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black-queen-rising · 1 month

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Me desperately trying to find this so-called "bias" it often feels like a solid two thirds of this fandom claim that the HotD producers/writers have towards Rhaenyra when literally every single change to other characters has fundamentally come from minimizing/obfuscating/or otherwise reducing her narrative and overall characterization and character.

Yes, I'm sure this woman who they have invented continual bad decisions, internalized misogyny, blatant disregard for the people closest to her, ineptitude, blindspots, and blatant, borderline unbelievable public disdain for in their adaptation of her character; who's background as a victim of child abuse, of continual misogynistic psychological and eventual physical violence, who's love of both other women and her own womanhood, infamy in her charm and popularity and continual attempts (and yes, often failures) to rise above the positions she was forced into they have also ERASED...is actually someone they're going out of their way to portray sympathetically?

Oh, but they favor her because...idk they haven't shown her being violently raped or repeatedly physically abused? Because you believe they actually think that making her seem like an idiot who never knows or thinks about what she's doing is somehow favorable?? Because it seems like ANY of these changes have actually endeared her to the fandom much less the show's general audience??? I literally cannot explain it most of the time, it baffles me.

I know I shouldn't be because why should any of us ever be shocked by misogyny in media anymore? By the portrayal of a woman for a mass-media (and heavily desired male) audience that's reductive and hollow?? But it's simply unreal to see how so many people somehow believe that this was done out of some sort of benevolence or favoritism. That so many people believe any of the changes made in the opposite direction of, and often active opposition to Rhaenyra's portrayal in Fire and Blood, were made out of some sort of desire to make her a tangibly more sympathetic or broadly understandable character, is something I'm not sure I'll ever be able to fully understand.

Except, of course, in the view that I really hope not everyone who says this sort of thing actually believes; that a self-confident woman who exercises her own agency is such an affront that even an unsympathetic, inconsistent, reductive, and idiotic cardboard cutout of a character is still a more respectable alternative.

#hotd #house of the dragon #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #rhaenyra targaryen #anti hotd #anti house of the dragon #hotd critical #house of the dragon critical #anti ryan condal #anti sara hess #anti show rhaenyra #anti show rhaenyra targaryen #hotd meta #asoiaf meta #idk guys I really just *do not* know #this is one of those perspectives I WISH I could understand but don't think I ever really will #and it's so incredibly popular I almost want to understand it just so I can understand other people's meta better??#because I really want to believe that there's something more here than just misogyny #I want to believe this is more than just an internalized belief that suffering is fundamental to being a woman #I want to believe people aren't *that* reductive even after two years of this nuclear wasteland fandom #but I'm really coming up empty #I've been trying to reconcile sexism and misogyny in media for a decade of my life now #but I think this might be one of those questions I just *can't* answer for the time being or maybe ever #“I believe women are people” I may not always agree with you George but we need more of this sentiment atm

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kaiserouo · 5 months

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Well someone has to give it its driver updates, Gabriel

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ineed-to-sleep · 2 months

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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it

#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL #AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP #yep that was meee :3 #man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did #but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying #I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious #I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep #then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh #I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking #so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital #luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point #so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like #I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do #and I was scared it might make things worse #but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack #luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone #and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there #I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city #bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there #so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by #I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before #I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches #so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die #cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome #but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug #but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication #now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf #sleep.txt

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allyriadayne · 2 years

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AEGON II TARGARYEN AND ALICENT HIGHTOWER || PARALLELS: THE CLOTHES, THE SEVEN POINTED STAR, THE CROWNS

#alicent hightower #aegon ii targaryen #aegon x alicent #alicent x aegon #house of the dragon #hotd #hotdedit #houseofthedragonedit #gameofthronesdaily #aegon's outfit really is green!!! but a very dark green that looks black btw i'm not making it up #alicent chose his outfit herself :) she has been waiting for this day for years #this is as much her (empty) success as his (empty) success. they are twins in the misery of their own making #literally drives me crazy that her 'success' comes hand in hand with letting her worst son be king #mariana does things #*hotd #photoset #*aligon

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sibillascribbles08 · 7 months

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Feel like I'm on the edge of doing nothing but painting 80 pictures of dark matter from kirby

#sibillasart #kirby #zero kirby #idk why this craze is coming back to me #Hal really set up this terrifying amorphous mass for three games #and ended it with this insane final boss battle with mind blowing music #and they haven't topped it since #dark matter can spread everywhere and possess things #and you think it represents nothing but blackness and emptiness #but then its most powerful forms are pure white and lined with life and blood #ahhhhhh #zero two emerges with a smile and a halo #the wicked and divine are one in the same #uuuuuh okay I'm leaving now

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pokimoko · 1 year

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I have had it with these motherfucking spam bots on this motherfucking site.

