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#idk which i should do for sylvie x miles#i started the second one last night so its still pretty early in#but i am v torn
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Brigitte: “Hey I have a question.”
Brynjolf: “sure lass, what is it?”
Brigitte: “why do rogues wear leather?”
Brynjolf, confused: “uh, well it’s a,light weight but sturdy material, it lets you be more flexible compared to other heavier armors”
Brigitte: “oh, well I always thought it was because it’s made of hide.”
Brynjolf: “…”
Brigitte: “…”
Brynjolf: “why did I hire you?”
#she is a menace when it comes to puns and being just a little bit annoying#I am writing a long fic with her and her brother more of their shitty jokes will appear#yes this joke was stolen from an old af tumblr post that I cannot find#oc: Brigitte Night-torn#tes ocs#skyrim oc#Skyrim ocs#tes oc#ldb oc#ldb#skyrim ldb#tes#the elder scrolls#skyrim#elder scrolls#tesblr#the elder scrolls skyrim#elder scrolls skyrim#the elder scrolls v: skyrim#tes brynjolf#brynjolf skyrim#skyrim brynjolf#brynjolf
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headcanon asks for Bradley: 1 and 19?
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1: holiday headcanon
christmas was always one of bradley's favorite holidays, all throughout his childhood. every adult in young bradley's life, all with varying backgrounds and types of childhoods of their own, could come together to agree on one thing: bradley's christmases should be magical. carole, trying to keep the magic of those first three christmases with everyone all together alive; mav, trying to give bradley the kind of happy memories he never had; ice and slider, woven into the family by carole's steady hand, determined to give this little makeshift family what it needs. bradley remembers holiday baking with mom, learning about the traditions of ice's family, so different from theirs; neatly-wrapped gifts from santa, much lumpier gifts that were also "from santa", supposedly, but he knew those ones were from uncle mav- it would be fair to say bradley was a little spoiled when it came to the holiday season.
after carole is gone, and it's just he and mav, those years are empty and feel meaningless, but they try. they try for carole's memory, for each other, and for ice and the others. bradley's eventual disillusionment with the holiday doesn't start there- no, it starts after.
once he and mav have their falling out, it's like someone has flipped the light switch. the last few chrismases were quiet ones, lonely without mom, sure- but he and mav got thru them together. after losing mav, too, though, it's radio silence. bradley goes from loving and enjoying the christmas season to hating it, overnight. the first christmas after is bleak. a long december and a somehow even longer december 25th. the only accompaniment that he has for the next four years of college are the cards and the letters he doesn't open. he spends it in the dorms alone while everyone else goes back to their families.
once he meets phoenix in flight school, things start to look up, just a little. she has a lively, bustling family full of extended relatives and family friends, and they're happy to fold in one more. it still doesn't feel right. it doesn't make him feel at home. for all their effort and kindness, phoenix's mom is nothing like carole and phoenix's dad is is nothing like goose- and as much as he hates himself for thinking it, more importantly, is nothing like mav- and the traditions and energy are all so different that it just feels unfamiliar. though it tugs painfully on his emotional aches and pains, he is grateful to have somewhere to go and happy to be included, even if it only exemplifies to him how alone he really is, and how he really doesn't seem to belong anywhere.
post-mission, post-reconciliation, bradley isn't sure what to expect. he imagines that mav would have built a life without him in it by now and is dismayed to learn this is not the case. he isn't sure if mav will want him around for the holidays after everything he's done and said. phoenix pushes him, telling him that of course he's welcome at the trace family table again this year, but you really ought to stick around and sort this shit out. through much hesitation, bradley does.
the post-reconciliation christmas is not lively or bright or boisterous like the christmases of old. it'll never be the same, without mom, without uncle ice, when the other flyboys have families of their own to worry about now. but mav welcomes him, wants him to be there, and it's more at home than bradley has felt in fifteen long years. it's not about the food or the gifts or the decorations. it's about the people- person, actually. it's about being invited into mav's life and heart even when he knows he can never deserve to be in those places again. at the end of the day, the old christmases were always about family and love and connection, and even though they're quite different on the surface, the new christmas is about all those things, too.
