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kdheaven · 3 months ago
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'cause i wonder... will i always wonder?
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explosionshark · 7 days ago
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2024 AOTY
by me! your pal, bri-bri
originally i was going to just write up the first ten albums or so, but then i had things i wanted to say about the rest of 'em so i just kept going. that made the list really long though. so here's just the numbered list, under the cut you'll find my extended thoughts n feelings :)
What I'll Leave Behind by Void of Vision
For Your Consideration by Empress Of
Sanshi by Ripped to Shreds
Coup de Grace by Seeyouspacecowboy
Aumicide by Atrae Bilis
Children of the Moon by State Faults
Ridiculous and Full of Blood by Julie Christmas
Absolute Elsewhere by Blood Incantation
Lonely People [EP] by Love Rarely
Cutting the Throat of God by Ulcerate
Infinite Mortality by Replicant
I Got Heaven by Mannequin Pussy
Valerie by Tei Shi
Forever by Charly Bliss
You Could Do It Tonight by Couch Slut
World Fighter by Angel Sword
Hicimos Crecer un Bosque by Fin del Mundo
Ephemera [EP] by Ben Quad
Stygian Rose by Crypt Sermon
Infinite Void by With Sails Ahead
Vault of Horrors by Aborted
Revelations by Sarah Shook & the Disarmers
Steps Ascending by Stand Still
The Tower by Urban Heat
AOTY 2024
Full list here: write-ups for specific albums under th cut. Ranked somewhat arbitrarily.
1. What I'll Leave Behind by Void of Vision (metalcore) - absolute bummer that this will be the final album by these guys, but I'm grateful for the fact that I was able to see them a few times before they had to call it quits. Been describing this as like a song missing from the Saw 2 soundtrack or something that should have been playing at one of the clubs in Vampire The Masquerade: Bloodlines or something. I feel like that's accurate - alt metalcore with its nails painted black and a profound love of Nine Inch Nails. Strong lyricism drawn from real trauma, enough fun electronics to make them stand out from more generic metalcore acts, plenty of hooks and some sick breakdowns as well to keep things heavy. I hope Jack Bergin's brain never explodes again and retiring from touring helps him lead a long and healthier life. "Gamma Knife" is the highlight for me
2. For Your Consideration by Empress Of (Pop) - my favorite pop album of the year. Lorely Rodriguez is so insanely talented, this album has a pretty diverse range of sounds without becoming too inconsistent. I love that there's raunchy club bangers like "Femenine" right next to sappy love songs like "Kiss Me" and more introspective tracks like "What Type of Girl Am I?"
3. Sanshi by Ripped to Shreds (Death Metal) - very good year for death metal but I think this is my favorite DM record of the year. I've always enjoyed Andy Lee's projects and Ripped to Shreds has been my favorite of them for years but expanding to a full band has taken them to a whole nother level. Killer riffage throughout, insanely fun lead swapping between Lee and Michael Chavez. "Horrendous Corpse Resurrection" is easily one of my top songs of the year
4. Coup de Grace by Seeyouspacecowboy (Metalcore) - this was a big big SYSC year for me, in large part bc I ended up seeing them live so many times. Honestly initially I struggled with Coup de Grace because it leans harder into the dramatic, theatrical MCR/P!ATD style of emo than any of their other work, and that's not necessarily to my taste. This still makes the top 5 despite regularly skipping several songs on each listen because the rest of it is so damn good. Could not stop listening to it this fall. Safe to say it grew on me. "Chewing the Scenery" and "Subtle Whispers to Take Your Breath Away" were two of my most played tracks for the whole year
5. Aumicide by Atrae Bilis (Death Metal) - one of the most underrated death metal bands active rn imo. No sophomore slump for these guys, this record absolutely smokes from start to finish. It's heavy and it's nasty, but it still grooves. There's enough melody to make it addictive but they're still able to maintain the harshness that makes dissonant death metal compelling. "Hell Simulation" and the closing track "Excruciate Incarnate" are perfect examples of the balance they strike between those two modes
6. Children of the Moon by State Faults (post-hardcore) - 2024 was the year I discovered State Faults. Very much the experience of finding a band that is so much Your Shit that it feels insane that you're almost a decade late to the party. Children of the Moon is the best post-hardcore album of the year imo and it's not even close. These guys draw from an incredible range of influences to create some of the most affecting work in the genre - brutal and beautiful and profound. "Palo Santo" and "No Gospel" absolutely blow me away every time
7. Ridiculous and Full of Blood by Julie Christmas (post-metal? Noise? Julie Christmascore) - anyone already familiar with Julie Christmas' work does not need me to explain why she's such a powerhouse and anyone not familiar will be done a disservice by anything short of listening to her music for themself. All I can truly say about Ridiculous and Full of Blood is that it's one of the most dynamic, interesting albums of the year and I just hope to God she doesn't make us wait another 14 years for her next solo record. The band she assembled for this album is insane across the board, but in particular it was a delight to see her collaborating with Johannes Persson again eight years after the absolutely masterful collaboration with Cult of Luna. If you listen to only one song out of all the stuff I'm recommending today, let it be "The Lighthouse"
8. Absolute Elsewhere by Blood Incantation (progressive death metal) - everyone won't shut up about this album but in this case the praise is absolutely earned. Cosmic, atmospheric, brutal, spacey, heavy as hell. With a Tangerine Dream collaboration no less! Essentially comprised of two long songs, Absolute Elsewhere is a record you need to make time for, meant to be listened to in full to get the most out of it, but it's so, so worth it to take the time. A stunning, transportive piece
9. Lonely People [EP] by Love Rarely (post-hardcore/math rock) - my favorite EP of the year. A very exciting band, they fuse hooky, math rock riffs with post-hardcore intensity. Courtney Levitt's vocals are incredible - a combination of throat shredding shrieks and powerful, emotional clean singing that makes you instantly sit up and pay more attention. "Say Yes" was on repeat for me all year
10. Cutting the Throat of God by Ulcerate (death metal) - an absolutely crushing, depressive, beautiful piece of dissonant death metal. Undeniably heavy, but on this outing we see Ulcerate lean into some post-rock esque melodicism that elevates their sound even further. It's such an atmospheric album - grim and unrelenting, but strangely delicate in places. Top notch musicianship throughout, but Jaime Saint-Merat's drumming is just mind-blowing. The title track is a must-listen song for anyone who gives a shit about heavy music at all
11. Infinite Mortality by Replicant (Death Metal) - I noticed in my write-ups for the other two dissonant death metal albums on this list, I took a moment to highlight and praise the melodicism therein. That won't be happening for Infinite Mortality. That's not to say there's zero melody at all but to emphasize how much that's not the draw here. This album is an altogether darker, nastier, more menacing affair. There's a grime here, a dizzying, sinister undertone of violence. My first time listening to this record was as background music while I was reading Crypt of the Moon Spider by Nathan Ballingrud and there was a scene in that book I was reading during "Orgasm of Bereavement" where the combination of the sounds I was hearing and the words I was reading gave me a full-body sensory experience: goosebumps, a faint sense of nausea, slight dizziness. I can't think of a stronger album recommendation than that.
12. I Got Heaven by Mannequin Pussy (Rock) - ANOTHER BANGER FROM MISSY DABICE AND CO. Mannequin Pussy keep getting better and better and it seems like they're finally (deservedly) starting to blow up with this record. It's a joy to listen to - snarky, vulnerable, earnest, clever, joyful and pissed off in turns. "Loud Bark" is already iconic, easily one of the finest songs they've written in an already stacked career of certifiable bangers
13. Valerie by Tei Shi (pop) - my second favorite pop album of the year! Tei Shi's first independent release. The breadth of songs on this album is incredible - bachata inflected pop kicks the album off with the explosively catchy "QQ (QUÉDATE QUERIENDOME)" and by the middle of the record we've somehow transitioned to intimate, heart wrenchingly vulnerable meditations on a painful miscarriage with "Falling From Grace." Frustration with the major label rat race as well as evergreen pop subjects of love and heartbreak fill out the rest of the album, but no matter the topic or the style of the song, everything feels honest and confident. The Spanglish version of "Mona Lisa" is one of my favorite pop songs of the year
14. Forever by Charly Bliss (Rock/Power Pop) - talking about honest, vulnerable music! Charly Bliss made their comeback this year and it's unsurprisingly one of the best albums to come out in 2024. Forever feels like a great marriage of the sounds on their other two LPs, Guppy and Young Enough. The band is still leaning into the pop sound that clearly enthralls them but there's a welcome return for fun guitar riffs too. Also there's no album on this list that has a stronger opening than the three song run of "Tragic" to "Calling You Out" to "Back There Now"
15. You Could Do It Tonight by Couch Slut (Sludge Metal/Noise) - okay enough pop music time for something gross and gnarly and almost guaranteed to give you some kind of disease. Couch Slut have always been here to upset you - and holy shit are they good at it on this album. Each and every song on this record is a provocative, stomach-churning vignette in its own right but none moreso than "The Donkey" where Megan Osztrosits recounts a horrifyingly fucked up story of a friend's drug-fueled bout of self mutilation in Chat Pile-esque spoken word over massive, dirty sludge metal riffs. It's fucking sick. "Here's what happened when my friends and I got fired from a haunted water park" - tell me you don't want to hear how the rest of this story goes, even knowing it will end in a grotesque, bloody mess.
16. World Fighter by Angel Sword (Heavy Metal) - okay enough edgelord shit now we're back to having fun. I honestly didn't think there would be a trad metal release that would top Razor Wire by Mean Mistreater, and then I stumbled into Angel Sword this summer. It's just candy, man. Extremely catchy 80s style riffs, incredible hooks, gritty yet charming vocals. This album is dripping in neon, racing down the highway at 90 miles an hour with two topless babes in the backseat telling you how cool your studded denim jacket and fresh perm look. "Vigilantes" never gets old for me
17. Hicimos Crecer un Bosque by Fin del Mundo (shoegaze) - kinda wild that this is the only shoegaze album that made it onto my list this year but it is what it is! And what it is in this case is the killer second album by Argentinian band Fin del Mundo. If you like fuzzy guitars and ethereal vocals, this is the record on this list for you. Although labeling them a shoegaze band is accurate, it fails to account for the ways post-rock, emo, and dream pop elevate the bands sound to another level. It's a record that's soothing and engaging at the same time, well produced, clear sounding without being too polished. "Vivimos lejos" brings a charming kind of ASIWYFA-style combination of gang vocals and emo instrumentals, resulting in basically four and half perfect minutes of music
18. Ephemera [EP] by Ben Quad (post-hardcore) - many bands are doing the throwback 00s emo/metalcore thing right now, but few of them are doing it as well as Ben Quad on this EP. This is basically They're Only Chasing Safety-worship but that's fine by me. Frantic, melodic, scathing and nakedly emotional, I love the intensity of this EP. I'd kill for a full record in this style tbh, but for now I'll be happy with what we've got. It's an incredibly short 11 minute runtime so I'd really recommend just listening to the whole thing but if nothing else, don't skip "Your Face as an Effigy"
19. Stygian Rose by Crypt Sermon (Epic Heavy Metal) - epic heavy metal, I'm sure, sounds like the stupidest genre name in the world. But like, listen to Stygian Rose and you'll immediately understand there's nothing else that describes it as well. Big, heavy doomy guitars, fast drumming, crazy soloing, nimble bass riffage, powerful heavy metal vocals and lyrics about like wizards and evil kings and stuff? Lie to yourself if you want, but I know the truth. This album fucks hard. "Heavy is the Crown of Bone" and "Glimmers in the Underworld" are crushing, face-melting works of fantasy bullshit. I can't get enough of this album
20. Infinite Void by With Sails Ahead (Post-hardcore) - I discovered these guys through a collaboration with Pulses. last year and I spent most of the intervening time eagerly anticipating the release of their debut LP Infinite Void. And let me tell you, it did not disappoint. It's an incredibly confident and fun first record - firmly on the Swancore side of PHC but lacking a lot of what tends to annoy me in that subgenre (insufferable songs about the male ego). Sierra Binondo's powerful and diverse vocal range really takes these guys to another level in a genre where extremely talented musicians are a dime a dozen. Go listen to "Ryn" right now and tell me you're not at least a little bit in love now
21. Vault of Horrors by Aborted (Brutal Death Metal) - it's Aborted! It's a cheeseburger. But it's a really, really, really good cheeseburger after you've been craving one for ages. This record has two gimmicks - all the songs are based on horror movies and each has a feature from a guest vocalist. Admittedly, I find brutal/tech death to be kind of wearying after a while and this tends to affect listenability for me, which is precisely why this album has a place on my AOTY list - I don't get tired of it. It's brutal and punishing but catchy and fun to listen to. Daníel Konráðsso absolutely does not sound like a human being on this. I bet his calf muscles are insane, because the double bass on this record is frankly disgusting. "The Golgothan" has my favorite riff of the record, but there's no bad tracks, honestly
22. Revelations by Sarah Shook & the Disarmers (Alt Country) - haven't really figured out a way to talk about this band that doesn't feel at least a little bit like deadnaming singer/guitarist River Shook but they've yet to change their band name so! Admittedly, not a very country heavy year for me, but if everything I've dabbled in, Revelations is the easy standout. Continuing the band's legacy of clever, honest lyricism and rollicking country rock musicianship, Revelations feels like the best version of their sound yet. "Motherfucker" is a straightforward, righteously pissed off ode to gross, predatory men in the industry, "Backsliders" is a good old fashioned broken-hearted ode to a bad relationship, while "Jane Doe" is the easy standout shot through with emotion, clever lyricism and brilliant guitar work
23. Steps Ascending by Stand Still (Pop Punk/Melodic Hardcore) - I was a teen in the 00s so I'll always be weak to that very Long Island melodic hardcore in 2004 sound that this album is evoking so perfectly. I love fast drums, I love posi philosophical lyrics, I love those melodic, angular guitar riffs, I love a guy shouting and I love gang vocals. Those things in combination just always work on me. "We Know the Score" + "Mysticism" are the perfect 'holler along at the top of your lungs in the car' combo
24. The Tower by Urban Heat (Post-Punk) - one of my most anticipated albums of the year. When they started the album rollout with singles like "Sanitizer" and "Right Time of Night" I had a pretty good idea that the final product would have a good shot at being one of my favorite records of the year. And of course I was right. Most Post-Punk isn't quite capable of keeping my attention, but Urban Heat are so damn good at songcraft. The songs on this record are incredibly dynamic, ranging from the snotty disdain of the aforementioned "Sanitizer" to the surprising tenderness of the New Wave ballad "Seven Safe Places." It's an incredibly strong showing from a really exciting band. I've heard they're killer live, too. Maybe if I'm lucky this coming year I'll get a chance to find out for myself.
And that's it! 24 for 24
Except for these also >:)
Honorable Mentions (aka albums it killed me to leave off this list so I'm cheating by adding them here)
Club Shy [EP] by Shygirl
Prude by Drug Church
It's Inside You by Candy
Sunrise Over Rigor Mortis by Beaten to Death
Verses in Oath by Hulder
Beating the Drums of Ancestral Force by Tzompantli
Agony & Wounds by Obscene
Cure by ERRA
Songs of Blood and Mire by Spectral Wound
The Cycles of Trying to Cope by Like Moths to Flames
Razor Wire by Mean Mistreater
I'll Drown on This Earth by Cold Gawd
Heaven Let them Die [EP] by Counterparts
Dark Superstition by Gatecreeper
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qaxqxd · 2 years ago
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I Didn't Get To Say I Love You. <3
♡Pair: Simon "Ghost" Riley x f!Reader
Genre: Angst
Warning: Mention death, blood, and slight depression.
A/n: felt emo so wrote this shit at 2 am (not proof read typed this all on phone 😭)
Summary: You and your roommate Ghost got into a bad argument. This leads to him ignoring you and regretting it.
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You and Ghost have been roommates for a couple of years now. You two were quite literally made for each other. You guys have gotten into fights before, but they were usually small and stupid. They were never as bad as today.
You took a huge risk on their latest mission. Which almost jeopardizes the whole mission. Everyone made it alive and safe at least.
"Bloody Hell, were you thinking (Y/n)?!" Ghost shouted glaring straight down at you.
"You're still on about this?" You frown your brow slightly.
"Absolutely, you jeopardize the mission." He spoke roughly. His British accent would get thicker as he was pissed.
"I didn't jeopardize it! We all made it out alive with Intel." You spoke with more force.
"Almost. We almost died." His hand crossed.
"See, but we didn't-" "Is this a joke to you?" He cut you off. "I did what was necessary-"
"(Y/n). I'm asking you. Is this a joke to you?" He slammed his hand on the table.
"No, but-" "It's a simple YES or NO." Ghost's voice was getting louder.
"No." You spoke a little defeated.
"Goodness, I can't believe they put me on a team with you." He mutters, pinching the bridge of his nose.
Ouch.
I don't think he knew that you heard him. But you kept quiet either way.
"Goodnight, (Y/n)." Ghost said, heading into his room and shutting the door.
You really did it this time. Ghost wasn't usually the type to get pissed off so easily, but you managed to do that.
You sighed to yourself. You definitely weren't going to get any sleep tonight.
The next morning
You got up from your restless night. Walking out of your room. You didn't see Ghost.
Strange wasn't it? Usually he'd be on the couch reading a book, and greeting you with a 'Good Morning.' But he didn't. Or rather he wasn't there.
You ignore it though. 'Maybe Ghost was busy this morning.' A little disappointed. You went on with your morning routines.
As you headed down to the cafeteria for breakfast. You notice he wasn't there either. You saw Soap and Gaz, but no Ghost.
"Morning," You greeted the two.
"Morning," They both replied in sync.
"Have you guys seen Ghost?" You asked a little worried in your voice.
"Oh, he's just showing a new recruit around." Soap spoke with a shrug.
New recruit?
"Oh a new recruit?" You asked with a little excitement.
"Yeah I think you'd like her too." Gaz added.
And it was a girl too? You were glad that there was finally another girl on the team, but you couldn't shake the feeling.
With Ghost? You couldn't help but feel a twig of jealousy rise a little. It was no secret that you had a giant crush on Ghost. I mean the whole HQ probably knows.
Soap was the first person you told. He wasn't surprised. You and Ghost were close buddies. Soap thought you two were secretly dating one time.
"Oh? You know where they're at?" You asked softly.
"I think they should be around the training parts." Soap said, waving his fork.
And immediately you left the cafeteria. Heading straight to the training grounds.
You found them a minute later. You heard the new recruits' soft laughter as well as Ghost's laughter too.
"You're great, Ghost." The new recruiter chuckled. "Thanks, Katelyn." He chuckled slightly.
You were glad Ghost was laughing. He rarely does, but you couldn't help feeling a little sting in your heart.
You told yourself that you shouldn't bother them and you should leave them be.
But how could you? How could you ignore them, when they both were everywhere. The only place they weren't there was you and Ghost's quarters.
You've also noticed that Ghost has been going home later than usual or he's not home at all. Was he still mad at you?
Maybe.
You thought. He was a man of action rather than words. Maybe he was just still mad at you.
The only times you would see him was at training or at mission briefings. Katelyn wasn't a bad person.
She was pretty sweet. She was also gorgeous. Most of the rookie trainees fell head over heels for her.
You would see her and Ghost pair up. They hung around each other a lot lately.
But, why does that get you work up? It's not like you and Ghost were together or anything. He has the choice to see other people, but he wasn't the type to look for love.
So you don't get it.
It's been months. And he still hasn't talked to you. Not a single word. He's been pretty distant.
"Maybe he's still mad?" You asked yourself. You didn't have the guts to talk to him. The stinging in your heart grew.
You couldn't fall asleep at night anymore, unless you cried yourself to sleep.
The person who usually is right beside you. Comforting you and saying sweet things to make you feel better. Wasn't there.
He wasn't there. You cried into your pillow. Sobbing silently not wanting to disturb others.
The next morning You couldn't bare yourself from getting up, but you knew you had too. Or else others might think something was wrong, and you didn't want them to carry your burden.
So you had to get up.
As you realize you had a mission today. You really couldn't afford to waste time.
You got dressed in your usual uniform and headed out.
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You were dropping down from your parachute. Everyone decides to group into twos. Apparently there was an uneven number of soldiers. You agreed to be the alone soldier.
Heading down to enemy territory was tuff. Shots fired everywhere.
The main goal today was to find out what the drug cartels were hiding. Easy enough, you say.
Your radio would be filled with a bunch of code and confirmation. You continue to shoot at the enemy. As backup.
You would watch other soldiers moving in closer.
As you saw an empty way being closer to the cartels. You took that route. Moving in closer.
What you didn't know was that.
You were surprised by the attack.
A couple cartel men tackle you from the behind with their knives.
You yelled in agony. Quickly trying to fend them off of you. As you do that, you quickly notice you were stabbed in the thigh.
Making it harder for you to escape from them. You rolled down a small hill, limping away from them.
You were then able to hide behind a broken down building. The part you were in was nowhere close to where the mission was at, but there were still gun firing where you were at.
You collapsed against a wall, taking cover for a bit. You look at your wounds. They were bad, as in. Really bad.
"Shit." You cursed under your breath. You could hardly breathe even.
You were stabbed multiple times in the legs and sides. Shoulders too.
You knew for a fact. You weren't going to make it.
"(Y/n) to Katelyn." You spoke a little shaky.
"This is Katelyn to (Y/n)." She spoke.
"Could you take care of him for me?" You said with a cough.
It went silent for a bit.
"(Y/n) where the fucking hell are you?" Ghost asked with a sharp tone.
You heard footsteps behind the wall, and turned the radio all the way down. Those footsteps were definitely not your teammates.
You were holding onto your wound on the side. Wincing at the tremendous pain.
You felt so tired.
You couldn't escape from here and get back onto the aircraft. Your legs were too wobbly to crawl even.
You thought about it. Would this have ended in a different way?
Maybe Ghost would be a little happy that you were finally gone. It would mean your annoyance would finally stop bothering him.
Maybe he could even be a little happier without you screwing things up. I mean Katelyn is a great girl. She'd be perfect for him.
Another thought crossed your mind.
"I didn't get to say I love you to him." You mumble. You knew he'd probably turn you down, but it would have been nice to say it once.
Well it was too late anyways.
You could feel yourself collapsing. Your breathing is getting shallow.
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"Where the hell is she?" Ghost continues searching for her signal. Panic rose in him.
He couldn't lose her. No way it was happening. He wasn't going to let it happen.
He eventually found her. With a pool of blood around her.
He scrambles to check her pulse. It was low. Too low for comfort.
"(Y/n) open your damn eyes." He grasped onto her.
No, no. He wasn't going to lose her. No fucking way. His everything.
He quickly carried her back to the aircraft. The medics took her away from his hold.
He stared at his gloves which were stained with her blood. He held the gloves close to him.
-
Ghost sat there. Watching over you. He held your hand. Never leaving your side.
You would eventually flatline.
He blamed himself. He should have spent more time with her. He shouldn't have distanced himself from her.
He should have spent every last moment on her.
The nurses let him back in to say one last goodbye.
He held up your hand. Brushing his lips onto your wrist.
"I- I'm so sorry..." He repeated out multiple times.
"I'm sorry, (Y/n). I'm really sorry, I didn't get to say I love you." He mutters breaking into tiny sobs.
As he watches the nurses wrap a blanket over her.
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ningningisthemaknaee · 23 days ago
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stray kids vampire fanfic !!
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summary: after a brutal betrayal by a guy she’s in the talking stage with, soojin gets transformed into a vampire by seungmin in order to save her life, and later she finds out her ex (bangchan) has always been a vampire.
genre: romance, vampire fiction, drama
warnings: violence, blood, attempted murder, mature themes, minor angst, vampire au
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I never thought I'd be here. Here, standing alone in a place I once called home, staring at a reflection that feels more like a stranger's. The city lights outside my window flicker, but it's like they're far away. Too far.
It's been a week since I last saw Bangchan. One week. You'd think I'm by now over it, right? I should be out doing something productive, living my life, feeling. something other than this hollow weight pressing on my chest. But no. I'm here, in my apartment, staring out the window like a cliché, wondering how the hell I got to this point.
It wasn't a dramatic breakup, no screaming matches or throwing things-no, it was worse. The silence. That cold silence that settled between us, making the air thick, like we were both waiting for the other to say something that would make it all okay again. But neither of us did. So, here we are.
I couldn't even bring myself to hate him for it. I wanted to, believe me, I really did. It's easier to hate someone you've loved than to just accept that they're not in your life anymore. But when I think about him, it isn't anger stirring inside. It's a sadness, a sadness I thought I could live without, apparently not.
"Stop it," I mutter to myself, leaning my forehead against the cool glass. "Get over it."
But how do you get over someone who once was everything to you? How can you just simply forget?
I rub my eyes, the sting of unshed tears at bay as I blink. I really can't keep doing this. I really can't keep replaying our time together like some broken record. He's gone, and I'm. well, I'm still here. Trying to figure out what's next.
And speaking of next, I glance at my phone, checking the time. I'm meeting someone tonight. Someone new. Not that it really matters. It's not like I've suddenly forgotten about Bangchan—he's still there, lurking in the back of my mind like an unwanted ghost. But I'm trying. I really am.
The doorbell rings, dragging me out of my thoughts, and I take one last glance at my reflection.
"Here we go," I whisper, pulling open the door to face my new boyfriend-let's call him Jack, because, honestly, I don't think I care enough to remember his real name. He's tall, with dark hair and a smile that's way too eager for my taste. But hey, he's sweet enough. He might just be the distraction I need, even if I'm not really feeling it.
"Hey, Soojin," he says cheerfully, already stepping inside and reaching for me to pull into a hug.
I freeze.
I am not a touchy person, at least with someone who's not. familiar, and Jack - he is just. Jack. I don't know him. He's not Bangchan. And that, I think, is what troubles me most.
I pull away swiftly, flashing a smile his way. "Hey, Jack. What's up?"
"You okay?" His eyes flicker over me, concern etched within them. "You don't look like you're in the best mood."
I can feel my lips twitch upwards in a grin, but not a happy one. "Oh, I'm just peachy," I reply, trying my best to keep the sarcasm out of my tone. "I just woke up from my emo phase, so everything's fine."
He doesn't laugh. Instead, he frowns and steps closer. "Listen, I know things have been tough with your ex, but—"
I raise my hand. "Please don't. Don't attempt to comfort me with 'I know how you feel,' because you don't. You have no idea what it's like to have the one person you loved treat you as if you are suddenly nothing. Believe me, I don't need the pity.
He opens his mouth to say something, but I'm already walking away. The last thing I want is to discuss my ex right now, especially not with someone who's barely made it past the acquaintance phase.
"Let's just go out. Dinner or something," I say, heading toward the door. "I'm starving."
The streets are quiet in a way that seems almost unnatural, for even at this hour the hum of life should linger on. We walk in silence; Jack's behind me by a step, attempting to catch my stride. I don't feel like talking, at least not to him.
We come into an alley, a little place really, where we were supposed to meet up with his friends, but apparently, Jack had something else planned.
"I think we need to talk," he says suddenly, his voice tight.
I stop and turn to face him, raising an eyebrow. "About what? How you're not exactly my type?"
"About us," he presses. "About how you're always so distant. It's like you're not even trying."
I take a deep breath, exhaled it out slowly. "What do you want from me, Jack? You want me to make as if everything's all right here? With-" I indicate between him and me "-this? Because it is not. I can't snap my fingers and forget in one instant. I'm not some doll you fix with a couple of sweet words.
He steps closer, narrowing his eyes. "You're saying this is my fault? You're the one pushing me away, Soojin. You are not even trying."
I take a deep breath, breathing out slowly. "I'm not pushing you away, I'm just. not ready. And I'm not gonna pretend I am. Maybe you should go find someone who actually gives a damn."
His eyes flash with anger, and before I can blink, his hand reaches for something in his jacket pocket. A knife. A small pocketknife, silver and gleaming under the streetlights.
"Jack," I say, my voice trembling, but it's too late. He's already lunging forward, the blade cutting through the air. The pain comes too fast.
I feel the knife go in below my ribs, then my knees give out, and I hit the cold pavement hard. My blood gathers in an almost black pool on the ground beside me, cool and sticky, while lights shine brightly from above. My world spins, begins tilting sideways, as my breath catches, desperate in stopping this flow of blood.
"Please," I whisper, voice nearly silent. "Please don't leave me." But he does.
He leaves me there, his footsteps fading into the night as I'm left alone, dying.
Everything hurts. Every breath is a struggle. My head feels light, my vision blurry. And yet, somehow, through all of this, there's still a small part of me that wonders if I'm ever going to see Bangchan again. I wonder if he would have saved me.
Then, just as I feel the life slipping away, a figure appears. A shadow against the streetlights.
"Hey," a soft voice calls, full of panic. "Hey, are you okay?"
I try to answer, but no sound comes out. The pain is too much, and the darkness is already starting to pull me under.
But then, I feel something cool against my skin. A hand, gentle and sure, lifting me.
"Stay with me," the voice insists. "Please, don't shut your eyes."
I can just vaguely see the face leaning above me, yet-some part of him just clicks in my head and starts a familiar chord well within me. He's really very close now. The light breath stirs up over my ear.
Without saying anything further, his lips clamp against his own wrist, which he puts up to me. I try to speak, to say it's not what I want, but the words can't find their way to the surface. My body turns against me, my heartbeat slows, and I'm incapable of doing anything to resist.
"Please," he says again, his tone barely above a whisper, closer to a prayer. "I won't let you die. And then I feel it. His blood inside my mouth, and with that taste, everything shifts.
