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Reason for running this blog and a short story of my academic downfall.
•The primary motivation behind starting this blog is my way of dealing with a rough patch in my academics. I used to be an A-grade student until 8th grade, but then COVID hit, and I made some not-so-great choices. I pretty much skipped 9th grade, regretting it later. Despite a close call in 10th grade, salvaging an above 80% score in the board exams, the subsequent year, 11th grade, witnessed a further decline with a 65% result—a percentile mirrored by a significant proportion of students, with only a marginal 2% achieving scores surpassing 70%.
•Now, in 12th grade, things aren't looking much better. I enjoy studying, especially Biology, and I can handle Chemistry okay-ish. However, Physics is a whole different story. I don't hate the subject, but the numerical part is my kryptonite. I like the theory part, but when it comes to calculations, I'm lost. To sum it up, my Bio is decent, Chem is okay, and Physics is a struggle – might even fail if I don't do something about it soon.
•In summary, my academic profile manifests as a mixed bag. Biology stands as a bastion of relative strength, Chemistry occupies a middling ground with potential for improvement, while Physics, languishing in the abyss, demands urgent attention to avert a potential failure.
•This blog will be my space to share this academic rollercoaster, figure out what went wrong, and hopefully get some advice from others who've been through it.
#studywithrhea#rambles#yes I always amd still very passionately hate maths#i mean I used to get good grades in maths as well (till 10th ahem)#but never liked the subject#i tried ok#but I just never came to like it#hence we're here now#yes English is my strongest subject indeed#class 12#cbseclass12#cbse school#cbseboard#cbse#2024 boards#board exams#studyblr#study blog#desiblr#desi tumblr#desi tag#desi studyblr#med student#medical aspirant#science stream#pcb
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Jon he's really trying here cut him a break
(tumblr crunched the resolution of this comic a lot rip)
#dracula daily#hello im back from the void with shitty dracula doodles#i actually drew this last year but never posted it#here it is now though#count dracula#jonathan harker#Drac reading the english bradshaw guide is still one of the funniest moments in Dracula to me#i know it is supposed to show how he's planning to infiltrate england and appear local#but it really does just come across like he picked it up in a panic and pretended to be reading it when Jonathan came back into the room#and being the weird guy he is thought reading train schedules was really normal behaviour#bram stoker's dracula is a romcom#re: dracula
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spiraling
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#gojo satoru#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11#i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having#cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right#until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible#but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god#it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised#which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED#when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333#filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think#im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood#but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes#had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately#anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268#bc that panel is S tier#i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like#u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane#art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok#so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row#:)
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Demo has had many careers - tattoo artist isn't one of them.
#tf2#tf2 fanart#team fortress 2#tf2 soldier#tf2 demoman#demo warned him a tattoo might be painful and he's just thinking 'wow! he wasn't kidding! i! am! in! agony!'#then they go wake medic up at 3am to grow soldier a new arm#slowly drawing all the mercs shirtless ig 🥴#i as gonna add a tanktop to solider but my boyf came along and was like '...you don't....neeed to add one...ifyoudontwantto.........' HMMM#omg how has it been this long and ive never drawn a gun or someone holding one?? fake fan i guess
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Liam was a boy, and then a man, who suffered so much trauma and pain. He was bullied as a child and then lived a nightmare that I think none of us can really imagine of having that triggering experience replicated on a literally global public scale. He became a man who inflicted trauma on others. He was an addict who was unable to find a way out of that disease, and now never will, but who was open and vulnerable about his struggles. He was an incredibly talented musician and artist and an absolutely integral part of one of the most important bands of a generation; his voice and songwriting and skill in the studio shaped every aspect of what One Direction became at their best. He loved that band and being a part of that experience with his whole being and would never have stopped celebrating what they meant to us and to the world. He had problems and did bad things; that doesn't mean he was a bad person who didn't deserve to be loved and helped to heal- everyone deserves that- and the fact that that's not something that can ever happen now is devastating. I was very distressed by many of his actions; and I cared deeply about this man I didn't know and wished for better for him than this outcome.
