#but I gotta leave by like 9am so idk

[rosicheeks]

Update

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[thebroccoligoblin]

New bestie alert! 🚨🐢 This morning I saw traffic stopping then a man who had pulled over to help this turtle out of the road and when I pulled over to inevitably investigate & oversee the following interaction occurred

Me: (yelling outta my window) “Hey sir! You’ve gotta put ‘em in the direction they’re going!!”

Kind stranger: *squinting, confused, muffled over traffic/unable to hear me, large turtle in hand* “You’ve gotta put em in the direction they’re going! It was going this way”

Me: “oh okay it’s going that way? Good :) *gets out of my car*…but idk if there’s a pond that way…I have a pond at my house.”

KS: “oh you do?”

Me: “Yeah I can take em” *I open the passenger door, he proceeds to gently put the turtle on the floor mat*

Me: “My dads gunna hate that I put a turtle in the Audi”

KS: “Hey, you’re doing a good deed he’ll understand”

Me: *beaming* “Thank you so much for saving it. I’m so glad you know to put them in the direction they’re going so many ppl just shoo them to any side of the road and leave.”

*he proceeds to open his arms for a hug, and ya know what I hugged himcuz we were two humans doing the right thing at 9am on a Saturday <3

(Side note as he pulled away I read the stickers on his car and there were some nature related ones I believe and one that said “Witchy Woman” in fancy lettering which made the hug feel decidedly harmless so I’d like to believe he was either with his partner or driving his partners car) 💕 a win for nature overall :)

[flashnthunder]

Tag game (Christmas edition)!

It's Festivus for the rest of us so grab your Chanukah bush, your mistletoe, your pagan ritual or whatever brings you joy and come gather round the fire and celebrate your pocket friends.

@deputy-buck tagged me in this :)) !

Favourite nickname you've ever been given?

i have never gone by my full name but technically izzy is my nickname, i've gotten iz or izzers by friends before and izzy-maye is my family nickname which i like

Where are you located?

the US, specifically ohio so very midwest

What season is it where you are now?

it is winter and officially Cold, it has not felt like winter for the past month but now i am freezing and already crying thinking about driving in ice

Favorite tradition this time of year?

there's a zoo that puts on this big light show every year and i usually go with friends which has become a little tradition, but tbh there's not a lot i can think of other than that

Favourite holiday food?

probably fudge?? idk if that counts as holiday food but i only eat it in the winter

Mulled wine, eggnog or hot apple cider?

apple cider for the win i am not a big any type of wine fan and eggnog is only kinda not awful if i don't think about what i'm drinking

Turkey, ham or nut roast (Or Tofurkey?)?

ham! i feel like turkey is a very november food and not my favorite

Would you rather spend the december holidays in: a cabin in the woods surrounded by snow, or a house on the beach with sun and sand?

right now im gonna say cabin because that sounds nice and peaceful but check-in with me in a month and i will have switched up once i am sufficiently sun-deprived and looking like a sad vampire with scurvy

are you pro-snow or anti-snow?

pro-snow in the hypothetical sense of enjoying it when i don't need to do anything, and anti-snow when i'm slogging to class in the slush at 9am which is the reality of january

have you ever built a snowman?

YES i love building snowmen i don't care if i'm getting freezing and wet and gross outside it's gotta happen it is just way to funny to not leave them everywhere possible

Skiing or snowboarding?

i have never really done either, i like ice skating though in terms of a winter sport :) i will fall on my ass

Do you decorate for the holidays?

i try to a little!! i like putting stuff outside, have some lights and things like that

Favourite holiday movie?

nostalgia wise stuff like charlie brown, that claymation rudolph movie, the muppets, it's a wonderful life but around the holidays i like to religiously rewatch the original star trek show so that is like My Holiday Movie

Favourite holiday fanfic?

people should rec me some because i can't think of anything off the top of my head??? i might be forgetting one i'm sure i have read them before

If you were to star in a hallmark movie, who would be your love interest?

confession time i've never really watched hallmark movies but going off the memes maybe i am the small hometown man waiting on a stressed businesswoman from new york to come home for christmas and then we can get a dog or something while the credits start

if yall would like to- tagging: @ewipandora @blood-mocha-latte @lewis-winters @good-night-space-kid @heystovepipeboys @gorgeousundertow @1waveshortofashipwreck + anyone who wants to do it :)

[thisisegregiouuuus]

ok i was gonna make a post abt my rh oc kitty but i got distracted like usual so i gotta say 2 THINGS!!!

first of all, im kind of getting back into warrior cats...not rlly the books, but moreso the game clangen which im legit obsessed with, and its kind of similar to how i act w royale high. ill randomly be like 'oh hey i havent been on clangen in a while' so i hop on, get attatched to it for a week or 2 at most, and then wham bam thank you MAM!!! im sick of it and leave

but rn im back on it! and im kiiinnndddd of maaaaybbeeee considering starting a new clan and recording the events and stuff on a new blog/account/idk whatever thingy here on tumblr (for the billionth time... bc u have NOOOOO idea how many times ive started a new clan, been like 'oh yeah, this is the one', documented it for ages, then just gave up on it. i probably have like 10 random google docs floating around that are documenting random stuff in random clans </3) so yeah, idk if its gonna happen, especially bc i kind of need to focus on school rn, so idk. i might leave it to do it on the holidays but who knows if ill still be interested by then....theres always too much things going on around me and in my brain for me to even keep up

and also if anyone was wondering, yes i kind of am into warrior cats, i useed to love it as a kid and i still do. i remember playing the old roblox roleplay game back when it was just like rlly shitty cylinder morphs of cats back in grade 8 but let me tell u....the poor quality just added the more fun and charm to it. not even kidding, i loved it so much. i literally would stay up every single night so late just to rp, that game used to be my life, like i cant put into words how much i loved that game. every night i played the warrior cats rp game, that would be the highlight of my day, or the thing i was most esxcited abt after school was over. but things are different now, dont get me wrong the new and improved version of the game is rlly impressive, but ill always miss the good old days with the bad morphs of the cats </3 they will always hold a dear place in my heart, and same with all the fun and memories i made playing that game

also bc of how often i used to rp i became like a pro, like i was rlly confident and everything came naturally, but now ive left it for too long, i havent roleplayed in what feels like a billion years, and im hella rusty </3 it rlly sucks bc rn id love love looooveeee to get back into roleplaying on roblox. even if it isnt on warrior cats, id be happy, i just miss roleplaying in general

anyway im going soo off course rn. i did read the warriors books as a kid but i didnt rlly read the series in order tbh, like i remember reading into the wild, but thats it. otherwise id only read the special edition books lmao, idk why but i did and i loved them, and even tho i basically didnt follow the chronological story line, i still loved warrior cats sm

anyway that abt does it for the whole warrior cats stuff. idk where its gonna go from here but for now ill just enjoy clangen as is

and now that i said all that i cant be bothered mentioning the second thing lmao. its legit almost 2am im not even kidding, and i have to wake up at like 9am </3

sorry for any spelling mistakes and stuff btw this isnt proof read

[nardonotes]

18 sep '24

10:22pm

im sitting on my desk for the first time in what feels like weeks fr... but it's pretty late for me rn,, well i consider 10pm late now that i've been so busy and sleeping early. (¬_¬") but today i was late again, like 10 minutes late for class but it didnt even matter cause like half the calss was absent lmfao. i got a lot of work done tho. wednesday's are the busiest days for me in college. like i have a FULL day. hate!!! ( ｡ •̀ ᴖ •́ ｡) but it is what it is and it goes by fast enough because the classes are actually fun asl huhhuh...

so what did i do today? i had class at 9am, finished at 3:45pm but went to town and bought myself a new bullet journal (moleskine) and then went home. when i got home, i was so tired. it was sooo sosososoooooo hot today (i was also wearing all black so that didnt help) i ended up laying in bed for like an hour before i had TACOS!!!! ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ hehe.. and then,, oo... idk if i want to talk about this but tbh i will cause i just gotta get it out of my chest. i'll just briefly talk about it. but, i've been talking to a girl i had a "thing" with for a few months and now we're talking again and it's like... DAMN! yk like... DAMN!!!! LIKE FUCK!!!!!!!! AGGHH!!!!!!!! FUCK EVERYBODY FR!!!!!!!! (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) idk whatever anyways FUCK!!! whatever. moving on.

(,,>﹏<,,)

tomorrow is basically my fridays (for now) cause i don't have classes since it's mostly for work experience, which i really need to get on like RIGHT NEOW! but i haven't heard back from the place i applied for, im going to go in again tomorrow with an update on that shit. or maybe ill go on friday. i'll see. and then, on friday im going to see my good ol' friend from college. they were back here for the summer but will be going back to the UK to study. since they've been back, we'd go for drinks and coffee every week or two and it's been really great. they're one of the very few people in my life that know very personal things about me and i respect them for being so cool about certain things ᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ but yeah, i can't wait to see them cause they'll be leaving again for like another school year sniff... it's just hard to make plans with people when you get older and it sucks. like i miss my fucking friends (not really cause i've been so drained but yk what i mean lol)

i stole this from one of my besties (hattsie) SONG OF THE DAY IS...!! Bakit Labis Kitang Mahal by The Boyfriends (recommended by someone i wish was here) ♬ ♪ ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و

goodnight my good friends!! let's have a better day tomorrow. :> <3

[newkittypoom]

lets say we have a hypothetical situation where i need to be somewhere at 1pm, and navigation has told me that i need 1 hour and 45 mins to navigate there by car:

i give my travel time a buffer, if i know that there might be traffic or that i dont drive as fast as the navigation app assumes i might, i give or take about 15-30 mins depending on factors like: will my adhd be hard to handle on that day? am i unmedicated? will it be hard to concentrate? will sensory issues fuck me over? am i familiar with the route or nah?

