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What type of girl do you think the gang thinks they'll marry and what is the actual perfect type of girl for them?
OOoh this is a fun one :DD
Darry
Starting w/ my fav. Darry thinks he'll never marry; he has a hard time thinking abt his future? He's a very "In the moment" person. I think he's had to be for so long he doesn't allow himself to really. dream for himself :(
I like to think he does eventually settle down w/ someone someday, maybe someone who's more quiet and thoughtful the way he is, but also someone he can count on the same way everyone else counts on him? I think they end up having a few kids together and having a happy, quiet life together <3
Sodapop
Sodapop wants to be w/ either a model or a movie star 😭 (he's definitely handsome enough to be with one tho.) More realistically he wants someone he can have fun with, someone who's just. down w anything like he is.
I think he eventually settles down w/ someone who's a little more structured. The perfect girl for him appreciates his energy and his wildness but also offers him balance? Maybe tells him what to do a little lol
Ponyboy
Dude's young 😭 Ponyboy's either HEAVILY against getting married ever (girls are YUCKY) or. ONLY if it's to Cherry Valance a special girl.
I think he ends up with an intellectual type like himself. Definitely someone smarter than him, someone he learns new things from every day. Someone who notices all the little things yk? And who thinks about things differently. Someone he could talk to for hours 👀
Johnny
Johnny's scared of marriage 💀 (look at his parents bro)
I think. if he survived. He would end up with someone a little more extroverted. He's always been a listener so. if she talked all the time to him? He would love that :D Maybe the girl he meets has a big family who loves him a lot too. But the most important thing? She would have to be a good listener. He doesn't talk a lot, but when he does it's important.
Dally
If you asked him if he wanted to get married he'd say smth gross like he wants 3 wives or smth 💀
The perfect girl for Dally is someone who wants him to do better for himself. Maybe someone who's also not afraid to step up to him and tell him what's what 😭 But he admires her and knows she's always there for him, even when he's vulnerable. Especially when he's vulnerable.
Two-bit
He wants a model or a movie star like Soda 😭 but in all seriousness. He wants someone he can joke around w/ and someone who can give him a shit ton of kids. It's kind of a secret fantasy of his to have a big family and lots of sons and daughters <3
I think Two-bit gets his dream 😭 he knows himself pretty well so it checks out.
Steve
Whoever's in Playboy that issue 💀 Or literally anyone with. dark blond hair. Steve likes blondes.
As for the person Steve ends up with... Sodapop Someone who's always up for a good time. I don't really see Steve having kids. Maybe he's the weird uncle who's shirtless on 4th of July 😭 All jokes aside. He needs someone who's the perfect blend of serious and silly. Someone who CAN handle the Randle, in his best and in his worst.
#the outsiders#the outsiders headcanons#the outsiders hcs#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis#sodapop curtis#johnny cade#dally winston#steve randle#two bit mathews
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I might’ve spoiled the plot of Natlan | Genshin Impact THEORY
In which I read so much lore that I gained the power to see the future (maybe) This ended up being a real challenge to make - but it was also really fun! Please do lemme know what you reckon of these ideas, and whether y’all wanna see me pattern-recognition my way into several corkboards worth of theories about any other topics sometime down the line! (^^)/
(also: HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🥳🎉 Here's wishing y'all every good thing for 2024)
#artists on tumblr#abd illustrates#genshin impact#natlan#game theory#idek how to tag this one i've never made a vid like this before uhm-- sgdfksdf#anyway oh my GOD i have had so many brain bees about this topic for the longest time#ik making a half hour video about it is unhinged enough but the fact that nobody else seemed to be talking about some of the patterns#was drivin me BONKERS#im so normal about this lore y'all mhm#but also silly tho the energy of this one is#im really proud of it! it was wierdly scary to branch out from my usual content like this#so i do sincerely hope it's a fun watch (^^)/#i'd love to make more off-the-wall and like deep-dive type stuff like this sometime if it goes over well 💖#it also took-- sO LONG TO MAKE#full time video essayists are to be feared i have learned#Youtube
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Wanted to draw a bunch of troll OC's and decided to do something I like to call Oc roulette, where I find and then draw a few at mostly random (I've wanted to draw some of them already hehe) from left to right the creators of these OC's are:
@/Podkidysh10 (you can find their art on insta!)
