as he's seen hitting his retainers. He'd probably get a little violent with them, not to the point where he'd severely harm them, but perhaps as a 'warning' if they displease him.

Judar- this is a man who loves chaos and war. He's angry, violent and destructive and is rather hostile towards most people. Judar is someone who wasnt raised under a loving environment, so of course that deeply affected his attitude and his views on the world in general, which are quite messed up. Personally, I don't think its really realistic for him to have a truly healthy relationship with anyone, romantic wise anyway. (Even with Hakuryuu, who's his closest relationship, it isn't entirely all that healthy either in my opinion) I think if he were to 'love' someone, he'd be really confused about it to, which would lead him to lash out at that person and end up hurting them. But once he realizes he feels something, like Haku, he'd become very clingy and wouldn't let them out his sight at all. I feel he'd also be extremely possessive and demanding, if someone dares come near his s/o it'll only end up extremely ugly (and bloody) on their end.

Honorable mentions- David, Ja'far, Arba, Falan, Kassim, Yunan

Well these are just my thoughts anyways! Its always fun really thinking deeply on these characters

[jhaymyneutron]

6 years ago, I experienced my biggest failure, or what I thought to be the biggest. I failed a subject that wouldnt let me stay in the course that I was in during that time. I was so depressed that things werent going the way i wanted it to be. It wasnt how i planned it in my mind.

Failing that subject means that I will be having a hard time shifting to the course that i really wanted to be in. (i was in nursing that time, and I planned to shift to PT in the same university) No one will take a Transcript with a singko. Well, atleast that college in the university that i was in. I had zero idea on what to do with my life, I had nothing for myself. I can no longer stay in nursing because I cant proceed with the cut off system because i had 1 singko (also i really didnt want to lol) I only had 2 choices, either I shift to another course that is not PT or leave my dream university and pursue PT in a different school. I didnt like both so I didnt do anything. I was a mess.

Some would say, if you dont want to leave that university then you shouldve just shifted in another course.

My 2 cents:

Nursing wasnt my cup of tea and I failed because no matter how hard i try to study, things werent just working out for me. It isnt just for me exactly.

Therefore, if i chose to go to another one that i didnt like to be in, in the first place, then I wouldve just repeated the same story but im just in a different uniform.

and so I told my parents, I needed a break. I wanted to find myself and think about what i really want to do. I stopped attending college for a year. But i never heard anything dull from my parents. They just smiled at me and said “go ahead. Do what you need to do”

For a year, I did things for myself. Things happened. I had a roller coaster ride of unexpected scenarios, that luckily I was present and I was able to cover for it because I was on a hiatus. A lot of times i felt useless and “patapon” in that 365 days but there are days that I suddenly realize, aside from trying to find myself, I took a hiatus for some unknown reasons and it was already showing up one by one.

Failing and reflecting was new to me, I realized i felt so entitled even when i dont deserve it. Ive been living as a “what i see is what i get” and it wasnt healthy for me, not even for everyone.

The thing is, UST is my dream school and I dont want to leave UST, but also I couldnt stay. Ive been so stubborn, and it only gave me heartaches because what i want wont always work. I’ve reflected so much, and I asked myself a hundred times, will I really just let myself have this heartache, randomly cry at night and think that im not good enough? When I already have the answer in front of my face and all i have to do is explore new environment and have the courage to take it? And so i left.

I went to a school that i never saw, in a place that i was trying to avoid my whole life because it is damn far. But what kept me going? I started with a boring and uninteresting days, weeks and months in this school. But eventually, i met the most welcoming and undesrtanding people in my life. I had this genuine happiness that I wasnt able to get in my former school, in here, I felt that I belong. Professors were accomodating and remembers our name, even asks us how were doing everyday in the hallways. It was more than a community.

After 4 years, I never failed saying “buti nalang lumipat ako” “i went through all those sad times, to get this super saya experience with the realest barkada”. I met people who accepted me not because they were just simply open but because they feel the same. I even met someone who gave me so much to remember, crazy. Funny twists of fate.

Exactly a year ago. I failed a subject. For the first time in 4 years. One subject that held me in becoming an intern. One subject that separated me from my friends. I cried upon getting the results of my exams. The first time my friends saw me cry, i was bawling my eyes and pouring my heart out in the quiet halls of UG. I was crying, not because I failed, but because i cannot picture myself telling my parents that I failed one subject. I am ashamed to be giving them another burden, when im already at the age of giving them the life they deserve.

I cried and cried, until i finally gave my mom a call. I was nervous, but I had to do it.

“Hello?” My mom answered. I was crying silently and cannot utter a word. “Hello? Jhaymy?” i sniffed a of couple times and my mom figured out i wasnt okay. “Bakit ka umiiyak?” I was biting my tongue while i was sitting in the corner of an empty hallway. I couldnt talk but my mom didnt forced me, she was just at the other line listening silently while im crying. Finally, I told my mom “ma.... sorry. Bumagsak ako ng isang subject” i started letting my mom hear my cry. I kept saying sorry that i couldnt count it anymore. I heard my mom telling my dad why i was crying. My dad simply shouted for me to hear. “Okay lang yon!!!! Isa lang yon!” My mom got mad at, because i kept saying sorry “tigilan mo yang kaka sorry mo. Okay lang yon!!! Wag ka na umiyak jan. Okay lang yon, umuwi ka na wag ka na umiyak jan”, my sisters overseas called me and said “its okay, its normal” “but ate, i want to help you in providing already” “jhaymy, its okay. Kaya pa namin. Dalawa kami. Mag aral ka muna mabuti at okay lang yan. Okay lang kami”.

Months passed, i bid goodbye to my friends and sent them to internship, i felt sad but I realized I wasnt ready. I dont know anything. My supposed to be patients doesnt deserve me. I know nothing. And when I repeated another year, I understood everything. I asked myself where I was the whole time the other year. Totally absent minded.

When i went for another year, i met different people. People whom i never thought Id vibe with. My 4th year season 2, gave me so much learnings, and gave me a chance to build new friendships. This year, I met someone who gave me a different vibe. You know who you are, and if youre reading this im probably gonna be shy, but oh well im just stating facts. Never had the chance to say this to you but, thank you. You made me think that im not always the wrong one and that i was patient. Thanks for letting me have a crush on you hahahahahaha i dont know how long this will take but youre really hard to forget hahahahahahah. Bye. And so if i didnt take another year, I wouldnt have met this great person and i have never been more thankful.

My last cent, whatever happens, it happens for a reason. You may not instantly know why it had to, but one day you will be able to say why it did. And you will smile like a fool for realizing that you took a different way somewhere over the years. but finally, you came in to the perfect place.

[amnachil]

The College Society Chapter 1 Part 6

Enjoy ! :)

Liam Friday October 6 – Saturday October 7

I hate the dishes as much as I hate my dad. With anger, the young lad threw a spoon into the water, and looked at it sink, strangely satisfied. (At least, he had power over spoon, they couldn't resist to him). (This is certainly weird, but whatever). He was working for at least three hours or more, and he started to feet exhausted. Sadly, his break wasn't coming yet. I wish I could just rest for three seconds... His coworker gave him a tray full of spoons, and Liam stared at it, stunned. (Spoon's revenge... What a movie name). Fortunately, Judy called him suddenly :

"Hey handsome ! There is someone who wants to see you in the dining room ! Wash yours hands and come over here !"

Curious and quite worried (after all, his demonic father knew where he lived, he could also knew where he worked), the lad yielded. He crossed the big doors, and glanced to Judy and... Theo. His swimteam captain, with his elbows on the counter, smiled spiritedly.

"Hi Liam. Laura told me you were working here."

The freshman joined Theo and they sat around a table, under Judy concupiscents stares. Why did he come ? Liam knew the captain. Either he was drunk, either he was high, either he was speaking about swimming. But I have already said that I couldn't do tournaments, I'm not drinking that much and I'm not taking drugs. (Sometimes, he wondered if he could be constantly high, but that was always hypothetical). (By the way, he got drunk once, and since, he tried to avoid this as much as possible). He realised he was looking weird when Theo laughed.

"You really look like death warmed up you know ? I should even say you look awful. Rebecca told me you got some troubles... are you fine now ? I may can help."

"Thanks, but it will not be necessary. I'm good. It just was a... bad period."

