#but i am very very proud of myself for going and giving it a try even when it scares me
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Oh my god one last thing my ex took me to outside lands and when we tried to watch lana del rey he laid down on the grass and had a âpanic attackâ (this was after months of him talking about how he didnât like her) so we went to see foo fighters after a bit and he was FINE
#LANA i know his sister works for you BUT TRUST MY WORD AND GIVE ME A FREE TICKET PLEASEâŠ#MY FIRST TIME SEEING YOU WAS RUINED GIRL⊠she was so good too like i was saving her songs to spotify that night#im reliving all this because i found out a lot of his exes and ex friends hang out together and two of them invited me so it was me an ex an#d an ex friend just swapping stories and first of all. he said he got cheated on by this girl and she NEVER DID IT (HE would have emotional/#angry outbursts at HER though) (allegedly heâs acknowledged to her that the cheating never happened too) and 2. this is obviously making me#mentally rehash everything again. i feel so bad for his current girlfriend and also for the person i ââstoleââ him from though i really hesi#tate to blame myself after hearing about his patterns. first of all he wouldve done this with anyone who was vulnerable around him and secon#d i was the only reason he was at all honest with them. he was fully planning to gaslight this ex and me and his dad had to convince him not#to. they look like theyre happy now and im very happy for them over that. oh my god that man was evil he told me for WEEKS about every time#his then partner had talked shit about me while i made clear that i didnt care and wasnt very interested but he kept going. god i cant belie#ve this was my life a year ago.#the one thing i can say is that i out freaked him because throughout our short relationship i made him so insecure that a week after i told#to never speak to me again he called me asking if he really was ugly.#I CANNOT BELIEVE I HAD TO TEND TO A GROWN MAN WHILE LANA DEL REY WAS RIGHT THERE BECAUSE HE WAS SO OPPOSED TO BEING AROUND HER. LANAAAA#times like these i get so mad i dont know what to do but ultimately remembering that he has not achieved any of his goals because he refuses#to face himself really helps me. god man IVE achieved some of his goals and i wasnt even trying to#a really awful part of all of this was all of the friends who knew him taking his side. because they didnt know him well enough to know what#he was actually like.#i was talking to my ex friend of four years and she was like not to blame you but he was probably really vulnerable from his time with [ex p#rior to me]ââ because heâs been going around alleging that that ex was abusive. and she was implying i took advantage of him. so i had to go#into detail about what an awful awful person he was and the sort of state i was in when this relationship took place. hannah lee you are#not seeing your little jehovahâs witness heaven.#anyways redirecting this energy im very happy with the way my life is and the way i am now. and im grateful for it i would not have ever bee#n able to imagine having the sort of peace and motivation i feel now. life feels like it can and will change for the better and it keeps pro#ving that right all the time#it just hurts sometimes having that as my first experience and not even being able to vocalize what was wrong bc i just didnt know hurts#oh i forgot one of his besties can see my account bc weâre sort of mutuals. i doubt heâs looking he did the whole unfollowing the ex bc sheâ#s allegedly amoral thing after the breakup but if he is hi isaac#he did on rare occasion show me selfless kindness but ultimately your best friend is a creep. i donât want to be involved with anyone from#our school but I hope you know this and I hope youâre proud
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The indoctrination was successful guys, I just showed my dad a bunch of Seb clips and he said he's now his favorite
#that one 'theres smth loose btwn my legs' clip made him lose it hahahaha#but the top gear interview is what got him#tho i will say thats its painful to show him all these clips and then be like 'oh yeah do remember hes retired tho' đ#but fernando is his other fav so im very proud of myself#i think he also likes kimi(i showed him some clips)#sry for rambling BUT OH MY GOD SPEAKING OF KIMI#hes racing in nascar rn right?(jb too) and hes my brothers absolute fav driver#and guess where kimi is racing....15 mins from where my brother lives#HE HAS TO GO HE HAS TO PLSSSS IM TRYING TO CONVINCE HIM LOL#im like 'ik we dont like nascar but pls go so i can live vicariously thru you'#im like 'but okay what if you met one of them' đđ#pls go get me smth signed i am absolutely begging đ#but cmon its a sign right???? he has to. hes gotta. i mean cmon.#but seriously if he ends up going ill be so happy bcs just that small chance that smth does occur for him#he said hes gonna give kimi 'the drink' JSKDKFKF#okay anyways im very pleased w the way im dragging my father into f1 and that my bro and i have a common obsession#catie.rambling.txt
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ooo grindr is scary but i'm proud of myself for trying
#figured maybe i was ready to give dating/hookup apps a shot since im mostly recovered from top surgery!#but turns out it really just scares the shit out of me to go for hookups - and really just to get to know a stranger really fast online#at least in that sort of context#so had wee little panic attack - it had been months since the last one actually which is fantastic!#but i am very very proud of myself for going and giving it a try even when it scares me#i feel a little bad for just ghosting the one guy i was talking to but i really just... wasn't into him#sure i wanted to hear more about his physics research but everything else felt a little red flag-y and he just wasn't my type#and i gotta remind myself that I really don't HAVE to talk with anyone on something like that and ghosting is okay#i did totally delete the app though#which does make me feel better#and thus ive learned that its not my sorta thing! think i like starting as in-person friends with people; stuff kinda takes me time
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Well at least I managed to do a proper brushing of my teeth today and tortured myself with some dental floss while I was at it too.
#well i know very well this will fool no dentist but like...excuse me i am actually functioning again and i am beyond proud of myself for it#you cannot understand what a victory this feels like after having been too sick to even remotely roytinely do these things#i am finding ways to get myself to take care of myself and i am honestly tearing up rn that i can do all these things#this bitch truly be recovering slowly but surely and it is actually giving me hope...#i fucking lived bitch#i will however keep my stance on dental floss... i hate that shit so much... satans tool.#i may be in pain like real bad but i am still doing better rn then i did all 2022 so fuck it i am CELEBRATING!!!! đ#...i think I'll indeed have one earbuds in tomorrow when i go to the dentist. music cheat code works ok.#it worked when i had to go get my new glasses when i had no energy for it. i will try it again at dentist office.#.. i should make a playlist.#also i need y'all to know that i have brushed my teeth to i want it all like 3 days in a row now or something#...it is working oddly well. i think I'll keep doing that...#listen.. if it gets me to brush my teeth...!#we keep it up. it is working.#ryder speaking
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I just realised tomorrow marks the 7ths week of me being sick and feeling like garbage lol It's some ups and downs but generally it's been a while since I've been healthy and none knows whats up which is nice.
#been to the doctor so many times#and at least my general doc is trying but she cant figure out what's wrong#and the throat specialist I've been to twice in one month got a very helpful âsounds like stress and you imagine allâ for me#like thanks i keep having my ear throat and nose inflamed constantly and nothing i tried so far helped but surely its stress#my doc suspected a virus but we also didnt find any active anti bodies#so i was just told to rest and was off work for two weeks that also did nothing#so i worked again even tho my doc was like maybe not but i got psychological issues being home with nothing to do#gotta go to my dentist tomorrow to see if the source is there#but im sure its my ears but I'll never go back to that doc#i was there twice a month cuz it kept getting worse and got a stress stamp#stress i didnt even have lately cuz i got a healthy fuck you all work motivation now#and now I'll lose all chance for promotion cuz i cant do my usual 200% and my bosses translate that with: she broken now bye#going great#also don't really have motivation to draw anymore#I started to build model sets but idk if anyone would wanna see those#I also got a cyst on my ovaries and got an appointment in july#that gives me serious pms like i never had it before but ok#someone knows a doc that'll remove the whole uterus i don't need that shit anymore#anyways in case anyone's been wondering where i am lately or if anyone even read this my asks are open if anyone wants to ask smth#or ask my OCs they live rent free in my head and are very precious to me#even my new car is named Michael#he's cute and my record so far been 190km/h#one day I'll do the 225 he can do#just get off the road that day pls#that car was the onyl thing i worked for so idk what to do with my life now#save for car repairs maybe#anyone wants a pic of my child#he's orange#I'm very proud of myself i managed to save up for him quiet fast#these tags are wild but I'm feeling a bit more energetic thanks to some plant supplements my uncle gave me
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that was mean- nicholas
summary: nicholas was having a bad week and gave you the silent treatment.
warning: argument, crying, happy ending
a/n: i couldn't stop thinking abt this no joke. so ofc i had to write it out
from late at night till he left early this morning for work nicholas has been either quiet rude or both.
we haven't spoken to eachother or not even silents acts of love. nothing.
he cut his alarm clock off and i tried to give him a hug before he got out the bed and he pushed me off of him "not right now" he grumbled and got out of bed
when he left for work i said 'bye' to maybe break the silence shared between us, but i got no response. it was starting to get lonely. i missed my bestfriend that was also my boyfriend
i had nobody to mess with or someone to talk to about my day.
to stop these lingering thoughts i go back to bed to maybe get my mind off of things.
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i wake up around 8 am which was later than the time i usally woke up around, but today was sorta a lazy day.
it was gloomy not much sun was shining, it rained a little here and there. it was more of a slow day for me so the extra rest was very much needed
i text my boyfriend forgetting about the whole silent treatment ordeal.
me: how's your day going so far?? :)
and to no suprise i was left on delivered and soon left on seen. i messaged him periodically throught the day; hoping that maybe he would reply
it was almost time for dinner which normally nicholas cooks cause he's just better at it, but i didn't know when he was coming home or if he would even do it, so i look up some quick easy recipes and nothing struck my fancy but the pizza recipe. cause how hard could it really be?
i put a packet of yeast into my bowl along with some flour, water, oil, and salt. i let that sit for 30 minutes then im back to cooking again.
spreading flour onto the counter and placing the dough onto it; kneading it into a circle shape. this was harder than i thought
i look around for the marinara sauce and i put it into a different bowl and add a few light seasonings.
i paste that onto the dough, then i sprinkle some alot of cheese onto the pizza and my additional toppings bell peppers, spinach, and mushrooms.
i was so proud of myself especially sense i wasnt the cook, out of me and nicholas. i was really excited for him to try what i made but again i highly doubt he would even eat the food.
i put the pizza away into the oven completely forgetting to set a timer and put on a movie while i wait.
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a smell of burning was the first thing that woke me up. "shit shit shit" i repeat totally freaking out remembering i left the pizza in the oven.
i get a rag and ineffectivley wave smoke out the air. when i open the oven it smelled horrible. i was coughing from all the smoke that had entered my lungs.
i take the burning pizza out and throw it into the sink, and hose it down with the water.
thats when i hear the front door open and mentally face palm. "what's that smell?" he asks "i kinda burnt a pizza that i tried to make"
"of course you did" he mutters sounding unimpressed. "and the fuck you mean 'kinda' you obviously did burn a damn pizza" he gestures to the chunk of charcoal burnt pizza
"it's not like i did it on purposes or something if thats what you think" my tone sounding a bit confronting.
"It's smells fucking horrible so open a damn window first off" he took a step closer raising his voice.
"you don't pay for shit so i don't understand why you almost had this place in flames secondly. then you also wanna blow up my phone while im working for crying out loud what do you want from me!" he yelled directly in my face
and im sure he knows by now i hate being yelled at. it's something my parents did and overall doesn't solve anything
i just take it, i didn't wanna fight so i go over to the nearest window and crack it open so the smoke clears.
my eyes watered from all the harsh words he could dish out but not the equal amount of attention "well.. you are- when i was.. ugh s'not my fault" i couldn't get a full sentence out. i felt so belittled in this moment
"im going to bed i don't have time for your stupid ass shit" those words hurt more than he thinks.
he had the most patience for me, always making time for us and now he doesnt.
"that's so mean.. you're being so mean" i wipe some tears that had fallen. i turned away from him silently crying.
the peices of my hair stuck to my tear-soaked cheeks. "wait- I'm sorry please don't cry" nicholas' voice was filled with regret.
i lazily push him away from me but he doesn't budge. his arms wrap around me bringing me into his familiar embrace. "I'm so sorry for being an asshole. I've been having a long shitty week and i know thats not an excuse so you don't even have to forgive me."
