#but for now pls enjoy whatever this is
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I love Companion Benny. I love the idea that he gets huffy-puffy and “just a little” jealous if you switch him out for another companion. He simply cannot cope with the fact that you’d toss him aside like yesterday’s trash for… what, some scribe in rags? A boring-ass first recon guy? A vaquero ghoul? (ok he thinks Raul is kinda cool actually but he won’t openly admit that)?? Benny has STORIES, baby. Interest. Intrigue. You wanna know all the juicy strip gossip? Guess what, you CANT now because you DISMISSED him. How DARE you.
Benny is VERSATILE, baby. His tagged skills are guns, melee, and unarmed. Good luck finding another companion that can do what he can. Yeah Craig “Frowns” Boone can headshot a cazador from a million yards away or whatever, *mumbling* show-off, he would’ve seen that cazador eventually *end mumbling* but Benny can shoot, stab, AND punch. Hey courier, watch this. I’m gonna punch the fuck out of this deathclaw. He does it (you gotta administer a few stimpaks) BUT HE DID IT. And he was only at half health. 400+ health honeybaby, Benny can take a few whacks from those deathclaw freaks. What was that? Showing off? Benny doesn’t have to show off, sugar plum. He’s just that good.
He also won’t complain that his feet are getting tired. Yeah he’ll complain about minor inconveniences and wants you to do something about them regardless if you realistically can or not, but at least he’ll walk miles upon miles in a day and not complain. He also won’t complain about going back to the Lucky 38. (he’ll just complain about not being able to get in there before the Courier showed up.) What, no one else complains about their feet hurting? Uhhhh BOOT-RIDERS. Silly name. But that’s how they rode the Mojave, dig? On their feet. He’s done this before. Experienced.
AND ANOTHER THING. how many companions shout words of encouragement during a fight. Go on. He’s waiting.
You’re doing great, baby! Show these punk losers what you got!!
I bet all the caps in Vegas you’ll miss that while getting shot to shit by the Fiends or whatever. Grumble. Benny hopes you come back in one piece, of course. He’d just rather see to it himself that you remain in one piece. Uhh BECAUSE HE’S JUST THAT GR-
(The courier left with their choice of companion hours ago. Swank is trying to work but Benny won’t stop gabbing his ear off. Dear god Benny just go be the Head of The Chairmen somewhere else. Swank is trying to do actual work here.)
#benny gecko#fnv benny#fnv#fallout new vegas#benny fnv#swank#fnv swank#craig boone#veronica santangelo#raul tejada#this post wasn’t supposed to get this long uhhhh#I’m trying to write Sadie and Benny’s dynamic to finally get it out of my head and onto paper#but the Benny brainrot fully took hold lol#wtf.txt#this is INCREDIBLY tongue in cheek btw pls dont think this extreme over the top nonsense is how i see benny SHDHD#though i DO stand behind him being jealous af and complaining to swank about it as if he wasnt jealous (he is)#i just love benny sm i'll write a more nuanced post abt him at some point im sure!#but for now pls enjoy whatever this is
456 notes
·
View notes
Text
god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 266#jjk leaks#fr anon thank u fr the request i am once again emo thinking abt them#n denial fv....god end me put me out of my misery#itfs context makes the lyrics more . healing n hopeful as opposed to wistful and lonely :'<#'everything around me looks so different now / yet everything about me wants to show you around'#PLS PLS PSLPSSLPS ILL CRY ILL DO ITTTTT#anyway emo hours aside original plan was striped shirt yuuji but i gave up smile#put him in white t shirt jail yet again sighs i feel like i do tht with him so often.....#like kid megu that's just his canon outfit but yuuji i wanted 2 get a bit more creative. task failed :(#hes got mismatched socks n scuffed knees but thats abt it#i often think abt how in official art they always put gojo in a gd white t shirt and i go smh but then here i go#pot kettle etc etc#megumi voice whatever!!!!! white tshirt in sunlight Looks Good sue me#pls enjoy them :'> anon i hope i delivered
950 notes
·
View notes
Note
*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*
Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.
You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah
I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender
…..I made the moodboard….