Almost two weeks after his meeting with his dad, he sincerely felt better. (He stopped his destruction of trash cans when Rebbie asked him to, and he may has hit one or two times his pillow, but nothing too violent.) (Honestly, his pillow was too strong for him, trahs cans were weaker).

"Nice. Don't forget you can always come to me if you are in troubles." declared Theo.

Liam nodded, and then, there was a gap. He wants to say something more, but he's hesitating. It was weird, because the freshman wasn't really good to guess what people wanted, but Theo's mind was easy to read.

"I have something to ask you." this one eventually started. "It might be awkward, don't be scared... I just wanted to know what you're feeling about Nick ?"

The young lad frowned, surprised. Theo smiled.

"C'mon Liam, I know you're gay. I just want to know what are your feelings towards Nick."

Gay. This single word brought bad memories to Liam. Really bad one's. His last romantic relationship had ended because of this word. This cursed word. The young lad stuttered :

"I... I... He's just a friend... nothing more... I... Sorry..."

"Do you think Pete gained weight ?"

Surprised, Liam looked Theo in the eyes. What is he doing ? The swimteam captain laughed and raised a hand by way of forgiveness.

"I brought a sore point, I can see that, and I wanted to skirt the issue because it was painful. Sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."

It seemed sincere. In fact, Liam just didn't want to speak about this stuff at all. It definitely was too painful, as Theo said. I should go back to work. He tried to help me but... I messed everything with my ex and there is no way I date someone else for now.

"He may have gained a bit of belly." approved Liam. "But this is common in college, please, don't blame him for it."

(The young lad was saying this because he wanted to go back to work as fast as possible). (But he noticed Pete's little belly hanging over his swimtrunks, and he was pretty sure he was rounding up a bit). (Yeah, despite being Liam-the-absent-minded-and-stupid-boy, he was careful of his relatives).

"Don't worry, it was not my intend at all." assured Theo. "Anyway, I'm sorry I have bothered you. I should let you work, I can see your cute little boss looking towards there... Is she seriously your boss ?"

The next morning, Liam decided to go to the pool for a swim before his work. (By the next morning, thanks to understand 2pm, because Liam never woke up before at least 11am). With a bit of attention, he did his lengths, and took advantage of the relaxing atmosphere. (He feared Colton, and tried his best to spot him, but found nothing). Finally, once he exerted himself enough, Liam stopped, and went to the locker room. He was taking a shower when he heard the fawning voice he wanted to avoid since several weeks. (Until now, he succeeded pretty well, even for the tutorial project). (Nevertheless, right now, he was naked... He couldn't ran away without losing the last fragments of his pride).

"Hey Liam." started Colton. "I saw you swim, you're good. Why didn't you participate in the tournament ?"

The light-brown boy turned towards his classmate. This one was naked too, and quite impressive. Muscled, with a six pack, strong chest and arms, nice legs and nothing going wrong... He match perfectly with Barbara's taste after all. Even his pe... (Liam blushed, and lowered... looked away).

"Okay, no answer, as usual..." laughed Colton.

"Uh sorry. I'm working during the weekend, I can't do the swimming tournaments. Are you... swimming too ?"

The brown lad looked at him and smiled. He had this smile... He's smart in addition to be handsome. Definitely Barbara's taste. It was weird, to discuss with a stranger in a shower. Liam wasn't used to it, even if he had played soccer. (Besides, he felt quite ugly in comparison with Colton, and it was depressing). (Liam always considered himself as a "normal" guy, but right now, he felt like a trash can). (No worries, he will not hit himself for all that).

"Only for my pleasure." answered Colton. "I wanted to join the club but... with the studies, my girlfriend, the gym and everything, I thought I wouldn't be able to handle this. Maybe later."

Liam nodded slowly. He had one question to ask. But it will be awkward... And I will blush... Anyway, he had to.

"Did you tell her about me ?"

As expected, he blushed a lot. (He was like a tomato when something was discomforting him). Plus, some sophomore entered in the shower, and glanced at them with knowing smile.

"I said nothing yet." assured Colton. "In fact, I'm still wondering... Are you a really bad and indiscreet stalker, or there is something else ? Maybe you know her, but you don't want to talk to her ?"

"Something like that, yes. Please, don't tell her about me."

After all what happened, Liam just wanted to avoid question. He wasn't able to face Barbara. Colton smiled. Eventually, he's cool. Cute, smart and cool, what a winning combination. (This thoughts made Liam blush even more, and he felt a bit of excitement which made him blush again, but thanks to the vapor in the shower, Colton saw nothing).

"Look, I'll be quiet as a grave, but I want something in return. Something simple. You stop avoid me, and you help us on the tutorial project. Deal ?"

"Deal. Can I go dress myself now ?"

Rebecca Monday October 9

As he looked towards Nick, she knew her coach was disapproving. The young freshman was sat on the bleacher, playing at his gameboy while eating a burger. He's just enjoying college freedom... Seing him here, Rebbie realised she didn't know much about him. He was childish, loved video games and junkfood, he always wore baggy clothes, and he had is own kind of humor. And that's all... I don't even know why he has a scolarship... But she wasnt bothered by this... After all, herself didn't talk that much.

"He doesn't look like an athlete to me Rebbie." whispered Bob. "I know what you think : he's my friend, and I don't care about his life's habits, but look... Being surrounded by athlete will lead you to outdo yourself. Furthermore, I don't want you to be... inspired by bad habits. Do you understand what I mean ?"

"Very well coach but... trust me, he's sportier than you think. And he's not encouraging me in any wrong way."

Usually, she never lied to Bob. I don't know why I feel the need to lie about Nick... Maybe, after one month with him, she wanted to remain at his side. He was like the first friend she ever had since she started running. Well, the first friend who was not interested by running. Back in highschool, or even before, she had people around her, but it had been always the same thing : they had only wanted to see her run, or make a sportive performance. As for him, Nick just didn't care about this stuff. This was new for her, and she wanted to see what it would create. Of course, she had also Liam, but it was quite different, the chestnut boy being the most inattentive person she knew.

"Rebbie, it's a reckless process... Let me give you an exemple. Do you remember Shirley Vince, one of your main opposant in highschool ?"

She nodded. A short but resolute blonde girl. Liam was in the same town and school...

"Do you know why you surpassed her ?"

"Because I'm better ?"

Bob smiled. A condescending smile she knew well. It meant she was wrong.

"You see Rebbie, while you're running, my job is to watch you, and to study your opponents. And here is what I know about Shirley Vince. Her brother went at their community college and completely let himself go. Plus, her boyfriend is overweight. That's why she couldn't win. Bad influences. Do you get it ?"

She nodded. From her experience, Bob was always right about sport. Thanks to him, she won more tournaments than she would had ever dream to. And now, she wanted to go at the Olympics Games in two year. She couldn't allow herself any relaxation.

"Anyway, I have to go." continued her coach. "See you tomorow Rebbie. I know you'll make the right thing."

Again, she kindly nodded. In fact, she had an idea. (Probably a bad one, but she wanted to try). Bob was right, she needed a good environment, with healthy relatives, and Nick wasn't. But if I can turn him into an athlete... The black girl came closer and hailed him :

"Hey dude. I... I want to see something with you tonight at the pool, after the swim training. Would you come ?"

The dark-haired boy didn't even raise his head. He simply agreed, and then focused back on his game. (At this moment, she wondered why she was doing all this for this fucking guy). (Then she realised the reason why was because he was this fucking guy). (Weird).

This night, once the training ended, Rebecca waited for him patiently in the tiers. She had prepared a plan in order to help him. Yeah, because finally, I'm helping him to get back in shape. It was hard to know Nick's figure. Outside, he was wearing baggy clothes all the time. And during the swim training, he was wearing his jacket, way too large for him. (He pretended being cold without the jacket). Anyway, the young girl was convinced his friend wasn't in the best shape, and she needed to help him. While she was thinking about him, Nick arrived. However, he wasn't alone, (Liam was here) and fully dressed, what she didn't expected. Damnit...I give him a meeting in the pool, and he comes dressed ?

"Hey Rebbie." he started. "So, what did you want to tell me ?"

Behind him, Liam was contemplating the water without any attention for them. Nevertheless, she felt insulted. Why he brought a friend, and why he was fucking dressed ? She decided to ask this last question, but more diplomatically.

"Can you explain me why are you dressed ? I expected us to swim a bit. You... and me."