"you're everything to me. i swear i didn't mean it." he adds
the unforgettable cruel words he'd said to me earlier shoved ontop of his sweet loving words made me cry more.
i let him hold my trembling body as sobs tore through my chest, each inhale was ragged and uneven.
my hands clutched the material of his shirt "im so sorry sweetheart i never wanna make you cry" he explains in such a low voice, giving my hair strokes in attempt to calm me.
my face still burried into his neck tears now starting to dry away, and my breathing starting to even out. he carried me over to the couch and placed me in his lap
i was drained from all the crying, the tense feeling in my body beginning to melt away when i really started to feel nicholas' touch. my eyes drooped again this time staying shut for longer.
i was too tired to resist the sleep that had tooken over. and being cradled in his arms didn't help.
"I'll order pizza for the both of us alright?" he took me off of his lap and placed me on our couch. then lays one of our throw blankets ontop of me. "can we talk in the mornin'?" is the last thing i remember asking before dozing off.
a/n: can yall tell idk how to make pizza
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HOW YOU GET THE GIRL â
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PAIRING ⊠franco colapinto x fem!sargeant!reader
SUMMARY ⊠with your brother's seat being taken by your admirer of the past year, you try your best to stay clear, but it's hard when franco is trying so goddamn hard to get your attention [ SMAU ]
WARNINGS ⊠cursing, very minor hate comments
REQUESTED ⊠here!
NOTES ⊠i am NOT fluent in italian or spanish so please correct me if i've messed up on either of them! i count this as the best of both worlds because i love having franco on the grid but i'm missing my goat logan. the faceclaim i've used is marissa long but feel free to picture whoever you want! my requests are open so feel free to leave a request :)
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yourusername logie, my bestest friend and the best older brother i could ever ask for. i am so so SO proud of you and the journey you have had during your formula one seasons. so many memories have been made, and i know that i will never ever forget the times we spent in the williams paddock, just having fun together (& bullying alex, obviously). the williams social media page won't be the same without me posting slips of you. trust me when i say this isn't the end, but simply the beginning. lots of love always and forever, y/n đ
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yourusername someone hit me up with an italian man please, i love this country
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user4 oh she's taking it
user5 mother as perrrr
user6 the sargeant genetics are LETHALLL
user7 please someone tell me why is she in italy if her brother doesn't drive for williams anymore?
user8 she's the williams social media manager!! she started in the same year as logan x
logansargeant baby sis â€ïž
yourusername love you sm đ
francolapinto did you know i'm actually half italian?
francolapinto sei molto bellađđ (you are very pretty)
user9 second year running and he's after y/n AGAIN IM CRYING
user10 after taking her brother's seat too PLEASEEE he has guts i have to give it to him
user11 FRANCO'S COMMENT I'M DYINGGGG
user12 and the way she's ignoring it too oh my days đ it's been a year and he's still on this
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yourusername week off đ
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user16 farm girl???
user17 where is she đđ
yourusername my best friend's farm đ
user18 multi-talented girl fr
user19 she looks like she BELONGS fr
user20 she def doesn't want to go back to the old 9-5
yourusername oh def not
yourbsf my angel đȘœđ€
yourusername best time w you alwaysss đ
francolapinto never wanted to be a goat so badly
user21 I AM PISSING MYSELF
user22 HE IS SO BLATANT AT THIS POINTTTT
user23 @/yourusername PLEASE WE NEED YOUR THOUGHTS ON FRANCO'S COMMENTS
user24 she def won't answer but it's still so fucking funny i can't
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yourusername most beautiful place đ
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user28 beautyyyy
user29 please y/n we need to see your pinterest RIGHT NOW the vibes are everything
user30 okay but...you & franco??
user31 what about letting people have some privacy, hm?
user32 oh wowwww
francolapinto not as beautiful as you đâ€ïž
yourusername đ€Łđ€Ł
user33 FRANCO YOU DID IT!!!
user34 watch as franco puts y/n noticed x1 in his bio now
user35 THE WAY HE ACTUALLY DID IT. GIRL...
user34 I AM CREASING I CANNOT
lilymhe baby girl đ
yourusername my lilypad i love you to bits!!
logansargeant are you sure you and that lion aren't twins
yourusername i'm thinking we were separated at birth??
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williamsracing and just like that, mr colapinto is a point scorer in formula one, in his second ever race!! congratulations franco, take a bow đđ
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user38 CONGRATULATIONS FRANCOOO!!
user39 big question is...which admin posted this?
user40 one MILLION percent y/n. no doubt about it.
user41 you can tell y/n posted this bc of her signature pink heart HAHA
user42 i just know somewhere franco is kicking his feet and giggling over y/n telling him to take a bow for his performance
user43 oh franco colapinto you have won me over
user44 seeing this and lowkey feeling so sad for logan
user45 no but imagine how y/n must feel?? her brother just leaving and having to post this, she must hate franco right about now
user46 honestly, judging by the post race interview, i think y/n is fine with franco scoring points, tbh!
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francolapinto hearts â€ïž
user47 I AM SOBBING THIS IS TOO CUTE??
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yourusername đŠąđŠą
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user48 IS MISS Y/N OUT ON A DATE???
user49 facecard could kill.
user50 Y/N ON A DATE WHO CHEERED
user51 someone check up on franco like right now.
user52 either franco is the guy in the pictures and that's why he's not commenting, or he's entered a depressive state
user53 knowing his dramatic ass it could be either
alex_albon mystery man đđ€
yourusername shhhh albon
logansargeant i'll fight him if he hurts you đ
yourusername love you too logie đ§ž
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user54 FRANCO CAMEO FRANCO CAMEO THIS IS NOTTTT A DRILL
user55 I AM SCREAMING
user56 alexa play how you get the girl by taylor swift
user57 she's in his hometown...so this serious stuff now
user58 Y/N I LOVE YOU FOR THIS
francolapinto đâ€ïžâ€ïž
yourusername đđ
logansargeant willing to fly out to collect you if i have to đ«Ą
yourusername i promise you i'm fine đ
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francolapinto 1 AĂO DESPUĂS⊠¥¥TENGO A LA CHICA!! ÂĄÂĄVAMOS!! la persona mĂĄs hermosa por dentro y por fuera, con el corazĂłn mĂĄs grande que jamĂĄs haya existido. estoy tan feliz en este momento que las palabras no pueden explicarlo. te amo te amo te amo â€ïž (1 YEAR LATER⊠I GOT THE GIRL!! COME ON!! the most beautiful person inside and out, with the biggest heart that ever lived. i am so happy right now that words cannot explain it. i love you i love you i love you â€ïž)
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user59 original y/n franco fans RISE
user60 WE ARE THE REAL WINNERS!!
user61 oh he is in love for real
user62 need someone to love me how he loves y/n
user63 their love is so so special
user64 okay but how's logan feeling about all this...? must be so awkward...
user65 judging by his comment...i think he's doing absolutely fine đ€Ł
logansargeant hurt her and i'm at your doorstep. đ
francolapinto will never be a problem đ«Ą
yourusername you're the cutest ever
yourusername FRANCO đ€Łđ€Ł
francolapinto let me share my love for you, no?
yourusername i wanna kiss you so bad rn
logansargeant keep it pg-13 please.
yourusername logan.
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he's hooked (oneshot)
hugh jackman x actress!reader
summary: y/n is an actress in her early 20âs. after having the best night of her career, Hugh Jackman introduces himself. the two stars hook up in the venue's bathroom and for y/n it was nothing but a one night stand. However, Hugh becomes obsessed and canât let her go so easily.
warnings: use of y/n, she/her pronouns, age gap (22/55), smut, protected vaginal penetration, dirty talk, reader is kinda cocky, hugh is very persistent, reader mentions age gap a lot, oral (f receiving), one use of daddy (in a playful way), bathroom sex.
authors note: y'all I am trying my absolute best to write smut. this is my second attempt and while i'm not super proud of it, I am proud of myself for trying. practice makes perfect I guess lol. anyways, I hope you enjoy. (sorry if it sucks butt) love y'all <33
 Tonight felt like a dream. It was the 97th Academy Awards and you had won your first Oscar for best actress. When your name was called, you were completely shocked. The category was filled with nominees that you had looked up to your entire life and you genuinely thought you had no shot of winning. You were completely honored to win such an award so early into your career. After the ceremony was over, most of the attendees made their way over to the Oscars Governors Ball, which was one of the few after parties that are held annually after the event. It felt surreal to be in a place full of Hollywood's biggest names and it was even crazier that you were now one of them. You were currently sitting at the bar waiting for a drink when a deep accented voice spoke. âCongratulations on your big win tonight. You deserve it.â When you look over to see who was speaking, youâre met with a very handsome Hugh Jackman. âOh thank you. Congrats to you too, best actor.â Your tone is teasing yet sincere. âIâm Hugh.â He offers his hand to shake, which you take. âI know who you are, Mr.Jackman. Iâm y/n.â You shake his hand firmly, letting it go right after. âI know who you are, Ms. y/l/n.â He joked back and you let out a small laugh. You look forward as the bartender sits your drink in front of you and you give him a quick thank you. From the corner of your eye, you can see Hughâs eyes trail your body. âDid you just check me out?â You turn your head to face him. âItâs hard not to when you look that good.â Hugh says without missing a beat. âArenât you married? I donât think your wife would appreciate you hitting on a twenty two year old.â You give him an accusing look. He lifts his left hand, showing off his bare ring finger. âI'm divorced, babe.â You almost miss the smirk that rests on his bearded face.Â
âHm. Well in that case, there are plenty of beautiful women here your own age here that would happily go home with you tonight. Maybe you should flirt with them.â You turn back to your drink, taking a long sip through the skinny straw. âNone of them are as pretty as you. Youâre the most gorgeous woman here by far.â You let out a laugh of disbelief. âBye Hugh Jackman. It was nice meeting you.â You slowly climb down the tall ball stool and grab your drink. Before you can walk off, Hugh calls your name, causing you to turn back towards him. âIâd love to take you out to dinner sometime.â He smiles and youâd be lying if you said the sight didnât make your heartbeat stutter. âYou know that Real Steel was my favorite movie when I was like eleven. Does that make my age more apparent to you or do you not care?â He furrows his brows, pretending to think for a moment. âHm. I donât think I care very much.â You laugh, dropping your head. âYouâre unbelievable.â He smiles. âSo is that a yes?â âNo.â You smile and walk away.Â
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Your friend Kayleigh was ranting to you about a technical issue that happened during her performance earlier in the night and you were trying your best to pay attention. Sometime in between the chat you had with Hugh and now, he had removed the black suit jacket he had on. The sleeves of his white button up dress shirt were rolled up, showing off his large forearms, his biceps peaking out slightly. It was overly distracting. âGirl what the fuck are you staring at?â She moves her head around trying to match your staring gaze. âY/n please donât tell me you're staring at that old man right now.â You give her a sheepish look. âGod, straight people are so fucking weird.â She sighs. âItâs not weird. Heâs kinda hot.â You admit. âWhatever you say. Why donât you just go talk to him? Iâm almost positive heâd fuck you if you ask.â You look back over to where Hugh is talking to some older woman, just like you had suggested. âI kinda already turned him down. Well, not for sex. He asked me to dinner.â Her face scrunches up. âEw. Heâs like older than your parents.â You laugh. âIs it bad that I find that hot?â She nods. âYes y/n. Thatâs like really fucking weird dude.â You ignore her. âShould I go try to get him to fuck me?â You ask, genuinely wanting her opinion. âIf thatâs really what youâre into these days, go for it. Iâm highly disgusted by you right now though.â You stand up and grab the small clutch you had with you. âEh. Youâll get over it. Youâll be okay on your own for a little bit?â She gives you a thumbs up and you make your way over to Hugh and the woman he was speaking to.Â
âHi, sorry to interrupt.â You apologize and turn to Hugh. âCould I talk to you alone for a moment?â He looks confused and completely caught off guard. âUh, yea.â He turns to the woman. âIt was nice to catch up with you.â She says something back that you donât catch, too busy staring at the vein that is basically jumping out of Hughâs arm. âYou wanted to talk to me?â His words bring you out of your thirsting trance. âFollow me.â You grab his hand, dragging him through a door and into a hallway. âWhere are we going?â He asks, taken aback by your lack of plan. âIâm not sure.â You say as you continue to drag him. âY/n slow down, we can talk here. Thereâs no one out here.â He stops walking and it makes you tumble back, his grip on your hand stopping you from continuing forward. âWe need somewhere private.â His confused expression only deepens. âI donât know how much more private this can get darling. If itâs really that much of a secret, we can stop talking if someone comes by.â He offers and you huff. âI donât actually wanna talk Hugh.âÂ
âYouâre confusing me here darling.â You wiggle your hand out of his and raise it to your head in frustration. âI want you to fuck me.â You look at him and his eyes go wide. âIâm sorryâŠwhat?â âIf you donât want to, that's fine, we can go back.â Your confidence began to falter. âWait, thatâs not what I'm saying.âÂ
âSo you want to fuck me?â He takes a moment to think before answering.
