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Idk if you're still interested in knowing about this stuff, but drawfee tweeted about the pcrf stream today
Yes! I have seen this. I’m really glad they mentioned they won’t tolerate antisemitism.
It seems like they’ll be allowing the spamming of FtRttS, flags, and watermelon emojis. But if they actually manage to encourage the participants to to not just demand a ceasefire but to ask them to call on their representatives to demand a negotiated ceasefire in which both sides actually cease to fire, then I’m happy enough.
I have said repeatedly that I don’t think the folks at Drawfee are bad people. I think that there is some unexamined antisemitism that is not unique to any member of Drawfee and is common in basically anyone who has not actively engaged in antiracist work about antisemitism specifically.
I trust that they want to do good.
I think in general this statement is really good because it addresses a lot of the main concerns that people brought up online about how silence encourages antisemitism.
But I also think that it will leave some Jews feeling alienated for understandable reasons. I’m not going to detail those reasons here in this post or in any post I tag with “Drawfee,” because I’m not in the habit of trying to hurt people who are trying to improve themselves and grow.
As for me personally? Idk. This statement really helped a lot. I love the gang. I have all three of Julia’s drawtectives posters on my wall. I have the Trans Rigs keychain and pride rights shirt. I have the post cards framed in various places around my home. I even have the book!
It actually made me ill to look at them before this statement—not because they owe me anything. I want to emphatically state that none of them owe me anything. But I won’t pretend it didn’t have an affect on me when I saw them engaging with blatant propaganda sources—knowingly or not. Speaking for myself and only myself: I just couldn’t emotionally handle that I had spent so much time supporting creators who might actively hate me. But now I’m back to being happy to see the Drawfee merch around me home. It reminds me of the enjoyment their content brought me.
NGL, though. I’m still pretty wounded by how nasty things got for no reason, so idk if (again, just speaking for myself here and not encouraging anyone to follow my lead in any way) I will be able to engage with the content anymore.
I want to! But I also think they probably do NOT want me to. I’m just one fan and I think my interactions, however well intentioned, caused them stress and anxiety.
I feel wounded that they interpreted my actions in a manipulative way despite my repeated attempts to make clear they were in good faith. They likely feel wounded because I (unintentionally) inspired controversy in response to what they felt was an unambiguously good deed.
Of course, they might not know or care about me specifically at all, which is fine! Who knows‽ Only they can.
Either way, whether they are indifferent to me or angry with me or annoyed at me or whatever, I feel a lot of complex ways about everything that happened during this particularly stressful time.
So, idk. I’d love to enjoy their content again. And depending on how well they curb antisemitism in the stream (which is dependent on whether or not the mods educate themselves enough on what antisemitism even looks like, which seems to be one of the main issues at play in modern discourse), I might feel safe enough to watch their content again.
It’s hard to imagine feeling that same kind of comfort that I used to though, given everything. But that’s ok. That is a personal boundary for me based on my own needs. It’s an unpleasant feeling, but it doesn’t make them bad people or me a bad person. Everyone is gonna have their own boundaries and limitations about topics this sensitive.
Thanks for the message @theres-so-many.
#Drawfee#only tagging it cuz my last post caused an unintentional stir and i wanna make clear this#was only ever about trying to find safe media for me personally as well as providing information to fellow Jews in the same boat#idk man#it’s been a lot#but I want it to be enjoyable again#¯\ (ツ) /¯
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i wanted to try drawing older Mabel and Dipper !