I'm so deeply, deeply SAD tonight. I'm sad for Liam, who will never now have the chance to look back on this hard time and reflect on how far he's come, and for Liam's family, for his parents and his sisters who loved and supported him so much, and for everyone in the 1D band family and circles. And I'm sad for us. It feels like nothing will ever be quite the same, and that's hard and sad and shocking. It's a special kind of doubled grief, to mourn the loss of the person, and also of what he meant to us in this strange world of parasocial fanning, for the real him and also for the version of him that we made up and attached so much meaning to and for the escape that brought us. For him, and also for the easy uncomplicated joy of listening to those beautiful songs from happier times, which might never feel the same again. For the other boys, who we love so much and wish we could shield from suffering and loss and pain. For our fellow fans, who we also worry about the impact of this on. Everything about this is terrible, and I am sending so much love out to all of you. We are not alone, and it's okay to feel complicated emotions and it's okay to mourn and it's okay to care about how it effects you and your life, whatever you're feeling- it's okay. We are here with you. We are 1D family.
#liam#is there any point to this? other people are saying plenty of things#maybe there are enough things#but idk#liam or liams team were the closest this blog every came to any of the boys... things happened more than once#that I was like oh shit they're reading these posts#it made me feel extra close to him and it made me feel like I wanted to say something#but he'll never check his mentions again now#whats the point#I'm just SAD#but here's one more post to add to the mix anyway. Liam you were difficult- but you were loved#you were bullied in a nearly unimaginable way but you were also loved on a scale that is nearly incomprehensible#anyway#hi everyone#miss you love you#this is an ot5 blog always#I may not always like or support the choices they make; but they are always family yk?
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Teyvat's "Most Down Bad" Award Goes to Alhaitham for a Second Year Running
Seeing everyone making fun of Alhaitham for his "stalkerish" tendencies in this event is funny, because I feel like a lot of people missed that "Be literally everywhere Kaveh is" has been Alhaitham's MO from the day Kaveh appeared in the game.
From only grabbing his house keys after Kaveh returned from the desert (he couldn't have had both sets of keys at the end of the Archon Quest unless he went home and got Kaveh's copy) to ditching conversations to get back to his house only after Kaveh came home, to showing up without any warning or explanation in Kaveh's hangout with some ridiculous excuse about hearing his voice through noise-cancelling headphones... Refusing to offer any help in the Temple of Silence story quest other than staying in the library with Kaveh...
Since when does Alhaitham willingly cover anyone else's duties?
But this trend of "Be everywhere Kaveh is" didn't start when they were adults. It was already in place when they were still Akademiya students--and it's a trend that didn't end even when they had their fight.
Even when they weren't speaking, Alhaitham dogged Kaveh's every step through published responses to Kaveh's research articles in academic journals. He insisted on keeping a line of communication between himself and Kaveh open, even if the only way to do that was through very public ideological clashes. Pulling Kaveh's pigtails to get his attention lolol. It's implied that, for at least the few years between their fight and Kaveh moving in, this was the only communication between them--Alhaitham's refusal to allow their connection to entirely fade away. (And the fact that this is revealed in Kaveh's character stories--through his precious journal that records the moments of his life that had the most impact on him--shows just how deeply he values the fact that Alhaitham didn't give up.)
Another relevant side note: Alhaitham never asked Kaveh to give up his half of their house. Knowing half of it belonged to Kaveh, knowing that Kaveh may one day want to reclaim his part of it, knowing that it was listed as theirs, Alhaitham moved into the house and made zero effort to change its ownership. He was completely fine with living in "his and Kaveh's house." The stories suggest it was only months later (or even longer) that Kaveh even noticed he had the house, and he transferred away ownership of his portion without Alhaitham ever asking him (or even seemingly wanting him) to do so.
Please, let that sink in. Alhaitham actively left his grandmother's (presumably comfortable) house to move into "his and Kaveh's house," with no apparent explanation for why, and after doing so, he made no attempt to change that "his and Kaveh's" label. He moved into the house with no promise that Kaveh wouldn't show up on the doorstep the very next day and move in too. It almost feels like another deliberate provocation--I've moved into our house, are you going to come stop me? LBR, if Alhaitham had had his way, Kaveh would have been living there with him from Day 1...
