#but i am suffering a little
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This week is literally insane for me I'm literally a triple threat. Sick with a head cold, just started my period, AND taking a caffeine break
#im kinda joking here#but i am suffering a little#the caffeine thing is mostly the joke x) i stop drinking caffeine when im sick bc it makes me feel worse so ive been having non-caff tea#usually id be getting headaches and shit but it counterbalances bc im sick and my body doesnt go HEY wheres the COFFEE#idk my body feels good abt that one and the cold actually isnt the worst cold ive ever had#but it is still a cold#u know#i keep quarantining myself hardcore whenever abby n i r home at the same time bc i do NOT want them 2 get sick they r so vusy rn they cant#afford to take time off#this mornings tea of choice is peppermint with a lil honey ♡ and now im gonna sit here n read :)#also i will say bc of my last post: i had breakfast too! eggs n yogurt and cheese which is WILD to have when ur sick im aware but#i dont have a couch its all in my nose so the dairy is actually fine#i love oversharing in the tags#cough* not couchLOL tho we dont have a couch either maybe that was a freudian slip
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#ra speaks#it’s a silly joke/pun dw#we stay silly :3#edit:#woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/#10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water.#15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :]#20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then#25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today#30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3#40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering
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a new star
#i been thinkin about the asteroid again#i think about the asteroid a lot more than i think is normal#like just the complete randomness of it and how everything changed in literally the blink of an eye#like the dinoss rules the fucking earth and probably still would if space had just been a little bit different#how long did it take the asteroid to reach us#at what point was the impact inevitable#like these sound like scientific answers but i need you to know these are questions that my soul wants answered in poetry#yes the math is cool but can i talk about what tragedy looks like melted into the earth#how power and pain and mourning but also change and new life and a future were embedded in a layer of iridum that spread around the planet#can we talk about how looking at the layers of the earth is the most physical type of time travel there is#can i please talk about that layer of pain#can i mourn when i see it#or am i just a weird kid crying when i look at rocks#ALSO. was parasaurolophus alive when the asteroid hit? i dont think so#but it's too late#yall get to suffer with me#dinosaurs
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that annoying moment when getting left for dead in the trunk of a car in your 20s comes back to haunt you 40 years later (take a shot every time ford says “stanley”)
#i love making ford look like a kicked puppy#my favorite pastime#i also like making stan suffer then he brushes it off like a joke <3#these guys have issues#anyway context? what’s that ahaha#but idk. i guess in their adventures they get into fights with things and people#and eventually stan gets pushed and locked into a trunk or one of those little freezers that lock on the outside#and he’s in this tiny space and he can’t just push his way out so he panics and forgets where he is for a second#and by the time ford gets rid of the people/things attacking and finds wherever stan went (kind of easy to tell when he’s yelling)#he’s gotta like. ground him or whatever#those 6 fingers come in handy bc he’s just gotta grab onto stan’s hand and let him feel those 6 fingers against his hand#👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼#anyway i lowkey don’t even like the dialogue in this#and ofc the drawings are low quality as usual#but whatever i am Not going back to work on this lol#idgaf take whatever i give y’all guys 🗣️#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#gravity falls fanart#stan twins#sea grunks#stangst#??? yeahg#my art#rystiart#i’ll have it in me to sit down and make something better one day but today is not that day#also ahem. he repeats please a lot when he’s about to die haha. why do y’all think he hates saying please so much? 😇
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Ultra Magnus has to step in to be like 'the right to trial by combat was removed from the constitution 10 million years ago'
#transformers#maccadam#galvatron#cyclonus#tailgate#whirl#tf idw#my art#rodimus is like 'ok galvatron you may sit in the captains chair. for 10 minutes. if you promise you wont steer us into a wormhole or smth'#galvatron is like 'yes. of course :) i promise!' while crossing his fingers behind his back#i am not spending 40 hours painstakingly rendering this comic out sorry guys it got a little too long!#i simply love it when cyclonus suffers >:)
