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Keepin’ it professional
Been reading chew me up, but don’t spit me out by damagecontrol religiously for these past few days and let me tell you I am DEVOTED I mean, like, I love everything about it and my soul is for sale and I just had to draw Regulus is his docs despite being awfully rubbish at drawing shoes but shhhh it’s a good practice
#should get to work and draw James too some day#let’s see after I’ve finished reading the chapters available#also defeating art block is a feeling I can’t even explain#feels euphoric tbh#regulus black#jegulus#hp#vee art#harry potter fanart
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I may not have appreciated it at the time, but I do now. Thank you.
#gamingnetwork#vgedit#videogameedit#gamingedit#dailygaming#gameplaydaily#bg3edit#bg3#bgedit#baldur's gate edit#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate#bg3 astarion#astarion#astarion ancunin#:')#hes so euphoric in this scene its so sweet#knowing that he's both free from cazador physically but also like...free of the lessons he taught him#he's proven that cazador's belief that only thru abusing others can u be safe is wrong#astarion is safe not because of his own cruelty but because of the support and belief of others :)#the fact that he identifies becoming like cazador as “losing himself”....AGH THE GROWTH#anyway a gazillion ppl have giffed this scene but idc its important 2 me
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Funny numbers
#faceee art#osc#tpot#bfdi tpot#one tpot#two tpot#three tpot#if the euphoric brothers don’t release gobb8 anytime soon I will morph into something indescribable#I love weird wizard characters with a blue theme and long ass cloaks#I saw the hat and the cloak concept for one a bunch of times in fanart and I had to yoink it#it feels like plagiarism is it plagiarism I do not know I’m scared#also three is weird don’t think bout him too much#Hes in jail for crying out loud he should be rusty and dirty and#xfohv
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Friendly reminder! :>
#this post brought to you by#hard water gang#shitpost#anyway#stupid doodles#also i have most of a beard now and it's SO EUPHORIC
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Hey saw some of your vent art you miiiiight want to look into bipolar because mania is in fact not a symptom of bpd (you can totally have both, I have both just like wanted to let you know) /nf /not like rude or anything i’m just autistic
#messyr#its ok anon! hehe#take care anonnn#my moods r often caused by smth that triggers the feeling = good to happy to euphoric to MANIC then itll crash quick#and back to feeling so incredibly empty#im also under the spectrum which made more sense to why i have this fckass disorder ☠️☠️☠️ in relation to past experiences#bpd#borderline personality disorder
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So me and my friend did a psychedelic drug two days ago and ever since then I have been in a constant shift.
Pretty normal for me sometimes, it’s nothing new.
However, now whenever I’m around humans I am just CONFUSED. They’re all so strange and weird and they’re all walking around and doing things and I don’t understand any of it.
Without thinking of how to do things myself, I can do them. Like for example if I need to use my phone, my hands know exactly how to work to use it.
However, sometimes my brain will stumble and I’ll fuck up somehow, like forget what app I need to open.
And walking has become so strange and uncomfortable for me. I have to copy humans movements or watch my friend walk first to know how to, or just repeat “left right” in my head many times to be able to.
I’ve also forgot how society works and I have to keep asking my friend why humans do certain things, or why they have certain beliefs.
Basically I don’t feel human in any way at all, more so than I usually do. I look down and feel very uncomfortable, or just confused with what I see.
#is this a niche experience#I now have to relearn how to be human#I’m fully dog now?#maybe I am a physical therian#this is very strange but also kinda euphoric#im a dog#IM A DOG IM A DOG#🐾🦴#therian#canine therian#therianthropy#caninekin#dog therian#otherkin#alterhuman#horse therian#dogkin#dog kin
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*clears throat* My personal headcanon is that Sirius used to be Walburga’s favorite son.
The moment he was born, she already knew he was special. Her firstborn. She always tells people that stars started dancing in the sky when Sirius first cried as a baby. Sirius was a happy and smart child. He learned the spells much quickly than kids his age. Put him in a room full of kids and he will come out as the ringleader. He always covers for Regulus, and she lets him, because she likes seeing how responsible her baby is becoming. Charming, regal, powerful. The perfect Black. The perfect heir.
But also, Sirius had a streak of rebelliousness (just like her!). He knew the rules, he knew how to play with it, and in it. But he also did not want to bow down to anything, never wanted anybody to be his equal. Sirius accepts others, but also never forgets that he’s above everyone. The perfect Black.