for any of the questions, if i feel like itll make my time blindness worst or make me need more time, i just add more buffer

so that means i need to be out of the house by 10:45am (if i give myself a 30 min buffer for travelling time)

add another 15 minute buffer of "i got distracted by something or maybe i needed to urgently go pee before the drive" then i set an alarm to go off at 10:30am. the trick is that i use a sound i associate with transitions, so when i hear it i know i gotta go, the snoozes are like 5 min intervals so i can snooze 3 times before i really gotta get going

generally, i schedule more time than i actually need for prep, so if i think i need 30 mins to wash up, get changed, eat, etc. then i give myself double the time so i anticipate that i will take 1 hour to get ready, so i gotta wake up by 9:30am if i wanna leave on time

i know i snooze for about 30 to 40 mins, so i will set my alarm clock for 8:45am or 9am depending on how easily i think i will be able to wake up

the night before, i will have packed the bag im bringing out for the "event", laid my clothes/accessories and etc. out and prepped everything that can be pre-done; so for example if u do make up and u know what look ur going for, u can lay out all the products and items ur gna use in the steps ur gna use em before going to sleep

this is what works for me, but i think the gist of my personal system was figuring out where my adhd (and in my case, autism as well) affected my punctuality

time blind! i set tons of alarms along the way to use as markers so that i dont lose track of time, some ppl find playlists created with a fixed duration helps to track time, some ppl find a visual timer helps

buffers buffers buffers! if idk how much time i need i give myself more instead of less, if i end up early i can hang around and wait

struggling with transitions! i use music to set the mood and cue myself, kinda like how animal trainers use specific words or actions to cue animals to do stuff

executive dysfunction can make figuring out the next step difficult! so i spend time prior to the actual execution going through what will happen and what needs to be done. when i used to do labs, my prof told us we need to be familiar with our procedures before the actual doing bit, to lessen fuck-ups, so i do the same with anything that is complex (to me) and requires my executives to be functioning :')

on days that are hard or for events that will be hard, i try to give myself more time and grace to fuck up

ultimately at the end of the day, u gotta know urself and what u struggle with, and in some cases, its okay to be late. if this is about being punctual to work/school or an obligation that requires u to be on time, then ofc pls ignore this next bit, but like. its okay to be late. actually even for obligations, generally its ok to be late. some people might get bothered but that's rly on them. u have a disorder that literally makes it hard for u to be on time. if ppl arent accommodating, they are assholes.

the most freeing thing for me was to first stop judging myself for being late. i grew up assigning moral superiority to being punctual, but in reality???? people who are routinely on time are not morally superior to people who are routinely late. theres no fucking award for being on time. and as mentioned, adhd makes it physically difficult to be on time. u are not late because ur an entitled asshole who doesnt value other people's time, ur late because u have a disability that makes it harder for you vs others to be on time.

anyway this got hella long i hope some of this was helpful, sorry if this was just a rehash of stuff u already know. may ur journey to ur goal of being on time be achievable, and kind to you. love u and wishing u all da best.

perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:

does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies

[lunardamaged-blog]

me: should go to bed soon as i have things to do early in the morning with the parental unit also me: Anyways inbox call cause i can’t sleep till this kid decides to quiet for the day

[ixkyu-9]

Oooohhh yeah it’s Mikan babey!!!!!!!!!!!

[idkcantthinkofaname]

It takes time/4

Pairing: BTS x Reader

Warning: none really in this chapter

Summary: after finally getting the house y/n always wanted, she find a hybrid hiding in an old shed. Unlike most people who find strays, y/n doesn’t turn him into h.c mainly because there was a lot of shady things that happened with the hybrid control in the area.

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Knocks could be heard through the house, I rolled over and looked at my phone, 9am it read. Who the fuck is here? I rolled out of bed and grabbed a hoodie off the floor. It was Wednesday and I didn’t have to work which was why I was a little upset at being woken up this early! I threw the door open. There stood two men about 6ft something, dressed nicely. “Good morning ma’am, we are sorry to wake you up so early in the morning.” The blonde on spoke, the other one just seem to smile but his eyes were looking around. I stepped a little closer to the door frame and pulled the door to me so he couldn’t see inside. These men seemed off to me. “I needed to be up anyways. So why are you gentlemen here?” The blonde smiled bigger “we are from the hybrid control here, and wanted to come and Remind people in the area, with these winter months that Feral hybrid sometime Enter people’s home for warmth.” I blinked at him. This was common knowledge... “I will remember to make sure all my doors and windows are locked.” I gave a tight smile. He nodded “if you ever see one please do not hesitate to call, we need to make sure these animals don’t hurt anyone or themselves.” The blonde one seems to eye me for a second. The other tall man was still silent but taking in the surrounding. When he finally spoke his voice was raspy. “There has been rumors of wolf and a couple of foxes in this area. Have you seen them? Or any other wild life out here?” What an odd thing to ask? “Well I’m sure, seeing how this is the woods, there would be woodland creatures”. I looked up at him. His eyes just screamed danger. The blonde one laughed “sorry for him. We will be going now. Thank you for your time and make sure to lock up.” He smiled big and they both when back to their truck.

I closed the door, that was so weird, and something was definitely off. This could be a normal thing for this area but that one dude with the raspy voice seemed to have been talking about Taehyung and jimin...like he knew they were not normal foxes....or was I over thinking this?

They said they were from H.C. I have seen what the department here has done to hybrids...when I was in high school a friend and I was headed to her aunts home. We had come into town for snacks. when we came across H.C. handling a “feral” hybrid...they were dragging the poor thing out. Yelling at people to leave cause it was dangerous. But when the hybrid was brought out....there was no way it was dangerous...the dog hybrid was covered in blood and bruises. Eyes was dead to the world, but the whimpers it made was a cry for help. It broke my heart. When it’s eyes locked with me I ran to help him. Everything happened at once. Someone grabbed me, yelled at me to get back. That the dog hybrid would hurt me. I screamed they were hurting him try to get to him. The dog hybrid started to struggle to get free, but they beat him. The puppy kept looking at me with hope in his eyes....I know it weird to act as such when I didn’t really know him. But seeing him my heart just broke. I had to help him. I tried to get free again when someone fist collided with my cheek..I landed hard on the concrete, my friend ran to my side as I placed a hand in my cheek and looked up. “You were told to leave!” The man above me shouted. My friend dragged me up and tried to pull me away. The dog was thrashing hard and eyes were locked with the man that was in front of me. The man pushed me hard. “Last warning leave!” A vicious growl came from the dog but the men hit him hard in the head. He was knocked out cold. My friend dragged me away with tears in my eyes. This was their true colors, they say they’re here to help hybrids for a better life. Most actually are good, but the ones here treats them terribly.

I shook my head, and walked to the kitchen. I need coffee. I blinked back the tears that formed..I still remember how that poor hybrid the hopeless look in his eyes. I bet when that hybrid was happy and smiling it would had been bright like the sun.

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After another weekend of work, I finally made it home around 2am. Which wasn’t to bad. I locked my car as I headed to the front door. “So do you like just work nights?” I jumped and turned around to come face to face with jimin. Who was in all black. “Omg you scared me!” I smack him slightly in the arm. Jimin giggled “sorry, I was waiting on you at sunset..” “wait you have been here since sunset?” Jimin scratched the back of his neck. “I wanted to come see you.”. I let out a hefty sigh. “Well let’s get inside” we walked into the house. “I only work only three nights a week, Saturday through Monday. So if you want to come see me and don’t want to wait until I come home, you might want to come on my days off.” Jimin smiled and nodded. “I’ll try to remember that.” I walked into the kitchen, “so how is everyone?”

I looked over my shoulder to look at Jimin, who was leaning against the door frame. I turned back, how could someone standing there look so good. I know hybrids were made to be beautiful people, but he was taking it to a whole other level. I shook my head, I’m not doing this. I open the fridge and started pulling out some left overs to eat. As I was setting stuff on two plate, i jumped.

Two arms wrapped around my waist, and Jimin placed his chin on my left shoulder, it took all my inner strength to not freak out. I wasn’t use to anyone holding me like this. Jimin giggled “ you don’t get held like this a lot do you?” I looked at him and raised an eyebrow and blushed “your heart rate picked up and you are blushing kind hard” I looked down and what I was doing. “No, not for a very long time.” I sighed and moved to place a plate in the microwave to warm it up.

Jimin had let go and stayed in place for a second before I turned around and leaned against the counter. “You had someone before?” His tail was twitching at the end. “Once, I was engaged to someone...”his tail stopped then start twitching again. “Engaged? What happened?” I sighed and took the first plate out and handed it to Jimin. “He choose other women and drugs over me..” I shrugged. As I waited for my plate to warm up, I turned to Jimin, he was starring at his plate with a frown on his face. “Something wrong Jimin?” He looked up and locked eyes with me. “I just don’t see how someone can do that to someone else? Especially you?” I smiled “sometimes people are like that I guess” we stared at each other, it looked like he was going to say something else but the beeping sound rang threw the kitchen. “Time for us to eat!” I smiled.

We sat at the dinning room table. Jimin still was in his head. “So Jimin, how come only you came this time?” I asked. “Oh Taehyung had to do help namjoon with something last night. So he couldn’t make it.” He scooped some food into his mouth. “Why are you and Taehyung the only ones that come? Why doesn’t Jin?” Jimin seem to stare at his plate for a second, then he looked up. “ Because Namjoon doesn’t want him here.” I blinked the. Looked down “They actually don’t know that Taehyung and I have come here.” He stated. I looked down, idk why I’m kinda hurt by this. From Namjoon reaction I’m not really surprised.

Jimin grabbed my hand “don’t worry, we will all be here soon! Trust me.” I looked at him, I was going to question what he meant but he stood up. “I gotta go now.” He smiled. “Wait take some food with you.” I stood and headed to grab the left over I had stored away. I may have made all my meals a. Little bit larger on purpose just in case they had comeback. I handed Jimin the large bag. He smiled. “You are the sweetest Y/N.” He hugged me. Burying his face in my neck. “I was jealous of taehyung getting you touch you last time.” He spoke into my neck with his lips moving lightly against my neck. These hybrids are going to be the death of me. Jimin smiled and moved back “I will be back y/n.” He lightly touched my cheek with his knuckles then turned to leave.