âYes.âÂ
âThen help me find somewhere private.â The two of you make your way down the never ending hallway, checking every door you see. Hugh opens a door and closes it, making his way down the hallway. Seeing as it was the only door that opened so far, you went to check it yourself and saw that it was an empty bathroom. âWhyâd you keep going, this is perfect.â You shout at him. âIâm not fucking you in a bathroom.â He looks at you like that was obvious. âWell itâs not like we have any other options. Come on.â You go inside and wait for him. Once heâs inside you motion to the door. âLock it.â You tell him. âWeâre really doing this?â He asks, confirming. âUnless you donât want to.â He takes a pause before speaking again. âGet your pretty ass over here.â He growls.Â
You walk over to him slowly. He pulls you close to him once youâre in arms reach and you look up at him through your lashes. âToo damn sexy for your own good.â He whispers before leaning down and locking his lips with yours. The feeling of his beard against your skin was addicting. The kiss was slow at first, both of you testing the waters with each other. It was you who begged to enter his mouth, tongue sliding against his lips. You didnât want to come off so desperate but you needed more from him. His large hands slid down to your ass, giving it a tight squeeze that has you gasping. His tongue dives into your mouth, exploring every crevice. Itâs messy but itâs hot. âJump.â He commands and you listen. His hands grab the back side of your thighs and he walks you over to the counter, sitting you down inbetween two of the sinks. His lips are back on yours the moment your body touches the cold surface.Â
âYou sure you want to do this baby?â He asks. âPositive.â You breathe out. Hugh bends down, sitting on both of his knees. Grabbing your ankle, he gives kisses to the skin that your heel doesnât cover. He moves upward, leaving long sensual kisses up your calf and thigh, raising the end of your dress as he goes. As simple as the gesture was, it felt erotic, never having a man take this kind of care with you before. His lips move higher, curving with your leg until heâs hovering above your pussy. âYouâre wet already baby?â His voice is cocky and if it werenât for the heat of his breath making your mind foggy, you wouldâve called him out on it. He gives the wet spot on your panties a shy kiss. The act has you letting out a quiet moan, sounding louder from the echo of the bathroom. He slips a finger behind the cotton of your underwear and tugs at it while looking up at you. âCan I take these off?â He asks, finger still tugging the fabric dangerously close to where you need him the most. âYes.â Itâs breathy but it gets the job done because Hugh moves his head up, grabbing the top of the fabric with his teeth. He starts to tug your panties down, using one of his hands to help the other side. You lift your body slightly as Hugh pulls them down farther. When theyâre all the way off, Hugh sits back with your panties hanging from the big toothy smile he's wearing. The sight was definitely going to be what you pictured the next time you touched yourself.Â
âOh fuck me..â He grabs your panties from his teeth and slides them into his back pocket. âMhm. not yet, baby. Wanna eat your pretty pussy first.â He leans back in between your legs, lips ghosting over your heat. âSo perfect.â He whispers as he kisses each pussy lip three times before finally kissing your clit. âMhmm, please Hugh.â His tongue slides from your opening to your bud teasingly slow. You can feel his beard scratching the sensitive skin but it only adds to the pleasure. He swirls his tongue around your clit a few times before sucking it into his lips, the feeling causes you to jerk your hips. His hands, that were gently holding your ankles, moved up to hold your hips down. His mouth moves down to your opening, tongue plunging in and out a few times before moving back up to your clit. You hadnât even noticed that one of his hands moved from your hip until you felt one of his fingers dip into you slowly. He curls the finger and moves it back and forth at an unexpectedly fast pace. Before you can adjust to it, heâs adding another finger and it all becomes too much. âFuck..Iâm gonna cum.â Your words are mixed with moans. He doesn't let up, his tongue and fingers speeding up and it has you cumming hard around his fingers, loud moans feel the air. He gives your pussy one last kiss before leaning back and removing his fingers. When you can fully see his face, it is a sight to see. His salt and pepper beard is covered in your slick, lips glossy.Â
âWant you to see how good you taste darling.â He says while moving his two fingers to your lips. You open your mouth and stick out your tongue, taking his fingers in your mouth slowly. Hugh hisses as you suck around his fingers, tongue swirling around each one. Once you're confident that theyâre clean, you grab his wrist and take his fingers out of your mouth with a pop. âYou still gonna fuck me old man or did you already cum in your pants?â You joke with him. He stands up, both knees popping in the process. Just as you're about to laugh and make fun of him some more, he grabs you off of the counter to stand you up. He turns you around and bends you over the counter. âYou keep talking like you werenât the one staring at me for an hour before asking me to fuck you.â He goes to undo his belt buckle and you shiver at the sound. You're looking back at him through the mirror. âWhatever.â You reach over to your clutch and open it, grabbing a condom. You reach back and hold it back to Hugh. âHere, put this on.â He grabs it with a questioning look. âWhy were you carrying condoms?â You roll your eyes and rest your head in your hands, elbows propped up. âCan you mind your business and fuck me already. Iâm getting bored.â You were lying right through your teeth. You were far from bored but you wanted to keep the whole âhard to getâ game going a little longer.
You watch him open the condom and see his arms move as he rolls it down his cock. As bad as you wished you could see him fully but it was kind of exciting- not knowing what you were about to get. âHow do you want me baby?â He asks, looking at you through the mirror. You get a small glimpse of his dick as he slaps it across your ass. âGive me all you got daddy.â He smirks and shakes his head at the name. He lines up his member with your entrance and slides in slowly. Once heâs bottomed out, he doesnât wait long before heâs slamming back into you. The stretch stings slightly and you hadnât expected him to be so big. He slaps your ass hard and you yelp in response. You drop your head down at the pleasure. âNuh uh. Look at me while I fuck you baby.â You raise your head to look at Hugh through the mirror again. âThatâs it. Look at how pretty you look getting fucked by an old man.â You couldnât help but listen to him. Hugh was fucking you dumb and you couldnât think straight. His balls hitting your clit was what sent you over the edge for a second time. âPlease donât stop Hugh mhmmm fuck baby. Iâm cumming, please donât stop, baby.â Your moans match the rhythm of his hips, each thrust knocking the air out of you with its force. âJust like that sweet girl. Fuck not gonna last much longer.â Even after your high, the pleasure continues as Hugh chases his own. You push your hips back, meeting his thrust. The act makes Hugh moan. âMhm, I'm gonna cum baby.â His hands squeeze your hips, thrusts getting sloppy as he cums.Â
The two of you stay quiet as you both freshen up and try to make it less noticeable that you two left to have sex. You push yourself up onto the counter, sitting lazily as you watch Hugh toss his hair around. âCan you kiss me again?â You ask Hugh. He smiles and walks over to stand in between your legs. He grabs your cheeks and kisses you. âMhm. You're a good kisser.â The compliment is sincere. You could kiss his lips for hours if heâd let you. He hums. âSo, are you gonna let me take you out now?â You look in his eyes and smile. âHugh we canât. This was fun and it was good sex but thatâs all it was.â âWhy canât we?â Heâs quick with his words. âItâs just not practical Hugh. I think you're handsome and you seem like a sweet guy but I'm too young for you. The press would tear us apart quicker than we got together.â You explain. âFuck the press. Let me take you out and get to know you at least.â You sigh. âIâm sorry Hugh. I canât.â You offer him a small smile. âIâm not gonna stop trying. Youâre too good to lose.â He kisses your cheek. âI should get back out there. I have a friend waiting for me.â He steps back, letting you hop down from the counter. âBye Hugh Jackman.â You give him a small peck on the lips before leaving the bathroom.Â
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A few weeks later, you were on set for the newest film you were working on. Youâd just arrived an hour earlier and were sent to your trailer to get ready for the first scene. When you walked through the door, you were greeted with a bouquet of wildflowers and a note that read:
I canât stop thinking about you. -H.J (xxx) xxx-xxxx
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Guys I love being fat. I do. I love being large and I love having huge thighs and stretch marks and round cheeks. I DO!!! I am fat and I love my body. Iâd be weird skinny. Iâd be wrong if I was skinny. Iâm meant to be fat and I donât want to change it in any way!!! Being fat is part of my familyâs history. My grandpa, my genetic flesh and blood, survived WWII and immigrant camps and Ellis Island and his genetics said âwe will not let starvation happen againâ! I experienced child neglect and my body said âwe will not let starvation happen againâ! Iâm fat because my body loves me, because it said these terrible things will not happen again!!! I am fat because food makes me happy and I deserve to be happy! I deserve to eat wonderful things and as much of them as I want!!!
Iâm not fat because I donât care or I hate myself or my body is broken, Iâm fat because Iâm supposed to be. My body is fat. My body loves me and I love it right back. We work together, and we are happy together. We fight for each other. I will give my body the food it deserves and needs and it will give me the body I deserve and need. And that body happens to be fat!!! It is fat because of love, because of my family refusing to give up, because of my younger self refusing to give up. Because my mom worked so hard to make sure I could eat. Because I work so hard to make sure I can eat!!! Because food is tied to mental health, and my body and I are working very hard on that one!!! we are a team, and hating your team for things they canât control wonât get you anywhere.
I am fat because my body loves me and wants me to survive no matter what. And not just survive, but thrive. To have good food. To get more sun on my skin. To look even better in my clothes. To have something to show for the hard work it does. My body is doing everything it can to keep me happy and safe and I am. Thank you body Iâm proud of us both.
Eat if youâre hungry. You deserve a snack. Iâm proud of you and you should be too. Your body loves you and is doing its best, you just have to try to appreciate its efforts. Millions of tiny cells work so hard to keep you going, and they all love you and want you to succeed. Theyâre making the best version of you they can. You are the best version of you you can be right now. You will grow, you will change, and you will love yourself. If not today, then someday soon.
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hot girl tips to be more productive
With a million things to do, where do we find the time? Sometimes it can be so easy to just procrastinate, not do your work and keep pushing it back till it's too late. Let's not do that anymore.
5-minute rule - start small. If you've been putting something off for a long time, trying to commit 1 hour to it can be challenging. You can't do a marathon without a warm-up first! Could you set a timer for 5 minutes to do that task? After 5 minutes if you want to continue, go for it; if you don't, that's okay, because at least you've done 5 minutes today, which is better than 0. Tomorrow or later in the day, try to challenge yourself to do 7 minutes this time, then 10, then 15, and you will get into that rhythm.
Eliminate distractions - it's all because of that damn phone đ but seriously, tech and social media can have such a tight grip over our productivity and our attention. If you cannot control your usage, set app timers that lock the app after you use it for a certain amount of time or delete the app. I've been using a minimalist phone launcher called 'OLauncher' that removes all my icons and makes me manually have to type and search for the app. In the time it takes me to search for the app, I get to ask myself, "What am I looking for? Do I need to use it for something specific or do I just want to scroll?"
Schedule properly - note down all your commitments and non-negotiables in an app like Google Calendar and make sure all your big events are displayed there. Some people can fall into the habit of planning every second of their day, but I instead delegate a few tasks to each day and give myself any time within the day to complete them, the important thing being not when I do them, but that I do them in the end.