#personal #tumblr stuff #vent post #spam bots #i've been getting like 1000 spam bot followers a day for the last few days and blocking them all is getting--dare i say--TEDIOUS #wake up. block 300 bots. go to work. come home and block 500 more bots. spend evening checking tumblr to block bots. it's becoming a chore #it's starting to feel like I offended the tumblr gods or something. this is ridiculous. but like hell will i let them win #i won't let my follower count be 50% bots. i feel like a deserve a tumblr badge or something for fending off so many bots.#tribble #the trouble with tribbles #a very apt metaphor i think for these bloody spam bots; block one and five more come to take its place #but upside: the spam bots are helping me compile a Rosetta Stone for the word 'Untitled'. woo #also if you just joined tumblr and want to follow me: for the love of god personalise your bloody blog #i don't care if you have a icon or a summary. if your blog and likes are empty i'm blocking you #because i don't trust empty blogs and i really don't have the time to sort out who's real or not right now #(though if the blog's offering free mp3s 'just click the link!' or is advertising US keto gold coast gummies i know for sure it ain't real)#but hey! good news to people who followed me in the last four days who haven't been blocked; you passed the blog captcha test #anyway just had to get this frustration out of my system; gonna go block some more bots now i guess. i'll be very happy when this stops

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cuteniaarts · 30 days

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Mirror, mirror, on the wall...

Who's the fairest of them all?

#lowkey cringy caption but I thought it was fitting given the context #my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original character #who I still haven't figured out a tag system for lmao #Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness #alternative title: what a difference half a lifetime can make #summiya at 18/19 vs summiya at 34/35 is like night and day. she barely even looks like herself anymore #or maybe.. she looks more like herself than she ever did? what came before wasn't her. it was an empty porcelain doll devoid of personality #hiding the rotten nature underneath that's been steadily seeping through #and now that she has been thoroughly destroyed her outward appearance finally reflects what she was like inside all along #but just as she manages to convince herself of it. she looks in the mirror and refuses to accept that this is who she really is #where did that gorgeous girl who was so excited for her wedding day go? or the one who lit up upon being showered with compliments?#what happened to them? to her? how did she sink so low?#she was supposed to be better than this... better than her siblings. she was always better than Zaheer and Aiza #but now she's easily the worst of the free. their betrayal doesn't even compare #she deserves death for what she did. she looks at the bruising on her throat and wonders why it wasn't enough #why he didn't press just a little harder. then at least she wouldn't have to live with the shame #how awful of her to wish for that. she is getting what was coming to her. she did all of that for the shame. it is her punishment #she doesn't get the mercy of dying and escaping the consequences of her actions #she is by no means innocent. what's happening now is simply justice being enacted. she's sure of it #she's alone and ruined and miserable. having driven away everyone who could have possibly cared for her. not that anyone did #perhaps it's better that way. maybe then no one else will look at her and realise just how different she looks from her younger self #she wasn't happy back then either but she was content. she was taking the first step towarcs the perfect life she was promised #now that very save perfect life is crashing and burning all around her. perhaps it was inevitable. it was always going to end this way #(sleepy tags so I apologise if they make no sense whatsoever or are just rehashes of stuff I've said before. I'm tired. gonna go to bed now)#oh. before I forget though:#injury tw #bruises tw

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gen-is-gone · 2 months

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hrgh every time I think I've come close to forgiving lance fucking parkin I skim the gallifrey chronicles. and then I remember the Horrors.

