#but i also personally believe it would take a lot to be romantically involved with him at all
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saving u all from the asshole fuckboy aventurine agenda half of this fandom is so hellbent on portraying
#i think heâs very Tongues & Teeth by the crane wives but. contrary to popular belief. i donât think heâd be the one singing#yeah heâs not stupid but i could see him being so in loveâŠâŠ#if someone managed to bring his guard down and was with him for years#not sure if he could bring himself to leave once the kisses started cutting his lips and the touches started bruising#maybe iâm âŒïž wrong but idk this man screams fucked up attachment 2 me#heâs used to pain.. i think heâd put up with it#at first heâd flee. if it was anywhere near the start of the relationship? yeah he wouldnât stay if he felt he was on âthe losing end of#the betâ#but i also personally believe it would take a lot to be romantically involved with him at all#like i think it would have to be a friends first thing. slowburn in fanfic terms.#idk iâm just nottt getting the one night stand vibe from him.#so like i said if someone was with him for a longgg time⊠and truly tore his walls down.. i doubt heâd be so quick to run#i think he keeps himself closed off. but when he does love he loves wholly and fully to the point of it hurting.#not out of malice but out of sheer intensity..#yeahhhh tongues & teethâŠ..#love is love but instead of in the gay way itâs âsure it hurts every time it happens but at least i feel somethingâ#probably the gay way too though
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âI need to tell you something.â
Shitfuckno. Eddie doesn't even know why he's still surprised. This is how it always goes, after all. He should probably just give up and stop dating altogether â again.
Steve looks at him exactly as ominously as the words I need to tell you something require. Perfect Steve. Funny Steve. Sweet Steve. Sexy Steve. Steve, who Eddie had genuinely believed to be different.
Eddie sighs, barely suppressing a dark chuckle while he turns away from that perfect face. He doesn't want to look at Steve when he'll tell him the undoubtedly messed-up shit he's about to spill.
âLemme guess, you're married?â That was what the last guy he dated told him, seven months after they got to know each other. It can't be much worse than that, can it?
Steve grabs Eddie's hand, causing him to involuntarily jerk up his head and meet his eyes.
âHow did you know?â
Jesus H. Christ. Not again.
Eddie roughly pulls his hand out of Steve's grip and laughs a joyless laugh.
âApparently I'm a good guesser.â
He stands up from the park bench the two of them had been sharing. âWell, Steve, this has been a blast. You should go back to your wife, or husband â don't tell me, I don't even wanna know â and I should um, get going. Maybe tell the next person right away what they'll be getting themselves into. Would save them a lot of wasted time, just in case cheating and going around other people's backs isn't really their thing, y'know.â
âEddie, wait, let me explain!â
Eddie picks up his pace, but Steve, stubborn as he is, easily keeps up with him.
âI'm really not interested, man.â
âIt's not â I'm not cheating on her!â
âOkay, so you have an open marriage, good for you. Still the kind of information you could've shared with me, say, three months ago, don't you think?â
âShe's a lesbian.â
And that makes Eddie freeze on the spot. It takes Steve two steps before he realizes Eddie has stopped moving; he walks backwards until he's standing right in front of Eddie.
âShe's my best friend,â he says, immediately using Eddie's stunned silence to his advantage. âRobin, my roommate â I told you all about her. We wanted to buy a house together and that turned out to be very complicated when you're not... Well, when you're not romantically involved. So we got married. For the, um, practical reasons. We never â we're like siblings. I love her like a sister. But she's also my wife. Platonically.â
It takes a few seconds until Steve's words sink in. Then, Eddie leaps forward and basically collapses into Steve's arms, needing to hold onto him to prevent himself from crashing to the ground.
Steve's arms are warm, strong, and as safe as ever.
âEddie, are you okay?â Steve asks softly. His lips brush against Eddie's ear while he speaks, and worry colors his voice.
Perfect Steve. Too-good-to-be-true Steve.
âJesus Christ, Steve,â is the only thing Eddie manages to say.
âI'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you,â Steve says. âIt's just â I've gotten some, um... Less than ideal reactions, in the past, whenever I told this when I was seeing someone. So I thought it'd be better to wait until things were getting serious.â He sighs, tangling his fingers in Eddie's hair. âI didn't wanna scare you off. Are we â are you okay?â
Eddie nods. He lifts his head from where it's resting against Steve's shoulder and raises his hands to squeeze them around Steve's face.
âWe're okay,â he says. âAnd I'm sorry I didn't want to listen to you. Iââ He stops; he can't find the words right away. It's still difficult to talk about those things; to let himself be vulnerable. But Steve has been honest with him, so it's only fair to return the favor.
âI've been hurt, Steve,â he confesses. âMore than once. I've had some really shitty experiences with dudes not being honest with me. I thought that that was what was happening again, and I couldn't â I couldn't go through that again. Especially not with you.â
âJesus, Eddie, I'm so sorry.â
âIt's okay,â Eddie rushes to say, pulling Steve even closer towards him. âI trust you.â And as soon as these words leave his mouth, he knows it's the truth.
âI do want to be absolutely clear about one thing, though,â Steve says.
Eddie leans back in Steve's arms to give him an expectant look.
âRobin is my wife. I'm not planning on that to change anytime soon. We've been through a lot together. She's been the most important person in my life for years. We own a house and a dog together, and I love her more than anything. I like you a lot, and I promise you I'm all-in with you, but... Robin is still my number one. And that's not gonna change overnight. I need you to be okay with that.â
Eddie swallows. He looks into Steve's eyes. All he sees is a man who is honest, who loves his friends deeply, and who refuses to make any compromises when it comes to love â whether it be the platonic or the romantic kind.
It doesn't scare Eddie off; it only makes him fonder of Steve.
He smiles, glances around to check if they're alone, and presses a quick kiss against Steve's lips.
âI think I can live with that,â he says. âAs long as I'm the only one who gets to do this.â He closes his eyes and lets his lips meet Steve's again.
The sigh that Steve breathes into their tentative kiss is one filled with relief.
#trying my hand at some exploration of the platonic soulmatism#don't mind me rambling about stranger things#steddie#stobin#platonic stobin#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#fanfic#fruity ficlet
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â» DARAKARAKA PLANET AND THE NATURE OF THE SPOUSE
basics of vedic astrology. ask box. pinned.
the planet having the lowest degree among the seven planetsâsun, moon, mercury, venus, mars, jupiter and saturn is your darakaraka (abbrev.âdk). it is the planet that represents the nature of your 'opposite', or your future spouse.
note that this also represents the traits that you yourself do not embody. the partner is a form of the cumulations of traits that we most often desire in ourselves, what we seek subconsciously.
you can also think of your darakaraka planet as what you desire to be. for example, someone with a mars dk may desire to be more outspoken, energetic and courageous. darakaraka is the last significator among the seven planets because your future spouse is your other half; or, alternatively, it is representative of the things that you lack.
i would like to highlight that simply the planet is not enough an indicator of your spouse. the nakshatra placement of said placement matters a lot, too.
say, a female native has purva ashada jupiter in 7h with magha venus dk in 3h. both jupiter and darakaraka are massive fs indicators. we notice that jupiter is in a venus ruled nak and the dk is venus as well, so the fs will for sure be venus dominant. additionally, dk planet in magha indicates the fs may have ketuvian influence to their personality / appearance. maybe a gaunt body, or magnetic eyes. their ancestors (pitris) would be respected and / or worshipped in their family tradition. they might have a kingly personality. jupiter in 7h further increases their venusian quality. so we study the fs using many combinations like these. now say this person's venus was in 3rd house aries in navamsa. the relationship will be sexually passionate, and the spouse could be of fiery demeanour. impatient, and demanding. they could be oblivious to the native's efforts a times, and this would hurt them. if say venus was also combust from sun, then there would be quarrels with the spouse. if venus was conjunct mars closely, then the native could be promiscuous leading to fights with the spouse. if venus was conjunct mercury, the fs could have a sibling.
so on, and so forth. i've tried my best to be as inclusive and detailed as possible; but know that these are general observations. your fs won't be a king just because it sounds like that. i speak by taking both, the worst and best case scenarios.
SUN DARAKARAKA
if you hope to expand your business, form connections or just overall want to improve your professional life, then sun darakaraka is a good indication that your spouse will help you in said endeavour. they will very likely be the dominant partner in the relationship, or at least be responsible for the more practical side of the relationship.
the spouse is a resemblance of the native's outward nature. it is not the best thing to have sun or moon as dk since there are ego issues involved in these placements. the spouse is a reflection of who the native is internally or externally, and their negative traits could trigger the native. while transformation is a good thing, in a married couple it can lead to resentment. i personally believe that with a sun or moon dk it is advisable to cultivate patience. understanding yourself is key to understanding the spouse.
they are nurturing but may turn controlling. it would be good to take some time away from them and spend it on yourself to ensure you don't completely give in to everything they say and lose your personality. also, to be fair, they don't appreciate dependent or weak people. so if you lose your sense of personality around them, then you might end up loosing your romantic appeal in their eyes. make them realise that they're not the only thing in your life and their respect for you will always remain high.
the relationship here can easily turn egoistical, so it is advisable to ensure that the spouse does not turn too distant. they can take impulsive decisions at times, so keep an eye on them discreetly (because they will not appreciate it if they catch you, either). just look out for them, i mean. with a sun dk, the spouse may have a broad face and traditionally masculine appearance. wide shoulders, or long legs. strong arms and thigh region. there could be stress around their eyes or neck region, and they could often overwork themselves.
the spouse would appreciate being looked after. simple gestures aren't enough to win their heart, but they never go unnoticed. it affirms them and encourages them to look after their spouse, so they will return the favour in the form of actions and taking more responsibility off your shoulders. ( i was kind of hesitating in saying this but here we go; sun dk may indicate a spouse who likes a teaseđ yk, the usual; decorating the bedroom with flowers / candles / whatever aesthetic they appreciate and wearing smth sexy gets them going đ they are genuinely hard working though, so they find themselves both physically and emotionally fulfilled when presented with such gestures. ) they may not act romantic all the time, because their way of expressing love is by taking as much burden off their spouse's shoulders as possible.
MOON DARAKARAKA
a moon dk makes the native less emotional by nature and their spouse is more emotional than them. the spouse is usually beautiful, or at least has rounder features. for those who seek women partners, moon dk bestows fertility, beauty and fine speech. for those seek male partners, moon dk bestows wit, round features, medium to short stature, and the ability to lie and manipulate.
lunar energy is better handled by women; and in men, lunar energy is only nurtured properly if the moon is in good dignity or the native also has leo placements. moon in detriment for lunar male native will make him apathetic to the plight of women and he may also be corrupt by nature. regardless, a mood dk will not be very beneficial if moon is overall weak or a malefic in the chart. the spouse would be emotionally unstable or have mental disorders in the worst case.
with a moon dk, your spouse would light up your domestic life. because the native would not be much interested in the home and hearth themselves (especially if they don't have cancer or taurus placements), the spouse will look after most of the organization of the house. yes, this can bestow a selfish character to the native. but not mandatorily, of course. the native would like seeing the home clean but may not contribute much to it. that, or the spouse would rather look over the house of their own accord.
the spouse would be intensely passionate about their career. whatever they do to make an earning, it will be almost religious to them. work is like duty to them. they worship it, and they respect money and labour. they may overwork themselves to stay true to their selves to the point of developing eating disorders or losing physical charm. (lose physical charm in the sense that they may suddenly lose a lot of weight and our body fat, rolls and curves are a part of our auspiciousness and beauty.)
the domestic life would be pleasurable and the in-laws are usually quite happy when the native having moon dk has a female partner. she will be of gentle nature, and also be sexually, uh, hungry? lenient? demanding? somehow, a mix of all three. she will desire sex, and she will be lustful and she may even chase after others after wedlock if the dk moon is aspected by mars or venus. hence why moon can give mixed results. in the best case scenario she would be chaste, highly ambitious about her career, caring, impressive and melancholic.
the spouse is a resemblance of the native's internal nature. it is not the best thing to have sun or moon as dk since there are ego issues involved in these placements. the spouse is a reflection of who the native is internally or externally, and their negative traits could trigger the native. while transformation is a good thing, in a married couple it can lead to resentment. i personally believe that with a sun or moon dk it is advisable to cultivate patience. understanding yourself is key to understanding the spouse.
be patient with a female spouse. she will be emotionally vulnerable and gentle hearted. her mood swings will be irrational and intolerable at times, and it is advisable to simply let her be by herself to calm down for a while. be cautious with a male spouse. he may be disloyal and seek other partners even after wedlock. he may especially have such tendencies if his own venus is conjunct mars. he would be even more prone to showing such behaviour when upset, so don't just let him storm off. a nice meal or a forceful hug almost always has these people listening. also, don't break their trust; they completely lose respect for your words and promises after that.
MERCURY DARAKARAKA
an ideal darakaraka if you're looking for a spouse who will also be your partner-in-crime, as well as closest confidant. the spouse will be as much a friend as a partner, and themes of light-heartedness will be apparent. they may appear air-headed, but their appearance is not one to go by; especially those who are seeking to have a female partner.
the spouse would be clever, with a lot of connections and a good social life. if they want to, they can pull strings to get their work done. they enjoy the leisure of life and may have hedonistic tendencies. regardless, they are clever and diplomatic. they know what to say, and what not to. even their silence has meaning. anger manifests as abandonment with them, so if you're not observant enough, you may end up chasing them away further when they are upset. they are less emotional and adopt rationality in most situations.
they would be charming, with attractive facial features. they may be medium to tall in height or skinny. their face could be symmetric in a unique way. as in, moles on exact opposite sides of the face, or a completely symmetric hairline. regardless, they will be very finicky about their appearance and would require reassurance from their spouse (you). they could be a lover of flowery scents or wooden undertones. if natal mercury is in water sign then they could adore the smell of wet earth. if natal mercury is in ketu nakshatras, then they could be childish and innocently oblivious in matters of the heart.
they may seek company just as a child does, and can be childish. they may test others' patience sometimes. they may accidentally upset their mother-in-law, which may lead to fights with the spouse. they may love being chased in the relationship. they would be forever young, and be appreciated for their liveliness even in old age. they are a trickster, and would have tendencies to manipulate others if dk mercury is also in mercury nakshatras or natal mercury is in 7th/8th house.
if mercury becomes dk while forming mahapurusha yoga, the spouse would be endowed with fine speech, a quick mind, ability to make money and manage it well. they would be bright of mind and likeable. they would almost have a childish charm that attracts people to them, allowing them many opportunities in life. they would have a pleasant disposition and be fond of laughter. they could also like sweet meats or chocolate.
