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i haven't gotten to any of the meaty bits of the durge/astarion romance yet, but even with still being in act 1, this shit is so good. because etienne is just here for a good time. he is your classic always down to clown bard. and there's astarion, with his over the top pick up lines and clearly fake flirtations, and etienne is living for it. one thing he didn't lose with his memories is his flair for the dramatic, so it's just the two of them disgusting the other party members with ever increasingly sappy pet names and over the top schmoop. they're having a good time! and the thing is, etienne doesn't understand why astarion is doing this. he thinks astarion is a kindred spirit who is just here for chaos and good sex. he thinks they're both just shallow, beautiful people, and why shouldn't two shallow, beautiful people have good sex, right?
but then the guy at the inn. the inn on fire, the guy screaming for help. his dead wife on the ground. etienne can't figure out why it makes him feel so...hollow. he thinks about it for a long time afterwards, just the way that guy sobs over his dead wife's body. he obviously can't remember caring about anyone that much. he thinks about the people he's killed and wonders if they had people who cried over them that way. if he's the cause of that much heartbreak in someone.
then he thinks about astarion and realizes that yeah. if something happened to him, he'd be pretty devastated. and he has to wonder if astarion would feel the same way. or if it would just be part of the farce.
he has to wonder if anyone would weep for him if it came down to it. or if everything in his life is just a superficial game.
#bg3#bg3 spoilers#dark urge#noah oc: etienne#baby learns about consequences for the first time!#he felt pretty shitty about that first horrific murder#but honestly that was just because it was involuntary#and really really graphic#not his usual style at all#it wasn't his choice and that lingers with him in a big way#but this is going to be a turning point and it's interesting to me that it happened so early#act 2 is going to be a wild fucking ride i can already tell
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I know itâs heavily disputed about the extent and canon veracity of cas âpicking up on deanâs longingâ and what exactly that even means or entails. but thinking about that period after jack offscreen raised cas from the empty and before dean died.
#he sat on that floor ignored samâs calls put his head in his hands and wept. is the thing. he ran up those stairs#i myself am undecided on the meaning and extent of that whole aspect the longing thing i mean and well i think itâs honestly the result of#initial planned arc turned network season renewals network legacy juggernaut with multiple writers and show runners with a range of.#quality and a not insignificant amount of retcons or logical and lore clashes#but as it is I think Iâve arrived to it being not much more than how it was described. informal prayer. perhaps to some extent not#not purposeful more involuntary the way thoughts can be. but also not just feelings experienced in your own headspace or all thoughts#Iâm on a saying not very much with a lot of words kick tonight on account of the sleepy tired on low hours of it all but there is a thread#there that could be worth picking at. maybe. idk. at the end of the day that finale was really fucked up in a lot of ways! so my brain will#keep inventing new ways for me to poke at it. whatâs that post about bad content with some worthwhile aspects inviting more#poking at than good and satisfying and well written enclosed works because well they already said all the things and said it well? is the#thing? or something like that. i have a headache tonight can you guys tell
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... okay based on the specific deep ache + occasional shooting pain in my leg and the fact that it feels VERY MUCH like the time I broke the same bone but lower down I think Iâm gonna ask mom to take me by an urgent care center when we go into town so I can get an xray because no bruise has surfaced and it still has that âvery hot, probably too full of bloodâ feeling from, again, the other time I broke it.
I do love that my pain scale is so comprehensively FUCKED by years of chronic migraines and dysmenorrhea that the first time I broke a bone I was like âmy hindbrain is screaming SHITFUCK really loudly but it doesnât hurt much so itâs probably fine right?â
(it was not fine: it was, in fact, broken)
#babble tea (blacklist this for less chatter)#it is probably not fine the fact that it feels Deeply Not Fine and my monkey brain is going 'bitch STOP FUCKING WALKING ON IT' is uh#Concerning tbh#I honestly trust that part of my brain more than 'it hurts a whole lot'#because by my scale almost nothing hurts a whole lot#because I once drove while in the kind of pain where I couldn't stop crying or making involuntary noises#because that's just NORMAL FOR ME#(yes I got yelled at for it but also I can't swear I won't do it again)
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I know when i was a baby, doctors completely overlooked celiac and gluten intolerance as options, mostly saying i was undergoing growing pains, but if you do think gluten is a reason for pains and such, try not eating gluten for a while (pretty hard to eat out if you do this, and gluten free breads and meals are typically more expensive). Tho Im sure now doctors know more about celiac and other such allergies. If you have a family member with some sort of gluten intolerance or allergy it could be possible you as well have it. But good luck i do hope you figure out your mysterious illness soon
i don't think it's specifically gluten because i am. kind of? just. intolerant to. everything?? like i will eat and i'm like "oh i love food that was such a lovely meal" and then my stomach roundhouse kicks me into a wall. also no family history afaik.
we ticked off all the potentially fatal causes and honestly that's good enough for me.
#i know sometimes theres a correlation between autism and stomach issues so? i dunno#and im also really sensitive to medication so maybe that's related#but idk. THANKYOU FOR THE INFO AND CONCERN THOUGH appreciated ^ ^#asks#oh also#emeto tw#the other main thing is ive had chronic issues with involuntary regurgitation#which gets a lot worse when im stressed#but also just after i eat some of it comes back up and it is rather annoying#honestly im not too sold on gluten because some of the only foods that like. dont set it off. are plain crackers and stuff.
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salvatore. nanami k.
cw: filthy, age gap
reader is 23, nanami is like 30-45 if you have a problem then go away
an arranged marriage with nanami.
your parents selfishly gave you away to him as a business move. on your end it was involuntary, but on his it was just something so he could take over his fathers business faster that required having a wife.
nanami kento is way older than youâ at least got 10-15 years on you. he woke up early, worked out, shaved his face every week and stayed in his office for most of the day, giving you space. nanami was grown.
nanami kento was also a very traditional man, hence why your parents chose him. he enjoyed a traditional household. nanami worked during the day, handled business, his fathers business that he was in the works of taking over, and you? he only expected you to play the housewife role, giving you money when asked for various tasks. he only really asked for you to take care of the house and laundry.
you tried your best to not like himâ to spite your parents. you really tried to ignore him every night when you went to sleep in the same bed together, you tried to stay quiet when he asked vague questions about what you wanted for dinner or what you wanted to do that day.
but you couldnât ignore how attractive your husband was. he was mature and he always smelled good. you couldnât help but squeeze your thighs together when he got a faint stubble on his face when it neared his time to shave again.
so after a couple months of moving in together youâre sitting at the dinner table, on the topic about trying to have sex or not. there wasnât a doubt in your mind that you didnt wanna have sex with nanami. even if you were pissed that your parents married you off, you did like your husband.
âwe donât have to.â
he said it bluntly, taking another bite of the pasta as he sat on the other side of the table. he was dressed in a collared shirt, a tie neatly around his neck.
you quickly picked up the glass of wine on the table. glass barely even touched before you started drinking regardless of you being well into the meal. you didnât drink wine.
âi wouldnât mind trying.â
he didnât have any real expression on his face as he ate. glasses a little further down his nose than usual as he finished the pasta with one last big bite.
âokay. weâll try tonight then.â
âohhnnnggshiiitttâ
nanamis cock was fat and gritty. mustâve had about a million veins on it because you swear you could feel every single one. he was well groomed as well, he kept it hairy but to an extent which was expected from him.
he knew how big his cock was. he knew it was big all the way from when he even brought up the topic of having sex to begin with. getting into the bedroom and having him avoid taking his cock out until you were all prepped and in a daze.
and nanami made you feel so full with him. could feel him all the way up in your stomach. he made fucking sure you knew he was in there too from the way he pressed and pushed around at your abdomen whenever he got a chance.
your husband had your ass at the end of the bed. all perked up for him as he stood behind you on the floor. nanami had his hands on both sides of your upper back as he pushed you farther down into your shared comforter.
âdoes it feel better like this? or in theâprevious position?â
his voice sounded out of breath, quiet subtle groans coming from him as he waited for his question to be answered. his pretty blond hair falling out of its usual perfect place but his pace never ever faltered.
it was honestly sickening for nanami to seriously expect a response from you like this. your body so hot, kisses and sweat coating it with your face so fucked out. eyes glossing over and your mouth half open, head bobbing with every stroke he gifted you.
the various pornographic noises that left your mouth bounced off the walls and throughout the house along with the even worse sounds of his pelvis hitting your ass over and over.
ân-amiiiiâ
âtalk to meâ
your new husband was quick to grab a fistful of your hair and pull you up from your position on the bed. forcing your head to rest on his shoulder and letting his hands glide along your body.
his fingers traced symbols and lettersâhis nameâ on your clit, the other pinching and pulling at your breasts while he kept rocking his hips into yours, mindlessly. your hands wrapped around both of his wrists, pushing at his waist and thighs softly.
âsâgood namiâ
âyeah?â
the blond started to kiss at your neck, his stubble tickling you but his motions never stopping. he was so experienced at this, made you feel so naive, inexperienced.
blondieeu xx
a/n: havenât written for my fav in a while and i had this locked up in my drafts!!!
#blondieeu#smut#jjk nanami#jujutsu geto#jujutsu gojo#jjk smut#jjk gojo#jujutsu nanami#jujutsu kaisen nanami#nanami kento#nanami smut#nanami x reader#kento#jjk art#kento nanami#jjk au#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#gojo satoru#jjk#arranged marriage#gojo x reader#gojo saturo#gojo x you#geto suguru#gojo smut#jujustu kaisen#satosugu#getou suguru x reader
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Touch Me
virgin!Eddie x fem!reader
summary: you get your nipples pierced and your best friend, Eddie is the first one you want to show
cw: MDNI (18+) nipple play, thigh riding
part two part three
You hadn't told Eddie that you were going to do it. He knew that you had been wanting to get your nipples pierced, talked about it at length, in fact. you thought it would make you look hot and Eddie couldn't have agreed more. Not that he would have ever told you that. How attracted to you he was and how often he got himself off at the thought of you, piercings included.
So when you showed up on his doorstep with your piercings peeking through after having gotten them done a few weeks ago, he was trying to keep himself from getting hard. He was trying to think about literally anything else, but all that was happening in his mind was flashes of him with his mouth on your tits, toying with your piercings as your back arched underneath him.
Little did he know that you had been waiting for them to heal a bit because you were thinking the same thing. You were going to take a leap and ask him if he wanted to have his way with them. Ever since you had that dream the night before your appointment, you couldn't get the idea out of your head. And now you had to make it a reality before you drove yourself crazy.
"So you finally went and did it," Eddie pulled you out of your thoughts.
"Sure did," you nodded, trying to arch your back subtly as you sat down on his bed. "Do you...wanna see them?" He could clearly see them through your very thin, very white shirt, seeing that you hadn't even put on a bra.
"Fuck yes." his words came out like a whimper and you tried your best to not think about how hot it sounded. You pulled off your shirt with ease, almost as if you had shown your best friend your tits all the time, which you didn't. Eddie definitely would have remembered that.
You let the shirt fall to the floor and pat the spot next to you, inviting Eddie to sit there. He was quick to sit next to you, his gaze on your tits the whole time. He hadn't seen many pairs (at least, not in real life) but he had to admit that yours were the best. And seeing the piercing going straight through your very hard nipples was just the cherry on top.
"You can touch them if you want." Eddie just blinked at you, unsure if he had heard you right. "Go ahead." You pressed your palms into the mattress, leaning back, giving Eddie perfect opportunity to touch you if he wanted to.
His hand reached out to one of them and he cupped it, not entirely sure what to do. He hadn't touched a woman period, let alone like this. But he was glad it was right, knowing that you would help him and be nothing but sweet while you did it.
"Here," you took his hand away from your tit and fixed it before putting it back so that his thumb was pressed against your nipple and the rest of his fingers were resting along the side, curling against your back.
His thumb moved back and forth along the piercing and you shut your eyes, feeling pleasure course through you. An involuntary moan fell from your lips and Eddie continued, seeing that you were enjoying it.
"That feels good," you told him. "Keep going." Eddie followed instructions, pressing even more and you moaned again, sounding even better than you did in his dreams.
He honestly couldn't believe it was happening, that he was touching his best friend in that way, but he loved it. The way you were pliant to his every touch was doing something to him. He was wondering what else you would have let him do if he had asked.
"Oh my god," you moaned again and Eddie looked down at your other nipple, desperate to have his mouth on it. He want to know what the felt like in how mouth. What it tasted like. The sounds you would have made if he sucked on it.
Before he could stop himself, his mouth was on your other tit. He immediately took the piercing between his teeth and let his tongue fiddle with it. It was cold, but he had to admit that he loved the way it felt. His tongue moved back and forth across your nipple and your hands moved to his hair as he began to suck on it.
It was gentle at first and then he used a little more force, loving to hear your cries underneath him. You knew that he had never done anything like that before so you wondered how he had gotten so good at it. Did he just have experience that you didn't know about?
The truth was that Eddie had watched a lot of porn and read a lot of smutty books to get himself familiar with it all and he had gotten very knowledgable about the subject even though he was a virgin. He never wanted to tell you about it, though. Not because he thought you would have made fun of him, but more because he wanted to keep it a secret. Something he had all to himself.
"Fuck," you whined. "Oh my god, how do you know how to do that?"
"Don't worry about it. Just lie back and enjoy." He helped you lie back on the bed then went in again, licking and sucking as hard as he could without hurting you. He was moving as slow as possible, wanting to soak up every second he had to touch you like this since he knew this was only going to be a one time thing.
Just when you thought he was finishing up, he took the piercing between his teeth and giving it a little tug, causing you to moan even louder. Clearly you liked that more than he was expecting.
"Do that again." He did as you asked, pulling a little hard this time which caused you to tug on his hair. He pulled one more time then liked a stripe across your nipple to diffuse the sting.
He then moved onto the other nipple, wanting to give it the same attention and you could feel your vision getting cloudy. You tugged on Eddie's hair even more as an orgasm ripped through you, a loud scream falling from your lips.
He gave one last tug before pulling away, leaving you to come down from your orgasm, unsure what to do. You stared up at him, your eyes glazed over and he swore you were the most beautiful you had ever been, lying there topless, your tits shining with his spit.
Eddie sat on the edge of his bed and you threw on your shirt before crawling over to him, spreading his thighs before straddling one of them. He didn't know what you were doing, but he sure as hell wasn't going to question it. He was going to let you do whatever you wanted to him considering that he had wanted you for years.
You hooked your finger under his chin and forced him to look you in the eyes, feeling like you could have looked into his with how pretty they were. Especially with the sun peeking through his window, giving them a golden tint.
Eddie looked up at you, his mouth slightly agape as he watched your every move, desperate to know what you were going to do next. He was literally on the edge of his seat and was eager to follow you in whatever you wanted to do.
"Can I kiss you?" You asked and all Eddie could do was nod enthusiastically since he had seemingly been rendered speechless.
Your grabbed hold of his hands and rested them on your waist while your arms wrapped around his neck. You then leaned in gingerly, wanting to take things slow since you knew he had never been kissed before. At least, not in the way that you were thinking. You had been each other's first kiss when you were thirteen, but that had just been a peck.
Your lips met his and he was quick to follow your lead, his lips moving with yours as his eyes shut tight. It was slow at first, but then you began to grind on his leg and his brain short circuited after that. The whole thing was becoming overstimulating for hi, but there was no way in hell that he was going to ask you to stop.
You continued to ride his thigh as you nipped at his bottom lip, a whimper coming from the back of his throat. You nipped again and then diffused the sting with your tongue before dipping it into his mouth, a full on moan falling from his lips as your tongue tangled with his.
As soon as felt his rock hard cock against your knee, you decided to put everything to a stop. You pulled away to see that his pupils were blown wide, his eyes glazed over with lust.
"Why'd you stop?" He asked, running his tongue over his bottom lip and you tried to hold back a laugh at your lipstick that had smeared all over his mouth and chin.
"Because I know you're not ready for the next step," you replied, swiping your thumb along his chin to get rid of the lipstick, but it had only made it worse. Eddie wanted to argue, but he knew you were right. He could do everything else no problem, but there was something about the penetrative part that scared him. And he appreciated that you understood him.
"Believe me, when you are ready, I will be the first person to volunteer to be your first. If that's what you want."
"You're the only person I'd want it to be."
"We'll I'm honored."
"Do you want to watch a movie or something?"
"I actually have to get to work, but I'll come over tonight and we can do more of this?"
"Sounds good," he nodded, already counting down the minutes. You pressed another kiss to his lips then climbed off of him before grabbing your purse, fleeing his room.
Eddie was quick to follow, watching to get in your car, trying to figure out what he was going to do in the few hours you were going to be gone, hoping that would be a regular thing between the two of you. Maybe if he played his cards right, it would be.
#stranger things#eddie munson#eddie x y/n#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie munson smut#eddie munson x fem!reader#eddie munson fluff#virgin!eddie munson#virgin!eddie x reader
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â closeted agere things! đž
* mostly targeting regressors who canât regress freely for whatever reason <3
gear
- pacis can be hidden in stuffed animals! if you donât feel like doing that you can use boxes for things like old phone boxes, old glasses cases, or anything that wouldnât look suspicious or out of the ordinary!
- if youâre comfortable with wearing a mask and like using pacis, you can hide your paci behind a mask when you go out! You can even get a cute reusable mask to make you feel more small!
- instead of onesies, you could use some body suits! if it seems too suspicious to wear them alone, you could pair it with some shorts/sweats, no one can say a thing :) you can even find ones that are full body or have build in shorts!
- have a prepared response! try thinking of a well thought out excuse that can help you incase you get caught! try not to stress about it too much, though!
ordering
- ordering can be really difficult! trying to find a way to order gear when i was living with my parents was quite hard, and i couldnt find a lot of good advice on how to do it. the method that worked best for me was ordering it to a support friend or carerâs house!
- quite a lot of etsy agere-gear businesses have options for discreet shipping! the meaning for this can vary â whether they hide the gear in a small plushie or container or something, or they ship it and ensure that it reaches you and only you!
regressing
- this point is honestly harder to explain, especially because of how different every little can be from each other!
- if you regress to an older age, perhaps 7-10 or are a middle, then it can be easier for you to regress in public while causing minimal suspicion! (especially if you are high-functioning at those ages)
- involuntary regressors may find this a bit hard â i recommend trying a bunch of different exercises to get out of your headspace (only if you want to, or if youâre in a dangerous situation of course!) i have quite a few techniques that work for me; can make a post about that later!
little things that can make you feel smaller
- packing yourself a small snack when you go out! (eg. gogurts, small nut packets, chopped vegetables (or shaped veggies!), fruits, shape crackers, etc!)
- adult coloring books can be a bit hard to do when little for me, but some pages are pretty okay, especially when youâre trying to blend in :)
- having small plushie keychains!