#listen bc when I read through and play around with AHistory I'm inclined to enjoy and respect his work as a curatative fan historian #but his actual prose writing #it. it beggars belief it truly does it's just atrocious #megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace #everyone in the EDA discord who thinks father time is the worst of it oh boy babes the worst is absolutely yet to come #like I get *why* they gave him the last book of the line because he does (mostly) know his lore extremely well #so it kind of makes sense that he'd be picked to wrap up all the myriad loose ends #and also he's well liked and afaik pretty personable unlike some fuckers I could name and didn't spend years burning bridges #but oh my god oh my god literally everything to do with Fitz and Trix is just. awful. terrible.#guy who absolutely does not understand or respect any of the three of that team TARDIS but especially Fitz #also The Thing With Sam #never happened fuck you lance #also given just how many asspats he gives himself over his command of the lore he fucking got Sam's middle name wrong?!#also it's soooo obvious how much he loves Anji because she's a Capitalist GirlbossTM #he really does not grasp her character development or personal arcs but he thinks he's killing it #like she *is* a Capitalist GirlbossTM but that's not all she is but he's not actually interested in her interiority at all #he just enjoys that she's a fiscal conservative #god the fact that trading futures is the literal very next book after Anachrophobia #one of the best books in the series that explicitly calls out Anji's pro-capitalism stance using time-war-for-profit played for utter horro #immediately followed by...almost the exact same premise but Zany RompTM #it's not that capitalists misusing time travel for profit is inherently bad it's just *these guys* who suck #no lesson is learned! then you fucking get to the fucking gallifrey chronicles and Fitz actually deciding that this very same scheme #'wasn't perhaps unethical' just because it's Trix and Anji doing it #like yeah sure Anji and Trix can have a little insider trading. as a treat. but that is literally the definition of unethical lol #the only reason time traveling to acquire stock tips isn't massively illegal is because it's not fucking real like??#of-fucking-course it's unethical you walnut #parkin you smug annoying self-obsessed lore-obsessed pregnancy-obsessed just barely-plausibly deniably not homophobic asshole #I'm avoiding even bringing up the actual beef with TGC because first of all everyone fucking knows but also it's just.#it's such a goddamn shit awful trainwreck #if parkin wasn't a Fitz-hating homophobic coward he would've ended the gallifrey chronicles the same way he ended the dying days. wink.

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meownotgood · 9 months

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the dream I had of aki was so weirdly vivid... it felt seriously real......

#my heart was pounding fast when I woke up #in the dream me and aki went on vacation together or something like that #and I suppose we weren't dating we were just friends #he was so tall and handsome in my dream... I got shy every time he was standing next to me....#we got a hotel together in the city and we spent some time doing stuff for our vacation #first we went on a boat and admired the water together #it felt like we were really on the beach... like I could feel the wind and smell the ocean...#after that aki suggested we go to a costume party on the boat so we did #idk what I dressed up as but aki dressed up as shin from dorohedoro lol #then aki told me he had to leave for a while so I found a room where there was nobody else #and I played video games while I waited for him to come back #when he did come back he hugged me and asked if I was tired #so we left the party and took a train to go back to the hotel #this is the interesting part... okay...#because the train was literally empty it was just me and aki #aki was zoning out so I asked him what was wrong #and he had his hand on my thigh #and he explained that he just thinks I'm so pretty... he hasn't been able to think about anything else...#he kissed me....#and somehow I was in his lap #there was some grinding....#and aki kissed my neck while telling me we have to wait for when we get back to the hotel room #hhhhhuuuuuuuhhhhhhhggg #I guess it wasn't anything special but the dream felt way too real for some reason #it felt like it was really happening with aki #and I have such a crush on hiiiimmmm asbsbshsjjw #sorry for long tags I had to ramble

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hchano · 11 months

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HELLO STILL ALIVE, just completely absorbed by life, family, and the awful news coming out abt gaza & israel lately. hope everyone here is doing ok. 🥺

#i don't really even know what else to say #the footage coming out is all so sad and awful #it's kind of all consuming and even tho I've got my own issues at home to worry about i'm over here worrying about ppl i never met 🥲#i'm just tired augh #sorry i haven't posted #i actually have not drawn anything in like 2 months #hopefully life eases up and let's me live again soon #rly need to open commissions but not sure i'm in a good place rn to do art for anyone 😩#imma go be emo and stare at an empty canvas wish me luck lmao 😭#shut up h #vent #TIRED SO TIRED

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ninja-knox-ur-sox-off · 2 years

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Sometimes I feel very sad that I didn’t just focus on one creative skill. I look at my art some days and go I wish I’d spent all my time making only that, because that way it would look better and I’d do more and it wouldn’t matter if I couldn’t write very well because my art would be amazing and I’d be able to make the stuff I really want to and maybe even get a job related to it and I wouldn’t feel like so much time was wasted. And often times it really does feel like you’re wasting time and everything is telling you to just pick something to focus on so it can mean something and you can never seem to pick one of anything.

And then other days I feel like an absolute GOD. Anyone else able to write your own fic and then draw art for it just because you can? Can you make an edit/amv after writing a silly little analysis post on the show/character that is so perfectly on beat and fits the lyrics and with transitions so slapping you get chills while watching? Can you write a short silly ditty on the guitar about how you’re feeling using the eight chords know and belt it out only a little bit off key then do a choppy little animation of your sona singing it?