VENUS DARAKARAKA
a genuinely good darakaraka placement to have. if darakaraka venus is in leo, the native will respect women a lot. if dk leo venus is in the 2nd or 3rd house, native may be oral about their activism for women empowerment.
for venus dk, the married life will be pleasurable. the spouse will be attractive, charming, have pleasing aesthetics and pay attention to cleanliness. they often pay good attention to their spouse (the native themselves, that is) and are romantic. they may appreciate gestures that express love, however big or small they may be. although they could be vain, or even prideful in the worst of cases. if venus is weak in the chart, then there will be struggles in the married life. there could be arguments, and problems in conceiving.
the spouse will be what the native desires in a partner. they will have ideal characteristics a wife may desire of her husband, although he / she may not make a good parent. it is important not to ignore the children in favour of the spouse. the native having venus dk will be the more prominent parent in the child's life. the home and hearth will be comforting places for the couple, and the home will be beautifully decorated. they will go on vacations often, too.
the spouse will resemble the ideal beauty of their gender / race / nationality etc. they may even have an auspicious appearance; as in, soft pink feet, heart shaped face, curly hair, lotus shaped birth mark, moles on the face for women etc.
venus in the dharma trikona: the spouse will be knowledgeable and fair. they will value justice as a part of society and may dislike selfishness or displays of lack of dignity or grace. they will be well guided in life and guide their spouse towards greater heights as well. the native will respect their spouse a lot. the married life will be divinely protected and the couple will share many successes, gain prosperity and receive luxuries. if the venus is weak while in the dharma trikona, the spouse may be morally corrupt. the spouse would be more self centered and may even ignore their children in favour of the native. venus in the artha trikona: a favourable placement to have if the native is involved in business or is career focused and wishes to climb the stairs of material success. the spouse will support this pursuit both in terms of connections and their own, personal effort towards encouraging the native and helping them with technicalities. there will be no lack of material wealth. dk venus in 6th house will make the couple devoted to each other and they would not engage in promiscuity. even more favourable if the native is a libra rising. the couple will donate a lot, and will gain name and fame for their generosity. if venus is unfavourable in the chart, the spouse will be greedy for money, fame and power. they would have no problem manipulating the native and the couple will share mistrust. the native may end up resenting the spouse. money will be abundant, but it will be spent for one reason or the other as soon as it comes into the house. venus in the kama trikona: luxury, a large, beautiful and envy-inspiring home, gifts from the spouse and the like themes are associated here. a personal blessing from the gods if venus also receives aspects from saturn or jupiter. even jupiter's gaze falling on venus is highly auspicious. money will be spent easily and in abundance, but it will also come in the house quickly. if saturn aspects venus, the spouse will appreciate budgeting. just an overall great placement to have, the spouse is intensely romantic for this placement. if venus is unfavourable in the chart, the spouse could be finicky and stingy; but only towards the native. the native will not enjoy their position as the spouse. the native will feel unloved because of the lack of action and initiative in their romantic ventures from their spouse. the spouse may try to make up for it with sweet words, but it will not satisfy the native. venus in the moksha trikona: a highly favourable placement if you wish to pursue spirituality, or work towards occult sciences after marriage. the spouse will be spiritually inclined and the relation between the couple will be emotionally rich. truly magical, it reminds me of that one hindi movie wherein a kashmiri couple are displaced from their home due to terrorist activities and have to live as refugees in the outskirts of delhi and punjab. they struggle a lot, but the love between them only deepens the further life tests their bond. suffice to say that there will be struggles when the princely venus is thrown into the mud of struggles of common life, but it is only under these circumstances that a lotus blooms. concluding, i wish to say that this placement is not as dreamy as the others, but the spouse is very supporting, kind and encourages the native to attain moksha. the spouse will believe in spirituality and gods grace will be upon this couple if jupiter, saturn or sun aspect venus. with aspects from sun, ensure venus is not combust, otherwise quarrels will be there in the relationship. an unfavourable venus in these houses will reap the opposite results. the spouse can be materialistic. they could show hedonistic tendencies and be unemotional. lack of understanding within the relationship, and worst case scenario, the spouse may cheat on the native. it is advisable to chant sri suktam as often as possible in a divine, quaint and clean setting. keep the bedroom clean, and avoid letting too many people into your sleeping chambers.
venus while being dk if forms a mahapurusha yoga gives a highly knowledgeable spouse who would be interested in occult sciences and have great desire to master the vedas. they would be of beautiful physique and very likely rich. they would form a lot of connections and the women in their life would be highly supportive of them. they would be sensual and romantic. as a parent they would teach their child to respect women foremost, and would set an amazing example of an ideal man / woman by treating their spouse with love and respect. their child would love them a lot. they could be of kingly / royal background.
i won't be able to make a generalization for other dks other than venus since i was unable to generalize in the others. venus mostly gave the same results, though.
MARS DARAKARAKA
the soul desires a passionate, long lasting love. with a mars darakaraka, other than having a fun, spontaneous and adventurous spouse, the native may also desire wanting to be liberated from societal expectations. go wild, so to say. maybe they limit themselves too much, but mars dk people actually suffer from their rich desires in life that are sometimes even impossible. but other times maybe they just desire dancing in the rain, hanging off a moving car, go scuba diving, etc.
mars dk bestows in the native an intense desire to love, and be loved. these are passionate people and once they decide that they love you, they will look out for you in whatever way they can or you let them. it's not easy for their love to die. mars dk natives lust for intensity, and they prove it. it's really ride or die with these people, they are genuinely obsessive to the point of their own ruin. remember that it's important to remain self loving too, no matter how much you love someone. at the end of the day you're the only one who will love you.
now, the spouse of the mars dk native is often sexually attractive or strong looking. and i mean both in terms of personality and looks, or either even. maybe they look like they could punch you, or just very argumentative, they come off as being strong either way. they have a reddish undertone to their skin and may even have acne. they could have scars on their face or body, and appear experienced with struggles in life. although they aren't, not as much as saturn dk native's spouses anyway.
the spouse would be active, sporty and bright. they could be im jobs that have them running around all day, even a lot of travelling is possible. government jobs that often have them transferring from this place to that. they may even be an engineer if natal mars dk forms contact with saturn. it is preferable that saturn make indirect contact such as via sign exchange, house exchange, or drishti instead of direct conjunction since that will bring struggles into the native's life.
mars dk gives a spouse who is hot tempered and easily loses their patience. they would be tyrannical if mars is combust, and the relationship would suffer a lot due to this. if mars is conjunct venus, then the spouse would be loyal, beautiful and sexually passionate but the native themselves may be of loose morals or character. it is advisable not to keep a toe out of line when in a relationship with a mars dominant person since much like solar people, the relationship runs on two things; namely love and respect. if the respect is lost, the relationship turns bitter and there will be many fights.
the spouse would be appreciative of the native's efforts in life and the native would feel seen with their spouse. they would live a happy life together if jupiter comes into contact with mars. the couple would be blessed with virtuous progeny and all sorts of luxuries in such a case.
mars forming a mahapurusha yoga while being dk would bring a spouse who is virtuous, passionate, fierce, fights for their rights, unafraid of challenges, of reddish skin, having strength in the arms and have sturdy feet and body. this would give excellent results, as well. they would make a good parent, but they may unintentionally transfer their own prejudices / ideas to their children without giving them the space to grow. they would need to work on this. but they would make an amazing spouse who would always stand by your side, even in the most adverse of conditions.
JUPITER DARAKARAKA
the spouse is, by extension, one's teacher when jupiter becomes the darakaraka. the partner will be religious / spiritual, benevolent, wealthy, optimistic, fair and of curvaceous physique. emotionally, they will be private but have a rich inner world. they spend a lot of time cultivating their knowledge and inner world and hence are selective about the crowd they mingle with. but they are still polite and find suitable worth even in the smallest of events or people. they would also love the arts.
the spouse will be money minded. they could prioritize themselves a lot, and could put off an egoistic or sensitive native. it needs to be noted that while they are kind and benevolent, they give worth to their hard work and don't let it go to waste. they utilise connections and place importance in human connections. still, a jupiter dk can give a somewhat distant spouse, emotionally. they will recognize and execute their duties in the house accordingly, and not do anything less or more. they will teach their child good values and would make for good role models.
by extension, i must mention that while this is extremely rare (unfortunately, because most men are entitled pricks who not only learn to disrespect women from their fathers but are also often protected unfairly by their mothers who should, as women themselves, correct them but don't), jupiter darakaraka can bestow the 'ideal' husband who worships his wife. or, the 'ideal' wife who remains devoted and loving to her husband. and not in a leech-like obsessive way, but rather in the way common imagination narrates it.
guidance towards the best ideals, romantic ventures, completely loyalty to the wife / husband, caring and kind, however you envision it. especially true for natives who seek a female partner, since jupiter dominance in female natives usually bestows a virtuous and pleasant personality. of course, a lot of aspects matter here. like a retrograde jupiter will destroy this; or a weak or debilitated jupiter. even jupiter in eighth reduces the auspiciousness of this planet.
darakaraka jupiter mostly bestows good results. it is especially beneficial for the native to inculcate habits of the ministerial jupiter who is of sattwa guna (of auspicious nature), wise, patient and the teacher of all. jupiter is also directly linked with shri hari vishnu, so for hindus, it is advisable to hold fasts on thursday or ekadashi (the 11th day of every month in the hindu calendar) to be under his grace. the grace of shri vishnu is said to save man from the worst depths of hell, and rise from common greed and sin.
wearing gold and yellow hued clothes increases the auspiciousness of one's jupiter.
jupiter forming mahapurusha yoga while being the dk is highly favourable for the native's spiritual life; bestowing a spiritually inclined spouse who would be prosperous and wealthy. they would have a lot of in depth knowledge about various topics of interest and they would love teaching to others. they would be kind to those who wish to learn from them and make for an excellent parent and role model. their child would both fear them and respect them. the child would be closer to the native than the spouse, emotionally. they would also make an excellent and pleasant spouse.
SATURN DARAKARAKA
the spouse is diligent of nature and polite by virtue. they might be the epitome of raising one's own empire; not quite literally, of course. but they will be self made. they are protected by saturn; treating them unfairly will have consequences. if someone manages to achieve something with 2 hours of work, it might take them 6 hours. there remains a theme of struggle with the spouse's life, but they will know how to emerge from tough situations. they would value tradition, culture and religion a lot. they could make their father figure in their life their role model, and end up becoming an even better person than them.
spouse may have dark hair and sunken, tired looking eyes. hooded eyes. tall and lean appearance, regardless of height. they may appear tired all the time, or obvious indicators on their face that they work a lot. mature looking, looks older than their age. usually have long, bony fingers. they might have a strong bone structure in their face. they could be very beautiful if saturn is aspected by jupiter or venus. if not, then they would have a structured face regardless.
the spouse may have uncordial relations with their father, and would be more unconventional by thought. they won't bind themselves with useless restrictions. it might be difficult to understand them, especially emotionally as they might be very reserved in terms of expressions. they will be less romantic and will be more focused on career and the more practical aspects of the relationship over other themes. (this does not mean they will not be romantic, they are just more grounded than the others. they are not lovers of romance like the venus dks or complete workaholics like solar dks. they simply value longevity, is all. lack of structure will put them off and they would rather sort it out first.)
is saturn is conjunct venus, or jupiter, then the spouse's love would stand the test of time. if natal saturn is in 7th house they would like being taken care of in terms of service; as in preparing them a bath, taking care of their study room, washing their hair, managing money or other practical affairs in their stead. they would love you regardless, but they would respect you a lot if you do so.
if natal saturn is in 1st house then they would love giving the same treatment to the native, or at least it would be beneficial for them to. if, however, saturn is also in cap / aqua while in the 1st house, then dk saturn will give adverse results and the good qualities of the spouse would be destroyed. they may even be lazy and dull. however aries saturn in 1st house will give good results, but there will be fights and periods of isolation between the couple.
saturn forming a mahapurusha yoga while being dk would give a spouse who might as well be a millionaire, or have the potential of becoming one. they would be hard-working, respectful and of amazing morality and character. while not everybody would adore them, everyone would certainly respect them. they would be slow, but dedicated and deliberate. they would be very attractive of physique, and if natal mars is conjunct jupiter in the spouse's chart, then they may.. er, be sexually strong. an amazing placement to have! they would teach their child the importance of hard work and diligence and their child would respect them, even though they may not end up being emotionally attached to them.
since we were on the topic of spouses, i wanted to address one major thing which often bothers a lot of people. when we talk about these planets, signs, houses, aspects, etc then we mention a lot of good and bad. we discuss what would be good about the relationship and what would be bad. for venus and jupiter dk i particularly highlighted money, fame and riches. but do all natives having these dk have loving spouses? this is why at the end of the day, it all circles back to karma. which responsibility you ran from in your previous lives, what sins you committed, which people you betrayed, how you betrayed them, etc. if there's one thing that will never leave you then that is the result of your own actions. i know, and i never say that trauma, fear, abuse are things that you deserved because of your bad karma; that was someone else who absolutely ruined their own soul and mind by trying to hurt yours. what karma is, however, the people who could save you but who you never had. trustworthy parents. caring spouse. loving siblings. reliable friends. other souls who care about your soul; and when you don't have them in your life, is when you realize that you have committed wrongs against others. maybe you were the aggressor in some other life. maybe you were a german who secretly revealed a jewish neighbour to the nazis. maybe you were the man who abandoned his wife for his career. maybe you were the child who left their old parents on the streets. maybe you were the child who suicided and left their parents to mourn. maybe you were the sibling in whose favour your parents forcefully married off their more than capable daughter. maybe you were the 14 year old boy who raped a girl; a girl who could have been the next genius but suicided because of you and you never knew. you could be the mother who abandoned her child to marry a richer man. you cold be the father who never loved his girl child so the child never knew what true love was and kept getting manipulated by other men. you could be the co worker due to whom a talented young lady lost her ambition. maybe, maybe, maybe. you will receive punishment for your wrong doings, but even the universe is a form of parent to us. it will not break you to the point of no return, and in every darkness you will find a beacon of light. a pet, maybe. good food, nice friends, random strangers who are kind to you, a sparrows song, a flower's scent; these are all blessings, and it is with exposing ourselves to the truth that we learn and develop as people. the reason i say this is because people have high expectations of their partners, but they could be the worst sort of person in your eyes. and that's okay. at the end of the day you can only carry out your own duty. even wanting to see or understand the fruit of your dutiful nature is a worthless pursuit. please don't be disheartened, we all have our own struggles in life. and in some way, we can all, together help each other to deal with our problems with a kind smile :)
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hiii!! what type of porn do u think enha would be into?? this question has literally been plaguing me for the past week
thank u sm for sending this to me my beloved anon ! (âșŁâĄâșŁ)⥠here is my personal opinion on what kind of porn the enha hyung line (adding jungwon cuz i love nia) would be into đ€
đ„» JAKE i know will be into the nastiest shit known to humanity. but ! at the same time everything really depends on his mood and what heâs feeling. if heâs feeling like he just needs to get one nut out and have a quick orgasm heâll probably go into the shadiest & easiest porn sites and just click on whatever makes his cock twitch from the thumbnail on the recently uploaded page. and he has range. his gravitation towards these types of videos range from (obv scripted) milfs getting pounded by their step sons or ⊠hear me out. just straight up pussy eating videos. that does it for him tbh. however ! if he does have time and wants to have a whole masturbation session he would probably take his time in searching for the types of videos heâs in the mood for (also ranges from 69 videos, anal videos, sex toys videos, BDSM videos and so on and so forth) but at the end of the day, doesnât matter if he was here for a quick or long orgasmâ it WILL knock him out and he will sleep like a baby :(
honourable mentions ! : fucking machine videos, ⊠sybian, step-cest hentai, pussy eating videos & squirting orgasm compilations (heâs a munch what can i say).
đ„» HEESEUNG also into the nastiest shit known to human kind. i feel like heeseung has a phase where he hyperfixates on either 3D porn (probably futanari threesomes) or hentai (highschool themed ones maybe? or ⊠infidelity ones ngl). (that phase comes and goes every now and then but itâs there for sure) he also has a thing for step-cest and i feel like lots & lots of bondage videos. iâm talking like porn videos where girls get tied up and fucked with different kinds of toys for hours till they squirt uncontrollably and best believe heâs watching it entirely. heeseung also has a thing for edging himself as it makes his orgasm hit 10 times harder. so he probably has participated in those â10 mins do not cumâ challenge videos on random porn sites. i also believe he has a thing for rough fucking videos. going back into the bdsm part he loves watching threesome bdsm videos where thereâs a guy fucking a girl while another one is pushing his cock down her throat. also seems like the guy to have a thing for monsterfucking.. anything that involves werewolf, monster or alien x human porn videos just know that heâs already watched it. tentacles hentai is the way to go, 3D alien forced breeding is also one of his favourites (might even have an obsession with facehuggers phase⊠anyone interested in alien hee?) overall really filthy shit gets him off so well.
honourable mentions ! : has a thing for double penetration videos, gangbangs, lesbian threesomes, sex toy videos, alien breeding & facehuggers.
đ„» JAY my romantic baby :( this man probably doesnât even go to porn sites that often (lies) he goes to twitter to his fav nsfw accs & watches the most romantic and loving porn on the internet that itâs not even porn atp itâs just watching two ppl love each other (and being jealous). heâs the type of man that will have a thing for missionary videos because i feel like he watches the type of porn that he, himself can replicate. missionary videos with the guy being so whiny and kissing his girl everywhere is one of his favs, but ! he also does really enjoy watching cowgirl povs.. doesnât matter if itâs reverse or not, i know an ass man when i see one. see now all of this? applies to my beloved soft boy jay ⥠who takes his time and enjoys his alone pleasure time so nicely and sleeps so contently like a baby after. butttt ! he also does have his own random urges and moments and needs to watch diff types of porn. i see him as the type of guy to stay on twitter still but also go to diff acc w diff kinds of porn in them.. call me crazy but i believe he also has a thing for tying up like heeseung. except this time its obv diff than the bondage on porn sites. he loves loves loves to watch videos of pretty âgood girlsâ getting punished on their daddies lap with their legs and arms tied up. loves to watch how their daddies make them sit on their faces so they can eat their cunts out for hours. also has a thing for full fucking session videos from start to beginning. is fully tuned in from the first few minutes of the make out session or the teasing till the final minute where both of them orgasm. might even be the type to start jerking himself off slowly in the beginning and make himself cum with the ppl on the video to get maximum satisfaction, then goes into a deep slumber cuz heâs been edging himself for a long time.
honourable mentions ! : twt videos that lean heavily towards ddlg content, bj videos, tit play videos (to feed into his lactation kink ! best believe heâs jerking off to a man sucking milky droplets off his girlâs nipples) and doggystyle compilations.
