#but i also need to plan more for it because i am both nonbinary and aroace and i dont exactly wanna be a single parent

[tittysuckersworld]

god i wanna be a parent one day so bad

[elizabethrobertajones]

summer scions!! I absolutely love the new portraits for all their smug happy expressions. Except Y'shtola, who is not going to deign to give a camera a proper saucy look because that's silly. Urianger is smirking twice as hard on her behalf.

Glam review under the cut!

I unlocked Alphinaud first of the twins and didn't know Alisaie had a little necktie yet, so I'm deducting a point from my first impression because the sheer delight that he had a silly little necktie of some sort no matter the situation delighted me so thoroughly. Since they're still engaging in matchy twin dressing to some degree, I have to assume they either like it and won't admit it after digging in so hard, or Ameliance sent them off with cute outfits and matching backpacks, and they still don't really shop for themselves.

He's got the practical watch/compass gloves which are good for a technically proficient Sage and probably the most practical gear he's ever worn except for when he was poncho Alphy, but wearing ankle-length jeans seem like the least weather-appropriate choice of the Scions if we assume their average skin coverage is a good weathervane for the temperature in Tural. I chalk it up to teenage awkwardness.

8/10 unless he and Alisaie chose their outfits themselves, in which case it's a 9/10

I think Alisaie is the only Scion to keep a single piece of their default gear, and those are her usual gloves. She's colour-matched around it.

Because of the gloves and boots, she looks the most ready for hardcore hiking, somehow, and her matching Alphinaud with a cute button down shirt with rolled up sleeves along with that particular choice of baggier shorts (when she normally wears more form fitting shorts) do give me the closest to butch vibes it's probably likely to get for main characters. So I'm giving her an extra point I stole from Alphinaud for the lesbian vibes.

9/10 or 10/10 if she made these choices all by herself.

Everything about this cracks me up, from his portrait above to the image of him tanking open shirted once he pulls mobs.

Believe it or not, he's getting an additional point for those shoes simply because the competition in practicality in tanking is G'raha.

I had a moment of excitement when I thought the necklace was pink because that's always a cute Ryne/Minfillia thing fanartists give him with ribbons and such, but once I got zoomed in on him it was red, so I guess he's just been shopping. Although, the turquoise shorts are her eye colour and the actual large diamond shapes are secretly Mothercrystal coded in those colours, which just cracks me up that you can pick out one of the worse days of his life (Urianger's grand Warrior of Darkness plan) in his Chill Summer Beach Vibes look.

Douchebag beach bro shell bracelet as well, which really makes me double down on him and Urianger spending way too much on tourist bait along the stalls in the Famous Turali Market. The hat and sunglasses are giving him one of the Most tourist-y looks thematically reflecting how a lot of the Scion guys were just here to hang out, narratively or literally. Maybe he's trying not to get such an intense tan again, which is the only reason he's not entirely topless.

11/10 I could not stop laughing when I got him and Urianger to 100 and Beheld The Brilliance in the same moment.

Please note the raised sunglasses in Urianger's portrait, which are not the model his character uses.

I am delighted that I had been incorporating that island watch into my healer glams on both the logic you need to know your clock positionals but also they're largely the smarty pants jobs (WHM being vibes only aside - it gets its own glams :P). And here's Urianger and Alphinaud both using watches.

Now, I had a moment of being vaguely disappointed he had trousers not a skirt or something else swishy and androgynous, but then I did realise that I, a nonbinary weirdo who relates to Urianger since he made me nonbinary, have actually gone to a couple of garden parties dressed in some variation of this exact outfit of light trousers and a nice button up. Plus, the earrings are in both ears, so no "Google, which ear is the gay one?", these are just straight up cute femme dangly earrings with his favourite little dudes on.

More importantly, the colours he's repping are those of Lopporit Radio. He probably tunes in every night for his broadcasts :')

Mirrored sunglasses for the guy notorious for keeping thoughts and plans close to his chest and choosing deliberately to be enigmatic even when it serves zero purpose except for I guess gender affirming care. (The gender is Weird Bitch.)

I can't tell how I feel about those dad sandals. I suppose it depends if he's wearing them like a fashion model (brand new and clean with perfect pedicured feet) or if those are REALLY dad at the beach-like and, since I'm not a foot person, this for me is only a choice between "not off-putting" and "AURGH".

9/10 the proximity to Thancred hauls him up several points of misgivings I had, and the lopporit shout outs are killing me :')

I unlocked Y'shtola last and holy fuck I am a lesbian. I don't even recognise where those boots come from, so either a really expensive glam or something I just have not stumbled on. She has toe rings I think? And painted nails? I have no idea if the garter (?) is part of the boots glam or a custom thing as result of not recognising the boots and how much of them is normal. I feel like they customised a lot on her anyway - the back of her top has purple beads that match her staff (not dyable on the real piece)

and I think the necklace has to be part of the top instead of a separate necklace piece with the way it hangs, AND the bracelets are a glove piece with the original summer glam, but I assume they're layered with the false nails, also in the glove slot. All in all it's giving the sort of effort which is starting to creep up to what I'd expect from the modding community not the game. I mean, not THAT good but getting close. Baby steps towards what fandom can make :P

She really is god's favourite meow meow.

Anyway I can't really judge this fairly because it's really hot and I love her so I'm just going to give it 100/10 and move on. :)

how did I get a picture where Estinien looks like he's stooping to get in the frame...

The fact he has Azure Dragoon Blue Top and then Violently Nidhogg Fuchsia shorts is the colour theory that absolutely killed me. When he lights up during his burst and starts glowing pink all over his shorts are like. Taking him over like the eye once did I think.

love a guy who can embrace his past trauma and dress to match all that has passed before and all that he intends to do now (kill something large and tasty, grill it on the beach, fall asleep with a beer in hand until the waves come in and wake him up).

I gave him that wooden bracelet in the glam he has on my desktop screen so once again I'm feeling weirdly vindicated.

Other details: no ponytail despite the warm weather because he's got enough ventilation. The fact there's cactaurs on his shirt when he's on record for eating them is amazing. We should imagine he's wearing his jobstone like that pendant (since he's one of the only guys with a confirmed jobstone despite being the Guy Without A Job notoriously that one time.)

Unlike Thancred's hat and sunglasses combo, which seems fun and boisterous somehow, he seems the most walled off of all the sunglasses wearers even though he's not the most mysterious. The visor really helps make it a sort of wall. Maybe just because his terse upfront personality and somehow despite his clothes horse habits THIS amount of whimsy seems the most out of character at first glance, but he DOES look uncomfortable to me.