It hurts. It's such a burn that I think I might scream. My skin is on fire, my senses blow up with new sensations. I feel my entire being rewriting, and I have no clue how to take it. But I couldn't stop drinking. I needed it. I needed him.
The world comes back into focus slowly. Everything is sharper now—the sounds of the city, the faint breeze on my skin, the way his presence feels so close. Seungmin's eyes are locked on mine, full of something I can't quite place.
"Are you okay?" he asks, his voice a mix of concern and something else.
I glance over to him, but there seems to be no words I can say. The energy courses through my veins like a river, a craving deep inside me.
"I.. I don't know," I say in a voice too low, too alien. "What. what did I become?"
He gives me that soft, reassuring smile again. With fingers, he brushes one loose hair out of my face. "You're alive. You're safe."
But am I truly?
I stare at my hands, the coolness of the skin that no longer feels quite mine. I am not the same.
Days pass. Or maybe it's weeks. Time doesn't feel the same anymore. I've stopped counting, stopped caring. Everything is different now.
The hunger is a constant, gnawing on me. It's the thirst for blood, really, the overwhelming power that seems to thrum through every vein in my body, odd new sensations that make every little thing feel heightened-alive.
But then one night, when the last tatters of my humanity seem like they're slipping away from me, I learn the truth. Bangchan, he is a vampire too.
I stand in this dimly lit hallway, my head reeling with all that has happened since the attack. Seungmin has been. different with me lately. More protective. More cautious. But what I did not expect was the moment when Bangchan walked into the room.
His eyes were different, more intense, and I swear, when our gazes locked, something shifted in me.
"I should've told you sooner," he says, voice low, regretful. "I didn't want to... scare you."
But I'm just staring at him, my heart pounding, now that I know, this man has been a vampire all along. And everything, for a moment, has ceased to move.
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yagamisdiary · 4 months ago
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hey girl let me just vent about how sexy you are ok. So the year is 2021 I'm in bed scrolling through Tiktok and keep on seeing girls crying over Eren fanfiction and I thought who are these dumb bitches crying about Eren fanfiction let me tell you I'm the eren yeager fanfiction library I know the ins and outs of every eren yeager fanfictions its in my blood yk anyways, I enjoyed them but I never cried over them and stuff at the TIME. so I'm like the girls never lie, so I got on my little reading app I don't know if you've heard of it, but it's called w-w-wattpad anyways type up parasite first thing to come up mind you! and I see it 20hrs+ and I thought HELL NO these 13-year-old girls r on some mad shit rn I'm not doing all that. So I sat on it for a few days and videos on my fyp kept on coming up and I was in lockdown so I didn't have anything better to do SO FUCK IT. I started reading I'm a hater bro I was trying too hard to be different anyways I get to the bonfire chapter and when y/n goes to Eren and gives him that snore OH SOMETHING HIT ME my feet were in the air giggling like a little kid let me tell you and I was addicted since that day, even dragging y/n feet down in the lake, THE STARGAZING AND THE DONT KISS ME HAUNTING MEEEEE,eren being a stoner and an emo boy is forever in my soul and sorry guys unpopular opinion but the disabled toilet scene was lowkey good like forgot about that goatee hehe…. but when she got SHOT LIKE TWIN I FELT THAT TOO, MY HEART WAS BEATING OUT OF MY CHEST, BREATHING WAS GETTING SHORTER like its real emotions let we tell you. Dont get me started on the way Eren was so caring afterward my man my man knows how to treat a girl right and then the Halloween chapter and which was the latest chapter at the time and this was the one everyone was crying about so I got my tissues knowing I won't be needing them so I'm reading 3 am mind you, boneing sesh, hot, in love, Eren outfit slays, when that door opened to yk I was ready to fight a bitch, like my blood was boiling it was sizzling and I thought my baby going to stick up for this fine ass NO LETs BREAK UP ITS NOT FUN ANYMORE EVERYONE KNOWS YOU JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER GIRL YOU CRY ALL THE TIME HAVE PANIC ATTACKS AND YOU RELY TO MUCH ON ME, the way I'm crying is real THAT SHIT hit so hard it's not even funny like these "dumb bitches" were right THIS IS A REAL BREAKUP like I can't even say how I was feeling cause it was so much, like sleeping that night wasn't an option. But then I managed to get some sleep and I woke up to the most sexy notification of the ages parasite update chapter called Eren's Halloween I WAS SHITTING BRICKS. Anyways what I'm trying to say is that this book has been such a big help to me over the years this is my escape and a place where I can find something different and I just wanted to tell you cause I have been holding this in for three years buddy like I'm in the shadows liking your stories following you on everything but has always been too scared to say anything so here I am saying something and over the last few weeks its been really hard on me, mentally and physically and ik parasite is construction you could say BUT BITCH TAKE YOUR TIME CAUSE, TIMELESS WORK TAKE TIME MWAH back to my point I have been thinking in my head about different scenarios and points in the book to make me feel better and its so weird but I start smiling like its not just the book but the community around it too. So I'm going to wrap this up cause my fingers really hard but please take care of yourself and I hope you r eating good tonight xoxo Your stalker from 2021
this is the funniest thing i’ve ever read & a canon experience i fear
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rindouscumbucket · 2 years ago
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Emotional Wreck!!(Bonten Mikey x Fem!reader smut)
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Authors Note:this was my first smut ever so I kept procrastinating on this story. I soon forgot about this fic so here it is after 9 months😭
Warnings: cheating, cussing, toxic relationship, Mikey(his emo ass😒), smut, baby trapping, not proof read
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Tears gathered in your eyes as you drive home, trying your best not to cry and sob from the sight you just saw. How could he so this to you..to his wife. Was your love not enough to satisfy him or did he just see you as a toy and nothing more.
You are the wife of Manjiro Sano the leader of criminal organization Bonten. You knew he was dangerous..you knew he killed people…you knew he didn’t care about you but that didn’t stop you from loving him and you hated that shit. You pull up to the garage of the mansion Mikey owned. Just coming from the strip club you were invited to by Mikey.
Flashback Back at the strip club**
As you had entered the strip club you told them you had reservations under the name Haitani. You can smell the strong alcohol and see all the people watch the strippers practically drooling. You walk towards the vip room where the executives waited. When you enter all the executives were sitting down on a black leather couch while they were getting a lap dances “ahhh (y/n) we all thought you weren’t gonna show up, your late” the older Haitani exclaimed. “Well I had a few errands to run ” you nervously said, you never really held a conversation with one of the executives but Ran he always seemed to try to hold a conversation with you. “Oh by the way wheres Mikey?”.
After you asked the question the tension in the room quickly thickened all the executives were avoiding eye contact with you. “Well.. Im not sure” Ran glanced at Sanzu . “Huh? That makes no sense usually has one of his men with him or Sanzu.”
You knew right off the bat he was lying to you Sanzu then got up and walked towards you “The boss is in the other vip room he thought you weren’t gonna come here tonight” Sanzu hesitantly said. “Ok I’ll go get him” you said walking out the the vip room closing the door behind you. “Hmm.. poor girl she’s just gonna get her feelings hurt” Takemoi said while lightning his cigarette
“Sanzu you weren’t supposed to say anything we all know you don’t like (y/n) but she’s Mikey’s wife” Rindou added. “Great…so we’re all gonna get in trouble because Sanzu loves to run his big mouth and his school girl crush on Mikey” Ran said with a smug look on his face as he stared at Sanzu. “Do you want to FIGHT” Sanzu snapped back.
“Will the two of you shut the hell up? I’m trying to count these funds from this club owner by the end of tonight dammit!!!”
You made it to the second vip room you knocked but no one answered. “Mikey are you in there?” You hoped someone herd you but still no response “I’m coming in” as reach for the door knob you stop. You hear moaning from the other side of the door you started banging really hard on the door yet no answer.
*If Manjiro is really in there what am I gonna do, how am I gonna react?*
This question keeps running in your head. Were you really ready to open this door. You finally hesitantly open the door.
You look around the dimmed red room to only find your beloved Mikey fingering some hoe on a couch. You let out a fake cough and say “you seem to be enjoying yourself, so caught up in the moment you didn’t hear me banging on the door” staring into Mikey’s black lifeless eyes. The girl quickly tries to gets up and put her clothes on but trips, instead of Mikey doing the same he just sits with a blank expression you hated the look so much it pissed you off it just makes you want to slap him.
“Woman don’t get dressed I wasn’t done with you” Mikey stared down the woman pointing at his lap causing her to freeze. That was it…you were seeing red the audacity he had to say this with no worry or care in his voice. The woman looks at you and says “how dare you barge in here and interrupt us” she speed walked towards you and raised her fist at you she was trying to punch you.
*A naked bitch is really trying to punch me. WTF.*
You weren’t having it you quickly moved out the way and slaps the lady, she dramatically fell to the floor and held here face while a fresh red mark appeared on here face. “where the hell is security this bitch just hit me help!!!” the woman yelled. The sight made you sick to your stomach.
Your pride wasn’t gonna let you cry, you were too stubborn but you still felt the warm tears gather in your eyes as you walked out the vip room, you were a Emotional Wreck like always.
Present time**
Two hours has past since you left the club and Mikey has yet to call or text you it makes you wonder if he really slept with that woman. You took off the white dress that Hugged your curves you had with matching heels and got in the shower. The fact you went all out for this man. The real reason you were late was because you were taking the time out to make sure your make up was perfect…only for it to not matter.
You got out and went to your bedroom to so you could put some pajamas. You slide a shirt over your head. You hear the door open. It was Mikey you didn’t bother to turn around and look at him because it’s Mikey…always him.
Mikey was waiting for you to say something to him so he walked behind you.
“Look at me (y/n)” you didn’t listen to him and walked past him “look (y/n) i’m not gonna repeat myself” his voice was stern you didn’t like when he talked to you like that. You couldn’t help yourself no more with Mikey also the whole situation, so you started to get pissed and his gaze softened.
“What do you want now you don’t care about me, why did you marry me…I bet that girl doesn’t love you the way I do, yet you treat me like shit like I’m nothing” you yelled while throwing the nearest object at him that by you, a shoe. Mikey sighed and pulled you into his arms “I’m sorry I really do love you (y/n)” you cut him off and pushed him of you “No you don’t Manjiro if you did you wouldn’t have fucked that hoe, how the hell are you gonna say that after basically showing me you don't care yo-you HAD the Fucking nerve the to try and continue to right in front of me”.
“I didn’t actually have sex with her she just worked at the club after you left I had my men kill that girl cause she almost got us caught by the police…” you clicked your tongue “ you were going to if I didn’t walk in plus it’s not my fault for you being irresponsible… what does that have to do with you fingering her.
So you’re jealous?
You started to walk off again but Mikey swiftly pinned you to the wall. “(y/n) listen to me..and stop crying” he was so close to you, his nose was touching yours.
“I only love you, your the only one I have left and I made a mistake you weren't giving me attention anymore so when I thought you wouldn't come tonight I couldn’t help myself anymore...I don’t like that Woman please don’t leave me” the first time in forever you seen worry and sorrow in Mikey’s eyes and. Mikey hugged you tightly.
There was a loud silence in your shared bedroom “dammit..Manjiro I still love you so much and it hurts I can’t stand the thought of you with somebody else I just want you to look at me and me only, you always gaslight me and try to make it seem like I’m the crazy one. I’m not fucking crazy you bastard”.
Mikey placed his hand on your cheek and leaned in to kiss you.
You were so weak
The kiss was gentle and no love in it just…
Hate
His lips were soft and gentle it made you want more….so much more.
is this right?
18+ Smut starts here minors do not interact
You both pulled away from the kiss. Mikey slowly kissed your jawline then your neck all the way down to your collarbone causing you to quietly sigh out of frustration.
"Let me show you how much I love you (y/n)" Mikey whisperd in your ear; his hot breath tickling you while carried you to your shared bed then the threw you down on it. He took off your shirt and threw it somewhere along with your pants his clothes too.
"No bra you we're just waiting for me weren't you" his voice cooed in your ear sending shivers down your spine. Mikey was only left in his briefs he stared down at you looking flawlessly hot, the way his pale white skin glowed from the moon which faintly illuminated. He slowly took your right nipple inside his mouth and sucked on it, messaging it gently.
All you could do was moan and blush as he did the same treatment to the other soft mount. You could feel the bulge in his briefs growing. There was no doubt he needed you. He kissed your breasts all the way down to your stomach "your so pretty just for me". Mikey's hand found it way between your legs rubbing your aching wet cunt through your drenched panties in a circular motion making rub your legs to get just a little somewhat of friction. "Manjiro plea- stop teasing!" you moaned out "have patience" he replied slowing down his hand movements in return you let out a whine. "Let's get these off you” He slowly slid off your panties staring at the prize waiting for him between your legs.
Mikey was such a tease in moments like these making you beg and whine for him. It was complete torture the way he talks the way he teases you. He made yearn for his touch and subconsciously rub your thighs together. You absolutely hate it and you always came right back to him just like he wanted you to.
Mikey hovered over your arousal and blew on it you bucked your hips upwards making him chuckle silently. He starts to suck on your clit making sure give attention to the little bundle of nerves while fingering you slowly. Your hands were tangled in his white hair, your head thrown back into the soft pillow as you desperately grind your self against Mikey’s wet muscle.
You felt pressure waiting to be released in your lower abdomen “M-Manjiro I’m gonna cum!!” Mikey hummed in response and added a third digit and fingered you faster, the coil in your stomach snapped as you let out a pleasured cry. Mikey licked your release off his fingers staring dead into your eyes while smiling.
Mikey got up and took of his briefs revealing his throbbing dick, the girth looked painful to take, the length was at least 8 inches long with a flushed pink tip dripping pre-cum…he was perfect you thought.
Mikey hovered over you positioning himself to your entrance. He looked up at your face. you nod slowly. He pushed himself inch by inch into you it was painful tears formed in your eyes, Mikey kissed away your tears and gently said “the pain will go away soon, take all of me you can do it”. Mikey had you wrapped around his finger.
His pace wasn’t slow nor fast. The perfect pace for you to moan his name just like he wanted. You felt so good and full, how could you hate this. His fat cock stretching you so perfectly. You were made for him from the start Mikey quoted. He wasn’t gonna stop any time soon. He was gonna keep fucking you dumb.
Mikey pulled your body towards him angling himself better hitting that perfect spot inside of you. Your face was buried in a pillow as you screamed out loud and moaned his name. Mikey’s free hand made its between your legs, pulling and pinching the poor swollen nub. Your back arched and your mind was all over the place. Tears started to form in your eyes.
“Are you gonna cum on this dick like always?”
Mikey said those words and something just snapped inside you. Your legs went numb and you saw stars. A wave of pleasure went through your body. You came undone right under him hard.
Mikey’s trust didn’t seem to slow down his thrusts actually had sped up making you moan loudly. Mikey was try to chase his own release.
“Fuck-…this pussy mine now”
Mikey thrusted once more and thick hot cum fill you too the brim. You felt so full that you couldn’t move, you were tired. Mikey pulled out and stared down at you with a smirk.
Mikey soon walked to the bathroom after he told you to wait for him to come back so he can “clean you up”. Mikey stared at himself in the mirror whispering…
“That’s right (Y/N), bare my child then you can never leave me”
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rae-of-gold · 1 year ago
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So I have a playlist for the EAH music au I made and I wanted to share some of my favorite specific songs for some of the characters.
(note: these are not what I think their voices sound like, moreso what their musical sound would be and/or the lyrics they would write)
(and another note: not all characters are here as not all character make music. yes they're all in the music industry, but that doesn't mean they write or create music. some do art, some marketing, some are lawyers, hell some are security. so if your fav aint here, they're doing something else)
Dexter: I'm made this whole thing for him but I can't decide on a single sound for him. I feel the closest would be With Confidence. I mean the playlist is long, but seven songs from just one band, from various albums too, I'd say that's one of the top runners.
Darling: since Darling writes the majority of Apple's music, her lyrics are like Taylor Swift songs. But she as an individual is a bit of an enigma. She makes her lyrics sound very much royal, when really she's a rebel, but she's also Wonderlandian at heart. So would she sound like Junie and the Hutfriends? Or maybe Studio Killers? or AlicebanD? very honestly it could be all, none, whatever. I do feel like those could fit her though.
Raven: I know that canonically she's a huge of fan of Taylor Quick but that doesn't mean she can't like other genres or that her own sound can't be different from what her favorite. I imagine her musical sound a lot like Icon For Hire, especially with the album You Can't Kill Us, I think it's a perfect fit for her. Paramore and Avril Lavigne are also close to her.
Apple: Taylor Swift. She is the pop princess and Apple would be too. starting her career at a young age, writing stories she makes up and having her sound change and grow the more she does. But also The Rise and Fall of a Midwestern Princess album by Chappell Roan once she breaks away from the idea of making music solely for the money and fame.
Briar: Ke$ha. just all her music.
Cerise: Disobedient from Steven Universe. it's just so perfect for her. The obvious choice is She-Wolf by Shakira, which is also there for her, but Sadie and the Killers.
Sparrow and his Merry Men: Hats off the to Bull by Chevelle. no thoughts, just vibes. OR (i guess one thought), i know a lot of people dont like him, i am not one of them, i think he's fun and classic stereotypical emo, TX2.
Poppy: genuinely imagine her and Holly writing and singing Something That I Want by Grace Potter about their parents. I feel like Holly and Poppy made like a single album when they were younger and both moved on to do other things but they both still really liked music. Holly nowadays just plays short covers of songs on social media and Poppy of course being a hair stylist that eventually joins Dexter and Darling's band. With a musical sound and voice like the lead singer in Tonight Alive.
Maddie: S.J. Tucker. I'm not a huge fan of her music, a couple songs here and there, my partner is and loves how witchy her sound is. Maddie ain't every witchy, but she is odd and witchy-ness can and is also very weird and goes every which way. one song can sound like a whole different genre from another and I feel like Maddie would very much like that sound. Especially with some lesser known instruments thrown in there. (if we wanna talk about what I think her voice sounds like; Madilyn Mei)
Ashlynn: Ryn Weaver. no thoughts just vibes pt. 2
Duchess: the plot I have for her is that she isn't very musically inclined. except for dancing. she can't play instruments and can barely sing. but she has the look and is willing to do anything to become a pop star. so I have a hard time deciding what she would sound like. except ambience music near a lake. she goes along with the vibe of AURORA. Who knows it could be a Paulo and Lizzy McGuire situation where she's just a pretty face with someone else's voice over hers.
Melody: she could be doing so many different things i dont know how to choose just one. i feel like her true sound is Maggie Rogers or Chase Petra while the music she's kinda forced to have per her Charming Records contract is more like Marshmello. Very electric.
Humphrey: Flamingo by Token. i know no other song by him, and i rarely listen to rap as it isn't my jam. Only reason i know this song was a friend from high school gave me some recommendations.
Meeshell: I like the idea of her sounding like Regina Spektor. A light, smooth, clear voice over music that has clear and distinct beats. Often doing music for movies, ending songs that bring the story to a fitting finish.
Hopper: he doesn't make music per my writing, but he does write lyrics. I feel like he writes things like Cody Fry or Gang of Youths. Horribly beautiful and haunting lyrics that tell stories of death and love and beauty paired with huge symphonic melodies that are overwhelming in the best possible way.
Faybelle: Becky by Be Your Own Pet. It took me some time to figure out what exactly her sound would be but i feel like it would be a lot of loud kinda venting music to get all of her emotions out in any way she can. Even though she can get them out just fine on a normal day (though she would never admit that's what she's doing, always playing it off as not as important as it is to her, especially if it's any feeling other than anger.) sometimes writing music for it just feels better.
Chase: yes I made him an important character cause fuck you, I do what I want. Starset. The song Carnivore specifically. I wanted him to have an otherworldly but grounded type feel. like all wonderlandians though his being more...I don't want to say put together. Cohesive than the others. while the other wonderlandians are somewhat all over the place with their acoustic music, his is electronic and always revolving around a certain theme.
and that's just the current generation.
The Evil Queen has a musical sound like Pat Benatar (a personal fav of mine) though the only reason she ever had any sort of softer sounding music was because of pressure from her manager and company.
Snow White has a sound like Whitney Houston, especially with Whitney's History with Dolly Parton. I don't know who Dolly would be in this, but i dont know where i was going with this train of thought. like i said, no thoughts, just vibes.
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north-blue-hearts · 1 year ago
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Family Practice
CisFem Reader x Trafalgar Law
CW: sex, language, violence
Summary: Modern Mafia-coded AU starts in last semester of College
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Chapter 2: Graded
A few weeks later you’re in the library again and Law comes to sit with you. He sets a cup of coffee down in front of you and one for himself. Before he sits down across from you, he pulls out his wallet and hands over the agreed upon money.
Your face lights up as you take it. “New high score?”
There’s a hint of a smile. “Yeah. I suppose I owe you an apology.”
“Bah,” you wave it off, tucking the money away. “You’ve paid the price for doubting my genius.” You grin. “So, your grades were already high, did you ace it?”
He shook his head. “99.3%. Highest score on the midterms that professor has seen in thirty years.”
“Hells, you missed…” You did the math in your head. “A fraction of a question?”
“Yeah, most of the test was multiple parts per question.” He explains.
“Wow, that’s impressive Pre-Med.” You admit, teasing him with the old nickname. “It feels weird, as a lazy linguistics major to say so, but I’m proud of you.”
“Am I going to be Pre-Med until I have my PhD in my hands, or?”
You grin. “Maybe. Ah, so anyway, I won, and you’ve only paid the processing fee. Where’s the rest?”
Law sighs. “Your place. Sachi and Penguin are hosting a study group tonight.”
“Fair enough. Are you going to bring dinner with you, or am I handling it?”
“Are you going to order abominations again?”
“Abomin… I’m not the emo reject that dislikes bread. Bread! Of all things!” Your face reflects your continued disbelief. “I could get it if you were allergic, but to just dislike it as a matter of opinion is,” you could feel Law’s eye twitching. “Unique. Touchy subject?”
“A little.”
You put your hands up. “My apologies then.”
“Back to the question.”
You smile, “Pad Thai? Oh, ready to brave my cooking?” You ask excitedly.
It took a couple days for you and Law to adjust to one another, but it’s been going smooth since. He’s a man of few words until he’s really interested in something, or passionate about it. A little stunted in the emotional development department, but not so much that you couldn’t work out what was going on in his head. Reading people was something of a survival skill for you, so you were good at it.
His roommates, Sachi and Penguin are studying marine biology, and a fourth friend of theirs Bepo is double majoring in Zoology and wildlife conservation. Because of his schedule, you’ve only met Bepo once so far, but he was the biggest, cuddliest, most polite pile of walking warmth you’d ever met. He had an unforgivably cute collection of polar bear hats and scarves too.
In making one accidental friend you ended up making four friends, and it was nice to know you actually could. Making friends in middle school and high school had been easy - being stuck in classes with the same people over and over would help anyone make friends. College was a different beast.
“Pad Thai is fine.” Law states, trying to hide the look of horror that slipped across his features.
You sigh, but you can’t argue. You’d have to beg some cooking lessons from Sanji the next time you were back home. You weren’t a terrible cook, but you weren’t a good cook, and unfortunately you had been so nervous about cooking for your new friend that you had managed to set pasta on fire. The night had ended in Law administering first aid to some burns on your arm, and the two of you eating chicken wings.
The rest of the day goes easily and the two of you head over to your apartment. You had considered staying in the dorms, but the apartment you found was one of Shanks’ properties, and he was good friends with Luffy. You got offered a deal that would’ve been financially irresponsible to turn down. Shanks, like Big Mom and Pops, was head of his own organization. He was a kind of a spiritual successor to a long-passed rival of Pops’, and Shanks was also one of the biggest reasons Luffy became who he was.
Out of everyone, Shanks actually scared you the most. He was too jovial and easy going, and you couldn’t read him like you could most people. His success coupled with his general attitude had you convinced there was a demon behind those eyes. Really good-looking, wildly disarming eyes, if you were being honest, but that just made him scarier in your opinion. Not that you feared him, but you had zero interest in becoming friends or associates with him.
Let someone else wrangle that beast.
“Welcome to my swanky bachelor pad.” You said jokingly, opening the door and letting Law step in first.
He got his foot just past the threshold and his hands grabbed onto the doorframe. “(Y/N)-ya… did you do this yourself?”
“Gods no,” you said, trying not to laugh. “I lost a bet with my brother, and I think he brought the whole family down to redecorate for me over the weekend.”
Inside your usually spartan space, there were velvet sheets and blankets hanging from the walls and ceiling. Various colors of light bulbs created a slightly rainbow effect, but they weren’t so bright in hue as to clash. A beaded curtain was hung just inside the entrance, and you were glad that you had turned off the “ambiance enhancing music” this morning before you had left.
Thankfully your kitchen and bathroom had been spared, but your bedroom looked like a red-light special and you were absolutely not letting anyone in there right now.
“Please get in there before someone passes by and thinks I’ve converted my room to a hookah bar.” You urged, and Law stepped inside reluctantly.
“How long is it staying like this?” Law’s distaste for the new look was obvious.
“…until finals.” You admit with a defeated sigh.
“What was the bet?”
You made a very displeased noise. There was silence from Law as the two of you made your way to the living room.
“… (Y/N)-ya?”
“Eh?”
“What was your midterm grade?”
You made the same displeased noise and Law wheeled around practically glaring at you.
“Don’t tell me you failed?” The disbelief in his voice was comforting. In the last few weeks you had at least proven your capacity to be on par with him in terms of book-smarts.
“Hardly!” You scoffed, but you were having a hard time looking at him. “Look, I passed. I passed with a respectable grade and everything.”
“Then what was the bet?” Law had his hand up to his temple, trying to stave off a headache.
“If I got anything less than an A, Marco - my, er, brother, was allowed to decorate my place as he saw fit.” You explained.
“What did you get?”
“Eighty-seven point nine percent.” You said in a devastated tone.
“That is respectable.” Law agreed. “What happened?”
“I refuse to answer.” You said, setting down your stuff and grabbing the menu off the fridge. “Tell me what you want.”
“Refuse to answer on what grounds?” Law pressed. You had both agreed to be at least mostly open about things, with a few caveats. Grades weren’t one of those caveats.
“There’s no way for me to answer that without giving it away, so I’ll just admit that I was completely flawless on the Latin portion of the test and maybe a little lacking in a couple other areas.” You say, leveling him with an aggravated glare.
Law put it together quickly and returned your grumpy expression. You weren’t surprised, you’d been helping him with his Latin-rooted medical terms a lot. “Don’t do that for the finals.”
“I won’t, I won’t, now dammit, I’m hungry - what do you want?”
After you got the food order in and made some tea you turned to Law and raised an eyebrow expectantly.
“Alright, what do you want to know?” Law sighed. Lost bets came in two parts - monetary loss and the right to ask questions about the other.
“You mentioned an adoptive dad.” You say. “You can tell me about him or tell me why you were adopted. I’ll even toss in something about myself to help, since either option is pretty personal. I, technically, am adopted. My, uh, ‘Father’ is alive, but I’ve been raised by Pops since I was six.”
“I don’t mind answering both,” Law says. “Especially since you seem to have sacrificed your precious apartment in order to win our bet.”
Law looks more at his teacup than you, but his tone is even as he speaks, and there’s no sign of distress. “My parents got sick when I was middle school, and neither of them made it through my time in high school,” He explains softly. “They were both doctors, and I had always wanted to be one as well, but the whole… thing… really nailed my resolve into place. A friend of my father’s adopted me when it became clear that they weren’t going to survive, and so, Rosinante’s my adopted dad.”
You were quiet for a long time, not really sure what to say. Law took a couple sips of tea before speaking again.
“Too much?” He asks. There’s a tone of resignation in his voice, as though he feels like he messed up.
You shake your head. “Nah, I just don’t know what to say. It doesn’t matter how long ago it was, that sucks. It’s complicated too.”
“How so?” He asks, looking visibly confused. “I mean, it’s heavy, but it’s cut and dry.”
“Ah, er… it creates complicated thoughts in me.” You clarify.
“Your dad’s alive, but your mom’s not.” Law says. You hadn’t laid it out for him, but given what you’ve said before it makes sense he could sort it out. “I don’t want to make assumptions, but the fact that he’s alive and you’re living with a different dad means your situation is complicated. But, complicated or straightforward, it all does, uh, ‘suck’.”
“Yeah, loss is hard no matter the circumstances.” You agree. “I’m sorry about your folks.”
“Thanks.” Law smiles a little sadly. “You would’ve liked my mom. She was weird about words too.”
You were getting ready to be indignant about his joke when there was a knock at the door. Food had arrived and the conversation was on hold until the two of you sorted everything out. With some food to distract you, and ease some encroaching hangry-ness, you let the jab from earlier go and decided to switch gears.
“So, you said your dad was going to be away on business during winter break,” you said after a few bites of food. “Why don’t you come to Grandline with me?”
“It sounds exhausting just listening to you suggest it.” He admitted flatly.
“All the Charlotte kids are staying on campus.”
“How would you even know that?” Law looks more annoyed by the mention of the Charlotte family than he does impressed by your knowledge.
“Nutmeg and her friends aren’t exactly subtle.” You point out. “And they get on my nerves, so it’s hard to block them out.”
“How’s come?” There’s a tone of actual curiosity, and not just polite conversation in his voice.
You learned quickly that Trafalgar and the wall he had built up around himself were both rock solid. You weren’t surprised an aspiring doctor was practiced at keeping in shape, but you smacked him on the back once when you were kidding around. He’d turn an impressive red when you’d lifted his shirt up without thinking – you weren’t entirely convinced he was made of flesh at that point.