đ„» SUNGHOON ⊠heâs really into role play videos. idk how to explain this but i feel like he has a massive obsession with role play porn videos that are all scripted. a police officer x criminal porn video where the girl is the criminal and gets cuffed and fucked over the chiefâs table just does it for him. his interests also drift towards pet play⊠has a thing for pet play kind of videos & cute pet like outfits like cat ears :( really has a huge thing for calling a pretty girl kitty it just makes him cum so quickly & so so hard. when the video contains roleplaying and punishment? heâs so gone. give him a video where itâs a professor / teacher x student roleplay porn and his hands will be around his cock in a second. his obsession is so deep rooted heâs willing to go into the sketchiest sites just to find the full versions of the videos he sees that are frustratingly teasers / half way through. heâs also a freak for âstuck inside the washing machineâ type shit (so yes to step-cest roleplaying videos). it just adds up in my head tbh cuz itâs freakhoon weâre talking about. bcs of his obsession with roleplaying and pet play⊠he also sometimes falls down a horny rabbit hole of 3D hentai.. thatâs furry porn. he will never admit this but he came so hard to furry / wildlife porn especially when he found werewolf & human porn. best nut of his life the second he saw the knot orgasm. again will never admit this bcs the post nut clarity hit him so hard he didnât jerk off for five days straight after that. (anyone interested in werewolf hoon? omegaverse hoon?).
honourable mentions ! : also into fucking machine videos, furry breeding videos, roleplaying hentai videos and anal compilations (no i will not elaborate for now.)
đ„» JUNGWON the only thought that comes into my head when i think about the type of porn that will get won off is tits. doesnât matter what kind of video heâs watching as long as thereâs tit play is involved heâs so gone. loves and adores to watch videos of either boob play & jerking off or missionary with milfs (yes has a huge thing for milfs) where the camera pov is from above and he has the perfect angle of their cunt & tits bouncing. though he might have a thing for tits & female body worship⊠cock worship gets him off so well. just seeing a girl get so cockdrunk with a guy slapping his leaking dick on the side of her cheek makes him so fucking hard. like jake, jungwonâs porn videos depend on his mood and how heâs feeling like. if he needs a quick nut heâll go to his favourite website and click on whatever appears for him first cuz he has an acc and the algorithm already knows the kind of filth he watches. (heâs a dedicated consumer, has an acc on every site and might even go as far as to downloading porn site apps & following their twt accs) but if he is looking for a long session where he can take his time then best believe heâs watching a whole homemade movie. loves to watch videos from beginning to end with all different positions and angles and multiple orgasms. also tends to have a thing for following along and experiencing everything in the video. but then again he also strikes me as the guy to also watch tit play compilations⊠for sure has a lactation kink and lives to get off of boob sucking videos & maybe even adult breastfeeding. either way⊠everything depends on his mood.
honourable mentions ! : 69 compilations, cowgirl compilations especially ones where the guy starts to suck on the girlâs boobs, pussy fingering orgasm videos, deep throating.
again thank u for sending this ask !! <3
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Black Cat!Reader x The Team Headcanons
Black Cat!Reader x The Team
note: just because youâre in place of Black Cat doesnât mean this is fem!reader! this is very gender neutral besides the mention of lipstick brieflyâŠeven then thatâs not lady exclusive :)
content/warnings: this is seemingly set during s1 like my other yj fics but I imagine everyone being way older đđđœ itâs weird but just roll with it pretty please. alsoâŠa bit suggestive??
word count: 3.6k
a/n: I wouldnât have done this but this anon gave me the idea and I HAD to expand on it unfortunately
THE TEAM (platonic)
Lots and lots of flirting from reader, OBVIOUSLY. do yâall even KNOW Black Cat????? it would be relentless. and no matter how annoying and probably overwhelming it got, you wouldnât back down
with even the toughest/hardest to crack team members
itâs not even like youâre attempting to lure them inâŠor get romantically involved (unlessâŠ), itâs just how you are. who can blame you! flirting is fun
you started off as just another âvillain of the day.â Someone they could take on easily. They thought of you as a pity mission. An bad guy as small as a simple thief? What fun was that?! Theyâve taken down Gods, magicians, robotsâŠand Red Tornado assigned them a thief??? It was a joke.
until it wasnât. until Batman saw potential in you (because of course he did. Robin was not happy about this.)
You earned the nickname Cat, which was a nickname in itself for Kitty Cat (Wally's idea, not yours, you gave him hell for it)
your first mission with them was definitely something. messy, to say the least
it was weird, the whole mind link thing. you made jokez and flirted through the link as a way of coping becauseâŠwell you felt out of place
everyone was so close with each other, not to mention they didnât come from a background of âbad guy shenanigansâ
you felt like an outcast for the longest time, until everyone was revealing vulnerable secrets with each other before a mission. you finally spoke your insecurities with your place on the team
you and Artemis had the same worries (more or less) and bonded over that
you finally were able to let loose and justâŠbe yourself around them
you became soft
the flirting and teasing was still there, however it was saved for missions
you preferred to keep Black Catâs reputation
individual relationships
ROBIN (romantic)
He was very much against the idea of you being on the team. Sure you werenât a crazy villain that hurt people (maybe not physicallyâŠbut you were definitely a heartbreaker, Robin concludes)
You were still a thief at the end of the day. A bad person. And he didnât like that.
It was Batmanâs ideaâand usually Batman had great ideas. This was a very bad one. He hated every bit of it.
âŠuntil he got to know you better
Taking you down was easy. âEasiest job Iâve ever had,â Robin boasts.
You pout, âthatâs not very nice.â
Ha. He knocked you down a peg. Good. You needed a little humbling-
â-How come youâre lying to me, Robin? I thought we had something.â
Uh oh. He absolutely hated when you used that sickeningly sweet voice on him.
Of course you didnât believe his lie. Of course you could tell how difficult that mission really was.
Itâs not apart of his proudest moments. He hesitated to stop you on the mission, completely caught off guard by your flirtatious behavior. I mean, who wouldnât be?!
In a moment of weakness, he let you go. Awestruck by the kiss you left imprinted on his cheek. Something he got teased relentlessly for.
The rest of the team finished the job for him after that.
In the back of his mind he knows the only reason he didnât like the idea of you being on the team was because heâŠknew it wouldnât end well for him. He was sure to be on your long list of broken hearts (a list that was never confirmed to even exist)
It made sense in his mindâŠhe was Robin. A bird. And you were a cat. A right recipe for disaster. Youâd trap him in your greedy little claws and eat him alive.
Over time that perspective changed.
Robin hates to admit it, but heâs softer now. Softer around you. For you.
âI know who you are,â he says with that arrogant smirk.
âSo why canât I know who you are?â
âOnlyâŠreally important and trustworthy people know. The only person who knows besides Batman is Wally. Heâs my best friend.â
âWhy doesnât that include me?â youâre practically purring, rubbing a finger down his face, âam I not important enough to you?â You pout for show
He looks dejected, like he was having an internal battle with himself. And you could tell which part of him was losing.
Your fingers inch slowly towards his mask, ready to lift-
âRobin.â And the stupid, stupid monotone voice that belonged to Batman interrupted you.
Youâll get him back for that.
Robin was now being scolded, but he was having none of it.
âIt was a moment of weakness.â
âIt will not happen again. No more moments of weakness. Youâre growing, your body is going through a lot of different things. Keep it in your pants-â
âWhoa old man! Whoa! Thatâs going too far. And what about Selina?! Youâve had many moments of weakness because of her. You canât scold me for this one time.â
âItâs because of my experience with Catwoman that I know better. Iâm trying to stop you fromâŠgetting hurt.â
Robin calls bullshit on that. What could you possibly do to hurt him? (Thoughts that completely contradict his first impressions of you)
The next time he sees you heâll spill everything. Heâll let you know that he does trust you and that you do matter. That youâre important to him.
Just to spite Bruce. And maybe because he really likes you and wants you to know it.
It was his idea to bring you onto the team anywaysâŠheâs just giving Bruce exactly what he wanted. A warm welcome to a new teammate.
WALLY (romantic)
Wally was so happy someone FINALLY reciprocated his advances. And especially with a catch like you? Black Cat?! He was over the moon.
At first.
It quickly came to be too much. He's been waiting, praying for someone to match his energy, but now that he's got it? He's not exactly sure how to handle it. He's gotten so used to being blown off, teased, and scolded for his flirting that it was weird when you flirted back.
He was of course the first to tease you when you officially joined the team. He gave your your nickname, Kitty Cat. You despised the name and him for the longest time.
Wally was annoying. Taunting you at all times. Calling to you as if you were an actual cat.
He'd click his tongue, "here kitty kitty."
And for that, your flirting was meaner towards him (compared to how you treated everyone else). Which is the exact reason why he couldn't handle the teasing from you. It wasn't the normal way Robin would, "oh yeah, Wally can't phase the way Flash does. Otherwise he gets a nosebleed. Right, loser?" Or the way Artemis would, "ugh, you flirt like a divorced 40 year old who's desperate for a rebound. Loser."
No, your teasing was quite different. You laughed cruelly, throwing your head back for show, "Come get it before it's gone, loser."
So. He was still a loser to you, but it seemed you actually liked that about him. Maybe.
Wally didn't like it as much as he thought he would. It ruined his cool guy facade (one that didn't exist, Robin would say). It was humbling, the way he suddenly tumbled over his words, face flushed red and all.
More than humbling. It was embarrassing.
You bring him down to the mat with a loud THUD. Much like the time Black Canary beat him during their first time training. Except you used your weight, tumbling on him (and straddling him in the process. Great).
Embarrassing embarrassing embarrassing.
The only person that was able to truly catch him was his best friend, Robin. And that's with years of experience with the speedster. You'd know him all of a few months and you're able to do it?!
"It won't happen again,â referring to his teasing of your name, naming you Kitty Cat and clicking his tongue at you.
âOr Iâll have to teach you a lesson. Much different from this one.â And you casually walk away.
Wally desperately wanted to get up, to humble you back. But he couldn't. He felt physically incapable of doing so.
You had really done it. You slowed down the (second) fastest man alive.
Wow.
"Wow. That was extremely painful to watch," of course Robin had something to say about it.
"Shut up man."
KALDUR (romantic)
It was "unprofessional," he said.
Unprofessional your ass. It was perfectly professional. A lot of people on the teams had partners within those same teams. Black Canary and Green Arrow, Superman and Wonder Woman (exesâbut that still counts for something), Conner and Mâgann acted like a couple and no one said anything! So what was the problem?
Well apparently there wasnât a problemâŠseeing as this ârelationshipâ was more welcomedâas in, Kaldur didnât tell the Black Cat off when they made advances towards him. Besides when he called their behavior âunprofessional.â That was once. He didnât say a word of it after that.
In fact, he allowedâdare anyone say encouraged it.
On missions you were attached to his hip. Even if he assigned you to be by Artemisâ side or assist Robin, you wouldnât listen. And he didnât say anything about it, instead informing the team to continue on with the plan.
His professional act as the team leader never faltered, not even you could break it down. He merely tolerated your flirting (his words, though you knew better. He loved it).
The team was each in their individual positions scoping out the area, ready to attack at a moments notice. Kaldur was squatted down and you decided it was the perfect opportunity to pounce on him (as you usually did). You wrapped your arms around his neck, now on his back.
âDoes the team leader have time for some sweet talk?â
âI, we have a job to do, Cat. Focus.â
You hum, âWhat are we doing here again?â
He starts relaying the plan to you, you taking note of the way he doesnât scold you (he repeated the plan to the team multiple times on the way over, he surely wouldâve berated one of the other guys for not listening). You never had any intentions of listening, only wanting a chance to annoy him.
âBlah blah blah, is this your version of sweet talk?â You squish his face between your fingers and plant a kiss on his cheek.
He only sighs, âLater. After the mission is complete.â
For once, your find yourself surprised. Heâs promising to reciprocate your advances?
This should be fun.
CONNER (romantic)
M'gann was more subtle with her flirting (not really, especially with the way she blushes), more timid and on the nose about her feelings. You? You got straight to the point. Kind of like how open Artemis was when she first joined the team. She had no shame letting the team know telepathically how attractive she thought Superboy was. Seriously, what was it with new recruits and taking an immediate liking to Conner? Why not the other three boys? What did he have that they didn't!
Although Artemis gave up on that crush at first sight almost immediately
You? Not so much. it was very noticeable that the Black Cat was adamant on cracking the boy of steel. it seemed like an impossible mission, but with a little determination and a couple sultry words? it was pretty damn easy
This is very much an enemies to lovers type relationship (kinda):
At the beginning, when you first met, he was open to new relationships. Getting to know people he could count on within the team, though that openness completely died down. Your flirting was nonstop. Even on missions! How was he supposed to concentrate on the task at hand when you found time to graze his arm or speak soft words to him?
You annoyed him, sosososo much it wasn't even funny. Even more than M'gann did. Both of you were insistent, that's for sure. But one was more bold than the other. He tried telling himself it was because he didn't like you: at least with M'gann he wanted a relationship to come from it (not necessarily romantic)
But with you...he hated you. No. He hated the way he reacted to your advances...he hated admitting to himself that your words affected him. That he felt something not so platonic for you. Damn you and your stupid flirting. It was surely going to be the death of him. And that's saying something: the clone of the man of steel actually breaking down? unheard of.
But you managed to do it. Unfortunately.
Conner finds himself thinking about you, more than he'd like. Another reason to dislike you. You take up his mind. Every waking moment and every dream. It's infuriating.
And now he was starting to worry about you during missions. He saw you get knocked down, away from the rest of the team. The fall looked nasty, and with the way you seem to lie there with no intention of getting back up, he's sure you've been knocked out
Conner tries to ignore the way his heart clenches at the sight, kind of like the way it does when concerning you in different context
It gives him the courage to voice his worries, he calls out to you, and as expected: he gets no response
The enemy leans down to your level, ready to do more damage. Conner is quickly snapped out of his daze and starts running over to you
Until he abruptly stops. Because you open your eyes to wink at him, jump up, and take the enemy down with ease.
It's right then that he takes back every thought of admitting he doesn't hate you. Because the stupid smirk you're sending his way reminds him of every reason why he dislikes you.
Everyone is home or in their respective rooms already, leaving you and him. You're behind him, massaging his shoulders gently (your touch wouldn't have persisted if he showed any signs of discomfort, he leaned into it in fact, allowing you to continue)
You bring your head down, cheek to his,
"Oh come on. You can lie to everyone and yourself. But you can't lie to me. I know you were worried back there. Just admit it, Loverboy."
He can only roll his eyes. And blushed. You were never going to live this down.
"I wasn't. Now leave me alone." If only his actions were as convincing as his stern words. Words that would've scared off the likes of M'gann had she been in your position. But you knew better, knew that his shaking hands and quickly warming face meant that his words had no meaning.
Your hand dragged from his shoulder to his chest, right over his heart. Yeah, his words were meaningless with the way his heart was beating for you.
Conner was finally warming up to you and you had him right where you wanted him.
And so you let go. "Whatever you say, Loverboy," and with a kiss to his pink cheek, you leave him alone to ponder his complicated feelings.
Feelings that were in fact not complicated at all. Because Conner was finally, finally ready to admit to himself and to you that he wanted you. So badly.
If only you hadn't pulled away so quickly, he couldn't reciprocated the kiss or two...it would've been an easier, showing you how he feels instead of saying it out loud.
He'll kiss you next time.
MâGANN (romantic)
The Martian can't hide her liking towards you for the life of her. She couldâve even if she tried.
It was near painful, you pitied her. You almost felt bad and stopped teasing her. Almost.
It was fun though, how could you stop?
Mâgann would actively seek out your approval and attention when you joined the team. It was only natural, she did it with the rest of the members, so you were no exception.
Besides, the only teammate she was kind of close with was Artemis. Was it sooo wrong of her to want to get close to you?!
Nope! Though she does wish you werenât soâŠforward sometimes. Not that itâs unwelcomed, sheâs just unsure of how to act because of it. Is she supposed to reciprocate? Mâgann has never seen nor experienced such a dynamic on Mars, much less on Earth. So she awkwardly blushes and smiles.
Eventually she gets used to it. And gets very much into it. She wonât vocalize her feelings, instead sheâll mind link and talk that way. Often times itâs easier to communicate through touch. Which says a lot, Mâgann would rather use touch?? Not the mind link?? Which was the main source of communication on Mars? Whoa.