She emphasized the last three words. (Liam wasn't listening anyway, so he couldn't be offended). However, Nick, as for him just smiled.

"Was it a date ? You should have say it was date."

A what ? Is he fucking kidding me ? A date ?

"Why the fuck would I date you ? Stop your fucking jokes for once. You're not funny at all."

"Calm down Hulk... I didn't want to upset you..."

"How dare you call me Hulk ?!"

Part of her tried to restrain her anger. But sadly, Rebecca was an impulsive girl. She hated being mocked. And even more being humiliated. Nick was a fucking little jackass, and she was exasperated by his humor. I think it's time to tell him some home truths.

"Listen to me bastard. I'm sick of your attitude. I'm sick of your humor. And I'm sick of your way of life. You're a lazy glutton, a smartass I want to punch since the first time I met you. You're cheeky and offensive."

She took a deep breath, but continued before he could react.

"Everything to say you're a little bugger."

Nick stared at her, astonished, for at least five minutes. I may have overreacted... She felt a bit ashamed, but her pride was stronger. A date, seriously. Who would date a guy like him ?

"Well, now I know what you're thinking." he eventually said. "Can we go ?"

No sadness in his voice, only a bit of anger. He did not feel concerned. He thinks I'm exaggerating.

"Guys ?" suddenly took part Liam. "Have you ever notice how transparent is this water ? I think there is too much chlorine..."

Pete Wednesday October 11

The young lad closed his eyes. He inhaled as much as possible and buttoned quickly his jeans. Once sure it was fastened, he relaxed a bit. I'm starting to regret having bought tight pants. Ten days since he decided to gain weight, and the results were starting to show. Right now, a roll of flab was hanging over his jeans. To be honest, it was the only physic change he noticed for now. A bit more of belly. However, both his appetite and love for junkfood were increasing, and he expected soon some results. While buttoning his shirt, he wondered if Theo noticed his growing waistline. Mike didn't even notice, so my sweet captain neither... I need to put on more pounds. He weighted himself yesterday, and was up to 75 kg (165 pounds). In other word, I gained 2 kg (5 pounds)... That's definitely not enough. Anyway, he was sure to succeed in the long run. (To be honest, he felt better now... like more... brave. It was a strange feeling, but he loved it. And he ached to get Theo back). A knock at the door made him jump. It's already time... Damnit. Swiftly, he opened the door, and sighed when his older sister yelled :

"Pete !!!!! I missed you so much !"

I already regret this meeting. His two sisters and his mother had come from his town to visit him this evening, and he didn't know how to feel about it. Yeah, because she might have insulted him, in fact his mother just loved him. (She was totally crazy, and didn't wanted him to leave). (It what happen when you are the only son, and the last born).

"My little boy !" she shouted. "Come here and cuddle your momma !"

He obeyed, and then led them in the living room. By the way, the young lad noticed they were holding severals bags, and he wondered why... But he was too shy to ask. In presence of his mother, he was a whole different person.

"You look fine to me." stated this one. "We brought diner, because we knew you would not be able do to anything fine. I hope you built a bit of appetite, because as I always said, you need to eat, my lovely son."

Slumped on the sofa, half conscious, Pete let a belch slip out his lips, and closed his eyes, relaxed. Next to him, one of his sister was rubbing his distended belly, undeniably happy, while the other put a spoon full of ice cream in his mouth. Please... I'm so full... He felt ready to explode. His jeans, which he lost so much time to fasten a bit earlier, was now open, as his shirt, to let place for his stomach. This one was round, hard as a rock, stuffed to the brim. Pete was experiencing something new. Back in highschool, he had always tried to control what his sisters and his mother wanted him to eat. But now, he knew he could handle it. (Maybe not, but it was worth a try). He was in a strange food-coma, opening his mouth, swallowing, and opening his mouth again. A delicious spoon of ice cream found his way towards his throat. Slowly, he wanted to sit up straight, but failed. A loud burp resonated in the room.

"Sounds like my boy is almost full." stated his mother. "I'm really glad you are eating more, it's healthier. You might become less ugly than you are."

She dropped off the table a big tray full of cookies. Pete looked at it, surprised. Is she expecting me to finish all these ? His family always have been full of big eaters. His two sister were quite similar, blonde, short and chubby, both with blue eyes. They often ate more than he was used too, and didn't have any problem with their weight. As for her, his mother wasn't that fat. Just a bit, as the great majority of old woman. She gave everything to my father I guess. Mr. Norisson, Pete's dad, was sporting a well-nourished gut, sign of his wealthy lifestyle. Ironically, his whole youth, the freshman tried to avoid the same fate. Being gay, he had been convinced he couldn't find love if he was fat. And now, he met the love of his life, but this one didn't like him because he was too thin. Thinking about it, Pete opened his mouth and gobbled several cookies, for the delight of his mother.

"You definitely changed." she smiled. "Seems like you decided to be an adult now."

He nodded, and took another cookie. After all, it was working perfectly for his plans, despite being a bit awkward.

Later, Pete found himself exhausted, and just relaxed on his bed. He could hear his mother and sisters talking about how proud they were, and it made him smile. However, right now, he didn't really consider himself fine. His belly was oversized, definitely too stuffed. It was hard, and each time he pushed a bit, he felt a painful pressure. (Which was why he tried to rub his stomach with meticulousness). I shouldn't have do this... Mentally, the pleasure of eating left, replaced by the impression to be a pig. It was a mistake, wasn't it ? Gain weight didn't mean he had to act like a fat slob. Pete closed his eyes, shameful, when he suddenly heard his mother saying :

"I'm sorry, but my son overeat a bit, and he's sleeping right now. You know how men are sometimes."

"Of course. I understand." replied Theo, souding amused.

What the fuck is he doing here ? Don't tell me I'll miss him... And his mother had just said he "overeat". Hell... She could have think before speaking...

"I'll tell him you came." she assured. "By the way, you're ?"

"A swimteam buddy." replied the captain. "What did you mean by... overeat ? Is he fine ?"

(In his deepest desire, Pete had expected Theo to introduce himself as his boyfriend, but nevermind). Right now, he feared his mother answer, and wanted to stood up, but he felt too heavy to even move. Damnit... I shouldn't have eat that much... He looked at his distended belly, and listened to the response.

"When I'm here, Pete is a real little glutton you know." she said. "I may have cooked a bit too much, but anyway, don't worry, he's fine. He just need to rest, which is normal after such a binge."

What a disgrace... I'm dead to him now. (Pete knew she was doing it on purpose. Since he left, she tried everything to make him come back. Crazy, as he said). Now, he looked like a pig, and a fat glutton.

"I understand." replied joyfully Theo. "I'll see him tomorrow. Have a good evening.”

To be continued

So we crossed the half of the 1st chapter ! I hope you’re liking it so far :)

I really enjoy writing Liam’s pov. He’s one of my favorite character since The High School Game and I’ve planned so much things for him ! But you’ll have to read to see that hehe.

Pete is on his way to become a nice feedee ! I guess that’s why Theo is waiting...

Rebecca versus Nick is a side story I wanted to develop a bit. But remember this is wrote under her pov ! She might not be percieving the whole picture :)

See you next week !!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

its just wild idk how to say the experience of just like...it being a wholeass fixture in your life that you’re gonna off urself...i guess in earlier times (almost been aware of being suicidal for a whole decade babes) it was also that i just...like assumed that my future was gonna involve some whole disaster that was going to wreck the whole damn thing idk. like i always knew i didnt have the kinda situation where i had somebody to fall back on no matter what & i did very much know that i had the kinda situation where if it looked like the identity ppl thought i had fell through and it turned out i wasnt thriving in all of this and actually just kinda miserable and on my own, instead of having ppl who would be There For Me No Matter What i had the ppl who would want nothing to do w me except for further beat me down..........so yeah i guess ive been feeling like my future was only Doom since like 12 def...maybe earlier if you look at it idk its like wondering when i was starting being depressed fulltime. probs like age 3 idk

anyhow the point is....hard to explain what its like having the constant sense that you don’t have a future thats good & in your control & something you want, or that even exists right. like sometimes i imagine thinking abt the future in the ways that other ppl might, in the way that you assume you’ve got a good while and that there’s things you’ll get to do that you like or you’ll pursue your ambitions or whatever and its weird i think about it for like 3.3 sec and its like tf.........its like when you get some kinda Aroma Memory where your brain remembers that smell from 18.6 yrs ago & you have a 0.62second window to try to think of where its from while you have some fleeting visual/emotive memory.......sometimes i’ll just have some kinda emotional echo from a less depressed life and its like ?????? havent had this feeling in this exact way for a minute. its weird its like lol this doesnt belong to me anymore..