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[stinkybeanus]

Me after studying and doing hw for 14.5 hours cause I'm shit at sciences like rip me lmao hopefully I somehow pass those fucking exams

[zephyr-94]

barista!jaemin

inspired by the one and only, puff live!

a/n: this is my first ever fic omg pls spare me with my low writing skills cause ive literally never done this fjskdjdhjdks okay i just love na jaemin periodt. (after writing: ITS VERY JUMPY AND LENGTHY I DIDNT PLAN TO MAKE IT LIKE THIS DJSKJSJSS)

so like your aunt owns a cafe which is in the middle of the city

and you live a lil outside just cause you know, school n shit

you visit her so often cause its a small cafe and it calms you down whenyou need a short break from everything

its weird thats its in the middle of the city but its still calming right?

well okay so like you know those small streets down the neighbourhoods?

the ones you dont really go unless you are rlly feeling adventurous n shit, your aunt’s cafe is in one of those streets

okay longass context down

and at school, you are in a photography club,,, or technically you just learn photography from your teacher after school but its not a whole club extravaganza

just cause your school kinda demands an extra curricular after the first year

but it feels really suffocating to be forced to do smth as a group/with people you arent as familiar with,,,,

so you “signed up” for the smallest club: [photography theory]

it was about time you start doing your hobby-ish thing at school and the tutor was cool with you being practically the only student in the club lmao so everything was going well but

youve never rlly done anything big yourself and your school friends havent pushed you to do smth either

so you were kind of looking to at least take part in one out-of-class project initiated by students maybe

and theres this big school newspaper club/writers’ club,,,, and you find out that they are like !! photographers & stories wanted !!

and you ?? at first but apparently its a project where like students get to submit their fav pic & write a mini article about “your place of comfort”

cause the topic of the month is mental health/dealing with stress and the newspaper club wants a students’ view on it, instead of just “meditation” as a topic

then you just have that cafe in your mind like,,, how you would love to shoot the street light shining into the cafe from afar and how calm that place makes you feel,,,

basically you just love your auntie’s cafe lmao

so then you go on about maybe joining it,,, but then you be indecisive cause youve never actually taken a photo professionally you just have a prolonging passion for it,,,

and your teacher is like “y/n idk why you are contemplating no ones gonna judge you just try smth new, go take the chance if you are feeling like it”

we love a supportive johnny, oh yes your english teacher is your photography “club” tutor,,, self proclaimed club

actually there have been many opportunities in the past with taking photos for projects like this one but you just stayed away cause it didnt “motivate” you to take photos for it

so johnny’s words kinda pushed your back n you felt like this was the right thing :))

so then you visit your auntie on the weekends asking maybe if you can take pics & ask her a couple questions about this place

and shes like ofc!! wanna see how you capture this place :))

so then you do this whole process and you submit the article & photos,,,,,

which ends up getting a whole page???

and you are like wh a t

newspaper club: oh you submitted many such pretty pictures & your comment felt very genuine

and you :)) but damn a whole page,,,, you is a lil anxious djskdjdh now the entire schools now going to know you

johnny the hype man teacher: see i told you it was going to turn out nice

and then kaboom, your article lowkey blows up lmao

your auntie is calling you up like “y/n!! so many customers came today!! and a lot of them are wearing the same uniform as you, they must be the students from your school!!”

and shes so happy so you are happy af

but then you remember like,,,, shes never had a part timer,,,,,

and she continues to manage the place by herself after it gets popular among the students,,,,

?? auntie,,, you never take a break ??

shes like maybe ill think about hiring someone?? and you are like, that would be good for you :)) i will be less worried about your health!!

whoop guess who got hired

and after youve had that^ conv, you had constant classes n group projects n shit so you literally had no time,,,

two weeks later, kinda highkey stressed

you decide to go make a quick visit to auntie before going to the library to study

and you peek,,, to see not your auntie,,,,

but a boy?? 

just standing behind the counter,,, no auntie to be seen but a beautiful boy???

before the opening hours,,,, he?? must be the part timer,,,

and once he notices you by the door,

he just smiles at you,,, so brightly,,,,

wow youve never seen such a pretty face,,,

you actually like forget to open the door you are just staring from outside the cafe,,,,

and he just waves,,, and you snap back to reality like oh shit did i just stare at someone for a solid minute

welp that was embarrassing djkdjdfj

he opens the door for you and goes “hey you must be y/n :))”

“the only person who comes before 9am, thats you isnt it?”

and you just ?¿ confusion??¿

“auntie told me about it :)) hi, nice to meet you, im jaemin!!”

you are still confused but you just shake hands next to the counter,,,

and as you take a seat

jaemin just makes a smol run to the other side and hes like

“you came just in time, i want you to try my latte!!”

jaemin serves a cup of latte with a leaf art

this boy just served a latte first thing after shaking hands i-

you take a sip from the cup

and you are like,,, so auntie hired an experienced boy,,,,

“its really good,,,” it has the same comforting taste you always love

and jaemin just has the biggest smile :)))) you know his smile where the ends just curl in, yes that one

him beaming like that just makes you giggly inside,,,,

you ask him “so uh um im guessing you are the part timer??”

“yes!! i didnt introduce myself properly did i! i started working here two weeks ago :))

ive been coming here for quite a while now so im happy i got the chance!!”

and you ?¿ “ive never seen you here??” you are the most frequent customer youve gotta have seen him before fjsksj

hes like “oh um i always came at 9pm on a friday, after everyone leaves and the whole neighbourhood gets quiet”

you just :o

and come to think of it, you’ve never visited here on a friday night,, cause you know, friday evening is your im not doing anything tonight kinda me time lmao

inside you are kinda happy that someone who knows this place got hired like its a special place to you so

tbh you were kinda anxious even though you trust your aunt,,,,,

and jaemin hurriedly goes “oh and also auntie is taking a break today, shes out to the market so im gonna take over until she returns in the afternoon”

djskdj auntie why didnt she tell you lmao

“im sorry if you needed anything specific from her,,, you should stay for a while until she comes back maybe?”

and you are like,,, “oh that would be great,,, but unfortunately i have to go to the library,,,,”

jaemin: ): he pout

“im so glad you came today tho!! i wanted to see you :) auntie has told so many thing about you”

“wait,, what has she told you,, omg”

apparently shes told jaemin

a) reason why this cafe recently became a popular hideout cafe for students because you wrote a school article bout it

b) that you do photography

c) and that this cafe is your break time so you never study here and auntie loves listening to you talk about school n what not

and then you are like !!

“wait so then you dont go to our school ,,,um are you also a student?”

and you panic a little cause i mean you just met him but you literally know nothing and you mightve assumed things fjsksj

and jaemin tells you “ah yes i go to a hospitality school downtown” “ohh”

and from there he just starts talking about his school and what he studies

he asks you about school but jaemin is extra excited about his hospitality course hes all !! :))!!

and you are so hooked on jaemin talking about his school you forget an hour passes by,,,,

[time to open the cafe]

then the customers start coming in

and you are like “oh sorry ive just bothered you during the preparation time,,,,, it was nice meeting you!! gotta go now :))”

and you rush out cause all you planned to do was give your auntie a little visit

also you dont want to bother jaemin cause its hes gonna handle the place alone for a couple hours

you wave a smol see you soon and

jaemin just does a little chuckle,, and hes like waving so widely fjsksj does he know other people can see him

and thats how your first day with jaemin went

later that day you return home thinking like,,, did you just get so excited to converse with someone who you juSt met,,,

na jaemin’s power

and jaemin on the other hand, is thinking about how beautiful you looked today

just that short while but it made him so happy

hes thinking about you all week uwu

so next week you visit again, expecting to see your auntie

and maybe also that gleaming boy

peeking through before the opening hours

the moment jaemin realises you hes like “y/n!!” what a shining boy

and aunties like “oh y/n right you met him last week when i was out right”

that morning you just talk to auntie about what shes been missing on after you went on a busy week

mind that jaemin is literally just listening to you & auntie talk

and he enjoys it cause you talk so comfortably in front of her :))

you decide to stay the whole day to give yourself a break

which meant you moved to your usual spot by the window

and auntie serving you (free) vanilla latte

you take out your camera and just start adjusting the lenses, trying to find the right frame

customers come and go so you dont get to talk to jaemin a lot that day

but its not like you came here for him,,,, right?¿??¿??

while you were thinking all that

jaemin was asking about you all day like

“so y/n’s favourite is vanilla?”

“does y/n prefer a latte over cappuccino?”

“i want to serve y/n something,,,, what would be the best??”

auntie: how many times did he mention y/n today omg

and as auntie answers

jaemin is thinking like

i wanna see y/n smile

and the entire day your auntie is like !!he :)))))

lmao same auntie same

so when the peak hours finish she goes

“i can take care of everything now, go talk to y/n”

and jaemin just smiles brighter than ever

so when he comes around, you startle

but it puts a smile on your face

because hes brought your favourite cake and just a smiling jaemin in front of you uwu

you both get to know more about each other like

how theres this two boys named chenle & jisung in the preparatory course whom he adores to death

or like

theres this jeno boy whose jokes suck jeno i love you

with a bonus of

you talking about how johnny’s english class is nothing but a comedian’s lesson

so that day went great

and now that you are comfortable

you visit the cafe to talk with jaemin more

even when you have a chill no stress week

it just makes you feel lighter by coming to the cafe now

and your auntie is hella happy that you two are getting along so well

it continues for weeks

just you and jaemin talking from time to time when the peak hours are over or before the cafe opens

you became best pals basically

he encouraged you to join more school projects cause hes sure your photography is worth the chance

you giving him daily support when he feels like he isnt doing the best for his course

sometimes when your aunt had to leave for a couple hours near closing time

you two just stayed there talking for a couple hours giving comfort to each other

late night lattes and cakes

also one time you got so excited from the bestest grades you got you might have hugged him without thinking oops

and one day, jaemin’s friend renjun is there when you come after school

and hes like “hi uh dont mind me im just here a bit because jaemin has to go somewhere after this and i dont want him to be late”

so you just,,, chill as jaemin kinda rushes

and when he goes to the storage room, you just see renjun getting along with the auntie lmao

auntie: “so i got offered this contract with the new type of beans? and idk if i should take it because that would mean i have to go out of the city,,,,”

renjun: “for how long?”

auntie: “two weeks maybe”

renjun: “oh thats fine, dont worry about it. jaemin can take over that. next two weeks right? his mandatory work experience ends this week”

so thats how renjun signed jaemin up to work alone for auntie without his consent

and aunties like “y/n!! it would be so much for just jaemin, you should help him :) your break starts next week right?”

so you also got signed up to this thing

fast forward to first day of break

aka the first time you “work” there

you are nervous and jaemin can feel it

“dont worry y/n, ill do all the talking and coffee, you just have to serve & clean!!”