It was mainly becauseâŠshe didnât want to reveal all her feelings to you. Sheâs usually able to control what goes through the mind link, having done it since childhood, but youâve made her mind a complete mess. She all but short circuits when youâre around.
Can anyone blame her?
"You know what I'm thinking?"
"No."
"Well you can read me, can't you Martian girl?"
She giggles at herself, how could she forget? "Hello Megan!"
Her smile turns timid once she reads your mind.
"Oh."
ARTEMIS (romantic)
It was honestly unfair how fast the blonde caught your attention. Her voice. Her stupid raspy voice.
Unfortunately for you, Artemis wasnât exactly buddy-buddy with you at first. Well, she wasnât really with any of her teammates. But with time sheâs learned to get along with everyone.
âI just wanna get to know you, Blondie. Whatâs wrong with that?â You asked in the sweetest voice you could muster up, one that usually made everyone fall.
Yet she rolls her eyes.
So thatâs how itâs gonna be, huh? Fine.
It was right after a mission, everyone was surrounding Red Tornado, relaying the events to your mentor.
âYou know we couldâve took that guy down way faster had you not been on Robin the whole time.â
âJealous Blondie?
âStop calling me Blondie!â
You had sleepovers, movie nights, and other hang out outside of missions. With or without the rest of the team. They were fun, the first time you were alone with her is what really got her to warm up to you.
âUgh! Of course literally everyone else canceled but Cat.â She really seemed to hate you.
You were outside her window, watching as Artemis complained to no one but herself. She once offhandedly commented on how her place was off limits for hangouts (refusing to explain why, which was okay with the team).
You were definitely crossing a boundary doing this, but she seemed upset in the group chat. You couldnât just leave her by herself.
And thenâŠthe Sportsmaster walks in her room. One of the teamâs enigmas. A thorn in their side. What the hell?
He does nothing but berate her for not âjoining them.â Joining who? Then proceeds to say heâd be happier if she ever thinks to change her mind
âIâm never going to be apart of your messed up team, dad.â
Oh.
And then heâs justâŠgone.
Youâre stunned, and only then does she finally notice you. She ushers you into her room, now berating you for your actions and spying and breaking her boundaries andâŠ
âYour secret is safe with me, babe.â It was meant to be a term of endearment to reassure her,
Friends called each other babe, right?
âBabe?â
âYouâd rather be called Blondie?â
She rolls her eyes, âwhatever.â And as annoyed as she wanted to seem, she smiled and hugged you gratefully.
It was the only time you allowed yourself to be any kind of vulnerable around her. Or any of the team for that matter.
Once she got over her high horse, it was a very reluctant friendship turnedâŠsomething more? Thatâs to be determined. But with the way she now flirts back? Youâd say that was a good sign.
âHey Blondie.â
âYou calling me Blondie is the equivalent of Wally calling you Kitty Cat. Maybe Iâll have to teach you a lesson this time around.â
âI like the way you think, babe.â (You say not so platonically this time)
ROY (romantic)
You were on him as soon as he rejoined the team. How could you not be? He was even grumpier than Conner was when he joined, making him extra fun to mess with.
You had no chill when flirting with him, he decided immediately that was annoyed with you. And did not want to be friends.
Because his actual friends brought him joy, they made him laugh and they listened to him when he had bad days. You? You made a bad first impression, therefore he refused give you the chance to do any of those things.
Often telling you to buzz off and if you didnât heâd âchoke you with a hair ball.â Kinky, you replied.
He hated it.
Until you found out about his girl, his other Cat. Cheshire. Thatâs when things changed. You were lessâŠon him.
"Me and her were never a thing!"
"Getting defensive there. Afraid I'll get jealous?"
"I could care less about your feelings."
âOh really? Is that right?â
His eye twitched. He couldnât believe he was trying toâŠreassure you? Was that what he was doing?
He was trying to make sure you knew he wasnât with Cheshire. That her feelings were one sided. Itâs something he shouldnât be doing, he tells himself. In fact, he should be doing the opposite. Tell you that she means something to him, or maybe stay quiet and insinuate that they had something going on.
To get you off his back.
You seemed to back off completely when you found out Cheshire flirted with him often on missions when the goal was to take her down. Much like how the teamâs predicament when they first met you.
It made youâŠupset?
And for some reason that made him upset.
âSo youâre my Roy Toy? Mine completely?â Wally and Robin had originally griped about the nickname until it eventually made them laugh. They came to appreciate it.
âIâm no oneâs. Not yours, not Cheshireâs, not the Justice Leagueâs nor the teamâs.â
âYou will be mine one day, Speedy. And youâll love it.â
Roy doesnât respond but he feels likeâŠthere is some truth to your playful statement.
Maybe one day.
bonus:
THE TEAM
They all slowly turn towards you.
"...you've kissed all of us?"
You only shrug, âwasnât that obvious?â
you can tell I got lazy lmaooo
I hate how I formatted this omg
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How Does Your Crush See You
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PILE 1
Your crush sees you as someone giving, forgiving, abundant and grounded. They might find you "too practical" at times, as you are someone who is mostly focused on work/education.
Your person is probably someone you've met through family or is a close family friend. They see you as part of their extended family. This screams "childhood friends to lovers".
I believe that you are aware about their feelings and thoughts about you. Whatever your intuition says, that's it! A few of you have caught this person staring or their hand lingered for too long on your waist. These are clear signs there is something there. If they look indifferent and nonchalant then they do not view you romantically.
For those of you wondering "are those signs they like me?" yes, they are! Your relationship though is making this person feel burdened.
They would love to be with you but are afraid a confession will mess up everything between you. They also might have a few issues in their life right now and they don't want to bring you any drama.
The same might apply to you. Right now you are busy and have other things on your plate, that's what they think about you right now.
All in all, this pile will apply to you if your crush is someone close to you or your family or a coworker who might have taken you under their wing. Sidenote: This person knows you personally so they have a pretty clear image of who you are. Take care xoxo S...
PILE 2
TW: Mention of anxiety, depression and struggle.
Your crush sees you through a blurry lens, for them, nothing is clear about you. You confuse them. If I had to write a short story about you two, it would be titled "The Girl On The Train", you doing a daily activity and they are there too, staring at you from afar, waiting for you to turn and look at them, locating them and as your eyes lock, you know this person lives their life parallel with yours, always there but never touching. Your soundtrack would have been "Poison Tree by Grouper" and "Limerance by Yves Tumor".
This person, based on the feeling I get from these two songs and their overall energy, is someone who feels like they are screaming while being underwater. They need someone who will see the real them, behind the facade. They might struggle with anxiety and depression and they can tell you have a similar vibe to them. There is something about you, they can't put their finger on it. You are like a ghost to them and they are the only ones who have the magical ability to look at you and admire your beauty. They are not doing it in a creepy way though, they are sweet. They also feel quite sad cause they don't know how to approach you.
In their mind they believe you two would have amazing, deep, heartfelt conversations, no judging involved, just two open arms and lots of crying. They are soft in their core and for some reason they believe you would be able to heal them. They fantasize about touching your hair or kissing your face and wiping away tears.
The 10 of Cups also came out though, so I would say they find you very sweet, someone they would love to have as a soulmate, but they think they do not deserve someon as pure and beautiful inside and out. You are their sweet escape and they would love to get lost in your own world. It's like you are underwater and they want to come in with you, even if they drown. This person believes that love can only be felt in the darkness, the quiet, the 3AM when everyone is sleeping or partying but you are together, sitting in silence and staring into eachother's souls.
PILE 3
Pink Matter by Frank Ocean (Slowed...)
BIttersuit by Billie Eilish
This person, ahhhh, your crush is the epitome of a "soft boi" on the inside. They might not look like someone soft or particularly sweet but their eyes, aww, they make you melt! Their exterior makes you wonder "why am I attracted to them? this is wrong!" This person is meant to teach how to fall in love, crazily and with no logical explanation. You are someone who knows how to love but not how to fall in love.
You have the hierophant/ high priestess energy. For them you are way above their level. You are on a different plane, interstellar. Untouchable. You are the keeper of the sacred and that p/d is sacred, damn! In the song above, the man comes to the conclusion that women's bodies are not just vessels for men to fill or for babies to be made, they are sacred. He talks about his lover like a goddess. If you have already slept with this person you have DESTROYED them for others, or if you sleep with them at some point, it's over, you are a Goddess and they have been a lucky mortal that got to touch you.
Also, if you are curvy/thick they actually love that. In the song there is a lyric about "models are for modelling thick girls are for cuddling". I want to say that this person might be a bit toxic when it comes to those stereotypes. They might follow a lot of instagram models who fit the beauty standard, or you know that their previous gf looked like a model yet they don't consider them "marriage material". Like, this person can have bad habits (smoking, drinking, driving fast, p*rn) and this is driving you insane, because they are not your type, but what I'm seeing is that this person is at a point in their lives that they have started reconsidering their actions and you will play a big part in that.
This person is not that experienced in love. They are experienced when it comes to matters of the flesh but once they are in love they turn to jello. They think about you particularly when they get h*gh. They had a revelation about you while being stoned or in a dream. They find you very beautiful and if you walked up to them and told them you want to lose excessive amounts of weight or you don't feel beautiful they would be SHOOK! They are like "why change perfection?" OH, they are also telling me, tell them to not listen to their bad thoughts" and they want to tell you they know that what they think about you doesn't align with how you view yourself. You think you are a goblin and they see you as an Aphrodite/Cleopatra.
They know you are traditional and serious, wise and calm and they want some of that. They want a spiritual person by their side and someone who will look deeper. They are well aware that you are an unlikely match. The chances they get with you are veryyyy slim. I'm hearing "I don't have a chance, but I'll try."
Wow, don't get scared if they approach and do not reject them. They have a huge heart. Also, the miss your presence if they haven't seen you in a while. They have a crush on you and their friends make fun of them, because it started in a joking manner, they might see you in passing. As an example, they might ride a mototrcycle and they see you almost everyday passing by the park or the beach and they tell their friends "Oh I saw my girl yesterday. She's so hot. There is somthing about her" and now they've been telling them "Have you guys seen my wife? I haven't seen her in a week." Their friends think they are joking but they truly miss you !
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Boyfriend!Nicholas seems to value genuine connections and would likely be the kind of boyfriend who truly listens. Heâd remember the small things, your favorite coffee order, a random story you told, or a passing comment about something you love. Whether youâre having a tough day or celebrating a big achievement, he'd be right there with you, offering his full attention.
Boyfriend!Nicholas seems like he enjoys trying new things and living in the moment. Heâd want to plan spontaneous weekend getaways or try out new activities together, from hiking to going to concerts. Heâd probably be open to exploring both your interests and his, making life feel exciting and unpredictable.
While he may come across as laid back in real life, I imagine Boyfriend!Nicholas as a boyfriend would have a romantic side. Heâd surprise you with handwritten notes, flowers "just because," or plan cozy nights where you can binge watch your favorite shows together. The little gestures would mean a lot to him.
Despite his growing fame, he seems pretty grounded and humble. In a relationship, heâd value honesty and clear communication. Boyfriend!Nicholas wouldnât play games or leave you guessing how he feels; instead, heâd be direct but kind, always working to build a strong foundation of trust.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would be the type of boyfriend who encourages you to chase your dreams and passions. Whether it's supporting your career goals, a personal project, or a hobby, heâd be your biggest cheerleader, helping you stay motivated and believing in you when you doubt yourself.
Boyfriend!Nicholas strikes me as someone who balances being serious and having fun. There would be deep, late night conversations about life and what you both want out of it, but there would also be moments where he just makes you laugh, doing silly impressions or cracking inside jokes.
While not overbearing, Boyfriend!Nicholas would be protective of you in a thoughtful way. Heâd be the kind of boyfriend who makes sure you feel safe and respected, standing up for you if needed but never smothering you.
Beyond emotional support, Boyfriend!Nicholas would value meaningful conversations. Heâd enjoy discussing books, films, and philosophies that provoke deep thought. Heâd ask about your perspectives on things, showing genuine interest in how you see the world. Whether it's debating a plot twist in a show or discussing current events, your intellectual bond would be just as strong as your emotional one.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would definitely have a playful side, teasing you in a lighthearted, affectionate way. Heâd make silly bets or jokingly challenge you to random games, like seeing who can cook the best meal or whoâs better at a particular sport. Heâd probably have a mischievous smile when heâs trying to get you to laugh, making the relationship feel lively and fun.
Boyfriend!Nicholas seems like someone who deeply values family. Heâd be the kind of boyfriend whoâs excited for you to meet his family and would take an active interest in getting to know yours. He'd likely enjoy spending time at family gatherings and might even get involved in family traditions, showing respect for whatâs important to you.
Boyfriend!Nicholas might express his love through acts of service. Whether itâs picking up your favorite snacks after a long day, helping with something you're stressed about, or offering to take care of a task youâve been dreading, heâd find small ways to make your life easier. His kindness would often show up in practical ways.
Because Boyfriend!Nicholas is artistic and has a background in acting, heâd probably enjoy adding a creative flair to the relationship. Maybe heâd write you a poem, record a cute video message when youâre apart, or plan a surprise date thatâs inspired by a favorite movie or shared memory. His creativity would keep the relationship exciting and unpredictable.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would be the kind of boyfriend who fully supports your independence. Heâd encourage you to take time for yourself and pursue your own interests and friendships outside of the relationship. Heâd understand the importance of maintaining individuality while also building something strong together, never wanting to make you feel smothered or confined.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would likely approach conflict with a calm and patient demeanor. If you ever argued, heâd want to talk things through thoughtfully rather than reacting impulsively. Heâd make sure that both sides are heard and understood, always striving for a resolution that makes you both feel good about the relationship.
Being someone who seems focused on self care, heâd probably be a positive influence when it comes to living a healthy lifestyle. Boyfriend!Nicholas wouldnât push it on you but might encourage activities like working out together, eating well, or practicing mindfulness. Heâd want you to feel good, physically and mentally, and would be there to support you in that journey.
Though Boyfriend!Nicholas might have a bit of an adventurous streak, suggesting hikes, spontaneous road trips, or trying out new experiences, heâd also have a soft, homebody side. Heâd enjoy the balance of adventure and quiet nights in, where you could unwind together with a good movie or book, showing that he doesnât always need excitement to feel connected.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would likely be someone who fully respects and supports your ambitions. Heâd understand if you have busy schedules or demanding projects, and heâd never want to hold you back. In fact, heâd be there to remind you of your strengths when you feel uncertain and would always celebrate your achievements as if they were his own.
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More headcannons about the Starks being doms!!! Pleaseeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay starting off saying, all Stark men are doms, just in different ways. But let's start from the eldest down.
Brandon Stark:
Easily a hard dom. He was short tempered and described as very distinctly as having "wolfs blood". He loved fighting and always kept his sword sharp and with him. I have a distinct theory that he was a power bottom, preferring women on top of him but without actually giving them that control. Probably didn't talk a lot, and when he did was just purposely filthy. He also definitly liked to take things rough, considering Barbrey Dustin says this about him.
"I still remember the look of my maidenâs blood on his cock the night he claimed me. I think Brandon liked the sight as well. A bloody sword is a beautiful thing."
That is some hard dom behavior right there.
Eddard Stark:
If there was a Stark who was closest to a switch then the others, it would be Ned. But I think that is more because Ned is just rather vanilla in comparison. There is zero reason to believe Catelyn likes being in charge in the bedroom, but I also think Ned is far more of a soft dom. Not very talkative, probably more intimate, and he doesn't push Catelyns limits. But he does in fact, go hard.
The man gave her five children, and Catelyn literally implies in the first book that Ned fucked her so hard she was in that afterglow pain only a man who goes rough can give.
"Her loins still ached from the urgency of his lovemaking. It was a good ache."
Submissive men do not fuck so urgently they leave their wife laying in bed sore as fuck from getting pounded. Ned is probably the least kinky of the present Starks, but certainly still a soft dom.
Benjen Stark:
We see he has a very dominant personality, how easily he takes control of a conversation and establishes himself as someone to be listened too, but considering he clearly joined the Nights Watch at an early age, it's safe to say Benjen grew up a man whom was just not involved in sexual encounters.
If he did fuck, he'd likely be more of a soft dom with a side that likes to tease and be playful, but I assume he's either never or had very little sexual encounters to say for sure what he'd be like as one. But in his everyday personality, he certainly commands authority when necessary which is proof of dominance enough for me.
