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everythingisredisetitonfire · 2 years ago

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My problem isn't that I wanna be treated terribly differently cause I'm asexual

I just don't want people to expect that I'm eventually gonna have sex and "grow up". Because I won't.

I've known my sexuality for 4 years now, and just cause I actually researched it. (Crap, i remember when I was like 8 and read about Michael Jackson possibly being asexual and wishing so bad I were asexual too)

No, i do not like when people tell me I'm still too innocent to catch your dirty jokes. Damn, I've read things worse than you could ever imagine, and my asexuality connected with thinking HOW DID YOU SEXUALISE THIS THING THIS TIME (which takes time, allos are hard to decipher)

I do not like being told "you'll understand someday". No I will the fuck not.

I'm not a kid, I'm asexual.

I don't like feeling that I'm invisible to you. Things don't need to change, you don't need to be cautious around me. Just acknowledge me and stop judging.

#i mean sexuality doesn't matter.#but don't expect me to change.#there's nothing wrong with me.#and just #sometimes people seem like they just don't believe me.#eh #asexual #a spec #asexual spectrum #aegosexual #sex repulsed #sex averse #apothisexual #rant.

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reasonsforhope · 8 months ago

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By the way, I would literally bet money that we're going to successfully keep global warming below 2 degrees celsius.

Would I bet my whole savings on it? No, not yet. But the way the data is trending, in two or three years, I very well might.

#good numbers keep going up at a rate that is drastically higher than expected #and that rate is going to keep increasing #metaphorically ofc I don't gamble with that kind of money lol #but seriously #I WOULD bet money that we will keep the increase under two degrees celsius #based on all the news and articles I've seen and all the research I've done #SHOUTOUT TO EXPONENTIAL CURVES #COME SAVE OUR ASSES EXPONENTIAL CURVES #lay translation of that is #not news #climate change #climate anxiety #me #climate hope #global warming

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thatsitso · 6 months ago

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So I finished orv

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscent reader #kim dokja #orv #orv fanart #Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint fanart #My art #Drawing #Sketch #And uh I was fully expecting it to be the most tragic and depressing thing that I'd never recover from but?? It ended on a positive note???#That's NOT the impression I was getting from the fandom 😭#I mean it was indeed the most tragic and depressing thing I read but the last chapter healed me idc #Like the ending literally depends on us readers 🤨 so I choose to believe everything is great and they live in a big house together #But yeah IT WAS SO GOOD IT'S CRAZYYYY I can't recommend it enough and I am forever changed #Don't be scared read orv guys.........

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benevolenterrancy · 1 month ago

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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)

#svsss #bingqiu #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #lbh #sqq #i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss #the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently #and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything #it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg #as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it #everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person #each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it #at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same #and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical #because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING #aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying #but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line #anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series #i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix #i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship #bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once #bizarre #my art

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rbvcdeluxe · 1 month ago

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something something max's main color being red with blue highlights something something grace's main color being blue with red highlights something something motivations something something alive and dead something something

#would i like to do an analysis on the lighting? yes.#but for some reason my brain is only capable of analyzing bf and some bits of tgwdlm #dont expect much from me #but something i CAN say is that #the colors can represent their motivations and connections to the lords in black #such as dying in the waylon hall and getting to use the black book #and by motivations i mean #with grace; she decided to use the powers of the black book to get rid of 'dirty dudes'#which is something she most likely believes as a correct action #but the red highlights indicate the bits on evilness in her #it shows how her intentions don't change her actions #and for max; red is for vengeance #yet the blue highlights are used in here #mostly for 'who will pray for me' bit #and #this is something related. i believe that max was reflecting himself when saying those lines #it was not only for richie to repeat but also about himself #anyway back to the lighting #the blue represents that there is something deeper than just vengeance #'who will pray for me when im gone'#thats about himself. he knows that no one in the schoo really cared that much about his death besides the game #they only cared about the game. not max himself #so the lights during both npmd and ddmd represent #their connections to the lords. their motivations and intent. and how their actions are made #starkid #hatchetfield #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #max jagerman #grace chasity

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muirmarie · 3 months ago

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jim being canonically the shortest one of the triumvirate is genuinely so important to me lmao, like yesssssss, let that beefy babe be shorter than both his boyfriends!!!!

#james t kirk #star trek #star trek tos #st:tos #it's me and i against the tide of ppl shrinking bones lmaooo. which is fine obviously whatever makes ppl happy - go forth & shrink the doc!#but jim canonically being the shortest.......i love it so much.......he absolutely lowkey has a chip on his shoulder about it.......#he is SO beefy and strong and can haul both his boyfriends around!!!! but it doesn't change the fact that he's shorter <33333333 #it's only like an inch difference between him and bones but jim hates it!!! and also pretends he doesn't hate it <3333 #jim kirk my beloved!!!!!!!!!!!#there's some casual comment made about it and then *six hours* later jim is like 'AND FOR THE RECORD I AM *BARELY* SHORTER THAN YOU'#and bones is just '............what? where is this coming from???? and jim's like 'THAT REMARK THE PRIESTESS MADE SIX HOURS AGO'#and bones is just '..........when we're no longer in the middle of a firefight we should probably talk about this and why you're so upset'#'in the meantime though can we please get out of this firefight because i don't wanna die'#spock; SUPER helpfully: and as the doctor is taller than you captain he does make a more visible target #bones; scrubbing his hand across his face: SPOCK YOU'RE NOT HELPING #spock: .....i did not realize you expected me to #mcspirk

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negasonic9403 · 4 months ago

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Deaf!Peter trying out his new suit for the first time

Peter: Woah, Mr. Stark this is so cool! The suit is amazing!