There's also the fact that Kaveh literally can't write on a single message board anywhere in the entire nation of Sumeru without Alhaitham hunting his messages down and responding to them (which absolutely no one else does, by the way).
"NUH-UH!" "UH-HUH." "NUH-UH!"
Alhaitham's own character stories tell us explicitly that one of Alhaitham's defining character traits is "He is never where you need him to be," yet somehow...
Shot, and chaser:
Any time Kaveh is in the slightest bit of need or danger or just wants Alhaitham near, Alhaitham is "coincidentally" exactly where Kaveh needs him to be, whenever Kaveh needs him to be there.
Alhaitham didn't just "happen" to run into Kaveh in Port Ormos, an entirely different city from where he was supposed to be working. He didn't just "happen" to read the same terrible book as Kaveh when we know he otherwise would not waste a moment of his time on poorly-written literature...
He didn't just "happen" to appear when Kaveh was upset and needed a distraction in the House of Daena during Kaveh's hangout. He didn't just "happen" to be sitting around waiting when Kaveh needed answers after the Archon Quest. He didn't just "happen" to find Kaveh's academic publications and every single message board posting and respond to them at length and in public.
The only person for whom Alhaitham just "happens" to be available is Kaveh, over and over and over again--because he is very deliberately making himself a constant presence in Kaveh's life.
Which is exactly what Kaveh's mother told Kaveh he needed.
(Like, out of all things, I think people really underestimate the devs deliberately paralleling the romantic relationship between Kaveh's mother and father with Kaveh and Alhaitham's relationship. If you want to point to one thing that says "These two characters are intentionally queer-coded," it doesn't get any more obvious than this.)
Alhaitham, are you not embarrassed to be this transparent??? 🫣
#genshin impact#haikaveh#kavetham#alhaitham#kaveh#I wasn't even looking for half these screencaps#I was just scrolling through the content and “Oops; there's another one”#imagine thinking it's a “coincidence” to run into someone in a desert that stretches hundreds to thousands of miles#I say this in the most positive way possible#but I think Alhaitham might actually need an intervention#bro is reading PULP FICTION for a man#checking the message boards daily for updates from a dude he already lives with#skipping work to do favors for his favorite#I would say his Kaveh hyper-focus is impacting his quality of life#but Kaveh IS his quality of life so...#do you think the merchants in the market are getting savvy#when they see Alhaitham coming they're just like#“Oh Mister Alhaitham! Mister Kaveh was really admiring this painting the last time he came through--”#how many times do you think Alhaitham's brought home new foods only to never buy them again because Kaveh didn't like them?#we could end world deforestation with Alhaitham's pining alone
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I love being fully unaware of YouTuber drama and which channels are "popular." My first reaction at the start of that section was "who the hell is James Somerton"
#hbomberguy#this is not me claiming to be above it all or anything. iiluminaughtii did have me hooked for the longest time#and i never figured out about her plagiarism#but it is funny that i had just straight up not heard of this guy#meanwhile a couple of the smaller YouTubers hbomb mentioned as being better to support were ones i have watched for years#including Are They Gay. when that title card came up i was like >:0 he ripped off my boy??
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from: kevin, to: andrew
#this may seems like a weak baby kevin#but actually it’s just kevin knowing andrew is there when he needs him#and andrew never getting mad when he does#‘you came’ ‘you called’ etcetcetc#i just can’t forget that kevin needs somebody with him a lot of the time#and i imagine he panics sometimes when he can’t find andrew#he has anxiety okay#idk#kevin day#andrew minyard#aftg#all for the game#imagine this is once every like two months
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Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine
#genshin impact#arlecchino#peruere#clervie#ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short#ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half#i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved#like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can#but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay#and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up#and maybe no one else ever will#DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak#but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB
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In honour of mha ending, have some old (and i mean OLD) miryumi scribbles i never got around to posting. They were the main characters in my heart
#these are like a year and a half old#ive been in the rarepair game for longer than some kids have been alive#it aint much but its honest work#i genuinely would be unable to explain the chokehold miryumi has on me after all this time#have they ever canonically interacted? no#(that i know of lol i havent caught up on the manga in over a year)#do they have anything directly in common? no#is there any reason i would ever have shipped them if i hadnt seen a habkart valentines post they never came back to? also no#did they proceed to occupy a permanent place in my frontal lobe forever? but of course#they really are THEE ship to me#peak comfort ship#i love that horikoshi developed them just enough for me to have solid base material for their personalities#but also gave them the woman in shonen treatment just enough that i can say anything i want about them and canon doesnt contradict it#anyways!! them again#fuyumi todoroki#rumi usagiyama#mirko#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#wlw#chiquilines draws
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Erdtree’s Sacred Tears.