- cute patterned socks! you can keep them hidden in long shoes, but if no one would question you, then youâre good!
- fidget toys
- using a water bottle with a straw!
thatâs all for now! i just wanted to add, please please make sure youâre staying safe! i know gear can be tempting to buy, but if youâre in a situation where thereâs no where to hide it and getting caught would compromise your safety, please keep that in mind! staying safe is way more important than anything else.
take care munchkins, buh bye! đ«§
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#note: obsessive nanami with a breeding kink?? i think tf yes!
obsessed!nanami who necessarily doesnât like to show how head over heels for you he is. heâs the type that likes to cover it up, keep it a secret just in case it creeps you out. however, he couldnât very well hide his addiction to you when he was inches deep in you, thinking about changing both of your lives for the better.
heâs been begging to try for a baby for months now, and he was getting really fed up with your answers. you would always say yes but when it finally came down to it youâd make him pull out. what type of shit was that?
âso what dâya say baby? gonna let me fill this pretty lil pussy up? give yaâ all my babies?â his hands flew to your hair, pulling it so hard that your head was forced back. you couldnât even give him a solid answer with the state you were in.
not with the way his hips were snapping back and forth to meet yours, or the way his lips roughly sucked on your neckâ leaving marks which were very well intended.
your shaky hands involuntary found their way to his stomach, trying to push the man out of you so you could catch some type of break.
âk..k..kento please! tâs too m..much i-â your words were quickly cut off by him smacking your hand. you shouldâve knew better honestly, he never liked when you tried to push him away, but that still didnât stop you.
this time, you used your foot to try and push him awayâbut again.. you shouldâve known better. as soon as he saw your leg move he was quick to slap your thigh, causing you to hiss and put it right back where he had them pinned.
âyou didnât answer my question princess.. can i?â now his thrusts were even faster than before, and he made sure to give your clit some extra attention as well, slowly teasing it by rubbing small circles around the throbbing bud.
now that was enough to drive you insane, nanami knew what he was doing, he always did. he was purposely trying to overstimulate you because he knew how easy you give into him when youâre in that state.
with curling toes, and a wide mouth you tried to escape from his graspâ well, more like you quite literally tried to run away from him.
you knew exactly what he was planning and you werenât giving in that easily, thatâs what you hoped at least.
his face fell into a frown when he realized your weak attempted to escape him, you did this every time the two of you had sex.. you could never last for longer than thirty minutes, and usually he would let you off the hook.. but this time, he had other plans.
when nanami finally got fed up of you trying to run, he became more serious. his touch was no longer passionate and steady, it was sloppy and rough.
the hand he was using to hold your legs up soon became the hand he used to grip your neck. it caught you off guard at first since heâd never done it before, but you soon became used to the feeling, and it only added to your pleasure.
âstop tryinâ to run from me. i told you about this before, keep it up and you just might get fucked up.â it was a small warning. the way his eyes locked with yours, and held that familiar gaze of seriousness, you knew he wasnât fucking around.
you didnât miss the way your pussy clenched tighter around him at his words, or the way you suddenly got the feeling to let him do whatever with you.
this time was different than all the other times you two had sex.. usually he wouldnât be soâ aggressive. not that you were complaining though.
you knew he was finally getting serious when he let go of the hold he had on your legs, what was he planning next? he pulled out of you without a word, and your face studied his for some type of answer.
confusion quickly took over your body, but you werenât left confused for long.. nanami rocked his hips backwards before slamming back into you without any warning, continuing his previous goal.
the scream you let out was loud, all your neighbors most likely heard it too, probably wondering what the hell was going on.
nanamiâs hands gripped on your waist, keeping you still since he knew you loved to fucking move, or better yet run. âwhat do you have to say to me, darling?â
ââm sorry babyâ fuck! âm so sorry.â you had no choice but to stay still this time, you knew he wasnât letting you get away again. even if you never really got away in the first placeâ heâd make sure you never thought about running from him (or his dick) again.
by this time nanami was already too far gone to listen to you. the way your pussy was squeezing around him like this, and sucking him in.. he couldnât listen to you. not when he had a job to do.
the more your walls sucked him in, the more he felt his rationality slipping away. he couldnât hold out much longer.. you knew he wanted kids from the beginning right? plus, itâs not like you didnât want this. you told him yes many times before, so why not just get it over with already?
âpussyâs suckinâ me in so fuckinâ good princess, gonna fill you up real good. m..make your tummy all nice nâ round with my babies. fuck.. youâre gonna look so beautiful. tits all swollen and shit,â
his hand involuntarily came down to your stomachâ carefully rubbing it as if there was a baby in there already.
youâd be lying if you said it didnât turn you on. just as youâd be lying if you said you didnât want to carry this manâs children.
feeling him rub on your stomach while mumbling such vulgar words.. it was enough to throw you over the edge.
âoh fuck ken! âm cumming baby, please âm gonna-â he pushed down on your lower stomach, knowing thatâd be more than enough to get you where he wanted you.
without warning, liquid starting pouring out of you and it was only then that you realized it wasnât just cum.. you had squirted. and because of that, nanami wasnât too far behind you.
âyes mama, milk this shit. let me give it all to you.. this pretty lil pussy takinâ me so well- shit!â as you were still riding out your orgasm, he was right behind you, finally filling you up with the warm cum heâd been storing so long.. just for you.
âmm yes ken. wanna have all your babies, my love. give it to me please!â little did you know, he had a lot to give, poor guy had been waiting for this moment for years now. and it was finally here.
the two of you couldnât keep quiet even when you both already finished cumming. nanami didnât want to pull out, he wanted to stay buried inside of you forever. the feeling of your pussy gripping him was something heâd never get tired of.
sadly, he eventually did have to pull out. you kept fussing about wanting to go to sleep, and how you didnât want to go to sleep with him inside of you because of what he did last time.
âfine, but before you go to sleep let me just..â he got on his knees, holding your legs up just like before but this time he had a clear view of your pussy. no, his pussy.
she looked so worn out, and even now she was still clenching around nothingâ clearly missing the feeling of his dick. however, what peaked his interest most was his cum spilling out of you.
well we surely couldnât have that, could we? what was the point of all that hard work if it was all just going to go to waste..
without a second thought he ran his fingers down your folds, lapping up all the liquids that were already spilling out, earning a low moan from you.
âw..what are you doing?â
he ignored your questionâ focusing on collecting all the spilled out cum purely with his bare hands. once he felt heâd done enough, he wasted no time plunging his fingers into you, pushing back all of the cum that tried escaping.
âgo to sleep. im going to stay like this for a while, i donât want a single drop wasted.â
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Honestly y'all need to chill with the "nonhumaness needs to be involuntary!"
The only reason you're saying that is due to wanting to present 'valid' enough for outsiders. It's not a choice so they won't bully you, like they do furries or other people.
And I hear you cry "but KFF!". KFF aren't nonhuman, they just relate. If someone comes over to me and says "I choose to be nonhuman today, I am nonhuman no matter what other ppl tell me. I genuinely identify as nonhuman." That isn't KFF, that's a nonhuman.
Truly, I'll just go "woah...that's so based". Because truly, what are our differences? We both genuinely identify as nonhuman....and yeah that's about it.
You might say, "they don't experience shifts!" There's nonhumans that don't experience shifts. And there's humans that experience shifts, we call it the "shifter's disease". Basically when a full human researches or is around nonhumans and begins feeling phantoms or feeling nonhuman, despite not being nonhuman. So it isn't exclusive to us.
"They don't have noemata!" There's nonhumans that don't have noemata.
"They don't suffer species dysphoria." Theres nonhumans that don't experience species dysphoria. Also cool transmed rethoric.
"They weren't born with it!" There's nonhumans that become nonhuman later on in life.
"They didn't wish their whole life to be a different species!" And? I can imagine there's some nonhumans that didn't even realize they wanted to be/were a different species.
"It's disrespectful to nonhumans that suffer due to their identity!" Another cool transmed rethoric. It's only disrespectful to you because you're up your own ass and believe that anyone who didn't suffer like you did, that didn't have it as hard as you isn't as valid as yourself. But what you don't realize is by having that belief you are excluding such a large portion of your community.
There's involuntary nonhumans who don't suffer from their identity at all and they're still part of our community.
The line between voluntary and involuntary can get blurry very quickly and hard to describe. But truly, you are no one to say who can use a label that rightfully describes their experiences.
Get real and truly think about why you're so upset at someone having a good faith identity.
#so upset about this shit lol#alterhuman#therian#otherkin#therianthropy#kitty cat rambles#info#nonhuman#cw discourse
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currently thinking about sleepy sex with ellie :(
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cw - somno
ellie who cannot keep her hands to herself even while she's falling asleep, needs it. the warmth, needs the feeling of your skin, she needs to be as close as humanly possible if not more.
you barely had any time to get under the covers before her hands automatically found their way under your shirt, palm on your stomach to tug you closerâcalloused fingers stroked lazy shapes against your skin. her front flush against your back, lips messily meeting your shoulder with a low hum.
baby had to wake up earlier than usual for patrol and was so fucking tiredddd </3
âmy hand's not coldïżœïżœïżœâ the sound of her voice was muffled against your back and as much as she denies it, her hand is definitely cold, freezing I dare to say. this woman is an ice cube most of the time. with that body temperature she might as well be liquid nitrogen pretending to be a person.
( and she takes advantage of it to cuddle. )
âellie, I swearâget your hand away,â you shot back, trying to squirm away from her cold grip, but it only made her tighten her hold, pulling you even closer.
âmm, stop moving,â she whined, her tone dipping into that sleep-drunk whimper that made your resolve crumble most of the time. âyouâre warm⊠feels nice.â her nose nuzzled the back of your neck, lips brushing your skin.
ugh, so stubborn and clingy.
don't blame her if she starts to grind against your ass while spooning, she just wants to be warm! and honestly it's her body acting purely out of instinct.
it's not just to fuck, it's to soothe herself to sleep.
her hips moved in small, unthinking rolls, completely involuntary, like her body was acting on autopilot. she wasnât fully thereâher needy murmurs were barely coherent, breath hot against your neck as she clung tighter.
even if there's no direct contact she lets out little, groany whimpers on your neck while her hand stills its movements every now and then. hazy mind unable to focus on doing multiple things at once. she's awful at multitasking when eepy.
all she can think about is feels good feels good feels good and how her hand goes to grip your hips, you could be dead asleep and her body keeps moving. the hot, tingly feeling in ellie's lower abdomen making her unable to stop. she'll apologize for her horny actions in the morning with extra kisses!
if you're awake enough to turn around though? ugh, she goes insane.
puffy lips finding your own in an instant, the kiss sloppy and desperately uncoordinated. she goes at it like she's starved, like she'll die in her sleep if she doesn't kiss ( eat ) you right now. her thigh situates itself in-between yours to rub there, feeling the already sticky mess dripping from the fabric of your underwear onto her skin. sheâs so grateful for every decision she took in her life that led her to wear shorts as PJs.
the movements don't have any pace or rhythmâshe's too tired for thatâbut they don't stop, she doesn't want them to and the little sounds you make show that you don't want that either.
she feels your thighs clench around hers and the way your hand grips her shirt, the smooth skin on her thigh coated with arousal.
âso goodâŠâ ellie muttered while the wet, messy open-mouthed kisses trail down your neck. they start to go a bit slower and less frequent than before as she grows more and more tired. the whiny sighs slipping from your lips sound like a lullaby to her barely conscious brain.
her panties are still soaked but her poor body can't keep going for longer. her own orgasm will have to wait until tomorrow because she's out like light the second you come.
night night. âĄ
#pupi writes á°#asks â¶#the last of us part 2#tlou x reader#tlou smut#tlou2#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut#ellie williams drabble#tw somno#look at the picture she's so cute i wanna rip my heart out#AAAAHJ#somno has my heart#sapphic writing#sapphic smut#wlw smut#wlw nsft
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Hey I was wondering would it be possible to do the dorm leaders with an s/o that suffers from Essential tremor.
And Essential Tremors is a nervous system condition, also known as a neurological condition, that causes involuntary and rhythmic shaking. It can affect almost any part of the body, but the trembling occurs most often in the hands, especially when doing simple tasks, such as drinking from a glass or tying shoelaces.
I have it and I was just wondering how they would deal or help with it
Disabled Yuu
I actually know a bit abt this but I did keep it vague as I don't have it myself. I also hope to do more disabled ayuus fr. I made Yuu assertive and exasperated in some partsâ like Honestly if ur being an ass or demanding info abt someone's disability you have full right to return the energy.
I avoided the whole fixing thing in this tooâ though Azulâs part does bring it up. Platonic as I focused more on the hand aspect. Azul is Pre Overblot!! Hence why hes 2x as sleazy. I didn't Malleus cause it came out corny af. Also this is old and I wrote this on no sleep. Sorry this took so long I have like 70 reqs. Enjoy.
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RiddleÂ
Since the first Unbirthday party you shared with Heartstabyul he got educated very quickly on the subject. He sees you shakily bring a cup to your lips and guiltily assumes it was because of his overblot. He doesn't blame you, I mean come on, he tried to kill you after all. It was then you explained to him your condition
Since then, he actually read up on it in his own time. He's honestly one of your biggest supportersâ though you do need to remind him at times you don't need coddling. Still, you can appreciate itâŠ
âPrefect.â You pause and turn your attention to the housewarden beside you. âYour tie is unkempt today. Will you allow me to fix it?â He asks thoughtfully, not wanting to intrude or risk coming off as rude.
âAh, can you really? I'd appreciate it.â You presented your neck to Riddle, allowing him to reach over and adjust for you. His gaze was focused as he untied it, re-wrapping it with perfection as if it were second nature. Given his upbringing, you don't doubt it is.
âThank you by the way, today I just didn't have the energy to deal with it.â When he's finished you pull away and nod at him. âOf course. Should you ever need help with anything in the future let me know. I'll be glad to help.â
Leona
Leona doesn't notice and doesn't really care. It's only when you share a room with him where he sees it, watching you tremble from where you lay. You have a blanket and the dorm is warm. Why are you shaking?
âLook at you trembling in the lion's den. Do I scare you that much?â He quirked an uninterested brow at you as you turned your head to him.
â... It's a neurological conditionâŠâ You spoke bluntly, hoping that would be the end of it. âSo it causes you to tremble like this?âÂ
âYeah pretty much.â Leona merely hummed, and the subject dropped. No invasive questions. No taunts. No pity.
He's not mothering you or bending over backwards in the future and don't expect him to. It's clear you've been able to handle yourself well enough. Still, he takes it into consideration. He'll bite his tongue when you take a bit longer to do things.
You don't need to be babied, but when he sees you struggling to open a wrapper of some sort of a candy he offers his hand âGive it here. I'll help you outâ You wordlessly handed over the candy and watched him slice through it with the claw on his thumb.
âTch. You make me do too muchâŠâ It's an insincere remark as he hands off the candy bar and continues on his way.
Azul
â... I'm sorry, I don't think I heard you correctly Azul, can you repeat what You said?â
âCant believe your ears?â Azul wore a smirk as he put a hand on his chest, speaking once more with his confident tone. âThe Mostro Lounge has quite a special deal just for you, dear Prefect! A special cure to your ailmenââ
âThat's what I thought you said.â Azul paused for a moment taking in your annoyed tone. Did he miscalculate? âSomething the matter Prefectââ
âAzul.â You now looked at him with a cold glare, clearly pissed. Azul swallowed, steeling his anxiety behind his businessman persona though the slight widening of his eyes gave away some of his true emotions. â... Yes, Prefect?â
âWhy the fuck do you think saying that is okay?â You couldn't tell right now if your hands were trembling from your condition or rage. âAre you dense?â you ask, voice harsher.
âN-no, Prefect. I'm sorry if anything I said has caused you offenseâŠâ The deepened glare silenced him. âThink for a moment the implications of you wanting to cure me, and even if I did accept then what? You'd seriously hold something as sensitive as this over my head? Would you even be able to cure it long term?â
How badly you wanted to tear him a new one and let him have it, insults resting on your tongue. Instead, you sighed, exhausted from this conversation already. It wasn't worth your time.
âI'm not some âcharityâ case though I doubt you know the meaning of the word. I don't need your âcuresâ. Just⊠leave me alone from now on. Don't talk to me, don't approach me.â you turned away and sped off, more frustrated than ever.
It would take until after his overblot for an apology.
KalimÂ
Oh Kalim⊠he really does mean well butâŠ
âAnd this spoon is designed for shaky hands!â
âI don't needâŠâ
âAnd these are silk ribbons you wrap them with!â
âThank you butââ
âAnd these magical devices are to help check blood pressureââ
âKalim.â
Kalim blinked and tilted his head, still in the middle of putting the excessive amount of gifts into your hands âAh?â He blinked for a moment. âOhhh I know that tone, that's the same one Jamil uses when he tells me I go overboardâŠâ
Kalim's brows knit together and he rubs his head through his white hair. âDid I go overboard again?â He's so genuine it's hard to be mad at him.
â... A little. Heyââ You hold Kalim's face and pat him on the head. âThank you though. It's very sweet of you to look out for me, but⊠I don't need all of these things. I'll be alright okay?â
âOh! Okay! Well if you ever need anything I'm here!â Kalim pumps his fist then turns to the massive pile of boxes behind him. âSo um⊠what should I do with theseâŠ?â
"Donate them maybe?â
Vil
Another example of doesn't really care. He inquired about it once, asked some polite questions and left it at that. There's no need for him to bother you.
When the VCD tournament comes around and he spends more time with you, he takes note of how it affects you. Many expect him to make comments or give you products to take care of your hands more, and he does, however he would have done that regardless of your condition.
Your disability doesn't define you and you're capable on your own. You don't need an able-bodied outsider to tell you what to do or how to feel. A really good ally.Â
As he collects all the data on how your condition affects you specially, he's able to give you some welcome help.Â
âThis potion is good at helping with seizures, but it can also help with your Tremors. I will show you how to make it.â
IdiaÂ
âSo your hands can't stay still? Oof, bad RNG.â He immediately realizes he used video game terms out loud and dies just a bit.Â
Really it's only Ortho that inquires about it. Your body's not any of Idia's business so why should he care? After all, how many times has he seen you irl? Yeah lol, he's cool. He barely knows you aside from a few random encounters on a bad roll.Â
However Ortho cares. He cares a lot. And he's always trying to find ways to potentially help or cure you. Idia watches his little brother researching every book he can find on your condition and sighs.