Write to-do lists - now this doesn't just mean in-app lists, which are very useful. Physically write them out. I use a scrap piece of paper and I write: "Today I WILL..." and then list all the things I want to get done. Having it written down helps me commit to it more and the feeling of ticking it is so satisfying.
Know your WHY - Why are you doing this? Why do you want to be more productive? Why do you want to study more? Always look at the bigger picture. Where do you want to be and how will your productivity help you get there?
Celebrate your wins - whether you completed all the things on your to-do list or just one, be proud of it. Some days, you will feel super motivated and fly through all your tasks, and other days you just want to stay in bed and do nothing. Making an effort is the first step to your success.
No matter whether your goal is to complete a project, get good grades, get into the school of your dreams, or just get your work out of the way so you can focus on other things, tackle it little by little. Just 20 minutes every day for a week is better than trying to do 140 minutes worth of work on the last day.
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The Slam
Summary: Ari has had a enough of your TikTok foolishness...
Warnings: Mature Themes, Ari Being A Menace, Bickering, Brat!Reader, Prank Foolishness, References to P in V sex, Cursing, Minors DNI
A/N: Part of my Sweet Renegade Series. Semi-proofread, not beta'd. All mistakes are my own. Likes, comments, and reblogs are always appreciated. Thanks for reading!
Now that youâve gotten your first TikTok prank under your belt, you found you needed more. It was as if a beast â for lack of better phrasing â had been awoken inside of you. And it demanded that you served the world chaos.
At your manâs expense.
While youâd gone a little bigger the first time around, today youâd decided to dial it back just a touch. Lately youâd been watching videos of women slamming their boyfriendâs and husbandâs car door after what seemed to be the most innocent of conversations.Â
In retaliation, some of them yelled confused obscenities, or honked horns, others simply appeared content to stew in whatever resentment had already been brewing beneath the surface.Â
Regardless, almost all of them were funny. And not only that, but you got the distinct feeling that Ari wouldnât appreciate it. His truck was precious to him.Â
Almost as precious as you.Â
This morning you choose to test your luck when Ari is kind enough to drop you by your place so that you can switch out purses and grab your makeup bag before heading out for lunch. You can tell that he doesnât fully understand the reason you need either of those things.Â
In fact, when you told him what you needed, heâd been swift to grunt something to the effect of how you already looked âperfectly good to him as it wasâ. And although it had made the butterflies in your belly do their special little flutter that was reserved for when you received compliments just from him, you pushed him to make the stop anyway.
In part because you needed those things, but also because you wanted to fuck with him a bit.
âI promise Iâll be super quick.â You tell him, hastily undoing your seatbelt as he pulls up in your driveway.Â
âStill donât get why you needed to come here.â Your bounty hunter was hungry, and therefore also a little grumpy. âYouâre already the prettiest little thing Iâve ever set my eyes on without all the extra froufrou shit.â
âYou would really have me walk into a restaurant with you with a bare face?â
âBaby, real talk, Iâd be proud to have you on my arm if you were wearing nothing but a paper bag.â Comes his quiet, but sincere rebuttal.Â
Itâs enough to make you melt.
 âYouâre sweet.âÂ
âUh huh.â He huffs, throwing his truck in park. âAnd women are weird. Besides, all that makeup looks better on my pillow anyway.â
âPretty sure youâre not supposed to call us weird. Couldâve sworn you were supposed to be intrigued by the feminine mystique.â You tell him, poking him in the ribs for good measure.
âWeird.â Ari huffs again, clearly not moved by your response. Â
âMystique â you jerk.â Feeling slightly miffed, you decide to steal a sip of his water.Â
âCan you please just go get the bag and war paint before I waste away from hunger?â You bat his hand away when he leans forward to open your door and usher you out his vehicle. âMy stomach is literally trying to eat itself and you wanna fuckinâ argue.âÂ
âI am capable of opening it myself, thank you very much.â You hiss without any real heat before grabbing the handle.  Â
âThen I would very much appreciate it if you did that so we can get this show on the road.â
âOkay, okay.â You finally relent. âIâm sorry. Gimme a kiss and Iâll goââ
Ariâs mouth is on yours so fast itâs almost comical. He cups your face with calloused hands, stroking his thumbs across your temples as he does. But unfortunately, just as youâre about to sink into the kiss, he pulls away.
âNow get.â He growls, before opening the door and effectively shooing you out.Â
âFine.â Climbing out of his truck, you decide that this is your moment. âBe right back.â Closing your eyes, you give it up to the Lord before slamming Ariâs door hard.Â
Actually a little harder than you intended. Ah, well.Â
Grimacing, you begin to half walk, half run for your front door. After all, there was such a thing as being too brave for this world. And youâd actually felt his vehicle rattle with the force with which youâd put behind it. There was no way this man would not respond. There was no wayâ
âAye!â Your shoulders automatically hunch of their own volition when you hear him throw open his own door in protest. You havenât even made it to the front porch. âThe hell was that about?â
âWhat?â You try to play dumb.
âBird. Stop.âÂ
Itâs the calm authority in his voice that has you freezing in your tracks. Itâs the same reason your panties are soaked too. Teeth sinking into your bottom lip, you turn around and face Ari.
âWhatââ
âIâm gonna need you to walk your pretty little ass back over here, baby.â He quirks a tawny brow when your legs donât immediately start moving. âNow.â   Â
âBeast, I need to go inside andââ
âAss. Here. Now. Please.â Ari tacks on the last word when he sees you frown. However, the frown stays in place as you march back over to where heâs standing, or now leaning, against the side of his truck.
âThank you.â He grunts before cupping your cheek, drawing you forward. âNow, is there a reason youâre out here slamminâ my shit and spikinâ my blood pressure? Does this have somethinâ to do with that whole feminine mystique business again?â
As he talks, you find it hard to resist the urge to run your fingers through his newly shorn beard. Youâd hung out in the bathroom with him this morning while he trimmed it, wearing nothing but a pair of panties and one of his shirts.Â
âNo.â You breathe, your nostrils flaring when that same hand moves, gently lacing itself around your throat.
âYou pissed at me for somethinâ?â His electric blue eyes search yours for answers.
âUmâŠnope.âÂ
âYou tryinâ to pick a fight?â
âAlso no.â You tell him as your hand comes up to wrap around his thick wrist. âIt was a joke I saw on TikTok andâ.â
âChrist, Iâm gonna stop you.â Ari blinks twice before forcing himself to take a deep breath. âSince you and I donât have a problem, Iâm gonna let you go inside and fetch your things. You have five minutes, or Iâm cominâ in after you.â
âTo do what?â You canât help the pout that forms on your lips. Sometimes this man really had no sense of humor. âBecause Iâm gonna need more time than that to put on my face.â
The look this man gives you lets you know that you are absolutely trying his patience â every last piece of it.Â
âYou got five minutes.â Ari repeats, his thumb stroking over your pulse point. âOr Iâm gonna come in there and personally take my time making sure all that makeup ends up in its proper place where it belongs.âÂ
âBut thatâs not fair!â
âNeither is subjecting me to shit you see on that damned hickory dickory dock crap you watch all the time, and yet here we are.â He leans down to brush his lips against your forehead. âNow go.â
Ari finally releases you before pulling out his phone, and it takes him only a second for him to show it to you, letting you see that heâs started a timer. And it is quickly counting down.Â
âYou got five minutes, sweetheart.â He winks at you then, before breaking into full blown laughter when you turn to make a break for your front door. âOtherwise Iâm cominâ in after you, and itâs gonna be what itâs gonna be.âÂ
Forget the purse. You decide youâre better off snagging the makeup and beating it back to the truck before the timer strikes zero. Â Â
âBastard.â You grumble under your breath â which only makes him laugh harder.
âYou just lost yourself thirty seconds for that one. Better run, Bird.âÂ
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Creator Spotlight: @jdebbiel
Deb JJ Lee is a non-binary Korean artist based in Brooklyn, NY. They have appeared in the New Yorker, New York Times, NPR, Google, Radiolab, and more. Their award-winning graphic memoir, IN LIMBO, about mental illness and difficult relationships with trauma, released in March 2023 from First Second.
Below is our interview with Deb!
Have you ever had an art block? If so, how did you overcome it?
That implies I am over my art block, but Iâm still in it! I think about Kikiâs Delivery Service a lot and how she had to stop doing a thing, and that you canât really force it, and you have to let it come back to you. Itâs a pretty humbling moment, realizing there is more to life than just drawing. Iâve been trying to consume other content like reading or watching moviesâanything that is not drawing-relatedâand to trust that it will come back to me. I think not being afraid to do the small pieces before committing to the big pieces is helpful. Because big pieces are what I am known for, I dig myself into a deeper hole, thinking that each piece has to be bigger than the last one. So yeah! Relaxing and doing the small things before overcommitting to a big piece is the best way to go about it for me.
Which 3 famous artists (dead or alive) would you invite to your dinner party?
I feel like these are all artists that I have second-degree connections with! Jillian Tamaki, Victo Ngai, and Tillie Walden would be my picks!
What are your file name conventions?
âŠWhat file name conventions? I mean, I donât have specific file name conventions, but I actually have a public Google Drive archive! But I usually put âdjjl_whatever-the-title-is_final,â and I would always know itâs the final and legit version.
What is a recent creative project that you are proud of?
I did an illustration for the whiskey brand Johnnie Walker. Itâs so wild because I only had four days to finish it, and it usually takes me a week and a half if I rush. And honestly, itâs probably one of my best pieces from this year, which is funny. It was for the Mid-Autumn festival, so I made it as Korean as possible.
How has technology changed the way you approach your work?
I only use my iPad to draw everything now, and if I want to pretend that I have a steady workstation, Iâll use my Cintiq. I still am not as comfortable on the Cintiq as I am on Procreate, but itâs still pretty solid and nice. Thatâs the good part about technology. The bad part about technology is how AI art has been messing things up for me. Iâm currently in a lawsuit about AI art as a class rep. Some of my stuff got turned into AI art late last year, so I have to give a deposition at some point.Â
What is a convention experience that has stuck with you?
Honestly, theyâre all good! I feel like Lightbox Expo has been really nice because itâs truly been a convention for artists. I feel like thatâs where most of my audience is, and theyâre all around because their purpose is to be better at art. Thatâs where a lot of original artists do well because theyâre getting art theyâre inspired by, not so much fanart. I like the Lightbox Expo because it encompasses the pure love of art very well.Â
Top tips on setting up an Artist Alley booth?
Use a Y axis, not just your X axis! Take advantage of it! Branding is also something to think about. It is definitely something Iâm getting better at. Having an assistant is also very important. Iâve also heard that 8.5x11 to 12x18 inches is usually a good size for prints, but I also provide postcard-sized prints because sometimes people donât want to commit to a larger size.Â
Who on Tumblr inspires you and why?
You know this is so funny. Iâve been following @alicexz for over a decade on Tumblr and other platforms. Iâve followed her work since high school, and weâve only recently become peers. I found her, and we met for the first time in real life, and she recognized me. And then I found all my drawings from when I was in my Alice phase, back in high school, and I was like, âYo, this is when I was trying to be you so badly!â and she was cracking up and was like âWow, this is so good!â It was such a sweet moment. I wanted to take a picture of her holding my drawing up. Itâs really nice because now weâre peers.
Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing, Deb! Be sure to check out their Tumblr blog over at @jdebbiel.
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Reflection ~A Trigun fan comic~ (Comic Script in the Keep Reading)
Context note: This takes place just after the events of TriMax Vol 10 on Bradâs ship going to December. Iâm giving them more time on the trip because Livio grew a full-ass beard between pickup and drop-off (prob because of his healing factor, who knows.) Enjoy!
Vash's coffee is a reference to my first comic Black Coffee & Donuts!
Comic Script for Reflection: A Trigun Fan Comic
PAGE 1
Panel 1: Vash, with his hair down and dressed in his black undersuit, wakes up startled in a cold sweat. He clearly slept poorly bags under his eyes. Itâs only been a day or two since he laid Wolfwood to rest.