(discussion of my inspiration to draw this under the cut)
#elden ring#queen marika the eternal#miquella the unalloyed#messmer the impaler#st trina#albi’s art#while playing the base game i always find it interesting that the blessing from the flasks are all tears… like is the tree crying ?#why cry tho? then the DLC came out… yeah…#i like the idea of Messmer during his time in Leyndell just shadow Marika like that in case someone accidentally said stuffs that would#absolutely send her mind to that jar again#I’m inconsolable at [I abandon my love] too but i don’t agree that Miquella is behaving like Marika#Marika never abandon Radagon to the bitter end#no Miquella is mirroring his dad he’s like Radagon trying to cut out Marika near the end of their reign#Marika became a God full of rage and love Miq abandoned love and emotions to become one#Order without the kindness of Gold#golden doomed mother and son
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... I have a lot of thoughts about Draxum.
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#art#my art#tmnt#my post#alt text#baron draxum#draxum#comic#my comic#does this count as a comic?#it's really more of a monologue with drawings#half of which are scenes from the show#idk#I had this little monologue or whatever you'd call it written up in the notes app of my phone for like six months now#figured I might as well try and do something with it#is this a bad time to post this given that the new comic just came out today?#maybe#oh well#I never post things at the optimal time anyways
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2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered
Tommy's family arc
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 show#911 spoilers#911 season 7#tommy kinard#evan buckley#evan 'buck' buckley#kinley#bucktommy#kinkley#tevan#pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name#anyway analysis time!#looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud#babygirl was back there getting into narnia#he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins#even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something#but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think#and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself#because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you#then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is#and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough#or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him#rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless#my edits
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it’s that time of year again where i reread tsh for the bajillionth time so here is the greek class!!!
#the secret history#tsh#bunny corcoran#francis abernathy#henry winter#camilla macaulay#richard papen#charles macaulay#donna tartt#bookblr#my art#these are old actually! i just never posted them here for some reason?? but i really like how these portraits came out!!
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everyone wants Chihiro and Haku to reunite but WHAT ABOUT THEM
#that's her baby sister right there#she finally gets some sense of family in this job and then she has to LEEAAAAVVVEEEEE#DO NOT!!!!#SEPARATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I just know Lin was thinking of adopting her if going home with her parents didn't work out#actually I think Chihiro never really told Lin about her motivations so she was probably envisioning that#the moment she came back from Yubaba's office she was like 'yeah no this kid is mine now'#spirited away#studio ghibli#ghibli#ghibli movie#chihiro#spirited away chihiro#spirited away sen#spirited away lin#everytime Chihiro sees a weasel or a fox she gets some sense of familiarity
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How it started-
How it's going!! They are a family and I am!!! also draw the hug you want to see in the show but they are forgiven because them meeting in brokilon was still soooo tender my HEART-
#the witcher season 3#the witcher#geralt of rivia#geraskier#jaskier#the witcher spoilers#(at least discussed in the text)#they've come such a long way and I'm still sitting here like 🥺🥺🥺#man if you think of the timeline (which is so whack) Geralt and Jaskier have SEEN things#they have been going on for more than twenty years#they are FAMILY and that gets me so bad and I'll draw the whole squad probably tomorrow but!! look at them#somehow the end of season 3 is everything I wanted from season 1 when it came to those two because it had some S1 vibes again with the duo!#but it was so much more heartfelt and tender and not even an ounce of Geralt being seemingly annoyed of Jaskier just-#clenches fist#I'm so basic for still loving them so much but I simply do and will never stop 😔#but I gotta say I loved the yenralt this season too I can finally see it and it was very sweet at times
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