It had taken a lot of apologizing, and a couple rounds of free food to smooth things over. You’d admitted to having grown up around a lot of boys, half of which barely wore shirts unless the occasion demanded it. That had also been when you’d made the agreement about bets and getting to know one another.
“I can forgive the ‘Mrs. Degree’ thing, to an extent, but ‘Meg’s a smart girl. I haven’t asked her what her grades are or anything, but her answers in class, and even her questions, are genius. I’m talking ‘This will help the class understand better if I ask’ kinds of genius.” You explain, your shoulders dropping. “To think that her mind is preoccupied with trying to find love in a few short years, just so her mom doesn’t match her up with some troglodyte. Instead, she could be focusing on becoming whatever she wanted to be.”
“… They get on your nerves because you feel bad for them.” It wasn’t really a question, but it was barely a statement.
“Mm.” You admit, feeling your ears and face start to go pink. “S’weird, isn’t it?”
“Compared to the rest of you, hardly.” Law answers, his usual resting scowl softening a little.
You pause in eating for a moment and start laughing. “I can’t tell if you complimented me or devastated me.”
He eats quietly for a moment, and then lets out a small sigh. “If I don’t agree to go to Grandline City with you over break you’re going to hound me for the next week about it.”
“Next two weeks.” You correct him.
“Two weeks would put us a week into break.” He points out.
“Ah-yup.”
You can almost see his eye twitch.
“I’m being blackmailed.”
“By definition, yes.” You agree with a smile.
You watched the internal conflict tear through him. Trafalgar Law was a mostly subtle person. All his emotions hit the wall around him and barely made a crack on his face. You didn’t think he was truly an emotionless person – trauma and loss just made him wary about connecting with more people. After a couple weeks, though, you were learning what some of the small facial changes meant.
“… I don’t want to meet your family.” He said finally.
“I had no plans to subject you to that.” You promise him, taking out your phone and sending some texts while you’re thinking about it. “I’ll get Robin to reserve a couple rooms, and I’ll let my brothers know that I’ll be busy. Er, oh, I guess there is one thing…”
“What is it?” He was doing his best not to growl the words.
“Pop’s is going to have a big Christmas party a few days before the actual holiday. I’m not asking you to attend, I’m just saying you’ll be on your own for a few hours.” You admit a bit sheepishly.
Law sighs. “You’re dragging me to your hometown, but you don’t have to make sure I’m entertained the entire time, (y/n)-ya. I’ll survive.”
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thechaoticplayer · 1 year ago
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I love my playlist sm 😭😭
it went from nijisanji music (HOLD IT DOWN!) That made me go YIPPIE
To Sins with the PR1SX remake (not even sure if I spelt that right but guess what idc) that made me feel like a deeply in love lover with the air 💀💀
To In My Room that made me rethink why the hell I put such a yandere song in here 😭😭
Now its playing My Demons by Starset that make me feel like I'm drowning in black ink but still searching for that hope (in the dark AHAHA)
TAKE ME HIGH AND ILL SING
NO YOU MAKE EVERYTHING OK OK OK!!
WE ARE ONE OF THE SAME
OH YOU TAKE ALL THE PAIN AWAYYYYYYYY
SAVE ME IF I BECOME MY DEMONSSSSS
Why am I so emo BC TONIGHT WILL BE THE NIGHT I FALL FOR YOUUUU
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cordelianewman · 1 year ago
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Your muscles feel like they are on fire? I don't know that that is normal and maybe you need to start taking it easier at work. Taking more of just that leader, do the bossing, less the work. I'm sure all the guys would totally be fine with that... You want to feel bonita? I will promise to tell you all the things later tonight. Isn't that the point of younger siblings because I know I am doing one hell of a job to make Jason feel old... so I think it's just on par for the sibling thing, let alone especially if they are younger sisters. Would it be the worst idea in the world? Team pool and hot tub because once you have one you may as well get the other a friend, it'll be lonely outside by itself, that's how I figure. Then we can have our own backyard shenanigans without potentially being disowned by your family, I really don't want to say that I've been disowned by two families, because at some point then I have the whole 'am I the drama' conversation with myself and it just won't be good. Though I also feel like your siblings will get us back and attempt to have their own moments in our hot tub or pool if we had one... like that's bound to happen. You have a pretty strong idea for this whole farming thing, are you going to have me at home churning apple butter at home while you tend to the apple orchard that is magically going to appear in Merrock? Would be nice you know see what happens if we go on a long drive during a potential rainstorm. Is it me or have we always have a thing for back dirt roads or something? Not complaining, it's hot, I enjoy it. Who knows what will happen, plus we both love the sound of the rain will only be more inviting. Absolutely not checking my phone for the weather forecast or anything. You are the only person in the world that could possibly find me sexy when I'm cranky. Absolutely the only one in the world, but I love that, and you. Ohhh, okay, yeah I think we can definitely go with that deal. Really it's a win-win in the end for everyone anyway. Still think you should have let me put the eyeliner on you, babe, you absolutely were missing out on half the emo fun. I mean I'm here in the white tank top, plaid mini skirt, fish net stockings, somehow managed to find and old school belt and did the whole eyeliner vibe because you can't not go full in. Next time I'm getting you with the eyeliner! For now I'm thinking a couple more shots?
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Babe, it was a very long week at work, I am tired, my muscles feel like they're on fire, and you're going to deny me a little verbal TLC to make me feel better? I'm not even looking for an ego boost, I just want to feel beautiful, is that too much to ask? My younger siblings always make me feel old, I know Deacon and I were a little closer in age, but the girls were so young, I sometimes struggle to remember that they're not kids, they're adults, they have lives and careers and it's wild to me. The more we talk about my family disowning me for swimming pool shenanigans makes me wonder if you're trying to hint at getting a pool. I know we've talked about the hot tub before, but now I'm starting to wonder… I'll behave, though, it's not like we don't have plenty of other places to get handsy if we need to, so that's alright. Well, I can still be a gentleman farmer, it's just that my fantasy of getting you to wander the fields dressed in overalls and having romantic apple picking dates is kind of shot, so I guess there's that. Ho hum. Okay, okay, so what I'm hearing is that you want me to come pick you up the next time we're expecting a downpour and go on a really, really long, meandering ride through the countryside? Because I'll do it. If I remember correctly, good things happen when we pull over on the side of a dirt road. You're sexy when you're cranky, but also mildly terrifying, so we'll avoid it as much as we can. Which means we will keep you well fed and cooled off at all times. Thank you, I appreciate you. There aren't going to be any incidents, I promise. And if there are, then for any one piece that you deem ruined, I will replace it with two more, how does that sound? I -- I can, I promise you, I assure you that I can, look, I have… black jeans, and there's a hole in the knee, that's, isn't that emo? A-and plaid! I'm wearing plaid.
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hwanchaesong · 3 years ago
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ATEEZ K-DRAMA AU!
Hongjoong X Reader Hi Bye Mama AU!
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Genre: Angst, Fluff, Crack, Fantasy
Word Count: 32.1k
Release: 03/18/2022
warnings: mentions of death, trauma, depression, alcohol, cursing, character's ages depend on their roles, tell me if I missed some
Synopsis: It was never his plan to fall in love for creating music was all he cared for, not until you came in his life. You became his muse, his world, his everything, yet Kim Hongjoong wasn't there when you needed him the most. He lost you just like that, and left him with your child. Few years passed and he got remarried, but what will happen if you suddenly came back from the dead?
🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀
Love is something that you don't find, it comes to you naturally. It creeps up behind you like a shadow and shows itself in the form of a soulmate.
"Come on Hongjoong! Don't be such a party pooper!" Park Seonghwa dragged his friend out of his room despite his protests. "No! I have to finish the song tonight so that I can work on an another one tomorrow," Kim Hongjoong glared at the man who keeps on whining like a child at him "we enrolled in college to study, not to party."
Hongjoong tried releasing himself from the other man's hold but he just had to be taller and stronger than him. Seonghwa rolled his eyes because of how damn stubborn his small friend is "First off, it's not a party. It's a gathering," a doubtful look crossed Hongjoong's face "second, I don't want to go alone and I want you to meet my other friends as well."
Okay, that's new.
"You have other friends than me?" he crossed his arms and raised an eyebrow at his friend's revelation. "Do you speak casually with them?"
"Now you're jealous? Is it my fault that you're always locked up in your room?" an exasperated sigh came out of Seonghwa's lips "To give you a reason, I just met them because they gave me food. They said that they made too much and who am I to refuse free food?"
"Fine, I'll go with you and meet these 'new friends' of yours." Hongjoong feels threatened that someone might steal his one and only friend.
Sometimes, you make impulsive decisions that make the timer starts ticking. Hours and miles, everything counts, every option that you choose creates a pathway to your fate.
Hongjoong immediately felt regret, the inside of the building is cramped, hot, and noisy. God, he hates things like this. It's just a baseball game, why is this even a big deal? He's judging towards the people was cut short when he heard Seonghwa yell "There they are! Hey Jongho! Yunho!" he groaned when his friend waves his hands in the air like those tube man in front of malls.
The two weaved their way into a table in the corner, he saw two men who look like twins, though their heights aren't even close to being the same.
Then he saw you, sitting in the booth, smiling and having the time of your life. When you made eye contact with him, everything around him became quiet, time slowing and people blurring. In the center of it all, you are the only thing that he sees. He doesn't understand why, but the magnetic feeling of your clear eyes and bright smile towards him make his knees weak.
At the epilogue of the journey, when the red string's other end can finally be seen by the naked eye, a new treasure hunt will begin again.
Hongjoong's starting to think that you did some kind of witchcraft on him. Ever since he met you that night, his mind has been plague by you like a virus, except for the fact that he's more than willing to accept this fever. Scratch that dramatic, emo song that he's making. He'll make a new one right now, yes, a new one that contains his feelings and thoughts about you. Then he'll give you the song just so you could hear how much you annoy the hell out of him.
When all the puzzle pieces have come together, you'll see the bigger picture. And when you did, you'll realize that the word 'I' has already became an 'Us.'
"Will you please criticize my songs for a lifetime?" Hongjoong got on his one knee and brought out a velvet red box, upon opening, it contains a pretty gold ring with a shining topaz on its top.
"You are my muse, the inspiration to my lyrics and the motivation to my melodies. I never really thought of myself as a person who would settle down, but then I met you. The person that I want to grow old and have a family with. You made me a better person with your love. So, will you please marry me?"
Hongjoong feels like killing himself, he can't breathe, his eyes are getting glossy, and his hands are shaking so much that he thinks it might cause an earthquake. Damn right, he is making an earthquake in your heart. You can't believe that the love of your life is proposing to you right now. And who are you to reject him when all you ever wanted to do the first time you met him was to keep him by your side at all times.
"Yes, Hongjoong. Yes, I will marry you!" you said, crying and smiling widely your cheeks started to hurt, but you didn't care. All you can think of is your now fiance's arms around you and his lips on yours.
Making your way towards an eternal sunshine is not easy, but when you have your true love with you, everything will be easier.
"Pft, cry? Me? No way!" that was the statement that Hongjoong's been holding onto when he heard the wedding march play. It's like he's proposing to you all over again, but make it ten times worse. When the doors of the church opened, you stood there in all your gracefulness.
He thinks you're pretty, he always had even when your eyebags are too dark or when your hair is like a bird's nest when you just woke up. But today, he thinks you're a goddess, and he's a mortal being blessed with your presence.
Alright, he'll just cry. Whatever. He'll just take all the bullshit that Seonghwa, Yunho, and Jongho will spew towards him after this. All that matters is that this period is your happiest and most memorable day. You'll be his, and he'll be yours. Not even death can do the two of you apart.
Darkness will always follow the light, pain will always intertwine with happiness. Fate has always been like that, unforgiving yet compassionate.
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"Heejoong, no! Don't touch that! That's dangerous for you!" you scolded the 5 year old who is trying to touch the extension on the floor that got wet because of the spilled water. You tried to carry the child away from danger, but before you can do that, someone beat you to it. "You should've called me Heejoong, what if something happened to you? Do you want mommy to get mad?" a woman, a bit younger than you talked to the child and held him in her arms.
'Oh right, nobody can see, hear or touch me.' you thought, staring at the pair.
Of course, no one would be able to do that, you are a ghost for goodness sake. You shook your head and went over to the woman, "Hey! You should always look out for Heejoong. Be more careful!" you still felt like telling her that despite knowing that she wouldn't hear you. You watched as the woman tied the laces of Heejoong's shoes, seems like they are getting ready to go to school. And you should be getting ready for your mission as well.
You rushed to the door to bid the two goodbye, telling them to take care and come back home safe.
"Alright shorty, show yourself." just as you said that, even if the 'shorty' still haven't made an appearance, he definitely made his presence known by speaking in a furious tone "I. Am. Not. Short."
"Don't be too upset Wooyoung," you chuckled lightly and faced him "you know I don't mean it." the man is now standing in front of you, in all of his angry glory for being called short. "Maybe if you stopped calling me that, then I would gladly do what you want me to do."
"Oh? Is that true? Well then, I would stop calling you short from now on," you stepped a bit closer to him and his face scrunched in confusion "now will you please leave this place?" Wooyoung can't help but scoff at that "Y/N, you know the reason why I can't leave this place. This is my home too!"
You sat on the floor cross-legged and sighed. "Mingi said that if you kept staying here, sooner or later, your energy will be passed to my baby Heejoong and would start seeing ghosts as well!" you looked at him with puppy eyes and a pout, doing your best to look convincing "I don't want him to be a shaman when he grows up!"
Wooyoung stayed silent, but he was looking at you like you've grown three heads. It's kind of unnerving to be honest "Y/N," he spoke in a serious tone "you do realize that you are a ghost as well right?"
"Crap."
You immediately face-palmed as the realization hits. "You have been around Heejoong even before me," Wooyoung continued "the 'energy' that Mingi was talking about. You probably passed like 80% to your lovely baby." He continued talking absentmindedly, but what he said next made you shoot up to your seat and immediately ran over to Heejoong's daycare.
"He might be seeing ghosts all along but chooses not to acknowledge them."
When you arrived at the daycare, you were panting like crazy. "This is so annoying," you said, catching your breath as you walked around trying to find Heejoong, "why do ghosts even get tired. It's not like our hearts are beating." Standing in front of Heejoong's classroom, you tried to get a glimpse of him but failed.
You were about to look for him again when you heard a group of teachers talking in a panicked voice, "Heejoong is gone. We can't find him anywhere!" The one that seems like the principal of the daycare spoke, "Calm down everybody. Let's split up and look for him." The gnawing feeling in your stomach made you nauseous. You can't help but feel like something wrong is happening.
Suddenly, you heard a little boy's laugh. In the peripheral vision of your eye, you saw a small shadow running back and forth from room to room. You instantly knew that the child is a ghost, especially when you saw the child's body pass through walls.
"Hey!" you yelled, trying to get the ghost child's attention. The little boy stopped in its tracks, "Do you know where Heejoong is?" you asked, carefully walking towards him. The child just smiled, then he continued running. "Wait!" you ran after the child when you passed by the school kitchen. There you saw Heejoong in the freezer, "Heejoong!" you yelled while coming closer to him.
His lips and skin are pale and his breathing is shallow "Wake up, Heejoong! Anyone! Is anyone there?! Help!" You are now crying at this point. You don't know what to do, you can't touch him and no one can hear you. "No, no, please just hang in there baby." You are shaking too much, scared of what might happen to Heejoong. "Anyone out there please help us!"
You looked around the kitchen and you saw the ghost child near the door. He was smiling while staring at Heejoong. It's like he finally found him after a game of hide and seek. "You-!" you were cut off when one of the teachers bursts into the room.
"I found him!"
Heejoong was brought to the hospital, while you followed them all the way. "Do something! He might die!" you can't control your sobs as you watch the doctors tend to the child. When suddenly the lady from this morning enters the room, together with him, Kim Hongjoong.
"What happened?!" Hongjoong asked the teachers who brought Heejoong to the hospital. "We are so sorry Mr. Kim. We really are keeping an eye on our students, it's just that we looked away for a few seconds and then suddenly Heejoong was gone." Hongjoong was mad, seeing his child in the brink of death.
"Oppa, please calm down. It wasn't entirely their fault," the lady held Hongjoong's arm "I should've been more careful as well." He stared at his wife, Minhee, as she looks at him with teary eyes. The man just sighed and massaged his temples while one of the teachers spoke once again "We promise you that this will not happen again. We are really sorry for this incident."
You watched the scene unfold in front of you before ultimately deciding to leave the room. You felt like you didn't belong there. Seeing the pair, the husband and wife, together with their child- "No, Y/N, why are you even thinking of that," you took a deep breath to calm yourself down "I have more important things to do."
You sprinted your way into the shrine, the place where you can talk to the shaman that helps the ghosts in your area.
Today's incident made you realize that indeed, Heejoong can see ghosts. Your theory is that Heejoong saw the ghost child and played with him, that is why he ended up in the freezer. With a new find purpose in life.. ghost life, you are now determined to make things right.
"Song Mingi!" you yelled while loudly opening the doors of the shrine. "What the fu-!" You held your palm up and shushed the man before he can even finish his sentence, "How many times do I have to tell you not to cuss."
You saw him hold up a red piece of paper in his mouth, then you felt something wet in your palm. Did he really used a charm just to lick and make contact with you?
"You disgusting shi-" he cut you off this time, "I thought no cussing is allowed here?" You looked at him, thinking of ways on how you can touch him so that you can smack him. "What brings you here? I need my alone time as well you know?" he said while laughing at your expression.
"Oh yeah," you moved to sit next to him "can you please go to Heejoong's home and school and do your magic? So that no ghosts can come near him anymore." you said, while looking at him with puppy eyes. He looked at you with a smile then proceeded to throw a red bean right in your forehead. "You know I can't do that unless the ghosts are wreaking havoc in there."
"First, that hurt you jerk." he chuckled at your statement. "Second, they ARE wreaking havoc in there!" You stood up in front of Mingi "Did you you know that Heejoong was sent to the hospital today, he almost died because of hypothermia!"
Mingi looked at you with a serious face "A ghost child caused it, he was lurking in the daycare and Heejoong played with him. That is why my precious baby got stuck in the freezer!"
Mingi sighed, he is in a deep predicament right now. He really can't just make ghosts leave a place that they are attached with.
"Y/N It's not that easy, especially when the ghosts are in there for a purpose." you gulped, knowing where he was going with this conversation "YOU yourself lingers around Heejoong, you have been with him ever since he was a baby," he hesitated to continue the last words of his sentences as he saw the look of guilt in your face.
"I know, it's my fault. I am the real reason as to why he can see ghosts," you sniffed, holding back the tears "that is why I am doing what I can to make it stop."
Mingi looked at you sympathetically, "It's just that, I can't do much. Not when I am like THIS. I don't understand why the Gods decided to take me. I haven't had the chance to hold my own child. I never get to raise my child with my husband. I-" you took a deep breath, trying not have a breakdown right now.
"Y/N, you know it's not the Gods fault-"
"Yes it is!" you yelled "If it wasn't for them, if they are not jerks then they wouldn't do this!" Mingi tried to calm you down, because clearly you aren't thinking straight anymore. He is getting anxious because you are directly badmouthing the Gods, inside the shrine.
"Y/N please, calm down, saying things like that wouldn't do you any good."
You know that Mingi's right, you aren't making any sense right now. But you are just so full of sadness and guilt that you don't really have the time to think about the consequences of your actions. You suddenly ran outside, startling the poor boy who just wanted to make you see things in a rational way.
You ran and ran, far away from the shrine. You need go anywhere, somewhere, away from the Gods. Like a drama scene, you tripped and kissed the floor. At that moment the sky rumbled, and droplets of water rained down upon you. It was weird, rain in the middle of winter, but you couldn't care less.
That did nothing to dissipate your anger, "Oh wow, now you are reminding me that I cannot escape the fate that you gave me?" you scoffed, thinking that it rained because the 'Gods' are crying with you.
"I don't need your pity! I hate you! I hate you all so much! You-" you can't help the sobs that escaped from your mouth "you stupid, dumbass, idiot Gods! You took everything away from me. And now even after death you are still making me suffer! Just how worse can you get?!"
Tears and raindrops are streaming down your face while the rumbling thunder served as a source of light. You yelled while looking at the sky, berating the Gods and their unfair ways of treating you humans.
You didn't get to do that for long, too tired and emotionally drained to continue your tantrum. You decided to stop and walk away from the park, wanting to go back at the columbarium and rest. Soon, you arrived at the shopping area, looking around the place and thinking that it's too lively. When suddenly a man bumped into you, "I'm sorr-"
'Wait. He bumped into me?'
You gripped the man's arm before he can walk away from you.
'I can touch him!'
"Excuse me sir, but, can you see me?" you asked the man, and he looked at you weirdly, probably thinking as to why this lady is acting like nobody has seen her for ages, which is exactly the case.
The man decided to answer for the sake of his arm that you are still gripping tightly, "Yes, yes. I do. I can see you, so can you please let me go?" Finally releasing the man, he scurried away from you so fast. You stood still in your spot, dumbfounded. You looked at your hands, millions of questions are running on your mind, what is happening?
When you looked up, your made eye contact with a certain someone. Hongjoong, carrying Heejoong in his arms while his wife walks beside him. He was staring directly at you. His expression was a mixture of confusion and shock. It's like he is seeing a ghost. He walked past you, but the two of you never broke eye contact.
"Oppa? What are you looking at?" Minhee asked him, breaking him out of his trance. "What? Nothing! It's just that, I think I saw someone that I know." he said while trying to make sense of what he just saw.
"Minhee, do you believe in doppelgangers? Where an another person looks exactly like someone that you know?" he asked his wife, who just looks at him, trying to figure out if he's okay.
"Well, yes. Things like that happen once in a while." Hongjoong sighed in relief, "Yeah, yeah that's right." he looked back again trying to see you once again, but you were nowhere to be found. Maybe today's event took a toll on his mental state. Yeah, he's just hallucinating.
As for you, the moment you realized that you made direct eye contact with Hongjoong, you escaped the scene. You need to go back to the shrine and asked Mingi what on earth is happening before you jump into conclusions.
Like a rewind this morning, you opened the door of the shrine while loudly yelling for Mingi.
"Oh God-" you heard shrieks and something that is akin to someone falling down "Y/N? Girl, you scared the hell out of us!" You looked to your left and saw five boys, looking so happy to see you.
"I'm sorry to scare you like that, Beomgyu, but I'm on a hurry right now. Have you seen Mingi?" before the boy can respond, someone came inside the room and the five boys immediately jumped at the poor creature who just entered.
"Mingi! Feed us!"
"Tell our friends and family to give us something good, please!"
"Make them bring chicken, goodness, I am getting sick of breads and fruits."
The man rolled his eyes, "I just got here and this is how you greet me?"
"But we can't touch you, even if we want to kiss you, we can't exactly do that." the youngest among the five retorted.
"Will you give me some space or else I will-" at that moment he made eye contact with you, and he immediately felt like something was off.
"Notice me! The legendary Choi Yeonjun is talking to you so be grateful," the boy stopped talking, noticing that Mingi was staring at you "what? is something wrong with Y/N?"
Mingi snapped out of his trance when he heard your name being uttered by Yeonjun "No! None. Nothing, okay. All of you go out!" pushing the boys out of the shrine by using his bell. "No need to be violent!" the smallest among them whines "just promise us that you will relay our messages to our loved ones."
"Yes, Taehyun, I will. Now out!"
When the boys are finally gone, Mingi faced you with an unreadable expression on his face "What did you do?" You gulped, not used to his tone "Nothing?" His brows knotted together and you can't help but feel intimidated.
"Well, first, I cursed the Gods." Mingi's expression morphed into shock "What?!" before he can say anything else you continued "then this one guy bumped into me. I asked him if he can see me, he said yes and clearly he can also hear me." you said in one breath, avoiding eye contact with Mingi as well.
Few seconds passed and you hear nothing from his side, and you made the mistake of looking up. Mingi's face is something that you could never paint. He skin turned pale, mouth agape, and his eyes look like it's gonna pop out of his skull.
He ran towards you like how a predator approaches its prey. You tried to back off but he was too fast, he held your arms, touched your face, even going as far as tugging your hair.
"Stop! That hurts!" you said, getting annoyed at his antics. "Oh. My. Lord. God. You're human again?!" he said, not believing what is happening.
"Why? How? Is this some kind of punishment? Because you had the guts to talk shit the Gods?" you went to Mingi and held his face, wanting to stop his rambling.
"Mingi, I don't know what is happening and I certainly don't know the reason for this," you smiled at him "but I will take this as a miracle. Maybe the Gods gave me a chance to live again, so that I can correct my mistake."
Mingi took deep breaths, collecting himself before speaking "I don't know how on earth are you so calm about this" he held your hands and reciprocated your smile "for now, go somewhere where you can rest and eat. I will do my best to communicate with the heavens so that I can get answers to our questions."
You are grateful to Mingi, knowing that he will not stop his rituals until the situation is clear. But you are not grateful for his advice of you going somewhere to rest and eat, because now you realize that you don't have anywhere to go to. You wanted to go back to the columbarium, but then you remembered Mingi's words before you left the shrine.
"Y/N, don't go back to columbarium at all cost. Don't show yourself to the ghosts around here. Even if you know them, even if they try to get your attention, ignore them."
You were about to ask him why but he beat you to it "If they learned what happened, they might try and do what you did. And we don't want that. The line between life and death is messed up already, we don't want to go beyond that or else something irrevocable might happen."
Stopping in front of a glass wall, there it was, your reflection. The evidence that you are alive once again. Now that reality's hitting you hard, you smiled. There's this feeling of happiness within you, knowing that you can do the things that you used to do before you died. So that is exactly what you did.
You ran, feeling the cold winter air hit your face. You smelled the flowers, hugged the trees, smiled and waved to the people that you come across. They might think that you are losing your mind, but you don't care. You have never felt like this for a long time.
Feeling tired and hungry, you slumped into a bench, thinking of where to go now. Then you remembered, ATEEZ Resto and Bar.
You smiled, thinking of your two bestfriends, Jeong Yunho and Choi Jongho. Those two aren't blood related yet they look so much alike that they are always mistaken for being twins. Them taking culinary as their courses didn't help either.
"Why on earth did you take the same course as me? You don't want the issue of us being twins to stop, don't you?" Jongho, the younger of the two, accused the older.
"We can build a business after we graduate." Yunho said while shrugging his shoulders, not really caring about the younger's accusation against him.
"Besides, it's not that bad. We really do look alike... I'm just more handsome, and taller, and-" Jongho lurched towards Yunho and headlocked him "That's it. You're done, you're dead!"
"Y/N, help! He's really gonna kill me!" Yunho pleads to you, not being able to move because Jongho's strength is too much for him to handle. You simply looked at him before continuing your essay.
"Y/N! Don't ignore meee!!!"
You smiled fondly at the memory, they certainly did opened a business and it became successful just after a year. Standing up from your seat, you walked towards the direction of the establishment, deciding that you'll stay for the night.
Upon arriving at the place you looked at the pot that was situated beside the door, immediately grabbing the key that was hidden in it.
"Those guys never listened to me" inserting the key in the lock and opening the door "I always told them to hide their keys in a safer place." you said as you entered.
Looking around, you noticed that they never really changed the layout of the place. It's still looks classy yet cozy. The bulletin board that was placed at the back of the resto caught your attention, upon inspection, you saw that the board is full of polaroid photos, specifically, photos where your face seen.
Your heart aches at the sight, they still kept these even if seeing it means that they would relieve the pain of losing you all over again.
"These two really," picking the photos up and arranging it an aesthetically pleasing way "at least make it pretty for the eyes to see instead of randomly placing the photos everywhere." After finishing the task, you went to the kitchen and opened the fridge.
"Knew it!" cheering at the fact that there are leftover chicken stored in the fridge "of course they would have extra foods, they always make too many to finish."
"What are those for?" eyeing the two plastic bags in Yunho's hand "Why does it sound like you're accusing us of something?" Jongho said while rolling his eyes.
"These are for you. We accidentally made too much food, and it'll be a waste if get spoiled. So here you go." Yunho explained while putting the bags in your hand.
"If I get stomach a stomach ache, I'll sue the two of you for attempted murder using food poisoning."
You vaguely remembered Jongho calling you a dramatic queen when you told them that. Getting the chicken out of the fridge and heating them up, you finally got to eat.
God, you missed this. Being able to enjoy eating and actually taste the food. This feels like heaven. You cleaned up afterwards and slept in the counter, finding solace in the faint scent of your two bestfriends that lingers around the place.
You woke up early and left the place in a hurry, not wanting to be seen by your two friends. Before you left though, you borrowed some money (and by borrowing, it means getting cash in the register) and quietly telling to no one in particular that you'll pay it back somehow.
Yunho and Jongho entered the resto, ready to start the day, when Yunho suddenly stopped in his tracks. His detective senses tingling, 'Something is wrong.' He cautiously walked around the place, inspecting every nook and cranny.
"What are you doing?" Jongho asked him, looking at him with judgement in his eyes "you look like an idiot baby crawling around."
Then Yunho saw it, the bulletin board. Just before he can point it out, he heard Jongho shrieking. "Hyung! The bills, it's lesser than yesterday!" the younger of the two is panicking, thinking that they got robbed.
Yunho was dumbfounded "What!?" he ran towards Jongho "did someone get in here last night? A thief? A thief nice enough to arrange the photos on the board?!" Yunho pointed to the direction of the board and Jongho's eyes automatically followed it, then he saw that yes, the photos are now organized neatly.
The two made eye contact, like a synergy is forming between them.
"We need to know the perpetrator is."
The perpetrator, aka you, is walking peacefully in the park when you saw a teokbokki stand, you smiled and immediately went to it. A teokbokki for breakfast isn't that bad.