#chapter 37#of 120 or something#I must be like 90k words in haha#large word count is not an intimidation. It’s an invitation haha#I love the fics that I can’t read in just one hour:)#I gotta say I don’t enjoy the concept of making robots into organic life#it’s just my preference#seeing them as humans or animals or whatever feels so fucking wrong#the concept itself drives me off#like. Strongly#But at the same time. This fic isn’t about them being ‘haha cute organics’#it’s ‘oh god. I was turned into something I’m not’#instead of teeheee they’re fluffy#it’s please free me from this fucking nightmare. please let me be myself again.#idk how to explain. I resonate I guess#it often feels very disturbing but the characters are also disturbed#So now I’m kind of stuck reading this fic because I just can’t stop lol#just politely skipping the parts that make me too uncomfortable#also#the body horror is….damn. Impressive. I didn’t expect to read about grotesque fleshy creature turning itself inside out#it’s not even aesthetic or symbolic#it literally looks like a fucking nightmare. Which is impressive also.#the flesh is g r o s s#the beginning got me struggling and skipping#but the intermission is currently ruining my sleep schedule#oh fuck….I usually send my posts to the authors of the fics I read…..but I feel like I might offend the author of Ninth if do this……..#there’s a tiny chance they’re following me….if it’s true then I wanna tell I’m sorry pls don’t take this seriously#your fic got me waay out of my comfort zone#huge points for writing Ratchet. Drift in this fic is…the grossest fucking thing I could probably imagine but Ratchet doesn’t even hesitate#he helps him and he cares for him. Which is…..imma be real my first instinct would be to set Drift on fire to end his misery
348 notes
·
View notes
Text
// pentiment spoilers (implied ig but still there)
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/b3d5e4c1c525eef5d715ce9db426d224/51d27b86ef74a1b1-dc/s500x750/ed8f92778fee509952cbdbf42d0fed3a4f11ae31.jpg)
more of these because i was inspired
#i hope you guys see my vision on some of these#the claus and andreas one could also work the other way around i feel#also unrelated but why is there like no father thomas content out there sorry#will be talking abt big spoilers here btw#but like i loved him in my first playthrough idk if i was dumb but i thought he was nice and neeever suspected him#even now i can still appreciate him although i do not ‘like’ him for obvious reasons but i enjoy spinning him around in my head#anyway idk ig i was expecting to see more stuff abt him online like posts or fanart or whatever but there’s like nothing !?#to the like 2 people who’ve made fanart of him and/or a discussion post about him pls know u are everything to me#anyway sorry idk when tags became father thomas discussion time but i have a lot to say abt him tbh#pentiment#pentiment spoilers#andreas maler#father gernot#father thomas#brother mathieu#brother rudeger#ok too lazy to tag them all sorry guys#can write about father thomas for 6 long tags but can’t tag like 7 characters
304 notes
·
View notes
Text
DomBottom x SubTop
Yup, Mac actually fucks Dennis
#macdennis#sugar daddy au#pretend dennis isnt supposed to be like 22 in that scene#i didnt wanna use a photo of glenn ooc lol#mac baby...#enjoy guys pls enjoy i hope its good tell me im good#this one im nervous about for like quality idk#rahhhh ok whatever its published#let me go die now
101 notes
·
View notes
Text
silly viera wol alt go brrr
#it's my birthday-week so I get to draw whatever silly thing I please#so fav wol alt it is#my fluffy viera boi milou#he's just a silly guy lol#sketchy lazy messiness galore yay#composition is literal ass but I didn't wanna make it bigger than I had to so rotating and overlapping it is wooh#consistency is overrated and so are accurate ears#also his eyebrows while still striking are not nearly as magnificent as this ingame which is a shame but ig it'd be hard to make work#in the animu style on a bunboi so fair enough#also the fluffy hair square really need to figure out how to make curly hair work like yesterday and not just the wavy stuff like pls#honestly he looks kinda just like the most basic of bunguys ingame but it's fine I know in my heart what his vibes really are#which is just a silly guy doing his best given the situation he's in with all the responsibility of world saving thrust upon him#as it is with most wol's really I'm sure ha#also he sounds like corpse bc of course he does bc vibes lmao#anyways enough ranting enjoy or don't it's whatever#I sure will and that's enough at the end of the day in this case specifically lmaooo#ffxiv viera#wol#just viera things#I draw what I want#now off to hopefully be more productive artwise this year fingers crossed yeehaw
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
writing about my elden ring oc has been my comfort thing for the last two years but since this dlc i genuinely can’t bring myself to enjoy it anymore. miquella, the haligtree and even malenia feel so different to me now
#i can’t even daydream about it at work it’s that bad#miquella especially has been ruined for me i don’t think there’s any coming back from that#like i said before i’m okay with the direction his story took#i’m okay with everything apart from the dumb consort bs#but learning the caelid war happened because radahn had to die to get resurrected as his husbando is fucking wild#it just makes them all feel so lame i’m sorry#the fact that no one predicted any of this too despite this community have the most thorough lore theorists i’ve ever seen#the fandom coming up with far better theories for this and then all we get is a 17 yrs yaoi fanfic type ending#prime man being reduced to nothing but a victim and miq is some kind of predator#while malenia is the enabler#holy shit this sucks#this might actually be the death of elden ring for me i just can’t really enjoy it anymore#i mean maybe that’s a good thing i’ve been to obsessed with this game for too long#pls don’t come at me telling me im wrong or whatever. this is how i feel and maybe over time things will change#but right now i’m just struggling to appreciate these characters the same way i used to
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
can i be real with u all. totally uncontroversial opinion incoming but james hetfield and kirk hammett can totally still Get It. like ik im on the Fucking Old Men website but like. woof.
