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A Symphony In Crimson
Act 1: A Movement in Black
Chapter 5
You're on the third floor again, just about to pick up the keyknife again. You found that book in the secret library for that craft to shield you all.
You think that will be enough, but you don’t know. You have no idea what other tricks the king has. Still, your all-sadness diet is starting to kick in, and the smell of your party is starting to get a touch distracting.
It should be fine though.
You enter the room with the change god statue, and as the party prays, you do too. You don’t know for sure if they’ll give you the dagger a second time, but you hope they’ll open the path in some form again at least. You still don’t have a better option...
In a flash of light, the Keyknife re-appears in your hands! As you all are hurtled back to the entrance, you watch the rest of your party confused. You're still surprised as well!
✦ “Thank you. I won’t let you down.”
As you prepare to cut open the door, a thought occurs to you. If this dagger’s power can cut through the kings hair, maybe it can also hurt the king better? But...
◉ “Something up Siffrin?”
✦ “Just noticed the blade is dull. It can cut us through, but it’ll break doing so.”
▲ “Maybe you could sharpen it? You did grab that sharpening stone on the first floor.”
You did! You were planning to sharpen your normal dagger to hurt a little more, but this seems a much better use!
✦ “Right! That just leaves some water to dampen the stone.”
You could do so without it, but it could degrade the dagger, and you wouldn’t want that. Just in case!
◆ “We have some crafted water. A bit costly, but given it’s clearly not a normal blade, might be worth it.”
✿ “No problem! Here you go!”
As Bonnie hands you the bottle, you carefully coat the stone and begin sharpening… Ok, that’s odd.
▲ “Huh, not doing much. Maybe it’s cause of it’s blessing?”
◆ “Hm… The water has also been drained of craft energy. We’ll likely need something with more craft energy in it to work. But, I don’t think we have anything like that.”
Hm… You do have one idea. It’s not pleasant, but it just might work.
✦ “I think I have something for this, actually.”
The others look rather surprised, as you quietly tuck the empty bottle of craft water under your cloak. Out of sight, you use your claws to cut open one of your tendrils, letting out your inhuman blood, and refilling the vial before closing up the wound.
Pulling out the dark substance, you pour it over the stone and begin sharpening it again. Everyone is surprised to find it sharpens with absolute ease! As you suspected, eating so many sadnesses has saturated your blood with craft energy!
✿ “Woah! What is that stuff!”
Well you can’t tell them, but you have something both close and believable enough to work.
✦ “Sadness blood. Filled with craft energy! Hard to get though.”
They all recoil in shock!
✿ “WHAT”
◉ “W-WHY?!?”
◆ “Why do you even have that?!?”
▲ “HOW do you even have that?!?”
Oh stars, you did not think this through! Quick, come up with something!
✦ “I-I just wanted to see if I could?”
▲ “...I guess? Still, sharpening a gift from the change god with blood, especially from a sadness.…”
...Oh STARS! That IS kinda messed up! Oh no! You really shouldn't be tainting a blessing like this, not with your Monster nature! You REALLY hope the change god isn’t too offended!
✦ “S-Sorry Change God! Oh stars, I really hope it was worth it...”
You take the newly sharpened blade, and slash it across the hair with your full might. And sure enough, it stays intact…
And uh. Kinda breaks the wall a little?!? Wow, that sharpening was effective!
✿ “Holy CRAB! That’s AWESOME!!!”
◆ “I daresay worth the heresy.”
You nod in agreement, still embarrassed, and continue on. The king will fall!
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You stand in front of the king. You play your part the same as last time, and just as before, the king snaps to you, and with a voice dripping with ice, he speaks.
♔ “You….. Bright one…. Do you remember?”
...You have to know...
✦ "Do you?”
♔ “Oh….. Hah..... That is almost fair, I suppose…….."
You guess not then. Neither your loops, nor their home.
♔ ".........In this battle between eternity and the end…… We shall fight…..”
As he lifts himself from the ground, is voice becomes booming, filling the room.
♔ “AND WE SHALL SEE WHICH SIDE THE UNIVERSE FAVORS”
You all pull out your weapons, and the Knifekey hums with power in your gasp. The king prepares their attack, but you have a plan right now. You bet the king doesn’t know that, so maybe you can leverage that to get some information? He basically thinks you’re all already dead.