19. favorite photograph headcanon
photos were and are such an important part of the bradshaw-mitchell family. bradley knows it- and it's a part of why, when he leaves, he doesn't take the photos of himself and mav. he knows that to mav, that will say something, loud and clear, and he wants to be hurtful- he wants his emotions to be heard and understood. instead, he takes with him only the photos of his mom and dad, and a couple with the flyboys that mav took, and subsequently was not in; but bradley tells himself that he doesn't need the pieces of a relationship that there's no point in trying to salvage, so he leaves all of those pieces behind.
except for one.
it's a somewhat dilapidated polaroid, taken with his dad's old camera, snapped by carole as she'd stood on the back porch of the little bungalow house that bradley grew up in. in it, a six-year-old bradley sits in mav's arms, held up at eye-level in one strong arm as mav points up with the other. bradley has one hand fisted into mav's shirt, and his gaze and rapt attention are locked overhead. mav always used to tell little bradley to look up at the stars if he missed him, because it's the same stars- they always have that between them, at least. in the photo, mav points out the constellations they share even when apart, and bradley listens intently, trying to commit the names to memory. when he became old enough to have one, bradley used to keep it in his wallet.
eventually, when it's all fallen apart and those connections between them have been severed, bradley gives a new photo the place of honor in his wallet, a photo of he and mom- but he can't just throw out the old picture, no matter how angry he feels when he looks at it, no matter how badly he wants to. it goes into the box with everything else, with letters and cards and artifacts that mav sends him or that he can't bring himself to throw away. sometimes on a quiet, lonely night aboard a carrier or on leave, floating adrift in the world with no anchors to speak of, he thinks about it. he looks at the stars and he sees that image in his mind's eye and he remembers being six years old and thinking mav would always be there, and he wonders sometimes in the most empty moments if the old man still remembers all that shit about the stars. if he ever still looks at them, still thinks of it, of bradley, if he ever wonders anything about bradley the way bradley wonders about him. deep down inside, he knows that he mustn't. deep down inside, he tells himself that there's no chance in hell mav does. because, if he does, it means bradley threw away something that was still alive. it's a fate he cannot bring himself to accept.
when they've reconciled, bradley will find that old beat-up picture in the box. he'll show it to mav. i never forgot, he'll quietly admit. i always thought about it. i- i guess i thought that you probably didn't even care to look at them anymore. i just- i thought it was over. mav will take the photo, tattered and much-handled, from bradley's outstretched hand, studying it with a reverence that bowls bradley right over. i looked at 'em every night, baby goose, he'll admit. always hoped you might be looking, too.
tysm for this ask !!! and for your infinite patience in my disastrous ability to reply 😭😭but i loved answering this ask sm !!! and i definitely did not answer it in longhand at my job and i also definitely did not accidentally write so much about the christmas thing that i had to chop it way down for this ask because it accidentally kind of became a chapter of something lol. i am a disaster. but thank u so much and i hope u enjoy and are well!! <3<3<3
#star unasks#top gun maverick#top gun#brambleberrycottage#bradley rooster bradshaw#ON A RELATED NOTE ABT THE PHOTO I JUST FOUND OUT LIKE V RECENTLY THAT I GUESS IN THE ORIGINAL SCRIPT#BRADLEY IS SUPPOSED TO BE STARING AT A PHOTO OF HIM AND MAV IN THE READY ROOM BEFORE HE HAS HIS FIGHT W MAV????#and im screaming crying throwing up about it#if i had known that when i wrote ttnp i swear to god. i would have exploited the HELL out of that#im so sad i didnt#😭😭#FINALLY APPROACHING 80K ON THE WIP BTW😭😭#so i have taken a break to try and answer some asks lol#also also: just found out this year is the last sicktember and i am torn bc i rly wanted to do it sometime but this would be my last chance#and im just like. i dont think i can write 63k words in one month kids. i dont think i have it in me. akdjfkfhfjg#so i am very very torn lol#stars scribbles
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how do people even do things
#i follow people who are always online#they are always writing#they have nice themes#they work. studying#girl (gn) please tell me what am i doing wrong#i am torn between sleeping well or playing genshin#i see these people doing everything at once#do you guys even sleep?#v speaks
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serious character analysis
#my art#oc tag#oc: jitter#homestuck#tadc oc#fell into my tablet with much glee and whipped up this for jitter#my caption is said in a joking manner but i am also very genuine. i dont do it often bc my brain is so small and so tired but :] homedstuck#you would not believe the time i spent today torn up over jitters classpect!!! they settled easy into light not so easy when on mage v witc#we got there tho!! jitter starts screaming if i put it into a skirt but it can tolerate tunics hence the funky witch outfit#my guy is CLINGING onto that pillow theyre not beating the 'everything i ever let go of had claw marks' allegations#considering noises i should give j ax a classpect-#*IS HIT BY A BIG CARTOONY HAMMER LABELED 'YOU WILL NEVER FEEL SATISFIED ABOUT A CHARACTER ANALYSIS UNTIL YOUVE SEEN ALL THEY HAVE TO OFFER'#spits out blood anyways if jitter were a troll theyd be a rust blood :]#.menagerie
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(spoilers from season 2 of tgcf, rip all of us)
Yeah, yeah, I know.