#theyre not even that old like in their early 60s maybe? but jeeez i think theyre actually hotter now than when they were young#why yes i DID spend a decent chunk of the night staring at james' ass why do u ask#ANYWAYSSS metallica was awesomeeeeee except 4 how the dude behind me totally shoved his way in front of me and on2 the barrier#like as soon as they started. and he kept nlicking my view with his elbow while recording :/ like cmon dude.#*blocking (idek how i fucked that word up so bad)#i kno u 'want the memories' but i would like MY memories of the show 2 not just be ur phone screen or ur big elbow. fuckin tuck that shit in#just like. a total dick move. but whatever#fun times tho besides that! i enjoyed friday more bc it seemed a lil more rowdy n i enjoy a bit of that#like im not gettin in the pit ever but pit-adjacent? hell yeah gettin a lil shoved around is half the fun!#plus it means every1 around u is actually Into The Music n rockin out! instead of being like a vibeless statue holding their phone up#like a few short clips n pics here n there is fine but u kno theyre gonna put the whole show on yt probably so like.... chill. pls.
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
ah, so the misophonia is part of the sensory processing disorder + etc. of course.
#misophonia#okay now that im where im coming from here:#does anyone else get Murderous when they hear lawnmowers/leafblowers/etc#like instant anger. not minor annoyance but This is about to Ruin the next few hours for me#like if someone was trying to get me to join the dark side or whatever but i was in firm disagreement until That Motor revs up#i want to enjoy the sounds of spring and summer but instead its fuck BRBRBRBRBRBRBRRBRRRBRBRBRBRBRRBRBRBRBRRRR#ALL THE DAMN DAY#its fucking night time rn;#its fucking RAINING#and i have a neighbor whos mowing her lawn#shes about ot get evicted out of this house w this giant ass lawn that only she lives in but shes MOWING HER FUCKING LAWN USING OUR POWER#i want all mowers and leaf blowers to explode forever#SHES FUCKING SITTING STILL ON HER PHONE RUNNING THE WORLDS LOUDEST SINGLE PASSENGER VEHICLE#AND I CANT FUCKING TELL HER TO HAVE A LICK OF SELF AWARENESS BC I HAVE FUCKING COVID SO I CANT LEAVE MY ROOM OR CLOSE MY WINDOWS#i swear to fucking god pls get me out of hereeeeeeee#my ears hurt so bad rn i wanna cry#thats all its been for htese days of isolation: mower after mower after mower after mower#i just wanna hear the wind! or the rain! or the birds! or the frogs! OR NOTHING!!!!#i cant fucking sleep thru it either ;;;;;;;;;;;;;#and whenever i describe this frustration no one in my family really sympathizes#they ask if ive tried my headphones which is would be helpful if i hadnt tried and failed w that for years#they just shrug and say 'well it has to be done' BUT WHY DO PPL 'NEED' TO MOW THEIR LAWNS EVERY FUCKING DAY#okay shes done now. at 9 fucking pm. ill be done now
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#swiftie mutuals and followers pls stop reading lmao#and like#no me funen por favor#but the thing is i dont dislike taylor swift or her music#i think its generic and bland for the most part and way too overrated#but i mean its objectively good music#and it might be generic but it sells and it has a good beat so like yeah#but jfc why are swifties like that lmao#taylor is not the best songwriter or singer or artist or composer of the universe#never has been never will be#but yall just put her up in a pedestal like she's something out of this universe#but her music sounds exactly like any other soft pop with indie ish roots#and not that there's anything inherently bad with that#but she's just not as great as everyone makes her up to be#and im fucking exhausted of swifties making everything about taylor being the best or whatever#i feel like knowing the way swifties are makes me not enjoy listening to taylor on the radio or smth like that#like chill the fuck out guys#shes not the mesiah she's not aoty lmao#there's nothing wrong with liking her and her music but tone it down will you#i will now log off and pray i dont get hate for this
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm awake again. Unfortunately.