Somehow I find everything about this outfit excellent for his character but also like maybe he was forced into it, everyone cornering him and telling him the Scion Beach Party was a mandatory work event and he was not allowed to beg off of it and he did put some work in expressing himself but also is going to go find a much quieter corner to lurk in for the day, when not competing with Thancred (can't grill, loves it) for the barbeque (Estinien can grill, would only do it because the threat of Thancred doing it wrong is too high).

confused 7/10 mostly because I think Krile is blackmailing him and not because I don't love everything about this.

Here's how G'reenha Tia can still win -

Anyway here's the deducted point for tanking in flip flops (PERFECTLY acceptable BLM gear btw but he's Mr Versatile.)

(I joke but the main character of my novels is a flip-flop wearing menace who could and would tank in them)

Between the padlock and key necklace and the woven bracelet right after we all went feral over the Thavnarian bracelets for couples thing so recently (and Corvos is just across the water!) he's absolutely dripping cutie pie love interest coding yet again.

(Also yes I know the lock and key thing is very funny because we were introduced to him learning he was a fancy key to a big door.)

Gains a point back because the other green g'raha thing is I'm pretty sure people use this shirt glam because it kinda looks like it has weed on it.

Don't quote me on that, vibes only.

Anyway he came colour coordinated (with his original eye colour and hair colour not the bright Allagan dalamud red dye that goes with his normal outfit) so so precise and neat, like he's going to some sort of formal event, and even with flip flops he really does seem incredibly put together like the twins or Y'shtola, just for full outfit cohesiveness.

As someone who would hold G'raha's hand on the romantic gondola vibe, 10/10.

3 out of 10 and a huge cringe if you would not. He's got to stop Striving.

Hey it's the star of the show!! Adorable hairstyle out, cute plot-important earring on, and wearing her exact character colours but adorable beach wear :)

I love that she looks kind of like she went to the girls for advice and got the top from Y'shtola and the shorts from Alisaie, and she probably was very serious and stressed about getting this right even though there's no rules and no one's judging her -

oops.

Anyway the ballet shoes are adorable and go with all the cute picto spins and twirls :)

I think the strict colour scheme does speak to the slight lack of fleshing out she got so far in the story (we don't really have any real character reason that picto in particular spoke to her and this glam isn't one of the many fun takes people had on how to dress to meet that brief ). I don't think DT did more than just repeat that she's serious and sweet and trying really hard to get out of her shell and be more fun and creative and also she's been practicing dodging really hard she shouts mid-Trust combat (bless her). But ALSO getting out of the shell is really hard and she only found out everything and got some closure in the final level 100 quests so there wasn't really much to do with her after that.

This is like her First Non-Plot-Critical Whimsy Moment and losing the hood or any cat ears entirely (and there are perfectly functional cat ears to wear in game) is a good step considering we know she wears it precisely because she needed a sort of advance PR campaign to make her look cute and approachable before she opened her mouth and started bringing down the vibe (serious scary children are SO funny though and i love that for her). Having the same top as Y'shtola is a good thing for trying to make her less childish and have her trying to show that now as she takes this huge step out from the background. I mean, it still has a slight sense of her costuming herself and pushing herself out of comfort zones as she always does, but it's 100% in character so I adore it.

1000/10 because Krile is great and there's so much going on here and it's so fun when a character's whole personality is a costume and then they're like aurgh wait do I even want that??

[sparklemaia]

Heyyy!!

So I've recently read a lot of your comics about top surgery, and I really resonate with your experience (I haven't had it myself but I'd like to). I've recently been exploring my own gender and realising I might be non binary, but I guess I feel sort of an imposter in that I want to keep my name and pronouns (afab), despite feeling like I never got the memo about what a "woman" is, which I know is fine, but I guess I was wondering how the shift from your agab into realising you were nb felt?

Like, you seem to describe your gender as sort of unknowable and indefinable, and I guess that's sort of how I feel? I just want to be... More me. I guess what I'm really asking is, how would you define/feel about that shift into realising you were nonbinary, do you still feel connected to your agab, how do you reconcile the two?

Sorry for the long ask!

Hi, this is such a good question! I actually DO still feel pretty connected to my agab. I feel like I am a girl but also more than a girl but also not enough of a girl, simultaneously. (Weirdly, I never ever feel like a woman, and definitely not a man, but I do feel like an adult at least some of the time.) Top surgery was 100% the right decision for me; my body feels so much more correct and I am grateful every single day this procedure was accessible to me. (I was on a low dose of T for a year and a half too, and I basically just got biceps and a sliiiightly lower voice out of it. We stan.) I simply don't have strong feelings about how these things do or do not map onto gender identity or other people's perceptions of my gender. I am generally perceived as female, and that's fine! Like, close enough! I often feel somewhere BETWEEN cis and trans, or even between cis and nonbinary, and sometimes I joke that I'm just "nonbinary for insurance purposes." I mostly use she/her pronouns, although won't object to they/them. I like my "feminine" name -- I chose it myself years ago for reasons unrelated to gender and I have no plans to change it again. In terms of gender presentation I'm usually somewhere in the "tomboy femme" zone. Basically, I've been through a medical transition but not a social transition. Which is not very common, or at least I haven't seen much representation of it! (Be the bad trans representation you want to see in the world, i guess??)

Even though the words are often used interchangeably, I feel more alliance to genderqueer as a label than nonbinary, because nonbinary feels too clinical and "third checkbox"y to me, whereas genderqueer feels more expansive and undefinable and dynamic, with space for the ways in which I both am and am not performing girlhood correctly. When pressed to pick a gender word for myself, that one feels the closest. But if I'm filling out a government form or whatever? Yeah sure F is fine.

A lot of where I land with this stuff, though, is just kind of relaxing my grip on language. Top surgery was a relief, it helped me feel present in and connected to my body. Ultimately it doesn't matter much to me how much of that was *gender* dysphoria and how much of it was just... something I wanted, a way to make my body feel more like mine, to align my mental image of myself with the thing I had to stuff into clothes and walk around the city every day. I believe very strongly in bodily autonomy, and in making our lives as easy and comfortable and joyful as we can for ourselves, without needing to have a clean and tidy explanation for our choices. It is very possible to know with reasonable certainty that you want something, that it will be a net positive for your life, without being able to articulate, even to yourself, WHY you want it. It doesn't need to have a bigger meaning than ahh yes, this feels right. At this point in my life, I'm more invested in marveling at the sheer improbability of my own existence than in wedging myself into the taxonomy of known and acceptable gender narratives. I'm just a person, here for the merest twinkle of a moment in cosmic history, making soup and knitting baby hats and admiring bugs and singing off-key and cutting my own hair and doing my gosh darn best to light my tiny patch of night sky with stories so that you (and you, and you) feel less alone on your own journey through the unfurling dark. Gender is just such an inconsequential detail in the narrative of my life, and pretty open to reader interpretation anyway.

