#but apparently that normal for these meds

[a-cat-in-toffee]

Smokescreen refused to be- to be fucking comforted by the gesture, but he made no move to pull away. Even if Bell was an insult to the little good in David that Smokescreen still clung onto. He just... couldn't. His face was warm with his own blood, and he felt like throwing up. Some of it had gotten into his mouth, the bitter metallic taste reminding him that, fuck, maybe he deserved this. He had been on the other end of the scalpel countless times, this was... frankly, karmic.

He took another breath in, cold air piercing his lungs like it was Bell's scalpel. He hated this place. Hated the constant and creeping cold. "He was a man of his work, even if your wasn't. Not really a family guy." He almost laughs but he just... couldn't. Not right now. Not like this. Another breath in, watching as the scalpel gets set down. He could apologize to Wight for this later, if the fucker would even care. The second they could, words spilled from Smokescreen's mouth. "His nerves endings work sometimes, and he's got these- these fucking stitches, they always hurt. His body works on this weird fucking magic, chaos, the more of it's in his body, the more alive he is. The more he feels, smells, tastes, everything. HIs... his organs..." Blood on his hands, he was pretty sure he had thrown up, too- "They're almost all completely white. It's... fucking freaky. No pulse, no body temperature, meds don't work on him, apparently he can't normally get drunk, he is a living corpse." God, he hoped this was enough. He didn't have much more to give. At least, he hoped Bell would assume he didn't have much more to give.

Stares at you with my autistic eyes :33

May I throw one of my sillies at you full speed like a bowling ball? I don’t mind which sillies I am just on a hyperfixation CRAZE rn

HIIII I SO UNFORTUNATELY DONT KNOW MUCH ABOUT YOUR SILLIES ?! I WOULD LOVE YOU TO THO

[katyobsesses]

Okay so how quick are anxiety meds meant to kick in because...

I think these are working? after only 3 days? Like I feel carefree and hopeful and felt less awkward just chatting with my therapist about The Last Of Us (because apparently she's watching it to which is cool!) Like I rambled for a good few minutes infodumping about zombie media because I did a course on it in Uni, I was this close to giving a fucking presentation FFS.

I feel like me again, and I don't think I've really felt this free to be me since I was like... 14. It's a heady feeling.

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

[fandomsandfeminism]

I'm like...having a meltdown over my migraine meds. Now insurance is saying that my prior authorization has been denied because I don't meet the criteria and I have to call the appeal number. For the meds I've been taking for years.

And I'm like "...but I've been taking this for years and I've been out for almost two weeks" <- audibly about to cry.

And the poor woman on the phone is like ".....I can transfer you to a pharmacist who can talk you through...uh...possible effects of not having that medication?"

I know the effects, ma'am. The effects are I'm getting CHRONIC MIGRAINES that I can't treat and it's really hard to go to work and do my job because of it! It sucks. I'm anxious all the time because every head twinge could be the beginning of a 48 hour pain spiral that I no longer have the tools to pull out of.

God *fucking* dammit.

[wizardnuke]

in retrospect i was rawdogging this past week of absolutely insane mental/physical health problems without realizing that i was experiencing the usual pmdd. and then proceeded to think that i had a stomachache for an hour this morning before realizing 1. uterus 2. ohhh no it's too late for meds to head this off im gonna be bedridden for hours. i had some (too much) uptime and im back in bed. but i have a very pretty new keyboard. and im watching my esports (we are fighting for our lives atm). and i have a sodie pop

[fishareglorious]

What do you mean Jessica is 2 years older than Tooth Fairy😭

Spreading my TF is in her thirties headcanon here what do you mean that woman keeps calling the likes of Blonney and Horropedia children if she’s only 4-5 years older than them

[oldbookshop]

this is so tmi but i had to have some tests and stuff as part of top surgery pre-op clearance, and one of those was unfortunately pissing in a cup, and I made the grave mistake of being so dehydrated when I went to the appointment and now a bunch of shit has come back abnormal on my piss test 😭 so I have to go back to the doctor tomorrow and probably do it again

[healingheartdogs]

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

[wrenhavenriver]

hi!! i was wondering how bunnycat is doing? :D

i think he's glad to be home! unfortunately his saliva/sweat/etc is still radioactive enough that we can't really cuddle him or let him free roam around the house for another 10ish days 😭 but we got him a bigass catio style enclosure with lots of perches and room for all his necessities/toys and set it up inside by the glass patio doors so he can watch birds all day and eek indignantly at us every time we walk in the room 🙃

[caffeinatedopossum]

I complained a lot about the side effects from my anxiety meds but they've genuinely changed my life in the best way. I'm talking to friends again, I'm playing video games, I'm not having panic attacks about dying every single night... genuinely wish I had this years ago

[ghoulodont]

actually i was reading some old appointment notes from my 1st episode as part of my perpetual rumination on how i dont have any mental illnesses and its all made up and man i forgot what it was like in here. this is basically a document that repeatedly asserts i have terrible vibes. i made a collage

[orcelito]

So I was chatting with my fellow very mentally ill queer coworker friend about mental illness (as we do) and I mentioned how I was realizing that my wildly manic depressive response to grief wasn't... normal...

& they were like 'oh my god Yeah I've been suspecting you're bipolar for a While now' bc apparently I get in... modes... where my pupils are Huge and I'm talking a mile a minute and doing 4 things at once and even my Posture is different

And then I'll come in the next day like all the life's been sucked out of me.

& she mentioned there's type 1 and type 2, 1 being the longterm episodes & 2 being them alternating on a day to day basis. And I'm just like... damng... I sure do seem to have that 2 thing...

Apparently it's not normal to alternate between manic and depressive states! Who knew!

[swordsonnet]

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

[deathbypufferfish]

don't mean to be prying into your personal business, so feel free to ignore this if it makes u uncomfortable pls ! but. couldn't you feel that giant cyst? D:

No! I literally had no idea. My hysterectomy was for severe PMDD. I had a pelvic MRI two years ago but they can develop quickly.

Also most ovarian cysts are harmless and can go away on their own. And are not uncommon. Obviously in my case it was dangerous since it was like 3x3 in and was bigger than my uterus 🤠. Even if I wasn't getting a hysterectomy I would have had to at least have that ovary removed. What COULD have happened is it could have ruptured or twisted my ovary or fallopian tubes. But luckily that didn't happen.

The only symptoms I can really correlate to my cysts was the fact that I started to have more and more breakthrough spotting while on birth control. But still idk. She's dead regardless hurrah

[crypticcryptocryptids]

hooooly shit oh my god is this what mornings are like for neurotypical people?? hello???

shoutout to my mom & psychiatrist for suggesting i take my adhd meds as soon as i wake up instead of after breakfast because GODDAMN this is way better. holy shit

[kleptonancydrew]

I’m currently vibing with Corine’s “the English Department just went gaga over it” as my professor called the paper I wrote half at 6AM after waking up from an accidental benadryl sleep and half while actually teaching a class (admittedly poorly) and submitted two months after it was due “thoughtful, probing, and reflexive” and gave it full marks.