But what if, instead of capturing and immobilizing Lang Qianqiu that time in the forest, Rouye decided to tickle him? What if there wasn't so much ressentment and lies and fear in that scene and was instead a cute, silly moment between the young crown prince and his old mentor? What if Xie Lian scolded him about being impulsive and thoughtless and how he could've died for this while Lang Qianqiu is giggling and laughing on the floor? What if he starts quizzing him about clever and safer ways that he could've go on about his threat and suddenly Lang Qianqiu feels like he is 15 again, doing his best to impress his teacher and he tries to actually think about his questions but immediately falls back to squealing and kicking, trying to squirm away but being unable to escape the soft silk wrapped around him that kept poking and pordding and vibrating and tickling at his sides and neck and ribs and absolutely everywhere?
What if - since this is now a CUTE AND SILLY moment with no ressentment - Hua Cheng decided to tease and provoke him since it's the second time he acts like that and ends up losing and being captured by them and, come on, it's really that your best? It's almost as if you like this. And LQQ squeaks in absolute protest and feels like his face is going to melt?
What if he had discovered the truth long time ago and had time to grief and come to terms with it, and now, when he discovers that Xie Lian is his old mentor, wants to challenge him to a fight so he can show him just how much better he got since the last time they saw each other and how he definitely can win a spar against him now. And now in the end it's all just a very cute tickle story huh? What then?
Anyway you can blame the very own Ruoye for this hc because how can a piece of fabric be SO SMUG about capturing somone like COME ON IT LITERALLY STOPPED, LOOKED AT LANG QIANQIU WITH A :] FACE AND THEN CAPTURED HIM, PLEASE!!!!!! P L E A S E. AND XIE LIAN BEING ALL SO :]c AFTERWARDS TOO LIKE !!!! SHAKING THEM BY THEIR SHOULDERS!!!!
I 100% headcanon Lang Qianqiu having a super squeaky and loud laughter, even if he is not actually that ticklish, and just BABBLING the most utter nonsense while being tickled. Xie Lian discovered about it because he caught the prince and his friend (the boy w no name <3) in he middle of a tickle fight once and, even though he never actually tickled him besides one or two sneaky pokes to wake him up during lessons, Rouye never forgot and now rip him.
Also since I am already here, in this reality Xie Lian was not punished and so Hua Cheng only think that boy as the Annoying Kid that Xie Lian once teached and now that appeared centuries later to cause an unecessary ruckus in his city so he is Getting Revenge.
#tgcf tickle headcanons#I am sick with want fr fr#ticklish!Lang Qianqiu#you can pry him laughing and being happy from my dead cold hands#I am torn between he trying to get revenge on xl w no plan or preparation bc he is still v impulsive <3 and being TICKLED AGAIN#But now for both Xie Lian and Ruoye since as it seems he haven't learned the lesson yet#Or he respecting Xie Lian too much still to be just so Silly with him.... but he is all about justice. maybe the first option could happen?#tgcf tickles#tgcf tickling#writing a fic about them ( not w this idea) and it's been DAYS an I only recently realized I wrote their names wrong in the whole story AUG#shaking non stop PLEASE I JUST NEED THEM TO BE SILLY I JUST NEED THEIR STORY TO HAVE A HAPPY ENDING#spoilers tgcf
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@dupliciti: caress cheek 👉👈
literally makes the softest chuckle known to mankind. cradles his hand closer to nuzzle his cheek into and kisses the palm of his glove ♥
#dupliciti#riddle me this; is everything that you remember real and nothing but the pure truth? ━ (H:SR V.)#sorry terios get devastated by the softness (i am torn asunder screaming crying)
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Hi y'all! Here is my finals campaign on why you should vote for Nani Pelekai in the @eldest-sibling-tournament today!!