Not having to wear bras is pretty great though ngl

[dionysism]

okay fuck it tier list of every greek mythology or greek myth inspired musical i've listened to (so far)

with, if you care, short reviews for each below the cut. i'm like half asleep but take my poorly organized thoughts

paris the musical

this one is my all time favorite of all the ones listed here. the musical scores and vocals are just on another level. it's a rock opera so it's got guitar solos and the songs are so catchy. business is my favorite track i could loop it for weeks. i also love their patroclus characterization and i am obsessed with achilles in this unironically one of my top patroachilles adaptations of all time and the musical isn't even about them 😭😭 AND PARIS... the actual focus of the musical, i love this take on him too. it's kinda comical but also actually tragic at the same time. which i mean. paris is kinda comical but ultimately tragic in general so its fair 💀 things definitely go down differently in this than in the iliad though like agamemnon and the greeks are actually planning to invade troy before paris even shows up to take helen and ulysses (odysseus) is the only one who thinks this is stupid. he does manage to convince the rest of them to maybe Not, but then paris takes helen after what's supposed to be him going there to strike a trade deal. and agamemnon uses that as the perfect excuse to justify something he already wanted to do unprovoked anyway. also agamemnon and menelaus were going to violate xenia and kill paris in their home after making him a guest (again, before he does anything with helen) which was ?!?!!? but like similar to epic this is more like an au to me than a faithful iliad adaptation. i also love this helen characterization and the whole dynamic between hector paris and cassandra i wish i could put them all in my mouth and chew them up

ulysses dies at dawn

this is another great one. i will say this is the only album from the mechs i've listened to and the band itself has a whole ton of lore so there may be details i'm missing but i love it so much. this is definitely more of an inspired by tale—takes place in the future (i think?) on a planet that's entirely machine and metal and all animals and natural life is extinct. and all the characters are named after greek mythos characters and they have similar stories to their original counterparts but adapted to this futuristic universe and it's just so unbelievably cool. also ulysses nonbinary in this?! (the narrator says the records are lost to time and we can't be sure if ulysses was a "man, woman, both, or neither" and only refer to them with they/them pronouns) anyway i won't say too much on this one because the story tells itself and i don't want to spoil but GO LISTEN this album is fantastic

hadestown

this one i think is the most popular/well known on this list so most of you have probably heard of it but i'll still give my review. everything about this musical is incredible. i absolutely adore this take on orpheus and eurydice. and this is a take on persephone and hades i don't totally hate (because usually i do) and the way at times they paralleled orpheus to hades??? there was a quote i read from its wiki page once that sums it up pretty well, from todd osborne, "it is a musical both about how art can save us and how, especially in an apocalyptic world, hope might be the only thing we have left." just such a beautiful musical and beautiful story and the themes and messages like stop i could talk about this musical for hours let me stop

for epic i've already summed up most of my thoughts on it here

theseus the musical

um. i'm not going to lie there's multiple parts of this where i do not know what they are saying. i have auditory processing issues and i usually really need the lyrics and i cannot find any anywhere for this so i'm kinda just going on vibes. but the songs are catchy and i like the parts i do understand 😭 and well i love theseus. dearly. my little princess with a disorder my freakazoid i want to trap him in a jar like a bug and shake him around his enclosure. i'll kind of take literally anything i can get on him

penelope off broadway

full title is penelope or how the odyssey was really written and this is such a fun one. this is a comedy musical and the premise is that the epic poem, the odyssey, actually comes from fake letters penelope wrote to stall the suitors in odysseus' absence. so she's just making shit up like "umm... my men got turned into pigs so i'm gonna be late sorry babe :/" and signing it as odysseus. obviously not the most accurate characterizations but again its more of a comedy spinoff than a faithful retelling. telemachus also gets a cute little romance. (spoilers ahead if you care) they scared me for a second i thought they were having it that odysseus cheated penelope and she was gonna leave him but that's not the case and it has a happy ending so <3 this one is just so funky and silly like if you want a lighthearted not super serious musical you will love this it's really adorable and the woman who plays penelope's voice is incredible like omg some of the high notes she hits??? woah

jasper in deadland (tw suicide mention)

this one is also an inspired by/based on tale where jasper (orpheus) follows his friend agnes (eurydice) into deadland in an attempt to get her back from what was either an accident or a suicide attempt (but most likely suicide) he runs into various figures from greek norse and egyptian mythology and like it wasn't bad or anything really the songs just weren't catchy enough for me. i'm not gonna lie that's literally my only issue. i just cannot get into it and listen to it multiple times if it's not catchy enough. but the plot is cute!!

percy jackson the musical

i just don't personally care for percy jackson, sorry. never really did. you'd think as a greek mythology obsessed child i'd eat it up and i mean as a kid i did like it a little but i don't know it just never hooked me. i've tried to get back into it but it's even less enjoyable to me now unfortunately. the songs weren't catchy (to me) and i didn't like the lyrics either. it's not necessarily a bad musical. it's just not my thing

aristos the musical

sorry it just kinda felt like tsoa the musical to me and i immediately couldn't enjoy it 😭😭 that's literally all i have to say

[minervadashwood]

i watched a movie tonight called i saw the tv glow, and it was a movie about trans identity.

I especially resonated with the theme of wanting to stay in your comfort place. But when you begin realizing you are different, you also realize that your comfort place cannot contain the new you. so, you have to decide whether to block out the new you and continue to live the life that comforts you. Or to acknowledge and become your new self, while potentially giving up your home and family (both literally and metaphorically.)

*

I didn't realize I was nonbinary until my 30s. That is when I discovered the concept existed. Of course, I always felt left out, "off", or forced to play a role.

In my adulthood, after going through therapy for childhood emotional and physical abuse, I maintain the semblance of a normal relationship with my family. I've come out to them all. My parents either did not understand or pretended not to. My brothers said they understood, but afterwards acted like it didn't happen.

I'm reminded of the concept of the "unsayable" in literature and in life. Sometimes language fails us--or we know the words to say but cannot speak them. Fortunately, this is rarely a problem for me.

However, it is a problem for most people I was close to before I came out. My family cannot talk about any LGBTQIA topic without my parents clamming up, or later saying "I just think something went bad in the way those people were raised."