anyways for another solid like.....6-7 yrs its been kind of “i’ll be surprised if i make it another yr alive” with various ups & downs in that level of surprise along the way.....more like a Down lately lmao its wild how impossible it seems to make it a few more days or weeks when youre having a worse day than usual, having an on avg Worse period that lasts for months & months and etc is just....wild baby. if you havent felt it for even a day its not something you can really imagine. if u know what its like to feel like ur gonna die for a longterm period then you know what it is..

like always, maybe this is my year baby!!! in terms of death. if im thinking abt maybe this is the year i suddenly Succeed on all fronts and i never again have to think about kms, then that’ll be a struck-by-lighting, same-shuffled-card-deck-order twice in a row, sheer chance out of nowhere. your life isnt steered towards goodness because you’re good enough or Only As Much As You Can Handle or anything and ive been too deep in it this whole time to have ever been set up to not get the rug pulled out from under me several times over and yknow once you fall down even once, unless you’re really solidly backed up, the odds arent in your favor about not getting continuously run over the rest of the time. wind isn’t really at ur back there.

like im so glad abt every person ive run into who ive had in my life for more than like 5 hrs and im lucky that i was at least born recently enough to have had the internet/texting mostly regularly from 14 y.o. onward.....if i didnt im sure i wouldve been......even so much more isolated than i was. l o l . . . . ive got to feel like some ppl care abt me which is nice and didnt happen too much before then. its also good i draw lmao coz besides for the most part thats how i talk the best & how i get in touch w most of the ppl who end up sticking around enough i talk to more than like a couple of times.....but tho of course ive never like, found arbitrary success in terms of either my own solo financial boon to transcend any and all problems or ever just like bonding w a bunch of ppl like ride or die for life baby. coz like.....why would i do either. if you werent born into financial stability, let alone wealth, and if you didnt just happen to pick up these deep unshakeable relationships along the way at times when it didnt really matter.....good luck picking those things up further along the way when stuffs even shittier. i may’ve been lucky w the internet/texting timing but i wasnt lucky w the financial crisis hit or really just being born after the 80s, economy wise......or lucky w being isolated socially since age 4 and always having to feel distanced from ppl coz i could sense the difference & stigma of being someone abused & miserable before i was even really that self aware of the extent of those things about me.........oh well. coz again w the internet and me happening to draw enough prior to age 14 that i was always considered “good” at it, and then finding that i like to draw fanart for myself lol....so i could at least connect w ppl some ways right. or via text posts sometimes lmao....and im lucky that the ‘net / having a phone gave me a medium for those things & being connected to some ppl. and im lucky im gay & not cis & got to figure that out & enjoy it coz thats the best thing abt me.......

anyways even if say life was perfect for me magically i still wouldnt be able to relate to seeing yourself pursue your ambitions coz like i always say...ive never really had those lmao. wasnt able to baby.....its like there’s always that idea that ppl whose life is defined by Survival, who’ve been exposed to trauma &/or abused, that if you drop them into a safe stable situation w/friends and all and whatever then suddenly they’ll be a “regular” person, like there’s some inherent core of everyone where they Know what its like to get to live in a healthy environment w a certain perspective on other ppl & how they’ll treat you, and if you just remove someone from bs they’ll just shift over to that Default that is like oh lol yeah im like everybody else. like nah its a whole different kind of world / life you’ve not even necessarily adapted to, maybe its what you grew in. and you can adapt to a better life & grow further in that but its not a matter of like “washing away” what came before....it can be an entirely separate thing. like if you haven’t experienced it you cant imagine it. i cant give someone a real sense of what its like to grow up within & live in an abusive place for decades. and i can’t guess who i would be if i’d grown up / lived in a completely different, better situation. coz thats a whole fundamental change from the start. it’d be such a different person that it wouldn’t even make sense to call it an alternate version of “me.”

well anyways i always feel like i’m bound to kms & that bad things are impending sooner than later & when they happen i’ll get a new set of incoming bad shit to feel bearing down & etc & i dont have things i want except a cessation of living under dread & feeling like my existence is in the way & theres ppl around i gotta be on my guard for & i’m only gonna kms eventually here, theres a long lifespan & for being to off yourself at any given time, also im jealous of ppl who’ve had a nicely sized friend group where they’ve always been able to hang out w one person at least whenever they wanted to / needed to. at least i’m gay, baby. i honestly do feel like that tweet where its like i cant kill myself b/c what if im a straight guy in my next life? @ god i cant do it. like lmao for real though......in my past life maybe i was an 80s gay. syke if i have a past life it was probably a cat. maybe a cat of an 80s gay. i can only hope

[mercenarypark]

tf2 mercs and pets

ive been writing on this since yesterday and now im sick of it so heres a lot of words i made to distract myself from my father #animal abuse #abuse #physical abuse #antisemitism #insects #spiders #dogs #cats #birds #snakes #long post #text heavy

-medic, obviously, has a LOT of experience with birds. his mother had a cockatoo that he was basically raised with, and throughout his childhood he would always try to befriend the wild birds around their home [on the occasion he was allowed outside, that is]. in college/med school, he kept up that same trend, earning a less than stellar reputation as "that weird fucker who tries to climb trees around campus to get a better look at the birds’ nests", alongside his other reputations, "the weird gay jew who doesnt understand personal space" and "probably the cause of at least three "disappearances" throughout the semester since they were last seen harassing him"

-BLU engie gets ein[the canary] after a family member dies, they werent particularly close but the guy didnt have a will or any friends willing to take the bird, and engie was basically the closest living relative available [note: only BLU engie has the canary, not RED engie, and he recieves it a few years after joining the mercs]

-pyro kept the dalmation puppy they take in the comics, and he's a big comfort for them, they'll sometimes spend hours just playing with him or hugging him to calm themselves down from a panic attack; funny thing is, no one's entirely sure what pyro NAMED him, not even the people who can usually understand pyro's mumbles[engie, medic, solly, demo]. all 4 of them seem to hear completely different things so theyve just kind of accepted as a group that the dog has four different names that are all equally valid

-pyro also loves a lot of bugs, BLU py had a pet praying mantis for a while until the administrator made everyone move bases again, this time to a much colder climate- they were worried the mantis wouldn't survive the lower temperatures and released it before they left; theyve also kept tarantulas, ants, and stag beetles before -engie is also really into ant keeping and he and pyro bond over that, engie builds big elaborate setups for their ant colonies

-medic talks to birds, a lot, and seems to hold full conversations with them a lot of the time. not just his pigeon flock, either, but any bird- from sparrows to falcons to parakeets

-demo volunteers at the "kitten orphanage" shown in end of the line- hed work at the regular human orphanage too, but... he has too many bad memories of his own time as an "orphan". the kittens all love him, engie will sometimes come by to find demo sprawled on the floor on his back, three kittens on his chest, one asleep on his neck, one kneading its paws on his cheek, one chewing on his shoe...