âThere's no cure right now Ortho. now even magic. Besides that's Yuuâs choice, isn't it?â He shrugs and looks off to the side apathetically.Â
Sad beeps come from the humanoid. âYeah I know that⊠I think I upset them but I didn't mean toâŠâ The child's mournful expression suddenly perks up.Â
âBut! I'm not trying to do that! I'm researching the best way to make a game controller!âÂ
âA game controller? Isn't that pretty easy?â
âWell yes butâŠâ Ortho pauses, reflecting on his earlier conversation. âI asked Yuu if they enjoyed any video games and they said that they do. However, it's hard to play certain games because of their hands. So!â
Ortho shows Idia the 3d model he sculpted in his program. âI'm working on one that will work for them.â
âWorking on one that works for themâŠâ Idia looked to the side. He couldn't imagine a world without video games⊠and he doesn't have much to do⊠and he supposed the Prefect is okayâŠ
âSend the file to me. I'll get to printing it.â
#twst Ă reader#twisted wonderland x reader#disabled yuu#leona kingsholar x reader#riddle rosehearts x reader#azul ashengrotto x reader#vil schoenheit x reader#idia shroud x reader#kalim al asim x reader#brixuen2008
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My gorgeous soulmate. The love of my life. I canât stop thinking about Reader waiting for a ride and accidentally overhearing Eddie talking to the Hellfire guys about some beautiful girl and how heâs afraid to ask her out. Reader assumes itâs someone else and leaves because sheâs upset and doesnât want him to see her. Bonus points for wingman Dusty Bun, but not necessary. Okay love you byeeeeee xoxoxo @munson-blurbs đ
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Band practice ran late, but that didnât matter one bit. Your older brother was always running behind to pick you up, leaving you the lone person sitting outside the school, waiting. Usually, you had a book with you, but youâd finished your last one and hadnât gotten a chance to check a new one out of the library today. Honestly, the fierce autumn wind may have prevented you from reading anyway; the pages would be obeying Mother Nature, not you. The wind whistles and whips so viciously that you slide off of the brick wall youâre sitting on top of and seat yourself on the cold sidewalk, pressing as close to the wall as you can to avoid the harsh blowing.
Luckily, the gust eases up and you only end up having four leaves stuck to your clothing. As youâre picking them from your gray sweater, you hear the telltale squeak of the main doors of the school opening. Your brow creases in confusion because you didnât realize anyone else was here this late. The dark evening has your mind floating back to the dozens of slasher movies youâve seen that started with this very scenario. Taking care to be as quiet as possible, you tuck your legs up against your body as you hug your backpack to your chest.
âDamn Eddie, Iâve never heard you talk this way before.â
The voice is vaguely familiar. Nancyâs brother maybe? Right! Heâs in Hellfire with Eddie Munson, who must be the Eddie heâs speaking to. An involuntary smile curls on your lips at the boy youâre head over heels for being just a few feet away. The closer they get, the easier it is for you to hear the thunk of the metalheadâs boots coming down the sidewalk.Â
âUgh, I know,â Eddie says, a hint of a whine in his happy-go-lucky voice. âBut sheâs so fuckinâ beautiful.â
The butterflies in your stomach sour, churning at hearing Eddie talk this way about some girl. Heâs not doing anything wrong, and logically you know that. He doesnât owe you anything. But irritation bubbles up in you as a defense from the heartbreak youâre desperately trying to run away from. Your fingers dig into your backpack as you squeeze your eyes closed to prevent the tears from leaking out.
âAsk her out!â That voice was Jeffâsâfrom your history class.
Eddie scoffs and you can just picture him shaking his head, his frizzy curls swaying back and forth. The thought of Eddie asking a girl out forces the hot tears to leak down your face, despite how tightly youâve been keeping them closed.Â
âLike she would want to go out with me,â he says.Â
Now your heart also breaks for Eddie. Who could be so stupid as to not want to go out with him?
âAww, I think youâre scared,â another voice goads. Probably the curly-haired boy thatâs friends with the Wheeler boy.Â
âIâm not scared,â Eddie says. âIâm justâŠafraid.â
âThatâs the same thing!â Wheeler says before you hear a thump and the boy mutters an, âOw!â
âShut it, Wheeler. I donât want to hear shit from you or Henderson on girls. Both of your girls live far away. Huh, kind of convenient, isnât it?â Eddie asks. âTheyâre probably as real as the damn hair on top of Higginâs head.â
âHey!â Wheeler shouts.
âThatâs bullshit!â the boy who must be Henderson shouts at the same time.
âYou guys are letting him change the subject,â Jeff says. âWhen are you going to ask her out?â
Instead of giving an answer, you can hear Eddie grumbling under his breath the closer they get to you. It wonât be long now before theyâll walk past the wall and see you sitting on the ground. Waiting for a ride is easy enough to explain, but the tear tracks running down your face are a different matter.Â
Before the group of guys can get any closer, you carefully push yourself onto your knees. Balancing yourself against the wall with one hand, you seek out somewhere you can hide. The corner of the wall is pretty far away, youâd never be able to crawl there fast enough. If you stand up though, you could walk that distance. Realizing crouching down so far is going to kill your back, you push up to your feet and keep your torso and head low as you speedwalk to the corner of the wall.Â
Luckily, itâs just a grassy lawn on the other side of the wall, so you throw yourself down on it and catch your breath. Unluckily, you hear the piercing whine of your brotherâs car pulling up towards Hawkins High. Fuck. Of course he comes now.Â
You peek out from your safe space around the wall and see that Eddie and the rest of the Hellfire gang are climbing into Eddieâs van. A rush of breath leaves your lungs and youâre sure your adrenaline is about to come crashing down.
Your brother pulls up to the curb and you push yourself off of the grass and quickly slide into the passengerâs seat.Â
âUh, you okay?â your brother asks, raising an eyebrow.
âFine,â you huff. âJust go.â
Like the piece of gum youâd stepped in last week, the sharp pains in your heart stay with you much longer than youâd like. The next day, right before last period, youâre at your locker, switching out your books and hoping your eyes donât look as puffy as they feel.
âUh, hey.â
The voice makes you jump and drop your biology book. You donât have to turn around to know who it is; youâd know that voice anywhere. Itâs just never been so close to your ear before.
âOh shit, Iâm sorry,â Eddie says as he bends down to pick up your book. âI didnât mean to scare you.â
âNo, itâs okay,â you manage to say as you turn around to face him. âThank you,â you say as he gives you your science book back.Â
Eddie clears his throat and glances over his shoulder before looking back at youâor rather, your shoes. Curious, you follow the line of sight where Eddie had just looked, and you see the curly-haired boy from Hellfire peeking around the corner. Henderson. As soon as he notices you looking, he pops back out of sight.Â
âI, uh,â Eddie says as he finds the courage to meet your eye. âHey.â
âYou said that,â you say with a shy smile. âBut then I freaked out, soâŠhi.â
The smile Eddie gives you isnât his biggest by far, but it still makes your knees go wobbly.Â
âYouâre in band, right?â Eddie asks, reaching up and scratching the back of his neck.Â
âI am.â
âYeah. So, I was wondering if maybe after the game this Friday you might want to grab a bite to eat? With, um, me?â
The world freezes around you, time completely stopping. Your body is locked in place as you stare at Eddie with wide eyes. He just asked me out, you think. Why would he ask me out? He thinks that other girl is beautiâholy shit. Iâm the beautiful girl he was talking about? This defies all that you thought you knew in the world. Is this a parallel universe where guys actually like you back? You realize youâve just been staring at him since you spoke.
âYeah. T-That sounds nice,â you say.
âReally?â Eddieâs eyes light up and your heart comes to a halt inside your chest.
âYes,â you say with a small chuckle.
âWow. Awesome. Okay, wow.â His disbelief shocks you. How in the hell was he afraid to ask you out? Youâre justâŠyou. He gives you a wider grin now before tugging up the sleeve of his leather jacket. âDo you have a pen?â
âHmm? Oh, yeah!â You grab a pen from your locker and write down your number on Eddieâs pale skin, right below a colony of inked bats.Â
âGreat,â Eddie says as he pulls his sleeve back down. âUm, Iâll wait in the gym after the game?â
âSure. Itâll only take me a few minutes to change and get everything put away.â
âAwesome,â Eddie says again, and seeing him acting this nervous just tickles you pink. Youâre not sure youâve ever heard him say âawesomeâ before and now heâs said it twice within the last minute. âI guess Iâll see you in English tomorrow.â
âSounds good. Oh, Eddie, wait. Youâre going to go to the game?â You raise your eyebrows in disbelief. âI thought you hated basketball.â
âOh. Well, I do,â he says with a chuckle. âEasier to take you out after the game if Iâm there, though. And, uh, you know, Sinclairâs been bugging me to come see him play.â
âRight,â you say.Â
Eddieâs cheeks turn a light red as he gives you a bashful smile.Â
âSee you later, beautiful,â he says. He doesnât give you time to even react to his words before heâs heading down the hall.Â
âHoly shit,â you whisper to yourself. âI make Eddie nervous?â
A jovial giggle slips past your lips as you close your locker. You feel like you owe the Hellfire guys a thank you.Â
#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie munson x y/n#eddie munson imagine#eddie munson fan fiction#eddie munson fanfic#eddie munson fic#request
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FEMALE BG3 CHARACTERS EATING OUT F!READER +18
characters included: karlach, shadowheart, laeâzel, minthara
MALE BG3 CHARACTERS
SHADOWHEART
okay i LOVE the idea of overeager inexperienced shadowheart like itâs SO hotâŠâŠ
sheâs a little aggressive and all over the place but she DOES NOT CARE đčđč
she also gives me selfish vibes, so if sheâs eating you out sheâs doing it solely for her OWN enjoyment LMAO
loves to tell you to hold still or to be quiet, that way when you slip up she can degrade you
âshut up, you sound like a whoreâ or âsquirming already? how patheticâ she is MEAN
will also knead your tits the whole time. not softly eitherâ it will make you gasp and thatâs exactly why she does it đčđč
prefers to have your hands bound above your head so you canât touch her. she likes seeing how frustrated you get when you canât pull on her hair/move closer when she teases
will spit on it. and she will hold eye contact with you while you watch as it drips from her mouth onto your pussy
gets SO wet from eating you out
she will reach between her legs every once in a while to touch herself because she gets so worked up
sometimes sheâll get too distracted in her own pleasure and just start whimpering/panting into your pussy
if she doesnât already finish before you then sheâll IMMEDIATELY want you to return the favor
KARLACH
she aims to PLEASE
you WILL be having a life changing orgasm every time. no 3 second Oâs over here baby đčđč
she can tell when youâre close and adjusts her pace to make you hold off for just a littleee longer (a lot longer)
wishes she could live in between your legs. obsessed with the way you smell and taste so much
likes when you start telling her what to doâ she is more than happy to do what you want because of how badly she wants to watch you come apart
grab her by the horns and move her where you want and sheâll moan
will dig her nails (claws?) into your thighs occasionally, not because she wants to hurt you but because she gets so into it
if she leaves marks sheâll make sure to kiss them better đ
the more of a reaction you give her the more her tail thrashes around excitedly. it has a mind of its own honestly đčđč
speaks almost exclusively in praise and reassurance. âyouâre being so patient for meâ, âdonât worryâ mamaâs gonna take good care of youâ
LOVES having your thighs over her shoulders and against her head/ears. also likes that she can feel every involuntary twitch and tremor of your legs on her back
lowkey likes when she can still smell you on her top lip afterwards LMAO đčđč
MINTHARA
you would think sheâd be aggressive and mean but i think sheâs lowkey pretty sensual? still very stern though. very much giving mommy dom vibes
EXPERIENCED. she knows what sheâs doing and you can tell
will make you BEG !!!!!!
teases you with her tongue until you are whimpering and crying for her. needs to see you fully submit before she gives you what you want
you need to be aware of how lucky you are that she wants to do this. she doesnât give head to just anyone
will always encourage you to be loud. if she notices that youâre suppressing your voice sheâll pull awayâ she needs to be able to hear you otherwise she feels like itâs not worth it đčđč
can be really sweet in subtle ways. will kiss your pussy/inner thighs occasionally or absentmindedly run her thumb over your skin
also if you reach out to hold her hand sheâll give it to you without hesitation
her tone when she talks to you is almost condescending. she thinks itâs kind of pathetic how badly you need her. but she loves it
âyour eagerness to give in to me is pitifulâ, âyouâre a greedy little thingâ
sometimes sheâll hum/groan into your pussy with her low, raspy voice and itâs so đ©
will kiss you while/after you come so you taste yourself. with LOTS of tongue
LAEâZEL
yâall are not going to want to hear this but i get pillow princess vibes from laeâzel LMFAO
i think she defaults to the receiving end so her eating you out is something you have to initiate. she WILL do it though
she has the most perfect, pouty lips for eating pussy. theyâre so soft and plump đ„”
LOVES when u pull her hair. she tries to hold back her moans but if you do it enough sheâll eventually give up lol
a glutton for praiseâ she needs the reassurance that sheâs doing a good job. she canât stand the thought of not being perfect at something đčđč
will want you to hold your thighs up towards your stomach so youâre as spread open as possible lol. that way she can tease your hole easier. also she just thinks itâs hot
loves the way your thighs look in that position. will run her hands over them a lot. usually pretty roughly
likes to use her fingers while she eats you out too. just overall really handsy
REALLY possessive over your body, but especially your pussy. she seriously worships it
doesnât really talk a lot, mostly just groaning/growly type noises. will occasionally say something like âyouâre mineâ or âyou belong to meâ
gets sooo excited when she can tell youâre about to cum lmao she watches you SO intently with her big doe eyes. she has no idea how cute she looks (donât tell her or sheâll get flustered đčđč)
smugly waits for you to tell her how amazing it was afterwards
#shania twain voice LETS GO GIRLS#bg3#baldurs gate 3#shadowheart#karlach#laeâzel#minthara#shadowheart x reader#karlach x reader#laeâzel x reader#minthara x reader#x reader#my headcanons
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Reverie (18+)
⥠Pairing: Prince!Hyujin x Lord's Daughter!Reader
⥠Genre: royal au, historical au, love at first sight, fairy tale elements, angst, fluff, eventual smut
⥠Word Count: 18.9k
⥠Summary: Staring out from your window everyday where you live confined, Hyunjin sees you- melancholic, lonely, beautiful; love at first sight. He wants to know you, to take you away from where you remain, doomed to be solitary. Spending your every moment daydreaming about the perfect life, meeting Hyunjin sparks a hope that you'd long since given up on- that your reverie can become your reality.
⥠Warnings: reader has an evil step-mother and step-sisters, involuntary confinement, themes of loneliness, isolation, and emotional + verbal abuse, reader is very touch starved and has low self-esteem from her mistreatment, past + referenced parental death (none are described) as well as having a parent who is sick, outdated marriage traditions, chan is featured and goes by chris, incredibly unrealistic because of the fairy tale romance inspo lol but it's a fun read, i hope!
⥠Smut Warnings (contains spoilers): virgin reader + virgin hyunjin, petnames (darling), loss of virginity, nipple play, oral (f + m rec), unprotected piv, creampie
⥠Notes: hey yall sorry its been a over month since my last post :') i was going thru a lot in my personal life that made it hard to write, as well as i HATED my first draft of this fic so i decided to entirely rewrite it gfsdhsdg but it's finally here after a lot of grief !! I honestly still don't like it all that much but I didn't want it to sit in my drafts any longer or rewrite for a third time so :') anyways i took a inspo for this one from rapunzel and cinderella, as well as a bit from sweeney todd (if youâve seen the movie pls tell me you see the vision of hyunjin as jamie campbell bowerâs characterâŠ) + a smidge of romeo and juliet.
⥠Disclaimer: please read responsibly, and remember that this work is fiction and meant strictly for imaginative fun. the idols used in fics are more accurately faceclaims and personality outlines for imaginary characters, and should not be interpreted as factual representations of existing people.
Sighing as he watches the scenery slowly pass him by through the carriage window, a deep frown adorns Hyunjin's face. He's no stranger to traveling, and normally he quite enjoys the break from the typical royal monotony, but this time around he can't bring himself to enjoy the sights that pass him by. The abundant flower fields, the surrounding lush forest on the edges, the perfectly blue sky.. none of them prevent the melancholy from setting in; because waiting for him at today's destination, in a manor just a fair few miles outside the castle city's walls, is yet another girl hoping to be his bride.
He's tired, to put it plainly; tired of meeting girl after girl who cares not for who he is as a person, but what his lineage offers them- and he expects today to go no differently. Why would he after the countless disappointments he's faced, after the myriad of times he's expected a night to end badly, and been proved right? And perhaps it is unfair of him to judge how the afternoon will go well before he's even met her, but his expectations have long since been set.
Hyunjin's royal attendant, who accompanies him to all his meetings and currently sits beside him within the carriage, does his best not to show how the prince's constant sighing grates on his nerves. Royal attendants should always be calm and patient in the face of frustration, and that is what Christopher strives to be; so he speaks to the prince as kindly as his dwindling patience will allow him. "Must you look so miserable? I imagine the girls won't take kindly to the prince looking at them with such disdain."
"Girls? Plural?" Hyunjin asks, groaning audibly when his attendant nods. Great. As if a blind setup with just one girl wasn't enough.. Still, he doesn't need to be reminded to mind his manners. He'll hold himself to the utmost royal standard when the time comes, as he always does- and he tells Chris as such. "I certainly hope so," Christopher responds with practiced ease, "There aren't many demoiselles left to meet, and your father will be disappointed if we return with more outright denials."
"I'm aware," Hyunjin replies simply, frustration still clear in his voice, though he tries his best to temper it. He knows his attendant is not wrong, and is simply trying to look out for him while also keeping Hyunjin's royal duty in mind. It's imperative that Hyunjin marry before his father's illness progresses to the point that he must concede the throne, and it's Christopher's job to ensure that Hyunjin doesn't forget that.
But still.. despite the circumstances begging for urgency, this is not a matter that Hyunjin is willing to bend on. He values true love, romance, genuine connection above all else; and so when he marries, he'll do it for real love, and real love only- even if it means the throne passes him by and goes instead to his uncle. Hyunjin doesn't understand, nor does he care, why the law requires him to marry to take the throne. He imagines it's related to ensuring that the noble line continues- something he ultimately pays no mind to and refuses to take seriously, though he knows he should.
Hyunjin is considered by most of the royal family to be stubborn by nature, a trait his father has told him countless times he gets from his late mother, but Hyunjin himself likes to believe he is reasonable. While he's not entirely malleable, he does act with the country's best interest in heart, and he swallows down all frustration and gracefully does whatever he feels he must in favor of doing what is best for the citizens.
It just so happens that marriage is the one thing on which he will not compromise; and stubborn or not, Hyunjin thinks he should be allowed this one thing. All he wants is genuine love with someone who places the same amount of value in that love as he does, and he never expected that such a wish would be too much to ask for. But either way, all he can do for now is straighten his posture, put on his best smile, and hope that against his expectations, today will bring him the love heâs been searching for.