#gravity falls#mabel pines#dipper pines#artists on tumblr#tbob#not gonna lie im not too sold on these designs so i may change things later if i ever wanna draw them again#i was looking at their old character designs and concept art for inspiration#mabel lowkey looks like a fashion mess but! i think its in character so whatevvsss#also firm believer that they both have glasses. mabel doesnt wear contacts bc she likes fun frames + contacts are too uncomfortable for her#dipper doesnt wear contacts because hes too busy for contacts and he can never put them in right#also took some insp from kristen schaal. alex hirsch. ariel hirsch. jason ritter for them too#also. i know dipper is shown to be a STEM-y kid but i firmly am a believer hes a STEM enjoyer in the service of art. like the fanfiction#writer thats studies physics or chemistry to get a certain detail right or something. or the entire futurama writers room lol#like i do think he wants to make documentaries or shows abt the supernatural or whatever#and mabel helps out with the adventuring :)#kind of like buzzfeed unsolved in the golden era of youtube#turtlearts
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day 1: if only ♡
(femslashfeb prompt list)
#minifemslashfeb2024#danganronpa#kaemaki#HERE WE GO AGAIN#as per tradition it begins with these two teehee#harumatsu#kaede akamatsu#maki harukawa#pomelo: akamatsu kaede#pulasan: harukawa maki#REPORTING FOR YURI DUTY 2024#LET'S HAVE A GOOD MONTH!!#I'm typing this while my cat is pushing me off my chair#I see a lot of people want to join in this year#good month for wlw enjoyers!!!#feel free to use the tag so we can see more epic sapphics this month
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"Congratulations on your new job on Coruscant, Commander"
Fox commission for @whiskygoldwings Thank you so much for letting me run wild with these, I've missed drawing flowers so much! ❤️
Black Dahlia - for betrayal, evil and dishonesty Orange Lilies - for deep hatred, doom, as well as enthusiasm and energy (good as congratulation for a new job or promotion) Poppies - for the dead and Foxgloves - for deceit
#commander fox#cc 1010#marshal commander fox#coruscant guard#corrie guard#tcw fanart#the clone wars fanart#tcw#the clone wars#coruscant#my art#art commission#art nouveau#digital art#artists on tumblr#clone art#I really am so so happy that I got to draw both of these!#Just as I was getting a bit bummed out that my own favourite pose didn't get picked for the final piece#I've wanted to draw clones standing statuesque in rows facing each other like that for OVER A YEAR#and I got to draw some pretty flowers again! I'm so happy#had to cut the first one in two in the hopes that tumblr won't blur it beyond enjoyment#here's to hoping that trick will be effective#someone let this man take a nap please they wouldn't let him take those bags on any shuttle#and he desperately needs off of Coruscant
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OH MY GOD ITS CARMEN AND RICHARD
#spooky month#spooky month carmen#spooky month richard#they’re so silly I LOVE THEM I LOVE COUPLES WHO KNOW WHAT THEY WANT#every time pelo posts them; it’s because i’m sending the brain waves trust me#one day the carmen richard enjoyers will be hit with the family angst#and i specifically won’t know peace ever again /JOKE#i’ll live !!! it just means i can use sad love songs now#yknow…. for pmv’s /evil#i mean i do have some angst ideas but it feels awkward posting them lol#anyways a bunch of nothing tags to hide these two tags ->#[ the art of mourning ]#spooky month fanart#not like i really tried to replicate the style i just went “good enough” and posted it LOL#carmen x richard
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i just finished the be more chill book and?? i did NOT expect the squip to be so nice?? he’s just kinda stupid not evil like the musical
#i think if musical squip tried to pull that shit with book jeremy jeremy would shoot him with a gun#i love book jeremy so much he’s so peculiar i want to study him under a microscope#also i love book michael so much he’s so weird slash positive#the book was so enjoyable guys i NEED to read it again#i quite like the ending bit. jeremy and michael are so best friends guys ☹️☹️ they’re so important to me#i don’t know why i have such a strong urge to draw book michael#be more chill
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buncha wanpee busts from may (boa) + 2023 (the sketches) that i never uploaded.. saw da wanpee news on twt today so ive been in the mood
#one piece#boa hancock#nico robin#nami (one piece)#nami#roronoa zoro#vinsmoke sanji#monkey d. luffy#that robin+sanji+nami is genuinely so good like. i could not draw like that again to save my life.#i dare not even try to clean up the sketches...#my art#so envious of people who can sketch well.. ive never been much of a sketcher bc everything always took so longgg even a single doodle used#to take me 1-few days back then#but i want to get back into it/unlearn the perfectionism..#how do you guys find sketching enjoyable and churn out poses? please genuinely do tell ..#real men need to be more like sanji. minus the lovestruck thirst part i mean the gentleman cook part#one piece women are really on another level tho *faints*#im not talking about the thin waist no abdominal organs thing i mean when fanartists draw them. im. weak at the knees
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Hey, if you’re looking for non-Sniper drawing requests, how about Demo and/or Soldier?
i did both :3
#i don't usually draw them so i had to first figure out what i want them to look like#but this was fun#demo is very enjoyable to draw#i started making an art nuevo inspired piece for demo#but gave up#i might try again some other day tho#tf2#tf2 fanart#wolfart asks#soldier tf2#demo tf2#demoman tf2#they're matching hehe#also no reason for demo to be shirtless i know#but like i said. he's fun to draw
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gently places the Gale and Croissant dolls in a little box and VIOLENTLY SHAKES IT
Also here's what Karlach was right about if you forgot.