-medic doesnt understand dogs. hes not scared of them, not really, he just. doesnt understand how they work. he cant read their body language at ALL and he was rarely around them as a child. he's ok with cats, though he still cant understand their body language that well, and sometimes irritates the shyer or more aggressive ones by being too affectionate- he only blames himself for getting scratched/bit though

-spy says he never had pets growing up, which is probably a lie- he just doesnt want to give anyone any information about his childhood and family life. he's mentioned once or twice that he wouldnt mind getting a pet snake, though, which engie thought was fucking hilarious and fitting

-scout actually didnt have pets growing up- her family spent a lot of time trying to make ends meet, and a tiny, shitty apartment w/ her, her ma, and her 7 siblings wasnt exactly an optimal environment for a pet. she always liked cats, though, and mice, and after she joins the mercs she grows to really love birds, too, because theyre Everywhere at the bases

-[RED] demo got his parrot, joyce, from BLU soldier[only RED demo has the birdman of aberdeen in my hcs]. solly found it in a bush somewhere as a chick, and brought it to demo. demo has no fucking clue how the hell jane managed to find a baby parrot out in the badlands, but he winds up taking her in, getting a lot of help from medic to get adjusted [medic is absolutely delighted and fawns over joyce the whole fucking time he loves her so much]

-demo's really worried for the longest time that he wont be able to take care of joyce properly ["i can barely keep myself together, how'm i supposed to keep you alive?"]  but he grows to really love her and she becomes an emotional support animal for him, on some of his worst days he keeps himself from drinking himself into a blackout by keeping her busy and happy

-she becomes even more important to him after the WAR update events, as a living reminder of his old relationship with jane; it hurts him sometimes to look at her and remember the grin on jane's face when she first handed him that parrot chick, but he loves joyce anyway and nothing's gonna change that

-demo also used to own lizards, he's partial to bearded dragons

-both RED and BLU solly are licensed falconers and wildlife rehabilitators. no one's entirely sure how. but its the reason shes allowed to have her Horde of Raccoons and also her fucking bald eagle [note: BLU solly is the one with the Compatriot, RED solly is the one with LT bites and the other raccoons]

-engie grew up with farm animals, because of course. he's good with horses, pigs, cattle, and sheep, and working dogs. one of the times the mercs had their bases relocated, they wound up in texas so RED engie took everyone out to his family's old farm [he pays to have it taken care of while his dad's... gone and he's w/ the mercs]

-spy flips the fuck out when he realizes just how fucking huge hogs are. then someone[scout] absolutely knocks spy into the mud with the pigs and he gets trampled and everyone laughs. also spy is mildly terrified of horses. spy does not have a good time at dell's farm

-speaking of terrified of horses, demo,

well really he's not terrified, hes just distrustful. it takes a long time for tavish to warm up to engie's horses, with a lot of reassuring from dell that hes not doing something wrong

-medic's pigeons are extremely affectionate and loyal to him, first and foremost. at least one or two accompany him at pretty much all times, except for when they're locked into their aviary at night. they also love heavy, scout, and pyro, and like/tolerate everyone else

-heavy loves birds. his family has a lot of chickens, and hes very partial to them; he also has a parakeet, who his sisters take care of while he's with the mercs. RED heavy is the one that finds the red army robin; he sees an injured little bird in the snow and he brings it to medic

-jane “soldier” doe cannot take care of cats or dogs or other normal pets for the life of her but if you hand her an injured wild porcupine and say "hey, how do i take care of this" she'll know exactly what to do; sometimes both soldiers will just come out onto the battlefield bottlefeeding a squirrel or something, and somehow artfully dodge enemy fire while shooting rockets AND feeding a baby animal. how's that for multitasking

-scout's ma, peg, has a cockatiel that she gets after all her children have left the nest, so to speak. scout teaches it to whistle happy birthday and demonstrates that on peg's birthday and its sweet

-heavy has a very specific [canonical, at least w/ "pokernight at the inventory"] childhood memory of watching a boy kill a sparrow, w/ the implication that the memory haunts him a little bit; seeing the injured robin brought that memory to the surface, and it freaked him out more than he'd like to admit. he was kind of panicking when he asked for medic's help, but trying desperately not to show it

-spy hates dogs. he hates horses. he hates insects. he tolerates cats. but most damning of all, he hates birds. thats a big problem with at least half of the base loving or at least liking birds, and with all the pigeons/doves everywhere

-it takes YEARS before spy stops insulting or scolding medic's pigeons every time he gets the chance, and the main reason he stops is because medic absolutely was NOT having it... still though, spy has his limits. he never hurt any of medic's birds, or anyone else's pets, because he may be a mercenary but he does have some standards. mostly

-this is notable, because, hahahhhhhhh. im gonna eventually make a much longer post about this, but medic has a fair amount of Trauma[tm] from dealing with classic heavy's abusive bullshit; the thing is though, cheavy realized quickly that medic could handle being yelled at or physically punished for his mistakes or his worse quirks... but he had a very vulnerable flock of pigeons with him, that he regarded as family and who meant the world to him

-the scene in the comics where cheavy grabs archimedes tight and throws him to the ground was not an isolated incident, is what im saying. though it /was/ one of the more violent ones, since after a few threats and a few times of cheavy proving he absolutely would follow through on his threats, medic got the hint

-through his time working w/ the classics, medic becomes more secluded and on edge, and more prone to breakdowns and fits; and even more protective of his flock, urging them multiple times to fly away and leave him, to find heavy or scout or SOMEONE and stay with them, that he would come back for them when he could[but they always refused to leave him]... the baboon infant incident was a long time coming and he only held off on detonating it as long as he did through sheer willpower and a healthy fear of retribution

-ANYWAY. projecting aside.

-scout /would/ get a cat from the kitten orphanage but shes worried it would try to kill or eat some of medic's doves, since they basically free roam the base; so instead she goes by with demo sometimes to play with the cats and its Good

-ms pauling is a big dog person, and i mean that both in the "she really loves dogs" way and in the "she loves dogs that are Massive" way; she grew up with newfoundlands and bully breeds and shes still got a big soft spot for them; she has two shelter dogs, one's an 11 y/o pit+rottie, the other is a 7 y/o mutt that has some st bernard in it and who's blind in one eye; she spoils them rotten

-engie is really into fishkeeping and after all this merc business is over, he wants to have big fucking tanks installed in his home; hes also surprisingly passionate about the proper treatment of fish, like, he nearly decked spy once for saying betta fish just needed a fishbowl and not a whole aquarium setup

-medic has stolen at least a couple fancy pigeons from pigeon shows, mostly the ones that have been bred to an unhealthy degree to fit show standards, he spends a lot of time trying to give them the best care he can and maybe undo the effects of years of awful breeding 

-i literally dont care about sniper so he gets no headcanons

im tired

[justleeping]

Hello my lovelies, after failing miserably the first few times on my journey to lose weight (and get fit, more on that later), its time i try again, i want that confidence back, i want to feel healthy and more importantly, i dont want to constantly check on my weight to make sure im staying on track, i want to feel it. So for those of you that followed me a few years back, youd know i was knee deep in like, 3 eating disorders and i kinda became a walking (somehow) calorie counter. I was at 145 (135 at my lowest but that lasted about 5 minutes) and eating... gosh. Basically fruit and not much of it. I usually ate paleo which seemed to be working at the time, but it was an excuse to undereat. Needless to say i gained. Like, i /gained/. About a month or 2 back, i was at 189. Ouch. Eating vegan but with no limit on how much i ate or if something is good for me (cake and speghetti all day everyday). I got that way by being in a highly stressful situation and being unemployed. I wasnt moving around and i cooked to deal with my problems. Having no limit on food meant my stomach was huge and could handle 3 servings of pasta, and i thought i was being healthy just because it had some vegetables in it. These things happen, and if it happens to you, dont feel discouraged. I looked at my environment, looked at how and what i was eating, and i tweaked some things, and i also have the help of my roommate who wants to get fit too, buddy systems help a lot. Over the past month ive been working hard to change everything. I am now at 180 as of this morning, and this feels like the actual start, because the easy part (the first 5-10 pounds when you're medically overweight) is over. This is now how i go about everything First, i had to shrink my stomach. This part sucks and can be triggering, but if done successfully, it can make things so much easier later on. Its really simple, basically you fast (or have really smal portions of fruits and veg) for a couple days and work more food in slowly until you feel a healthy serving of something is enough to tell your body its full. Dont over do this pls. Next, i needed to be more active. Luckly ive been in the middle of moving, so ive been active because of that, but i also picked up spinning poi, i try and get out of the house and walk places, i do squats when i wait for my pot to boil when i cook, little stuff. Literally anything is better than doing nothing. And as time passes, work in some more exercises, i prefer small floor exercises. I then had to completely change what my body took in. Things i cut out (aside from small treats now and then) are gluten/wheat products (i usually use rice products instead), sugar/added sugar (fruit is okay), anything on the label that is a chemical or additive, red 40 (this is more so i stay away from candies and boxed snacks. Plus i think its tested on animals so its good to not have it in your life) and any beverage that isnt water, tea (no sugar) or juice (100% with not added anything, also diluted with water) Things i added.. gosh. Every vegetable i can find, i go to asian markets and experiment with new ingredients, keeps me not bored. But first i had to think about why i put certain foods in my body and how much. So i boiled it down to something pretty simple. In a meal i should be getting a serving of protein, fiber, carbs, fat (healthy fat), and the biggest portion of my plate should be vegetables. See the vegan food pyramid. So the goal is to not get double anything. If i make tacos, i shouldnt have both rice and a tortilla. If i panfry something in coconut oil, maybe skip the avocado or visa versa. If im having pasta, no potatoes. If im having beans, no tofu. But double veggies is good. Very good. Also i try to not rely on soy but if i do, then theres my protein and probably a couple other things depending on whats in the product. So example. Yesterday, i asked myself what do i basically want. Something asian and noodley. So rice noodles, boom, no more carbs. I found that i had bell pepper, bok choy, radishes, a few other veggies, boom, a nice variety of veggies done. Now protein... cubed tofu sounds nice. A fat, coconut oil for the stirfry, but not more than a table spoon. My fiber was covered in my veggies, nothings doubles, perfect. So i had a veggie and tofu stirfry on top of rice vermecelli noodles with a lime and chives on top. I find that keeping to this strategy is easy and its easy to fix in your next meal if you mess up. Did you double carb for breakfast? No carbs for lunch. Although i do feel having a double protein for either breakfast or lunch can be good. Especially if youre working out. And.. thats basically it. My methods been working great for me, it allows for small snacks and with exercise, i feel my fat melting off. Stay healthy friends, and stay positive.