Similarly, you too stare from your window; though not from a horse-drawn carriage, but from where your bedroom lies on the second floor of your late father's manor. According to your step-mother, a very important suitor is coming to meet your step-sisters today, and she has taken every necessary precaution in ensuring you would be out of the way for the evening. You were used to such treatment by now, and being locked away in your room and ignored for hours on end was no longer something that brought you the intense grief it once had.
Sad to say, it'd become a simple fact of life since your father passed; you were used to the loneliness and the sadness and the grief of having a family that did not love you as you loved them. Truly, you loved your step-mother and sisters, and back then you never would've guessed they secretly abhorred your existence. But your father passed, and with his passing came the truth- that she never loved your father, or you- just what he had; and she was raising her daughters to be just the same.
Against his wife's knowledge or wishes however, your father's will had stipulations she must follow if she wanted to inherit his estate- the most important of which being that she care for you, his precious, only biological daughter, as one of her own until the day you are wed and depart from the manor to be with your new family. Thanks to this clause, your step-mother provides for you; and though it is only the bare minimum amount necessary, it could certainly be worse. You still have your childhood bedroom, all your precious belongings, 3 hot meals a day, and the maids who helped your father raise you still checking in on you.
The maids are forbidden from interacting with you more than is necessary, as your step-mother makes it her mission to make you as miserable as possible within the limitations your father's will provides, but they do what they can. The small talk they provide while filling your bath with hot water, and the snuck in messages written on scraps of paper hidden beneath your dinner tray are often the highlights of your day. You are lonely, but not alone, and that keeps you going on the particularly hard days.
Days like today, where the padlock your step-mother installed outside your bedroom door is ordered to remain locked no matter what, ensuring that you are unable to leave and ruin her evening, or her plans. She intends to find her daughters wealthy, prestigious husbands- men that cannot be given the chance to look upon you, lest they decide they like you more than her biological daughters.
You wouldn't misbehave regardless of whether or not the lock was in place. You're so used to being locked away in your room that even were the lock to no longer exist, you don't think you'd even notice; because you wouldn't ever try to leave in the first place. And compounding on that, you don't think yourself particularly special or beautiful enough to "threaten" your sister's marriage prospects; all you'd do is needlessly subject yourself to reminders that you're lesser than when they inevitably gloss over you.
You simply.. exist. But in your step-mother's eyes, that's your greatest sin. She hates you, and your existence alone causes her great grief. The simple fact that you exist prevented her from truly obtaining what she wanted most; your father's wealth hinged on you being taken care of to obtain. And thus, she couldn't just throw you out and leave you to your fate as she originally intended; so she begrudgingly provides for you, the depth of her loathing coming out in passive-aggressive words, meals resentfully delivered, and a locked bedroom door where she can leave you for a time and pretend her greatest wish is true- that you don't exist.
Staring out your window is how you've come to spend most of your days. Daydreaming, listening to birds sing, watching deer graze and rabbits sprint across the fields and between the trees. You reread your books to the point you could recite them with ease, you fantasize about love and companionship and freedom, and you wonder if there will ever come a day where such joy can be yours. You suspect not; when you do marry, it'll likely be to some terrible man your step-mother chooses on the basis that they continue your misery.
But in the sanctity of your bedroom, inside your imagination and idle daydreams, you can pretend that true love and happiness waits for you. Where you are valued and cherished and adored, where you are wanted and craved, where a life without you in it cannot even be imagined, for it would be too painful for your lover to even consider.
Lost in thought as you are, you almost miss it when the carriage your step-mother and sisters are expecting comes into sight. And normally you would pull yourself away from the window, make sure you're out of sight from whomever exits the carriage, lest whoever your step-mother is having over recognize you. But this carriage is so different from the ones that typically arrive at the manor that it makes you curious.
It's fancy- easily the most extravagant and ornate carriage you've ever seen; not that you've seen many, but the point stands. It's clear that whomever your family is meeting today is no ordinary suitor. Thereâs a crest beholden on the door, one that seems vaguely familiar, and you wish you could place it as it would assuredly be a hint to who is arriving, but the memory of what family it comes from eludes you.
Itâs been so long since youâve been out to the city, or communicated with families your father was close with, that it's hard to recall the family crests you once so easily recognized. But whatever family it belongs to, one thing is clear- they are surely wealthy and prestigious to afford a carriage this grand. No wonder your step-mother wants you out of the way today; if a wealthy suitor somehow chooses you over her real daughters, that would be her worst nightmare.Â
You watch with bated breath as a man steps out from the left side of the carriage, a man you can tell from dress alone is some sort of attendant. He works his way around to the right of the carriage to open the door for whoever remains inside- the wealthy suitor being an obvious guess. And really, you should look away and mind your own business lest you risk angering your step-mother, but you can't help yourself. This is the closest thing to fresh entertainment youâve had (and are going to have), and so you canât bring yourself to tear your eyes away.
And oh, the man who steps out when the door is opened for him is breathtaking. Even at a distance, heâs positively ethereal- easily the most beautiful man youâve ever seen. And you are certain that, even with your lack of worldly experience, he is utterly without comparison. Heâs pretty, impossibly pretty, with long black hair, half of which is tied back by a ribbon, rings adorning his fingers, ornate yet dainty bracelets that seem to perfectly match the necklaces he wears, and beautiful, pure white and dangly earrings that remind you of a teardrop in shape, all of which match his equally embellished doublet.
He looks so very grand, elegant, to the point that you feel absolutely unworthy to even be looking at someone so strikingly gorgeous and well dressed. God, if he chooses one of your step-sisters to marry, someone so clearly wealthy and beautiful and important.. you just know your step-mother will lord it over you as her greatest proof that they are better than you.
The bitter, hurt part of you half wished the man your sisters were meeting today would be boorish and unimpressive, but of course thatâs not the case.. And it saddens you, strangely. You like to think yourself above pettiness, and youâd rather experience the world through a lens of kindness despite what youâve suffered, but seeing someone so utterly perfect going to meet your sisters, and knowing how they will mock you and laugh in your face should he fall for one of them..
Maybe, somewhere deep down, youâre jealous. Jealous, and angry, and hurt, as youâve always been, but tried not to acknowledge. And itâs not the perceived wealth youâre jealous of, or the possibility of a beautiful husband, but the chance for connection they have that you donât. That they can meet someone like him and be given the chance to fall in love, while you are forced into isolation and monotony. It isnât fair, and it never has been, but today of all days is where you feel that injustice most strongly.
You choke on the melancholy, your eyes well with tears that you try to blink away as your hands ball into fists in your lap. You shouldnât have watched the window today or let your curiosity and boredom get the best of you- all youâve done is make yourself impossibly sad. You begin to stand from your seat by the window, ready yourself to close the curtains and wallow in your bed for the rest of the evening, when suddenly, you freeze. Your hand unmoving on the curtain, eyes widening with the realization that your sisterâs suitor is looking at you. And it's not as simple as a passing glance- no, he is staring at you.
Hyunjinâs eyes widened when he first saw you in the window, at first just passively looking over the manor and taking in the sight as he readied himself to enter, before his eyes fell upon you. And upon seeing you, he became completely and utterly enraptured by your beauty, in a way heâs never experienced with anyone heâs ever met before.
He canât help but stare, canât manage to tear his eyes away from your visage even when Chris calls his name. And when you stand to close the curtains, and your eyes travel to him and meet his gaze, his breath catches in his throat, his heart skips a beat before it races, and his face flushes to an impossibly bright pink.
How and why does he have this feeling? How is that you enchant him with just a glance, when others have failed to with much more? Youâve not yet truly met, nor spoken a single word, and yet he feels it firmly- a desire hereto unmatched, that does not follow preconceived notions of what is logical, the kind you would only read about in the great romantic works of playwrights and novelists. A feeling he never expected to be based in truth, but here he is now, feeling it for himself- love at first sight.
And if love at first sight is real and it is true, then he cannot wait to meet you. To learn your name and hear your voice and speak with you until your throats run dry. Heâll devote himself to learning everything about you, to carving your every word and thought into his memory. He wants to learn what it is about your soft, melancholic expression that he finds so entrancing, to discover what it is that causes his heart to stir in ways entirely foreign to him.
âYour Majesty, Your Highness, Prince Hyunjin, Hyunjin-â Christopher tries every way possible to get the princeâs attention, letting out an exasperated sigh when Hyunjin finally turns back to him. He doesnât even know what caught his attention- when he tried to follow the princeâs gaze, all he was met with was a window with its curtains pulled shut. âMy apologies. I just-â Hyunjin starts, taking one last glance at the now empty window before turning back to his attendant. âNevermind. Letâs just go inside.â
Chris quietly huffs his agreement, quickly offering the manorâs maids who were waiting on them his apologies in Hyunjins stead, as he is used to. Heâs accustomed to not understanding what goes on inside the princeâs head, but at least he seems prepared now.. Almost happy, Chris would think if he didnât know better. Regardless of its origin and whether or not he understands where it came from, he will welcome it- because it really is vital that Hyunjin choose a bride with haste.
The start of the evening goes as predictably as anticipated from that point on- the maids lead them to the great room, offering tea and freshly baked sweets while they wait. Hyunjin politely turns them down while Chris stands a comfortable distance away, there simply to keep an eye on the prince and observe how the arranged meeting proceeds. The lady of the manor enters the room after some time passes, bowing politely and apologizing for the delay before ushering her daughters into the room.
Theyâre dressed extravagantly, as expected, with expensive jewelry, perfectly laid hair, and tasteful makeup. They introduce themselves politely, though they erupt into quiet giggles afterwards, likely excited that one of them will potentially be chosen to marry the prince. Their mother shoots them a look, and it makes them clear their throats and cease their elated giggling, returning to proper posture with their hands folded in front of them, both smiling at him sweetly. But somethingâs wrong..
Hyunjin looks between the girls, their mother, and back to the girls, head tilting and brows furrowing in confusion; he doesnât see the one from the window anywhere.. Shouldnât she be here? âIsnât there another?â he asks, and the dameâs eyes widen for a moment, a complex flash of emotions that Hyunjin doesnât have enough time to fully decipher within them, before she reverts back to her previous calm, inviting demeanor.Â
âI believe I wrote in my proposal to the royal family that I have two, and only two, daughters. Perhaps there was a miscommunication between you and your men?â She suggests, and though itâs spoken kindly, Hyunjin gets the distinct impression that she wants to shut down any talk of a third daughter here and now. Christopher too is confused, but he apologizes to the dame, insisting the mistake is his fault, though it certainly isnât.
The dame accepts the apology and swiftly moves on, though the tension still lingers. Even as she begins to talk at great length about how wonderful her daughters are and how lucky everyone involved would be should Hyunjin choose one of them to be his princess, thereâs an edge beneath the kindly spoken words that hint towards how bothered his mistake made her. Her daughters too seem tense when he first questions if there is another, though by the time they are allowed to speak themselves all tension in them seems to melt away, instead focusing on singing their own praises and expressing their desire to see the royal castle.
Itâs so jarring, tense, awkward, that it completely prevents Hyunjin from being able to focus on a single word the girls say. Ordinarily, he would not bat an eye at someone correcting a mistake in his speech or for having come to an incorrect conclusion, as it is imperative that a prince goes about his dealings with as correct as information as possible. But that being said, the dameâs reaction rubs him the wrong way, especially when paired with the nervous flash in her daughterâs eyes as their bodies tensed..
If he was simply mistaken, it would be natural and correct for her to clear up any misgivings he has about her family and estate kindly- thereâd be no reason to address him with such underlying hostility or be on the defensive, as if heâd brought up a point that needs to be fiercely fought against. The emotion that flickered in their eyes, the terse words filled with faux-niceties, the shift in body language.. They suggest to Hyunjin only one thing- that a third daughter is in fact here; and for some strange reason, the lady of the house doesnât want him to meet her.
But why would that be? The ideas that cross his mind make him woefully unable to focus on anything spoken to him. Maybe youâre already promised to someone else, maybe youâve been married before and are now widowed, living in your old family home while stricken with grief.. Maybe youâre a cousin simply having a visit that by pure chance coincides with the prince arriving too, or maybe he imagined you somehow. But could that really be? You were so real, that doesnât seem possible..
âBut what do you think? .. Prince Hyunjin..?â One of the girls asks, and when he doesnât reply, Chris clears his throat and steps forward to subtly nudge the prince, breaking him from his thoughts. âAllow me to apologize. The prince is.. tired these days. Heâs got a lot on his plate, as Iâm sure you understand,â Chris says, shooting Hyunjin a look that begs him to take the lead and finish cleaning the mess heâs made.
âYes, Iâm sorry. Uhm- perhaps you could allow me a small break? And then I promise youâll both have my undivided attention,â Hyunjin suggests, being sure to offer them his most charismatic smile in the hopes theyâll look past how inattentive heâs been thus far. They agree easily, giggling and lightly blushing, assuring him a break is good for everyone (which he knows isnât true, but itâs polite of them, at least.)
This time, he accepts the tea when itâs offered to him, chugging it down in a display that goes completely against the manners that have been drilled into him. He asks to be led to the nearest restroom, splashes water on his face and wills himself to focus on the task at hand. And though it comes with great difficulty, he forces himself to pay strict attention to every word spoken to him from that point onward, though your image continues to exist in the back of his mind the entire time.
Hyunjin steps out of the manor with a sigh, finding himself entirely drained after his meeting with the two sisters and their incredibly duplicitous mother. Originally, heâd planned to leave before nightfall, but they somehow managed to rope him into having dinner with them, and to say it was exhausting would be an understatement. Now he stands in the light of the moon, deep frown returning as he waits for preparations to leave to be made- because he absolutely refuses to stay here until morning.
As expected, once he broke himself out of his fog and started paying attention to what they were saying, they were incredibly vain and equally daft, and the more he spoke to them, the clearer it became that they werenât fit to someday sit on a throne. It was extremely obvious that they were vying for increased fortune and pride- and at the behest of their mother specifically. To old herself to marry into the royal family, it seemed she was content to allow her daughters to do the social climbing on her behalf.
Not that her daughterâs are completely ignorant of this plot- heâs sure theyâre well aware of the benefits if one of them becomes a princess, and are well instructed and prepped on how best to appeal themselves to a nobleâs proclivities. Unfortunately for them, Hyunjin is unlike most nobles, and he takes the task of one day rearing his country very seriously- much too seriously to marry someone selfish, and without grace or tact, nor whom he fails to have a genuine connection with. Beauty alone wonât be enough to win him over.
Saying that however.. He canât seem to stop thinking about the strikingly gorgeous girl he saw from the window. He feels himself a hypocrite, saying it takes more than good looks to win his heart, and yet still finding himself hung up on the mysterious beauty in the window. He looks up to that window, and sees nothing- the curtains are drawn, the room pitch dark, and thereâs a part of him that considers the dameâs words true. There is no third girl, and what he saw was perhaps a phantom, a trick of the light, a mysterious cousin, or..
Well, he doesnât know what, but he canât allow himself to continue to linger on a girl that may not even be real, or obtainable if she does exist. "What's going on with you tonight? You never have a good time at these things, but you've been more off than is.. typical of you," Chris suddenly speaks up after Hyunjin sighs once more, and the prince frowns as he looks to his attendant.
A lot weighs on his mind; more than he feels he can even begin to explain. The way Hyunjin's thoughts swim in his head like a whirlpool- can he even begin to express himself in a way that is coherent and understandable to his most trusted attendant? Regardless, he has to start somewhere, and so he tries. âIâm afraid that Iâll never find what Iâm looking for. Those girls were.. vapid to say the least. Iâve no interest in marrying a social climber, but.. I am beginning to think that perhaps I have no choice.âÂ
Chris' expression softens as he offers Hyunjin a gentle, reassuring pat on the shoulder. There is little he can do to make the prince feel better about his circumstance, he knows; he often has to remind Hyunjin to keep his royal duty in mind, and though it doesn't always show, he does feel bad that the prince is forced into such a situation.
It can't be easy bearing such a burden, and Chris certainly doesn't envy the struggle to find a bride under such constraints, or the responsibilities that will come to Hyunjin once he is wed. âWell, donât fret too hard about that just yet. We still have a few more interested parties weâve yet to meet. And maybe the universe wants to show you the wrong first, so that when you meet who is right.. youâll know,â Chris says earnestly, trying his best to show the prince support.
"Mm, maybe," Hyunjin mumbles, desperately hoping his attendant is right. He hoped you would be that right person, but if fate deems it right to show him heartache and to put him through trials before happiness can come to him then he will just have to accept that. Chris frowns, but knows there is not much else he can offer to ease the prince's worries; so he instead turns his attention to the carriage to check on the progress for departure.
 âLooks like weâre ready to depart,â Chris says after the coachman finishes adorning the carriage with lanterns suitable for the night ride back to the castle, "Maybe you'll feel better after some rest. And if you'd like, we can talk some more about this tomorrow." Hyunjin simply nods, following his attendant to the carriage with an immense weight still on his shoulders.
Despite what he logically knows, he can't shake his sadness over the fact that his burden wasn't lifted this evening, the irrational sorrow that comes from his hopes being dashed- that the beautiful girl he saw in the window could not be met.. But he tries to think that maybe itâs for the best that there wasnât a third daughter for him to meet after all. Given the influence of their mother, sheâd likely have been just as bad as her sisters, and that wouldâve surely broken his heart beyond the ache he feels now.Â
Chris approaches the left-side door first, opening it swiftly and then standing to the side, motioning for Hyunjin to enter first, as is customary. Hyunjin places a hand on the doorframe and a foot on the iron step, ready to step inside in the carriage, but takes one last glance at the manor before he does. And there, a glimmer of hope- the image of you, just barely there peeking through the curtains, the faint light of a candle flickering in your hand.
Though a considerable distance away, he can see your eyes widen when you realize he sees you yet again, gasping and quickly moving away from the window, the light of your candle disappearing with your image. âSheâs there!â Hyunjin exclaims, instantly separating himself from the carriage, and taking an unconscious step back towards the manor. âWhoâs there?â Chris questions as he follows Hyunjinâs gaze to the window, confused to, again, find absolutely no one and nothing of note.
"I.. don't know who exactly, but she was there, I saw her," Hyunjin continues, and while Chris is still utterly baffled, he does see that the curtains are slightly swaying despite the window being closed- meaning someone was there, and caused them to shift by either touching them, or walking past them. He looks back to Chris, sees the hesitant, puzzled expression, and tries to explain himself in the briefest, but most concise way possible.
âI saw her in the window when we first arrived too! I asked the dame about her, thinking she may have had another daughter, but you heard how she reacted- she brushed me off so coldly.â "Well.. maybe she was telling the truth? It's possible she's simply a maid," Chris suggests, but Hyunjin quickly shakes his head. "She isn't. I assure you, after seeing their maids I wouldn't confuse her for one.. She's entirely unlike any of them."