Robb Stark:
If there is the biggest example of a hard dom, it's Robb. This man takes you like a goddamn wolf. Flipping you onto your hands and knees, shoving you further into the furs of his bed, going fast enough you can't catch your breathe and rough enough that you feel him well into the next day. He will yank you up to his chest and purposely mutter depraved shit in your ear, mock you for your pleasure knowing it works you up more when he does it. Calling you derogatory sexual terms in bed to keep you in that subspace (he doesnt say them to hurt your feelings you know its all part of a kind of rougher roleplay essentially).
We've seen him take command in every situation. He knows how to seize control of a conversation even with opponents as difficult as Jaime Lannister. He doesn't falter, knowing he has everything in his favour and is sure of himself. Putting men twice his size like Greatjon Umber in his place but still managing to secure his upmost dedicated loyalty at the same time.
Robb probably the most forgets to be romantic in bed, but he makes up for it any other time. It's just in bed, when Robb is fucking you, he is rough and mean. You both know its with love and you both like it, but he is a true hard dom.
Jon Snow:
If his brother is the definition of a hard dom, Jon is the definition of a soft dom. Jon is incapable of being mean to you, truly being mean. He'll never whisper filth for the sake of it, never try to mock or embarrass you, will never use anything close to something derogatory towards you in what he calls you. Jon is passionate, raw, and very intimate about sex with you, and he needs a lot of both skin to skin contact and he needs to be able to kiss you as much as he wants.
But, he is also very controlling. More then he realizes. Jon is unpredictable in bed, because what he wants varies wildly. Sometimes he takes you slowly, but goes for hours to the point he is still inside you as you pass out, which he keeps going. Sometimes, he is rougher then he even realizes. Jon leaves bruises all the time from how tightly his hands grab at you alone, and he goes rough to the point sometimes you almost are pushed too far, but Jon somehow always ends up making you crave it.
You basically will never choose how the night goes. Jon always controls you in bed, and you let him. It works him up to an endless degree that you so completely trust him with you to the point he basically owns your autonomy in bed. He can convince you to do anything knowing you'd let him, and he won't give you what you want because he knows your needs and limits better then you do.
Jon is soft and loving with you in bed, but he is a dom through and through. Jon alone is the one in total control in the bedroom and he will always keep it that way.
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Unexpected Kisses
Characters: Buggy, Shanks, Ace, Sanji, and Franky
Some smoochies for our One Piece fellas <3 Enjoy
Buggy
âą It is SO easy to catch this man off guard, heâs always ranting about one thing or the other. Itâs either that or heâs drinking and partying the day away!
âą So itâs a huge surprise when you kiss his cheek, and go back to your current task at hand as if nothing happened, and yes he absolutely WILL throw a fit when you pretend nothing happened.
âą Claims heâs not embarrassed about the sudden kiss, but the shade of his face proves otherwise, heâs totally shocked.
âą Deep down he probably appreciates it, but heâs simply too stubborn to admit it!
Shanks
âą Sees it coming but pretends he doesnât, will gladly return the kiss unless youâre feeling playful and run away. In which case a chase will ensue, he WILL get that kiss.
âą kisses are such a huge thing between you two, much to the dismay of the other Red Haired Pirates, heâs such a physical and affectionate person, intimacy is a huge thing in your relationship!
âą Hes so affectionate, and always playful with you, itâs almost as if you make him feel like a young man again.
âąI personally think surprise ones would be his favorite because of their playful nature.
âą The look on your face when you think youâve shocked him simply makes him melt. So he allows you to believe he was completely unware of your plans, because he finds the expression on your face so worth it <3
Portgas D. Ace
âą He is the king of suprises, though they blend in with pranks a lot of the time. Heâs always finding ways to surprise you, whether it be with small gifts or tricks heâs picked up, he loves to impress you.
âą So when you return the favor with a suprise kiss heâs over the moon. He was in his own little world, looking over the railing of the Moby Dick when he felt the peck you delivered. Prepare for it to be an all out kiss war!!
âą Much like Shanks these kisses are playful! They involve you stealing his hat and usually tumbling over one another as he fights to get it back!
âą I feel he takes enjoyment out of your suprise affections, because god knows he absolutely needs all the love you give him.
âą Heâs not shy giving you sudden kisses either, whatever you give him he returns! Whether youâre in the dining room, out shopping, on the deck of the Moby Dick, heâll give you wonderful surprise kisses <3
Sanji
âą He would be the most affected by your gesture. One minute heâs explaining how he seasons the skillet before beginning to cook, and the next youâre both hurrying to plug his nose up before he bleeds out
âą While heâs explaining, thereâs such a handsome smile on his face. Hearing him talk about something heâs so passionate about always makes your heart swell for him, so it was hard for you to NOT kiss him, itâs not your fault he wasnât prepared!!
âą He one hundred percent begs for more, going as far to turn his head and tap his cheek, asking for just one more!
âą I donât think Sanji would suprise you with kisses, but I do imagine kisses come with the drinks and food he brings for you.
âą I also imagine Sanji times kisses perfectly. So that whenever it happens it feels like itâs out of a movie or a romance novel. He definitely has a knack for making you feel like youâre in the most romantic setting youâll ever be in <3
Franky
âą Heâs probably going to react the most wholesome out of everyone, weâve all seen him during sentimental stories, and he is truly the most precious cyborg!
âą Loves it when you find him working, heâll answer all your questions, none of them rousing suspicion until you ask him to look up
âą Thatâs when you strike! Pecking his forehead while he sits idly, trying to comprehend what happened.
âą Giggles non stop when you kiss him, his face will grow red and heâll lean in, asking for more. He just canât get enough of your affections!
âą He will always return kisses, and as stated, will be an absolute giggling MESS! Only you can bring out such a soft and pure side of him
âą The kisses you give him will simply make his day, if heâs ever bummed out or needing a recharge a cola is always nice, but you offer an extra incentive with suuupppeeerrrr kisses!!
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i was gonna wait til i had my Sadness, Joy and Anxiety drawn to post this but im impatient!!!
ive seen some people designing their own personal versions of the emotions so im gonna do that!!! This is my personal Ennui đ she has a bit more Lore that ill throw beneath a cut :)
Ennui is typically inebriated with a marijuana - type substance, as a distraction from her chronic and crushing sense of apathy and emptiness. She was introduced early in life, and in Joy's opinion, WAY too early. She has a contentious yet cordial relationship with Joy, who she replaced as emotion leader at a young age. A lot was happening in those days, too much for a child to handle, so a large degree of detachment was needed to handle it. However, her early pairing with Sadness and Anxiety thanks to a rough childhood created a dynamic that pushed Joy almost completely out of the way, and Ennui became the unwitting spearhead of a developing borderline personality disorder. Taking on a lot of these effects, she is often very apathetic and unenthusiastic, still addicted to her phone but also using more adult means of distraction ( smoking, drinking ) . They are responsible for massive early memory loss ; this was something they and Joy begrudgingly agreed on in an attempt to salvage the Sense of Self when trauma became an overwhelming issue in the teen years. Joy still has never forgiven them for this act, even if it was deemed necessary... Mostly because most of those early memories are the ones when Joy was still the leader, for the brief time she was able to be.
They have a very aloof and unapproachable personality, with morbid ideals and questionable self worth that directly effects the person they care for. They refuse to step down after nearly 20+ years of being the leader, and not that they want to be, but because they believe everything will crumble without their hand on the wheel. She has a romantic relationship with Sadness, who is equally too involved in the emotional state of their host. The two of them create a very prominent joint component of the borderline personality disorder, even if they don't mean to -- they have known and worked with each other for nearly their entire lives, so it only made sense that they would become so close. Unbeknownst to most others, she deals with passive suicidal ideation, and thinks about it as often as she breathes, but tells no one, believing that talking about how she feels is a waste of time when she could just smoke and sleep it away.
She smells like nag champa incense and orchids, and she is represented by grunge fashion, and doom / sludge metal music.
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I have another intense ask about bhaalist AU drow...
Would drow be âforcedâ to procreate? And how would Asatrion take that information? If Astarion is his consort, would he be jealous of concubines? Would this also contribute to his overall dissatisfaction during his time trapped at the bhaal temple? Or Would he be happy that his lover has distractions, so he can have time alone - maybe plotting his escape?
Iâm overall curious about how drow and Astarionâs relationship falls apart in your AU
I don't think so! Not that I care about biblically following canon or anything like that, but there was nothing throughout the story that made me think procreation was a requirement in Bhaal's plan. If you take the scrapped ending into consideration, it seems to be more of a punishment first and foremost.
Not to say I don't believe it to be a part of the man-made gospel in some form or another. Sarevok seems fairly invested in this idea of generating bhaalspawn that are pure of blood, and this is an agenda that he subtly pushes onto DU drow throughout their years operating the temple: that said, like it often is, Bhaal is silent on the matter.
There seems to be a lot of conflict within the cult about what Bhaal wants and how he wants it, and I choose to interpret his failure to clarify as part of the Murder God's nature, as well as a fun nod at the (dys)functionality of real-life cults where you have several people claiming to have a direct connection to a god.
But back on topic, there IS the heavily implied Dark Urge To Multiply. A few instances where durge or someone around them suggests that, eventually, having children will be an irresistible biological necessity. There are a few ways to interpret this! But I can't help but notice that this theme is absent in a route where you do willingly become Bhaal's chosen - maybe its a failsafe Bhaal cooked into The Dark Urge in case his child became a weenie? To possess them with the need to spread their seed around until SOMEONE down the family tree stepped up to the role?
This definitely turns out to be the case in DU drow's redemned route, where he is plagued with bouts of breeding-related mania and depressive episodes that come and go as a result of a nest remaining empty, But I hadn't really considered this for his Bhaal-embracing self He definitely harbors an obsession with procreating in that AU - but... I'm not sure that's Bhaal's doing anymore. I think he just wants for there to: A) Be more of him around. B) Create a tangible, undeniable connection between himself and Astarion that cannot be severed.
A theme with DU drow is that he is aggressively monogamous. This remains constant in every possible iteration of him and it's a pillar of the character - he is devout to a partner until the end whether they want him or not, and so, Bhaalist DU drow would be violently opposed to the idea of being sexually involved with anyone besides Astarion. If Sceleritas or members of the temple insisted otherwise, he would balk and them push them off into a Chasm. If Bhaal demanded him do it, he would jerk off into a vial and hand it to whoever he deemed pretty enough to mix up with, and then probably kill the child as soon as it was born, anyway - because it's not right.
DU drow (again, in all iterations) almost believes there to be a magical component to true love that affects a person's life beyond just their choice in long-term partners. Just like he once decided that Orin was his forever-mate, he's now decided him and Astarion are intrinsically linked, that they are stronger together than they will ever be apart again. And It is particularly romantic to him (a matter of ironic fate, really) that the Murder Prince's true love would be undead. In DU drow's mind, and SPECIALLY in his Bhaal-embracing version, this is simply the universe's plan for him, and to divert from it in any way (by, for example, procreating with someone else) would be blasphemous.
Now, obviously him and Astarion can't have biological children for a plethora of reasons. But this is fantasy. Bhaalist DU drow would simply not stop until he found the best way to create someone that could be, spiritually and physically, considered their functional blood-offspring. Through Alchemy, magic, ritual, whatever it may be - as long as it works and works according to his high-standards. I suspect he would have specialists shipped in from wherever they may be in the realms to look into the issue, and probably someone who's sole job is to research the matter, though I'm not sure he would ever be satisfied with the results.
I think Astarion would be utterly checked out of the matter.
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Whatâs Next In Love For You? âĄ
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Pile 1
(Ace of swords, The Sun, Queen of Wands, Death, Seven of Cups, Nine of Swords, Nine of Cups, Fulfillment, Partying, Judgement, & Wedding)
Hi Pile 1, welcome to your reading. âĄ
I believe that in the past with love, you have experienced some sort of sadness or disappointment. Whether it be a separation from an ex partner, or you just cannot seem to find the right partner for you, you seem to have been drowning in your own pain in regard to your romantic life. I think some of you may have also thought to yourself âWhat have I done to deserve this in my life?â Well, I just want to say that you are beginning to find clarity within yourself. I believe that this pain that youâve been through has pushed you to start doing things for yourself. Whether it be focusing on school, work, hobbies, or friends and family, you are now putting yourself first and not rushing to find love. You may have felt like love or a romantic partner would fulfill you, but I promise that this journey you have started to build yourself back up again will fulfill you much more than anyone or anything else could ever fulfill you.
I think that when love comes next into your life, you will be very happily single and in your own space. I think that it will be at a time in your life when you have accomplished what you wanted, and perhaps even at a time when you are very social. Even if you are more introverted, there will come a time when you begin to socialize with others for your benefit. I think you may even meet your next person in love through any sort of party, maybe a wedding. It does not have to be a big event, but Iâm seeing that it is a place where you will socialize a lot with friends and you will be living in the moment at that time. I think when you are with this person, you will do activities that involve a lot of fun too. They will bring extreme joy and laughter in your life. Lots of playful energy here. You may take a lot of photos with this person too. I also think that when this person comes into your life, you will no longer have the mindset of âNothing good with love ever happens to meâ or âI am doomed to be alone.â This person will obviously shift your perspective on love and give you a lot of emotional support I am sensing. I think that your previous wishes and daydreams are coming true with this person. For instance, if youâve always wanted someone who takes you on beach walks and cruises through the mountains with you while listening to music, you will absolutely get this from them. Iâm thinking that you wonât even have to ask this person to do anything, they will do things on their own will and surprise you. I think that as an outcome of whatâs happening next in your love life is that you are going to be emotionally fulfilled, but you may still have some anxiety surrounding your situationship or relationship with this person. I believe that this stems from the past though. You may be very breath taken by this person coming into your life, but you are still scared that love will fail you once again. Even though you may have fears about love failing on you still, I certainly believe that the next person in love coming towards you is definitely committed to you, or at least their feelings for you are very genuine. Pile 1, your wishes and dreams are transforming to life now, so keep going, and you will be where you have always wanted to be. âĄ
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Pile 2
(The Unknown Card, Five of Cups, Five of Wands, Queen of Wands, King of Cups, Knight of Pentacles, Three of Swords, Truth, Abundance, World, & Engagement)
Hi, Pile 2! Welcome to your reading. âĄ
I think that right now, you may feel lost in your love life or unsure of how things ended like in your pervious love experience(s). I am getting a sense of feeling that you may have recently gone through a separation with an ex partner or love interest, or you may have just felt the need to back away from a certain person. I am also getting that some of you may still wonder about the truth of your past situation. Maybe you never got the truth or clarity you needed. For some of you, Iâm getting that your ex partner may have been a narcissist or treated you poorly or took you for granted. This feeling of lost or separation has resulted you in feeling worried, I would say about your love life. I am also getting that you may struggle with moving forward in terms of your life as a whole. Iâm getting that you do want to proceed with your life, but you just feel so stuck and you may feel uncertain of how you can move on with your life. Pile 2, I think with time though, you will for sure be able to expand your life, including your thoughts and actions with love. I think eventually youâll be able to walk away from the uncertainty or loss youâve had and begin to have many love opportunities given to you.
When love comes in for you next, I believe that you will still be in your feelings of sadness and loss of something you once loved or cared for. You will be at a time where you feel very unstable with your life and emotions. I think youâll also be battling with yourself mentally. I think you really want to get rid of these feelings of emptiness, but your mind is still struggling to have positive thoughts to let you be happy. I do think that when this next person in love comes into your life, they will bring you lots of stability, respect, and admiration that you did not have before. It is amazing here that you once were in a place with the 5 of cups, feelings of sadness and emptiness, but with this next love, it will offer you the King of Cups, which is lots of stability and emotional fulfillment. I think this next love in your life will also teach you to be more confident in yourself and you will gain clarity in terms of your romantic life. I think with this next person, they will offer you a very emotional connection too. A connection, I would say like soulmates. There will be a lot of passion and sparks between the two of you, Iâm hearing laughter in your conversations. The type of love where you playfully run in their arms to spin you around, or vice versa. I think that the point of your union with this person is for you to experience a love that you have never received before, while also helping you to love yourself and build you stronger than ever before. Your next love really uplifts you to find yourself I would say. I believe that in the early stages of your connection with this person, your connection will develop very slowly, and because of this, you will feel like they might be playing you, not serious with you, or just donât feel for you like you do for them. It will make you feel worried or upset, but Pile 2, I just want to say that they certainly do feel for you. They do take you seriously, and after these early stages, you and your next person in love will have a very young, free flowing, and innocent type of love. I think this love will also heal your inner child. Your union together is to make you both stronger as individuals and learn about the opportunities in life. âĄ
Who is this person coming towards you next in love? â Ko-Fi extended reading
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Pile 3
(King of Wands, Five of Swords, The Moon, Temperance, The Chariot, The Hermit, Strength, Wisdom, Passion, & It Is Safe For You To Love)
Hi, Pile 3, welcome to your reading! âĄ
I think you have recently overcome lots of obstacles or youâve gone through some sudden unexpected change. Maybe this is a separation from an ex partner or person of interest. You may have had many sleepless nights worried about whatever situation that put you through anxiety or stress, but I believe that right now, you are in your power regarding love, education, career, money, and success. I think that the situations that you have gone through have left you no choice but to change yourself and proceed in your life in order for you to be happy. Perhaps right now you are picking up a new hobby, or trying to advance in a hobby. Maybe you are creating a small business or picking up a new side hustle. Maybe you are excelling in your classes much more than before. Your passion to succeed in life is dramatically increasing right now, and I just want to say Pile 3, although you donât see it, with the adversity you go through, there are success, love, and wish fulfillment growing to life for you. Keep going my pile 3! You are in your power!