Tony: It's got quite a lot of special features kid

Karen (AI): *smaller screen focuses in on Tony's lips and brings up captions that Peter can read*

Peter: *confused* You programmed my suit with captions?

Tony: *smirking* Well duh, I can't have you running around clueless when there's too much background noise or if someone's turned away while they're explaining the plan. That also works with the comm system too and if your AI ever goes down, but your suit still has power, I added a feature where you can alert me that you're on your own so I can intervene if need be

Peter: *pauses slightly as he's reading along while Tony's speaking* Wow, thank you Mr. Stark! That's just— wow! This really helps a lot, thank you!

Tony: It works for other languages too. The captions will appear in English

Tony: *signing in Italian Sign Language* Including other sign languages

Karen: *shows Peter captions in English*

Peter: *signing in ASL and excited* It worked! You said it includes other sign languages for the captions!

Tony: *signing in ASL and laughing* Yes, just don't expect me to know anymore Italian. I can speak it, not sign it

#deaf peter is literally my favorite au so you can fight me if you don't like it #tony would do anything to accommodate his favorite vigilante because it's not like its hard and it's the right thing to do #tony is already being such a dad to peter amd they basically just met #peter never expected anyone to be so accommodating but tony is going to change that because damn it the kid deserves good things #deaf spiderman #deaf peter parker #spiderman au #spiderman #peter parker #tony stark #spiderson #irondad

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cnth-rb · 6 months ago

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Drawing some siblings.

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guardian-angle22 · 1 year ago

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Colson Baker (aka Machine Gun Kelly) | December 2021

#colson baker #machine gun kelly #mgk #mgkedit #words of wisdom right here okay #I've never made gifs of him before... mainly because I'm not a strong enough soldier to deal with the intense hate this man gets online tbh #but this has just been sitting with me for awhile now #the way it seems like everyone (mostly online but also irl) expects other people to always be perfect #to always have the most correct and perfect opinion. or always put out the best image of themselves.#or share the most perfect version of their art #to immediately know how to properly execute a new skill #what happened to growing together and encouraging growth in others?#we shouldn't be scared to be seen TRYING #and responding to people who don't have it all figured out yet with just hate or mockery doesn't encourage growth or change #I'll stop now thank you for coming to my ted talk #my gifs #I’m gonna queue this up for a random day and forget about it I’m sure #queued post

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heartdrop · 1 month ago

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i like you more than soup 🍜

#i finished it!! it’s the art i sneak peaked some time ago but it took me waaaay longer than i expected 💀#now that i'm sick and i don't have much to do anyway im finally starting to deplete my wip folder #although i have fallen behind with inktober at the same time lmao #(ngl i got kinda bored with doing such similar prompts i know there’s a theme and stuff but my hyperfixations change FAST #so i might either drop it or do them selectively when i actually feel inspired it’s all purely for fun anyways and with saved time i can #focus on fanfic more ;) )#palia game #heartdroplily #heartdraws #palia reth #palia #reth #artists on tumblr #fanart #my art #soup world dominantion #soupinmypockets #i like you more than soup

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vectorisheree · 28 days ago

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It's my 18th birthday today!!! :DDDDDD

#I feel my brain fully growing... im so smart and intelligent trust #I haven't drawn my sona in foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #I think it's really funny that my new pfp and my medkit pfp have the exact same expression LOL #no one will really notice but I darkened his skin tone a little and roughened up his hair #it makes me a little giddy that he looks slightly more like me now #he's different but still the same character at the end of the day. something something metaphore for growth #he was also just straight up fucking pastel yellow before #vecart #oc artwork #oc art #I never really expected to be here it feels so weird #I think I've learnt to be okay with whatever happens. I don't have to be happy all the time. Just gotta move forwards #Going around changing my age to 18 on everything is SCARY OH GOD PLEASE IM JUST A LITTLE GUY

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sealbuffed · 2 months ago

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💢repressing compulsion💢

#ace attorney #miles edgeworth #fanart #capcom #i initially drew this as a vent as my job has been exasperating my mental illness but of course i still have to be professional #but then i realized it is very reminiscent of defendant freakouts so happy accident i guess?#the only scenario in which i think miles would express these feelings is directly before his 'faked' su*c*de attempt #which is a whole other discussion too i firmly believe that he Attempted and Failed and upon failing still needed desperately to #get the hell away from where he was.....#i think phoenix uncovering the reality of the dl-6 incident is an incredibly remarkable and world changing event for him #something about self ordained guilt to cope with grief because if i don't blame myself where can i possibly put all of this..?#completely shifts his perspective on himself #and the person he wants to be moving forward #so much rambling i'll stop for now #but yeah expect more ace attorney #God.#IT'S SO OVER FOR ME!