@funktrolls
@leahlozers-blog
@sunberies
@spooky-pop
@v-poreons
@/az.althea01 (you can find their art on insta!!)
@jennjamindraws
Hope I did em justice for ya!!
Little guys on their own:
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls oc#my art#dw trolls#they were all a blast to draw#also im so sorry spookypop your boy fell victim to my current pose hyperfixation#which is this dog doing the upsidedown peace sign#its so freaking silly#and i love it#i tried to emulate your guys styles a bit when drawing them#i hope i was able to get it a little bit#theyre all so FREAKING CUTE#i think the one who got done the fastest was rosie#i drew her first so i had a lot of energy#and then as time went on my energy waned and they got more difficult ajdndk#i wouldnt say one was super hard to draw tho it was mostly posing issues by me#like indi and impala i had issues with due to how i positioned them#i wanted all of them to be able to be separated as single pngs#and so i had to split impala and indi into two parts to make it work#also yes sorrel is leaning on impala but shes cool with it theyre friends#firefly is right on top of harvey so its not like theyre the only ones XD#i like to imagine theyre all posing for a picture and only half of them know#which is why some are goofing around and the others are posing for the camera#silly things from my silly brain hehe#its 5 am#i need to GO TO BED#i think firefly's is the only one whos not full body akfnskd#also for harveys i had to reconstruct his whole head cuz she obliterated him#very tragic but it had to happen
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Elias Tsum!
Elias belongs to @r-aindr0p 💙
I put him off for a while because I didn't want to draw the ignihyde uniform, but he's here! I figured since tsum Ortho couldn't fly, tsum Elias wouldn't have Elias's cool prosthetic arm, and like tsum Ortho would get some cool technomantic upgrades while at Night Raven. (Story under cut)
Upon noticing the lights in the sky, and more importantly the hunter in a tree with binoculars already aimed at them, Elias swiftly activated his unique magic to get a quite literal birds eye view. He watched the scene through the eyes of a bird, fluttering around between the small round creatures falling from the sky. When he spotted one with familiar scruffy hair covering its face. He flew closer, this creature really did resemble him to a bizarre extent... as he fluttered around it, an arrow shot up from the nearby copse of trees. Just as Elias was realizing who shot it, the enchantment on the arrow activated, and rather than piercing the tsum, it transformed into a bubble around both the small creatures. Elias had seen enough.
Deactivating his magic, Elias rushed outside. On his way he tripped no less than three times, but he made it.
Elias! I do believe I've just encountered your tsum lookalike!" Rook said cheerfully.
This was a good chance to test a new feature Idia had added to his arm. Elias pointed and shot a tiny technomantic beam at the bubble, breaking it so the tsum and innocent bird could go free. It was barely a fraction of what Ortho could do, but only a fraction of him was robotic compared to Ortho, and hey, it was still pretty cool.
The tsum dropped down and stood at Elias's feet looking up into the tree where Rook was.
Rook was unphased "is that a new feature? Magnifique!"
"Yeah, it is" it was meant to help him be an even better hunter, but after having Rook catch his tsum before him, he didn't feel worthy of claiming it was working quite yet.
"Also!" Rook continued "I noticed les chats espiégles had a tsum companion aiding them in tripping you on the way here, I do believe we are due for some trouble while the tsums are around."
Rook had seen that? This was humiliating. "Yeah whatever" Elias said, picking up his tsum and returning to the main building, not looking back at Rook.
Once inside he noticed the new message he'd gotten, the headmaster was calling all those who caught a tsum to his office. He sighed and looked at the tsum in his hands.
The little creature was hard to read with its hair in its face, but Elias did notice something about it. While the tsums he'd seen before all had four nubbins as their appendages, this tsum was missing the front right one. Well, Elias had his first project in mind for once the meeting with Crowley was over. He was going to make this guy a prosthetic nubbin. (Or more likely convince Idia to do it for him, but eh, same result.)