♔ “… For the sake of the rest of you, I shall be merciful, and give you time to come to terms with the end.”
✦ “Then one question. How did you know?”
The flow of energy towards his hand pauses, as he turns towards you.
♔ “Ohh….. Surprised I recognized you?…… I may only have the endless nightmares….. But after a while…… I noticed details…..”
◆ “(What are they talking about)”
✦ “Like what?”
♔ “Ohhhh….. The others would not be able to notice…. But…..Your voice….. There is always something…… underneath it when you speak, regardless of what form you take….. “
◉ “Huh?”
▲ “Wait, what does that mean??”
Uh oh! You need to distract them now, before they think on it!
Wait, the king’s been charging the attack secretly this whole time!
✦ “Mira, Shield now!”
Mira is surprised, but quickly crafted the shield just before the wave of energy crashes into you all!! It still knocks the wind out of you, but it’s manageable now... The others pick themselves up from the blow.
▲ “Was... that a distraction?”
♔ “Oh…...Oooooohhhhhh………. You're still here…. Good. To the death then.”
You don’t hesitate, charging forwards, tearing a hole through his armor like butter. You smell his blood from the wound, and feel him recoil. That blood smells delicious, you want to- No, focus.
Before he can focus on you, Odile fires off a craft directly into the opening you made. The king strikes back, landing a painful blow onto her! ODILE! Oh, thank goodness, Mirabelle got her back up, Ok. You take the moment to shift your body towards papercraft, mimicking some sadnesses you’ve eaten, and start fighting on instinct while you all have the king off balance.
...Your voice. Of course your voice is a tell! You already struggled with talking, and don’t talk often on the worry you’ll say something wrong and upset people. So of COURSE it’s the one blinding thing that’s still not human! Now that it’s been pointed out, you can’t stop worrying about it...
It’s fine, focus on the battle, and if someone else talks, you’ll just pay attention, see if you can’t figure out how to fix it.
You refocus. The king is looking somewhat injured. And you didn't deviate notably from human while fighting like that! You’re all chipping away at him rather well, and the others are holding out alright. The king begins crying, and tears begin to fill the air.
♔ “Why….. Why must you all still fight?….. You don’t understand!!!!”
▲ “Crying still, huh?”
You hear Bonnie mumble under their breath, before shouting in anger.
✿ “STOP CRYING!!! YOU CAN’T!!! You hurt so many people!!! People who won’t come back unless we beat you!!! My village, my sister, EVERYONE!!! They're all trapped because of YOU!!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CRY!!!!”
...You know why he’s crying. But still, Bonnie’s right. And it’s time he stopped! You take the dagger, and try and get rid of the tears protecting him. But they keep coming!
▲ “Sif! Stop him!”
You nod and Isa uses a defense debuffing craft, making the king unsteady enough for an opening. You go in, dodging through the tears, and leap into his face.
You need to make him lose focus on maintaining those tears! This is less for damage and more show, so it’s time to leverage a little fear factor! You plunge the knife into his shoulder, but have a small piece of you split off and worm it’s way into his body through the gash. It can’t do much with how weak you are, but…
Sure enough, he noticed it and instantly loses it! His hand crashes into the spot your standing, and while you avoid being crushed, the impact still knocks you pretty hard. You fall to the ground, somewhat injured, but watch as he claws at the opening desperately. The tears fall into inanimate water instantly as his concentration drops.
Success! Cheap trick, took some energy, but after that first attack, it’s fair play!
Bonnie tosses you a sour tonic, and you drink it to heal yourself back up. An herbal scent fills the air as Mira and Odile ready paper crafts, and Isa uses his gloves to add paper craft to his strike. You’re still a little weak from that last attack, and can’t muster up anything big, but you still join in, at least to let the Knifekey do some work.
As the king stumbles from the combined blow, he picks himself back up and begins to speak.
♔ “Ohhhhhh…….Why… Why do you all fight against me?”
◉ “What do you mean WHY? After EVERYTHING?”
♔ “Yes…. You all wish to live…. You fight for those you care for…. Do you want to see them die?”
Everyone is taken aback.
✿ “W-What does that mean?”