She gives him everything. The best robes, best quills, best paints. She lets him access the forbidden books because she has no doubt in his intellect, or his self-preservation. She lets him go to the Muggle hunts because she knows Arcturus loves Sirius and she knows how happy her son is when Grandfather and Father acknowledge him. (She earns a slap when she questions him what happened, why did Sirius come home so quiet.) She leaves Regulus with him often, and her heart breaks a little at how Regulus shrinks himself (just a little!) but that is how it should be and she’s proud of him. Regulus is the second son. He should understand as early as he can that he is and should never be Sirius’ equal. She brings him to Pureblood gatherings and her heart swells with pride every time a child excuses themselves with a forlorn expression, realizing that they are nowhere near her baby boy’s level. The perfect Black.
She sees him sit beside a bespectacled boy on the Hogwarts Express. The boy waves to Euphemia Potter, and though they are not her family of choice, the Potters are purebloods and that boy will do. Her darling boy will soon ignore him after the usual pleasantries. And if he does not, he will be forgotten once Sirius is in Hogwarts.
That night, she bites her lip through Orion’s Cruciatus (Didn’t I tell you all your coddling would make him weak! How much shame should I have to endure due to your rebelliousness?) after news of Sirius’ sorting has reach 12 Grimmauld Place. Regulus is asleep and Orion Black is not the man who will finally make her scream. She writes to the Headmaster. There has been a mistake! No Black has ever been sorted outside of Slytherin and it certainly would not be her firstborn. The perfect Black! She writes to Sirius, telling him to go to the Headmaster and the Head of House Slytherin. She tells him everything will be fine.
Two days later, she receives Sirius’ reply. “Everything is fine, mother. I like it here. The first Gryffindor Black!” She’s torn between disgust and pride. How did this happen? Sirius knew how to play within in the rules. Is he making his own rules? Is this what it was?
The ladies in society mock her as they pass. Hushed whispers of “I told you so” floated around her for weeks. She tightens her grip on Regulus’ wrist as she quickens their pace. A warning. A protection. She tells him over and over again to not make his brother’s mistake. A warning. A protection. (Regulus has always seen it as a threat.)
Sirius goes home for the holidays a completely different person. He talks about James and Remus (half-blood!) and Peter (another half-blood!). He talks about James and Quidditch. He talks about James and Evans (mudblood!!!!). He tells Regulus all these stories about Hogwarts and the Red House and Walburga wants to blast that blasted castle to ash. He’s talking with his hands moving and his legs spread too far apart. She sees him sit up straight when he catches her glaring. Orion yells at her every night, blaming her for everything that Sirius has become. She curses the Potter boy under her breath. Curses the Sorting Hat. Dumbledore. Everyone. They have corrupted her boy. The perfect Black.
She sends him off to the Express once more after the Holidays are over. He kisses her cheek and says he’ll miss her. “I know you’re not happy with this, Mother, but I am. And I truly am sorry to break your heart, please know that.” She squeezes his hand and she swallows the tightness in her throat as she bids him goodbye.
She received so many letters of his troublemaking tendencies the following year. And the year after that. And the year after. She has written so many letters as well, with hands still shaking from anger, shame, or Orion’s last curse, reminding Sirius of who he was. The Black heir. The one set to stand over everyone in the Noble and Most Ancient House.
Her nails started digging itself deeper on Regulus’ skin. Reminding him not to make the same mistakes his brother did. He didn’t and Walburga loved him so, so much for that.
12 Grimmauld Place is always loud when Sirius is home for the holidays. So many arguments due to his behavior. Sirius has always talked back and Walburga has always been proud of him when he does it, but now he’s defending mudbloods in her house, asking if his half-blood friends can come over and she wonders since when did she start resenting the sound of her firstborn’s voice.
Since when was Sirius a complainer? Could he not see that he was given everything? That he had it easy? That she has protected him from everything, every evil his father could do to him? He used to be the most perfect son, how did this even happen? Did he not realize how many times Walburga gritted her teeth to protect him? How much she has endured to make sure he would grow up differently and less painfully?
It turns out her firstborn would be finally be the man to make her scream.
And Walburga screamed and screamed and screamed. She cursed him and shamed him and belittled him. And Sirius screamed back. As expected. He cursed her and shamed her and belittled her.
The baby boy she raised so carefully, broken to pieces by her.
Years later, Orion is dead and she believes she is free. The war is still raging and she is scared Regulus would soon be dead after defecting. She allows herself to believe in that freedom.