"Okay.. So she's not a maid. But there could still be a reasonable explanation for everything," Chris says, and oh no, he can instantly tell where Hyunjin's mind is going. "Exactly! So I'm going to meet her, and find out what that reason is," Hyunjin says, wasting no time in walking back up to the manor. âWhat? How exactly do you plan on doing that when the dame clearly didnât want you to meet her?â Chris quietly exclaims as he follows Hyunjin towards the direction of your window.
âThereâs a trellis near her window, and I intend to climb it,â Hyunjin smiles, as if itâs a perfectly reasonable plan and not at all insane for him to do. âGo back to the carriage, and instruct the coachman to drive it down the road and out of sight. I donât want the ladies of the house to know Iâm still here if they happen to look out from their windows,â Hyunjin instructs, and again, Chris is absolutely floored by the prince. âYour Highness, you- you canât be serious,â he quietly exclaims again, though he can tell Hyunjin is entirely serious about all of this.
"Just do this for me, please? I need to do this- for my peace of mind if nothing else," Hyunjin tells him, and though Chris still doesn't understand why the prince is so adamant about meeting you, he can see the sincerity and the drive in his eyes, and so he concedes. âFine, just.. try to be discreet and donât take too long, okay? And donât make her uncomfortable!â Chris warns and Hyunjin thanks his attendant warmly before turning his attention back to your window.
He approaches the manor carefully, tiptoeing up to the trellis that will act as his ladder to your window. He places a foot into one of the slots and carefully adds his weight, making sure itâll hold before he begins to climb it in earnest. Heâs never done anything like this, but he knows heâd regret it if he didnât at least try to meet the woman who so easily captured his heart with just a glance, while desperately, and maybe vainly, hoping he has a chance with you.
Hyunjin knocks softly on the window once he reaches it, doing his best to make it loud enough for you to hear, but not so loud that he would alarm anyone who may be nearby. Though your room is dark, the moon offers just enough illumination through the curtains that he can make you out. And while unlit, you are still holding the candle in one hand, while the other is nervously placed over your heart.
You can't believe this happening- the devastatingly handsome man meant to be wooed by one of your sisters saw you again, and is now at your window? Your heart is racing out of control, you don't know what to do or what to think seeing him there, waiting for you to approach the window, approach him.
You didn't even expect to see him again when you stepped to your window and peeked out; you simply saw lantern light from your window whilst preparing for bed, and it piqued your interest. You wanted to know what was going on, of course you did, so you looked, fully expecting the answer to be guards doing an uncharacteristically late sweep of the grounds, or maids sneaking out to meet the secret lovers you knew them to have.
But what you saw instead was the beautiful man from earlier in the process of stepping inside his grand carriage- and as if sensing you were watching, he turned to the manor, his eyes instantly falling on you. Just as you had this evening, you gasped and quickly shuffled away from the window, blowing out your candle as your heart pounded in your chest. Several seconds passed, and with trembling steps, you stepped back to the window and took one more cautious glance outside, only to see him approaching the manor, clearly intending to seek you out.
You gasped again, moving away from the window once more, mind reeling and pulse quickening. And now heâs here, having clearly climbed the trellis up to your window, hope in his eyes as he looks at you and waits. Swallowing, you carefully set the candle down on your nearby nightstand before you take cautious steps back towards the window, opening it ever so slightly. âMay I come in?â he asks quietly, likely recognizing that speaking at full volume would be unwise, âI wish to speak with you.â
His voice is as silky and pretty as you imagined, and it positively jolts you. Everything about him seems impossibly perfect- part of you thinks that you've must've already fallen asleep, that you're tucked in bed and having a vivid dream based on the events of the day. But no, you've never dreamed as vividly as this, and you'd certainly remember if you'd crawled into bed after checking the lantern light from the window.
And that leaves you with a dilemma; the man, as gorgeous as he is, is still a stranger- and certainly you can't just let a strange man enter your room through your window.. That goes against everything your father ever taught you about safety. So you hesitate, observing him carefully for a moment.
And maybe it's just the fact that he's beautiful, or your yearning for connection that makes you want to trust him, even if it makes no logical sense to do so. You can't help but think he looks genuine and sincere, and well.. you can't ignore how desperately you desire to talk to someone, anyone, for more than the brief amount you're allowed to with your maids. Still, even if you crave connection with someone, you should be careful who you speak to shouldn't you?
He notices the hesitancy, recognizes what kind of situation he's imposing on you, and so he speaks up again, "Or I can stay here and we just talk through the window? If that's okay with you." Hyunjin knows he's being unreasonable and getting way too ahead of himself in his desire to speak with you, and it's crucial that he does his utmost to show you that he has no intention of making you uncomfortable.
Really, you should turn him down; but logic has left you, and truth be told you don't entirely trust that he can stand at the top of the trellis and support his own weight for much longer. So, you open your window further, granting him permission to step inside in your bedroom. He crawls in through your window as quietly as he can manage, smiling at you when he's fully inside. His smile is timid, and a bit awkward- this is easily the most nervous heâs ever felt, and he knows heâs going about meeting you completely backwards, but what other choice did he have?Â
Your mother, aunt, or whoever she is to you- he doubts she wouldâve allowed him the chance to meet you. Her words and body language were much too passive aggressive to lead him to believe sheâd meet the request to speak with you kindly, nor does he think she'd take kindly to being insinuated a liar. Additionally, it was highly unlikely that sheâd willingly and truthfully divulge information about you or answer his questions. And so it led him to this- his fateful first meeting with the girl of his dreams happening within her moonlit bedroom.
He's completely out of his depth and unsure of himself or anything he's doing, but he holds out his palm, offering for you to place your hand in his. You blink, look up and down between his hand and his patient expression, and then you remember- oh, right, proper introductions. The setting is unorthodox, but it seems he still has it in mind to be polite and correct; as much as is possible, anyways.
You hesitate a moment, but ultimately place your hand in his, and he bows to you, lifting your hand to his mouth and placing a chaste kiss just above the knuckle. It's a simple, proper greeting, one that most people your age are entirely accustomed to, but it's been so long since you experienced it that it makes your skin erupt in goosebumps and heart thump erratically in your chest.
And there's the fact that he's jaw droppingly gorgeous- that certainly doesn't help.
You do your best to collect yourself when he straightens back up and looks at you once more. "I'm Hyunjin," he tells you in case you don't know, voice still as soft as it was at your window, a near whisper, "would you tell me your name, please?" This whole thing is entirely out of order and backwards, but you politely curtsey after offering him your name, though it feels silly to do so in your night chemise. And something about the way he looks at you makes your face burn hotter than it ever has.
All heâs heard is you speak your name, but he already considers your voice to be just as pretty as you are- he hopes heâll get to hear it far beyond this single night. "If I may, I want to ask.. Do you know who I am? Or why I came here today?" He asks, looking directly into your eyes as he awaits your answer. You swallow, the eye contact making your heart skip a beat and pulse climb, but you steady yourself the best you can to answer. "You're.. a suitor who came to meet my sisters. But I didn't know your name until you told me it."Â
Hyunjin's eyes flicker with unfamiliar emotion as he takes in your answer- he knew it! You're no ordinary girl, nor a housemaid with an unusually lavish room. And what strikes him, apart from the confirmation that you're related to the girls he met downstairs, is what you said about him. You didn't know his name, don't know who he is apart from a potential suitor to your sisters.
He still doesn't understand why you weren't allowed to meet him, but it gives him hope- that if you are unwed, your love can be genuine. You won't marry him for title or wealth or power, but for who he is as a person. In the 4 corners of your bedroom, his name holds no weight, and that's all he's ever wanted.
But he should ask now, before he gets too ahead of himself and breaks his own heart, or lets a leap in logic carry him far beyond where rationality can reach him- ask if you are already promised to another. "Are you betrothed?" Hyunjin asks, and you quickly shake your head, surprised by the way he smiles in a mix of joy and relief to know you are unwed. Is that.. a good thing?
You're not even sure why you shook your head so vehemently when he first asked, as if you wanted there to be no mistake. Why would it matter to him if you are going to be married to someone or not? But something about his smile tells you it matters to him very much, though it is impossible for you to fathom why that could be. "Why do you ask..?" you question hesitantly, unsure of what you even hope to hear in response.
"Since I first saw you in the window, I've wanted to know you," he tells you earnestly, and your heart once again skips a beat. You knew he saw you, and you knew that were he perceptive enough to tell you aren't a maid he'd likely have questions about you or lingering curiosity. But it still surprises you that he shows this much interest- that it's more to him than just a passing question he'd be content to forget about in a day's time.
âWhy didnât you ask my mother then?â you ask him, though you suspect you know the answer. Itâs not that heâs trying to solve a mystery or investigate why a seemingly innocuous girl is tucked away out of sight from visitors- and while youâre sure heâd welcome the answers to such questions, itâs more than that. For some strange reason, itâs just you- you as a person that he wants to know.
And you donât know what to do with that. Your existence is so often ignored and trivialized, you canât begin to understand why a glance of you in the window is enough to drive him to seek you out. You canât understand what it is about you that is worth this, worth the curiosity and the climb to your window. Why would anyone want to speak to you so badly? Youâre not special enough to warrant this.
âI did ask, and I didnât like the answer,â Hyunjin says, and you blink in surprise. You can easily imagine that your step-mother would dismiss your existence when asked about you, or say something along the lines of âshe doesnât matter,â or âdonât worry about her, sheâs nobody,â- so itâs not that that surprises you. What surprises you is that he heard an answer and not only didnât accept it, but said he didnât like it. Why?
Try as you might, you can't understand his motivations. Even if he could tell there was more that your step-mother wasn't telling him, why does he care so much about who you are? All visitors before Hyunjin who have stolen a glance at you either never asked about you, or have accepted her answers at face value, and it made sense that they did- because what reason did they have to push for the truth, or meet you regardless of her wishes?
âIâm interested in you, and I didnât believe what I was told. I want to know you,â he continues, reiterates his sentiment, and you feel utterly frozen. All you can manage to do is blink up at him, your breath and words caught in your throat. And you realize your hand still rests in his, and youâre sure he can feel the way it trembles- from confusion, from nerves, from the simple act of even being held by someone for the first time since you were a child. But he doesnât let go, and you donât take it away- because heâs interested in you, and you want to know what that means, want to cling to the possibility that you can have the companionship that has eluded you for years.
âBut.. why?â you finally ask, mind reeling from the possibilities. Regardless of what your step-mother may have told him, thereâs one thing that sheâs never wrong about- that youâre nobody, nothing, that your existence is a hindrance and youâre better off shoved aside where you canât impose on her. You used to challenge that thought, but youâve long since lost the will to fight against it, often finding yourself believing it to be true. And since youâre not special, or important, or particularly pretty, why is he so interested in you? You just donât get it.Â
"If you'll forgive me for being forward.. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on. And I know it's presumptuous of me, and perhaps shallow, to want to meet you so badly for that alone but.. I couldn't let the image of you go. I had to take the chance to find out who you are," Hyunjin spills his thoughts freely, making his desires and motivations clear.
And just as before, it leaves you completely stunned. What he's saying.. that can't be right. You? The most beautiful he's ever seen? That feels like something you should be saying to him- Hyunjin is easily the most radiant and ethereal person you've ever seen, but he's saying all this about you?
You're rendered speechless, face burning impossibly hot as the words repeat themself in your mind on a loop. "I've got to go," he continues, slowly letting go of your hand as he prepares to return to the window, "but I want- I hope youâll allow me to see you again." I hope you'll give me a chance to win your heart, he wants to add, but he's already been much more forward than he'd ever imagined himself to be, and he doesn't want to jeopardize anything that might be budding.
He steps back to the window and you follow, watching as he readies himself to climb back down the trellis he used to reach you. "We'll meet again?" he asks after settling his weight on the trellis, looking back at you with hopeful eyes. It feels foolish, and a bit naive to wish so hard that you'll desire to see him again; all he can do now is hope the impression he made is enough to allow you defy your sense of logic, just as you've done to him simply by looking his way.
You smile softly, the first smile you've shown him, the first you've done in God knows how long- and you nod as you promise him you will. You don't know how it will work or where it will lead, if anywhere, but you think you'd regret it if you didn't at least try. You miss companionship, you miss having someone to talk to, you miss smiling and the feeling of comfort and joy that comes from being close with someone who understands and knows you. You don't want to let this opportunity to have someone in your life slip you by.
Hyunjin's heart jumped when you smiled at him, and he returned the smile brightly as he said his goodbyes, heart still thumping and smile still plastered on his face as he descended the trellis. He looks back to the window, waving to you when he sees you watching from between the curtains, a giddy feeling building in his stomach when you wave back. Following the dirt road away from the manor, he meets back up with Chris at the carriage, happily relaying everything that happened to him on their way back to the castle.
You retired to your bed once Hyunjin was out of sight, but found it hard to sleep following your interactions. Curled up under the blankets, eyes closed and heavy, ready to sleep, but mind racing and replaying the night's events. There's a chance that this is a mistake, but you don't think you'll regret having taken the chance- because the hope and joy you feel now is the most delightful feeling you've experienced since you were a girl, and that feeling alone is worth whatever trouble it may bring your way.
It's hard to explain in words the emotions that come from having Hyunjin close to you. From having just a few short months ago gone from spending your nights restless from loneliness, to now lying awake in bed wondering if tonight will be one of the nights you hear his tap on your window. Going from hardly ever speaking a word, to now talking so much that your throat aches. To never feeling the warmth of another, to lingering touches and reluctant parting of held hands heating your skin.
You suppose what you can say is that it feels like the hole in your heart is being mended; a void wrenched open by loss and sadness slowly repaired with each clandestine meeting you share. It's bittersweet, sometimes; your melancholy was easier to ignore when you didn't have someone to share your thoughts and feelings with. Itâs strange, how gaining what you were missing makes the bad in your life hurt much worse. It awakens a new fear within you- that one day, Hyunjin will tire of you, and you'll be alone once more.
As if knowing your fears, irrational or not, Hyunjin makes it no secret how he feels about you, or what he hopes the two of you may become. Besides, the very reason he first came to the manor was to answer a marriage proposal- so of course he makes it clear how much he likes you. And though you're aware of his feelings, you don't feel any sort of pressure or expectation from him, nor does he ever make you uncomfortable. You get the distinct impression that should you ever reject him, Hyunjin would move on gracefully, even if it weighed heavily on his heart.
All that being said, he hasn't blatantly asked you to be his bride yet, though it is obvious he wishes to. And putting aside what is rational, proper, or logical, you don't think you'd turn him down were he to ask you now. Hyunjin has become the highlight of your days, the hope that keeps you going when loneliness and sadness acutely strike you. He's radiant and intelligent and effortlessly witty; and you can still remember the way his eyes lit up the first time he made you laugh.
You had to clamp your hand over your mouth to stop yourself from laughing too loudly, and Hyunjin's eyes crinkled as his smile beamed. He told you it was the prettiest sound he'd ever heard, that happiness suited you much more than sadness, that he hoped you'd smile and laugh more than you'd frown. And you think as long as you're with him, that'll be an easy promise to keep.
You've confided in him much of your life, your thoughts, and your feelings. He's an attentive listener, as well as empathetic and compassionate. And while you're sure to most it's the bare minimum, it felt nice to be listened to for once; to cry openly without being ignored, or mocked on the off chance you were acknowledged. It was nice to be held and gently consoled as you let out years worth of pent up tears flow out, though by the end you were always greatly embarrassed by your red eyes and puffy face.
Hyunjin, who wasn't fond of your step-mother from the start, liked her even less after you'd explained what you'd gone through following the loss of your father. It was interesting, as well as vindicating, hearing in detail his first impression of her, and how accurately he pin-pointed her personality and motivations. He told you he was used to dealing with people such as her, and his ability to nail her down was proof enough of that.
That's why he likes you, he said; likes that you're nothing like your step-mother, or step-sisters, or the countless other people he's met that hold the same motivations and values as them. There was no denying that his attraction to you started with your appearance, he admitted so himself right from the start, but you believe him when he says he's not superficial enough to marry for looks alone.
Whether you're as pretty as he says you are is still a matter of contention within yourself, but you try not to reject the compliments; especially not when he speaks them so earnestly. You don't find yourself special, but maybe it's enough that he does. And you recognize that everything about your relationship with Hyunjin is unconventional, but you don't dwell much on it.
You never would've had the chance to meet someone normally, and you welcome the solace and joy he brings you just by being near. When you think further upon how close the two of you have become, you wonder if words like "friend" or "companion" are enough. You wonder if this is what it means to be in love, if longing and desire and joy are really as hand in hand as they were always portrayed in your novels.
His tap on your window comes earlier than you expect it to today, elation spreading through your veins instantly as you rush to the window to open it for him. Normally, Hyunjin doesn't come to you until the sun has long since fallen, but tonight he arrives while the last specs of sunset still linger on the horizon. "You're early," you comment simply, a small smile spreading on your lips as he steps his way inside to your bedroom.
"Couldn't wait anymore," he replies, meeting you with a soft smile of his own. Summer brought with it longer days, which meant longer waits for Hyunjin to arrive at your window, and less time spent together before he had to rush back to his home. He pulls you into an embrace, gentle and warm, and you squeeze him tight for a small moment before you allow yourself to melt in his arms.
His hands rest comfortably on your back, lingering even as you pull slightly away to look up at him. "Your hair has gotten longer," you muse, taking a soft strand into your hand and admiring it between your fingers. "Has it?" he asks, having not noticed himself; it's hard to notice subtle changes considering he sees it everyday. "Do you like it?" he follows up, ever so slightly tilting his head as he awaits your answer.Â
"I do," you reply as you let it fall from your fingertips, now letting your hand fall to his shoulder, "it's pretty." He hums in response, smile turning bashful. Since becoming more comfortable in his presence, you speak your mind more openly, which also means he receives more compliments from you. There's a shyness that lingers, a blush often overtaking your cheeks after an admittance of finding him pretty, or handsome, or beautiful, but it never stops you from saying what you truly think.
Hyunjin is used to receiving compliments; and it's not meant to sound vain, but that's the reality of being the prince. And because he is used to them, he is normally unaffected by such words; but with you it's different. He isn't blind, of course, he knows he's conventionally attractive- but it's the intent of the words that matter. Unlike others he's met, you are genuine and sincere. You don't speak with ulterior motives, you don't say things unless you earnestly mean them.
So, when you say he's pretty, he takes great pride in it; because you aren't saying it out of a sense of obligation or gain. You just like him, and he likes you- that's all there is to your interactions. The affection you share is the realest thing he's ever felt, refreshing and authentic.
You know he's the prince, though he hasn't yet told you himself; you overheard your sisters speaking about it to each other just a few days after their arranged meeting. They were by your door, loud voices carrying and infiltrating your space. You think you were meant to hear it- vain and confident in themselves as they are, you suspect they wanted to rub it in that one of them would marry the prince.