♔ “Ooohhhhh….. Time kills everything, sooner or later….. They fall apart…. They are forgotten….."
◆ "I suppose, but what does-"
♔ "If time does not move, they will survive…... The Universe itself has given us this chance, to save them all. Are you all willing to let them all die?”
...You don't have a response to that. The others are silent as well. They probably don't believe that but...
Odile suddenly notices the King was secretly charging that devastating attack again! She signals to Mira to craft the shield!
Just in time, the wave hits you all, knocking the wind out of you but leaving you standing. You get up to retaliate, but notice you're moving sluggishly!
The king used a slowing craft on you all in the commotion. You try and use a speed craft to get you all back, but the King instantly freezes you before you can. The others, still slowed, struggle to maneuver so slowed, and the King swipes the battlefield, hurting everyone! No! You have to MOVE!
Mira gets herself back up, and unfreezes you, and you snap your fingers, getting you all back up to speed. You then channel extra craft into a flick of your wrist towards Odile, and her awareness quickly perks up! You're running low, but it's worth it as she throws out a potent paper craft.
Bonnie throws out a Pepper juice, and as you all feel the strength flow through you, Isa leaps up and slams his fist directly into the King's face, knocking him down.
♔ “Ah……!!!…. No….. This can’t……”
Mira walks forward, with a determination in her stance that feels palpable.
◉ “King… I don’t know how much you know about our belief. But I believe in Change. Without a future, things may not be able to get get worse."
She swings out her rapier and points it directly at him!
◉ “But they’ll never get better either! There is no Change in your world! They’ll never grow, never change, never be a part of this world! They might never die, but they’ll never get to live! And I want everyone to Live! I will NEVER let you have your half dead world! I want Change!”
You sit there, somewhat shaken. Life. That’s always been what matters. Saving people. To give people. A chance to Live.
▲ “Nice try there, but this isn’t the end of our story! Not by a long shot!”
◆ “How very foolish of you to invent a new form of death and pretend it’s to save people.”
✿ “Saying all those things to convince us… Your the worst King! Your just a dumb idiot baby who froze everyone for dumb idiot baby reasons!!!!!!”
...Heh...The verdict has passed, and it’s time to end the song of this monster of a man.
✦ “Sounds like there’s nothing for me to add, huh? So all you need to do now is disappear.”
You channel nearly all the remaining craft energy you still have into the palm of your hand, ready to share it with the others. They begin to follow suit.
✿◆▲ “Disappear!”
Mirabelle raises her hands, gathering the craft energy and channeling it into a single powerful point.
◉ “Disappear!!!”
♔ “NO!!!!”
As the ball of craft slams into the king, he crashes to the ground, and starts to fade.
♔ “No, I can’t….. Not yet… No t w h e n…. I s t i l l c a n’ t….”
The king.
Dissolves.
...The world around you begins to fade back to normal, the curse unraveling. You all sit there, flabbergasted.
▲ “… Did… Did we win?”
✿ “… The king is… gone!”
◆ “… I think... we won!”
You all pause… And then burst into laughter and excitement!
You did it! You actually did it! You're a little off right now, having spent so much energy, but you give Mira some congratulations on the final blow. Bonnie talks about how scary it was, Odile remarks how close it got, and Isa is jumping around like crazy. It's over!
Stars, you... You don't know if you have much left after all you spent there... You think your body is gonna fall apart any second now...
◉ “Oh! Wait! People are unfreezing, s-so that means the Head Housemaiden-!!!!”
She breaks into a sprint further down the hallway.
▲ “And there she goes…”
✿ “Let’s follow!”
You start to follow along…. Oh right! You remember to listen to them talk among themselves a little. Need to get that last little bit of monster out of your voice! Can't have them noticing now!
Right now they're chatting about the fight, as expected, and you think you noticed what’s wrong. Remove a tiny bit of tissue from your improvised voice box and…
◆ “On a side note, Siffrin, you managed to scare the king quite a bit there. What was up with that?”
Perfect timing, time to test the new voice out!
✦ “Oh, I just mimicked the voice of an old horror monster. Surprised he caught on, so I played it up!”
▲ “Huh! He acted like he’d actually met it... That’s kinda scary.”
✿ “Nah, monsters aren’t real. Bet he just got scared of a nightmare like the crabbing baby he was.”