#text post#more nightmares and im even grumpier now!! and my brain still doesn't want to let me do anything or enjoy anything rn#apologies y'all. im trying and it's not working and maybe i just have to accept this weekend is a wash for me#it happens and it's fine there'll be other weekends#i just really wish my brain was cooperating for this one#(and while well meaning pls no one send the 'dont say its ur brain' post again. bc i have been attempting the tips on that post already)#(and as u can see they aren't working for me and rather have made me grumpier still so just. u mean well & i appreciate it but pls dont)#a few ppl send it every time i dare to complain or whinge abt anything on here vs just posting this all to my vent blog#but like. this is my main i should b able to also post here even if im feeling fussy like#whatever. they don't care how i actually feel they want me to shut up. so im shutting up and going downstairs to do...idk
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
got the stitches removed from my foot today (heinous experience if you're even slightly squeamish about medical things btw) and am now gauze- and ace-bandage-free!! weehoo!! still wearing the surgical boot thing for another two weeks but with a naked foot now. once i got home, i used like a gallon of lotion and cuticle oil on my sad aridly dry toes. amazing experience. can't wait to take a normal shower tomorrow and wash my gd foot for the first time since halloween omfg like she's still orange from the iodine (i guess??) used
#imagining this surgery in mid summer when we're all sweatier...sweaty two-week-old gauze...pls nooo#apparently she's healing well and the pain has lessened a lot!!#i basically just get it from walking. which i do a lot of at work ell oh ell#thought i'd be ditching at least the crutch by now but nnnot quite yet#aw well. i (stupidly) spent a good few minutes prodding the incision site to enjoy rhe distinct lack of cyst/tumor/whatever#only lumps are from my bumpy healing incision :')#ann with an ie#FOOT UPDATE FOOT UPDATE WAHHH
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
talking to him more very much achieved. we just talked for like 4 hours in the kitchen holy shit I need to sleep
#I went into the kitchen to wash up wanting it to be a few minutes to get back to my parents by he came home at the same time#unsure what just happened honestly! as in I’m not sure what is going on from his end of the interaction#because I have never met anyone who would just do that before. like four hours straight when before we’d talked for periods of idk 10minutes#and he WAS engaged the whole time#granted he spent a significant amount of time talking. he talked far more than I did which is often the case but Im not sure how I felt here#I think he gets excited abt individual topics and. gets carried away is the wrong word but he gets absorbed in it#he spent a while talking me through the very complex maths he’s been doing recently#(he studies maths. also abt to start masters.) and was assuming a much stronger mathematical background than I have but I understood a bunch#he IS very good at explaining things and I was interested to a point but unfortunately I was not going to ask about individual theorems and#shit like that at 11pm. it was still super interesting I’m not downplaying that but I didn’t know half of what he brought up#there was basically no way I was going to understand much more than the vague concept anyway#anyway! also extremely into food. especially into traditional chinese cooking which is cool as fuck and I now know so much more abt food#I have never personally cared much at all about food. I enjoy when taste good and I enjoy cooking. he’s into the precision cooking#that he told me apparently Chinese and French food is the best in the world at. meant to be amazing at going for specific effects#oh he came back from a musical! apparently abt a woman with bipolar that was on in London I might check what that was. next to normal#cried 7 times. apparently he’s super into stories with that kinda emotional payoff. started telling me later abt tokyo animation#priest if you’re already seeing this I WILL be asking you abt it later but pls tell me whatever. he likes clannad and sound euphorium#bunch of others but those are the ones he talked most abt and started tearing up when he played me a song from clannad where the baby’s born#so I think biggest things I’ve learned are that he’s impressively in touch w his emotions (further damaging the straight guy case)#regardless it’s just nice to talk to a guy who talks abt stuff so openly it’s very refreshing#unsure how cultural differences factor in here. I would’ve expected it to go the other way but possible this is a degree more normal#and he’s very very academically minded. he learned Japanese bc was bored after high school and is doing a WHOLE lot of extra maths for fun#socially definitely very competent he’s very good at talking but a little more focused inward.#definitely did not notice the (admittedly extremely gentle) flirting throughout like when I complimented his bracelet#(this cute gold year of the rat thing his mum got him)#so yeah. was very fun talking to him. will process this for a while#I think this has definitely established that we could be friends if either of us pursue that after summer which is very cool!! will see#luke.txt
0 notes
Text
Bringing back my 2022 personality I now associate with math and hitting people (myself) with pans