#oc tsums#Elias#ignihyde#ignihyde oc#fanart²#twisted tsumderland#tsum tsums#twst tsumtsums#tsum tsum#while skimming your account for info on Elias#i fell in love with Mar too#and almost switched to him#youve no clue how much i love siphonophores#But i also like Elias's whole idea#and a guy with a cat food dispenser on him at all times is a man after my heart#he does look pretty silly in the stack tho#with Bazza's ears over his chin hes just a ball of fluffy hair#one last comment before i go eat dinner#this is the most blatant hint at whos next that i think ill have in this lil art series#but i had to have Rook say it#and i dont speak french#so I spent forever making sure my sentence translated properly#after which i had no energy to look for a nickname for Elias#i figure Rook would call him a nickname like everyone else but he just got his name bc i couldnt find a canonical rook nickname for Elias#i know Floyd calls him Seahorse#he deserves a better title from Rook than can be made by someone who doesnt know the metric system >_<#the cats i trust myself to title tho lol
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*You’re starting to feel very sleepy... (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Gaster#Sans#Papyrus#Mostly silliness and randoms but also a little two-panel for funsies ♪#Always with the miserable Gaster! Pre-void tho just when he had cracks in his face#Would you please let your friends heal you just once you mess of a skeleton - you're not going to let your sons do it so!#Angy Snas <3 I'm really happy with how that one turned out haha#He really has such a cute face! Even when he's mad!#It's the big eye sockets I think - his mouth is quite fun to draw emoting other than a smile too :)#So disheveled! Your shoulder's gonna get so cold and then you'll be even meaner! Lol#Various babybones sleeping positions <3 Sans up top exemplifying the cat pose#Initially it was supposed to be that one sleeping position kids do where they sleep all middle-scrunched but the rest splayed out?#Does anyone know what I'm talking about lol I used to sleep like that when I was a littley#He does look very cute tho <3 Skeleton loaf ♥#Papyrus starfishing haha - either rolled away while sleeping on the floor away from Sans or they're sleeping mismatched#Otherwise Sans would definitely be curled up in any of the many negative spaces lol#Maybe that last sleeping Sans is the matching one! Just lost the energy to get all the way up onto the cot haha#Laying on his back and kicking his feet up and finally just dozed off like that haha#More sleepies! You cannot escape them Papyrus!#Sans knocking out at a moment's notice and dragging Papyrus with him - started early! Just so comfy together#Gaster just ;/ at Papyrus complaining lol he wants to run around and play!#Gaster has a lot of work to do and it would be a lot easier if things were quiet for a little while let your brother lead naptime#I do love his whiny complaint haha ''YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I'M /SLEEPY/!!'' ''...Yes?'' ''NOOOOOOOOOOO'' Lol
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the creacher
#lagooma#without the sunglasses her ryes look like this 🧿🧿 but bright red. also they blink sideways.#shes a pescatarian#she hangs out with the big 3 (in my universe there's 7 main characters and shes one of them) but shes closer with heath and ghoulia#her and heath are 4 lifers theyre best friends they have such opposite energies yet somehow theyre exactly in tune#shes also not dating Gil in this but theyre really good friends. i think they would have considered it tho#like they might have dated for a short while in the past but decided they liked being friends more. ALSO shes literally always ready to swim#always wearing flip flops and a swimming costume and clothes that would take less than like 10 seconds to take off just in case#i really love her shes one of my favourite characters in my universe lol shes so silly. she will bite you.#my art#mh fanart#monster high#monster high fanart#lagoona blue#monster high lagoona#mh lagoona#lagoona fanart#zimhu
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I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me
#i dont like the patronizing usage of ''Emily'' like theyre explaining something to a child#admittedly dickinson has been dead for over a century so its probably huge deal to talk about her flippantly in terms of poetry#this is just me personally. how i feel about it#i dont like her being namedropped like that#it has this energy of ''haha lemme school this bitch''#when the poem itself was never supposed to see the light of day. she never consented to it being published. girl was 5 years in the grave#it feels like making fun of somebodys diary#i also dont like how it kinda makes fun of dickinson's imagery of hope as something ''beautiful delicate'' thing#i always interpreted as it is told. a little bird. i pictured a fat fluffy thing like the ones i see outside my window#ive known them to be stubborn and mischivious#when we leave out seeds on the lawn the little ones are always bullied away by the crows and magpies#but they keep trying. theyll attempt to sneak over and peck away before the crows notice them#they ARE optimistic and resilient little things. tougher than they look#so i always found the metaphor apt#sewer rat also fits just as well. but i think it depends on the angle from how youre looking at it#so i dont like this vibe of ''it should be more RAW it should be UGLIER'' cuz even tho i love that style of writing#it just feels like unnecessary one-upping here#especially considering dickinson was severely depressed and tons of her poems reflect it#god forbid she dabble around with the occasional light hearted poem about seeing hope as a silly little bird#asgsjsnk sorry im not trying to make a statement or anything. ill delete this later probably