◆ “Hm. Must have been subtle, I didn’t even notice.”
NOW you can demonstrate! You quickly change your voice box back, and go a little over for effect!
✦ “Weľ̶͎̙͚̃̉l, It’s p̴̙͔͑͂robably easier, if yo̸̜̜̰̿̄u know tȍ̵̧̠̍̔ look f̸̣̗́̈́̽or it.”
◆ “GEMS!!!”
▲ “CRAB!!!!”
✿ “HOLY CRAB!!!!”
You do a little bow as you adjust your voice back to normal.
▲ “… Yeah never-mind if I heard even a hint of that, I’d freak out too.”
They might figure it out later, but that'll keep them off the trail for now... But... That might be all that's needed.
You continue onwards, until you exit out into a corridor. Oh stars! You're really high up! You block the view from Odile quickly!
◆ “T-thank you Siffrin.”
▲ “Oh! Don't worry, Ma'dame. Look at the ground and take my hand! I won’t let you fall.”
Mirabelle calls out from up ahead.
◉ “Are you all Ok?”
✿ “You gotta slow down for Dile, Belle!”
◆ “G-Give us a bit. You can... go on ahead.”
◉ “Oh change, right! Um… Ok, take your time.”
You lead Odile across the room slowly. Fear of heights is no joke! Would not want her fainting right after beating the king! You can hear her heartbeat race, even now. Like a scared animal ready to-
Nope. Ok, you might have used TOO much energy there. You're practically starving. You can hold on but...
You make it to the other side, and hear Mira talking with the Head Housemaiden. She towers over Mira, yet has a gentle grace to her stance.
◉ “Oh, there they are!"
◎ “Ah, Welcome! You are Mirabelle’s companions? I am so thankful to you all for getting her this far. You have my thanks, and all of Vaugarde’s!”
✿ “hehehe…”
▲ “No problem at all, m’dame Head Housemaiden! It was an honor!”
◆ “Truly, it was nothing”
You nod, a little bashful. You guess this mean’s Siffrin’s a hero now! That’s a very good addition to their story!...
Stars, you can't stop thinking about their scents.
◎ “Hohoho!…. Soon, you’ll be able to go back to your normal lives, away from battle and strife. Finally, you’ll be able to go home! If there’s anything Dormont can do to thank you, please do not hesitate to ask. But for now, take your rest, it must have been very difficult!”
Everyone nods, and goes to different corners to relax a little.
...So… You’ve beaten the king, saved Vaugarde, and made Siffrin a hero… You guess that means it’s time for you all to go your separate ways…
Probably for the best, your hunger has finally caught up in full... It’s… a little hard to think...
...This will probably be the end of Siffrin’s journey… You're too hungry to maintain being them for long... This body will fall apart, and it'll be much harder to remake from scratch...
You should make sure to talk to all of them before that happens…
You walk over to Bonnie. Maybe they have a spare snack they can give you? No, it’s fine, best not think about eating right now.
✿ “...It’s over, right? Like, really REALLY over?”
✦ “Yep. King’s gone, your sister will be back, and I bet she’ll be very excited to see you again!”
✿ “… You sure?”
✦ “I’m sure. If she’s not, you can punch me as many times as you want.”
✿ “Deal… Wait, that’s such a long journey though, how am I gonna find you if your crabbing wrong?!? That’s dumb!”
✦ “Almost as dumb as your sister not being OK after we won.”
✿ “oh. OH!!! Ok, I’ll believe you, but if she’s not I’m gonna punch you so much!”
You chuckle. You doubt it’ll be needed, but as soon as you can get yourself back to human, whatever form it is, you’ll make sure they can keep that promise, even if they don't know it. You just hope they're OK waiting.
You decide Odile is next. Her sweat from her exhaustion catches your attention. You try to ignore it and clear your head.
◆ “… Ah, yes, woop woop, we did it, we won, ect… Urgh…. This has been quite the workout. My body is screaming at me”
Same! Though for very different reasons. Stars, why do they have to be so- NOPE, push those thoughts back.
◆ “Savior of Vougarde is quite a nice addition to my list of accomplishments, but I’m looking forwards to traveling again. I’d be interested to hear more from Vaugardian cities after an event like this. Though, I’m not sure I’ll be used to traveling alone again. Or I could head back to Ka Bue?”