You ordered one serving, noticing that an another customer is enjoying the food as well. Then you also noticed that the customer is accompanied by a hungry ghost, probably wanting a bite but also knowing that it can't really eat.
You looked the other way, pretending that you can't see the ghost. Just as when you start eating, you heard an eerily familiar voice.
"How much is it? 500 won per serving? Okay, I'll get two. Thank you."
Shit. What the hell is Hongjoong doing here?
You immediately turned your body in the opposite direction of Hongjoong, moving away from him, because no way in hell are you gonna let him see you.
Your actions are apparently not discreet, you looked like a squid wriggling away to get back to the seawater.
Hongjoong was looking at you, thinking that a person might have gotten out of a mental hospital. He chose not to meddle your 'thing,' not caring enough about a random stranger, leaving shortly afterwards, as he already got his order.
You sighed in relief "Thank God he's gone." Looking down, you saw an id, picking it up and discovering that it was Hongjoong's.
"He's so clumsy as always." remembering the times when you have to clean up after him and his disaster magnet ass. "Let's get you back to your owner, okay?"
It's been a while since you rode the bus as a human, so long that you forgot that you can't pass through walls now, effectively bumping your head into the bus when you tried to get into it without using its door.
After settling down in the bus, you brought the id out and doodled on it. You tried to erase it after being satisfied with your artwork, but it wouldn't come off. When you looked at the pen (that you also borrowed from Yunho and Jongho's place), you saw that it is a permanent one. You internally punched yourself for being stupid, how are you gonna fix this now?
A bright idea popped into your head, simple but it might work, you took the id out from its case and returned it with the front of the id in the clear side of the case, "Perfect."
Finally arriving at Hongjoong's workplace, you got off the bus and braced yourself before entering the expensive looking building.
"Hoongjoong. Hoongjoong. Yah!" Seonghwa directly yelled in the man's ears.
Hongjoong snapped out of his daze "What do you need?" he looked at Seonghwa with an annoyed expression.
"You got a lot of guts getting annoyed at me when I'm talking to you and clearly, you aren't paying attention." Seonghwa sassily replied.
"What's on your mind anyway?" the man raised his eyebrows "You've been out of it ever since Heejoong was sent to the hospital."
"Seonghwa, what will you do if you saw someone that looks exactly like a person that you are personally close with?"
The question made the man suspicious "Some people do look alike. It's nothing serious." Hongjoong nodded, his next question made Seonghwa spill his coffee "What if they look exactly like your late wife?"
"Are you out of your mind?!" Seonghwa yelled for the second time that day "Now you're seeing things? You really should've taken Eden hyung's advice, go take a therapy." he finished while wiping the mess in the floor.
"I don't need therapy," Hongjoong retaliated "you and Eden hyung are so sensitive over things like this."
Seonghwa halted his movements and looked up from what he was doing, clearly offended "I am so telling this to hyung!" he stood up and went out of the room, leaving Hongjoong with his thoughts.
"That brat really," ranting to his self "no one can really tame him but-" he stopped, seeing a lady talking to one of the employees in the front desk of the lobby "Y/N?!"
Hearing someone call your name, you looked towards the direction of the voice, seeing none other than Park Seonghwa. Hongjoong's bestfriend, and inevitably one of your closest friends.
You thought you were careful enough, but no, nothing is ever enough.
"Y/N!" Seonghwa called out for you again and began approaching you. You are now panicking at this point when thankfully, a group of people holding piles of papers and boxes walked in front of Seonghwa, giving you the chance to escape from the building.
When the herd of people is gone, you were nowhere to be seen, and now Seonghwa thinks that HE has to go and get therapy instead.
The receptionist saw Seonghwa and called him, handing him the id that you returned. He walked back to his friend's studio, mind still a bit frazzled about your appearance.
"Hey, you ungrateful madman," he threw the id to Hongjoong, the man catching it with ease "a good samaritan returned your misplaced id."
Hongjoong looked at his id, noticing that it was placed backwards, so he puts it in its proper place, only then did he notice the scribbles, gently touching it, 'this doodles are strangely familiar.'
You sighed out of relief when you are now a few meters away from the building, that was so close, you really thought that your secret would be out and you're not rea- "Y/N!!" you froze. Oh no, you just got out trouble and now here's an another one that's approaching you fast.
"Y/N what are you doing here? You haven't come home in a while."
'Pretend not to hear them.' you thought to yourself.
"Huh? Can't you hear us? Y/N! It's us! Yeonjun, Soobin, Beomgyu, Taehyun, and Huening Kai!"
You straightened up and walked away, ignoring them, but of course they wouldn't let you go easily.
"Y/N, is something wrong? Why are you ignoring us? Did we do something wrong?" Huening Kai asked, dejected that you wouldn't talk to them.
You turned to a corner, a mistake on your part as you bumped into a pole "Ouch!" you yelped as you fell down on your ass. The five boys gasped at what they just saw. You actually made physical contact instead of passing through it.
"Are you okay?" Taehyun asked you "Yes, I'm fine. Nothing I can't handle." you answered out of instinct.
"So you can hear us." Yeonjun said in a matter of fact voice.
You stopped rubbing your forehead and looked at them "And you can also see us." Beomgyu added.
You did the thing that anyone would do if they see a ghost, run.
"Hey! Wait! We just want to talk!" you heard Soobin's voice which is right just behind you which made you run faster.
After what felt like ages, your game of tag has ended, with you managing to lose them. They clearly had an advantage, seeing that they can pass through walls, so you escaping from them made you think that you're somehow talented. Noticing that you ended up in front the daycare, you smiled, feeling giddy that you'll get to see Heejoong today.
Before you can go inside the daycare, someone held your collar and pulled you back. Alarmed, you struggled against the hold, accidentally smacking the person behind you.
"Ouch! What was that for?" hearing the deep familiar voice, you quickly turned around, seeing Mingi holding his cheek that was slapped.
"I should be asking you that," pouting and feeling sorry for him "whatever, why are you here?"
He raised an eyebrow at you "Wow, what a nice way to greet me," he sarcastically quips "well to inform you, I'm here because I already know why you were brought back to life."
Your heart pounded, nervous yet anticipating, upon noticing your expression, Mingi sighed and continued.
"I was praying to the Gods all night, then they gave me the answer," there was a long pause before he let the cat out of the bag "forty-nine days, Y/N. You have forty-nine days of trial."
You opened your mouth to ask him a question but he didn't let you "Let me finish." he said in a stern stone that made you close your mouth in a flash.
"You questioned the Gods, I think that's the reason why they gave you the trial. Within forty-nine days, you have to take back your rightful place. If you succeed, then you'll be able to live again."
The world seemed to stop for a second, a dreadful feeling enveloping your senses "What do you mean by 'take back your rightful place,' Mingi?"
"Your rightful place on this world - a daughter, sister, wife, and mother. Take back all of those, and you'll continue living as human being once again." the man explained a bit more clearly for you to comprehend. You shook your head because no, the idea is so ridiculous that you couldn't wrap your head around it.
"No, I will not do that" you said firmly which surprised Mingi "I will take this as a miracle, and the only thing that I will do is to make Heejoong stop seeing ghost."
"Are you sure about that, Y/N? If you do that then you will be able to d- ah!" you poked Mingi's side so you wouldn't hear what he has to say, you had make up your mind already.
"No is a no Mingi. That's my final decision. I have already wasted a day of my remaining days. So if you'll excuse me, I have a mission to do." you turned around and started walking to the direction of the daycare, leaving a frowning Mingi with his own thoughts.
Finally arriving at the daycare, you went inside of the building (you remembered to use the door now, saving you from embarrassment) and one of the teacher greeted you.
"Hello miss!" his smile is so sweet, not to mention his dimples made him look so charming "how can I help you?"
You smiled at the man, "I am here to see Heejoong." you told him and something in his mind clicked "You must be the pickup helper! Heejoong has been waiting for an hour now."
The young teacher went off to get the child, "Please wait for a while, I will come back here with Heejoong."
Pickup helper? Minhee won't pick Heejoong up? Why? These questions are soon erased from your mind when you see Heejoong running up to you.
"Hi, Heejoong!" you smiled, picking him up and carrying him in your arms. You felt like crying, being able to hold your son like this made you feel a roller coaster of emotions.
"All right, please be careful on your way home!" you looked at the smiling man before you, "Thank you." you said, reciprocating the smile as well.
Walking aimlessly with Heejoong while holding his small hand is one of your dreams that has come true.
"Heejoong, do you want to go somewhere?" crouching down to the match the child's height. He looked at you with curiosity, "then let's eat first and we'll go the playgound. Sounds good?" hearing the words food and playground, the small boy's eyes lit up with excitement. He nodded and smiled eagerly, you stood up and carried him, "Okay, to the playground we go!"
"I'm sorry what?" Minhee couldn't help but ask again "did you just say that someone took Heejoong away?"
"Yes. The lady said that she was the pickup helper." the same boy you met earlier replied.
"Okay, thank you." Minhee snatched her phone out of her bag, dialling Hongjoong's number.
The ringing of Hongjoong's phone echoed throughout the room, the owner of the phone checked who was calling - 'Minhee'
'She rarely calls, does she have an emergency?'
"Oppa, I'm so sorry." hearing Minhee's cries made him sit straight.
"What? Why? Did something happened?" anxiety filled his veins as he heard his wife's next words "Heejoong is missing, a lady pretended to be a pickup helper and took him away."
"Where are you? Stay there, I'll meet up with you and we'll look for Heejoong together."
Hongjoong made a run for it, when he finally saw his wife, he immediately approached her. "Minhee, I'm here now," he held her shoulders "stop crying please, we'll find our son." he said, trying to calm her down.
"I'm so sorry oppa, this was the second time that something bad happened to Heejoong. I feel like it's my fault. I-" Honghoong hugged her, effectively shushing the girl.
"It will be okay," he pulled away a bit and held her hands instead "let's find Heejoong, okay?"
The girl nodded, Hongjoong gave her a comforting smile, finally releasing her from his hold and going their separate ways to look for their son.
You watched as Heejoong ran around the playground, he's so cheerful and energetic. You approached the child, "Do you want me to push you?" you asked him when you saw him sitting in the swing.
He smiled and nodded his head cutely, "Brace yourself!"
You pushed the swing, only focusing on the child's beaming expression, you didn't notice that you were using too much force. One particular hard push made the child lose his grip on the swing, his face planting on the floor.
"Oh no, baby, I'm so sorry!" you went to him as fast as you can "No, no please don't cry, I'm so sorry!" you said while hugging him. You didn't know why, but your own tears also fell down.
You continued apologizing to the child, you didn't know the purpose of all those apologies. Was it because he fell down? Or maybe because he is now seeing ghosts when he's not supposed to? The downfall is that, all of those are your fault. Maybe that's why. All the crying and apologies made you unaware of your surroundings, not noticing the man behind you. Until you hear him call out your name.
"Y/N?" you turned around, a miscalculation on your part because there he is. The one and only Kim Hongjoong. The man you don't really want to encounter ever during your stay.
He called you again, this time louder, and when you answered by calling his own name, he pinched himself, trying to wake himself up just in case that he's dreaming. Then he looked at you again, reality crashing on him, "Oh God," he took a step backwards and fell right on his butt "Oh God."
Now he just sounds like a broken recorder, not really knowing what to say. You on the other hand, just stared at him, experiencing the same predicament he's in.
Hongjoong was the first one to speak again when he finally gathered his composure, "You-" he took a deep breath "you're Y/N right? Did you come back to haunt us? What are you doing here? How are you here? Whe-" his rambling was cut short when you advanced towards him.
"Yes, I am Y/N," you said in a soft voice, not wanting to agitate him more "and no, I'm not a ghost. I am a human being."
Your explanation almost made him faint but right now, he needs to finish his priority. He quickly stood up, picked Heejoong up who was just staring at the scene the whole time, and faced you.
"Stay here. We will talk about this. I'll come back after making sure that Heejoong will be escorted home safely."
Minhee saw Hongjoong running towards her direction with Heejoong in his arms, sighing in relief knowing that the child is safe.
What's weird though is that Hongjoong seems to be in a hurry, "Minhee, please take Heejoong home and make sure that he's okay."
"Oppa, I-" not being able to say a word in as Heejoong was being extended to her already "wait oppa!" trying to stop Hongjoong from leaving when she saw him getting ready to do an another marathon.
"Where are you going? You're not coming home with us?" her question made him look at her, his pupils shaking
"No, I will come home later. I just have something to do in my office. Yeah, I'll see you in a bit."
"But-" Minhee tried to talk to him again, wanting to ask some questions but Hongjoong's already gone.
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The cafe that you are now at is nice. The neutral color of the walls, real plants placed everywhere, the soft music, everything about it is relaxing - except for the man who's now sitting in front of you, his gaze burning holes in your skull. You nervously bit the straw of your drink while looking everywhere but the man.
"So," he started in a shaky voice "you're alive the whole time?"
You quickly looked at him "No!" the sudden outburst made the people in the cafe look at your direction, you cleared your throat before speaking in a lower tone "No, Hongjoong, I already died." you paused examining at his expression, which doesn't look good "Then I just woke up as a human once again."
Hongjoong's brain can't fathom the situation "Why?" he asked, realizing how dumb of a question was that "no, scratch that, do you even remember anything before you came here? Do you know why you're here?"
"No, I don't remember anything before I turned into a human," you lied "as for the second question, I don't know, I don't have any answers to that, I'm sorry." focusing down at your shoes like it's the most interesting thing on earth.
"But, I do think of this as a vacation. You know? Maybe the Gods are giving me some time to enjoy life again." you said, sheepishly smiling at him.
"Vacation? Is that legit allowed in after life? Like, once in a while you can become a human just to chill?" you opened your mouth to speak, then closed it again.
You're brain feels like exploding, where on earth are you going to get the answers to Hongjoong's questions. You don't really want to tell him the truth, just thinking of how he will react scares you.
The man in front of you sighed, noticing the bitten straw on your cup of coffee, knowing that it was a nervous habit of yours.
"C'mon, you can do it!" Hongjoong said, putting an arm around you "it's not like they're gonna kill you. The worst that they can do is laugh with how cute your designs are."
The two of you are currently in KQ Company, a famous building where popular engineers and architects work, and today is the day where you decided to apply for a job right in this establishment.
You glared at the man beside you, not liking his teasing during an intense moment like this,"Will you like, I don't know, shut up?" rolling your eyes at him and continuing to bite the straw of your drink.
"So sassy." Hongjoong smiles, staring at you with so much adoration "I love it." he paused for a bit, "Why don't you just bite them like that straw? They'll probably have some use to your strong teeth."
"You stupid little-!"
He doesn't want to make you any more anxious, thus, he just asked you something that's been bugging him "Does anyone know that you're back, besides me?"
You forgot to breathe for a moment, no, you don't want anyone to know that you are here again as a human. You don't want the people you love to be sad again, because seeing you would just make them relieve the painful past.
"Hongjoong, please. Don't tell anyone that I'm back. No one knows that I'm here again, living as a human," you looked at him with pleading eyes "You're the only one that knows my secret, so can you please keep it?"
"You don't want Yunho or Jongho to know? Even your own family?" he couldn't understand why, he knows you, right now, you're probably dying to see, talk and hug them.
You shook your head "No, especially my family. I-" you took a deep breath, finally telling Hongjoong a little bit of the truth "I think I'm here for a reason, and that's my business alone. I won't let anyone get involved in this. I promise, I'll find a way for this to be fixed." Seeing the determined look on your face, Hongjoong just gave up.
Yes, he's distraught and confused, mixed emotions in his heart and jumbled thoughts in his mind. But there is no way will he make you uncomfortable. He respects you too much, and seeing you made him realize that he has never really moved on from you.
An awkward silence fell between you two, and you're the first one to break it "I'm going to the bathroom."
You quickly stood up, but instead of going to the bathroom, you head towards the exit of the cafe and bolted out of there. You can't stand another minute of being with him, it's suffocating. It feels wrong, especially when he has a wife.
Hongjoong looked at the direction of the door after the sensor bell chimed, catching you on the act of fleeing away from him.
Oh no you won't, he won't let you go that fast. He chased you, and boy were you in awe when he managed to caught up to you. He's not one for running, but you guess he already built his stamina up.
"Wait up," he held onto your arm and pulled you back towards him "please, will you just let me be with you for a while."
Your heart fluttered at his words, but then you remembered Minhee. No, you can't do this to her. "I'm sorry Hongjoong but, you should go home." removing his hand from you and avoiding eye contact at all cost "I don't think it'll do you well if people see us together."
He looks anguished at your words, and you don't really wanna see that. It's not good for your already hurting heart.
"Do you have a place to stay?" he suddenly asked you.
"I'll find something, there are a l- woah!" you were cut off when a black card was thrown your way "what is this for?"
"Go get a nice and warm place to stay. You can use my card for your expenses." he said, glancing at you like he's already made up his mind up about something.
"Hongjoong, I can't accept this."
"That's the least that I can do for you." he turned his back to you and walked away "I'll see you again."
You stared at his retreating figure before diverting your eyes at the card. 'Oh well, if he insists then I'll make the most of it.'
You booked a room in a pleasant hotel, ordered delicious foods (which are TOO MUCH for you to even finish, and watched movies all night long.
Meanwhile, in Hongjoong's home, his phone kept ringing all night that he has to mute it so it won't disturb his and his wife's sleep.
"Oppa? Why does your phone keep on ringing?" Minhee asked him, curious as to why his phone kept on making notification sounds.
"Oh, it's my colleagues. I gave them my card so they can go treat theirselves since they worked so hard today." he replied, making up a lie in a hurry, while lowering the volume of his phone.
"Is that so?" Minhee stared at her husband's back, thinking if something was bothering him.
"Yeah, don't worry about it."
The next morning, you woke up feeling full and refreshed. A good night sleep in a comfortable bed and eating delicious foods the whole night really boosted your mood.
Getting ready to head out, you made a mental list of what you should do today. Priorities must be set since your days are limited.
When you went down and returned the keys to the receptionist, you can't help but ask why do they keep on checking up you last night. The receptionist smiled apologetically at you "I'm so sorry if we disturbed you, it's just that, someone kept on calling us last night, begging us to call you and ask you if you're okay."
That's not what you expected, "Do you know who did that?" the receptionist nodded her head "The one who owns the card that you're using ma'am."
'Oh it's Hongjoong, but how would he- Right. This is his card, of course he would be notified about his money is spent.'
You smiled lightly, touched by his actions, you thanked the receptionist and made a beeline in a restaurant that sells special ramen. You want to pay Yunho and Jongho back for borrowing their money (food and pen included).
The two always loved eating ramen for breakfast, so you decided to order two servings, planning to put it in the counter of their resto before they arrived. Still fairly early in the morning, you doubt that they are awake at this hour, especially when their business closes at 3 in the morning. They're still probably snoring in their beds.
After taking the order, you immediately went to the resto, doing the same thing as you did before so that you can enter the place. The moment you put down the bowls of food on the table, someone behind you rolled in his back like an action star.
"Aha-AH!" the cool sound they were trying to do was replaced by a yelp of pain, and you flinched because that sounds exactly like someone you know.
"Hyung, can you please not embarrass yourself?" an another familiar voice spoke.
"I'm just trying to intimidate the intruder!" the one who hurt himself replied in a pouty voice, rubbing his head that he bumped into one of the chairs.
The younger of the two sighed, he'll just have to handle this in a civil way "Excuse me, we don't want to hurt you, so can you please show your face to us without any fuss?" he said in a commanding tone.
You sweatdropped, because how lucky can you get? Yesterday it was Hongjoong, and now it's gonna be your two bestfriends. Taking a deep breath, bracing yourself, you close your eyes before you finally turned around.
A few seconds had passed and no one has said a word, you dared opening your eyes, and the sight made you regret your decisions more. The look on their faces are unpaintable. Shock, happiness, sadness, every emotions are brewing in the room right now. The unbearable tension just waiting to pop.
"Y/N?" the taller one among them was the first one to speak "is that you or have I finally lost it?" his voice breaking, tears threatening to fall.
"Yunho." almost whispering his name, and hearing your voice, the other one ran towards your direction, hugging you tight.
"I missed you so much, Y/N." you felt your shirt getting soaked, and you immediately knew that he was crying, "Jongho, I missed you too." you said, hugging him back as well.
You made eye contact with the other man who was just standing there, but is now crying as well. You gave him a small smile and that triggered him to throw his body into the hug, causing all of you to fall into the floor. Despite the unbelievable situation you're in, the three of you can't help but laugh. Finally, the trio is complete once again.
"Hongjoong, please pay attention to me or else I'm gonna bang my head in the wall." Seonghwa said, unamused by his friend's lack of focus.
Not even sparing him a glance, the other man stoically replied "Go ahead and bang your head then."
Before Seonghwa can even get mad, Hongjoong's ringtone resonated throughout the studio. He doesn't plan on answering the phone, if not for the person's name that flashed in his screen. 'Yunho'
The door of the resto was opened rather abruptly, disturbing the three crying people in the room.
"Y/N!" What? You thought Yunho called Hongjoong, but that's a different voice, it sounds like-
"Oh my God, it's you. It's really you. I knew I wasn't crazy when I thought I saw you at our company building!" Seonghwa said, giving you a bone crushing hug.
"Hongjoong! I told you I saw Y/N!" said man who just walked inside the venue looked at the group of people and told his friend off "Yeah, and you're suffocating her. Give her some space."
Hearing that, Seonghwa immediately let go of you and apologized for doing that out of the blue. You accepted his apology, telling him that you didn't mind, not really surprised by his actions since he's been like that even before.
"Are you not gonna apologize to us?" Jongho asked, making Seonghwa raise an eyebrow in return "you did interrupted our session, and I'm pretty sure you weren't invited here."
"You don't talk to someone older than you like that!" Seonghwa began chasing Jongho around the room, making Yunho laugh and Hongjoong pinching the bridge of his nose.
The fun was cut short when Yunho decided to speak "So, Hongjoong hyung, care to explain why Y/N is here right now and you didn't even told us?" his serious demeanor surfaced, startling everyone because the puppy like man rarely does that.
Hongjoong's brows met "Why does it sound like you're accusing me of something?" you decided to interrupt before the two start an argument "It was me, Yunho, I told him not to tell anyone."
"Why? You don't want to see us?" you shook your head no to his question "then what? Are you hiding something from us?" you immediately went into panic mode, you don't want them to know that you'll only be here for 49 days.
"No, of course not! I don't really know why I'm here in the first place, but I think this is a vacation of some sorts?" you tried reasoning to your friends, looking at Hongjoong, asking him for help.
"Yeah, it's what she said. Nothing more, nothing less. We'll solve this either way." Hongjoong speaks up on your behalf.
Yunho and Jongho look skeptical, like they knew you weren't telling the whole truth. Jongho opens his mouth this time but wasn't able to get a word in when Seonghwa suddenly spoke.
"If you're here on a vacation, then what do you plan to do?"
Thanking Seonghwa in your mind for changing the topic, grateful that he didn't push you any further. A trait of him that you always appreciate.
"First off, I have to find a job. I don't want to be a freeloader around here." subtly glancing at Hongjoong, knowing that you still have his card.
Jongho perked up at that "Then work here with us! It'll be like the old times!" he smiled excitedly at you but you only gave him a pout "I'm sorry Jongho, actually, I want to work at the daycare."
Everyone went quiet at your statement "Is something wrong with what I said?" you asked, feeling anxious. Yunho was the first one to snap out of it "No, nothing is wrong but, you wanting to work there, is it because of-"
"Let her work there." Hongjoong voiced out "you want to get a job there to see Heejoong right?" you nodded at his question.
"Then go ahead, no one will stop you. It's," he took a deep breath continuing "it's the only thing that we can do for you." he finished, avoiding eye contact with you, feeling guilty.
Seonghwa wasn't having it though "But what about Minhee?" All pair of eyes widely looked at the man like he's a criminal, silently shooting him in the head.
The room felt stiff, and you took it upon yourself to soften the mood a little "It's fine even if I see her. I don't mind." smiling at everyone in the room, hoping that it'll ease them even for a bit. The men in the room shared a knowing look at each other, contemplating about what they should tell you when the cat's out of the bag.
After the mini reunion, you all went back to your daily lives, with you going to the school to apply for a job.
Seonghwa and Hongjoong are walking back to their building when Hongjoong suddenly stopped in his tracks, the gears in his head working to something
"Seonghwa, we didn't mention who exactly Minhee is right?" his friend looking at him before answering the question "Yeah, what about it?"
"Is it just me or it seems like she already knows wh-" Hongjoong didn't get to finish his sentence when he saw the girl in question, "Minhee!" he raised his voice in panic, making Seonghwa look at the girl, eyes widening because the path that she's taking is the way to the daycare
Minhee turned her head, seeing her husband and his friend "Oppa, Seonghwa, what are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be at work?" she asked as the two tried to lie their way out of it.
"Yeah we are, we just went to get something." Seonghwa chuckled nervously.
"What about you? Do you have any errands to do?" Hongjoong asked "Yes," proudly showing them the lunch box "I made food for Heejoong, I'm on my to the daycare right now to deliver this."
Her smile widened when Hongjoong said that he'll come with her "What? Hongjoong you-" Seonghwa was cut off by a pinch in his side, "Go back to the studio without me Seonghwa, I'll come back after this." the strained smile in his friend's face made him grimace.
"Alright, be safe." the double meaning behind Seonghwa's words wasn't missed by Hongjoong.
"Miss pick-up helper, you're here early!" the same dimpled man greeted you again "Oh no, I'm not here for Heejoong, I came here because I was looking for a job." the man made a confused face before smiling again "okay then, come with me."
While walking to the office of the owner slash principal of the daycare, the dimpled man introduced himself as Choi San, he has been working at the daycare for a few years now.
He knocked on the door "Mr. Kim, there's someone who wants to apply for a job." a few seconds later a man who looks like in his late 60's opened the door, greeting you with a warm smile and telling you to come in.
"The only vacant position here is the kitchen helper, is that okay with you?" you beamed "Yes! That is more than okay. I may not look like it, but I am actually a really great cook!" Ecstatic at your positive demeanor, he gave you an application form "Just fill this up and you may start working by tomorrow."
You bowed and thanked the old man before writing at the form, San suddenly went inside the office, telling the owner that a parent is here to see their child.
"Make yourself comfortable, I'll be back in a minute." both men went outside, not more than a minute, a commotion can be heard outside, you tried to ignore it but the curiosity got the best of you.
"I'm sorry ma'am, the children are still in the middle of their class, we can't disturb them." you heard San explain, "I can wait here, it doesn't really matter." you heard woman say, now your nosey self can't help but to take a peek.
"They still have their classes, just let the teacher take the lunch box and let's leave." now that's a familiar voice, and before you can stop your feet from walking, it's too late, your face now visible to the 'parents.'
It was Minhee, with Hongjoong beside her, coaxing her to drop the lunch and leave with him. When Minhee fixes her eyes on you, her face morphed into an expression of surprise, you look like someone that she knows, Hongjoong silently cursed, wanting to avoid this situation but failed, not knowing what to do if the fused blew.
"Miss Yuri, are you done filling up the form?" the owner asked you and you immediately handed the form to him, glad that you used an alias instead of your real name.
"Yuri?" all heads turned to a confused Minhee "Ah yes," the owner spoke "Mister Kim and Miss Shin, this is our new kitchen helper, Lee Yuri." you turned to them and bowed politely.
The scene made Hongjoong's stomach churn, it doesn't look right, especially you bowing your head to him like he's a stranger. He did not like it one bit.
"It's nice meeting you Miss Lee," your smile faltered after Minhee's next words "you just look awfully familiar."
Hongjoong took the lunch box from his wife's hands in a speed of light and handed it to San, "Please take care of it for us. Thank you." he said before holding Minhee's hand "Wait-!" the girl tried to protest but she was already dragged away.
You can't help but stare at their intertwined hands when San clicked his tongue "This is the reason why other parents talk about them so much," you looked at him questioningly "you see, they really don't act like a couple at all and that affects even Heejoong's performance."
Your ears perked up when your son's name came up "What about Heejoong's performance?" San sighed before answering "His academic performance is alarmingly low, some kids are slow learners, but it's not good for the child if this keeps up."
You looked down, not knowing what to feel, you didn't know that. You always thought that your child would do well in school, but you were mistaken.
"It's fine, Miss Shin does her best to improve Heejoong's performance, she even went her to way to get him checked. She's a good mom." the owner interjected in your conversation with San.
"Let's stop gossiping here and get to work," he turned to you "Miss Yuri, I'll look forward to working with you." You bowed at the old man once again "Me too. I promise to work hard!"
Excitement is coursing through your veins right now, because finally, you can now see Heejoong everyday and even fend off ghosts that linger around him.
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"Mingi. Mingi. Mingi. Mingi."
"Oh my god Yeonjun, shut up!" the man accidentally raised his voice inside shrine, making the other people who were praying there to look at him.
He scanned his surroundings, slightly embarrassed before speaking in a shushed voice "Will the five of you please leave me the fuck alone."
Beomgyu leered at Mingi before speaking "Why would we leave you alone? We told you we want answers."
"Yeah! Why is Y/N is back to being human? What did she even do?" Taehyun voiced out.
Mingi rubbed his temples, a headache starting to form with this incessant pestering that he's been getting for the past few days "I don't know, okay? I am still looking for the answers myself."
"Liar." Yeonjun said making Mingi snap "You-!" he brought his bell out, ringing it twice, making the five boys around him get stuck in the wall like a sticker, them protesting about the unfair treatment.