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[ 😇 ] — doodle dump from priv
just some smaller things while I have fun w friends and find my groove again :]
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#sometimes you just need a private space to make self-indulgent doodles and be silly w people you care abt#I have a lot of ideas I want to work on! especially for some priv exclusive pieces again >:3c#but alas only so much time and energy so we're just taking it easy ya'know#creating what I can when I can and making sure I'm having fun while doing it#I was in a good mood tho and every now and again I like bringing over a few priv doodles I'm fond of nothing major :]#also sorry but y'all are only getting crops of the drummer boy ones lmao they're small but priv exclusive#I can't wait to work on what all I have in store tho 😈#my art#fallout#fallout 4#fo4#nick valentine#nick valentine fallout 4#nick valentine fo4#deacon#deacon fallout 4#deacon fo4#drummer boy#sole survivor#edit: this has been sitting in my drafts and the depression has hit me like a ton of bricks so time to slam that post button babyyyyyy
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Willowpelt willoweing on her own
#a couple of doods of willow#trying to get her an own flavour#she was full of energy in tpb find that sweet to explore#really showing openly about how she loves hunt and aventures#my hc to her is that she is indeed nature girl tm#also i checked the wiki and it says(through brightheart) that she one time had taken her kits out in the forest to see a hive#😭#no wonder why it was so easy to sorrel to follow dark through the forest#this drama is getting even better to me sorry#willowpelt is going to be the taken bg character who i will obsessed with#i wish her more made up angst but also happiness#forest girl mama#looking calm but with tons of energy#she seems so fun#also another hc of mine is whatever they are calling her young#its because she asked to be called that#she will glare at you if you call her some oldie ig#in her middle aged crisis silly#i mean she has two grown up children and lived before bluestar became leader#she is oldie but dont say that to her#my fun hc to deal with these retcons tho#the clan speaking about how she was so young to die was their bittersweet way of coping#yeah#too much ideas i love her#stinky+goofy+unlucky nature mom#tag referring to her kits#nature mom#willowpelt
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TGAAC / DGS 1+2 SPOILERS
[WIP] - Thinking abt the dgs investigations crew lately djdnhedbehdh
#caluuart#tgaa2 spoilers#dgs2 spoilers#dgs spoilers#tgaa spoilers#I miss the dgs investigations crew#wish we had more content of them post resolve tbh. Their (potential) dynamic is so fun. silly group doing silly things. Love to see it.#also if you read (one of) my prev posts you might remember me mentioning that I'll draw a cool cyno+sethos art#so what happened was: I lost my fuel halfway through due to the sheer work I was putting into it. I tried drawing another less detailed one#-to no avail. Also school is kicking my ass my little to no energy I have is drained. I don't have anymore spoons to give :(#I'll say that playing badminton with some friends at lunch is very fun 10/10 but it doesn't replenish my (mainly mental) energy.#anyways I might doodle sethos as a commemorative for his release and a welcome gift for joining the crewmeru cast family bc I still really-#-want to draw him. Who knows tho. no promises. for reasons above.#didn't mean to start ranting there but dnbfhbshbfjhsjn#but yeah cya later my dear fellows 🫡
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ah fuck it, i can't deny myself the love of the idea of layla ballet dancing in an au
#ama mumbles#layla (oc)#ignore what i said a long time ago about her being in the orchestra shes a dancer too#shes would definitely be a dancer whos more known for musicality and character than technicality#someone very fun to watch bc she will always bring in a lot of energy for whatever she is portraying#however she isn't very cut throat so she'd be in a smaller company and doing it more for the love of the dance than trying to be the best#someone always in the corp or a soloist and rarely if ever seen in a principle role#im in a ballet mood can you tell#she loves to dance just as much as she loves to play the violin so she could easily be in either position#i just love ballet dance too much to deny myself it#all that said the idea of her in a villianess role is very funny to me. i think she would have so much fun with it#but also would be great in very silly roles. she wouldn't be first pick for any tragic roles tho lol no odettes for her#also also agria being kitri and taylor giving layla cupid from the same show. and cupid is usually played by one of kitri's friends#in front of my cork board
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i dont know much about trigun but i think it would be silly if vash and knives (they are brothers?) or vash and wolfwood (lovers? enemies? idk) were drawn like that barbie and ken mugshot meme. From what you post Mr Vash Stampede just seems like ken. little silly guy
YOU HAVE THE MOST PERFECT TIMING WITH THIS EVER I'm literally in the middle of drawing a picture of knives and vash that looks like this.