so you try to calm down a bit

not to mention that you are also nervous cause its only jaemin and you in the room

but then he sees you fumbling with tying the apron and

jaemin says “here, give it, ill do it for you” while smiling a little

and from the back he wraps the apron around your waist,,,

and hes so close to you,,, your heart is fluttering

okay heart stop beating so fast pls thank you

and little do you know,,, jaemin is flushing a bit behind your back,,,

you are both the cutest mess

and you break the silence with a smol

“thanks :))”

trying to contain yourself from screaming

adapting to the serving side & keeping youself busy

you dont realise jaemin is literally admiring you the entire time as you get used to the job,,,,

here and then you forget how close you might be standing next to jaemin,,,

you kinda also realise how rEALLY attractive he looks serving everyone with a huge smile 24/7

and the way some customers are obviously attracted to him,,,,

but what you dont know is he is literally taking this chance to highkey flirt with you lmao

waves (sometimes winks) across the room

causally hovers over you when you cant find/reach smth

beaming the biggest smile every minute he gets to himself

and at first you panicked like ?!????

cause was this jaemin boy holding back for a whole month

is this his nature yes

but it makes you so happy to see him smiling all the time beside you

so jaemin yes its working

you gotta admit tho his flirty-ish behaviour grew on you this entire week djskjssj

a week of giggly smiles uwu

but the week after was unexpectedly the busiest of the busiest

you two forgot national holidays collided with the weekends and for some, it was a week off,,,,,,

so the week rushes by so quickly compared to the last one

it kind saved you tho cause your heart cant take more of that flirty behaviour

and finally,

the peak days are over,,,

and you realise its been a while since the cafe was just you,,,, and well jaemin but just no customers

the silence with faint sounds of cups cluttering,,,, you missed it

so then you go sit on the high chair

just admiring jaemin organise the shelves

he starts to prepare a new cup of coffee then realises you smiling at him “were you in awe at how effortless i look right now??”

you chuckle at his remark,,,

(needless to say that your are chuckling to hide how your heart is melting at his smirky smile)

so you twirl a bit shyly,, and avert the gaze to the familiar wood of the counter

asking him “do you remember the day we first saw each other, me sitting here and you serving the latte?”

“ofc, its the day i met an angel”

oh so confidently na jaemin really just said that

you quickly look up at him like !!!?!???!

and thats how he earned a first kiss (or rather a peck) from you

leaning over the counter and pecking you, a whole blushy mess

then comes a clink by the door

you juMp,,,,,,,

oof the customer may or may not have seen you two

you both rush around flushed like a tomato lmao

spending the rest of the day like nothing happened oops

and after the day ends, you two close the cafe

as you starting walking you are caught off guard when

jaemin just takes your hand,,,

“look y/n!! the stars are so pretty!!”

and starts swinging your arm like a tall child,,,

your heart is skippingnsjsjsjs

then at the corner, jaemin turns around and goes

“this is actually the place i first saw you”

and you ??¿?¿¿

“i saw you taking the photo of this night light shining into the cafe”

still hand in hand, jaemin steps a little closer

and takes his free hand to cup your face, kissing you,,,,

you smile into him as he kisses so softly, thinking

maybe the day i took that photo was a friday night

and melting into the kiss, you really think you are dreaming,,,,,

under the lights you once wished capturing a sparkling moment with the cafe in the back

its now you and jaemin in the frame,,,,

the boy who had you forgetting to breathe a month ago

whos now serving your favourite latte with a bonus of pecks on the cheek,,,,, (maybe on the lips if theres no one watching)

anyways

jaemin brings light to your life and you have never been this happy until you met him uwu

and it goes both ways, jaemin cant live without you now,,,, you are the best thing thats ever happened to him

(thank the heavens & your auntie)

oh and also johnny for pushing you to submit that article lmao plus huang renjun for that involuntary sign up

[oh-so-scenarios]

damn but, you is amaze… ♥| Part 12

↠ Prince Jungkook ends up meeting his Cinderella, and he tries to find her before the clock strikes 12 and the fairytale magic fades.

**A/N: Errors, there are spealling and grammar errors. will fix them later! Idk how I feel about this chapter...not my best work in my opinion.

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•Masterlist•

Y/n sat staring at her phone. The messages from Jungkook continue to pile up. For the past few days, Jungkook has been sending sweet messages, not expecting a reply.

Jungkook: Good Morning Y/n, I hope you have a wonderful day!

Jungkook: Good night sweetheart, sweet dreams.

The early morning shines through her bedroom window while she sits at the edge of her bed. Sunny sits at the desk settled not too far away. She stares at Y/n waiting for a response to the question that has been hanging in the air.

It is the day of the Spring Gather Ball. The media is buzzing as Kings, Queens, and royalty from different nations land in Korea. Media are already trying to sneak in to catch a glimpse of the decorated hall. Performers and the entertainment are already doing rehearsals in the hall. Social media is already flying with tweets.

What Y/n didn’t know was the special performances would be available on a live stream through the Royal Family’s official website. It seems there is a bigger audience this year, all waiting for the Prince’s mystery girl.

The question that is hanging about is whether Y/n wants to go.  Unlike last time, Sunny won’t be there to encourage her. She’d be there on her own, to face the Prince.

“I made the nail appointment for 9am, so it’s up to you Y/n.” Sunny urges. Y/n doesn’t respond but looks down at her phone again. The screen was black and before she could unlock it, a ding sounded from the device.

[8:12 AM] Jungkook: Good morning sweetheart, I hope you slept well. I am hoping to see you tonight. Have a wonderful day :)

She sighs and nods, slowly getting up from her bed. Sunny squeals in excitement, springing up from her seat.

“Perfect! I’m so glad you’re going!”

Y/n doesn’t have the energy to respond, making a slow walk toward the bathroom. She sets her phone on the bookshelf by the bathroom door and proceeds to complete her morning routine. Her pace was slower than usual, anxiety running scary thoughts in her mind.

After stepping out the shower, she puts on her bathrobe and makes her way out the bathroom. She finds Sunny on the phone.

“So it’s done?” She mumbled with a smirk on her lips. She brought her finger up to her mouth, biting her nail. As she met my confused gaze, her smile widened.

“Thanks, Marco! You’re the best!” She hangs up the phone, turning around to show Y/n a big smile.

Y/n leans back, fearing what Sunny could be planning. Her proud grin only gets larger as she sees Y/n hesitate.

“Who is Marco and what has he done?” Y/n questions as she makes her way towards her bed. She begins to lotion her body watching as Sunny giggles to herself.

“Marco is a guard at the Spring Gather today, I know you don’t like a lot of attention so I arranged for him to sneak you in the side door. The whole grand entrance walk down the staircase is so not your style.”

Y/n hums in agreeance, and though she doesn’t show it; she’s very thankful to Sunny for caring so much to go out her way.

Y/n stops what she’s doing, letting her mind drift as Sunny runs around the room getting things prepared.

“Sunny,” Her voice comes out soft, and distant. She’s becoming lost in her thoughts, her mind wandering into the far future.

Sunny stops her movements to stare at her frozen friend. When Sunny doesn’t reply, Y/n continues to speak her thoughts.

“A lot is going to change after tonight, isn’t it?” Y/n didn’t need to know Sunny’s answer because she already knew the answer.

Rather than answer the question, Sunny moved onto a different topic. She was worried that Y/n was going to chicken out, and was hoping to keep her from overthinking.

“Get dressed, we have to go to the nail place and after that, I’ll help you learn how to keep a low profile at these events. When all that is done with, we gotta go to hair and makeup.”

Y/n rolled her eyes and fell back onto her bed. She stared up at her ceiling, keeping a grip on her towel so it didn’t slip off her body.

“It’s going to be a long day.” She whined. Sunny poked her head into the girl’s view, blocking the plain ceiling her eyes were focused on.

Sunny’s blonde hair was pulled back into a ponytail, with a few short strands flying loose and around her face. Her oversized shirt that held the logo of some old rock band was slipping off her shoulder yet she still managed to look amazing.

A wicked smirk pulled at the corner of her slightly chapped lips, “If you’re lucky, it’ll be a long night too!”

Y/n scoffs at her words, reaching around her to grab a pillow. However Sunny moves faster, dodging the pillow Y/n throws.

“Sunny! Stop having such dirty thoughts!”

“Have you seen that man? He ain’t my type but I know you’re in for a good time.” Sunny winks before exiting the room.

“Jungkook!” The Queen called her son who ran from her once again.

“Jungkook!” She shouted even louder, picking up speed. Her green sundress flowed in the wind as she chased after her son, nearly knocking over some of the ball preparers in the process.

“Stop him!” She yelped, causing her son to throw a glance over his shoulder. He meets her eyes and snickers at his mom’s antics. Jungkook thinks he’s in the clear from his mom’s demanding questions when he crashes into what he thinks is a wall.

He stumbled back to meet his father’s vexed face.

“Father.” He muttered. Before he could collect himself, his mother’s warm hands clamped onto his shoulders. She stood at a short 5’2, but she held onto her son for dear life.

“How long are you going to avoid our questions?” The King asked staring at his flustered son, “your mother and I have the right to know about our future daughter in law.”

Jungkook shook his head at his father’s words and gently brushes off his mother’s hands.

“That’s just it, I don’t know if she’ll even appear tonight, she doesn’t like the spotlight and she really doesn’t like the talk or marriage so soon,” Jungkook explains.

“Well, what did she expect? You’re going to be King, you need a Queen.”

“Please for the love of God stop saying that! I don’t need someone who fits the role of Queen, I need someone who fits me and is right for me.” He argues back to his mother. He runs a hand through his hair, leaving his parents in stunned silence.

They didn’t think their son had thought so deeply about someone to marry. He never really showed much interest in who his Queen would be. The King and Queen were expecting a swift arranged marriage being enough for their son, but now they see that they were wrong.

“So this woman,” The King speaks in a softer tone, “this mystery woman if she appears tonight what’s the goal?”

Jungkook shrugs, “I don’t know what the goal is...I just want to see her.”

“So the goal is just to see her?” The queen mirrors her son’s words.

Jungkook laughs awkwardly, “Yeah, see her, talk to her and get to know her better.”

There is a silence between the three before both parents share a look with each other. In a wordless exchange, the King and Queen come to an agreement. Both nod at the same time, taking their son by surprise.

“If the goal for tonight is just to see her then that’s it. We won’t push you on it, but if things are going well..try to at least let us say hello. We promise not to scare her off.” The King states bring a big smile to their son’s face.