"I'll be back in an hour, if the five of you aren't at the coulumbarium by the time I get back, you'll be in trouble."
He took a deep breath before exiting the temple, not caring if the commotion he did made the people stare at him like he's crazy, he has a mission called 'Find Y/N and Reprimand Her' to accomplish.
Like a miracle, he saw you exiting the daycare with a bright smile in your face. 'Good for you' he thought, looks like something good is happening to your right now, but he can't congratulate you yet, his priority right now is his mental health.
"Y/N!"
Your head turned towards the sound of the voice, seeing a brooding Mingi with a scowl in his face, then you remembered the incident just after he told you that you should be careful around ghosts anymore.
You opened your mouth to speak only to be intercepted "I told you not to show yourself to the ghosts, or even if they see you just ignore them," you can only nod and listen to him "but clearly you didn't do that, because five crackheads have been badgering me about you."
"I'm sorry Mingi I-" he held his hand up "If you really are sorry, then take responsibility for it," he brought his hand down and motioned you to follow him "come with me to the columbarium and meet them."
Not really giving you a choice and not wanting to make Mingi madder than he is, you went with him, readying yourself of what's to come.
"Mingi!" you heard the five boys' voices parroting the tall man's name over and over again, probably acting cute to earn his forgiveness.
You slowly walked inside the place, showing yourself and they immediately pounced unto you which ultimately failed because you're not a ghost anymore. "Damn, must be good to be able to eat again huh?" Soobin said, making you chuckle.
"Listen, I'm here to help you guys," you started "I'm pretty sure that there's a reason why you're here, and I will help you fulfill that." after finishing your statement, their facial expressions are something that you can't discern.
"Wow, you're angel."
"Life saver."
"Marry me?"
A booming voice then echoed throughout the room "Stop being cheesy you idiots, just tell her a request so I can bring you to heaven!" you laughed at Mingi, always been a barbarian but really, he's a soft man deep inside.
Beomgyu rolled his eyes "Jeez, what's got your panties in a twist Karen." his diss was followed by Huening Kai's dolphin laugh, pissing Mingi off.
"Really? What if I just sent you to the other side now?" he reaches inside his bag, pulling out the items for the ritual making Soobin whine like a child "please, can we just get started." Mingi looked at you with pleading eyes.
You nodded before focusing at the boys "Tell me your story."
They all went silent, not wanting to remember the painful past, the oldest among them taking the opportunity to speak on their behalf.
"We call each other siblings, but we aren't blood related," your eyes widening in shock "we are all orphans, unfortunate enough to be thrown away by our own families. But someone took us in and treated us all like his sons, Mr. Bang Sihyuk."
"Bang Sihyuk? That famous producer who released hundreds of hit songs?" you interrupted him "Yes, him."
You nodded your head as a sign of understanding, signalling him to continue "The thing is, Huening Kai isn't the youngest among us, we have a five-year old brother, Ni-Ki," his voice broke, making him stop talking, Soobin took this as a cue to take over, he patted the older's shoulder, giving him a soft smile.
"The day we died, was when the five of us fetched Ni-Ki from the daycare. Our father was waiting for us in a restaurant, saying that he will treat us for passing the college entrance exams," he paused, looking at his brothers to see if they were okay with relieving the story all over again, only continuing when they gave him a nod of affirmation.
"We were crossing the road when a big truck ran over the red light, we tried to push Ni-Ki out of the way but it was too late, the truck hit all six of us," he choked back a sob "it was supposed to be a happy day, but it turned into a day of tragedy instead." he finished, looking up at the ceiling, trying hard not to let his tears flow.
Beomgyu spoke this time "We just want to go with our youngest brother that's all."
You feel so bad for them, these boys are always so cheerful, they were your happy pills, and you didn't even know how sad their past was "How do we do that then?"
"Heejoong," Taehyun said "the daycare, that is where Ni-Ki is. We tried getting him to come to us, we really did, but he won't budge. He wants our father to personally get him."
'So the ghost child that Heejoong's been seeing all this time was their youngest brother.' you thought.
Mingi got the gist of the situation "So we need to get Bang Sihyuk to go to the daycare, Ni-ki's probably waiting for his father, thinking that he can only go home if he sees him."
"I got this" you proclaimed "Bang Sihyuk is my.. friend's boss, and I got a job at the daycare. Let me handle this. I promise, at the end, you'll be able to finally rest in peace in with your little brother."
The next day, you went to the daycare to start your new job, and to also find Ni-Ki. But it was difficult, you couldn't get out of the kitchen, there are a lot of things to do and now you're tearing up because of these damned onions you're chopping.
"Miss Yuri, let's finish this batch up and take a rest," the head chef, Jeongyeon, told you and you would've sighed in relief if not for her next words "then we'll cook and serve lunch later."
You almost cried out of contempt, but it was worth it, Heejoong smiling at you while you give him food and him eating a lot.
"You gave at least two servings to Heejoong," Jeongyeon nudged you "is this favoritism I see?" she teasingly said.
"No, of course not, I just didn't notice the portion that I gave him." you pouted and she only chuckled in response.
Lunch ended so that means that it's your free time, you searched every nook and cranny of the building but Ni-Ki is nowhere to be found. You wondered where on earth he is until you remembered that he clings a lot to Heejoong.
You rushed over to Heejoong's classroom and there you saw Ni-Ki, playing with your son. A plan started formulating inside your head, you'll have to do this as soon as possible, not wanting to prolong the suffering of your friends, but you still need to prove Mingi's theory
When the school bell rang, some children rushed outside to meet their parents, leaving only a few in the classroom waiting while San looked after them.
You decided to enter the classroom and spend some quality time with Heejoong, observing Ni-Ki in the process.
You noticed that whenever a parent calls for their child, Ni-Ki would look up with a smile on his face, only for it to fall when he realized that it's not his father. Your heart clenched at the sight, seeing that the child just wanted his father to come and get him so that he can finally go home.
Your focus went back to Heejoong when you felt him hold your arm, showing you a what seems like a dinosaur made out of legos, you smile, patting his head and telling him that he did a great job, your moment was cut short when his name was called by a familiar voice.
"Heejoong!" the child got up and ran towards the sound of the voice, you saw Minhee by the door and the pain you felt was unbearable when you heard Heejoong say "Mommy!"
You know that there's a place that you have left and someone has already taken that spot, you have come to terms with that, but it never makes the pain feel less, you looked up, making eye contact with Minhee, the two of you exchanging a polite bow before she leaves with Heejoong in her arms.
You inhaled, collecting yourself before you approached San, keen on getting an answer, "Hi San, I just want to ask you a question." he flashed you a bright smile "What is it?"
"Does this daycare had a student named Ni-Ki?" his face falls at the name "Yes, uh, he was a student here, but an accident has caused him to pass away." a sad smile replacing his former one.
"Why do you ask? Do you know him?" you shook your head no while waving your hands frantically "No, no, I don't. Just, someone mentioned him to me and I was curious." thankfully, he believed your lame reasons and excused himself, saying that he has to do something.
Determination is now burning in your soul, you will definitely fulfill the request of your dear friends.
Hongjoong's phone rang, an unknown number calling him, he sighed, thinking that his normally quiet days are over since his phone has been quite active for a while now.
He picked his phone up, answering the call, and he almost knocked his coffee down his computer when he heard your voice.
"Hongjoong, I need your help."
Your hands are sweaty and clammy, nervously glancing around the kitchen which Jeongyeon noticed "What are you so anxious for?" you told her that it was nothing, she was hesitant at first but decided to just let you be.
The day went on as usual, except at the end of it, you saw Mingi standing outside the daycare, together with the five boys
You made eye contact with Mingi and gave him a thumbs up, which he reciprocated with a wink. Sooner or later, a man in his late 40's came, wearing a suit and looking like he hasn't slept in days.
San saw the man and gasped "Mr. Bang! It's been so long since you came here." he went closer to the man, asking him what made him come here.
The older man smiled tiredly "I am here to retrieve some items that belongs my late son." San bit his lip, about to comfort the man, when suddenly Heejoong ran towards Mr. Bang with Ni-Ki closely following him (which only you can see), handing him a piece of paper.
The man crouched down to match Heejoong's height before accepting the paper "Is this for me Heejoong?" the child bobbed his head, pointing at the paper, silently telling him to open it and look at its contents.
Smiling at the child, he opened the paper, revealing a drawing of 7 people holding each other's hands, labelled with names, and at the top is its title "Me and My Family." At the back was a message from the artist "To: Papa From: Ni-Ki, I love you all always!"
Mr. Bang placed a hand on his mouth, trying his hard not to cry but failed when a tear escaped his eyes. He took deep breaths, trying to keep his emotions at bay. It feels like a heavy rock was lifted from his shoulders.
The five boys who was watching from afar let their tears freely flow. They know that he blamed his self for their deaths, countless nights where he got drunk, saying sorry to their urns for not being there.
"Please forgive me, Yeonjun, Soobin, Beomgyu, Taehyun, Huening Kai, Ni-Ki. I promised you a good life but look what happened, you're not even here anymore." the man kept on hitting the floor, bawling his eyes out.
Behind him stood five silhouettes, watching the whole scene with agony in their hearts. Crying and telling their father to stop saying sorry, and it's not his fault. If ever, they will be forever thankful to him, giving them a chance to live a life that they only dreamt of before.
Huening Kai tugged the sleeves of Soobin's shirt "Hyung, do something. Make father stop crying." he said, not hiding his trembling voice.
The taller of the two just stared at the scene, wanting to hug the man who gave them the world. Tell him that it's okay, but he can't, which breaks his heart even more.
Once the man passed out, they all went closer to him, lying on the floor, watching over him.
"We'll always be together even after a lifetime of tomorrows."
"Thank you Heejoong," Mr. Bang patted the top of the child's head "this means a lot to me."
You silently watched as Ni-Ki followed his smiling father outside, and when he saw his brothers, he scuttled towards them, hugging them with a bright grin in his face. Yeonjun picked Ni-Ki up and settled him on his shoulders.
The five boys looked at you with appreciation in their eyes, their regret finally solved. They waved their hands at you, smiling like innocent children, and for the first and last time, you made finger hearts just for them.
You dropped a bouquet of yellow roses on top of the urns of your friends, you and Mingi praying for them to be safe on their way to heaven.
"Looks like it'll be quieter from now on. I'll miss them." Mingi faced the other way, acting all tough and strong when in reality he's about to cry his eyes out "Not me, I like this better."
You called Hongjoong once again, thanking him for convincing his boss to come to the daycare, "It's nothing. I'm glad I can help, by the way did you buy a new phone?"
"Ah yes, I forgot to tell you. I'm sorry, I used your card again. I just really needed one." you apologized and he told you not to worry about it "Keep the card, use it whenever you need it." then he hung up.
Always the tsundere, laughing a bit, when someone suddenly tapped your shoulder, making you scream in surprise.
"Oh my god, Miss Yuri!" you turned around and saw Minhee, you almost choked when you saw her "I didn't mean to scare you like that." You smiled, your face turning red "I've been calling you for a while now, but you weren't responding."
Oh, she must have been calling you by your alias, must be the reason why you didn't respond because that's not even your name, "I'm sorry, I've been spacing out." she looked around before finally telling you her intentions "Would you like to come with me for a while?"
This feels like deja vu, you in a cafe with a relaxing ambience but the person in front of you is making you feel the complete opposite.
"I know this is sudden but, I am currently looking for a pick-up helper," Minhee started "I am starting to look for a job, that is why I need someone who can look after Heejoong, and based from what I heard, you are always with him." she said, remembering what the teachers told her and the gossips from the other parents.
"Miss Yuri's really close with Heejoong, she always looks out after him."
"That new kitchen helper is awfully attached to Miss Shin's child, don't you think?"
Your heart skipped a beat, you did not realize that you have been sticking too close to Heejoong that it was too obvious even to outsiders.
"I'm sorry, it's-" she cut you off, telling you that it's fine and that she wouldn't worry too much if a person like you is with Heejoong.
"I don't know you that well but I trust you enough that you'll be able to take good care of my son."
'My son,' that left a bitter taste in your mouth, another person calling your son theirs. But you couldn't hate her, she was a great mom to Heejoong, you won't deny that. She always gives her all for her son and husband.
"Are you okay, Miss Yuri?" you snapped out of your thoughts smiling sheepishly before deciding to just go with it. That way, you'll be able to spend more time with Heejoong AND maybe get inside their home and get Wooyoung to leave.
"I accept your offer," you paused, your mouth opening and closing, like you want to tell her something, the girl in front of you looking at you expectantly "let's not be formal with each other. If that's okay? I want to be friends with you."
Her face lit up, like she was waiting for someone to tell her that "Really? I don't have any friends here."
You were surprised at the revelation, why is no one her friend when she's really nice? People really do have some problems.
"Well, I'll be honored to be your first friend." you two shared a knowing look before giggling like teenagers, giddy over a friendship blooming between the two of you.
"I'm home." Hongjoong calls out, his wife greeting him and tried taking his bag but he declined "I got this, don't worry." The small smile in Minhee's face was wiped, but she tried to smile again, wanting to tell her husband the good news.
"Oppa, I found a pick-up helper today." Hongjoong hummed, rummaging inside the fridge for water "she even offered to be my friend. She's really nice."
"Really? That's good then." he smiled, genuinely happy that his wife has found someone that she can call her friend, then he nearly spat the water out of his mouth after his wife's next words "Yeah, it was the new kitchen employee at the daycare."
He wiped his chin with his hand "The kitchen helper, yes." flabbergasted at the information, trying to compose himself.
"Are you okay? Oppa, you don't look too well." Hongjoong gave her a tight smile "Yes, of course I'm fine. I will be on the study if you need me."
"Wait, you still haven't had your dinner."
"I already ate outside."
Minhee's face fell into a disappointed one, looking at the table she set for dinner. Smiling sadly, she went over to Heejoong who was watching television, "Guess we'll just have to eat together."
Inside Hongjoong's office, he was venting in his phone "Seonghwa, what do I do? If Y/N is the pick-up helper then that means I would be seeing her here too."
"Then don't go home early, just stay overtime here at work." his friend was obviously panicking too, but still trying his best to help.
Hongjoong grumbled in his seat "If I stayed there then Eden hyung would just bamboozle me with the therapy thingy."
Seonghwa went silent on the other line, "Hello? Are you still there?"
"I am, I was just thinking," his friend cautiously said "maybe you should take the therapy."
The man shook his head a no, even if his friend can't see it " I don't need it." he stubbornly replies. "Hongjoong, you need it. It's been way too long, and until now you still can't enter your own studio without hyperventilating."
That's true, the studio he's in now is just a spare one. His own was abandoned for years, not really having the guts to enter it. Once he did, everything about you and your incident would be reminded in him again. He can't take it, knowing that you needed him that time but he wasn't there.
"Goodmorning honey," you greeted him with a kiss "you're leaving early today, here." you gave him an umbrella because you saw the news said that there will be a downpour this afternoon.
"Aw, my wifey is so sweet." you smiled and pecked his lips "Of course, don't want my hubby to get sick. Now go, I have to get ready as well." pushing him towards the door.
"Are you sure about going? Just wait for me, let's go together." persuading you to delay your trip to your company building.
You rolled your eyes, he's such a worrywart "Don't worry, I will just deliver the blueprint then I'll go home immediately."
"Okay, if you insist. Call me when you need anything, I'll drop anything that I'm doing and go to you." as cheesy as it sounds, you know it's true.
"I will. Now go or you'll be late!" you went back to what you're previously doing when he left, then suddenly he came back, turning you around and him kissing you tenderly in the lips.
If only he had known that would be last time he'll be able to kiss you, then he would've stayed back then. If only someone warned him that it would your last day on earth, he would never lock his door and keep his ears open for any noises.
"Don't disturb me! I want to finish this as soon as I can!" he yelled at the poor employee who was only there to tell him that the higher ups wanted him to do a song for a more popular singer.
He hated that with all his might, these corrupt people not caring about other singers who are talented enough.
He locked his door and blasted his headphones on full volume after telling the employee to inform everyone not to call him or knock on his door because he won't be answering any bullshit.
He regretted doing that, missing out the calls on his phone or the loud shouts outside his studio. Maybe he'll just get therapy, right, there's nothing wrong with that. It will also help him go home a little later than usual.
You're ready and excited to spend all afternoon with your son after their dismissal at the daycare, what you didn't expect is the long list of the extracurricular classes that he has to attend. Piano lessons, reading lessons, art lessons, it was already 5 o'clock in the afternoon and you're getting antsy.
When Heejoong finally went out of the door, you immediately approached him, asking him if this was the last lesson he has. And when he confirmed it, you smiled widely, telling him that you'll show him a place where magic happens.
The jingling of the bell made Yunho and Jongho look up, ready to greet a customer but stopped when they saw you with Heejoong. They were genuinely surprised but also happy to see their nephew, it's been so long since the last time they saw him.
"Heejoong, these are your uncle Yunho and uncle Jongho, they are the people who do magic." the two shared a knowing look, automatically knowing what you mean by magic.
They crouched down to match the child's level "Heejoong, do you want to see magic?" Yunho asked him, the child nodding eagerly, "Come with us then." Jongho said.
The men held Heejoong's tiny hand in theirs, the child looking at you in which you motioned for him to go and follow the two adults. You took a seat by the counter, watching as your bestfriends did a cooking show for your son.
Heejoong looks so happy, he was squealing in awe the whole time, especially when Jongho lit up the pan with fire while Yunho let out a 'Bulnoriya!' You chuckled at their silliness, enjoying the scene in front of you.
What if you didn't die? What if that accident didn't happen? Would this be a common sight? Your thoughts was cut short when the bells chimed once again, Yunho's loud welcome booming in the room.
When the man went to see who entered, he was glued at his spot, seeing Minhee standing there with a shocked expression upon seeing you in the resto. She simply walked and sat beside you, about to ask you something when she heard a "Mommy!" looking over the counter to see a smiling Heejoong in Jongho's lap.
"You brought Heejoong here?" you smiled and explained yourself "I am good friends with the owners, so I thought that it'll be nice for them to meet him."
Yunho broke the tension in the room by saying that he'll get Minhee a drink, he was already pouring her a glass of beer when you interjected "She likes soju better."
Minhee looked at you with a curious face "How did you know that?" you opened your mouth to reply but then you remembered that you got that information because you were a ghost at the time you were staying at their house.
You watched as Minhee sneaked out of the room into the kitchen, opening a cabinet, revealing a stash of soju. She reached for one bottle, poured a full glass of soju and downing it in one go.
"Good. I like you Minhee, you know how to do your shots." you commented, clapping your hands while you watched her drink.
"You, I-" you cleared your throat "You look like a person that likes soju more than beer." you stuttered, lying because there's no way you'll tell her the real reason.
Jongho was the one who put the soju in front of the girl, telling her to enjoy herself and he'll take care of Heejoong.
"Let's drink, cheers!"
One hour and five bottles of soju, you and Minhee were already out of it, slurred words and giggles rang throughout the room. making the two men with you sigh in exasperation as they stopped the two of you from drinking anymore.
The girl beside you called your name "You know, I heard some parents gossiping," she hiccupped "they said you look like Heejoong." she then looked at the sleeping child at the back that Jongho tucked a few minutes ago.
Silence ensued the room "I also saw the way you look at Heejoong, eyes full of love and smile so bright," you stilled in your seat, feeling more lightheaded than before.
"I always did my best to be his mother. Then I see you, a person that looks so identical to Heejoong's biological mother so I thought," she faced you, a sorrowful look on her face "why don't you be Heejoong's mother instead."
Just as she finished her statement, her head fell into the table with a loud bang. Her words sobered you up, making you feel sympathetic towards her. Jongho called Hongjoong to pick Minhee up, not wanting her to catch a cold while she's passed out. Yunho on the other hand went to you, asking you if you were okay.
"I'm fine, I'm actually more worried about her, I didn't expect that she would say that." Yunho patted your back, telling you that it's not your fault.
A few minutes later, Hongjoong finally arrived with Seonghwa, seeing his wife sleeping in the table "Minhee!" The girl woke up and lifted her head at the sound of her husband's voice "Oppa!" she got up and went to Hongjoong, hugging him like a koala, at that moment his eyes met yours, realizing that you're also here.
You hurriedly clung onto Yunho, babbling about him being your bestfriend since birth with Jongho and how you appreciate them so much. He understood what you're doing, his heart breaking in your stead. Of course you'll be hurt, not only did the person you used to love called out an another name, but he is holding an another woman in his arms as well.
Hongjoong kept on looking back and forth between you and Minhee, wanting to go to you and check if you're okay but he can't just leave Minhee.
Seonghwa noticed his friend's dilemma, so he took the initiative to tell him to go home and that he'll take care of the rest, "But-"
"No buts, I'll take Heejoong so you can drive the both of them home."
Seonghwa carried the sleeping child and sternly motioned for Hongjoong to move. The man looked at you for the last time, before turning and walking back to his car.
The moment they left the place, you stopped pretending that you're drunk, now focusing on not letting your tears fall.
Watching your home walk with someone else that is not you makes you feel like your heart was stabbed a million times, it was insufferable, every part of you slowly breaking into pieces, the only thing keeping you together is your friends' tight bear hug.
"We're here Y/N, we won't leave you."
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Minhee woke up the next day with a really bad hangover "Shit." seeing the time made her realize that she slept in, getting up only to see an advil, water, and a note in the bedside table.
"Goodmorning, take this and rest up. I made food for you so make sure to eat your breakfast, don't worry about Heejoong, I'll take him to school. -HJ"
The girl smiled at the note, thankful for her husband's consideration. Getting up from the bed, she saw her reflection in the mirror. Smudged make up and her clothes are still the same from last night. Not remembering anything from last night aside from drinking with you.
She sighed and removed her coat, when a polaroid photo fell from its pocket, she picked it up and inspected it, seeing a picture of her and you, smiling widely at the camera while flashing a peace sign.
Smiling at the adorable photo, she decided to stick it to the fridge, a remembrance of her first friend. Speaking of you, Minhee wondered if you got home safe so she texted you, asking you if you're doing fine in which you replied a quick 'I'm well, thank you for asking. I'll see you later!'
On the other side, you were contemplating if you should ask her if she remembers what she said last night, but deciding against it. Not wanting to make things awkward between you.
"Aye, drop your phone and continue chopping. We have visitors today, so we'll have a lot of mouths to feed." Jeongyeon nagged at you for the nth time today. You pouted at her "I just replied to a friend, I'll chop all of these within an hour, unnie, watch me." you bragged.
The sound of the door opening alerted a certain boy, he immediately sat up on the couch and turned the volume of the television down.
"Eomma you're back early." he said "Yeah, the market wasn't that busy today, I already got the ingredients for today's dinner."
The woman noticed that someone is missing in their house "Yeosang, where's your father?"
"Appa, where are you going?" Yeosang asked his father who was busy knotting his tie.
The man smiled "I'm going to the daycare today, I'll be teaching the children about the 'dangers of strangers.' I will also-" his son cut him off "You'll also see Heejoong today, that's why you look so excited." he said, crossing his arms and smirking.
His father sighed, knowing the consequences of his actions "It's only one time, don't tell you mother okay?" he tapped his son's arms and went out of the house in a hurry.
"Uh, out. He said that he's got something to take care of, he'll be home by afternoon." he felt bad lying to his mother, but he can't just out his father like that.
"That old man didn't even tell me." yeah, his father will still get an earful either way.
You were walking towards the office, Jeongyeon giving you the task of giving today's menu to the principal for him to check. When you heard San's voice in the hallway.
"Mr. Kang, thank you for coming today. The children would really learn a lot from this."
So this is the 'more mouths to feed,' seems like there would be a special lesson for the kids today. As you were about to cross the hallway, San bowed to the man, revealing the so-called 'Mr. Kang.'
You immediately covered your face with the papers, because what the heck, you didn't know that the man is your father, Kang Daniel. Crouching a bit and tiptoeing your way into the office, your weird actions caught the attention of your father, but he decided not to call you out, thinking that you might have some problems.
"Come this way please." San guided them to the classroom and when you don't hear them anymore, you carefully opened the door and peeked outside.
"Miss Yuri are you okay?" the voice of the principal startled you, making you drop the papers. You looked down at the mess before looking back up to meet the quizzical eyes of the principal "No, I don't think I'm okay."
You peered over the window to see what is going on inside the classroom. "If a stranger persuades you to come with them using food or toys, don't go okay?" the children responded with a choruses of yes.
"Very good, if someone suspicious did that, run away and find someone that you know."
He looked around the room, eyes landing on Heejoong "Okay, let's see if you can apply what I just thought you. Let's see hm.." he puts a hand under his chin, pretending to think of who's he gonna call.
"Oh, you," he called Heejoong out and the child went to him with an innocent look "what's your name little one?" the child didn't answer the question, he just stared at the man. San took the liberty of telling the child's name
"Heejoong, that's a very nice name. Now, think of me as a stranger, I will be giving you this toy, and demonstrate what I just told you, okay?" the child nodded and smiled.
Daniel took a few steps back, extending his hand with the toy and calling Heejoong out, the little boy in return ran to him and hugged his leg. The man couldn't help but melt, how could he not when his grandson's clinging into him like this. "No, Heejoong, you're not suppose to hug me." he light-heartedly scolded the little boy.
You watched the interaction of the two, feeling a pang of guilt and pain in your chest, seeing your father do things like this just to see and hold his own grandson.
"Thank you for today Mr. Kang. We really appreciate it." San thanked the man and bowed at him once again.
The old man chuckled "It's nothing, Mr. Choi, I enjoyed myself today." he said, waving at the teacher and at the kids before exiting the daycare.
You hid yourself the whole day, not wanting your father to see you in this state. When they finally left were you only able to breathe and relax.
Entering the classroom, you spotted Heejoong who was playing with San, waving at you when he saw you. Smiling at child, you went to him and picked him up "Are you ready for your lessons today?" the little boy innocently nod at your query "Okay, let's get going then."
You said your goodbye to San and went out, following the usual routine of his extracurricular classes, but at the end of his art lessons, he gave you an unexpected gift. Specifically an egg that he decorated.
It has flowers in it and in the middle was a writing, 'pretty auntie,' you gasped looking at Heejoong "You think I'm pretty?" hearing his say yes in a shy manner, making you squeal at his cuteness.
Then you noticed that he's holding an another egg in his hand "Whose that for?" you asked him, and he proudly showed you the egg with a 'mommy' written on it.
Your smile faltered a bit, it kind hit you that your own son thinks of you as an 'auntie.' Shaking your head, thinking that it's normal, it wasn't you that took care of him while he's growing up. It's okay.
"I knew I'd see you here." a familiar voice made you look up to see who it was. There she is, 'mommy.'
Heejoong ran to her and made grabby hands "Did you miss mommy that much?" hoisting up the child, she then faced you "I'm sorry I came here all of a sudden, I am done for today so I thought I'd come here and pick Heejoong up myself." Plastering on a smile, you told her that it's fine and the class has just ended, so she was just one time.
"I should get going then, take care on your way home." you were about to leave when someone tugged on your coat, looking down you saw it was Heejoong.
Minhee softly smiled "Looks like he doesn't want you to go. What about you visit our house and have your dinner there?" You were about to decline the offer when you heard Heejoong say a little "Please."
"How can I even say no to that?"
The two of you laughed, taking Heejoong's hand in each of yours. Nobody can see it, but the two of you felt it. A light bulb turning on, the switch being the little boy whose smiles are the cure for whatever negative feelings you're bearing.
You feel a bit nervous, silly considering you have been invading their privacy for years now. But hey, you're finally entering the place as a human, that's big enough of a difference.
Minhee told you to feel free to do whatever you want in the living room as she prepares dinner. You watched her move expertly in the kitchen, she really is admirable.
You were about to focus on Heejoong who was watching a kids show in the television when someone blocked your vision. About to tell the person off, you glanced up, only for your words to die down on your throat.
There stood a fun-sized man, looking at you menacingly. He slowly lifted his hand up, pointing an accusatory finger at you "What the hell is the meaning of this?"
You stood up from your seat, startling the girl working in the kitchen "Is there something wrong?" you waved your hands frantically "No, no. I just need some fresh air, would you mind if I step out on your balcony for a bit?"
"Go ahead, unnie." you thanked her and motioned for the man who was still standing in front of you, who did not blink even once, to follow you (which he thankfully did because this midget can be stubborn sometimes.)
Once you were out in the balcony, you opened your mouth to talk but he beat you to it.
"Is this why you've gone incognito for days? You came back to life?" you affirmed his questions and started explaining "I didn't know what happened as well, but, now that I'm alive. I want to negotiate with you."
He looks confused, so you decided to go further "I am a human again, so that means that I can help you resolve your burdens or regrets that you left in this world."
He was silent and unmoving for a few seconds, then he suddenly went inside, escaping from you. That man really is unpredictable. You tried following him, accidentally opening the sliding door a bit roughly causing a banging sound to resonate in the room.
Minhee, getting the shock of her life for the second time that night, asked you what is wrong once again.
"I saw a fruit fly, so I just uh-" you pretended to swat insects in the air "I'm killing them, we don't want any of those bad insects here." you laughed awkwardly. "Fruit fly? It's winter though." she tilted her head slightly, not knowing of what's going on inside your head.
In the doorstep of the apartment, a man was looking intently at the pairs of shoes. He caught sight of one that he's sure don't belong to either one of them. No, maybe he's just overthinking. He'll go inside first and take a look.
Right as he went in, he was ready to yeet his self out of there, picking his shoes up and putting it on, if it wasn't for his wife noticing him.