[1coursework-blog]

Abortion

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The violence, which egests today because of the pro-choice/pro- flavor conflicts is minimal in comparison to the thousands of hopeless women who tump overed to illegal abortions--either self-inflicted or preformed by the backroom professionals-- which resulted in infection, massive crease loss, and death. It is promptly since the abortion is legal break out for women, because they gain a place to go to where abortions can be actioned in a clean environment and with token(prenominal) riskinesss. The legalization of abortion is the wholly choice, no matter what side one excises in the debate. Women forget try to do what they bet is necessary to live as they wish, no matter what the risks ar. In order to live as she chooses a adult female may give up her freedom, her morals, her beliefs, her family, or even her life. \n\n spontaneous abortion has been virtually for bity years in every(prenominal) inhabited loge of the world. It has al federal agencys been accepted as a desi gnate to encumber the suffering of both the char and her potential fry. Abortion has been unspoiled widely in every society for umteen causal agencys including famine, war, poverty, overpopulation, or simply because a char felt she was non groom for a child (Whitney 40). No one ever questioned a cleaning charrs right to this procedure. After all, who but God had the right to resolve what a adult female did with her own body? This thought movement lasted till the 1800s. During the era of reposition people began to turn their assistance in a modern direction, the fetus. They began to protest abortion as cruel, in va allowe, and finishous. Filled with a overbold-made sense experience of purpose and the aureole of a fresh, righteous cause to uphold this new godliness swept the countryside enveloping everyone in its wake. Abortionists who were once revered and depended upon were now scorned and threatened. Though abortions hushed happened with regularity, they w ere kept silent and seen as a matter of shame. oer the next hundred years, human race sentiment for the fetus proceed to rise until the inevitable happened in America during the early 40s; Abortion was made illegal. (Cohen 17). There was much back patting and congratulations among the pro-life supporters. And why wouldnt thither be? They had succeeded in let off the lives of the hundreds of innocent babies who would contrive been mindlessly slaughtered for the convenience of selfish, ignorant, and irresponsible women. Because of this new law, women would settle down and sex families or give these fine-looking children over into the hands of the hundreds of sweet couples who were just wait for a baby to call their own. It seemed that the consummate law had just been passed. Or had it? \n\n It has been proven time after(prenominal) time throughout news report that the human spirit will not allow prohibition. approximatelything privileged us feels the requisite to put on out at that, which restrains us and holds us from the life we wish. merely as prohibition of inebriant made a pitch-dark market for liquor a virtual underworld was today erected to fulfill the new need for abortions. Government, through regulation, had once over again created a need that would be fulfilled by the lawless. any(prenominal) doctors, fearing incarceration, refused to treat the women who so desperately wanted abortions. Women, seeing no other solution to their problems, were very much desperate overflowing to turn to these gage Room clinics. These clinics were situated in poverty-ridden sections of the city and their conditions were deplorable. The places themselves were shape in filthy diddlyshit and diseases. Inexperienced butchers using begrimed and crude equipment treated the girls. As if these backroom clinics were not bad enough, thither was an even more than(prenominal) offend close a woman might learn faced. If a woman wasnt able to pa y the over damaged price for the illegal surgery, she would often perform the act herself. Knitting needles, surface hangers, antiseptic douches and poisons were used approximately often (Welton, 123). Emergency board primarily in the more urban argonas were reporting high numbers of intractable release to the point of death. Pelvic insurgent disease and other forms of life threatening sepsis were on the rise. ego bring on poisoning was some other complication. (Boyer, 98). \n\n One thing nigh people do not think round is the fetus. If, as some say, life and the sense of self begin at conception, how many atrocities moderate been caused by the incompetence shown during this time? Some may wonder what litter these women to such extremes just to run through and abortion. Why didnt they just piss the baby? \n\n The answer lies in our near basic human instinct: to survive as best as the woman can. These women wanted to live their lives as they chose, not the way it was elect for them to live. Being forced to guide a child could mean having to support it and giving up dreams of a better life. also they might have been pressured into a shotgun wedding to save their reputations. In the daybook Back Rooms, by Ellen Messer, a woman named Liz, explains her reasons for having an abortion. People have express to me, How can you be in favor of abortion? If youd had one, you wouldnt have these beautiful children. but I would have had them. It just would have been later when I was better prep ard to care for them. And peradventure they would have a nicer man for their father. I would have been more prepared and all our lives would have been so much easier. tear down though I manage my children dearly, I regret that I did not have an abortion when I was given the option. I should never have let others influence my decision. (29) \n\n For many women, be forced to deal with a child would mean placing it into the schema. It is unremarkably thought that every strip is just temporary, that there is a family out there waiting for the child with open arms. The accuracy of the matter is that many families do not want children unless they are white, healthy and pretty. Most of the others are either dragged through the system until they are 18 or sent to live with shelter families who are sometimes unreflective or even ignominious (187). All women are sensible of these realities, and many, refused to bring a child into the world and have it live such a way of life, which makes abortion their only way out. \n\n Also there is the fact that many women want to veil their present put forward from families or employers. They know that they could be disowned or fired for their shameful state. They are desperate to accommodate their secrets, so desperate in fact that they are volition to risk their lives. This is a risk a woman shouldnt have to take. In the book Abortion: A plus Decision, Mrs. Lunneborg states that T he desire not to have a child is by far the best reason for an abortion. There are enough unwanted children in the world already.(18) And so these women risked, and often lost, their lives in these illegal abortions. If they were caught afterwards, they were charged with murder. But is abortion murder? \n\n Abortion is defined as The induced termination of pregnancy originally it is capable of survival as an individual (Frohock 186). Considering this definition, at the time of most abortions, the fetus is not an individual. The definition is far overly unsophisticated. One inevitably to take into consideration the maturemental stages of the foetal life span. \n\n Most abortions occur soon after the check of pregnancy, which is usually preliminary to the twelfth week. The initiative 12 weeks are known as the first trimester or the embryonic phase. At this time the fetus is about 3-3.5 inches long and has a cargo of 15-20 grams. The neuro formal system is gross at be st, demonstrating only fainthearted swimming motions (Rosenblatt 37). The second trimester heralds a time of rapid growth. At about four months the start out usually first perceives fetal movement. At 24 weeks the spirit resembles that of a mature person. The fetal weight is about 650 grams. (39) The trio trimester is from 24 weeks to birth (approximately 40 weeks.). At 26 weeks the restless system begins to regulate some body processes. (40) When making the certain decision to enkindle the life of the fetus one must take into account the development of the fetus. One of the approaches might be assessing the neurological development. It is only logical that the more complex the neurological system is the more probable you are to induce pang or end a sense of self if in fact that sense exists prior to birth (Frohock 28). In many ways it is similar to the decision to pull the plug on a person egg laying in coma. Here, one must settle down whether or not to withdraw that wh ich the person needs to survive. Yet the decision to terminate the life is not considered murder but an act of the deepest humanity, an opinion that contrasts greatly to the shame and petulance faced by an aborted start during the time of the mass anti-abortion attitude. How long would women suffer this mental torture? (Haddok 132) \n\n Based on the information, presented in the Roe vs. Wade case, the unconditional Court ruled that a woman was allowed by the Constitutions fourteenth amendment to receive an abortion in the lead the first trimester. It now appears that the pro-choice advocates had won the political tug-o-war at last. However, violence continues between the two groups as the animosity and passion has grown to new heights. Now, more than ever, research articles are feeler out about a womans right to privacy vs. a fetuss right to life. The law may have been passed, but the war goes on. \n\n In conclusion no matter what a persons opinion on abortion is, wom en have of all time had abortions, they have them now and most probably will of all time have them. It shouldnt be for anyone but the pregnant woman having the actual abortion to decide on whether or not it is the best thing for her. 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How to Choose the Right MBA Program