theyre brothers your honor
#i would draw the whole meme but i simply do not have the energy for it tonight#the phrase mr the stampede has been stuck in my head all night hehe u just reminded me of it#drawing vashs tristamp hair is soooo painful to me. i miss the spikey. unfortunately i am doing a style swap thing with this so i have to#sigh </3#hiiii louis this made me smile hehe thank u#also ive seen like 3 ppl do that meme with vashwood already so the fact that u included knives makes me happy :]#(<< guy who is having a category 12 emotional about millions knives moment tonight)#theyre BROTHERS. theyre brothers.....#i love the idea that after canon knives calms down and stops trying 2 kill everybody bc he realizes#oh i dont want to commit genocide actually. i just need therapy.#but like. he and vash are still both wanted criminals because. gestures at the events of trigun. all that#so its just. silly antagonistic brother adventures. i keep thinking abt that one drawing someone did of them comparing wanted posters#its so silly and its so important to meeeeeee.#knives just needs to smoke some weed and play Minecraft for a few hours and he'll calm down.#hes just got undiagnosed autism and a metric ton of childhood trauma. its fine#sorry i kind of went off on u there. I'm having trigun emotions tonight. if u couldn't tell#making this unrebloggable because its a wip <3 sorry kings#my sketches are sooooo ugly . u get the idea tho#asks#friends!!!#din0draws#shrimp fried rice#also. other file names blurred bc its a spoiler for another ask I'm answering soon. lmao
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Hahahaa he's so "bright talented young man alters himself to attain greatness and escape a life he was unhappy with but despite warnings (he ignored them) fails in the end and dies while his father lives on without him"
Secondly though I also HAD to throw on some Mother Mother. Notably, Body (tbh a disabled bitch anthem imo) and Arms Tonight (y'know. Bc the end of the game). Stg I'll send you the playlists for the Arakawa's when I'm done with them. I take my sweet ass time tho v sorry hahaha 😂
Litcherallyyyyyy thats what im sayin bro..... esp when in the story of icarus his father helps him escape the island/helps him succeed and when icarus does fail his father is left imprisoned.... does that not happen to our icarus too.... does that not happen to his father also..... wild....
And take your time with your playlists, no rush ! A dude knows what its like tryin to make it Just Right
#snap chats#the icarus comparison is more ironic considering in the story icarus plummets to the ocean and drowns...#And If We Say Irony. Since Arakawa Was Dumped In The Ocean. lol....#but noo i gotta be so guilty since growin up i always took Body as a trans allegory. or at least adjacent#and ik i havent breathed about it in Months but aoki did evoke trans energy... to me... to my delulu-ass brain...#but then i feel bad cause aspects of him that Yell trans to me are actually about his disability so i feel like im disregarding it#even tho thats not my intent i was just too silly playin y7 the first time around 😭☠️☠️ its generally why i dont talk bout it tbh..#too delulu.. and i feel awkward talkin bout hcs like that BUT MOVING ON THIS IS NOT ABOUT THAT#either way body Does fit. esp with the whole Take My Lungs Take Them And Run bit ☠️#Take My Tongue And Go Have Some Fun can also be representative of aoki’s influence and- apparently- the publics inclination to follow him#I.E. with His Tongue anything can be passed or anything that has his backing can be validated#BUT IM NOT HERE TO DO AN ANALYSIS ON MUSIC AND AOKI even if i really want to.........#i will say tho... im 90% sure theres a line about Taking Eyes but i cant look it up rn lest my tumblr app reser and i have to type all this#but anyway That Refers To This Bitch’s Eyesight Getting Worse#im gonna go listen to that song now its stuck in my head.. uh oh...#everyone always say Mother Mother is Basic and that may be true but so am i so let me listen while i be sad THANK YOU.#ok bye <3 ive prattled too long and my phone will surely die soon and i want One (1) listen in <3
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my pastimes include imagining the most ridiculous but technically still conceivable outcomes for a scenario and shaking that fantasy in my jaws viciously and lusting after it and generally drifting in a haze thinking up slight variances of this outlandish idea for weeks until the event that could theoretically spawn the outcome comes and passes. and then i hyperfixate on the small details that i got right and how what actually happened could conceivably lead to this other outlandish outcome-
#and THAT'S why i write fanfic#all this energy needs to be channeled into something that wouldn't be offputting if people found out about it#also i might explode into a cloud of confetti to the sound of party horns if i don't vent some excess off#gotta say tho. the art of getting myself worked up with POSITIVE emotions about possible futures is one i thought lost to me#so i generally feed my brain when it wants to get excited about anything at all#i stay dreaming big#even though i logically know most/all of these things won't happen some corner of my brain clings to the what if#and provides an engine of hope and motivation#and when the thing doesn't come to pass i'm not typically devastated by it because well. i always knew it was a bit silly didn't i?