"Oppa, didn't you just got home? Are you going out again?" Hongjoong pretended like he's organizing the shoes in the doorstep "No, I was just cleaning up here, don't mind me." he stood up and went inside again, and there you are in the living room, standing and looking at him.
He avoided your gaze and head towards his office, calling out to his wife "I'll be inside here if you need me." forcing a smile before entering and locking his door shut.
Minhee's brows furrowed "What's up with him, he didn't even greet you. That was rude of him." she went to scold her husband but you held her back "It's fine, maybe he's tired. I don't mind."
Inside Hongjoong's office, separated tissue papers are already piling up in his table. Mumbling to himself "I took that damn therapy so I'd go home late and yet this still happened, just how unlucky can I get."
He brought his phone out and dialled Seonghwa's number, when his friend picked up the call, Hongjoong cursed at him.
"I'll kill you."
Back in the living room, you tried to ignore Hongjoong's looming presence in the house, shifting your attention to finding Wooyoung instead. But he's nowhere to be seen, deciding to call it a day, you'll just have to come back here tomorrow.
"Minhee, I'm sorry but I have to go now. Something urgent came up." she poked her head in the kitchen "Alright, we'll escort you down. Heejoong, come, let's see auntie off."
When Hongjoong heard the sound of a door opening and closing, he spied outside, seeing that no one was there anymore. He sighs in relief, now that his anxiety has calmed down, his hunger is surfacing up.
Minhee's still in the middle of cooking so he started rummaging the fridge, looking for anything to eat just to satisfy his grumbling stomach for a bit. He found none, but lucky for him, he saw hard boiled eggs on the table.
"This will do." he started cracking the eggs, noticing some scribbles on it but didn't think much of it. He started eating the egg and he groaned in satisfaction "Woah, this egg is delicious!"
Just as when you are out of the building, you remembered the egg that Heejoong gifted you this afternoon "The egg!" Minhee was puzzled for a minute before remembering what egg you're talking about, you must have forgotten it on the table.
"Let's go back and retrieve it."
Everything was in slow motion, two girls and one kid entering the apartment and Hongjoong enjoying his second egg, him spitting it out within seconds when he heard a loud yell.
"Yah!" was that you? Minhee gaped at you, bewildered that you had to shout like that, just how important that egg was to you?
Seeing his hardwork destroyed, Heejoong started crying "No, baby don't cry. Daddy didn't mean it." Minhee consoled the child.
'So that was Heejoong's drawing in the egg,' Hongjoong thought, then it was followed with a 'shit.'
You just registered what you did and bowed "I'm sorry I yelled at you." then you dashed out. "Wait unnie!" Minhee called out for you but it was too late, you're already gone. She turned to face Hongjoong with a disappointed look "Aren't you gonna say something?"
The man snapped out of it and hugged his son "I'm sorry I ate your egg, I'll make it up to you okay?" Heejoong looked at his father before hugging him back, accepting his apology.
"Why was unnie so upset? She didn't have to yell at you like that."
Hongjoong breathed out, "Well, of course she'd be upset, I ate her gift."
You texted Minhee that night, telling her that you're sorry for what you did and that it'll never happen again. She replied that it's fine, she understands your sentiment. She was just as mad as you are.
You praised the heavens for making Minhee a really considerate person. Hongjoong really is lucky to have her. Alright, moving on. There's no need to dwell on what happened, tomorrow morning, you have an important assignment to carry out.
The next day, you messaged Minhee, telling her that Heejoong accidentally spilled water on him so you need to get him extra clothes to change into.
'Okay, the password is 1024.'
You thanked her and immediately begun the hunt after entering the apartment.
"Wooyoung! Where are you? Let's talk!" you yelled, hoping that he'll hear you and show his self like he always did, but he didn't this time. He's really avoiding you, not this time though, you have your secret weapon.
You brought out Mingi's bells, ringing it twice before you heard a high pitched yell in the bedroom. Smirking and about to enter, you stopped, is it okay for you to enter their bedroom? It feels wrong, it's their space, even when you were a ghost, you never entered it out of respect.
The sound of Wooyoung's grunts made you close your eyes, opening the door and apologizing a million times in your brain. You opened your eyes and the first thing that you saw was a wedding portrait of Minhee and Hongjoong, you never had a portrait hung like this before.
Wooyoung complained from above you, cutting your train of thoughts. You looked up and saw him stuck like a glue in the ceiling.
"Found you!"
Wooyoung rolled his eyes at you "Did you really need to use that?" you clicked your tongue "I wouldn't have to if you're willing to cooperate."
You sat down in a chair and stared at Wooyoung "So are you ever gonna talk or not?" he avoided your gaze and you sigh, this one really is a tough nut to crack.
"Please talk to me, don't you trust me?" he finally looked at you.
"I am here to help, I was a ghost too, so I know that something heavy is keeping you here. Now that I am here as a human, let me do you a favor. We're friends after all." you gave him a soft smile, how can he even say no when you say things like that to him.
"Fine, but can you let me down first?" you were hesitant to do so "I won't run, I promise."
You are now sitting with Wooyoung in the living room, waiting for him to start talking.
"This was my apartment before your ex husband and his new wife moved in" he started "the thing was, I wasn't alone, I have a roommate, my bestfriend. He soon moved out when he got engaged, which I didn't mind at all."
You noticed his clasped hands, it was shaking, you wanted to hold and comfort him because right now, he looks so vulnerable.
"Choi San," the name made you sit straight "your co-worker at the daycare, he was my bestfriend."
"Congratulations on your engagement man!" Wooyoung said on the phone "I'm so happy that you won't die alone."
San chuckled on the other line "Hey, even if I don't get married, I'll still have you, so no, I won't die alone either way.
Wooyoung gagged at his friend's sweet words, the other man complaining before saying "Call me if you need me, I'll always be there for you. As the saying goes, bros before hoes."
He smiles at the fond memory, San has always been a good person, the complete opposite of his self. Thus, he considers himself lucky for managing to befriend a man like him.
"It was all good really, but you know how life goes, it's not all sunshine and rainbows."
It feels uncomfortable, like someone's been watching him. Wooyoung feels like something ominous is gonna happen.
The unsettling feeling in his stomach worsened when one night, he saw a shadow outside his house. This happened for the next few days, an unknown man who seems to be watching him was standing in the same exact spot every night. When Wooyoung can't take it anymore, he immediately called San, asking him for help.
"San, someone's outside my house. I think I'm getting stalked." the panic in his voice was audible "Help me, I'm scared."
"Are you home? I-" San was interrupted when a woman's voice spoke in the background. "Who's that? San, c'mon, it's time for bed, get off your phone." he heard San sigh.
"I'm sorry Wooyoung, I don't want my fiancé to get upset. I'll go there in the morning, for the mean time make sure that your doors and windows are locked."
That night, the sound of glasses breaking and a gunshot were heard throughout the house.
Early morning, San can only watch in despair as the supposedly best man for his wedding, his bestfriend's body was placed in a stretcher.
'Jung Wooyoung, 22 years of age, time of death: 11:32 PM'
"He blamed his self for my death, even cancelled his wedding because of it. That idiot's been apologizing for a year in front of my urn." he lowered his head, not wanting for you to see his tears.
"I want him to get married, he doesn't need to hold himself back just because of me."
You were stunned, a person like San who's always smiling so brightly has a baggage like that. Standing from your seat, dead set on helping two of your friends "let's tell him that then."
Wooyoung told you that San always went to the Columbarium during Saturdays, the day of his death. You devised a plan, now waiting for San while hiding behind the walls, Wooyoung standing right beside you, anxious to how his bestfriend's gonna react.
True to his words, San soon entered the building, holding a bouquet of white tulips, a flower that means forgiveness and peace. The man stopped in front of Wooyoung's urn, ready to apologize but he stilled when he saw piece of paper stuck on the glass.
He ripped it off and read its contents.
"You're here again, what are you gonna do? Apologize and cry like a baby? Man, you gotta stop this, if you really want to amend, then get married. That's the least that you can do for me. Go and live your life, Amicus Ad Aras."
San gasped, there's only one person who uses that term with him.
"Let's get a matching tattoo." Wooyoung randomly suggested while they're hanging out, he looked at his friend like he's crazy "Wouldn't that hurt?"
Wooyoung shrugged "Eh, doesn't matter, let's just hold each other's hand the whole time, like we're giving birth or something." San laughed at his friend's ludicrous idea "What do you plan to put then?"
His friend faced him with a bright smile on his face "I found this really cool phrase on the internet,"
"Amicus Ad Aras, it means life-long partner!"
San bit his lip and leaned his forehead on the glass that covers Wooyoung's urn, tightly gripping the spot where the permanent ink was engraved in his skin, tears uncontrollably falling down in his cheeks.
You checked on Wooyoung, holding his right thigh, trying hard to keep his tears from escaping his eyes. Whispering to him "It's alright to cry, let it out." That was all it takes for the dam in his eyes to break.
Two bestfriends torn apart by life and death, but even then, they'll still remain friends until the end.
Come Monday morning and San went up to you with an excited smile in his face, handing you a purple envelope, wondering what is it for "You are invited to my wedding this Saturday, be honored!"
You smiled widely and hugged him, congratulating him, your heart soared, happy that Wooyoung can finally rest after this.
The day of the wedding came, and there you saw an, Wooyoung standee? What?
"Ridiculous isn't it?" you heard a voice behind you, turning around to see Wooyoung scowling at the standee.
"I look fat in that, not to mention my sexiness wasn't highlighted-" you shushed his rants, ordering him to go where the best man is supposed to stand at. You know he's nervous, his shaky eyes and constant deep breaths are dead giveaway.
When San entered and walked down the red carpet, you watched Wooyoung as a soft smile appeared in his lips, a rare sight to behold.
During the entire ceremony, the look of genuine love and care was etched across the best man's face. He almost cried during the reception when San mentioned him but his tears went back in when his standee was mentioned. He hates that abomination, he'll burn that if he can touch it.
When the wedding has ended, Wooyoung approached you with grateful smile "I owe you big time." you put your hands on your hips "Hell yeah you do."
"You look pretty today." his compliment surprised you "What is this? You're hitting on a mother? That's low Woo." he tries to be nice to you and this is what he gets? You are really difficult to handle sometimes.
He held his pinky finger up "I hope that you'll resolve your own regrets as well. In another life, I'll treat you with good food and soju." you held your pinky up as well "That's a deal."
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The incessant knocking on Mingi's door was enough to wake him up from his slumber, god, who the hell is awake at 7:30 in the morning.
"Coming! Wait a minute!" he put his shoes on in a hurry, getting annoyed when the knocks didn't stop "I said wait a damn mi-" his words forgotten when he opened the door.
"Goodmorning, Song Mingi. Took a while to wake you up." the mysterious man smiled at him innocently. Mingi squinted his eyes, an intense look forming in his face "Hwang Hyunjin."
You were walking towards the market, Jeongyeon sent you to buy some much needed ingredients for today's lunch. You stopped on your tracks and hid behind a post when you saw a familiar mop of hair, slowly poking your head to take a peek of your mother who's currently crouched down to inspect the potatoes.
It's too early in the morning to play hide and seek, you eased a bit when you saw her stand up, your mother momentarily losing her balance. She held her knees and massaged it for a bit before walking away.
You watched her back get smaller in every step that she takes. She still does the grocery shopping even if her knees are getting worse every day. Does she not take her medications? What is Yeosang even doing?
That night you went to the place where you were raised. It's been a while since you visited here, the last one was when you played with Shiber, your family dog.
You looked inside the bag, checking if all the items are complete. Satisfied with its contents, you were about to place the bag in front of the gate when you heard three familiar voices. You slumped the bag clumsily in the wall and hid behind a car that was parked right in front of the house.
"It's nice going out for a night jog." that was you mother.
"Let's do this again sometime." now it's your father.
"You didn't even run, you just walked and whined the whole time." finally your brother.
It looks like they were about to enter the house when Shiber started barking, your heart raced. Shiber's good sense of smell isn't really helping your situation right now.
"Shiber! Hey! What's up?" your dad seems to be the one who's holding the dog's leash.
The dog's barks were getting closer "Is someone there?" your mother worriedly asked. Suddenly a cat went up the wall and hissed at the dog "It was just a cat. Come on Shiber, let's go inside it's cold."
"Oh, there's a package here." thank God Yeosang noticed the bag that was poorly flopped in the ground "Take it inside, hurry so we don't catch a cold." your mother said.
When you're sure that they are inside, you stepped out of your hiding place and did a once-over at the place before leaving. Your job here is done.
Inside the house, Yeosang spilled the contents of the bag in the table, looking at it to make sure that it's not poison or bomb.
"Eomma, look, they're medicines for your knees. There are seaweeds here for soup as well." his parents went to the table"Maybe Hongjoong gave this to us Jihyo, he's the only one besides us who knows about your condition." Daniel said.
Jihyo scoffed "Why would he give us that? I already told him that he doesn't need to involve his self to us." she then went back to the living room to sit down, only to see her husband's unlocked phone that is unfortunately flashing a photo of him and Heejoong.
"Daniel, what is this?" the man in question flinched, remembering that he forgot to lock his phone while he's looking at the photos he took when he went to the daycare.
"I asked you a question, what is the meaning of this?" Jihyo angrily asked "Whatever this is, delete this." she said, handing the phone to her husband, "No."
Yeosang's eyes widened when his father denied his mother's orders, "What?"
"I said no, I won't delete the photos. These are the only remembrance that I have of my grandson." Daniel argues "I miss him, and I-"
The woman only looked at him without any expression "You think I don't miss him?" the man went silent after that question. "I miss him too Daniel, he's my grandson too." the emotions that she spent burying finally coming up "He's the only reminder of my daughter, but we can't see him anymore. You know why." her knees felt weak, making her fall down on the floor.
Jihyo kept hitting her chest to ease the pain she's feeling right now "We shouldn't go near him anymore because he has a new family now. We promised that we'll let them move on, so please."
Yeosang went to his mother and hugged her tight, wiping her tears away while making sure that his own won't slide down his face. Daniel was left standing there, looking at the pictures for the last time before pressing the delete button.
He understands what his wife meant, this is a decision that they came up with in order to move on from your death.
You were woken up when your phone rang "Huh? But it's Sunday, I don't have work today." you reached for your phone groggily, looking at it only to see that Jongho's calling you.
"Hello? What do you want? It's too early for you t-"
"Someone's here for you."
You are unamused to say the least "You called me here for this?" Mingi looked offended at your question.
"This man has been lurking around here, even at your place for days, he's being suspicious." Yunho explained. "And that's enough reason for you to smack me in the head?" Jongho looked at him that screams 'Duh?'
Mingi rolled his eyes which made Yunho scoff "Okay, you two stop fighting. What do you need Mingi, you can just call me." He looks apprehensive "This is something that I have to tell you in person." he said while fiddling with his fingers.
Mingi never looked like this unless it's a serious topic, you looked over to where your two friends at "Yunho, Jongho, will you please leave the two of us alone for a while?"
They looked cynical, not fully trusting the man with you "Don't worry, he's my friend."
"Your friend? Where did you two even meet?" Jongho couldn't help but ask, because as far as he knows, you don't befriend just anyone, you're quite picky when it comes to friends. You almost told them that you met Mingi when you were a ghost lingering around here.
"I, uh," you looked at Mingi for help, he frowned at you before speaking up "She met me on her first day as a human. I am a shaman, things like that are naturally magnetic to me."
Yunho was about to question him further when you said that it was true, only then the boys let it go.
"All right, me and Jongho will go out for grocery shopping, if this weird guy," Yunho pointed a finger at Mingi "did anything, just scream and we'll be there."
You lowered Yunho's hand before Mingi bites it "I will, thank you and take care." you smiled at them, watching them leave.
"Okay, so what is it?" he took a deep breath "There'sthisguywhowantstotakeyouandyourson." You blinked rapidly not understanding anything from what he just said "Mingi, slowly."
"There's this guy, an exorcist, he wants to take you and your son because according to him 'it's way past your due days,' and I can't let him do that, so I was lingering around the places where you and your son might be so I can keep an eye on you two." he finished explaining, you were taking all the information in, but still, one thing in your mind is that Mingi's protecting you and Heejoong.
You held his face "Thank you for doing that Mingi, but don't put your life in danger okay?" you reminded him, he can be reckless at times and you don't want him to die young. He's precious to you, so you want him to enjoy life more. He smiled and held your hands, squeezing it a bit before placing it down in the table.
"Y/N, your 49 days will be up soon. Take your place now while you still have the time."
The door bursts open, revealing Yunho, Jongho, Seonghwa and Hongjoong.
"What do you mean 49 days?" Hongjoong asked, furious as to why he's hearing this just now.
You stood up from your seat, panic settling down in your guts "What are you guys doing here? I thought I told you to give us alone time, even Seonghwa and Hongjoong are here now."
"We went back to get our wallet, we forgot it in the kitchen. As for Seonghwa hyung and Hongjoong hyung, they happened to be around in the area, we told them that you're with a guy alone. That's why they tagged along." Jongho explained in one breath.
Hongjoong was looking at with you enraged eyes "Care to explain what's happening now?"
You look back at Mingi, gulping down the anxiety that's been pooling in your body. You sat down, taking a deep breath before finally opening your mouth to tell a story that you've been hiding from them.
"You are a ghost before you turned into a human? So that means you know what's happening around here?"
"You only have 49 days and now you've spent more than half of them?"
"You have to take back your place as a daughter, sister, wife, and mother for you to continue living?"
You sighed "To answer your questions, yes yes and yes."
Hongjoong's hands slammed down on the table "Why didn't you tell us sooner?! You only tell us now when you have what? 20 days left? Are you kidding me right now?!" you flinched, not knowing how to react to Hongjoong's anger.
Seonghwa tried calming him down to no avail "No, Seonghwa, I will not calm down. How can I even do that when I am about to lose the love of my life once again?!" hot tears are now streaming down in his face.
He looks at you and he literally feels his heart breaking, the thought of losing you once more is unbearable. He slumped his body back into his chair, face falling down in his hands.
Amidst the commotion, Jongho stood up "I'm sorry Y/N, I've been keeping quiet all this time because I respect you. But right now, I can't do that." he then proceeded to walk out of the door.
"Jongho, where are you going? Jongho!" you called out after him but he didn't respond nor come back.
You looked between Hongjoong and the door. Sensing an incoming panic attack when you felt a hand on your shoulder. "Go after Jongho, we'll take care of Hongjoong hyung." Yunho said, you nodded and thanked him, running after Jongho.
You saw him walking a bit faster than usual "Jongho, wait!" you grabbed him and turned to face you, face full of tears and lips trembling.
"Wait? For what? You leaving us again? I'm not gonna do that," his shoulders shaking from too much crying "I will head to Aunt Jihyo, tell her everything and make you take your place back in this world."
He turned to walk but you stopped him once again "No, please, Jongho don't." you hugged him "Let me go Y/N, I will not sit back and watch you die all over again." he said, shrugging you off him. Your hug loosened, knees giving out causing you to drop on the cold concrete.
"I don't have any place in this world anymore!" you yelled, Jongho stopped moving, looking at you with wide teary eyes, not following what you just said.
It's true though, the moment you left this world, traces of you started to fade away and be replaced with something, someone else.
You were always with Hongjoong and Heejoong even when they can't see you. You watched them walked the same path every single day, until Minhee came in their life and opened up a new path for them to explore.
"Hey you should walk faster! The temperatures too low, you might catch a cold!" you nagged at Hongjoong who was walking like a turtle, pouting angrily when he didn't do as you said (you can't blame him, he can't hear you.) You lowered yourself a bit "Please tolerate daddy a bit more, okay? He's getting old, that's why he walks slowly."
After dropping Heejoong at the daycare, Hongjoong proceeded to go to work, you following him, wanting to see him off as well when he suddenly stopped walking.
You looked at him "Why? What's wrong?" you asked when he looked up at the sky and tears started to form in his eyes.
"Y/N, I can't do this alone. I need you here." the emotions within him were too much too handle, making him kneel down, clutching his chest.
Your heart shattered at his broken voice, you wanted to hug him, do anything just to comfort him but you can't.
You were his switch, the one that turns the light in his heart, now that you're gone, everything in him is surrounded by darkness.
"Excuse me, are you sitting with someone?" Hongjoong looked up from his drink "No, I'm alone." he answered, the girl in front of him smiling "Is it okay if I seat here with you then?" he shook his head a yes, the girl seating down and a lady serving her two bowls of jajangmyeon.
He saw it and tried to tell the girl that he's not gonna eat, she only looked at him with a frown "Who told you that I'm sharing? These are mine, the servings here are small so I have to order two to satisfy my cravings."
Hongjoong watched as she slurped the noodles, silently laughing to himself with how unbelievable this girl is.
You watched how he smiled at her presence. Everytime they bump in the streets, he would always sport this soft look on his face. You felt it, the light in him slowly shining again, and it's all because of Minhee.
When they got married, the walk to the daycare became livelier, them lifting Heejoong up and smiling together.
"They love each other Jongho, I can't just go and ruin it for them." you said while you desperately tried to wipe your tears away, your friend felt bad. He knew that among all this, you are the one that is affected the most.
Just as he went to you, wanting to hug and make you stand up, someone's shouting for the both of you to move out of the way.
A crash was heard, when you opened your eyes, you saw Jongho's pained face, he protected you from the accident. He looked at you, checking if you are okay before turning his head, wanting to see who was the rider, only for his eyes to widen.
"Aunt Jihyo?"
"Jongho?" your mother stood up and inspected him, noticing that someone was in his embrace, the man slowly let go, revealing you to the woman. She gasped, hands automatically covering her mouth, her eyes watered and she couldn't hold back a sob. There you are, the person that she desperately wanted to see once more.
"Eomma." your voice made her throw her body to you, engulfing you in a hug, her cries echoed throughout the empty streets but she no longer cares. Her precious daughter is back, that's all that matters. She brought you back home after Jongho said that he'll be fine on his own.
Your father and brother's mouth are wide open, not catching up on what's going on when they saw you. "Zip your mouths, a fly might get in." your mother berated them.
Your brother was the first to react "Noona!" he immediately went to you and hugged you, making you fall on your back. You laughed, since when did he became so strong?
Your father went up to you next "Is that really you, Y/N? Or am I dreaming?" you pinched your father in his nose, making him yelp in pain "Oh my god, it's true."
Jihyo rolled her eyes at his husband and son's antics "Don't mind these idiots Y/N, come, let's go to your room. You might be tired, let's rest."
She dragged you towards your room, making you lie down with her following suit. She held you like how a mother would hold her baby, gentle and warm.
"I missed this," your mother spoke "I have been praying everyday to the gods, wishing that I'll be able to hold you like once again."
You watched your mother cry all night, the dried tears in her lids a reminder of it. You stared at your mother's face "Eomma, I'm sorry, please stop crying anymore." you whispered.
She shifted in her position, turning towards the other direction, making her back face you instead. You saw how she gripped the pillow she's holding tightly, murmuring a quiet whimper of your name.
You closed you eyes, calming yourself down, you need to be strong for their sake as well. You lied down next to her, curling up in a fetal position. Wanting to feel the presence of your mother even if she can't feel yours.
"I missed this too." you said, closing your eyes and basking in her warmth.
The moment was cut short when the door was opened rather abruptly, Yeosang and Daniel jumping on the bed to join the cuddle. Your brother went and lied beside you, while your father settled beside your mother.
"You're having fun and didn't even bothered invited us." your father sulked before he fell of the bed, courtesy of Jihyo elbowing him.
"Hey, what was that for!?" your mother rolled her eyes "For being whiny."
Everyone in the room laughed, the situation's uncanny but no one won't question a miracle, preferring to enjoy the moment instead.
You woke up when the sun's light hit your face, and just on time your mother opened the door of your room "You're awake? Come to the table, let's eat."
"Yes eomma. I'll be out in a bit." you got up and only then did you notice that the room was still the same as before.
Your materials for sketching are still intact and untouched, and on top of your drawer are items for a baby boy. You inspected it, thinking that they bought it for Heejoong, but never got the opportunity to give it to him.
You put the item down in a hurry when your mother opened the door once again "What's taking you so long?" her smile faltering for a bit when she saw that you were looking at the baby clothes and shoes. Smiling at her, you gently pushed her, saying that it was nothing.
"Your food is always the best." humming as you chewed "It's kind of bland, don't you think?" you're brother said, making your mother look at him with disdain.
She then reached out for his plate "Don't eat if you're gonna complain." Yeosang immediately protected his food "No, I was just joking!" Looking at the foods made you remember Minhee "Eomma, can you please make jajangmyeon? Like a lot of them." you requested.
"Well yes, I can. I need to buy ingredients first-" you hugged her, cutting her sentence off "Thanks eomma, you really are the best." you kissed her cheek before standing up. Your father saw you getting ready to leave "Where are you off too?" you glanced at him while you fixed your shoes "Out! I'll be back before dinner time!"
Hongjoong woke up the next day with a pounding head, scanning his surroundings, looks like he passed out last night while he was busy crying his eyes out.
You were nowhere in sight, 'Why would she be here? After I yelled at her last night, there's no way she would want to see me.'
He was about to wake the others up, especially Mingi and Yunho who were sleeping on the floor while cuddling when his phone dinged, someone messaging him this early.
Opening his phone, his nerves went overdrive when he saw that your mother texted him, wanting to meet up at a nearby cafe. Fixing his appearance, he left the building in a hurry, anxious about what your mother wanted to do or say for her to directly message him.
He entered the cafe, seeing your mother patiently waiting made him want to run and back out, but then he's no man if he did that. He's kinda tired of running away, maybe it's time for him to face the problems that he had been ignoring for the longest time.
"Goodmorning mother." she smiled at him in return "I'm sorry to call you this early, I was out shopping when I remembered that your workplace is near here." she said, noticing Hongjoong's puffy face. He smiled a bit before sitting down, feeling embarrassed that he's not looking that great today.
"I don't want to delay this any longer but I think you're already aware of this," Hongjoong listened intently to her "Y/N has come back to life right?"he took a sharp intake of breath before nodding, head hanging low.
"You're doing it again."
Hongjoong's eyes are focused on the floor, his head facing downwards while tears continue to pour out of his eyes, staining the carpet he's currently sitting on. A baby boy in the middle of the living room matches his own tears, like he knows what his father's doing.
"You want us to take care of him?" Jihyo calmly asked the kneeling man in front of her, Daniel looking at him sympathetically.
Hongjoong nodded his head a yes "Please." he said, then he started getting into a bowing position when Jihyo stopped him.
"No." her voice hard but shaky "You'll give your child to us then what? You'll try and take your own life again."
"I can't do this, I-" the sound of a slap resonated in the room, Daniel stood up as well to pull his wife back from the poor man, but the woman won't budge.
She was shaking from anger and sadness, she wants to help Hongjoong of course, she thinks of him as her son as well, but she won't tolerate his impulsive, emotion-driven actions.
"Listen to me Hongjoong," she pointed a finger at him "you will continue to live your life and raise your son. Don't come to us anymore." after that, she turned her back on the man, walking towards her bedroom.
Daniel looked at Hongjoong, wanting to comfort him but also understanding his wife's point of view. He ultimately decided to follow his wife, leaving the crying man alone in the living room.
Hongjoong meekly raised his head, a questioning look in his face "That," Jihyo sighed "you always look down when you see me. Lift your head, please."
"I-" he gulped "I don't deserve to raise my head around you, after everything that I've done." Jihyo held Hongjoong's hands that was placed on top of the table.
"Exactly, you did a lot for me, for us, and I am telling you this as your mother. Raise your head high." he did what Jihyo just said, albeit a bit hesitant, she smiled, that's a step. Letting go of the man's hand, she began talking about the things that she'd always wanted to say to the him.
"I know everything's been difficult to you, especially now that Y/N is back, don't carry everything by yourself. You always did that," she smiled at him softly "give yourself a break and let other people help you."
At the day of your burial, everyone was crying but one person, Kim Hongjoong.
"Isn't he the husband? Why is he so quiet?"
"Doesn't he care about his wife at all?"
He hears everything, the gossips, judgemental statements, but he doesn't care. He feels so empty inside that he can't cry anymore. He's drained for goodness sake.
Your mother won't let that slide though, Jihyo went to the people who were talking shit behind Hongjoong's back and threatened them to either stop or leave.
When the burial ceremony has ended, Hongjoong bowed to your family, leaving and using work as an excuse. As he was driving, he stopped at a red light, he feels antsy so he turned the radio on, an energetic song played.
He started singing along to distract himself "Meomchugo sipeun sungani wado, meori han beon sseureo neomgigo oechyeo," the red light turning green but he stayed still "Hakuna Matata yo!" his singing turned into wailing, banging his head on the wheel. The cars behind him started beeping, wanting him to move, but he didn't, he can't.
You were there actually, your specter form crying with him, you knew all along that he was keeping everything in. Maintaining a calm image, resulting in him breaking his self in the process.
Hongjoong couldn't help the tears that started forming in his eyes, when he lost you, he thought he lost everything as well. He had forgotten what you told him a long time ago.
You were whining loudly in the living room, looking for your popcorn and wanting Hongjoong to sit next to you so you can start the movie "I'm here, I'm here, calm down."
"Why should I calm down? You're taking too long!" you yelled at him, your pregnancy hormones really making you moody these days. He laughed and put an arm around you, caging you against him protectively when the rain started pouring outside.
"Oh, it's raining," you tapped in his chest "did you know the saying 'there a rainbow after the rain?'" you asked him excitedly "Hm, I think I heard it before but I'm not sure, what about it?" he said, humoring you so you won't throw a tantrum.
"For example, if I die before you," he opened his mouth to complain about that horrid example of yours but you stopped him from doing so "let me finish!" he closed his mouth, letting you continue your philosophy in life.