Now or never to find this out…
✦ “To do your research?”
◆ “Are you hoping I’ll tell you now the journey is over? Heh. Keep dreaming.”
✦ “Boo.”
◆ “Ha! Ha… I’ll miss you Siffrin. You’re a little strange, but your a good kid. Maybe try letting down your walls sometime? And come to Ka Bue anytime, maybe we’ll meet again.”
She smiles at you gently, and you smile back… If Siffrin will be missed, you guess you did your job right! They made an impact, even after…
You decide to go talk to Mira next. She smells sweet as ever, so entice- No, focus.
◉ “… I’m not dreaming, right? It’s over? It’s really, actually over?”
✦ “It’s over!”
◉ “Oh change, I’m having a hard time believing it. I- It’s just- It’s been such a long journey, and I can’t believe it’s finally over and that we won and-
Oh no, she’s crying! You have to do something!!
✦ “Breathe with me?”
◉ “o-Okay…”
You both breathe slowly in, and out.
◉ “hah…. Hehe, you can be so nice Siffrin!”
!!! Oh, you can feel your cheeks burn!
◉ “Oh you're blushing!!!…"
◉ “Ahem. I know we haven't known each other for all that long. B-But I hope you know I really treasure your company! I do! I really really do! And so… Thank you! Thank you for accompanying me on this journey!”
You feel really happy! You’ve done so well!
◉ “… I’m sure you’re excited to get back to traveling on your own… But don’t forget me, Ok? Come see me at Dormont anytime! I’d love to hang out! Promise?”
…. You know you can’t promise that. You can’t keep being Siffrin for much longer. You're too hungry. It’ll be months before you can put together a human guise again, and you wouldn’t be able to get it exactly the same. They’d notice the differences... Or worse, figure out the truth...
She noticed your hesitation, and is looking at you strangely.
✦ “I would love that. I’ll try.”
◉ “… Ok. I’ll see you when you do!”
You wave them goodbye…
Finally, you decide to talk to Isa. You can’t help but listen to his heartbeat, hear his breaths, take in his scent... NO. Focus.
▲”Sif! We did it! We stopped the King! We can finally go back to our normal lives! Isn’t it great?”
✦ “It is!”
▲ “Yeah!…... I uh. I said. Do you remember what I said? At the Clocktower?”
Yes! You do! He says something each time at the clocktower, that he would tell you something after you beat the king! You really want to know!
✦ “I remember! What did you want to tell me?”
▲ “Yes. Um… Yes. Okay. Phew…… Sif. Siffarooni…. Siffrin….”
▲ “...I… I… I lo-”
✿ “ARE YOU GUYS DONE TALKING ALREADY??? CRAB!!! I wanna go so I can eat dinner!!! I’m super duper hungry!!”
Isabeau makes a bunch of incoherent noises of frustration, face in his hands.
▲ “………. It’s fine. It wasn’t that important.”
But…. But there might not be a later! This might be the last time you get to see him as Siffrin!
✦ “A-Are you sure?”
▲ “… Yeah. Besides I have some thinking to do. Gonna be heading back to Jouvente after this!… Just, make sure to say hi if you ever drop by, alright?”
...You can’t tell him. And you don’t have a reason to press him on it. So...
✦ “Sure.”
You wave him goodbye, even as your heart stings. You’re… Going to miss all of them. You don’t want to say goodbye, but you don’t have much choice.
'Siffrin' is about to die, the moment you leave this house.
You head over to the Head Housemaiden. You're barely holding it together, your body is starting to burn from the strain of holding it's shape.
But you can handle one more conversation. Close out the last dangling thread. Finish the last notes of Siffrin's song. Before you have to leave.
You guess it’s time for the journey to end.
◎ “Traveling one! I’d like to thank you for accompanying Mirabelle this far. I’m very grateful.”
You nod thankfully.
◎ “Siffrin, yes? If there’s anything I can do to thank you, please don’t hesitate to ask. I know you will be going back to your travels soon, but I do hope you’ll keep in touch, if only for dear Mirabelle… But no matter what, know that Dormont will always be welcome to you! Please come back.. any… time…”
She gives you an odd look, and then her face shifts to that of shock! Oh no! What did you do?!?
