#but I want it to be enjoyable again

[edenfenixblogs]

Idk if you're still interested in knowing about this stuff, but drawfee tweeted about the pcrf stream today

Yes! I have seen this. I’m really glad they mentioned they won’t tolerate antisemitism.

It seems like they’ll be allowing the spamming of FtRttS, flags, and watermelon emojis. But if they actually manage to encourage the participants to to not just demand a ceasefire but to ask them to call on their representatives to demand a negotiated ceasefire in which both sides actually cease to fire, then I’m happy enough.

I have said repeatedly that I don’t think the folks at Drawfee are bad people. I think that there is some unexamined antisemitism that is not unique to any member of Drawfee and is common in basically anyone who has not actively engaged in antiracist work about antisemitism specifically.

I trust that they want to do good.

I think in general this statement is really good because it addresses a lot of the main concerns that people brought up online about how silence encourages antisemitism.

But I also think that it will leave some Jews feeling alienated for understandable reasons. I’m not going to detail those reasons here in this post or in any post I tag with “Drawfee,” because I’m not in the habit of trying to hurt people who are trying to improve themselves and grow.

As for me personally? Idk. This statement really helped a lot. I love the gang. I have all three of Julia’s drawtectives posters on my wall. I have the Trans Rigs keychain and pride rights shirt. I have the post cards framed in various places around my home. I even have the book!

It actually made me ill to look at them before this statement—not because they owe me anything. I want to emphatically state that none of them owe me anything. But I won’t pretend it didn’t have an affect on me when I saw them engaging with blatant propaganda sources—knowingly or not. Speaking for myself and only myself: I just couldn’t emotionally handle that I had spent so much time supporting creators who might actively hate me. But now I’m back to being happy to see the Drawfee merch around me home. It reminds me of the enjoyment their content brought me.

NGL, though. I’m still pretty wounded by how nasty things got for no reason, so idk if (again, just speaking for myself here and not encouraging anyone to follow my lead in any way) I will be able to engage with the content anymore.

I want to! But I also think they probably do NOT want me to. I’m just one fan and I think my interactions, however well intentioned, caused them stress and anxiety.

I feel wounded that they interpreted my actions in a manipulative way despite my repeated attempts to make clear they were in good faith. They likely feel wounded because I (unintentionally) inspired controversy in response to what they felt was an unambiguously good deed.

Of course, they might not know or care about me specifically at all, which is fine! Who knows‽ Only they can.

Either way, whether they are indifferent to me or angry with me or annoyed at me or whatever, I feel a lot of complex ways about everything that happened during this particularly stressful time.

So, idk. I’d love to enjoy their content again. And depending on how well they curb antisemitism in the stream (which is dependent on whether or not the mods educate themselves enough on what antisemitism even looks like, which seems to be one of the main issues at play in modern discourse), I might feel safe enough to watch their content again.

It’s hard to imagine feeling that same kind of comfort that I used to though, given everything. But that’s ok. That is a personal boundary for me based on my own needs. It’s an unpleasant feeling, but it doesn’t make them bad people or me a bad person. Everyone is gonna have their own boundaries and limitations about topics this sensitive.

Thanks for the message @theres-so-many.

[turtletoria]

i wanted to try drawing older Mabel and Dipper !

[ministarfruit]

day 1: if only ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

[tunamayojazz]

mithruns of the week...eat well beautiful

[water-lemon-alex]

three, two, ONE!

(original)

Design post for all S1 contestants soon~

[roachcicle]

ugly odysseus scrivbles i made in 14 minutes and 37 seconds at 1am

[itsnotmourn]

OH MY GOD ITS CARMEN AND RICHARD

[vampcaprisun]

what do y’all think illario’s hobbies are? what is he interested in? what does he do in his spare time? what does he know a lot about the nobody would expect? what did he love as a kid that he hasn’t thought about in years but could jump back into in a heartbeat if given the chance? what are his wyverns and cooking and knitting and romance novels?

who would he be if you took him away from his family and his job and the politics of it all? i don’t think he even knows the answer to that, but there still has to be an answer!

[starflungwaddledee]

For the shipaganza

What if...

what if Coo and Starflung had a slumber party? Where they stargaze and do fun slumber party stuff? They deserve it (not forced ofc!!!)

you're right! i think they deserve it, too!

*✩˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ valentines shipaganza masterpost ✩˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ ⋆˙⟡

[nato-obenkrieger]

i just finished the be more chill book and?? i did NOT expect the squip to be so nice?? he’s just kinda stupid not evil like the musical

[wolfram-but-art]

Hey, if you’re looking for non-Sniper drawing requests, how about Demo and/or Soldier?

i did both :3

[a2zillustration]

gently places the Gale and Croissant dolls in a little box and VIOLENTLY SHAKES IT

Also here's what Karlach was right about if you forgot.

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[qwakque]

falalalala la la la la

[turbineface]

de whens the freak update coming to freakframe i’m shaking in my boots

[themeeplord]

After so many months of job searching and stressing about my portfolio for over a year I've finally figured out one of the reasons why I might have lost so much of my creative drive.

I think I've seen my art just as a tool to get myself a job, which doesn't need to be a bad thing, but it's gotten to the point where I only think about making my art presentable for job applications... The joy of making stuff for just myself has been thrown to the side and because of that I haven't found art fun anymore.

I want to reclaim my art and see it as a thing I do for fun, not just for work.

I'm working on it now and I'm feeling a little bit better about my art already, but it'll take a lot of convincing to get my brain to flip back the switch fully again.

Long story short, I want to draw like I did back in my 'Cryptid Eclipse era' and backwards, back when I was still in school and saw my art as an escape and as fully mine.

[sankttealeaf]

its two in the morning and i'm plagued by thoughts of the von zarovich brothers