Not that you cared- unbeknownst to them, you already met him yourself, and youâre the one the prince really shows interest in. And his identity shocked you at first, but as you thought about it more, it made sense; his impressive carriage, his elegant attire, the way he carried himself and spoke, why you thought you recognized his family crest- it all clicked.
Given all you've learned about him, what he thinks about the world and what he values, it makes sense that he wouldn't tell you right away, and you don't hold it against him. Going your whole life questioning the motives of others, and perceptively picking up on their dishonesty.. it must be hard. You can't even imagine it.
In turn, Hyunjin can't imagine how hard your own sufferings have been, his heart aching terribly for you whenever you put your sadness to words. There's a strange sort of comfort that comes from it however; your lived experiences being so entirely different, but aligning in just a way that leads you to understand one another.
Still, there were many times that Hyunjin wished the solutions to your problems were easy- that he could just use his authority as prince of the realm to give you your life back. Unfortunately, he thinks his interference would only make things worse for you; wish as he may that he could simply order your step-mother to be kinder to you, there's no way he can do so without great risk to your well-being.
It's frustrating and saddening to realize how little his power can do to help the one he cares most deeply for. There were equally times he wishes he could just take you away from all that hurts you; but until you either agree to wed him, or he becomes king after marrying another, he has no authority over who may or may not reside in the castle.
His greatest hope, of course, is that you'll wish to marry him. He doesn't even want to think about the devastation that will be wrought upon him should you reject him. You like each other, that much is true and plainly obvious, but marriage, especially to someone destined to rule, may not be something you want. And besides that, he's always wanted his marriage to have real affection tied to it- and until he knows definitively where your heart lies, he will be patient.
Though they sound like complaints, Hyunjin actually loves the progression of your relationship. Yes, it saddens him that as things stand now he can't remove you from the source of your pain or change things, but there is an equal amount of good that has come from his experiences climbing to your window.
His heart beats fast and erratic whenever you look at him and smile, your soft, small giggles and sweet laughs make his ears and face burn pleasantly. It doesn't always show, given his natural charisma and learned manners, but you fluster him more than you realize. His brain stutters when you compliment him, his body crawls with goosebumps when you initiate a hug or hold his hand, he unconsciously holds his breath when your face ever comes slightly too close to his own.
Though his father still urges him to bring home a bride sooner rather than later, he has managed to quell his father's worries by describing his affection for you. It's also what allows him to regularly leave the castle to meet you, with Chris himself also attesting to how genuine the prince's infatuation for you is.
And it's moments like this, when you're in his arms and looking up at him with your soft doe eyes and sweet smile that he feels the urge to kiss you the most. Before he can think about it much longer, you're separating from his hold, grabbing his hand and leading him to your bed with a softly spoken, "Shall we?"
It's your routine when he visits to sit or lie in your bed together, talking endlessly until the time comes that he has to depart. Sometimes you fall asleep, in which case he just indulges in the feeling of holding you close, stroking your head until the chirp of birds begins with the start of the sunrise, alerting him it's time to go.
Sometimes talking is too hard, and all you want is to feel him close and let your negative feelings wash away in his hold, and let them be replaced by his warmth. Sometimes you run out of things to say and simply enjoy each other's company in comfortable silence. Oftentimes, Hyunjin just being in your space with you is all you need to be happy.Â
There's an unspoken hope there that you share- that someday soon you'll be able to fall asleep together, to wake together, to have breakfast, lunch, and dinner together, for every moment to be spent with the person that rouses your once dormant heart. Thereâs still part of you that questions if you can really be loved by someone as good as him, but itâs what you hope for more than youâve ever hoped for anything.
"Wait-" Hyunjin calls softly as you begin to step towards the bed, and you stop, turning back to look at him with a curious tilt of the head and questioning eyes. He swallows, beginning to lose his nerve as you stare at him. He wants to tell you how badly he wants to kiss you, to ask if it's something you'll allow him, if you crave it as much as he does.
"What is it?" you ask, squeezing his hand when you feel the slight anxious tremble. His face reddens, and he internally curses himself for having such difficulty. He once felt it was entirely unlike him to be reduced to such shyness, but you bring it out of him with just a look. "I just.. uh, well-" he starts, but before he can get much further, you hear a sound from the hallway that makes you jump.
"Shit-" you mutter in a harsh whisper, the sound of a metal object clinking just outside your door. Hyunjin doesn't realize what it is just yet, but the sound is one you can instantly recognize- it's the sound of your step-mother taking the padlock into her hands. You scramble to push Hyunjin in the direction of your bathroom as you hear the lock begin to turn, afterwards standing near your open window as calmly and naturally as you can manage.
Hyunjin doesn't have any time to think about what's happening, or to dwell on the sound he heard outside your door before he hears it start to swing open. All he can do is hide himself behind your bathroom door, and pray that whoever is entering your bedroom has no reason to step inside your bathroom.
Your step-mother enters your room with suspicion clear on her face, looking around the room with narrow eyes and scrunched brows. You take a quick, cautious glance towards your bathroom, relieved to notice that Hyunjin isn't in immediate sight. Thank God, you think; you don't know how she'd react to seeing the prince inside your bedroom, and you don't want to find out.
"Who are you talking to?" she asks, taking a stern step closer to you. You swallow down your nerves the best you can as you prepare yourself to answer- you can't give her any reason to suspect you're lying. "I was talking to the birds," you answer, pointing to where a nest of them rests on the tree nearest to your window.
The family of birds are settling in for sleep now that the sun has sunk, and you hope your step-mother finds it believable enough that you'd talk to them as they ready themselves for bed. Her eyes follow where you point, easily spotting the birds beginning to tuck their heads down, and she scoffs. She could've sworn she heard another voice replying to you but.. that'd be impossible, wouldn't it? Who would even be here talking to you?
Yes, though she hates to admit when she's wrong, she was likely just mistaken. The other voice she thought she heard was likely just you supplementing a conversation you wish you could be having with another person. There were never two people- just you, and the lonely life she inflicts upon you. So she smiles, condescending as ever as she speaks, "Yes, well. I suppose that's all you can do."
Your step-mother takes one more cursory glance around your room before she decides she's satisfied and turns to exit your bedroom. You breathe a sigh of relief when she finally steps out the door, and Hyunjin steps out from your bathroom just as the sound of the lock on your bedroom door clicks shut. He recognizes what it is more clearly after hearing the sound of the lock a second time, and his heart sinks at the realization of what that sound means.
"Hyunjin?" you whisper in question as he walks right past you, heading straight for your closed bedroom door. He takes the doorknob in his hand, twists it and pushes the door- and what he feared to be true is immediately confirmed. The door doesn't open, harshly stopped as the lock clanks against the door from the motion of it trying to be opened- you're locked in. Why are you locked in?
When he turns back to you, you say nothing; just look at him with those deeply saddened eyes that twists his heart into knots. "You're.. are you always locked in your room?" he asks, though he dreads the answer- and he suspects he already knows. You feel as if you'll sob if you speak, so you don't- you just nod.
His heart sinks to the pit of his stomach, a complex mix of sadness and rage on your behalf beginning to boil in his veins. He knew your step-mother to be vindictive, vain, materialistic, mean, but this.. It was a cruelty positively unheard of, and he couldn't fathom why anyone would have so much hatred in their heart as to resort to this.
He clenches his fists, takes a breath, tries to quell the intensity of his anger before he steps back to you. Your eyes have fallen to the floor, head hung low, hands balled into fists. Hyunjin softly calls your name once he's returned to your side, and you look up at him, eyes glassy as you blink away the tears that try to form. He wraps his arms around you, pulls you to his chest and hugs you tight.
Your reaction is delayed, the complex whir of emotions dulling your senses, but you eventually return the hug. You hold him the tightest you ever have, your hands gripping and bunching the fabric of his linen shirt. Carefully, Hyunjin leads you to your bed, where he knows you find the most comfort. You crawl into bed as soon as he pulls back the blankets, practically curling into a ball as soon as your head hits the pillow.
Hyunjin lies next to you, pulls the blankets up to your chests once he's settled, holding you once more after you move in closer. You press yourself close to him, curling your limbs around his, clinging to him in a desperate need to stay as close as possible. Head pressed into his chest, he softly strokes your head, whispering comforts to you until he feels your body begin to lose its built tension.
Now more than ever, Hyunjin is firm in his belief that he can't let things stay this way- there has to be some way he can use his power to help you. He doesn't want to walk away after knowing the true depth of all that you suffer, he wouldn't forgive himself if he did. Again, he calls to you softly, and when you look up at him he asks, "Do you want to leave? Get away from here?"
You blink, processing the question and wondering how you should answer. Unfortunately, the answer isn't an entirely simple yes or no. The truth is, you wish you didn't have to; this is your fatherâs manor, the house you grew up in, and though you've suffered greatly since his passing, you find it hard to let go of the happy memories that came before the tragedy.
Despite that, even if he were still here now, it is true that you'd have to leave eventually; you'd marry someday, and married women always leave their childhood homes behind when they wed. Still, when you think of never seeing the manor again, of never returning to your childhood bedroom or talking again with the maids who helped raise you, you feel impossibly sad.
You wish you didn't feel so tied to your home, but it's hard to let go, even when you know it is what's best for you. Additionally, when you did let your mind wander and think about what sort of life you'd lead if you ran away, you realized you were impossibly scared of the world. You've been locked away for so long that you don't remember the way to the places you once recognized, all your connections have been severed, and getting to the castle city, even if you did remember the way, would take days on foot.
Add the fact that you'd have no money, and no way to prepare food for the trip without getting caught, you never let yourself entertain the thought of running away past the occasional frivolous daydream. Sure, you could climb from your window and leave without getting caught, but you could never convince yourself that it was worth trying.
But now you have someone, don't you? Someone who cares about you, who would help you find your way in the vast world you've been kept away from, someone who doesn't want to sit idly by and let you suffer any longer. All you've done since meeting Hyunjin is hope- and the more you look at him and see how vividly he cares, you think that maybe your hope isnât misplaced. That maybe the life youâve always wished for is actually obtainable if only you just try.
"If I leave.. where would I go?" you can't help but ask now that you are entertaining the thought of fleeing from the source of your suffering. Realistically, you know there is no way you can do this without Hyunjin's help, and you're sure he knows this too, but you don't want to ask too much of him. You're thankful to have him to rely on, but you don't want to impose- so it's imperative to you that he offers first, so that you don't feel as if you're burdening him.
"Stay with me," he offers without any hint of hesitation, "even if we never wed, even if you never desire me the way I desire you, stay with me." Hyunjin takes your hands in his, squeezes them in his as he continues, "I promise, youâll never have to suffer again as long as you are in the castle. Please, leave this place with me.â
Your heart skips and stutters, emotion crawls back up your spine and pricks your skin, hitching your breath. And shit, Hyunjin realizes what he just said- he got ahead of himself, and brought up that he lives in the castle. He wanted to admit the truth of his identity carefully, but now.. well, he supposes if you agreed to leave with him, it would've come out tonight regardless.
Still, he stutters as he tries to explain himself- how it was never intended to be a lie he kept from you. How he doesn't often have the chance to meet people who don't already know his status so when you didn't recognize him, it made him happy. How he enjoyed that you could talk to him without pretense, how refreshing it was to him and how it was exactly what he needed, what he'd been looking for.
You smile, even giggle a bit once he gets really deep into his spiraling ramble of explanations. He stops then, nervously giggling back when you squeeze his hands and tell him to slow down, that you understand him completely. "I knew," you tell him after a moment, "well, not the whole time- I didn't find out until later. But I didn't bring up that I knew because it didn't change anything for me. I never cared that you're the prince. To me, you're just Hyunjin."
God, the relief that spreads through his body at your words- a massive weight has lifted from his shoulders. And the confusion you felt about why someone like him could ever fancy you so much- you feel like you understand more now why he likes you, and it helps ease the burden of your self-doubt. You sit up from the bed, looking down at Hyunjin with a timid, yet eager smile.
"Let's go," you tell him, and he quickly sits up with you, a bright smile of his own plastered on his face. "Right now? You're sure?" he asks, trying (and failing) to hide the excitement in his voice. You nod, and he positively beams, ready to help you with everything you need. You don't have many bags, much less ones suited for travel- so you settle for choosing the largest of them all.
Hyunjin helps you back the things you can't bear to part with; old gifts from your father, sentimental pieces you can't bear to part with, the blanket your mother knitted for you when you were still growing inside- you stuff your bag to the brim with your most precious belongings. It's heavy by the time you're done, and Hyunjin takes it and slings it around his shoulders, promising to treat it with care until it's delivered safely to the carriage. "Are you ready?" he asks after you both approach the window, and you pause, turning around to take one last look at your bedroom.
Once you leave, you'll never be back, and with that comes strange, new and complex feelings. But you think it's more than past time you left this place behind, and made a new place your home- a place where you are free to be happy and to exist without guilt. "I'm ready," you affirm as you turn back to the window, and Hyunjin smiles and nods, giving your hand one last reassuring squeeze before he lets it go to climb out of your window.
Hyunjin steadies his weight on the trellis, and you lean out of your window to check how far down the ground is- and shit, you might be afraid of heights if the way your stomach drops is any indicator. "I'll wait for you at the bottom," he tells you after noticing the apprehensive look in your eyes, and you nod with an anxious swallow. Hyunjin has done this a million times at this point- you can do it too! No problem!
Of course, Hyunjin makes the climb look effortless, but you suspect you won't have nearly as easy of a time climbing down. Once he's finished his climb, he takes a few steps back to see you clearly when he looks up, smiling at you encouragingly. You take a breath to steel your nerves before you take a cautious step out of your window, carefully finding your footing on the trellis before adding your weight- the same way you saw him do it.
You descend much, much slower than Hyunjin did, impossibly terrified of losing your footing and falling to the dirt below. When you finally reach the bottom, you let out a massive sigh of relief, and Hyunjin pulls you into a hug, beaming as he squeezes you- he's proud of you, you think.
His joy adds to your own, so much so that you can't help but show it. Leaning closer, standing on the tips of your toes, you kiss his cheek- a way to tell him thank you, to show him how much you like him, and to convey how happy you are with him. He blushes ever so slightly as his smile grows, a giddy feeling once again building in his stomach.
"When all this is behind us, and you're safe at the castle with me.. Can I kiss you?" he finds the courage to ask, your face flushing as you smile and nod. "I'll look forward to it," you tell him, and you raise your pinky to him, intending for it to be a promise. With a soft chuckle, he interlocks his pinky with yours, happily solidifying the promise.
"This way," he tells you shortly after, separating your pinkies to take your hand in his, and lead you to where the carriage awaits him down the dirt road, and away from the manor. You take a final glance back at it as you walk with him, whisper goodbyes to all the things you'll miss, to your father most of all.
As the carriage comes into sight, it really sets in how real all of this is- how with this night, your life will become completely different. You wonder how everyone will react when your maids enter your room in the morning and find that you aren't there- part of you is sad you can't bid them goodbye personally, but you hope they'll be happy for you and wish you well.
You hear the coachman call to Hyunjin's attendant as you step closer, informing him with surprise in his voice that he is back earlier than expected- and with you. His attendant, who you know as Chris, and have heard many stories about, steps out of the carriage with an almost bewildered expression. He certainly wasn't expecting this to happen tonight.
Hand in hand, Hyunjin continues to lead you up to the now open door of the carriage, with Chris standing next to it. "Are you..?" he asks tentatively as he looks between you both. Together, romantically, you infer him to mean. "We'll discuss it later," Hyunjin says, turning to offer you his usual warm, reassuring smile before he looks back to his attendant, "for now, I'd like you to formally meet the future princess."
Living in the royal castle is something you never would've believed would ever happen to you, and it became your reality in the strangest of ways. To think that a beautiful man came to your window in the night, that said beautiful man wanted to marry you, and was the prince of the realm of all things.. It was confounding how you ended up here.
There's part of you, that even having known the truth for months, still can't seem to wrap your head around Hyunjin being the prince. You suppose it comes down to knowing something and seeing something being entirely different- because though you knew, you never, until now, saw him in his element, so to speak.
Watching him interact with the world behind your small scope was as enlightening as it was affirming; you saw a new side of him, but it was a side that was still firmly Hyunjin. He was eloquent but opinionated in royal discussions, he was kind and grateful to his workers, he was stern when something needed done, but never cruel or overly demanding- again, all you could think was that heâs perfect.
Was Hyunjin getting ahead of himself when he introduced you to his attendant as the future princess? Maybe. But though you haven't said it aloud, you think you fell for him harder since coming to the castle; and being the princess, while a stressful endeavor that requires you to intensively study politics and speech, will be worth it to stay by his side.
The parts of Hyunjin you've come to love the most are the parts you realized are reserved only for very few to see- the part that is wittier than political discussions will allow, who is secretly a bit dramatic when things donât go his way, a hopeless romantic who clings to the ideals of literature.
And further beyond even that, are the parts of Hyunjin that are for you, and you alone; where natural charisma melts away into bashful sincerity. Whose soft, affectionately spoken words are said with an equal mix of earnesty and boyish timidity. Whose graceful confidence is intermixed with the subtle complexities of shyness and the seeking of your approval.Â
All these aspects combined are what make him so special to you, and you will be forever grateful that after all the suffering youâve endured, you are allowed to love someone as good as him, and are loved by him in return. And thanks to his help, not only do you live a life you could have only ever dreamed of, but are adjusting quite well to that new life.
Some things are the same, such as having kind maids who helped you settle and attended to your needs, but then there were things that were entirely different from the life you lived before. You have your own attendant now- a sweet boy that Christopher vouched for named Felix, who Hyunjin affirmed you would be able to trust with your life, as he does with his own attendant. And truly, Felix did quickly become someone you felt like you could rely on and trust; oftentimes, he feels more like a best friend than a royal attendant.
Though he makes sure you stay on top of your studies, and fulfill all tasks you need to have done, you can also easily spend hours giggling away about various things- like how Chris is so serious but also a secret softie underneath, about your relationship with Hyunjin, about Felixâs secret crush that he hopes to confess to after preparations for your wedding to Hyunjin are concluded.
Itâll still be some time before that day comes, as apparently the king is sparing no effort in making it an extravagant event to remember- his only son is being wed, after all; itâs worth the kingdom celebrating to the fullest extent possible. You try not to think about the life you left behind, but you often wonder if your step-mother and sisters have connected the dots between your disappearance from the manor, and the announcement of the princeâs wedding.
If not, sheâs certain to realize once the day has arrived; because all reputable families of the kingdom are invited, and she never turns down a royal invitation. The offer to rescind their invitations came up, of course, but you declined- because thereâs a part of you that sincerely wants this to strike your step-mother in the core of who she is, and make her reflect on herself. And if it doesnât, well.. Youâll find some satisfaction in seeing her appalled and infuriated that youâre thriving despite her meddling in your life.Â
Currently, you and Hyunjin still reside in separate rooms because unwed couples sharing a bed before marriage is deemed inappropriate- not that either of you care; it doesn't stop Hyunjin from sneaking to your room at night, in much the same way he did when you lived back in your father's manor. Sneaking across balconies, quietly climbing over each and every banister until he reaches your room- it's a far cry from the "proper" way a prince is expected to behave, but when it comes to the whims of his heart, he pays no mind to such expectations.