◎ “Oh… Oh no. Oh no, no, no, no, no…”
✦ “W-what?”
◎ “I-I’m so sorry! There’s no way we can stop it now…!”
You suddenly notice it. The room has been slowly smelling sweeter, something is shifting, twisting!
✦ “What’s happening? What do you mean?!?”
◎ “Your going back! Back to when it all started!”
No! No! No, not with how you are now, you can’t-!
◎ “I know you thought your quest is over, but it can’t be! Something is broken, failing, rotting!!! I can’t fix it on my own, not before it all ends… If I had noticed it sooner!!! I should have seen it, prevented it!!!”
You feel a tug on your heart. You want to flee, but you can’t move!
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#in stars and time#isat#isat au#carrion!sif au#SymphonyInCrimson!au#And so the king is defeated!#And the melody begins to rise... :3#Bit of a longer one then usual this time#but felt it was worth it!#And after this things will start deviating from the normal game far more often.
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Finally got around to watching I saw the tv glow and I’ve had an incomprehensible sense of dread ever since 🙂↕️
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WE ARE SOOOO BACK HAPPY 113 EVERYONE‼️‼️
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i need daniel to be overcompensating for his insecurities so bad. 100 times more cocky and rude and aggressive and insensitive than he was as a human, falling back into old dangerous habits and vices, not just because now he has new energy and power and wealth to flaunt but because it's ALL he has, and he needs to cling onto it. play it up and revel in it so no one sees that underneath, he feels like a botched fledgling in the body of a sick, faded old man who maybe has no real idea why he was even made. that armand might think he failed in making him. that his maker didn't even really want him.
#i think vampirism isnt inherently torturous to him in any sort of moral way#but more in an inner self worth/image way#louis felt he was failing because he rejected/didn't enjoy human blood and death#i can see daniel being fine with killing but being insecure about the way he turned out/the way he is now#and his complicated connection with armand and what it all means for him. why he cares what he thinks or feels when he doesnt want to#but he does. and he has all these questions he needs him to answer#this sort of thing would be a way to connect him to louis further and also lestat now#louis who felt like a “botched vampire” for a long time and lestat who was immediately abandoned by his maker#and how lestat coped with what had been done to him by trying to fully embrace what he'd been turned into#anyway the bottom line is i think he should suffer and struggle with vampirism just as much as everyone else has in his own way#but he still has to be a massive insufferable asshole about it. and maybe get smacked around a bit because of it#iwtv#daniel molloy
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Happy hour with the fam
Aka all my decor is broken
#practice sketch but still felt worth sharing#composition not my strong point#Leshy passed out at 99 shots#nari my town alchoholic 😮💨#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl fanart#cotl art#cotl bishops#cotl narinder
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sunshine gives you wrinkles and laughter leaves lines and late nights will stamp bruises beneath your eyes. life will always leave its mark on you. live it anyway!!!
#not a new sentiment but a reaffirmation of a truth#dearly held and deeply felt!!!!#CARBS WILL BE CARBS JOYS WILL REMAIN JOYS NO MATTER HOW WE MIGHT DEPRIVE OURSELVES OF THEM#THE IMAGE OF LIFE WILL NEVER BE WORTH MORE THAN THE DOING OF IT
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A quick PSA:
YOU ARE NOT A WANNAREXIC IF YOU EAT OVER YOUR CALORIE LIMIT. A wannarexic is someone who pretends to be anorexic for attention and then go back to eating normally no problem. A wannarexic is someone who only doesn't eat around others for attention and doesn't care about calories or fat. A wannarexic is someone who only pretends to be anorexic to get sympathy.
If you aren't any of those things then you aren't a wannarexic. Anorexia is a mental illness, and it's okay if you binge because that's how your body works. Please, babies, you aren't wannarexic because chances are everyone reading this post is actually anorexic. Send love to others who think they are wannarexic for binging.
My favorite quote is "If you're doing it in private with no one watching then you aren't faking." All of us count calories when no one is watching, you aren't faking. I love you, and if I can love you then you can love yourself.