I think when love comes next into your life, I think youâre going to be a bit skeptical and in your head about it. I think when love is offered to you, youâll think to yourself âReally? Why me?â Itâs kind of like, you donât really expect love to come your way because youâre not used to it, or love hasnât did you well in the past. With this pile, Pile 3, I am hearing âTrust issues.â You may have this, just take what resonates. I think when love comes into your life, youâll be afraid to open up to this person due to not wanting to get hurt. Maybe it takes awhile for you to trust someone and get comfortable with them for you to open up. You are most likely guarded. I think when love is offered to you next, you have probably been so much in your independence that you may hesitate to accept love. Eventually, youâll let this fear subside though and youâll begin to open up because youâll feel intense passion with this next person in love. I think in the early stages of your situationship or relationship with them, youâll realize that there is equal interest between the both of you, and that will help you open up much more. If you ever had to experience unrequited love, this next love coming towards you will be the complete opposite. This next person feels the chemistry and desire with you, and vice versa. They also have extreme loyalty and devotion to you. Youâll have a lot to talk about with this person. There are lots of texting, calling, and communication here in the courting stage. This next love will also offer you lots of traveling and lots of freedom as well. Lots of trips together, definitely. You may open up to this person slowly, but surely, you will feel comfortable with them in the end. Ultimately, this next love offer will help you gain inner strength, and let you know that it is okay to let love in and trust people with your heart. I think youâll learn to love and enjoy having someone as company more than before, even if you are always used to being in solitude. I think you and this next person will have a lot in common in terms of your hobbies or activities you enjoy doing together. Youâll feel really safe with whatâs coming towards you in love, Pile 3. Just remember that you are capable and worthy of a true, loyal, and healthy love. âĄ
Who is this person coming towards you next in love? â Ko-Fi extended reading
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Pile 4
(King of Cups, Three of Wands, The Lovers, King of Wands, Death, Six of Pentacles, Four of Swords, Love, Blowing Kiss, Chariot, & Retreat)
Hi, Pile 4, welcome to your reading. âĄ
I think right now in your life, you may have a person of interest, or someone in mind that you are attracted to and still debating if they are the one for you. I keep getting this energy in your reading that you definitely have someone, or you have your eyes on someone. If this isnât the case, then I think there are other people who have their eyes on you and are interested in you, and theyâll be coming in pretty soon. I do think you are generally a more emotional human being though. Perhaps, you are a hopeless romantic. I also think that you do want to take your situation with this person to the next level. Iâm thinking maybe youâd like to get to know them more, see them more, or go on more dates with them. For others who donât have a person, Iâm getting the feeling that you are very ready to let love come into your life right now. Maybe you are even seeking for romance right now. Pile 4, but I just want to say that your love life is really transforming right now, even if you donât see it. I really feel like romance for you is close by.
When love comes next into your life, I think youâll be super ready for it. Of course, if you already have someone in mind, youâll be happy that youâre finally taking things to the next level with them. Again, Iâm really feeling that whatâs coming next in love for you is on the horizon. I think youâll be planning a lot with this person. Maybe you will plan out the different types of dates you will go on, or maybe you will strategize ways to see them in real life just to talk to them. They will do the same. Iâm getting that youâre actually super into them. Thereâs going to be a lot of talking between the two of you, and Iâm getting that your affection for them is returned back to you. If you have already been texting, calling, or communicating with them, just know that your conversations are getting deeper and moving to the next level. Itâs such a sweet love to start with. Itâs like the beginning or courting stage will be filled with butterflies and nervousness because you both like each other a lot. I think that this next love coming towards you has to offer you a lot of expansion and growth in your love life. I think youâll both take initiative and up lift each other in your relationship. There is so much giving and receiving here in your relationship with them. Maybe they might pay for a date, and later on, youâll give them a gift, or maybe theyâll make you a special breakfast in the morning and then in the evening, youâll surprise them with a homecooked dinner date. Itâs things like this that Iâm getting for you two. Love is returned here in this relationship. I also think, of course, youâll no longer feel that intense feeling in your chest of âOh do they like me like I like them? Will we ever be together?â like you once did before. By then, you would absolutely know that they feel a lot for you. Another thing I am getting with your reading is that this is the type of love where it feels like you are always in the honeymoon stage with them. You both are just so lovey dovey with each other, and the love wonât stop! With whatâs coming next in love, there will be lots of giving and receiving as said before. Youâll receive this love that is reciprocated in all ways, and I think your mind and heart will be at ease when you are with this person. Youâll finally be able to get good night rests with whatâs coming in for you. I think youâll definitely think that this person was worth waiting for Pile 4. âĄ
Who is this person coming towards you next in love? â Ko-Fi extended reading
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L Lawliet dating headcanons đđ€
- I believe that L has no relationship experience or anything like that. He wouldn't know what to do at first, so don't expect much of him.
- Not just because he doesn't go out often, but also because he never felt like engaging in a relationship. He's usually busy working or doing other stuff.
- Gets pissed at himself when he notices he's falling for you, tries to ignore the feelings at all costs, but it gets stronger than him.
- He would take A LOT of time to open up to you. This guy doesn't trust anyone besides Watari, so getting him to trust you would require a lot of time and patience.
- At first, he wouldn't be very romantic. You'll need to teach him how to demonstrate feelings.
- Not the type to say "I love you" or cute things all the time, but he praises you a lot.
- Sometimes he acts distant, or he turns out quite invasive (getting way too close or touching you), but not in a way that bothers you.
- Spoils you a lot with gifts and food. Refuses to let you pay for anything on dates.
- L would want to investigate YOU. Wants to know everything about your life, your past, routine, personal tastes, and more.
- Stops by cafeterias and candy shops everytime you both go out together.
- Avoids involving you in dangerous cases (such as Kira's, for example), wants to keep you safe.
- This man spends like 5 days without sleeping, but if you try to convince him, he'll sleep more often and with you.
- In the nights he doesn't sleep, he stays in bed by your side, caressing your hair until you fall asleep.
- When you're not together, he'll want to know where you are, who you're with and what you're doing ("only for safety reasons", he says).
- If he gets jealous, he won't demonstrate it to you. Will only stay silent and keeps it to himself.
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I donât think this is what he meant especially because Namjoon said he gets how he feels and shook his hand after. We all know Namjoon is single for a while now after going through a nasty breakup. Jimin and Jungkookâs bond is precious even though itâs now clearly not romantic.
He also said âAlthough I feel this way itâs not sadâŠâ when speaking about Who. I think Jimin is strongly indicating that he has been single for a while. We should really take his words for what they are rather than trying to twist them into a narrative that makes jikook romantic. In the context of everything he said earlier in the video up until the Who talk it seems that he created Who to have the direct message of searching for his person. He was speaking about the song when he said that he felt this way. Not having those butterflies is what he is referring to when he says he feels flat, not sad but not exciting. Even if currently platonic jikook have a precious bond.
Imo these three sentences sums up MUSE and WHO perfectly instead of those essays wanting to connect it to jikook because we want them to be real :
https://x.com/jkyoongs/status/1814588120291287475
This is exactly what he told, meant and going through when he created this album. It's sad Jikook is not involved romantically but they still have a great bond given their trips and now enlistment but if Jimin is saying he's single without even feeling butterflies to fall in love then we have to accept that guys.
Hey Anon, thanks for this ask. Its so great to interact with someone who disagrees with me but doesn't have a huge chip on their shoulder about my views.
And honestly i can see that there are many ways to look at this situation.
Nobody can without a doubt claim they are romantic partners, just like nobody can without a doubt claim they are not. You and I have differing perspectives based on what we see and how we interpret it. We probably have different ways of seeing the world and different experiences of love.
And if one day we all find out that they were really just friends, Iâll shake your hand and, without screaming or crying, I'll accept that i was wrong. I hope you would do the same.
But right now, I don't think I am wrong on this.
Looking at the whole picture it seems to me that they are very much still romantic partners.
More like an old married couple with complicated and busy lives, but
Clearly still very focused on each other.
Clearly delighted with each other.
Clearly care deeply for each other.
Clearly spend a lot of time together despite being so busy.
Clearly attracted to each other.
Clearly physically comfortable with each other.
That's how i see it.
Am i prepared to die on the hill that their relationship is romantic? No, because I can't possibly know for absolute certain. Same reason i dont believe in god (although i think Jikook is more plausible than an old guy sitting in the clouds watching humanity like he's playing The Sims, just quietly... and yes bring on all the anon haters who are gonna want to thrash me because i'm an atheist).
But on the balance of evidence I'd say ...
they're still together.
Lets talk about MiniMoniMusic.
As for the Minimoni video, Jimin was there to talk about the album. It wasn't a conversation about his personal life.
He talked about not having excitement in his life, about his life being bland, and empty after suspending group activities. They hadn't been active as a team, and he was working really hard. It was a long time since he felt excited about something.
That sense of excitement was compared to having a crush and confessing his feelings. He said he can't remember the last time he felt that way, and the journey of MUSE was to make him feel excited again.
Tracks 1-5 were exploring the exciting emotions, like you would have when you're crushing on someone. That euphoria, the fizz in your belly, the high energy etc. That's what excitement feels like.
The crush conversation... This is the part that's throwing everyone.
He said he couldn't even remember the last time he had a crush, and Joon says I know how you feel and he and Joon laughed about that.
If it was because they've both come out of long term relationships (and we know Joonie's breakup was traumatic) why would they laugh?
They weren't laughing about being single, they were laughing about being OLD.
Remember what came next ... Jimin says the youngest in his band is really young so Jimin asked him about how a crush feels:
"Give me something since you're the youngest"
Because having a crush is something teenagers feel.
Jimin and Joon feel old, like they are a bit past having crushes. I believe that's what they're saying. And honestly, when was the last time you heard 30 year old men talking about their crush?
A crush and a long term romantic partner are two very different things.
At no point did he say he wasn't in a relationship.
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Edited to add a better translation of 'crush' , being one sided/unrequited love.
I'm not deleting what i originally posted because the reason jimin asked Evan is based on his youth.
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One more thing i need to add...
In my experience, it's very difficult to go from being in a long term relationship to being platonic besties with your former romantic partner. It takes a LOT of work, and it requires energy, effort, and very carefully maintained boundaries.
Jimin & JK don't look like they're maintaining boundaries to me.
Based purely on the recent footage - the Are You Sure teaser they released - I see no sign of clear boundaries. Even in the Minimoni conversation Jimin says they drink and talk for 3-4 hours and it gets DEEP. That's a recipe for disaster with a former lover.
It also usually requires substantial time apart - YEARS maybe - to reset the relationship so you can be best friends without falling into old habits. We aren't talking high scool boyfriends who get the odd hour alone together here. We're talking months and months abroad in hotel rooms with nothing to do except listen to Lana Del Rey and... eat bread (apparently) đ€Łđ€Ł
Ok look, that last part was a tongue in cheek joke but they have spent YEARS under the same roof with zero reason not to be in each others bed, pants, shower, and anything else that sounds fun.
So honestly I don't buy the 'used to be lovers but now good friends' argument.
Those boys are comfortably intimate to such a level they don't know where one of them ends and the other begins.
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bound 2 (falling in love)
oneshot
word count: 6.5k
genre: fwb to lovers
pairing: yoongi x reader
summary:
You and Yoongi were okay with being friends with benefits... until you weren't.
warnings: i tried to focus on fluff (did you catch it or did i fail), explicit sexual content; unprotected sex (they make love to each other), choking and breath play (hello it's yoongi), multiple orgasms, slight overstimulation, crying (is it really my ff if there's no crying involved), creampie, very cute aftercare and i think thatâs all, this is more sweet than anything lol
a.n: believe it or not this wasn't apart of my drafts i wrote this all one night because i couldn't sleep so thank my insomnia for this, it was about time i write about yoongi :D
also i noticed a lot of you are reading it was destiny and love always wins and i wish you guys wouldn't only because i plan to rewrite some of it and continue them at a further time (chaptered ffs are so hard for me rn since i don't have all the time in the world to dedicate myself to them but i promise to be back with those two series) thank you for everyone who takes time to read what i write it really means so much and your comments have been so motivating. thank you so fucking much for 2k notes on good girl, gone bad i havent seen numbers like that ever im so so grateful, thank you from the bottom of my heart. i'll try to be back one or two more times this month and happy late birthday to me hehe <3
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It happened again.
Another failed date to add to the sad list of people that simply will never workout for you.
The list was growing longer as months passed. When you started this list, it was barely the start of a very hot summer. Probably the hottest itâs been in years, one can only assume the winter will not be any easier.Â
And you were right. Winter was only beginning and it was brutally cold. The streets were moist from the previous night of harsh rainfall.Â
What better time to date and settle down than now. When the world gives you rain, settle for the warm arms of a lover.
Unfortunately, you made a grave mistake thinking this would come easy. Ten first dates later and you are still very single and loverless.Â
It is not easy to go out during a time like now, suffering at the sight of happy couples and their stupid happy lives. Really, it should disgust you. It used to. The whole concept of devoting your entire life to someone. The need to constantly feel the tender touch of another person. The desire to fall in love and do it all over again, you get it now. At least, you think you do.Â
âI donât think this is gonna work.â The words fall from your mouth in a quiet rush. The man across you sits in silence before he smiles in his loss.Â
âDonât worry, I figured. It seems your mind was elsewhere. I know you donât want to pursue anything romantically, and thatâs fine with me, but is everything okay?âÂ
Is everything okay? Well currently, yeah youâre okay. As for your heart, itâs heavy and strangely, you feel thereâs a hole in your chest and it needs to be filled. That would fix things, you think. You have been single for so long that you forgot what it was like to love and cherish someone. Not that you have ever truly loved or cherished anyone, but youâve gotten close. If a silly relationship you had in your sophomore year of high school counts. Then yes, youâve totally been in love.Â
âIâm okay. Thanks for asking. I didnât mean to lead you on, if it ever felt like I did.â The apology seems bitter in your mouth. Another failed fucking attempt. How difficult can dating be? Have you really been this disconnected with the world around you?Â
âDonât stress it! Things happen. I hope you can find what youâre looking for. See you⊠around?â The manâs understanding response makes you feel worse. Maybe you should consider deleting Tinder and finding love naturally, if thatâs still a thing in the contemporary life.Â
âYeah, totally!â And like that youâre off to the next. Giving yourself plenty of time to bathe in your disappointment and miserably cry about your failed attempts at finding what youâve been missing. Who knew dating could be so difficult?
The walk back home is just as cold as the outcome of todayâs date. Your date insisted he could drive you home and if not that then pay for a cab, but you didnât live too far from the restaurant you both met at. Though he insisted, you figured this walk could refresh you after yet another failure. You were starting to regret it as the cold wind started roughly hitting your skin. Preserving the chilly weather, you genuinely couldnât wait to get home and wrap yourself in a bundle of warm blankets and comfortable clothes.Â
Cold hands struggle to open your door, you blow on them with warm puffs of breaths, soon making your way in and getting comfortable in your humble apartment.Â
yoon: you up?
And that, that is what made this harder. The fact that you knew there was someone completely capable of loving and caring for you the way you desired. You have seen it with your own eyes. Every time you ended up in his bed, in his arms, you felt it. Deep down you know something is there and that something beats everything else. Maybe youâre just delusional, but you look for him in everyone else and you hate it. Hate because you will never be anything more than his personal little whore that comes at the sound of his call.Â
me: yeah
Normally, you arenât dry over texts, especially not with him so heâll see right through you. Youâre hoping for once, he can ignore it.Â
He won't.Â
yoon: you ok?
me: been better
yoon: wanna talk about it?
me: no, i'm ok
yoon: ok, wanna come over?Â
Yes, because during a time like this all you want is the comfort and warmth of someone elseâs touch and Yoongi has never failed at giving that to you. But he is not yours.