Ironically enough, I could be evidence of that erroneous claim. My gender was policed frequently when I was growing up, even well into adulthood. I know now it's because they were afraid of me being a lesbian. Jokes on them, I don't have a gender and don't care all that much about sex with anyone.

Every time they plan a "girls" night, or mom buys gifts for her "daughters" (my sisters in law and me). Or I am excluded from activities my brothers plan because it's a guy thing." I get left out 2-fold, relegated to socializing with my SILs and not my siblings, and dismissing my gender completely. Probably one of the most hurtful conversations recently is how joyous my entire family was upon learning my SIL's upcoming baby is a boy. Finally someone else to carry on the family name. Guess my family is carrying on another tradition: making a lifetime's worth of assumption assumptions about a child based on what's between their legs.

*

I turn 40 this month. My parents will likely pass away before I turn 50. I will miss them. I cry thinking of it. But I also wonder if it won't be freeing, too. I have in many ways outgrown the person they think I am, the person the subtly try to make me with underhanded comments or--even worse--their silence.

"I love you," they will say. But can they? Can they love the person I have become? The person I am now? Perhaps they are limited to loving me conceptually. Daily, I try to make my peace with that.

I don't have a replacement or "found" family. At least not yet. I have friends and a partner who accept me. But there is not that sense of acceptance and belonging to a group, the surety of unconditional love among more than two people.

Many of us are familiar with stories of outright rejection. Of parents disowning their children, of banishing them from home. It's heartbreaking, and those stories need to be told. I'll listen raptly every time someone shares one with me.

But perhaps there are other stories we can pay attention to. The less overt rejections, the conditional acknowledgements, the subtle erasure of our identities in favor of conformity and feigned ignorance.

I'd like to hear those more. This one was mine.

[our-transgender-experiences]

i (it/its) went on a walk the other day with a staff member at a school-adjacent program for disabled young adults i go to.

she noticed i looked overwhelmed by the noise of the classroom, and wanted to know why i was upset for that day - i had just started my period after missing last month and also got some really bad gender dysphoria.

i talked about how i was wearing my binder that day and was tempted to just wear that as a top instead of the t-shirt i was wearing (i regularly do this) but i decided against that because it was cold out that morning, and also how i needed to save up for a new one because a little bit of the elastic in the back was starting to wear down.

she didn't acknowledge it as a binder. i saw her stutter over her words as she tried to find something else to call it (she ended up going with 'crop' because it just looks like a crop top for those who dont know what a binder looks like).

it's not a trans-hostile space, one of the paraeducators there (not for my class unfortunately :<) is a non-passing trans woman and my instructor is nonbinary (both use she/they iirc), not to mention there's another GNC student in my class (although i think we're the only ones in the program in general. idk their pronouns but they frequently present androgynously).

idk, i just feel really invisible and disrespected. nobody in that building really respects me except the person i consider myself closest to there (also uses she/they). she's the only one who actually uses the correct pronouns for me (most of the staff use they/them for me, which i don't mind, but it's starting to get a little grating) and although she doesn't really understand what i go through i feel like she's the only one really trying her best with me. i have my pronouns written on my name card taped to my desk but because i wear skirts and twintails a lot of the time and have an eccentric and hyperfeminine style people always assume i'm a girl. (I do plan on cutting my hair and going on T, by the way.)

fortunately i have a place i go to after that in the afternoon/evenings where i straight up use a different name and get to play mario kart 8 and d&d at (a rec center - two of the lead counselors, the ones who have been there the longest, are also nonbinary - both use he/they) but tbh despite me being there so often it's not really enough. i want to feel like myself and be respected at both places i go to during the day.

i am very tired.

That sounds really hard. Try to be more insistent on pronouns, say thing like "I actually use it/its, not they/them" people probably won't see the nametag once they learn your name.

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

birthday and pronouns and fascism, oh my

since my birthday means it was time to update my blog bio, @actuallylukedanes made the excellent suggestion that i also post about it.

cuz while i needed to update my age (woo, a round number! maybe it won't take me six months of adjusting to remember how old i am, for once!) and i update my blog title constantly, sometimes more than once a day, lol...i also finally updated my pronouns.

so if you've known me for years or just happened by my little corner of the internet cuz you saw something you like, i don't know about you but i'm heading into my yeah maybe we're all gonna end up dead or imprisoned but i'd rather fight some fascists era as this coming year approaches.

so i'm here to support (and as much as i can, protect) my family and friends and people who need help, and i understand the battening down the hatches of every person who has to be more careful now, who can feel the precarity of their rights and safety more acutely than ever. i'm also worred about my own rights and safety, as a disabled queer mentally ill fat person in the world, whose only income is ssdi and only safety net is (wonderful, yet piecrust-precarious) community.

but i remain the same person who was labeled both 'ornery' and 'little miss contrary' by my grandmother as a child, and i suspect that's why my response to the truly horrific possible futures we could be heading into is Time To Get Louder Then. i don't plan to take ill-advised risks, but i also have no interest in quieting myself down.

therefore! since i have, for life/mental health reasons, ghosted my own blog for so long that i kind of didn't post through a lot of developments, i am here to say that my bio update includes pronoun changes because, well, pronouns (like people) change. though i haven't actually changed so much as figured out more accurate descriptors, over the last little while.

i've said on here for years that my gender is 'person wearing a red shirt at target' and that still feels true, because my identity is less a firm, specific thing than it is a lack of a thing. as somebody afab and socialized that way, some descriptors don't bother me at all, like terms of endearment from people i love. and broad common female pronouns (she, here) feel more clinical, somehow, as if that degenders them a little. whereas ones like 'ma'am' and even 'female' feel *more* gendered.

idk why that is, or why things that feel girly to me grate on my brain in the first place. but in my 20s and 30s, i couldn't explain why i identified as gay or queer yet was deeply uncomfortable with 'lesbian.' now i know, and as much as it feels like further complicating my descriptors (i've already got 5 different disorders! i contain multitudes!) it's a huge relief to have the language.

some of which, also wasn't new. i think i found the term agender a while back, at least a few years ago. i'd never seen a description that fit me before, not quite so well. i identify as lacking gender, wanting to exist outside of the recognition of gender--i understand the different gender labels/norms and respect them for other people, however they identify...but for me, gender feels like a lie.

it's only within the last year sometime that i finally figured out, with the help of resources via my best friend, that being agender fits under the nonbinary umbrella, which can also fit under the umbrella of trans. i've never thought of myself as someone with gender dysphoria, and that gave me this huge feeling of 'identifying as trans would be claiming something i have no right to.'

so i had to think about that a while. i had an epiphany moment (thanks to the barbie movie, of all things) where i had a physical reaction to a thing as if it were an attack directed at me. that was when i realized i may not feel like i have the right, thanks to internalized stuff, to call myself trans--but i feel part of the community whether i say it or not. and even though i don't mind 'she,' anytime my best friend refers to me with 'they' it gives me a little glowy feeling.

so, again, this might not be huge news for all of you. a lot of you have been my friends for years. but it's nice to officially add agender to my 'asexual queer-romantic' breakdown, and mentally expand the umbrella of where i fit, and with who. and it feels like well past time to do it publicly.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for being weirded out/upset by my future in-laws' response to our wedding? WIBTA for refusing their money? This whole situation is wildly out of my wheelhouse and I need the opinions/advice of internet strangers.