I may not be the most skilled at all of the above, and it can be a little lonely to be a one man band who doesn’t play half as well as a lot of people out there, but when your power goes out or your wifi dies or you have a day off, everyone else is busy and you’re alone...

you play the best gosh dang music in existence

#knox rambles #feeling some kinda way lately o7 #these kinda vibes come back every once in a while #just gotta remind myself that ten year old me would go insane over the fact I can do what i can do #even if I'm not the best out there I am sure the best me out there #and that's pretty cool #i may only know one strum pattern on guitar and half a dozen chords at best #i may not be very good with punctuation and grammar while writing and I reuse words too much #I may do my art all leaning a little to the left too much and proportioned weirdly #I may export my amv's wrong so they're not on beat or forget good audio that would have made it REALLY great #I may write analysis's that are a little biased and look back on them and cringe a bit #I may only be able to animate the simpliest and shortest things and then go months even years at a time without animating #I may struggle to do animatics for what feels like no reason even if i want to so badly #but I can do all that stuff #I can write i can read and I can draw I can play guitar a bit i can sing I can make animatics animations amv's #and wow that's pretty incredible if you ask me #rambling rambling zero thoughts head empty YEET HGSDFLKJSDF #creative insecurities #they always sneak up on you a bit hglksjdfsdf #pretty safe to say I wouldn't be a creative if I didn't feel inadequate every person to ever create usually feels some kinda way ghsdflk;jsd #lays down #woo #hoping I can get back into the swing of being creative #things been pretty rough at home but I miss making stuff #ANYWAY HOPE Y'ALLS HAVING A FIRE DAY

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stromer · 1 year

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experiencing things no other woman has experienced in this lifetime

#does anyone have a cigarette and a goddamn lighter??? 🚬🚬#remember....... remember when he wanted a fresh start.... then was like.... wait no....hey i don't want that actually #and we were fighting trade wars and living life terrified in the trenches as brock boeser warriors to see if we'd live another day #and he was all up in those exit interviews ripping hearts out “i love it here. i don't want to be traded” and here we are #back at another start of the season and ppl are arguing that he's spewing his usual 'empty promises' like clockwork and hating in extremes #but hey maybe he loves it here and that's all that really matters like....... this is truly His Year this time. you guys DONT GET ITTTTTTT #sorry i'm pmsing and i love brock. 32 goal season coming soon because i brocklieve. shoutout to all the brock believers out there 🙏🏼#also. ‘make the playoffs’ is insane babes…. typical blonde man moment

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mwagneto · 8 months

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crazy how going to the skatepark in my commie bloc just to sit there for like 30 minutes doing fuck all and then leave immediately fixes my brain

#only 5pm and everything is dark and snowy. I'm having the time of my life #I've never seen a single person here other than me even tho ppl definitely come here #left empty for me specifically #i mean it's -1°c im sure noone else feels up to sitting outside in pajamas and a jumper like I'm doing rn but yknow #ofc it's not specifically abt this place it's abt romanticising every aspect of my life. but i #really like places that feel straight out of a pinterest board #like I'll never make one but im living all of them #i love being outside i love snow i love cold i love it when it gets dark early i love that we have 0 streetlights. slay #also. plugging my headphones in putting my hood up and getting on my kick scooter is so. im going to die #like i have the cracks in the street memorised but it's always scary jdmridjeifjjs #almost ate shit today coz everything is covered in black ice LMFAO #i need exam season to be over so i can go on stupid little quests again my daily walk and occasional #trips to the shops are nottttt enough for me. i need to go to the middle of nowhere and break into an abandoned building #barking #scootin

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anotherdayforchaosfay · 10 months

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I folded laundry fresh outta the dryer tonight!!! I had folded a couple of big shirts for myself, but then got into A Zone because ADHD. If I walked away or sat down, the folding wouldn't happen. Seeing as I just had dinner and won't be able to lay down comfortably*, I opted for just folding laundry.

I FOLDED LAUNDRY!!!

Two big loads, another in the dryer, and one more that needs drying.

My ADHD let me fold laundry. Just...wow. Folks with ADHD will know how amazing this is.

Now it's late, and I get up early**, so time for sleep. I hope I can fold the last loads tomorrow. That would be fucking impressive.