Panel 2: A full body shot of him stepping out of the bed, his Colt weight down his hip, face obscured.
Panel 3: He leans over the counter in front of a mirror, shoulders hunched, head hanging.
Panel 4: He looks up, hand covering the remaining blonde of his hair so it appears full black. Large pale portraits of Rem and Wolfwood flank Vash on each side in the background.
Vash: Rem, Wolfwood, you both sacrificed everything. Funny isnât it that Iâm beginning to look more like you?
PAGE 2
Panel 1: Vash flashes back to a moment when he and Wolfwood walked side by side in the arid desert of No Manâs Land.
Vash: Wolfwood, you were there every day by my side, now I'm alone again.Â
Panel 2: Another flashback to a moment Vash and Wolfwood sat on the edge of a rooftop and looked out over the cityscape to the stars pricking the sky.
Vash: There was so much unsaid between us.
Panel 3: A fresh flashback to the couch, where Vash held Wolfwood's hand in his final moments.
Vash: I wish I had known how to tell you that I loved you before it was too late.
Panel 4: A dramatic crop of half of Vashâs lower face, tears streaming down his cheeks as he cries out.
PAGE 3
Panel 1: Livio, a tall, tan, broad-shoulder, white-haired man with a tribal tattoo over his left eye, dressed in a white shirt and black pants, bursts through the bedroom door concerned.
Livio: Mr. Vash, I heard crying, are you okay?!
Panel 2: Vash looks over, a little comically rattled and surprised
Vash: Livio?
Panel 3: Close-up of Vashâs lower face smiling, a tear rolling down his face.
Vash: Iâm alright.
Panel 4: A blank Panel, filled with still air
Vash: Actually.
Panel 5: Big Panel, Vash crying into the crook of his arm.
Vash: I'm not... I miss him. I canât stop missing him.
PAGE 4
Panel 1: Vash rubs the tears from his eyes, Livio grabs his arm shamefully, his body language clearly showing regret and discomfort.
Livio: Iâll uh, leave you to it, and see myself out.
Vash: Itâs okay, I just didnât want anyone to see me like this.
Panel 2: Close-up of Livio looking down.
Livio: Itâs better to let yer feelinâs out than to hide âem and let âem fester, I should know.
Panel 3: Livio turns to the side and a sad snot stream runs down his nose he was trying to keep in. Livio is very much struggling allowing himself to miss Wolfwood. He doesnât feel like, he should even though he desperately does.
Sounds effects: sniff
Vash: Now whoâs keeping in their feelings? Let it out! He was your friend too, wasnât he? You deserve to cry too.
Panel 4: Livio smiles sheepishly. He wants to make Wolfwood proud of him first.
Livio: Yeah, I suppose he was, all this time. But I donât think Iâve earned that right yet.
Panel 5: Livioâs stomach growls LOUDLY. Draw in a chibi style, breaking the tension.
Sound effects: grumble
Panel 6: Drawn in chibi style, Vash waves around his noddle arms and Livioâs mood brightens, grinning with excitement.
Vash: Oh, are you hungry?
Livio: Hell yeah, I am!
Vash: What would you like?
Livio: Uh, pancakes!
Vash: Alright, pancakes it is!
PAGE 5
Panel 1: They sit down and eat at a retro 50s-style diner booth in a small nook of the ship. Livio swirls the last of his pancake in syrup on the plate. Vash cradles a black coffee with both hands looking at Livio.
Vash: Hey, Livio, what do you want to do when this is all over?
Livio: Dunno, maybe wander around for a while or return to the orphanage to help make up for what I and the other guy did.
Panel 2: Livio hangs his head, eyebrows worried.
Livio: If I can be honest with ya, I'm scared to face them.
Panel 3: Zoomed out drawn in chibi style to break the tension. Livio shivers.
Vash: Is that scarier than Elendira?
Sound effects: shivers
Panel 4: They laugh.
Livio: Well, when ya put it like, hell no!
Vash: Haha!
Panel 5: Extreme close-up of Livioâs eyes softening as he remembers back to his time at the orphanage.
Livio: I think heâd like that. They were my first real family.
Panel 6: Vash is hit with a sudden realization, Livio has no one right now. In a misty background, he remembers when Razlo cried out after Wolfwood did in Master Chapel.
Vash (internal): Wolfwood, you left Livio in my care... so we wouldnât be alone.
Razlo (background): ...Iâm all alone again!
PAGE 6
Panel 1: Close-up of Vash with the sincerest smile.
Vash: I hope you know youâre not alone. You have me now.
Panel 2: Livioâs face contorts sorrowfully.
Livio/Razlo (internal): I donât deserve this.
Livio: Mr. Vash I --
Vash: Wait, before you say anything...
Panel 3: Zoom out so we can see both of them and the table. Vash extends his leg as he digs deep into his pants pocket. Livio leans on the table watching him.
Vash: I know that we donât know each other well yet, but he trusted you with me and I trusted him, wholly and completely, soâŠ
Panel 4: Extreme close-up, Vash pulls out 2 black leather wristbands with silver latches.
PAGE 7
Panel 1: Vash offers Livio a wristband while holding one for himself in the same hand.
Vash: Here. One for you, one for me. I used a strap from his cross to make it, so part of him will always be with us.
Panel 2: Livio puts the wristband on his left hand.
Livio: Thank you.
Panel 3: Extreme close-up of Livioâs non-tattooed eye, tears pricking his lashes.
Livio: I hope one day I can repay yer kindness.
Panel 4: They fist bump wristbands in view.
Vash: Welcome to the family, Livio.
PAGE 8
Panel 1: A large portrait of Wolfwood with his sunglasses and back turned, fills the background, smiling as he holds his cigarette in his hand.
Livio: Hey, Mr. Vash?
Vash: Mm?
Livio: Would you mind tellinâ me a lil more about him⊠Wolfwood? Ya see, we were close at the orphanage as kids, but I donât know who he became. Iâll understand if you donât want to, you owe me absolutely nothinâ.
Panel 2: A close-up of Vashâs coffee, Wolfwoodâs staple morning drink, Vashâs reflection smiles back, tears in his eyes.
Vash: Iâd love to.
PAGE 9
Panel 1: Bonus! Sometime later. Drawn in chibi style.
Livio: Can I hug ya?
Vash: Sure, buddy!
Panel 2: They hug, Vash smiles, and Livio whimpers as he lets out the waterworks. Heâs thankful for Vashâs kindness.
Panel 3: This sets Vash off, who also sobs. They cry in each otherâs arms.
#Trigun#Trigun Maximum#TriMax#spoilers#Trigun Spoilers#Vashwood#Vash#Vash the Stampede#Livio#Livio the Double Fang#Nicholas D Wolfwood#Wolfwood#my art#tw character death mention#food#TrigunStampede#NO BETA WE DIE LIKE GUNG-HO-GUNS#sorry for any choppy dialogue#shoved a lot in here but wanted to touch on Trigun's running themes like loneliness and family#and Vash being heart wrenchingly kind#vash privately mourning wolfwood was a good move on nightow's part but my guy I needed to see some tears to fill the hole in my heart#take that trust line as you will to fit your narrative :3#i love these 3 idiots (affectionate) a lot and I can't fit all I want to say in the tags#this spawned from an art mistake I noticed in the manga#livio's wristbands changed from 2 to 3 at some point#it looked suspiciously like a strap from Wolfwood's cross and the rest is history#and i needed more bonding time between vash and livio#and for them to know they aren't alone in this fight#i 100% think livio would struggle mourning ww and becoming worthy to do so#I needed this so maybe someone needs it too
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I donât shave every day. Itâs not that I donât âneedâ to; I have very dark, dense facial hair that grows quickly and remains pretty visible after shaving. When I do shave, I donât try to cover it with makeup (beyond some powder to reduce redness). In most other ways I present very feminine, but I always have fairly obvious facial hair.
And it makes me feel terrible.
I started electrolysis a couple months ago. Itâs excruciatingly painful, expensive, and it takes forever. In an hour-long session, my electrologist is able to remove hair in only a small region (about 1 square inch). A few weeks later, much of that hair comes back. I am told that it will take two to three years of regular treatments to remove it entirely. On top of that, I apparently have a condition called Post Inflammatory Hyperpigmentation, which causes the skin in affected areas to darken after treatment. For nearly two months after completing a single pass over my upper lip, my mustache was more visible than it had ever been, despite having significantly less hair.
And it made me feel terrible.
I know this is the best way for me to permanently remove my facial hair, but I just canceled all of my upcoming sessions and at the moment I have no plans to begin again.
If I could pay to have my facial hair instantly and completely removed I would empty my savings account. I am intensely aware of it any time I go out in public. If it makes me so uncomfortable, why do I not do more to hide it?
I feel incredibly privileged for a trans woman. I have a loving, supportive family. I have a well-paying job. I live in a very accepting area. I have never had a single person say anything negative to me about my gender identity, which was certainly not what I was expecting when I came out. It is important to me that I be visibly queer, and in my privileged position I am able to do that without fear. A year ago I didnât think I would ever transition; now I want people to know that Iâm trans.
I am disappointed with myself for wanting to remove my facial hair, for changing my voice. I am determined not to have to do more work than a cis person does. Cis women donât have to shave their face every day. Cis men donât have to shave their face every day. Why should I? This is who I am, what my body does. Shouldnât I be proud of that? Am I not supposed to love myself the way I am?
But by that logic, why am I even transitioning in the first place?
I am doing more work than a cis person does. Cis people donât transition, and transitioning takes effort. I know that there are cis people, both men and women, who do shave every day. Am I lying to myself? Iâm a trans woman; arenât I supposed to want to get rid of my facial hair? Shouldnât I be trying harder? Doesnât this give me dysphoria? Am I pretending not to have dysphoria so I donât have to put in the effort? Does the fact that Iâm not trying harder make me⊠I donât know, less trans? Non-binary? Is it ok for me to call myself a trans woman? Am I lying to myself?
As a woman who was a man until thirty, there are things about my body that I must accept, that I wonât be able to change no matter how much money I dump into my transition. Iâm tall, I have broad shoulders, I have large hands. No amount of surgery or hormones will change these things.
But there are many things that I can change, and while none of them are requirements for being a woman, they may still be changes that I want to make. Where do I stop? Am I finished transitioning when Iâve done everything that is physically possible? My goal isnât to âpass,â at least not in the way that word is generally used. In a time when cis women are being assaulted because people think theyâre transâbecause they donât âpassâ as womenâthe idea of what it means to pass becomes blurry. Often when we say that we want to pass, what we really mean is that we want to be conventionally beautiful.
I am a woman. Therefore, I look like a woman. My transition goal is to pass as myself. Iâve spent the last year trying to figure out who I am so I can look like her. I donât care whether people see me and think âthatâs a woman.â I want to be able to look in the mirror and think âthatâs me.â But it can be extremely difficult to separate your own image of yourself from societyâs idea of what you should look like. Am I self-conscious about the size of my body because it doesnât feel like me, or because Iâve been told that women should be smaller? There are tall cis women, there are broad-shouldered cis women, there are cis women with large hands. Those traits donât make them less womanly.
For the aspects of my body that I do have control over, I am stuck wondering whether I am changing things to become myself, or changing them because I have internalized that the way I am is wrong. At the moment, facial feminization surgery is something that I think I might like to do. But how do I know that I want to do it for the right reasons? I donât hate my face, but when I catch a glimpse of myself from certain angles I canât help but think that it isnât feminine enough. What I should be asking is if itâs Emma enough, but how can I know that? How do I know who Iâm supposed to be?
I feel like I was supposed to be a cis woman, but⊠why? Who am I to say that I wasnât supposed to be trans? That I wasnât supposed to transition at thirty, to have both a male puberty and a female one? Being trans has made me more self-aware, more open-minded, more empathetic. The totality of my experience is what makes me who I am. Maybe thereâs a world in which I was assigned female, maybe thereâs a world in which I was put on puberty blockers as a kid. But the girl in those worlds isnât me.