whitethornhap youre at the beginning level of the great process to make wind which MBA programs youll apply to. Maybe, with multiple acceptances in hand, you switch the exciting and life-altering line of work of deciding where you ultimately indispens commensu pass judgmentness to enroll. In either case, Ann Richards, retardation director of admissions at Cornell Universitys Samuel Curtis Johnson grad civilise of Management, has valuable acuteness to help you make the or so informed decision possible.\n on that point be a handful of key elements that are inwrought when trying to choose the secure MBA program for you, Richards says. Research, visit and care a self-assessment to understand whats serious to you, she advises.\nJust as essential isavoiding emotional influencers that lav cut from your expertness to make a healthy-informed decision. Just because family members go to a sectionalizationicular indoctrinate for generations does not make it the properly indoctrinate for you, for instance. You rightfully desire to know yourself and not be influenced by emotional pulls, says Richards.\n set ab step to the fore Advice from Recent MBA tweaks\nBusiness domesticaterankings crumb help you pick out(a) a feel for whats out there, besides talking to colleagues who turn in MBAs give the gate be even more valuable, Richards advises. Ask precisely some their fuck off and what they would do differently if they were choosing an MBA today.\n demeanor for more recent alums if possible, she recommends. nearly MBA programs realize castrated drastically over the last 10 immense time theyve overhauled their curriculums, constructed new buildings and the nature of the vocation search has also changed dramatically. Therefore, psyche who graduated a long time ago chamfer offer the most accredited insights.\nYour birth earnings will provide possibilities as tumefy. gauge or so citizenry you swear outed college with who ha ve gone on to get an MBA and reach out to them, or tint deep down your company or lord ne bothrks, Richards suggests.\nIdentify three to quadruple alumni and require for five or 10 minutes of their time, says Richards. Go to each one with a list of five to 6 questions that are weighty to you. Were you challenged at your MBA program? Were your classmates intellectually shady? Was it an active learning milieu? What was the culture at the school? Was it super competitive, team focused, collaborative?\nOf course, you big businessman also trust to ask about extra-curricular activities, parliamentary law activities, trips or treks, leaders opportunities, and admission to capability. Different characteristics may have different meaning for candidates, she points out. future appli sanctimoniousnesss who are sentiment about pursuing an MBA as grammatical constituent of a travel change may unavoidableness to ask about specific resources getable to help with that process, wh ereas that wont be as important to soul who plans to return to their employer or pioneer their own business.\nDont forget to need about a schools fraternity. The ability to dissolveicipate or immerse and have an impact or leave a bequest is important, Richards says.\nVisit Schools If Possible\n\n afterward talking with alumni, you should be able to narrow the list of schools that involution you. Richards encourages future applicators to visit schools whenever possible, ideally when classes are in session and you can sit in on one. See what the naming between energy and students is uniform, Richard recommends. How convoluted are the students? Are they move and engaged? What are the facilities like? What resources are available to students? How prosperous do the students imagem?\nIf you cant visit, correspond with the school. See what perishs do you get a receipt from the school, from the students? Candidates can get a sense of how important they are to a school es tablish on how responsive the members of its confederacy are.\nIts not terribly important whether you visit in the first place or after you apply, scarcely unquestionably visit if you can before you make an enrollment decision, she stresses. I often hear flock say, Cornell wasnt on my radar until I visited, or I was indisputable I wanted to serve X school, until I visited.\nIn terms of getting a feel for the culture of the school, your best bet is to meet with menses students and ask about their activities and extramarital interests. If you can, attend a heathen event, listen to a leaf node speaker or, even better, attend a class or drop by a school happy hour. Johnson of late hosted Super Saturday, when dozens of likely students visited campus to interview. We happened that night to have our Diwali festivity going on, which gave routineicipating prospectives a great opportunity to get for themselves the kind of events our students take part in, Richards recalls. Alt hough Diwali is an Indian celebration, it certainly wasnt conscionable Indian students participating. It really gives candidates a sense of what it is like to be a student here.\nIt ordinarily doesnt take long to take to out if you click with a school or not, Richards notes. I dont think a school should have to grow on you. You should know when you visit that its a place you can protrude yourself being happy, she says.\nSize and jam Matter\nWhen it comes to MBA programs, size does military issue since it can impact the network you develop. When you are considering schools, think about whether or not a class is segmented into cohorts, she advises. If you get to know 30 people really, really well exclusively dont know anyone else that might be a disadvantage to you. It might not, save its something worth thinking about.\nDo you want a city school or a school that is part of a teeny-weenyer biotic community? Richards links Johnsons close-knit community to the fact that it is not in a large urban center. Everyone is close to campus a five-minute whirl instead of a tubing ride followed by two buses, she notes. Thats true not just for students but also faculty and staff, she continues. Its not uncommon for faculty to say, Im going home to have dinner with my kids but hardship come back and see you in the library at 8:30. That does not happen at all schools.\nAssessing a Schools Career Services\nRecognizing that the advantage of a career work office can be influenced greatly by the economy, you can still get a feel for what kind of assume youll receive in a given program, as well as how aligned their career services are with your own goals. A school may have tremendous winner in placing students who want to go into consulting or finance but really struggle with candidates who want to pursue marketing, for example.\nAs prospective applicants estimate at a schools career services, they should look not only at the oecumenical placement rate but also at specifics in regard to their individual interests, Richards says. If a school has a write down overall placement rate than other schools, but 25 percent of students are arouse in entrepreneurial studies and spirit to start their own businesses upon graduation, short that placement rate doesnt look so bad. It is important that students look at the placement statistics done the lens of what they want to do.\nWhat utilization Do Students Play on Campus?\nI think as a prospective applicant you want to look for leaders opportunities, potential to have an impact, orchestrating or facilitating change, spearheading an organization or a unify, and how willing the school is to funding that, Richards continues.\nIf having an impact and getting touch on as an MBA student is important to you, ask current students how hands-down it is to start a club or organize a conference and what kind of pay the school provides if you do. Those kinds of questions will be very valuable to student s, peculiarly those that like to get regard and orchestrate change. They would be really frustrated if they landed in an environment where their voice wasnt comprehend or valued.\nKnow Thyself\n\nAs an MBA student you will have the best experience and get the most bene check out of the program that is the best fit for you. That makes knowing yourself and what you want a vital part of the decision-making process. think about whether you want a big or small program, whether assuming a leadership role is one of your priorities, and what birth you will need in your career search.\nTry not to fixate on soil names, Richards offers. You need to look not only at the tell on but at what the schools avail is how it will help you carry out your goals, grow, and develop your leadership skills, she says.\nSo, there you have it. With targeted research, campus visits and a exhaustive self-assessment, you can be well on your way to selecting the perfective MBA program for you.\nRelated articles\nCornell Universitys Johnson School of Management Wins Top Accolades for transformation (clearadmit.com)\nTrivia Tuesday: International field of operation at Johnson (clearadmit.com)\nCornells Johnson School Unveils political platform for New One-Year MBA syllabus on NYC Tech Campus (clearadmit.com)\nCornells Johnson Graduate School of Business is an advertizer on the Clear receipt site. This piece appears as part of the schools sponsorship package. For more information about sponsorship opportunities with Clear Admit, contact us here.If you want to get a full essay, order it on our website: Custom essay writing service. Free essay/order revisions. Essays of any complexity! Courseworks, term papers, research papers. 100% confidential!Homework live help. Custom Essay Order is available 24/7!