Edited to add***
Poll just dropped vote Nani today!
https://www.tumblr.com/eldest-sibling-tournament/712608371217481728/eldest-sister-tournament-final-round
#polls#eldest sibling tournament#eldest sibling poll#nani pelekai#Lilo and Stitch#Lilo & Stitch#propaganda#campaigns#i've been working on this since a little before the sokka tournament#thinking the sokka and ed rounds were going to be neck and neck#and i was very wrong girl swept everytime#i'm so sorry sokka and ed y'all are wonderful siblings and deserve more respect on your names#anyways i was torn over finishing it or not cuz it felt kinda pointless since she's crushing her opponents with no help but i mean like#i already spent so much time on it so now y'all get to see it too#if this actually influenced you to vote for nani and you decide to reblog this please let me know in tags#cuz the sheer number of votes on the katniss-grayson poll was in the 10000s+ and that's wild compared to the notes on nani polls#also if y'all need me to copy paste the text from the slides under a read more or something for easier reading let me know#i don't mind doing it if there's a demand but it's is also 3:30 AM as i am typing this and scheduling this post for tomorrow#so i just couldn't do it when i was queuing this up i'm v tired#ok thanks byeeee#actual memes to come later depending on how voting seems to be going
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Football giveth (Germany late equaliser to top the group) and football taketh (Hungary last minute goal to knock Scotland out)
#I AM BEING TORN APART HERE#football liveblog#euro 2024 edition#switzerland v germany#scotland v hungary
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i was accidentally v productive tonight but made the mistake of sitting down on the couch to finish a last ep of dungeon meshi and now Baloo is also cuddling me on here and i need to go to real bed (with my fancy new bedding) but i am partially decomposed into the couch
#im also v intrigued abt what my ultimate feelings on these pointe shoes are gonna be#my normal ones are normal but the other ones are a style i liked a lot last year#but one size narrower#and they're SO hard to balance in and also like. sort of fold in half if i push over the box#and im torn on whether i want to try them for sat or if i want to be smart and hold off#but i am intrigued#personal
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Ava Max is life!
#ava max#gonna tag some of my fave Ava max songs here#so am i#freaking me out#torn#maybe you're the problem#everytime I cry#my head & my heart#sweet but psycho#salt#tattoo#rumors#who's laughing now#alone pt. 2#omg what's happening#and not be basic but: kings and queens#okay so that's a lot of songs?#but this lady brilliant#love her#also she is v pretty#music
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I’m so conflicted on making the kidnapping AU incest bc on one hand it is definitely sexier if everything is gen and Fractured Julius is just unhinged platonically
On the other hand do you know how much angst I could wring out of Fractured Julius knowing Ludger’s feelings that he hasn’t told Prime Julius about yet...
(Context: kidnapping AU is the one where Fractured Julius (who lost his own Ludger) kidnaps Prime Ludger and is very honest with him about everything. Too honest...)
#honestly the same reason why victor/ludger/julius is too fun to me#oh well i can always substitute for ‘i know how you really feel’ ‘its not like that...’ (its NOT like that but :3c the guilt remains)#even platonically. ludger not wanting to take over any more of julius’ life than he already has#by being a kid julius had to take care of (especially as hes older and knows just how young julius was when he was raising ludger)#i can do so much here...#buuuut theres still a delight to the sheer moral panic of incest#i am so torn.#v#x2#amb
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@chloesaunders replied to your post “I’m always intrigued by the fanon unchanged future...”:
elaborate 👀
Okay, so honestly, the vast majority of what the unchanged future is like? We have no idea. Honestly, all we really know is: magic has been exposed, Wyatt runs the world, and there are probes scanning for witches. (Probably a few more things tbh, but. Eh.) Yet, everyone has basically agreed that:
the resistance is a thing, which is probably the biggest one despite there never being a mention of anything like that.
Chris is either its founder/leader/major player/whatever, despite y’know. Being in his early twenties. (As someone in said early twenties, I cannot imagine being in charge of any kind of rebellion like. are you kidding? I can’t even manage myself, much less a resistance movement.)
honestly that Chris and Bianca have any allies at all, bc we only see them with the whole time travel plot
Wyatt pretty much. blew up the world when he and Chris were like 16/17 and 15/14 respectively. There’s nothing actually indicating if it was earlier, later, or right then but everyone went yep! around Piper’s death is when it all went to hell.
similarly, that Piper was the first of the sisters to die. I mean. Everyone seems to consecutively agree that Piper’s death was the catalyst for everything going to shit, lmao.
look, every single fic about the unchanged future that i’ve read has Wyatt go by Lord Wyatt, which. Not inherently opposed to, but like. There is never an indication of that!! We totally made that up!! Hell, if he’s going by the royal title, King Wyatt?? Bestie has Excalibur and the (technically not confirmed in canon but c’mon, it’s canon) King Arthur past life, why is it Lord and not King?