“Great!” Jungkook chimes, his smile only staying on his lips for a brief moment.

The question is if she’s going to show up. Jungkook says goodbye to his parents before continuing down the hallway. He makes his way to his room, pushing open the wooden double doors. He shuffles to his bed, catching a glimpse of the suit picked out for him. It was something simple. A black thin fabric turtle neck with a black suit jacket, a thin silver chain, and a red pocket handkerchief. He throws himself on the bed, laying on his stomach with his eyes closed.

Though it seems that his whole mind is wrapped around Y/n, he also has to make sure to speak to the Kings and Queens from different nations. He remembers his father mentioning the important diplomats he needs to get familiar with. He groans and digs into the pocket of his jeans. The regular texts in the group chat with the guys. Yet. notification from Instagram.

He opens the app and goes to his direct messages. Y/n read it but did not reply. Jungkook closes his eyes in defeat, dropping his phone on the bed beside him.

“Please Y/n,” He whispers to himself, “Please be here tonight.”

He stays like that for some time, not moving and almost falling asleep till his phone pinged. Jungkook moved quickly, hoping to see Y/n’s name. It was the group chat instead.

From Jin: Good vibes and good luck for the ball tonight! See yall at 7!

Jungkook could only close his eyes and try to resume the half heart rest he was getting.

“Done!” Sunny shouted as she finished Y/n’s hair. Y/n stared at herself in the mirror, gawking at the person staring back at her. Her make up was done beautifully while her hair was pulled into an exquisite updo that looked like strands of hair were graciously laced together. Y/n’s make up was simple with a neutral eyeshadow look and a deep brown matte lipstick.

“Y/n, you look beautiful!” Sunny exclaims, “Jungkook is gonna lose it when he sees you! Ugh, he’ll probably ask you to be his Queen right there and then!”

Y/n rolls her eyes, but can’t rid the big smile on her lips.

“You think so?” Y/n nervously twiddles her fingers, not able to part her eyes from her reflection. She looks beautiful, but she’s thankful to Sunny. The person in the mirror isn’t unrecognizable. She still looks like herself.

“Absolutely. Now let's have you step into the dress.” Sunny scurried over to the large garment bag that was hung up in Y/n’s closet. The dress was beyond belief and the fact that Sunny was able to pull it together so quickly is even more amazing. Y/n stands up from her seat, dropping the silk robe she was wearing to reveal her undergarments. Sunny quickly takes the dress out, preparing it for Y/n.

Once ready, Y/n steps into the dress and Sunny helps her put it on, closing the buttons in the back. After managing to get her heels on, Sunny helps Y/n pack her clutch purse.

Sunny exhales, her lips spreading into a huge smile. She looks Y/n up and down, “You look amazing.”

Y/n looks down at the red sparkle ballgown that reaches the floor with a bit of a train. The off-shoulder straps and v neck that showed just enough cleavage seemed to not take too much away from her. Y/n was worried it would look more like the dress was wearing her.

But, she should have known that Sunny would get it right and that she did. The feeling of being dress up like this made everything feel more real. She was going to meet Jungkook.

She lets out a shaky breath, her eyes dashing to the clock. 7:02 PM.

“It’s good to be fashionably late.”

JUNGKOOK SMILED and waved as he and his family entered the ball, escorted by the claps of all the guests that were in attendance. His eyes scanned the big ballroom to the best of his abilities. His eyes settled on as many faces as he could, hoping to find Y/n’s beautiful eyes looking at him.

To his disappointment, those kind eyes were nowhere to be found. As he and his parents reached the bottom of the staircase, a microphone was handed to his father. Cameras flashed as media captured the moments. It was at that moment that Jungkook became aware of the flashing lights. His mind was so preoccupied with searching for Y/n, he almost forgot the eyes of the media on him.

He didn’t realize that as his eyes scanned the vicinity, the media watched expectantly hoping to catch the moment Jungkook locked onto his future Queen.

Noting her son’s look of disappointment, the Queen leaned over to whisper words of encouragement to her son, “I’m sure she’ll be here, son. The night has just begun.”

Jungkook shared a small smile with his mother before tunning into his father’s speech.

“...having all of you here is such an honor and we are thankful for coming to celebrate the Spring Gather with us. The ball is the celebration Spring ending and entering the 6th month of the year. We are halfway! Please enjoy the entertainment.”

The King ends quickly, prompting applause from the audience. The entertainment begins immediately. A world famous children’s choir is performing, their glorious harmonies and vocals filling the hall. Some people were watching while others danced and mingled.

Before Jungkook could make his way into the flood of people, his father stopped him.

“Remember son, smile.” That’s all he said before releasing his son. Jungkook slowly walks into the congregation of people, meeting familiar and new faces along the way. Stopped by the Prime Minister, Japan’s King and Prime Minister as well.

They no longer saw Jungkook as the small boy who hid behind his father. They were speaking to him on policies and how he plans to rule as King. Jungkook honestly felt overwhelmed at first, almost wanting to search for his dad in need of help.

Yet, as time went on, he found a way to relay his feelings and plans in his own way. Jungkook managed to escape the diplomats conveniently finding his group of friends.

“There he is,” Yoongi said as Jungkook approached them. The guys were all gathered around the table that held the food drinks. Jungkook wordlessly grabbed a glass of what seemed to actually be white wine. He took a small sip before turning his back to his friends.

“She hasn’t shown up huh?” Namjoon questioned. Jungkook shook his head, searching the crowd once more. The handsome Prince felt his hope slowly leaving him as he continued to search the room.

“Have you guys seen anyone arrive? Have you seen anyone walk down the stairs that you haven’t really seen before?” Jungkook questioned his friends.

“Nope,” Hoseok answered, “The media has been keeping their eyes peeled just as much as you have. She would have been bombarded with cameras and questions of who she was before you could even find her.” The Duke took a sip of his wine, his eyes also darting around the hall.

Jungkook took another sip of his wine, his eyes now focusing on the opera singer that was belting a lovely piece on the elevated stage across the hall.

“She could be running late?” Jin suggests, trying to ease Jungkook’s tension. Jungkook stands with the guys as they talk and watch the opera singer.

“I'm going to get air.” Jungkook suddenly says, setting his glass down and making his way through the people to get to the glass double doors that lead to the garden. The garden was decorated beautifully with lights and the warm summer air complimented the decor. Jungkook needed to catch his breath. The different smells of perfume as different Princesses and diplomat’s daughters approached him were starting to make his head spin.

It was only 8:26 PM and he already wants the night to end. He reached the doors, surveying the hall once more. Media already has their cameras pointed at him but he doesn’t pay them much mind, proceeding outside anyways. As he slowly strolls down the walkway line with beautiful rose shrubs, he comes to the big fountain in the middle of the garden. It was lit up, water streaming from the porcelain fish figurines at seated on the top of the structure.

The large circle base of the fountain was filled with water and as Jungkook approached closer he heard voices.

“Well, I think singing in your choir is probably a lot more fun than being a Princess. Princess’s actually have a lot of hard work.” A voice teased. Jungkook found himself slowly walking around the circle base of the fountain, to see the speaking person. He came to an interesting sight.

The children who previously performed gathered around a woman in a red gown. She sat on the rim of the fountain speaking to the children kindly. All Jungkook could see was her backside, but that all he needed. He swallowed as he felt his hair begin to pound in his ears. It felt like his whole body was pulsing as he took a shaky step closer.

“Oh, the Prince!” One of the little girls chimed, grabbing the attention of all the other children. She points Jungkook’s way and the sudden attention made him stop walking. Jungkook watched as the woman rose up from her spot, turning around with curious eyes.

Y/N FROZE WHEN she met Jungkook’s wide doe eyes. In that second, it felt like electricity was running through her system. All she could hear was the breeze blowing gently and her heart pumping blood.

Say something...say something! Y/n’s lips parted but it seemed like her voice was trapped in her lips.

“Sweetheart…” was all that left Jungkook’s lips. He sounded out of breath like he had the air knocked out of him.

“Is the prince here to see you?” One of the kids asked, snapping Y/n out of her trance. She presented a nervous smile, not sure how to reply to the girl’s question.

“If the prince is here to see you, then you are a real princess!” The girl squealed in excitement, drawing out a chuckle from Jungkook. Y/n’s gaze moved back to Jungkook as the kids slowly said their greetings. His focus was on the kids for a moment, leaving Y/n to take in his appearance.

She exhales, her chest rising and falling dramatically. There is no way he’s real. Such a beautiful and radiant man stood in front of her. She was stunned. The aura radiating off him is too strong. She wonders if that’s what was causing the tingles she felt when she first met him at the previous ball. She felt confident until now.

The air around him was on a different level in itself. He’s a prince. A Prince. He’s going to be a King. She felt herself growing intimidated again.

She remembers standing in the shadows, watching as he and his parents descended down the stairs. It felt like she was watching a movie. Watching from afar as he spoke with world leaders and diplomats.

He’s a natural. That simple man she was speaking to through Instagram is a big deal.

Second-guessing herself for a moment, she took staggering steps backward. The children were making their way back inside, giving Jungkook the chance to bring his attention back to Y/n. He looked up just in time to see her retreating back. He felt his heart drop a bit.

Before he could think, his body moved.

“Sweetheart, wait.” He calls out, jogging to keep up with her. He jogs in front of her, blocking her path. She nervously keeps her eyes on the floor, taking in a deep breath and catching Jungkook’s subtle cologne.

“Were you trying to run from me again?” He jokes, hoping to lighten the tense atmosphere. Y/n can’t help but giggle, managing to peak up at the shy smiling man in front of her. Once he’s caught her eyes, she can’t look away. There it is, that electricity again, Another shaky breath escapes her lips as he takes hold of both her hands.

“I feel like I had so much to say and now that you’re here...it’s all left me,” Jungkook speak honestly.

Y/n giggles, understanding his words. She looks down at her hands in his and wonders how such a simple gesture was able to erase her doubts. Why does this feel so natural? The longer he held her hands, the hotter her body felt.

“I think I’ll start by saying, thank you for coming. Also, I am sorry for the way I spoke to you at the mall. It was so rude and unfair to you.”

“I-it’s okay, I understand that it wasn’t anything personal...you had a lot of girls coming up to you. How were you supposed to know it was me?”