What was once a knock at your window is now a careful tap to the glass of your balcony door, where Hyunjin stands and waits with a shy grin for you to greet him. You never lock the doors, as you're sure he knows- but regardless, he always waits for you to come and let him in yourself. It's just the same tonight- he softly knocks and waits, smiling when he sees you rise from your bed to come to the doors.
"My darling," he greets you sweetly when you open the door, taking your hand and kissing just above the knuckle as he bows to you. You've experienced the greeting what feels like a hundred times over at this point, but it never fails to raise goosebumps on your skin; especially when he looks up at you and smiles before he straightens his back and stands tall once more.
Instead of inviting him inside, you step past the door to stand on the balcony with him, the cool breeze refreshing after having dealt with the heat of the late summer sun prior. He wraps you in his arms, wasting no time in tilting his head down to capture your lips in a soft kiss. His lips on your always fill you with just as many butterflies as the first time, his hands finding their way to your waist causing you to shiver.
"I've missed you," he breathes against your lips before he kisses you again, and you hum as you return the kiss, wordlessly agreeing with the sentiment. Preparing for the wedding makes you both incredibly busy these days, from dress fittings to studying in your case, and readying to ascend the throne in Hyunjin's.
With hardly any free time to yourselves, this is how Hyunjin ensures he gets the chance to spend at least some time with you. Sneaking over to your room, no matter how exhausted the day has made him, because now that you're in the castle with him, he can't go a single night without seeing you, feeling you, at least just once.
And normally, he would follow such a kiss with conversation- ask about your day, what you did and how you're feeling, what preparations for the wedding were done today, etcetera. But for whatever reason, right now he just wants to keep kissing you, over and over again, for as long as you'll allow him.
Maybe itâs because the last few nights he hardly got to see you for more than a few moments, leading to greater longing. Maybe itâs because the wedding looming closer makes the reality that youâre together feel so much more real- youâre his, and heâs yours, and thereâs so much beauty in being in love, in promising that youâll remain together no matter the years that pass or challenges that come.
Your arms wrap around his neck, your body pressing closer into his, and itâs almost criminal how much that simple of an action makes his head spin. Youâre a clingy lover- not that Hyunjin minds by any means; he loves it, in fact. He loves feeling wanted and desired by you, and the way you crave and seek out his touch; the problem, so to speak, is the way his body reacts to your close proximity. Itâs.. an indecent reaction- one that he has to do his best to contain, lest he do something improper and act gracelessly.
Still, you tempt him- with doe-eyed looks, pouting lips and gentle caresses to bare skin. He desires you, wants to lay your bare and look upon every inch of your body, to feel you naked beneath his fingertips- but he canât, not yet. And so instead, he has to make a conscious effort to not linger on such thoughts, to swallow them down until the time is right. But the more time he spends with you, the more difficult a task it becomes; and now, after having gone a handful of days not being able to see him for more than a few passing moments, you cling to him more than usual, making the need inside him impossible to ignore.Â
You drive him utterly crazy with a simple touch- and he wonders how much of it is a conscious decision, and how much is executed simply by instinct. Do you realize just how deeply you affect him, or do you act purely on what feels good and right to you? Maybe itâs an equal mix of both- enjoying the effect you have on him, but also thriving in the euphoria that touching him makes you feel.
You havenât gone much further past passionate kissing and idle, yet purposeful, groping of each otherâs bodies, as Hyunjin tries his best to be proper and âfollow the rulesâ- in which having intimate relations whilst unwed is wildly improper, and against everything heâs ever been taught. But when the wind blows your robe partly open, and he sees nothing underneath but your soft white lingerie, he canât help but recall that such rules have always been pointless to him.
Hyunjin has always followed his heart before considering consequences and what is "right." So, if you're in love, if you want each other more than words, if you know you're going to be wed soon anyways, why should he hold off from following what his heart desires? Nothing about your relationship with one another has ever been conventionally proper, nor followed pre-established rules and notions, so why hold himself to such things now?
Do you think and feel the same as him? He suspects you do, but tonight he intends to find out for sure instead of wasting any further time questioning the depth of your intent, and considering conventional rules above his feelings. His hands squeeze your waist as he turns you both around, pressing your backside against the sturdy balcony banister, the sound of surprise that leaves you muffled by his lips that have still yet to part from yours.
"I want you," he says after pulling away from your lips, though still close enough for you to feel his breath directly on your skin, "more than I fear is allowed." Thereâs a fear there- that the depth of his longing is entirely one-sided, that the way in which he craves you goes unrequited, that the longing you feel doesnât go past its current boundary.
Hyunjin rests his forehead against yours, eyes staring straight into yours in a way that makes you feel equal parts vulnerable and warm. "Do you want me too?" he asks carefully, setting aside his nerves and uncertainty, his hands trailing over where the wind tousled your robe and exposed your shoulder.
"Say no, and I'll stop right now. We'll move on as if this never happened until you're ready to discuss it," he continues, hand pausing where the strap of your bra lies, uncovered thanks to your partially fallen robe, "but I need to know- if I am allowed to want you as badly as I do, and if you return these feelings." He watches your reaction attentively, unconsciously holding your breath as he waits for a hopefully favorable response.
You swallow, heart nearly beating out of your chest as you open your mouth to speak, and you're certain that Hyunjin can feel the goosebumps rising on your skin- goosebumps that exist solely because of him, and not at all from the late night chill. "I want you too," you respond, and you can see the way relief and excitement wash over him. A million promises and "thank you"'s linger on his lips, but instead of speaking them aloud, he pours them into his kiss, letting his body do the talking for him.
His hand travels away from your shoulder, down towards your waist, where your robe is held together with a loosely tied ribbon. The anticipation makes you shiver, and when you feel the knot come undone, you pull away to allow him the chance to look at you. It's utterly nerve wracking being this exposed, and you don't feel the least bit confident in yourself- but at the same time, you know how much Hyunjin reveres you, and so you want him to look.
While it's still a struggle to believe all that he sees in you, you know this is something he'll sincerely love. From the very moment your touches started to become more intimate he has craved this sight of you, and you grant him the opportunity to stare as much as he wishes to. You leave him breathless for a moment, and for quite possibly the first time, you watch in real time as something shifts inside of him.
The look in his eyes changes, first from awe as he unconsciously sucked in a breath, to utmost, almost overwhelming desire. He takes you in his arms and lifts you up, and you instinctively cling to him with a surprised squeak. His hands hold you up from under your thighs, and you wrap your legs around him while tightly holding his arms. He places you on the thick banister, and you shiver when the cold iron makes contact with your skin through the thin material of the robe youâre wearing.
He kisses you with fervor, his tongue sliding past your now parted lips. Comfortable with your position and Hyunjinâs strong hold on you, you move your hands from his arms to his face, holding it as you invite his tongue further inside your mouth. One of his hands continues to support you and hold you close to his body, while the other slips your robe further down, until it falls down your arms and pools at your elbows.
Another breeze rolls by, and you shiver once more, this time fully feeling the chill. Your thin, almost sheer lingerie does nothing to hide how hard your nipples have gotten, allowing Hyunjin to see them clearly when he pulls away from your kiss and glances down. He licks his lips as he stares at them, lets his free hand move away from your legs and up to your chest, palming one of your breasts over the thin fabric of your bra.
You gasp when his fingers brush your nipple over the fabric, and Hyunjin drinks in the way your body reacts to the near overwhelming sensation his fingers grant you. Your hands fall back to his shoulders, gripping them tightly as your body squirms. "Does it feel good?" he asks, this time watching your face as he rolls your nipples between his fingers, attentively watching the way your face changes.
Biting your lip and closing your eyes as you nod, your legs instinctively try to close together but are unable to due to his place between them. The soft, near whiny gasps you let out are intoxicatingly sweet, a sound Hyunjin could easily imagine himself becoming addicted to. He kisses you again, lingering on your lips and briefly muffling your whines before he trails down your jaw and to your neck, where he places wet, open mouthed kisses.
His touch makes you hot- so much so that the cool breeze no longer affects you the way it had moments prior, your shuddering coming solely from the way he's making you feel. He slips a hand inside your bra, touching your nipple directly now, the pad of his thumb rubbing over it in rhythmic strokes. He can feel your thighs tremble and squeeze him, still desperately trying to close together, driven by the innate need to seek friction.
You donât outright say you need more, but your body does more than enough to tell him- and so Hyunjin dips his hand further down, slowly traveling between your bodies, over your stomach until it reaches its destination between your legs. He doesnât know what to do, really- but heâs nothing if not a romantic at heart, and he lets that guide him onward. Following the romantic fantasies that often played in his head, he brings his lips back to yours, sensually kissing you as he rubs your heat over your panties.
It's so wet- much more than he ever could've anticipated. The fabric, that was already so thin and nearly sheer to begin with, has become almost entirely see through and now sticks to you uncomfortably (though Hyunjinâs hand is proving to be a perfect distraction from the discomfort.) His own fingers become slick even without direct contact, and it excites him as much as it drives his curiosity. What do you taste like? Is it okay for him to find out, or is that too far?
He wants to know, desperately wants to know- âCan I taste you, please?â he asks in a soft, pleading tone; itâs okay if you say no, heâd never question your limits, but fuck, he really wants it. You let out a breathy, eager âyes,â to which he responds with the most breathtaking smile. You watch with bated breath as he begins to trail kisses down your torso, leaving a few lingering touches to your nipples and stomach on his way down.
Hyunjin helps you slide off the banister, hands securely on your hips and guiding you forward, closer to him. He completely kneels down in front of you, presses soft kisses to your inner thighs as he guides one of your legs to rest over his shoulder. You lean back against the banister, your hands holding it for support while his hands rub over the back of your thighs and to your ass. He holds you there, occasionally squeezing, and you can feel him smile against the meat of your thighs when it causes you to squirm in his hold.
You watch his tongue dart out from between his lips, wetting them before he finally brings his face closer to your center, giving you a curious kitten lick over your panties. That alone is enough to make you jolt, and he squeezes you a bit tighter in response, trying to help you stay still while he explores the newly accessible parts of your body.
He canât think of a single thing he could compare your taste to, but he loves it, an involuntary noise of pleasure rising from his throat. He quickly grows dissatisfied with small, careful licks- he needs more of you on his tongue, needs to taste you directly. But rather than separating from you and wasting precious time getting your panties off you, he decides it's a better idea to simply pull them to the side.
Your balance falters for a moment when he moves his hand away from your behind to shift your panties out of his way, but heâs quick to bring it back and continue to hold you once his tongue has once again met your core. Your grip on the railing tightens, head falling back and eyes fluttering closed as you let out a low moan. You never expected to be experiencing your first time with something like this outside, on your new balcony of all places, but you can't deny that it excites you.
It's fun, exhilarating, almost freeing- something that would've forever eluded you had you not met Hyunjin, and fallen in love with him. And oh, youâve never felt anything as good as his tongue between your folds. You divert your gaze back down, mesmerized by the sight of him between your quivering thighs, and he too is mesmerized- by your taste, by the way you drip on his tongue, by the way you gasp and cry out when his tongue finds your clit.
He alternates between swirling his tongue around it, and giving you long, flat licks, both of which drive you crazy with need for more. You try your best to not let your noises get past a certain volume, teeth digging into your bottom lip almost painfully, hands desperately clutching at the banister as your body involuntarily trembles. It doesn't take long for Hyunjin to find the pattern you like, what motions cause you to cry the loudest despite your desperate attempts to contain yourself.
Your stomach rapidly tenses and contracts, your moans quickly turning into high-pitched whines as youâre driven closer and closer to release. Youâre dizzy, mind practically floating with immense pleasure, your hips unconsciously rolling into his face as you seek sweet, blinding relief. Hyunjinâs cock throbs painfully in his trousers, straining against the fabric that has now grown tight around him, but he ignores it, completely focused on you.
He looks up at you from between your legs, watches the rapid rise and fall of your chest as you take desperate, panting breaths, sweating clinging to you in an ethereal sheen. You take one of your hands off the banister, instead burying your fingers into Hyunjinâs long hair. He groans against you, unexpectedly enjoying the way you slightly tug on the loose strands.
The feeling in the pit of your stomach grows in intensity, your eyes rolling back as he flattens his tongue and lets you grind against it as you please. You let go of his hair when you feel your orgasm start to peak to clamp your hand over your mouth, wanting to avoid waking the entirety of the castle with your moans if you can help it.
He squeezes you once more, does his best to hold you upright as you lose yourself to the feeling. It feels so good you almost canât breathe, the tingling that starts in your spine spreading throughout your entire body, as mind numbingly euphoric as it is overwhelming. He doesnât separate from you until he feels your thighs relax and legs go limp, carefully removing your leg from its perch on his shoulder, holding you steady as he rises back up to his feet.
It takes you a moment to return your senses, only just barely registering Hyunjin talking to you as you blink away the fog of pleasure muddling your brain. Heâs asking things like if youâre okay and if it felt good, grinning when you nod and answer him with meek affirmations. When he kisses you, you can taste yourself on him, and it somehow adds to just how amazing you feel.
Itâs in that moment, where heâs stroking your cheek while kissing you, tongue exploring your mouth and sharing the taste of your release with you, that you decide you want to return the favor. Mirroring what heâs done to you, you let your hands wander his body until they meet the waistband of his trousers, where you slowly undo the buttons. His breath hitches when you sink to your knees, anticipation rising in tandem with his nerves.
Will you like what you see? Itâs not something heâs ever worried about before, but now he finds himself awaiting your reaction anxiously. Wanting to spare him the late night chill, you donât pull his trousers and underwear all the way down, instead just pulling down enough for his cock to spring free of its confines. And, wow- itâs much longer than you expected, as well as mouth-wateringly pretty, the vein running along the length utterly entrancing to you.
Pre-cum leaks steadily from the tip, and you curiously stick out your tongue to taste it as you wrap your hand around the base of his cock. He hisses and softly gasps, twitching and throbbing in your hand that is so much softer than his own. You quickly move on from small, careful and curious licks to swirling your tongue around the tip, sometimes stopping the movement of your tongue to press wet kisses to it.
His pre-cum smears over the tip and all over your lips thanks to your kisses, and itâs easily the most erotic thing heâs ever had the pleasure of seeing. And God, when you look up at him through your lashes as you kiss him, your pretty lips wet and glistening because of his release- he has to make conscious effort to not let out a visceral groan.
After a few more soft, wet kiss, you open your mouth and flatten your tongue, leaning forward on your knees, using your hand to guide his cock into your eager mouth. His body shudders as he groans, the more you take of him into your mouth, the more he struggles to restrain himself. Hyunjin leans forward, grabs the banister for support while he watches you try to work him in past your limits- taking him in until you gag, retreating just long enough to recover before resuming, trying to take him further than last time with each attempt.Â
Tears prick the corners of your mouth, threatening to fall with each additional inch taken down your throat, but you refuse to concede. He brought you such unimaginable bliss- and youâll do anything to make him feel the same. Just as Hyunjin had done, you proceed purely on instinct, staring up at him as you finally succeed in taking his entire length into your mouth. And fuck, the sight of you- how is he supposed to retain composure after seeing you like this?Â
Grip on the railing tightening, his eyes roll back when you start bobbing your head along his length, the sound of his cock sliding back and forth in your mouth creating impossibly salacious wet sounds. Saliva drips from the corners of your mouth, down to your chest and thighs, but you continue on, paying no mind to the mess you're making on yourself.
For the first time, you hear Hyunjin speak with an utter loss of composure- no smooth charisma, no eloquently crafted line of dialogue; just pure, pleasured rambling. "Darling, I can't- feels so good, I-" he cuts himself off with a curse, biting his lip as he feels you caress his throbbing vein with your tongue. Heâs never felt so good before, and heâs so close- but what is he supposed to do? Release in your mouth? Is that even okay?
He intends to ask, opening his eyes to look at you as he does, but oh- the sight of you instantly causes the words to die in his throat, the sight of you paired with pleasure he feels is just too much for him. He cums with a moan, loud and pretty, his cum gagging you as it shoots straight down your throat. You pull away seconds later, releasing him from your mouth with a pop, swallowing the cum that lingers on the back of your tongue as you wipe your lips clean with the back of your hand. You look up at him next, taking in the sight of your normally elegant lover looking so debauched. Heâs breathless and utterly disheveled, but still so impossibly perfect.
Hyunjin helps you to your feet after heâs collected himself, pulling you into an emotionally charged, sensual kiss; lips parted, tongue seeking yours. He lifts you up once more, deciding that both of you have spent more than enough time on the balcony, continuing to kiss you even as he carries you inside your bedroom. It makes the walk more precarious, but neither of you care, absorbed in one another as you are. And maybe you should feel some amount of shame for having pleasured one another in such an open space, but itâs the furthest thing from your minds.Â
All that matters is Hyunjin; how he makes you feel, and how you make him feel. Lying you on your bed as gently as he can manage, he finds his place between your legs as you fall to your back. His hands find the waistband of your panties, and you lift your hips to help him slide them off your body. Your robe is the next thing to be removed in your flurry of impassioned kisses, followed by your bra, and all of Hyunjinâs clothes.Â
âLove you so much, my darling,â he breathes against your skin between his kisses to your lips, hands roaming your body, âwant to be inside you.â You pull away enough to see him clearly, your eyes finding his even in the dark of your room. âI want it to,â you admit softly, heat rising to your face, âI love you, Hyunjin.â He smiles, brief and timid, before he kisses you again, slipping one of his hands between your thighs to feel your heat with his fingers.
He rubs his fingers between your folds, and you let out a shuddering breath, body trembling with anticipation. Youâre still so wet, and Hyunjin canât help but involuntarily groan when he imagines what youâll feel like wrapped around his cock. He takes his cock in his hand, smears your essence along it to get it wet, glancing up at you after he aligns himself with your hole. You look apprehensive, and heâs immediately worried youâve changed your mind and want him to stop-Â
But when he offers, you quickly shake your head. Youâre nervous, that much is true, but you want this- everything you experience with Hyunjin is new and beautiful, and youâre certain this will be too. And every time youâve been hesitant, or scared, or anxious, he was there for you; he held you and listened to you and helped you find not only the courage to be where you are now, but your self-worth too. You love him, you trust him- and what better way to show him the depth of your love and trust, than to offer yourself to him, body and soul.Â
With one last affectionate kiss, a softly spoken promise to always take care of you, he begins to slowly push inside you. You both gasp, sensitive from your prior orgasms, the effect profound even before heâs all the way inside. Thereâs a slight discomfort at first that quickly gives way to tingly pleasure across your body, the sensation effectively stealing the breath from your lungs. Hyunjin clenches his jaw, breath growing more labored, his cock twitching and throbbing inside you even when his body is completely still.