Wyatt knew that Bianca had betrayed him when she joined the resistance/really any kind of knowledge about Bianca betraying Wyatt. This isn’t as explicit but like anyone besides Chris knowing Bianca turned? Because canon actually explicitly spells out that Wyatt did not know Bianca betrayed him.
this has also died off in recent years but. remember when everyone went lmao yeah cole and prue are in the unchanged future, despite that making absolutely no sense? why did so many people just roll with that?
#chloesaunders#abi speaks#charmed#unchanged future#im not dissing any of this either for the record!!#(well except for maybe cole and prue being in the uf bc. why? they're both dead how the hell are they just vibing in the hell future?#i did admittedly plan to include that in a v bad fic when i was like fourteen tho lmao but 23 yr old me is not down)#like everything else is honestly stuff that i also do/write but its funny bc none of this is canon#it makes sense sure but there is also no specific conclusions that led us to all assume these things#like the resistance existing? sure that makes sense but it also makes just as much sense for it to not#there's definitely more but these are the only ones that i actually remember rn#bc while i did read pretty much every completed chris fic on ffn back in like 2016#i have not actually reread a lot of them in years#bc i am already depressed and reading uf fics make me sad bc everything in the uf is sad#also the fact that i just. read like every completed chris fic on that archive when i was a teenager#i am torn between being impressed and horrified at teenage me which is a continuing trend lmao
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anyway
with me back on my 5sos wagon, im just really glad i didnt get rid of my old tour programs and my slfl shirt
#that concert really did me in#i seriously thought i had moved on!!! 🤡#i wasnt going to get rid of my programs. but my slfl shirt is p torn up and i did consider donating it#i havent listened to their discog this seriously since youngblood#and here i am. hemm-ifying my blog like its 2015 all over again#they meant sm to me as a teenager my soft spot for them and what theyve been up to never left#but now its like… im back in boys. listening to all their music and watching their interviews and old streams lol#theyre like the nice ex boyfriend youre still friends w and catch up every once in awhile lol#its crazy how ‘at home’ i felt at their show compared to the other concerts ive been to this year#its like. smth about all of it has been v neat and wholesome for me to revisit#mytext
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tag drop me hearties.
#devilry. ⟊⚔⟊ || : and really bad eggs.#answered. ⟊⚔⟊ || : ye come seekin’ adventure and salty old pirates,eh?#meme. ⟊⚔⟊ || : prepare to make sail!#meme response. ⟊⚔⟊ || : it be too late to alter course,mateys.#ooc. ⟊⚔⟊ || : no need to expose your superstructure!#musings. ⟊⚔⟊ || : one cannot be moderately dead,or moderately loved,or moderately free.#elizabeth swann. ⟊⚔⟊ || : let me wrap my teeth around the world.#jack sparrow. ⟊⚔⟊ || : a little tune he whistles and a little song he sings,mounting,still triumphant on his torn and broken wings.#cutler beckett. ⟊⚔⟊ || : killing innocent pirates with a gusto.#aesthetic. ⟊⚔⟊ || : we betray the ones we love for those we love a little more.#william turner. ⟊⚔⟊ || : only cruel immortality consumes: I wither slowly in thine arms,here at the quiet limit of the world.#hector barbossa. ⟊⚔⟊ || : and they all dead did lie: and a thousand thousand slimy things lived on,and so did I.#davy jones. ⟊⚔⟊ || : Charon,the proud and sombre beggar stood,with one strong vengeful hand on either oar.#james norrington. ⟊⚔⟊ || : but man,proud man,drest in a little brief authority,most ignorant of what he’s most assur’d.#mr. cotton. ⟊⚔⟊ || : rule 42 of the Code: no one shall speak to the Man at the Helm,and the Man at the Helm shall speak to no one.#v: pre cotbp. ⟊⚔⟊ || : in memory of golden summer hours,and whispers of a summer sea.#v: cotbp. ⟊⚔⟊ || : I am sick of prettiness,I am sick of privacy. I ride rough waters and shall sink with no one to save me.#v: dmc. ⟊⚔⟊ || : man's apparel she put on,and she follow'd her true lover,for to find him she is gone.#v: awe. ⟊⚔⟊ || : we set out with a map and a flag,with a gun and a rag,with ambitions and dreams.#v: post awe. ⟊⚔⟊ || : when our truth is burned from history,by those who figure justice in fond memory,witness me.#norribeth. ⟊⚔⟊ || : we were two ships in the night,hellbent on trying to survive,and capsized.#willabeth. ⟊⚔⟊ || : all the fear and the fire of the end of the world happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl.#sparrabeth. ⟊⚔⟊ || : we were not made to let ourselves grow rotten on the vine,I know heaven can’t be better than your body next to mine.
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