“Still, I want to apologize. I am sorry, I hope I am forgiven.” He raises an eyebrow and Y/n narrows her eyes at him. She slips her hands out of his to fake think.

“Mh, I’ll probably have to think about that and get back to you.” She teases.

“Your friend isn’t with you tonight?” Jungkook holds Y/n hand again, and starts guiding her on a walk in the garden.”

“Nope,” Y/n says, “And it’s really too bad...the drinks are actually alcohol this time.”

“I knew you’d like that! I was expecting sparkling cider again, but I got a big gulp of white wine.”

“Sparkling cider is no fun!”

They both strolled through the garden, chatting and cracking jokes like they’ve known each other for years. The stars twinkled beautifully in the sky but that wasn’t enough for Jungkook to take his eyes off Y/n. He felt his heart swelling up with happiness the more they spoke.

He could almost see the walls of worry breaking down as they spoke. Once she stepped out of her shy shell, her personality was shining through. Jungkook wasn’t sure what to call the soaring feeling that had overcome him when he was with her, but he knew that he didn’t want the night to end.

Y/N’s POV:

We walked around in silence for a few minutes. It was a comfortable silence, Jungkook’s hand wrapped gently around mine. My eyes wandered around a bit, taking in the lovely garden and twinkling stars in the night sky.

I could feel Jungkook’s eyes on my profile but I was too nervous to make eye contact, feeling chills go down my spine as I watched his eyes grow darker out of the corner of my eyes. His eyes stayed on the side of my face for a while, slowly trailing down to my neck and lingering on my chest for a few seconds before coming back up to my face.

“So, you’re going to become King soon,” I say a matter-of-fact, finally meeting his intense gaze.

He nods and speaks meekly, “Yes. I knew it would happen eventually, but it’s coming faster than I expected. I’m starting the necessary studies to take the crown.” He squeezes my hand as if to convey just how nervous he is.

“What type of king do you want to be?” I’m not totally sure why I brought this topic up. I was trying to distract myself from the heat that was growing throughout my body.

He sighs as if the question was one he was waiting for, “Rather than what kind of king do I want to be...what kind of king do you think this country needs?”

I was taken off guard, not expecting him to bring the question back around to me. I stopped walking, making Jungkook do the same. He turned his body to face me, one hand resting in the pocket of his pants while the other held my hand, his thumb drawing circles on the back of my hand.

“I think this country needs a king who wants to see the people reach their highest potential. Not only working to grow the country among others but working to also grow the people in the country. Programs for those who want to go to college but can’t afford it. Programs to grow the talents and interest of the younger kids. Working to those who are too old to work, yet have no money saved for retirement.” I paused, trying to read Jungkook’s expression.

He was listening and watching intently. His lips were turned up in a small smirk, but not in a teasing or belittling way. He was happy with what I was saying.

“I think this country needs a king that can work for a better future for his people. Someone who is passionate, caring and ready to work. I think you’re all those things, so don’t doubt yourself Jungkook. Lead with your heart also well as your mind and you’ll be fine.” I finish my short monologue, smiling up at him.

He let go of my hand and place his hand on the small of my back. He slowly brought me closer to him, staring down at me fondly.

My lips parted while my heart picked up the pace.

“You always seem to say the right things. What else do you have under your sleeve?” His voice falls to a soft whisper, his eyes flickering from my eyes to my lips.

“I don’t have anything under my sleeves, I’m just plain old Y/n who takes pictures. Plus my dress doesn’t have sleeves.” I giggle at my own remark, also making Jungkook giggle.

Before I could finish my small laughter, Jungkook brought me closer to him, our chests basically touching. It all happened so quick, him leaning close, my eyes fluttering closed and slight brushing of his lips on mine. As if he was testing the waters.

That slight touch was enough to run chills up my back cause me to tremble slightly. I didn’t have to open my eyes to know he was smirking at me. His lips met mine again. This time stronger. His lips were so warm, smooth and welcoming.

Our lips parted for a moment before resuming. He was kissing me like it was the only thing he knew how to do. Sometimes my lips capturing his, or his capturing mine. Both my hands slid up his chest, causing what sounded like a growl to escape his lips.

His other hand placed itself higher up on my back. He tilted his head a bit deepening the kiss. It was like we couldn’t get close enough, and though my legs were turning to jelly, I’ve never felt so secure in a person’s arms before.

I pulled back from his lips for a few seconds to catch my breath. Our foreheads touching, I opened my eyes to see his eyes still closed. I leaned up, kissing him again. Slow, and short kisses, followed with heavy breathing in between.

“Jungkook are you out her-- Oh! Oh, I am so sorry!” The voice said. I swiftly stepped back from Jungkook, turning my back to the new man in embarrassment.

“Jin Hyung, what’s up?” Jungkook said casually. I straighten my dress a bit planning to turn around the man Seokjin who I think is a Duke when my eyes settle on something. I focus till I recognize what seems to be a camera lens, about three of them,

It feels like my blood freezes over. Were we being watched the whole time? D-did they get pictures of us?

I am taken out of my internal panic by Jungkook’s voice.

“Y/n?” He calls me. I spin around to meet his curious eyes, “Everything okay?”

I nodded, “Yeah.” I turn to face the new man with a small smile. Jungkook’s hand rests on my waist like it’s the most natural thing in the world.

“Hi, I’m Y/n, it’s so lovely to meet you Duke Seokjin.” I bowed, earning a chuckle from both men.

“Please, there is no need to bow to me Y/n, and call me Jin. I’m just an older more handsome version of Jungkook.” He teased. Jungkook rolled his eyes at his hyung’s words.

“Hyung please!” Jungkook whined.

Jin shrugs looking my way for support, “I mean, did I lie?”

I opened my mouth to reply when Jungkook spoke, “We probably have to make our way inside,”

“Fair warning,” Jin begins, speaking to me more than Jungkook, “everyone already wants to know where the Prince has disappeared to….so when you walk in everyone’s attention is going to be on you Y/n.”

I take a deep breath and glanced at Jungkook who smiled encouragingly.

“So once you step into that room your face is gonna be known to the world so I’d take a moment to catch my breath.” Jin mumbles. Jungkook playfull hits his hyung earning a shocked look from Jin.

“What did you hit me for?!” Jin shouts.

“You’re not helping her nerves at all hyung! Why would you say something like that?” Jungkook urges.

“If you don’t want that attention, I could have someone sneak you out?”Jungkook offered.

“It’s fine, let’s go and get it over with,” I muttered walking ahead of the two men and towards the doors.

“She’s spunky.” Jin comments, “I like her.”

I stopped at the double doors, waiting for the two men to catch up.

“Let’s get this done with, I’m gonna have to get past the cameras to grab some wine,” I say throwing Jungkook a smirk. He wraps an arm around my waist and though I’m shaking in my boots right now, I won’t let him see that.

He opened one of the doors for me and I stepped back into the hall. It seems that everyone was watching another performance. Some of the media took glances at me and didn’t think anything of it till they saw Jungkook trailing in behind me while Jin followed. Once Jungkook took hold of my hand, the camera flashes were beyond belief.

However, it didn’t seem to bother him, I shielded my eyes from the lights, not really able to understand any of the questions being yelled at me. It wasn’t long before some tall and heavy set men placed themselves between the media and Jungkook and me.

“See, all you gotta do is ignore them,” Jungkook whispered in my ear, and then we proceed into the hall, all eyes on us as he led me towards the table that had all the drinks and food.

I tried to keep my breathing steady with all the eyes on me and tried not to see so eager to grab a glass of wine. My attention was on seeming unfazed that I didn’t notice the dukes watching me down this glass of wine with a new found fondness.

“Oh,” I said out loud, “I probably look like I have a drinking problem but I don’t I promise.” They all started laughing at my words.

Seokjin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin, and Taehyung. Jungkook’s small and only group of friends. They were all very excited to meet me, not hesitating to tell me about Jungkook’s nervous moments.

Taehyung, in particular, was trying his best to calm my nerves and I am very thankful. None of them mentioned anything about me being Queen and I was glad. Though it seems that the word was being shouted at me by the media and reporters.

“I am not gonna tell them about the ice cream incident!” I hissed at Jungkook who couldn’t hold back his laughter.

Jimin’s eyes lit up, “No, no tell us!”

“Okay so she was--” Jungkook begin but I placed a hand over his mouth.

“Nope! Nope! Nope! We are not going there! You don’t see me airing out that time you had issues with oatmeal.”

“Oh man, Jungkook told you about that?” Namjoon chimed, “If your ice cream story tops that then we gotta hear it!”

“I’d rather jump from the balcony of this palace!” I exclaim removing my hand from Jungkook’s mouth.

“That’s a bit extreme,” Hoseok added, “Jungkook will just tell us the story later.”

I scoff, “Of course he will.” I playfully glare at him, only for him to scrunch his nose and smile.

I felt like I was already part of the friend group, giggling as the guys tried their best to embarrass Jungkook in front of me.

The night was slowly coming to an end and slowly music is playing as people pair up to slow dance. I exhale in relief, realizing that the night is almost over and it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be.

Though it seems that I relaxed way too soon.

“Y/n,” Jungkook whispered into my ear. His hand rested on my back and he leaned towards me, his lips right beside my ear.

“Yes?” I reply, turning my head to face him. The playful air changed suddenly. His lips centimeters from mine. I turn back around to look at the guys who were joking around once more.

“I’m so glad you came today, and I know I may have already pushed you out of your comfort zone...but can I ask one more thing of you?”

“Okay,” I agree, “I’ll cost you though.” I keep my eyes forward. “You’ll have to make up to me.”

I looked up at him once again, grinning slyly. It felt like we were in our own little bubble for that moment. Even the increasing camera flashes couldn’t break my attention.

I like him, a lot. Maybe too much and that’s okay. He’s right, I am way outside my comfort zone but since it’s with him...it’s okay. Maybe I can get through this, as long as it’s with him.

“Make it up to you? How should I do that?” He whispers eyes flickering to my lips.

“Wow, you two are like this already? Please get a room!” Yoongi wines. Jungkook turns to stick his tongue out at his hyung.

“Hush up Yoongi, I think it’s cute!” Hoseok scolded, “Please continue.”

Jimin’s brows furrow, “I just think Hoseok is a pervert!”

“If thinking new blooming love is cute and deserves room to grow means I am a pervert than okay!” Hoseok defends.