"If I died, just cry. And then go back up again, because if you didn't, I'll be sad even after death, and you don't want that do you?" he shook his head a no, you smiled and rubbed your swollen belly "Besides, I already met you and now we're having a child, I am already happy and contented with my life."
Now that he thinks about it, you were a ghost that was always looking out for them. That means you saw how pathetic he was, and he made you sad because he didn't follow your advice.
"Hongjoong, even if you got remarried, it's okay. I was one of the people who pushed you to do it. So don't blame yourself anymore."
This conversation is something that your mother and husband really needed, even if you can't see it, it's fine, as long as the both them resolve their old flame.
Mingi stirred when he felt something ominous in his sleep, he finally opens his eyes, being greeted with an unfamiliar ceiling, cold feeling in his back, and an arm around his waist. He looked at his side to see Yunho still sleeping peacefully.
Cringing at the sight, he never thought that his first cuddle ever will be with a guy. He took the initiative of waking everyone up, slapping them in the face.
Seonghwa groaned in annoyance "Don't you have a better way of waking us up?"
"Oh? Hongjoong hyung's gone?" Jongho's raspy morning voice managed to croak the words out.
Suddenly Yunho heard something shaking, he looked over the counter to see a child's figurine moving by itself. "What in the paranormal shit is this?!" his loud voice scaring everyone, he immediately stood up, grabbing his phone to record the phenomenon.
Child's figurine?
"Shit!" Mingi cursed out loud, garnering everyone's attention "The daycare!" he exits the building with the others following him despite the confusion and sleepiness.
A man wearing all black was peacefully observing the daycare when he heard loud footsteps approaching him "Ah, you're here."
He was suddenly lifted off of the ground by the seething tall man "I told you not to touch them right? This is my territory, back off." Mingi growled lowly before harshly putting the smaller man back down.
"Mingi, what the hell, why are you running off like that..." Yunho's voice trailed off when he saw an unfamiliar looking man "Who is this?"
The stranger bowed at him, introducing his self as Hwang Hyunjin, an exorcist. Seonghwa and Jongho soon joined the scene, the tension between Mingi and Hyunjin is so thick that even a knife can't cut through it.
Jongho whispered a question, not wanting to talk out loud because it seems inappropriate to do so "What's happening?" despite his low voice, Mingi still heard it.
"I'll tell you what's happening," he pointed an accusatory finger at the man "this guy wants to take Y/N and Heejoong away." The other three looked at Hyunjin, ready to fight him and the man scoffed, thinking that he has more idiots to deal with.
"Listen, I came here because you can't even do your job right-" it was Mingi's turn to scoff "Do my job right? I just sent 7 people in the other world this month, what about you?" he went closer to him "I believe that your area is full of loitering ghosts. So go back to where you came from and do your own job. Mind your own business man."
Hyunjin left while muttering an "I'll be back soon." Angry that he was humiliated by a lowly shaman like that.
Mingi heard clapping behind him, seeing that he has an audience with an impressed look on their faces.
"Didn't take you for a fighter Mingi."
"You looked cool for a moment."
"I approve of you and your balls now."
Minhee went inside a cafe, wanting a dose of caffeine to energize her for today's job hunting when she heard some parents from the daycare gossiping.
"I heard that Miss Shin's husband was cheating on her?" one of the mother's said in an ear piercing high pitched tone.
"Really? With whom?" an another one asked "They said that it was the new kitchen helper. Somebody saw them crying at the playground one night."
Minhee slammed her hands down at their table, scaring the nosey parents. "Oh, I'm sorry did I startle you?" she faked a smile at them "I suggest you stop talking nonsense now or do you want to see yourselves behind the bars?"
The mother with an irritating high pitched tone had the audacity to talk back "We were just saying the truth, you should be grateful that you heard it fr-" Minhee slammed her hands back down at the table again, effectively shutting the old woman up.
"You should be grateful that I'm not gonna sue you for slander." turning on her heels, she walked away from the cafe, appetite lost. That can't be true, why would you cheat with her husband when the two of you are friends. That's not possible, you're a good person. Those people just have nothing to do with their lives.
Back at the daycare, an event is taking place, apparently, today is fruit day, where the children would bring fruits that represents them and later they would have fruits for snacks. You were excited when you saw the strawberries, you loved eating them specially when you were pregnant so you thought that your son would love it as well but you're gravely mistaken.
When you were giving out snacks to the children, you were about to give Heejoong extra strawberries when San stopped you from doing so "He's allergic to strawberries, he can't eat them."
To say you were disappointed was an understatement, as the day goes by, you realize that you know nothing about your own son. His likes and dislikes, illnesses, nothing. To think that you wanted to be a mother to him in your own way before your 49 days end.
Before you fall into a pit of depression, your mother called you, telling you that she's outside the daycare, bringing the jajangmyeon you requested.
You went outside, greeting your mother with a hug, you took the bag containing the jajangmyeon and thanked her. "Wait, you're working here?" she asked and you smiled before answering yes, you work at the daycare that your son attends to.
Looking at her expression, you knew she was about to protest "Eomma, don't worry. I'm doing fine here and I'm enjoying what I'm doing." She sighed, skeptical about what you've just said but accepted it either way.
When dismissal came, you went too Heejoong, showing the jajangmyeon "I brought a gift for your mommy, do you think she will like it?" you asked the young boy, him smiling brightly and adorably cheering a small "Yes!"
After Heejoong's extracurricular classes, the two of you head to his home, hand in hand, excited to give the food to Minhee. You texted her, telling her that you're close, to which she responded that she's already home. Upon arriving, you punched the passcode of their apartment, entering warily in case that Hongjoong's inside.
Quickly scanning the area, seeing that he's not home yet made you sigh in relief. Calling out Minhee's name, she yelled that she's in the kitchen. You put a finger in your mouth, telling Heejoong to be quiet so that you can surprise his mommy, the child nodding eagerly at your request.
The two of you sneaked your way into the kitchen, poking your head to peek at what Minhee's doing, when you saw that she was busy preparing something, you and Heejoong yelled a "Surprise!"
"Oh my god! You scared me!" Minhee said while she breathed rapidly, calming down her palpitating heart "What do you mean by surprise?"
You winked at her and placed the bag on top of the table, she looked at you before opening it, a bright smile forming in her face when she saw that it has containers full of jajangmyeon. "My favorite!" happiness visible in her face "Where did you get this?" You watched as she took a container out of the bag and grabbed a pair of chopsticks. She took a bite of the jajangmyeon and hummed in delight "That's homemade, enjoy."
"I will, thank you unnie, this is delicious!"
Minhee deserves this much, after all the things she did for your family, this is the least that you can do to repay her kindness.
While walking back home, you saw a restaurant that sells chicken, you remembered Yeosang and that legendary chicken fight you had with him back then.
"Kang Yeosang!" the sound of a door slamming echoed throughout the house "Did you eat the chicken in the fridge?" you entered his room and accused him.
He removed his headphones "Yeah, I did, what about it?" he looked at you with a bored expression that made you sneer at him"That's mine. I was planning to eat that after school!"
"It doesn't have your name on it, so I don't see the problem." he put his headphones back on and resumed playing the music he's listening to, not taking the disrespect, you threw a pillow in head, resulting in his headphones to fall in the floor, breaking it in the process.
"Yah!"
You entered the restaurant, buying a portion of your brother's favorite chicken. Heart light and happy for the first time after you've turned into a human, you went home with a clear mind, followed by curiosity when you heard Yeosang yelling "It's the best music company here, why can't we just talk to Hongjoong hyung?"
You hid the chicken behind you, entering the house "Don't disturb your brother-in-law, he's b-" showing yourself to them made them shut up "What's with Hongjoong?" you asked, the two sharing suspicious looks.
"Y/N, go back to your room, t-" your mother wasn't able to finish her sentence for the second time when Yeosang spoke over her "I want to land an internship at Hongjoong hyung's company." He's already a graduating student? Time flies so fast.
"Let's talk to Seonghwa instead, I'm sure he's not that busy compared to Hongjoong." your mother sighed "Y/N you don't have to do this."
You scrunched your nose, walking over to your brother and giving him a side hug "I want to, my brother deserves it," you then lifted your hand that was holding the bag of chicken "and I also bought him an advanced gift for his internship."
His eyes widened before slowly lifting his hand as well, the same brand of chicken in his hands which you didn't notice before. Your mother looking at the two of you before commenting "You really are siblings."
Your eyes followed Yeosang's figure as he went to the kitchen, opening the fridge only to see chicken inside. He stopped for a moment before getting it out, pulling a leg and placing it on a plate, then he went to the direction of your room.
"What are you doing? That's your favorite part, just eat it!" knowing that he can't hear you but you still wanted to scold him.
He entered your room, placing the plate in your bed "Noona, you know I never give the leg to just anyone right?" he put his face on his hands, his breathing went erratic and his shoulders quaked "I'll give you all the leg part if you come back."
You sat beside him, the piece of chicken between the two of you, listening to him cry and beg for you to come back made you realize just how much your brother means to you. Regretting the times you fought instead of spending quality time together.
The both of you laughed, realizing that you bought each other the exact same thing, "Let's just eat together while we binge watch a movie, I'll come with you tomorrow to the company."
The next morning, you called Seonghwa, telling him to help Yeosang enter their music company as an intern, in which he said that it's not a problem since he's the boss's right hand man. Rolling your eyes at his words, you entered the building with your brother who looks nervous, you tapped his nose, telling him to calm down and that he'll do well, he's a remarkable person afterall.
You went to the receptionist to ask for Seonghwa, while waiting, you heard two employees gossiping about someone, being the nosey person you are, you decided to listen to their conversation, ears perking up when you heard a familiar name.
"I can't believe that Hongjoong sunbaenim's finally taking a step up in his therapy."
"True, entering a studio that triggers your trauma is not a joke."
Hongjoong's getting treatment? That's news to you, a good one at that. He always declined therapy, saying that it's just a waste of time and money, but now that he's actually doing it, you felt relieved, knowing that he's moving forward with his life.
"Find him!" a loud voice startled you, looking around the floor to see Eden, Hongjoong's senior, panicking "Tell me if you find Hongjoong, we need to help him calm down."
Before you can even think, your body moved on its own, finding yourself in the third floor near the fire exit, you know he's there. That is where he goes whenever he experiences panic attacks, you've been with him during those times, watching him writhe in pain, gripping his chest while he gasped for air. Not being able to do anything for him.
As you opened the door of the fire exit, you witnessed the exact same thing that you saw countless of times, but this time, you are able to do something for him.
You held him in your arms, wiping the tears and sweat in his face, brushing his hair back and telling him to breathe. You felt him hold your hands tightly, it hurt a bit, but you endured it, the pain he is in now is nothing compares to a small squeeze.
"I'm here, Hongjoong, breathe." you rocked him back and forth, your presence and voice calming him down a little. You spent a few minutes with him like that before the door opened, revealing a worried Seonghwa.
Hongjoong was sent to the hospital with you never letting go of his hand, you are thankful that Yeosang let you be with him, telling you that he's fine all by himself and he'll bring you good news later.
Minhee soon arrived at the hospital, the scene she saw wasn't something that she expected, you holding her husband's hand, when you noticed where she was looking, you immediately retrieved your hand back, placing it in your lap.
"I'm here, you can go now. Thank you for watching over Hongjoong." Minhee coldly said to you. You bowed to her, not really wanting to leave but you don't have any other choice.
Yeosang called you a few hours later, proudly telling you that he landed the internship, you smiled, happy for your brother's achievement, you congratulated him, telling him that you already knew that he could do it. He ended the call and you sighed, at least there's one positive thing that happened today.
You head to the direction of Yunho and Jongho's resto, wanting to be with them, when you are at your lowest, they are your go to person (Hongjoong's included but of course you can't really go to him now.)
As you entered the place, you saw not just two but three people in the room "What are you doing here Mingi?"
"Am I not allowed to be here? I am friends with them now, so.." he trailed off, one look at you and he can immediately tell that something's wrong. He stood up from his seat and guided you to the counter, making you sit down while the other two went closer to you.
You vented everything out to them, you trust them so much that you're willing to tell every detail of today's happenings, "I feel so bad, she thinks of me as her friend." you said, rubbing your temples when Jongho spoke "Well, you're not cheating. So, I don't think there's anything wrong with it."
Yunho nodded before letting out his own thoughts "But you know, she's the only one who doesn't know who you are, she's being left in the dark, don't you think it's unfair for her."
"I know that but-" your sentence was discontinued when your phone rang, you immediately answered the call, hearing Hongjoong's shaky voice, "Y/N, I told Minhee everything, I'm sorry."
Feeling a bit better, Hongjoong opened his eyes, albeit his vision is a bit blurry he noticed someone who was sitting beside him, his instict made him call your name out.
"No, it's Minhee," Hongjoong shot up from his bed, looking at his wife with wide eyes, her smiling sadly in return "it looks like you're fine now, let's go home?"
When they entered the apartment, Minhee dropped the ticking bomb, exploding everything in one go.
"Oppa, are you cheating on me with Yuri? Is it because she looks like your late wife? Please be honest with me." she asked while keeping her voice low as possible, not wanting to wake Heejoong up.
Her pleading eyes made Hongjoong avoid eye contact, "No, I'm not cheating on you but I-" should he say it? Should he just tell her everything or continue lying?
"You what? Oppa, please don't make this harder than it's supposed to be." Minhee feels like she's being punched in the gut right now, but what Hongjoong said next feels like a sledgehammer was thrown at her.
"I really am not cheating on you. I would never do that, but the pick-up helper, the new kitchen helper, her name's not Yuri. It's Y/N."
Your hands shook so much at the information that your phone slid from your grasp, Yunho barely catching it. Placing your face in your hands, you let out a shaky sigh, trying not to have a breakdown right now.
"I think you just jinxed her Yunho." Mingi absentmindedly said which made Jongho smack the back of his head, mouthing him that it's not a good time for a joke.
The bell clinked, all four of you faced the person who just entered, seeing Minhee with a devastated expression on her face "Can I have a bottle of soju please?"
You all sat awkwardly as Minhee continues to down shot after shot "Right, I'm not allowed here anymore am I?" she chuckled "I'm such an idiot, I feel like I'm the biggest moron on earth." she drunkenly said.
"Minhee, I-" she held her hand up "No, I'm not finished yet," she hiccupped "Was it fun though? Did you all have fun deceiving me? Did you enjoy the show?" she threw her head back laughing, the sounds from her mouth is a complete contrast from tears in her eyes.
"It's fine, I was about to file a divorce anyway." that news shocked all of you, looking at her like she just said the worst joke of the century.
You went closer to her "Minhee, why would you get a divorce?" she looked down, contemplating what to say "I guess I'm tired. When we got married, I thought I was enough for him, I thought I would be able to replace you."
Minhee reminisced about the times when she let her head float in the clouds, thinking that she was so special, not listening to the people who told her that marrying a widower won't do her good. She closed her ears to all of that, following her feelings for the man that she's been in love with ever since she met him in college.
"Excuse me, this is yours right?" a man with a bright blue hair and shaved eyebrow approached her, she looked at his extended hand "Pikachu!"
Minhee snatched the keychain in Hongjoong's hands, the man chuckling at her "Don't glare at me like that, I just thought you liking pokemon is cute." he smiled at her, and she felt her heart skip a beat at that.
Their encounter made Minhee notice Hongjoong more in their campus, his intense gaze and charismatic smile, paired with his flashy outfits, making her attached to the man.
Minhee held the box of chocolates in her hand, her friends encouraging her to got her man, just as she was about to go to him, she overheard his friends, "You act all high and mighty now that you've got a pretty girlfriend?"
The girl slowed her steps down, smile faltering, guess someone already stole his heart huh?
"Everytime I look at our wedding photo in the bedroom, all I feel is unhappiness. Yuri-" she paused, remembering that wasn't your name "Y/N, I feel unloved. I think that's enough reason, right?" she looked at you with so much misery in her eyes.
"What about Heejoong?"
"Don't worry, I'll still take care of him even in the distance."
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Hongjoong didn't stopped Minhee when she started packing her bags, he didn't beg for her to stay even when Heejoong violently cried when he saw his mommy exit the apartment. He doesn't have any right to do that, he'll just let her go.
Just before Minhee opens the door, ready to walk out of Hongjoong's life, she looked back at him, wanting to tell him her sentiments.
"Maybe we are too considerate to each other to the point that we didn't have the time to communicate and truly understand each other. It's okay though, be happy with your one true love."
Then she left. It's like he went back to the start, all alone with his son without you around.
You spent almost a week in your room, locked up, not wanting to get out or see anyone.
"What is wrong with her?" Jihyo asked, which the two men of the house just shrugged, not knowing the answer as well. Suddenly, the loud honking of a car is heard outside their house, Yeosang peeked through the windows, seeing Yunho and Jongho with a bright red sports car.
"Eomma, noona's friends are here." hearing that made Jihyo go out, asking them what are they doing here "We're here for Y/N of course." Jongho answered.
"She's locked up in her room for days now, we don't know how to make her get out." Daniel sighed, concern etched on his face.
Yunho grabbed something inside the car, pulling out a meme-y glasses and a fake gun, he put the glasses on and fixed his hair, cheekily holding the gun.
"May I go inside your house?"
Yeosang immediately replied with a no, judging the taller man so hard when his mother pinched him "Go ahead, Yunho."
"Jongho, get the car ready." the younger saluting at the taller man's order.
Yunho walked like a mafia man, your family staring at him with only one thing in their minds, 'what the hell is wrong with that guy?'
You were having your alone time for the nth hour now, wallowing in self-pity when someone yelled outside your room, "This is the NBI! Don't move!" then your door got destroyed, Yunho falling face first due to the force he put into breaking your door open.
He got up, forehead red due to the impact of his fall, and pointed the gun at you "You're coming with me whether you like it or not, missy." before you can even say anything, Yunho already dragged you out of your room "Yunho wait!"
"Start the engine Jongho! I got her!" upon hearing his name, he immediately revved the car, Yunho pushing you in the backseat, not giving you much time to react when they drove away, Jongho yelling a "We're going for a drive!"
"Wow, they managed to do that." amusement lacing Daniel's voice, Yeosang only rolled his eyes before entering inside, shrieking when he saw the damage Yunho did.
"Where do you plan on taking me?" you asked the two that are currently sitting in the front "I didn't even grabbed my phone or coat." Yunho turned his head towards you "You don't need a damn phone, and I'll buy you a coat." he said, pulling out his black card, flexing it to you, when Jongho mocked him out of the blue, "That's all you have."
"You're lucky you're driving, or else I might have just-" Jongho clicked his tongue "Are you sure you want to continue what you're saying?"
The taller man looked away, suddenly interested in the view outside, not really wanting a taste of Jongho's strength. For the first time that week you laughed, finding your friends hilarious, the two men smiled softly, happy that they're able to cheer you up.
"Y/N," Jongho spoke as he looked at you through the front mirror "you only have a few days left right?" You nodded at his question "Let's make the most of it."
The two brought you in a very beautiful park, you went bicycle riding, rode the zip line, and even tried sky gliding. Yunho and Jongho recording every moment, wanting to save the memories that they never got back then.
Resting in the bench near a lake, sandwiched between the bears that you love so much, the three of you were enjoying the gorgeous scenery in front of you.
Jongho was the first one to break the silence "Y/N, don't you want to live?" hearing the question, Yunho looked at you ardently, wanting to hear your final answer.
You continued staring at the view, "I want to live," the two perked up at your answer "to be honest, I don't want all of you to move on from me so easily, but as days passed by, seeing you forget me and live your life was painful. At the same time I was thankful, I don't like seeing you guys cry, seeing you smiling and laughing made me happy as well."
Taking a deep breath, you continued your small speech "I actually appreciate you guys so much, I never got the chance to thank you for encouraging Hongjoong to remarry."
You watched as Jongho pushed Hongjoong out of the resto "Are you just gonna let those flower wilt? Go and get her before someone else does!"
Yunho went out and began pushing Hongjoong down the stairs "You like her hyung right? If she makes you happy then we'll support you, Y/N wouldn't want you to sulk over something like this."
"Alright, thank you guys. I really am grateful to you." Hongjoong then ran, probably to where Minhee is right now.
There was a twinge of hurt in your heart but you ignored it, wanting to be happy for him. You then looked over to your friends, giving them a thumbs-up.
"If it wasn't for you two, then he wouldn't have the courage to ask Minhee out. Let alone ask her hand for marriage," you laughed a little, knowing how much of a scaredy cat Hongjoong is "you gave him a chance to love again and not be alone."
"Then-"
"I want to live but I won't do it," your voice full of conviction "I won't take my place back, I am contented that I got to talk, touch, and live with the people that I love. That's more than enough for me." You suddenly can't breathe, the two burying you in a tight bear-hug.
"If that's your decision then we'll respect that." Jongho said before they pulled you up, "It's getting dark, we should go to our last destination."
Jongho parked the car in front of your house "This is the last place?" you asked them, Yunho nodded, telling you to get out of the car and help them carry the take-outs.
"We're home!" Yunho's loud voice caught the attention of the people inside the house.
Yeosang blocked the doorway "No, you're banned from entering," Yunho frowned "you destroyed our door." you pushed Yeosang out of the day which made Yunho snicker, "We brought dinner! Let's eat!" you called out.
Setting up the table, cans of beer and bottles of soju are out for a fun night. Everyone was having a good time when Yunho suggested for a photo opt. You all agreed, taking a 'family photo' as Jongho called it.
The night ended with you doing a skin care routine with your family, today is full of fun, you'll definitely miss this. The next day, it was Hongjoong who fetched you from your home, he even brought Heejoong to persuade you to come with him.
"We're going to the amusement park." he claimed, making Heejoong squeal in delight beside you.
As you entered the amusement park, different rides and booths greeted you, you lifted Heejoong up and pointed at the carousel. "Do you want to ride that?" you asked him and he nodded, thrilled to be playing in such a nice place, "Let's go then!"
Hongjoong watched as you and Heejoong rode the carousel, waving at him excitedly, him returning the wave with a small smile and soft look in his eyes.
The three of you went to a shooting booth next, Hongjoong taking the lead and failing.
"I understand that you want to show your cool and charismatic side to your son," you handed Heejoong over to him and snatched the gun away from him, aiming and shooting at the targets with accuracy, "but this is how you do it."
Heejoong clapped his hands while the man beside you tried to defend himself, saying that he has a bad eyesight. The owner of the booth was impressed by your skills, giving you three mickey mouse hairbands, "Here, a prize and extra gift for the adorable family."
'Adorable family,' that sounded like music to your and Hongjoong's ears.
You bowed and accepted the items, putting the hairband in your head first, next is Heejoong, then.. pausing for a bit when you were about to put the accessory in Hongjoong's head. His eyes stared into yours, you see it, the love and tenderness in his beautiful brown eyes, only for you.
Snapping out of it, you gently placed the headband in his head, the sweet moment disrupted when a mascot went to you and pointed at his camera, "You want to take a picture of us?" you asked and the mascot gave you a thumbs up.
The three of you posed for the photo, then an idea popped in your head, you were hesitant to do it at first, but you gathered all the courage in your veins, and before the photo was snapped, you boldly wrapped your hand around Hongjoong's arms.
The mascot gave you the polaroid photo, thanking him before looking at it. You smiled widely, showing the photo to Hongjoong, claiming it was adorable, he grinned at the photo and was about to agree when Heejoong called someone 'Mommy,' it's not you though, it's an another person whose hair is similar to Minhee.
Hongjoong cleared his throat "There's a resting area here somewhere, let's go there and take a breather."
When you finally sat down, Heejoong immediately fell asleep on his father's lap.
"He's exactly like you, taking naps whenever and wherever." admiring the little boy who's sleeping peacefully " your statement made Hongjoong snicker "And he's like you when it comes to food, a very picky one." he retaliated. You pouted at his words, ready to out sass him when he speaks again "How many days do you have left?"
"Four." you answered in a timid voice, Hongjoong hummed lowly, brushing the hair out of his son's face. "Let's go on a camping trip with Yunho, Jongho, and Seonghwa." you laughed, remembering that disaster of a trip.
"What? There's no meat?" you looked at Yunho and Jongho who were supposed to handle that, "There's no rice?" your eyes went over to Seonghwa.
You groaned "What are we gonna do here then? Sleep?" you said, exasperated at the forgetful men.
How on earth did they forgot to bring the important foods when they remembered to bring fruits and all this cool looking items for picture taking.
"Actually, I forgot to bring a blanket." Hongjoong nervously uttered.
"What in the actual f-"
Your laugh made Hongjoong's heart soar, he longed to hear that for years now, and he feels himself getting addicted to you once more.
"Pretty sure that the other guys would want to redeem theirselves after that shame." you smirked at him, wanting to say something savage at him but you stopped when he saw the way he looked at you.
"I missed you," he confessed "I've always wanted to do things like this with you and our son," he looked at Heejoong "but I never got the chance to."
He went silent for a bit "Also, I want to thank you for giving me the best gift of all, for giving me a blessing." he finished, and you know he's pertaining to Heejoong at that one.
You leaned on his shoulder, not saying anything but the warmth and happiness in your chest are more than enough right now.
He brought you home at night time, you thanked him for a wonderful day, as you turned your back on him, halting your steps when you heard him say a faint 'Wait!'
You faced him, asking him what's wrong "Do you really not want to take your place back here?"
He dropped the dreaded question on you "Hongjoong-"
"Please just stay. Stay here with me, with us. Don't leave us again. I beg you."
He was ready to kneel at the ground, do anything and everything just to make you stay by his side.
You hate seeing Hongjoong like this, it shatters your heart in the most agonizing way, you went to him and cupped his face, wiping the few tears that escaped from his eyes.
"You know I can't, someone has already taken my place, it would be selfish of me if I did that." you kissed his forehead, something that you always did to make him stop crying.
"I know that you can take care of Heejoong, you're not alone. You already have someone that will help you."
You let go of him "Goodnight Hongjoong, thank you, I had fun today."
As you laid down in your bed, closing your eyes and ready to rest, your ringtone made you open your eyes, grumbling in annoyance when you saw Mingi's name flash.
You answered the phone and Mingi's airy and tired voice caught you off guard "Y/N! I know! I now know!" you told him to calm down and catch his breath first before speaking.
When his breathing seems stable enough, he started speaking again, "The reason why you came back to life, I now know it!" you told him to elaborate.
"I was jumping, dancing, and praying all the day, gosh I'm so sweaty and sticky right now," his complaints made you snort, "then the Gods finally gave me an answer. In the wishing room, I saw it, your mother's wish."
"Please let me see my daughter once more."
Your hand automatically flew to your mouth, so it was your mother all along? And here you were, completely focused over other things when it was your mother who wished for you to come back again?
You thanked MIngi and ended the call, promising him that you'll repay him back for all his hardwork.
The walk to your mother's room felt long even if it's just 15 steps away from yours, you knocked on the door before opening it, seeing your mother in bed, getting ready to sleep.
"Oh? What is it my daughter?" you went up to her and hugged her, making her fall on the bed "Is there something wrong?" you shook your head, saying that you just wanted to cuddle her tonight.
She smiled softly at you, no matter how big and old you are, you will always be her baby.
"You're leaving soon aren't you?" she said out of the blue, making you look up at her with surprise written on your face "What are you so flabbergasted for? I'm your mother, of course I'll know what's going on with you."
She hugged you tight, her next words making fresh tears spring up in your eyes "It's alright, you don't have to tell me anything. I will always understand you. I always have your back."
The next morning, you found yourself in your room, someone must have carried you all the way here since you remembered sleeping soundly in your mother's room.
You reached for your phone in the nightstand when it keeps on making notification sounds, you were greeted by a gc that has Yunho, Jongho, Seonghwa, and Hongjoong in it. They were all talking about the camping trip, looks like Hongjoong already informed them about it. You got up from your bed, getting ready to head out before quickly typing in a message 'I will buy the meat and rice for this trip, no one is allowed to protest.'
As you were walking, a familiar place caught your eye, it didn't even changed one bit. It still has the same plants, same color of the wall, it reminds you of the day where your accident happen, and you instinctively put your hands on your belly.
You felt your baby kick while you were walking "We'll be home soon, I just have to drop this at my office, okay? Please be patient."
Suddenly, people were shouting, you turned around to look at the commotion, but you didn't see any. The last thing you saw was a car screeching towards your direction.
When you opened your eyes, you immediately rubbed your stomach, every move that you make creates a jolt of unbearable pain but you don't care, the only thing that matters is your baby.
"Please help my baby, anyone please."
You blinked, stopping the horrible images in your brain. You continued walking to the market, deciding to focus on your task at hand instead of reminiscing the dreadful past.
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The drive towards the camping site was fun, it consisted of you, Yunho and Jongho in one car while Seonghwa, Hongjoong, and Heejoong (yes, of course you brought him) were stuck in an another one.
Seonghwa longingly watched your car, seeing that you're basically partying with your friends inside, while he's here stuck with a gloomy Hongjoong. He tried playing music just a while ago, but his friend slapped his hand, saying that music will distract his driving and it'll wake the sleeping child the back seat.
The man child poked his head outside the car's window, pathetically begging for you guys to let him transfer vehicles, "Please, let me out of this hell hole! I had enough of this demon with me!" Hongjoong glared at his friend, telling him that it's dangerous and to put his head back inside before he cut it himself.
When you arrived at the camping site all of you went to work, setting up the tents and cooking the food before night time. You and Hongjoong watched as your friends play soccer with Heejoong, "Look at them, all whipped for our child." you heard the man beside you say "Of course they would, with how adorable he is, who wouldn't?"