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#heeheehoohoo rubbing my little goblin hands together#what do you get when you put a guy with horrible self worth together with someone who has big imposter syndrome#we see how Gale deals with positive attention in the game#I wanted to give Croissant's pov bc my gosh how intimidating would it be to have this guy with huge main character energy-#-utterly devoted to you#once again I unintentionally made great choices for my own enjoyment by 1) being a wizard and#2) giving Croissant a bg that wasn't particularly of note#ANYWAY SORRY FOR RAMBLING AGAIN THERE WILL BE MORE OF THESE PROBABLY#HAPPY HOLIDAYS LMAO#bg3#baldur's gate 3#croissant adventures#tav#gale#gale x tav#comics#breadweave#gale dekarios
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falalalala la la la la
#tis the season#to b jolly#1!!1!1!1!#cant rlly color rn but i wanted to draw kalim w something warm#will draw similar scenarios maybe later!!!#plus this one i wanted to do thats more summery but ehhh#ONCE I LEARN TO COLOR#AND HOW TO DRAW HIS HAIR#ill draw him 2 my hearts content#going thru that phase where u remember why u loved this character so much but in a new way and its like!! enjoyment all over again#also forget i can draw him in literally anh scenario i wish bc i can draw!!1!1!#do yk what that means.#i get to. draw him in casual clothes/ fashion and silly hats!!!#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twisted wonderland#disney twst#kalim al asim#twst fanart#twst kalim#kalim twst#kalim twisted wonderland#twst jamil#jamil viper#azul ashengrotto#twst azul#twst art
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#art tag#gortcas#casim carnarvon#sorry guys proper context some other time maybe idk how to do it right now so no caption it is🤕#the tldr is that Gortash offhandedly talked about how Cas can make him as fat as he pleases but really it wont make him him his#basically that he only allows Cas to have his way but hes still in full control#which is true yes and Cas knows that to an extent but its not something he wants to hear#because Cas very much holds onto the hope that Gortash will be his forever at some point. phsyically#because again. Cas won't ever believe just words he simply is unable to even if Gortash could never love anyone else#at the same time while yes he obviously enjoys the whole weight gain he does not consider his own enjoyment a good reason to do things#Cas is someone that very much disregards his own enjoyment of things as well as his wellbeing#Cas is just pulling away instead of acting mad in an obvious way. hes sticking around but hes not feeding or teasing him about his weight#and Gortash? is now left with not knowing how to fix it since Cas isnt acting as he usually does when hes hurt or mad. hes still there#and day after day passes where he yearns to have it back. practically begging Cas to continue so he can prove his devotion#prove that he mustve been wrong with his comment. that Cas can push his body as far as he wants to and he'll be his in the end#thx for reading my tags guys maybe i can share more about this scene some other time🙂↕️ for now just have the art
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i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.
that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...
#lynx speaks#critical role spoilers#cr spoilers#dorym#dorian x orym#i'll be so fr i hardly interact with the cr fandom at large bc soooooo many people are deeply pessimistic#i want to have fun!!!!! i AM having fun#and then i come here and see the most bad faith takes in all of the world ever and its disheartening!#where's ur fucken JOY where's ur fucken WHIMSY#bells hells is one of the wackiest groups with crazy dynamics between them all and its enjoyable!#ur Allowed to enjoy the things u watch i prommy#and to that point! people keep complaining that bells hells r indecisive and there r too many opposing views muddying things etc etc#1. ofc there r a lot of views. the real world is like that too. opposing views is one of the best story elements to enrich ur made up world#2. whenever there is a Big Decisive moment many instantly go 'noooooo not like that!!! that's not what *i*wanted' (ex: the shard.)#the cast receiving backlash from fans every time they r decisive and do something objectively fucken cool and interesting#means that any time they Think about doing a Big Thing... it gets a little harder bc what if the fans hate it. again. should i even do this#separating fandom from cast is a bit more difficult for this form of media and the inherent close proximity or creators to audience#so. just. maybe some of us could chill and cool off just a little. and maybe examine why This Thing is so terrible to u. and remember.#it may be terrible to *u* but thats where it stops. the specific bad feelings u have r not always indicative of media being Bad.#sometimes it's just not ur cup of tea and i PROMMY that its okay if its not
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messy expression sketches + colouring with my oc clem who looks alot like her dad lol
#pokemon#oc art#oc#pokemon oc#pkmn#trainer red#red pokemon#original character#my art <3#kanto au#oc: clementine#i’m literally nearly finished ANOTHER piece with her but had this idea at like 2am so had to do it lol#very messy but trying to not care about that and also just post whatever i want yknow#i know oc art is not always the most popular no matter who posts it but i love her sm#i very hastily attempted to colour in gamefreaks common colouring style and it was actually super enjoyable#i’ve never done an art style study before and definitely want to try again in a way that dosent take 5 minutes lol#clem is extremely expressive and easy to read so i feel like these are quite tame expressions for her character but i really adore#reds alola art sheets and i just adore how gf chooses to show how he expresses himself wahhh#i love drawing her lil side??? hair pointy…?? flick things??? idk what you’d call them lol#i imagine everyone calls them angel wings lol clem was one of those babies that probably popped out with a full head of hair lol and she had#those lil wings before anything else 🫠🫠🫠#pokemon art#pkmn art
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Got an itch to play Sunless Sea again and it's always such an odd experience because. Like.