And you are not his.Â
me: not feeling well. sorry.
yoon: sick?Â
A white lie never hurt anyone.Â
me: yeah, throat hurts
yoon: im sorryÂ
me: it's not your fault maybe another time.
Though you really shouldnât say that. There should be no next time. That way you donât suffer any longer and drag him down with you, considering everything youâve been feeling and dealing with lately. Itâs not fair to Yoongi, but especially yourself.
He doesnât reply anymore and you canât even hide your disappointment. You arenât disappointed at him, okay maybe a little bit at him, but mainly yourself and your recently found complicated feelings.Â
You and Yoongi started this whole mess a year ago, before you even realized what you truly wanted. It started off with subtle flirting here and there. They say not to mess with coworkers, given that it can complicate things at work and one should never play with their main source of income, but you did it anyway. You are still young and he only made you feel younger, like a teenage girl crushing over her forbidden crush at church. It was silly, but Yoongi made it easy.Â
The flirting turned to one thing, then another.Â
âWe shouldnât, not here.â Yoongi had you pinned outside the club you both worked at, leaving trails of wet kisses down your throat.
âFive more minutes.â His words were muffled into your skin as his hands explored your body. Yoongiâs touch was always way too soft for his own good and you fell victim to his deadly warmth.Â
âIf Mr. Kim finds out, heâll kill us and fire us both.â That was a bit dramatic on your part and you swore you felt the taller smiling against your neck.
Yoongi drops one last kiss on your cheek as his hot breath hits your ear. âNot if I kill him first.â
You gasped, pushing him off you with a quick smack to his chest. âD-Donât even joke like that.âÂ
Yoongi just laughed.Â
âOkay, okay baby.â The term of endearment fell from his lips too easily and you melted into the dark night. âSee you after work?âÂ
You only nodded, not being able to deny his temporary warmth and sweet presence. Then he dropped a kiss on your lips, leaving you just as quick as when he first found you. You were fucked.
From there, it only got worse for your sake. Your heart could only take so much.Â
Really, you should blame things on him. It was his fault you fell in love with him and his stupidly soft hands. It was all his fault! He left you no choice but to love the feel of his lips against your skin, to easily melt under his soft gaze, and find comfort in his unnecessarily warm bed. Yoongi was perfect. Everything you could ever want.Â
Thatâs why it was so fucking hard. Dating was hard enough, but after feeling Yoongiâs intimate touch, you were a complete goner. Though he was far from it, Yoongi touched you like you were his and he would fuck you like a lover would. Kissing and making love to you as if you were the most beautiful woman on Earth. It was all too much.Â
Fuck, you really needed to get a grip.
The knock on your door makes you jump from your couch.Â
Ten minutes longer and you would have fallen asleep exactly where you were lying. In outside clothes and all. You didnât even bother taking off the outfit you had carefully planned thinking that this lucky outfit would have finally taken you somewhere. It didnât.Â
âComing!â Thereâs not a single person that should be outside your door, especially at this hour. Your feet make their way to the door regardless and the blood from your face drains when you see the person standing behind the door.Â
Quickly, you unlock your front door, rushing the taller inside. âHurry! Itâs freezing! What are you doing out here?âÂ
Yoongiâs cheeks are surely frozen, a pink dust decorates his cheeks and the tip of his nose. It almost makes him look cute. You were far more gone than you imagined.Â
He hustles inside, carrying a fairly large brown bag with him. He brought⊠groceries?Â
âTook you long enough.â The taller one makes himself at home, laying his bag on your coffee table.Â
âWhat are you even doing here?â You ask again.Â
He ignores you. âThought you said you were sick. You donât look very sick?âÂ
Yoongi looks at you with a questioning look, his eyes wander your outfit and guilt starts eating your insides.Â
You cross your arms, an attempt to hide yourself in shame, but whatâs done is done. âI- I had plans.âÂ
âYeah, I see that.â He simply says, standing awkwardly in your living area.Â
If this doesnât convince you to delete that forsaken app for the sake of your dignity and shameful behavior, you donât know what will.
âAnyways, w-what brings you here?âÂ
âBrought you some stuff.â His hand waves over to the bag he carried inside.Â
âStuff?â You question, a bit dumbfounded, planted still in your place.
âTea, cough drops, some soup I made earlier this week. Oh and flowers.â Yoongi doesnât seem at all embarrassed or fazed about the situation. Not that he should be, but he speaks with a puff to his chest, as if he wanted to ensure you understood his every word and action. Like any concerned lover would be. As if he was yours and you were his.
Oh.
This was so so bad. For you and your weak heart. Fuck.
âI-âÂ
He cuts you off before you even get to speak. âI donât know if youâll like it. Itâs just some plain seaweed soup. Usually helps me when Iâm sick. Iâm not sure what flowers you like, or if you even like flowers. Do you? Their tulips. I did a bit of research before. My mom likes tulips. I figured you might like them too.âÂ
He did research? Double fuck!Â
Yoongi was nervously rambling, now he was slightly embarrassed. Pink flushes his cheeks and it wasnât the weatherâs doing this time.Â
âYoongiâŠâ You start breathlessly and in disbelief.Â
âWhat?â He nearly stutters, his hand is shaking. Heâs nervous. Who would have thought?Â
âWhy.â Is all you manage to ask.Â
âYou were sick.â Is all he replies. As if things were really that simple. What next? Would he come rushing to the hospital if you suddenly fell ill? God forbid, but it was a valid question.Â
What was going on? For a second, you entertain the idea. Maybe he fell in love between the blurry lines of this complicated relationship. Were the shared intimate memories too special for him to forget too? You werenât sure anymore, but what did this all mean? Maybe he loves you, as much as you love him.
Thoughts keep spinning and you wish there was an easier way to turn off your brain. Not now.
âI know, but why? Why all this? Why for me?â Your vulnerability is showing and it makes you feel weak. Maybe your hands are shaking too.Â
âI don't understand?â Yoongi searches for the answer in your glossy eyes, heâs tempted to reach out and comfort you. Have you in his hands, but heâs too coward. He doesnât want you to feel the shiver of his touch right now. His vulnerability peaks through as well.Â
Why not you? Itâs always going to be you.Â
âI-Iâm nothing to you.â Thereâs a shiver again and then you break.Â
Yoongi doesnât care anymore. Heâll consider the consequences later. Right now, none of it matters.
His hands hold your face, ready to wipe the tears that threaten to leak from your precious eyes. He hopes his hands aren't cold anymore from standing outside for so damn long, but he couldnât stop himself, in his selfishness and all.
His hands shake slightly, trying to stay strong as he lays it all on the table. âY/N, youâre everything to me.â He whispers, eyes never leaving yours.
You lay your own hands on his, you feel so delicate around him when you wrap warm hands around his cold wrists.
âI-I am?â You ask between sniffles. His hands are still pretty cold, but theyâll soon warm up against your soft skin. Nobody knows how desperately you need to be touched until you are and then itâs like little fireworks spark inside your body. It consumes you in the best way possible.
âOf course. I thought I made that obvious.â His eyes are soft, different to how he typically looks at you, but youâve seen these same eyes before. They are no stranger. Itâs similar to the look he gives you when you catch him staring at you while you are deep in work. He pretends to look away as if he wasnât admiring you from afar and you pretend that you donât notice his curious eyes. Itâs the same look he has after you both end up in heated makeout sessions, behind the rusty club you both work at. And itâs definitely the same look he has while he settles on top of you, whispering sweet words of praise and promise.
Nothing should feel different but it just does, thereâs something in the way he looks down at you that lets you know that everything youâve been searching for has always been right here. Right where youâve been all along.
The taller leans in and you freeze struggling to keep your eyes on his. Yoongiâs thumb brushes against your cheek with a soft touch. You were fragile between his hands and heâs willing to do anything to keep his precious flower safe. âCan I kiss you?âÂ
âYes. Please.â You whisper back in a hurry, scared that this would be nothing but a dream. It wasnât time for you to wake up yet.
His eyes zero-in on your lips and then heâs kissing you. Itâs not much different from other times. After all, you guys have shared plenty of kisses, probably more than you should have considering you guys were friends with benefits, at most. But this time, the kiss isnât just a careless lust-filled doing, no this time the kiss is a promise. The promise to never again allow you to question his feelings and intentions towards you.Â
If Yoongi has to spend his whole life making this up to you, he simply would because thatâs how much you meant to him. He canât believe he even let this go on for this long. He should have been more clear and careful, but he doesnât regret a damn thing. Not when he has all the time in the world to repair the time lost. And especially not when his reckless actions led him to this. To you.
Yoongiâs lips are soft and bend with yours with ease. He takes his time, never in a rush. Especially not when he has you in-hand.Â
The taller doesnât escalate the kiss. He keeps it sweet and gentle, like he always has been. âIâm so sorry baby.âÂ
Kiss.
âFor?âÂ
Kiss.
Yoongi has the whole world in his hands right now as he looks down into the sparkles in your eyes and heâs never been so sure about anything in his life. âFor being a fucking idiot.â
Kiss.Â
âItâs okay.â A kiss is shared again. âI was an idiot too. I was just scared that you wouldnât want that with me.âÂ
âWant what?â The taller questions, fingers trailing your face, admiring the imperfections and all.Â
âA relationship, I mean. You seemed content with how our relationship already was. I was afraid of losing that. Of losing you.â You admit, eyes fluttering at his touch.Â
âOf course, I want that. I want that and more. I-Iâm not the best with relationships. Iâm only saying this because I want to be open and honest with you. Thereâs not a second you arenât on my mind. While at work, you are all I can see. In a crowd of a hundred, my eyes always find yours. I donât know how to explain what you do to me. But I donât mind. I think if I ever lost that, I would lose my mind. So Iâm sorry if I ever made you feel the opposite. Thereâs so much more I want to say, but I just donât know how. I want that. I want that so bad. A relationship and whatever more you give me. I might not be the best boyfriend but Iâll do whatever it takes. I- I love you.â Yoongiâs words are heartfelt and heâs so relieved. One because heâs been keeping this in for so long, any longer and he would have exploded, but second because heâs been dying to say those three words. He really does love you and Yoongi doesnât love many people in life, but if he had to choose, itâs always gonna be you.Â
The tears that were creeping on your eye-lids fall prettily down your face, but Yoongi comes to your rescue. Heâs quick to wipe them off your pretty face, tempted to kiss them away, but he keeps that in for now. âY-Yoongi⊠I love you too. So much. I think I always have. You are so easy to love. The way you look at me, care for me, and always show up for me. That says more about you than anything else. I tried dating to get over what I felt for you, as you can probably tell, but nothing worked. It was so easy, Yoongi. So easy to fall in love with you. Youâre perfect and I donât doubt that youâll be the best even after all this. I love you.â
âI love you too, I love you. Fuck, I love you.â Yoongi kisses you again and this time he isnât as gentle. His lips are still soft as ever as they curl around yours. His tongue comes out and you immediately allow access, letting him explore your mouth. The taste is much better now that there isnât anything you both are holding back. Everything down on the line and you couldnât be happier. The hole in your heart was never empty, it was just waiting for this exact moment to remind you that youâve always had it all.Â
âYoongi.â In between breaths you call his name and Yoongi feels his knees lock. âTake me to bed.âÂ
Yoongi just nods in a trance with the way your tone drips of arousal. A long strand of hair falls on his face when he picks you up with ease off your feet. He takes you to the place heâs had the honor to visit a hundred times before, but itâs different this time, much different.Â
In the process of it all, something falls and it causes you both to laugh until you run out of breath.Â
âI canât believe that just happened.â You laugh into his ear. âYou owe me a new lamp. My mother bought me that, you know. House-warming gift.â
âFuck, sorry.â Yoongi mumbles near a whisper as he grips you harder like heâs afraid he might drop you next and the idea makes you giggle because you know he would never purposely hurt you. âIâll apologize to your mother directly. Buy you and her a new lamp, whatever it takes.â
âWhat makes you think you are meeting my mother?â You tease with a smile on your face, watching the blush rise on his cheeks.Â
âWell, I figured we could, you know, if you would likeââ Yoongi doesnât often get shy about many things but he canât keep calm around you and that kills him softly.
âIâm just teasing you.â You say and he bites his lip. âOf course youâll meet my mother and my father and my nosy ass family. I hope you like annoying, persistent grandmaâs that stuff you full. My grandmaâs the worst of her kind, but sheâll love you.â
âI would love to.â Yoongi simply replies, still whispering as if you guys had to keep quiet or else youâd be in deep trouble.Â
âWhy are we still whispering?â You whisper back, roaming fingers through his long, gorgeous hair. He needs to remind you to thank his mother personally for insisting he keep his hair long because it made him look pretty and you could never disagree. Yoongiâs so pretty.Â
âI-I donât know.âÂ
You both smile at each other before sharing another kiss. Itâs so sweet and if you werenât already off your feet, you would be floating by now. Heâs gentle when letting you drop into the sheets below, he finds space between your legs and you wrap them around his hips. Lips still in contact, never losing the plushy feel.Â
Everything starts to feel hot. Your hips start to slowly grind against his begging for any sort of friction. But the kissing doesnât stop.Â
Not when you start whining against his lips.Â
Not even when Yoongi starts trailing his fingers down your waist and around your curves. He teases his fingertips against your waistline, soft to the touch.Â
Itâs not until you mewl loudly into his mouth, skillful tongue playing with yours, as you feel him start unbuckling your pants, button-by-button.Â
Yoongiâs eyes are heavy-lidded, his gaze burning fire. âGonna take care of you now, is that okay?âÂ
You furiously nod, coming up to kiss him once more, both your lips are raw and sensitive, but it gives you more of a reason to fix it with even more kisses.Â
He drops one quick kiss onto your mouth before he trails down your jaw. Yoongi breathes in the sweet scent on your skin, wishing he could feel you even closer. âSmell so damn good.â
His voice is raspy against your ear and it makes you blush, while you feel his hand finally touch you where you had been aching with need. âWanna hear you.â
Breathing lightly, you whisper. âMake me.âÂ
And of course, Yoongi makes you regret how fast you said the words because he delves his fingers forward with little resistance. Two fingers stretch you at the same time, gasping at the sudden sensation.Â
By now, you were molded to fit Yoongiâs fingers. On days where you were really in need, you would take four, all at once. Yoongi was best at reading every expression, every crease and scrunch to your face, especially emotions. He knew exactly how to curve his fingers, the way to build you up, and bring you back down. Yoongi knew it all and he was so lucky too.Â
He never anticipated it would have gone this far. It was just sex to begin with. But who were you both kidding, it was always much, much more.Â
Yoongi curves his fingers in the way heâs used to and watches your mouth drop, sweet noises soon leaving your lips. âFeels good?âÂ
Thereâs no need to ask because he can tell. Your expression tells him everything he needs to know. That and the fact that you are dripping around his fingers but itâs sexier hearing it from you.Â
âYeah⊠f-feels so good.â With his other hand he tugs your clothes off, leaving you bare on the bottom. Remembering the first few times is a bit embarrassing, but Yoongi always made sure to take his time and make you feel comfortable. It was special and memorable in its own way, and Yoongi felt it too.Â
This is unlike any first time, but it was technically the first time you could officially make love to each other until you fall lovesick and that had to be impossible around someone like Yoongi.Â
âHold your legs open for me, flower.â You try to ignore the warm feeling that buzzes in your chest, but you are sure your face says it all. Without another word, you spread your legs open, tucking both hands behind your thighs.
âFlower?â You breathe out with a bit of a struggle as his two fingers continue to pump deep inside you, brushing repeatedly against your g-spot.Â
âDo you not like it?â Yoongi smiles slightly, biting his bottom lip while he watches you start to tremble, making the prettiest sounds.Â
âI do. Why the new name?â Voice a bit unsteady but it does the job. Yoongi thinks of all the times he thought you were as pretty as a flower, which really was all the time. Especially, in the way he has you right now. Pretty, pretty as a flower.Â
âIâve always wanted to call you that. Youâre pretty, sweet, delicate. Just like a flower.â He justifies his reasoning and you melt into puddles.Â
âYoongi.â Voice sweet as honey.Â
âYes baby.â He replies with ease.