So I (24F) and my partner (24NB, any pronouns) are engaged and are planning our wedding for the autumn of 2024. When we told my family (both immediate and extended) about the engagement, they were super excited and my mom even planned a special dress shopping day for my most recent birthday. On the other hand, my partner's immediate family seems... indifferent? I think everyone knew we would be getting married eventually, but it still seems odd to me that they just don't care. They don't even want to go suit shopping with my partner (though luckily, we have friends who are excited to go and my mom has also expressed interest). I know that weddings aren't everyone's thing and that's fine but my partner is their oldest child and the first to get married of our generation. The only interest they have really shown is by offering us money to pay for the catering and even then it felt more like they felt obligated to offer the money. Am I the asshole for feeling weird about this whole situation and for not wanting to accept their money?

Some additional context that might be helpful: Ever since my partner and I started dating about 5 years ago, our relationship with her parents has been rocky. They were initially very homophobic and my partner still isn't out to them as nonbinary. Things have improved somewhat but they are still conservative and some of the things her father has said are why I personally have minimal contact with them. (I won't mention specific things he said because they might be triggering for some people.)

What are these acronyms?

[aita-blorbos]

(This is for a roleplay with a few friends, same roleplay as a different ask sent, so that’ll be interesting)

AITA for killing my friend (male, older than me, I don’t know by how much, adult?)?

I (female, adult?) really don’t think I am, because I’m not, but I’m being forced to write this, so here we go.

Long story short, I shoved my friend off the top of the stairs, but he quite literally asked me to kill him.

It’s honestly very simple, but I suppose that I have to provide context.

My friend is evil. So am I. That’s the defining point of our friendship. And it’s not some sort of perception thing, he has blatantly admitted that he is evil. He also happens to have this “good” roommate (mspec, male/nonbinary, older than both of us, adult?) who is ridiculously naïve.

Somehow, while being trapped in a household with these idiots, they managed to get into an argument over whether cereal is a smoothie, something that isn’t even worth arguing over. God has decreed that a cat is a taco, so food categorization doesn’t seem to matter that much. And after this completely inane discussion, my friend’s roommate decides to annoy my friend, and ends up poking fun at his, well, it’s not necessarily a speech impediment so much as style in which he speaks, but that’s still heavily rude. I asked my friend if he wanted to do away with this guy, and he agrees. I wouldn’t have done anything had he not agreed.

I lay a trap, which requires consent of the person being murdered. They step into the trap, and stay in the trap. It is a known fact that I am evil, I have said that before, the people there know what I am. And they choose to watch, none interfering, including the friend. One even hands me a knife. So then I kill this guy so he doesn’t hurt anyone else. But then my friend freaks out, which is weird, when he literally asked me to do this, but I give him time and space to mope, because maybe he’s in shock. And no one else really cares that much about the death anyway, so it’s not like I did anything grievous.

Unfortunately the guy came back as a ghost, but my friend couldn’t see him, which is good because he doesn’t need toxic influences in his life. (If only the roommate would change and stop manipulating people.)

Eventually my friend gets out of his funk and decides to do evil stuff with me, arson, breaking and entering, just some small stuff. I let him direct what we did, because I wanted him to feel supported and in charge. I didn’t make him do anything, he planned it or agreed. There was no coercion whatsoever. Honestly most of it was me following his demands. I wanted to give him a distraction from his sadness, even though I had a concussion (different story, very irrelevant).

Someone else (non-binary, adult?, younger) walks in on us while we’re breaking and entering, and drops some important information about my friend, namely that he sleeptalks and has been apologizing to his former roommate and current manipulator, so naturally I pull him aside to talk about this. You can’t recover if you bury your feelings, so I wanted to give him a chance to process them.

And instead he starts screaming at me about how he misses his roommate and how we were wrong to do anything and how bad everything is. And then he shifts and blames me for everything, for something he asked me to do. I try to set the record straight, and he suddenly decides that we aren’t friends, and he’d rather be nothing than have a platonic bond with me, and that a dead guy who hurt him matters more than someone who has been his friend since forever.

Admittedly I may have overreacted and started screaming, but admittedly he was the only person I was close to, especially because the manipulator had likely pushed people away from me. They acted differently than they used to. They acted the same way before his death as they did after his death, but after he came back, they started changing, and I don’t know what lies he fed them, but apparently they were warping everyone’s perceptions. And it turns out that later my work was for nothing because somehow my friend can see his ghost roommate again, who manipulates him too, which is likely what triggered this whole thing.

I didn’t want to lose the one person I may have had left. So I got a little heated and eventually yelled that maybe I should kill him so he could be with the person who apparently somehow became his new best friend. And he agrees, says I should, that he wants it, that he actually wishes it would happen, but that I probably don’t have the guts to do it.

And we were at the top of the stairs and I was still emotional, so not really realizing what I was doing, I pushed him. And he fell, and he died. And I wish I hadn’t done it, but again, he asked for it.

And it’s not that his death was permanent, he came back. He came back and now he’s happy with his roommate and no one hates him for the roommate’s death but they all hate me for both of their deaths when that’s what I was asked to do, and isn’t it unfair? My friend hates me for his death, something he literally asked for. Everyone treats me like this horrible person, this villain, but that’s not what happened! They’re hypocrites who don’t recognize their own flaws, they just look for an easy target and hate them instead of actually thinking.

I’m not a horrible person. I was doing my best. I don’t know why no one else sees that.

[deorexploreseve]

Answering the big questions

Who am I?

I'm not going to fully answer the real-life side of this question except to say that I'm a 40ish nonbinary person working in STEM, who is enjoying their journey through EVE.