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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omg i can’t believe we finally have a visual for the piece of washing-machine-sized piece of machinery that is not actually a washing machine that falls on taako
#i am going to be real. i think it looks a little bigger than a washing machine#a sydney original#taz gn#taz gn spoilers#<- i guess??#taako#the adventure zone#taz balance#the suffering game
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Been binging the 1986 series again and drew my ver in some of his slays
#love that little banana lookin ass hoe#journey to the west#jttw sun wukong#jttw#sun wukong#journey to the west fanart#digital art#my art#jttw 1986#y’all my senior project got me on LOCKDOWN#I am suffering or2#also I now have what is colloquially known as an ✨inner ear canal infection✨#my ear hurt o(-( can’t have a fucking break in this house#the joys of product design (arguing with manufacturers)#dude the costume design in that show is so gorgeous for everyone#these aren’t even my fave favs but the yellow on swk is so charming#kinda made me cry when in the liu er mihou ep swk is always wearing his fanciest duds when appearing in front of others#but when they went to go see his master he changed back into humble pilgrim clothes#😭 like bro the deference#I really like that frilly pink skirt he had on for a while in s1#like okay fruit slaaay#1986 swk is so fruity he’s the only one who’s outfit changes constantly that’s diva✨
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sidestep doodles for todayyy <3 putting ripley into the torment nexus
#crypticart#ripley hawthorn#cryptic ocs#oc art#sidestep#fhr sidestep#fhr#fallen hero#fallen hero rebirth#fallen hero retribution#had to draw him during class forever#my angry little freak of a man#all i know how to do is draw ripley in greyscale and suffering#also yeah i just needed an excuse to draw his tongue piercing. because i am obsessed with hjm
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a little family
#buddy daddies#my art#doodles#sometimes a family is an two misfit assassins and the daughter of the guy you offed and thats a okay#but lets not talk about that#we love healing in this house and how do you heal if not after suffering#reis journey through depression and kazukis journey through grief#what 1 little girl does to a man#its 5 am all i can offer are doodles but i love them very much#i know we do reasonably get to call them cowards for not making it gay (esp at the end bc come on)#but i do love whatever relationship they have going becuase theyre just. Thats marriage babe....#theyre not going to be doing any dating with that committment that is the most domestic ass setting ive ever seen#everyone and their mother assumes theyre married/dating and doesnt even question it because theres NO QUESTION T O ASK#only the people involved apparently dont know theyre married#ok nvm they were cowards for not making it gay. but again. theyre clearly married your honor. theyre just a little stupid
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i think when tails is working on smt and sonic's chilling out w em, tails can just say like, "can you pass me the..."
and without missing a beat sonic will throw them exactly what they needed, they'll catch it perfectly and give a backwards thumbs-up, sonic will chuckle and tails will grin, and then the two go back to what they were doing
cause sonic does have knowledge on this kinda stuff, and he observes what tails's doing all the time. he likes watching his little bro work, and even with his shit memory he tries his best to figure out what goes where and when and how and why.
i think things arent as easy w tails's other friends, though. amy's great at software but doesn't know the first thing about hardware - or tails's gadgets, specifically; knux and trip and sticks barely interact with technology as-is, let alone something as personalized as tails's stuff; . everyone's absolutely interested in what tails has to say and do, but they don't really get what he's doing
i think sometimes when they gotta ask others for help they say "can you pass me the..." but then nothing.
their brain is blank and full of fuzz. they cant remember the name of whatever thing they need, or if they do remember they dont know the specifics - what kind of head for a drill screwdriver, what shape and size the wrench they need is.
they try to mime the shape of whatever they need, still racking their brain for the actual specifics, but the short-ish temper they inherited from sonic wins over in the end and they just look for whatever they need themself, embarrassed and feeling incredibly guilty.