âMake love to me, Yoongi.âÂ
There was a time in his life where Yoongi believed he could live without love. How foolish of him to think so. When he met you, it was a complete three-sixty. Suddenly, Yoongi started to look forward to his shit job. He looked forward to that time between breaks where he could admire you from the back like a pinning loser. Yoongi even started to like the walks he had to take to get to work because he knew that the path would eventually lead to you. He started looking forward to tomorrow's and to the bright future that led ahead. His mom would often complain that he was wasting his life away waiting for it to start, but Yoongi thinks life truly started the day he met you.Â
It was a bit awkward because you couldnât even look him in the eyes, intimated by the staff and new environment. You had previously worked in different bars so you assumed it would be no different and it wasnât, but the intimidation of a new job was there nonetheless. Yoongi was there every step of the way. He had a crush on the new employee and you needed help on fitting in. Either way, your friendship was very platonic until it wasnât.Â
Yoongi knows he should have said something along the lines âhey, maybe we shouldn't be doing this anymore. Iâm in love with you and I have been since you started working hereâ but the stupid words never made it out. He felt it would be too much to hear and it would only make him look like a complete loser.Â
And you felt the same. It was silly really, because everyone around you knew it and there was no reason to fear someone as easy going and non-judgemental as Yoongi, nonetheless it brought you both here. After many failed dating attempts, you were finally happy and in the arms of someone who you truly love and want to be loved by.Â
There was a time in his life where Yoongi believed he could live without love, now Yoongi believes your precious, sweet love brought him back to life and he wouldnât trade it for anything in the world.Â
Clothes now discarded on the floor, heavy breathing filling the room, and Yoongi could get wasted on the smell of your intoxicating perfume. âBreathe flower.â
Yoongi felt you shiver at the sound of his words, throwing your head back as he thrusts you full of cock. He pushes inside you with gentle movements, struggling to keep himself up while feeling the tug of your warm velvet-like walls.Â
You gasp feeling him hit your cervix in a calm, slow pace. It was breathtaking regardless of the gentle rhythm. âYouâre so deep...â
âI know flower, breathe baby, breathe.â He is struggling to keep from coming inside you, overwhelmed by his own emotions as your eyes roll back, feeling the pressure rise in your belly. Without a condom, everything feels so different from other times, feeling every ridge and crease fold inside your drenching heat. You take him so nicely, like you always have. Like youâve always belonged to him.Â
You donât even notice you stopped breathing until you start feeling lightheaded and desperate for fresh air. Breathing just as much as necessary so you donât faint, you shake your head against his hold, his eyes watch yours, observing with curiosity.Â
âNo?â
âMm, n-no.â You shake your head again, whimpering when you feel him kiss your cervix with his swollen tip, over and over and over. âCanâ can youâŠâ
âCan I what, pretty flower?â Yoongi rolls his hips a bit faster, feeling his orgasm build too quickly. He wishes he could have days with you like this always. Days to love and worship you from head to toe.
âChoke me.â You manage to say. âDonâ donât wanna breathe.âÂ
Yoongi growls deep, increasing his speed even more, desperate to fill the deepest part of your glistening folds. He feels you tense underneath, the sounds coming from your mouth are loud enough for your neighbors to hear, but Yoongi stopped giving a fuck about everything around him.Â
He places a hand on your throat and squeezes gently, not blocking off your airways completely, but leaving you just enough air to work with. It drives you insane. The more you breathe, his rough thrusts take the air out from your lungs and the process repeats. It feels so good. Â
âM-more. Harder.â You barely hear your own words, but Yoongi seems to understand because his dick is moving rapidly inside you, nearly splitting you in two. You wrap both hands around his wrist, loving the heavy weight against your chest. Itâll end too soon and it disappoints you in a way, but you have all the time in the world to make this up. âG-Gonna come.âÂ
Yoongi nods, concentrating on the way your face scrunches with pleasure. With love. The way your eyes tell him a story. God, Yoongiâs madly in love. âCome, my precious flower.âÂ
With those final words, you come on his bare slick cock, blossoming in the blissful afterglow. Yoongi doesnât stop thrusting inside you, but he takes his hand off your throat, kissing your face gently when he sees tears start leaking down your cheeks.Â
âItâs okay, youâre okay baby. Breathe for me. Slowly.â Yoongiâs words bring you back down and you throw your arms around him, crying against his shoulder. You donât even know what invoked this strong emotion to sob your eyes out, but Yoongi allows it, caressing the back of your head. Yoongi doesnât judge, he only holds you until you settle down. âItâs okay baby, let it out. Breathe, pretty flower.âÂ
âC-Come inside muh-me, please.â Even after all that, you still beg for him and Yoongi wants to laugh but for your sake and the fact that itâs endearing to him, he delivers accordingly without further questions.Â
Right as heâs going to paint your walls white, he pushes himself up with one hand, still holding you with the other. âYou sure?â
Youâre confused about the sudden question, the tears still decorate your face but then you understand. âBirth control. Just come in me Yoongi, fuck me, fu-fuck.â
Yoongi doesnât hesitate to regain his brutal pace, fucking you with purpose. Not that he doesnât want kids in the near future, but he sure as hell doesnât want any right now. Heâs glad you are on the same page but maybe one day the conversation would spark and he wouldnât want the mother of his kids to be anyone else but you. You were perfect for him.Â
âGonna come.â Thatâs the only warning you get, then heâs emptying himself inside your tight walls. He doesnât stop rolling his hips, his slit leaking puddles, until heâs pumped himself dry. With one last thrust, he groans and carefully pulls out.Â
He brings you with him, head falling against his chest as he continues to play with your hair, leaving kisses into your bare shoulders. âYou okay baby?â
âPerfect. Feel so good.â You mumble into his skin, feeling around his waist. âIâm leaking your come into the sheets though.â
âIâll take care of it, pretty flower.â You nod sleepily into his chest with a quiet âthank youâ, feeling completely sated and satisfied, aching with exhaustion. âSleep baby, I got you.â
With that, you fall deep into the shackles of sleep. Yoongi rubs your back until you completely fall asleep in his arms. He struggles to unwrap himself from your hold, but when he finally succeeds, he tucks you in and kisses your cheek a few times before getting up to clean up after the mess you both created.Â
Heâs light on his feet, bringing a warm towel to your slick folds and wipes as best he can, being gentle so you could continue to enjoy your sleep. Even like this, you look so beautiful and Yoongi is an extremely lucky man.Â
Yoongi makes sure to also pick up the lamp he dropped from earlier as well. He blows out a breath of relief when he notices that the damage is nothing big and nothing that canât be fixed. Heâll make sure to fix that as soon as he can.Â
While heâs out there, Yoongi places the tulips into a vase and fills it with water, placing it near a window where it could grow and blossom beautifully near the sunlight. He even cuts the tips into slants because he had heard somewhere online they last longer that way, making sure to get rid of any dead leaves and petals. Yoongi couldnât be happier.
After heâs done with the light cleaning, he washes his hands and feels the exhaustion hit him tenfold. Heâs careful when placing himself back in bed, lifting your arm and placing himself underneath you. The man smiles when he feels you curl yourself around him, sleeping soundlessly.Â
âI love you.â He whispers and even though you donât say it back Yoongi feels it with the way you melt into his arms. Yoongi falls asleep easily that night.Â
âŠ
âBaby.â Yoongi hears someone call him and he ignores it. Sleep calls his name louder and he doesnât feel like waking up right now so he groans and cuddles deeper into the bedsheets below him, unaware of the life around him.Â
âBaby wake up.â You keep calling sweetly and itâs tempting but he persists.
âNo. Donât wanna.â Yoongi grumbles like an old man and you canât help but to laugh. âJust ten more minutes.â
When you woke up the next morning, you were so thankful Yoongi had kept his promise. Your apartment was flawless and you were as clean as you could be. The tulips looked prettier today as the sun shined on the delicate petals. You even had time to warm the seaweed soup he brought from home and you couldnât wait to get a taste. The smell alone is delicious and it warmed your home up nicely, you truly couldnât wrap your head around the fact that this was no longer a dream but your reality. You could definitely get used to this.Â
You drop kisses onto his warm cheeks until his eyes flutter open, almost similar to a cat. âThere you are.â
Yoongi pulls you into his arms again with quiet noncoherent grumbles and closes his eyes once more. âGive me ten minutes.â
âItâs already been ten.â You whisper lightly laughing.Â
âOh. Ten more then.â You get comfortable on his chest and cuddle for a bit longer because you canât say no to his cute sleepy self.Â
Yoongi starts to sniff the air with curiosity. âIs that the seaweed soup I brought you?âÂ
âMhm.â You hum. âBetter get up soon before it burns.âÂ
That manages to be convincing enough and Yoongi forces himself up, with you in his embrace.Â
âWanna wake up like that forever.â He says, voice filled with sleep.Â
âYou can.âÂ
Yoongi snaps his heavy eyes towards you. âAre youââ
âMove in with me, Yoongi.â Yes, you skipped every step to this, but nothing was ever to code between you and Yoongi. One thing you were so sure of and that was spending the rest of your life with him. âPlease.â
âI- yes, of course.â Yoongi wraps his arms around you for a tight hug, kissing your temple. âI love you. I love you and Iâll prove it to you every single day.âÂ
âI know, I love you too. I love you.â Those three words come out from your mouths so easily and itâs nice that you no longer have to ever hold back. The man of your dreams is in the palms of your humble home and heâs in love with you. This was better than any dream.Â
âLetâs eat?â He says after some time of hugging and kisses being interchanged.Â
You nod, letting him take you there. Your kitchen is filled with the cruel aroma of food and your tummy rumbles as you sit comfortably while you wait for him to serve you a bowl of the warm tasty soup.Â
âI should be doing that. Iâm a terrible host.â Yoongi shakes his head while smiling, the fluff of hair moving with him, then your phone dings. âHold on, give me a second.âÂ
Your heart drops when you see it is a Tinder notification from a man you promised to get back to. You look over to find Yoongi serving your bowl, making his way to the table. He leans in puckering slightly and you immediately lean into the sweet sudden kiss while he places your meal in front of you. This Yoongi is new because it wasnât often you could act domestically towards one another, however this was perfect and just what you needed.Â
âEverything okay baby?â Yoongi asks while caressing your soft cheek and you immediately nod in his palm.Â
âYes, everythingâs perfect.â You reply in awe. âThank you Yoongi, for everything.â
For letting me love you and for loving me back.Â
The older man just smiles and joins you for the meal.Â
It turns out you didnât need Tinder after all.Â
You quickly delete the app off your phone and start to eat with the love of your life, conversation flows while you enjoy each otherâs presence and fall deeper in love.Â
Alike Yoongi, you couldnât imagine it happening any other way. You were bound to fall in love, one way or another, but that man was meant to be yours as you were meant to be his.
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Spirit Work
Working with spirits was popularized and developed in the 1840âs to the 1920âs. Spirit work has also been known as âNecromancy.â
The term necromancy as defined by Merriam-Webster Dictionary:
1: Conjuration of the spirits of the dead for purposes of magically revealing the future or influencing the course of events
2: MAGIC, SORCERY
Some may define that any working, communication, or magic involving the dead (and therefore spirits) is a form of necromancy.
By necromancy, I donât mean to physically raise the dead. If that was truly possible, then I believe there would be a lot of skeletons and rotting corpses lurking around.
A spirit is a being that does not exist in our physical world. Many spirits can project messages into our world, but they cannot manifest into a solid, physical form here. Most spirits will reside within the astral â which is a separate dimensional plane from our own.
When someone works with spirits it is called spirit work and can take many different forms. Some people want to learn, and keep it strictly business, while others want to be friends or even more in some scenarios.
Deities, Spirits, or Ghosts
Deities are spirits who are seen as divine. They draw their powers from faith and being worshipped in a particular religion.
Spirits generally are entities with many other subcategories, but they tend to draw their powers essentially from the elements of nature and from peoplesâ beliefs.
Ghosts were once humans or animals who have died and sometimes, they can remain in our world.
Religion and Spirit Work
Lots of people use spirit work to become closer to their faith or desired path working.
Abrahamic religions use spirit work to commune with God. While there are other individuals who only commune with the Angels or even better, those that commune with the Demons.
Pagans, on the other hand, use spirit work to commune with the various deities and spirits alike. Some people are aligned to a sole practice of religion or single pathworking, while other people are not tied down to any particular practice.
Building Spiritual Connections
Everyone is different in their approach on building relationships. These relationships can be started by either you or the spirit. Some people keep things strictly as business while others build friendships. However, they should not be a direct replacement for mundane relationships, especially not romantic ones.
Remember that spirit work takes effort.
Do the research. Sharpen your mind. Trial and Error.
Donât let people play translator. No one should be the dedicated âinterpreter.â Sometimes itâs okay to use a third party, but do not make it a habit. People can lie. Your relationship is between you and the spirit.
You can say âNo.â Spirits can be held accountable for their actions, and you donât have to do anything youâre not comfortable with.
Spirits can say âNo.â Spirits are like people, and they arenât playthings. Theyâre autonomous beings capable of making their own decisions.
Incompatibility. Sometimes a personality, method, and antics might not work very well with you. Recognize when it happens. This may mean taking a break or going separate ways.
Discernment
The process of discernment is interpreting and vetting metaphysical experiences. It helps you build whatâs known as UPG or Unverified Personal Gnosis.
UPG is your direct experiences with a spirit or deity. If someone else has the same UPG as you they got all by themselves without help, then that UPG can be considered SPG, or Shared Personal Gnosis.
Your experiences donât have to match other peopleâs.
Donât tailor your UPG to match others. Many people fall into this trap simply because they want to belong to a community or be recognized by authority figures or in some cases both.
Spirit Communications And Synchronicities
When spirits try to get your attention, they will do it in a way you will understand.
Theyâll show rather than tell who they are. However, some arenât as forthcoming because names can give power.
Sometimes the spirits will gauge you and wait for you to come to your own conclusions before giving away their name.
Sometimes the spirits will want to know more about you before giving away their name. Sometimes the give and take relationship must be further established before names are given.
For example, we had consistent communications with a certain Fae entity that did not give away any maliciousness, but at first, they failed to give a proper name. Instead of turning this spirit away we both decided to ask for the Fae to give a name we can call it, until trust could be further established.
The name they gave us was Charles the fox. So, we called him that, but we didnât believe him to be a simple, ordinary fox. Heâs a Fae after all, and it took us roughly one year or so for him to give us his names. Even now, I had to ask permission for this to be included within the writing itself.
⊠And people tend to forget that sometimes spirits are like this.
âŠAnd then there are those ones that arenât forthcoming about showing much of anything at all because they probably may be imposters â and have malevolent intentions.
One half of this tricky puzzle includes examination of coincidences being too much of an experience to be just coincidences.
Omens
Omens are a sign that appears in the physical world, and they can be good or bad omens. Most often, omens will directly relate to the spiritâs associations. Omens tend to be âgut feelingâ experiences and not every unique thing you see may be one. When youâre unsure about a spirit making contact, you can ask for signs. Donât look everywhere for a sign, though. Not everything is.
Dreams
Spirits can send messages through dreams, and itâs up to you to determine whether a dream is significant based on what happened and why. Analyze things from a logical and psychological manner before delving into spiritual territory. Record whatever makes the most sense to you and any repeating dreams as necessary.
The Astral
The Astral is whenever you are communing with a spirit by projecting and speaking with them. This requires Clairaudience or Claircognizance to be able to recognize and comprehend messages being received. Many people also need to make sure that the experience is not your imagination. Learning the differences from internal thoughts and external thoughts outside your own can be a challenge.
The astral is a dimensional plane that exists outside the physical world. The only way to communicate there is by learning how to project your consciousness.
There are many different dimensional planes, and an infinite number of places and people. One of the astral planes corresponds to earth, however it is hard to discern this. One would have to do research and examine other peoplesâ experiences, coming to a well-rounded conclusion.Â
Divination Methods
Divination is whenever you are communing with a spirit through methods of divination, such as pendulum, cartomancy, scrying, etc.
However, not all forms of divination are guaranteed results. Pendulums are swayed easily by subconscious influence. Itâs important to have an open mind and factor in repetitive results as a sign.
Telepath Linking
Telepathy is whenever you are directing thoughts towards the spirit in question. This method can be difficult to achieve due to the mind and imagination wanting the results. Sometimes, desired results will redirect your mind to fill in the result most wanted versus actual spirit communications taking place.
Rule of Three
Repetition is key to the rule of three, as it is a measurement that can help you decipher potential signs from everyday mundane activities. Most signs will show up in different ways around the same time if a spirit is eager to meet you. If you arenât sure, ask for more before making any solid conclusions.
Confirmation Bias
âThis is the tendency to search for, interpret, favor, and recall information that confirms or supports oneâs prior personal beliefs or values.â
The more you work against this, the more authentic interactions will potentially be. Use different methods of discernment to help assist you. Donât try to push things together, that just donât stick and eventually fall apart.
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