Deor L'Matisse is my main character in EVE Online. They are a member of Signal Cartel, a corporation of dedicated explorers seeking to plumb the depths of all New Eden and Anoikis - that is, all of EVE - has to offer. A brief aside about Signal Cartel -

Signal Cartel is staunchly neutral and non-PVP, not taking part in any major war or alliance. They also run some of the larger and more widely used community services in EVE, such as the Thera (and now Turnur) scanning service, and the Wormhole Search & Rescue Service. No matter who you are, we will help you, so long as doing so does not compromise our safety or neutrality or otherwise violate our Credo of nonaggression.

- now, back to me. This blog is going to be about my thoughts and experiences in exploring New Eden, both as a journal and a guidebook. I have been playing about four or five months at this point so am fairly new to EVE, but not at all new to games in general (and EVE is not all that exceptional as games go, except that it is designed about as unintuitively as it is possible to be so takes some getting used to). I pick up new systems quickly and have an analytical mind on account of being a scientist by day, so I think I have some useful things to say for newer players and some older ones alike. Join me on my journey.

What is going to be on this blog?

I don't fully know yet, to be honest, but my plan right now is to populate it with guides, commentary, exploration diaries, and pretty space pictures I take as I venture all across Anoikis and New Eden (the two galaxies in which EVE takes place). I'm likely to reblog relevant posts from other creators - though there aren't many talking about EVE here so not likely much of that, but oh well - and space stuff, as well as science stuff. I'm nonbinary so I care about all that as well. Anything political is strictly coming from me and should in no way be seen as to reflect on anyone else in or on Signal Cartel, by the way (since not talking politics is part of the Credo), but I'm not going to categorically not talk about that stuff here because I think it needs to be heard.

Why here, of all places?

Yes, I know there's almost no EVE Online community on Tumblr. It's strange for me to choose to put my travelog. I chose to do so for two main reasons.

First, I already have other blogs here (no, I won't share them). Being an experienced creator, it was just easier to use this option.

Second, because there's such a small community here, there is less pressure to perform. I'm hopefully not going to be putting on a show for a big studio audience, so I'm just going to be able to say what is on my mind at a given time. We'll see how that goes.

[nayruwu]

Heyy~,

Are you still keeping up with the ONS manga?

If so, are you disappointed with the plot development of ONS?

ohh, interesting question!!

it's hard to answer, because my interests are so far off from what is actually happening in the manga right now. so i'm a lot more biased towards "ugh, this sucks" right now, but i'll try to work around it and really think of what bothers me beside the lack of my beloved scrunklies.

generally i think my biggest issue right now is how different the story today is to the events before. if you tried explaining to an anime only how the true villain of the story is actually a six-winged nonbinary hoe with depression that keeps their child's corpse in the hiiragi's basement, they probably wouldn't believe it's the same series. and i know that this was planned from the start, and kagami didn't just come up with shikama three weeks ago, but it still feels bad to have everything that was set up in the beginning of the manga not really matter anymore. they centered the whole start around the world ending, and it makes sense that there was never much worldbuilding because now it's just another thing that happened.

what were the interesting points back then? the apocalyptic setting! the ever looming threat in form of the vampires trying to enslave the remnants of humanity! the unshakeable rule of the hiiragi family suppressing those below them! there were tons of charming characters introduced that probably won't ever show up again (one of which even has backstory with an um, ex main character, i'd call yoichi. goodbye plot relevance). now none of that really matters anymore. it's a kind of "hey there's this bigger threat and bigger secret that renders everything that happened in the past meaningless!" that i don't really like. so what does it matter that krul dies and ashera loses her? they were angels in the past! their souls are bound together! they'll see each other again soon!

i'm not a fan of soulmate plots. i need at least 7 books of explanation for why these two characters like each other before i can see the relationship as true and meaningful. this is also why i can't bring myself to be interested in mika/yuu anymore, but i don't want to put a target on my back right now. they're good, alright. just not for me.

another thing that bothers me is how we're supposed to relate to, and perhaps even root for shikama. they were set up in both vampire reign and catastrophe as this incomprehensible force that planned the fate of the entire human race, leaving them as nothing more than figures on a chess board. and that's cool! that's terrifying! but shikama and the other angels turned out to be... not really incomprehensible at all. they're just humans with wings and special powers. to me, that's pretty underwhelming. maybe a different, more stylised approach to telling the story of angel mika would have made it easier to enjoy for me. something that wasn't just another version of "someone i love died and i didn't want them to so i did this thing". maybe that's the point, a cycle doomed to repeat, but... i don't know, i guess i expected something else.

so no, i don't like the recent developments. i can't think of anything i like about it, honestly. but that's a me problem. most people seem to like it, especially the mika enjoyers that have gotten their wildest dreams fulfilled these past few years! it's a little sad that my brain lost interest in him, i'd be a lot happier with the content we're getting.

this sounds extremely negative but oh well! i still look forward to the chapters and am excited to see what happens next, but without the thought of "hey, X scene has to happen at some point, it'll just take a while", i probably wouldn't be here anymore. i'll just wait for that and let the rest pass me by. yuu the floating eye, sure....

sure.....................................

sure...........................

[hkblack]

Hi! I hope you are doing well! I decided to spend my evening like Crowley, asking an important question from fellow GO writers! What's your current favourite story you yourself have written? Tell me why you like it!

Not gonna lie, I saw this and went "MIRJAM WHY ARE YOU SENDING ME ASKS!? you can just dm me on discord you fool" but then I saw what the ask was and got all excited. Thanks darling, this is delightful.

Right now my fave fic from my catalogue is:

Ever-Fixed E, 19,552

Aziraphale Fell had a plan. Go to school, get his degree, and start his life with his beloved at his side as man and wife. Until one day Crowley disappears. Decades later he meets a man, and finds the love of his life again. Anthony J. Crowley, suave, cool, masculine, in control, unflappable, has spent decades building himself up. He refuses to let his confident facade disappear for Aziraphale, who once almost tumbled down the stairs to certain death because his nose was stuck in a book. It’s just sex, and they’ve been dating for months, this time around. There’s no need to get his knickers in a knot. But the past isn’t easy to let go of, even if you’re both avoiding it. A story about love, intimacy, and finding each other again. (Alternatively: Tender smut, but then I wrote love story flashbacks, and now it's just emotional and there's plot in my pornography)

So why?

First, context: this was written for Fandom Trumps Hate 2023 for Andromeda4004. We went back and forth and I almost went "no wait no, I'm not trans I can't write a transman Crowley. oh no. I'm not good enough to pull this off" and then I got bit by a bunny and couldn't not write it.