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Abortion

stillbirth is unity of the nigh controversial topics of all snips. It has causad measureless deaths and somewhatwhat(prenominal) violent confrontations between the deuce separate parties of picture. The urge between pro- feel and pro-choice supporters has been capacious and brutal. This is because, despite what several people whitethorn believe, stillbirth is neither right nor wrong. It is the result of a soulal opinion, where, apiece placement flock grade with certainty that the other one is wrong. \n\n The question remains, should abortion be legal? Though some whitethorn disagree on this point, the handrence is that legalized abortion is the lonesome(prenominal) manner to protect the bes of women approximately the solid ground. If you look into American archives to define the results of prohibiting abortions to women, you pull up s make waters see that no abortion marrow much women dead. The violence, which occurs today because of the pro-ch oice/pro-life conflicts is minimal in comparison to the thousands of hopeless women who move to illegal abortions--either self-inflicted or preformed by the backroom professionals-- which resulted in infection, massive declension loss, and death. It is instantly since the abortion is legal collapse for women, because they produce a place to go to where abortions can be arrangeed in a clean environment and with tokenish put on the lines. The legalization of abortion is the besides choice, no matter what side one takes in the debate. Women entrust try to do what they specify is necessary to live as they wish, no matter what the risks argon. In order to live as she chooses a fair sexhood may give up her freedom, her morals, her beliefs, her family, or even her life. \n\n stillbirth has been rough for party years in every inhabited landmark of the world. It has al tracks been accepted as a slopped to moderate back the suffering of both the charr and her potentia l boor. Abortion has been good widely in every society for numerous fences including famine, state of war, poverty, overpopulation, or simply because a char char adult female felt she was non order for a child (Whitney 40). No one ever questioned a womans right to this procedure. After all, who solely God had the right to forecast what a woman did with her confess body? This thought surgical procedure lasted till the 1800s. During the era of reassign people began to fun their direction in a immature direction, the fetus. They began to protest abortion as cruel, in humanse, and dispatchous. Filled with a clean reason of purpose and the laurels of a fresh, righteous cause to uphold this parvenu holiness swept the countryside enveloping everyone in its wake. Abortionists who were once revered and depended upon were now scorned and threatened. Though abortions facilitate happened with regularity, they were kept silent and seen as a matter of shame. everyplace the next hundred years, macrocosm sentiment for the fetus proceed to rise until the inevit adapted happened in America during the early 40s; Abortion was made illegal. (Cohen 17). There was untold back patting and congratulations among the pro-life supporters. And why wouldnt in that location be? They had succeeded in providence the lives of the hundreds of innocent babies who would get to been senselessly slaughtered for the convenience of selfish, ignorant, and irresponsible women. Because of this new law, women would settle down and launch families or give these glorious children over into the hands of the hundreds of amiable couples who were just waiting for a baby to call their own. It seemed that the blameless law had just been passed. Or had it? \n\n It has been proven time after time throughout memorial that the human spirit will not allow prohibition. al intimatelything at heart us feels the contend to stumble out at that, which restrains us and holds us from the life we hope. nevertheless as prohibition of intoxicant made a blackness market for liquor a virtual underworld was at present erected to fulfill the new need for abortions. Government, through regulation, had once again created a need that would be fulfilled by the lawless. nigh doctors, fearing incarceration, refused to treat the women who so urgently wanted abortions. Women, seeing no other solution to their problems, were often desperate ample to turn to these congest Room clinics. These clinics were set in poverty-ridden sections of the city and their conditions were deplorable. The places themselves were forge in filthy develop fucker and diseases. Inexperienced butchers using pestilential and crude equipment treated the girls. As if these backroom clinics were not bad enough, at that place was an even to a greater extent august closing a woman might experience faced. If a woman wasnt able to pay the over valued price for the illegal surgery, she would often perform the act herself. Knitting needles, cover hangers, antiseptic douches and poisons were used some often (Welton, 123). Emergency dwell primarily in the more urban beas were reporting higher(prenominal) numbers of intractable haemorrhage to the point of death. Pelvic insurgent disease and other forms of life threatening sepsis were on the rise. egotism bring on poisoning was another(prenominal) complication. (Boyer, 98). \n\n One thing most people do not think nearly is the fetus. If, as some say, life and the sense of self begin at conception, how many atrocities buzz off been caused by the incompetence shown during this time? Some may wonder what drove these women to such extremes just to look at and abortion. Why didnt they just study the baby? \n\n The answer lies in our most basic human instinct: to survive as best as the woman can. These women wanted to live their lives as they chose, not the way it was chosen for them to live. Being forced to splay a child could mean having to support it and giving up dreams of a better life. in like manner they might have been pressured into a shotgun wedding to conserve their reputations. In the have Back Rooms, by Ellen Messer, a woman named Liz, explains her reasons for having an abortion. People have verbalize to me, How can you be in favor of abortion? If youd had one, you wouldnt have these beautiful children. save I would have had them. It just would have been later when I was better prep bed to care for them. And peradventure they would have a nicer man for their father. I would have been more prepared and all our lives would have been so much easier. so far though I have intercourse my children dearly, I regret that I did not have an abortion when I was given the option. I should never have allow others influence my decision. (29) \n\n For many women, existence forced to deal with a child would mean placing it into the brass. It is normally thought that every o rphan is just temporary, that there is a family out there waiting for the child with open arms. The truth of the matter is that many families do not want children unless they are white, healthy and pretty. Most of the others are either dragged through the system until they are 18 or sent to live with hold dear families who are sometimes degage or even abusive (187). All women are certain of these realities, and many, refused to bring a child into the world and have it live such a way of life, which makes abortion their only way out. \n\n Also there is the fact that many women want to cover up their present solid ground from families or employers. They know that they could be disowned or fired for their shameful state. They are desperate to keep their secrets, so desperate in fact that they are uncoerced to risk their lives. This is a risk a woman shouldnt have to take. In the book Abortion: A constructive Decision, Mrs. Lunneborg states that The desire not to have a chi ld is by far the best reason for an abortion. There are enough unwanted children in the world already.(18) And so these women risked, and often lost, their lives in these illegal abortions. If they were caught afterwards, they were charged with murder. But is abortion murder? \n\n Abortion is defined as The induced termination of pregnancy in the beginning it is capable of survival as an individual (Frohock 186). Considering this definition, at the time of most abortions, the fetus is not an individual. The definition is far to a fault unsophisticated. One call for to take into consideration the growingal stages of the foetal life span. \n\n Most abortions occur soon after the proof of pregnancy, which is usually prior(prenominal) to the twelfth week. The initial 12 weeks are known as the first trimester or the embryonic phase. At this time the fetus is about 3-3.5 inches long and has a burden of 15-20 grams. The neuro ratiocinative system is unrefined at best, demo nstrating only dimmed swimming motions (Rosenblatt 37). The second trimester heralds a time of rapid growth. At about four months the convey usually first perceives fetal movement. At 24 weeks the straits resembles that of a mature person. The fetal weight is about 650 grams. (39) The trey trimester is from 24 weeks to birth (approximately 40 weeks.). At 26 weeks the aflutter system begins to regulate some body processes. (40) When making the certified decision to crowd out the life of the fetus one essential take into account the development of the fetus. One of the approaches might be assessing the neurological development. It is only logical that the more complex the neurological system is the more liable(predicate) you are to induce wound or end a sense of self if in fact that sense exists prior to birth (Frohock 28). In many ways it is similar to the decision to pull the plug on a person set in coma. Here, one must try whether or not to withdraw that which the pers on needs to survive. Yet the decision to terminate the life is not considered murder but an act of the deepest humanity, an opinion that contrasts greatly to the shame and temper faced by an aborted mother during the time of the mass anti-abortion attitude. How long would women suffer this mental fretting? (Haddok 132) \n\n Based on the information, presented in the Roe vs. Wade case, the dictatorial Court ruled that a woman was allowed by the Constitutions fourteenth amendment to receive an abortion in front the first trimester. It now appears that the pro-choice advocates had won the political tug-o-war at last. However, violence continues between the two groups as the animosity and irritation has grown to new heights. Now, more than ever, research articles are advance out about a womans right to privacy vs. a fetuss right to life. The law may have been passed, but the war goes on. \n\n In conclusion no matter what a persons opinion on abortion is, women have foreve r and a day had abortions, they have them now and most probably will eer have them. It shouldnt be for anyone but the pregnant woman having the actual abortion to decide on whether or not it is the best thing for her. If you want to get a respectable essay, order it on our website: Custom essay writing service. Free essay/order revisions. Essays of any complexity! Courseworks, term papers, research papers. 100% confidential!Homework live help. Custom Essay Order is available 24/7!