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bittwitchy · 1 year ago

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Sebastian Stan. in a bathtub, which is all I actually got out of this movie.

#please don't add to gif hunts/claim as your own/edit without permission. thank you!#sebastian stan #sstanedit #sebstanedit #sebastianstanedit #we have always lived in this castle #whalitc #whalitcedit #if thats not the correct edit tag im not changing it #charles blackwood #charlesblackwoodedit #i skipped through this entire film on mute tbh i i have an idea of what the plot could be #but i really do not know anything i dont know if i want to know anything #as a 2010 aiw fan i got jumpscared by c/rispin g/lover #anyways #i do like c/rispins other roles dont get me wrong but when im not expecting him--#anyways.#more important #i think i have a few caps left for this film #i made these for c/rackship reasons but uhhhh #yknow #the fanfic girlies guys and nonbinary babes. here u go #blade cw #i didnt notice the frickan #i cant tell if its a flip razor or a regular razor #i went to beauty school i forgot the name #my thoughts are potentail stab and therefore n i c e #mine.

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seeminglyseph · 3 months ago

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Apollo's entire vibe in God Games feels like "Dad Said I Had to Be Here" and I feel like that's so Golden Child of him

#seph listens to epic #epic the musical #epic the wisdom saga #apollo epic the musical #wisdom saga spoilers #i don't know why this is the funniest thing to me #like ive been listening to god games a lot #and like i think ares really wants to try and prove himself against athena #and hephaestus and hera want her to give at least one solid argument even if it doesn't have to be important to anyone else #aphrodite has like... a personal issue that needs to be argued but like. that's how love is. fickle and in need of personal justification #apollo like. did not bring a personal justification to the table. he even has sun imagery in the animatic #like yeah the song did not specify it was helios' cows and the musical has a theme of fathers getting vengeance for their sons #aeolus was a king in the Odyssey not a god so changing the sun god from helios to apollo whose cattle were slain is very minor #and would emphasize the theme of fathers and children and cycles of vengeance and Helios does get absorbed by Apollo so like. augh #either way. this guy did not prepare for the debate because he has so many other jobs and grabbed the latest thing he could think of #'Odysseus... uh. he. sirens. right. did that thing right? no? if that's true fuck it. if not i don't care.'#he doesn't even fully commit. he says 'if that's true release him'#he got that fucking prophet trickster tongue bullshit noncommittal agreement #because technically if Athena is proven faulty he can be like 'i said if it's true release him but it wasn't true oops'#don't expect straight answers from the god of prophets

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kacievvbbbb · 3 months ago

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God I'm getting real tired of Luther and Diego's arcs every season being just how pathetic can we make this man.

And don't get me wrong I love a pathetic man but come onnnnnn. How many times can we play the Diego is jealous of Five's cool job card. That was literally his arc in season 2.

How long are we going to blatantly dance around the fact that Luther's crippling need to be liked and to be noticed is actively ruining any chance he has of building a normal life and a normal relationship with his sibling before we actually do anything about it.

The point of character arcs is to grow not just to middle around the less overtly toxic parts. Sure they aren't at each other's throats anymore, doesn't mean they still aren't unhealthily dealing with the world if we would stop joking about it for one second.

#don't even get me started of whatever they were trying to do with Diego and Lila's relationship #also they retconned Luther's younger version to be a bit more like present luther when we know from previous flashbacks #and diego and luther's previous whole beef that Luther was alot more competitive and unforgiving as a child #which makes sense giving what was expected of him as a child #like not that he was cruel or didn't see them as a family but he definetly fell prey to the numbering system #I don't get why you'd change that or maybe I'm just rembering it wrong #kc watches #the umbrella academy #diego hargreeves #luther hargreeves #hargreeves siblings #umbrella acedmy #tua s4 #tua season 4 #tua spoilers #tua #tua diego #tua luther

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luthordamnvers · 10 months ago

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'The next time Lena sees Kara, the blonde is 25, and she's in Thorul as a diplomat, to again try to convince Lex to stop the war, to see if they could come up with a solution.

The moment she sees Kara again, it's like everyone and everything else has come to a standstill, and maybe Lena has always been more than a little in love with Kara. She looks incredibly handsome, with a dark coat with gold thread sewn into it with beautiful designs and her family crest.'

As you wish

#supercorp #lena luthor #kara danvers #supercorp fanart #this is pure self indulgence #I had so much fun writing that fic that it's been with me ever since #also i did change kara's suit color because black didn't look as nice but the sentiment stands #anyways please don't expect much from me about this #my perfectionist ass cannot handle it #even tracing is a struggle #[10]#supergirl art #nicnic draws

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