It's my favorite, and I think it's going to be my favorite for a while because it's the best writing I think I've done to date. It's incredibly emotional and tender. And sitting with this Crowley has been good for me as a person. He's got a few more stories about him he's trying to pull out of me, so actually if you've already read this fic, go click the link and subscribe to the series I dumped it into in case I cave and do write some of the slice of life shit he's calling for. But... in making sure I wrote something that was respectful and joyful for the people who can immediately see themselves in Crowley (as a transman), I not only did a lot of research, and listening, and fretting at my amazing sensitivity reader because oh god writing with no pronouns at all is SO HARD (yeah, YEAH, go reread those flashback scenes folks.), but I also did a lot of soul searching.

Am I trans? No. Nonbinary? Don't think so. Cis? Eh. Probably?

This is something I sort of felt before writing this fic but now, hanging out with this version of this character and trying to do right by him, I'm a bit more comfortable in my Gender Fuckery (or lack thereof depending on the day). And I think that personally I keep rereading this fic not only because this Crowley is seriously not done living in my head shouting ideas at me, but because it's got the soft tender romance that I absolutely live for, and a Crowley who knows who he is, and is comfortable with himself, and is excited for you to get there too. And I appreciate him for holding my hand and letting me tell his story. Also fucking Aziraphale in this fic is a PUMPKIN. ABSOLUTE PUMPKIN. We don't get to live inside his head as much as we do with Crowley, but let me tell you. He's ultimate supportive partner. He is rub your feet unasked for after a long day cause it brings him joy. He knows your favorite color down to the exact shade. He is bought you VIP tickets to your favorite band he doesn't really like, but he likes how you sing their songs in the shower. PUMPKIN.

[rwbypro]

I DEMAND MORE OF YOUR AU PLEASE INFODUMP :3

Right so in this au the first ending Frisk got was the king papyrus ending, Frisk at the time had 1 goal, get out and get back to Maki, and they killed quite a few monsters in the process some accidental some not.

Frisk beat omega Flowey, left the underground by themselves and made it back to the orphanage. Once there they asked about Maki only for it to be revealed that she had 'died'.

This destroyed Frisk, they didn't really know how to handle it. Then after a couple weeks of just existing they noticed a voicemail on their phone, to was Papyrus.

After listening guilt hit Frisk like a truck, they killed so many people and for what, for someone who was already dead, and in the process hurt the only other people who cared about them. But Frisk realized they could set it right, with renewed determination they reawoke on the flowers.

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Frisk realized they were nonbinary while in the underground, they didn't realize that it was even a thing before hand. The name Frisk was also one they came up with while down there.

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Chara will never admit it outloud but the fact that they were only remembered as Asriel's human friend and their name is never mentioned stings, ike they were never actually a part of the family, but they suppose this is fair because it was their plan that killed both of them.

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After reuniting Maki tried to push Frisk away for a few reasons:

She wasn't sure Frisk was actually their friend from back then cause as far as Maki was aware they died.

Once she realizes Frisk is who they said they were she was worried what the Holy Salvation Society might do to Frisk if they realized Maki cared about them.

Maki felt like she doesn't deserve to be able to know Frisk, due to her being the ultimate assassin and Frisk being the ultimate pacifist. She feels like Frisk would be better off not associating with her.

But don't worry Frisk doesn't give up easily, even if they have to bribe Maki with rice blocks lol.

On another note Maki pushing Frisk away is the main reason Chara dislikes Maki, because Chara saw first hand how much Maki's death effected Frisk. Maki being an assassin only added to that, because now she is potentially a threat to Frisk and their family (In Charas eyes anyway). This feeling starts to fade when they both overhear the conversation Maki has with Shuichi and Kaito about her past.

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Frisk learned to make monster candy over the years and keeps some on them in their bag, to heal any small cuts, scrapes, or bruises.

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One idea I have for an interaction is Tsurugi and Frisk talk about anime, Tsurugi mentions an anime she liked about a character who believes in the best in others and how the anime ends in tragedy due to the protag trusting the wrong person, and how Frisk reminds her of the protag and that they should be careful.

Frisk: Maki wouldn't hurt me tho.

Tsumugi: I wasn't talking about Maki, but that's just my plain opinion you don't need to listen to me.

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Frisk doesn't really understand the ultimate pacifist title, because like even ignoring the fact that they've killed, what makes someone worthy of being called the ultimate pacifist, tons of people go their whole life without killing after all. It's not even like Frisk hates fighting or anything, infact they find sparring to be A lot of fun. Ultimately though they are okay with the title cause atleast they can make a cool pun out of it (Much to Charas dismay).

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I also have some ideas and plans for chapter 5 but that's a whole other thing lol, also I am currently playing with the idea that the red soul trait means love.

[cornylilguy]

RP Request!

Hola! My name is Cherri and I’m looking for a partner for an X-Men rp! Some bits about me, I’m 20+, nonbinary (they/them), and neurodivergent with a very strong fixation on X-Men right now (but specifically Scott Summers, it started with him). Currently I’m trying to finish the og animated series, then move onto X-Men 97’, maybe watch the FOX X-Men movies, then maybe move onto comics if I can! But I am so into it, that I want to start an rp now and binge watch any media needed (since I’m open to working with movie lore or any TV shows like Evolution, Wolverine and the X-Men, etc). Though maybe taking some of the characterizations from those medias and combining parts we both like to make the roleplay (and of course change things later if needed)!

As you can see, I talk a lot, and like talking on Discord! Just because the server functions are super easy to use and keep track of chats. I also talk a ton OOC when I’m super excited, even if I’m a bit busy to RP. I can be a bit slow on responding due to mental health stuff and life, but I generally at max take a week or two to respond and at minimum every 2-3 days, but it can depend. Of course if it’s any longer I will give the proper heads up and tend to let someone know when I’m working on the response and give a timeline. So if you’re kinda busy and want to rp, I’m the guy for you! I don’t really know how to use Tupperware super well, so that’s not needed. And I think that’s all for that section, I hope that we become friends!

As for the rp details I’m looking for someone to play (you guessed it) Scott against my oc, and I’m good with doubling up for oc x canon or even canon x canon! I may struggle at first and be a bit self-conscious about characterization, but I’ve been told I’m not entirely bad and will do my best to work with any personal thoughts that you have! I’m open to playing anyone from the series, but feel like I’d do best with someone like Rogue, Jubilee, maybe Logan, and Kurt (except for writing out his little German boy accent, but we can discuss that); but again! I can do basically whoever with some time, feedback, and patience! Mlm, wlw, mf, or any combo of ships is totally fine as I have experience playing masc and fem characters! For the plot I have a loose idea for what I want for my pairing, backstory, the powers of my oc (but I’d like to discuss some details to not make them too op); but I’m open to really planning things out! I was looking for something very character driven, maybe focused a bit on the political drama of things (my special interest since I was twelve is leftist politics so obviously I want to work it into everything), but I’m open to AU’s or more casual settings, just nothing that’s completely slice of life focused. I need a bit of drama. Oh, and also important, I’d prefer someone to write a few paragraphs, as I can’t stand one line replies or *asterisks* for actions, looking for a more third person semi-lit novella deal.