Loving yourself and wanting to change are two feelings that can coexist. I tend to think of body positivity as simply accepting yourself as you are, but it is more nuanced than that. As a trans person, who I am inside is not the same as who I am outside. Which one am I supposed to love? I do love myself, but I also love who I could be. Iâm transitioning so that someday theyâll be the same person.
Over the past year I have become both my biggest supporter and my biggest critic. I constantly tell myself how pretty I am, how brave I am, how fucking cool I am (hey, nobody else is saying it and itâs true). This forced positivity has been fantastic for me. I can confidently say that I truly love myself for the first time in my life. But I sometimes feel guilty that I donât love myself more.
I canât help but stare at myself in the mirror all the time now. I actually bought a new mirror so I didnât have to walk as far to do so. Iâve taken more selfies than I did in my entire pre-transition life. After many months on HRT, I finally see myself in my reflection. But my eyes refuse to focus on my stubble. Sometimes I catch myself thinking âIâm going be so beautiful once I get rid of this facial hair,â and it feels like a betrayal. Fuck you Emma, Iâm already gorgeous.
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Do it for them - Co-captain reader x Curly
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You banged on the door of the room where that man was locked up, waking him up abruptly.
"Let's talk"
Jimmy: "I thought visiting hours were over."
He complained, turning around to turn his back to the door.
"Don't try to be funny with me, Jimmy. What the hell did we do to deserve so much hate from you?"
Jimmy: "Don't play innocent, you know very well what you did!"
"Honestly, I have no idea! That's why I'm asking you!"
Jimmy: "Of course, because I was always the shadow of your dear husband. You never turned to look at me again after you got with him, you never smiled at me like you did with him, you didn't even speak to me. It was as if I were invisible to you!"
"Oh, of course I was looking at you!"
Jimmy: "Then why didn't you ever tell me anything?!"
He shouted that, getting up from his bed to head towards the glass that separated them, watching your face to see you when you replied.
"BECAUSE I'VE ALWAYS HATED YOU!"
You screamed with all your lungs, to the point of making your throat hurt.
"You always brought trouble to Curly! He was always so naive, a sucker for approval, of being the good guy in the story, of not letting anyone down! That's why he never abandoned you! I knew better that's why i stopped talking with you! Because you were and are a piece of shit!"Â
Jimmy: "Oh, but you talk as if I were the only fucked up one in the story."
"Yes! I admit it! I was also a mess when I met Curly, but I did something, I was able to see beyond that mess I was, he showed me that I could improve, he gave me opportunities that I knew how to take advantage of and become a better person! In someone who could make his mother proud instead of making her cry because she didn't know if he was coming home or not!"
There was a silence when you finished saying that, until you saw him smirk, that reaction you didn't like at all.
Jimmy: "You're right, Curly loves to please, you should know that very well."
"Ugh, for the love of God, I don't know why I try to reason with you, it's impossible."
Jimmy: "But you were the only one who refused to give in to make me happy."
You opened your eyes wide upon hearing that, turning again to the man who still wore that smug smile.
Jimmy: "Just as beautiful and messed up as I am, I thought you would understand me, but then you became a good girl, yet I still hoped you would look at me..."
"Shut up-"
Jimmy: "Oh, and the damn way Curly talked about you, how incredible you are, so kind, hardworking, so beautiful."
"I tell you to shut up-"
Jimmy: "Those lovely moles in the center of your chest that look like a constellation"
"He wouldn't talk about those things with you!"
Jimmy: "I saw it myself"
You felt like you were going to puke at that moment, you didn't want to believe that he had really done something like that to you while you were unconscious, you didn't want your suspicions to be confirmed, you refused to believe it.
"Liar. Anya wouldn't leave me alone, she would lock the nursery door-"Â
Jimmy: "Yes, yes, she did that, it was a pain in the ass. Every night when she went to sleep, she locked the nursery with that code that only Curly and she knew... But that place wasn't closed while someone was inside."
"She wouldn't let you get close to me!"
Jimmy: "They were so sweet, Anya staying by your side saying she had to make sure all your signs were okay, and when she left, she would ask Swansea if he could keep an eye on you. But he was so depressed that he didn't dare to stay with you for long, so... I took his place to make sure you were okay."
"In front of Curly..."
You murmured at having to imagine the scene your husband had to witness without being able to do anything about it other than watch.
Jimmy: "That was the funniest thing"
You hugged tightly, feeling a horrible tingling all over your body, as if you were dirty.
Jimmy: "Swansea had no idea about anything, Anya didn't want to talk about it with anyone else. Thanks to her silence, I was able to finally look at that body that you always hide from me, thanks to Swansea's stupidity and feeling sad for his little captain, feeling all guilty and shit."
Swansea: "What did he just say..."Â
You turned to see Swansea at the end of the hallway, carrying Jimmy's rations, holding an axe firmly in the other hand; he had managed to hear everything.
"Swansea-"
Swansea: "Open the door, captain"
"Listen - it's not worth it, do you have any idea what they'll do to you if they find out you hurt someone from the crew? Please, I don't want them to lock you up."Â
You said immediately, positioning yourself in front of him, trying to get him to see you, but his eyes were glued to the door where he could see Jimmy's face.
Swansea: "How are they going to know? Let's say it was an accident. Open the door!"
You wanted to keep reasoning with him, but you couldn't deny that you also wished he would face consequences for his actions.
You took the axe from his hands, making him look at you annoyed.
"I won't take the risk of you killing him."
Those were your last words before opening the door, Swansea didn't take much more than a few seconds to fully open the door, step inside, and throw himself at Jimmy.
You could hear the sound of the blows, the insults, and the screams.
You stood at the door wide open, axe in hand, watching as the blood spread across the floor with each blow Swansea dealt.
You watched Jimmy and tilted your head, waiting for him to defend himself.
You wouldn't hesitate to cut off his hands if he touched Swansea.
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Timeless Love.
~ gif not mine credit to owner ~
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x fem!Reader
Summary: Bucky might have met the love of his life in the middle of a war, he just wished he was able to live a life with her.
Word count: 6,598
Warnings: angst. kidnapping. fluff. Hydra. forced breeding. forced miscarriage.
A/N: enjoyed writing this!! Thank you for the request. Also thank you to @buckys-wintersoldier for helping me when I needed it!đ€
Part 2
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âY/n L/n. 107th.â
She nodded smiling at her friend who had also been given the same unit. All the nurses - professional and volunteers alike were waiting for their names to be called to hear what unit they would be stationed with.
Then she was given the news that she was going to be the matron. And at twenty four years old that was a massive accomplishment, herself and her parents were beyond proud.
âHey docâ she couldnât help but roll her eyes at hearing the familiar voice that she began hearing everyday. âIâm injured doll, need your help to patch me back upâ
Looking up for the clipboard she carried around she saw the Sergeant who had captured all the attention from all the nurses. Though he never paid any mind to them, just her.
James Buchanan Barnes.
âFirstly Iâm not a doctor, just a nurse and secondly this is your seventh time coming here this weekâ
âFirstly you should be a doctor, better than the one weâve got and secondly I keep getting hurtâ
âBucky⊠itâs only Wednesday.â
âYou love me. Arenât you going to ask me what my very serious injury is?â
âI donât love you. Okay, what seems to be the problem Sergeant?â
âY-you donât love me? Iâm going to cry myself to sleep tonight thanks to you!â
âWhatâs your injury Sergeant?â
âMy heartâ he places his hand on his chest and looks up at her sympathetically. âMy heart hurts dollâ
âJames⊠you do realise that your heart is on the left side not the rightâŠâ
Moving his hand to the left side âOh⊠are you sure?â
âYes Iâm sureâ chuckling at his facial expression, he winks causing her to laugh.
âThe truth is that I just wanted to see you, I like you even though youâre being mean to meâ he pouts and bats his eyelashes as he kicked his legs back and forth.
âHow am I being mean to you?â She asks whilst counting stock, trying her hardest to ignore the intense gaze of his ocean blue eyes on her back.
âBecause you wonât let me take you dancingâ
âYou should go with one of the other nurses Jamesâ
âI donât want any of the other nurses, just youâ
âYou-â
âY/n! Y/n quick we need you!â Maryâs panic scream interrupted her. Jumping up and rushing out of the tent with Bucky right behind her, a group of men carrying a stretcher with a man lying on it. His right leg gone as well as his left arm.
âGet him in hereâ Bucky opens the flaps of the tent, his eyes trained on the young soldier as they passed him. âHelp me transfer him on to the bed, carefully.â
Bucky watched on as Y/n took control, ordering the nurses around and trying to get the soldiers to move away so she could work. When one of the men wouldnât move Bucky stepped in.
It wasnât long before Y/n made everyone get out except for the nurses.
âGoâ Buckyâs head snapped from the medical tent to Dum Dum sitting next to him, giving the man a questioning look, Dum Dum laughed. âThe docâ
âDonât know what youâre talking aboutâ he mumbled before downing the rest of his drink.
âYouâve been turning down women all night and Iâm honestly surprised that you havenât burnt a hole into the tent with how intense youâve been looking at it. Oh and letâs not forget that youâve been obsessed from the second you laid eyes on herâ
âI-no I havenât.â
âYou have, and donât bother trying to argue with me. Go and talk to herâ
âAnd say what?â
âThatâs on youâ Bucky contemplated on whether or not to take his friendâs advice, it didnât take too long before he was getting up and heading over to the medical tent. âShes in her own tentâ he heard from behind him so he changed course.
Standing outside the small tent he fixed his hair before pushing the flap aside, he found her sitting hunched over the small table one hand in her hair and the other scribbling away as she filled in paperwork.
âI can feel your eyes on meâ her whispered voice snapped him out of his head.
âAre you alright doll?â
âIâm fine donât worry, go and enjoy your nightâ
Moving closer to her he saw the tears falling freely down her cheeks. âHey, hey why are you crying doll?â
âHe⊠he didnât make it. I tried everything bu-but it wasnât enough, he was only seventeen Bucky.â
âOh doll. You did everything you could-â
âBut it wasnât enough! And within the week his parents are going to know I failed, I failed to save their sonâ
Bucky pulled her into his arms, holding her close to his chest ignoring the feeling of her tears wetting his shirt. âItâs not your faultâ he whispered over and over again as she fell apart in his arms.
âI failedâ
âNo you didnât! Nobody would have been able to have saved him Y/n and you know that.â
âHe was only seventeen Bucky. A child!â
âI know sweetheart, I know.â
As the laughing and music continued outside Bucky kept Y/n close to his chest, rocking them both from side to side slowly. Sleep began to overtake them, being the gentleman that he was he turned his back on her waiting for her to change into her nightwear.
âGoodnight dollâ
âStay⊠pleaseâ
âOf courseâ he was slightly shocked by seeing her shifting over in the small cot then patting the space she had created.
Climbing in next to her, wrapping her up and pulling her into his chest. Pressing his lips to her forehead âgoodnight my loveâ
It became an unspoken routine between the two of them that Bucky would sleep in her bed, they ignored the teasing from all those around them - as if the nurses werenât warming the soldiers beds themselves. There was nothing sexual about what they were doing, it was just two lost souls finding themselves seeking shelter within one another.
That however changed one night when Bucky went into their now shared tent finding her once again hunched over the table. âHi dollâ
âHi Sergeantâ
âMe and the guys move out tomorrowâ
âI heard. How are you feeling?â She asked looking up from the papers in front of her.
âNervous I wonât lie, but Iâm going to miss youâ
âIâm going to miss you too but you shouldnât be gone long, right?â
âTwo weeks, three at the mostâ he shrugged. âDoll, come and dance with meâ
âThereâs no musicâŠâ
âSo? Come onâ he held his hand out for her to take, his heart fluttering with the look she gave him as she puts her hand in his. âYou are so prettyâ he whispers as they swayed together.
ââM not.â
âYes you are. From the second I laid eyes on you I thought you were the most prettiest dame I had ever laid eyes on.â
âYouâre lying!â She chuckled.
âI am not!â
âIf you say soâ
Bucky gently raises her head up by her chin, âI have never lied to you.â
âBucky⊠kiss me pleaseâ she asked softly. Their lips met slowly at first before growing heatedly and passionately.