I know this game. Any other game, the level if knowledge and research I have put into this would make me a confident fucking master. And yet.
I can be reading text I've read dozens of times before and i still feel...not clueless, but absolutely off the mark. It all feels so familiar and yet I've never seen a victory condition. I've at least started pretty much every storyline but I'll still see something new each time I sink some time into it. I have a fucking JOURNAL of TRADE ROUTES and REQUIRED ITEMS and somehow that's only mildly helpful
That and the fact Fallen London's lore is so fucking batshit and honestly kind of hard to research (thr wiki's are frustratingly structured for me and the browser game is just. A bit inaccessible for me) means I can have a pretty solid understanding of what's going on in each port and what each faction is about and still ZERO FUCKING GRASP ON LITERALLY ANY PLOT
#to be clear! this is a big part of why i enjoy it#like...imo fallen london is kind of a perfect cosmic horror setting#bc you can learn everything there is to know and so much remains somewhat inscrutable#leaves me hungry for information which is a little frustrating but still enjoyable#also its so slow paced? so youre really left to juat kinda. stew in the atmosphere#anyway if anyones super familiar with it and wants to give me tips id love to talk about it asfgjgjf#im still trying to build up money early game#juat finished the salt lions and it seems the khanate has spawned on the fucking furthest north eastern corner#so i need to fucking find it so i can run the sun trade for a bit#sunless sea#also forgot you only get the sub unlocked in one playthrough so i gotta do that again#but tbh the unterzee stuff is what i know least about. ive done stuff here and there but not finished anything#i need to know what the deal is with the nook#also that fucking spider TERRIFIES me even tho its never caught me
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caytober day 21: this is the funniest way that poll couldve gone why did you do this to him LOL 😭
#caytober#cater diamond#malleus draconia#mallekei#twst#cereal tries to draw#twisted wonderland#i guess this isnt shippy but im counting it anyway bc that was going to be the intention when i got to his day LOL#fun fact i was literally going to do him first before i did the poll jskljfldks#i didnt have a specific idea or anything i was just like ok when i get to diasomnia ill start with something mallekei bc i love them :]#but then for funsies i wanted to see what people would say in a poll#NO ONE WANTED MALLEUS FJKSJFKWEJFKLJ#SORRY MALLEUS. I WANTED YOU HERE 😭😭#but like i cant even be mad bc i love sebek hes probs my favorite of diasomnia LJKFDSKLGHSDJ#sebek wouldve voted for malleus 900 times if he could. transferred the win even#but not in my house!!! sorry sebek you are the people's princess or whatever#i love sebek. i was actually surprised he won LOL#like it was only a few people. but. i didnt know we had fellow sebek enjoyers in the court#son boy moment#anyway whatever this aint about him sorry malleus i got distracted again LOL
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utterly random late night panic thoughts but
if you read my zelda comic and like it i love and appreciate you but i really do need to be upfront about it being very much a self indulgent enemies to lovers story with a villain at the center that has done bad but isnt bad at his core and is struggeling to come to terms with the fact that he doesnt actually want to be the evil beast he and almost everyone else believes he should be
yes im one of those people ... fake villain fans or something ... i think .. i dont know the rules to that ... q-q
#ganondoodles talks#i thinks its in part the time thats making me suddendly panic about that#like i often see posts from people that are like fake villain enjoyers make the guy into a good guy#and real villain enjoyers are those that like him bc he kills people#or making fun of or generally seeming very agressive towards people that redeem villains#and i have no idea if id be counted among them bc im kinda doing it#yes he killed people but no he doesnt like it and doesnt want to#im one of those cringy softies that are like .. but what if villain ... good#of course im trying to make it make sense and with alot of extra written lore#like i made an entire world up just for demises backstory#but im undenialbly afraid that some people will tear my comic apart once they realize i made him not all that evil#again i have pretty much read no fanfiction and am unfamiliar with alot of common fanfic tropes and stuff so#i got no idea what is commonly understood as the wrong kind of villain fan or soemthing#I DONT KNOW THE CRINGE RULES I JUST HAVE LOTS OF BLORBO THOUGHTS#i need to go to bed
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