My cheeks heat up at the mention of love, but it Jungkook doesn’t even notice.

“Anyways,” He says loudly to shut down the bickering of his friends. He turns back to me with a soft look in his eyes.

He hesitates, biting his lips nervously, “My parents want to meet you. Just briefly. It’s nothing formal or official, they are just curious.” He nearly pleads, beaming at me with an uncertain smile.

I don’t answer right away, my mouth opens as if to speak. Meet his parents? At a public event like this? No matter if it’s a formal meeting or has anything to with possibly becoming Queen, the media will see it and label me as the Crowded Princess and future Queen.

“Sure, I’ll meet them.” I finally say. Honestly, it was worth it, seeing the huge smile on Jungkook’s face.

“Great! We’ll say our greetings to them then I can take you home? It’s been a long night.”  

We walked through masses with the occasional hellos to Jungkook. I could just about see the King and Queen in sight and I spoke suddenly.

“You think they’ll like me?” I spoke in a small panic.

“They’ll love you Y/n, don’t worry.” He reassured me. We caught their attention as we approached. Actually, we caught everyone’s attention. The eyes of every single person were on Jungkook and I as we approached the King and Queen.

The Queen was smiling kindly at me, and it was clear that she was eager to speak to me.

“Hello son,” The King said to Jungkook. Jungkook got his height and stature from his father for sure, but he looked a lot more like his mother. The same sweet smile on her lips was copied onto Jungkook’s face.

“Mom, dad.” He greets them, slowly pushing me forward. I didn’t realize that I was practically hiding behind him.

“This is Y/n.”

I bow at a full ninety degrees, “It’s a pleasure to meet you.” My voice was a little shaky, but I doubt it was noticeable. I stood up straight and was immediately pulled into a hug.

“It’s so nice to meet you Y/n!” The Queen almost sang. There was an audible gasp in the room. The Queen’s action wasn’t expected and I froze up in her arms.

She squeezed me tightly, “I wanted to meet the girl that has my son’s head in the clouds!”

She pulled back from the hug and smiled widely at me, “It’s so wonderful to meet you. Ugh, I really didn’t expect my son to find his Queen so quickly.”

If I was stiff before, I’m a plank of wood now.

“Mom!” Jungkook hissed, noticing my reaction. The Queen hopped back, covering mouth with her hand. At that moment, the older woman looked like a scolded child.

“I’m sorry,” She spoke in a hushed voice, “I wasn’t supposed to say that.”

I couldn’t help but laugh at her cute action, “It’s okay your highness.”

“Oh stop with the formalities! I’m Mrs. Jeon!” She chimes.

“It’s wonderful to meet you, Y/n. You’re a very beautiful young lady, my son has good taste.” The King said grinning widely.

I had the urge to bow again but didn’t get the chance as the Que-- Mrs. Jeon stopped me.

“Nevermind the bowing, tell me more about yourself.” She hooked her arms with mine and began strolling. I looked over at my shoulder at Jungkook who was trying to follow after us. His father stopped him, speaking with him as well.

Mrs. Jeon and I walked around a bit as I spoke to her about my work, my education and family background. I didn’t feel any judgment as I spoke with her and she often cracked jokes making me believe Jungkook’s goofiness is as a result of his free-spirited mother.

“I am so glad I was able to meet you tonight. I promised my son I wouldn’t come on too strong but I failed horribly. I hope I didn’t make you uncomfortable. To non-royals, our dating and marrying process can seem rushed.”

“I was a bit thrown off, but it’s okay. I understand it’s all in the best interest of Jungkook.”

“I hope we’ll keep seeing you around Y/n.” The Queen’s voice was softer.

“You will,” I said, confirming her unspoken question.

I wasn’t with the Queen for much longer, Jungkook coming to snatch me away from his mother. We said our farewells, and though he apologized about his mother over and over again; I assured him that I enjoyed talking to her.

We departed quickly, saying goodbye to his group of friends and sneaking out without media catching us.

And the end of the nice brought us to the back of a fancy black SUV parked outside my apartment complex. Jungkook’s driver kept his attention forward as Jungkook turned to face me.

“I don’t want to let you leave..” Jungkook spoke softly.

“Really?” I said, finding myself scooting closer to him. His hand that was resting on my thigh moved its way to the small of my back.

“Kind of scared you’re going to disappear on me.”

I pouted at his words, “I won’t disappear on you. I gave you my phone number and you know where I live silly. You’ll totally see me again.”

I leaned forward to peck his lips. When I pulled away, his lips followed mine. He kissed me again, long, slow kisses.

I was the one to pull away, earning a small whine from him.

“I’ll talk to you tomorrow,” I said as I caught my breath.

He nodded eagerly and kissed me once more, “Yes, I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”

[modernmaenad]

50 Questions You’ve Never Been Asked

Thank you so much for tagging me @howitrulyam

What is the colour of your hairbrush? purple 

Name a food you never eat? asparagus and mayonnaise 

Are you typically too warm or too cold?  i hate being hot but i live for hoodies and blankets so I usually keep the house cold and snuggle up

What were you doing 45 minutes ago? facetiming my boyfriend  

What is your favourite candy bar? listen i will love you forever if you give me any chocolate but I really like kitkats 

Have you ever been to a professional sports event?  we have an nba basketball team in my city so i really enjoy going to games when i can get my hands on some tickets 

What is the last thing you said out loud? “bye alex! i love you!” to my boyfriend 

What is your favourite ice cream? generally mint chocolate chip but theres this one gelato place in town that has this biscotti gelato and its the best 

What was the last thing you had to drink? black cold brew coffee

Do you like your wallet? its? fine? idk it holds what little money i have 

What was the last thing you ate? a couple flour tortillas 

Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? no but im getting fitted for some fancy new running shoes tomorrow bc my dad got me a gift card

The last sporting event you watched? its been so long but prob a basketball game 

What is your favourite flavour of popcorn? good ol movie theater butter 

Who is the last person you sent a text message to? my best friend kalli

Ever go camping? yes and i was trying to get a group together to go again but then coronavirus happened 

Do you take vitamins? nah but i prob should 

Do you go to church every Sunday? HAHAHA no im a heathen 

Do you have a tan? no im pale af 

Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? chinese food is my faaave 

Do you drink your soda with a straw? sometimes i use one of the little metal straws that my friend got for me 

What colour socks do you usually wear? i hate having things on my feet when im around the house so i usually just wear socks when i go out but if my feet are freezing ill throw on a pair of red fuzzy socks 

Do you ever drive above the speed limit? yeah i usually drive too fast i have a lead foot 

What terrifies you? idk a lot of things but i guess im scared that im not doing enough in life  

Look to your left, what do you see? my cats who are taking afternoon naps

What chore do you hate? washing the dishes 

What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? steve irwin 

What’s your favourite soda? i dont drink a lot of soda but i like sparkling water and every once in a while ill drink a coke 

Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? drive thru

Who’s the last person you talked to? my best friend kalli (text) and my bf alex (actually talked)

Favourite cut of beef? i dont eat a lot of beef but i guess i like sunday roast 

Last song you listened to? one more by elliphant ft mø 

Last book you read? no by naomi klein bc sometimes you gotta rage against capitalism and everything else thats shitty rn 

Favourite day of the week? friday nights and saturday afternoons 

Can you say the alphabet backwards? nope 

How do you like your coffee? i drink coffee in all forms so i guess it depends on the day but generally nothing too sweet 

Favourite pair of shoes? this old pair of combat boots that ive had since high school theyre beat up to hell and back but i love them 

The time you normally go to bed? whenever i fall asleep usually some odd hour in the morning 

The time you normally get up? usually abt 9am 

What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunrises bc i dont see them often but when i do i know ive either had a really good night or im traveling somewhere and had to leave before sunrise 

How many blankets on your bed? like 4 i love blankets 

Describe your kitchen plates: mismatched but i do have a set of blue and white ones that i use the most 

Do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? ill drink anything but i like beer and my absolute favorite is a margarita made with mezcal 

Do you play cards? sometime my friends and i will have a poker night with our collection of foreign coins 

What colour is your car? black like everything else i own  

Can you change a tire? no but i should prob learn how

Your favourite province? idk i live in the us but my favorite state is colorado bc weed and skiing, internationally i have a really soft spot for central mexico bc i studied abroad and met alex there plus its just beautiful and i love the culture 

Favourite job you’ve ever had? idk ive had a lot of shitty jobs but i guess my favorite was when i was a photographers assistant for newborn baby shoots which is ironic bc i dont like kids 

How did you get your biggest scar? i got a bunch of little scars i have a bunch all over my arms bc of a skin thing my knees are scarred over from skinning them bc i was a rambunctious kid i have surgery scars from appendicitis but i think the biggest one is on my thigh whenever it got caught while i was climbing over a fence (no questions ;) )

What did you do today that made someone else happy? i comforted alex (hes been struggling with depression during quarantine) and i made plans to go on a socially distant safe walk in the park with my best friend and her dog so i hope that made them happy 

I tag: @ifindmyselfoncorners @licoricesnap @saffronstonehendge @sleepover2004 @vvirgolesbian and whoever else wants to do it 

[offical-potato]

Y’all interested in the crazy shit that happened to me today? Ugh imma vent below

Okay so backstory...I have a 9am class so I leave for school at 8:30 and eat a piece of toast in the car. After my 9-11am class I have to rush to my other class that starts at 11:10 that for some reason today my crazy art teacher had us meet somewhere different idk man not super important to the story. however, what is important is that I’m not really hungry until later in the day and so my stupid ass doesn’t really have a real meal until I get home.

So my 11:10am class is going on and I have a small snack but mostly I’m hyped up on earl grey tea and an iced mocha that I downed in the first 30 minutes of class. Now I realize that lots of caffeine+little food is bad but normally I’m fine and this isn’t really important until later in the story so remember that for later.

Alrighty to normally my 11am class gets out at 2pm but today my teacher decided we were done at like 1:30 so that was chill. So I’m leaving to drive home and I’m chillin in the car. Basically there is this one main road where I live that’s super busy and the lanes are tight. ALSO I’m a fairly new driver and I will admit not the best one... so I’m on this fucking main road and driving the semi-old SUV (its a total mom car lol) and I HIT THE FUCKING CURB GOING 30 MPH AND MY FUCKING TIRE GOES OUT.