She reads the Prophet everyday, hoping she does not see certain names in the Obituaries.
Regulus knocks on her door and tells her he will be missing dinner and to not wait up for him. She does not reply. She continues to stare blankly at the window when her secondborn kneels beside her. He holds her hand and kisses her cheek and apologizes for breaking her heart.
She blinks away memories of an eleven year old at Platform Nine and Three-Quarters telling her the same thing. She slowly turns to Regulus and asks, for the first time ever, “Where is your brother?”
Regulus smiles softly. “I don’t know. Though he is in a happier place, I’m sure.”
“Was he unhappy here?”
Regulus takes a while before replying. “Not always. But he was always lonely.”
Walburga struggles to believes that, but Regulus does not have to hear it.
Two years later, she receives boxes of Sirius’ belongings after he was sent to Azkaban and she screams again. Out of despair, shame, frustration, she does not know. She wanted to burn every single one of those and she would have, had Kreacher not opened a box and a framed photo of Sirius in a wedding sat on top of that pile. Did he get married? She did not even know. She realizes the Potter boy is also in the picture and remembers the first time Sirius yelled at her (Why are you friends with someone in love with a Mudblood— / Don’t call her that! Don’t you dare call her that!). He reaches for Sirius’ face in that photo and oh... She remembers how her baby boy used to smile like that. He used to smile at her like that.
“He was always lonely.”
She commands Kreacher to close the boxes and take it up Sirius’ old room.
Walburga Black would really rather not rethink all her choices in life but alas, all there is for old people waiting to die is time. She would never admit to it, not that there are people left alive for her to admit her guilt to.
And if she visits both her sons’ rooms and silently grieve all the love she spent and lost, no one would have to know.
#sirius black#walburga black#mostly a headcanon but also#hp meta#i love thinking about this#shout to op from previous reblog#i love complicated mother and son relationships#writing this felt euphoric ngl to yall#regulus black#orion black#i wanted to make this prongsfoot but eh im happier with this one#kay writes
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#slow damage#murase takuma#takuma murase#towa#towa sd#towa slow damage#needs no caption methinks.#this happens every single time towa has one of his euphoric episodes. taku burst in and goes SPEAK TO ME!!!#i actually wanted to draw rei at first but this was more accurate#tedit#tedart#tedpost#i considered changing towa to be more like himself but garfield towa was too funny to me#also i exported this shitty on purpose
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13x06 // The Gang Solves the Bathroom Problem
↳ Dennis + reacting to Joyce Kelly
#iasip#it's always sunny in philadelphia#dennis reynolds#charlie kelly#charden#joyce kelly#the way den keeps nodding to half of charlie's excuses is so funny. he's just like. yup. yeah. checks out.#girls when they are visibly euphoric finding out their best friend is also trans#ada's gifs#ada speaks#trans dennis reynolds#trans charlie kelly#joycetoria
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I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT* PAIN!!!!! I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I NOW HAVE TWO PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES I CAN DO WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I CAN BIKE WHEN IM NOT FIGURE SKATING!!!!!!! IM GENUINELY SOBBING RIGHT NOW THIS IS SUCH A MASSIVE THING FOR ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
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#My chronic pain has been getting so much worse lately#Dislcoations are also happening more often#And as someone who used to be insanely athletic I’ve been grieving so heavily for who I used to be and what I used to be capable of#I used to be able to run a marathon easily and now *walking* is painful#I use a cane most days now#My literal only freedom is while figure skating#And to discover there’s another thing I can do? I feel like I’m getting a piece of myself back even while my health is getting worse#This feels so euphoric#But knowing I be active by skating? It’s been my life line. And now I can bike!#And I just don’t know what to say#Also for clarification I can bike now but it’s still painful to a degree: Figure skating is not painful for me#But biking still has a level of pain but so far it’s not like ‘I’m completely unable to do this’ pain instead it’s like#‘Wow yeah this is painful but everything is and this is a pain I can manage to deal with because I’m being active and that makes me happy’#ykwim?#Oh and new symptoms of paralysis. I’ll make a post about that too. My luck is awesome /s#Chronic illness#Fibromyalgia#hEDS#Cane user#dynamic disability#Disabled#Chronic pain#Disability#Chronically ill