The next morning with only a thick blanket covering their naked bodies they basked in the silence of the camp, Bucky running his fingers through her hair and Y/n drawing invisible circles on his chest.
âWhen this war comes to an end me and you are going to get marriedâ Bucky declared as he broke the silence.
âDonât I get a say in this?â
âNopeâ he chuckled. âWhy, donât you want to marry me?â
âAnd put up with you for the rest of my life?â
âYeah, why whatâs wrong with that?â
âYouâre annoyingâ.
âAnd?â He drawls with a cheeky grin on his face.
âIâll probably smoother you in your sleep?â
âAnd? Doll you arenât giving me a good reason for why we shouldnât get marriedâ
âYou honestly want to marry me?â
âMore than anything, and I promise Iâll be an amazing husband and weâll have so much fun together an-â
âYesâ
â-d weâll make so many memories-â
âYesâ
â-and weâll grow old toge-wait⊠yes?â
âYes Bucky, Iâll marry you when the war is ov-â her words get cut off from him pressing his lips to hers.
âI canât wait to annoy you for the rest of our lives togetherâ
Later that morning, before Dum Dum led his unit out of the camp heading to only where they knew they were going Bucky ran over to Y/n giving her a kiss and promised her that he would come back to her.
Since the only people left there was the nurses, injured men and some of the officials the camp was excruciatingly quiet. And since it was only just them⊠well the camp had become very boring.
Two weeks passed quicker than she thought, waiting to hear the loud chatter from the men to fill in the silence yet it never came. Another week went by and again there was no sight of them. Y/n was helping Private Smith sit up in more of a comfortable position when Mary came rushing in, slightly out of breath.
âTh-theyâve been captured!â
âWhat? How do you know?â
âWord just come in, I overheard it but apparently Captain America is going to rescue them because he knows someone in the unitâ
âI-okay. Okay erm⊠weâll need to get things set up for when they come back just incase they are hurtâ Y/n rambled off, unaware that she was squeezing Smiths hand - not like he minded.
âHeâll be fine darlingâ Smith squeezed her hand back.
âI-I know. You need to eat-â
âI will donât worry but you need to eat too darling as wellâ
Sitting down next to him they enjoyed a nice meal together, Smith doing everything to help get her mind off of Bucky and the others by talking to her about his life before the war, his wife and children, telling her all the plans he had planned when he got home. It worked. Until it was time to go to bed, being alone with her thoughts made her mind come up with all kinds of scenarios and most of them werenât good.
It was another two weeks before word got to them that they were coming back. Captain America had saved them.
Y/n was in the medical tent filling out paperwork when applause erupted in the air as Captain America approached with the 107th behind him, hearing the cheers she jumped up and began getting things ready, as the first person was brought in her sole attention was on the solider and not the other one she had been worrying about in the five weeks since she had seen him.
âHey! Letâs hear it for Captain America!â She smiled at hearing his voice as she concentrated on the patient in front of her.
âHeâs already asked about youâ Ann says as she put pressure on the soliderâs wound.
âAh, your the famous doc that he wouldnât shut up talking aboutâ
âExcuse me?â
âBarnes? Yeah he wouldnât stop talking about you, if you ask me heâs in love with youâ the guy winked.
It wasnât until everything in the medical tent had calmed down that she had heard his voice again. âIâm injured dollâ
Spinning around she sees him standing there with a grin on his dirt covered face. âWho are you?â
âYour future husband, silly. Missed you dollâ
âI missed you tooâ hearing her words he crossed over to where she stood and placed his hands on her face, cupping her face before placing his lips against hers. Both sighing in content at the feeling they had both been missing for weeks.
âAre you hurt? Where?â
ââM not hurt my love, just messing with youâ
âAre you not going to introduce me Buck?â A new voice cut through making them take a step apart from each other.
âY/n this is Steve, Steve this is my dollâ Y/n smiled at the blond who happily returned the expression.
âItâs nice to meet the woman who this one wouldnât stop talking aboutâ
âI didnât talk about her onceâ Bucky rushed out. âI didnât dollâ shaking his head whilst looking at her.
âHeâs actually not the first person to tell me thatâ Y/n winked at Steve making the man laugh.
âI hate the both of you.â
A celebration was held that night when they came back, the men sharing the tale of how they were captured - all teasing each other when they said they werenât scared. Telling the women how Captain America had told them to leave but they refused, Dum Dum said that they arrived together and were going to be leaving together. Everyone including Y/n hanging on to every word that was spoken of their rescue and how they defeated the enemy.
Bucky never spoke a word, no, he was too lost in watching the flames of the fire-pit flickering off Y/nâs face. Mesmerised by the way her eyes shined so brightly in the darkness, audibly groaning as he watched her bite her lip - his mind going straight to the gutters.
Much later that night Bucky took his time in making love to her.
The 107th Infantry Regiment had been teamed up with Steve to take down an organisation, Bucky promised her that he would contact her whenever they set up camp for the night. Every night they spoke even if it was just for a few minutes, he told her where they were and asked how everything back at camp was going, before ending their call he would tell her that he was coming back to her.
The last time she spoke to him he informed her that they were in Austria, he made her giggle when he complained that they had to go up the alps, telling her how cold it was. He then shocked her by telling her that he was in love with her. Before she could even respond the connection cut off.
She knew there was something wrong when she never received another call from him, Mary and Ann told her that he was just busy and that he would come back and everything was going to be fine. Every time she tried to speak with the General about the update of where they were he just walked away from her.
For two months she didnât hear anything from him or from anyone, for two months she spent her time trying to take her mind off of the brunette who had wormed himself into her heart.
Mary came running over to the river where Y/n was sitting watching as the ducks swam past her. âY/n⊠theyâre back.â
Jumping up and running to where the men were, she looked around for the man who she had been missing more than anything, her eyes moved frantically from man to man who all seemed to have a problem with making eye contact with her. Her heart settled when a hand rested itself on her shoulder.
âDarlinâ I-I need to talk to youâ it was Dum Dum.
âW-where is he? DumâŠâ
âCome with me loveâ he wrapped his arm around her shoulder and moved them to her tent. âIâm sorry darling, he⊠he didnât make itâ
âW-where is he though?â
âHe fell off the train in the alps, we couldnât find his bodyâ
âNo⊠no we need to fi-find him so his family can bury him⊠Dum pleaseâ his heart ached for the woman in front of him, all he could do was hold her in his arms as she broke down crying. He didnât have the heart to tell her that Buckyâs last words to Steve was him begging the blond to make sure he looked after Y/n.
After crying for a good solid ten minutes she removed herself from his arms, wiped her tears before nodding and walking out - leaving Dum Dum standing there dumbfounded.
She knew herself that she wasnât going to be able to be aloud time away to mourn, they werenât dating or married, while they had feelings for each other and they spent every waking moment together it didnât mean anything to the higher ups. Walking into the medical tent everyone went quiet at seeing her, Mary tried telling her that she could go and rest but Y/n just shook her head and got to work. She needed the distraction to take her mind away from the pain in her chest.
For months after she became a shell of herself, no longer laughing or smiling, no longer holding conversations with anyone, always working and taking little care for herself. And finally that day came when the war ended, everyone around her celebrated whilst she was packing up her things ready to head back home.
It had been two years since the war ended and people were still picking up their lives. Y/n was on her way to home after finishing her shift at the local hospital when a black car pulled up alongside her.
âExcuse me Miss, are you Y/n L/n?â A man asked as he got out of the car.
âI am, who are you?â
âAh, we have a friend in commonâ
âWe do? Wait what are you do-â
âDonât make this harder than it has to be Miss L/n, wouldnât want to hurt you.â Her eyes were wide as his hand tightened around her neck, her whole body trembling with fear. âNighty nightâ he smirks as he presses a needle into her left arm.
Y/n woke up disoriented and dazed with her hands and ankles tied painfully tight, trying to speak but her words came out as slurred. âAh little lambs awake. Go back to sleep little lambâ the same guy from side of the road spoke, but instead of a needle being pushed into her arm he raised his leg and kicked her straight in the face. Knocking her out instantly.
The second time she awoke was when a bucket of stale water was thrown into her face, both arms tied to arms of the chair she was uncomfortably sat in. A man infront of her smiled as she was trying to blink away the water droplets off her eyelashes.
âSo youâre the precious little one that our Soldat keeps muttering about, no matter how many times we wipe his memories he always mutters your nameâ
âI-I donât know who you are talking aboutâ
âSoldat! You know himâ the unnamed man shouts as if it was the most obvious thing. âGet her ready. Miss⊠I wonât lie to you, whatâs going to happen next is going to hurt⊠well have funâ the man sighs dramatically and then chuckles making his way to the door, leaving her alone with four men holding guns.
Everything that happened next happened in a blur from two of the men grabbing her roughly and dragging her down the corridor, to being strapped down on a cold metal table - a meek looking man muttering something to her that she couldnât quite understand before a large needle was injected into her arm.Â
When she woke the next time she was in a small room - on the floor, that only had a chipped white framed bed with a thin mattress on top of it, she grimaced at seeing the blotches of stains. Her nose crunched upward at the nasty aroma lingering the room. Y/n flinched at hearing noises just outside, she could hear clearly that a man was laughing which caused her to back away and put her hands over her ears trying desperately to block out the sound. Not understanding why everything was amplified.
âAh, little lamb youâre awake. Iâm pleased to tell you that itâs worked, your going to be our new little asset-â
âW-what have you done to me?â
âWeâve made you stronger than any man could wish to be! Weâve made you fast-â
âWhat have you done!â
âRight, weâve injected you with a special serum thatâs enhanced you. Your lucky little lamb, those before you never made it past the thirty minute mark after injection. Now youâre ready for your second phase of becoming our little asset, boys⊠be careful with her.â The second he finished his sentence the same four men from before came in and grabbed her roughly once again.
Being dragged down a corridor and into a room she tried to beg the men to let her go, pleading with them that she had a family and theyâd be looking for her, she even tried bribing them. Her begs and cries fell on deaf ears.
âNow little lamb, from what I can gather is that this chair here, a beauty in her own right isnât actually nice to those that sit in her. Sheâs not exactly been kind to your little boyfriend but thatâs because he tries to fight it, Iâm going to be kind to you and suggest that you donât do the same as him otherwise it will hurt more.â He waved his hand in the air lazily and the two agents that had ahold of her shoved her towards the chair, once sat they strapped her legs down and placed a strap across her chest.
âP-please stop ple-â
âNone of that little lamb, itâs not going to hurt⊠muchâ he chuckles. âTry not to scream, itâll will only annoy meâ
She goes to reply when a loud buzzing sound came from both sides to her, frozen and strapped into place as two metal plates places themselves onto her face. Y/n could hear the man in a white coat start to count down from five, squeezing her eyes shut tightly she saw a blinding white light as her whole body spasmed and withered in pain. The agents all flinched as the glass behind them started to crack. Once it finished and the plates were moved away from her head, her head started to roll to the side as drool began seeping from her mouth.
âLittle lamb, do you remember me?â
âW-w-where am I?â Her mouth felt like it was full of cotton wool, and her tongue felt heavy.
âWhatâs your name?â
âY-Y/nâ
âDo it againâ
By the eighth time of having her mind wiped the window was gone, she had blood seeping from her ears and nose, her bottom half was wet. After they were done with her she was dragged back to her cell and tossed on the ground as if she was nothing.
Y/n had forgotten everything. She didnât know who she was or where she was. They kept calling her little lamb. Crawling into the corner of the room she pulled her knees up to her chest and began mumbling incoherently to herself.
Every time she closed her eyes all she saw was a blacked out face with the brightest blue eyes.
For years she moved and breathed when they told her too, she spoke when they said, she ate when they told her to eat - not like it was much mind you.
Throughout those years she didnât understand her purpose of why she was there, she never got to leave the place she was kept at, all she did was train and fight with those who were a lot bigger then her in height and weight.
What she didnât realise is that she did have a purpose for those she worked for, and that she was leaving the base to do their bidding. Completely unaware that she had taken so many lives.