<3
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My biggest beef with the way Annabeth was written in the show is that I think Rick fell into his own trap. Like his whole thing with Annabeth is that just because someone doesn’t look smart doesn’t mean they aren’t. And while it’s about their literal looks for both the show and the book, book Annabeth also sometimes acted in ways that people wouldn’t stereotypically associate with “smart” because I think we’ve all be condition to think bbc sherlock no emotions genius is the only way to be smart. Book Annabeth acts super flustered around Luke because she's a kid and she has a crush on him, she's afraid of spiders, and wanted to see the arch just because she thought it was cool. In general book Annabeth is allowed to be sillier and have a wider range of emotions than show Annabeth without it detracting from the fact that Annabeth is smart. I find this whole "stoic genius" idea is often used to put down teenage girls for being dumb and superficial just because they show emotions and the only way to beat it is to be cold, calculating, and emotionless and most people just aren't like that.
#Like on a personal note I was in robotics in high school#And all the other kids were juniors and seniors and also male#And they would bully me so bad for liking anything remotely girly or being emotional#And I was really trying to earn their respect because I wanted to captain next year#And the only way I felt I could do that was by supressing everything#And I remember relating so hard to Annabeth and being jealous of her because she acted basically the way I did#But nobody thought she was dumb or not worth leading a quest because of it#like yes percy bullies her a little lol but at the end of the day he doesn't question her wisdom#pjo show crit#annabeth chase#pjotv spoilers
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There's one specific aspect of Deadpool & Wolverine that's important in relation to the queerness of Wade/Logan:
The fact that Vanessa isn't single.
I'm not kidding lol
Doesn't seem like people are talking about this so I'm going to be the one to say it I guess!
So… beyond trying to save his world / family, Wade's (flimsy) motivation is indeed partially motivated by Vanessa – or more specifically by things she said to him during their break up. He wants to figure out how he matters or how he can be a hero without being an Avenger, etc.
Shitty as it is that Vanessa is relegated to being a two-dimensional motivation mouthpiece… She and Wade didn't just break up; they tell us immediately that she's seeing another guy. By my memory, Wade never disrespects that, not even jokingly. And the plot isn't framed as a quest to ~win back the girl~ either.
The end scene underlines this too, where [SPOILER] he says he did it for her even if she doesn't want him or whatever the line is. Their little hand touch isn't really a romantic rekindling.
So, what am I getting at?
This all gives weight to Wade's mischievous flirting and (later) built connection with Logan.
If Wade and Vanessa were framed as "taking a break," or if she was still single and he was trying to win her back, the queerness with Logan wouldn't work quite as well. There'd be more room to claim it's an unserious joke.
But Vanessa's moved on.
Wade, taking LOGAN home, did too.
#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool and wolverine spoilers#deadpool x wolverine#deadpool & wolverine#poolverine#you guys need a better ship name#deadclaws#<- that sucks a little less#deadpool 3#wade wilson#wolverine#deadpool#this felt like a hot take worth putting on tumblr. sorry. but no one seems to be saying this?#oh wait I haven't posted my 'review' of this move on here. uhhhh I'll put a link in the replies of this post in case anyone is curious#(spoiler alert: I thought it was bad and kind of boring. lmao. but at least it was queer!)#char writes things
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hi i'm unw el l
#ramble#he is truly the guy of all time#i can't wait to find out if his eyes are purple for a Reason or if he's just a special boy#the dichotomy of 'what could happen there's 37 more books'#and 'oh god there's 37 more books worth of stuff'#disclaimer i didn't know a LOT about canon forgotten realms but 3 pages in i was like#ah. that's why minthara is Like That#there's an essay in my head somewhere about how i'm never judging a drow character again because it's LITERAL CULT MENTALITY#tl;dr i love it. it's bonkers 90s fantasy and i am Here#imagine the ascension i felt when i opened the book and there was a MAP#thank god for the death of cringe bc i'm so much happier embracing that i'm a big fuckin nerd and not too cool for dnd novels#every time i start reading again after not having time i remember why if fuuucking LOVE BOOKS
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controversial hot take of the day:
game of thrones fans deserved what they got in 2019.
they deserved it.
nine years.
NINE years.