He leans back down to you once your hips are flush together, wraps his arms around you, pressing your body against his. You wrap your arms around his neck, while he holds you under your shoulders, kissing you as he experimentally rolls his hips into yours. Each roll of his hips is slow and purposeful, as is each kiss you share. You understand now, why sex is often referred to as making love- because there can truly be no other way to describe the moment you share, and the feelings that come with it.
When he pulls away and looks down at you, his heart races even faster; youâre so pretty, beautiful- with your hair fanned out around you, the moon shining through your balcony doors highlighting the sheen of sweat in the most ethereal way. All he can think about is how much he loves you, how lucky he is to have you, how good you are to him. Youâre perfect, utterly perfect in every conceivable way- and he knows youâd say just the same about him, would still find new ways to compliment him once you ran out of words.
Despite the languid pace, it doesnât take long for Hyunjin to feel close again- heâs already cum once, and the sensitivity he feels from it in combination with the way your walls squeeze him is impossibly overwhelming. He squeezes you closer, his chest pressed against yours, his face burying its way into your neck. You can tell how close he is, from the way he twitches and throbs inside you, to the way he gasps and moans close to your ear.Â
Wanting to cum again with him, you move your dominant hand between your bodies, finding your clit with your fingers. When Hyunjin feels what youâre doing, he separates from you enough to watch, looking between your bodies to watch the way your fingers move. Your walls start to squeeze him tighter as you work yourself close to your release, and he canât help but groan, hips picking up speed as he chases his orgasm with you.Â
Your noises grow louder once he picks up his pace, and youâre sure the guards outside your room have realized whatâs happening- but neither of you can bring yourselves to care about containing yourselves anymore. You cum in tandem with one another- Hyunjin first, a strained groan of your name passing his lips as his cum shoots deep inside you, the feeling of it sending you over the edge with him.Â
Both of you are breathless and hot, with hearts thumping the hardest they ever have, but he kisses you regardless, paying no mind to his desperate need to catch his breath. He brings one of his hands to your face, caresses it as he kisses you, and still after he pulls away. He looks at you with such pure affection, soft admissions of love and tender care softly spoken for only you to hear.Â
Even after he carefully pulls out, he sticks close to your side, holding you close in his arms, refusing to leave you to go back to his own room. This is his place now- with you, listening to your soft breaths and stroking your head as sleep begins to take you. His own eyes quickly grow heavy, your warmth inviting, and he knows heâll soon fall asleep with you. He whispers his affections, his love for you and how happy he is, knowing that this night is just one of many perfect nights youâll continue to share in the future.Â
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ingrid x mapi x reader fluff + angst. r and mapi try to get to the bottom of what's going on with ingrid. wasn't positive i was going to write this but anything for @sunnyaelia
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When Ingrid woke, she didnât open her eyes right away. She was much too comfortable, a soft blanket draped over her body, her face pressed comfortably into Mapiâs sweatshirt. She could feel your hands on her back, slipped up under the shirt youâd pulled on her. Your hands were smoother than Mapiâs, mindlessly stroking up and down. She could hear you both talking quietly, too, and the sounds of your voices were like some kind of soothing drug. You were mostly just talking about nothing, but a question Mapi posed caught her attention.Â
âHow does your head feel?â She asked softly, brushing some hair back away from your forehead.Â
Honestly, it didnât feel good. It was pulsing with a headache that you knew was from exerting yourself too much, from the rush of endorphins and chemicals in your brain. The pressure inside your skull was intense, and though it wasnât very pleasant, you didnât mind much. Not if the cause had made your girlfriend this relaxed in Mapiâs arms.Â
âOkay.â You lied, not wanting to draw attention away from Ingrid for even a moment.Â
âHow does your head feel?â Mapi asked again, frowning this time as she could tell you werenât telling the truth.Â
âItâs been better.â You allowed, your eyes fluttering shut at the feeling of Mapi gently running a finger over your forehead.Â
âAmor,â
âHow is your knee?â You countered. Mapi rolled her eyes.Â
âDo not change the subject. You should have told me it was bothering you.âÂ
âI was fine. Ingrid needed this. Itâs worth it, if she feels better.â You argued back. Mapi had a hard time coming up with a dissenting response, because honestly, sheâd do almost anything to make Ingrid feel better, too. Instead, she turned her attention to the woman draped over her, her lips pulling into an involuntary smile at the sight.Â
âShe looks relaxed.â Mapi murmured, taking in the perfection of Ingridâs face, a perfection she never got tired of looking at.Â
âIâm worried sheâs going to go back to how she was before when she wakes up. Acting like sheâs fine, running herself into the ground. Itâs a miracle she hasnât picked up an injury yet, MarĂa, we canât let her go on like this.âÂ
Mapi hummed her agreement, and Ingrid felt her heart clench. It wasnât her intention to make you guys worry, really the opposite. She wanted to take care of everything possible so that neither of you had to worry. She wanted to play so well, it instilled confidence in the team that the back line was secure. She wanted to be a leader. She wanted to be dependable. She wanted to be perfect, perfect for both of you.Â
The realization that she hadnât been able to do this for you stung, and she felt tears welling in her eyes before she could do anything to stop it. Both you and Mapi noticed her stiffen slightly, and the way her eyes scrunched together told you all you needed to know. Before either of you could speak, Ingrid was forcing her eyes open, a devastated green looking up at you.Â
âIâm sorry Iâve been worrying you,â she whispered, her forehead creasing with sadness.Â
âYou donât need to say sorry for that, amor.â Mapi promised.Â
Ingrid shook her head, biting her lip as it trembled, so hard she almost seemed angry with herself for crying. âNo, you both have more important things to worry about than me, Iâm okay.âÂ
âWe have nothing more important to worry about than you, Ingrid. Nothing. Donât say stuff like that because it isnât true.â You said, unable to hide how upset her statement made you, and wondering how you and Mapi had messed up so badly that Ingrid was so convinced that she wasnât important. âYou are the most important thing to us.âÂ
The pure disbelief on Ingridâs face felt like a bullet through the heart. The Norwegian always came across as so confident, so sure of herself. This façade tricked the whole world into thinking she believed it, and it had tricked the two of you too. This realization stunned you into silence, briefly, a silence that Ingrid frantically tried to fill.Â
âNo, no, youâre both hurt. I need to take care of you, I need to make sure you both are okay. Let me up, please, MarĂa, I need to get her some ice for her head.â Ingrid sniffled, fighting the tight embrace Mapiâs arms had her in. The Spaniard shook her head firmly, but looked at you with concern.Â
âLove, Iâm okay, I promise you.â You implored.Â
âYou need me.â Ingrid repeated brokenly.Â
Slowly, you nodded, eyes searching her pained expression. âI do need you. I always need you. You need us too, though. Can you let us take care of you?âÂ
âI donât need to be taken care of,â she began, only growing more teary eyed when Mapi cut her off.Â
âStop, amor, stop lying. You said earlier you feel the most stressed you have ever felt in your life. Forgot about my knee for a minute, forget about her head. We are okay, but we need you to be okay too. Itâs okay for you to need us.â Â
Ingrid shook her head rapidly. âNo. I canât need you.â
âWhy not, princesa?â Mapi asked, in a soft tone of voice she reserved for you and Ingrid. Her gaze was beyond gentle as she regarded the Norwegian women, one tattooed hand cradling a freckled cheek.
 âI canât need you because you both deserve so much better than me, I donât deserve to be loved by you.â she said quietly, rushing the words out as if theyâd been swirling around in her head for some time. She missed the anger that flashed across Mapiâs face, but you didnât. You felt the same way, honestly. You wanted to seek out whatever had made her feel like this, but you had a feeling that the trail would just lead you back to her. Perfect, beautiful, kind Ingrid. You couldnât shout the insecure part of her away, it wouldnât work. So, you rested a hand on Mapiâs shoulder to calm her, but it seemed that she had reached the same conclusion that you had.
âMi princesa,â she whispered roughly. âI could spend 100 lifetimes loving you and it wouldnât be enough. I do not care what you think I deserve. I love you. I want you. You do not need to earn my love, mi princesa. You have it. Always. For the rest of your life, for the rest of time. You just have it.âÂ
Ingrid pushed her face into Mapiâs sweatshirt, her tears quietly soaking into the soft fabric. She looked so unlike herself, all broken and small. She clearly craved the reassurance, but was terrified to accept it.Â
You swallowed thickly, running your hand through her thick hair in an effort to get her to look at you. She didn't look up, but you spoke anyway. âIngrid, where is this coming from? Did we do something to make you feel like this?âÂ
Her voice was muffled but still audibly distraught when she replied. âNo, I know you love me. I know you want me. I just⊠I don't always understand why. All I can see are my flaws, all the things I do wrong, and I hate myself for them. If I let you take care of me⊠youâll see them too.âÂ
It was so absurd, you wanted to laugh. You didnât, though. You just took a deep breath, thinking that the agonized expression on Mapiâs face probably matched yours right now.
 âIngrid⊠I donât know what flaws you see in yourself. You are as close to perfection as I have ever seen a person get.â You rolled your eyes at Mapiâs slight pout at your statement. âAnything you consider to be a flaw⊠it's miniscule in the scale of how much we love you. We want you to need us. You donât need to be completely put together all the time. You donât need to suffer by yourself just because you deem your stressors insignificant in comparison to ours.â
âAmor, you can always lean on us. Even if my knee is fucked. I donât need two working legs to take care of you. There is no flaw, nothing in the world that you could do that would make us not want you. That would make us see you any differently than we do now. You are ours. That will never change, mi amor, never.âÂ
You were startled to see tears welling in Mapiâs eyes, but you understood. It was painful to see someone you loved so much feel so awful, and keep it from you. It was painful to realize youâd missed something because you were too wrapped up in yourself to pay enough attention and realize what was going on sooner.Â
âWe have to do better, sĂ? It is not enough to tell you that we love you. We have to remind you of why, and we will, mi princesa, I promise you We will.â Mapi whispered, her voice thick with emotion, and holding a quiet promise, one that was clear to Ingrid. And really, if anyone could fix this horrible way of thinking she knew she shouldnât engage in, it would be the two of you.Â
âTomorrow is Ingrid day.â You declared. âWeâll do whatever you want. Weâll spend the whole day telling you what we love about you, if thatâs what it takes.âÂ
Ingrid let out a choked laugh, allowing Mapi to gently wipe her tears off her face. âI just want to stay here. And lay with you both. Can we do that?â She asked shyly.Â
âOf course we can.â MarĂa smiled. âWhatever you want, princesa, I mean it.âÂ
Ingrid turned her attention to you, allowing some worry to creep back into her gaze. âI want you to rest tomorrow, too.âÂ
âI will, if that makes you happy.â You promised, smiling softly at her, a smile she returned.Â
âYou both are perfect.â She said, looking between the two of you like she couldnât quite believe her luck.Â
âThen you are perfect, too. Beautiful.â Mapi leaned up to press a kiss to Ingridâs lips, murmuring each word in between kisses. âKind. Hardworking. Perfect, amor. So perfect.âÂ
You were glad to see the blush on Ingridâs cheeks, knowing that it meant youâd both gotten through to her, at least a little bit. The Norwegian settled her face into Mapiâs neck, her hand reaching out to twist into your shirt and pull you closer. You fit in next to them so easily. You always would, and so would they. Because maybe you werenât all actually perfect. You were, however, perfect for each other.Â
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this was physically painful to write for no reason and it's short but the words were not flowing. it's done now though and i hope you all like :)
#ingrid engen x mapĂ leon#mapi leon x ingrid engen x reader#ingrid engen x reader#mapi leon x reader#woso one shot#woso fanfics#woso imagine
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I know the show isn't out yet but Stayed Gone is stuck in my head and I'm chugging my yandere Vox juice so hard right now. I think he has the capacity to be absolutely insufferable
---for starters THE SPYING POTENTIAL WITH THIS MAN. You're telling me he can directly plug himself in to the city power grid and see through all televisions, potentially even phones and computers too? Could he put himself on your phone and start going through your texts? Could he even just put himself on your phone real quick while you're sleeping to check in on you? You couldn't even have privacy in your own home because of whatever screens are around he could potentially shoot himself to or watch you through. Imagine just being in your apartment completely alone and he's suddenly on your tv. Like what if you had just been sitting there topless or with your dick out or something or đ I mean. He could see so much, really...
---God honestly like. You know I keep mentioning the Instagram without ever attaching pics or anything because I'm on mobile and I'd have to use the hazbin Instagram archive blogs here on tumblr to go find them back like, you know Val would openly post the meanest shit, would literally post Vox's face being busted up because he woke Val up from a nap or i think it was he literally just brought him the wrong soda (which to be fair was taken from Velvet and was half empty), and then you go over to Vox's account and his pic was taping his pieces back on while being really frustrated and kinda lowkey looking like he would cry
Like Val's out here "women are stupid also men are stupid too" and talking about how he adopted a dog and killed it within like 48 hours and here's Vox celebrating his pet's birthday with cake and a party like. Why are these men together. Why. Why. Don't get me wrong I love to be the involuntary third in a toxic codependency but--
look all I'm saying is... do any of you get really really upset when you see someone being mistreated, especially more so a friend of yours?
READER JUST LOSING THEIR SHIT GETTING FERAL ANGRY SHOUTING AND SCREAMING AT VAL BECAUSE HE PULLS SOME SHIT and like that's IT for you because 1. Valentino might like actually backhand you one as well, do you think he wears rings so it hurts, 2. Vox sees you defending him and like, it's based on your own preferences really but if he wasn't already gaga this CEMENTS it and 3. especially if he watches you have to take a blow for trying to stick up for him. Like what if you cry. I have a low pain threshold, I'd be sniveling and crying at the least. Valentino storms off and Vox is helping peel you off the floor cause you curled up into a ball or some shit and he's sitting there thinking "wow they suck at this but they still did it for me đ„ș"
---during his song with Alastor, it's a little confusing because they show an actual camera crew when he's turning the TVs on, but i think it's pretty clear that he can control whatever the screens show visually, thus his little zany sketches and being able to talk to himself and at one point, showed the visual of himself blocking the radio Alastor was projecting on right next door. I can just see him using this to kind of.... fuck with you, really! Or do whatever he wants? He's trying to suck up to you and he's surrounded by roses, or you're his co-host/guest host and he thinks your joke was funny and gives a little audience laughter as a treat
Or you know... you're running from him down the street, passing all these different screens and displays as they power on and show things like, him "jumping in front of you" while demanding you stop or, trying to show some kind of blackmail publicly, or just, begging you to just ACCEPT HIM and showing you all the fun things he could do with you, "cmon, I said I was sorry, stop freaking the fuck out! We can- we can do that thing you've always wanted to do, what about that?!" as he tries to project you two doing something fun, but most importantly, doing it TOGETHER. You're running from him terrified and he's showing you images of like you two smiling and happy or, it becomes scarier as he's more desperate
"Don't-don't make me do something fucked up!! I'm serious, STOP RUNNING" and he's like freaking out, showing shit of trying to hold you down, tying you up, and/or shoving you into a locked room
Sudden thoughts of "what if the more emotional and unstable he becomes, the less he can control his intrusive thoughts and shows his more impulsive darker desires". He's tweeking and the screen glitches and you briefly think you see yourself completely restrained, blindfolded, gagged--
---he's just like OBVIOUSLY so prideful but also immature and whiny ("who gives a shit about alastor?" Well you, mr hes just quietly minding his own business and I'LL start beef because i feel threatened and STILL LOSE, like awww my poor little pogchamp got publicly humiliated in an argument HE started out of nowhere, he's my little sad wet baby lmaoooo) and we already know his relationship with Val can become physically abusive, so, you pair him staying in that kind of relationship, being codependent, with this personality of his, and I can just see.... ACTUALLY FUCKING TRIGGERED LIKE LITERALLY CRYING UPSET VOX BECAUSE YOU REJECTED HIM like he's pissed he's hurt he's lonely he's heartbroken and HELL NO IS HE GONNA ACCEPT THIS
Vox would be over here proudly claiming on his TV show that NO HE REJECTED Y O U, not the other way around! He's not upset! He's totally fine! Meanwhile everyone watching can tell this man is manic and visibly hotboxing copium, "I didn't even really like you anyways!!.... no, I mean, shit, fuck, COMMERCIAL BREAK--" *cut to technical difficulties screen because the man is CRYINGGG*
-- Valentino and Reader bonding over teasing Vox and making him flustered and of course, obviously, the inverse. I still kinda like the idea of "they both think you're cute but like nothing exciting until one night they bump into you unplanned and you're all dressed up". Like Val is from the 70s or 80s so they go to a roller rink disco whatever kinda place because I'm sure the coke game there is INSANE and you're just like, swaying your hips spinning around to Let It Whip or September or something dressed in some shorts that make your ass look just right đ€
You're sneaking back into the studio after a night out and they're both lounging somewhere and Val's like "uhhhh who is THIS coming in without saying hi to Daddy?" and you pull your sunglasses down like "SIR??? đł" And now HE'S flustered because he didn't know that was you and Vox is feeling some new kinda way because he's used to seeing you in like, your work uniform or casual wear
Val who then makes your work uniform really slutty and you have to serve him and Vox wearing it đ©â€ïž
---I have this thought of like lmao imagine walking down the sidewalk with Angel and seeing Vox on TV and Angel is like "ya know he can see everything outta dese things when he's plugged in" and you're like "bullshit, he couldn't possibly process that many screens at once, it'd overload his brain, he wouldnt be able to concentrate" and you're like "here I'll prove it, hey Vox, check it out you fucking dweeb" and flash him your bare titties or you MOON HIM
scenario A would be that he INSTANTLY barks out laughing, "hey Val, that dumb slut who brings you drinks just flashed me!" And he just totally shows it on the air, maybe partially censored, maybe not at all, your phone is ringing IMMEDIATELY, of COURSE it's Val, and Vox is broadcasting your mortified embarrassed expression, "our big story tonight: drunk bimbo fucks around and finds out! More updates after this word from our sponsor!" and the man will noooootttttttt stop bullying the fuck out of you afterwards, because he's got a crush on you and you're like someone weaker than him his insecure ass can punch down on
Scenario B is that he instantly turns pink and about 5 seconds later he blue screens and the entire city experiences a blackout and when he comes back on the air he's like stammering and, glancing at, it FEELS like he keeps glancing at you, but, is he really?
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I dunno... like I'm sure Valentino is gonna wind up being unstable in his own way but I guess there's a certain, ALLURE to Vox being a little bratty and whiny while also having these very VERY handy, actually quite scary abilities and resources đ like boy show me what that screen do đ«đŠ
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