Okay, I feel like I’ve written a TON, like way too much! If you read it all, thank you! If you had any concerns about me not writing enough, I hope that fear was quelled! And if you’re interested either like or reach out to me so we can discuss on tumblr the initial deets and switch to discord if we’re both interested!

[creativemodetsel]

Welcome To The Library :3

The Library Features A Variety Of Content And Subjects Such As Sneak Peaks of Certain Fanfiction And A Book That Is Being Worked On, Our Artwork, Any Other Creative Projects We Decide To Share, And Any Projects You'd Like To See Us Do. A Meet The Librarians Section Will Be Included Somewhere Below.

Our Wattpad And Ao3 Are Both @/thestarryeyedlovers

Current Writing Projects:

Fanfiction- The Kingdom Of Ivory And Crows (Royal!DSMP AU Based Off Of Dragonhearted By AdorableAxolotl On AO3)

Books- The Kingdom Of Ivory And Crows (Same Name But Different Themes. Self-Insert Version Of ACOTAR But Irish Folklore? Oh And In The POV Of The High Lord. Completely Different Storyline. Check Our Wattpad For More Details.)

Prompts/AUs We Plan On Doing Eventually:

Anything Similar To @/simpingboisinc Prompts On Twitter Anything Related To SBI (Another Adoption AU Anyone??) C!Tubbo (And/Or Ranboo) But A System (Inspired By Metfell) C!Wilbur Before L'Manburg And After Sally (Depression Personified But He Loves His Kid To Death) C!Wilbur. Just, Him. Any Situation. C!Wilbur Our Beloved (NOT The Content Creator By The Way) Transfem!C!Tommy And Transmasc!C!Tommy TNTDuo Angst With Ending Fluff. Technoblade Gets Sent Into Minecraft In His Sleep And Turns Into His Character/Persona. (Like The Discontinued Fic On Ao3, 'The Blood God') C!Tommy AU Where He's A Long Forgotten God Of The Overworld (Like 'Purple Hyacinths And Dark Pink Carnations' By Cupqueencake And 'I Am Creation, Both Haunted And Holy' By An Anon. Both On Ao3) AU Where Techno Is A Detective And Tommy Convinces Him To Help Him Look For His Missing Brother, Wilbur. (Based Off Of 'Tomorrow Night' By Meridies On Ao3) AU Where SBI Are Avians, But Techno, The Middle Child, Does Not Have Wings, Or Any Avian Features For That Matter. (Inspired By Dragon_Scales_And_Fairy_Tales On Ao3)

+More To Be Added As Time Goes On. If Anyone Has Any Suggestions As To AUs/Prompts We Could Write About, Don't Hesitate To Tell Us.

Meet The Librarians!

Hi! I'm N! I'm An Age Slider And Slide Between 18 And 20. My Pronouns Are Hy|They|Shy|It|Pup|Robot, I Am Bisexual, Use Xenogenders, And Am In A Wonderful Relationship With My Girlfriend And Fellow Librarian, Uzi. Oh! Also, I Am Dogkin And Angelkin.

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[jonquilyst]

Top 10 Screenshots of 2023

Ty @akitasimblr for tagging me as always!! 💖 Here I have my top 10 screenshots and moments from 2023, ranked, and personally selected (because all of my most popular posts of the year are Total Drama Sims related)

10. The Floating Festival

By far the strangest and funniest glitch I've seen in a while. Let this screenie be a toast to all the weird glitches I've had in my game this year!

9. Wyatt Appreciation

I absolutely adore Wyatt. One of my favorite sims ever, but here's a fun fact: Wyatt wasn't originally gonna be in the story. It was originally just gonna be Megyn, Eva, and Jayden, but since we met Eva first, it wouldn't make the most sense if she only had one other friend to introduce to Megyn, so Wyatt came into existence! I also wanted an openly LGBTQ+ character in my story (Wyatt is nonbinary).

8. My Broken Hand

Not Sims-related, but definitely worth mentioning since it was just a strange incident that disrupted my life in the strangest way possible. On the morning of September 15 I was walking down the hallway in my room (the basement) when I suddenly tripped and fell against the wall. I tried to catch myself but my hand landed in just an awkward enough position to break my 4th metacarpal (bone underneath the ring finger). I was in a variety of casts for 6 weeks and I was forced to put my story on hiatus again. I'm happy to say I am healed and completely back to normal, though it is still ever-so-slightly sensitive.

7. Participating in community competitions for the first time

I submitted by sims Cylene Vinca (top) and Meredith Blakely (bottom) to both of @akitasimblr's bachelor challenges and had/am having an absolute blast! It inspired me to do my own community competition. I definitely plan on submitting my sims to more community things in the future!

6. Megyn (in general)

Definitely my favorite sim ever at this point. Heck, I have a whole story about her!

5. One Life Challenge

I started the One Life Challenge in March and finished it in October, and I had a lot of fun with it! The One Life Challenge is a challenge I invented myself, so if you wanna give it a try for yourself here's the rules post (I need to update the rules for For Rent though)

4. Megyn reuniting with Eva

After being apart from her friends for a year, Megyn faced the reality that she would never lose a friend due to moving and separation again.

3. Megyn reuniting with Sophia

Yea, it was definitely gonna happen, but when it happened I cried

2. Megyn's first birthday with friends

You see that?? My girl has FRIENDS 😭

Total Drama Sims

I still absolutely cannot believe how successful Total Drama Sims was when it launched. Of course it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things, but I think it's significant how I reached triple-digit notes for the first time and got about 75 new followers within the last month.

Playing with other people's sims has been an absolute blast. Each and every sim has their own distinctive personality and it's been so fun get to know each one. I can also tell these sims were made by different people by how different they all look! From each other and from my own sims. Total Drama Sims is definitely my most successful endeavor yet, and I'm so happy all of you seem to enjoy it! So thank you 💖 I'm considering doing a season 2 down the road, because why not??

Tagging @holocene-sims @seyvia @aniraklova @micrathene-w (but feel free to ignore)