Now okay listen here kids, if you get a flat you should turn off the road and slowly stop and check what’s up.

So that was I did. I turned off onto one of the side roads and there a big fucking hole in my back right tire. UGH I KNOW... so being the awesome fucking (semi) grown ass woman I am I look up how to put on a spare tire to get this shit started.

Side note: I was in the most butch outfit and I was living for it! I had blue jeans, a studded belt, a normal white tee that I tied into a crop top, and a flannel tied around my waist because it’s hot and I’ve gotta get those layers in the morning! Also I recently got a buzzcut and have 7 piercings...

Back to my story... so I’m now trying to find the fucking spare tire which is crazy and hidden. You’ve gotta take a plastic part off just to get to the jack kit like this shit is H-I-D-D-E-N! So when’s I find the jack kit I need to use some of those tools to loosen another thing to get the spare which btw is under the car suspended with some chain stuff. it’s an elaborate setup. Protip if your gonna take someone’s hubcaps Infiniti’s will be hard to take they’ve got some crazy shit.

Okay so this spare drops but it won’t come all the way out from under the car and by this time my dad gets here to help because I’ve never done this shit before. So he’s helping and we eventually...with much effort.... get the ruined tire off and spare on! Wooo I felt so accomplished like I helped with this shit and got that spare out from it’s crazy ducking hiding space like that shit was not easy.

But potato you ask? This surely must be where the story ends? NOPE HONEY I WISH!

I get home and I live on a hill so second tip kids, if you are parking downhill you need to turn your tires into the curb Incase it slides down. So I do this but my dad said I’m to close to the curb and need to move it alway.

This is fine I can do this. BUT THIS MOTHERFUCKING CAR LIKES TO FALL DOWN EVEN THO I PUT MY FUCKING FOOT ON THE BRAKE AND WENT STRAIGHT TO THE GAS IN R SO I CAN BACK UP LIKE DAMN KIDS THIS IS HARD SHIT.

I HIT THE CAR IN FRONT OF MY AND BOY OH BOY IM CUSSING UP A STORM. like at this point I’m close to crying because as I stated earlier, I haven’t had any real food! I just spend sm time changing my flat! And I’m tired!

Thank fuck tho the car in front of my had a soft rack thing so there WASNT ANY DAMAGE!!!! I swear there are little things in life that make me happy and I was so glad. I was shaking at that point and so done. Idk what I would’ve done if there was damage. Also don’t tell me neighbor I hit their car....

Y’all don’t know how grateful I was that there wasn’t any damage to their car. Like omf.

Moral of the story: I need to eat more food and drink less caffeine ALSO I’m a boss ass bitch so don’t fuck with me

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 1840

today i went dress shopping with hannah! she's going to a wedding and needs to find something, but the stuff we looked at was not NEARLY fancy enough for it bc it's at the aquarium and that's SUPER EXPENSIVE so i'm honestly not sure what the dress code will be, since it's at 6:30 but they're all nerds? so idk man

and this morning i was so tired that it took me five minutes to figure out a math problem that should've taken me ten seconds at MOST. we were talking about speeds and how fast those speeds were in terms of .2 miles, and since 60mph is .2 miles in 12 seconds, i wanted to calculate how fast you'd be going if you went .2 miles in 10 seconds. it took me actually more than five minutes to figure that out. it's 72, by the way. i tried doing conversion factors at first and totally failed at multiplying 6s, never mind dividing it by 5. i eventually solved it by determining how far you'd go in 5 minutes and multiplied it by 12. like, yikes molly. that should've been a piece of cake. i definitely went back to sleep when i got home.

when i picked joel up after work, i still had hannah in the car. he and i talked normally for a while, and then hannah sat up. joel hadn't noticed her in the back! which is understandable because there's nothing usually back there. but yeah. joel's going camping and his friends are crazy. and i'm gonna miss him while he's gone. he goes a bunch of places and i'm glad he does. but the people he goes out with leave him so exhausted that when i get to keep him he's so beat from everything that it makes me concerned. he's gotta rest!! and i guess that's my day with him, so mostly we hang around and have our downtime together. which is nice. but once in a while i'd like to go somewhere with him. i'll have to ask him about that, i guess.

speaking of sleeping when i get home, i need to start being awake for the whole day. i don't know how to do that though, because my back is always hurting and i can't even sleep properly at night. it's frustrating.

also, i get paid tomorrow! which is good! because i need to pay my car payment! because it's due in 4 days! yikes!

and i did some more math today on my way up to go shopping with hannah. i determined my bills are about $500 a month, and i'll be spending about $75 a week on gas, so that's $300 a month. so right off the bat i'm consuming $800 a month. that doesn't even include anything. but if i also include a payment on my credit card that i've been using, it takes it to $900, and since i'm still taking money out for tithing, that takes the total to $1,000, and that's without literally anything other than bare necessities. no food, no snacks for work, no accidents, no CAR INSURANCE, no nothing. i have to get my car inspected and registered in october, and that's when i need to pay for my insurance again, too. and i straight-up don't have that money. i won't have that money. and i don't know what to do. i'll be making less than i am now since the library will only allow me to start working at 9am, so i'll only be getting 21 hours a week instead of 25, so that's immediately $120 gross out of my bi-weekly paycheck. i need a minimum of $1,000 a month to exist, and i'm not getting that much. i won't be getting that much. technically i will be, but it'll be cutting so close it pretty much doesn't even count. and textbooks? i need those too. so i did the math, and i'm actually screwed.

so does anyone have suggestions? i don't want to ask strangers for money. if i did i'd do commissions, but i don't have enough time or talent to do anything that anyone would want. i'll have about six hours a week to do things, broken up over four days or so. i will have no time. like potentially i could do stuff on saturday's and sunday's, but that would be it. but i'm not good enough at art to actually sell things. or writing. or sewing. or anything. i'm so painfully inadequate it's abysmal.

and in my "spare time" i need to find a therapist who can help me work through my millions of problems, and maybe, at some point, i'll find something i love to do. (that's never gonna happen. i don't do anything and i don't love anything. i love people, and i love foods, but i don't love things. except for dice. and making dice is a wicked expensive hobby, and i don't have that injection of cash needed to do stuff like that. i might as well die ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

(and also i was lamenting about my financial woes to my friend after saying i wanted to get some small dice and a specific bag so it'd be a cute set that looks like gems and coins and he got my the dice bag i wanted ;-; i am blessed ☺️)

[bespokewings]

Angel in Devil’s Shoes

I’ve had this in my drafts since August when I read “Devil Eggsy and Angel Harry” in @visuallyhartwin ‘s tags from that post of Colin in his Mamma Mia costume and Taron in his Elton John costume. Idk how it’s been two months but now it’s actually Halloween so LET’S GO! Happy Halloween!

 A Halloween get-together at Kingsman HQ that’s mostly an excuse to gather and drink off the clock, but which Eggsy plans on using as an opportunity to see Harry dressed up. 

Thing is, Eggsy is busy with an undercover mission in Colombia for two weeks, barely has any time to send a message to Harry to confirm he’s alive let alone to sit down and plan out costumes–not that he’s sure Harry would want to wear one anyway. Eggsy can hear the exasperated tone from five thousand miles away; “Don’t be daft, Eggsy. No one needs to see someone my age in a costume.” How wrong he is.

By some miracle, he lands back in London at 9am on October 31st. But as soon as his phone connects to its data, he’s got 3 missed calls from his mum, and Eggsy finds himself frantically calling back in the middle of Heathrow, shuffling through the crowds towards baggage, jaw tense, waiting for her to pick up.

She does, but there’s no emergency–not life-threatening, anyway. He can hear Daisy in the background, crying her head off, but his mum is calm (if exasperated) when she asks about his trip, his flight. He’s right confused.

“Mum—what’s goin’ on? Is Dais alright?”

“Oh! Yeah, well. I told her I would call you, and she was getting worked up when I showed her you weren’t answering. I didn’t even know if you’d be back today… You wouldn’t happen to be free this afternoon?” Eggsy contemplates his answer. “I gotta do a work thing tonight. Why?”

And that’s how Eggsy winds up escorting his baby sister to her first Halloween party. They weren’t a festive family after his dad’s passing, and Dean sure as hell wasn’t keen on it—not like their neighborhood would be safe enough to trick-or-treat anyway—but now that things had settled, Dean was long-gone, and Daisy was in school, she’d been invited to her first little party. And she wanted her big brother to go with her.

He didn’t expect to spend Halloween in some stranger’s nice house, surrounded by toddlers in costumes and mums drinking red wine instead of tea. It’s a world of difference from the interior of their old council estate, all for the sake of giving Daisy a nice school district, and despite the years of Kingsman training in the art of adaptation, he feels spectacularly out of place. Doesn’t stop the mums from flirting with him, though, and Eggsy doesn’t understand how they can be so bold when he can see wedding rings on each of their left ring fingers, but then he catches sight of Daisy running around in her princess dress, laughing with her little friends, and he figures it’s well worth it.

Still, the party doesn’t leave him much time to do anything before he needs to leave, let alone figure out a last-minute costume for him and Harry. He’s resigned to going without, but fate politely intervenes once he voices his concern to the party’s host and she smirks, handing him her wineglass before disappearing somewhere. When she comes back, she hands him a bag to borrow for the evening. Inside, Eggsy sees swathes of red and white fabric, something that he assumes are foldable wings, a halo, and oh—devil horns. Hell yeah.

After dropping off a dozing Daisy, he rushes home—to Harry—in an attempt to be on time (which is a laugh, really). The two of them spend quite a while reuniting, and things get heavy enough that they contemplate skipping the trip to HQ altogether. Harry’s hand is delightfully warm beneath the waistband of Eggsy’s jeans until Merlin sends Harry a sharp message through the comms informing him that a taxi is on the way to collect them.

Most of the costume pieces are ridiculously small for two men, given Harry’s legs and Eggsy’s arms, though the accessories work well enough. Harry refuses to wear the wings but acquiesces the halo under Eggsy’s urging. Eggsy proudly dons the devil horns, risking Merlin’s wrath and Harry’s wandering hands to change into a clean suit, swapping out his typical white button-up for a bright red one. Overall, it’s quite simple. Other than the head pieces, they’re dressed normally enough, but they still cause the entire room to go quiet when they reach the HQ lounge.

Merlin takes one look at the halo and horns, the faces under them, and announces, “That’s not right at all.”