i think eventually theyd make a proper inventory of everything they have and thatll make their life FAR easier, but until then its a lot of awkward fumbling and anger at themself for things they cant change
#miles tails prower#sonic the guy#sth#sonic the hedgehog#unbreakable bond#giving tails head injury / childhood trauma induced brainfog SMILING!#this little guy is so fucking concussed im surprised i havent seen more of them just like. having issues#(that is a lie. No i am not.)#disability hc#tails suffers saga#episode two headcanon bogaloo#episode ii headcanon bogaloo#episode 2 headcanon bogaloo
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#oc#alek#hi i havent been around much lately#first piece of art in over a month so i am quite rusty#and i think i made alek a little too pretty here but i dont remember how to draw him.. or its just the hair that doesnt fit him#but continuing the tradition of drawing alek with my hairstyle so he must suffer#i havent had hair this long before and you sure do find your hairs *everywhere* and it is hateful#annnnyyway i hope u like im hoping to get more active w art but im also really enjoying viddy games as of late lols
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Essek and Caleb both learn the Maze spell and cast it on each other as Wizard Enrichment™. They get sent into a labyrinth with the goal of ‘escape’, and if they can’t get out in 10 minutes, they just get popped back out. No harm, no foul.
It starts out as a fun little activity, but then they start getting competitive about it. First, it’s basic races—who can get the fastest time getting out of a maze. But then, they get into a discussion about how the mazes are generated. Is it random? Is there some pattern to the various layouts? And if so, is there a style of maze that is more advantageous? Does the maze creator have any influence over the design of the maze?
The thing is, Maze only requires a DC 20 Intelligence check to escape. That’s nothing to these guys, and they crack it open pretty quick. So then they ask themselves, can we make it harder?
Their previous toyings with Maze RNG become full on experiments and deep dives to see if they can add increased difficulty. They start adding multiple levels, doors that require you to solve a puzzle to unlock, fetch quests, etc. They come up with the most difficult maps and challenge each other to get their times lower and lower and lower.
They become Maze spell speedrunners and modders is what I’m saying.
#they drag Yussa into their little club as well#and it eventually becomes an official sport in Nicodranas#Yussa is somewhere between ‘I am the greatest gamer of all time non can defeat me’#and ‘if I’m not suffering am I really gaming?’#every time I think about spell noodling for fic purposes I keep coming back to this#I don’t know much science but I do know video games#shadowgast#caleb widogast#essek thelyss#critical role#eve talks#late night wizard posting
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there really is a little evil part of me that loves it, when people don’t get over me. aww you’re still hung up on me after years of being apart? poor baby boy. i’m soo sorry that you feel like i’m irreplaceable and like you’ll never find anyone you can feel small and vulnerable and loved and at home with anymore. now, say. it. again.
#mostly i want past loves to get over it ofc because i don’t want them to suffer and just be happy again#but the sadist in me?#oh yeah no she is gleeful that you now realised what a gread thing you fucked up#and how desperately you miss the time and treatment#thank you for recognising how amazingly i treated you and what a dream of a girlfriend and dom i was#and no you’re not getting it back#but please go on about how it tears you apart how great i am#it’s at least a little bit of recompense for the heartbreak you caused me
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Queerplatonic jayvik is so important to me btw. Bestest reading of their relationship I think.
#they didn't kiss but they love each other so much that they keep fueling a time loop of suffering because without it their love doesnt exist#if that isn’t gay i don't know what is. but it's also. they spent years and years trusting each other. working in one lab. side by side.#two halves of a whole. their love is familiarity and closeness and mundane moments as domesticity and all the little things that make#togetherness so beautiful. they're not big excitement. they're not about fireworks and rollercoasters. they're about waking up to each other#about doing the dishes together in silence#doing the laundry. solving equations. walking home. watching sunsets. eating home cooked dinner and laughing.#they're sososo in love your honour but not in a romantic way <333#also. jayce choosing his queerplatonic love over his romantic love is. is very very very important#to me. at least. bc he isn't aro. he isn't aro and he still chooses to love his life partner in a way that defies romance. <3#if anyone wants to talk about them with me i am available and will love you for it btw. :)#jayce talis#arcane#viktor arcane#jayvik#arcane season 2#queerplatonic#arcane jayce#jayce x viktor
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joke in episode 7 preview: and for my next trick I will yearn so hard your heart will clench at the thought of my sorry little face for the rest of the week
#ive been thinking about his sad faces the whole night making the most angsty scenarios until 3am am i normal#love when a man with complicated lore and history in crime is absolutely SUFFERING because of love#[evil laughter] i hope jack takes his sweet time to kiss this twink actually im not in a hurry#(but i also hope jack suffers a little too)#jack and joker u steal my heart#war wanarat#yin anan wong
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