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Lost my mind thinking about the Vyer Estate (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#So while I'm not usually one to draw backgrounds I am actually Really into architecture and a little into decor and room design haha#Do I know much more than the basics? Nope! But I'm still fascinated by it :)#Some of these rooms have a very strong image in my head and some are fuzzier - it's been a bit since I reread#And I also haven't read with the layout in mind I don't think so there's that as well haha#I'll also freely admit to being very influenced by The Sims 2's build limitations when working these lol - spacing and density of items#Trying to map all these pieces of scenes into a continuous singular building is difficult! There are windows that butt up into other rooms!#It's a fun exercise tho :3#Update: I have now reread with the layout in mind lol#My mental ears pricked every time there was a mention of furniture or layout lol#Like Max's couch! And a carpet in the foyer >:3c#And Dex's room also being upstairs :0 To think I almost made my first floorplan a single-story!#Silly me#I'm pretty sure this is the first time I've doodled Max's mom also :0 From memory - again - oops lol#I have always imagined that final scene with her as having this large-room/small in the frame kind of energy to it#All natural lighting and kind of dim and hazy - coming down from the high vibes#Actually pinning down a back wall is a whole other thing lol - sometimes the stairs are right there and sometimes they're in an alcove#It's always those tricky windows! And then actually populating a mansion with rooms that are useful lol#Dexter mentions that Max could've asked the cook but Max says he's asleep - how many people live on-site I wonder!#I'm also deeply enamoured with Max padding around in the middle of the night - a house he grew up in and feels safe wandering around in <3#In his element ♥ Comfortable ♪♫
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#tw disordered eating#no because at what point do I admit to myself that just because it’s wrapped up in a couple extra layers of neurodivergence and sensory#sensitivity at the end of the day I find comfort in not eating and the control of hunger#and like I genuinely don’t have enough energy to get through the day because im simply not eating enough and can’t remember the last time#i have and like at what point do I admit that this is actually a problem#cause like I haven’t seriously looked into a job for the summer cause im like. idk if ill be able to feed myself#but I keep being like ‘oh it’s just an adhd issue’ ‘it’s a meal prep issue’#what if it’s a fear of change issue#what if starving myself is the only goddamn thing I can control in this world even if I don’t admit to myself#i don’t know what to do and I don’t know how to get better#and I have so much shame because I grew up hearing about my mom having an eating disorder in her twenties and it was always like well don’t#worry mom you’re raising me with a better relationship with food so I won’t have that issue#well guess who’s in their twenties and went to one session with a dietician and the dietician was concerned they were malnourished lmao#(i don’t think i checked off enough of the symptoms to actually qualify. but still. the fact that it was a consideration?)#and I just. I literally don’t know where im going to go this summer#because I need someone to teach me how to eat. to teach me how to grocery shop and meal prep and cook#because I KNOW im capable of all those things but no one has ever walked me through all the steps so it’s too scary to me rn to do#but I literally cannot even fathom making anyone put up with my presence for 3 months let alone being like ‘oh also will you help me get#better? cause I’ve tried on my own and it’s just not working’#i just put the tw here but I moved it to the top so people could be warned before reading but#love that I refuse to use anything other than that tag because that would be admitting this was real#im just starving myself and never gained back the weight I lost four years ago from starving myself im sure this is all suuuuuper normal and#just a silly little phase#(fr tho if i need any other tws let me know i don’t wanna trigger anyone)
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