NINE YEARS they circle jerked themselves all over the rest of us, with the "omg game of thrones is the best story ever written in the history of humanity" and "it's so dark and there's so much sex and violence and it's so hot and it's sooo mature, it's not boring and sexless like lord of the rings-"
yeah well, Lord of the fucking Rings stuck the landing, didn't it?
it also had a fucking ending.
game of thrones fans probably won't see a novel ending. so the TV show ending is their canon ending.
and they deserve it.
they talked it up for nine years, acted like it was this perfect beautiful thing that would go down in history as the greatest story ever to grace this earth, and if you didn't like it, then you were called some kind of moron.
by fucking soccer moms with the literary comprehension of a tortoise, and cis white men who think anything with tits, rape, and people being beheaded is "deep" and intelligent.
I remember being pestered nonstop by my peers and my coworkers to watch it, because it's part of the "cultural zeitgeist" and it was a "part of history."
Well, well, well.
Icarus called to tell you your time was up, but you didn't listen until you hit the ground.
But those wax wings sure were beautiful while they existed, weren't they?
#oh the vindication i felt#oh the anger and despair was beautiful#it was the most beautiful thing to ever come out of game of thrones#my schadenfreude#i was ecstatic#finally game of thrones fans show some spirit#finally got fans were entertaining and interesting and had a passion for something worth having a passion for#lord of the rings better dont @ me
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stop the cookie thief!!!
#getting the colors right took me forever#i felt a little bit insane#i like the final outcome tho so worth jt#trigun#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#vashwood#artist on tumblr#my art#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood
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I genuinely love not having a crush like I’m not over here feeling physically sick over some mid guy being dry to me I’m literally chilling
#Spring semester of last year was so bad bc I was unironically into 3 guys at once and they were all#Being dry and cryptic to me#And then before that in 2022 I had my horrid situationship#I had a mini obsession arc in dec 2023 over someone but now there hasn’t been anyone since#And my palette is so cleansed#When a girl is like I miss having a crush I’m like you’re literally a masochist#There was very briefly a girl I thought I had a crush on when I realized I’m bicurious but#I haven’t put effort into talking to her bc the idea of pursuing anyone makes me wanna claw my eyes out#I’m pretty sure I ghosted her by like just not responding to her last messsge actually#Not on purpose but more so bc I realized I was feeling the same anxiety I felt whenever I had a crush so I was like#Yeah I’m dropping this for now#I’m also always the most present for my friends when I don’t have a crush so idk#Like I don’t wanna be consumed by anyone I just wanna chill#The solution to not having normal attraction to people is just to not be attracted to anyone at all#I fr cracked it#I always just crave the butterflies out of it and never an actual relationship anyway#But they’re so not worth it#Which is why I always get bored of guys who’re forthright like oh ok you actually WANT something…. U don’t wanna just have fun#Not for me#I think the guys I’m into and I typically diverge in the sense that neither of us wants a relationship but they just wanna fuck me#And I more so just want the butterflies experience / to playact couple for like a couple months but nothing too serious#Which is why it never works#Like it’s not that it doesn’t work bc either of us wants a relationship it’s more that what we want out of the situationship is different#So lame#Ok this was a lot but I literally came to this epiphany while writing these tags
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there was a weird ass part in my dream where shen yuan was like the chinese version of mr beast and i was his media manager or whatever and luo binghe was a reoccurring contestant but every time he participated he'd always win and get the money so, like, of course people started suspecting favoritism and cheating and it didn't help that when questioned shen yuan would just go "well it's not my fault you guys suck compared to my good boy white lotus sheep" which, mind you, did not look very good considering that binghe was still bunhe age which then also led to a whole other controversy where the internet suspected that rich man shen yuan was grooming binghe and i was genuinely so stressed out because shen yuan would say shit without fucking going to me first and it got to the point where shang qinghua saw my miserable ass and felt bad and took me out to eat at this noodle place (thank you airplane bro) but as i was enjoying this much needed break a notification from twitter popped up and it was a picture of binghe sitting on shen yuan's lap and i just quit my job right there.
#wtf#the pay wasnt worth the stress#i love getting svsss dreams#airplane bro#genuinely helped me like i felt like i was on the fucking verge of a mental breakdown holy shit#i now know first hand how fucking stressful they are to deal with#svsss#mxtx svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#dream#shang qinghua#bingqiu
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