#chaosfay talks #*I have GERD and can't take meds for it. the meds do something that makes my seizure medicine not work. the seizure med #comes out more or less looking the same as it did when i took the med. this means my body wasn't doing anything with the pills. i was #basically getting no seizure meds at all. i was on the GERD med for a week before i said fuck this i don't wanna die. any other med that #treats it will likely have the same effect. plus the diarrhea was very unpleasant. i trained myself to sleep on my left side and back to #keep the heartburn from happening and fucking with my asthma. if you have heartburn and find yourself coughing a lot #especially when you lay down the coughing is caused by your stomach acid getting into your trachea/windpipe. this is very bad.#laying on the left pinches the stomach closed. avoid laying on your right especially if you have a full belly. i've found it also helps to #go for a walk to do some upright physical activity to help with digestion and reduce trapped gas. if my heartburn is especially bad i drink #sodium bicarbonate in water (recipe is on the baking soda box) and my dr gave me the okay for it. it's basically baking soda poured into #vinegar but less violent and consideable burping. never do this with a full stomach because it can really fuck you up.#**i accidentally took my seizure med in the morning because i kept reminding myself to take my vitamins and my brain went into #autopilot and i grabbed the wrong med. rather than correct this i opted to get up early. my med requires i have food in my belly and #that means i must eat. sooooo i get up at around 8AM. i'm starting ADHD med soon (#my insurance refused to cover the first med my dr)#my adhd med has to be taken in thr morning and again at mid-day so again i need to get up early. my dr suggested i have nothing to eat #because citric acid/vitamin c cancels out adhd meds. so empty belly for an hour before and an hour after. 8AM and then around noon.

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claitea · 14 days

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a little personal project i'm slowly chipping away at, thought it would be fun to make it into a chart that i add a doodle to every time i finish a new character so i can track how i'm going with it!

by project i just mean i want an oc of each type. i'm not making a game or anything the positions listed are purely for fun HDJBFJFKE

#clai speaks #clai's ocs #ignore the doodle of cyril though that isnt final. it was part of me Trying to come up with something for him so i just scribbled whatever #its not what i want him to look like but yhe doodle was so cute i wanted to keep it. maybe i'll turn it into a different oc idk #the laguardia siblings!!! and clear's here too ig #anyone who's been written here whether they have a design or name or not have some kind of character established already #like while i have a couple concepts for a rock trainer nothing is concrete yet so that spot remains empty for now #but even though chase doesnt even have a finalized name or position i know he's a gifted psychic who just uses his powers to do art #mago and colbur are brothers and run their gym together like tate and liza. first explicitly dual type gym!#(striaton gym not counted bc you only fight one of the triplets there)#chip and cassidy are also brother and sister #corey and kalin are cousins #mago and colbur run a berry farm and cafe. cole runs a pizza parlor. polly makes jewelry out of bug-type pkmn silk and stuff #cassidy's research centers on tm/hm development. unnamed dragon trainer is a costume designer #corey is an actor so good at her job people joke that she's being possessed by her characters. kalin is a mischievous ballet dancer #chip i'm pretty happy with. he's supposed to be like a youngster that grew up and became more experienced #he used to be shy before setting out on his journey but grew immensely from it and became champion #goes back to the first town and mentors the new trainers bc he knows how scary it is to set out on a journey for the first time #hides his champion status so that the kids aren't afraid to challenge him #i didnt want to go too detailled bc it is super late HSIBFIF I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP LIKE THREE HOURS AGO #i just really want to share these bc these concepts have just been sitting in my notes for like a year?#over a year. i started this some time after making alto #point is i've been sitting on these ideas way too long but designing them so slowly i dont want to wait to talk about them anymore #this chart is so empty rn but i will finish it!!! one day!!!!

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heuffopla · 2 years

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Me at 2 am rn trying to figure out how Flapjack could come back :

#So far. Hunter said he wanted to learn Palisman carving #He learns from Eda and her dad. Makes new Flapjack. Magic thing happens cause they're soul bonded. BOOM flapjack is back in New bird body #I know he probably won't come back but GODDD. When you know what it's like to grieve a pet you loved so much it HURTS #like he must feel so empty and lonely and like he's missing a piece of his soul I'm just..#Or since Hunter is made from Palistrop wood he could give up a part of himself to remake flapjack from his very being??BIRD😭😭#FDHDJJF😭😭😭AAAAAAAAA #I'm really hoping those theories about them still being able to communicate are true :'(#toh #toh spoilers #hunter toh #flapjack #thanks to them #the owl house spoilers

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