Feeling a warm hand envelope yours, butterflies in your stomach erupting like volcanoes, and sparks forming when you looked at the man who's sitting beside you. His eyes still held the same universe that you lived in, and you couldn't help but tighten your hold on his hand.
"I have always thought that my studio was my home, that is until I met you," Hongjoong kept looking at you while he speaks, "you became my everything, all the music that I create was all for you or because of you. The sad, broken hearted songs that I used to make turned into chessy, teeth-rotting love songs." he snickered, remembering the drastic change in his lyrics after he met you, he looked away from you, watching his friends and son playing the field, you doing the same.
"Then I lost you, that day haunted me so much that I couldn't even sleep at night," mustering up the courage to tell you everything he's been keeping in, "Heejoong's cries reminds me of you in your death bed every damn time." he choked back a sob, not wanting to break in front of you, he needs to remain strong for your sake as well, knowing that this will be the last time he'll be able to hold and talk to you like this.
You listened to him, how he was sorry that he kept himself locked in his studio when the news of your accident was being relayed at him, how he relocated in a different studio because everything in his former one evokes memories of you, and how much he loves you.
When he pulled you in his arms, cupping your face and kissing you passionately, you let him. Closing your eyes and savoring the feeling of his lips and touch. You'll let yourself be selfish and greedy for the first and last time.
Hongjoong poured everything in that kiss, his love, sorrows, regrets, and peace. Finally having it in him to let go of you, wanting you to rest and be happy as he live his life at its fullest with your son.
On your last day, before you meet Mingi, you went to see your son, wanting to say goodbye to him.
You crouched down, smiling at your son, "I had a lot of fun with you Heejoong, I hope you won't forget me. okay?" the child beamed at you, holding your face before saying the one word that you have always dreamt of hearing from him, "Eomma!"
You let out a gasp, putting your hands on your mouth as you quietly let out a cry. So, all this time he can see you, he knew.
Your child knew who you really are. The moments where you played with him, talked to him, took care of him even in your ghost form, he knows who you are.
You embraced the little boy tightly, "Yes, that's me, I am eomma," you pulled away and he unexpectedly wiped your tears which made you cry harder. You held his small hands, caressing it softly, "Eomma will visit you soon again, be happy and healthy, alright? I love you, my son."
"Are you sure about this?" Mingi asked you for the nth time "You don't have anything to do?" you laughed, flashing him a genuine, bright smile.
"Mingi," you held his hand "Thank you for everything that you did for me, I will always watch over you from above."
He looked down, his tears cascading down his cheeks as he slowly brought out his materials for the ritual. You took a deep breath, getting ready to meet God himself, and maybe apologize for cussing at him before and thank him for giving you the opportunity to live once again.
"I'm ready."
One pure soul has ascended to heaven that day, everyone close to that soul felt it, the departure of their friend, sister, daughter, wife, and mother, making their hearts squeeze in pain, but they all plastered a smile on their faces, wishing you all the best, promising that you'll meet each other again in another life.
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10 years later
Under the blooming cherry blossoms, a 15 year old boy is sitting on a bench, flipping a what seems to be a journal, then he stumbled upon a polaroid photo, inside it was him when he was a child, his father, and a pretty lady.
"Heejoong!" a familiar voice called out to him, he glanced to where the voice came up, smiling a little when he saw his mother and father waving at him.
"Why are you still out here? We'll be late to your recital!" his father said, making him stand up and look at the time.
"I'm coming!" he closed the journal and skipped towards his parents, them catching him in an embrace before proceeding to walk together, a lively atmosphere radiating off the family.
Every hello is bounded to an impending goodbye. In a story where the ending is bittersweet, a new chapter full of possibilities opens up for a brighter future. Fate has always been like that, relentlessly torturous yet harmoniously benevolent.
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a/n: I'm sorry it took so long, my schedule is really hectic right now, but I did my best to finish this asap. I hope everyone would support and give love to my first big project. Thank you! (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤
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Weaknesses
Lee! Wukong Lers! Macaque, MK, and Mei
This is based on the giggle glow AU for Wukong which I originally saw in Sparkling Laughter by KinbariTeaHeathen (it's super cute and you should read it) but may have originated somewhere else I am not entirely sure
Basically, Wukong glows when he laughs.
Also I have decided that Sun Wukong cant handle baby talk because he has literally been an OP scary monkey that terrified heaven with his laser eyes since birth so who the hell would baby talk him? Obviously only his emo ex husband.
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During dinner, the group always chatted around the fire.
The kids would bring up random conversation starters or whatever and everyone would tell stories, and laugh, and it was nice.
And Wukong being you know, immortal, and a lover of attention always had many tales to tell.
But this was a subject of conversation he refused to participate in.
"Well, Monkey King? You've been awfully quiet." Mei said, looking very mischievous.
Yeah, no thanks.
"Luckily for you dorky mortals," he said, jabbing his chopsticks in their general direction, "I have no weaknesses." He made sure to add an air of finality to his tone. No questions necessary.
Macaque apparently had to pipe in at that. "Oh my gohod, Wukong!" He said in between laughs,
"That's what you're going for? Hahahah!"
"Hey! What's that supposed to mean?!" Monkey King puffed his chest out and crossed his arms.
"It means," Macaque said, giving Wukong a look that said you are very very dumb, "That's like, in the top ten dumbest things I've heard you said in the past five hundred years," he snorted, "So congrats on being a record breaker, I guehehess!"
What would've have been an extremely witty and amazing retort from Wukong was very rudely interrupted by his successor.
"Ooh! Ooh! Do you know any of Monkey Kings weaknesses, Macaque?!" MK looked over with sparkles in his eyes and why were the kids getting so excited about this?
"Any? I would say almost all." He said, looking Wukong directly in the eyes now with a devious, stupid, little smirk.
The kids pleaded in unison, giving their best puppy eyes, "Please, please, please, tell us!"
"Hey, hey, hey! Why do you guys even wanna know so bad?!" Monkey King gasped dramatically, "Are you planning my murder?!" He was definitely not trying to desperately divert the topic of conversation.
"I wouldn't turn down a chance to embarrass Wukong."
Goddamnit. He was totally ignored.
Monkey King must've looked about as mortified as he felt because Macaque apparently felt the need to reassure him.
"Its not like I'm gonna tell them anything bad. You dont have to look like I'm about to kill a puppy or something,"
"I'm just gonna bully you a little." He added with a toothy grin.
"I am going to throw you out of a tree and straight into the afterlife if you say anything."
Macaque snorted. "Ohokay."
"Anyway!" He clapped, grabbing everyone's attention.
"Tonight, I will tell you three of your oh so powerful  Monkey Kings weaknesses. How 'bout that?"
Everyone in the group nodded enthusiastically except Wukong, and christ was Tang pulling out that book of his?
"Number One." 
Monkey King couldnt help but bristle at how much Macaque was preening under the attention. Sometimes he couldnt tell if that guy was more of a monkey or some kinda cocky bird.
"Since Wukong is made of stone, he's not exactly buoyant. He sinks, really fast, and it is absolutely hilarious." He snickered, "And he gets really pouty about it."
"I do not pout! And I don't sink either."
"So what do you do then?"
"Hmmm. I would say...gracefully aqueous. I am a king after all."
The group almost died laughing at that.
Normally Wukong would feel annoyed at being mocked like that, but it was just so lighthearted that he couldnt help but feel a smile of his own pulling at the corners of his mouth. They weren't laughing at him anyways. They were laughing with him.
And that was nice.
"Alright your majesty. Whatever helps you sleep at night." Macaque snarked.
"Ooh. Here's a fun one. When we were kids, whenever he laughed Wukong would just, naturally start glowing. Like a little flashlight. And the harder he laughed, the brighter it was. He was nearly blinding everyone every five seconds."
Wukong was now elaborately planning Macaques murder in his head. Why that?! That wasnt even a weakness! Either way he couldnt help but cover up his face, knowing he was probably blushing, which definitely made it worse.
That got some reactions from the group.
"That. Is. Adorable!" Mei exclaimed, "but I think you might have killed him."
"Dont worry Mr. Monkey King! Thats nothing to be embarrassed about!" Sandy said, giving the monkey a clap on the back.
"But why doesn't he glow anymore?" MK looked over at Macaque, puzzled.
"I grew out of it!" Wukong said too quickly, peeking over his fingers. "I cant even do that anymore!", he chuckled nervously.
"Yeah your everything is telling me the opposite right now," Macaque rested his hand against his cheek in thought, "My best bet is that he was embarrassed by it and learned how to hide it. But I bet if you really got him going, and he knew that you knew, he would go straight from Monkey King to lightning bug."
"Lightning bug?" The monkey king sputtered, cheeks flaring, "Y-you! I'm!...Ugh." he gave up, settling on hiding behind his hands again.
"Uhhhhhh, Macaque? I think you broke my mentor." MK said, poking Wukongs head repeatedly to no response.
"Ehhhhh. He's just bein' a dork he'll be fine."
Suddenly, a straight up devious and borderline evil smile spread across Macaques face.
"I have the perfect number three."
Everyone's attention snapped back to Macaque.
"Monkey King," he paused dramatically, "is ridiculously ticklish. Almost everywhere. And he gets very, very, flustered about it as he is probably making a lovely demonstration of right now."
He gestured to Wukong, whose hands had lowered enough to see his raging blush. His eyes were snapped wide open in shock and his tail was flicking nervously behind him. You could basically hear computer crashing noises just looking at him.
So, if you wanna see him glow tickling is probably your best bet."
Everyone's eyes shot over to Wukong with varying levels of mischief. As Wukong tried and failed to not fidget under the attention of everyone he began to ramble frantically.
"Hey, wait! I dont know if that's such a good idea, I mean first of all I'm not even t-ticklish so it's the dumbest thing I've ever heard and I would TOTALLY accidentally hit one of you in the face if I was which I'm NOT but-"
MK and Mei suddenly pounced on top of him, rolling around in an attempt to pin the monkey down although they weren't as physically strong.
"Sandy!" MK yelled, "Come help!"
"Ehhhm. I dont know if that's such a good idea, friends." Sandy said, looking hesitant.
"What? I didnt know you were one to turn down a great team bonding activity, blue guy!" Macaque suddenly appeared in front of him.
"I dont wanna cross any boundaries..."
Macaque lowered his voice so just Sandy could hear, "I'm gonna be honest big guy, he totally likes being tickled. He has since we were kids. And to be honest, I think he kinda needs something like this now."
Sandy opened his mouth to say something but was interrupted by another call from his friends.
"Sandy!" Mei said through gritted teeth, "Put the monkey in arm jail!"
So he just turned to give Macaque a nod and a smile before running off towards his friends.
"Arm Jail?" Monkey King looked bewildered.
He was even more bewildered when he was scooped up into the arms of Sandy, who pinned him in a sort of upright sitting position against the gentle giants chest, restraining the monkeys arms.
"Hey! Cant we talk about this big guy?!" Wukong complained while noticeably not struggling.
"Talkings over, Monkey King!" MK smirked, "Now, prepare to be defeated!" The kid even added a cartoonish 'Mwahahah!' At the end for good measure.
And so finally, wiggling fingers descended on Sun Wukong, MK attacking one side of his torso and Mei going for the other.
He desperately tried to hold in his laughter, as he squirmed in Sandy's hold.
Being immortal, he didnt need to breathe, so all he had to do was focus and eventually the kids would lose interest and leave him alone.
He very deliberately ignored the part of himself that didnt want them to leave him alone, who wanted to have fun and be vulnerable.
He had to be strong, he had to stop craving touch like this, he had to stop being weak and path-
Monkey King was so lost in his own thoughts he didnt even notice Macaque appearing in front of him.
Until the darker furred monkey leant in close to his ears as he started to tickle them.
He whispered into Wukongs ear,"You have nothing to be ashamed of, Peaches."
He pulled his head back and looked at Wukong, who was biting his lip and scrunching up his nose in effort to not make a sound, shoulders hiked up in an attempt to block out the tickles.
"Now, are you going to give in and play with your kids? Or do I need to take drastic measures?" He said, smirking.
Monkey king merely shook his head.
Macaque shrugged. "Your funeral."
And his smirk was replaced with a sickeningly sweet smile.
Oh gods.
"Awwww. Is the wittle monkey too ticklish for his own good?"
This had to be some kind of psychological warfare, it was downright immoral. Monkey King could feel his blush growing in intensity, why did baby talk affect him so much?
"Poor little guy. Tickle, tickle, tickle!"
Wukongs concentration was slipping as he grew more and more flustered, stomach doing somersaults at the teasing.
He couldnt stop himself whining which was something he'd have to process later, but then he completely screwed himself by letting a little giggle out. He flickered, just for a moment and so softly you wouldn't even notice if you weren't looking for it.
"Was that a little giggle I just heard? And you flickered! How adorable. Coochy coochy coo!"
His focused slipped even more. Coochy coochy coo echoed in his head as he felt the butterflies on his stomach increase tenfold.
Wukongs chest started shaking with restrained laughter as he hid his face in his shoulder.
"Awww, don't hide that blush from me! Show them your glow, giggles!"
And the dam broke. As Monkey King burst into childish laughter with a snort, he started glowing like a goddamn beacon, casting everything in a warm light.
You could hear a couple wows of disbelief from everyone at camp. It was like everything was enveloped in this golden sunset glow.
"Mahahac! I hAhahaHAHAHTE YOUHUOU! HAHATE!"
"Yeah, sure peaches." Macaque snorted,  "Anyways I got him out of his weird funk so have fun kids!" He said, sauntering away.
Mei burst out in disbelief, "You're embarrassed by that?!"
"Ihihihhiits lahahahame!" Wukong bemoaned through giggles, flopping his head back dramatically.
"Its not!" Mei and MK said in unison.
While Mei stuck to the torso, MK went down to his mentors knees and skittered behind them.
Monkey king squealed and burst into squeakier laughter, his light growing a little bit brighter.
He kicked out his legs and folded over a little.
"NohHohoh! Behehetrahahayahal! AHAHAH WHYHAHAHAHA!" And now Mei was scritching at his armpits and Monkey King was thrown into belly laughter.
His light became significantly brighter, so much that the kids had to squint a little. It even started to flicker a little.
"Woooowww. Macaque was right! You are like a lightning bug!" MK said, looking very excited.
"DOHOHNT SAYHAYAHHA THAHAHAT! FAHAHAH!" He managed through laughter, shaking his head in mirth as his blush spread a little more.
"Are you embarrassed by your giggle glow, Monkey King?" Mei asked teasingly, lightening up the scribbling on his armpits to a fluttering which somehow wasnt any less torturous.
"Ahahaahah! Nooooo! Dohohont cahahall ihit thahaht!" He said, once again trying to hide his face in his shoulder. Not super productive considering his blush had spread up to his ears and neck by now.
"Ooh! Mei! I have an idea!" MK said, yanking her over. He whispered in her ear, "I wanna see if his tail is ticklish too. Can you hold it down?"
Mei only grinned devilishly and gave a nod.
"Hey, wait, kihids whahat are you dohohoing?! Mei why are youhou grahahabbing ahat my tail?! MK? MK! waitwaitwaitwait-"
And Monkey King went into hysterics. He squealed before falling into loud, full, belly laughter. Even snorting which was frankly, adorable.
"OHHOHOOHO MYHYHYHY GOHOHOHAHAHAHA! IHIHIHIHIHAHAHAH- HAAHHAHAH!"
Wukong didnt even know what he was trying to say.
He squirmed and kicked violently before just going limp with laughter, tears of mirth springing in his eyes.
He literally couldnt think. He was in ticklish heaven hell.
"MK I think he's actually dying."
"I knew it would be a good spot! I'm a big brain boy!" MK said proudly before continuing, "But yeah I'm getting a little concerned.
Also his light was borderline blinding at this point, it was starting to hurt everybody's eyes a little.
MK slowed the tickling down to a stop.
After letting him catch a breather, Mei scootched over to Wukong and said, "Hey Monkey King."
"W-whahat?"
"Admit that your giggle glow is cool. Or else." She teased, raising wiggling fingers at him.
"But-but its-"
"Its what?" Gods she was evil. Smirking at him with her fingers posed to start drilling into his hips at any second.
"Waitwaitwait! Ihits...ihits cool!" He managed, pointedly avoiding eye contact.
"What's cool?" Ohhhh he was so going to get her back for this.
"You know what!"
"Do I?" She said, adjusting her hands slightly.
Wukong wished he could sink into the floor right about now. "Ah! Dont! Mhyhy... g-giggle-" he struggled mumbling with a little bit of a pout, "giggle glow. Its cool."
"Yaaaaay! He did it!" MK cheered, as Monkey King was released and everyone headed back towards the ship.
"You okay, friend?" Sandy asked, seeing Monkey king laying on the ground instead of getting up with everybody else.
"Yep. Just taking a breather big guy."
Macaque would go out later to find Wukong fast asleep on the ground with a big dumb smile and blush on his face, tail wagging in his sleep.
"Whahat a dork. Could you get anymore obvious?" Macaque would say to himself as he picked up the monkey and brought him back to the ship.
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fxntxsix · 2 years ago
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I NOW HAVE MORE THAN 100 CHILDREN???????
OMGOMGOMGOMG so last night at some point I hit a 100 followers and jesus lord christ god that makes me so happy because like real talk - I started writing on here when I was going through a lot and the fact that there are so many of you out there who care about what I write or post god it gets me all sorts of emo.
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Anywayyyyyyy
In celebration of this, let’s do something fun (ngl I fully stole this from @emmymaehereeeeee but also I added a few to rep my Indian side a teeny bit)
Drabble prompts
Characters:
- Austin Butler
- Elvis Presley
- Austin!Elvis
- Sebastian Kydd
- Wil Ohmsford
- Tex Watson
Only one number per ask please:
1. “You can’t solve your problems by hiding in bed all day.” "try me"
2. “Can I hold your hand?”
3. "Why am I friends with you again?"
4. "Stop staring at him/her and just ask him/her out already"
5. “Oh my God! You’re in love with him/her!”
6. “I promise I will never let anything bad happen to you.”
7. “All I want is for you to look at me the way you look at them.”
8. "You’re not scared of the dark are you?”
9. "Are you really scared of a little thunder?"
10. "What the hell are you doing in my bed?" "I thought I heard a noise"
11. “That’s my ex. Makeout with me and make him/her jealous.”
12. “Spin the bottle is such a cliché. Let’s do it.”
13. “Can we just lie here for a moment”
14. "Honeymoon suite? Really? Are you trying to subtly hint me something?" "I'm not hitting on you It was the only room they had available" "you sure about that?"
15. “I don’t want to be your partner either, but we have to get this assignment done.”
16. “I’ve never hated you, you just make me feel things I don’t understand.”
17. “I really want to kiss you right now. I know I shouldn’t, and somehow that makes me want it more”
18. “I’ll give you fifty bucks if I can take you to Christmas dinner and tell my family we’re together. They always ask if I’m dating anyone and I can’t have that conversation again”
19. “You know my house has a door? You don’t always have to use the window”
20. “Why don’t you tell me why you really came here tonight?”
21. “can i copy your homework?" "We had homework?"
22. “i wasn't that drunk last night" "you yelled parkour as you tried jumping over a bus bench and then got into an argument with a tree that you thought boo'd you"
23. “We always share blankets on the couch, I’m sure sharing the bed for the night is fine too.”
24. “I keep telling them we’re not dating, but they keep telling me friends don’t normally make out when they’re drunk.”
25. “Sometimes you have to think of yourself as a priority.”
26. "You got something on your face, let me clean it off"
27. "Marry me"
28. "I'm pregnant"
29. "Kiss me"
30. "Let me walk you home"
31. "This is the third time I've cleaned you up in a month I'm starting to think you're getting into fights on purpose"
32. "Tell me something i don't know about you"
33. "Great now we're lost, I told you you should have asked for directions"
34. "Looks like we're gonna be stuck here for a awhile"
35. “I’ve seen the way you look at me when you think I don’t notice.”
36. “Hey! I was gonna eat that!” "you snooze you lose"
37. "In my defense i was left unsupervised"
38. "You look beautiful" "damn right i do"
39. "I can't stop thinking about you”
40. "A pout's not gonna get you out of this"
41. "You fell asleep during the movie"
42. "Aside peasant! I came to see your cats/dogs, not you."
43. "Did you steal the women’s magazines from the dentist office again?" "What? They're not free?"
44. “I’m sorry, but I’m done waiting.”
45. “If I die, I’m going to haunt your ass.”
46. "Do I need to buy a child seat for you?" "I'm not that short!"
47. "You look good in my shirt"
48. “Who brought pot brownies to the bake sale?!”
49. "If anything on the menu has surprise in their names, do not order it."
50. "You know you don't live here right?"
51. "You want the truth? The truth is that I'm in love with you"
52. "You cheated!" "How did i cheat we're playing mariokart"
53. "Do you want pancakes or waffles?" "If you're the one making them then neither"
54. "Why didn't you tell me it was your birthday?"
55. "You really think you're not competitive? Last week you 'accidently' threw the monopoly board on the floor because you were losing"
56. "What's wrong why are you yelling?" "The last puzzle piece is missing!"
57. "it's freezing out here take my jacket"
58. "I sent you to the store to get milk not a dog"
59. "Everytime i look at you my heart skips a beat"
60. "When was the last time you slept?" "That depends, what day is it?"
61. “Wanna watch a Bollywood movie tonight?”
62. “Teach me a Hindi curse word” “Chutiya”
63. “I didn’t know you could dance that beautifully.”
64. “Mujhe tumse ishq hai.” “What does that mean?” “I can’t tell you”
65. “Is that henna?” “In India, we call it mehendi”
66. “Holi is a festival of colours. Would you like to join us?”
- Fantasia <3
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svnoofy · 3 years ago
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forever & always — p.js
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pairing: ex boyfriend! jay x fem reader (she/her pronouns!)
genre: angst | lovers to exes | arranged marriage au
warnings: profanity
word count: 2.9k words
taglist : please send an ask and i’ll add you to my permanent taglist >v<
listen to this while reading for alleviated emo vibes #💔🥀
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tears were dripping down your cheeks, each drop staining the soft material of your ex boyfriend’s shirt as you cuddled into his chest for the last time.
“i’m so sorry, y/n, i really am so sorry”, jay speaks, tears threatening to fall as he strokes your soft hair.
he stares at the silver band around his ring finger, one that you also wore around your ring finger as a sign of the everlasting love you had for each other, which he will have to replace permanently in less than a week.
as you cried into his shirt, you remember the day he gave the ring to you.
“i promise i’ll always be by your side and protect you, forever and always”, he said as he slid the silver band on your finger, placing a chaste kiss on the back of your hand right after.
you knew jay and you knew he was a man that always kept his promise, but here you were, crying into his chest, disappointed and hurt at the promise that was shattered in to pieces.
the fact that in less than a week: your jay, the light of your life and the man who never failed to make you smile— would be someone else’s man and someone else’s reason to smile, hurt you so intensely.
however, as hurt as you were, you couldn’t find a single bone in your body and a strand of hair on your head to blame and lash out on him for not standing his ground on your relationship.
jay felt like his whole world came crashing down when he was informed about the whole arranged marriage ordeal.
what infuriated him most was the fact that his parents told him about it two weeks before the wedding was supposed to happen.
how the fuck was he supposed to process this in his head?
his world came to an abrupt stop and rose up in flames when you came over, for the last time, and cried into his chest, your sadness far too painful for you to say anything else.
if only he could’ve told you how beautiful you were every single moment of the day and remind you how much he loved you, he would.
hell, if given the choice, he’d give you the whole world and more because that’s just how much you meant to him.
“i love you jay, so fucking much”, you say, breathless after crying— your voice sniffly and congested like.
when your eyes met, he knew for sure: he had just made the biggest mistake in his life.
“i love you too. so much more than you think, i’m sorry y/n— let’s meet in another life, yeah?”, jay brings his thumbs up to caress your tear stained cheeks before placing a kiss on your forehead.
jay didn’t know why he couldn’t stand up to his parents and tell them the only person he knows he can love is you. no one else.
so, as he stood in front of the mirror in the groom’s room in the venue, adjusting his suit, he smiles as memories of you and him flood his mind.
when the after party started, he could not see you anywhere— which made his heart break a little yet made him feel a little relieved.
he felt relieved, not because he was moving on, but because: if he saw you at his wedding, at any place but next to him, he wasn’t sure if he would be strong enough to continue. 
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hera’s note : thank you for reading my first oneshot! aaaaa i’m in my emo feely feels tonight so like :/ sorry if this was underwhelming or bad!! i have had massive writer’s block and i wanted to release this because amongst my other drafts, this was by far the one i liked most :>
hera loves you! stay safe & take care ♡
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thelightwillbreakthrough · 3 years ago
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SNW Full Trailer THOUGHTS:
really want to know what the difference is gonna be for when we see the dress/pants variants of the uniform, we’ve seen una and uhura in both and i need to know if it’s significant
i also am not a fan of the dresses i know they said they were going back to TOS aesthetically but even in the cage they all had pants so what is that about
uhura ALSO has a cowl neck for one shot so how many variants are we getting here
i am IN LOVE with erica and christine and probably will be with all of them one the pilot’s over
pike’s gonna make me cry with all this future stuff
UNA AND THE BOW 👀 ERICA AND THE SWORD 👀 👀
it’s looking like it’s gonna be Funny and i appreciate that 
the senior officers are gonna be a family 🥺
T’PRING!??!!?!??!?!!
pike fucks (he deserves it)
spock fucks (FASCINATING)
the MUSIC i feel GOD in this house tonight
the enterprise is so good and shiny i love her
la’an is gonna be so complicated and interesting and i want to know EVERYTHING but also im prepared for Tragedy considering the space seed of it all
im so glad spock can be pike’s confidant regarding the future vision and how it weighs on him, and im gonna CRY when it contextualizes the menagerie
any variation on “we are Starfleet” makes me emo, “we are The Best Of Starfleet” is motivational as hell
im READY im gonna CRY is it MAY YET
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tender-rosiey · 4 years ago
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fifteen dazai meeting his future s/o
I just saw a bnha version of this and because dazai is the main focus of my life I immediately thought of him and how he’d react
❥ Fifteen Dazai meeting his future s/o
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ᴀ/ɴ: I do not blame you, dazai >>>>>>>> everything else; anyways hope you like this 💘
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One day in the Dark Era a bitchass had an ability to make people time travel
And our little dazai was not aware of that person and somehow got hit by it yay
So what happens when he is dropped right in front of his future self cuddling you on the Ada couch?
You were chilling in the embrace of your lover with closed eyes and a content heart on the couch until you suddenly heard a thud that startled you; you opened your eyes to look at where the sound came to see a fifteen year old kid flattened like a pancake on the floor with black clothing all over.
“Osamu, who’s that?” You asked your lover who answered you with silence; the kid stood up groaning and rubbing his head until he was met by the sight of you and Dazai. “Where am I?” He asked looking around; “I believe I have an answer for that.” Your lover called out before gently leaving you on the couch and placing a hand in the kid’s shoulder.
“You are in the future and I am you in it!”
Confusion was written all over fifteen dazai’s face until your dazai whispered some stuff into his ear that the fifteen dazai nodded and said “I believe you.”
You sighed knowing exactly what he said
And then fifteen dazai looked at you and asked “and who is she?”
That’s when your dazai smiled brightly and started a one hour rant about how wonderful you are and how you are his one and only baby and the prettiest belladonna to exist
While that happened though you came up with what to call both of them so they don’t get confused
Fifteen dazai was emo bitch while future dazai was mask
JUST KIDDING
Fifteen dazai was zai and future dazai was osamu 😌
Introductions aside, they were pretty much vibing when they talked and if god forbid chuuya was there then prepare for trouble and make it double
But it’s not chuuya spotlight tonight
Now I think zai would actually flirt with you to spite his future self
“You know y/n, it’s hard to believe such an amazing person exists.”
Insert a vessel popping
And it’s osamu’s
Cause he warned his past self about flirting with you
They would fight over you but like by wits
Unlike two certain chihuahuas that would throw each other across all of Yokohama
A roast battle basically
And if they happen to put aside getting near you being a taboo
They will just both tease you endlessly
Tough luck honey
Dazai is mischievous as hell in both the pm and the ada fight me
“So how is that you look so lovely everyday, my love?” osamu said with hand pulling you closer by the waist while zai came from behind and rested his chin on your shoulder and said “I mean you see her everyday, but seriously I have never seen anything or anyone more enchanting, truly a masterpiece.”
*fans self* honestly love, I wish you luck cause they are toying with you until they get bored which is probably not any time sooner
Osamu will also introduce zai to the wonders of cuddling
“Look here my dear self, y/n literally gives the best cuddles and you will just feel in heaven.”
“Really now?”
“Why am I being shown off like a car?”
And so zai being the touch starved kid he was spent an hour getting lost in your embrace and cuddling you while you played with his hair
Osamu was just watching proudly from the sidelines or depending on which being behind you cradling you in arms
At the end of the day each one of them has their head on one of your legs asleep while you play with their hair
HAHA YOU THOUGHT
Zai was awake and kept asking you stuff about yourself so he can get to know you
He was really listening good too :0
When he got sleepy he looked you in the eyes then at the ground and muttered a soft ‘thank you’
And ding dong the next day when you and your lover open your eyes there is no one but you two in the room
“Well that was something, anyways I have to go bother Kunikida, belladonna; take care of yourself and I love you!”
He would continue the day like nothing happened and will just tell the rest about it like it’s something simple and they would all think he ate more poisonous mushrooms cause well
It’s Dazai
So run to your lover and back him up
unless you want him to get a damn cute beating from our wonderful and very friendly Kunikida for being delusional and slacking again ☺️
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