She didnât know what they were injecting into her every few months was the sperm belonging to the Winter Soldier in hopes that they could create an army of pure bred super soldiers that they could use to fight and take down their enemies without themselves having to do anything. Or that the nurse who seemed to take pity on her would give her a tablet to force the innocent little foetus to never grow up in a world that it would only be used for pain and suffering.
She didnât understand what she had done wrong, one minute she was training with the other super soldiers and then she was being hit and shocked by the batons and then dragged to the room that kept the cryostasis chambers, she pleaded with the agents that she would be good, begging them not to put her in there again but they didnât listen. Her whole body stiffened when they gave her the option - chamber or chair.
She hated the chamber.
But she hated the chair even more.
âSee you in a little while little lamb.â
Fury had told them that SHIELD had discovered a new Hydra base and that they needed to go and take it down, not even an hour later they were fifteen minutes away from touching down at the location of the base.
âCap, it looks desertedâŠâ Natasha said as she slid her gun into her holster.
âWe still need to be cautiousâ Steve told them. He tapped his foot against Buckyâs to gain his attention. âYou okay?â
âDonât worry about me. Seriously punk Iâm fineâ
âAlright. Everyone be careful.â
They moved quietly and slowly towards the base - that had seen better days - without any trouble, getting inside they all stole quick glances at Bucky making him sigh. âNo Iâve never been here beforeâ
âDidnât say anything Barnesâ
âYou didnât need tooâ
As they moved further inside it became obvious that they were the only ones there, apart from a few rats running around. Steve gave the orders out, him and Wanda going together down one hallway, Bucky and Sam - which he did mainly to annoy his best friend, Natasha and Tony going off to find the computers to see if they can get anything off them.
âHow long do you think this place has been empty for?â Wanda asked.
âNot sure⊠it looks like awhile.â
âSteve?â
âYeah?â
âWhy are they all open?â Wanda points at cryo chambers, looking at Steve with a raised eyebrow.
âI donât know? But letâs keep looking there has to be something here for us to ta-â Wanda cuts him off with a gasp. âWhatâs wrong?â
âThereâs a woman, sheâs prettyâŠâ
âWhat are you- Y/n?â Wandaâs head snapped from the woman in the chamber to the blond standing next to her.
âDo-do you know her? Wait⊠Y/n?â
Pressing his comms button Steve tells Bucky to come to where he was, told him to hurry up, hearing the distress tone of their captain Nat and Tony also went along too.
âSteve is this the same Y/n that Bucky calls out for in his sleep?â Wanda asked, watching him nodding slowly she looked down sadly.
The team had slowly grown use to Bucky screaming and hearing him thrash around in his sleep and had even witnessed him trashing him room trying to escape, thinking and believing he was still at the Hydra base he was kept at. One night it had actually taken all of them to try and pin him down on the ground after a horrific nightmare, it took Thor to grab Mjölnir to place it on Buckyâs naked chest to pin him down and for Wanda to use her magic to clear his mind just so they could get him to calm down. She apologised profusely for it the next day but he just smiled, placed his hand on hers gently and thanked her. But every night without fail they all heard him mumbling or crying out for Y/n and none of them wanted to overstep that boundary by asking him directly so they asked Steve who this person was and all he told them was that it wasnât his place to say anything but that she meant the world to Bucky. And after that they let it be though they were all curious.
And now Wanda was staring up at the woman who had been on her friends mind for so long, she didnât know how Bucky was going to react to seeing her here.
âSteve?â Bucky stood at the doorway with Sam, Natasha and Tony behind him. âWhatâs up?â
âBuck⊠she-sheâs hereâ
âWho?â
Steve watched as Bucky paled and his eyes got shinier with tears filling them. âY/n.â
âN-no no youâre lying Steve.â His eyes moved to Wanda when he noticed her shifting from foot to foot. He knew by the look on her face that what Steve was saying wasnât a lie.
He moved slowly to where Wanda stood, never taking his eyes off her until he stood in front of her, it wasnât until she gave him a sad smile that he finally looked to his right. A choked sob was the only sound in the whole building. Wanda tried to grab him before he fell but it was no use, Bucky landed with a loud thud on his knees as he looked up at the woman he had fallen madly in love with in the forties. The woman he had made a promise too. A promise he couldnât keep.
âSt-Steve we need-I need to get her out of hereâ
âI know Buck, I know but we need to be careful, we donât know how long sheâs been in there forâ
âWe canât leave her!â
âWe arenât going to leave her Barnes, just give me a few minutes to try and figure out how weâre going to get sleeping beauty out of here, okay?â Tony says before looking around the room to find a way to get her out.
As everyone moved around the room trying to find a way to get her out of the chamber Bucky stayed on his knees looking helplessly up at her. âThatâs why you couldnât find her, sheâs been hereâ
âI tried Buck-â
âNo, I know you did. H-how long do you think sheâs been here for?â
âI⊠I donât knowâ
Not long after, Tony managed to find a way to open up the door to the chamber without causing any damage to Y/n. They all shivered as the cold air hits them, Bucky took the straps off her and took her gently into his arms. His body tensed when Tony injected something into her arm. âItâs just to keep her asleep until we get back to the towerâ.
Steve told him to take Y/n onto the jet so they could finish off clearing the base, they all watched as he carried her as if she was the most delicate thing in the world.
âSteve, sheâs a super soliderâ Nat looked over at him from the computer.
âHave you found anything else about her?â
âSheâs got way more kills under her belt than I do, they call her little lambâ saying that nickname made her nose scrunch up. âAnd⊠oh Steve, theyâve been injecting her with Buckyâs sperm, it never workedâ Steveâs eyes burned a hole into the computer screen angry at everything that he was hearing.
âSh-she was a nurse you know? A great one, all the men said they loved going to her because she was just the kindest of them all. She deserved so much better than this.â
âSteve sheâs been in cryo for twelve years⊠they wrote down when they were put in and taken out, she was never taken out twelve years agoâ
âJesus. Right, gather everything you can on Y/n and Iâll meet you on the jetâ
Leaving Natasha to do what she did best he went to the jet, he stood there watching as Bucky stroke his fingers through the top of her head, not taking his eyes off her face.
âI-Iâve put blankets on her from the back, sheâs still freezing Stevie.â
âBuck, thereâs something I need to tell you about her.â
âWhat is it?â
âSheâs like us, sheâs got the serum too. T-they were trying to impregnate her with-with your⊠you know, and Nat found out that sheâs been in cryo for twelve yearsâ
âT-they donât care do they? They donât care who they hurt or the pain they inflict, they-theyâve hurt the sweetest, big hearted person and for what? Just to leave her in there for all those years? Itâs my fault isnât it?â
âNo Buck, itâs not your fault-â
âIt has to be, I kept saying her name when they first got me. I didnât want to forget her so I kept saying her name and look what happened!â
âBucky itâs not- donât try and interrupt me- itâs not your fault. But weâve found her and sheâs going to come home with us and we can help herâ
âDid she do bad things too?â His voice was so small and quiet that it was lucky that Steve had enhanced hearing otherwise he wouldnât have heard what his friend said.
âYes but Buck we know her, we know sheâs a good person just like you sheâs been made to do bad but we can help her, I promise youâ
âWeâll all defend her tin-manâ Tony says, when both men look over they see the four of them nodding in agreement.
Two weeks after finding his only love and brining her back to the compound Bucky refused to move away from her hospital bed, on the fourth day Steve had to beg him to come with him to get some food - it wasnât until his stomach growled in hunger that he finally accepted Steveâs offer, he left her with a kiss on her forehead and made Natasha and Wanda watch over her, made them both promise to ring him the second Y/n started to stir awake.
Steve then tried to get him to leave just so he could get a good night sleep or to have a shower but the brunette shrugged him off - it wasnât until Dr Cho came in and told him to get a shower, told him that he should be clean and smell nice for when Y/n woke up. That had him running to his room and showering quickly before running back down to her.
It was better than nothing.
âSteve?â
âMhmâ
âWhatâs Fury going to do when Y/n wakes up?â
âNothing, him and Tony have already pleaded her case and all sheâs got to do when she wakes is give all the information she can remember. Fury is positive that sheâll be be fully pardoned and he thinks that she could be an asset to the team, that is if she wants to stayâ
âW-why-do you think sheâll want to leave?â
âI donât know Buckyâ
âWould you be mad at me if I left with her?â
âNo. I would be mad though if you didnât invite me over for dinnerâ Bucky let out a laugh whilst he rubbed his thumb over her knuckles.
Steve and Wanda had left after spending a couple of hours keeping Bucky company as he watched over Y/n, he was just starting to drift off to sleep when he felt her hand twitch.
âY/n? Doll?â Another twitch. âDoll, come on wake upâ
Bucky shot straight up knocking the chair backwards when Y/n jumped up out of the bed, falling down instantly, he watched as she pulled herself to the wall bringing her knees to her chest, her eyes moving around the room frantically. Her voice hoarse as she mumbles softly to herself, Bucky slowly moved around the bed.
âDoll? Y/n it-its me Buckyâ
âBucky?â
âYes, yes itâs meâ she says his name again, her teared filled eyes looking straight at him. âYouâre safe.â
âW-where are we?â
âSomewhere safe, I promise.â
âThey will be here for meâ slowly standing up, ignoring the blood seeping down her arm she moved over to Bucky. âI-I need to leave, I need to go back home, they-theyâll be mad at meâ
âY/n hey, hey stop, doll look at me, they arenât looking for you okay? Youâre safe here, Iâm not letting anyone hurt you again. I promiseâ
âYou promise?â
âI promiseâ Bucky moved closer as soon as she was in reach he pulled her in his chest, squeezing her tightly, repeatedly pressing his lips to her hair.
Helen came in a little later to run some checks, talking to Y/n like she was an actual person and not like she was a nobody like she was use to, when she said thank you it meant more than just a simple gesture. The next day Steve, Sam and Wanda walked into the hospital room shocked to seeing Y/n sitting up and talking to Bucky, though they had slowly gotten use to seeing Bucky coming out of his shell even after all these years of knowing him Sam and Wanda stood there watching Bucky be a whole new person, the only person that didnât find it weird was Steve who had a huge smile on his face, happy to see his best friend finally happy and at peace now that he had Y/n with him.
When Fury got word that she was awake he came down to see her, she answered all of the questions he had as best as she could. Fury reassured both her and Bucky that nothing would happen to her.
A month after waking up Y/n hand in hand with Bucky sat in a room with the team standing behind them, Fury at the end of the table and members of the government in front of them. She was nervous to hear what punishment she was going to receive, yes Fury promised that she wouldnât be but when Bucky finally caved and told her all of the crimes she was connected to - not only did her heart break at hearing the things that she did but she feared what kind of punishment she was going to receive, she felt like she needed to be.
âY/n L/n you are granted a full pardon, but you will need to be a part of the Avengers-â
âThatâs not what we agreed on!â Fury interrupted the man.
âItâs the best thing-â
âIâll do it. I-I need to do itâ Y/n nodded.
Bucky and Steve had to beg Tony not to throw a party to celebrate Y/nâs freedom and her new role in the team of superheroes, he reluctantly agreed but told them they needed to do something as a team for her. Bucky told him a nice meal would do, it wouldnât push her out of the comfort zone she had created for herself, so thatâs what they did. Their laughter throughout the meal bounced off the walls as Y/n was retelling her memories of the antics Bucky would get up to during camp, told them how she managed to push Steve in to the river when he refused to go into the water.
In that month Bucky had been sleeping in bed with Y/n after she begged him to stay with her, and that night was no different. The team no longer heard Buckyâs screams because he no longer had nightmares.
âY/nâ
âYeah?â
âI never stopped loving you, you know?â
âIâve never stopped loving you either.â She smiled up at him. Slowly their lips met, both sighing at the familiar feeling that they had been deprived of feeling for nearly eighty years.
Just as Bucky closed his eyes to get some sleep he began chuckling when he heard Y/nâs question.
âAre you still going to marry me so I can put up with you for the rest of my life?â
âI made a promise didnât I?â
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