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theres something so ironic about people starting to realize that the euphoric bros are actually decent guys who are genuinely grateful for their fans and are trying to improve as developers at the same time that scott cawthon is rapidly drilling his reputation into the ground via horrible pr blunders and publishing his 80 page long ventfic about being cancelled on twitter
#gobb#garten of banban#fnaf#yes the euphoric bros are a lil Doopid but like. theyre both around my age (or maybe younger in ghepos case idk)#and i am also doopid. so#scott cawthon is a grown ass man he has no excuses
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#my godddd 😮💨❤️🩹#life is so beautiful you guysss#bless Sufjan's fucking precious mind😮💨🩷!!#everything written‚ produced and recorded by him + all the artwork and essays also by him!! he's everything!! ❤️🩹#the entire album sounds both familiar and new (like Goodbye Evergreen is literally how The Age of Adz goes from Futile Devices to Too Much!#sounds very atmospheric and melancholic and bittersweet but also dreamy and euphoric. and very gentle#and there's a sense of urgency and helplessness but the album ends in a very hopeful note which is so beautiful!!#lyrically is so impressive and breathtaking. man the way he feels everything so deeply 🫨❤️🩹#stunning compositions + so much heartbreak and existential despair and unsettling imagery and self-sacrifice#and distress and personal atonement and resignation and so much HOPE and LIFE and LIGHT#and also religious devotion (shocker i know lol)#and the Neil Young cover (shoot me!) is better than the original lol it's just so sweet and hopeful 💐#i really loved it so much!!#sufjan stevens#javelin#📓
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me @ this week's ep:
#idr where this gif is from sorry!! i just have it saved in my gif folder /o\#batman: wayne family adventures#wayne family adventures#wfa#red hood#jason todd#red robin#tim drake#dc orphan#orphan#batgirl#black bat#cass cain#cassandra cain#jercy liveblogs things#also fr i am absolutely Euphoric rn omfg 🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️
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not halloween anymore but i 4got to dress up earlier so heyy 🤗 it is so hard to breathe in this mask oh my god help
#also those are reading glasses and i cant see a foot in front of me cuz idk how to pop out the lenses 🩷 yeah#oddly gender euphoric wearing this though#edward nashton#riddler cosplay
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TOWL Ep 2
Beautiful beyond words. 😭 I think this show is deliberately trying to send me to the afterlife. And they’re succeeding with every ep. That stunning Richonne reunion. That mesmerizing alone time between the vehicles. EVERYTHING. 🙌🏽🥹 I’ll be obsessing over every detail of this for years to come.
Also, Rick and Michonne are about to have to try and do the impossible and it’s not escaping the CRM - no, escaping will be light work compared to Richonne having to try and tone down all that piping hot passion between them so no one realizes they’re married. As well as try to pretend Michonne isn’t the baddest chick in the game. 😅Send them prayers for strength, y’all (or I guess prayers to hide the strength lol) #IBelieveInRichonne👑 #IAlsoBelieveTheirLoveIsStillGonnaBeRealLoud
#the reunion more than delivered 🔥#it feels so euphoric to have them both back on screen 🥹#Danai & Andy are out of this world incredible#also thank you lovely Nat for being so good to our Michonne and being a huge reason the reunion happened 👏🏽🥲#if this is ep 2 then ep 4 will surely mark my ascent to the beyond#richonne#twd towl spoilers#reflecting on richonne#thoughts
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Are you familiar with Saw the Musical? It's a parody musical based off the first movie that apparently deals with internalized biphobia and wanting to go to Applebees. They sell official merch of Adam and Lawrence smooching. They're going on a US Tour now and I cannot WAIT to be in a room of gay Saw enjoyers
I SAW IT!!! I had an opportunity when i went home (to NY) for Christmas
I took my cousins with me. I forced them to have a sleepover with me the night before so I could show them the first movie, then the next day we went into the city for the show.
1 cousin, bless her, couldnt finish the movie. I traumatized her.
BUT!! we all had such a FUCKING fun time at the musical, even she loved it! We were in TEARSSSSSSSS laughing it was so funny
I also had fun talking to other people there. had a nice debate with another fan over who had to draw the poop heart
(well. it wasnt a debate so much as me going "ok, well who do you think is the funniest answer?" and we both nodded our head and said "Hoffman")
the musical actually lives rent free in my head i think about it all the time. its been months
#can they make a gay parody musical for every special interest of mine? i dont think ive ever felt so euphoric#also it was fun watching the movie with a bunch of people who didnt know the twists omfg that was fun in itself too#jenna shut up#saw#saw the musical#jenna answers
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