#I would give anything for kaveh to whack me on the head with a pan#PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS#sobsobsob#dora daily#kaveh kinda wouldn’t be able to do it so I think alhaitham would do a much better job#not that kaveh isn’t strong he does commissions etc it’s just that he’s “a fungus with empathy😌” or whatever he bragged about#that one time#as an unempath fungus alhaitham is I reckon he would have such a good rhythm to the whacking process#like good focus good aim and very swift#kaveh probably quaking at the thought of hitting someone LOLOLOL#sighhhh WAIT NOT THAT IM SAYING ALHAITHAM ENJOYS HITTING PPL NAUR IM JUST SAYING EMPATHY WONT HOLD HIM BACK AS MUCH AS KAVEH CAUSE I’d ask#him to hit me very politely and he would whack me politely in return <3#fair exchange#oughhhh pls I need to actually be whacked now idc by who just dew ittttt#guys every day I check her account like multiple times a day I open my other account praying hoping stupidly that she would interact with me#or remember me#waaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#guys what if she remembers me months later TRUSTTTTTTTT SHE WOULD RIGHT ???#like by the end of this year at least she would remember me once and say hi …?#surely one year is enough for me to cross her mind RIGHT ??#guys pls#🥲
1 note
·
View note
Text
...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈
#i just spent like an hour writing and rewriting a post trying to explain myself amd its just so hard to put into words#im bored here but not in a ew not enough content for the dopamine hit shit#in like a every time i scroll through I dont smile I dont see anything that makes me happy at all i dont get a laugh or anything#its just mindless brain rotting scrolling nothing wasting my time hoping maybe ill see a new artist to follow or something#and every time its nothing#so much nothing taking up so much of my time and space in my life and i already dont have a lot of time to begin with#ive made some awesome friends here ive had lovers from here ive had people who are no longer on this earth from here who ill never forget#i dont think ive really enjoyed anything on here in 7 years#ive left before for a really long time i think like a year or more or something#and i wont be totally unreachable of people message me ill respond but im so sick of this stupid app taking up my life#and all i ever get out of it is getting mad or getting depressed over shit that really is t worth my mental state over#all i ever feel on here is that the world fuckin sucks and theres not even anything here to make hanging around worth it#im not new to this site making me suicidal for an abundance of reasons and im luckily in a spot where i wont actually hurt myself#its just ideation and intrusive thoughts but its a pattern i cant keep ignoring#also im old tumblr im old tumblr and i think i will always be old tumblr im just not catching on to new shit anymore#the fact im even saying anything about a hiatus should show how pld tumblr i am no one does this anymore lol#i just don't want to be here anymore i dont really want to be anywhere online anymore tbh#its always something and i cant mentally keep up with it anymore i have too much going on in my life#my wife is having cancer removed on Tuesday im a lead teacher who has to take care of i think 8 babies now#i have problems i have actual problems that need me and need me to be as there as i can be#i cant be spiraling over stuff online on top of real world problems im in no position to do anything about on top of personal life problems#that are drastically affecting my life at home and hurting my family and loved ones#i have a mass in my thyroid which is so big i choke to the point i stop breathing if I dont have my meds i throw up all day#i have to see a neurologist because at best i have a pinched nerve at worst im having seizures and i might have to move states again#i dont have it in me to come on here and see stuff that makes me upset for the chance i might see something i like#and i can unfollow people and whatever but I dont have the energy or time to sift through people i follow on here#if you want to talk in dms or asks or you want to send me posts pls by all means continue to do so thats fine#but i think i need to take the app out of my line of sight again for a bit and just be in the moment again same with twitter#anyways i love yall i promise i am safe and not in harms way im just stressed af and i have got to start cutting things out that#arent doing anything other then making me miserable
1 note
·
View note
Text
eaouuugh
#corpse husband#amongus#I guess#help me pls#I've forgotten how to draw people that aren't fnf shaped#iiidk brainron not wanting to leave me alone#I know it's just 2 unfinished things plus a weird bean thingamajig but eh#maybe I'm worried if I don't upload I'll procastinate and won't end up producing anything cause I know I won't finish these doodles#and I started to not like the previous corpse attempt much I guess bc the teeth were so lame#so more teeth for better or worse yeehaw#idk if there'll be more corpse art or not tbh maybe I should just doodle more beans cause then I can draw his cute lil friends aswell#like a green sykkuno bean and a red rae bean and the rest aswell maybe ahh the possibilities lol#cause I probably won't draw anyone else otherwise bc learning how to draw more actual people is too much dang effort tbh ha ah well#k will stop rambling about nothing now ok cool#so enjoy more amongus ish corpse attempts or do not it's whatever#among us#I draw what I want#feel free to ignore nws ha#more bombeep and regular stuff soon hopefully fingers crossed#stream 'Never Satisfied' on spotify bc idk good music and also yelling ha#anyways laters k bye
118 notes
·
View notes